#still havent seen the episodes rip

[brilliantfantasticgeronimo]

"you keep her safe?" "I will 👍 keep her safe 🤡I promise🤪"

[obliviouskara]

top 5 supergirl episodes?

full disclosure i haven't seen the entirety of supergirl (ive literally only seen like 7 eps & its all season 1) so this list will probably change over time (bc im starting to painstakingly watch the show - imagine slowburn but watching a series) however ive watched like a ridiculous amount of supercorp edits so im going to base my choices on the parts where supercorp exist ha!

5. Season 1 - Red Faced

this would probably be the only none supercorp related yet still somehow my personal fave for a few reasons. i love this scene in particular bc it shows that cat grant cares for kara and what cat says here is very relatable. no matter how harsh cat can be at times, cat was a girl's girl here. she gave an advice which was helpful to both supergirl and kara. she had every right to rip kara viciously apart but instead she took a completely different route. i like the line she says here.

"You really need to figure out what's really bothering you." "You really need to find that anger behind the anger. And you really need to figure out what's really making you mad."

i think this was also the ep where kara acknowledged where some of the anger was coming from. even with zero dialogue and with mel's incredible acting skills she was able to convey so much emotions during that scene where she releases all her anger towards the red tornato. From losing her parents, losing her planet —her home, for losing everything and maybe even angry with her parents for the choices they made for her. it was such an incredible and very emotional scene.

im putting the rest in read more bc of how unnecessarily long this post has become

4. Season 2 - "The Adventures of Supergirl"

this should be easy. this was the first time kara met lena and changed the trajectory of every queer person watching this show and lena first delivered the first of many many questionably fruity (gay) lines fjlkajdla

"You couldn't have fooled me."

also bc of this scene thank you very much

3. Season 2 - "Luthors"

if there is one particular scene that convinced me to even give supergirl the time of day its obvs this one and lena "suspiciously straight" luthor delivered one of the most iconic lines on television in my opinion and now forever engraved in my mind. let's not forget lcorp CEO lena luthor took the time of day to fill catco employee kara danver's office with flowers like it's a regular tuesday but oh well

"now you'll have someone to stand up for you. always" "supergirl might have saved me but kara danvers, you are my hero."

screaming, crying, throwing up

2. Season 2 - "Exodus"

tada! i mean, look at it! how heroic! i also find it funny how grateful and confused lena was that kara danvers was having coffee with supergirl late at night but still

Season 2 - Ace Reporter

so this isnt at all groundbreaking bc honestly, 5 isn't enough and anything that has supercorp will be my favorite even though again i havent seen the rest of supergirl yet but we're ignoring canon so we're ignoring that fact too. i think this was the ep where kara was comforting lean about jack's death. i personally have a love and hate relationship towards this scene for many reasons but im a sucker for supercorp and there was a clip where kara hesitated and looked like she was about to plant a kiss on lena's head but then hugged her instead and i think its beautiful and im a sucker for kara leaning in towards lena

BONUS:

im too lazy to figure out where these clips are from which episode but this. i love every scene and its more like these below are my reasons for watching supergirl and has nothing to do with being my top 5 bwahaha

oh did i mention i also happen to have a weird obsession with superrojas i will not rest until i reach the ep where andrea rojas exist

[stitchwraith-stingers]

(some-what of) an analysis on patty possom(?)

inspired by this post on the PE-AZ yes this episode is my fave yes i unironically love patty yes i was a fnaf kid yes i am utterly deranged

some of these r incoherent because its midnight and i wanna post this as fast as possible before i go to bed and wake up at the crack at dawn

yayyy patty ^_^

one of the first things ive noticed post becoming alive like the next frankeinstine is that her eye wasnt fixed by the mechanics, which as ill discuss later imply a sort of negligence (? i think) to the properly, i however dgaf and like to interperate this as her having a lazy eye <3

she seems to be a genuially nice person!!!! um . i dont know how to continue this paragrapth pretend theres something here thats interesting

imagine being born into the world and already having a dreadful fear of being abandoned. crazy, mustve impacted her very hard

though this probably means it gave her fake memories or she was already sorta vaugely away of whats happening?? like psudo sentient?? if that makes sense, how the hell do you know this girl, you havent BEEN to the devils sacrament

the way she goes about it and the ending shows that she has no clue on how to socialize or their cues at all, or just cuz of the pov its intentionally shown as more creepy (which it probably is, you could hear her go "where r u going :(" in a sad tone), shes a massive werido and i love her for that

point is, shes nice but has no idea how to say "nooo dont leave me haha" normally cuz she just appeared 2 seconds ago with no idea of proper communication, does that make sense..... help

heres the thing i love about this the most, shes at the end of the ep shes seen dragging background character #47 in the same tone of voice and hes seen uncomfortable. PAN TO THE NEXT SLIDE IN WHICH THEY SEEM OK IN THEIR PRESENCE

LIKE . THE GUY JUST ACCEPTS HER HAND TO HOLD WHEN SHES SHOCKED..... THEY R BESTIES AND IM TIRED OF PPL OVERLOOKING IT, and the fact that i dont think we get to see him again (cuz they couldnt fit him anywhere in the background? i think) makes it better for me, balding old guy notices furry twice his size scared of being left alone so he decides to stay here just for her.... MANNN

the general area

lets see, were right off the bat were introduced to a good few places, the fun tunnels, the game zone, a claw machine thats rigged, the place with the signature snack which i wont go over because thats kinda of its own gag but its sticky and probably unhealthy, and the main stage

i assume the fun tunnels are made with a holograpthic effect inuniverse, and i think theres some LED lights in there to make it glow, i was going to say its polyethylene plastic but i dont think that exists google stock photos lied to me, also not related but it looks like a horrible spray paint job was done on this thing lol

also acording to the lyrics theres supposed to be 3 more members, a raccoon, cat and turtle . i dont think we see craggle in photo though rip (if theyre not a sphyinx ill be dissapointed), tyrone seems to have a 60's? aesthetic going on, rascal has a punk aesthetic going on and patty has a more modern aesthetic ? i think, the spiked collar is throwing me off

from winns dialouge in the start implying that they havent been here in a good while ("when i was little" ur in 5th grade) and the fact that their instruments are still there, then this was probably a recent desicion, or atleast long enough for a 10 y/o that hasnt been here in awhile to be upset by this and for patty to be immediatly spawned in with abandonment issues

along with a rigged claw machine and the snack i think it implies that the people over there who own this establishment are probably really cheap, and the fact that the PRAMBY snack is really sticky is definatly going to cause some health issues down the line, something something fazbear entertainment

oh and also, theres like a split second frame where this shows up, obviously its just there as a morbid joke but atleast it shows us this establishment is atleast old enough to have someones decaying body be bone by now, which after writing that makes me sound stupid because skeletonization might not take as long as i thought it would ("3 weeks to several years" depending on the surroundings)

whoever was there seemed to have been stuck for 25 days at least and has gone undetected, which means this place is linked to one unsolved missing persons case and they dont have a clue (most likely), also theres ballpit balls inside this thing i fucking guess?? theres no actual ballpit in the place idk what this kid was doing

i have tried to make up a map of how the place looks but im always bad with rooms ? and i had to take a fewwww small creative liberties with this cuz i couldnt figure out where theyd be but close enough👍👍

[cardbored-box]

so! Arc-V! How was it ?

I've seen that show absolutely warp minds. Folks are not the same afterwards!

I liked it a lot! I’m not sure where I’d put it in my overall list (Zexal is at the top, everything else changes biweekly) but it was a very fun time.

Starting with the characters, they were great! The supporting cast can be pretty hit or miss but I felt they were solid all around. (Shay Obsidian my beloved. He is the world’s coolest dude.)

Yuya was an excellent protag, it helps that he falls into two of my favorite character tropes (guy who is more than one guy + good guy who is a bad guy) and in addition to that this idealistic theater kid was a joy to watch. He did his job well, a lot of the action duels made me smile. Good job little guy, I wish you had a good day more that once a season.

Action duels were a fun and creative mix-up to the formula, plus I loved how having all summoning methods on the table made duels much more diverse.

Yugioh is a franchise that has a lot of legitimately interesting lore but rarely touches upon it, so all the stuff with the united world and how the technology of solid vision brought magic back to the game of duel monsters was very very cool. I love that stuff give it to me now

Plus it was confirmed that magic is tournament legal and that’s hilarious

I think the biggest issue with arc v is that it has a lot going on, four times the amount of stuff of past shows. I liked so much of what they offered but because they offered so much nothing got more time than was necessary. For example the relationships between Yuto/Ruri and Yugo/Rin got like two focus episodes each and they were main characters. I loved what little we got, that I wanted more. (rip Yuto you would’ve loved having screentime)

I’ve heard that a lot of people don’t like the ending, and I see where they’re coming from. It did feel mean-spirited, dumping all the pressure of saving the world on Yuya after all the Zarc stuff, (I haven’t mentioned the Zarc stuff! Loved it) but Declan has always been harsh but well meaning so him setting up this final gauntlet makes sense. Still bro just because Yuya is the only one who can save the world doesn’t mean he has to do it alone. Plus there’s the lack of closure for six main characters (are they dead? Just chilling in the void? Their bodies evaporated so is there any hope of bringing them back? Who knows)

It’s not the strongest finale but I did like a lot of aspects. For example the Yuya vs. Dennis duel is my favorite entertainment duel in the show

I HAVENT MENTIONED YURI YET. LOVE THAT GUY. Turns out the key to making a good villain is ‘psychopath but very silly about it’

[broodingheroine]

tmag 16 thoughts

episode title "anti-social" with the category "tattoo(influencer)"........ ink5oul I can't wait to see you

curious about what the cardiac is about

oh they're being so nice to her.......

poly moment!!

"SINCE?" YOU HAVENT SEEN SOMEONE DIE "SINCE????"

the TAPE RECORDER WENT MISSING????

sam you are such a dumbass

#gothgirl oh my god

INK5OUL YESSSS

OH WE GET A VOICE!!!!

oh my god this is literally brainrot like I'm in pain listening to this girl

HEARTS DESIRE.........

getting more ammo for the desire theories

SITUATIONSHIP?????

cemetery......

DIG MENTION

dig.

dig.

dig.

anyway lol

yeah I'm still completely obsessed with ink5oul

"goth not a ghoul" that's so funny

HELP????

THE VIEWS ARE CUTTING ME..... THE COMMENTS HURT.......

oh! oh those were some noises.

oh gwens getting a dressing down apparently

gwen your thirst for more work to do is concerning me!

okay so.

alice is going through it!

we met ink5oul kinda. really excited to find out more about how they function.

so far it seems to be that what they tattoo on you is associated with their power over you?

anyway, apparently rob a lot of graves! presumably for tattoos? maybe they can only do designs they've found on bodies like the ytuber lady said? idk

gwen apparently just opened up the oiar to external attacks! which is great!

her standing up to lena was very hot though

sorry this is late again, I was in new york until a few hours ago and had to drive home rip

[genlossneg]

i havent seen genloss in like a year so sorry if i get things wrong but i still think about this. also sorgy its so long i got carried away </3

something that really bothers me about genloss [that u may have heard a few times already] is just how. on-the-nose and surface level all the references were?

for example, the bit where ranboo is cutting open charlie. cool conceptually! but awfully executed; it was just a direct reference to saw, toilet and all. and it wasnt even plot relevant, except for the slime = blood thing [which is like 6 seconds of a ~10 minute scene]. all ranboo got from it was a piece from mousetrap, which DID come up later, but that was also filler.

its the same problem i have with the shotgun carousel [which is taken from saw 6], if ranboo really wanted to be creative and make his own unique show, he shouldve made up his own saw trap. i genuinely wouldve liked episode 2 if they did! even if it was bad its still better than directly taking one out of saw and inserting yourself and your friends into it. its just so boring and unimaginative yk? and the worst part of the whole scene is that in the original, the trap is relevant to the main character and is commenting on cruel healthcare policies in the US: the main character set up a policy at his company that would eliminate 2 thirds of people who applied for insurance, so he has to kill 4 out of 6 of his coworkers in the trap. i find it infuriating that ranboo took the trap and even some of the cinematography from the original scene but just completely removed any depth it had and turning it into a "comedy", and remaining oblivious to the message the movie was trying to portray.

new paragraph cuz the last one is long. ranboo just doesnt bother to analyse the media he references and just takes the most surface level ideas and puts them in his weird frankenstein saw trap love letter. i genuinely wouldve respected them more if they were inspired by the analogies created by the traps and how they relate to characters and carrying that same idea into his own characters to give them depth, but he just doesnt bother!! and its so fucking annoying to see!!

and its not like executing references well is all that difficult?? the key thing that makes a reference good is that its irrelevant to the story and its out of the way [imo], like something that goes unmentioned in the background. ranboo couldve done something like putting shots from saw movies in picture frames in the cabin or smthn. still not great, but its less egregious. but naaaahhh lets just rip an entire scene from one of the most famous horror movie franchises and inject repetitive improv into it, thatll be entertaining for half an hour!!

the main problem that arises when referencing media in the way ranboo does is that instead of thinking about how awful the characters must feel, im thinking about saw. i havent even seen saw, and i was thinking about saw. how do you even do that. if he had been creative and wrote his own trap, id be empathising first and thinking about saw second, because its more subtle, and not just a blaring alarm in your face telling you hey did you know that ranboo likes saw. did you know that. now you do!!

thing is its not even the only thing hes referencing, apparently the 1st episode was based on a horror movie called "the cabin in the woods", which is about teenagers who go to a cabin and are made to live out horror clichés, and tbh i wouldnt be surprised if that was ranboos main aim for gen 1; to insert himself and their friends into their fav horror tropes

btw just to make sure i wasnt making up stuff to get mad at i checked how long the carousel scene lasted, and from when ranboo enters the trap room to when he leaves is around 42 minutes. how they thought this was entertaining and worth the audiences time is beyond me

tldr; genloss is fundamentally derivative and ranboo doesnt understand characterisation, referencing or pacing. surpriseeee

take a shot every time i said "saw" and "reference" and you'll only be a fraction as wasted compared to if you took a shot whenever ranboo wastes the audiences time /j

wait i had no clue about those bits being references??? i know exactly nothing about horror so that totally flew past me and i don't think i've heard that mentioned yet. this is genuinely super interesting actually, i don't have a lot to add but this is a really great read

[clonehigh-takes]

rating every clone high ship i can think of because why not

joanfk - 5/10, didnt care in 2021, didnt care during season 2, never really cared at all, rip ort smort and the other joanfk fans tho

joanabe - 0/10, i dont really hate it or have any real opinion on it, but something deep inside of me just goes “no”

cleo x abe - 6/10, i actually kinda liked this one, if cleo and abe werent mutually shallow as hell it could be kinda cool, with cleo being like “i can fix him” and becoming a better person as a result, but we all know how it went in canon

jfgogh - 10/10, awesome, legendary, nostalgic, hilarious, iconic, please see my jfgogh ask for more information

gogh x caesar - 7/10 its kinda silly and i like it

gogh x jesus - 7/10 equally as silly as caesgogh

gogh x caesar x jesus - 8/10 ive seen zero content of them but background polycule from hell sounds hilarious

tophabe - 5/10 i have so many opinions on it so ill say this, the ship and the fandom surrounding it has so many problems but GOD the fanfictions man… theyre too good

joan x harriet - 7/10 i keep forgetting it exists and i havent thought too hard about it but it sounds neat

jfkonfucius - 10/10 please make them interact more in the show i need more content of them before i start making it myself in my head

jfabe - 7/10 it exists and its kinda silly

jfk x ponce - 9/10 i almost forgot about this one but how is there not more content on them, yall are sleeping on this ship including me

tophfk - 5/10 it has fanfiction potential but i dont care about it right now since i havent read a tophfk fic

confucius x topher - 6/10 it gets an extra point because i used to sorta toy with the idea before episode 8 sold me out on topher

confucius x abe - 7/10 do people even ship this??? i remember everyone thought confucius would be abe’s sidekick when the first episode of the reboot was leaked lol they could still be interesting though

confucius x abe x jfk x topher - 9/10 polycule from hell sounds so fucking funny, loses a point because topher is here but thats more just me being salty they sorta brushed the blackmail thing under the rug in the finale

tubfucius - 4/10 i keep forgetting it exists, its kinda cute but it loses a point because the show tried to make the ship name harrucius and i fucking hate that

kahlopatra - 10/10 i was gonna take away a point because it kiiiinda felt like it came out of nowhere because of the lack of buildup in the show, but i cant because theyre too iconic and legendary, the gays finally got a W

frida x harriet - 5/10 i just mentioned this because i saw it one sided in a kahlopatra fic once that made harriet act so uncharacteristically mean that it made me actually like her more (fun fact: that fic also kinda ruined kahlopatra for me a bit but i still love it anyway because the scenes in episode 8 were too funny), outside of that fic it sounds neat i guess

if i missed any ships please tell me so i can judge you, also mod rose please dont try to tag all of these ships unless you want brain damage (i know you wont but still)

not reading or tagging allat 😭🙏

[the-s1lly-corner]

Is DevilMan CryBaby any good? Now I'm morbidly intrigued about the semen ceiling 😭😭😭

semen ceiling is taking me OUT

but!

i know theres the og devilman, havent seen it yet so i cant compare it

as for DM CB, its good! definitely one of those "this anime is going to rip your heart out and stomp on it at least once every other episode" plus its a short watch at only 10 episodes!

that being said, obvious content warnings:

lots of death and blood, general gore as the anime isnt afraid to show guts every now and then, LOTS of nudity (sexual and non sexual), lots of sex, iirc theres drug use, body horror, technical suicide in episode one in the form of "i need to die while im still human so im taking it in my own hands", i believe theres more but thats all i can think of at the moment at my current point in my re watch

also animal death but like "a kitten dies in its sleep in the first episode but no gore is there" just because i know we love our animals

[dearhaos]

wei and fromi 🙈

loml!!!!! whom i love!!!!!!!!!!

(tilts head) we eye (i think i said this specific quote at least 10000 times and im nowhere close to stopping)

first bias: yongha & donghan <3

current bias: daehyeon & donghan ft. yongha

album ranking: first sight => action > first love > challenge > passion > gift for you

how i got into them: kept being like where tf is donghan nd then oui ent was like hey we hav a boygroup coming up n i was like oh no rip donghans solo career (n i was right) but also like well ok n also well yohan. i liked yohan. n then i also remembered that PAUSE yongha is a oui boy hell prob b there after wondernine *********** n then i saw that hyeon was also in the lineup n i didnt even know this guy was under oui nd to be honest i didnt even rlly know the guy i was just like OMG I MISS RAINZ..... so naturally i slowly got into them (despite being a twilight anti)

best friemd: extends my hand seokhwa lets be besties (n yohan)

smth i associate w them: the bye bye bye (summer classy) concept so strongly ingrained in my brain; ro!!!!; the perfect example of an insane lineup; mx songs honestly. more covers pls; the crimes against humanity in the hair department for seokhwa specifically (for donghan occasionally)

vyvy's girls

first bias: it prob was hayoung

current bias: it prob still is hayoung (ft. jiheon my daughter)

album ranking: to. day > to. heart = fun factory > from.9 = my little society = midnight guest = from our memento box > 9 way ticket

how i got into them: glass shoes was everything i wanted from a gg. then to heart was also everything i wanted from a gg . but honestly i still havent seen much except mvs/perfs (and the first episode of idol school)

best friemd: i do not know !!! i domt !!! know !!!!

smth i associate w them: music For Me pre...rebranding??; earnestness u can hear in music like gg music thats not sad but makes you Bawl; vyvy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[postmortem-glam]

omg sasori is hanging out w deidara for his bday 😊

[einno-arko]

There was a scene in the fifth episode that resonated with me the most and I just can't move past it. SPOILER WARNING IF YOU HAVENT SEEN THE EPISODE

Marc can't do it, he can't give her the satisfaction. He walks away from his mother's Shiva, the grief rolling off of him in waves. She's gone and, despite the fact that she hated him, he still very much loved her. But his legs can only take him so far and he doesn't even make it a block before he caves, crumbling to the ground as his grief overtakes him. There's a conflict in him, the boiling anger and the pounding grief, both fighting for dominance. It's killing him, and he rips his kippah off, pounding it into the ground in pure agony. It's after a few hits, though, that realization dawns on him and he stops, gently taking the cap into his hands and cradling it against his chest, mumbling, "i was just a little boy" to himself as he rocked back and forth softly.

This scene specifically hit me the hardest. I have a mountain of childhood trauma, stuff I was never able to properly work through or process. And that specific emotion and response is something I experienced, the unfairness, the pain, the anger, and the remorse of the violence those feelings caused. The instant regret of picking something up after you took all of your negative emotions out on it and just cradling it (often times, I'd end up destroying or damaging something I made or loved and my heart would only break further). I heard a lot of, "its your fault" as a kid and for a long ass time, I believed it. I hated myself, I blamed myself for everything and anything bad, I was so angry and hurt that it would manifest in ways like this. I'd sit there, alone in my room, telling myself, "I'm just a kid, this isn't fair" and then seeing that exact feeling and response just really sucker punched me in the heart. To see this specific reaction and these complex emotions played so masterfully really hit close to home and I have yet to fully emotionally recover.

[angstics]

a long introspective post because i know with time i will forget this and i want to remember it all.

night of june 30th, technoblade's death was announced. i didnt believe it for a few minutes because i couldnt watch the video (i still havent). but it was true -- he passed away age 23 from cancer he discovered *less than a year* before his death. i keep quiet about how much i liked minecraft youtubers 2020 - 2021 because that turned out to be a DISASTER. but technoblade was one of the shining beacons. genuinely always the best, completely outside of post-death rose-tinted glasses. always.

before that, i was kind of getting into my chemical romance. id known of them my whole life. from dan and phil references to annoying ass g-note jokes to the twenty one pilot's cancer cover. i heard the Big Three hits but couldnt tell you what they were (except for "welcome") before listening to three cheers for the first time at the end of june. i dont know why i decided to start them. i wasnt really into music -- my top albums the last couple years included burnham's inside, starkid's twisted, and falsettos (2016). i wish i remembered better. if listening to them for the first time isnt a core memory, this is:

after 6 months of relative stability, i understandably hit a depressive episode in july. i would lie on my couch into the early morning for no reason. i wasnt trying to distract myself from his death ... there were no thoughts to be distracted from. it isnt a headspace i understand, especially since i never left it.

but for another unknown reason i thought to watch those mcr live shows. mind, at this point id only listened to three cheers. no exaggeration, i was betwitched by their performance. i most vibrantly remember gerard's eyes. crazy fucking eyes.

i'd forgotten cancer was an mcr song. when top released their cover, i listened to the original. i decided i liked twenty one pilots' more. i switched on that when i saw my chem on snl (i didnt watch BPID all the way through til a week later). it's the stripped down song, it's the direct lyrics, it's the crazy eyes. like he's trying to communicate EVERYTHING through his eyes.

the intro to BPID was like that too. when he ripped the hospital dress off and did the ghoul scream. had that feeling when i saw frank perform vampire money in glasgow. just. completely uninhibited. performace to say something truthful. unlike anything ive ever seen. from someone who wasnt very into music or live performance or theatre, much less the mechanics of it, i suddenly understood it all.

that screenshot is an abridged version of my actual search history. this is how it went.

june 26 i watched ->

side bar, thinking about it now, my interest in pink floyd directly lead to my interest in mcr. early morning july 1st, this is what i was watching (alan parsons project great reccomendation from my friend bink bonk):

july 2 i was watching videos a friend of techno's publicized to commerate him. the mcr video was in the reccomended tag -- a combo of the live pink floyd video and the im not okay mv. crazy how influenced my life is by where youtube leads me.

then i saw a LITTLE bit of BPID before seeing my chem in 2022 for the first time. this was just weeks after bonn. i didnt watch the full eden either. but i did watch all of "welcome" at milton keynes, based on the time stamps

this whole fucking day spent watching mcr videos. reading 2011, zack sang clip frank iero explains reading 2011 drama, mcr iceberg explained, "mcr best perfomance", "mcr best moments", mcr on letterman, mcr snl, "understanding the black parade" (i had not listened to black parade) -- then i left at 4pm. probably to sleep.

july 2nd was The day. i remember while watching these videos a realization hugging me. i knew that i was struck. from july until november, the majority of my conversations had something to do with my chem.

at the very beginning, i texted people about them to gage modern attitudes. growing up, they were adjacent to bands i thought sold out or lost their spark -- panic!, twenty one pilot, fall out boy. as ive said a million times, there is a Reason i didnt get into my chem earlier. just the other day on a SPECIFICALLY EMO SUBREDDIT there were people talking about how they "weren't ashamed to like mcr". where does this shame come from!!!!!! too mainstream for punk, too punk for mainstream. everyone knows this.

well anyway, july 2nd was just the first layer: the performance. july 11 (/early july 12) was another big day. the second layer: gender and sexuality. literally my tags on the first mcr post i reblogged ->

then i saw the great collection by flockofdoves and. well.

same day i found out about "i wanna be your joey ramone" and sleater-kinney, though i wouldnt listen to the song for a short while. that's layer 4: branching out to other music.

layer 3 was music appreciation. i listened to each of their albums in full sequentionally (KIND OF since i relistened to bullets 3 times were i only listened to the others in full 2 times max), purposuefully holding off for weeks between each album. i remember the first time i sat down to listen to black parade. i was buzzing at like 12:30 am because id decided that was the night. the end -> dead rocked my whole world. never got the instinct to bang your head around til those songs. the whole album was fucking amazing but something aboout famous last words got to me. id be sitting in the car with my sister and singing the bridge over and over. the perfect string of words -- with words i thought id never speak: awake and unafraid, asleep or dead.

i used to hate live performances because the music sounded worse than the studio version while giving me nothing performance-wise. id never wanted to go to a concert in my life. but not only did they sound GOOD live, it was a whole different experience. an adaptation that added to the experience in ways entirely different to what is lost. like i said, crazy eyes. and smiles like flowers and the audience louder than the amps and movement led by sound and memory. like. like nothing else. you cant understand this unless youre in love -- completely dedicated to it.

sometime in august i discovered they were coming to my town the next month. the first concert i ever wanted to go to. my parents were a nightmare about it the whole month until i got the permission to go. ive said also said this a million times: it was like rapture.

i dont understand why you would want to do anything that doesnt work towards that same feeling. my parents didnt get that feeling and i couldnt go to another show. it's been months and it still drives me insane. it drives me fucking insane. it drives me insane.

so those are the core memories related to my chem that got me here. it's a lot of love. love so big i cant even hold. it's belief. something close to religious. it's a lot of fear too -- fear the feeling will go away, that i'll "wake up", fear that they'll be taken. one reason i dont like music is the feelings i attach to it are so profound that i cant listen to it without feeling what i felt in the past. it's why i limit how much i listen to my chem. that's another fear -- though i attach positive feelings to the band, im engaging in it while depressed. more than engaging, obsessing. i cant focus on much else.

i hope as i get better mentally, this doesnt leave me. i got into it to cope. it showed me another dimension of art and life and emotion. it's a hard thing to navigate. i want the good, healthy parts of this to be my life. i hope i can figure that out. i hope it works out.

july 26 2020, i looked this up:

i have no memory of this at all.

the night before, i was on a technoblade binge that ended with me watching one of his seminal videos that i remember beat for beat.

i love technoblade forever. i cant watch his videos right now, but i hope i can someday. i love my chem forever. i hope-

[ifandomus]

It just dawned on me that the chair used to wipe Bucky’s memories was never even mentioned or alluded to in tfatws. Like, outside of the trauma words, I’ve always associated the chair heavily with Bucky’s trauma and torture and to not discuss it all!? Seriously? But then again that would have gone against the never narrative they’re trying to manipulate us into believing that Bucky was at least somewhat complicit in what HYDRA forced him to do 🙄 (also please say so if me sending you tfatws asks ever gets annoying)

Thank you for the ask!! And its not annoying at all! I really love getting and answering asks, but my executive dysfunction unfortunately makes it take a while.

Yes this really irritates me too. Did they even mention the amnesia? I really dont want to rewatch it to check for just that.

I think the closest they got to mention the horrific things done to him was when Zemo made light of his imprisonment. There was also the heavy implications in the scene with Shelby. Other than that it was entirely ignored at all times apart from the flashback scene* at the start of episode 4. However that was kind of undercut by when the scene was in the series.

*(I still cant believe that the people who created the rest of the series, also created this scene. My leading theory is that all they did was give Florence the list of words and told her and Sebastian that their characters were testing them, then they let the actors take it from there. And then they let an amazing editor pick the flashbacks. That is the only way it makes any kind of sense for me)

So yeah. Apart from one somehow amazing scene that was undercut by its placement in the series, there wasnt any mentions of it.

They also made the whole ‘would you take the supersoldier serum?’ a huge moral question, but didnt say one word that the serum was forced on Bucky which was literally medical torture. Just remember how the ones we have seen on screen (like Steve and the hydra death squad) reacted to getting it (and unlike Bucky they consented and were surrounded by people they could trust). And also remember how he was both physically and mentally when Steve found him in ca:tfa. He was even repeating his name and serial number which is something soldiers are taught to do if they are ever tortured.

Bucky was imprisoned, experimented on, frozen alive several times, tortured and abused for 70 years. Hydra stole his memories until he didnt remember anything or anyone. He didnt even remember his loved ones or his own name. They took everything from him, and any time there was any chance of him regaining anything they painfully ripped it away from him so that they could continue to use him as a weapon and however else they used him.

Bucky was hydras biggest victim, now he is their scapegoat

They introduced Isaiah, another character who was imprisoned, experimented on, dehumanised, tortured and abused for decades, and nothing. They introduced dr Nagel who admitted to working on the winter soldier program (aka the torture and abuse that went into keeping him as the winter soldier) for over 20 years, and nothing. We get a scene where they literally pretends to sell Bucky with some really heavy implications, and nothing. Still absolutely no actual mentions of anything that was done to him. I am still wondering if something happened to them right after that horrific scene with Selby that made them all forget it or something.

Its clear from the interviews that both the director and head writer victimblames Bucky. They are holding him accountable instead of the nazi terrorist organisation that brainwashed and mindcontrolled him. And yes, I also guess that even mentioning the extremely painful ways they controlled him would be a threat to the narrative they wanted.

I havent felt such an amount of manipulation from a MCU project since civil war and endgame

[spikedru]

hey i wanted to ask! bc i remember you saying how you felt about spuffy but you hadn't rewatched s7 yet. did that affect how you saw them at all? also if you're okay answering, what do you think of seeing red? I've recently begun to think of it as. kind of out of character. like i know spuffy was downward spiraling but it kind of felt like seeing red was "what should we have happen so that things get super bad and spike goes and gets a soul" and not actually something that spike would. have really done? idk. I'm not a spuffy fan but i do think things about that episode

i still havent actually rewatched s7 lol i had been rewatching s6 back in march last year but stopped right before riley showed up again and didnt get around to picking it back up haha. ill probably think about doing a full series rewatch and liveblog after i graduate college (so sometime during the summer) and actually try to get through to the end

that being said i have not actually sat down and rewatched seeing red since the first time i watched the series. so. almost a decade ? at this point ? if thats any indication of how i feel about that episode. it has been a while. its on par with the body in terms of episodes that i never really want to rewatch (though for completely different reasons, obviously) more thoughts below

the way i tend to view seeing red is that of poorly thought through shock value writing. i agree with you in that it feels like a writers decision to have the worst thing happen in order to motivate spike to seek his soul, and not something that feels correct to the character. already by that point you have spike reflecting on their tryst and realizing the way things were was not making either of them truly happy, so it would not take that much prodding for him to realize something had to change. there are other ways to get spike to his breaking point without having to subject buffy to sexual violence. even though their relationship was volatile and played with gray areas of consent, i never got the impression that spike would truly violate buffy's consent. i think writing in an attempted rape affects the way the audience views them on a much deeper level than the writers were expecting. because, a lot of the trauma that buffy endures through the show, while very real to her, has a fantasy element that places a layer of separation from the audience. most people cannot understand the despair of having to send your boyfriend to actual Hell, or the betrayal of being ripped from actual Heaven by your friends. but there are members of the audience who do know the terror and betrayal of sexual violence by their partner. so i think that aspect wasnt taken into serious enough account when deciding to have your main characters love interest and general audience favorite do something so realistically deplorable. thats why i think it was mainly a shock value decision rather than based in any way the character would actually act. not even to mention the fact like. most everyone else in the production hating having to film it and james marsters has said because of SR he will never do a scene like that ever again he hated it that much.

from the refresher ive seen of s7 (from people gifsets and spuffy scenes and meta about spike, the soul, and buffy etc) i wish we had got more of a buildup to a true spuffy reconciliation. there is so much happening in s7. so much that a lot tends to get lost or not as much time focused on in order to get to the very end. i do really think that buffy was incredibly moved and touched by spikes decision to get his soul back. personally i think the choice to get the soul is more impactful than the soul itself, as it demonstrates how remorseful spike is over the AR and his willingness to atone for it without expecting anything in return. and how buffy recognizes that and thats why shes able to forgive him and let him back into her life. but because there are only 22 episodes to fit plot into the reconciliation happens just. a little too quick. i had wished that. idk. it happened over 2ish seasons? so we see spike struggling to reconcile with his soul just a lil bit longer and him settling with it and buffy seeing that struggle while still wanting him around. idk. a lot of my problems with s7 come from pacing issues. while i have my problems with s7 as a whole, i do generally like the spuffy progression in it, even if i wanted it to take a lil longer. in all of buffys past relationships, there are things that happened that make her believe that she is somehow responsible for her partners turning bad, or thinking she is somehow lesser for being with them. but learning that spike got his soul back for her, something she views as essential and good, it shocks her that she could inspire someone to change that much for the betterment of themselves. and because of that she can truly trust him enough to love him completely.

so like long story short i hate that seeing red involved sexual violence and i wish there had been some other way to get to the point of spike realizing he needs to change, but considering the way s7 went i dont think it changes my perspective on their relationship that much. i think spike and buffy are one of the most interesting relationships on the show just by how much they change themselves and each other by being in their lives, and thats why im so invested in them

[romanpanic]

favorite piece of lost media?

to start off thank you for asking this i love you. secondly i apologize for the amount of exploding im about to do.

!LONG POST AHEAD!

my Favorite piece of lost media is the series Maple Town!!

consisting of the original Maple Town Stories anime, two 30 minute films, and its sequel New Maple Town Stories: Palm Town Chapter.

while not entirely lost, the full original series is not very easily obtainable if youre an English speaker. ive yet to find a (working) torrent but i know there have been some out there in both Japanese and French. (JP rip of original 52 MTS episodes HERE! no subs) an English dub was originally planned to broadcast in the US for 65 episodes, only 39 of which aired, and from there only about 28 episodes ended up available thanks to a fan made DVD compilation. very few of the Saban dub were actually officially released on VHS.

personally i have yet to buy the DVD but i would really like to considering i still cant find rips of more than a few episodes. most fan projects ive seen involving dubbing/subbing the series have unfortunately fallen through afaik :( though there is a subbed version of the 30 minute Palm Town film available on youtube!

you may actually recognize this series from THIS video that went a little viral in 2018!! the clip originates from the Palm Town Chapter!

or perhaps their Maple Friends figures Tonka released to its US audience! (not to be confused with Sylvanian Families!!!)

it had its fair share of figurines & playsets made and sold from the late 80s to the early 90s. of course there was Japanese merch as well! i havent come across much but it ranges from cameras, to play sets, to this cute bag!! vvv

im actually a VERY proud owner of two pieces of Maple Town memorabilia which i hold very near and dear to my heart <333

this thermos (that i have since cleaned) produced by Tonka in 1988

and THIS animation cel of Miss Deer which i keep framed and ready to hang! :]

the reason i even initially discovered this series was because of the roller skating clip from Palm Town- which i sometimes still see reposted on twitter. i think the reason i fell so in love with it aside from the art was just the fact that it found me at a really dark time. it was something i could dedicate my time to, searching for episodes and browsing forums, and something that brought me so much joy that i almost started feeling nostalgic for it despite not even being born when it aired. the familiarity of it all made me feel a sense of comfort, and the thrill of unearthing content id never seen would reel me in time and time again. thankfully after all this time i still feel that way even if i find im not as invested in my searches as i was before.

to put it simply, for me Maple Town Stories is the warm hug of a fireplace after a very, very long walk home in the rain.

[loiswasadevil]

Accidentally shifted to An AU universe i think saw on a rolling tray in a smoke shop when i was a teenager

I dont know how this happened i had just finished a conversation with my boyfriend @peateargriffin, he was smoking so much weed and he got so high he told me he was freaking out so i sung him “Road to Rhode Island” from family guy Season 2 Episode 13 Road To Rhode Island and he said it made him feel so much more calm and totally changed his trip for the better. I put him on speaker and got into my epsom and flourite bath which i use to increase my shifting capabilities (i read this on reddit ok don’t judge me or follow my advice, i am not a professional shifter nor do i claim responsibility for any harm that may trying this). I closed my eyes and set my intention to  Family Guy as usual, every night with my boyfriend, but this time it was different, As i began to see the griffin household materialize, my children Stewie, Chris, And Meg were nowhere to be seen, only Peter Griffin wearing his red t-shirt, smoking marijuana with Brian. Since my boyfriend is medically prescribed marijuana for his ailments, I didn’t think to panic. I just kinda sat down next to peter and Dog Brian and just kinda took a bong rip it was cool and i was feeling so relaxed. I havent tried a lot of weed yet in this reality but the high i got in the family guy world was really mellow and i could feel my whole body sink into that purple couch of ours.  We lit some candles so there wouldnt be weed smoke smell when our children Stewie, Chris, And Meg came back and Chris and Meg got home from school and we were still so high it was so funny. Brian laughed so hard and I remember hearing Peter’s cute little voice as he coughed from taking another hit. Brian offered me another hit and Peter began to call me a pussy so i lit the whole bowl and started coughing so hard that reality began to fade. as i woke up my whole body was pruning and the bath water had gone cold. Peter was still on the phone with me playing Elden Ring and he said he thought i just muted or something. So i got out of the bath and i dried off and i didnt feel high anymore but i still felt like so happy from being with Peter and Brian and having some time away from the kids though i love them they can be a handful.