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MDZS x ISAT part 1: In Stars and Necromancy.
(Part 2)
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#MDZS AU#In stars and time#ISAT#wei wuxian#lan wangji#Double comic feature for today because they are both small.#I had a hard time coming up with a good crossover for these two series for a while but once the idea hit - Boy did it hit!#I've got a longer comic coming. The angst potential is very...very good.#Ghost YLLZ helping out mxy was painful enough but I can make it so much worse for everyone.#I can't say much without crossing into spoiler territory but I will be back.#Other notes here: LWJ is rock type. WWX/MXY are paper type. Thought it fit well B*)#YLLZ in the starry bath is 100% a reference to Eris in the sinbad movie. Her hair animation still haunts my dreams.#I'll have some 'other side of the crossover' doodles after posting a few more main comic pages. Thanks for the patience this week!#I really needed to just...draw some very self-indulgent art. I'm feeling much better now though!
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BETTER CALL SAUL!
#this was mostly a test run on procreate dream!#its pretty good but it has a LOT of room for improvement#which i know the developers have been working on since the app is still technically in beta!#but hey i did this in like 3 weeks while working a full time job and also working on other art so#its pretty damn powerful software#good shit if you use procreate already!!#literally the biggest flaws rn are a lack of selection tool an undo/redo button and#and the app itself has a tendency to crash or slow down if theres “too much” going on#like i had to delete all but one of the preloaded animations just so the app would run smoother while i worked#so its still very clearly in its early phase but its good and im excited to see what the developers will do with it#ok review over#better call saul#saul goodman#bcs#jimmy mcgill#breaking bad#animation#brba#video#procreate dreams
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Oh my goodness??? This is horrifying 😭😭


I would literally pee my pants if I was Idia and Malleus just ominously said that. The way they don’t even show him either is so scary (╥_╥).
The end is coming for Diasmonia, and they’re really building it with this horrifying exchange 😭
Over blot Malleus fic... (a few spelling errors in the tags be warned >.<)
#Mmm... A horror themed Overblot Malleus x Reader fic... Mmm#sounds really good about now#imagine you get sucked in by the darkness when travelling with the dream group#the first thing you feel is blot dropping onto your skin#when you look up green eyes tell you who you think you’re looking at#but all his other features are shrouded in shadow#clawed hand stroking your cheek as more black ink falls onto your skin#“are you awake?“#and now you have to desperately pretend you’re still dreaming before he sends you into an even deeper slumber#now you have to pretend this overblot Malleus#is your dear husband#AHHHH having to hug and kiss this scary version of Malleus just so everyone else can complete the plan without him interuppting#Pulling out your nest acting skills to commit to being a lover#evene better#imagine he knows you’re awake but he doesnt seem to mind letting them roam a bit longer just to feel your lips on his#thought he’ll have to stop you soon despite your efforts... after all everyone still needs their happy endings :)))#vesperramble!
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If I remember correctly you created Machete around 2007-2008. But when did you create Vasco? (I'm sorry of this has been asked before, I couldn't find anything)
First finished pictures of Vasco are from 2018, but even before that I had been thinking it would be interesting if Machete had had one (1) romantic relationship in his youth before he was ordained. I just didn't have a name and design for him yet.
In the earliest sketches of Vasco, he first looked a little bit like a bordercollie, then like a spaniel or a setter. He had a darker color palette as well, sort of chestnut brown with white markings, but combined with the overpowering whiteness of Machete he looked kind of impassionate and drab, so I kept making him warmer and lighter until he became the golden boy he is today. The name came later, I just thought Vasco sounded friendly and charismatic. (Also the old finnish word 'vaski' means brass and bronze, and even if it's a tedious connection and doesn't factor into their canon at all, it felt too fitting to me personally and I had to go with it).
#answered#anonymous#he was meant to be an absent character#one who appeared only in a couple of flashbacks or dreams#but the fact he used to be there and then wasn't was something that still influenced Machete#how he viewed love and other people and himself#Vasco wasn't supposed to show up again but he sort of elbowed himself back into the story and into a central position just last summer#really switched up things you could say#I originally imagined him to be more cocky and entitled and thrill seeking#but he mellowed out pretty instantly#I like him a lot better as a genuinely good and sincere person#maybe partially because you wouldn't expect someone that coddled and spoiled to have a sense of empathy and a working moral compass?
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it is very telling that average genshin players cannot comprehend seeing an actual mature, qualified leader that is actually good at taking her job seriously after meeting archons who either is still childish, clowning whimsically, or straight up incompetent.
#it's kinda funny that the best God in terms of actually fulfilling their duties to the T is the mortal one#there's absolutely nothing wrong with the other archons their flaws make their characters extremely compelling#but it's kind of insane to call mavuika bland for being good at her job as if she's still not inherently flawed with the martyrdom complex#people keep pointing out to her: aren't you tired? don't you have dreams of your own? isn't your want important too?#she's such a fascinating character yknow#mavuika#that is#she cares so deeply about the humans in natlan and she has abundant love for them and actively doing things to give natlan a better future#and yet she could NOT remotely take her own advice and wisdom for herself#you kinda have to remember not all archons are here because they want to be archon#nahida did not ask to be an archon neither did ei#and don't even get me started on furina#zhongli and venti take archonhood like parenting as expected from them but they're so ancient that they're entering their silly granpa era#focalors is the first instance we see of 'new' god doing something... godly#she is forever the punkest archon for what she did but her plan still equired a great suffering nonetheless#after all when you want to save your nation by going AGAINST the system you cannot do it without sacrificing a soul or two#which leads me to why people think it's irrational to kill off capitano when what he's doing is also punk#focalors dared celestia by returning the hydro authority to the dragon they stole it from and destroyed hydro throne#forever changing the institution that is The Seven#capitano dared ronova by giving his immortality to lord of the night and by that rewriting ronova's curse on him#he changed the rules of the ley lines forever#anyway.#narratively speaking capitano is a great foil for mavuika and I'm just glad it's him we met in natlan#hyv didn't make the short animated for mavuika just for you to call her bland
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Fun fact!
Minori has been counting every time she has bad luck ever since she was a child. The number is stated to be in the ten thousands, and it is still increasing, though its growth rate is slower after she joined MORE MORE JUMP!.
Source: Area conversation with the other members of MORE MORE JUMP! in Miyamazuka. ✨
Actually, the exact number was 11037.
#your pjsk facts ‼️#pjsk#project sekai#minori hanasato#more more jump#LITERALLY CANON#i would not be shocked if they actually did reveal that she was counting every unlucky moment because that's literally so her#i love believing that mmj was the start of her good luck era (ofc still having clumsy moments and such) cuz i mean...#how lucky would you feel if your favorite celebrity (gay awakening) and other really cool pretty and amazing celebrities just decided to#help you train towards your dream and then you've revived their own dreams and form a group with them??#I'd literally die of happiness right there cuz nothing would get better than that!!#anyways Minori is me fr and i love her thank you for coming to my ted talk.
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Did some Cass sketches... most of it is really bad (which is okay, I tell myself for the hundredth time), but here are least-bad bits and bobs
#my art#cassandra tangled#I need an art class just that's 'how not to hate your art and want to quit every other day'#cause I've been trying to improve my art for over 17 years now and I'm just an idiot (artistically speaking)#which is fair because I have ZERO visual capacity in my brain#my dreams haver ZERO images#I am partially blind#my hand shakes#I know it's okay to be bad at art#but I hate it sooooo much#because it's the one thing I still have hope of finding joy and it's bad and I'm so sad right now because I just want to be good at it#I'm so tired of hating everything I make#I don't even care about getting better I just want to learn how not to hate it
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These are brain worms that have been eating me and idk what to do with but what if danny phantom × pjo/toa crossover that's danny/amnesiac!lester. He hit his head when he crashed landed in that dumpster and forgot everything, stumbled out of the alley and wandered away. Meg just misses him, instead good ol Danny finds him and because he's a nice guy they go to the hospital together and stay in touch. They find out Lester (or whatever he'd be going by with no memories) is basically a ghost (ha) and Danny is like hey you know where ghosts belong, the most haunted town in America:] and lester has nothing else going on so they both leave and the gods have no fucking clue where mortal apollo is. I imagine he stays like that for a while (years in my head because it's funny for me but has horrid implications) until he gets hit in the face with a dodgeball and it all comes back to him. Cue monumental mental breakdown because as far as he was concerned he was 100% human until now.
#it doesnt have to be lester/danny but i think its especially funny#because i subscribe to the danny is adopted son of clockwork aka the crooked one aka kronos#but neither of those things have to be true or one can be true and the other one isnt#its just funny to me like picture this#apollo/lester is helped through his mental breakdown by his loving bf. he pauses in the middle of the mental breakdown#to look at said loving bf like this 😐 for 20 seconds straight and then immediately goes 😬#his loving bf is the son of The Worst Guy Ever and they have a good relationship#and lester/apollo unfortunately still likes him#real talk i think danny and apollo would get along even better after tho because they would understand eachother more#like theyre different but Lester thought he was 100% mortal for years and now he finds out he isn't and in canon a couple of months impacted#him greatly so imagine YEARS#like hes not a demigod but he doesnt feel like a god anymore hes fundamentally changed.#even worse if lester feels like apollos memories were shoved in his head and less of him awakening as a god (prob wouldnt happen this way)#(but the angst potential pleases me)#like sorry danny can say hes half human and half ghost but i think hes just fully something else#and maybe not physically but in his soul apollo/lester is also now something else TM on like. an emotional level#anyway picture apollo walking into olympus 6 years later like hey...how yall doing...#idk how hed get his divinity back thats for yall to dream up#danny phantom crossover#dp × pjo#danny phantom#pjo crossover#<- crossover tags so i dont bug ppl that have these blocked lol
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being a kaai yuki fan is awful. i want endearing edutainment-styled songs about cat behaviors that sound like a kid with a cat obsession writing a song about them not this lolicon-styled trendbait SLOP 😭
#LETS ALL KILL OURSELVES. ALL 8 BILLION OF US#IDC IF SHES DEPICTED AS A 15 YEAR OLD IN THE MV THATS NOT MY PROBLEM. MY PROBLEM IS WHY DID WE CHOOSE ONE OF THE ONLY CHILD SAMPLED VSYNTHS#context since i dont post much about vocaloid: popular vocaP made a cringe lolicon song and used a vocalsynth that sampled A 9 Y/O'S VOICE.#IT COULD'VE BEEN ANY OTHER VOCALSYNTH. STILL WOULD'VE BEEN A LITTLE WEIRD MAYBE BUT THIS IS SETTING THE BAR IN HELL#god. i hate it here 😭 the song isnt even that good on its own#like yeah its catchy or whatever but its so clearly made to be trendslop. you will never be mesmerizer#can people be normal about her oh my goddd 😭#i seriously need more of like. lighter themed songs with kaai yuki that are about silly everyday things#like hair slicked back or anything else in that songs album#theres this one kaai yuki cover on youtube of chipi chipi chapa chapa and its CUUUUTE 😭#I LOVE THAT SONG UNIRONICALLY its just about a kid inviting her friends to play at her house. also its a banger#speaking of which. in better news we might be getting teto on the big stage. who cheered and lowkey cried#listen shes been winning so hard these past few years like its been nonstop banger after banger after banger for her.#we wanted for her to sing so many beautiful songs and these vocaPs going crazy with her vsynth are treating her to that dream. YAY ❤️#NOT EVEN JUST HER VSYNTH HER UTAU HAS STILL GOT IT (gestures to medicine)#anyways. i wish kaai yuki could be winning like that.... her voicebank is so unique#the sniffly quality of her voice can be hard to work with but it's endearing and it makes her stand out in another way#anyways. kiyoteru you have permission to kill everyone now#mossball.txt#kaai yuki#ask to tag
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GAMING IS MY SON AND IF ANYTHING HAPPENS TO HIM IM GONNA KILL EVERYONE IN THIS ROOM AND THEN MYSELF!!

LOOK AT HIM HES SO CUTE
i still have hope in getting the other boys too



its ok they can be a band or smth.. at least then gaming wouldn’t have to be so disappointed in people not hiring him bc he’s just having fun with his boys…
#it took me soooo long to realize his name can also be 'gaming' and idk if i should be ashamed or proud lol#his hashtag is gonna get real funny real quick#is it actually an intentional business decision made by hyv#no way this was accidental#anyway im disappointed in his hair design but i stopped feeling much since all genshin charas always have the ugliest hairstyles#also him being another bennett just not as unlucky#he works so hard and still tries to achieve his artistic dream at the same time#but people just smile and ignore him…PAY THE DUDE!!!#ALSO ALSO.. chiaki 2.0 and they better add all other ryuseitai next#i just can get over how energetic and cool genshin concept designs are when the game keeps slapping us with a downgraded version every time#not to say current designs aren’t energetic or cool.. just not as much lol (still salty about red xiao and those flying nahidas)#now i know why they still not doing an art book yet.. they’re ashamed to admit of the amounts of good designs they never use#AND I LOVE GENSHIN DESIGNS honest (otherwise why would i keep doing fanart of this game and this game only for 3 years)#sorry i dont post all of them.... i have issues#but i cant help but feel robbed when i see these designs knowing what they could’ve been#and it’s in no way hyv’s fault *glance at leakers* and the new designs are getting crazier and cooler but#please for the love of god hyv stop with the mullets PLEASE!!!#gaming#ga-ming#gaming genshin#genshin impact
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I know I've been on about this for a while now and I'm being a hater but you're telling me SydCarmy was "always meant to be platonic" even though there are two seasons of writing making use of tried-and-true explicitly romantic tropes, themes and writing signals, and SydLuca is going to be romantic because...he was nice to her on screen for a few minutes?
I don't even care if people ship SydLuca, or if they just prefer it, but you can't honestly tell me that you believe Carmy was always meant to be a friend but Luca is an obvious love interest.
Just because Syd and Carmy haven't kissed or confessed their love to each other doesn't mean that isn't very obviously the direction this show is going. The Bear has already shown you who is endgame. It has shown you every episode of the show so far.
Honestly I really don't think The Bear fanbase understands this show or cares about these characters or the story being told here, which is unfortunate because this show is shockingly well-written in comparison to most shows right now, and we should be so grateful for it but all we're doing is complaining that the writers led us on by not making a ship canon fast enough. It's just. Sad.
#The Bear#SydCarmy#I was like a casual fan of this show two days ago#and now seeing how little respect this show gets from it's fanbase I'm losing my mind#I mean I shipped SydCarmy before anyway but now it means so much to me#it means so much to see such a realistic and purposefully well paced romance take place#so many shows portray romantic relationships and their beginnings in ways that just don't really happen in real life#and this show very purposefully said no. These are characters who are strangers. who are working together. Who are in a tense environment#and each of them has problems - one of them the type of problems that makes developing new relationships pretty difficult#these two would not get together right away. It would take a long time. And there would be ups and downs.#And even when that's the case. Even if when it takes a long time and doesn't go smoothly and is hard -#it can still be beautiful. It can still be romantic. It can still happen and here's how#and I'm just so inspired genuinely. It is so difficult to write romance without being cliche and so difficult to write it in a way that#could actually happen in real life and I really do hope I can write something half as good some day#and then to know so many people have no appreciation for it at all#because they prefer the shows that have characters make eye contact a few times and then confess their love for each other like#it's just fucking sad. So sad that so few people have any appreciation for good writing especially the difficult of romance writing#like I really just don't even know what to tell you. In real life these two would not have confessed to each other yet. They would not have#kissed yet. They would not have even realized they have feelings for each other yet because those feelings would still be developing#and I also want to point out that given the disparity in power between Syd and Carmy in season 1 it wouldn't have been healthy for them to#get together much sooner. He was her boss. He was also her idol. Before they can even get together that needs to be balanced out.#And then on top of that don't you see the value in Carmy realizing the dream girl he's romanticized in his head - Claire - isn't actually#what he wants? Don't you see the beauty in him being disillusioned from that? And realizing that Syd is what he wants?#Don't you see the beauty in Syd having an idealized vision of what Carmy The Great Chef is like realizing she was wrong and that he's human#and flawed and then realizing - she loves him anyway? She loves him more for not being on a pedestal and for having his flaws?#Are you telling me that even thinking about this doesn't move you? Doesn't make your heart ache a little?#And again - ship and let ship - but what is Luca? What is Luca if not just what she was hoping Carmy would be when she wen to The Beef?#What is he if not just another man who she has not seen under pressure yet? Not seen reliving trauma yet? Not been her boss yet?#It's easy to look at him and think he's better than Carmy - and that's the point. That's the point The Bear is making.#It is easy to want someone you don't know. It's hard to want to someone you do know. But that's what love requires and that's the point
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Doodles based on "Yet Another Nightmare" by Catroic on Ao3 (highly recommend reading, its very good)
#kris#ralsei#deltarune#i didn't really draw much kralsei but the fic has the pairing so...#kralsei#i read this cuddled up in bed and half asleep (as per how i normally read these things)#so when i got to (no spoilers) that one sequence it felt really surreal#i wanted to try and depict half of the feeling i got from it#whether i have done so is debatable buut this was still fun to draw#i didn't make ralsei angry enough in retrospect... am a coward...#sorry these are so messy lol#on one hand if i cleaned it up too much it would stop feeling like a dream#and on the other... just don't have time for a more clean work right now haha#i think that “on one hand/on other” figure of speech is used for comparing options and i just used it wrong#but >:) i do what it want; my figure of speech now#derailed a lot - highly reccomend reading this#and catroic's other works too actually#hy is a amazing writer and has lots of good works to check out if you have the time :D#tumblr compression is a bitch lol this looks soo much better on desktop than mobile for some reason#rare morning post from dawn woah#updated almost 24 hours later because i spelled “recommended” wrong and forgot to sign the image lol
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gaylationships are complex as fuck n things when i realized that i didnt have 2 live my life in a gay heteroallo-normative marriage/relationship my world exploded into color fr
#d talks#marry a guy? no thanks. marry a girl? slightly better but still no good. do whatever you want forever and ever and have different#meaningful relationships with other lesbians that are each fulfilling in their own way? THE DREAM
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I want to befriend Kaneki and meet with him and email him forever
#we should do everything together everything should be parallel play#and then when we go our separate ways at the end of the day I want to still email him things#like pictures of succulents and a glimpse under the amazon river#I want to email him pbs eons videos#I can show him coffee shop vlogs and ask “is this u”#in person I’d mostly let him do the talking and decide what to do#take me down the most intimidating alley on a whim after you said we were just buying lunch pls#I want to eat lunch with him so bad 😭😭😭🙏#it’d be kind of awkward though bc he wouldn’t be eating anything he’d just be sipping his coffee#being with Kaneki is the ultimate dream I wanna see his morning irritation I want to be pleasantly startled by him with his quiet footsteps#& get to ask him about what he’s reading#or how his training is going#or whatever he’s doing#I would ask him how he’d rate vacuuming out of 10 and if he gives it below a 5 will vacuum his house#I feel like he’d lie though and say he likes doing every kind of work just to stop others from doing it#unless he wasn’t in a state where he’s able to actively think about others like that#he should stop doing things and jsut relax imagine taking him on a nice tour trip up mount Fuji that would b nice#stay in a cabin make a snowman clap for him when he skis#he was so good at skiing in the TG calendar?!?? who taught him to ski#did he read “idiots guide to skiing” a day before and absorb all the knowledge like a sponge#he’s so smart. I wish I was smart. or at least smart in an applicable way#I want to try harder but I kind of can’t#or I get sort of frozen by something and can’t find a way forward unless I scurry around it (no one wants u to do this)#I love Kaneki he’s both literally and kind of metaphorically half human and I am too so if we combine we’ll have the power of one full human#we can be human if we stand close enough together#idk he might not want to stand next to me tho he has better options#kaneki time
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Bruh, I am prolly slow on the uptake, but I'm realizing that, considering their magic is heavily influenced by imagination, it's no WONDER Kalim's magic, especially his defensive magic, is so weak.
Because he's always had everything handed to him or done for him by others, especially Jamil, of course his imagination would never compare. Bc he's never HAD to long for anything, never had to think of anything for himself besides what he was told/given, outside certain circumstances!
Is it a wonder he was able to manifest his magic at an age when Jamil was attending another school away from him? When Kalim himself WANTED to and tried so HARD at something, likely for the first time in his life, to manifest his magic to be JUST LIKE Jamil?
Tbh, the best thing that ever happened to Kalim was not really Jamil. Bc incidentally, the way they were raised, it only served to limit Kalim both in life experiences and magic, having Jamil do everything for Kalim. He never needed to work on honing his magic when Jamil could take care of potions, when Jamil could defend him and take the brunt of the grunt work.
Thus, the best possible thing to have happened to Kalim really having to make his own friends outside of him at Night Raven. Like when he used Oasis Maker to entertain Crowley with excellent control and skill ( likely something he learned to do for shows with the Pop Music Club, I bet! ). Or how when he had to make a party without Jamil's help, Ruggie let him learn how to cook with only using magic and the food STILL turned out to be a hit despite it being Kalim's first shot at it! Or how he was able to surprise Jamil by making the river to bring Octavinelle, himself and Yuu'n Grim back to Scarabia after the boy'd dismissed his Signature Spell as useless.
#✮┆ ( .ooc. );#//I want to know more about his Signature Spell; tbh#//Bc those are said to be influenced by a person's wishes in the moment; like Deuce wanting to protect Epel; & Epel to Yuu/Rook#//WHY did Kalim get an water summoning based spell; when he and Jamil both say it'd be obsolete in that day and age?#//Could it be bc Kalim wanted a versatile magic; to be able to help and entertain at once?#//Hence; bc water always changes to shift in its vessel; his magic responded & made it so he would Never have to limit the water he summons#//BC THAT'S FUCKEN CRAZY#//If ppl say Kalim has low/small magic reserves; WHY CAN HE HAVE AN INFINITE WATER HACK WITH HARDLY ANY DRAWBACKS#//Did he desperately want smth useful and THAT was the result??#//Esp smith tied to how his family canonically facilitated water acquisition and distribution back in the early days???#//Did he want to be like the great 'Ruler of the Oasis' and want a spell that could ref that AND bring joy to others???#//Bc it would be SO in tune with who he is to have a spell that can bring joy to others; esp considering how beautifully he enacted the#water birds he made for entertaining Crowley. Bc AS FAR AS WE KNOW; he didn’t PRACTICE that before!#//Anyways; this isn't meant to inform or anything#//It's me writing the thinking's down for myself to find for later reference jdfhbfgk#//Its so sad to me that of all things; the best thing for Kalim would be to separate from Jamil entirely. bc that is when he THRIVES#//See: Playful Land. KALIM ultimately saved everyone; no magic required. just some good ol Talk no Jutsu ndbxb#//Likewise Jamil is funniest and most expression Without Kalim too#//Bit they both CHOOSE to stick together even still#//Kalim; who will Always choose Jamil no matter what; who adores him like he’s even better than himself like breathing#//Who didn’t hesitate to jump rightt in after him when the darkness would have taken him away#//Jamil; who even after being told he doesn’t HAVE to bc others can step up; adamantly CHOOSING to stick with & save Kalim in Book 5#//When Rook was RIGHT THERE to protect him or carpet could have gone for him themself#//Still dreamed of having Kalim close; even TRUSTED that dream Kalim; even as real Kalim kept fumbling on purpose#//ESP since Floyd’s dream showed that if it suits the person’s narrative; they could be written out. WHY was Kalim still in Jams life there#//Jamil; who butts into Kalim’s things when even Kalim’s got a handle on things for once (one of the Halloween events)#//Bc Kalim totally NAILED how to scare ppl; WHY did Jamil feel the need to spell him and take over??#//If need be; he could have simply backed him up if he failed; WHY expend that extra effort??#//Idk; it’s interesting to me jcnc#//Veered off topic but ye lol—the biggest reason Kalim’s as ‘incompetent’ as he is IS THE VERY PERSON COMPLAINING ABT IT. the IRONY
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literally having the worst day ever and i cant ever be happy (has only experienced minor inconveniences today but they keep adding up)
#first of all i didnt get a lot of sleep so im mad tired#second of all the place i usually get lunch on campus said they werent doing bagels at the moment and it ruined me#cuz i was soooo excited to get bagels#third of all i was already cranky so i got all in my feels last night#so i had a dream where my gf who isnt my gf and saw each other on one fo the campuses and she was w her friends#at one point we were both leaving and iw as watcing her and her and her friend knew i was there#so then her friend comes over and shes like '[gf name] loves you so much'#and i was about to cry tears of joy i was like REALLY???#and then her friend started laughing and gestured to my gf who isn't my gf's OTHER friend behind me and she was like 'jk lol she meant#this friend not you el oh el'#and then my gf and her friends were all laughing at me and i burst into tears#and then in full on sobs i was like 'i loved you so much how could you leave me'#and then my gf was just like 'well youre a bad person and you think youre sooooo myseterious and youre a terrible person and i never loved#you' and oh my god it ruined my morning#i know a lot of it was just psychological cuz i was already moody when i went to bed#and i have this werid paranoia where i think her and her friends talk shit about me#which i doubt they do but it still stresses me out#so thats probably why that hapepned#and then on top of all that. fourth of all im getting lunch and i literally see her outside. like i dont see her for days and of course#the day i least want to see her shes right there#i mean im generally doing better than september and i didnt feel the same sinking feeling#i used to in like sept but still like brooooo bro this day could not be worseee#the only good thing that happened was that i passed my physics exam <3#also yeah again i said these are minor inconveniences im just frustrated lol#sunny rambles
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