#state of the iceberg

[awkwardpenguinproductions]

State of the Iceberg:

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[autogeneity]

do people ordinarily find social interaction, like,,,,satiating?

I feel like often my reaction to positive interaction is to immediately, near-compulsively, seek out more of it. which isn't necessarily bad but there's never a point of "okay, I've had a good time and I'm satisfied now". no, it goes like starting conversations and signing up for events and etc etc, built up to point of overwhelm, and then ends with me getting tired or disinterested and disappearing for another few weeks or months or whatever.

there's always lingering...something? feelings or incompletely expressed thoughts or idek what at the end of an interaction. but it never closes. it just itches, like something that needs to be resolved but cannot. but also a lot like an addiction.

[renshengs]

thinking about tim’s red robin run again. ououoggjgh babygirl you have so many problems. you are so unwell

[scattered-winter]

anyone else up feeling utterly overwhelmed or nah

[shroom-gloom]

swap au wip stuff

childhood friends fight to the death with garden shears <3

[anethara]

seeing a lot of goyim making idiots of themselves this week and it's only tuesday.

[abyssmalice]

(this blog has three eras:

-singular tonia era, when only one toni was on this blog, and she was what's now the older abyss toni

-pre-slime hobby tonitoni era, when I just brought on my shiny new harbinger au tonitoni and she had far less scruples about people and slimes

-slime enthusiast tonitoni <- you are here)

[scpwiki-official]

thinking about when we used to do cosplay

[yourlocalmissingtexture]

Oughguoughh I need to watch a disturbing iceberg video and draw or something before I spiral, it’s too early for that this morning

[garbagequeer]

the thing about it (my german former professor not letting up on his zionism to this day + posting to say the reason spanish civil society stands with palestine while german civil society is more zionist is because spain has an antisemitism problem germany has reckoned with) is that i think you have to be at best completely fucking stupid to not include islamophobia in your analysis of the situation since the groups that are pushing antisemitism today are ensuring a wider social support by leading first with islamophobia + they usually stand with israel. so it is really really easy to see how actually most antisemites only accept jewish people through israel and for as long as israel continues to enact violence against arabs to ensure european interests and supremacy (they dont care about jewish people but through domination and colonialism israel is a european state). all while still either committing hate crimes agains jewish people in europe (as these people do not serve the purpose of israelis and therefore do not deserve european respect as they dont belong in a white supremacist european society) or trying to make antisemitism a thing in places with no significant jewish population (which makes it clear antisemitism is not just about jewish people but also about a white european identity). like i think it's at best idiocy and at worst and most likely extreme racism to not see the fates of jewish people and arab people as intertwined at least when it comes to european politics and society. you just want to pat yourself on the back for being a civilized white european instead of looking at the violence that is at the core of this identity at the expense of other people you have excluded from it + whose pain you deny is even happening in order to maintain it

[awkwardpenguinproductions]

State of the Iceberg:

Guess who’s got a new job!!!

[ID: a colored GIF of Rubber Suit Godzilla doing a happy shuffle. /ID]

I will be doing some pondering and looking thoughtfully at my schedule about possibly bringing Dragon of the Yuyan out of posting hiatus, but as I do not yet know exactly what my new schedule will look like, I make no promises about when the next installment will be posted.

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So yeah, awesome new job, potential end for hiatus in sight, dire warning against mining my shit for AI, check check and check.

See y’all soon!

[katyspersonal]

Small crisis regarding my former mariadeline impression

This post is basically just:

But I kinda need to put my thoughts here

I've been thinking recently back on my days when I still saw Gehrman as a ‘creep’, and it was a point in Maria’s story that she hated herself for feeling attracted to Adeline who WAS below in a status. In that version, she was deeply concerned of taking advantage of her authority - because she subconsciously projected, and sort of saw Gehrman in herself. Been long ago, but after I revisited the lore bit that triggered it, I was hit back with just how many layers have to be undone to get to mariadeline ship being fulfilling and happy. We have the fact that Adeline still addresses Maria as superior ('lady' in localisation, '-sama' in original, sama is used to politely, formally address ones of higher rank). The subordination was probably never broken in canon!

Also, Maria didn't want Adeline to become a Blood Saint but Adeline wasn't convinced, most likely out of her pursuit to be someone meaningful - "grooming" of Blood Saints isn't canon, in Japanese original it says that they merely were prepared physically, to produce unique blood within their body, so that certainly allows there to be willing, conscious ones. I feel like Maria would have a huge weight of guilt for failing to convince her that she didn't need to put herself through this.

But things also get soooo much worse around Research Hall, because Maria is associated with the reason why these experiments are a thing to BEGIN with! Yes, evolution is nice and all, but patients are writhing in pain and beg for it to end. That meant Adeline too - not only she mutated horribly and Maria was no longer able to see her beautiful face, but also Adeline is restrained with more belts than any of the other patients, and then additionally restrained to the chair. She must have had it extremely hard if they had to put extra effort in holding her still... My guess is that Adeline was going too rabid when devoid of brain fluid for too long. And Maria had to watch her go through this, mutating physically and forgetting her worth psychologically. But who knows, what if none of that had happened if Maria didn't "help" with Fishing Hamlet? Someone who took her own life over a collective crime strikes me as someone more prone to blame herself, ALL herself, rather than sharing guilt. She did not come after throats of Willem and Gehrman for initiating Fishing Hamlet massacre, despite the fact that the leaders are probably more guilty than the followers, you know...?

I wonder if the real reason Maria went nonverbal with Adeline (Adeline being accustomed to her walking in without a word, Maria giving her the balcony key without explanation since Adeline still thinks it is "a charm" when we meet her) was not shyness but anxiety. Maybe she felt like she didn't even dare to touch her, maybe she was not able to start talking to her without crying - and she needed to hold it back. She wanted to stay strong and worthy of Adeline’s respect, even if she probably didn’t deserve it.... But Adeline deserved someone to admire, rather than the gods that only make people feel small.

I mean, the status imbalance itself is already a very fat hint that they never got official and whatever was there from one or both of them probably lingered in the status of unresolved romantic tension until the end. The fact that Adeline still sees Maria as her superior even as a patient effectively hints that it was still the case back then - so as a Blood Saint, and before that. Basically, the only time in canon they COULD have been in true relationship is during Research Hall events, but I think the setting full of pain, misery, fear, insanity, body horror and death was uhhh... not very favourable for happy fluffy love to bloom. Adeline was going way too caught up into Eldrich truth to care about something as human - an requiring her humanity - as normal relationship, and Maria, the one who would care enough to pull her back, failed to do so at least two times by now.

_______

So yeah, all in all I briefly addressed that mariadeline probably never came to fruition in canon, then I forgot all about it and got sold on happy portrayal of the ship within fandom, but now I am thinking back on it and considering even more nuances. I’ve just grown so used to take this ship as a given that it does feel like a slight crisis to realise that they probably never dated? There is a possibility though; Nightmare features a hunter version of Maria, that she forsaken in “reality”, ie Nightmare dials back into troubled and painful past. So maybe it dialed Adeline back TOO - to her more desperate, tormented state as a patient, when she still wasn’t Maria’s girlfriend too; when in “reality” she DID, in fact, feel better about herself and the women got to be happy witch each other for just brief time... Again, past Adeline already being a mutant. Like, odds are, all stuff depicting mariadeline happy and established when Adeline was a Blood Saint, or before so, or a patient that still looked human is an AU? Because it is not filling blank spaces, but contradicting canon? It is just that... I was not THINKING about it this way much? That so many things we just assume and take without questioning in fiction actually are rather different in reality?

I am probably becoming very old like I said before, but it is even strange how we as fans can look at two characters caring about each other and instantly jump into fluffiest, most shippy interpretation, forgetting the nuances. Like... dear god, this ship has so many underwater rocks (no pun intended).

[whats-in-a-sentence]

The icebergs shown on this page, pictured off Dunedin in 2006, exemplify the other two common states of matter, liquid and solid.

"Chemistry" 2e - Blackman, A., Bottle, S., Schmid, S., Mocerino, M., Wille, U.

[rotteneldritchhorror]

Idk if CAIMEO was real but I love that lil guy

[rabbitcruiser]

World Oceans Day

With oceans making up 66% of our Earth, it’s crucial we raise awareness  about and tackle the threats facing these life-giving and  life-containing bodies of water.

66% of the world is covered in a blanket of rich, vibrant blue, from  its depths once came all life on the Earth, and it continues to house an  immense amount of life. This blanket is the world’s oceans, and they  serve as one of the most popular vacation spots in the world and play a  vital role in the economy of countries worldwide. Across the briny deep  massive amounts of cargo cross each year, and it still serves as the  primary thoroughfare for trade. World Oceans Day celebrates the ocean and the important role it plays in our lives.

It’s a time for supporters of the oceans to focus on conversation and  sustainability so that they can remain clean and usable. The animals  deserve a happy and safe place to roam and live without having to worry  about any destruction or man-made obstacles. It’s important to safeguard  the oceans to help ensure a healthy home for all. One this day, people  can come together to create a space for all to enjoy and appreciate, no  matter where each person lives.

History of World Oceans Day

In 2008, the UN gathered and uniformly created World Oceans Day. It  was first proposed in 1992 in Rio de Janeiro during the Earth Summit.  The ocean has been an incredibly important part of human history, and  this special was established with the intent of celebrating our  connection to the sea and raising awareness about the various dangers it  faces. There are nearly 200,000 identified species that live in the  ocean, but the number of actual species that reside there is likely in  the millions. It’s essential to ensure that they don’t have to worry  about freely getting around and enjoying a healthy and safe home to  reside.

Even with that being the case, there are still problems with  overfishing, and the subsidies that are given for fishing in countries  all around the world are causing depletion of the game species. These  activities have led to efforts to restore the fishing industry being  undermined, and the industry bringing in $50 billion a year less. It’s  just one of the many factors that should have us all celebrating World  Oceans Day and raising awareness about all the issues our big blue’s  face.

There’s a global environmental catastrophe due to decades of overuse  and a surge in single-use plastics. Plastic straws and bags are getting  into the oceans and causing havoc. World Oceans Day is an opportunity to  acknowledge and recognize the efforts that have been and are being made  against plastic pollution. It’s enlightening and disheartening to know  that today, 13,000,000 tons of plastic leaks into the ocean every year,  which among other damage, kill 100,000 marine animals annually.

World Oceans Day Timeline

1987 Brundtland Report

This report, connected to The World Commission on Environment and  Development (Brundtland Commission) notes that the ocean sector is  lacking representation compared to other sectors.

1992 Earth Summit in Rio de Janeiro  

Created as a way to celebrate the world’s shared ocean and raise  awareness for the personal connection between humans and the ocean. This  is where the concept for World Oceans Day was first proposed by the  Canadian representatives.

2008 UN declares to recognize World Oceans Day  

This year, after a four-year onsite and online petition drive, the UN  General Assembly passes a Declaration that will officially recognize  the day, beginning the following year.

2009 First World Oceans Day is celebrated  

The inaugural World Oceans Day is observed with the theme “Our Oceans, Our Responsibilities.”

2016 World Oceans Day Youth Advisory Council is launched  

Made up of 25 youth from all over the world, the Youth Advisory Council is created to develop and promote World Oceans Day.

Why celebrate World Oceans Day?

It’s a good reminder to bring attention to the fact that oceans play a  major role in everyday life all around the globe. The oceans provide a  majority of the oxygen we breathe, so many consider them to be the lungs  of our planet. The goal is to develop a worldwide movement of citizens  to care better for the oceans. It’s an opportunity to inform and educate  humans and the public of what our actions are doing to the ocean and  what impact they have in the long run. It’s not only a day to celebrate  the beauty, wealth, and promise of the ocean, but a chance to realize  that they’re a critical part of the biosphere. They’re a significant  source of food and medicines and simply can’t be ignored or mistreated  any longer.

How to celebrate World Oceans Day

Start it off by a visit to the nearest ocean to restore a personal  connection to the sea. Breathe deep and appreciate the beauty and  serenity the ocean offers each day of the week. Invite family along, and  while there, bring information about the ocean and what people really  need to know about it to make visiting it a joy for years to come.

Pick a day to go to the ocean to clean up and help restore it instead  of simply sitting by it. Gather friends and family and pitch in and  pick up trash that surrounds the local beaches and oceans in the area.  It’ll not only look nicer, but the wildlife in the area will benefit  from these actions as well. Avoid single-use plastics, and instead pack a  picnic lunch with reusable containers to enjoy after the hard work is  complete. One may also consider organizing a fundraiser to aid  preservation and restoration efforts at the local beach. With all the  plastic waste coming off our beaches thanks to careless beach-goers, our  ocean is awash with litter.

Use this as a time to increase one’s knowledge and explore the topic  further. There are a variety of books and resources out there to help a  person achieve this goal. Another idea is to gather a group of people  and watch an ocean film on the topic to bring awareness to the concept  of helping out the oceans.

There are plenty of activities and events that occur on World Oceans  Day. Celebrate by choosing one or two to participate in and enjoy.  Engage in the day’s events by piggybacking off of other ideas that  people in the area have come up with instead of having to think of  activities alone.

World Oceans Day FAQs

When is World Oceans Day?

World Oceans Day has taken place on June 8 every year since 2009, with the inaugural theme of Our Oceans, Our Responsibilities.

What is the importance of World Oceans Day?

The purpose of this day is to develop a worldwide movement of citizens for the ocean while mobilizing people and raising awareness.

What is the World Oceans Day theme?

Each year, the theme for World Oceans Day changes, with past themes including Oceans & People, Healthy Oceans–Healthy Planet, Our Oceans–Our Future, and Innovation for a Sustainable Ocean.

Who started World Oceans Day?

World Oceans Day was first suggested by Canada in 1992 at the Earth Summit in Rio. After years of petitions, the UN officially recognizes the day.

How to help with World Oceans Day?

This day can be observed by getting involved in education, reducing carbon footprints, minimizing the use of plastic and making sustainable seafood choices.

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[fictionallyinparadise]

For the 70s/80s music ask game, ‘Let’s Dance’ for anyone, for no reason other than my favorite musician wrote that song (is that the correct way to say that??? I’m new to music small talk. And music that isn’t just video game OSTs in general. And will that opinion have me judged? Sorry if I’m being awkward,)

~stars-n-freckles45

OOOO David Bowie goes BRRR <33 Dw about being awkward, music small talk (for me at least) either goes "this song made me cry you should listen to it", "this reminds me of you/your OC(s)", or "you just unlocked a memory about music and I'm gonna go down a rabbithole about it" so shghsg- Also!! Video game OSTs are so fucking good dude like.....omge. ANYWHO ANYWHO, I answered this with Iceberg bc I'm melting from brainrot to the point of no return <3

David Bowie - Let’s Dance: Are there any songs you’ve picked up from your F/O or their media, or because they remind you of them?

One song that reminds me of him for no reason is "Touch-Tone Telephone" by Lemon Demon. There's no reason, I just think it fits :]

Onto the songs that I can go and ramble about-

"Cold Cold Cold" by Cage The Elephant reminds me of him. Considering that he is literally Cold™️. I feel like he'd scream this song in his car before going into work....... "Some Rotten Man" by The Taxpayers but it's in an angst way,,,like. Hang on I need a specific lyric-

"Some rotten man. Nobody's savior. Your oldest friend" LIKE I can literally picture him saying those to me. "Some rotten man" in passing conversation. "Nobody's savior" after something Goes Wrong At Work™️. "Your oldest friend" whispered in the dark when he thinks I'm asleep.

"Mary On A Cross" by Ghost because like.......he's got some Abnormal Thing about him (his body temp is like....19.4° F) and my self insert has some Abnormal Thing about them (their eyes are glitchy! Like when they're confused their eyes show a literal bluescreen)!! SO THE "your beauty never ever scared me" HITS SO HARD............

"Hayloft II (Burning Barn Acoustic)" by Mother Mother is another and it's specifically the Acoustic bc that one itches my brain so hard. There's something about it that carries his Unhinged yet Contained energy so perfectly.

There's so many more but at the rate I'm going I'll never end this MSGHSHGHH..........