#startle response

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

Seriously I jump and get startled easily. Every loud noise scares me.

AutismBookClub

[whump-tr0pes]

Ignis

Continuing Dee's Second Recovery Arc...

Luctus et Mors

Masterlist

AO3

Contents: fluff, recovery, past death, past torture, PTSD, startle response, fire, whumpee thinking the caretakers will hurt them

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Even after two weeks of being back in Ilya’s home, back at Ilya’s side, Dee could scarcely believe it was true. He woke beside them every morning, was protected from the frigid winter cold by the walls of their house every day. Ilya had recovered from their illness and spent every waking moment with him – cuddled against him on the couch, sitting next to him at the table, walking by his side to the park that they visited. Even Dara and Evangeline seemed lighter and happier than he had ever seen them in the months he’d known them before he was taken. He’d even heard them singing together once, their voices weaving together in an unearthly melody that made the perpetual flame next to his heart flare in rebellion even as his blood sang with it.

The house was happy, and warm, and full of peace.

The afternoon was drawing to a close. He lay sprawled on the couch, eyes half-closed, mind wandering aimlessly between thoughts. Ilya sat with their feet tucked under his leg and a book on their lap. The occasional sound of their turning pages kept Dee from slipping into a nap, although he didn’t mind. He liked being here, with them. He liked the feeling of his new body.

Ilya’s stomach growled. Dee opened his eyes and lifted his head from the couch. Ilya glanced up from their book, cheeks going a little pink.

“Hungry?” Dee said with a shy smile.

Ilya chuckled. “Yeah, a bit.” They marked their place with a scrap of paper and closed the book. “I… wow. I didn’t realize it’s so late. I don’t think I ever ate lunch.”

Dee sat up, furrowing his brow. “Hmm… no, I don’t think so. I’m sorry. I… I forget you have to eat so often.”

Ilya tilted their head. “I guess you’ve only had this body for… for a few months. Makes sense.”

“No.” Dee sat up and placed his feet on the floor. He stared at the wood, twisted his hands together. “No, I… I didn’t need to eat, even before.”

The silence between them stretched out for a beat, a breath, several.

“Because…?”

“Because the girl’s soul was… was gone,” Dee murmured. “And I didn’t need to eat to sustain her body.”

Dee kept his gaze fixed on the floor in front of him, but out of the corner of his eye, he saw Ilya slowly nod. “When you… when I invited you to eat with us. And you were so frightened. M-makes sense.”

Dee chewed his lip. “I still can eat,” he said quietly. “I just… don’t need to.”

Ilya set down the book and reached out, covering Dee’s hands with one of theirs. He squeezed their fingers and looked up at them. They had tears in their eyes. When he offered them a wan smile, they smiled back.

Their stomach growled again.

“Let’s get you fed, Ilya,” he said, pushing himself to his feet and reaching out both hands to them. He could help them to their feet; he marveled at his own strength. They pushed their face into the crook of his neck and wrapped their arms around him. He smiled as he hugged them back, holding them tightly. They kissed the side of his neck and wandered into the kitchen.

“Do you want anything in particular?” Dee said as he opened the pantry. His eyes landed on chips, pancake mix, cans of soup. The fridge opened behind him.

“Hmm,” Ilya hummed. “Something savory. I’m… I don’t feel like cooking, but it doesn’t look like we have much food in the house.”

“Savory,” Dee mumbled. “Savory.” He peered into the pantry. There was pasta and glass jars of sauce… It would be a quick meal, easy to make. Or perhaps—

“We could also order in,” Dara said, close enough behind Dee that he could hear the exhale of her breath on the first word.

He shrieked and jumped. Flames leapt from his hand and caught the wall. He skittered away from the angel, and she stared back at him with alarm in her eyes.

Ilya stood frozen, staring at the fire as it began to crawl up the wall. Dara leapt to the sink, grabbed the fire extinguisher from beneath it. She quickly put out the flames. Dark gray smoke hung in the air. Overhead, the smoke alarm beeped shrilly. Dara reached up and bumped the reset button with the edge of the extinguisher.

Dee’s ears rang in the silence.

“Wh-what was that?” Ilya breathed.

Dee swallowed hard and hid his hands behind his back. “Um…” He backed up against the wall, eyes darting between Ilya and Dara.

Evangeline wandered into the kitchen. “Someone trying to cook something in here?” she said, nose wrinkling from the smoke.

“No,” Dara said. She set down the fire extinguisher, then crossed to the window and opened it. Chilly air raised goosebumps on Dee’s arms. “No, he…” She wet her lips. “Dee… have you… always… been able to do that?”

“N-no,” Dee whispered. Tears threatened. “No, I… I’m sorry, it w-won’t happen again—”

“What happened?” Evangeline said, staring from Dee to Dara and back.

“He… he lit the house on fire,” Ilya murmured.

Dee whimpered and slid down the wall, tears rolling down his cheeks. He stuffed his hands into his armpits. He was shaking. “It w-was an accident,” he pleaded.

“No, I… I know,” Ilya said, dropping to their knees beside him. They placed a hand on his shoulder. “How did you… do that?”

Dee stared up at them, trembling. They weren’t angry; there was even the hint of a smile threatening at the edges of their mouth. He looked to the angels still standing over him. They stared at him in astonishment.

“I… I learned that I could do it… over the winter,” he said weakly.

“So you could not do this before you died,” Dara said.

“No,” he said, shaking his head. “No, I… I would never have let the powers hurt them if I—”

Ilya’s hand tightened on his arm. He covered their hand with his. Their brow was furrowed, their mouth starting to open as if to protest.

Dara nodded. “I understand,” she said, her harsh expression softening.

Dee let out a breath. “But when I lived in the shack, it was so cold, so I… I stole candles and I just… knew. I knew I could do this, somehow. So I…” Carefully, he raised his right hand – and snapped his fingers. A small flame flared to life above his hand.

Ilya flinched away. Dara and Evangeline stood staring down at him, unmoving.

“Remarkable,” Evangeline breathed. “I’ve never known a demon who could do such a thing. Have you?”

“No,” Dara said. “But then… we have never long spoken with many demons.”

Dee let the flame go, then raised his gaze to the angels. “I can control it,” he said. “I can… I will learn to control it.”

“And I will learn not to startle you,” Dara said solemnly. “I think that’s what caused this to begin with.”

Dee hesitated. Even now, even after these weeks with them, he felt that he should be the one apologizing – groveling. Begging.

It used to be better at begging, I think.

“I will… be better,” he said. He felt the urge inside him to shift onto his knees. He felt the urge to push Ilya behind him, to push Ilya away, and beg.

“Oh, hush,” Dara said, not unkindly. “This is something knew. We will all learn how to be.”

“I think it’s neat,” Ilya whispered, drawing close to kiss Dee’s cheek.

Something stirred in Dee’s stomach. Relief, perhaps. Or joy. “Yeah?”

“Yeah,” they said, smiling. They got to their feet and helped Dee up. They tucked themself under Dee’s arm and turned a beatific grin on the angels. “Since Dee nearly burned the house down, I think I should get takeout.”

“Lord, you really will use any excuse, won’t you?” Evangeline said with a roll of her eyes.

“I will,” Ilya sighed, snatching up their phone. “Dee, how does Indian sound?”

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[journey-to-holistic-health]

Stepping out of your comfort zone is hard, but progress is progress.

[timethehobo]

What’s he running from?

[lovethytendytenderly]

Moment by Hildegarde Flanner x x x x x x x x x x

[remyfire]

I work with somebody about once a week who is so fascinating to me, especially when they are at our first desk. When someone walks in, they do not so much as smile or look at them, much less greet them. When someone leaves, they don't do anything either. If someone says, "Thank you," they say, "Sure," and if someone says, "Have a good one," they say, "Sure."

Listen. I don't know if it's because I was born and raised in the South for over three decades or because I was the front-facing customer-service-driven person at my previous jobs for a grand total of eight years. But I wince and get a little flappy anxious every time. What do you mean, you're not greeting people warmly so they're smiling as soon as they come through the door? What do you mean, you don't thank them for coming, wish them a good day, and bid them farewell? What do you mean, you just don't interact with the public unless forced, even in our front-facing job?

I think the amiable Southern politeness is just too engrained in me. There is no getting rid of it. And I'm kind of hoping that eventually I can work my way up to having more shifts at our first desk instead of our second because it's a lot weirder to gently greet someone from a distance when the employee closest to them is not paying them a single bit of mind.

[raccoonbug]

Random Sonic Headcanon #2: Sonic will walk into Tails’ workshop randomly. If Tails is hyperfixated on a project, he won’t notice. Sonic will accidentally sneak up on the kit, resulting in Tails fucking beaming him in the head with whatever tool is in his hands. Oftentimes a wrench, and once, most memorably, a blow torch.

[mallowbees]

Anyway if you see me on extraction even more the next few days and are trying to say something you have free range to yell at me to turn off my music so I can actually hear you. I have learned I will only understand 30% of what you say otherwise o7

[rabbithaver]

thinking about silver's first experience with caffeine. he grew up eating asbestos and bricks. he's not used to stimulants.

and considering he's already jumpy as hell even when he hasn't consumed psychoactive beverages, i feel like he'd just end up being anxious and unable to sit still until it wears off

[just-hyde]

Just because I can.

@oopsarboreal

[hibiskooks]

We need to remember the actual villain of Trap:

The guy on the stairs who moved away from the woman that Cooper pushed down the stairs and didn't even try to catch/help her

[habitual-creatures]

Movie sounds good…Kev, honey/p we’re gonna have to move to the nest

Yeah!!! Nest!

[who-the-fuck-knows-blog]

[saltpepperbeard]

rhys is not david jenkins. there's one man in the world who knows how this story is supposed to end and anyone else is just speculating. plus i wouldn't put it past rhys to just fuck with us a little.

Truuuuue! I also realized right as Fox pointed out that was he most likely referring to them not holding onto their idyllic sunset moment if and when we get season three. Meaning, they'll still have challenges and hurdles to leap over and what have you, which WOULD indeed be on par.

Because yes, they're now on the same page, but still have so much personal growth to do, as well as growth together as a couple. And then the world beneath their feet is still indeed shaky. Ricky's still at large (Ricky when I CATCH YOU, RICKY. WHEN I CATCH YOU, RICKY), Zheng still wants revenge, the entirety of the Republic of Pirates is displaced, The Revenge itself could sail into issues, etc etc.

Soooo yeah. I let out a SHRIEK only to immediately be like "oh lol." And even still, you're right; David is the Captain on this ship anyway.

And I'm sure you're right part 2 electric boogaloo; I'm sure Rhys was like

at the notion of being chaotic/fucking with us. Wouldn't put it past him OR Taika. But like shdkshdkls rhysie pls my bLOOD PRESSURE,,,

[dino--draws]

How would you feel if someone cosplayed logician? (Totally not thinking about cosplaying that silly guy haha nope)

Utterly fascinated that I’m the one receiving this question and not the person who made the character

It’d be funky and damn cool to see but also Place does have a tumblr blog you can go ask them I don’t think he bites asdfghkkdjdjshshh

[inpatientofward222-willcipher]

YOU LOOK LIKE YOU’D START TEARING UP IF I DROPPED SOMETHING AND THE CLATTER WAS TOO LOUD

“ I have a condition! My eye just waters an abnormal amount and it’s not—Ugh, I don’t have to explain myself—cus you know what you look like then? You look like someone’s who’s going to get reincarnated as a tree one day and have to stand around and do nothing forever—and I know you’d probably loathe that. So there! “