#started to ramble a bit too much

[marigraphia]

I've had this pose ref saved for a while and the Superman set photos just gave off the same energy 👉🏻👈🏻

The reference is this photo of Katharine Hepburn as Antiope and Colin Keith-Johnston as Theseus in the 1932 play 'The Warrior's Husband' (and I'd love for people to turn into a draw your otp meme pls pls pls this pose is so good)

And also, of course, the Superman (2025) set photos

[ps-cactus]

Ominis: *trying to stay polite and reasonable*

Seb: *dissociating*

[moonshapedbox]

started monday night raw and holy shit i forgot how fuckin insane the wwe is….i just watched roman reigns get thrown over the announcers table like it was no big deal…like it was normal??? he’s a big guy how did u throw him like that sdfkjdf then when i think it’s over two more ppl come out of nowhere and start beating his ass like???? and then cody rhodes is there for like two seconds in a full dress suit to defend him and then he dips…roman throws a guy through a table and crushes it….it actually doesn’t get better than this

[myokk]

As someone who is constantly in awe of you, whether it’s art or writing, how do you stay motivated? 😭💙💖 such talent shouldn’t be legal!

Hi😭🥹🫶 I don’t know what I did to deserve such high praise😭😭🥹🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂💓💓💓💓

I only started writing in January & these fanarts I started in April so maybe I’m not the best to answer but I’ll try!!🫶🫶🫶

Short answer: I’m motivated by brainrot & the characters that move into my brain and demand to be drawn/written😭

Longer answer: I’ve always loved and been obsessed with stories & even before I learned fanfic was a thing last year (I live under a rock), I was always creating these crazy stories in my brain. I used to play the sims a lot for example…I would literally delete every premade family & make my own super complex relationships/generational drama and just watch the chaos play out and I always had so much fun coming up with different storylines and thinking about their personalities and how they would probably interact with each other.

I also read like CRAZY !!! 😳 I am a book devourer & am especially drawn to very long books that have beautiful writing and amazing characterizations:

Lonesome Dove (my favorite book of all time with my favorite character of all time, Gus🥺)

The Brothers Karamazov

Anna Karenina

Ulysses

100 Years of Solitude (100 años de soledad)

Rayuela (Hopscotch) & basically every Cortázar short story

Ok basically every Latin American novel/short story from the 20th century let’s be honest😆

The Mists of Avalon

Jane Austen

Donna Tartt

Etc etc etc I JUST LOVE READING !!!!

And so, even though I don’t consider myself a very good writer, and I would never even hope to become as good as the authors I read, I think it’s fun to try and capture some feelings and emotions of what it’s like to be human💓 I always try to write the characters with love and care and maybe it’s my obsession to make them almost three-dimensional that keeps my brain rot strong😆 I might not achieve it but I’m having a lot of fun trying…

As for creating so consistently, the writing part isn’t so hard bc once I get an idea in my mind I just want to write it! I don’t get oneshot ideas often but when I do I’m like😳✍️✍️✍️✍️ until it’s over😆 I think coming up with plot/ideas/characterizations takes me a lot longer than actually writing - I barely edit what I post because what I write down is already pretty polished.

For my art, I just love the human body/anatomy/angles etc and I have a lot of fun trying to make the drawings have a lot of movement and that’s kind of what motivates me. Art is also my job & so I’m just used to doing it all the time & these fanarts are a fun way to cool down after I do my “normal” art. The more I draw the more ideas I get, and I like to draw scenes from either my fanfic, or scenes that I think are cute but will probably never happen. But THEN sometimes the “extra” drawings inspire things, like my latest oneshot🫶

If you’re reading this and you’re a writer or artist too & look at it differently I would LOVE to hear what you think!!! Since I’m just starting out with all of this maybe there are better methods😆🫶 for me it’s just a love for stories and wanting to create all the time!!!

[hurricanek8art]

Screw it, I posted the fic, she's my other main oc in the SWTOR-fic-verse in my head and drafts, SO part two of me clawing my way out of my anxiety bubble: character profiles part two! In which i still suck at summarizing events without sounding pretentious or overdoing it on the lore dumping. I have like. two good screenshots of Chrysali on my tablet and no access to the ones on my old laptop hard drive still (😭😭😭), but thanks to @jeswii coming in the clutch with a screenshot so I don't claw my hair out (THANK YOU AGAIN) I have finished one out of three parts of that art thing I've been going insane rambling about lately and it's my favorite part of it so have this bit of a thing that I will finish eventually!🥴 I'm probably going to come back to this and swap the art out for the full finished piece once it's done-done, but! in the meantime!:

Chrysali Vidoi: the Cipher

Homeworld: Druckenwell

Born: 3662BBY (age 22 at start, currently 40)

Species: Genetically- and cybernetically-enhanced Human

Occupation: co-operations manager and head of Alliance Intelligence; formerly agent of the Imperial Intelligence division

Affiliations: Eternal Alliance; formerly Imperial Intelligence

Romances: Theron Shan

Chrysali Vidoi is a woman of many names—Cipher Nine, Nashtah Twelve, Legate, and countless more she cannot even remember, but none of them matter more to her than the one she was born with and constantly denied. A survivor of the Battle of Druckenwell as a child, Chrysali found herself rounded up in the aftermath by agents of the Imperial Science Division and taken as test subjects for the Arkanian cyber-geneticist Atro Arkova's Project: Nashtah. Arkova wanted to create a perfect living weapon, and through a combination of cybernetic modification and genetic enhancement, he made the children under his thumb more—faster, stronger, more agile, more capable in a fight, immune to the effects of external stimulants like alcohol and drugs, and with a lowered sensitivity to internal hormones like adrenaline that could impair their reactions. Better than droids because they could think for themselves, Arlova molded them into becoming a potential replacement for even the vaunted Cipher program one day. They were deadly killing machines with only one flaw: they were not invincible. By the time Chrysali (now designated Nashtah Twelve) came of age, only a handful of her fellow Nashtahs had survived their grueling training, and the project was closed down as a failure with the survivors shuffled into Imperial Intelligence instead. Chrysali took to the work like she was made for it (and she had been) but all the while hated everything about it—the Empire, the work, herself, everything. A rollercoaster three years followed that ended with Imperial Intelligence disbanded, Ardun Kothe's offer to make her a double-agent for the SIS, and Chrysali aimless as she struggled to be more than just the weapon she was made to become. The Revanite crisis served to be the lifeline out of her confusion, and Chrysali latched onto the allies she found amongst it, in particular finding something of a kindred spirit in Theron Shan. The years under Zakuul, then fighting Zakuul, brought them together, and now they are an unbreakable partnership in every sense of the word, facing down whatever comes next the way they do best—together.

[novadragoness]

A builder who totally understands where X is coming from, collecting all those shinies for Coco, because she also likes shiny things, and has been secretly leaving pretty rocks on Unsuur's porch for weeks now.

[gxlden-angels]

I've had this account now for 5ish years now. I've been in therapy for years, not exclusively for religious trauma but it's a major part. I've gotten better. I have a lot of content here I could reflect on, but I don't think I want to. I like knowing I progressed. I don't like looking at what from. Usually religious trauma comes up in therapy as an "oh yea...." instead of by name now. It's indirect. Enmeshment. Parentification. Vaginismus. Scrupulous and Harm OCD. Alexithymia. Derealization and Depersonalization. Paranoia.

I'm like, a real adult now I guess. I have a bachelor's degree now. I walk this upcoming weekend. I live in a house and I'm renting out a room with my own money. It has a backyard my cat likes to run around in. I had a job interview in my chosen field today. It went well

Then I'll go back to my family for the weekend and I find out they're spiraling into AI generated christian conspiracy theory videos. Their pastor is preaching about Trump being the anti-christ, and any non-Trump or Conspiracy message is the same thing he's said for the past decade, sometimes word for word. My uncle is convinced he's a prophet. He tells a story about a girl that was paralyzed after not listening to his message. My grandfather is convinced us black people are the true Israelites and chosen people. I thought I was the only one medically neglected by my aunt who's a doctor. I was not. I show her my emotions chart app. She tells me it's good so I can recognize when I feel bad and remember Jesus's love until I'm happy again. It's not normal for your joints to pop out of place apparently. We all learned this at the same time. It's Ehlers Danlos Syndrome. That explains a lot. My grandfather fell asleep to a video about the Ethiopian bible and how other bibles were made to take out miracles by Jesus and angels again. The remote is lodged in his hand so we can't change it

Then I talk about plants and food with my dad and my grandmother. My dad jokingly complains about his mom making him garden with her all day half a century ago. I give her a little kiss on her forehead before I go. My dad sends me home with leftover peach cobbler he made. I eat it with my lunch at my job. I answer phone calls at a front desk. I paid real taxes for the first time this year. I go to therapy and I talk about everything from my sex life to my graduate school plans to my opinions about generative AI (I hate it). I'm like, a real, breathing adult that has autonomy I guess. I'm not even claimed as a dependent anymore. I built my own desk that I bought from Big Lots.

You get where I'm going with this right? I'm not cured or healed by any means. Far from it in fact. I still get a pang of anxiety using the lord's name in vain and a chill down my spine when manifesting feels too close to confessing. It's harder making a personal post about religious trauma now though. It's not necessarily that I'm cured, it's just so engrained that I've created atheistic excuses to stay stuck in my religious trauma. I can pinpoint the source of it if I think about it long enough, so I don't think about it long enough

I'm not afraid to think lustful thoughts because holding lust in your heart is a sin, it's because I feel like a creep. I'm not worried I'll be sent to hell if I make mistakes that take me further from Jesus, I just think making mistakes would make me a bad person and an asshole. These beliefs popped out of nowhere, of course. They aren't influenced by the religious trauma so deeply buried in my head that taking it out would feel like taking out the gray matter of my brain itself. I'm schrodingers's man where I'm only a human when I'm observed. It used to be a deity but then it was you. I'm observed by you and that proved I'm human just long enough to get by when I most needed it. I still have that problem, but I'm seen outside of here. I see myself more often too

I don't want this post to seem like a good-bye, because it's not. I'm just currently in a period of limbo and I feel like the next generation of religious trauma bloggers are rising. I'm too busy arguing with my therapist about why I'm a bad person in a way that doesn't just boil down to "I'm a sinner in need of redemption" in a desperately-secular way. I'm self-aware enough to know that's what I'm doing, but not progressing enough to stop yet. I think what will happen is I'll eventually get frustrated enough to give up on the secular origins of my mental distress. I think a lot of you are in a similar place. You're out long enough that it feels like it should be over. You don't live in the bible-thumping, belt-wielding, gay-bashing, hellscape you once did. You might even be no-contact. You pay taxes now in your apartment. But it's not over. It's still there. It's just harder to say it's Jesus's fault I'm like this. It feels like it's been too long to still blame the bible.

It's not. It's buried in your synapses and neurons and muscles and bones and skin and hair and teeth and it's hard to remember that after 5 years. It's not oozing out into your bloodstream and filling you with enough cortisol and adrenaline to fuel an elephant anymore. It trickles though like a leaky faucet. I think I've lost the plot at this point, but you get it

Like I said, not a goodbye despite what it seems like. I just have to remember that a leaky faucet is still a concern

[saulathan]

Aradia looks at camera wantin a cookie

[lollytea]

Im very happy that I finally got to the point in the fic where Amity's motivations are made a bit more clear. It was EXHAUSTING getting comments telling me I'm laying it on too thick with her behaviour or that I've completely massacred the character and at that point I couldnt even say "please understand the kind of stress this little girl is under" of course she's cloying and obsessive and annoying and constantly micromanaging Willow's emotions. Of course she's doing more harm than good. She's buzzing with intense paranoia at all times and is terrified of what could possibly happen to her friend if she stops monitoring her for even five minutes. Of course she's fucking it all up. Of course she's constantly putting her foot in her mouth. She's a disaster. She's 14. She believes Willow's entire life is in HER hands for some fucking reason. Give this bitch a break.

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

can someone please banish this writer's block for me 😫

it's the worst i've had in such a long time and i've tried to be patient with it but it's been fucking weeks now. i want to write so much but whenever i try they just feel like words on a page. every evening i sit down and rearrange them a little here and there and add some new ones, but they all just feel empty and and shit and my brain feels totally devoid of the creative spark i need to make everything come to life.

i know in large part it's my perfectionism getting in the way, but i don't know how to break through it. i don't know how to feel connected to my writing again. i don't know how to shift this fear of not being good enough that surges up every time i pick up a pen.

it's something that's always been there - but usually it at least comes in waves, or my love of what i'm creating is big enough to muffle it. right now, it's all i can hear. my inspiration has been totally drowned out by it. and i hate it so, so much. the fact that i can't access the one thing that brings me the kind of solace and joy and escapism i can't get anywhere else and is so vital to my soul. that i am blocking myself from engaging in the one thing that makes me feel like me.

i just feel so stuck and so lost and i miss being in that creative headspace so much it’s like a physical pain. it feels like part of me is missing, and it terrifies me that i don't know how to get it back.

[sea-buns]

i need a drawfee archive that's got every stupid funny moment documented in chronological, alphabetized order for when i spontaneously remember a really obscure bit that i need to find or else i'll explode. i need to be able to type an extremely vague description in a search bar and have it understand me completely.

[wackywatchdotcom]

hiii !!! love ur art lots, so i've been wondering, what program/app and brushes you use? i love the paper effect you give to your drawings, makes me want to eat em /pos

thank you so much!!!! i appreciate that a lot :D!!!!

(accidentally rambled a lot abt this HAHA)

i use medibang!! ive been using it forrrr maybe like 7ish years now... ive been meaning to one day get clip studio or something but i havent had the chance to buy it and im also a little intimidated at the idea of having to readjust to a new program HAHA

i use a few different brushes!! it depends on what im drawing and what i feel like using at the time (i should probably plan them out more often, actually)

oil paint, g pen, fluffy watercolor, and round brush (wet) are all brushes that come with medibang!!! i know i made Another Marker myself, and im pretttttty sure i made the first marker one too? my favorites are round brush and g pen though!!! i tend to use fluffy watercolor more for colors rather than lineart

(i also keep correction at around 12, i would use it more since my hands arent the steadiest but i find high correction to be kinda confusing so i just keep it low)

the paper effect is smth i learned liiiike maybe two years ago ish? and i have simply KEPT doing it ever since HAHA i do wanna mess around with more textures cus i dont want to be too reliant on just one texture for my art but it IS very fun and i like it...

medibang has a feature that makes it REALLY easy to do!!

custom noise is my BEST friend. the sand, watercolor paper (specifically 2), and marker paper (specifically 2) are the ones i use most often!!!

i also will copy n paste color layers and lineart layer, add gaussian blur and do like 200 layer effects (i most often do this to lineart, then set it to hard light and somewhere between 30-60% opacity to mimic bleeding from ink!!). i DO often experiment w messing w colors wo layer effects cus its fun but sometimes its just more fun to use layer effects instead!!

medibang also has materials!!

i dont use them as often but i like this one :D ive used it on a handful of things

and just for fun!!! things look suuuper different without this stuff. like the thing i just posted used a LOT of this (to be honest its cus i really really didnt wanna do shading for it LOL but it still felt too flat and i feel like these effects are a nice middle ground- but i will still often use this stuff when i AM shading things)

sometimes i will also use similar custom noise textures but for different parts of the image!!! like in this one i had a waatercolor texture for the bg but a seperate one for the foreground

i DIIID a while back post a pic of kinger (its an older post on this acc- not old by most standards but it was during the first little while after i made this blog while i was still finding my footing w the characters) that used a bunch of different textures which i got from freestocktextures.com!! but i havent used them since. i keep thinking i should again

ANYWAY thats basically it!!!! i looove medibang theres a bunch of little things ive figured out abt using it over the yrs that im so fond of it. and THANK U again!!!!!! :']

[hopetatic]

i had no clue i would draw him again. but well, what am i gonna do with 3 hours of newfound knowledge about this one arg? Nothing? AS IF

Close ups below

[owlyflufff]

haikyu's dumpster batte is only going to be around 1 hour and 24 minutes, oh it's genuinely bokuakaover

[koyacyi-vode]

what if i.... got obsessed with Star Wars again??

[verridaiya]

I finally sat down and watched Sylus's new myth card (late to the party, I know) and I fear I will never be the same person again. I loved everything about it, I don't even know where to start-

(Beyond Cloudfall spoilers under)

The defiant struggle against fate, the Hades and Persephone-esque themes (the pomegranate, the Abyss/the Underworld), the inevitable tragedy. The way they were made to kill each other but chose not to and instead became so intertwined that when they chose to kill themselves instead it would still hurt the other (thereby still sort of fulfilling their fates while acting against it)

How fleeting their first life was, and how it was so steeped in catastrophe and curses that a simple, quiet life together could only be a dream and nothing else (Abyssal Blossom killed me, but more on that later)

How MC taught Sylus how to not just survive, but enjoy the pleasures in life. Music, companionship, warmth, love. Not just desires and wants, but something that goes beyond that. How he finally kissed their forehead back in the end, which they taught him was a sign of love, before he departed from them forever.

And how this young dragon has grown into something more, in another life, in this current timeline, this present Linkon. I actually really love how smoothly myth Sylus transitions into present-day Sylus and how we can see his past life directly influencing this current life. Everything he does now is because of MC, because they were and are his everything.