#stardew it is then lol bi

[bullworthtownfm]

Worked on a few couple of more Frenkie de Jong sprites in Stardew Valley style! There are still a couple sprites missing, but I feel like every little step of progress counts ;-) Even wrote some kind of schedule (if only a season) on some Word document as inspiration XD If only I could mod so I could make him an NPC <3 (But what is even that football lmao)

[crochet-y-old-woman]

anyway I have stardew brain rot, have some content little gay boys on a bench in town

[phoenix-eclipses]

Casting Love 0.9 -- The Voices

After hearing the news about the cafe, you plopped yourself down on the grass outside while thinking about where else you guys could go and who could have tried to do this to the cafe. Kenma had sat beside you, not saying much as he went on his own phone.

There was a good 15 minutes of silence between the two of you before he sighed, looking at you.

"Where do you want to try working at then?"

You stayed quiet. While you would normally return to your dorm during the hours the cafe would be closed, you were unsure about inviting him over. Not only was it currently a mess but you also didn't want to make Hajime uncomfortable by bringing your partner in randomly.

"I'm not sure... maybe the library?"

"It's on the other side of campus."

"...it is." you pouted, looking away from your phone.

"My place isn't far." his voice was a little hesitant as he started. When he noticed you glancing at him, he continued. "I have a roommate, though, and he has some of our other friends over. But I'm sure they wouldn't mind you coming."

"We could get immediate feedback that way!" You jumped up, shocking Kenma. "Any additions we make to it we can ask them how they'd react to it being on an actual website and also ask whether or not they like the business we made!"

"Okay." He nodded his head, standing up. "Let's go then."

You nodded your head, standing up and following after him. Kenma pulled out his phone, sending out a text to who you assume was his roommate before pocketing his phone once again.

0.8 -- Masterlist -- 0.10

Notes

This was supposed to come out earlier today but I recently got Stardew Valley and I ended up spending the majority of the day playing it instead-

I'm trying to focus on this story but I also have been conjuring up a Kuroo SMAU but I keep telling myself that one needs to wait lol

Also ooo wonder what happened with the cafeeee (I have several ideas and have not determined which one I am following through with)

Also also got so scared that my internet was gonna go out because we just got like a massive thunderstorm and I was gonna sob

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I've lost count but here's another "Sht my friends say as pjo characters" pt like 7???: Also side note sorry if I'm repeating these idr the last one i did lol:

Jason: I opened my glasses case and started panicking because I couldn't find my glasses... I'm literally wearing them

Leo: if I ever have a son ill take every chance to laugh at him

Reyna: Thalia the love magnet. She got b*tches (romantic) when all she wanted was b*tches (platonic) (Gojolover69, see last quotes post by @wraith--2)

Leo: so you're a ho*n't (same person above)

Piper: Stole scientific equipment and everything and we found out the smallest thing in the galaxy is the size of our patience because we gave up the search and stole a gazillion dollar dildo ( @wraith--2 )

Leo:....calculator

Reyna: You're a calculator

Leo: are you calling me smart?

Reyna: no I'm calling you a tool

(I'm Leo and @thatonelazyghost is Reyna here)

Piper: Coach keeps going on about ppl who aren't in and he's like and then there's Annabeth who's broken her ankle ( @wraith--2 )

Will: I'm gay, I have the spidey sense for rainbow things ( @indecisivenb)

Nico: it's not gay if it's from behind

Nico: I'm ready to leave now

Nico: like I'm done

Nico: too peopley

Nico: nvm coach gave me a maulteaser

(Me on my last day of college)

Annabeth: You absolute bean of a human

Piper: Hi its me, Percy, a twink! ( @thatonelazyghost)

Leo: I put Frank down because he's lactose intolerant (me)

Leo: dismember my body and stick me in a lightning McQueen coffin ( @wraith--2 )

Nico: what's your sexuality

Ghost swings it back and forth*

Nico writing down bi: Ah you swing both ways ( @wraith--2 )

Reyna about Leo: DAM bros balls didn't drop

Leo: ...and the tip was empty

Mr D about Connor and Travis: ITS THE F*CKING TWINS!!! WANNA KNOW HOW I KNOW THAT?! THAT GUY HAD THE F*CKING ZOOMIES HE HAD PLACES TO GO AND PEOPLE TO SEE

Nico: is anyone gonna pay attention to the fact Leo's dead?

Leo: THANK YOU!

Nico: You're dead shut up

(Nico is @thatonelazyghost and I'm Leo here)

Luke: I'm no p*ssy ill skin my victims infront of the lifeguard ( @wraith--2 )

Leo: like do you moan daddy, mammy or parental???

Playing stardew valley*

Nico: I love Willy

Everyone dies*

Percy: I love cream in my mouth! (Ider the context for this I just know the sake friend said the quote above this one too so it may be smth to do with that idr)

Leo: I don't need a psychiatrist I- ( @duckbakery)

Piper: you need God (Gojolover69)

Playing DnD*

Leo: I also successfully charmed a woman at the bar, then Nico ( @duckbakery ) goes

"The woman leads you away"

Everyone else: "ohh wait hold on ooo whats going on, dayum"

Nico: "you come back 2 minutes later"

Everyone dying laughing

Nico: "you went into a private room but couldn't stop talking about pirate ships so she gave up"

Alex Fiero (I think that's their name? I haven't read Magnus yet): Oh so YOU'RE the gender goblin ( @thatonelazyghost )

Mr D: I'm literally the god of gender identity, furries and monsters

Piper: I want someone to yippee on my body ( @thatonelazyghost )

Leo: Leo you should know better its because of your feminism you f*cking freak

Annabeth: Freaky feminists have got to be my favourite breed of gender (she was totally talking about Thalia here) ( @wraith--2 )

Calypso: Leo always finishes early

Leo: ye I do- WAIT WHAT?! ? ( @duckbakery )

Playing stardew*

Piper: LEOS A WOMAN

Piper: OMG HIS NAMES EMO-LY

(Me about another friend)

(Pic of character at end of post)

Nico: do you have any food?

Hades: Nope ( @duckbakery )

Nico: guess I'll die then

Thalia: I have a dead cat in my shed

Hazel: OMG PICS

Thalia: Read that again

Hazel: OH OH NO OH NO OH NOOOOOOOO I DIDNT SEE THE WORD DEAD

(I was Hazel here)

Rachel: I do other stuff than being ginger ( @duckbakery )

Percy: If you don't sleep rn im gonna call you tickle tipsin

Annabeth: ... what ( @duckbakery )

Nico: call me what now (me)

Percy: it's from the "it's been a year daddy" video you freaky f*cks

Nico: it's a beautiful day outside... f*ck- (GojoLover69)

Playing stardew valley*

Piper: annabeth ya know he likes pickles right?

Me: ya

Hazel: who like pickles?

Piper: Harvey

Hazel: divorse him!

Piper: ye he clearly likes men

(I'm annabeth and @duckbakery is piper here)

(The text was sent too early)

Percy: sorry I'm late I got blown

Percy: into smithereens

( @duckbakery )

Percy: This is more zesty than Piper and that's saying something ( @wraith--2 )

Leo to Jason: F*cking senile b*tch

Jason: I'm older and wiser except I'm not smart ( @duckbakery)

Piper: forget the fact I split a gay man in half in the gc ( @wraith--2 )

Coach Hedge to frank: why did you feel the need to @everyone about percy and annabeth getting 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴𝔂 ( @thatonelazyghost )

Annabeth: oooh eloquent 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴𝔂 ( @wraith--2 )

Reyna: Perchance you can suck my d*ck ( @wraith--2 )

Leo: Perchance you can commit tax fraud with me (Gojolover69)

Piper: Perchance we can stab ppl together ( @wraith--2 )

Percy: Perchance. Get on the f*cking boat and let's hunt 😈 (Gojolover69)

Rachel: perchance 7 half bloods shall answer the call to storm or fire the world perchance must fall with an oath to keep with a final breath perchance as foes bear arms to the doors of death perchnace (me)

Nico to will: Perchance you and me should fall into tartarus ( @wraith--2 )

Thalia: perchance we should all hug and kiss in a platonic way ( @thatonelazyghost )

Reyna: Perchance that is an excellent suggestion (Gojolover69)

Reyna: Perchance I shall kiss Thalia completely platonically ( @wraith--2 )

Percy: perchance that platonically is bs (me)

Reyna: Lies I'm off at sea and don't see Thalia every morning ( @wraith--2 )

Percy: i know for sure you've found a way regardless ( @thatonelazyghost )

Reyna: I feel like this is bullying ( @wraith--2 )

Leo: guys we need to do among us in real life ( @duckbakery )

Annabeth: That's already a game Leo, it's called mafia ( @thatonelazyghost )

Percy: I see you've grown a brain can you share (friend from work)

Thalia: the need to refer to eachother as "love", "dear" and "pookie" is strong but the aro is stronger ( @thatonelazyghost )

Piper: this whole group is secretly but not very secretly a big polyamorous relationship ( @thatonelazyghost )

Reyna: So glad the sex aversion in me is strong cause imagine the stds going round this place my God ( @wraith--2 )

Annabeth: i'm iconic i'm quotable and i'm autistic ( @thatonelazyghost )

Leo: Are you a heinz baked beans, extra rich tomato sauce-sexual? (Gojolover69)

Percy: So my mam booked me and my sister a swimming lane for tmr morning, and I'm like oh dear God mother, u do know I'm currently blasting liquid magma from my a*s, which travels at super sonic speeds, do you reckon this is safe for public health? (Gojolover69)

[stardew-shitposterino]

Stardew Valley Bachelor/ettes and their sexuality headcanons

Yeah yeah I know, they are all canonically bisexual or something like that, but I have some headcanons to go further into it as to just say “he/she is bi”. It’s my silly little blog and I get to choose the content ok lol anyway:

Content warning: slight nsfw so minors DNI

Bachelors:

Sam: raging bisexual and proud. Doesn’t care what others think of it, maybe his mum and dad though, speaking of that with them feels still kinda weird as he doesn’t feel comfortable talking about such things with them. But overall he never gave his sexuality a second thought and goes with whoever he has caught feelings for.

Sebastian: bisexual but is more into women. Feels uncomfortable speaking about it. He didn’t know he liked men until he met the farmer (if they are male). He felt ashamed of his feelings for the same sex, but the farmer helped him come out of his shell. Robin and Maru don’t care and support him no matter what, Demetrius however…but it doesn’t matter who it is he likes, this guy will always pick a fight with Sebby so yeah.

Harvey: again, bisexual but prefers women. Has kissed a man before in his college days doing some dumb drinking game (he liked it more than he likes to admit) but never done more. He’s knows that homosexuality is natural in all sorts of species and therefore doesn’t think it’s weird. However, he feels a bit awkward having to confront himself about his own bisexuality, but he generally feels shy about his personal matters, especially when it might get people talking. When he catches feelings for the male farmer, he fears that the farmer will think poorly of his attraction and therefore has a harder time accepting his feelings for them than for the female farmer.

Shane: I said it before, I’ll say it again: man fucked in his gridball days, mostly women, again, but he also had a thing with a guy. He doesn’t like to speak about his bisexuality and pretends he’s straight because it’s less of a hassle to say if he’s asked. He doesn’t want the surprised looks of people because he doesn’t seem like a guy who’d also date men. Despite that, he likes women a tad more (boob guy, also likes eating 🐱), but he can’t deny his attraction towards male athletic builds. He won’t ever admit it though, of course.

Elliott: bisexual and proud. Has no preference whatsoever. He mostly writes about heterosexual relationships and loves the female anatomy as it’s different to his, therefore more intriguing to him in an artistic aspect, but he won’t pick favourites. All bodies have their perks and he’s open to give love to every body that’s attached to a person he loves. His first relationship was with a man, but he always knew that his attraction is not limited to one. He’s a romantic artist, and therefore finds beauty in all different shapes and sizes.

Alex: bisexual but says he’s straight because he is convinced he is. The hours he spent looking at shredded man abs in his youth definitely weren’t first indicators, he just wanted to look like this, not look AT this. He also definitely didn’t have some codependent homoerotic friendship with a fellow sportsman in high school, no no couldn’t be him. He prefers women, or it’s his denial, who knows 🤷🏼‍♀️ needless to say, he assumes he’s straight till he meets the (male) farmer and is immediately struck by love. It puts him in a spiral, but eventually he accepts his feelings and is happy he is finally true to himself.

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Bachelorettes:

Haley: bisexual but prefers men. She has had a thing for the shy girl in high school, but decided to bully her instead as it seemed easier for her than come clean to herself about her feelings for another woman, a woman that doesn’t play in her league popularity-wise specifically. The relationships she had with men were mostly superficial and loveless, but she took it as a necessary evil. That stops when she meets the farmer. If the farmer is female, she will finally open up about being bisexual, happy she isn’t in denial anymore and true to herself after years of self hatred regarding that part of herself. If the farmer is male, she will be more than happy to know that she isn’t broken and that her past lovers were just sacks of shit that didn’t care about her lol.

Emily: bisexual, thought she’s a lesbian. She has a thing for her friend Sandy, let’s be real here. Also dated Shane in college for at least a couple of weeks until they realised they don’t have a thing for each other and are better off being friends. Because of that, she thought she’s homosexual as she never had any romantic feelings for a man. That changes when she meets the farmer though. If male, she will discover her bisexuality and be excited to explore new sides of herself. If female, she will stay thinking she’s a lesbian and be happy with her cute wife.

Leah: bisexual and knows it. Leah is gay or straight depending on what gender the player is, but I think she’s just open to whatever, but would like to say she’s a lesbian tbh, but we know she’s not :( she’s an artsy person like Elliott, so it didn’t take her long to realise she likes people of the male and female sex. Definitely spent a lot of her teenhood drawing naked women in her sketchbook like all of us lmfao. Oh yeah, she prefers women in my books, your honour. At least feminine-presenting people.

Penny: bisexual, masks as straight but prefers women in secret. She thinks having homosexual thoughts is forbidden for a good girl like her to have, but she can’t stop pining for the female farmer once they enter her life. She keeps dropping hints about wishing to live on a farm like theirs, dreams about kissing their lips and whatnot but feeling guilty about it. With the male farmer, it’s different. She doesn’t feel as much shame, but it takes her longer to develop feelings for them.

Maru: bisexual but honestly? Probably demisexual, if not some other sort of asexual. She has no time for romance and doesn’t really think about it much. When she catches feelings for the farmer, it surprises her that she’s even capable of feeling those things for any person really. Her having homo-or heterosexual feelings for someone isn’t a concern to her at all, just the fact she lets herself get distracted with things like that is. Eventually she learns to go easy on herself and accept that she’s human with desires like everyone else.

Abigail: bisexual, has no preference but can’t deny she likes the idea of being visibly queer by having a partner of the same sex or someone androgynous-looking. Doesn’t have a lot of dating experience really, also not big on having crushes. She has a thing for Sebastian though, but its not that deep. The farmer changes everything. She will see them as a cool friend around her age at first, but will grow attached to them over the course of their friendship, especially with their shared love of adventure and falling out of place in this small town.

[emmaestrella]

hi i’m em/emma/emma grace :D

i use they/she/fae pronouns

i’m genderqueer (confused lol) and bi/cupioromantic/ace

i run a couple of where-is blogs!! (pink snail and mogswamp)

 i love taylor swift so much it’s insane

these are some things i like: minecraft, traffic life series, hermitcraft, stardew valley, reading, marching band, music, taylor swift, ajr, the crane wives, maisie peters, writing, playing the trumpet

these are some things i don’t like: chocolate (yes ik im weird), mean people, sudden/loud noises, bugs, dogs, cooked fruit (funny texture), hot weather

here are some othet things about me that i think are relevant: i think i’m audhd, i have some sort of undiagnosed joint condition, i rlly need ppl to use tone tags with me, i’m a fanfic author (tho i don’t update often), i’m a band kid, and i’m a swiftie

my ao3 is same as here, emmaestrella, and i have a couple aus going rn! my pinterest is emma__estrella

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[saywha413]

Heyyy there it’s me!! Name’s Sarah, he/she/they! Bi, ace, demiromantic, genderqueer, and agendary :) pronouns page I primarily blog abt pokemon, but there’s some cookie run, and other things!!

selfship blog: @sarahs-malewives

If you know me from discord, then you’ll know abt my silly usernames lol. If you want to call me Arven/Hugh/Felix/Kaeya/Eugene/Rolf go ahead.

also I’m a big oc guy. if you don’t like oc/canon, self insert/canon, or selfshipping please dni. other than that, relatively basic dni! you know who you are

Asks are always open! Feel free to ask me about anything you want!!

(please look through the “keep reading” before interacting!)

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Stardew Valley RP Blog

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Although I’d prefer questions on those blogs specifically, feel free to ask about them here too :)

I have a whole bunch of pokemon ships, so here’s a list (which I update every once in a while)

and if you’re looking for the old pinned (where I drew 12 ships) that’s here :) (individual drawings here)

here’s my old banner! linking to save for myself mostly lol

art tag is #my art writing tag is #my writing

tags relating to my fics: #a flame in the snow #what’s a rapport between friends?

random links: ao3 / artfight / toyhouse / pinterest / pokefarm / flight rising (I am very inactive on pokefarm and flight rising. I only check occasionally)

Interests + favorite /r ships, favorite /p ships, & fave char (if they apply) !

Major! (I talk/think about them a lot)

Pokemon (games + anime (fixated on jn but never finished it, interested in hz but never started it)). just check the ship list linked above (or oc/hugh if that counts). Silver & Hugh & Gladion are so friends to me. Hugh

Cookie run (kingdom). Crunchyvelvet/Velvetchip. Red Velvet & my hc for his cousins, Black Raisin & Crowberry & Prune Juice. Red Velvet

Mythology (specifically Greek, but I like all of them!). Athena

Cats. generally.

Cassette beasts. Eugene x oc. Eugene

Unicorn overlord (I am insane abt this rn). Alain x Rolf x Aubin x Aramis x Ithilion. Alain & Lex. Rolf I think

Hades game. (I have beaten it !) Thanzag. Zagreus & anyone (his silly ahh banter >>>). Zagreus

Minor! (I do post about them, just not as much!)

Octopath traveler 1. Olberus/Eisenbright, Olberic x Erhardt. My current party (H’aanit, Therion, Olberic, Cyrus) is so found family to me (two gay dads and their lesbian daughter/gay son. I LOVE THEM). H’aanit, Therion

Fire emblem (three houses). Felileth/Bylix. Byleth & anyone. Felix

Dislyte. Lufal. Falken

Monster hunter (stories (2)). Alwin x oc. Alwin & Navirou & Protag. Alwin

Dragon quest (xi). Luminerik, Henjasp. Erik

Animal crossing (new horizons). It feels weird to say I have ac ships but I’m a Bianca x Audie and Freya x Fang truther. Raymond

Afk journey. Valen x Merlin/oc ig. Valen

Background! (I like these things, just don’t rlly talk abt them! Feel free to ask abt them though!)

Zelda (botw/totk). Sidlink, Revalink. Link & Zelda. Link

Stardew valley. Leah x farmer, Sambastian. Leah & Abigail. Leah

Mario. Bowser

The owl house (and the shows you would kinda associate with it? amphibia, the ghost and molly mcgee, she-ra, etc). Goldric/Huntric, Willumity. Luz & Hunter. Luz, Hunter

Encanto. Luisa

Miitopia

riordanverse or whatever it’s called (specifically pjo, hoo, and magnus chase)

Grishaverse (specifically soc duology). Wesper, Darklina. The crows.

Sims 4

Omori (got into it from a yt playthrough, never played it myself). Heromari

I’m not really into these fandoms, but there’s probably like one ship I really like in there lol

Sonic the hedgehog. Sonuckles, Blazamy. Sonic & Tails & Knuckles. Knuckles

Kingdom hearts. Soriku. Sora & Riku & Kairi. Riku

Disney descendants. Jaylos. Core four

Star vs the forces of evil. Tomco, Janstarkie.

Ace attorney. Wrightworth/Narumitsu

Miraculous. I actually hate the show (even though I watched the whole thing (it was like so bad I couldn’t tear my eyes from it)) but alas. I do like Lukadrien, Zoegaminette, Feligaminette.

dunmeshi. Labru, kinda also Farcille. (I could watch it. but like. it’s only subbed afaik and I cannot watch anything without eng vas bc I basically just listen to things while I play video games or draw or smth. I do want to watch it though and I might at some point)

if we are besties (read: mutuals), feel free to ask for discord/switch friend code! I have the right to politely decline if I feel we’re not close enough though! (no need to worry though. there’s a good chance I accept)

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[yourbelgianthings]

mutuals/followers please help i’m indecisive lol

[obsessingonthevalley]

If Stardew characters weren't "Bi" what would they be?

Penny: starting with the easiest, aroace. Are we kidding... Also, she's in a queerplatonic relationship with Maru and no one can dispute that fact.

Maru: Pansexual, I don't even know why she just is.

Seb: Gay as shit, as someone who's married him as a man and a woman it felt more real as a man. lol

Sam: so unbelievably bisexual

Abigail: truly don't know, maybe bi, but like I'm getting straight vibes, maybe unlabelled, she does seem young.

Haley: lesbian

Leah: pan but doesn't say it

Elliot: straight (derogatory)

Emily: pan are we kidding

Shane: oooh, hard, never come out but bi.

Alex: Homie-sexual. nah but gay. very gay.

Harvey: kinda giving straight? and gay? not bi tho. (bi button who?)

[oranges-arent-fruits-idiot]

hello world!!!

so hi!! we are a system with 30ish alters! you can always call us whichever one is fronting or just axce/kaeso/kae to refer to the body! since we're plural you can use the fronting party's pronouns or just honestly any pronouns you want, mainly neopronouns! i'm quite excited, sorry :D

to see our original thoughts you can search the tag "#kae post" for that!

check out our simply plural for more on alters (trust me i'll have a link out soon)

i'm your local nyc street rat coming out of his cave to tell you strange tales of the world around y'all (and maybe i'll make this an ARG but I Really Have No Clue)

we will often use plural pronouns, bad grammar/weird spelling, leetspeak, numbers, alternate caps, and other stuff so be patient plz diagnosed: autism adhd ptsd DID dyslexia dyscalcia EDS and potentially bpd (aka haha we're fucked up)

most alters are atheist but amara, mara, aspen, and vanessa practice Celtic paganism

hyperfixations/interests

minecraft

stardew valley

omori

queer history

riot grrrl punk

hyperpop

nerdcore

horrorcore rap

pop punk

crust punk

will wood & the tapeworms

penelope scott

undertale/deltarune

the theorist channels

markiplier

unus annus

memey music from the early-mid 2010s

prehistoric creatures in funny looking jars

mesosaurs

lemon demon

tally hall

jack stauber

analog horror

old cancelled kids shows (shirt tales)

helluva boss

doki doki literature club

the binding of isaac

guitar

bass (not the fish)

psychology

stand up comedy (john mulaney and bo burnham)

pokemon

animal crossing

south park

poppy playtime

vita carnis (analogue horror)

the boiled one phenomenon (analogue horror)

the man in the suit (analogue horror)

the mandela catalogue (analogue horror)

the fnaf vhs tapes (analogue horror)

bosivert (analogue horror)

vocaloids (especially miku)

sanrio (mostly kuromi and kero kero keroppi)

musicals but especially heathers

early 2000's dcoms (the OC, 90210 (the remake), one tree hill, etc)

early 2000's sitcoms (parks and rec, the office, gilmore girls, etc)

the hunger games

special interests (current and past):

FNaF

homestuck

political science (i'm an athiest but still Praying For Our Country Cause The Fucking Election Is Going To Doom Us All)

kandi (the Cool Rave Bracelets)

insane clown posse (icp)

analogue horror in general

minecraft

Greco-Roman and Asian world history

ALTERS: (hearts indicate which alters are currently known to be dating @meri-goround, the rest are either, a. traumaholders who shouldnt, b. aroace alters, c. children or not emotionally competent enough to date, or d. alters who are currently dormant/practically never front)

ace ♠️ - 11, thankfully gave up host role, the body's first resident, gender-fluid bisexual demirose and greyrose. kind of chaotic and also an autistic child with ptsd so be nice. just split into ace and axce recently so sorry if you're confused. mostly just a traumaholder now. pronouns are he/they/she

axce ❤️ - such a silly goober! funny haha autistc gremiln. eats too much soup. loves her girlfriend sooooooo much! transfem bi bundle of rage, pronouns are ze/she/he/they ❤️

ada ⚠️  - 6, old self, ptsd, autism, and bpd. trauma-holder. constantly causes problems but also shouldn't be attacked, she's really fragile. pronouns are she/it

??? ⚰️ - ??, demonic entity/personification of trauma/body's schizoaffective. doesn't front but can be detrimental to other's mental states. pronouns are ????

becka 🛝 - 7, one of the first splits. reeeeeeeaaaaallyy big traumaholder. pretty much has complete amnesia to everything else tho. tries to act socially and emotionally competent and cishetalloabled but can’t. pronouns are she/her?

ashley 😡 - 9, complete personality copy of our first abuser. really shitty person. just gonna try to ignore her lol. pronouns are she/they

tobias 😨 - 9, complete personality copy of our second abuser. really shitty guy. just gonna try to ignore him lol. pronouns are they/them

mori 💀 - 10-15 year old (we don't know) non-binary/agender thing who likes dnd, journaling, cosplay, mcyts, and old tech. your average white frog non-binary stereotype. autistic. only wears sweaters. pronouns are xe/mori ❤️

alex 🎤 - 19, trans gay stand-up comedian. likes anime and rap. kinda basic white boy (can't cook). dyslexic and dumb. he hates it here. chronic pain and fatigue. doesn't front much but can cause he's a dumbshit and doesn't know how most of the time. pronouns are he/him ❤️

apsen 🔥 - 15, ur average punk juggalo who likes to break shit. he is nice, though! he is a kin of foxybro/young micheal from fnaf. keeps making way too many damn battlevests. pronouns are he/him ❤️

amara 🌺 - 16, feminine friend to the littles who likes flowers and the outdoors. transfem and aroace. likes to play stardew valley. cooks a lot. pronouns are she/her ❤️

mara 🌼 - 15, quiet introvert who's really good at video games. talks in a really high voice and is super calm. really smart and good at remembering things. panromantic ace demi-girl. pronouns are they/she ❤️

ara 🌸 - 14, sassy babysitter who has no concept of math. trans bisexual aromantic girl. this girl has all the adhd. she really likes fruit smoothies and taylor swift. seems like a trashy white girl but is really self aware and punk. someone showed her an ani difranco concert and she got so excited she shaved her head lol. pronouns are she/xe ❤️

ash 💥 - 7 (a little), creative and fun! one of the main fronters, surprisingly! androgynous bi-gender little who wants to be an artist! plays a lot of video games and draws with crayons! uses many exclamation points! kins sun (fnaf), nepeta (homestuck) and ash (pokémon)! very dyslexic and dyspraxic and has unmedicated ADHD and bad sensory issues! likes pokémon, minecraft, fnaf, and homestuck (it is too old for him but he learned about it through ace and can't stop reading it) and their fandoms and fansongs! pronouns are he/she/ze/sun/ash

dave 💿  - fictive of dave strider from homestuck, 14, trans and bi, uses any pronouns

sun ☀️ - fictive of sun from fnaf, protector/caretaker of the littles. rarely fronts, almost exclusively co-fronts with greg or ash. 16, genderqueer, pronouns are they/he/she/sun

elizabeth 🍦 - fictive of elizabeth afton from fnaf. super loud and obnoxious. 8 (a little), transfem, pronouns are she/her

evan afton 🧸 - fictive of evan afton (crying child) from fnaf. trauma-holder. completely nob-verbal and non-communicative. 6 (a little), pronouns are he/him

gamzee 🎪 - fictive of gamzee makara from homestuck, 17, trans aroace, pronouns are he/they. one of the main fronters for some reason. skitzoaffective and autism. mostly mute other than saying completely crazy shit (voicing intrusive thoughts). really hates school. pities his friends. 

mituna ⭐️ - fictive of mituna captor from homestuck, 4 (a little), trans, uses any pronouns. super creative and loud but non-verbal. makes a lot of noises and tries to communicate in crude ASL and his own sign language. really bad sensory issues.

sollux 🌟 - fictive of sollux captor from homestuck, 17, bi-gender and bisexual, pronouns are he/she/bee. token older sibling who is so tired and annoyed. looks constantly hungover. addicted to tumblr. ❤️

gregory 🍕 - fictive of gregory from fnaf. most people call him greg. one of the main fronters. the only competent one in the system, wstg. really loves his source. 14, trans and aroace, pronouns are he/they ❤️

vannessa 🐰 - fictive of vanessa from fnaf. a protector. 19, trans and aromantic aplatonic. pronouns are she/they. ❤️

DNI:

bigots

exclusionaries

racists

pro endos

facists

republicans

TERFS

rude people

proshippers

endos/other -genics that are NOT TRAUMAGENIC PLS DONT INTERACT I DONT WANNA DEAL WITH SYSCOURSE ON MY BLOG EVEN THO I’M ANTI ENDO

aphobes/transphobes/homophobes

creepy peeps (pedos, zoos, MAPs, etc)

anyone I know IRL that shouldn’t know my tumblr exists (except tez, st4r, and don)

people i've blocked b4 on other accounts (u know who u r)

anyone who just doesn't like what i have to say if it's harmless (i'll take criticism but if you're gonna come to my blog to be an asshole for no reason then Screw You, Man!)

[gaynpc03]

welcome to my gay ass blog, lol

Lots and lots of fandom and disability posting on here... yeah..

i'm diagnosed autistic, ADHD, DID (but that's not what this blog is for) and have a variety of physical disabilities including endometriosis, polycystic ovaries, CFS, POTS, hEDS, fibro and use a wheelchair when needed.

i'm studying psychology at university with hopes/plans to become a clinical psychologist (basically, the DSM-5 and ICD-10 are my best friends AND worst enemies)..majoring in mental health applications and psychological science

they/he, enby/trans masc leaning, genderfluid, enby who prefers the trans flag in appearance but is also very much a (trans) demiboy but also likes skirts and is somewhat fluid in pronouns and terms.

Fuck it lmao, who knows

Gender is a show. Today's performances is cancelled due to lack of interest.

Bi polyam and demirose (demiromantic & demisexual)

:)

my transition goal is to fully confuse everyone around me, "what the heck is going on with that person, I'm going to have to ask their pronouns..."

confuse the cis.

I don't have a DNI (mostly bc I think they're pointless and most people don't adhere to them lol), just bear in mind I'm a young adult, and my posts will reflect that.

No visual nudity, unless it's art 🥰❤️

Have a good one <3

dividers from @tsunami-of-tears @strangergraphics

Interests under the cut

this is by NO means all of them, but here we go

Fandoms

The Legend of Zelda

Heartstopper

Osora

Pixar

HermitCraft

Stray

Arcane

Kane Chronicles & Percy Jackson

Kaos

Fourth Wing

Vaguely Marvel adjacent

Cattails: Wildwood Story (Falcon Development, you're the best)

Stardew Valley

Undertale

Musicians

Beth Crowley

Nathan Wagner

Taylor Swift

Neoni

AViVA

Chxrlotte

UNSECRET

Cavetown

NF

Dean Lewis

Rapture Ruckus

Lewis Capaldi

girl in red

Hollywood undead

Queen

Icon for Hire

Misc. Interests

Psychology (specifically childhood development, trauma, and neurodiversity)

Disability

Biology

Gender & Feminist Theory

Sex, reproduction, and kink ed

Religion and cults

Sociology

Philosophy

Etymology (how words develop)

Technology

Books: …. *Insert enormous list here* you know what, have my Goodreads favourites shelf lol.

[kaycode1999]

Ahhhh just doing it again I’m sorry 😭😭😭😭

Hi!!!!

May I request a matchup for myself? One from MHA and one from KNY, please!

My personality? It’s strange. I feel like I more copy what other people are like, but if I’d have to say something definitive….

I’m an airhead. I’m extremely blunt in what I say, but I’ve also been described as ‘speaks like an old English poet’ so??? I speak my mind and I’m also very aggressive. I’m stubborn, to a fault, and also very indecisive. I stay in my room most of the time, as there’s nobody to actually talk to at home (I’m an only child) but I don’t mind traveling. I’m talkative and fidget a lot, and all of my jokes are either extremely dark or strange. I don’t deal with peoples bs, and I’ve made one or two well known school bullies cry because of how I can speak to them if they’re bullying my friends. I’m academically gifted (that’s what literally everyone says. I think it’s the Autism) and I’m usually a straight A student besides in PE / Gym. My MBTI is INTP and my bday is Aug 10, which makes me a Leo.

IM AUSTRALIAN!!!!! I’m nonbinary, and prefer to use She/Her and They/Them pronouns, but I don’t really mind the other ones :) I’m Demi // Bi (I have a female lean, but I also love men) and I have a sort of mid brown hair colour with a streak of white in the front (I dye my hair quite a bit lol). My eyes are actually blue-grey-green, with the main colour being a bluish-grey and the area just around my pupil is green. I have ADHD, an eating disorder, insomnia, OCD, an anxiety disorder and I’m very high functioning ASD alongside being a short sleeper. I also have a lot of other physical health problems too. I adore drawing, reading and playing video games, especially open-world explorer games and slice of life games, but I also enjoy indie games. I adore the rain, and I’m an ambivert with a large friend group :). I actually have half of my body tattooed :)

I’m usually up extremely late, and I wake up early, but I don’t feel tired from shorter sleep due to being a short sleeper. I am 5’9 (tall for my age), and my aesthetic is tomboy and weirdcore! I’m extremely skinny (you can see my spine through my shirts :( ) and paranoid at about what other people think of me. I’m a snake and a cat person, and I also loveeeeee rodents -especially ferrets- and birds.

My favourite foods are Japanese street foods, but I can’t stomach any kind of seafood, olive or tomato. I’m allergic to soap. I’m very sensitive, both emotionally and physically, but also very strange. I bite people to show affection (my love language is the sixth one: violence /j) and my actual love language is physical touch.

My favourite shows and movies are: MHA, KNY, Dunmeshi, Advent Children, Pacific Rim, Lord of kf the Rings and House MD. My favourite video games are Horizon Zero Dawn + Forbidden west, Final Fantasy 7 Remake + Rebirth + Crisis Core + Dirge of Cerberus, Hades, Stardew Valley and Hollowknight. I’m a backstage theatre kid, the one who works all of the lights. I love to read fantasy literature and adventure novels.

My ideal type is intelligent women, ideally much shorter or taller than I am, who are in either STEM or healthcare. My ideal type for men is antisocial but sweet, emo, absolute cinnamon roll, strong but shy.

I would prefer to be matched with a human (kny) and a hero over a villain (pro or UA student, either is fine as long as it’s not a UA teacher [especially Aizawa].) but if there is a villain who you feel would suit me extremely well, then go fro it!

Some other things:

I’m a Greek fanatic. I love all things mythology in general actually.

I’m an atheist but I’d do like to think that they’re is something after death.

I believe in the paranormal!

Like Obanai, I don’t enjoy eating myself, but if my partner is a big eater then I’ll happily sit and watch them eat.

I love pumpkin spice and Autumn is my favourite season (in places like Japan tho)

My kins (I can’t give reasons as they’re all extremely personal)

Mithrun from Dunmeshi.

Thistle from Dunmeshi.

Shinobu from KNY.

Giyu from KNY

Ochaco from MHA.

MHA

Himiko Toga

First off; she will never treat you any differently because you’re “ Strange” and she certainly doesn’t think of you like that

You both understand each other on a deeper level because you both kind of mimic other people in your own ways

Given the people she is around I don’t think she necessarily even thinks you’re blunt. Just honest

From what I understand of her she is more decisive and possibly less stubborn especially with people she cares about and care about her so you balance each other out in that way

You two have being only child in common as far as I am aware so I honestly see you two having a deep connection because you both you’re both one of the only ones the other has

I think she’d like to travel with you, she seems pretty chill to do anything with you

She is also pretty talkative and fidgety

She loves your humor/jokes and even makes some of her own

She had to learn to take care of herself through everything she’s been through. It’s not lost on me that her parents abused her, so if you go after someone who hurts her or upsets her it honestly makes her emotional because she’s never had anyone stand up for her or protect her before

She cares about you and wants to make sure you’re physically healthy, so she might suggest getting help with the eating disorder. However, she is completely non judgmental and will never force you to do that if you don’t want and she will not bring it up besides lightly suggesting

I don’t know why but I feel like she’s is a very heavy sleeper, so odds are she won’t be awake if you can’t sleep. But that doesn’t mean you can’t wake her up if you just want some company

Honestly for any of the disorders or really anything she’s there for you in whatever way you need and is very understanding and loving

She also loves all the kinds of animals people tend to deem “ weird” because she feels a kinship with them

I mean she consumes peoples blood I don’t think biting is going to bother her much 😂

I think she enjoys learning about mythology with you because it’s generally interesting

She loves playing video games with you

Will sit outside and chill with you and listen to the rain

She enjoys spending time with you and your friends

Thinks your tattoos are really freaking cool

She loves physical affection in part because she’s never gotten any * her parents are assholes I’m sorry- I hate them😭*, she loves just cuddling while watching something or holding hands, whatever

Demon Slayer

Shinobu Kocho

She is fairly blunt herself so I don’t think she thinks anything about it *not her telling Giyu people don’t like him*😭

I think she appreciates the whole speaks like an English poet thing

She is on the stubborn side as well but actually very decisive, so if you need her to make decisions she can

She seems like she would like being able to travel with you, like take a nice little vacation and relax

No one really gives her a hard time that I’ve seen so she doesn’t necessarily need someone to stand up for her, but I think she appreciates that you can handle yourself and stand up for others

From what I’ve gathered she’s a little more on the quiet side especially after losing her sister but she really enjoys when you’re talkative and fidgety. She likes knowing you’re happy

Your humor/dark jokes may have surprised her at first but she finds you funny

She appreciates that you’re academically gifted

Also just like Toga, for any of the disorders she’s understanding and caring

She does run the healing part of the demon slayer corps so she might even have some sort of concoction that helps with the insomnia; if not though she does deal with demons and injured people at all times so it wouldn’t be rare for her to be up if you can’t sleep

I think she also likes those animals you mentioned, maybe not as much but still likes them. She doesn’t have the aversion a lot of other people do

As long as it isn’t particularly hard or draws blood I think she’s fine with you biting her to show affection

She also likes hanging out with you and your friends. She doesn’t have many friends outside of her fellow hashira/demon slayer corps so it’s nice to have those friends becomes her friends as well

Also enjoys physical affection, she’s not used to it at first but once she gets comfortable with it she’ll cuddle, hug, hold your hand, whatever whenever you want

She also likes to learn about mythology with you, and whenever she sees like a book or something pertaining to some mythology she will definitely get it for you

I really hope you like it😅

[boy-rott]

intro post <3

BASIC INFO

hiii!! i'm oliver

transmasc and bi

minor!!!

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INTERESTS AND FANDOMS

ghibli films, over the garden wall, fantastic mr fox, kimi ni todoke, k-on, evangelion, madoka, sanrio, saiki k, regular show, ouran high school host club, devilman crybaby, persona 5, honkai star rail, dead poets society, stardew valley, scott pilgrim, i'm trying to get into resident evil and final fantasy

i enjoy baking, reading, drawing on occasion, and taking a nice shower

some music artists i like are laufey, hozier, bôa, the cardigans, soundgarden, the cranberries, the smashing pumpkins, etc

DNI

basics (racist, homophobic, transphobic, ableist) zoophiles, proshipper (please get the help you need if it's out of trauma, you deserve better <3), fujoshis, dsmp, JJK and object show fans are on THIN ice! 21+/-13

BYF

adhd, slow replies sometimes, i struggle understanding tone lol, i yap a lot, and i make a lot of spelling errors

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KINS/CHARACTERS I RELATE TO

howl pendragon (howls moving castle), kaido shun (saiki k), shinji ikari (neon genesis evangelion), mugi (k-on), haruhi (ouran high school host club)

CARRD

[penname-artist]

Sorry to hear you're going through a tough time, idk how much it'll help but here's a slightly rushed meme I made because I think these two are just funny together

I was also wondering if you had any ship headcanons for these two? Cropslinger is back on my mind again😔 no pressure ofc

A wonderful meme lol. Nothing gets me better than the reminder that when Dusty caught up to Ripslinger in the last leg of the race, the first words out of his mouth are NOT a glorious and well thought-up comeback, no. What does he say?

Proof Dusty is in fact the most humble (if not the most dense) thing ever.

Anyways onto Cropslinger content!

(Side-note: I'm going to be completely honest and say that first of all Bobbly's depiction of these two's interactions post enemies to friends is KING. I may be completely biased in that regard just because the If You Tame Me series is literally what got me into writing Planes fanfiction in the first place, but regardless, the chemistry of the two in that series and all of its surrounding material is golden, and I think that's exactly the sort of banter those two would get up to. Two dudes sharing their last fleeting braincells together - or, more like Dusty buzzing around all of Rip's and trying to steal them)

That said, here's some personal headcanons for the two of them, both in romantic/ship ways and platonic/besties ways, because I think both interpretations are interesting.

Said in a post somewhere, Dusty - because he hails from the ONLY state in the US that DOESN'T call it "duck duck goose" - constantly makes his stupid little "duck duck grey duck" taunt towards and in front of Ripslinger, just because it pisses him off. Pissing Ripslinger off, once you know he won't actually murder you, is a fun game.

They have found one of only two things to semi-consistently bond over outside of air racing, which is video games. Dusty is more of a casual player and likes the cozy sandbox games like Minecraft, Stardew Valley and Animal Crossing, but he does join Rip on occasion with some of his (usually more shooter based) games. They also kick ass together at level and puzzle games, although God help us ALL if they try to play Mario Kart again. Wii remotes went through drywall, that's all I'll say.

the second thing is Reyzor C. Dusty's been an avid fanboy and collector of his music practically since his debut, and eventually discovered Ripslinger was a hardcore superfan as well.

They frequently find themselves circling back to the topic slash argument of which is better: tits (favor of Dusty) or ass (favor of Ripslinger) [side note Dusty's pan, Rip's bi. Just, for the record on this in case anybody saw this and went "h u h"]

I'm gonna leave it at these for now cuz it's stormin' bad where I'm at and my power's flakey. ^^'

[queenofcarrotflowers-s]

hello~ I am returning to tumblr, the place of my youth, after a good few years away. this feels like a homecoming in a weird way because tumblr had such a big impact on myself and my identity growing up, and honestly I haven't had a place I could explore my thoughts in the same way in awhile. but my dash has become quite dead while I was gone so I'm looking for new mutuals/people to follow.

(also, if we've been mutuals and you're still here and you see this, please feel free to say hey!)

so let me (re-)introduce myself—my name is mikayla or mik (she/they is cool), and I am 28 years old and a public librarian + union steward in my daily life. I'm bi and currently living with my sweet partner of three-and-a-half years. we have two cats that I deeply adore, named snickers and lorelei. snickers is a big, beautiful former cat beauty pageant runner-up and lorelei is a tiny gal who was rescued from the streets as a teen mom. caring for them gives me so much purpose in my life and I don't know where I'd be without them! anyways, let me pay the cat tax:

(left: lorelei, right: snickers—in a rare moment of peace and camaraderie!)

I deal with chronic fatigue and other issues from an autoimmune thyroid disorder (Hashimoto's) and was recently diagnosed with anxiety/persistent depression/ADHD, which I mention here not because I think anyone wanted my entire medical history but because I hope to write about my experiences and possibly connect with others living with chronic illness, mental health struggles, and/or neurodiversity, as well.

current interests under the cut! if you're into any of the same things, please feel free to reach out / follow! I'd love to meet some new moots/friends :~)

some of my current interests include: cross-stitch/embroidery, latch hook rug-making, creative reuse art, art journaling, cats, libraries, dollhouse miniatures, zumba fitness, union organizing, socialism/communism, thrifting and antique/vintage collecting, interior design and organization, cryptids, folk art, graphic novels, tattoos (I currently have 19), podcasts & audiobooks, dungeons & dragons, country line dancing (I went to one queer country dance party and am now obsessed lol)

video games: baldur's gate 3 (hyperfixating hard on this one rn), disco elysium, paradise killer, stardew valley, animal crossing: new horizons

tv shows: what we do in the shadows, beastars, sex education, yellowjackets, abbott elementary, stranger things, the boys, i think you should leave, the bear, cutthroat kitchen, good eats, tuca & bertie, bojack horseman, black mirror, toast of london, rupaul's drag race, the good place, schitt's creek

authors: grady hendrix, jeanette winterson, lisa hanawalt, michael deforge, lucy knisley, box brown, agustina bazterrica, patricia polacco, brian k. vaughan, sylvia plath, mary roach, caitlin doughty, patricia lockwood, haruki murakami

music: andrew bird, kate bush, yebba, weyes blood, bright eyes, lucy dacus, fleet foxes, remi wolf, fiona apple, hozier, benny sings, gus dapperton, orville peck, father john misty, dolly parton, loretta lynn, madison cunningham, mac miller, the decemberists, the magnetic fields, ABBA, cheekface, wild child, chappell roan, the chicks, villagers, fleece, the growlers, peach pit

podcasts: and that's why we drink, beach too sandy water too wet, ridiculous crime, dimension 20, behind the bastards, welcome to night vale, last podcast on the left, sounds like a cult

[eemamminy-art]

desire, failure, guilt, hate, and heartbreak for whichever oc you like~

I'm going to answer these with a few different OCs, since different OCs come to mind with the prompts! It'll be long so let me put a read more cut! Also please proceed with caution as this dives into some very dark and heavy topics (thought not in great detail).

oc asks: not-so-nice edition

desire: What's one thing your OC wants more than anything in the world? Are they open with that desire? Why or why not? What would they do to fulfill it?

This question makes me realize that a lot of my characters don't really have big lofty dreams, at least not in the present. I think some of them have backstories with big dreams, but otherwise they're just getting by.

Mal, my stardew valley OC, might be the best suited for this question. He really craves love, community, and family. He was an unwanted child, so his mother made damn sure he knew it, being very cold and then having bursts of anger and verbal abuse. He was close with his grandparents but only could ever see them sparingly, but he built up this fantasy in his head of living with them on their farm and being a happy little family. He does inherit their farm when they die and drops out of university and basically throws away all he's been working toward up until that point in order to move there, but he quickly finds that the quaint little community he remembered as a child isn't quite what it seems. So even in attaining what he thought he wanted, it still takes a lot of work after that to build up a home and community that makes him feel loved and like he finally belongs somewhere.

failure: What's your OC's greatest failure? Have they been able to move past it? Does anyone else know about it? & guilt: What is your OC guilty about? How do they handle their guilt? Do they try to avoid guilt, or do they accept it?

Putting these together because they tie together really well for Cam, my fallout OC. When he was a teenager, he went on his first job with an older girl he considered a friend, a mentor, and a bit of a crush, Nerissa. She worked for a caravan as a guard, and Cam had been practicing his sharpshooting for a while and was going to ride along.

There was a raider ambush and it was a total slaughter. He choked in the moment and just froze, then hid, and continued to freeze. He watched people die gruesomely, and as something truly horrible was about to happen to Nerissa he ran. He ran so far he didn't settle down anywhere until he had reached the other end of the country several years later.

It messed him up pretty deeply. He fell deep into alcohol, took to cannibalism to survive and found he kind of liked it, which added another layer of guilt to his already guilty conscience. It gave him a complex about women, the thought of ever being with a woman after letting Nerissa be tortured and presumably killed made him feel like he never had the right to ever love any woman. Just haunted by his actions that day, forever.

It's something he does eventually work through, but not until over a decade has passed, and along the way he was as self destructive as possible. He's bi so he would only ever sleep with men during that time and would let them be just horrible to him, he never allowed himself to get close to anyone, he numbed the pain with liquor but often found his guilty conscience kept him awake at night. He'd throw himself headlong into danger because he felt he had nothing to lose, but always, always that survival instinct would kick in and he'd use whatever dirty tricks he had to in order to make it out alive.

Boy has had it rough lol I think even when he starts working through all of that trauma finally, it takes a very very long time for him to start to forgive himself and be kind to himself.

hate: What does your OC hate? Why? How do they act towards the object of their hatred?

Unsurprisingly, my wol Leigh hates the Garlean empire. He was born in Ala Mhigo and was forced to seek refuge in Ul'dah at a very young age like so many others. His parents were of Ala Mhigan and Doman descent so he had double the baggage when it came to hating the Garleans too. He was robbed of not only his home, but his family, and the chance to ever see his parents' homelands for the better part of his lifetime.

It becomes a little tricky for him, since his story is a little bit canon divergent and there are some Eorzean nations that ally themselves with Garlemald, and he has no choice but to work with them at various points. He has to watch his tongue, which is one of Leigh's worst skills lol he always speaks before he thinks, and has struggled to keep himself from getting into a political incident by speaking his mind about the empire.

heartbreak: Have they ever had a relationship that ended badly? Experienced some other kind of heartbreak? What happened?

I think all of the three I wanted to write about here have faced heartbreak of some kind or another.

Cam: I already mentioned above about Nerissa, but he went through some further heartbreak later on too. He got into a several months-long situationship with a guy who had a jet problem, and although it wasn't great it was the only companionship he'd ever really had. So when that person ultimately suffered an overdose eventually, it honestly devastated him. In his grief he cannibalized a good bit of him, in some bid to keep a part of him with him. :')

Leigh: He tried a little bit of dating in his youth but nothing ever really panned out. He and his best friend tried kissing one another but there was no spark, so they managed to keep things amicable after that little bit of experimentation together. He did end up getting into a relationship with the son of a wealthy businessman in Ul'dah, but the class divide and Leigh being an Ala Mhigan unbalanced the relationship dramatically. To keep up appearances, his "boyfriend" would ridicule him in public, treat him like the scum of the earth, but then lavish him with gifts and praise in private. It really messed with his self esteem and sense of worth, and gave him a disdain toward the rich.

Mal: I think this is not nearly so extreme as the other two, but Mal's heartbreak centered around his sexuality. He's interested in men but he's asexual, so in high school he had gotten into two relationships which both ended up with the other boys mocking him and rejecting him for it. It gave him a bit of a complex, and now he's somewhat self conscious about his body, since those boys referred to it as being "broken" for not reacting in the way theirs did when it came to intimacy.