#stage iv

[discoveringmyself88]

How to end a long day of travel

[wondashoever]

🎹 🎼♩♪♩♬♩♪♩lalalalalaa

[hyunpic]

HYUNJIN | I LIKE IT

[analogboii]

the duality of seonghwa is absolutely bonkers like??? tf you mean this man

is the same as this man

like UGGHHHHH SEONGHWA THE MAN THAT YOU AAAAREEEEEE 🛐🛐🛐🛐

[pwippy]

sua's such an under analyzed character but her mentality and presentation is really interesting!! to others (besides mizi), she appears reserved (very demure. very mindful) / cold but she's genuinely going through constant inner turmoil.

growing up, she was literally used as a commodity by her guardian. she's bullied by her sisters for being the guardian nigeh's favorite, but it's really only because she makes the most money. even after death, her guardian doesn't care that sua's gone, they're more concerned with the popularity and revenue that her fandom brings.

to the segyein, sua's essentially a doll and an ideal pet human. she's a top student at anakt, aka she sticks to a routine and acts easily brainwashed. when asked about her study habits, she just says "it's not really that hard... you just have to memorize what they teach you."

her objectification by others strips her of her identity and livelihood. it definitely plagues her perception of self worth/value, and manifests in her behavior (being quiet/not taking up much space, jealousy, apologizing often, being defensive - more on that later)

^ i think this whisper sums up her situation pretty well. her circumstances and the way she presents herself affects her relationships in anakt a ton if that makes sense ?

when sua meets mizi, such a vibrant, lively, and loving person, her focus and dare i say will to live completely shifts to mizi. in mizi's eyes, sua is seen as mizi's soulmate, someone she'll be with forever. someone who's always there for her. synergyyyy

although sua's feelings are mutual, she carries a level of self doubt and anxiety with her. sua believed her love for mizi would harm her in the end. she's stated before (EXPLICITLY) that she would die for mizi, and she does end up doing this in the form of sacrifice in round 1.

it's almost as if sua feels guilty for loving mizi. she knows they're doomed, and with their limited time, why should she be focused on? is it selfish of her to not tell mizi of their inevitable fate to live in their dream a little longer?

^ the lyrics of sweet dream can also serve as her mentality and point of view leading up to alien stage. she knows the idyllic world she's in is temporary, knowing her end is imminent yet praying to be saved.

although mizi views sua in a tinted lens, the other characters do not. at least, not in the affectionate sense. to till, sua's demeanor is offputting and uncomfortable

to ivan, he sees straight through to suas actions and (maybe unintentionally but i doubt it) exacerbates her doubts. he has his own events going on and genuinely does seem to want to be close to sua (graduation message + human relationship rating) but interacts in a way that makes her feel threatened. (in addition "he keeps crossing the line" in the relationship chart)

to the outside viewer its interesting to note sua often pulls mizi away from people. she pulls mizi away from ivan, and pulls mizi's attention from till to her in a short act of jealousy.

[harlepinyo]

My universe.

[k1tty5]

day 3: red

alts because im indecisive

[murmurmurl]

I'm back on my bullshit I guess

that redraw I was talking about.. previous versions under the cut

I like how it's less stiff now

[liquidstar]

ok ill say one thing rn

completely wild that ivan tells sua off for consistently sacrificing herself for mizi- saying that she's not being noble by doing this and will only become a source of trauma for her by the end (WHICH WAS TRUE BC SHE THREW THE CONTEST TO DIE IN MIZI'S PLACE)

but then the SECOND hes put into that same situation...

HE DOES THE SAME THING!!! HE KNOWS HIS SCORE IS WELL ABOVE TILL'S SO HE KISSES HIM TO BRING HIS SCORE DOWN AND CHOKES HIM TO MAKE SURE HES THE ONE KILLED (THE SAME WAY MIZI WAS TARGETED FOR BEATING THE CRAP OUT OF LUKA). IVAN YOU PIECE OF SHIT HYPOCRITE. "SOURCE OF TRAUMA" HUH? YOURS WAS WORSE. I CANT BELIEVE YOUVE DONE THIS.

Anyway more in depth thoughts in the reblogs as I gathered myself

[la-laliet]

Mizisua - Once more to see you

[discoveringmyself88]

Tactless

I just want to vent a little...feel free to skip...

I have been getting text messages from a "friend" recently asking me about my summer plans, if we plan on vacationing anywhere. I kept my responses pretty vague, "probably not, finances are really tight." "Friend" continues to text me about her options and keeps inquiring more about different expensive getaways. Finally, they settled on where they were going and immediately texted me about it.

I understand their excitement. I'd love to have the finances to vacation or travel anywhere that's not my husband's cancer hospital. I'd love to have the freedom to purchase new things...hell, I'd love the freedom to just pay all the bills each month, but when every other week produces a medical bill for $11,000 or more, that's not in the cards. But to have walked along side me (supposedly) and to not realize that these conversations may be touchy is bullshit.

And before anyone reads this and thinks I'm being touchy or could just tell them or begins defending my "friend"...I've been friends with this person for years. If they ever offend or hurt anyone it's never their fault. They never take responsibility for their actions or words, so I come here to lay out my frustration. I know people don't get all the layers and complexities that come with a "cancer" diagnosis. I get it.

So here's a tip for anyone that may actually read this: Don't ask your friend who's husband has Stage IV cancer where they'll be vacationing. Odds are it'll be the hospital.

[wondashoever]

that markiplier comma meme BUT ITS ENA

[goryhorroor]

my top 30 favorite horror movies

[fellas-is-it]

got tired of all depressing and hating yourself for being aro vibes on legit any other platform besides tumblr (looking at you tictac app) so wanted to listen to positive aromantic playlists and legit could NOT FIND ANY??????

And the ones that were vaguely positive were made for aroace ppl. Which is great! But im not ace!!! So WHERE'S MY POSITIVE AROALLO REP?!?!?!

Anyways i solved this hyperspecific problem myself and made a POSITIVE AROALLO playlist:

Larger image of the playlist cover i made

[fenboh]

is this what happens in the new valentines event

[tokopng]

whee!!!! wheeeee!!!!