#squishytalk

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any time i see a fic tagged intersex i just have to sigh and wonder. do you mean actually intersex or do you mean bigenital

like i'm not intersex as far as i'm aware (some variations really aren't known without testing) but i've seen others talking about this as a huge problem, like. if an intersex person is looking for community discussion, nope, they're blasted with porn that doesn't even represent their reality. and even if they're looking for accurate intersex porn, nope, they don't get it!

i get the shift away from literal slurs but it fucking sucks that it lead to people taking over an actual community. words like bigenital ARE right there

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inspired by the "femboy neko yaoi" complaint and majimemegoro's "toxic fujoshi" hate anon

i'm sorry

...i'm not really sorry

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ao3: you uploaded this fic literally 2 minutes ago! it isn't even displaying in the tags yet!

me, face pressed against the screen, staring until the pixels burn my eyes: commint

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i'm so deep in shit thinking about the cross between goromi and hannya man - THE hannya herself

the hannya mask, the long black wig... cabaret glitz and glamour or a carefully done kimono, either way shining like the night, fashion reflecting of her behaviour - forward and almost violent in her needs, or, on the brink of collapse

silent and needy, the main thing on her mind being kiryu, how he holds her, talks about her, loves her

i wish i could fucking DRAW her i'm so . rhrrhrrrrghk about her someone please join me in this i think i've now totally spent my brain for writing but i want more of her so bad lmao

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yeah i don't like to be considered nonbinary because... i'm just, both? like i think it's entirely fair when others consider themselves nonbinary, just a personal thing because i am so used to people using that and neutral language as a replacement for their acknowledgement. i am always a man, and always a girl - the difference is just that the girl part is stronger some days than others.

and while this guy did apologise after i told him this was shitty and painful, i recently got told that my depiction of a canon male character as gnc and bigender/in flux was "muddying the waters", that having feminine qualities and presentation takes away from his masculinity and his status as a man.

and i just... you know, considering i draw a lot of that presentation and experience from my own, that fucking hurt! i can't believe having the fucking audacity to say something like that and think that it's alright in the first place. a simple "not my cup of tea" would have sufficed, but that wasn't enough, i had to be reduced, reminded of "my place".

it's so much bullshit.

ppl really need to learn about the concept of de-gendering, purposefully calling someone who uses gendered pronouns "they/them" is de-gendering, saying you cant be both mlm and wlw but have to be nblm and nblw is de-gendering, saying you can't be a lesbian if you're a bigender boy+girl because you're part boy so you have to call yourself "trixic" or some other gender-neutral label is de-gendering, treating nonbinary people who are binary genders as if they arent their genders but are some third identity is de-gendering, saying bigender and genderfluid people arent actually their genders but are just "bigender" and "genderfluid" or just "aligned with masculinity and/or femininity" is de-gendering

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i'm just kind of curious about something, this isn't a real demographic poll or anything BUT

no nuance because nuance in polls with gender and sexuality is always kinda difficult inside tumblr's poll format - if your answer is "sometimes i'm a man, and i love other men" or "i'm a man, but i don't just love men" then you say YES please :)

i just kind of want to see at a glance if the "toxic fujoshi" thing actually holds any water lmao

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WHAT

pirate… yakuza… in hawaii…

what the fuck is this series anymore???? (i say this affectionately)

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do you think we can have a world where mesuking is modded to be a bunch of dudes in still equally skimpy outfits. i need fucking BEARS here i'm dying. literally this would improve mesuking thousandfold

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Kiryu Kazuma

When you catch a lightning in a bottle, why release it? You have a tendency to take the world at face value. You’re not a very good judge of character; you ought to stop giving everybody the benefit of the doubt just because you’re judging them based on yourself, and well, you simply wouldn’t do them wrong. You have impregnable ideals and an iron will, you’re highly protective of your loved ones, but you’re also a little bit of a hypocrite. You think the best thing you can do for others is to leave them alone, but you’re wrong. The people you love want you in their lives. Your martyrdom only leaves grief in its wake. All you’re doing is imprisoning yourself in others’ memories. It's not a drag to love you. Don't be stuck in the past. Life exists beyond what you know and what you're accustomed to. Trust the process, have some faith in fate.Venture into the unknown.

i can not fucking believe it

can you guys do this quiz for me dont ask questions just DO IT thanks!!!!

my result for reference btw😭😭

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i can't draw her but you will see my vision

(hannya man goromi, that is. or as i call her just "the hannya")

or at least the cabaret style as put together with cobbled screenshots

i guess the best way to put it is like, the most common fanon 80's goromi with her starry black elegance, but with the hannya man mask and modern beard

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I'M GONNA LSOE MY SHIIIIIIT oh i feel sick right now this is making me too excited but AHHHHHHHHHH

this song isn't the best rep of DID/OSDD or anything but it means a lot to me cause it was the first introduction a friend gave me when explaining their own

i never liked the full integration message of the ending, i think that's my main gripe with it haha - it isn't for everyone! but AUGH this song is near and dear to my heart anyway

...my majima's stance on full integration? to be fair, he doesn't know that what he has is OSDD - so words like that never come up for him, and he's learned from trying to force things to change that it just doesn't work out.

he's always in an ebb and flow, but it does get less stressful and chaotic as his life does. not a total absence of other faces, that is, but some of the more hurt ones show up less, and are generally a bit happier when they do show up again!

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i think minami would be like, kinda embarrassed to try out drag, but in the end he'd make a cute goth girl

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i dunno the characters from 7 on so i can really only choose from the original cast

which i'm gonna say majima and kiryu... i can't speak, kiryu probably wouldn't be talking much. if majima doesn't sleep through it he'd probably get agitated but i at least wouldn't feel like i'm the source of it, i think. and maybe he'd be easier on me in general :')

although on the depressing side i guess seong-hui and joon-gi wouldn't be different from a lot of my life normally...

things to note:

ichiban will want to talk to ALL his friends

ryuji will get progressively angrier the more you need to get up and walk past him to pee

joon-gi is a seat-kicker

seong-hui will talk over you to joon-gi as if you literally don't exist

saeko and nanba both get travel sick

hana just found out akiyama forgot to buy travel insurance

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no all of the above i want you to choose just one >:)

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cast a spell on me. (2539 words) by squishylemonbubbles

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Additional Tags: Kazumi Kiryu Kazuma, trans woman Kiryu Kazuma (up to interpretation), Dreams, doll transformation, Dolls, Macro/Micro, dressing up, some gender dysphoria, but pure fluff Summary: Kazumi doesn't know where she is, or even quite what she is. But she knows one thing - she yearns for a magic that will make her feel whole.

i'm always happy to be writing some sugary sweet princess kazumi. this is the most overtly transfem i've ever made her hahaha oops??

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i need to see the forever weed brownie comic but with kiryu (as fluttershy) and majima (as pinkie)

has someone done this