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whaddaya think makes tracks like that? / needletail and violetpaw
#my art#do not copy trace or steal#needletail#violetshine#warriors#warrior cats#wc#waca#wc art#squints i think i have all of the tags#THIS TOOK feels like WAY SHORTER THAN THE OTHER ONES#but probably bc theres like. way less grass in this one and more snow and thats way easier to do#THE WAY I DID LIGHTING U CANT RLLY TELL I MADE VIOLET A CALICO </3 hell on earth#IM RLLY SATISFIED WITH HOW NICE THIS CAME OUT + HOW FAST I WAS ABLE TO DO IT#it was on/off all day bc i have felt just physically weird . not bad but not good but not sick#anyway wish me luck on my exam and my paper ^_^ more worried about my exam than anything#its mostly monomers im worried about x_x i can tell u the most out there biology fact but i cannot tell u shit abt carbohydrates#anyway i am going to bed goodnight yall <3 its only like 12:30 rn WHICH ISNT BAD TBH#would u guys believe me if i said i was a little nervous posting because i feel like i forget something every time#i always get the nerves before i post and then i post and its fine AHBDLFHGBD#OKOK goodnight for realsies#tag edit carbohydrates arent monomers theyre fucking polymers THIS ONLY ILLUSTRATES MY POINT FURTHER
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WHY has no one talked about these panels. fuck it its 12 am (at the time of me "finishing" (<- not even close) writing this, its nearly 2 am) im going to talk about them
ahem.
before i get to the Main Point i wanna discuss chils tendency to spiral into his thoughts
like, sure, yeah, he's a reasonable guy. real logical-- but he tends to rush through so many possibilities and in this scene even berates himself for his tiny mistake. every thought in this scene goes so fast to me here, just "snap snap snap, call for help, no thatll attract too much attention- wait is there a switch? crap its too far away- nevermind lets just wait for marcille- but can i trust her with that?? god im so stupid, am i just gonna be trapped here until morning???" and it takes a moment for him to stabilise and snap out of it
like... he even has a little pep talk about it
i guess you could take this as him merely being a quick thinker? but i highly doubt it -- look at this fucking guy.
anyways. hes always got to be eased out of it one way or another, whether that be complainerism (self-explanatory), strategising with another person (that way all the insecure thoughts get pushed to the back in favour of working together), reassuring himself (discussed above) or...
you. could.
distract him.
place a brick wall in front of that zooming train of thought and watch it crash and burn :)
he doesnt even respond in that first pic, by the way. in fact, he doesnt say anything for another 3 (and a bit) pages, and by then the topic has been safely switched (granted those three pages are just marcille and laios making the familiars, but i feel it still stands that there was no response at all, not even visually)
secondly, in that other instance -- see how his eyes go wide as saucers when contact is made? and how they turn into pinpricks once he looks back**? god. and. like.
oh. fuck. ive gottta continue this in a reblog since ive reached the picture limit on mobile -- i am not even a THIRD of a way through all my thoughts on this- we didnt even get to my footnote!! sit tight everyone :)
#yeah i think theyre touchy even if they dont realize it#like poke poke nudge nudge pat pat#(not to mention the fact that theyre often Right Next To Eachother)#um. ill main tag this cause i want people to see it soooo bad (+ im in need of more chilaios warriors...)#dungeon meshi spoilers#dungeon meshi#chilchuck#chilchuck tims#laios#laios touden#<- i apologise#and last but not least the star of the show...#chilaios#heehee#ohh all the normal people are gonna look at this post and squint but as long as i can drag in a FEW people my life will have vastly improve#also hello chilaios nation ! WE NEED TO DISCUSS--
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I'll Be Here Until You're Okay
Legend was fine when they landed in Skyloft. It'd been ages since Sky had seen Groose or Sun, and he quite literally cried when he saw them again. Sky deserved to see his partners, deserved to see his Loftwing, his home. It was a blissful few days of rest, before they had to leave due to hearing of a group of black blooded monsters nearby.
Legend was fine when they landed in Outset, even with the memories of the waves, the sand, a girl and a dream. Wind had missed his grandma and sister so much, and he'd screamed as soon as they hit the sand. He ran faster than Legend had ever seen him run. Wind had smiled more than he had in a while too, and Legend got really sunburnt and quite miserable.
Legend was fine when they landed in Four's world. It was good to see Four's Grandpa again, to trade stories and fix some of Wild's broken weapons. Four had been excited to see the Minish again, and get a chance to talk to Dot.
They were fine when they landed in Time's. The ranch was quiet and felt almost like home. Malon was kind as always, and they had good places to sleep. Fighting was easier, almost, with the knowledge they'd have an actual bath and mattresses to sleep on when they were done.
Fine in Wild's. Flora had been ecstatic to see her partner again, and Wild relaxed a good bit around her. Seeing Farosh had been a rare treat, and the hot springs Wild had brought them all to were heavenly.
Fine in Twilight's. Ordon was just as quiet as the ranch had been.
Hyrule's. Good to see Hyrule acting confident for once.
Warriors'. The bars were good.
But they were most decidedly not fine once they landed in Wild's again, after only a couple of months away from it. ***
Legend stepped forward out of the portal, Hyrule right behind them. They blinked in the bright sunlight, expecting to see a familiar landmark, the house they shared with Ravio...
When none of that was seen and instead they were greeted by an open field, Legend froze. Why Wild's Hyrule again? Why? Hylia must really hate them if she won't even let them go home. Legend hated her just as much, she never let them rest, not even after all the adventures. No matter how many times Legend did her bidding, she was never satisfied. Legend clenched a fist, angry. They wanted to go home.
Home.
Oh, Ravio.
Legend's eyes watered. They let their hand unclench, suddenly gripping the side of their skirt instead. It'd been almost five months since Legend had seen Ravio. Legend bit their lip and didn't notice their name had been called until the entire Chain was watching them with worried expressions. Legend took their hands from their skirt and clasped them together instead, with a sort of finality. "Wild. This is yours, right?" Fuck, Legend's voice broke. Legend took a shuddering breath, watching Wild. Wild nodded, expression sad. Legend nodded stiffly right back, before turning around and beginning to walk, shaking. They didn't care where they went, not right now. If the road didn't lead to home then Legend didn't care.
"Legend-?"
Legend ignored Warriors, continuing to walk. The longer their mind dwelled on home, on Ravio, the worse they felt. Legend was quite tired of feeling sad already.
Ravio. Legend missed him so much. The space between his teeth, his scarf. Sheerow. His laugh. The feeling of his hands against Legend's. The gentle curve of the back of his neck against Legend's hand. The stumble when they danced together.
Legend hadn't even received a letter from their husband in what, three, four weeks? Almost a month? (Married for tax purposes, Legend always insists. Lies.) What if Ravio was hurt? Worse, what if Ravio was dead? Fuck. The thought alone... Legend choked, giving a soft whine. They brought a hand over their mouth, trying to stifle it. Tried not to cry, don't cry, don't cry, don't-
A soft hand came down on Legend's shoulder, encouraging them to turn. Legend turned, eyes squeezed shut, biting their lip hard to try and make the pain there worse than the pain in their heart. Legend was gently pulled forwards into someone's chest- Time, only Time had that height -and Time's hand came up behind Legend's head to cradle it close. Ravio had always held them the exact same as Legend was being held by Time right now. It hurt.
"I'm sure the next portal we go through will be yours, Legend." Time said quietly. Legend gave a soft sob- the way they were being held, how much they missed Ravio, the soft tone, it was all too much- and that was all it took for them to lose the tiny bit of control they had over their emotions. Legend shakily put their arms around Time, fisting the back of the man's shirt tightly.
"I miss Ravio." Legend whispered, crying harder as soon as Ravio's name was out of their mouth.
"I know, Legend. You'll see him again soon." Time soothed, hugging Legend for an undetermined amount of time. By the time they were done, the rest had set up camp most of the way and Wild was making lunch. Legend sat down next to the fire, close to no one.
Warriors offered Legend whatever Wild had made for lunch. Legend refused, staring into the fire. An apple was put into their hand.
Legend looked at it, and reluctantly took a bite. It wasn't long before Hyrule was pressed to Legend's left side, trying to comfort. The soft tingle of magic against Legend was soothing, even if only a little. Wind quietly came to rest against Legend's other side, small hands fiddling with a seashell. Legend tiredly watched the fire, tuning everything out.
Ravio, Ravio, Ravio. Every heartbeat pressed Ravio's name into Legend's head. If they closed their eyes they could see their home. The place they put their shoes. Where they packed up their gear. The rocking chair. A table with a cup Legend had carved out of wood, when their hands didn't shake. A blanket that Ravio had crocheted, at the end of their shared bed.
Legend hugged themself, bringing a shaky hand to an earring in their ear. Enchanted with both a minor protection charm and a resistance to lightning. Ravio had given them to Legend for an anniversary. Legend took a shuddering breath. Their anniversary had already passed, and Legend didn't even get to spend it with their husband.
That night, Legend slept away from everyone, and poorly. They were grouchy all the way to the nearest stable, and then some. Warriors didn't jab at them even once the entire trip.
xxx
A week passed in Wild's world. A week and a half.
Two.
Every day, Legend was worse and worse. Everyone was quiet around them, lest they shatter whatever fragile state Legend was in. They cried, and frequently. No further words from Ravio, no reassurance that he was okay.
Three weeks.
Four.
xxx
They spent a month and a half in Wild's world. When the next portal appeared, everyone cheered. No matter how pretty Wild's world was, blood moons were no fun and neither were the guardians. Legend stepped through the portal first, and even chanced a prayer to Hylia. Another one to Lolia for good measure.
Please, let this one be mine. Let me be home.
They landed in an apple orchard. Legend rubbed their eyes and turned around to help Sky through, then Wind. When everyone was through, Legend put a hand on one of the trees, thumbing an engraving on it. L + R.
Link and Ravio. They'd engraved their initials in every one of these trees, after an escapade with a good bottle of wine.
Legend was home.
Legend started stripping themself of their gear, much to the Chain's surprise. They got their boots off, ignoring the questions, and started pulling on the Pegasus Boots. They started cursing up a storm when they had to untie the left one. As soon as they were on enough to stand, Legend clicked their heels and fucking bolted.
It didn't matter that they ran into a tree on the way there. All that mattered was the man in the purple button up, sleeves rolled up and hands in the garden soil. What mattered was the way he hummed and the way his fingers moved and the wedding band on a cloth beside him. Legend wrenched the boots off their feet as soon as Ravio was in their sight, and yelled for him.
"Rav! Ravio, I'm home!" Legend had tears in their eyes, scrambling to get to Ravio.
"Link?" Ravio's head whipped around, and he dropped whatever he had been trying to plant. He'd barely risen to his feet before Legend barreled into him, hugging almost tight enough to bruise.
"Link-? Oh, honey." Ravio whispered, as Legend started crying hard.
"I missed you, I missed you so much, Rav. I love you. I was so worried when you didn't send any letters, I thought you could've been dead and-" Legend whispered, the rest of the words lost against Ravio's skin, holding so tight as if Ravio would disappear like the girl on the island. Legend wouldn't be able to take it if that happened again.
"Breathe, dear. I missed you too, and I love you just as much. If not more. I was equally worried, since I haven't heard word from you in months." Ravio said softly, and even though his hands were covered in dirt, he brought one of them to cradle the back of Legend's head very firmly. Even though Time had held them like this more than a month ago, it hadn't felt the same.
This was home, and it smelled like lavender and apple soap. The other hand landed on Legend's back. They were still swaying lightly together when the rest of the Chain caught up. Sky flopped down onto the grass, wheezing. After a few moments, both Hyrule and Four joined him.
Legend whined very audibly when Ravio tried pulling away, tightening their grip.
"Link, we've got visitors."
"Don't care. Please, stay, please. Just a little bit longer, Rav. It's been so long. I was so scared." Legend's voice was soft, barely heard, whispered against skin.
Ravio sighed, and kissed Legend on the forehead.
"A little bit longer, then." Ravio sniffled, tightening his hold.
Link's wedding band glittered on their right hand, the only ring that Legend had brought themselves to wear for a while. They'd polished and fiddled with it a little obsessively. Sheerow twittered about, pulling at Legend's hair, nipping at his ear tips, his own little way of saying, "Hello, welcome home, missed you."- no matter how irritating. Sheerow was gently told something by Ravio, and after a moment, Ravio's right hand had the same ring resting on the designated finger.
"You're alright, honeybun. I'm here." Soft, whispered against Legend's cheekbone.
"I'm real."
Legend sobbed, squeezing tight.
Ravio was here, and he was very, very real.
fin.
#linked universe#linkeduniverse#it got away from me#angst#legend lu#legend linked universe#all the boys!#I put legend through it jeez#some of it might be sloppy but that's because I'm just getting back into it#raviolink#Ravio x legend#I have poor memory how do you expect me to remember all the tags#hope you enjoy it!#oh wait there's more tags#hurt/comfort#I used they/them for Legend because their gender is just#so confusing#but I wanna snatch it#married for tax purposes! :D#ALICE by PEGGY really fueled this one#the 'dreamers dream until they don't' really fits Legend#threw myself through a loop with this one#ouch#I HAD IT READY SO EARLY#and they were platonic besties who loved each other very much if you squint really really hard#I think the Ravio and Legend dynamic is great#Here you go here's dinner.
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Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.
Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.
#my characters#waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit#deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee#and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name#deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c#man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while#he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair#ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so#its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons#but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me#and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not#fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew#and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable#while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts#and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed#so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en#so you know maybe its that idk#and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now#and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it#and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad#that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal#and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it#the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer#anyway story time in the tags again#im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note#its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him#he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times#and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea#and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you
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What is your take on how The Cycle works in Rain World?
Because I was reading the most recent post of Sparrow and it said that she died and came back, but then in other post it said she reincarnated as someone else??? It left me a little bit confused
i gotchu, good fellow, doncha worry (reminder to the lore nerds out there that this is Specifically my take on this with which i am Not tryin to stick to the canon lore with teeth n nails. this is my very own bog to trudge through)
SO in my for-the-serotonin take that we constantly poke at here, there are Actual Gods present (based off of the existence of the Void Worms, spun a lil more wildly outwards into world-building). they had been forgotten or forsaken by a lot of the population in favor of their little man-made gods aka the Iterators
the only places where the faith in them survives are the ones where the folk culture persists still. so Sparrows is technically a pagan! this whole eradication of the original local believes happened as a result of religious colonization of the whole world by a culture originating in The Wellspring. think what happened in Europe with pagan believes and christianity
this came to me when i realized how fuckin weird it is that the ENTIRE planet went through with the Mass Ascension. where's the cultural variety? Somebody would have resisted, somebody would have stayed- some branch of culture and belief would have looked at that n wouldve gone "are you stupid what the fuck, that's not how That spiritual aspect Works. get lost with that" because the religions just wouldn't match
either way- the existence of the Folk OG Gods is important to know, because this whole "die, but come back to life again the next day" kush was a gift from one of the Gods!!! one of them thought that it is unfair that a life should be cut so early, that an individual should lose all that they've developed in this life spontaneously, often because of things they couldn't even control. it was meant to be a mercy. a near bottomless bucket of second chances to pull from and keep trying living the best and happiest life one could possibly lead
The Wellspring Ancients with the belief that took gloobal control and then the Extremist of that religion however started propagating this blessing as a curse. so little haters syndrome
reincarnation as a different person happens when one is too young or too old
when kids die they don't come back as the same people because their etheric and astral bodies haven't been developed fully yet and are therefore not rooted in the smaller cycle of Respawning since they aren't whole yet when elders die they don't come back as the same people because their energy for life at that point is largely depleted and they cannot hold on to the Respawn cycle, so to speak. so granda can bitch about the younglings on his lawn as much as he wants but he better fuckin stay indoors if he wants to stay past the Respawn expiration date
that's how reincarnation that we are familiar with in real life happens in RW! some things from past life still stay with them even into the next life. Sparrows' past life consisted of studying and fucking around with technology a lot, so when she was born as the person we know her as now, she was a techie prodigy
just like in actual Buddhism, person's karma at the end of their life determines where and as what they will be born. Sparrows sucked at the religion shit in the past life as well so she was born into lower, less comfy life than her previous one. and just like in actual Buddhism, an Ancient can be reborn as an animal or a plant if they sucked with their karma REALLY badly across multiple lives
#Spot says stuff#rw#rain world#sure ill throw it into the main tag for the fun#oc tag#stating again!!! this isnt meant to be canon lore complimenting!!!! dont lecture me on this im doin my own thing#i THINK that is all the thoughts i have to it currently -squints- if anythin u can ask for more clarification as always we might end up-#-developin smth neat together at the end of it who knows#my inspirations for this are ofc buddhism and then theosophy
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What if I was insane again about the first thing Alpha Grim Sonic hearing when Nine creates him is his purpose—that he is Nine's friend?
Friendship as a concept in Prime is handled interestingly among its main characters. As Sonic (who thinks he knows a lot about friendship) comes to deepen his understanding of what it means to have a home/be home, I think it's safe to say his definition of friendship develops along with it. Compare this to Nine, who's learned everything he knows about "friendship" and personal relationships in general through his relationship with Sonic (at least, after his childhood of bullying).
So of course I think about Nine, who never wants to be hurt again, yet can no longer bear feeling alone (not after feeling that sense of companionship and belonging with someone else), which results in him creating a warped version of friendship for himself (one where he is surrounded by people, but people who only do whatever he wants, who have no opinions and thoughts of their own, who can't backstab him). And so I think about Alpha Grim Sonic, who is the very first robot Nine creates under this idea of frienship and companionship.
Nine is his master, and Alpha Grim Sonic is his protector, his bodyguard, his weapon
But he's also his friend.
Alpha Grim Sonic doesn’t talk back (can't even if he wanted to), but his purpose has always been clear to him: be Nine's friend. That's what he was created to be.
So I imagine Alpha Grim Sonic performing his purpose to the T at first under Nine's framework. He's Nine's friend, so he does whatever Nine commands, he never talks back or challenges authority, he protects Nine at all cost. And then, perhaps unbeknownst to Nine, he begins to shift ever so gradually. Sure, he's never insubordinate, he never offers up opinions, he still can't speak, but the lines of devotion begin to blur.
Is it in his code? Is out of a real sense of feeling?
Alpha Grim Sonic does not understand friendship, no matter whether it believes it does or not. But it's ironic to me if, despite being created under Nine's warped idea of it, the robot slowly grows their own soul, witnesses other displays of frienship and care, and drifts outside the bounds of that idea (a carefully crafted painting begins to leak out of its frame, expanding the masterpiece). They protect Nine, they do only what he commands, and yet they hate to see Nine in pain, they wish to bring Nine comfort (and so it feels good to him when Nine commands him to do such things that might bring his master comfort).
Does this make any sense? To believe that friendship means to hold one person on a pedestal, to protect them, to only listen to them, to never talk back, to never have opinions, and yet, despite believing what your creator tells you of friendship with them (your very purpose in this existence), to slowly fall further into those feelings that true care and love for another person brings, to wish to comfort someone the way one might describe a true friend would, despite not realizing any of this.
#sonic prime#alpha grim sonic#miles nine prower#nine the fox#crystalbond#crystalbondshipping#sonic the hedgehog#sonine if you squint#i just be ramblin#Why did I tag the ship tag?#Well if you've seen my earlier posts this introspection and journey of Alpha Grim Sonic's naturally leads him to struggle with what it mean#to feel emotion and be alive and to care for other people#Beyond grappling with whether any of this is even possible#they don't understand what it means to have friends or to love aside from what has been told to them#I don't think Alpha Grim will ever fully sus out the exact nature of his feelings for Nine‚ which would naturally grow over time in my eyes#But whether friendship or romance or in between or something else or all of it#The love Alpha Grim has is meant to become real#On the surface it's hard to see that he's changed#partially because he can't speak but partially because of people's preconceived notions of what robots are capable of#but below the surface‚ that original concept of devotion to one's master ingrained into their code and that idea of friendship etched into#its memory banks#these have grown outside the bounds of strict parameters#the robot is learning and yet growing naturally#And so devotion is both code and out of a genuine care for his very first friend‚ his master#he wants Nine to be happy because he feels this deep inside (the idea of Nine being happy makes them feel good)#He still would never dream of going against Nine's wishes#Nine created a robot to serve him#And the robot grows not only to serve‚ but to love#He takes his original purpose—being Nine's friend—to his logical conclusion despite being created under a warped idea of frienship#au ramblings
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reposting this from my twt bc its funny but olike. im still thinking about this. sigma with glasses could be real methinks... mostly because it would be really funny but also I Love giving characters stuff like that actually
#also. i made a typo in the original tweet but yes. i have glasses and so do BOTH my parents and sister. and like all of my grandparents#i was the first one to need them then my mom found out she needed them because of me. and so on#but enough about me. the prospect of sigma having glasses is so funny. phi should bully him for it. but it would be kind of cool also#even if his vision WAS shit in vlr which it likely could be over 45~ years it would make sense if him as zero sr put a contact in his intac#eye to prevent his younger self from Knowing too early. but also LOL#diana would rock them too i think. like it would be silly. but#MAN sigma having glasses is just. so funny to me#not what the post is about but i do also think it's funny that phi has glasses in ztd but not vlr. What happened. could she just not see#girl who has to squint really hard at the AB game results to read who allied and betrayed LMAOO#anywyas. i will stop rambling. but if anyone does end up drawing sigma in glasses or has any further commentary. i would Like to hear/see..#see. get it. like eyes. bc glasses. OKAY thats enough#zero escape#virtue's last reward#zero time dilemma#vlr#ztd#sigma klim#zero escape spoilers#vlr spoilers#ztd spoilers#just. tagging all of those just in case#trevor.txt
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Random musings about A'vi that may or may not make sense...
I promised I would write down a bit of my thoughts on A'viloh's feelings and probably specifically about Haurchefants since that is a little vague in my writing.
But before we speak of Haurchefant me have to speak of A‘vi and we have to consider that his own mind is his own worst enemy sometimes. If there is a very unreasonable way to feel bad about a situation he can and will find that way!
In a way we also would have have to speak about his upbringing and about Laqa of course and weirdly enough also about Thancred, although most of the last is pretty much just some idea in A'vi's head.
Not only is A'vi still confused because of what Thancred did before they parted ways -even if he tries to ignore that- but of course he also still loves Laqa.
Laqa was always there als long as he remembers. A friend, a lover, but most important maybe a person he could rely on, someone who protected him. And also to be honest a person he could hide behind, a person that would make the difficult decisions so he wouldn’t need to.
A’vi wouldn’t ever admit it and it’s probably not even conscious but some part of him - the part that refuses to change, that fantasises of going back to how things used to be - has been trying to replace all of that ever since Laqa is gone.
In a way Rael fulfills these criteria too. Rael would fight for him, care for him, protect him, just like Laqa did. This is a big part of why A'vi is so focused on Rael, occassionally so much that it gets mistaken for being something romantic. But in contrast to Laqa, Rael would in the end not coddle him. They wouldn’t spare him the struggle, the heavy lifting, the difficult decision making. And of course ultimately Rael also isn't availabe or fitting as a love interest for A'vi. And while their friendship means the world to A'vi, I think in the end he still needs something more than that maybe...
So back to Thancred for a second, because i think A'vi is not in love with Thancred.
If he is in love with anything or anyone apart from Laqa at this point, then it’s with the idea of not feeling so damn lost and lonely anymore.
In a way maybe that means he could be in love with Thancred but he’s not really in love with the person and more with the idea what he could be for him.
He is entranced by his charming behaviour, of course. People being nice to him is one thing. Kindness alone is too foreign for him still. Apart from Laqa there weren’t many people who were nice to him, especially not in the same way Thancred or Haurchefant are.
But Thancred or Haurchefants flirting with him? He is helpless about that! And it keeps on happening and when it doesn’t he misses the attention maybe? Yes, maybe he has a little crush on either or both of them.
But also, there was this moment after Ifrit when Thancred made him feel understood. A’vi saw Thancred struggling. A similar fight. Feeling not good enough. Trying your best and still failing. Wanting nothing more than to be useful for someone. Trying to live up to some shadow that isn’t there anymore.
And later that feeling of not having control over your own life. The pain caused because of oneself. The guilt he can either live with or decide to die of. Preferably in some grand sacrifice. For a good cause. Maybe that’s all he would ever be good for.
Their coping mechanism couldn’t be more different of course but something about their struggles is so similar. Being not alone in their misery is such a tempting thing. As so is maybe, just maybe, being able to finally move forward. But the important thing in context to HW here is that after the whole Ifrit-thing, when A‘vi considered going on a date with Thancred, this idea was born out of his hope, and only that, to maybe be able to move on from that loss he experienced. And all the fawning about him later, when it was already very clear to him that Thancred wasn’t interested at all, was more A’vi making heart eyes at the idea of being able to be in love with someone else. The idea of being free - just like Thancred - seems so nice to him. Free to do what he wants, to love who he wants and all of that without being scared or feeling horrible about it. Because feeling horrible and guilty and selfish and treacherous simply for still being alive is buried so deep inside of him even though all he wants is to be happy.
To be honest, even if things had been different in either of these two cases (the „date“ and Thancred‘s „disinterest“), I am very sure A‘vi would have found a way to chicken out of it last second. It was never a real possibility, just an impossible thing, so it felt okay for him to dream about it.
With Haurchefant however this IS a real possibility! He is very clearly interested and seems honest enough about it. But while there’s this voice in Avi’s head that says “I want this”, there’s still this other one that says “I can’t! I don’t deserve this! I am a horrible person!“ He rejects Haurchefant because there is someone else on his mind and in his confusion he can’t even tell anymore if this is just one person or two.
So he doesn’t take this risk, all while he thinks he might honestly like Haurchefant. He is just not sure if this is in a friends-only way or if it could develop to be more.
You may say now that this spares him some pain when Haurchefant inevitably meets his fate in the end but exactly the contrary would be the case somehow. Not only does he feel unworthy and ungrateful that someone as kind as Haurchefant died for him because he loved him despite A‘viloh not being able to return these feelings. No he feels like he missed yet another chance! He realises that maybe there will always be hurt and it’s just a matter of how well you spent the time you have. He feels like his insecurities, his awkwardness, his doubt and fear of getting hurt always kept him from making the best out of what he is given, may it be with Laqa or anybody else - time not used as well as he could have.
#Aviloh Tia#just some of my thoughts...#not going to tag this excessively now because its pretty specific and the people who will be interested in reading this are veeeery little#this is tbh just an attempt to bring a dozen notes into one text and it may still contradict itself or things I have already written#and of course there are still ideas floating around in my head about some things that may still influence my plans#the additive way I write my lore really isnt helpful sometimes#I wrote the whole backstory not thinking too much of it and well now its more important to me than I thought#then at some point I thought WoLcred could be a nice ship thingie because not thaaaat many people seem to like that...#and I want a nice ship too just because you know#and lets be honest that still looks kinda nice to me#but guess I am an idiot and I write my chars like idiots XD#and msq is being a bitch on top of that#anyway! conclusion:#I didnt really want to make the A'vi/Haurchefant stuff a canon thing because he really doesnt need another dead boyfriend#the thancred thing is still on the table but right now I'm still squinting at it wondering if I could make that work XD#and if anyone would be interested in that at all too...#ffxiv writing
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Chapters: 4/7 Fandom: Danny Phantom Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Danny Fenton & Jazz Fenton, Danny Fenton & Maddie Fenton, Danny Fenton & Jack Fenton, Danny Fenton & Sam Manson, Danny Fenton & Tucker Foley Characters: Danny Fenton, Jazz Fenton, Jack Fenton (Danny Phantom), Maddie Fenton, Sam Manson, Tucker Foley, Freakshow (Danny Phantom) Additional Tags: No One Knows AU, Invisobang (Danny Phantom), Invisobang 2024 (Danny Phantom), Wings, Ghost King Danny Fenton, Identity Reveal, Mind Control, Good Parents Jack and Maddie Fenton, Episode: s01e20 Control Freaks (Danny Phantom), Canon Rewrite Summary:
Danny has enough on his plate as it is, between his kingly duties, the ghosts that have dropped off the map so suddenly that he's starting to worry, and that dang itch - which was beginning to turn into pain - that just won't go away. He doesn't need to deal with this creepy circus and its equally creepy ringmaster. But when he encounters four strange ghosts robbing a jewelry store, and he starts losing time… He realizes that he can't avoid Circus Gothica forever.
If only he could say not my circus, not my monkeys and just be done with it.
Chapter four is up!
https://archiveofourown.org/works/58614682/chapters/149567134
#invisobang#i think ive decided im not gonna tag all of the character all of the time#and if i tag the characters that show up in the individual chapters itll spoil it#anyway#almost forgot to post this chapter because i got distracted by nick burkhardt having a crisis over seeing people turn into monsters#is that how you spell his last name btw *squints*#oh well#im rewatching grimm because i was talking about it with a friend yesterday#i love that show#fam and i watched it a while back#its been a while tho so i didnt remember much#its starting to come back tho as im watching it#even though im only on the first episode#lets hope i dont forget about it like i do with every other show i watch lol#reminds me i need to keep watching daredevil...#and tmnt 2012...#and ultimate spider-man...#and teen titans...#and the million other shows on my list#i have. a lot#rip
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the perched king / tigerstar I
#my art#do not copy trace or steal#tigerclaw#tigerstar#warriors#warrior cats#wc art#waca#UHHHHH squints i havent posted fanart in a while i think those are all of my tags#DO YOU KNOW HOW GOOD IT FEELS TO HAVE A LITTLE TIME TO DO A LEGIT PIECE LIKE THIS. oh my god its wonderful#im experiencing a calm before the storm because this is the week before finals#I PROMISE ILL GET BACK TO DOING THE STARCLAN GAMES SOON I JUST NEED TO SURVIVE FINALS AND THEN I DONT HAVE SCHOOL TO JUGGLE WITH WORK#ANYMORE ABJLHBKHDFBG#I SPENT THE ENTIRE LIKE 2 HOURS WORKING ON THIS LISTENING TO THE HUNGER GAMES MOCKINGJAY AUDIOBOOK im. GOOD GOD. im hurting#the movies dont do hardly enough justice to how awful the things the characters go through are#recovering peeta makes me so :( i love him so bad#still got four hours left of the audio book and its really nice since i can listen to it while working#i love drawing tigerclawstar so much i think hes one of the warrior cats ever#for a while a couple years ago if i wanted to draw a wc character i would only draw him but i dont think i ever posted ANY of it
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biggest hope for tsc is that jeremy knox has a janky car he loves with his whole heart
#aftg#i dont think about jeremy or jean that often but if i did most of the time its abt jeremys car i made up🔥#methinks hed have a car thats older and like the fromt bumper got ripped off and replaced so its a entirely dif color#names it. refers to his car as ‘my girl’.#jeremy is just some socal guy to me#drives down a road with all his windows rolled down and loves it#jean sitting in his passenger seat squinting because hes not to fond of the wind but would like to see the road pass them by#yknow . do you get it person possibly reading my tags
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Quotation marks on names because those names are aliases. Different Resistance fics (OCs) focus on,
"Ray" - The direness of what Japan is like back then. Not meant to make you feel good or have fun when you read it
Feat. Ability drawbacks do exist, being forced to earn survival, and it's impossible to survive in Japan alone.
Though light-hearted, each time he spoke swerved right back to getting answers from Shinomori.
Anything Ray said that wasn't a question gave little room to continue that conversation, leaving his inquiries as the only thing to keep away the discomfort of awkward talk.
Naturally, that would mean answering his questions without thinking.
"Did you hear from another person wearing a flak jacket?"
It was casual enough to miss as simply friendly wonder. But from his flak jacket alone, Shinomori knew; he was a member of the Resistance.
The original owner of X-Ray Vision was a Resistance member who often did recon; a logical, careful person.
Said person was putting him under investigation so naturally that Shinomori would've missed it if he didn't know better.
His Danger Sense wasn't even going off.
Himura - The discrimination of Meta Humans (treated as sub-normal) and being left behind over and over
Feat. Metas are called monsters, Bruce intervenes in the transportation for a Meta Human trading ring, and abandonment issues
What were those big words? Why did he talk so strangely?
These were all things the young Himura couldn't understand. For the words she couldn’t grasp, all that flooded her was sick relief. Her chest became quiet, in all the wrong ways.
Even her justification that they were monsters had been rejected. Then, what was the reason for everything to be this way?
"Why, is everyone leaving?"
Say something. You're an adult.
If I can't be right, and you're all I have left, then you, you you youyouyou–!
A single look at his face was enough answer for her.
—There's no reason at all.
That dreadful realization lulled out everything. Because Shinomori didn't know what to say.
Struggling with the words, Shinomori looked down, away from her. Then, he looked up at her. As if he might find the answer in her face.
Ha..
She wanted to laugh.
All he had done was reveal to this young child that even adults could not be trusted.
".. Sometimes, they have something more important than their lives that they have to do."
Hahaha…
It didn't matter if Bruce or Leader trusted this man. Because everything about him was wrong.
"Boss" - A safe space and a kind hand can be everything to someone
Feat. Kudo breaks down after the sewer incident, an "If you have any respect for me" moment, and lots of boba.
He laughed wetly.
"Sorry, everyone. Thank you, too—it's just the onions."
Someone picked up a peeled onion. "What the fuck did you do to our Bossman?"
Kudo stared numbly. One, he's fascinated and quite frankly, amazed at the respect and care the Boss received from everyone.
Two… are his enemies really this stupid?
(Context: Bossman was crying while chopping onions. Everyone is concerned and wants to know who made him cry)
Shiki - The whole package of the aboves, and what the Resistance was like, both on-duty and in moments of calm. Lots of ugly humanity whenever pressure starts to come down.
Feat. The first Three (+ OC) get to meme, Yoichi is the prettiest bastard in the world, Kudo is a snarky bitch obsessed with Disney, and Bruce is the parent of the Resistance. Reality will hit like a truck at times and the humor will be nowhere in sight then.
"Sorry. I'm sorry."
Was her voice really so weak then?
As if that were all she knew how to say, she just apologized. Even this was something Shiki remembered herself.
All she wanted to do was apologize. It was all that filled her head—that singular thought. Regret that she put him in this stressful position, and worry for how he was doing.
"I'm really, sorry."
How could she sound so near tears already?
"Batman" - The irony of having a cliche, aesthetic Meta Ability, and no one (including the wielder) even realizing it exists for over half the story.
Feat. Dressing like a cool, hip vampire, Yoichi calling OC "Batman" unironically (much to Bruce's delight), and iron deficiencies.
"Batman?" he repeated incredulously. How was he just like an orphan who stood atop buildings in a bat costume, with the creepy voice of a rusty car?
Bruce snickered, while Yoichi nodded enthusiastically. This was the first time they'd seen the sickly man so animated. "Yes! Like Captain Hero's friend, who wears only a cape and briefs!"
For some reason Yoichi couldn't understand, Bruce just fell in laughter, clutching his gut.
An odd sight it was, to see his face turn pink. They didn't think he had enough warm blood to do that anymore.
"Yoichi."
"Yes, Batman?"
Bruce cackled louder.
"Please never call me Batman again—please, never, ever, say any of this again."
#i think this is easier to access cuz i have trouble seeing pics on other posts when i click on them#like a coin flip. it takes a while or i can only look at it from the post as is#i dont mean my posts i mean posts in general#bnha#boku no hero academia#mha#my hero academia#oc#fic#fanfic#kudo#bruce#shigaraki yoichi#hikage shinomori#yes i am also squinting at my own og-version of this post#spoilers#to reiterate some stuff from the og post's tags: i liked himura the most and had to trim down the original snippet i wouldve shared#[there's no reason at all] is meant to be in response to [why was everything this way?]#himura is a tiny child orphan from the meta human smuggling ring that bruce finds
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man i dunno WHAT happened last night but apparently witches are infecting my brain now
Also here’s this particularly nice one that is so good in my opinion that it’s apart from the rest
Ahem.
#crappy doodles#I’m#dying#I think I accidentally made lore for lunar here?#Might post but I have to figure it out first#Shoot actually I shouldn’t post these all at once#Whatever#uhh#uhh how do i tag this#tsams#i guess????#help#(also yes I know they’re shit it’s MY shit)#(I’m lowkey proud for coming up with a desing at 11 pm that makes?? Some sense??#If you squint hard enough
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If I remember correctly, I think the diary was the first horcrux made because he used Myrtle Warren's death (his first victim, I'm pretty sure) for that, and after he acquired the ring from the Gaunts (I think it was Morfin Gaunt), he killed the Riddles and used their deaths to create the ring horcrux? Obviously you don't have to keep that order, but I think that's how it was in canon
that does sound logical - canon is insufficiently specific with regard to how one actually makes a horcrux, and i kind of generally figured it took something a little more specific than just killing someone and binding your soul to something - what with the number of murders voldemort's committed, his soul would be on the verge of exploding with every new person he killed, and he doesn't seem to act with a whole lot of caution there. but also, he made an accidental horcrux, so i don't think jkr had anything complicated in mind for the process
making a horcrux using myrtle's death is interesting, though, because it either means that the basilisk is considered a tool rather than a being (which, considering how jkr tends to narratively treat her non-humans..... yeah), or that actually doing the deed yourself isn't required as long as you had a hand in it. either way, there are a shitload of people in that series whose souls are so fragmented, by jkr's standards, going by the # of people they've killed, that it's a wonder accidental horcruxes aren't being made left and right. it's a wonder voldemort only had ONE and he was easily tracked down and persuaded to sacrifice himself for the goal of killing voldemort which obviously will fix everything. goodness gracious
honestly part of me just rebels at the idea of keeping your horcrux with you in your dorm room that you share with a bunch of other people - indestructible, blah blah blah, but clearly not the sort of thing voldemort wants other people getting their hands on. which, fair, that's a piece of his soul, i wouldn't want that either. so that's part of why i have difficulty reconciling myself to the idea that he was making horcruxes *at hogwarts,* especially since the only one he hid in hogwarts was the diadem in the room of requirement and he didn't hide that one until after he'd graduated
and ALSO part of me rebels at the idea of the gaunts just. having the resurrection stone for generations and never being affected by it, but we're getting away from 'horcrux construction' and into 'quibbles with canon in general'
#i frequently have to remind myself it's a children's book series#that got so massively popular that nobody was going to be squinting too hard at jkr's narrative choices#will that stop me from doing so? no. but it is why i don't really fact check with canon afjsgkhskdjf#im going to have to think more about the riddles#about all of it actually#should i make an inbox tag
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Tokens of affection (9669 words) by Alecto Chapters: 3/3 Fandom: Yu-Gi-Oh! Duel Monsters (Anime & Manga) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Jounouchi Katsuya | Joey Wheeler/Kaiba Seto Characters: Jounouchi Katsuya | Joey Wheeler, Kaiba Seto Additional Tags: Valentine's Day, Chocolate, Explicit Sexual Content, Master/Pet, Oral Sex, Degradation, Praise Kink, Come Swallowing, Cock Warming, Orgasm Delay/Denial, Dirty Talk, Spanking, Light Masochism, Wet & Messy, Comeplay, Come Feeding, Plot What Plot/Porn Without Plot, Jealousy, Predicament Bondage, Breeding Kink, Sex Toys, Writing on Skin, Intercrural Sex, Object Insertion, Overstimulation, Anal Gaping, Marathon Sex, Possessive Sex, White Day
Series: Part 20 of Lure
Summary:
Kaiba comes home with a bag full of Valentine's chocolates gifted by his female admirers. Jounouchi's not sure how he feels about this development. The only thing that's clear is that Kaiba's classmates are dangerously gullible or shallow (and the funny twisting feeling in his stomach).
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"Today is March 14th," he reminded him.
Jounouchi blinked, slow and stupid.
When he still couldn't piece it together, Seto explained with a self-satisfied smirk. "White Day—the perfect day to stuff my pet with cream."
Jounouchi's eyes widened. Then his face flushed dark crimson. "What is wrong with you? That's not what you're supposed to give people on White Day."
"Oh no. You have it backward. You ate my chocolates, so you owe me a gift. Like you said, it should be triple the worth in return."
"Bullshit. You don't get to pick your own gift," argued Jounouchi.
#series: Lure#puppyshipping#violetshipping#kaijou#yugioh#my fanfiction#woo white day chapter!#tags have been updated so please take note#this one is from Kaiba's POV#Kaiba thinks he's so witty per usual but Jou may not be amused#all filth with a bit of soft if you squint#now that this is done i might do something else for fun for a bit#maybe write more dragon boy Jou 🤔
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SO curious what's going on between edna and lailah. they very clearly have history together but to what extent. how long have they known each other. when did they meet and what were the circumstances. how much time have they actually spent together. they seem to not only know each other pretty well but also seem to be on surprisingly friendly terms. edna pokes fun at, teases, makes jokes at the expense of, and is just generally rude and disrespectful to pretty much everyone in the party. except for lailah. not only does she never direct any snarkiness lailah's way but she even seems to actively respect her. and perhaps even enjoy her presence. and for lailah she is the one character never annoyed or put off by edna's antics. she's clearly very used to it and doesn't seem to mind it at all. maybe even is amused by it. and they seem to be on the same wavelength about stuff so often. whether it's teaming up to coach sorey on weapon skills or edna telling lailah to riff and then praising her performance afterward or just kind of. generally agreeing on stuff. they rarely seem to be on opposite sides of a debate. and they even both make puns. i feel like edna picked it up from lailah. and edna never being surprised when lailah dodges the question because of her oath. im just. why are they so in sync. why are they so used to each other. why do they know each other so well that they've picked up each other's mannerisms. what is their history. zestiria please tell me more what is going on between them i need to know
#didn't expect to be shipping one of the rarest pairings in the fandom but here we are#they fascinate me. i can't stop thinking about them#it goes beyond just having chemistry. im squinting at them like have yall dated before or smth#love it when the brainrot converges. i'm crazy about lailah all of a sudden and im getting back into obsessing over edna and now im shippin#them together too#and ofc there's nothing out there for them. i found like maybe 3 fics where they're the main pairing and none of their ship tags on tumblr#have more than 3 posts in them. why does this happen to me every single time#wyvern rambles#wyvern's zestyposting#edna toz#lailah toz#edlai#shipping#tales of#tales of zestiria
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