#spn finale trauma

[orionsangel86]

"I will probably never watch an episode of SPN again due to finale trauma"

Same.

I haven't watched a second of SPN since the finale aired. The finale retroactively destroyed the entire show for me. I literally threw out all my SPN merch the next day. Donated it all to a thrift store. I was so embarrassed. I unfollowed everyone (except Misha Collins) associated with the show the moment the last episode finished. I just didn't want anything more to do with it. I still find it hard to believe they really made that episode and allowed it to be broadcast. Blows my mind to think people were paid actual money to write and produce that. They frickin risked their lives (!!!) to make it. Imagine if they'd all gotten COVID and died in Vancouver, unable to see their families one last time, alone in COVID isolation wards, unable to hold funerals (if their bodies would've even been allowed back into the country).. and for what? The shittiest episode of television ever made. Oof.

I remember my friend (who knew I was dreading the finale) asked me the next day "so, how was it?" and I just replied "IT WAS SO MUCH WORSE THAN I EVEN IMAGINED."

Like, I was *expecting* it to be bad. I was *prepared* to be disappointed. But I was NOT ready for it to be SO bad that I would immediately retroactively disown the entire show and everyone associated with it out of sheer existential embarrassment.

Reading this is so sad because its so close to my experience. I didnt have a lot of merch, but the merch i did have was either thrown out or shoved in the back of my wardrobe never to see the light of day again!

That finale really did a number on us didnt it? Over 3 years later and it still hurts my heart when I think about it too much.

It really was the worst thing ive ever seen. Ive seen some pretty bad TV but omg nothing will ever top that. Its maddening that anyone could sign off on that absolute garbage as if it was worth anything more than being cast into holy fire and condemmed to the 7th circle of hell.

Its funny, I'm so weary and apprehensive about starting new media since then. Its impossible to trust storytellers especially anything made by those involved with spn. I have kept my heart so guarded since then and refuse to fall into fandoms that dont already have a known ending. The only reason i allowed myself to get super into Sandman is because the story is complete, and we all know Good Omens will get a happy ending. Anything else for me is either one off mini series, or shows that have already aired in full.

I want to love Dead Boy Detectives when it comes out. I dont know how that story will end though I suppose there are comics already for it that I can look into. Also Steve Yockey was one of the few gems of SPN and I'm happy that his ghost has partnered with Neil Gaiman to make something that looks really decent. Steve Yockeys SPN episodes were always meta masterpieces of metaphor and symbolism and so I hope it'll build a meaty fandom to get excited about.

Then again the apprehension and fear remains, because SPN finale trauma prob wont ever go away. You cant invest years of your life devoted to those characters only to have them destroyed to dust before your eyes and come out unscathed.

I hope over time the feelings we hold about it get easier to deal with, especially as we move on to new stories, new fandoms, and new characters to love. But SPN the show is very much dead to me, and this time it wont resurrect.

[perfectthewayyouare]

fam i'm having shrimp emotions about dean winchester in the year of our lord 2024. it doesn't get better

[fatallyaddictedtofiction]

Thinking about how Cas and Dean deserved to be dads too

[ananke-xiii]

How am I supposed to care about other characters after having watched a 15-season-long TV series about two brothers that I love to death and a fallen angel who's my favourite character of all time? How do we cope with this?

[boykingscourt]

me when sam haters simultaneously say the show stopped caring about him in later seasons and that the later seasons are by far the worst

[sammygender]

spn s9-10 are better than s8 and i will die on this hill

[deadwerewolfgirlfriend]

Supernatural 10.11 There's No Place Like Home

[blackladynerd]

Also, shout out to Spanish Jackie for being a boss and poisoning the whole British Navy.

[zer0expektation]

I think the craziest thing supernatural season 15 does is actually reintroduce Becky and manage to make her more likable and a representation of how a lot of long-term fans felt about/treated the show at that point

[winchesticles67]

been crying over a spn finale fic for 30 minutes and i was telling my friend abt it and she was like "dude you torture yourself with that finale" AND WHY WOULDNT I?!

[keithal]

in the good supernatural that lives in my head amara is released from wherever chuck locked her away and she and dean aren't forced against their wills to be attracted to one another romantically. that said, they are still bonded together by the fact that they have that prisoner/savior relationship and shared the mark of cain. instead she looks at chuck who she realizes never loved her and then to dean, who loves his brother to a frankly concerning degree, and says "that's what i want." and so she replaces chuck with dean as her brother <3 this goes absolutely terribly

[theythemsam]

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One of my top 10 spn recovery moments really was that when a new friend offered to spend some time with me and suggested watching spn last weekend (bc i still do Not always shut up about it, so new friends that I make who have Not met me in the throes of hyperfixation on Sam Soupornatural Still know that is is close and dear to my heart Unfortunately) I was able to say "No, No bc i like you and I want to spend time with you watching a good show that will makes us happy and not a bad show that will turn us both in angry ptsd triggered rage beasts bc of all the victim blaming and sexual assault" and i am so so so soooo glad that I am at a point of my life where I can do that bc I have other hobbies and my brain allows other things to give me serotonin

[ananke-xiii]

S9E1 Castiel being freshly human, not understanding a thing of what's going on, fully aware that a.lot. of angels would very much like to kill him just.because meets a random angel on the street (Hael) and he's like: LET'S GO SEE THE GRAND CANYON TOGETHER, WOO-HOOO!

[fuckmewithyourtoespj]

i don’t go here anymore but the winchesters is so funny. it was supposed to be a prequel about john & mary but jensesn ackles went no you know what. let’s make this about ME

[llycaons]

also i feel like that post that talked about spn and house gaybait being more entertaining than heartstopper was kind of unfair in that it presented two very different types of shows as if canon pairings/presence of plot were the only differences when like...one of those is very clearly for teenagers about teenagers in high school and their relationships. adult shows with strong plots and canon gay relationships also exist! I feel like op was showing THEIR ass because those aren't even that hard to find? and it makes a sense why an adult would be less compelled by heartstopper than a medical mystery drama. also spn sucks shit idk why you're acting like destiel has a leg up on anything else here

[inkandpaperqwerty]

It's almost time to take on Lucifer and Michael. Everyone says their goodbyes, just in case, but Liam doesn't know how he's supposed to cope. What's he supposed to do without his dad and his uncle and his guardian angel? How is he supposed to keep moving forward if they don't come back? Find out on AO3 (but not fanfiction.net because it was having some kind of mental breakdown).