#spn e: skin

[undercovercannibal]

SUPERNATURAL 1.06 “Skin” THE BOYS 4.07 “The Insider”

[lokigonnakmsforbucky]

Dean Winchester NSFW Alphabet

We made sammy one, we gotta make dean one! This was also requested by an anonymous user! Enjoy!

Rating: MINORS DNI!! 18++

Warnings: Its NSFW thats a warning enough;)

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A= Aftercare (what they're like after sex)

Dean is definitely a cuddler, He is always holding you and making sure you are okay. You come first in his mind.

B= Body part (Their favorite body part on themselves and their partners.)

Dean's favorite part of his own body is his smile. He knows he could get what he wants in seconds with one flash of it. On his partner he loves their thighs and mostly when they are around his face ;)

C=Cum (What does he do with it. I AM disgusting)

Dean loves when he sees his cum all over you. Your face, your stomach, but he loves it when it drips out of you.

D=Dirty talk (How much do they dirty talk?)

This Man's mouth is DIRTY, he could get you on your knees in no time.

E=Experience (how experienced are they?)

Dean is definitely experienced to say the least, so rest assured he knows what he is doing.

F=Favorite position (goes without saying)

Cowgirl- Dean is a SUCKER for this position. He loves when you take him how you want him, plus a face full of tits? Yes please.

Doggystyle- Dean loves looking at you taking him, pounding into you to show you who you belong to.

G=Goofy (how goofy or how serious they are in the moment?)

Dean can be goofy or serious. Depending how you both feel or the heat of the moment.

I=Intimacy (How are things during the moment, romantic aspect.)

Deans eyes never leave your body, his hands are on you at every moment.

J=Jack off

Dean gets off at least 4 times a week, his sex drive is high and when he isn’t around you he has to release that frustration. Maybe even calling you for some sexy phone sex ;)

K=Kinks

Dean loves to be dominant with you, but what a lot of people don’t know is that he loves to be dominated by you. He loves when you take control over him and take what you need.

He also has a knife kink… he doesn’t get why he does but just the thought of having it out against your skin or his skin… he loves it.

L=Location (where you guys would do the deed)

Dean would do it anywhere you would be game to do it at, but his favorite is in Baby the sweet 67’ Impala…. Mostly when you give him road head.

M=Motivation (what turns him on, or gets them going)

Dean loves seeing you in his flannels… plus eating pie, having whip cream all over your face? He is ready to pounce.

N=No (Something they wouldn’t do, or turns them off.)

ANYTHING that hurts your or puts you in harms way. You are his world, he won’t let that get hurt.

O=Oral (do they like giving, receiving, both?)

Dean LOVES giving you head, eating you out like a cherry pie. Your his fav flavor though.

Dean loves when you give him head, it relaxes him instantly.

P=Pace (Are they slow? Fast? Rough?)

Depends on Deans mood, he loves taking you rough and fast. But he loves being nice and slow.

Q=Quickie (Their opinion on it, how often would they have one)

Dean is always up for quickies, anytime you both need one he is up and ready.

R=Risk (Are they risky)

In deans line of work, risk is dangerous. But if your down…so is he.

S=Stamina (how long can you last? How many rounds?)

Sessions with a Dean are long, hot, and heavy. You can take 3 rounds but Dean… he can make you do as many rounds he wants.

T=Toys (Do you guys own toys? Do they use them?)

You guys explore with vibrators and sometimes restraints.

U=Unfair (How likely would they tease?)

You would be the one that would be a tease, Dean would definitely have his way with you later ;)

V=Volume (How loud are they)

Dean breathes heavy, low growls and grunts

X=X-ray (what’s going own down there)

Dean is beyond average…he is definitely bigger than most guys.

Y=Yearning (How high is their sex drive)

Deans sex drive is VERY high, you can’t deny that.

Z=ZZZ (how fast he would fall asleep)

Dean would wait till you were taking care of and asleep before even getting comfortable. You come first.

[according2thelore]

Do you have any spn omegaverse fic recs?

oh boy, do i!

this is a pretty exhaustive list of omegaverse, with varied designations and (less varied) ratings. this is in no particular order (and not a list of every fic i've ever read and enjoyed), either, just some fics i've collected over the years.

please note that some of these are underage (as they are teenchester fics and the like), and some deal with sensitive topics so please be diligent about checking the notes/tags!

samdean:

alpha4alpha Series by HandsAcrossTheSea & trashhearts67

[RATING: E, Warnings: None, A!Dean & A!Sam] The most forbidden fruit tastes the sweetest, and Dean wants a taste of Sam. Two alphas shouldn't want each other. But when has Dean ever had any use for what should be?

The Bite of Knowledge by theproblematique [rec note: THEE omegaverse fic imo]

[RATING: E, Warnings: None, O!Dean & A!Sam] Omegas can tell when alphas are attracted to them. It's a survival mechanism. After years of buildup, Dean finally realizes that Sam is attracted to him. It's a shitshow.

Only Real When I'm With You by WhiskyBoys

RATING: E, Warnings: None, O!Dean & A!Sam At sixteen Dean was exceptionally pretty. Even for an omega. Fair hair, pale skin, big green eyes and wholesome freckles. And he was a virgin. The training officers, always smirking, said that was a good thing. Told him that was why his pathetic omega life was valuable enough to pay off all his father’s debts.

Gunpowder & Honeysuckle by hereforsammy [private}

RATING: E, Warnings: Underage, A!Dean & O!Sam One would think it would be enough; All of those bits and pieces that made up the large jigsaw puzzle of their lives, smashed in the back of an old black car tearing down highways in backwater towns, and nights spent in stale motel rooms with cigarette holes burned into every surface, to let Dean know the glaringly obvious thing he had been both running to, and avoiding, was staring him in the face all along. Heated neon in the pitch black sky over shabby dives of no name towns, that painted themselves on the backs of your eyelids even when you blinked. His baby boy smelled sweet.

Three Weeks Too Late (the 'Five Weeks' remix) by rei_c

RATING: E, Warnings: None, A!Dean & O!Sam Dean swallows at the thought of that: Sam's home, his soon-to-be omega's scent everywhere, on everything. Sam wants to take Dean back to his den. "Okay," he says. "Your place. But not -- it has to be now, Sam. I can't wait much longer." "Yeah," Sam says. "Yeah, it's been five weeks since your birthday." (aka, the one where Dean finally claims his omega.)

The Hottest Days by WevyrDove [rec note: a classic; w this and the bite of knowledge, i think one of my first wincest fics, lol]

RATING: E, Warnings: Underage, A!Dean & O!Sam John is away on a hunting trip when Sam experiences his first heat cycle. Dean panics and makes Sam lock himself up in his room in a desperate attempt to keep temptation at bay.

5th Period by alwaysthrowsscissors [rec note: also a fandom classic]

RATING: E, Warnings: Underage, A!Dean & O!Sam Without hesitation, Dean dropped to his knees, burying his face in the wet seat of Sam’s jeans, teasing out the cutest little whimper. “Am I- God, am I...” He trembled, voice soft. “Yeah,” Dean groaned, muffled, nuzzling against the rough fabric. His fucking greatest dream came true. Precious, beautiful Sammy; an omega. Dean always knew that whatever Sam presents as doesn't matter; he's going to fuck Sam hard and claim him either way. But, Dean never imagined that all eyes at school would be on his little brother, waiting to see what he will become and who will get to claim him as their mate. Sam goes into his first heat in the middle of class.

Sam's Inner Omega by TammyRenH

RATING: Unrated, Warnings: None, A!Dean & O!Sam Another spn_kink meme fill (just trying to un-rust my writing skills - such as they are) For the prompt: There are two sides to every Omega; the side that wants to be cuddled and pampered. And the side that wants to be pinned down and fucked roughly like a bitch in heat. Up to you who tops and who bottoms. I’m good with any kinks as long as all aspects of the fic are consensual. Please and thank you!

Taste Every Fruit by thatsakitkat [rec note: aka the lactation fic, a fandom classic fr]

RATING: E, Warnings: None, O!Dean&A!Sam There's no real words to describe how feeding Sam feels. Dean thinks it might be better than orgasms, but it's a whole different kind of pleasure, one that makes him feel sleepy and proud of himself for being able to take care of his brother this way. Everything feels right in the world, all Dean's problems taken away in the gentle pulls of Sam's mouth.

A Blind Fool's Luck by hellhoundsprey

RATING: E, Warnings: None, A!Dean&O!Sam Prompt: sam is an omega. or, he was. before puberty really hits, john puts him on suppressants/has him surgically altered so he doesn’t attract aggressive alphas/is put in less danger/makes their lifestyle easier. sam’s too young to really consent. his feelings of being a “freak” stem from not feeling right in his own body. this is why sam is abnormally large for an omega, this is where a lot of his self loathing stems from. dean didn’t know before and carries guilt for not stopping it. doesn’t know how to make it better, tries anything he can, which in dean’s world is a lot of pretending it didn’t happen out loud. sam gets by until he starts getting closer to 40 and it starts to get to him more than it used to. amara either gives dean THAT gift instead of bringing mary back, or rowena finds out and gives sam the spell to fix what happened to him at his choice. sam doesn’t tell dean about the change, but he can scent it. it’s obvious sam feels more comfortable in his skin again. suddenly sam smells like his dream partner. cue him dealing with that, dunno if he tells him or acts differently or what. basically it comes out that sam has always scented dean that way and then happy parts ensue.

Hymenated - Demon by forlovedones

RATING: E, Warnings: Chose Not to List, O!Dean&A!Sam Demon Dean is loose in the bunker and stalking his Alpha through the halls. Maybe there'd be time to fuck Sam's brains out first, before he bashed them in with the hammer.

Unexpected by fullmoon_nightowl

RATING: M, Warnings: None, A!Dean&O!Sam Sam always wanted children, but he’s been infertile all his life. Two months after Chuck’s defeated, the stick turns blue. Dean’s protective instincts go into overdrive.

It's Yours, My Demon by littlefirefly31

RATING: E, Warnings: None, A!Dean & O!Sam Prompt: Could I please for fic where Omega Sam found out a couple a days before the last episode that he is pregnant with Dean's child, but now his alpha is a demon and Sam is doesn't know what to do, but the demon!Dean finds out ... (knotting, bottom!Sam, happy ending)?

To Give You What You Want by littlefirefly31

RATING: E, Warnings: None, A!Dean & O!Sam Prompt: Post 9 season AU where alpha Dean isn't a demon and brothers lives together as mates (alpha and omega). They are happy but both really wants to have a baby and during Sam's a few day heat Dean going to finally breed his omega (knotting, mpreg) Summary: Sam and Dean were content, but they really wanted something more. They wanted a child. So Dean knew he was going to try everything to breed his omega and give them what they wanted.

And nothing else matters by waywardelle

RATING: E, Warnings: None, A!Dean & O!Sam Dean inexplicably pushes Sam away when their mother returns to their lives. After she leaves, Dean stays away anyway. Sam wants to kill Dean for ignoring the fact that they're fuckin' mated, but the omega in him tells him to be patient. So, he waits. And he misses his Alpha like crazy.

All in the Timing by C_aura

RATING: E, Warnings: Dub-Con, A!Dean & O!Sam Sam hasn’t had a heat in ten years. Dean may not be his mate, but he’s past waiting patiently and decides it’s time to take a more hands-on approach.

Happy Birthday to Me! by WhiskyBoys

RATING: E, Warnings: Underage, O!Dean & A!Sam Dean wants to be an omega, and he wants Sam to be the one to turn him. Sam doesn’t stand a chance.

A new Life by KillerOfHope

RATING: E, Warnings: Underage, O!Dean & A!Sam Prompt Fill for SPN Kinkmeme: AU for S10E12 - "About a boy" The witch wasn't just deaging adults, she had them turned into Omegas as well, since she preferred the taste of fresh young Omegas. The cake she and Hansel fed their victims was spiked with magically enhanced Alpha sperm to ensure a quick turn. So when Dean showed up at their motelroom, Sam wasn't just faced with a teen version of his brother, but with a newly presented Omega.

and it's you that i want by according2thelore [rec note: i'm not above a self rec, lol!]

RATING: E, Warnings: None, O!Dean & A!Sam "You know that’s not what I meant.” Mr. Smith says into the phone, and he sounds exhausted. Sam doesn’t turn around, trying to give him as much privacy as possible, even if it’s imagined. Sam throws his whole body weight into his next pull of the handle, feeling the budding sweat from earlier as a full-body wave, pricking at his neck and armpits and forehead. Nothing. The door doesn’t budge. Sam’s trapped. Or: Sam Wesson gets stuck in a supply closet with his boss, who's hiding out to fight with his girlfriend. Sensing the available omega that Sam's been into for months, Sam goes into an early rut.

since you said "spn" and not specifically wincest, i also have a handful of J2 fics here. i don't even think i really ship J2, but while going through these i realized i have...uh...quite a lot lol...

J2:

for a good cause by hellhoundsprey

RATING: E, Warnings: None, O!Jensen & A!Jared Jensen covers for a teammate in the kissing booth of a local charity event. It’s for a good cause, after all, and only for an hour. What can possibly go wrong?

Neighborhood Love by ashtraythief

RATING: E, Warnings: None, O!Jensen & A!Jared Jensen might be an omega, but that doesn’t mean he’s just going to say yes to any alpha who comes along. His parents think he has impossible standards, his friends think he’s a grumpy bastard. There’s probably some truth to all of that, but there’s also the fact that Jared, a really cute and really tall alpha just moved in next door and Jensen has a crush. Thankfully, as it turns out, so does Jared.

Perfect Disaster by ashtraythief

RATING: E, Warnings: None, A!Jensen & O!Jared Jared never banked on the perfect romantic moment of meeting his mate, but having him come into the ER as a patient is ridiculous. Even after Jensen is recovered, life keeps getting in the way of them properly consummating their mating, until Jensen has enough of the interruptions and whisks Jared away for a weekend getaway.

Crazy About You (Two) by ashtraythief

RATING: E, Warnings: None, A!Jensen & O!Jared One of the many things that attracted Jared to Jensen when they first met was that Jensen was such a laid-back alpha. He never did any of the dumb alpha posturing, wasn’t possessive or jealous. But recently—recently things had taken a turn. And Jared doesn’t mind the frequent and quite frankly amazing sex they’re having, but when Jensen becomes possessive, quite literally refuses to let him leave the bed, Jared realizes that something’s different. And he does not like it—until he figures out why Jensen’s so possessive all of a sudden.

Better Late Than Never (I Guess) by littlefirefly31

RATING: Not Rated, Warnings: None, A!Jensen & O!Jared Prompt: Could I ask for fic where alpha Jensen taking care of Jared during his heat (knotting, marathon sex), please? Summary: Jensen's lived next to Jared for five years and he has no idea how to tell the omega he loves him.

Patience Is Not a Virtue by fullmoon_nightowl

RATING: E, Warnings: Underage, A!Jensen & O!Jared J1 and J2 recently got mated. J1 is older and wanted to wait for J2's first heat to have sex. J2 doesn't really appreciate it because he's been crushing hard on J2. So while J1 tries to make their first time gentle and sweet, J2 just wants to get his dick already.

Taste Like Sugar by littlefirefly31

RATING: E, Warnings: None, A!Jensen & O!Jared Prompt: Speaking of series, could you do one where omega!jared is a very tiny wolf and alpha!Jensen, who's large for a wolf, if very protective over him?

Mistaken Identity by littlefirefly31

RATING: Not Rated, Warnings: None, A!Jensen & O!Jared Prompt: Jared is an unmated omega because of his size most alphas find him intimidating. Or confuse him for a beta. Of course this makes him have insecurities so he starts hiding his omega status. He meets Jensen and of course Jensen is all over him and wants to mate him but Jared thinks he's playing because he's been hurt in the past before. Sorry if it's too long. True mating welcome go free with it. I'm always interested how you put your twists. Thank you.

World Goes 'Round by Misunderstanding by queerly_it_is [rec note: a fandom classic]

RATING: E, Warning: Underage, O!Jensen & A!Jared Jensen and Jared love each other, but neither of them knows that. Jensen goes into heat and seeks out Jared, who gives in to what’s he’s ashamed of wanting. Jared calls Jensen’s parents who make a deal with Jared that they don’t see fit to inform Jensen of, and matters only get worse when Jensen finds out he’s pregnant and runs away from home to keep his baby.

thanks for this ask, anon! i hope you enjoy reading through these! :)

-lizzy

[boywifesammy]

spn fic rec fest - 5

AUGUST 13 - RAREPAIRS

as before, i've tagged authors that have their tumblr public on their ao3. if you'd like me to remove the @, just lmk. @spnficrecfest for more info on the event.

assume everything i say is true by adastreia Dean/Bela, 4k, E

Transmasc Dean & Bela have hatesex during their heist in S3. this is great smut thats a bit silly as well. also AMAZING characterization!! bela & dean’s voices are spot on and i love love love how they wrote ftm dean. accurate, natural and extremely hot.

Mother Knows Best by withthekeyisking (@withthekeyisking-writer) Sam/Mary, 3k, E [noncon]

"Sam just wants his mom to love him. And if this is what it takes to get it, then he'll do it." i absolutely love this fic. the touch-starved sammy, his need for maternal love, his worry that he’s evil & how he immediately compares this w/ lucifer… it’s a good depiction of a covert type of sexual assault that’s not talked about often. good writing of a topic thats deeply personal to me <3

I Got You by darkwarf Sam/Lucifer, 3k, E [noncon]

Once Lucifer realizes that he can't coax Sam into saying yes again, he goes a different route. oooh boy. every one of lucifer’s dialogue lines in this fic made my skin crawl. absolutely loved it. lucifer’s nonchalant form of manipulation & violence just really gets me. the writing is also very graphic & strong on the sam whump (which is my jam).

Magic Dolphins Bearing Gifts by Cuda (@jazzforthecaptain) Castiel/Sam, 6k, E

Sam accidentally prays for Cas regarding a sex-toy he acquires during a case— it then spirals. the writing in this fic is amazing!! sam & cas’ voices are on point and its the perfect mixture of hot & funny. this is my fav type of sastiel where they’re both fumbling around each other like they’re kids at prom :’)

Do you want me to distract you? by Mumble_Bee Sam/Kevin, 7k, E

“Kevin gets injured during a hunt and Sam takes care of him while he heals.” so i have a soft spot for gentle caretaker sam & flustered gay kevin and this hit both those notes perfectly. i imagine this is how their relationship would be like in canon where sam would be so worried for him while kevin is crushing HARD and struggling to function because of it lel.

Slow Love by beekeepercain (@beekeepercain) Sam/Jess, 1k, M

Jess plays dress-up on Sammy with her clothes. short little fic with pretty writing. just a real & heartwarming view of 2 kids in love. very cute, its small moments like these that really flesh out sam&jess’ relationship in my mind!

[spnfanficpond]

Livechat recap: Writing Reader Inserts - How to Reduce the Y/N of It All

We had a great chat in our Discord server about different aspects of writing reader insert fics! Those who were there or have contributed to the discussion after the fact are: @notsofly, @spn-fanfic-reblog-writes, @kazsrm67, @thoughtslikeaminefield, @zepskies, @talltalesandbedtimestories, and @stunudo. Below the cut is a rundown of the points that we discussed!

How do you reduce the use of Y/N and similar placeholders?

Nicknames - This is especially easy when writing SPN because Dean loves giving nicknames to everyone.

For placeholders like Y/H/C and Y/E/C - When writing from the RIC's (Reader Insert Character) POV (Point Of View), this is easy because most people don't consider their own hair or eye color. When writing from another character's POV, like an SPN Character (SPNC), focus on attributes like how eyes can shine, or narrow. Hair can be soft or shiny.

Decide if the detail you're referring to is necessary to the story. If the plot doesn't change without it, do you really need to include it?

How much detail does an RIC need?

Only those details that would change the story if they were different or missing. For example, if a story is about aging/maturity or how a RIC reacts to new tech, then age is necessary.

What specific details should you leave out when possible?

Hair length/style - Some women have very short hair that can't be put into a ponytail or braided. Focus on feel of the hair, not tangling it into someone's fingers.

Weight - You can mention curves and leave the rest to the imagination.

Blushing - You can feel your face get hot, but you can’t really see yourself blushing. Describe the feeling over the appearance. Darker skin tones don't turn noticeably red when blushing.

Race/ethnicity - Unless your story involves ethnic customs or dealing with something specifically racial, this is not a necessary detail.

Clothing - Unless a hunter is dressing up, clothing does not need to be specifically described. Even when dressing up, clothing can be described generically. "A dress in her favorite color that showed off her assets and minimized those little parts of herself she wanted hidden." A job can affect clothing, but just going to the mall or on a date does not. Describe comfort over style.

What is the difference between an OC (Original Character) and a RIC?

Backstory - OC's will usually have a backstory to help define their character. RIC's only need backstory as it pertains to the current story. They can have one, but only what's needed for the story.

Name

Physical description - OC's need to be described but RIC's need to not be described as much as possible.

Does an RI fic need to be in 2nd Person POV?

No. They can also be written in 3rd person omniscient (the audience knows what everyone is thinking) or 3rd person limited POV (the audience only knows what one person is thinking, as if they were in that character's head).

Are RI fics more popular on one platform vs. another?

Yes. RI fics seem to be a lot more popular on Tumblr than on AO3. Tumblr also seems to prefer RIC's over OC's. We don't know why.

Ways to describe eyes that don't involve color?

Focus on the emotions - see emotions in their eyes instead of color

Focus on actions - eyes crinkling, slitting, narrowing, widening. She batted her eyes or looked up at him through her lashes.

Other adjectives besides color - Bright eyes, shining eyes, etc

NO ORBS.

How do you write a Gender Neutral RIC (GNRIC)?

You have to avoid gender stereotypes like women being more emotional and emotionally available while men are more stoic and stubborn. Women and men stereotypically flirt differently. You need to identify those traits in your story and balance them out to neutralize them. Get down to your basic "people" traits for the character.

Who cuddles who? Maybe the SPNC comes to the GNRIC and asks for cuddles? Decide if that kind of thing matters and why.

The GNRIC discussion at the end of our time led to the creation of a writing challenge to explore gender. How would we write a female RIC differently from a male RIC if they were put into the same story? How does knowing this help us to strip gender stereotypes from our story to make a truly gender-neutral RIC? If you would like to know more about this writing challenge and how to participate, click here!

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[canonicallysoulmates]

J2 JIB13 Panel

As a Måneskin fan I cannot begin to tell y'all the excitment I felt over Zitti E Buoni being their entrance song!

The panel starts with the boys playing around, and noticing the camera has them looking bright red for some reason. Also, they do kissy face at the camera which is adorable and funny.

What was their worst or most uncomfortable tied up situation on set?

For Jared it wasn't when they were actually tied up on set it was when they had to pretend, for many seasons, to be pinned in place like by a demon. He thinks at first they were just trying to act how it would feel to be supernaturally pressed against a wall and invariably you know you film an episode of tv in October and it airs in January, and you film another one in November or December and you're tied up and in January you watch what you did back in October and when the ghost pushed you against the wall, when it airs you look all smushed so you think you gotta change that; but when there were actual ropes around it felt alright, it was easy to get into character, and get into the timing of the scene and sequence.

Jensen adds that those types of scenes, it's also exhausting too cause when you're doing it yourself, you're pressing yourself against the wall and they yell action, you kinda hold your breath and tighten everything and doing that over and over again for like minutes at a time is not fun. You're hyperventilating and you're straining like you're gonna pop a blood vessel, that was not fun. He will say, aside from that which happened quite a few times on SPN, he was kind of tied down and locked down on The Boys a few times that were not fun. The one were the Russians have him in captivity and they have him tied down to a table and are trying to see what can hurt Soldier Boy- on SPN they were friends with the props department so Robin would tie them up very loosely toward they yelled cut they would just get out of their ties like if they had their ankles tied to a chair like demon!Dean they would yell cut and Jensen would just wiggle out but on the Boys he wasn't as friendly with them, they didn't really know each other that well so they really locked him into the table and they were trying different items and one of them was an AK-47 in his mouth, and even though he knew it was a fake gun that didn't feel good. And then to top that there was a skill saw that was running, they had removed the blade but he didn't like it and he couldn't move so he felt pretty vulnurable. But not as vulnerable as coming out of the cage completely naked in front of an entire new crew and new cast. x

When they were younger did they have part time jobs for extra money?

Jensen worked at his uncles small moving company during the summers in High School. He didn’t like it but it payed pretty good and gave him some pocket change, and that was about the only thing he did, he technically wasn’t an employee his uncle just payed him for helping out.

Jared worked as a ranch hand in central Texas between his junior and senior year of High School. He would fix barbed wire fences and cut down cedar forests and in Texas there's these bugs called chiggers they're like small mites and fly around, especially near cedar, and they get into your skin and they itch but if you scratch them that gives them oxygen and keeps them alive so his parents would drop him off on Sunday night, he'd work Monday to Friday, get picked up to go home Friday and he would have to stand in front of his mom in his undwear so she could put nail polish over all the chigger bites because that seals them in so your body gets rid of it. Jensen asked if he got payed extra for all the bites, he did not. He was paid like 5 dollars and 35cents an hour. x

What do they think would happen if blood junkie!Sam and demon!Dean met? Jared says his instinct is they'd go 'we’re both a little off kilter let’s go party.' That he feels like it’d be kind of the same thing as Dean befriending Benny in Purgatory, he feels like they’d get along strangely.

Jensen says they’d probably cause a lot of problems for other hunters. When demon!Dean was was left to his own devices he was causing issues so he thinks if he had a partner in crime like blood junkie!Sam he thinks it would just multiply that. x

What’s something they didn’t expect about getting older? Positive or negative.

When he was in his teens Jensen thought that by the time he reached his current age he’d have it all figured out. As a kid or somebody young he always thought people that age they have it all figure out cause they’re the adults but he still doesn’t feel like an adult. He still feels like that 20yr old is very much alive inside him just wearing an older suit.

Jared said he had a similar conversation with a buddy of his who’s 47 and they landed on life isn't one coming of age story, it’s a series of coming of age stories. When you're a teenager you think you're big but you're not, then you turn 16, in america that means you can drive and you think you can drive, you're independent, you can do your thing then you turn 18, 21 and so on - he feels like life is a series of coming of ages. Jensen says it's a journey, and Jared agrees that it's like Jensen was saying, you meet people who are older like 50 and you think they have it figured out but then you turn 50 and you realize you're still learning and the world is changing around you so you change again, same thing when you get married or have kids you think 'this is life' but it's not you keep on evolving. He says it's funny, he turned 40 last summer and he felt like forgiveness turning 40. That part of him inside always felt older psychologically that he was literally so finally at 40 he felt like it was okay to be a grown-up. He's still very much a kid but he felt like it's okay to slow down and ask for time for himself, when you're in your teens, 20's, or even 30's it's kind of assumed that you're up for anything and you're gonna take that on but when he reached 40 he was like well I'm 40, I'm married with kids I'm gonna slow down so it's been wonderful. He much prefers 40 over 30 or 20 even so he's grateful.

Jensen shares that he sat down the other day to tie his shoes and he looked at his knees and said "I'm so proud of you guys" 😂 He says he's not kidding, that he got a little emotional, that he stared at them and told them how proud of them he was and felt such pride, he told them they've hung in there and are still carrying him, and he doesn't have any knee pain. That he got some x-ray's done a while back cause he had some knee pain when they were training for a marathon so he went to Jared's brother who's an orthopedic surgeon and he told Jensen his knee was in really good shape he just had some inflammation, and his knee hasn't really bothered him since. x

Do they miss the pranks? Jared misses everything, and when the crowd goes awww he says he gets it, there’s certainly a bit of aww but in a funny way he and Jensen had some version of this conversation for years before SPN aired its finale episode. It's one of those you know absence makes the heart grow fonder and to leave something as it stood and you're so proud of and want more of there's a certain romance to it, it's like when you're a kid and you go to camp or something and it's five days but you make new friends and you're gonna be best friends forever and then you go your separate ways but you're so much better for having had it, and the idea that maybe it can happen again. He misses it all but it's not painful for him. In a strange way, because he's very nostalgic he has shit he should have thrown away years ago which Jensen can vouch for, he misses it but in a very wonderful light.

Jensen says he'll never be happy that it ended, that the show came to an end, he'll never feel 'oh, thank god that's over'. But he is very content in how it came to- that they did those 15yrs and then they ended and he's not talking about the story, he's thinking outside of the story. The way they all walked away with their heads held high and there was much love in that set, it's something he'll always be very proud of and something he'll always miss. He misses the pranks, he misses just walking around on set in the morning and saying hi to everybody, he misses getting breakfast at the green machine, and going to the hair and makeup trailer and saying hi to all the ladies, he misses it all; there's a long list of things that he misses doing that he did for many, many years. But it still makes him look back on it and it makes him that much more proud of what they did, and the time that they had together because it will always make him smile. x

Outside of their family and friends who made a big impression on them?

Jared feels like he really enjoys "accidental acquaintances" by which he means like when you come across somebody at the airport and you’re from going from terminal a to terminal c and it's 25mins and you're sitting next to somebody and strike up a conversation. That it's funny, in the world that they live in when a lot of stuff that's going on that's hey go be this guy, or that guy, or that girl or whatever meeting people who live more normal lives then they hear you're an actor- that the previous night G, who is there with him, they sat down at a little restaurant by the hotel and an american couple sat right next to them and the space was really tight so they were really close together and they started hearing them speak and struck up a conversation with them and the couple had no idea who they were and it was cool. He loves that kind of stuff, like happy accidents. So he is consistantly and constantly kind of amazed and grateful for people he meets along the journey.

Jensen says as far as work goes there's a long list like Kim Manners and Bob Singer who they worked with on SPN but before that too he got to work with a lot of great people on Days of Our Lives. That on that show there's a wide variety cast of characters of all ages and he remembers thinking 'okay well I didn't go to school for this and what I know is just instinctual' but what he doesn't know he has 20 people there who might be able to teach him, might be able to fill in those gaps and he was just a sponge for 3yrs on that show watching, seeing what worked, seeing what didn't work because you can be thought a lot by seeing things that other people don't react well to like 'okay don't do that, don't be an asshole'.

So, there's a lot of influence on how that shaped what he ended up being. There's a long list of people and he thinks this is a journey, this life of ours and it's a gift too and he thinks to close yourself off and think that you know all the answers and have it all figured out at any age is wrong, always learn, always continue learning and learn from those around you both positive and negative. And he thinks if you continue to do that, we're all constantly changing and evolving and becoming better because of what we're watching from the world around us. That the fans have thought him, he learns just from sitting there on the stage. x

The next fan is a professional mermaid, and they want to know would the boys ever consider swimming in a mermaid tail?

Jensen actually has! His daughter bought one that they thought was kid size but when they got it home realized it was way too big and was actually an adult size so Jensen put it on and jumped in the pool. God, please, let their be a picture or a video of this!

He said it was interesting, and that he had just read somewhere that there's a whole multi-million dollar industry of live merpeople. The fan said that Netflix did a documentary about it, and Jensen replied that's what the article was about and that he'd be watching the documentary. Does he have a desire to do it again? Not so much, it did feel weird but he did get across the pool really quickly.

He says you don't have to put the glittery, scaly thing on, to which Jared asks if you can just put that on and Jensen says he (Jared) can.

Jared would love to, and he's so curious because he and G took the kids to Mexico and where they stayed had a gift shop and there was a mermaid fin which Odette really wanted so they got it for her but she hasn't used it yet, he starts to say that it induced panic in him cause if you lock her feet in but Jensen starts explaining to him how they work. Jared says he'll give it a try but he feels like he'd scared like he'd feel like he's drowning, and he'll watch the documentary. 🧜‍♀️

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[sunshinepanic]

Lie to me - Ch 02

Pairing: Dean Winchester x Reader

Summary: You and your best friend Dean drunkenly hook up.

Warnings: Uh-oh… unrequited/maybe requited, drinking, angst, smut

Word Count: 1,544

Sorry this has taken so fucking long. There is no excuse other than I’m just a shit person with a habit of being severely depressed. If you are still here thank you so much! If not I completely understand.

Not beta read we die like men.

Dean Winchester Masterlist - SPN Masterlist

Slamming the shot glass down on the bar he stared down at his phone. Scrolling through pictures of you, Sammy, and him together. His chest ached when he thought about how your face fell when he had told Sammy he was headed out. He wanted to ask you to come with him but you always turned him down. Sammy had sighed and tried for the millionth time to convince Dean you had feelings for him but Dean knew he was just a friend in your eyes, and screw Sam for trying to give him false hope. He downed another shot letting his mind wander to thoughts of you. He was startled when he felt someone’s fingers tickle up his arm. For a split second he hoped it was you but when he turned it was the curvy brunette that had been eyeing him out like a steak dinner since he had entered the bar. Normally he would smirk at her and throw out some bullshit line that would have her spreading her legs anywhere he asked her to but instead her touch made his skin crawl. He couldn’t get your face out of his head. He quickly shrugged her hand off mumbling an apology and took off towards the door.

Driving towards the bunker Deans hands clenched the steering wheel. Not sure what his plan was but he knew he couldn’t live like this anymore. When he pulled into the bunker his plan was to go to his room and sleep it off but as he walked down the hall he found himself outside your room.

He was going to walk away thinking you were already asleep but then he heard you moving around. His head told him to knock but before he realized what he was doing he had opened your bedroom door and was walking in.

You were standing there wearing nothing but his worn Led Zeppelin shirt chest heaving from being startled looking like every one of his wet dreams come to life. Your lips parted like you were about to say something but before you could Dean moved. Your back hit the wall and Deans lips crashed against yours.

He expected you to shove him away and he was braced for it but after a moment’s hesitation you moaned into his mouth and buried your hands in his hair pulling him closer. He ripped his flannel and shirt off as fast as he could while trying to keep your lips connected. Reaching down and grabbing your thighs he hoisted you up to wrap your legs around him. You instantly started grinding yourself against him as he carried you over to the bed. He gently laid you down on the bed his shirt riding up revealing your red silk panties. He had barely touched you and you were already soaked through.

Groaning at the sight he leaned down and placed a kiss on your core as he slid your underwear down your legs. He looked up at you from his spot between your legs. Your chest heaving, lips parted, beautiful Y/E/C blown wide like you couldn’t quite believe what you were seeing. He smirked up at you. “Is this alright sweetheart?” He asked as his hands slid back up your legs to cup your ass. Gulping you quickly nodded your head. “I need words baby girl.” You quickly moaned out a yes at his words. He pulled your legs over his shoulders as he licked a broad stripe up your core. You threw your head back moaning at the feeling of his tongue on your delicate folds. You struggled to keep your eyes locked on him not wanting to miss anything. Afraid this was all another one of your dreams. His fingers made their way to your entrance slowly filling you up. His thick fingers pumping in and out of you as he sucked on your clit was the best torture you could ever imagine. “You taste so fucking good sweetheart. Always knew you would be sweet. I need you to cum for me baby. Can you do that? Can you cum on my face? If you’re a good girl for me, and cum, I’ll give you my cock.” You were a moaning shaking mess between his fingers and tongue and the obscene filth coming from his gorgeous lips all you could do was moan and quickly nod your head. He smiled and dove back down with renewed vigor. Within minutes your legs clamped around his head as you shuddered through your orgasm riding it out on his tongue.

As soon as you unclenched your legs he slid up your body shoving his shirt up over your head to remove it. He kissed you like a man starved and before you knew what was happening you could feel him at your entrance. You didn’t even see him finish taking his clothes off. He slowly slid inside of you groaning at how good you felt wrapped around his cock. Your nails dug into his back pulling him as close as possible. Clinging onto him like he might disappear at any moment. He kissed you hard as he started thrusting. You could feel your orgasm nearing fast but then Dean stopped. You were confused but just as you opened your mouth to ask him what was wrong he rolled over startling you with your new position on top of him. You immediately felt self conscious as you looked down at the green eyed hunter. You moved to wrap your arms around yourself but Dean grabbed your hands. “Hey, don’t do that. Don’t try to cover up baby girl. You’re gorgeous.” He leaned up and kissed you “and so fucking sexy.” He placed a kiss on your throat. “I want you so bad baby girl.” He placed a kiss on your nipple. Moaning you grabbed onto his shoulders and slowly lowered yourself onto his cock. Dean groaned and you whined at how deep he felt inside you. You slowly started moving, Deans big hands guiding your hips while you ride him. Dean hands gripped your hips hard enough to leave bruises as he licked and sucked at your nipples. You could feel your orgasm building back up and started moving faster. “Are you going to cum for me baby? I can feel it. I want to feel you cum on my cock. Please baby girl cum for me. Make me cum inside this pretty little pussy.” You tipped your head back closing your eyes but Dean wrapped his hand around your throat. “Look at me baby girl. I want you to look at me while you cum. I wanna see you.” You opened your eyes and moaned as you locked eyes with Dean. You could feel yourself start to shake as your orgasm rolled through your body. You cling onto Dean and fought to keep eye contact. The feel of your orgasm clenching around Dean sent him into his own. He sped up his thrusts cumming deep inside you as you both moaned at the feeling. You finally let your eyes slip shut.

Dean wrapped his arms around you as he gently maneuvered you both down onto your sides. After getting you both into a comfortable position he whispered “Y/N are you ok? Was this alright?” But you didn’t answer. Your breathing was even and you were already fast asleep. Dean stared at your face thinking how beautiful you looked. He knew you guys needed to talk about everything but after tonight he had hope that he might actually get everything he ever wanted and maybe Sammy wasn’t wrong. He wrapped his arms around you and placed a kiss to your forehead before letting sleep take him under.

He wakes up slowly dreams of last night making him not want to wake up. He stretches his arm out searching for you but he finds the bed empty. He sits up, panic setting in, but he tries to hold it back. You probably just went to the kitchen for coffee. He quickly grabs his jeans and pulls them on. He can’t find his shirt from last night so he quickly shrugs on his flannel and does it up while walking out of your room. He is almost to the end of the hall when he hears Sam’s voice so he calls out to him. “Hey, Sammy have you seen Y/N?” When he rounds the corner he sees Sam helping you off the ground. Dean stops in his tracks taking stock of what he is seeing. You’re in sweats and his shirt and then he notices your wallet and car keys clutched in your hand like a death grip. His eyes travel to your tear streaked face and he can feel his throat close and his stomach bottom out. He clears his throat, “Sweetheart what’s wrong?” You shook your head and just mumbled out “I’m sorry.” As you turned and slid past Sam continuing on your way to the garage. Dean watched you go as he felt his heart crack inside his chest. Sam looked from the direction you went back to his brother. “Dean what’s going on? Is Y/N alright?” Dean snapped out of his daze and looked at Sam. “You were wrong Sam.”

Taglist: @m-winchester-67 @niffala @sammedeansandwhich @shinymoonstarfish

[prince-of-elsinore]

One line any fic! Rules: pick ten of your fics, scroll to somewhere midpoint, pick a line chunk and share it, and then tag ten (-ish) people.

@lynne-monstr tagged me for this fic challenge--thanks old friend! This was a fun one :) It just so happens I now have enough spn fic under my belt to complete this with all spn fic, so here goes, in reverse chronological order:

1. Plano: Some Town Halfway In Between (7.5k, unrated, John/Dean, 2022)

That was a relatively new feeling. Wanting to keep things from Dean and just to myself. Like how I planned to try out for the soccer team at whatever school we’d be in next spring, or how I thought the whole Kurt Cobain thing was sad and all but I really didn’t get what the big deal was about his music, or that my favorite color had changed from purple to green. That I’d seen the nudie mag he kept at the bottom of his duffel. The secrets made me feel—in control, or something, but a little sad at the same time. There was a gap between me and my brother where there didn’t used to be one, and day to day I couldn’t make up my mind whether I wanted to reach across and close it or dig it wider.

2. Road Risk (1.5k, E, Sam/Dean, 2022)

That was nearly seven years ago. Nothing more happened between them after that, not for a long time, not till six months ago on Mom's birthday when Dean had his—crisis, he calls it. Psychotic break, the family says behind his back.

Dean gnaws the inside of his cheek. Sam isn't hitting the good spot. Dean wonders if that's on purpose.

3. Closing Night (1.9k, E, Sam/Dean, 2022)

Sam's heart races. That's more like it. He holds Dean's gaze like it's a lifeline. Dad's always warning him about the evil around every corner, and Sam's seen enough of his father's and brother's fresh spilled blood to believe him. But it's not what's out there that scares him. It's the darkness right here with him that he feels a breath away from drowning in. The huge empty of his dead-end life. Most days it feels like Dean's the only thing stopping him from slipping under.

4. With A Bit Of Spit And Luck (7.4k, E, Sam/Dean, 2022)

He swallows again. "She… liked it?" He doesn't know why he asks. He just wants Dean to keep talking.

Suddenly Dean's mouth is at his ear, breath rolling over Sam's skin hot as steam off an engine. "She fucking loved it, Sammy."

5. Understand the Undernetting (17k, M, Gen, 2022)

"Is it—is it always a guy and a girl?" Sam says in a rush, as if he had to psych himself up for it.

Dean frowns in confusion. "Yeah, of course."

Then his brain scratches like a record. His whole body flushes with heat from his ears to his toes. "Uh, unless—" But no. Sam doesn't mean that. No way. Why would Sam ask about that?

6. December, Sutter County (4k, M, Gen, 2022)

What the hell would he do if he did get to the buttes anyway? What does it matter what he and Baby see of the world if no one ever knows they were there? If there's no one to say, See those mounds there? Those are the lava domes, or, That's the debris apron created by the pyroclastic flow, or just, Look, Dean, and point to the patchwork below where a flooded field blazes bronze in the evening sun. Maybe some people can appreciate that sort of thing solo but Dean isn't gonna go out of his way for it.

7. Baton Rouge (7.5k, E, Sam/Dean, 2021)

It’s dim inside, little light offered by the window. At least the room is set back from the lot, somewhat protected by the overhang of the walkway. Sam’s already getting out of his wet things, back turned to Dean. His skin glows ghostly pale, like he’s his own source of light. Dean watches the confident movement of muscle under his skin, then tears his eyes away.

He grabs a pair of boxers from his duffle. He’s unsettled. Maybe the jerky he ate in the car isn’t sitting right. Or maybe it’s just the bruising getting to him. “Gonna get cleaned up,” he says by way of excuse to escape to the bathroom. He doesn’t want Sam to see when he examines the damage to his side.

8. Some Starless Night (Love May Come an’ Tap You on the Shoulder) (9.1k, M, Sam/Dean, 2021)

Dean's insides twist. "Why didn't you tell me? Did you think I'd be—I dunno…"

What? Against it? Disgusted?

Dean's not sure what he's feeling, but it's not disgust. There's a flush rising up his chest. He feels too hot in his flannel. Maybe it's anger. Because something here feels wrong. And it's not that Sam apparently slept with a dude. It's that it happened—what, fifteen years ago? And Dean never knew.

9. Is It Tomorrow (Or Just the End of Time) (8k, E, Sam/Dean, 2021)

He bites his lip at the sucking heat of it, keeps silent as the grave. Sam is quiet too, the way he is when Dean sews him up after a nasty hunt, twitching with the effort of it. Images of gaping flesh, all the wounds Dean has closed on Sam's body, flash through his mind. And here he is prying him back open.

10. Time to Look at One Another (2k, G, Gen, 2021)

Dean scuffs his shoe on the sidewalk, sends a piece of gravel skidding into the road. His hands are shoved deep in his pockets.

"That what George is supposed to do? Just, move on? I mean, what's the point? He gives up everything for her, and then she just—dies."

Sam pushes back the familiar horror show in his head. Locks it away. He shrugs. "She's dead, Dean. There's nothing he can do."

They walk in silence, and Sam thinks the conversation is over. They round a corner and the house comes into sight.

Then Dean says, in a quiet mumble Sam's not sure he's meant to hear, "But he loved her so much."

...

I’m tagging @nigeltde-fic, @zmediaoutlet, @damnable-bell, @flownwrong, @phynali, and @cowboyified, if you want to, and anyone else who feels like it--you can say I tagged you :)

[sydmarch]

@ignitingthesky sorry for the tag if you don't care about this feel free to ignore LOL but i was deep in my drafts and i FOUND THE DREAM JOURNAL ENTRY that i wrote immediately after waking up from that dream about michael the reaper we were talking about the other day! i didn't even know for sure if i actually wrote an entry or not so i cant believe i stumbled on this right after talking about it. clearly i was deep into my spn rewatch when i had this dream bcus the characters keep popping up LOL

dream a a reaper woke up around 540 went back to sleep. saw a face in the window across from my living room working w a headset on. then started seeing a tall tall man outside looking through the window in to do his work. like stretched out two stories tall. I was some kind of deal maker& I had a client come back after recently making a deal to make one again bcus she wanted to see him. but then the woman was Sam? and he wanted to fuck the reaper. was talking to Claire about it she was like nah I'm too short and he's like I'm taken but he thought he was gonna die soon on a mission so her wanted to. I'd never seen him I kept glancing out. eventually he came over to me and was like why do you keep looking over. and I was like I've never seen you before I'm all this time. he said he thought it was bcus my client has been wanting to see him he was revealed but he had been there. he had like olive skin and shaggy dark hair. he made himself average height and we were in this like bar and he was introducing himself. he was telling me abt some creatures apparently Sam and Dean were like... sex god's? & I was like Hm maybe I should give them a try (???). he had purplish hair now. then he showed me to his room on the fourth floor it was small and hoarder like there was a ton of stuff abt writing. reference books like whole owns about the weights of dogs. and stuff. some kanuscript for a spn episode or fanfic? he had latter's taped up from like.. an ice man and other supernatural friends wishing him a happy birthday and stuff. his name was Michael. wandered through another random apartment in my way back but this one was L ik e a child's room. there was something about an older Claire w a younger Claire rushing down a river. older one hadn't planned on stopping but then needed to save her friend Jimmy from going too fast but fell asleep in the water woke up and he was smashed against a car and his eyes were gone, a train came through even tho it was water and crushed him. then I think I was waking up at my place and peeking out for him again and he was gone. then at the couch at my parents place looking out the window in the living room. it was snowy and there was a restaurant built like ten feet from the dog pool but it was really like.. a pet supply store? but tiny and cozy

[atplblog]

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[undercovercannibal]

SUPERNATURAL 1.06 ⛥ Skin

[nightskied]

“    i dream of never being called    RESILIENT    again in my life .    i’m exhausted by strength .     i want support .   i want   softness .     i  want    e a s e .    i want to be amongst kin .     Not patted on the back for how well I take a hit .     or for how many .    ”

indie, multimuse blog featuring muses from various tv shows ,  movies ,  books ,   mythologies .     heavily headcanon based and plot - oriented .    ASK - BASED FOR SEMI HIATUS .

 a study on :      adaptability ,    the beauty of mundane life ,   the breaking of the scrying glass ,   how - to’s and ruh - oh’s heavy consequences ,   how to breathe after breathing water  ,   where do you go when all things disappear .

important links :        RULES ,    MUSES . other links :      starter calls ,     ask memes ,     wishlist .

HIGHLIGHTED MUSES :      elena gilbert  ( tv & book ) ,  jal fazer  ( skins uk ) ,   naomi hale ,   elizabeth nilssen - levin ,   lexi branson  ( tv ) ,   rose  ( tv ) ,   bonnie mccullough  ( book ) ,   rosalie hale  ( anti - jp ) ,   jo harvelle  ( spn ) ,  nell crain  ( h. of hill house ) .

[lazarusemma]

something about dean reverently gathering cas’s bones to grind to ash to scatter in a place he thinks is beautiful. something about cas engraving dean’s ribs with protection. something about touching someone at their deepest physical self, to keep him safe, to keep him surrounded by goodness, to keep him - you cannot have him but you can turn his very skeleton into a silent confession

[diabolimeservavit666]

If it is true that Belatrix and Voldemort were a thing... What the fuck, people?!

Who the fuck do you think is his mother? Lilith, you dipshits! You just put a son with his mother! I don't care that he's well over six thousand years old, it's still paedopholic incest. THAT'S HIS MOTHER! Lilith may have her (sexual) needs but I seriously doubt that that includes fucking her own son. Get the Hell out of pornhub, you sickos!

Besides, if you must be a fucked up little shit, at least, get your facts right. He is not the most powerful Demon. That's his parents, Lilith and Alastair. I swear, the stupidity of this Fandom- Argh....

[destielficarchive]

The Wayback Machine and the Quest for Deleted Fics

What is the Wayback Machine?

The Wayback Machine is the time machine used by Peabody and Sherman in "Rocky and Bullwinkle." It's also the nickname of The Internet Archive (https://web.archive.org/) which, since the late '90s, has crawled the internet and just. Archived everything it finds. (You can read their history here). People now can enter pages they want to save (I used it to preserve some censored Chinese gay books, for example, entering all the URLs myself to be sure that Wayback captured them), and I don't even know how else it finds stuff, but it's pretty amazing. How amazing?

This is their capture of my Tripod anime webpage from when I was in college. Some of the graphics are missing, yeah, but like. I made this website in fricken 1999, and stopped maintaining it in 2001 or 2002. Back then my e-mail address was still "unforth@penpen.com" and webrings were a thing and I was well known for creating Winamp skins in Jasc. That it's there at all is pretty fucking incredible.

Who cares about your old anime page?

Other than me? No one. BUT. Wayback's "catch all, save all, store all" approach to archiving means it's an invaluable tool for finding deleted fic. For example, here's their capture of "Rock Salt and Feathers," which was (as far as I know) the first Destiel-specific fic archive made on the internet, and many of the earliest Destiel fics were posted there or x-posted there from LJ.

The owner deleted it in 2010, taking all the fics with it, but many can still be accessed - and saved by my project, and read by anyone who wants to - because they're in Wayback.

Okay, that's way more interesting. How do I use Wayback to find stuff like that?

The key to using the Wayback Machine to find old and/or deleted fics is that you need the original url. Thus, teaching someone how to use Wayback to find deleted fics ends up mostly being about teaching someone tricks for finding ancient urls for fics that have been deleted (and occasionally when you find the url you actually discover the fic isn't deleted at all, which is always nice!). Once you have the URL, the "how to use" part is easy, you just go to web.archive.org and enter the url in the search box.

The bar graph of years shows every time Wayback Machine "captured" (archived) the specific page at that url. Often, each of these captures will be different, especially for websites that update regularly (like an archive or an author's works page). When you click on a year, you'll get a calendar, and then you just pick the date and time you want (I highlighted April 18th, 2009, as an example, and because it was my dad's 68th birthday so why not? It's also about a month before I personally started watching SPN, ah, memories...). Once you've picked the capture you want, it'll load the next page and show you a capture of it - so here's a (different than above) capture of Rock Salt and Feathers, dating to within a week of when the website was first founded! The same bar graph is now up top, and you can click on the bar you want to jump to that date and see how the website changed over time - so this capture on April 18th, 2009, is pretty bare bones; by the time of the May capture I screen capped above, things have moved along!

Further, once you're in an archive of a deleted webpage you can (or at least, you can try) to navigate it as normal, just...all within Wayback's interface. So like, on this page, I can access their list of new works (and find different ones by trying the different captures)...

...and I can even read them!

Uh oh, better watch out for those 4.20 spoilers. Anyway, the point is - if you've got the original URL, you can use it to load a deleted page into Wayback, and then navigate that website as normal...at least up until you try a link that Wayback didn't archive, and then you'll hit a "sorry, we don't have that one" page (I'm not gonna screen cap cause at this rate I'll hit Tumblr's image limit in about 2 more minutes). Not everything will be there, ever. Rock Salt and Feathers is unusually well-preserved; when I did a deep-dive and spent three days trying to find things there, I was able to preserve nearly 90% of all the fic I know of that was posted there, and some of the rest I was able to find by tracking down alts for the people who posted there - many (though not all!) had x-posted their works to LJ, and later some ALSO x-posted to AO3, once AO3 existed (Rock Salt and Feathers predates the existence of AO3 by about 6 months).

So, as you can see - using Wayback is the easy part (at least until it isn't - more on that later...it's easy on a simple page like Rock Salt and Feathers, hence my using it for examples, but it can get hella complicated for more modern, dynamic websites like AO3). The hard part?

(cutting to a read more...I hate using them cause then people don't read but this post is just. so long.)

Where am I supposed to get the original URL for a fic that's been deleted for 5 years or a decade or more?

Google search is your friend (or your preferred search engine I guess, but I always use Google). If you know the username and the exact title, it's easy - especially using quotes, which is also your friend. So, for example, I couldn't remember the URL for Rock Salt and Feathers and I didn't actually have it saved, so I just googled "rocksalt and feathers" (in quotes). It prompt got mad at me and told me rock salt should be two words, and so I changed it, and sure enough the first result was an ancient LJ post that included the links I needed. Which is to say, what you're really looking for isn't the "thing itself," but rather other websites that reference the thing in question. For works that were originally posted on LJ, FF.net, personal websites like Rock Salt and Feathers, or elsewhere, ancient rec lists tend to be winners for finding the links. Learning some search tricks can also help - like, if you don't know the exact title, try variations, or try just the part you're sure of. If you remember a quote, try searching for that. If the title is something super common, try adding the author name or, if you don't know it, search for it using "(name of fic)" destiel. Anything you can think of, remember, etc., will help. Sometimes, you just get as close as you can, and then look through the results, and often there'll be something close that even if it's not right, will lead you to a resource that'll help.

Alternatively, again for older works, searching for a different work that you know was released around the same time. So, like, looking for a fic by...idk...Fossarian? Or cautionzombies? Try search for aesc, or bauble, or obstinatrix, or annundriel - someone else who was active when Fossarian and cautionzombies were. (Obviously knowing some Destiel fandom history helps in this case, but there are enough fandom olds around that even if you don't know this info, learning it is an ask away). Especially, try searching for a contemporary whose works are still up, because you can get titles for those more easily (for example, in this case, aesc, annundriel and obstinatrix all have some works cross posted on AO3, so finding the titles is easier, and then you just...keep going til you find what you want). You can also try looking for works where they were betas or editors or gift-recipients, and/or you can kinda...map out...their old friends groups, by seeing who commented where. For example, looking for links to cautionzombies stuff? cautionzomes and annundriel were friends, which I learned by poking around a fuck-ton, and annundriel's accounts are still up, and some old cautionzombie links can be found in annundriel's journals. The links don't work but that's not the point, you just need something to plug into Wayback!

And, as a side note - just because an old LJ link is dead, don't assume that the work is lost! Many of those authors x-posted onto AO3 once they had AO3 accounts (heck, Gedry was continuing to back up works to AO3 as recently as last year), and even among those who didn't (such as annundriel or CloudyJenn, who each only backed up a few) they often simply ported their accounts to Dreamwidth, so you can find their works just by reformatting their LJ url (username.livejournal.com) to a dreamwidth url (username.dreamwidth.org - works for me too, if you want to see the awful shit I wrote in 2005). Also, sometimes you'll find they x-posted to FF.net but not AO3 (which, granted, presents FF.net own array of challenges for backing up, but that's for a different post - drop me an ask if you want me to write that up sooner rather than later, otherwise I'll just do it whenever I remember). All of which is to say - before you assume a dead link means a deleted work you can save yourself some trouble (and some heartbreak, Wayback isn't great for LJ in general because of how LJ posts and blogs were structured) it's worth your while to take a little extra time and check - okay, was it x-posted? Did the person have alternate usernames they used on different platforms? Did they have a writing community on LJ where they posted (for example, a lot of authors posted their works directly to deancasbigbang.livejournal.com or deancas-xmas.livejournal.com, and also a lot of authors made communities even just for themselves, and those communities remained even when they deleted their personal accounts). Even if you find they deleted across all platforms, it's easier to find full works from AO3 or FF.net on Wayback than it is to find works from LJ, so it's worth a try. And, honestly, with really old stuff? Finding the old work x-posted somewhere, or just asking someone like me, or the folks at @destielfanfic, is more likely to find it for you than putting an LJ url into Wayback, though in a pinch that of course is an option too.

Unforth, stop babbling about LJ, I care about deathbanjo, or apokteino, or TamrynEradni, or...

...or anyone who posted on AO3 exclusively, and deleted more recently, yeah, I get it. Of course, the tricks for finding the urls remain similar - rec lists are your friends! But, for AO3, there's another super handy trick. It doesn't always work, but it's by far the best place to start.

Go to @ao3feed-destiel.

Search for the author's name, and/or the fic title, and/or anything you can remember about the fic.

Since mid-2013, the Destiel AO3 feed Tumblr has logged probably around 75% of all the Destiel that's been posted. There ARE gaps - works that weren't initially tagged Destiel, or times when the feed was down and just caught nothing, or "oops the author changed their name four times and I don't know which one they were using when they posted That Fic," or "there are three people with very similar usernames" or "the fic is called 'carry on' and there are a bajillion fics with the same title." It's not perfect, but as a first step it's essential. Because, whatever you find, it'll have:

The link to the original AO3 post

The link to the author's name page at the time

The exact date and time it was originally posted

The original title, tags, etc.

If the work was in a series, the series link

And all of the links can be put into Wayback to help you find The Thing You Want. So, to use a recent example from someone I know doesn't mind having their stuff distributed (or, in this case, discovered on Wayback)...

When you click on the tinyurl, you get an AO3 error page, but, more importantly, in the enter-the-url bar, you get the original url for the fic! Which, in this case is:

http://archiveofourown.org/works/8447584

And then you can go over to Wayback, and...

Well, lookie there, it's the fic that HazelDomain locked! (Note that you'll get a "do you agree to the terms of use" and potentially other pop-ups. Just say yes and click through, there's no way to avoid them because there's no way to access these pages in Wayback as if you are "logged in as you," so the notifications and, in the case of Mature and Explicit works, the "you must be 18+ to proceed..." warnings will pop up every single time (and the 18+ one will cause you depressing issues, which in general just make Mature and Explicit deleted works MUCH harder to find, more on that later, yes this post is really gonna be that long, sorry...)

Now, suppose you weren't looking for this fic by HazelDomain, but instead were looking for one that ao3feed-Destiel didn't have on their list. Well, now is when that link to HazelDomain username comes in handy!

http://archiveofourown.org/users/HazelDomain/pseuds/HazelDomain

You can put this directly into Wayback, and it'll show HazelDomain's home page or, alternatively, if you loaded the fic above (for example) you can just click where it says HazelDomain below the title, and you'll get to go to their main page, which'll list their most recent works (on the date that the capture was taken) and some other links. Tada! You've found HazelDomain fics on Wayback.

(Side note on all of this: AO3 links are stable and permanent, which means that they do not change even if the nature of a fic changes. If the fic's posting date is edited? If the author changes their username? If the title changes? If it's added or removed from a series or a collection? If it's orphaned or added to an anonymous collection? The link will never change. That's how I know that the so-called "orphaned" version of With Understanding is actually a fake - it doesn't have the same URL as the actual version of With Understanding that apokteino posted. So, if you find a link to a work and it turns out that work has only been orphaned, not deleted, that link will still work! For example...

https://archiveofourown.org/works/13063581

One of sir_kingsley's link, with the exact same link it had before it was orphaned!)

Okay, but the one I want isn't on the author's page even after I checked!

As I mentioned, a basic old site like Rock Salt and Feathers? Very easy to use on Wayback. A complex website like AO3? Much more messy, which means there are a bunch of tricks you can use to try to "get at" the data. There's always the chance it's not there at all; a random ficlet by a little known author? Unlikely to have made it into Wayback, unfortunately, especially if the ficlet was Mature or Explicit rated. But, there are bunch of things you can try, and there's never any guessing which will work until you try. When I'm looking for something that's been deleted? I try them all.

Trick 1: The "/pseud" trick.

See how in HazelDomain's author link, it's listed as "users/HazelDomain/pseuds/HazelDomain"? There's a few tricks you can use related to this. First, on AO3, both "users/(username)" and "users/(username)/pseud/(username)" function as links (even if the second instance of username isn't actually a pseud and is just a repeat of the same username, as in the HazelDomain example). As such, they are different urls for Wayback machine searching purposes. Sometimes, when you search "user/(username)" you'll get results but get none when you search for "users/(username)/pseuds/(username), and vice verse. To Wayback, these are two completely different urls, so you have to check them individually - AO3 knows internally that these links route to the same place but Wayback is just basically taking screen caps (well, HTML text caps) so it doesn't know they're equal - so check both!

Trick 2: The "they changed usernames" trick.

If you know that an author changed usernames, try plugging every single one into those "user/(username)" and "user/(username)/pseud/(username)" links. Is it a lot of work? Yes. How bad did you want that fic, again?

(side note: having trouble figuring out if they had alternate usernames? Yeah, it's a nightmare. Checking old rec lists is one way to find out. If the work is in a series, there's also a trick - even if the person changes username, the "Series created by: (username)" thing at the top will still show the username they had when they created the series. Or, if they had a fic with a really unusual title, try doing a google search for that title specifically, even if it's not the one you're looking for, because the odds that two people used that crazy-specific title are low, and you'll be able to see results that might give the different name. Or-or, as yet another option...my master spreadsheet lists every alternate name for a given user that I know of...for example, deathbanjo has also been loneprairies, beenghosting, and tumbleweeds. Also note - unlike WORK links, which are stable even if the person changes their username, orphans, etc., "user/(username)" links are NOT stable. If you search for, idk, bellacatbee...

https://archiveofourown.org/users/bellacatbee

...you'll get an error, even though fairychangeling is bellacatbee and still active...

https://archiveofourown.org/users/fairychangeling)

Trick 3: The "/works" trick.

Hope you're not done giving those "users/(username)" and "users/(username)/pseuds/(username)" links a work out, because you're not done yet! Those links will just give you their home page, which will only list their 6 (...I think it's 6???) most recent works. And then you click on "works" at the side and...oh no there's nothing there! Whelp, whichever link Wayback tried to use ("users/(username)/works" or "users/(username)/pseuds/(username)/works") ...try the other! And then try it for all their username changes, if they had any! Getting frustrated yet? If you're lucky you'll have Found The Thing and you can stop, but if you haven't, we're not done yet, cause yes, there's more...

Trick 4: The "?fandom_id=27" trick.

So, I'm writing this guide specifically for Destiel, so this trick is being shared in the SPN-specific format. Every single fandom on AO3 has a fandom ID number. Supernatural's is 27. If you're looking for a different fandom, you'll just have to find it's number - you can do this by going to any author you know wrote for that fandom, going to their home/main page (users/(username) or users/(username)/pseuds/(username)) and clicking on the fandom - the results will show the fandom_id in the link. So, like, I've still got fairychangeling's page open, Thor is fandom_id 245368, MCU is 414093, Good Omens is 114591, etc. Again, these IDs are stable - fandom_id=27 will ALWAYS be Supernatural, no matter who the writer is. AND, since Wayback treats every single one of these urls as unique, even if "users/(username)/works"/"users/(username)/pseuds/(username)/works" don't work, "users/(username)/works?fandom_id=27" or "users/(username)/pseuds/(username)/works?fandom_id=27" might. And you know what comes next - yes, it's try every variation again!

Trick 5: check every capture!

Captures on Wayback are a moment in time, which means there's always a chance that each one will be different. Trying to find a work that a user wrote in 2011, but Wayback /works is only showing works from 2021 on the first page, and going to page 2 produces a dead link? Try going to the oldest capture. Try going through every single capture, until you find the title you want, if you find the title you want. The /works page wasn't captured at all? Go through every old version of their main page, and see if there's any version of it where the story you want was in the 6 most recent works they posted. Etc. Try every capture on every variation of the /users/(username) links. Test and test and test until you either find it or you've exhausted your options.

Finding lost fics is about patience and about exhausting every option before you give up. All these small variations that look like nothing? Are another chance that Wayback may have captured the work. Skipping one isn't gonna do you any favors. There's never a guarantee. Lots is simply not there. But - more is there then you'll think if you just try one link then give up.

But I'm not looking for a list of their works, I'm looking for a specific work!

The above tricks are what I use when, for example, I've just heard a person deleted their account, and I'm trying to build as complete a list as possible of the works that have been deleted. Further, even if Wayback hasn't captured the actual work, the /(username) page and the /works page will have the links. Sometimes, those links will help you discover the work was orphaned or moved to anon instead of actually deleted. Other times, you'll click it, and bam, the fic will be right there in Wayback! Still other times, it won't be...or at least not apparently. But, sure enough, there are tricks around that too. Before you give up and assume a fic isn't in Wayback at all, you can try...

Trick 1: Remove the chapter part of the link

So, you've got the link to your fic - lets use, idk, "Carry On" by TamrynEradani (I haven't actually tested this as an example yet, hopefully it works lmao for everything I need to do here... lmao).

The original link to Carry On (found on ao3feed-destiel):

http://archiveofourown.org/works/775352/chapters/1458361

AO3 assigns every work a unique number AND every chapter a unique number. If you put in a work without the "/chapters/####" part in AO3, it auto-routes you to chapter 1 and fills in the chapter number. But, not to beat this dead horse again - Wayback doesn't know how to do that! It's entirely literally. It captures only the link, exactly as the link was fed to it. Thus, if you put that link into Wayback? It gets no results. BUT, if you remove the "/chapters/1458361" part (it actually DID loop me to the chapter ID, but when I put it in WITH the Chapter ID, it found nothing - welcome to the joys and vagaries of searching for deleted fics in Wayback...)?

There's Carry On...at least sort of! Because yes, there's still a problem - that pesky "Proceed" button. Because you can't log into Wayback as if it were AO3, and Wayback is (again) literal, you can often end up in annoying cycle where (with Mature and Explicit works) you just get looped back to the "Proceed" page over and over again. There are a couple ways you can try to bypass this.

Trick 2: Check past captures!

Are we learning yet? Yep, this is a repeat. Often, going through every capture will find one or more where, for whatever reason, the Proceed page just...isn't in the way. I have no idea why that's the case, but it works - it's how I opened that HazelDomain fic above, for example. And, it works for Carry On, too - when I tried a different capture of the exact same URL?

There it is!

However, even if that doesn't work, you still have recourse.

Trick 3: the "?view_adult_work=true" trick.

When you hit that "Proceed" button, AO3 auto-adds on "?view_adult_work=true" but (hits the horse with a stick again) Wayback doesn't know that necessarily, unless you tell it. So, you can sometimes bypass the endless-loop-of-proceed problem by giving it the direct link instead. In this case...

http://archiveofourown.org/works/775352?view_adult_work=true"

or

http://archiveofourown.org/works/775352/chapters/1458361?view_adult_work=true

(this trick actually DOESN'T work with Carry On, but it DOES work sometimes, especially with one shot mature/explicit works. That said, the "check every capture" trick works more often, so definitely try that first).

Okay, so...getting somewhere, but! Carry On is 34 chapters, and this one I've found in Wayback (it's here by the way - Wayback links? Also stable. https://web.archive.org/web/20131126180609/http://archiveofourown.org/works/775352/chapters/1458361) is showing just the first chapter. And when I try to go to Chapter 2? It gets caught up in that goddamn "Proceed for 18+" thing again, and there are only two captures now, and WHAT DO?"

Trick 4: The "?view_full_work=true" trick

There are two ways to implement this trick. One is easy - when you're on the page in Wayback, you see that "Entire Work" button over the tags box? YA JUST CLICK IT! It's like magic! At least, it's magic when it works. (It does, in this case - if you want to read all of Carry On and don't want to track it down? https://web.archive.org/web/20130911072416/http://archiveofourown.org/works/775352?view_full_work=true tada!)

And see the difference there? it's the same link, just with ?view_full_work=true added to the end! So, if you've found yourself in a position where you can't get by the "Proceed" loop, OR where you try to go to Chapter 1, try every link variation, and get nothing? You can always still try:

http://archiveofourown.org/works/######?view_full_work=true

Because there's always a chance that Wayback captured that even if it didn't capture the other variations.

Unforth...I've read all this...I've tried everything...I still couldn't find the thing! What can I dooooooo....

At this point? You've mostly exhausted what you can try in Wayback. But! Wayback actually isn't the only way to find a lost fic, it's just the most obvious and most easily used by the public. There are a few others!

1. I already tagged @/destielfanfic, so I won't again, but they're a great resource for finding deleted fics that authors have said "yes you may distribute," and they've also got a list of authors who've indicated "no." I used their lists as the base for mine (and their head mod and I trade notes, and fics, semi-regularly and have for years). So, I mentioned Fossarian above? Well, you can find Fossarian fics for download by going to destielfanfic, searching for author Fossarian, and going through the links - for example, "All the Hours Wound" is available in ePub format right here!

2. If you're willing to delve into Livejournal, spnstoryfinders (https://spnstoryfinders.livejournal.com/) is a still-active community that helps find all sorts of missing SPN stories (not just Destiel) and often posts will have links for x-posts, help with finding alts/different names people have used, or have people volunteering to distribute if contacted. Honestly, personally, I'm too shy to actually contact those people, and even if you're braver than I if they haven't posted since 2015 it's anyone's guess if you'll still be able to reach them, but it's always worth a try!

3. Me. Ask me. Even if it's not on my list. Drop me a note. I know tricks, as you can see, and I'm just really experienced at this point. I've been doing this for years. And, even if I did list most of the tricks I know above, I probably forgot something, and I also have the time (...well, sometimes I do, like when I'm not spending 2.5 hrs writing blog posts about how to use Wayback lmao), and I might know pseuds for a person you don't, and I have contacts who have collections, and, and, and...

4. Speaking of collections, the Profound Bond Discord mods graciously gave my archive a chat room (it's #fic-archive-project in the collections section of the server). AND, people who are on that server who have large private fic collections can opt to give themselves the @/archivist role, and when things get deleted or when we look for things, even if I can't find it, I can tag the other archivists and see if anyone else has it. When I exhaust MY options? That's where I go. So. You can too, you don't need me to mediate that, just join the Discord.

5. There's a smaller, Wayback-esque archive webpage called http://archive.is/. It has way less in it, but I've occasionally had luck on there finding LJ stuff that Wayback didn't have.

6. As a last ditch, you can always try Google. For example, if I google: tamryneradani "carry on" destiel download - the only damn result (I made this search up off the top of my head without testing it so I'm glad it worked lmao) is shiphitsthefans's master post of TamrynEradani fic which includes download links, because Tamryn made it clear from the moment they deleted that they didn't mind distribution (I was here then, which is how I know that...). So, like, literally, you want to read Carry On, yes I linked it above on Wayback but you can also just download the e-book from this post. There are all kinds of things in all kinds of pokey places on the internet. There's a small old archive that got permission from LJ authors to PDF their works and posted about it, with links, on Tumblr, and now a lot of those originals are deleted (I don't have the link sorry, I didn't bother to save it after I downloaded everything they had) but the Tumblr posts are still up and the DL links that still work. There's master posts for fics that have been deleted but the master post still has a functional link to a full PDF. Stuff is everywhere and you don't know unless you check.

There's so, so, so much Destiel, and so much as been deleted over the years. When you look, sometimes you'll strike gold right away by just plugging the link into Wayback and YAY THERE'S THE THING, and sometimes you'll spend an hour looking and think you finally finally have it and get so close and that last PDF link on the last place you had to check after everything else didn't pan out will be broken and you'll kind of want to burn down the internet, but...you'll know you tried.

This is how I built this archive - that, and downloading as much as possible before it was deleted, so that once it was gone, I didn't have to find it, cause I already had it. Basically every fic marked as "deleted and looking for copy" on my list? I tried all of this and still couldn't find it. Not always - sometimes I just don't have time - but. When I have the time, I check, and I even occasionally check again, just in case I missed something the first time. This is how it goes. You try, and you hope, and sometimes you'll succeed, and sometimes you won't. It's hard, but if you want the fic bad enough...you do the thing.

So. This is my general tutorial on how to use Wayback. What you do with that information is up to you. Don't ask me for help finding links for things I've said I won't distribute, but if you're willing to do the leg work and try the above strategies...well, authors can't do much about Wayback, they lost that level of control the instant they posted their works, and it's there to be accessed by anyone who knows how (if it's there at all, anyway, which, well, sometimes it is, sometimes it isn't).

Now you know.

Go forth and get the fic.

(And if you know of, or learn, some tricks I don't know? PLEASE DO TELL! I am always ready to learn more!)

[jewishcharliebradbury]

post-confession/finale fic recs

here’s a masterpost of all the best post-confession and finale fix-it deancas fics i’ve read so far

i’ve organized them into sections based on the last three episodes they largely pull from, plus ones for my absolute faves, finale compliant fics (i’m a finale denier but there are some worth reading), and nebulously post-canon/s15 fics. 

other supernatural fic recs

i’ll keep updating it with any other good fics i come across so keep an eye out for that! the most recently added ones will have a ‘+’ in front (last update: 1/2/2022)

ultimate faves:

my heart a compass - really good ‘the empty traps cas in memories and dean breaks through with the power of love (and jack/magic/etc)’ fic.

according to all known laws of life - listen i love and appreciate emotional/romantic post-confession fics but dean and cas are horrible old repressed bastards (lovingly) sometimes and that’s fun.

Nothing Equals the Splendor  - the entire final episode was just a (very bad and lame) djinn’s vision.

Dean Winchester, Cocksucker at Rest - finale (derogatory) compliant but its worth it for all you sexy sexy j*hn haters out there.

The Goldenrod Revisions - no less than five alternate episodes in script format post 15x18, the ultimate fixit that leaves no dropped character or  plotpoint untouched.

the monster at the start of this book - what if the REAL horror part of the horror show was the inescapable heteronormative metanarrative constructed by a cruel voyeuristic god? finale compliant/no happy ending but makes my brain bounce around in my head like a pinball.

ascend - what was written CAN be undone and it IS a love story, not a tragedy!

dumbassery, denial, doing (the three d’s to the destination) - 100k+ word reverse confession/dean character study/fix-it fic my beloved.

i want to do with you (what spring does with cherry trees) - canon divergent widower arc-turned- reverse confessions/fixit fic.

Fenario - THEE lake house fic.

if it all fell to pieces tomorrow - cas recovers from his trauma after getting saved from the empty by himself.

Fracture Mechanics - dean slowly processes his grief and relationship with/feelings for cas over time, cas comes back with no memory of the confession, and there’s a good old fashioned soulbond™.

+and you can use my skin - placeholder description is just. ouugh.

post confession:

When the Levee Breaks - gen/1.8k. episode coda/fix-it, the empty gets annoyed by dean and cas’ feelings.

Because it is - mature/6k.  chuck’s death doesn’t fix anything and sam and dean have to try and cope with this for a very long time.

the best of things - gen/2k. cas escapes the empty.

For Good -teen/6k. episode coda, dean repairs his relationship with jack, cas doesn’t come back but the ending is hopeful.

In Just Saying It - gen/2.5k. post series, cas is back as a human and they celebrate his first real birthday.

To Change the Things We Can - gen/2k. confession scene fix-it.

The Having - teen/3k. cas is trapped in his worse memories, dean finds a loophole in the empty’s deal.

to the bone - mature/4k. dean tries to make a deal of his own with the empty.

Everything is Blue - teen/5k. episode coda/fix-it, the key to saving cas lies in the barn he and dean first met.

Enhanced Extraction Techniques - teen/5.8k the empty messes with cas by pretending to be dean trying to save him.

hold onto your voice, hold onto your breath - teen/7k. Dean makes a deal with the empty, orpheus/eurydice-meets-the little mermaid style.

There'll be peace (when you are done) - teen/2k. Chuck’s latest book sucks.

+ Begging and Praying, Christ I'm on My Knees - fixit where the confession - and certain other parts of late spn - are the same but slightly to the left.

post 15x19:

Bring Home* - gen/3.8k. cas comes back, but he doesn’t go to the bunker.

the rhyme of salvation - teen/6k. jack turns dean into an angel so he can save cas from the empty.

what's missing is found (our souls can exhale now) - mature/27k. kaia and dean go on a roadtrip after claire disappears.

closer (isn't close enough) - explicit/18k. cas helps dean cope with some of his chuck-induced trauma and dean tries to talk about the confession.

for which no words exist - teen/14k. dean helps cas recover from the ritual used to bring him back.

We will not give up on love now - teen/4.8k. dean starts finding unusual feathers around the bunker.

to make a beginning - teen/9.k. jack isn’t god but still helps dean bring cas back, ending is pure domestic/found family vibes.

nothing has to change- teen/27k. jack decides to be much less hands off, cas is saved and dean slowly tries to work through repression.

The World at Large - teen/5k. sam gets in touch with his inner witch and dean tries to get though to cas.

Take My Hurting Heart (Away From Me) - mature/8k. god!jack goes back to the bunker with them and helps them rescue cas.

freedom - gen/5k. Dean makes a choice and saves cas with the power of love.

safe returns - gen/1.7 k. The handprint™ = their red strong of fate.

Speak Silence No More - teen/8k. dean saves cas from the empty but thinks that he hates/no longer loves him since he had to become human to do so.

One does not simply walk into the Empty - teen/7k. dean saves cas from the empty orpheus-and-eurydice style.

the point of our being - mature/11k. cas makes another deal with the empty while dean, sam and eileen try to find a way to rescue him.

who will fall beside you, if you fall - gen/4k, post 15x19. Introspection on some of the different ways dean’s been loved throughout his life and how its changed him.

psalm 40:2 - explicit/45k. cas gets sent back in time instead of being trapped in the empty and encounters pre-series dean. tw for internalized homophobia/homophobia/child abuse.

+one step closer - teen/4k. dean explores the empty on his way to save cas. REALLY cool trueforms and worldbuilding stuff.

+Love Languages - teen/9k. cas thinks dean doesn’t reurn his feelings, dean just can’t say it with words.

finale fix-its:

Grace - 5k. script format, dean breaks into the empty after dying in that barn.

A Serious Thing - teen/1k. barn death scene fix-it.

There's Something About Jenny - teen/9k. jenny the vampire messes with the timeline, cas fixes it and restores the real ending.

Keep Your Love Alive - explicit/42k. au where the empty takes dean instead of cas.

we could be the way forward - mature/7k, cas saves dean from dying and the rest of the episode was just a weird dream.

Can't Fight This Feeling - teen/9k. script format, after meeting in heaven sam and dean realize they’re still in chuck’s story.

things happen (they do, they do, and they do) - explicit/28k. cas comes back from the empty and dean is very very sad that he’s tragically straight and can’t possibly return his feelings.

swimming with the fish pond fish -explicit/25k. after they get out of heaven and go back to earth, dean’s insane levels of repression/denial are threatened when cas keps casually telling him that he loves him.

Heartstring Promenade - explicit/17k (WIP). The finale was just a bad dream, all their friends are back and happy, and dean finds a way to get to cas using death’s library.

hope, love, glory - teen/13k. claire and jack team up to save the day!

the lover's choice - mature/44k. jack saves dean and cas, actually addresses the super-fucked afterlife system, and brings back some beloved characters chuck killed off too soon before calling it quits as god.

The Shape of Things to Come - mature/62k. after getting trapped in an updated 'what is and what never should be’ style djinn dream, dean is forced to directly face all the cas-related emotions he’s been suppressing. things get more complicated when he starts getting strange dreams where cas is trying to tell him something over the phone.

+debrief - teen/2k. sam and cas (rightfully, because what the hell. yes its been over a year but what the hell) yell at dean after saving him in the barn.

finale/heaven endgame compliant

blunt little instrument - mature/4k. dean confronts his dad in heaven.

A Timeshare in Paradise - teen/1.4k. cas and cas meet up at the roadhouse after sam’s arrival.

search for tomorrow on every shore - teen/11k. dean temporarily gets kicked out of heaven and finds himself face to face with his 24 year old past self.

Fuck Around and Find Out - mature/7k. cas hunts john for sport in heaven.

although we are faithless - mature/32k. sam and dean realize they’re trapped in a heaven memory loop and bust out, while in the meantime the damage done to the empty puts both afterlives on the verge of collapse (kind of a finale fixit hybrid/heaven endgame hybrid).

misc post canon/s15

Twenty ways to say I love you - teen/14k. dean has many different ways to tell cas he loves him.

I won't Going Out Swinging - teen/4k. dean starts out on his post-chuck life.

on vessels - gen/2k. cas used to imagine what it would be like to have dean as his vessel.

Tall Grass - explicit/57k. cas becomes the ultimate plant dad.

Through Autumn's Advancing - explicit/4k. dean’s birthday celebration fic.

dean's coworkers vs the heteronormative agenda - teen/4k. none of dean’s coworkers know the truth about his family.

It's Not Traditional - teen/1.5k. proposal fic. 

Yarrow, Lilac, and Foxglove - explicit/10k. dean and cas garden, cook, possibly befriend a nature spirit, and get married.

What didn’t kill you - explicit/20k. After chuck everyone is human and happy, eileen and sam get married, and dean and cas try and figure out what they should do next.

Exit Wounds - mature/16k. cas dies defeating chuck, dean retires and buys a bar while dealing with hallucinations.

we’ll find a new home - gen/7k. costco confession fic!

sobriety & apple pie & religion, oh my! - gen/3k. stanford era dean meets a time displaced post-series dean.

If Someone Asks, This Is Where I'll Be - gen/1k. post canon proposal fic (from 2013).

tiny difference (between ending and starting to begin) - teen/2k. soft moments from a post-chuck world.

you're fooling yourself - teen/13k. dean and cas are retired and raising baby!jack, “platonically.”

Lessons in Botany - teen/1k. Just a nice domestic morning with some sam and jack.

looking like a true survivor (feeling like a little kid) - teen/20k. Everyone celebrates jack’s 4th birthday and they take him to build-a-bear!

strap the wing to me - gen/2k. cas has no filter when it comes to his feelings for dean anymore.

Death of the Author - explicit/7k. they have s*x for the first time. 

On Labor - explicit/24k. dean is so unwell/repressed/terrified of losing cas again that he lies about his feelings for him (or at least he thinks he is). fics to touch a hot stove to but it has a happy ending dw.

Amphorae - mature/4k. more soft epilogue™ fic.

three little words - mature/3k. saying “i love you” comes with some pretty signifigant emotional baggage.

The One I Love -  gen/1k. cas struggles with emotional trauma from losing his grace with dean’s help.

the pie isn’t a metaphor (it’s just pie) - teen/9k. dean and cas are domestic and make a pie (feat. actual pie recipie!).

fools and pilgrims - teen/32k. cas and jack leave and dean and claire go on a roadtrip to see them and figure some stuff out along the way.

Phone a Friend - gen/7k. pov of two hunters interacting with the hunter community years after the show.

call it what you want - 5k/mature. dean’s brain breaks a little when someone assumes he and cas are married (also cas is a plant dad).

take the bones, begin anew - mature/87k/wip. dean ends up uhaulling with cas when they move in to kelly’s old lake house.

In a time, in a place, we fit - teen/5k. alex’s pov of her friends, family, and a very revamped hunting community post-canon.

in full bloom - teen/2k. dean starts bringing cas flowers and helps him start a garden.

+Now We’re There, And We’ve Only Just Begun - teen/6k. jack is a baby instead of god, and dean and cas have a much needed conversation about breaking the cycle of abuse and trauma.

+the carrier bag theory - teen/6k. cas starts recovering traumatic old memories.

+Socks For Your Birthday Is Something That Can Actually Be So Personal - gen/1k. deans bday fic.

+The Mixtape, Or: Six Things You Learn in Thursday School - teen/6k. You know those old future!fics where the winchester gospels actually became a big thing and impacted the future of civilization and religion? this is the updated version of that.

+all the time in the world - teen/2k. sam’s bday fic.