#sory idk whats wrong with me
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georgecunt · 1 year ago
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i wish i could tuck sapnap in his bed at night, cover him with his blanquet making sure he's comfy and give him a little peck on his forehead i would make sure the night light is on and he has a glass of water on his nightstand before i left i promise
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kirai-xx · 1 month ago
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OG Trio Groupchat Pt. 2
(Mikey, Baji, Sanzu) Pt. 1 is here
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Baji: HARUCHIYO SANZU R YU INSANE
Baji: WAT IS WRONG WITH YU
Baji: MIKEY TEEL HIM TO STOP
Mikey: What happened? What did he do this time
Sanzu: I told y'all I would do this, no reason to be so surprised??
Mikey: what?
Baji: HE FCKING TREATED CHIFUYU
Mikey: ... do you mean treated or threated ??
Baji: weres the diference
Sanzu: he means threated. I threated chifuyu
Mikey: WHAT WHY
Sanzu: BECAUSE this stupid dumbass needs to learn how to spell and Chifuyu has to teach him
Baji: YU TOLD HIM YU WULD KILL HIM
Sanzu: I am going to kill both of you if I ever have to read one of your messages again
Mikey: how about we calm down and NOT kill anybody
Mikey: I forbid you to
Sanzu: that's unfair
Baji: ITS UNFAIR TAT YOU WANT TO KILL ME ONLY CUZ I CANT SPEL
Sanzu: I don't think so
Mikey: I think so
Sanzu:... fine
Sanzu: only cuz mikey said so
Mikey: thanks
Baji: and say sory to Chifuyu he is scarred asf
Sanzu: I am definitely not going to say sory
Sanzu: do I look stupid
Mikey: holy sht just say sorry to this poor boy
Sanzu: I don't know where he is
Sanzu: To find him I would have to stalk Baji again
Sanzu: are you sure you want that
Sanzu: ???
Baji: no plz dont do tat
Baji: I have nightmares of seing yur pink hair behind korners
Sanzu: guess I can't say sorry to Chifuyu then, too bad
Mikey: are you serious
Sanzu: yes
Mikey: Baji add this Chifuyu to the gc
Mikey: I want get to know him too
Sanzu: wasn't this supposed to be only the three of us? :/
Mikey: yeah, but we're going to kick him out afterwards dw
Baji: haruchiyo did yu just use one of thesee punktuation marcks Emojis??
Sanzu: I am surprised you even know what a punctuation mark is, but yes I did
Sanzu: what's so weird about it?
Baji: idk I didnt thing yu would do tat
Mikey: I like to use them sometimes too??
Baji: yea but with yu I now yu would do tat
Baji: with haru it was unekspected
Mikey: wtf is unekspected
Sanzu: SEE HE NEEDS TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT HIS SPELLING
Mikey: nah, I know that he means unexpected, but how does one go from x to ks
Mikey: also I get that he's surprised, I didn't think you would use them too
Sanzu: idk it's probably a habit I got from you and the kawata twins
Baji: the kawata twins?? yu text with tem??
Sanzu: yeah, Mucho likes them and the four of us also have a gc
Baji: didnt expect tat
Mikey: same
Mikey: but nice to see that you have friends haru :D
Sanzu: yeah ig so
Baji: anyways I am gonna add chifuyu
Sanzu: omg another mistake free message, I'm so proud of you Baji
Baji: tyy
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narcissisticpdcultureis · 8 months ago
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npd culture is biting your tongue when your irl who has bpd (? she says that occasionally then mainly says she has bipolar and never said borderline personality disorder outloud and i know you can have both but idk if she has it or is just getting the acronym wrong regardless doesn't change anything)
because you wanna be a good mental health advocate because i am better than that ableist shit and wanting to support fellow cluster Bs but t being so goddamn hard. i know your disorder and your med side affects make you rude but what the FUCK man. she is so unnecessarily mean to me (and others but mainly me) for no reason. i will say something offhandedly and she will find a way to harshly criticize it like you aren't better than me stop thinking you are, i get that sometimes peoples mental healths conflict with eachother but how come she can be so rude and think so highly of herself but i can't? and everyone praises her for it too
she told me i was wrong and stared me down and was rude as shit when i mentioned something about my religion. she once mentioned she was from a state IN CONVERSATION and i acknowledged it and she yelled at me for that. (sorry if this is hard to understand i keep writing it then my internet fails and i have to redo it) but how come you can be out of pocket-ly awful and social conventions force me to bite my tongue? why am i not allowed to hold the same energy? i don't deserve this treatment from the likes of you! if you don't give me the basic respect then you are below me in my mind and i don't think i shoulf have to give respect back
sory again if this made no sense it just kills me like the amount of times i have crashed because of this shit
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skrs-cats · 1 year ago
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I have reread sunrise (the first actual wc book I've ever owned) and it's been WILD reliving a few of my memories with all the made up stuff I've accumulated in brainrot over the three, now I have all these thoughts that I have to vomit out. Aka a REALLY LONG incomprehensible ramble post abt the ending book of po3. Mostly about lionblaze though. I'm sory
*IDK how many times I've mentioned this, but chapter 1 starting out w lion leaving the df for good and beating tigerstar in a fight ALWAYS makes me wonder how things would have been affected if he just straight up went for the killing blow. I've only ever read books 1-5 once, so I don't have the best memory, but I think it's interesting to note that tigerstar managed to actually injure him, and lion was scared that if he died here he'd be dead for real, and then lion was surprised to see the wound when he woke up. I'm just wondering if these facts were first introduced here or if I just have tunnel vision towards this book (which is also true)
*'lionblaze always knew there was something wrong between him and ashfur' no shit bitch 😩😩😩😩😩 and then there's lion wondering if cats suspect him as ashfurs killer, something to do about everyone realizing how they never got along. and NOW I'm thinking about lion ending his df dream w tigerstars blood on his paws, and how that might have made the READERS suspect HIM to be the killer (leafpool prolouge chapter contributing to this supicion seeing as lion is also her kit) Only to end as a red herring when Holly is revealed to be the girlie w mascara running down her face (u can't see it clearly but my point stands)
*interesting lines about ashfurs death that I think about regarding what a warrior means for the clan (nonverbatim):
-'Ashfur never mattered this much when he was alive'
-'Ashfur's murder now made the clan determined to make him into a hero.'
*lion is posited to be the brave one of the three, in regards to physical danger and such. I am taking this character trait and cranking it up to a million
*I forgot smoky and floss existed :( IDK if they're still alive in the latest arcs but I hope they're doing ok
*brambleclaw trying 2 be nice to his kids and tell them that they can confide in him bc clearly they're all hung up about something but being denied it is funny and sad to me personally. He didn't talk w Jay, just as leaf didn't talk much w lion in this book, but I think it's given an interesting ending when in the end, its officially revealed even squirrel didn't tell him of the truth, which ends their relationship for the most part. I really do wonder how well he could have taken this if he was in on the secret from the very start.
*outside of that they sure do like to crank up the dramatics and mention bramble / squirrel as their parents any chance they get so that the three can be Emo about it like. 'THEYRE NOT MY MOTHER/FATHER.' 'WHATEVER SKILLS WE HAVE DIDNT COME FROM YOU.' 'WHY DO YOU CARE SO MUCH? WE'RE NOT EVEN KIN!' last one is abt leafpool which is honestly a lot. I think.
* one of the saddest parts about this book was how lonely they made purdy 😭😭😭 this poor old man. I'm glad they brought him back to the clan. But also I think they just forgot about him bc for someone being so vocal in defending Sol, he was outright just not mentioned when it was revealed Sol 'escaped'
* more lines that I think about regarding clan cats (also nonverbatim)
- Clan cats' instinctive distrust of outsiders
- why do clan cats have to think they always know what's best?
* Sol. He's just there to me ig.
* I liked jingo. I hope she's doing ok even now
*criminal how this book barely has any sibling bonding w the three when that is my blood sweat and tears. Maybes that's why I got so obsessed w the three of them being happy together bc I was STARVED.
* honeyfern 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
* call it the thunderclan bias in me but I was sorta annoyed when the three other clans walked in and told them that they should get rid of Sol or else. But also thunderclans reaction to Sol seemingly having run away is like. Giving back stolen candy to pre schooler vibes. Or something. This makes no sense I'm sorry
*I think it's interesting that Jay and Holly manage to find out who their mother is thru their own way. With the former deducing it on his own (I actually enjoyed the detective esque work he did in doing it) and Holly straight up asking leafpool. So now I propose lion being informed someway or other thru SQUIRRELFLIGHT BC I WANT FOR HER TO TALK W ANY OF THEM AND THAT LION FIINDING OUT THRU HIS SIBS WAS SO BORING OKAY I WANT HIM TO HAVE A SHOCKING REVELATION TOO-
* ahem. Also can I mention Holly confronting leaf abt who their parents were and leaf thinking it was about ashfur is so unbelievably ????? KHADHD, I'm not saying it was bad. but MAN. Talk about awkward huh
* anyways. When they all find out that leaf is their mom and then squirrel and leaf are mentioned to have looked at the three in the same familiar expression they have always had; love. And that line hurt me as much as Holly refusing to acknowledge or listen to it and running away. Lion and Jay werent against listening to what their 'mothers' had to say, but they loved Holly more than to just let her go on her own
* I always blabber about how they should have tried to talk thru their issues but man. They tried multiple times. They tried so hard. I'm not gonna specify who but they tried.
* Holly and lion changing their view of Sol in opposite ways in the two instances they meet w him is interesting but also a bit confusing. The last time we get a pov of lion is when he helped Sol escape so we don't really get a clear idea of his own thoughts anymore w everything after. That's why I can't help but just think abt him I guess
* reading Hollyleaf spiral more and more into her grief and despair sure was something.
* out of the three, jayfeather was actually the calmest in this book. Which is saying something, I think. I'm now taking this and making it my mission to have all the three of them as short tempered grumpy schmucks.
there's a lot more to talk about for me regarding these three, but I think I've used up all the words in my brain. My last thought though, is that after going through All That as an ending, it was really funny to just have this as a preview of the next book.
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Also a bonus picture of what this book looks like too, sorry if it hurts u but it's testament to me on how much I adored this thing when I was younger </3
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agendercryptidlev · 8 months ago
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haha wait sory follow up to the last two asks . i finally remember what the term for it is. Like, double standards. My issue with how some ppl interpret The Laios and Toshiro argument is how they kind of hold them to a diff standard of like tha fault is mostly with Toshiro for not speaking up instead of Laios because ppl see him as more oblivious in general even tho yea i mean that's fair i can also be like that sometimes!!! but its unfair that ppl say Toshiro isn't some flavour of neurodivergent too and is just like. an allistic asshole. lmao
either way i think theyre both interestingly flawed. and i enjoyed their fight and what it like meant for both of them (a big growth moment because laios like has a more understanding perspective of others' now and how like some ppl are going to be annoyed with him / how he should be more careful going forward with boundaries. and he also like . can see other ppls perspectives more in particular how toshiros sleep deprivation and lack of eating contributed to him lashing out suddenly at Laios.
and then how for Toshiro he kinda like? becomes more assertive and like doesnt just repress whatever it is he wants to say. Like the fight is super well written and interesting for both of their characters' growth so i want more ppl to kind of like /get/ that its less of a NT vs ND typa situation and more of a yeah these guys are both autistic, goin at it, and learning from their past mistakes. Getting worse before they get better at communication, that kind of stuff :]
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I think this is all very valid and true and honestly this sorta fandom mini-ecosystem is really reflective of how people view neurodivergence as a whole, like there's some sorta monolith and one size fits all solution.
IDK how many people have this experience but at my elementary school they had a special daily class for the kids with "social difficulties" which basically meant they threw all the neurodiverse kids in a room and treated their different symptoms as exactly the same and were surprised when most of us HATED each other by the end. I have little to no volume control and was put next to a kid with severe noise sensitivity and yet they thought we'd get along because we both deviated from the norm. People expect there to be one true neurodivergent experience and it just doesn't work like that.
I definitely get what you mean about relating to both Laios and Toshiro and being annoyed at the mentality that you need to pick a side too, even if there is a million percent more Laios in me than Toshiro. A lot of people don't realize that people's symptoms don't follow an archetype and can have symptoms that seem to conflict with each other (I for example am a selective mute who also talks impulsively). People keep making false dichotomies with this stuff which is also where the temptation to make it into an autistic vs allistic right vs wrong thing comes in and it's a whole mess.
At the end of the day I just wish people were comfortable viewing this moment of conflict between Laios and Toshiro as a moment both of them needed to have to learn and grow, that's why they were both all bruised up at the end, neither came out as someone perfect but it's what they need to move past their differences and stuff.
That's also why I think it's so cool that there's a whole community online full of other neurodivergent folks who can all throw their own perspectives in and all that! I really enjoy hearing your perspective on Toshiro's character and I'm glad you help me think about him in ways I wouldn't have been able to on my own! :3
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Idk if someone told you this, but your OCs are very cool and i want to know a bit more. (Also note in spanish in case you speak it, tu arte esta genial y me encanta su expresividad)
JRHRHRJFJF-
First of all,thank you so much! Glad that you like my silly ocs! :'D
Second,no i don't speak spanish sorry :']
And third idk which ocs you wanna know but i'll assume that you want to know about Angus and Mateo so correct me if i'm wrong :']
Here's some info about them for a starter
Long ass text here :']
Start with Angus first
So Angus live on an isolated island with other villagers. He's...not have a very great childhood. He live in an abusive family especially his dad. His mom left him for other man. So yeah he's not okay most of the time. But there's still people who cares about him.
Angus have a dream to travel across the sea and have his own adventure,but his dad keeps mocking and make fun of him. But he doesn't give up from his dream. He learn about the seas and practice sailing the ship until the time is come
For Mateo
He's a traveling merchant that help his dad to sell or trade items from his shop. He sells ancient stuff like fosils,monster's body partwhichisagrosspartyetfascinating ,weapons,gems,handicrafts and herbs. He have a lot of traveling experience for 2 years by himself so he get used with challanges.
Mateo believes in myths and legends. Some superstitious too. That's what his family generations hold for centuries. He learn about magics and spells. He also mastered sigils. But he prefer using physical weapons since it'll drain his energy.
How they meet each other?
Well it started when Angus is getting ready to sail his ship to find Treasure Island that belongs to Lukka,the Spirit of Wealth. He was suppose to come with a friend,but they didn't make it because of illness. Mateo was looking for a ship to board with that time. He saw Angus' ship and ask him if he can come for a ride.
After some shenanigans,Angus finally let Mateo come with him and sail together for 3 weeks. That's where they start bonding. They get too attached and can't leave each other without a heavy heart. That leads Mateo to join Angus for his quest.
That's all for now,sory for the long ass text :']
Hope this answer everything,i'm so happy that you ask about my ocs it's been a while ^^
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hazardtoons-interaction · 2 years ago
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ykno what. i rlly wanna answer these but i dont really have many ppl who are actively following me. so i will just answer all 100 homestuck questions
When did you first get into Homestuck? in grade 7. i was about 13.
How quickly did you finish reading the comic? a few months maybe!
How many times have you read HS? ive read HS proper twice, and the epilogues too many to count.
Ever made your own chumhandle? many times... i think my first one was gentlemanlyTerror. my one now would probably be hazardouslyToony or something
Ever made a trollsona? dozens!!
Ever made a kidsona? yeah a couple
Ever cosplayed a HS character? yes!!! my first one was terezi (it was SOOO bad. i literally mixed white face paint with eyeshadow, taped red see-though paper onto my old glasses, and made horns out of paper), then my second one was horuss, that i spent a lot of effort on, and then last year i went to a con as jake :3
Ever bought HS merch? yeah i have lots!! i have a lot of merch you cant get anymore. posters and stuff. i also have the jake shirt and the vodka mutuni plush. and i also have charms.
Ever made an MSPFA? i attempted to. only got a few pages in though...
Ever drank Faygo? they dont sell it in my country
Favorite Alpha kid? jane, surprisingly. jake is just the character who is Me.
Favorite Alpha troll? aranea by fucking far.
Favorite Alpha character overall? calliope!!!!!!!! CALLIOPEEE!!!!
Least favorite Alpha kid? dick rider
Least favorite Alpha troll? i hate most of them but the racial stereotype ones i guess would be the worst
Least favorite Alpha character overall? i honestly dont even know
Favorite Beta kid? ROSEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Favorite Beta troll? terezi and vriska!!
Favorite Beta character overall? ummm allof the ones i just mentioned
Least favorite Beta kid? i like all of them. but i guess i spend the least amount of time thinking about dave so him
Least favorite Beta troll? GAMZEE. GAMZEE.
Least favorite Beta character overall? gamzee.
Favorite guardian? ..................bro strider
Least favorite guardian? um? alpha john i guess idk
Favorite Alternian ancestor? mindfang MIND. FANG. !!! theres something so wrong with her <3
Least favorite Alternian ancestor? whatever the fuck the sollux one is idgaf about him
Favorite carapacian? aimless renegade he holds suuuch a special place in my heart
Least favorite carapacian? Ms. Paint
Favorite Friendsim character? tyzias <3 <3 She is sooo . so hot. so arelynera and elwurd. also dammek! i love dammek
Least favorite Friendsim character? tirona i want her dead
Favorite sprite? gcattavrossprite and jasprosesprite
Least favorite sprite? umm the aradia frog one
Favorite pale ship? i like pale davekat. okay? i get it. i know. stfu
Favorite pitch ship? janerezi LMAO
Favorite flushed ship? JUNEREZI!!! JUNEREZZIIIIIIII!!!!! also callijane or calliroxy. i dont really like cotton candy im sory. i also like rosemary a lot
Favorite ashen ship? karkat c3< vriska and kanaya but in a really fucked up way
Favorite vacillating ship? .vriskan
OTP? junerezi :3
NOTP? absolutely dirkjake i hate dirkjake
BROTP? tavros and jake!!
Character you’d choose to be your moirail? if im allowed to choose hiveswap characters, bronya. if not, porrim.
Character you’d choose to be your kismesis? aranea ooough...
Character you’d choose to be your matesprit? i dont want to date ANY OF(tyzias.)
Character you’d choose to be your auspistice? ALL OF THEM ARE TERRIBLE AT IT
Character you’d vacillate quadrants with? jane crocker. get over here kiss me on my mouth
Character you’d be best friends with? jade.pls :3
Patron troll? Are you happy with them? tavros 😭also YES I AM! hed be annoying as heck though.
Zodiac troll? Are you happy with them? karkat.NOT HAPPY.. though i like to pretend im a libra so terezi.
One character you didn’t like at first, but like now? i didnt really like rose i thought she was boring but now shes like my fav ever
One character you liked at first, but don’t like now? dirk......... i used to jokingly hate him but now i seriously dont like him!!!!!
One ship you didn’t like at first, but like now? i used to be Meh on vriskan. i like it a lot now (in a studying u under a microscope not an i think its healthy way)
One ship you liked at first, but don’t like now? confession guys i used to be a dirkjaker
Alpha kids or Beta kids? i have to pick alpha kids since i think about them constantly but i like the beta kids more universally.
Alpha trolls or Beta trolls? BETA who tf chooses ALPHA trolls
Beforus or Alternia? alternia? we barely even see beforus
Derse or Prospit? #pissmoongang
The Felt or The Midnight Crew? the midnight crew absolutely
Grimdark or Crocker Tier? crocker tier i love the concept of it
Red team or blue team? red team i barely care ab anyone on blue (apart from neppers)
Meat or candy? i love both!!! meat and candy epilogues are both good in their own ways.
Trolls, humans, carapaces, or cherubs? cherubs
Have you played Hiveswap? Do you like it? I LOVE HIVESWAP!!!! its so fun!!!
Have you played Friendsim? Do you like it? i played a few of the routes. its alright
Have you played Pesterquest? Do you like it? i played it as it was coming out. its on my steam! i hate it.
Have you read the Epilogues? Do you like them? 😁😁😁you must be new here (I LOVE THEM i have a physical copy)
Have you read HS2? Do you like it? i hated it
Have you read SBAHJ? Do you like it? i have read every single one.its okay!
Classpect you identify with currently? page of hope :p
Classpects you’ve identified with before? - seer of light - seer of hope
Do you like your God Tier outfit? HELP MEEEE yeah its. it sure is an outfit
Do you like bloodswaps? Do you have a favorite? its whatever
Do you like kidswaps? Do you have a favorite? as someone who likes underswap, its odd to me how much i hate kidswaps? like its a huge pet peeve of mine in hs fandom
Do you like speciesswaps? Do you have a favorite? Mehh.
Do you use quadrants IRL? i used to! i dont anymore lol
Do you like celebrating 4/13? yeah!!! definitely
Do you use Pesterchum, MxRP, CheRP, or other HSRP platforms i DO have pesterchum yeah
Favorite Homestuck act? act6
Favorite Homestuck moment? tricky one but one has to be the johnrezi scene in the meat epilogues where (SPOILERS) john dies Favorite Homestuck panel? this one is pretty great
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Favorite Homestuck flash? iiiim a member of the mid nigh t creww
Favorite Homestuck soundtrack? beyond canon. its fucking beautiful
Favorite Broadway Homestuck song? fucking. um. look its karkalicious okay what more could you want. i picked the obvious one etc etc
Favorite Homestuck fansong? okay this isnt really a fansong but everyone please listen to The Leaving from beyond canon its beautiful
Favorite Homestuck fics? house of dirk hands down!!!! its so funny and awesome i want it to update so bad. apart from that, godfeels.
Favorite Homestuck fanartists? meeee:3/j . no jk my fav artist who does hs fanart is @hal9000fanboy . i also LOVE @deathbycatgirl 's homestuck art, its all so unique and the characters are drawn in such a cool scrungey way im wrapping them into a ball
Favorite Homestuck AU? Demonstuck, Kingdomstuck, etc.? i havent heard those names in so long hearing "kingdomstuck" was like a shot to the heart. amino group chats
Favorite hemocaste? teal! and indigo and jade
Favorite typing quirk? i love kuprams from hiveswaps bc its 4chan greentyping
Favorite MSPFA? deadbert bc my friend made it idfk
What would your strife specibus be? scarfkind mb
What would your lusus be? sparkledog
What caste do you feel you’d belong to, regardless of your zodiac? teal
What characters do you relate most to? JAKE ENGLISH~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
One unpopular HS opinion you have? dirkjake is abusive and dirk is a bad person and also cis. and gamzee isnt redeemable
One popular HS opinion you agree with? jane is Fucking gay!
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lion-time · 4 years ago
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I found this cursed image I drew a few months ago.. and..
my friend peer pressured me into posting this… I’m so sorry you guys…
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orkidealapsi · 5 years ago
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the real goal is to meet someone I don't find phone calls uncomfortable with. so far it's just my mom
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dazaikinning · 2 years ago
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dazai x low self-esteemed! reader
warning: angst
genre: angst to comfort
a/n - I WROTE THIS HALF ASLEEP IM SORRY IF ITS HORRIBLE ╥ ╥
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you really couldn't take it any longer. you felt so tired, upset with yourself, you wanted to cry. and here you are, sobbing.
"why can't i be a better lover?"
"i don't deserve to be loved."
"i don't deserve anybody, i don't deserve any kinds of affections."
you constantly cried, you always felt like a horrible person no matter what good deeds you did.
you heard the door creak. you were startled, you tried wiping your tears way and tried shutting your hiccups with a blanket. "love!! im back home!!!" there were no "welcome back dazai!" nor "i miss you" it was just pure silence and pure darkness. "love..?" he went inside the bedroom seeing your 'sleeping state', he approached you and patted your head, you suddenly hiccuped. wrong move. he definitely heard you, "hm?" he pulled the blanket up and saw your hands covering your mouth, seeing a wet stain on the bed. "oh what made my belladonna upset?" he frowned, he pulled both your hands away from your mouth and made you sat up. you just moved away from him, "dazai, i really don't deserve your affections." you started welling up again. "darling, how could you say that? you've made my world lit up, and also made me have a reason to live now." he whisper to your ears softly, "so it's my time to return the favor. c'mere." he hugged you as you hugged back, "just let it all out." you cried on his shoulder.
after you stopped crying, you let go of your grips on his shoulders as he wrapped you in his chest, safe in his arms. "i'm sorry that your vest is gross now." you giggled a bit. "no need to worry about it, it'll be in the washing machine in no time." he said gleefully. "thank you so much dazai. I love you" mumbling, "here she is, my dearest is happy again!" he kissed you everywhere on your face.
thank you for making me feel a little better about myself dazai.
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sorry for hiatus, no part 3 right now sory. i might make another bsd character x reader idk i need to go to sleep now im exhausted gnn
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absoluteconceptofbeauty · 2 years ago
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day 4883 of not going outside sory idk what's wrong with me
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callilouv · 3 years ago
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I DID NOT THINK THIS THROUGH
WAIT
ANATOMY?
THAT SHIT PISSES ME OFF
osoOK WAIY im sory if I answered this p late, I cooked some food and ate FSJKHD BUT IM HERE NOW
CW : drawings of bodies (obv DKJHS) just thought that I would put a cw of it bc theyre nakey as hell🤞 BUT WERE KEEPING IT PROFESSIONAL HERE STFU
to draw a body, u must know the simple shapes that build the body first :D its different for every person so here r a few examples :
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usually, the torso & hips r the most important <3 if ur asking "what about the area in between those two shapes?" the tummy area is just a vv flexible part of the body so u dont need to worry too much abt it
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also keep in mind that the length of the torso is usually 2 or 3 heads. personally, I dont measure it bc of muscle memory but I just thought that id tell u,, OH AND, the length of the torso is also the length of the legs <3 u can make it longer ofc (I like long legs) but thats like the basic measurements
KEEP IN MIDN THE PROPORTION ‼️
dont zoom in too much, dont tunnel vision when ur still sketching the body AND dont ever focus on one part of the body at a time or ill drop kick you
work on the body sketch as a whole, try not to zoom in too much & if the proportions look off, use the liquify / transform tool and play around until it looks right
oh and before I forget, look at references <33 VV IMPORTANT, REFERENES ARE VV MPORTANT. with a reference, you'll know what is wrong and what is right w ur anatomy !! vv helpful !! u can learn from it too !!!!! I dont apologize for th exclamation marks, references r just a god send tbh AJKHD
man idk im out of brain juice idk if im making sense anymore but I hope this helped bro 🤞 HAHKJDS
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onf-headcanons · 4 years ago
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ONF and their high maintenance S/O (mostly about makeups and manicures)
dislcaimer : I dont support the mentality of aegyoing/manipulating/sabotaging your partner to buy you stuffs. Gifts are gifts but its not their are not full responsibility. It is also not a duty/obligation for your partner to recognize delicate makeup product when they can't and buy you your makeup product as well.
What i am saying even though here is that bf gifting lipsticks it does not mean guys should do it and also does not mean that if your own bf could not do it then they dont love you. ok let go to hcs.
Hyojin
I think he will ask you to drop the heavy makeup after you two are comfortable with each other. To him it was not your makeup that impressed him to date you.
He is the type that "I don't get make up but ok you look good" type of person, I mean have you watched how he get ready to go out in the Berlin trip? He just do basic stuffs not even a delicate touch XD
I think because he has a sister back at home? But if you think he will at least know a bit of stuffs because he has a sister then you are wrong lol
But he does understand if you wanna doll up a bit. I think he personally appreciates those times when he caught himself felt that you are dazzling.
I think its cute that maybe you only do basic light make up when going out with him but then when you join him with his friends, you wanna look good so you will put on proper make up (not over heavy ones). But Hyojin be like , " oh, come on... Its just my friends XD"
He is the type that waits for you, unless you have really bad time management, he will come over to rush you. "Hey hey hey, we are gonna be late"
Does not interested at make up or beauty stuffs so he would always questions with curiosity when he saw stuffs like.. " Glue? for what? Eyelashes? Won't it be dangerous?" (Especially you are the type that watches make up vids)
Bonus, you are in charge of his skin care, most of the time.
another bonus, the type that laughs at you if you are the type that opens your mouth when you are drawing eyeline
Changyoon
Very similar to Hyojin so I will skip make up and focus on the nail polish
(Also expanding the Changyoon who loves your hand hcs)
He knows of nail polish and the basic stuffs like base, polish and top, but did not pay full attention on manicure and pedicure stuffs
So when the first time you brought out mini UV light to cure your nails, he goes " Woah they got stuffs like that? why no one told me? I spend minutes blowing at my nails to dry during BB era"
Bonus if you work in nail salon or pick up manicure as hobby, i think you might share a bit of design you found online and ask him his opinions. His will comment a bit.
Also you might grasp his hands and try out newly thought designs on his hands
Bonus if he blushes and burst into laughter until you jokingly snap at him, "Ya, its not the first time I do design test out using your hands? Why are you beet red?"
To go deep into his mentality, he does not hate make up, he gets it. But for manicure he acknowledges it as art expression of oneself as well.
I think he prefer short nail manicure, once you get a longer sharper designs and you cant do your task like how you did normally, Changyoon nags you.
Also Changyoon thoughts on fake nail stickers, "Super convenient!"
He would love to try do your manicures if he got the chance. Not just painting plain color, he might also try following designs that your show him.
Seungjun
He is a delicate boy hahahah (watch leaders Berlin trip then you will get it)
Not the type that can recognize different shades of lipstick or foundation, but he still have basic knowledge. I do see is the type that will keep in mind what color you uses and will present you your favorite lipstick color. Or even randomly choose 1 color that he thinks it might look good on you.
I think you two will stand side by side in front of mirror and do make up and help each other check a bit. Especially eye shadow color, and hairstyles (if it is outdoor date day)
The type that notices changes on you but will tease you by keep saying the wrong answers. "Hey you look different? Is it the eyeshadow? Or was it a new earring? eh I was wrong?*devilsh smile"
He has two sisters so he is used and knows that girls and high maintenance people wears makeup. BB cream at least.
Fascinated when he first time sees you do your own manicure, he saw Changyoon paint nails during BB era, but if it is his first time seeing you painting quite complicated nail design from scratch, he goes "OOOOOOH so thats is how it done? 0A0"
I think he might introduce his sisters to you if you are a makeup artist or if you work at nail salon
Bonus if you are the type that do really minimum skin care, because of his (idk if i am using the right word) eagerness of doing facial mask, you might pick that up too lol
Both of you having facial mask on and chilling on the couch watching TV
another bonus, you two bickering because either one of you made the other one laugh too much making the mask cracked if it is dried up cream type.
Jaeyoung
He is like a combination of Hyojin and Seungjun?
Not sure on his skin care stuff but he will do basic stuff and I think he focus on stylizing his hair more? (but unlike Seungjun, Jaeyoung is more on styling using wax and hairspray)
the type who cant tell difference in lipstick shade lol
He thinks light makeup with less procedure/product look good on you. Especially if you are the one who is super insecure and wakes up super early to do heavy but natural looking makeup before work
Owh special mention, natural shade/nude shade themed makeup is his favourite
He has high respect on people who are high maintenance, but if you are too over enthusiastic he will tell you to slow down and go light heart on it, "Its to boost confidence/feel good about yourself right? Its not to impress others by overdoing it right?"
If you are a tiktok-er. I think you might ask Jaeyoung to do the my boyfriend did my make up challenge (To add, you cant trust Hyojin and Seungjun on this cos high chance if their prank mode kick in, rip. Changyoon will do it tho but you need to persuade him. Jaeyoung and Minkyun are the easiest to ask)
If sometimes Jaeyoung caught seeing you watching manicure design vids or you happened to try out a new manicure design from tutorial you saw online, he will sit beside, try hard to not disturb you. But while watching he will goes "Uwa, Shingi hada/ this is intriguing/amazing." (Try watch Mini game heaven season 2 0316, when he is the one holding the word board, the face he make as he is watching the leaders appeared in my head when writing this lol)
bonus, if you are doing really intricate work like placing a small sticker or draw a small design or sticking a small trinket? on your nails, Jaeyoung will also focus with you by holding his breath as he watches you doing your tasks
Minkyun
You trusted this boy to do BF do my makeup challenge and you regret it soon after, but the view results are amazing lol
but i think their S/O might lowkey get trauma lol and always decline Minkyun offer to help do makeup hahah
But again, when he do try to do it properly, he is ok
bonus, you two had to get another mirror because Minkyun is standing in front yours to check himself out every time he styles his hair a single bit, and it delays your pace of doing your make up.
Appreciate effort of you wanna look good, also he is the type who sits behind S/O while waiting them to finish up makeup (others will wait outside, But Minkyun is the type I want see whole process of how their S/O "transform")
Also the one who will sit beside you as you do your own manicure, or, the bf who will sit beside their S/O at nail salon watching the whole process.
But his hands are busy as he is also curious, so he will reach out to check the nail polish bottle or even the UV cure machine
So, he is also the type that will follow you into Sephora or makeup selling shops (is not that the others wont follow, but I want to highlight specifically for Minkyun). Hands busy, checking out stuffs.
Unlike Seungjun, the type that really cant tell if you change new lipstick or switched new eyeshadow.
BUT I THINK THIS PERSON, HE WILL SUDDENLY DROP A NEON EYESHAOW OUT OF BLUE IN FRONT OF YOU WHEN YOU ARE PAYING. You are gonna fluster if you are not the type who do daring colors. Minkyun only giggles and say " You wont know if you don't like it if you try?"
the funny bit, its not even him paying when he wants you to try lol
He is more of skincare type person. Similar to Seungjun, both of you cuddling with sheet masks on.
Yuto
The one who sticks to basic stuffs, skincare mostly
Also the type who will try to do makeup challenge diligently, asking you how should he do it rather than making a mess on your face.
The type that gives you thumbs up and affirming nods when you ask him how do you look.
He won't comment too much or nags/persuade you to stop doing heavy makeup eventually because he respects effort and confidence boost behind your makeup/high maintenance mentality
But he is flustered when you suddenly did a "I did a instagram summer gal makeup and show my bf" (for example) as it was way different and you look different. The moment you suggest to make this makeup theme as your usual, YUTO PANICKED, "Stop, stop, Mon sori yo? / What did you just say?"
IF you are office worker, he will nag at you if you are thinking straight to wear that makeup to office lol
The type that just quietly follows behind you when you are doing your shopping tour at Sephora or makeup shop.
But he will stop you if he sees your eyes gleaming as you stand at lipsticks corner lol (If you are the type who loves to collect and have too much lipsticks)
Occasionally surprise you with your fave lipstick color as well. Especially on early days of the relationship, you think he is the type that does not care. But turns out he is observant (because it is you so he is observant at your favorite stuffs)
Owh... i think he will be the perfume sensitive type person? He will mention what type of fragrance that he think you will go along well with.
Also I think the type who will recognizes if you changed perfume. Also the type who recognizes if you used his.
He might ask you to try on a sample and then you two might get a couple lover perfume/fragrance.
A/n : finally T^T this draft is in draft for like what... 6 months??? T^T
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i-am-an-idiot · 3 years ago
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i guess its a slow burn? idk but here is a really long sory
Chapter One: I come in crying
I ran into my house crying,
"Why does she hate me? I've tried my best..."
I said to my mom, who came over to see what the noise was.
"I'm sure she doesn't hate you, Leah, lighten up! she just doesn't know how to talk to you!"
yeah right... whenever I try to talk to her she just screams at me.
"how do you know?" I asked, knowing the answer right after I said it
"because that's how your father acted around me when he and I were in high school,"
yeah right, first she told me she met him in college, then work, and now high school? I can't believe her anymore, but I don't want to get yelled at, so may as well go along with this.
"I- really?"
"of course! he would always yell at me about how bad of a person I was! how wrong he was!" mom said with absolute certainty, the screaming part was always the same, I always wondered why mom stayed with him. Then again, I stayed with her.
Chapter two: I give up
“God, Leah, why can't you just leave me the hell alone?” Those are the first words she said to me today. I'm beginning to think she wants me dead by now, but I keep up the act, looking all cherry, keeping the teachers off my back about my depression is hard enough, keeping her off my back? That will be much harder. Two weeks in the school year and she's starting to notice “Hey are you okay?” I wanted to say no! I've been so depressed for 2 years! But all I could say was “im okay! Just got up on the wrong side of the bed today!” thank god she bought it “yeah okay, sure” she doubted me, I could tell, but I could neither say or do anything about it. 2 weeks later We haven't talked since she last asked me, I gave up on trying to be friends with her, let alone be with her. It's hard to do because I've been friends with her since 3rd grade, but I can't deal with this anymore, sometimes she's sweet and kind and for others, she is harsh and judgemental. I see her running up to me, yelling my name “Leah! Leah, I need to talk to you!” I just kept walking, I didn't want to talk to her today.
It's math class now, the teacher sent us home early, some kids had been scattered around the parking lot waiting for the buses. It was raining and I forgot my umbrella. “Hey,” a familiar voice said behind me, “do you want to share an umbrella?” she was right behind me, and I didn’t care, I missed her. Why? I don't know, all she has ever done to me this year is saying goodbye rude, but still… She's beautiful. “Yeah, sure.” It was a silent walk, I don't know why I said yes, but she's not yelling at me, so that’s good… I think she feels bad for me, taking pity. After what felt like hours she finally spoke, “you’ve been acting off lately, are you okay?” Shit- “yeah! I'm fine, why do you ask?” She gave me the ‘i know you’re lying’ glare “Because one day you stopped talking to me, I got worried-” She got worried? Really? I find that hard to believe. “You always say that,” I replied. “Well, this time I mean it” “You say that too.” "well, what do you want me to say!? You always act depressed while I'm trying to be nice but you still won't believe me any time I ask!" She yelled at me, yelled at me. Knew it
"Well I'm sorry I can't be fixed just like that but you think so!" I yelled back, and before she could respond I stopped and kept yelling
"You think you have it bad because your parents are divorced! BUT GUESS WHAT!? My parents are divorced too! And my mom constantly lies, my dad's in jail for something he didn't do and I'm trying to deal with crippling depression on my own. Anyone, I thought I could lean on was absolutely shit! And when I tried to lean on you you started yelling at me anytime I started talking to you. So you have it bad? That's cool. Have fun dealing with that, I'm trying to deal with this kind of shit." She is speechless, I wouldn't blame her either, you timid friend who takes a lot of shit daily and breaks on you. Yeah, kind of scary. Especially when most of the school shooters are quite kids hah. Fun.
After a little while I walk away, she follows behind me quietly.
"I didn't know you felt that way"
I stayed quiet, I didn't want to talk to her about it.
She stopped "I'm sorry, I just thought-"
I turned a corner and left.
I could hear her running after me and screaming my name, I didn't slow down or stop, I just went into the train station and got in just before my train left, I could see her running at me, the doors closed and the train left.
I normally don't take the train, but I just wanted to get away as fast as possible, and the train station was right there.
Chapter 3: “her”
DAMMIT HIMIKO, WHY THE HELL ARE YOU SO STUPID!? YOU SHOULD HAVE TOLD HER INSTEAD OF PUSHING HER AWAY. NOW SHE HATES YOU AND IT'S YOUR FAULT.
I took a deep breath after the train left,
"Calm down, you're fine. You can talk to her tomorrow." I sighed, people were looking. I have to go home, well….
I stood there. Not wanting to move. My mom is behind me, wondering why I came down to the train station.
"Himiko? Honey, why are you down here? You know that both me and your dad will pick you up if you need us to, you don't need to take the train."
I know, mom. I'm just saying goodbye to Leah, it was raining so she wanted to take the train."
"Oh, if that were the case then why didn't you tell her that I would take her you know I will, you know how much I love her."
"It's too late, mom, she wanted to get away from me, so I don't think that she would like it anyway"
I left the train station and got I'm mom's car, I guess I'm with her today. Mom tried to strike up a conversation, but I just ignored her. She gave up after a few tries and we drove the rest of the way home in silence.
When we got home I went straight to my room, took my phone out, and plugged it in. I turned on my tv and started playing some random show that I’ve watched so many times that I can quote it without trying. And I pull out my tablet and start sketching out a random anime character, maybe an OC of mine. After about an hour of drawing and sketching, I just give up and look out the window and see that it’s still raining, I laugh a little because I know Leah would probably be kicking around in the rain by now... god I remember playing out in the rain with her just having fun… I wish high school never happened and we can just go back to our childhood and just cherish those moments when no one cared what other people were thinking and all we cared about was when nap time and play time started and what dinner was and what we would get for our birthday and Christmas.
Now? Life is shit. My best friend hates me, and I don't blame her. Hell I think I told her to go fuck herself a few times, I didn't really mean it but it really sounded like I did. "Sweetie? Are you okay?" Mom asked, poking her head through the door. "Leah's mom is at the door if you want to talk to her…" mom hesitated. "Leah's mom is delusional, mom. Has she even told us her name?" HIMIKO! WHY THE HELL DID YOU SAY THAT YOU DUMB FUCK?
"Her name is Abby, Himiko, you know this! And she is Ill. Give her a break, please?" Mom looked tired, I don't blame her, dealing with my sorry ass of a human being all the time, whatever. "Yeah, sorry mom, that was stupid of me to say. Yeah I'll come down to talk to her." Mom smiled, she looked happy, that's the first time I've seen her smile in a long while. "Oh, and Leah is there too, you two are friends right?" Shit. "Yeah, sure I'll be out in a minute mom, I need to change to something else first." She nodded and left the room, closing the door behind her. I went over into my closet, and stared into it dreading the next interaction.
As I try to distract myself by focusing on the amount of junk in my closet, and knowing how Leah would be fussing about how I need to clean it out soon. I stare into the closet for a minute before picking out a random shirt with an anime character on it and change into it, I throw on a pair of sweatpants and go downstairs into the living room where Abby and Leah are. "I'm so sorry for dropping in on such short notice Delilah, I just wanted to talk to a friend…." The mom's kept talking and walked off into a different room, leaving me and Leah alone. "Hey, koko" shit I forgot to turn off the TV in my room "hi, Leah." Before I get to say anything else she starts walking up the stairs to my room, since she already knows the way I just go into the kitchen to get a snack, and grab one for Leah, know she will complain if I don't get anything for her.
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tabriscadash · 3 years ago
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I was asked this on my old blog right as I set about transitioning to this one, so...
The first character I ever fell in love with: for DA:O, dare I say Daveth? What can I say -- I irrationally got incredibly attached to him. otherwise, DEFINITELY Morrigan, and I have crystal clear memories of my first run through Lothering and looking at Morrigan like 😍 the whole time. For DA:2/E, Carver -- unless you count Anders & Justice since I knew of them from Awakening beforehand, in which case probably Justice. For DA:I, it’s a toss-up between Vivienne or Cole -- I technically liked Cole first but SPECIFICALLY in the supporting material (Asunder), and didn’t vibe with him anywhere near as much in the game, AND I got him as a companion after I got Vivienne, so probably Vivienne.
A character that I used to love/like, but now do not: for DA:O, I guess Oghren? I never loved him, but I liked the idea of him because I really liked the dwarves/Orzammar side of DA’s worldbuilding -- but he’s such an unlikeable character that I just.. don’t vibe with him at all. I debate recruiting him every single time now, and I don’t think I ever do his personal quest (in the base game OR Awakening). for DA:2/E, I don’t really have anyone that fits -- but I REALLY wanted to like Merrill and Aveline more than I did, and especially in Aveline’s case, I can’t stand her and genuinely think she’s the unintended, secret Big Bad of the whole game. for DA:I, probably Cole, bc I was really into the idea of a little walking-corpse serial killer animated by a spirit as per the book, but that’s not really the vibe in DA:I, and combined with the somewhat patronising/ableist language and how significantly he is infantilised (including by the fandom) I just got put off him. I do still like him, but not as much.
A ship that I used to love/like, but now do not: for DA:O, I don’t really have one? I guess see my DA:I answer, lol... for DA:2/E, has to be Anders - I don’t think he’s OOC in 2, but I think his writing does so little with him and he feels v. reductive. Where his relationship could be SO interesting and angsty, it instead is written in a really dull and/or cringey way. It would have been nice to see Anders more like the Anders of Awakening near the beginning of the game (rather than random, infrequent and questionably rare snippets), and then see the progression of his relationship with Justice as the game went on -- I want more interesting abominations, PLEASE. for DA:I, listen I cannot express to you HOW EXCITED I was for my planned Lavellan to romance Sera… also I used to be way more tolerant of Cullen x Amell/Surana ships because, like, hey dark ships are fun, right? But since Cullen’s ~wholesome whitewash~ in DA:I, and his fandom clamouring to absolve him of any wrongdoing ever.. it’s boring to me.
My ultimate favourite character™: for DA:O, probably Sten? or Morrigan. They’re both fantastic, and also are significant comfort chars for me. for DA:2/3, honestly, probably my own Hawke -- I feel so hugely proud of her, and can’t imagine I’d enjoy the game anywhere near as much had I not played it as my Hawke. If not her, maybe Sebastian or Carver? for DA:I, I really love Vivienne, as well as Blackwall, and Solas is a great character even if I probably would not say I liked him.
Prettiest character: for DA:O, we all know it’s Zevran. for DA:2/E, I think Aveline -- although her aggressively bland colour-scheme lets her down in a major way (although I respect her dedication to all orange all day every day). There’s just something about her arms -- very Abby from TLOU:2. for DA:I, maybe Josephine? Ser Barris is very pretty, too...
My most hated character: for DA:O, I really didn’t like Alistair, Wynne and Oghren, and of my companions - Oghren is probably my least favourite. He’s vulgar and also profoundly uninteresting. for DA:2/E, it has to be Aveline. There’s just something about ineptitude and a complete, wilful refusal to take accountability for your actions that I can’t stand. It would be okay if it was an intentional character flaw, but the game/narrative treats her like she’s lawful good and it really annoys me. for DA:I, maybe Iron Bull? He was a huge disappointment for me. I also really dislike Sera, Cassandra, and Varric. I’m so sick of Varric - I never want to see him again.
My OTP: for DA:O, I really loved Zevran’s romance -- but I am also very amused by the fact that Leliana got to ‘love’ status with Kallian accidentally, AND I got the ‘love’ glitch for Justice (👀) and Velanna. I do sometimes wonder about an AU where Kallian is forced to make a politically expedient marriage with Nathaniel Howe for diplomatic reasons in order to consolidate her position as Arlessa, and it being an entirely platonic arrangement (it’s not like anyone expects an heir from an infertile Grey Warden) -- and maybe Zev and Nate kiss sometimes, who knows? I also LOVE my Darkspawn Chronicles AU where Kallian and Nelaros are a happy, married couple each hiding their skills with weapons from each other like dumb, cute sweethearts. They shelter Zevran when he fails to kill Alistair and a poly couple evolves. for DA:2/E, I love the IDEA of a Seb romance that isn’t so strictly conditional around the structures that abused him -- he should be allowed to love, chastely or otherwise, but free from the Chantry OR his position as prince/heir. I’d LOVE to actually have a romance with him where you can actually challenge the abuse he’s experienced. for DA:I, Malika doesn’t have a canon romance (although I think when I replay, I’m going to romance Josephine!) but I think Blackwall has an amazing romance. Solas’ is also iconic, it must be said. 
My NOTP: for DA:O, I really dislike Alistair in a shipping capacity; he’s immature and says a lot of misogynistic shit and I don’t think he’s the worst for it, but I don’t really vibe with shipping him, having played the game as a female city elf. for DA:2/E, I wouldn’t say I have one, particularly? although I really dislike Aveline’s relationship with her husband simply because it seems incredibly inappropriate, given that they work together and she has power over him -- and because I dislike her, generally, I don’t feel inclined to do something nice for her. for DA:I, I suppose Sera/Lavellan -- although I’m not AGAINST it, it just really isn’t for me, having attempted it. I also don’t really vibe with Dorian x Iron Bull. Something abt the way the game handled BDSM and their relationship banter specifically I don’t really like.
Favourite episode quest: for DA:O, probs Orzammar/the Deep Roads. I really love the dwarven lore! and, of course, Fort Drakon is really funny, even though it’s not canon in my game iirc. for DA:2/E, maybe the murder mystery with the serial killer, where ultimately Leandra dies? I also really enjoyed all the companion quests. for DA:I, The Descent (just, all of it, lmao) and everything to do with the Avvar. Crestwood also BANGED.
Saddest death: for DA:O, it’s frankly a fucking INJUSTICE that Shianni gets murdered if you make her Bann of the Alienage -- the idea of that happening whilst Kallian is in Amaranthine and unable to protect her :( genuinely very upsetting. I go back and forth on who is made Bann, tbf, so idk how canonical it is: I think maybe Cyrion would get it, but I’m also endeared to Soris holding the position, with Shianni as Hahren. for DA:2/E, Bethany. I wish both twins had had the chance to reach Kirkwall :(. Let Leandra die instead. for DA:I, maybe not the saddest death, but the most memorable for me was that one sleeping dragon in the Hissing Wastes.. leave her alone. Stay out of a womans’ business.
Favourite season game: DA:O!
Least favourite season game: DA:I.
Character that everyone else in the fandom loves, but I hate: for DA:O, Alistair. I cannot deal with his complacency and hypocrisy. for DA:2, I really disliked Merrill but I honestly cannot remember why. DEFINITELY Varric -- I hated how the game forces you to be his best friend, and if you’re low approval, you have to endure these pointless pissy little comments with this little anti-dwarf centrist pissant. After the expedition, I literally have no reason to put up with him, and I NEVER take him out. I hate that he plays the same role in DA:I, too. for DA:I, the Iron Bull was hugely disappointing, and I also really don’t vibe with Cassandra. She just seems very wishy-washy and complacent and hypocritical, and many of her comments about other cultures seem snide for literally no reason other than bigotry. 
My ‘you’re a piece of trash, but you’re still a fave’ fave: for DA:O, lbr probably Sten. Mans is gonna launch a HORRIFYING invasion in the next game iirc and frankly, I’m ok with it. Just wanna see that big bastard again ❤🥵. for DA:2/E, I LOVE Gamlen, ok? for DA:I, I am not sure if I have one.
My ‘beautiful cinnamon roll who deserves better than this’ fave: for DA:O, if any of you so much as LOOK at Velanna wrong, it’s hands. That includes Bioware. I also feel incredibly protective of and sad for Morrigan. for DA:2/E, probably Sebastian -- I feel so sad for him, and so frustrated by the limitations with the game. for DA:I, I’m honestly not sure.. maybe Josephine? I don’t really feel this way about Sera, but I do think she deserves better from the game and its writing, and also from fandom: there are valid criticisms of her, but the hate she gets is not proportional to any valid issues with her -- and gee, I wonder why that is.
My ‘this ship is wrong, nasty, and makes me want to cleanse my soul, but i still love it’ ship: for DA:O, I did use to find Cullen x Surana/Amell intriguing as a dark ship -- I actually hc that Neria Surana is actually Nelaros’ sister, and have dabbled with it as a dark ship. I also am interested in Loghain/Alistair - which each pretends the other is someone else. Alistair is wooby, hate ships are, in general, fun -- so long as we acknowledge that they are, indeed, unhealthy ships. for DA:2/E, I kind of feel like Sebastian romances are, invariably, kind of dark... and, similarly, Anders romances -- especially with certain red Hawkes, The way it ends is, invariably, bordering on fucked up. ALSO Hawkecest is weird and wonderful: GET WITH IT. 
My ‘they’re kind of cute, and I lowkey ship them, but I’m not too invested’ ship: for DA:O, I joked about Velanna x Leliana once and I’ve not been able to stop thinking about it ever since… Velanna x Sigrun is also something that can be so personal. Ariane x Finn is adorable and are paid DUST by Bioware AND fandom. I actually am really into Anora x Nathaniel & NO I will NOT explain myself; it’s a crackship but it’s MY crackship. for DA:2/E, Isabela x Fenris is super cute, but I don’t pay enough attention to them to really have super committed thoughts & feelings on them. for DA:I, Blackwall x Josephine is cute as a background ship; I also think Maryden x Cole is sweet.
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maldito-arbol · 3 years ago
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HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT, this chapter??!!??. Okay where to start…. I really liked the stuff with Marcy and Aldo, I loveee all the Wally stuff!!! He is always a joy to see in your fic. I’m just gonna head into the juicey bits now because I have a lot more to say about that stuff. I love all the riddles n stuff!! Definitely seems like something andrias would do and I think They are pretty smart, the plant monster thingy!! I love em. LADY OLIVIA HOLY SHIT NO, my girl 😭 how much she cares about Marcy here,,, it just breaks my heart omg. Tbh I don’t know how to describe this but like, obviously I hate andrias he is the worst, but I like him in a certain way? like he is very interesting (both in canon and in your fic) the whole collar thing is like,,, idk it’s just horrible but I also really like the concept and everything. all of the wit stuff is probably one of my faviorite moments, all the love and hate stuff is super intresting! “Will you keep me alive? For now…for as long as you can. Just, don’t let me die yet. Please?” Her voice wavers on the last of it.
There’s a pause of silence for a moment there as Wit considers her request. Marcy almost loses hope in that time.
“Of course.” But then she’s agreeing. “I will always, always keep you alive as long as it is possible. You have my word, Marcy.”
“Thank you…” she utters. “…Witney…”” this is probably one of if not my faviorite moment, idk why but like,, it’s really good, also, WITNEY, WITNEY, WITNEY, YAY. Yunan NOOO, why why why, my other girl 😭 Heart and Andrias!! This is so interesting to me! I love that they have gotten attached to Anne and not wanting her to get killed, i said it before but it’s very interesting, probably also one of my faviorite things. ”Screams don’t carry when one is drowning” hey I’ve seen this quote before haven’t I :) Heart not wanting to hurt andrias! Heart being attached to both of them is so interesting (sory for keep saying that idk what else because it is very interesting) Strenight and heart, I’m gonna guess this is who you were talking about being a worse pairing then wit and strenght, and you were definitely right,, WHY DID YOU STAB HER, My other other girl 😭 unfortunately I was spoiled by your art of it since I saw it before I knew about the chapter (Fun(?) Fact, I don’t know the schedule of IBYBF, if there even is one lmao, i didnt even know it was coming out today) Anne saying sorry to Sasha holy shit holy shit. Strenght ,,,I dunno what to say tbh but like good, but painful (summary of this series am I right) KICK HIS ASS, FUCK HIM UP YEAHH ”What would you do? If you lost them. If they were gone, if you were all alone, could you go on?” Holy shit my dude, holy shit. YEAH THE WARHAMMER, I really like the warhammer tbh, it pretty cool. Woo yeah grime! Saving Marcy :D LET GO SASHA KICK NEWT ASS!!! “Did I do a good job? Is this enough?” !!!! Anne, Marcy, and Sasha,,,, why must you do this to me Mal,,, pain pure pain, Anne asking Sasha to take care of the planters holy shit Mal, Holy, Shit. MAL MAL MAL WHY DID YOU LEAVE IT LIKE THAT, WHAT THE FUCK, I LITERALLY HATE YOU FOR THIS (/lh) GRRRHDHDBESGGDDH Hopefully I’ll draw some of this! I have had mild Art block for anything other than adventure time but i really want to do something for this TL:DR I don’t know how to type Strength and I have typed wrong so many times auto correct corrects it to Strenght
HIIII THANKS FOR THIS HUGE ASK OMG!!
It was such a joy writing the Marcy and Aldo interaction there. In case it wasn’t already obvious, I’m OBSESSED with the Toad Lords and will not stop talking about them ever ever! You’ll be happy to learn they have a very big role in CMTO <3
And Wally my beloved, he will always have a place in my heart and my fics let’s hope those guards didn’t catch him :)
The riddles were FUN. They hint at a much deeper story than what’s on the surface and I’ll be very interested to see if anyone suddenly remembers them when they’re reading the gem backstories. Strength’s specifically is such a slap in the face I almost feel bad.
Andrias is an absolute lunatic, but a lunatic with a sense of humor. It’s what makes him so fun for me to write, and especially when you consider where his character flaws intertwine with Heart’s. I love his dynamic with every character that’s interacted with him thus far but i am SO stoked to explore his dynamic with Heart further, it is SO messed up. There’s like. Tiny hints. Going on there. “You don’t raise your hand against Andrias Leviathan, that’s simply not how this works.” is a fav ;)
I LOVE YUNLIVIA NEWT MOMS SO MUCH AND GOD I WAS SO EXCITED AND YET SO UPSET THAT OLIVIA AND MARCY’S REUNION HAD TO BE SO ANGSTY. I like to think both of them secretly really cared for the other even if it seemed on the surface like Olivia was all stoic and serious while Marcy was way attached to Andrias instead, but in that vital moment they feared they might lose each other is when the love really awakened. From here on out, their relationship is gonna be a lot closer than what it was at the beginning of PMIT, so yeah, look forward to that :)
The Collar. Oh the collar. Can you believe that was the FIRST scene I wrote in the entire finale. I sat and thought about it for a minute first, like ‘so if this is what the past looks like, and if Andrias knows as much as he does about the gems, how would he react upon finding Marcy’s gem has awakened?’ Well, he’d pick the cycle right back up where he left off…even if it means destroying someone he’s come to care about. Destroying the ones you love, sound familiar???
Oh god WIT AND MARCY. Wit makes me so emo at the best of times. And her interactions with Marcy are such a mixed bag i thought it only fitting that they come to an understanding on Mixed Emotions. This is where I’m finally gonna bring up that Intelligence is a blanket term and that there are SEVERAL different types of intelligence—one of those being Emotional Intelligence. You can kind of guess where Wit’s been learning and where she’s still behind. It. Has Very Sad implications. Honestly I may as well say this here: Strength is the only gem that was able to develop somewhat rich and healthy emotions meanwhile the other two are incredibly stunted. So yknow. Marcy and Wit finally starting to bond and trying this whole Getting Along Thing again is such a big step for both of them. And Marcy calling her Witney has SO much more weight and importance when you consider Wit’s past. Brb gonna go cry
What happened to Yunan was entirely a spur of the moment decision. I was like “what am I supposed to do with Yunan.” And you know I could have picked ANYTHING but That, but I’m an angst writer! Do you expect any less.
The fact that Heart is attached to Anne now is my FAVORITE development for their character. There’s a reason for that. There’s always a reason for that :’)) and boy do i ever love taking dangerous and terrifying villains and turning them into pathetic, sniveling children. Heart, there is still so much you can’t even begin to comprehend. What a loser lmao (affectionate)
Strength and Heart. You are absolutely correct, their dynamic is aggressively toxic, even more so than Wit and Strength. But oh boy you are not ready to learn Wit and Heart’s dynamic, because we’re STILL not there yet. Those little hints I’ve been dropping for you are your scraps eat up <3
I’m SO SORRY you were spoiled by the art, I was worried something like that was gonna happen, and OMG, yeah no I don’t think I ever properly addressed the schedule. Yeah I was posting chapters every other Thursday at 7 pm CST, but you are always SO QUICK to jump on them I thought you already knew omg! My apologies, I will be clear about the schedule if I end up changing it for CMTO (probably not tho I like what I have going on)
Why did I stab Anne? Uh…a few reasons. Some I cannot tell you and some I can. One, Kasey put the idea in my head and I couldn’t stop thinking about it and Two, I wanted to do a cliffhanger by this point anyway so I said WHY NOT?! Three, to prove to Andrias that Heart is not the same gem they used to be, and thus make his downfall all the more tragic when he realized Heart wasn’t coming to save him this time. Yeah that’s gonna have consequences in CMTO. As for the ones I can’t tell you? They have a LOT to do with Sasha, Strength, Marcy, and Heart’s character arcs going into CMTO. Fear me >:)
Anyway SO HAPPY that I got to give Sasha/Strength the honors of fucking shattering Andrias’s spine hahahA it was so satisfying, my goal has always been to make Andrias suffer unimaginable pain and heartbreak for all the shit he’s done not only to our girls but to their gems as well. Cry about it, giant blue asshole. Can’t wait to get into why it was important for Strength’s arc too!!!
GAH IM SORRY YOUVE HAD ARTBLOCK THAT ALWAYS SUCKS, I LOVE UR ART 🥺🥺🥺
Also MOOD at a certain point i forget how to spell Strength too and I rely entirely on autocorrect to fix it for me. One of these days I’m gonna give it a nickname, and that nickname is gonna be one of the horrendously bad misspellings that autocorrect couldn’t even save my ass on.
Again I am so sorry for this chapter but I am ALSO enjoying u guys suffering :) THANK U FOR THE ASK AND UR CONTINUED SUPPORT 💜💜💜
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