#sorry tumblr gets the posts later 💔💔

[allthedrugsforcreativity]

Sonic OVA 2?!

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[nightcolorz]

woahh okay first time i attempted to send this ask my tumblr glitched and deleted it. idk if it sent but ignore it if so i wanted to reword it anyway. (tw for sa discussions and sexual abuse/trauma)

either way ive been thinking a lot about the post you wrote about armand’s (or amadeo’s) hypersexuality in venice and i saw a very similar post on twitter, essentially saying armand was so confused and horny in venice and ended up going to bianca for solice (then feeling incredibly guilty about it) and then later harlech as he weaponised his sexuality as a form of revenge on marius “ignoring” him (eventually tragically leading to his death)

it just puts such a tragic image into my head of amadeo in bianca’s bedchamber, crying and crying after having sex with her because he doesn’t understand why he feels the way he does, why he desires sex so much after all he’s been through, and not realising it is a trauma response, a last ditch effort to keep himself alive by acclimatising to his environment of sexual abuse, and then it later killing him anyway.

Armand is so Sad. im so sad.

any other thoughts from you?

doooonttt worry lol ur previous ask didn’t send haha (I’m sorry stinky tumblr deleted it tho damn) but I LOVE this ask so thank u sm for resending it!!

omgg this makes me so sad holy shit 😭 I never made the connection that Amadeo’s hyper sexuality reaction to sa trauma led to his death but ugh, omg, ur so right that’s so tragic. It’s also specifically Marius abusing him that leads him to his death, bcus Armand feeling the massive loss of agency and control over his life and sexuality cuz of Marius causes him to get with harlech (someone he knows is dangerous) bcus he wants to make Marius angry and to distance himself from his perceived control by self destructing. Marius starts having Armand go to brothels against his will, Marius resents Armand for doing the thing he told him to and starts “ignoring him”, boom harlech boom death

the Bianca thing is so interesting, especially Armand’s guilt and perceived lack of control of his actions. It’s like, he is realizing that for reasons he can’t understand he isn’t able to control his sexual impulses and he is consumed by them in a way that dictates his behavior, which is scary as shit especially for someone who has been taught to be frightened of sexuality for his entire life. Armand seems to perceive himself being hyper sexual as akin to being like his abusers, where he seems to think that since he can’t control his sexual urges and makes poor decisions bcus of horniness hes akin to a rapist which 😰💔 that type of guilt is rlly common for sa victims who experience complicated reactions to trauma unfortunately. But ugh.

slight change of topic, but I always think about how hard and strange it must’ve been for Amadeo to go from 24/7 sex and sexual urges to sexless being thrown into catholic cult where u can’t bathe urself let alone fuck. Like that’s the kind of whiplash between two harmful extremes that makes someone into a person like Armand, lmao

[plantmommoonbaby]

I have covid (rant about that later), and to keep my mind from rotting, I'm rewatching IwtV. So, please enjoy

My Delirious Ramblings about Our Favorite Beautiful Vampire Divorcés (pt 1)

Episode 1:

It feels like it means something that went Lestat does the mind control thing, his victims eyes look like his

Uuugh i saw a tumblr post wondering if the widow du Pointe duLac ever convinced herself Louis pushed Paul so she could believe Paul went to heaven and 😭

That means his mother starts to see him as a monster the literal morning he chooses to become a monster

God, if she never subtle accused him, would he even have agreed to Lestat's offer??

Louis talking over what Lestat said to convince him makes me think all he had to say was that he loved him...

I mean... valid since he just lost his mother's love 💔

Episode 2:

Ummm, Louis, why do you have a painting by your grampa??

Armand isn't even acting in this scene, is he? Boy worships Louis

But, like... how is Armand--sorry, Rashid 🙄 being the only staff member who doesn't mask not a dead give away?

Louis's eyes go green when he has blood lust

Tiny buns 💓

I have a hard time believing Louis diets out of compassion when he'll eat a hogtied endangered species...

God bless Grace du Pointe du Lac

You can say you aren't buying in to the killing, Louis... but your eyes are very green...

Oop, Daniel couldn't stay objective while reliving that little dish... this is when the lines start getting blurry

Episode 3:

It has to be a superiority thing, coz the way he ate that poor kitty was brutal...

Daniel has not kiki'd over exes enough and it shows. Louis reeks of missing his ex. You don't point out how obvious it is until after a few drinks and making sure he can't slide into the DMs first...

Ooooh if looks could kill. Our literal green eyed monster damn near drained Antoinette right there... I guarantee the only reason he didn't is because he thought Lestat was going to drain her later

Checking to make sure Lestat is paying attention before making Jonah think about "them old days" 💀 Louis said "fuck around and find out, Daddy 😘"

Jonah, I know a certain European who is cares a whole lot about who you are looking at, and I'm pretty fucking sure he's not gonna be sensible about it...

Louis, you're not you when you're hungry...

Lestat plays fucked up games, but seeing Louis's green eyes and knowing he isn't stable enough to actually restrain himself and then hurting himself to get them all out is actually pretty respectful of his diet...

Lestat wasn't wrong about Louis being a natural... he's just a natural serial killer, not hunter. He has to want to kill his victim...

Louis kicks in one door, his sister sees him as the devil. He kicks in another and Claudia sees him as an angel 😭😭😭 IM NOT CRYING YOU'RE CRYING

I think I need a nap...

[liampaynemysteriousdeath]

Ooh the boys had tumblr accounts?! Do you remember their names? even if they're not active anymore... I'm particularly interested in Harry's and how like creative and ~sly it probably is... Sorry if it's inappropriate to ask! It has been a rough day with the funeral and seeing the boys say their farewells to their brother :( Hope everything gets better, and the truth comes to light.

edit: I remember on harrys tumvkr he said one of favorite songs was a classical piece. It started with a y? It was really peaceful. I'm gonna look for it now. Found it, it's a song that omg will make you cry fyi

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=7maJOI3QMu0&pp=ygUWUml2ZXIgZmxvdyB0aHJvdWdoIHlvdQ%3D%3D

fair warning this is what I found to the best of myability. I cant 100% guarantee that it was any of the boys. Use your own judgment,

I remember someone on tumblr years ago claiming they found liams tumblr but it's been 10 years so I forget haha. It's probably still listed if you search around a bit on tumblr. Let me know ow if you find it please haha

I can't remember whose username this was but this one was like 10 ish years ago. I'll only post the deactivated ones publicly. You might be able to find it on the way back machine archive possibly. Or if you use Google boolean search terms, I havent had a chance to check to verify.

Imustadmitiadoreyou OR I mustadmitiloveyou? Idr exactly. (idr whose this one belonged to. Possibly zayn iirc)

I checked the other day and one of zayn's is still around although inactive. Zayn forgot his password a lot haha. I remember doing a reverse search on one of those tumblr sites and it showed that his new account that i found was made 1 day later. I can't remember his other tumblr username.

Easy Hint it was one of his nicknames/sayings from back in the day. He's not very creative or good at being sly haha. For example, remember niazkilam on IG? Gee who would've guessed that was his name spelled backwards lol 😂. Gotta love the kid for trying haha. He had tattoos and weed posted and if I remember correctly he reblogged a pic of a wolf or posted something about a wolf tattoo before he got it on his leg.

Also I found one of zayyns sisters google plus accounts of her showing a pic and telling the fans that they should treat zayn the same as other boys bevause they were showing love to the other members and girls were surrounding them wanting oics and autographs. And zayn was hanging his head down defeated, just kinda waiting for someone to approach him. 💔 it was in a south american country. the pics were taken at night. It was I believe after a concert outside in a street(?) wish I wouldve kept the screenshots. I vaguely remember zayn wearing a black? tank top iirc.

Anyways back to harrys tumblr, i know it was in the summer. It was more or less the time frame of when they did the james corden karaoke. I remember I tried to encourage him on a certain something. rather not say details cause I think it was something slightly embarrassing to him so I'm not gonna say details.

Username was wholeworldshineforyou or wholeworldshineSforyou idr. But I remember him posting about someone he couldn't have. The first initial was either j, k, or l. Idr, i think J. Mentioned that the person didn't want to deal with the fame so that's why harry was rejected. He posted the song "nothing" by the script. He was really in his feelings that summer poor guy 💔

He also posted about that one young actor with the thick eyebrows. And called him gorgeous. Idr his name only his face. I think he was on a tv show on like the cw?wait I think it was grant guustin?

He reblogged the pic of the girl shielding harry from paparazzi. The one where everyone said not all heroes wear capes.

Also dylan o brien impression of him.

Also the tweet about the whales having more space than a concert stadium.

His profile pic was him in black and white sitting down on a stair ledge i believe. It was a professional photo he got off Google lol. It mightve been with a hat.

I asked him on anon what deodorant he uses because you rarely see him have pit stains. and he said just whatever is around. In my head I was like gee so helpful harry lol.i believe I asked him who his fave person was and he said his mom ♥ and I believe I also asked if he believed in God but idr his response, but I know he wears his cross tattoo.

I only found harrys because a certain person who knows him started a certain social media years ago and gave it out idk if it's still up. Or if that website is even still around, i havent checked. The person who knew Harry also gave his other username on tumblr when it got shut down but i cant remember right now.

His different one was also that summer after the other one got found out. The person I was talking to mentioned management found the first one. Idk if they were still signed with modest at that time. (See one of my previous posts about stop1dsmngmnt tumblr getting hacked by modest).

Theres other stuff know but it's slightly sad/dark has to do with jealously between 2 certain members sorta and a certain 5sos member dissinng a 1dmember, but it's already been a sad day with liams burial. So perhaps another time I'll share more.

Its not a surprise that they were on tumblr bevause 1)liam said they were on it and they see everything and 2)celebs get lonely and want to connect with others. Most of the time they use anonymous profiles to do so.

Like when t suhwift made an anonymous profile on that one site. It miggtve been 4chan iirc. She was lonely to the point of reaching out to strangers and wanting to name her cat. You would think big popstats are always happy and always have friends family fans etc around them 24/7 but they are still people looking for connection. She probably got lonely on tour.

Wait back to harrys tumblr, I remember he stood up for t suhwift when someone mentioned something about her. Idr if he wrote it but it was a loong response,

Also his friend mentioned a certain trick he does when he meets someone new. I'm not gonna share that trick bevause it's a safety thing for harry and if someone finds out, he would have to find a new trick which would be hard. Low key genius trick, but basically if you ever get the chance to meet or know harry then my hint to you is make sure you stay loyal.

And I remember a random follower asking him a question mentioning she always finds his tumblrs, so I assume it was a Stan who could tell it was harry right away and I assume that he has probably had multiple tumblrs throughout the years.

I was thinking of that liam pic from the other day of him eating alone and it reminded me of a britney documentary from years ago and she said that she struggled with pushing people away from her, but also at the same time was isolated because of it.

Elij,a wuhood allegedly did an anonymous reddit talking about how so many people wanted something from him. And if I remember correctly talked about how he wasn't as rich as people thought he was because pieces of pie from his earnings had to be split with his team, which reminds me of a video i was watching other day about how mtv cribs was fake. A lot of the cars and houses were rented out to look glamorous. The celebs never had step foot in those houses before. J.ojoh even said she was homeless while doing the episode.

guh-rhymes the singer was also allegedly on reddit confessing about her unfortunate relationship. But in front of the cameras everything looked perfect. I also heard that her ex didn't own a home not bvayse saving the environment like he claimed, but bvause there were people after him for a bit. Not safe peopleif you catch my drift,

So really no one goes on behind the scenes, because it's a lot of smoke and mirrors and crafted public images and narratives, etc.

No one has to believe me I don't care. if they don't believe me they can scroll along. I dont think im gonna tag this post bevause I don't want anyone finding it haha. Only this little group. Also I spelled a lot of people's names wrong so those celebs don't get Google alerts.

[rainyraisin]

2023 YEAR IN REVIEW!!!

My artstyle changed a lot this year, especially after my shift from ibis paint to procreate after getting my iPad (drawing on an iPad is the BEST btw 100% recommend I love it way more than a phone and it didn’t die after a month like my old wacom 💀💀). I’m relatively happy with where my art is atm and I hope to continue to improve in 2024!

Explanation of all the silly art down below! (Mostly so I can tell y’all who the fanart is for but also cause I like rambling)

January: A drawing of my Rise Leo human design I did to test out a pixel brush I found for Ibis Paint. He’s very fun to draw hehe I need to draw him more-

February: I wanted to learn how to draw the future designs of Leo and Mikey along with CJ so I planned to draw them all together! I struggled with Leo though so I just got rid of him. Sorry Peepaw 😞😞💔💔💔

March: Fanart for @beannary ‘s TLP au! I love it so much so I had to draw smth for it hehe 😈😈💥💥💥 which reminds me I need to draw more at some point- might redraw it at some point cause I’m not super happy with how it turned out but I do like the idea a lot

April: The month I created Reticent! April’s Fools was the first episode I came up with so I drew a chapter poster! It ended up being very different to the chapter cover I drew a couple months later but it’s still cool :D Leo is being weirdly affectionate to Mikey though what the heck that isn’t like him smh. Although I guess it was meant to be purposefully exaggerated sooooo 🥰

May: Reticent Casey!!! I don’t have much to say it’s just Reticent Casey HDKSGXKSHD this wasnt a very good art month

June: Krangified Donnie is literally my favourite concept ever thats it that’s all I have to say dbskdbwkh I adore Krangified Donnie and if the Rise brainrot takes over the Reticent brainrot for a while then I will probably be drawing Krangified Donnie during that time sorry not sorry

July: Reticent Chapter 3’s cover yippee!!! Still my favourite Reticent cover although Chapter 8’s is a close second (I can’t wait to post it once it’s been betaread yippee!!!). The scribble over Leo’s eyes is literally just because I was struggling to draw his eyes and i was getting annoyed dbskdbskdb it’s actually a very common issue with him (common Ret!Leo L). Also Mikey being reflected in the mirror is a reference to Mirror Man by Jack Stauber which I’ve basically considered his theme song since @aaronymous999 introduced it to me ebwjcbkwhd thank you Mr. Aaronymous! Also somebody said he was in the barbie box and I still need to draw that to this day because Mikey would’ve killed to go see Barbie.

August: RET DONNIE WOOOOO he’s being bullied again!!! I drew that piece for a colour palette challenge request and realised I got the prompt wrong so I just made it into its own thing 💥💥💥 it’s usually a flickering light gif but I chose to just use the version with the light on for this post. The photos in the background were really fun to draw hehe either April’s or Mikey’s is my favourite.

September: MY 500 FOLLOWER DTIYS YIPPEE (/my 150 follower DTIYS for tumblr). This one took me. Forever to draw and I love it to pieces hehe it was really fun to design Mikey’s room and figure out outfits for the sillies and idk the concept of a sleepover just seemed really fun to me dbskbdkdb- and all the entries I got were so so awesome I loved them all to pieces!!! I still look at them all the time hehe

October: FANART OF @endlesslogo ‘S HUMAN RISE LEO DESIGN WOOOOOO!!! This was the piece I started rendering on hehe it was so much fun to draw!!!! Although I did have a fight with rendering the hair for over an hour svsjegksbdk HOW DO PEOPLE DO IT FR!!!

November: Me and my friends were working on a crossover between our TMNT iterations so I drew all of our Karai’s together!!! Confluence Karai is on the left, created by Salem and Marine, New Stars Karai is in the middle created by Starla, and Reticent Karai is on the right created by me! All our Karais have such cool designs AHHHHH literally dead over them constantly/pos

December: Most of December I spent drawing Christmas presents so this was my present for Salem!!! Confluence!Jonatello my beloved….

[starleska]

Close enough, welcome back Aardman blorbo 💖 Want that greasy weasel man’s entire biography on my dash my next week (/j, everybody roam free <3)

I have a stye…and Covid…and need to finish writing a whole dissertation on how This Blorbo’s Moral Character Is Good, Actually,…This Time bc a friend read an atrocities-ridden fanfic that unsettled her enough to haunt in her day-to-day life and just so happened to pick my blorbo’s moral character to assassinate in the process. <\3 c’est le vie. I know I’ll be okay though! I get real (read: more) pathetic when I’m ill and handcrafting how the besties perceive a fictional character is near impossible, but it’s all stuff that’ll pass sooner than later <3

I hope you’re doing well 💖 I can’t think of a subtler way to say it as Illness eats at my brain but I wanted to know if you’re okay and check in on you! I’m definitely loving these fictional lil guys (and some girls) you’ve been posting <3 they’re all so fun! I haven’t thought about Monika in so long! And I’ve never considered Victor Quartermaine like that before 👀 and I haven’t even HEARD of I. M. Meen but I’m holding your hand, we (you, me, whoever put him on the sexypedia) can be so brave about it together 💖 OH, AND when I was rapidly scrolling through my dash one day to get to the oldest new posts, and I saw nothing but straight up flashes of YYH for a minute….I knew, I KNEWWWW it was you. I didn’t even have to check. 😂 it was such a pleasant surprise. I need to watch YYH. It has such fun character designs.

bahahaha ahhhhh listen it may just be a passing crush but Victor Quartermaine is exactly the kind of bastard Tory my ancestors would yell at me for having a crush on, i can't be blamed 🙈🙈 oh no!!! sweetie are you feeling better? 🫂 COVID is no joke at all, i hope you are (or were if it's over - surely it is by now!!) hydrated and resting up 💖💖 so so sorry for how long it's taken me to get round to this ask - you know when you're severely burnt out and any message longer than a paragraph makes you want to cry, even when you love the person who sent it and really want to reply? 😭😭😭

ooh forgive me, i might be a bit confused (busy packing for a trip and my brain is egg-fried rice) - your pal read a fanfic with a different interpretation of a beloved character and you're looking to fix it? awww i'm so sorry!! 🫂💖 but hey, think of it this way: isn't it pretty marvellous that every human being is so different that they can see a character and have a totally different interpretation? i suppose it depends on what 'atrocities' covers 🙃💔 either way, i hope you're feeling less distressed now 💖💖 aww Lorelei you are such a treasure - thank you for checking in 🫂💖 i am doing a lot better!!! i've been doing a lot better after taking that break and being more conscious of the stuff i'm doing every day, both online and offline...real life is going super well :3c i'm going on a trip tomorrow which is really exciting!! dfghfd oh my god putting Monika, Victor, and I.M. Meen back-to-back makes me look so insane...but that's what we're about here on Tumblr dot com, no? 😉 YESSSSS oh my god you would love Yu Yu Hakusho, it's so so good!!! definitely dozens of pretty people in there to fall in love with...!!! Hiei and Kurama have had my heart since i was tiny 😳💖 giving you SO MANY HUGS!!! i love you to bits and miss you a bunch - no pressure on replying but i'd love to hear how you're doing :3c take care pal!!!

[sixosix]

IM HERE. IVE ARRIVED. I HAVE THOUGHTS. when i said i might not come back here cuz i was busy? yeah, FUCK THAT. only divine intervention can keep me away from ur account. THE NEW THAWED PART?? WHAT THE FUCK. i wake up this morning expecting a chapter like, late afternoon but i forgot TIMEZONES EXIST . so u can imagine my absolute shock when i check my notifications bar and hit tumblr writer user sixosix posted new thawed part?? dude. the scream i scrumpt when lyney recognized the reader OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDD. i knew it was over when the flower landed by her feet but him saying her name had me DSINFIDSJFJDS?!?!!??! DURING THE SHOW TOO. HE DIDNT WAIT UNTIL IT WAS OVERIJ DSJUFUDJSFIJDSAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!! even rereading that part now as i write has me going crazy like i cant even put my excitement into words its SO?!?!?w??VFDXJDVNDSFNC god. okay. the scene where he grabs THE READER BY THE WAIST. 'CAUGHT YOU' ????? YEAH AND I CAUGHT FEELINGS YOURE NOT SPECIAL LYNEY?? THE GRIP ON THE WAIST. AUUUUUUUGH. ARUEGJHHH. ARHGHHRJGFDKD... IM ON MY DEATH BED!! TAKE ME TO THE BEACH SO I MAY GAZE UPON THE SEA ONCE MORE!!!! the mr lyney. miss lynette. falls to my knees. dies. dies. dies. BUT GOD THE FACT THEY THOUGHT SHE WAS DEAD TOO? no wonder lyney chased after her !!!! if my girlfriend (one-sided (?)) turned up alive out of no where i would do the same fr. a real man would drop to one knee and propose right there (grow some balls lyney) LYNETTE!!!!! SO CUTE!!!!!!!!! IM GONNA BITE HER SOKFDOSAKDASIJD THE SLOW APPROACH LIKE A TIMID CAT AND THEN THE SMIEL AUHGHDJFSKJFD?!w?FDDJNFODSJKFND!!!!! i cant imagine how she felt finding her bff again im so AUUURHGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! i know she knocked some sense into lyney afterwards LMAOO also reader pretending to be working under tart... ohh i know thats gonna backfire on her later in the story. ALSO CHILDE MENTION YIPPEE YIPPEE YIPPEE!!!!!!!!!!!!! do i have my doubts about lyney and lynette believing readers lie? absolutely. you dont grow up with someone and not know when theyre lying.. especially lyney. have u ever watched barbie in the dreamhouse?? theres this episode where ken tries to get a job but he doesnt bc each time barbie has an emergency, so he just becomes a (barbie)house-husband.. thats the vibe im getting from lyney and reader the 'i'm happy to see you' from lyney, and reader (kinda?) dismissing it with the 'goodbye miss lynette and mr lyney' ????? AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH ??????? sending u the number and email to my therapist rn ure paying for my next session. also i love aether, paimons and readers friendship, especially their little banter at the end. ALSO. SIGH. reader calling rosalie maman. when i tell u i screamed i MEAN IT. THEY MEAN SO MUCH TO ME. I LOVE THEM SO BAD IM GONNA SOB!!!! ............im gonna say, im a bit paranoid though.. youre not gonna hurt rosalie right. righ.t Right. blinking at u. blinking at u. blink blink blink . BLINK. BLIIINK !!!!!!!!!! ok sorry for clogging up ur asks with this . i have no idea how to end this its so long LMAOO. there are so many other parts i loved (brief melusine scene, audience reactions, etc) but i just didnt know how to convey my feelings into words ifgjdifjdji. i love thawed and ur writing SOSOSOSO much and im so excited for future updates!!!!!!!!!!! THATS ALL I GOT TO SAY!!!!!!! ramble mode OFF!!!!!!!! BYEBYE AND TAKE CARE MUAAAAAAAAAH

HIII LIS!!!!! ohh seeing your asks rlly brighten my day. LMFAOOO your comment actually had me laughing out loud “I JUZT WOKR UP WHAT RHE DICK” HAHSA

YES. DURING THE SHOW!!! i want to emphasize that lyney did not care about the audience or the weeks of practice for this very moment if he sees the reader !!!! HELPPP nooooo dont lie on your death bed yet we still have a few more chapters to go through 💔💔

ONE SIDED GF 😭😭😭 IJBOL he definitely wouldve proposed if it wasnt for aether im telling u. YESSS LYNETTE APPRECIATION i love her so much i try to add her as much as i can bc her interactions w lyney are so fun. Theyre literally siblings 😭❤️❤️

CHILDE MENTION !! this is definitely gonna bite her in the ass later but hey thats for another chapter

YES I E WATCHED BARBIE DREAMHOUSE IMQHAHSHEH thats so funny that you said that im saving that as a screwnshot LMFAOOO

Yes i want to up the angst and pain. reader my self destructive thawed!reader … ❤️ but i also need the therapy please do send my number

Rosalie. rosalie, rosalie, rosalie. our maman. reader’s maman especially. Anyway.

AWW its okay!!! dont ever worry about your asks being too long !! i meant it when i said i love reading through them. THANK YOU FOR YOUR SUPPORT ❤️❤️❤️❤️ TAKE CARE TOO LIS MWA MWA

[imakeublush]

hey blush!! ive been struggling with the void for a long time now. my exams are going on currently and my math exam is approaching me... i failed in my last math exam, I don't want to fail again but what do i do? affirm for the void or study instead? im so confused rn. im on the brink of tears istg i tried so hard for the void aftwr i failed my examinations so that i could revise my marks but no i had to listen to nagging by my teachers and also got physically and verbally abused by my parents cause i failed plus i had to even attend the extra classes after school. even my classmates look down on me and make fun of my math marks.. i sit alone in the last bench of my class because the only "friend" i had now has a boyfriend and abandoned me.. and i don't even know how to make friends irl. i only have some e besties with whom i share my problems all the time, neither parents nor friends nobody is helping me. im so tired honestly I've been trying so fucking hard but to no avail. i beg you to help me blush please i beg you. only my Tumblr guides are my last hope rn, i try sats every night and tried yoga nidra 6-7 times.. since i share a room with my sibling it's hard to yk perform yoga nidra with earphones cause they are like wtf you doin.. so i have to wait till they go out and everytime i try yoga nidra for 1-2 hrs but i still fail. im very scared of my math exam which is 2 days later I don't want to get abused once again..please show me the way blush i beg you im tired of my life please 💔🙏🏼

hi love, i’m so sorry this is happening to you but i understand what you’re going through. it was the same for me before i manifested everything. honestly i would suggest the lullaby method but it seems like you’re already doing that so persisting is probably the best option unless you want to try this, lucid dreaming. i honestly hate lucid dreaming because it’s a scary experience for me (not in general i just don’t like messing with my dreams and sleep paralysis ect.) but since like you actually need a way out and you’re not manifesting just because, i feel like lucid dreaming is worth it. it’s happened to me and many others without even trying. but i recommend the WBTB technique of you search it up you’ll find some great posts on it. lucid dreaming honestly isn’t that hard and will most likely send you to the void after no more than 2-4 attempts. if you have any questions or need more help i’m always here. and i hope you get out of your situation soon. 🎀💗🧁

[fyodior]

I tried sending you some asks but I guess tumblr kept deleting them💔💔 BUT I contacted support and now I have returned! And after seeing some posts of fedya being a dad I'm in a very domestic mood

I imagine him being an incredibly patient dad when your children are still little. He read lots of books on the topic and is more than happy to do his best to help you raise these 'pure beings' that he created with you. He obviously disciplines his kids when they need to learn their lesson but he never gets angry or raises his voice at them, he thinks it's unnecessary and counterproductive. When your children grow up and start to go through their rebellious phase I can see him making a snappy comment or two but he still won't yell at them. If your kids do/say something bad he will express his disappointment and then correct their behaviour in a way that he sees fit

He likes to play the cello for them and tries to get them interested in classical music. He might even give them an old violin of his for them to play around with. If his children show any interest in any instrument I think he'd buy one asap and give it to them, hoping to give them the passion for music. He makes sure his children are familiar with classical music from the very start: buying music boxes, buying those toy pianos that kids can use to learn some easy songs, playing the cello to have them fall asleep, showing them cartoons that have classical music as bgm, tuning the radio to some channel that only broadcasts classical music, and so on

I got more thoughts but I'm saving them for later, the dad fedya brainrot isn't gonna leave anytime soon

- 💍

im so sorry tumblr keeps fucking with u but im so happy to see you back🥹

this is so sweet i love it yes i can see him being so patient and just so kind to his little ones and i think he loves that their a physical manifestation of both him and you together

he reads them stories and takes them on walks imagine him going to something like bring your parent to school day jsjdjsjds “and what does your daddy do for a living honey?” and he’s like “…………..im retired”

i think in the early days he does a lot to make sure the burden isnt all on you esp when theyre newborns and you’re still recovering he’d be so so sweet and so good about taking care of both you and the baby/other kids if there are any

im just imagining his little one playing the piano/cello fucking horribly like just smashing the keys or plucking the strings randomly but he wants to be a really good supportive parent so he’s just. good job honey keep it up 😀👍

[always-me-meha]

I did not snap. So chill.

You're all making me look like I did.

Oh now everyone has nothing to say?

You said shut up.

Pfft like that fucking works.

Seeeeee you like this, talking to us.

I don't like yall referring to yourselves as someone when you're me.

Same shit different pile.

Fuck sakes chickie I tried not to chime in but you do need to get help you know that right? And I'm not saying this because we wanna be pushed back in a box.

Then why are you telling her that.

Because she needs help. Someone has to say it.

Not like you guys would ever go away anyway. I just don't realize when one of you has taken the wheel is all......

Hehehe vroom vroom.

I love how you pause to correct you're errors.

Well I must have some certainty then.

Omgggggggggg Kay seriously I like I can visually see this but we need to put the fucking phone down. Especially you, you've been on it straight since 8 pm? Eh ya,

You or me i don't fucking know at this point.

Me me same thing 🤪

My tumblr is so fucked and chaotic right now man

Well what better shit do you have to do BESIDES THE DISHES U thinking about.

Ya do them later, don't go.

Aghhhhhhh.

You know what I want?

What?

You guys to chill and the music to come back.

Smh can always put on head phones.

Don't give me a logical answer, you know what music I'm talking about..

Doiiii I'm sure we help make it hahaha

Whatever no you don't.

You sure?

Ya , pretty sure there's a difference between audio hallucinations and ALL OF YOU .

🥳🥳🥳🥳 see you do see the difference.

I'm not stoopid, just insane. Hahaha shhh chill stop......

Omggggg just yall drive me insane knowing when I look back on this.

You love it.

You'd be crying upset over him rn if we weren't chilling with you. See you glanced at the time. He still sleeping or not even home.

Mhm...... yeah.

Stop glancing at the notifications.

Fuck . Sorry guys I think I need to go now.

Nooooooo.

Is this cause I brought him up?

No. Maybe. Agh. I just wanna end it today is all. I'm scared of the break down that's gonna with it.

Yenno ill be in charge of that right?

That doesn't mean I still don't feel it....... it hurts to much.

Trust meeeee we got chyu .

Let go of those that don't.

😔💔

I seriously need to go.

We're not leaving just cause you put the phone down.

.... do you all have to still talk at once ?

No.

Okay.

This is embarrassing I don't wanna post this.

Just do it. You're documenting remember?

This is part of that, accept it lol

I don't wanna be this insane tho.....

You can't always get what you want, did you hear that in song? Hahaha.

Omg.. at least you're all the chill ones. I don't wanna hear from those assholes..

Ya don't worry we'll keep them quiet.

Cant you keep them quiet forever?

We can only do so much, what you let us do anyway.

Wym let you? Ide control you guys, you guys control me fuck.

Lmaoooo girl you'll figure out how this works eventually. Just quit ignoring us.

I don't.... I don't even know wtf happens half the time.

Cause we are here to take care of things for you, remember that.

Not those other guys....

Just quit worrying about them rn. Chill.

What do you want the most rn tell us?

I just want...... my self control back.

We'll try and work with you. We got you don't forget that. Again don't worry about the other shitballs rn.

I just really don't wanna deal with them later......

Don't worry.

[idlerin]

HI SAME ANON FROM EARLIER

TBH I GOT NONE FOR U I HAVEN'T READ ANYTHING ON THE GOJO SATORU/READER TAG ON AO3 IN A LONG TIME 😭😭😭

i just follow my fav authors on tumblr who post a lot of jjk and gojo content,, there's user starlitheaven/angelcent, user suget (they also have some great fics that they rb if u're willing to go through all that LMFAOO)

I WISH I COULD HELP BESTIE, the last thing i read on the tags was a fic called a hymn for salvation by user ImAlwaysTired and it's completed and multichap BUT I SWEAR ITS ANGSTY

(also ify whenever i read one of my favs cheating and it gets WAY too intense i just put down the phone and read some fluff and get back to it later or skip a few chapters and just check if everything goes well LMAOO, also hi sorry for rambling)

HI ANONIE

its rlly hard to find good fics jus by scrolling i cope with other ppls recs to find gems LWJSLQJWWJA

I WILL CHECK THEM OUT /i follow lots of authors that write for gojo too OWJSNWNSJQJAAJNA MY FEED IS JUST GOJONESS

NOOOO NOT THE ANGST HUHUHUHU I RLLY DONT LIKE MUCH ANGST IT MAKES MY HEART HURT AND HEAVY AND EVERYTHING JUST AAAACHES

why do ppl write cheating 💔💔💔 it hurts sb i could never cuz im too soft hearted 😭😭😭

[benevolentpeach]

Hi! I've had this account for a couple of months and have yet to make an About Me thingy.. I'm new to Tumblr so I do apologize if anything looks wonky or whatnot(I'm also on my phone so I don't know how to do fancy headers and such Im sorry 😭💔), anyways, let's go!

Name: Peach 🍑

(You may also call me BenevolentOne or Peachy, any is okay :) )

Age: 22

What Fandoms I Write For(I may add to this list as I continue to broaden my journey into anime other than MHA🤣):

My Hero Academia, Jujutsu Kaisen, JoJo's Bizarre Adventure, Ouran Highschool HostClub, Soul Eater, Devilman Crybaby, Naruto(I'm only on season 2 don't come after me I'm trying lol), Cowboy Bebop, Demon Slayer, Attack On Titan----More to be added soon

NSFW or SFW?:

Mostly SFW, but occasionally I'll post NSFW fics or repost them, same thing with art..

ALSO!!! ALL CHARACTERS ARE AGED UP IN MY FANFICTIONS, SO IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT PLEASE DO NOT INTERACT. It'll save me the trouble of having to block multiple people..

Am I Okay With Minors Being On My Page?:

I don't really feel comfortable with minors interacting with my stuff or with me in general, I've had issues with kids being inappropriate with me lately on my TikTok so I'd feel more comfortable if minors don't interact. If you do, please do it discreetly. Don't get upset with me if I block you when you interact with something I specifically say NOT to interact with.

What I Will Write✅️:

I will write CharacterxCharacter(s), CharacterxReader, NSFW, SFW, Headcanons, Drabbles, Thirsts, etc..

What I WON'T Write 🚫:

ABSOLUTELY NO INCEST, NO PEDOPHELIAC SHIPS OR RELATIONSHIPS, NOTHING TOO BLOODY OR GORE INFESTED(I can't think of anything else right now cause it's 4 in the morning but I may come back and edit this later)

Things To Know About Me:

I am a cosplayer, I cosplay mainly from MHA at the moment, but hope to broaden my cosplays in the near future!

Deku is my comfort character so if I write a lot of fics with him then you know why 😅

My favorite animes at the moment are as follows. MHA, Demon Slayer, JoJo's Bizarre Adventure, Jujutsu Kaisen, and Attack On Titan

I AM A HUGE ALLMIGHT SIMP 😫🤌❤️(Don't question me he's foine let's just leave it at that 🤣)

I am AUTISTIC, so I may get overwhelmed or overstimulated and take a break from writing fics for awhile.. It's nothing against y'all I just get overwhelmed easily 😅

I have a dog named Apollo and he's the cutest in the world ❤️

I am very nice to everyone, everyone deserves love and kindness so I try to give that to people, if you'd like to be my friend please don't hesitate to ask I don't have any 😭💔(18+ pls)

I will always support you and your works no matter what, all of you are amazing!

I think that's pretty much it! Thank you so much for reading this! I will have this pinned to the top of my profile for any newcomers ❤️✨️😊

[exosmutfactory]

Follow up news;

Story Continuation/AFF Invite Only

(posting this on both platforms to save my fingers and time, sorry! It’s important I promise <3)

Hello, loves, readers, and Fierce Fawns/Infinity team.

Yes, I've given the reader groups for each ongoing story a nickname, but I'll get into that fun stuff later. Now I want to clarify a few things.

First I want to apologize how abrupt this Invite Only thing was. I had intended to let these two stories stay open to the public on aff forever, but in light of having to deal with even more hate, I couldn't take it anymore.

As some of you may know, I'm on a break from writing. For a handful of reasons. Hate, lack of engagement, and because I can't type on my computer without being in pain. (Which worsen yesterday because 1 bullsh*t and 2 I'm an idiot).

I had plans to update Only Forever this weekend, Saturday the 13th. Yeah, my hands went numb after October. Those 6 story updates were too much for my fingers. I was going to be a bigger idiot and push myself past my limits to get Only Forever chap 2 and Double Trouble's first oneshot done this month, but between all the listed things above, I had had enough. I seriously wanted to quit.

Every single ongoing story has the full plots ready for me to write. I can't use my computer to work on my stories, so I have been writing on my phone. I was just about to start on the DT one shot yesterday when I encountered more hate, so yeah. I decided to lock these stories on AFF.

This is getting long, let me explain what will happen to each story.

Only Forever and Dark Horse will be locked on Invite Only forever - unless 501 active readers want to read. (The likelihood of that? .0000001%) These two stories will remain open to the public on Tumblr.

H.I.S Devour will be locked on Invite Only one month after I post chapter 1. So you'll have plenty time to decide if you like how the story will go or not. It will be locked forever.

Seven Shades is already locked. I've noticed a few readers in the form wanted to read it. I haven't calculated the current votes yet, but once 20 readers sign up to read it in the form, I'll add everyone who wanted to read it 💗

I had to lock Only Forever and Dark Horse for peace of mind. Most readers never comment anyway. If I'm going to be harassed, then I will be selective on who reads my hard work.

Now that all that is out of the way, let's get to the lighthearted things:

This story/blog is now a safe space. Consider it a book club between all of you and me. I aim for everyone to be comfortable to be themselves as we bond over stories.

It's okay if english isn't your native tongue or if you're shy. We all make mistakes, I'm not a grammar police. Feel free to comment freely, okay?

It's okay if you hate characters or their actions. In fact I'd love that because with some of these characters my goal is to show their unlikable sides. Just please don't yell too much at me 😅 all caps is fine!!! Just don't be angry with me, I'm sensitive 💔 Plus, this is supposed to be fun for everyone! Let's laugh, cry, and wonder what the heck is going on between the characters as each story progresses!

My mind is scattering… Forgive me for this long message, I'm trying not to forget anything. I hate poking everyone's eyes with notifications from me unless it is absolutely necessary, plus I only want to copy & paste all this in one go (forgive me for any mistakes, my phone is old as hell).

For the nicknames I mentioned earlier, each story (4 stories) will have a nickname for their little reader clubs/teams.

Only Forever → Infinity team

Dark Horse → Fierce Fawn team

H.I.S (Devour) → Baekhyun's team

Seven Shades/Six Phases' series → Honey Dream team

It's okay if you don't like the nicknames! I just want everyone to feel homey and welcomed and comfortable within this tiny reading community (>.<) if you're a Fierce Fawn, okay! If you're a lovely, okay! If you're a dear reader, that's cool too! Whichever you like best 💗

Thank you so much for all the sweet messages you've left in my forms, comments, etc. I appreciate every single one of you 💕 when the stories get enough votes in the forms, I will continue them - after my rest break and my hands heal completely. I'd like to apologize for how long it takes me to tend to each story, but I can promise this:

All stories will be completed.

Whether now, or a few years. I will work hard to bring you the best content I can, and take care of my health so I can do finish everything 💗

Thank you for being here, I will reply to you soon! If you have any questions, feel free to message me. I'll answer to the best of my abilities 💖 enjoy your weekend, okay? You can catch me here on aff Friday thru Monday. Otherwise I'll be active on my Tumblr and resting.

---Edit, Nov 11th, 3pm

I went through the form today and all the stories got more than enough votes:

Only Forever → 34/10

Dark Horse → 22/10

H.I.S (Devour) → 21/10

Seven Shades → 26/20

And more votes keep coming. What the heck (O.o) I thought y'all wanted me gone. I had my bags packed and ready to go and received some much kindness and care. 💕💕💕💕💕 Thank you all endlessly for the support (T-T)

I'm adding everyone who upvoted and commented (at any time. Now and before, I dont mind💗) if you're reading this on aff you're all good to go. Don't be afraid to message me if you want to read other stories though! I'll be sure to put a welcome note for Seven Shades so readers who also read that will get a notification in their subscription pages thingy! (Even when I now know invites send out notifications on their own. I’m new to this T-T <3)

I'm running all over the place today, but everyone is free to join st any time! If you filled out the form; you're all good! If others would like to join us; all are welcome! I doubt y'all will reach 50 readers for each story let alone over 500 TTTT. Either way… Seven Shades and Devour only have 500 aff slots. After that well :'D it'll be, as they say, 'sold out' LOL

Thank you, loves. Let's have a great year full of Baekhyun content in 2022 okay?! I will reply to all as soon as I can! 💗💖💞💝💘💓💕

[esthar]

I posted 273 times in 2021

41 posts created (15%)

232 posts reblogged (85%)

For every post I created, I reblogged 5.7 posts.

I added 176 tags in 2021

#mass effect - 34 posts

#mele - 23 posts

#mass effect legendary edition - 23 posts

#commander shepard - 20 posts

#shepard - 20 posts

#female shepard - 12 posts

#garrus - 11 posts

#mass effect 3 - 11 posts

#femshep - 11 posts

#garrus vakarian - 11 posts

Longest Tag: 90 characters

#that helps me also enjoy andromeda a bit more since i don't know if there will be a sequel

My Top Posts in 2021

#5

Everyone is still stucked on Mass Effect Legendary Edition. But I knewed, from the beginning, that I will also restart again Mass Effect Andromeda, and now... Sorry, world, but my heart is in Aya - ehm - Andromeda - all the Heleus cluster, of course. Not only a single planet because of Jaal...

Aww~... But look at those eyes 😍

33 notes • Posted 2021-08-04 21:26:16 GMT

#4

«We'll talk later. I'm unhappy with us right now.»

DAMN JAAL! 💔 That's hurting me much more than Garrus' calibrations! 😭

33 notes • Posted 2021-08-23 12:18:47 GMT

#3

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37 notes • Posted 2021-07-17 06:07:09 GMT

#2

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110 notes • Posted 2021-08-03 01:30:51 GMT

#1

After all these years, I've made the same choices. But it couldn't be otherwise: it's not just Shepard who's in love with Garrus... it's me! ❤️

153 notes • Posted 2021-07-17 00:40:43 GMT

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