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hellooo! can you please write a mafia!lando fic where lando is sick with the flu or something and pretends he is fine infront of everyone including reader because he was raised in a house where sickness was weak?
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Summary: Lando, raised to see vulnerability as weakness, pushes through the flu to maintain his mafia image, but ultimately allows you to care for him when his facade cracks.
Genre: Mafia!Lando, angst, fluff
TW: None!
A/N: sorry that it took so long but the first week of school gave me a reality check that I can in fact not freestyle in my exams š anywaysā¦ English is not my first language. I hope you enjoy it though! Requests are open and welcome!
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Lando Norris wasnāt used to showing weakness. In his world, power wasnāt just an assetāit was everything. Raised in a household where even the smallest sign of vulnerability was met with disdain, heād grown up hiding pain, fear, and anything that could be perceived as a chink in his armor. Now, as the head of his familyās empire, nothing had changed. To show strength was to survive.
But today, even Landoās finely honed discipline was being tested.
You stood at the edge of his office, watching him from the doorway. He was pacing near his desk, the usual swagger in his steps replaced with something more uneven. His shoulders, usually squared and broad, seemed to droop slightly. The dark circles under his eyes were more pronounced, and his complexion looked pale, almost gray under the dim light.
āYou should sit down,ā you said, your voice soft but firm.
āIām fine,ā he snapped, though his voice lacked its usual bite.
You crossed your arms, not budging. āLandoāā
āI said Iām fine!ā His gaze shot up to meet yours, a storm of irritation and something deeper swirling in his eyes.
But even as he glared, you could see the faint sheen of sweat on his brow. His hand trembled as he reached for a glass of water on the desk, barely managing to lift it without spilling.
āYou donāt look fine.ā
He slammed the glass down, the sound echoing through the room. āI donāt have time to be sick,ā he growled, his voice rough and gravelly.
āThatās not how the flu works,ā you said, stepping closer.
Lando turned away, running a hand through his already messy curls. āI have a meeting with the Castellano family in an hour. If I donāt show up, theyāll think Iām weak. And I canāt afford that right now.ā
You clenched your fists at your sides, frustration bubbling up inside you. āLando, you canāt run an empire if youāre dead on your feet.ā
He ignored you, grabbing his tailored black suit jacket and shrugging it on. But as he moved toward the door, his steps faltered. His hand shot out to grip the edge of the desk, his knuckles white as he steadied himself.
āLando!ā You rushed to his side, your hands gripping his arms to keep him upright.
He tried to pull away, but his strength was failing him. āLet go,ā he muttered, though his voice was weaker now.
āNot a chance.ā
For a moment, the two of you stood there in tense silence. His breathing was shallow, his chest rising and falling rapidly. You could feel the heat radiating off him, his fever burning through the layers of his clothing.
āLando,ā you said gently, āyouāre going to make yourself worse if you keep this up.ā
His jaw tightened, his lips pressing into a thin line. āI canātāā
āYes, you can,ā you interrupted. āYou have a whole team of people who can handle things for you. You donāt have to do everything on your own.ā
He let out a bitter laugh, though it quickly turned into a harsh cough. āYou donāt understand. If I show even the slightest hint of weakness, theyāll exploit it. My enemies, my alliesāhell, even my own people. I canāt afford to be sick.ā
You softened, your hands still steadying him. āYouāre not weak for being human, Lando. Even the strongest people need to rest sometimes.ā
His gaze dropped to the floor, the weight of your words sinking in. For a moment, you thought he might argue again, but instead, he let out a shaky breath. āI donāt know how to stop,ā he admitted quietly.
You guided him to the couch in the corner of the room, helping him sit down. He didnāt resist this time, his body sagging against the cushions.
āThen let me help you,ā you said, brushing a damp curl away from his forehead. āJust for today. Let someone else carry the weight.ā
He looked up at you, vulnerability flickering in his eyes. It was a side of him you rarely saw, one he tried so hard to bury beneath layers of bravado and control. But in this moment, he let you see it.
āOkay,ā he whispered, his voice barely audible.
You smiled softly, relief washing over you. āGood. Now lie down before you pass out.ā
To your surprise, he listened. As you fetched a blanket and a damp cloth, you couldnāt help but feel a surge of determination. Lando had spent his whole life taking care of others, protecting his empire and the people he cared about.
Now, it was your turn to take care of him.
Thank you for reading!
Taglist: @ipushhimback, @ladyoflynx, @lewishamiltonismybf, @cmleitora, @hxxi3, @cherryblossom-92, @same1995, @amatswimming
#lando norris#lando x reader#lando imagine#lando x you#fluff#f1#angst#mafia!lando#f1 mafia au#mafia#formula 1#formula one#sick
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can we ask about your pc? šš
if yes... how did you pick her name? is she actually tf in-game, or is it more conceptual? you mentioned that she had to just adapt to the town, implying that she wasn't always like That(tm); how do you think her adjustment would've been like/how long did it take/etc? sorry i have so many questions i love ocs
YES PLEASEEE questions r always welcome :333 it goes for all my ocs !! altho i think my most developed ones r AimƩe and Melanie
but to answer your questions, I just looked up baby names QQJWHHW and she actually does have the tf in game ! altho whenever i play i don't really keep it accurate to AimĆ©e's story (she doesnt even look alike š) i kind of just fuck around and do shit bc i prefer not to think too hard while im playing LMFAO
AimƩe's change was gradual. It started small like a piercing here and there, getting her hair dyed, then dressing more scantily, and eventually changing her attitude, how forward she is towards people, etc. It was a lot of observing how people were and mimicking parts of them.
Two turning points in her life are when she became part of Whitney's group and when she got her tf.
As she got closer to Whitney and his friends, she became more extroverted. Even if they're a bunch of insufferable shitheads, they did help her come out of her shell more. Another factor is that she's not getting harassed as much in school anymore, so she's not as anxious about attending classes compared to before.
And when she got her demon tf, she just got hornier, just in general. It helps with the whole ignoring her problems thing she got going on.
#jfc that is long soryyyyy#the yapper#LMFQDJ ITS LIKE THAT ONE BIMBOFICATION MEME THING šššššš#ALSO ITS OK NEVER APOLOGIZE it helps me think abt her character more and flesh her out and stuffff so dww#franswers#froodles#degrees of lewdity#whitney the bully#aimee the heartbreaker#now that i think abt it whitney is kinda ooc there maybe he wouldve beaten the shit out of aimee or smthn idk
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any anti-problematic community/"problematic" community itself
i think only in cat pictures srry
Oh my god, I love all your cat pictures ā¤ļøš and shit, yeah, to be fair they can totally both look like the cats on the left, I have witnessed some things in my wonky wobbly time on the Internet. But the people simply enjoying art and enjoying their friends art without shaming them for what they read, create, or find creative satisfaction in are truly the best ā¤ļø the right picture is how human creation should be; not a competition, not a moral grandstanding, but like coming around a table to share and indulge in each other's cooking, loving brewed teas, and passing big bowls and plates of food around-- deciding if something is to their taste and if not, they happily pass it over to someone who would enjoy it far more rather than decide it shouldn't be enjoyed by anyone at all because cranberry sauce is too bitter and icky for them.
We were meant to share and support each other, not walk on eggshells and virtue signal to our so-called friends that Look! Look! We're the Good Ones. People are going to hate you for pretty much anything you do, someone out there will hate you for the smallest, innocuous thing, they'll think you're horrible and awful and undeserving for just existing, so the best you can do is prop up your friends, even their artistic interests you don't understand, even the ways in which you can't figure out how they can stomach certain storylines. It's not productive to try and understand everything and everyone. It's not productive to train yourself to have knee jerk reactions to certain words, to be hyper vigilant of every miniscule detail, of trying to weed out Us from Them when the lines blur so fucking much. When I know for a fact people who condemn works like mine are the very ones to read them, to read my fiction and claim it's somehow a cut above the rest, that it does it all "right"-- which it doesn't, it's not, it's ugly and raw and it feels slimy and unproductive to know people hold stories like pretty boy snuff film up against others.
And in the same breath it's not productive to allow your triggers or discomforts to dictate the decisions of others (insert all of groupthink throughout history and today here).
I hope for people to one day be able to have the image on the right and that they move away from friends who would stab them in the back given half the chance. I hope that the people who read my fics and enjoy them and discuss them with their friends, who have to be so, so careful about what they say and feel as if they're being watched, stalked, and made to curb their most honest reactions and feelingsā I hope they too find people who will let them speak openly and without fear of unfounded retaliation.
I hope for everyone to be able to share themselves wholly and completely, their darkest works and their thoughts included; how else are we gonna learn to grow and shape ourselves, y'know? How else can we learn to relate with others without being honest with ourselves.
Get freaky with it. And find people who support your work for you, not for the act of doing it all good or right, but for doing it bad and not giving a fuck. For fucking up grammar, for fucking up spelling, for getting gross and weird and wrong and complicated. For feeling safe and secure in your ability to create and your ability to share as you were meant to.
There are people out there; you don't gotta stick with assholes who'd sell you for a corn chip and some Purity Points. Keep looking and keep making ā¤ļø
#answered asks#sorry this turned into a whole thing š#i love when you send you silly cat memes ā¤ļø#i just have been thinking too much lately and seeing some things that had me going hmmmm...#thank you for your asks as always ā¤ļø
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they should get to kill each other at least twice .i think
#gravity falls#stanford pines#stanley pines#lg doodles#i drew this a few days ago but im so tired after work ngl . sittingnin bed like =__= ..#and im visiting family this weekend so idek if ill get to it until next weekend#but ya i love them i loge them so much#i love the tension in atots right after stanford comes back#and hes like writing sll this shit ab stan in the journal#while learning that he stole his identity and so on and stans like hey so i did this rly selfless thing for u can you at least#acknowledge it and they r just stewing in their own anger š#actually i love their dynamic so much . the arguing as they mimic each other 1:1 and rhe animosity and#ykw im gna make another post but the grammar stanley scene is my favorite#magbe its not post worthy nvm idc but thats probably one of my fav interactions in the whole series#its so stupid that u know its real HELPPlike yeah that rly isnjust how it is . in fact ive done more over less š«¶#HAHAHAHAH#ugh.love . lovee i wish#i dont think gf needs a continuation im totally in the 2 season boat here#but if they ever did a post series stan and ford exploration ohhh believe . trust tht i would not shut up ab it ever#i want to see them talk so bad . im so greedy bc i feel like they didnt talk enough in the series bc im partial 2 them i just want them in#everything .#i think their personalities are so fun esp bc ford isnt the annoying nerd archetype i like that hes a cocky bitch#and i like that stan is an equally cocky bitch and they both have too much pride that they butt heads over literally everythjng#but they also recognize how ridiculous it all is like š. even when theyre fighting over the journal they both r like ok pause r u ok#hmm.. so many ppl here capture their dynamic well too.šat least the people who dont generalize either into a single personality trait yk#imso tired im tired#but guys i love talking ab ford and stan theybr so everything to me in ways i dnt think incould ever articulate like u see them and u just g#get it . ugh. turning my head and passing out . ford is so funny hes so stupid i love him i cant bekieve i was a ford hater im sorry ive#atoned im changed im a changed oerson i didnt realize the magnitude of his serve .but stanley as my day 1 will never change . just know .(k#idk if anyonf ever reads this fsr down but if u r here say cheeseešøšø
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#this is after Sebastian kills Solomon#eloise understands and could never turn him inš„ŗ#theyāre both so similar#honestly I feel likeā¦#living with intense guilt the rest of their lives is enough punishment#but even if they feel guilt over the things they do#at the same time they would never actually do things differently even if they could travel back in time#bc in the moment it was Solomon or them and anything else wouldnāt have been Permanent enough (in their minds)#like Eloise does things that give her with panic attacks in the future but she would always do them again#bc the well-being of people she loves & of herself is her priority#and Sebastian is the sameā¦#sorry if this is ramblingā¦I have finally succumbed to Covid#and I have a high feverššššššš every day I feel WORSEā¦#maybe thst is why I drew an angst drawingš#anyways I could write up a whole post (more eloquent more thinking) about how I feel about these things#and how these two are kind of unhealthy for each other#bc they see things a lot of times as us vs themā¦#wow who knows if these tags even make senseš³ my fever is like 38Ā°ā¦#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy oc#hogwarts legacy mc#eloise babbit#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow x mc#sebastian sallow fanart
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every time Iām forced to see this image bc I have to describe whatās wrong w it to dumb ass ppl a small part of me dies
cw: ugly ass emo whitewashed genshin man
#ppl pointedly ignoring the part where I talk abt how heās whitewashed#look idgaf if they wanna give n*tlan a more modern vibe but this doesnāt make any fucking sense#how are you gonna take inspo form a nigerian god then make him look like this ššš#somebody said in response to me calling him ugly asf and whitewashed āerm but isnāt he a vampireā SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP#bro speedran becoming the ugliest character#I genuinely have no words#well actually I do#could probably write an essay on everything that bothers me abt this game#the worst part is probably that it has so many likable elements abd interesting shit and then at the same time being vile#like how do I explain that the g*nshin lore truly is fascinating but the ability to take it serious and enjoy it plummet when you see the#other shit. frustrating asf#also the fact that only h*yoverse games seem to stay relevant and therefor get to have basically endless content is js šššš#but also having some of the most frustrating fandoms and annoying ass people in said fandoms#like the rampant casual racism everywhere#sorry this turned into a whole ass essay šš#Iām js sad n angry that the thing I used to love turns out to be bigger shit than when I left it#like wow#usually I can enjoy revisiting old fandoms n stuff but this is gen ass#bullshitting
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Merrin really does just state my exact feelings about A- Bode, and B- the whole āCal will turn to the dark side in the third gameā theory:
A- āHe has already used fatherhood to justify betrayal and murder.ā
You canāt make me feel sorry for him, Iām afraid!! He used Kata as an excuse but there were plenty of other options and god I just plain ass do not like him
B- āCere won her battle with the dark side. You will too.ā
Calās not going to ābecome evilā or whatever š it goes against everything about him and also everything the games have been saying. He is going to struggle with it, but I believe it will definitely lead to growth and Cal flourishing in the third game once he defeats his temptations.
Why is Merrin so right about everything. Itās crazy. Best character for real.
#jedi survivor#cal kestis#nightsister merrin#this is not a Bode safe place#I hate him in all honesty! and I donāt like the whole justification for his actions because it just falls flat#sorry about that. I do like Kata though. at least Bode has done one good thing by bringing her into the world#also Cal is NOT going to turn Darkside šš if the writers did that Iād be very disappointed honestly#it doesnāt make sense for him like at all#ALSO BODE IS NOT A GOOD FATHER. LIKE AT ALL. but thatās something for another post
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Imagine telling levi he was originally meant to be a yandere hehe
L:"well then what am I supposed to be if I'm not a yandere?"
MC:"...moe~ā”"
Levi would be blushing and crying at the same time, his weeb ass (/lovingly ADHKGDH) would be in a corner stuttering and proceeds to scream in a pillow. Thinking to himself āWhat the hell MC?!?! Me, moe?!? If anything, YOUāRE the one whoās totes moe! How DARE you say that to my face so boldly!ā
Heād be told heās a yandere probably mockingly imo, and of course heās not fond of it given heās already insecure and would be afraid to harm you in any way.
That said, Leviās definitely the type to react very aggressively to being praised and complimented LMAOO- unlike Mammon, heās flailing his arms and hands wanting to bury himself from embarrassment. It can be the smallest thing, but he will take it to heart because heās usually so self-deprecating. š„¹
#obey me x reader#obey me leviathan#leviathan x reader#obey me levi#obey me shall we date#obey me headcanons#sorry I know it was the whole yandere trope but I associate it to toxic relationships š#so I turned it into a positive thing eee#hope you donāt mind nonny š
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sighs dreamily Do you guys think alex kralie would fw david cronenberg's filmography
#SPECIFICALLY crash 1996. oh my god l#AM GOING TO LOSE MY MINd#i feel like he'd fw with crash and videodrome but complain that the fly was too weird LMFAO#he makes jay watch crash with him once and jay sits through the whole thing feeling mildly horrified and simultaneously a little turned on#ALEX ASKING HIM WHEN THE MOVIES OVER IF HES EVER BEEN IN A CAR CRASH. GUH#SORRY ILL SHUT UP NOW š#might make a fic about this. idk#alex kralie#marble hornets#slenderverse#si yaps#david cronenberg#crash 1996#jaylex#<- because of the tags. and the implication
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this but carlo & morettišš¤Ø thats all thank you
#i caaaaaaaaaaaaant find the whole piece bc apparently they deleted this book from the public domainšššfuckers#but context: john torrio is in the hospital after an attempted murder#1931-32 idk failed murder attempt on moretti real hashtag canon now hashtag in my head#carlo & moretti#m2#also whatever funny thing: this is capone's biography written by one rus author and#they released this book as part of the ālives of wonderful peopleā series(š)#and fucked it up badly bc it caused an outcry and the book had to be reissued (tho stalin's biography is in this series like fr tfš)#<- and ok i was googling this book & turns out that in the 1st edition contained a shit ton of photos#i took reprinted ver in the library & w like 1 photo in it#fuck now i regret it sm š but it was like the only available choice in the nearest libraries#i mean no this is actually ridiculous to print capone's biography in this series but ehh it's always so good#in terms of illustrative material so its upsetting#also second funny thing: was takin another books in the library today and GOD SEES american history sections are always so fucking funny#āthe shameful history of americaā ārotten capitalismā and other such titles#dear god āu wanna fuck me so bad it makes u look stupidā situation. sorry its a n1 red flag to me when history books have such titles#no u dont do it this way. not āour gloriously prosperous countryā vs āthese disgusting other countries"#funny stuff. top 10 epic fail moments 0 swag 0 respect when this grandpa will finally die
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#Fifteen episode 2. Mmmmmmhhhhhh#The animation quality DOES get worse. This episode shows it lol#So many static frames stretching for so long... I feel so sorry for the animators.#I still stand by the fact that if studios can't provide enough budget or time to their animators seasons simply shouldn't be released.#But after all who am I to talk...#The scene of Dazai shooting at the soldier makes my blood freeze. Rimbaud throwing books in the fire is equally upsetting#Like I /know/ it's an anime about literature with constant metafiction referencesā#and that this too has a symbolic meaning and is *supposed* to be upsetting but that said.#Seeing whole books being thrown in the fire is such a disturbing sight that calls for such a visceral response in me ššš#The amv opening is nice! Makes me even more bitter about season 5 one lmao. Of the kind#ānot only we had to get a amv opening (((while we deserved a wholly ss/kk focused opening)))ā we even got a bad amv ending at thatā#Mmmmhhhh I hateeeeeee how they handled the Sheep ššššššššš Seriously this is just another bug instance of#āme and the author have WHOLLY different views of what human nature is likeā#I just... Don't think... Children joining together in an hostile environment would act like that. I'm so much more of a t/pn kind of guy.#Children who come together to survive would protect each other and especially would trust each other. Why is there such a big lack of trust#Why doesn't Shirase trust Chuuya? Why doesn't Chuuya trust Shirase (with handling more information)? It's just dumb#It's dumb. It sounds stupid from the very plot aspect that Chuuya would act so shady and suspicious with the Sheep instead of being openā#about what his course of action is. It's like he was trying to have them turn on him. It's stupid of Shirase to mistrust Chuuyaā#when in eight years he never gave them any reason to doubt of him.#And I know right as I'm writing this that someone is going to read it and think āyou're completely missing on the unbalance of power thatā#creates these dynamics of lack of trustā but the thing is exactly that I don't see why that unbalance of power would ever come to be!#They're all just kids. They're aware of that. If Chuuya never had malicious intentions towards Shiraseā I don't see why he would ever fearā#his betrayal. Likewiseā I don't see why Shirase and the other Sheep members would ever be so manipulative and disrespectful towardsā#Chuuya if he's been nothing but kind to them (and we have no reason to think otherwise)?#It all comes down to: I think people are inherently good and willing to help each other. The author thinks not lmao. It is what it is#But I wish you could see t/pn. Where kids are constantly trying to outwit each other in order to OUT-SACRIFICE THEMSELVES for the others lo#I love t/pn it's my life... I miss it#random rambles#And if anyone would like to argue that Dazai specifically set them off to betray each other... Yes I DO understand that's what the storyā#is suggesting. I just don't think Dazai - for how good. and infallible he is - is enough to scrape long-term relationships of trust.
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2 days till my final exam rant in tags sorry i gotta let it spill somewhere š
#IM DYINGGGG#there are so many things to memorise#and theyre gonna pick 2 questions from a list of 60?????#and my whole degree relies on this?????#im sorry who the hell thought of this system#id MUCH rather write a 2h long exam than have to orally answer questions for 10mins fr#and if i get a topic i dont fully understand thatās it. itās over for me#bc u have to answer both to pass#they should at least let us pick 2 out of 3 or something š#i also hate my procrastinating ass#i shoulda been doing 15qs a day and ive been doing between 1 and 5#and now i have 50 questions (so probably around 70A4 pages) to memorise by THURSDAY AT 9AM#i swear to god why do i always do this#also turns out that for the thesis presentation itās forbidden to use notes š#I AM NOT GOOD AT SPEAKING I AM NOT GOOD AT THIBKING MY MEMORY SUCKS HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO PASS THIS#im so fucking anxious#but funniest thing is IM STILL ACTIVELY PROCRASTINATING#LIKE??? ISNT THE PRESSURE ENOUGH YET??????#i fucking KNOW for a FACT even if i started studying RIGHT NOW i probably wont make it with all the questions by the exam date#and i skipped ALL THE HARDEST ONES FOR NOW#i swear to god guys im gonna go fucking crazy with this#i know itās nearly over but itās KILLING MEEEEE#please why cant i skip time to when itās over#help me manifest not getting a finance/law question pls guys#hela yaps
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saw too many ppl having awful takes on nerevar and voryn and the tribunal etc etc on twitter, so now im drawing soft sweet nerevoryn bc i can. im going to balance out all the negative energies in this fandom, one drawing at a time š«¶š
#every couple of months without fail theres a repeat of the same old discourse#(the whole foul murder thing. and also ''voryn was actually also guilty of killing nerevar blablabla'')#im not hearing u lol morrowind's been out for 22 years. we dont need to have the same discussion over and over again#live and let live. let people interpret characters however they want. let people enjoy fiction#you dont get to dictate how these characters should be portrayed#im going to romanticise morrowind's main storyline and nerevoryn till the end of days#and if that makes u irrationally upset then im sorry for u. hope u get better soon. but im allowed to enjoy harmless silly fiction#im allowed to turn this story into a fairytale. im allowed to portray nerevar as a genuinely heroic character. im allowed to girlify voryn.#lets stop having the same dumb fandom discourse every year#its gotten so boring š let it go#voryn might as well be my oc at this point bc i literally gave her a whole personality and family and backstory and also shes a woman now#u can all just seethe idc š and whats up with nerevar not being allowed to be a genuinely benevolent character???#why does every character have to be morally grey (if not straight up villainous)??? what if i dont want him to be like that? š#hes literally divine to me. hes a star. hes celestial. hes not really mortal. hes all of my ideals put into one character#and voryn is p much a mirror of me#i put so much of myself into these characters! thats what fiction is for!!! u ARE supposed to project onto them!!!#arggh lets drop the senseless discourse i cant take it anymore lol š
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remember how i mentioned that my dad's friend suggested he'll teach me this program so i might work in his high-tech company bc he "remembers that [i'm] a smart person". anyway i went to his house yesterday to discuss the whole thing and he asked me what, like, education i have and if i've studied anything after high school to which i very slowly said "i- uh- mostly, um, arts" and when i tell you i could see this man's eyes instantly fill with regret,
#he's very nice for this but i'm also still so confused ššš and i'm ngl guys. i do not want to work with computers#i'll learn this program and try it out a bit mostly out of politeness but the chances of me actually sticking to it are very low#(they're not gonna pay me at first anyway unless i show i can actually do the work. which i highly doubt)#it does sound like. ok so he's gonna retire soon. and someone needs to replace him. and he knows i'm not doing anything#and it worked before. apparently he got another guy a job in this company and now he's doing really well there#but i just think a job like that would truly make me even more miserable lol#like even if i did well in it. it would be the embodiment of everything i fear to become. does that make sense#(but i also sincerely doubt i'll do well in it when. as i've said. i've got no experience with anything like it!!!)#(i don't think acting school and the basics of makeup is gonna help me there ššššš)#idk i'm just so stressed abt this whole thing. i'm grateful and ik others would kill for an opportunity like this#but also. i would rather die than do this sort of work. to be frank#. this turned into a vent lmao sorry. like i said very stressed!
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one goofy ass thing i like about my job is we all really like having staff feedback after programs (like after in service, after summer reading, etc) because it just makes it easier to make it actually helpful and easier next time around and thatās all we want right, like PERSONALLY i donāt want to be anxious about a program and dreading it all year, which means i get to do what i Love which is offer my opinion constructively so i can be like āi think some people just donāt understand paylocity, it is a little confusing & for them, going through that app is this scary time sink so they donāt open it ever.ā and no one is taking it personally because five other people wrote in ābeanstack scares meā and āiām not using teamsā and we can just adjust our expectations of our older coworkers instead of writing people up for it akskd.
#i was like āānot me tho i get it but maybe ask [tech person] to do an explainer? i believe they have a whole bit about thisā#and then we get a explainer on it the next in service and all the tech afraid people are like āoh you can turn it on on the desktop?ā yes š#we had a whole thing about office bc theyāve tried to explain they pinned the āPOLICIES AND PROCEDURES ON REPORTED LOST CHILDā on the#share point bc itās a library thatās something that happens on a semi regular basis and we live off a busy street itās important to make#sure the kid didnāt wander out of the building those cars Will mow you down.#and the collective āOH!ā when they showed us how to get to the sharepoint. i figured that out day 2.#i bookmarked the page and added my own books marks. like half of them were shocked.#they have been here 10 years or more. š#i like to say āi love hearing about what the director does during the day i think the projects are all fascinatingā bc i think phrasing a#compliment for like ~admin transparency~ as a compliment is imo the best way to reward admin transparency.#also tbh yes it Is interesting to me like being a director is honestly a lot about Building Maintenence as it is budget and networking and#managing big problems with staff etc. itās honestly fascinating how much she has to know about upkeep as director.#also. listen iām sorry i love being bribed with food. have office hours with snacks. give me an excuse not to work.#i loved staff day at goodwill too i loved not dealing w work and badgering the corporate guy while the managers worked the front#and then getting pizza. they would grill for us on employee appreciation day.#do u know what my department store did. they gave us a payday bar.#that shits insulting like just donāt do anything? u Kno u pay shit and have is on these ass schedules whatās your problem why are u gloating#now ya closed!#itās karma!#anyways this one is nice i think my manager is really bad at schedules and this is a gripe iāve heard from wveryon so itās not just me but#itās other wise as everyone puts it ānot nearly as toxic as other librariesā like no one here is actively committing psychological warfare#over some office job nonsense. our patrons arenāt actively trying to get us shut down. thatās a nice change.
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screaming and crying and punching the air thinking about Amy
#im so sleepy but omfg faith makes me so sad#im thinking about the general events of the game but im also thinking about how her life was before she was possessed and how she was so#lonely and isolated from everything. and how much she probably wanted to get out of there and how horribly things turned out for her#this is so fucked uuuuuuup WTFššš#im sorry if this doesnt make sense im half asleep and replaying the whole game in my head at once#š¤.txt#also the more i think about her the more i think about how little we know about her#Jonh really went through all of that to save a stranger. This could be elaborated more but im getting way too emotional i need to stop#ily Jonh they could never make me hate you#<- i thjnk there arent people misundertanding the story completely like that anymore but still#bro i tried reading the wiki once and omfg who wrote that djdhdgdgdvg#anyways gn#ngl im probably gonna delete this soon. im very self conscious about rambling like this publicaly dkdhdhd
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