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treasure planet au, last of the batch (Poppy & Floyd)
#dreamworks trolls#trolls#trolls au#trolls poppy#trolls floyd#trolls viva#trolls branch#treasure planet au#these two gave me a bit of a struggle lol#both drawing and deciding their places in this au#so... yeah!! here they are!!#Poppy as first mate!!#well sorta she's still in training#ik she'd make a great Ben haha but i really really wanted them to still be sisters!! and teen poppy would be the cutest!!#She's the biggest divergence this au takes from the og movie#edit: forgot to add that poppy does NOt fall into the black hole#lolol sorry for the scare#oh and also floyds here but also isn't#floyd's not present in this entire voyage rather his absence haunts#he's busy being bottled anyway#he lowkey takes Jim's dad's place#sorry floyd fans (gen)#but floyd was also very sweet big bro before he left so it also made sense for him to take sarah's intro scene.#as you guys can tell being pretty loosey gossey on which troll goes to which tp scene#again thank you guys for your input and ideas!! they're a great help!#so much empty space...#trolls fanart#my art <3#excuse the messiness
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"I'm Home!"
I've been away for 6 weeks visiting family and friends and I'm finally back home with my husband! It felt like this being reunited, except I'm stuck in a wheel chair for now after my accident!
I imagine Elain running into Lucien's arms after visiting her family, knowing she can always see them when she likes, but nothing will feel better than returning back home to her mate!
Hopefully I can have more pictures for all of you too now that I'm back at my desk!
#elucien#lucien vanserra#pro elucien#acotar#elain archeron#elain x lucien#elucien supremacy#acotar fanart#elucien fanart#pro lucien vanserra#fated mates#Lucien is home for Elain#They are each other's home and no one can tell me otherwise!#also sorry it looks so rough#it's been a while lol
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lestappen fic idea where lando texts charles this photo when asked what he's doing and charles replies w "why u sending me porn???"
#sorry but this was my first thought when i saw this#and lando is like mate wtf lol im with my friend max at the doctor#and charles is just huh so THIS is max.... huh....#and then they meet at landos one day and fall in love etc etc you know how it goes#lestappen#max verstappen#charles leclerc#lando norris#i once got sick at a mall and stayed two hours at their medical office w a friend and she took a pic of me literally like this lmao
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YOU LIKE WOBBLEDOGS ?? omg dude a wobbledogs stimboard would be Awesome
🐶/🐾/🐕/🐾/🐶/🐾/🐕/🐾/🐶 ˚ ༘♡ ⋆。˚ ༘ @tenne-out-of-ten ⋆
K9: Generally silly wobbledogs stimboard but its JUST wobbledogs. I love these FREAKS I wish the switch version had all the cool stuff everything else does :(
#Sorry for the long ass wait#i just got bored and decided to start this again lol#havent seen you in a bit! (or i just. missed notifs.) hope you're doing well mate#can you tell i couldnt find any actual stimboard gifs that fit#this doesnt deserve main blog#wobbledogs#stimboards
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This adorable animatic was made by @/technicallyhuman! The link to their blog can be found in the reblogs of this post, I’m just not tagging them again so as not to bother them lol.
Also thanks to boyswagless to the suggestion to credit them in the post! :)
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dark does NOT want to get its bag wet. beige helps to prevent that
im not sure if these two are capable of compassion tho. do not be fooled
also floewrs 💦💦🌷🌿🌷🌿🍃🌸🌿🪻🪻🌿🌼💦🌼
#they need to work together to survive#cus they both need to be mindful of the amount of control they take(they can take as much as they want + they can take-#A LOT of control in a verge of emotions without noticing)#so they do the things that will help them to..... not get separated? to not let happen the situation where one of them is in full control-#and doesn't let the other one to do anything#so beige tries not to let the rain get on dark's bag cus it knows itll start to go bonkers-#if its paper bag is going to be destroyed. dark can overtake control and do some stupid stuff. therefore putting them both#in danger#so thats why the first image is happening#not sure if they really care for each other in a way i can put into words? theyre a mosner ^—^#pmpwbrrs#also their relationship is like. companions#theyre not siblings or friends or mates#oc#artists on tumblr#monster design#i love them#i thought i'll just sell them later but i got attached.. :)#character design#sorry if all of this is worded werid im tired#oc – Two Heads#also i know its drawn a bit weird iand its difficult to see dark's body but the deal is i don really care ... maybe I'll care-#tommororw lol
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Do you think if Izuku was a girl Bakudeku would have been seen cannon from day one? I mean Bakugo seems to also have all the tropes of a female romantic love interest in Shonen and the reason why many don't think Bakugo's feelings towards Deku are of a romantic nature is because Deku is a boy. Here's to Bakudeku becoming cannon <3
If the story managed to miraculously stay the exact same story with the only difference being Katsuki is a girl (coz let’s face it, he was the princess being abducted by LOV and held so protectively by Izuku in the Vol 37 cover), then yes. Everyone would be bkdk and all other ships would seem delusional, the way Izuochas/other fans think we are. It’s just ‘cause it’s happening between two guys that people stop caring about the moments that develop or hint at their romance. And this is something Hori wants to change.
I don’t know if you’ve noticed this but Hori represents BkDk in a super wholesome way without many traces of sexual desire. Because he wanted shounen readers to see their love as something real and beautiful, and not being made just for the sake of BL or fetish.
Though tbf, he has occasionally depicted Kacchan as ikemen, maybe to help us imagine Izuku’s struggle to hold back his feelings for him.
Kacchan is gorgeous, and yet his combative personality has scared away girls his whole life. And here we have Izuku always having accepted him for who he is and never distancing himself from him despite the many attempts by Kacchan to reject and send him away!
But anyway, Hori focussed so heavily on the emotions they feel towards each other because he wants readers to look at pure romantic love between a boy and another boy and understand it has no difference whatsoever with the love between a girl and a boy.
This also might be another reason why baby Decchan memories come up sometimes with Kacchan’s POV, or why Noguchi drew so many pictures of their childhood.
Because Katsuki and Izuku seem to be each other’s first love, and while feelings grew rotten for a while, the deep love they have for each other now comes from an incredibly sweet and pure origin.
How Hori is gonna pull this off really has my interest now because he has written bkdk so beautifully up until this point, so I have high expectations for his future plans to bring them together.
Update: I just wanted to add that my heart is so full right now from the KiriMina/BkDk parallels in ch.383. Canon BkDk really is coming right at us and it feels like Hori is going to bombard doubters with reminders of their love until they practically beg Hori to end their misery, and just draw what he has been waiting to draw for so many years, lol. 😊
#cheers anon 🥂#bkdk canon#bakudeku#asks#when people ask this I think about how their entire dynamic changes just from one being a girl#for example… outside of bestie mamas play dates.. they wouldn’t have played too much together as little kids#so events like the river incident don’t happen#but I’m sure… in every AU… these two find their way too each other 💕#coz theyre soul mates in every AU#i had this in drafts for a bit so im sorry for my delay anon! the leaks were really wild too lol#kana writes
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im largely an outsider so take my opinions with a grain of salt but one thing thats been disappointing me in the few omegaverse stories ive read, despite how much the genre intrigues me in theory, is the like.. biological monogamy? with the biting stuff? i dunno i dont care for soulmate and soulmate adjacent stuff in general and tbh im not super invested in the horny aspect (although i do respect and appreciate it. guards impregnate that man etc etc) as much as i am in the speculative fiction biology+exploration of human sociopolitical landscapes through an anthropomorphized lens so this is a me problem but i do just know too much about too many animals so the claiming bite stuff being anything more than just bedroom play completely breaks my suspension of disbelief. all this to say i do keep telling my irl loved ones that i need to make the white throated sparrow based omegaverse i see in my minds eye. i see it so clearly. i see it so clearly.
#of course all omegaverse stories ive read have been original fiction i dont really read a lot of fanfic (and i dont go for AUs very often)#and also i think theyve all happened to have been m/m now that i think about it. so other forms may have different commonalities#from what i can tell a girl having a bunch of alpha dudes or whatever is kind of common in m/f? maybe? im not sure#but yeah i dunno i do not care for that marking stuff i think its soooo lame sorry HKJDSHFKJSdfds#1) again i just dont find it sexy or romantic personally but more importantly 2) animals looooove having super complicated mating situation#they loooove breaking up they loooove having multiple partners they looooove getting back together they do whatever they want#i think specifically about birds a lot and lemme tell you....... TECHNICALLY yes a lot of them have like#1 partner at a time. technically. but they go elsewhere. they decide never mind. even some mate-for-lifers will break up on occasion LOL#red wing blackbirds have like one guy with a bunch of gfs nesting in his territory but if i remember correctly#those girlies will go find other guys if they feel like it or if their guy is too fail or his territory sucks#they dont give a shit they do what they do. im so sorry im this kind of bird nerd. im so sorry.
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Fukase: I gotta ask..is linguistics something to do with linguine?
Flower: ....its about language.
Fukase: Oh.
^ thought that i had someday. idk. im handing it to you cuz it got precisely 1 note on my blog :/
#ask#anonymous#my audio lol#mmm... dont feel like tagging them. i dont remember if i properly tagged characters for ask responses like this? i need to check#i think the long ass pauses are funny lmao#oh fukase english your phonemes my detested </3. what is ur problem man (affectionate).#anyhow now's not the post to get into me slandering him usability-wise.#i just like doing silly things/i need to practice more speech things w/ these bastards cause im crazy#people call them '1 note flop posts' i call mine 'the world wasnt ready for it yet. they dont understand 😤'#ALSO THIS IS REALLY FUNNY TO ME IN PARTICULAR BECAUSE I WILL BE STARTING A LINGUISTICS COURSE SOON LMFAOOO#sorry mate this isnt pastaology 101 i think you got the wrong classroom
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Finally making time to try out some scrying on my new girlie and OOH boy is she pretty
After much deliberation, though, I think I'm pretty much settled on something like:
#Flight Rising#my male was the one I hinted at earlier today being afflicted by my eternal Curse of the Thistle Tert#he was... uggo. Tomato/Spring/Thistle. nothing I could imagine making nice sorry lol#but he already has a new home and judging by his bio it looks like they have plans for him so it's all good. he's happy and cared for :)#now I just need to find a mate for my scary girl here
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Love your art and I'm generally curious as to what the appeal of Dante/Vergil is to you? Do you have any hc that you're drawing from or is it just personal preference? I struggle to imagine the right conditions for them to be involved in that way and would like to know what inspires you.
I will premise this by saying, that I’m actually not a MASSIVE fan of just DV for its own sake, if Nero isn’t also included (or like, with the assumption he will, 100%, be included once he’s in the picture). To me it’s kind of a baseline pairing?
As in, I don’t even have to think about it. Of course they’re in love, of course they’re together, of course they’re fucking. It’s almost an afterthought to me, the way the married parent couple of the protagonist in a story inherently are. It doesn’t necessarily interest me by itself, that fact, it’s just a certainty, it just is. I guess, for me, the interest in DV specifically comes more out of what other people make of it, because for me I’m almost always approaching first from the perspective of Nero being there also, haha.
There’s also the fact that I have a lot of hc about just like, the way demons function as a species, I guess. I took a lot of things dmc canon gave me and went like, “alright, time to project this into the most self indulgent, non-human society but humanoid looking species I can think up in my brainhead”. To me a lot of the appeal comes from it being not necessarily a predestined thing as much as like, a biological inevitability - (going to speak in definitives about my own hc from here on, so not making any statement about canon dmc lol) demons mate with their kin, and with whoever deems worthy - and twins from the same litter would inevitably end up being the other’s first partner, their first choice, their other half. In a sense, to me, they’re soulmates - though honestly I prefer to think of it more as two halves of the same soul, following the implications in 3 and the 3 manga that them being twins comes from the spawn of Sparda being too powerful to just be born in one body. That might sound like I’m just saying they’re soulmates in a different way, but not really - to me, if I had to go the soulmate route, Nero would be both of their soulmate - because the two of them make one single soul, and the match to that would be Nero’s.
I kind of just go off of the assumption that they are in love and have been since they were in the womb, you know?
That colors the way I see their every interaction. To me, in their fighting, their squabbles and their feuds, there’s always love at the source. Familial, yes, but romantic and sexual as well - and to me, when I think about them, it’s all one and the same. To love each other like family is to be intwined, is to be mated, is to be a pack and is to be one.
That’s the more deep thoughts I have about it, I have more shallow/surface thoughts (and specifically ship dynamic thoughts about like, what appeals to me about them sexually lol) but if I had to quickly sum it up that’s what I would say, I think.
#Sorry if this is a bit jumbled/all over the place lol#I actually never really stopped to think about it besides just liking it i guess#Like to me things like dante’s lines to vergil read as flirting the fights read as full of tension#every time I see them fighting I could very easily picture them just stopping mid stab to make out yknow#I guess it also comes down to how much you personally like conflict in a ship#or how much rivalry/fighting reads as charged or tension to you#Plus again the whole demon thing#And in a way also ig I just really like thinking of demon twins as a mating pair#I like them hybrid the best but in that context I do like to hc vergil as super fertile and Dante as near infertile#and them navigating this nature in a sense of like. It’s not what they want out of life.#It’s not what they naturally gravitate towards nor what they would choose if it were up to them.#But its nature and its playing cruel tricks on them#and ig in a way to me that’s a feeling I like to project as a trans allegory#I don’t often veer to making characters trans in a realistic human way bc it hits a bit too close to home#And rather I prefer adding a lot of things that are exactly like being trans but not in a human way#And I think that’s that to me yknow?#Nature + instinct imposing something on you that you have to actively struggle against for the rest of your life#And compensating and making yourself be perceived as who you feel yourself to be despite of it#Yes this is still all about weird demon pseudo omegaverse bullshit no I cannot physically hold myself back from getting into it#asks#vague mpreg allegory/mention#thank you for the question! lots of food for thought lol#spardacest
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Ahem since we're in Andy world as a community right now I just have something to say real quick
#a few of yall have been requesting this position and im working on it! this is my first time drawing it lol#they like hardcore nusic and hardcore sex#except theyre obvi lovey dovey in this pic i love when those men are naked and tender#this drawing drives me a little crazy they seem like#so in love but also so deep in sex but also you can like hear the grunting like it's not pretty sex its real sex#also v little dialogue theyre just kinda vibing together each enjoying ehats going on#i think theyre in love for real for real#me and who#autism sex anon come back if i didnt scare you off sorry i answered that in the middle of the night#what yall have to remember about me is im a romancable character with a high sex drive who lives alone and draws intimacy for strangers on#the internet#haha lh#anyways lets tag this guy#andy#pete#wentzley#mating press
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If you have ever wondered how I handle being in classes with younger people, just know that a group I was assigned to is currently having tension issues because one person has been openly shit talking everyone to their face and apparently when asked what the problem is, just said they don't like our group because "the vibes are off" (read more because I am complaining and I feel rude sigh)
1, I don't know what the fucking means and 2, now actively dislike this person because they have made me and everyone else feel like we did something wrong!! To the point where one of them approached me to tell me all this and ask how I felt about it because 3, apparently I had been apologizing constantly when we were working together last week and didn't notice, and she felt bad because I wasn't doing anything wrong but clearly was picking up on this person's rancid fucking vibe (yes I am being a hypocrite)
and when I tried to apologize for any perceived slight in a different class, because yes I have to share more than one class with this person, they literally just said "it's fine, I don't really give a shit about other people's opinions" and I just????? Brother me correcting you on information was not an opinion, A, and B, what the fuck is your problem lol
#''the vibes are off'' shut upppp what is your problem#you dont have to be best friends with your group mates you just need to be polite to them!!!#and you're not!! you suck!! you're the problem!!!#sorry for venting but it is literally making a class i love just. suck lol#it's fine but also no it isn't#yes i am attributing this to age btw#a person my age would do what im doing#shit talk them behind closed doors and be cordial to their face!!!#god!!!#yes i am being mean
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“Thank you, Number One.”
“You are so very welcome, Captain.”
RAFFI MUSIKER / SEVEN OF NINE - ST: PIC - S03E10
#raffi musiker#seven of nine#they said professionalism or bust#imma read it as foreplay though#like for my mental#also jck continues to annoy#sorry but picards specialest baby boy is bland af and the fact that we are meant to be age mates????#reminds me of Xander from Buffy for some reason#and I h8d that mf lol#they played in my face all season w that one#and many other things but#pls like that man is GROWN#raffi looked sooooooo sexy this episode#so that’s a win for me#anyway their first stop should be 2024 to pick up RIOS#and then grab elnor on their way back why not!#wave to borgness while they’re headed back out#*#.rfi
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Just Tonight (II)
✧ Nebarra x human!LDB ✧ Angst to comfort; 2k+ words ✧ Brief & very mild suggestive content, light swearing ♫ "My Blood" - Echos, "Mistake" - NF, "Stubborn" - Riell ✒ @candydreamer122, you asked to be notified when this dropped so here ya go!
Nebarra opened his eyes to the golden light of dawn, your head resting on his chest, bare legs intertwined with his. Your body pressed against his, warm and comforting, and when he glanced down at your face, he'd never seen it more peaceful. He reached up, brushing your cheek with his thumb, and even in your sleep, you leaned into his touch.
Gods, you took his breath away. But even as he lay there, admiring you in the soft morning light, a single, unpleasant thought wormed its way to the front.
He didn't deserve you.
It made him pause, something turning sour in the pit of his stomach. No... Please, no...
He didn't want the moment to end. Didn't want the thoughts he knew would turn his happiness to ash. But for years they had whispered in his mind, been his constant companions, bitter and selfish lovers that left him with nothing in return but pain and cynicism. They would not let him go so easily, relinquish the control he has given them long ago.
All the more reason he couldn't, shouldn't have you.
Because, really, what could he offer you? He had nothing but his past, his bitterness, his selfish nature. Even last night had been spurred on by his own selfish desires, exacerbated further still by drink. He was nothing but thorns, rough and crude, the blood of hundreds on his hands – and he felt no guilt over them.
...Most of them.
You didn't deserve someone like that. You could do so much better than him.
Why did you want him, at all?
And as he lay there, hand cupping your face, his eyes drinking in every curve and contour – your own slowly fluttered open.
His breath caught. Sunlight danced across your irises, and he could see himself reflected in your gaze. For a few moments, you simply blinked at him, and he could see every minute shift in your expression. Emptiness, confusion, sudden realisation – and then you smiled.
Nebarra had seen many things in life. Many ugly things, things that he'd tried to forget, that haunted him until he drowned them in drink. The few beautiful things he'd seen, though... those, he remembered clearly, and often. Fought to carve them into every facet of his memory, to allow himself the slightest hope, to give himself the smallest of reasons to keep going. And the smile you gave him...
It was the most beautiful of them all.
There was life in your smile. Vast, vibrant, and beautiful, your face haloed in the golden light of morning, you looked... divine.
And then, you spoke, words low and husky from sleep, a laugh rumbling in your throat: "And you call me guar-face." Slowly, you raised a hand, gentle fingers brushing his cheeks, smile growing ever wider.
...He wanted you. Gods, how he wanted you. His heart ached with the thorns of longing, with the knowledge that he couldn't, shouldn't have you.
So, he turned away, pulled back from your touch. Forced an empty expression on his face, in his eyes. Grunted a simple, "Morning." And carefully, oh so carefully, pushed you off him.
"...Nebarra?"
Unwelcome. Outsider. All he was ever meant to be.
"What?" The word was heavy on his tongue, deadened in tone as he sat up, got off the bet, and set to collecting his clothes from the floor.
"Nebarra... What's wrong?"
Everything. "Nothing." He fumbled with his trousers, nearly falling as he tugged them on, still scanning the floor for his shirt. Anything to avoid meeting your eyes.
"Bullshit." Sheets rustled as you leaned forward, and he could practically hear your brows furrow at him. "Is it... because of last night?"
"No." Yes.
"I think it is. And I think we should talk about it – about this."
"There's nothing to talk about," he grunted, still pacing the floor, eyes roving everywhere but the bed. Where was his damn shirt?
"Oh, I think we have a lot to talk about."
He didn't answer, and in the silence, fabric rustled some more. Then, your voice, "...Looking for this?"
Finally, slowly, Nebarra looked at you. You were sitting upright on the bed, and in one hand you held up his shirt, winkled and dusty from the floor.
And you... were still very much naked. Your chest was on blatant display, the blankets pooled low around your hips, deep purple teethmarks scattered over your skin – his doing. Nebarra swallowed, averting his gaze back to the tunic.
Wordlessly, he stalked over, reaching out for it – only for you to snap your hand back, away from him. He sighed. "What are you doing?"
You didn't answer, though he could feel your gaze burning into him. Reluctantly, he returned it – and the storm in your eyes sent a shock down his spine.
Oh...
Oh, no.
Before he could even begin to pick apart what he saw in there, you raised your arms, slid them through the holes of the shirt, and pulled it down over your head.
You... were wearing his shirt.
Still holding his gaze, there was something like a challenge in your eyes. Nebarra grit his teeth and, for once in his life, held his tongue, unsure if he could win this one.
The thought... unsettled him.
But... maybe not as much as it should have.
"Nebarra."
No. No, no no no. You couldn't do that to him – say his name in that tone, in that way.
"What?" he snapped, harsher than intended.
Maybe he should have just been born mute.
"We need to talk about this."
"No, we don't."
"Why not?"
"Because... it was a mistake." He looked away, unable to meet your gaze, tearing a hand through his hair. Coward, coward, coward. "That's all there is – was – to it. We were drunk, and tired, and maybe... just maybe... a little lonely. So we made a bad decision – one we should just forget about, move on from. Because ultimately... it meant nothing. Not a damn thing."
It felt like an eternity passed before you answered, and when you did, your voice was heavy, rasping with emotion. "...If that's how you really feel, then–"
You choked. Nebarra could practically hear the words catch in your throat, dying before they could pass your lips. Instead, a low, bitter laugh rose suddenly in their place; the sound scraped his wounded heart raw. "Gods damn you, Nebarra. You're... really selfish, you know that?"
"Yeah," he mumbled. "I know."
But you weren't done. Because as you rose from the bed, the floorboards creaking beneath your feet, you continued, "You're also... a really shit liar."
And then you were standing before him, your hand on his chin, turning his face towards you, your gaze searching his. He couldn't avoid your eyes this time, couldn't look away from the storm raging within them: hurt, anger, confusion.
Because of him. Him, and his stupid decisions, and his even stupider words.
Yet, even as he stared, he could see something else in them, too.
Affection. Care. Passion. And... lo–
Why? Why him? Of all the people on Nirn you could want, how could you want the mess that was him?
"I don't know," you said softly, and Nebarra realised with horror that he'd spoken his thoughts aloud. "Because, gods, you really are a mess, aren't you? You're bitter, cynical, surly, arrogant, selfish, flawed to the moons and back, but..." Your hand shifted, brushing upwards to cradle his cheek, and the Altmer found himself holding his breath, afraid of what you'd say next, needing to hear what you'd say next.
Only, you didn't say anything. Instead, you simply leaned in, pulled him close – and kissed him. Before he even knew what he was doing, Nebarra found himself returning it, pulling you in closer, hands falling to your waist –
Wait.
No.
Stop.
What was he doing?
Breathless, he pulled away, nearly stumbling over his own feet. His mind spun; he couldn't seem to form a single coherent though. "What – what was that?"
Your eyes seemed to stare right down to his soul, burning with intensity, filled with both pain and longing. Yet a faint, bittersweet smile ghosted across your face as you answered, "Nothing, apparently."
...Damn you.
Before he could change his mind, think himself out of it, Nebarra caught your arm and tugged you sharply back towards him, crashing his lips back against yours. You stumbled from the initial force of it, but he followed your motion, keeping your lips on his.
After a moment, your arms slipped around his neck, one hand cradling the back of his head, the other tickling his nape. He grunted into the kiss, pulling you back towards the bed; you didn't resist, and readily fell back on it.
Nebarra fell with you, straddling your prone form, brushing his lips from your mouth to your jaw, nipping gently as he went. A soft gasp escaped you; his hands slid down, tugging your shirt – his shirt – gradually upward, pulling it off of you.
And immediately he sat up, got off the bed, and tugged it over his own head. Without a word, he walked away to the other side of the room, leaving you naked and stunned on the bed.
"...Nebarra!"
"Like you said," he muttered, stalking across the room and far from you, "I'm selfish."
He could hear a frustrated breath hissing through your teeth. "Damn you! Why can't you just admit what you feel, what you want? What are you so afraid of?"
The elf froze.
You could see right through him, couldn't you?
"You don't... even know me," he managed at last, keeping his back towards you. "You don't even know my name, my real name."
"I don't need a name to know you, though. Names aren't what define us – we define them. It doesn't matter to me whether you're Nebarra or... or Nico, or something else entirely. Because you're still, and always will be you, regardless of what name you answer to."
Gods, why did you have to be so damn stubborn?
"Pot, kettle, black," you sniffed, and Nebarra realised that yet again, he'd spoken aloud. "And who knows, maybe I picked some of it up from you in the first place."
Sighing heavily, Nebarra leaned forwards and let his forehead thunk against the wall. He stayed like that for a long moment, counting his breaths, trying to collect his thoughts.
"I'm not... suited for a relationship," he slowly began. "I wouldn't be... you have better options than me. People who could give you what you want far better than I could."
At that, you actually laughed, and he turned to look at you despite himself. There was no smile on your face, only pain and mockery; the sight drove thorns through his chest. "Who, then, O wise one, most knowledgeable of relationships? Who on Nirn can give me what I want, when what I want – is you."
He shook his head. "Well... you shouldn't. I can give you nothing."
"You aren't nothing," you said softly. "Your heart isn't nothing. Don't you get that yet, Nebs?"
"My... heart," he echoed, staring blankly at you. "My heart."
Shifting, you rose from the bed, wrapping a blanket around yourself as you approached. "Yeah, your heart. This thing–" you placed a hand over his chest "–that's beating right here, going at a million miles a second." Your eyes locked with his once more, and somehow, even before you spoke, he knew. He knew.
"I love you, you miserable bastard. And I want you, not for anything you can offer me, but for who you are. There's no doubt in my mind about that. Now, the only question left is... how do you feel? What do you want?"
He couldn't hide from it any longer. The truth was on his tongue, escaping his lips before he even had to think about it. "You. I just... gods damn it, I just want you," he rasped. "But..."
You placed a gentle finger against his mouth. "Shh," you murmured. "No buts."
Slowly, Nebarra raised a hand, brought it up to yours, and pulled it away from his lips, instead lacing his fingers with yours. "No, listen. I... this... is going to be complicated, if we really do this. And... you're probably going to get hurt and disappointed because of me. There's a lot you don't know–"
"And you can tell me when you're ready," you soothed, brushing your thumb across the back of his hand. "We'll cross all those bridges when we get to them. And yes, before you protest any further," you added, when his mouth opened to do just that, "I'm aware of the emotional risks. But that's part of every relationship, Nebarra, and you know that. So, again, when they do inevitably arrive, we'll cross those bridges together."
...He really didn't deserve you. Didn't understand how or why you wanted him, of all people. But as you rested your forehead against his, breaths mingling, eyes full of nothing but each other – Nebarra realised he didn't care, anymore.
The voices in his head, all the doubts and fears – they still hissed their poison, and he knew it would be a long, long time before they stopped. But a new voice had joined the mix, soft but confident, telling him that maybe, just maybe, life wasn't about "deserving" things, but appreciating them. That maybe, amid the bleak desert of his past, he could still find a lone rose of happiness.
And that voice... sounded an awful lot like yours.
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