#sorry im whiny today
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"No matter how many times I got traumatised i never shipped weird stuff" good job would u like a little star for that
#sorry im whiny today#im just. you know people can have fucking different types of coping?#you know how some people HAVE to rely on those cause they cant afford anything else???#do you know??#wow i hate tiktok#i think im gunna . stop using it lol#but im scared theyll out me as a spamano shipper or whatever#cuz i have 1k followers but eh most of them dont evn interact with me#the hetatok thing is ...uhm#calmer than before!#but still shitty. so yeah#i dont wanna go to twt cuz just no i dont know how to relate to people there#uff#lore.txt
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can we . stop making commenting on people’s weights. like just in general please
#because why is the first thing you say to me is ‘you lost weight!!!!’#like oh lol woaw I totally didn’t notice thanks#like idk its backhanded but not at the same time you know?#because why are you assuming my weight loss is good? why do you assume it’s something to celebrate?#what if I wasn’t intendending on losing weight? comments like this can so easily spark repressed disordered mindsets in people#like it makes me sound like a whiny sensitive bitch but this shit fucked me Up lol#fuck you I was just as pretty and funny and cool thirty pounds ago#and fuck you for acting like it’s sooooo much better I got rid of it#delete later#lol#sorry Im actually tweaking so bad#I’ve been tweaking silently all of today and that one comment just . god it fucked me upp lolllll#couldn’t stop thinking abt it um!#anyways whatever if you read this far into my nonsensical mumblings I love you and hope you’re kind to yourself#tw disordered thoughts#tw ed
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#my eye keeps bothering me and i was supposed to see my doctor today but they cancelled (ig his schedule changed idk) and im just soooo done#i want the stitches out#sorry i need to be a whiny bitch about this because ive been super tired lately which makes my eye hurt more and its just djfdhjhjdfdjfdhjj#i know its such a SMALL thing but its so annoying oh my god#its giving me headaches too#about moi
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Someone please come baby me. I don't feel good.
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hey i’m a mutual who dropped out in 7th grade and i just want u to know that things will be ok. i’m going back to school this year and like you can just stop either temporarily or permanently. i promise u it will be ok
:((( thank u so much this means a lot to hear . my plan has been to drop out for like two years at this point but i never really expected it to feel this much like a huge change even though it was always going to be. and my mother asked me if i just wanted to drop out when i told her i didn't want to go in today and it's sent me on a downward spiral. sorry for putting this on your dash board whoever is online and whoever saw it.
#ugh whatever sorry these tags r going to be so whiny don't look at them if u dont want to see that.#UGHHHEH its just so much. because at least having the option to have somewhere to go every day even if i never take it has been like.#almost some sort of comfort to me. because i don't want to sit around every day if it's not my choice to be doing so.#but i've never had a job. i don't know how to write a resume i don't know how to answer interview questions i don't know anywhere that#would take me that i can get to on my own since i can't drive. but if i don't get a job. i'll be sitting around broke and miserable until#applications for the course i want open up. and i don't know how to do that. the more i think abt it today the more dropping out feels#like the best option but it doesn't make it feel less like the huge step i know it'll be. i don't have a life without school. it's the only#place i ever see my few irls. it's my one source of human interaction every week. what do i do if it's not there for the next#half a year. assuming i passed the test i needed to pass and also get into the course i want. i don't know.#and everythings in my favour!! everything is going for me!! i have it easier than so many kids at my school!#my mother is a teacher and she gets me so many of the things i need because she knows the system. literally two weeks ago she got it set up#so that i don't have to go to one of my classes because it was making me miserable and i was complaining abt it constantly.#and i just feel bad that all of her effort will have gone to waste? i know she's done everything she can but it still hasn't fixed my#hatred for the school system and i feel so bad. I DONT KNWO WAHT TO DO!!! IM GOING TO KILL MY SELF!!!#whatever what ever. i;m overreacting it's what ever
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Bc i never plan my art unless its for a zine idk how to further proceed w that gym piece i never intended for it to have a background but i felt called out by the post that mentioned the things artists who dont draw bgs/dont often draw bgs do and i didnt wanna just post another Ace art of him standing in a void but now i have to adjust the colours and most modern gyms are like greyscale with one highlight colour and its driving me insaneeeee
#like the bg will stoll be blurred to shit but im just fuuuck i already chose Ace’s colours and i like them but#😔😔😔😔😔😔😔 maybe im over thinking it too hard#bc i take so long to do lineart in general i never think abt backgrounds bc thats gonna be even more lineart which pains me further#to think about but#i do want to stage characters more and do better lighting#but im just gettin stressed bc i didnt intend for this particular piece to have a bg and now it does and its#i have to make them work now which is a nightmare#maybe i should just scrap the bg fuck#finish the shading at least on Ace move on to other stuff#i tried a ton of methods last night but nothing lmao#maybe i was tired maybe i was distracted by ear pain#hoping to get it checked today bc my jaw hurts now 😭#and im still so tiredddd#i slept nine hours wtf#whiny xam hours im sorry#shut UP xam
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i keep getting hot flashes and im. so absolutely done. im not old enough for this nonesense.
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imposter syndrome and insecurity so bad i don't even have the guts to talk in my own discord server. tf is wrong with me
made it thinking like "ah yes lets make a community to talk about all our kimchay thoughts and ideas and where i'll feel safe enough to actually share my thoughts!" and now i'm like. if i share my thoughts i'll be annoying and talked over and everyone will hate me
#sorry im being so fucking whiny today#signing off!#gonna watch cdrama and pretend i don't exist#benji talks#personal
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good morning y’all regrettably it seems that i have woken up against my will ONCE AGAIN……..
#and w a migraineheadache ewwwww#i started getting it last night before bed but i was like eh it’ll go away#but then i woke up at like 8am to my cat doing some bullshit and the headache was still there but like more prominent?#i was tired tho so i went back to bed n here i am awake at 1130 n my head huuuurrrts#i’m forcing myself to eat these lil mini chocolate rice cake things then imma go make coffee#caffeine is good for headaches btw#also my dads like ‘we need to take ur storage boxes to the storage place’ n im like uhh i literally just woke up w a migraine no#also i had a bad day yesterday n no one cared abt me to check on me#n ik that’s dramatic cuz like i didn’t even leave my room but try explaining that to my inner irrational child who wants to be comforted#wike a whiny wittle baby lol#anyways i’m gonna b less dramatic today than i was last night sooooo sorry to anyone who witnessed that lmaoooooooooo#shut up cianna
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aaaaaand now I have an injured bird to drive to a wildlife center when I get out of work 🙃 the dude who feeds feral cats outside my job just called me to help him catch it and I assumed he was going to take it but he just left me. with the bird. So it’s mine now I guess. fuck me I want to go to Sleep at 5am not be driving an hour to drop this baby off 😭
#listen. im being a whiny baby rn im sorry but im so frustrated#im gonna be losing an hour of sleep and using up an hour of gas with no compensation and rn that makes me want to cry#because I’m sleepy and today has already been really frustrating for many other reasons#but I’m also not a fucking asshole so like. I will make sure this bird gets where he needs to go. it’s not his fault there’s a million cats#anyways. everything’s fine.#edit: upon further inspection and with actual light it is… not a starling? im actually not sure what kind of bird it is
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working on being not extremely depressed even though today was a tough day. take a look at the two most important women in my life
#black cat is Yalda she is my roommate’s cat and she is so stupid and I love her#second cat is Willow she is my parents cat and she is a gigantic whiny baby and her singular brain cell is powerful. she also plays fetch#all I ate today was a cinnamon bun but it was very good. so better than the past week#talked to my ex a bit got very upset at him but it’s also the birthday of my good friend who died a couple years ago#so it’s been a whole Day#going to hang out with YouTube Sensation CJ the X later#cj if ur reading this im sorry im using the tags as a diary
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sometimes is really hard not knowing if i'm making big deal of nothing and being a big baby about pain, tiredness, and discomfort I feel. is it my fault? just too lazy and sit at my desk too much and don't exercise enough? don't try hard enough stick to sleep schedule? so not allowed to complain and need to shut up and just exercise and sleep better somehow? then all problems will be solved?
or is there real reason? is it justified? a reason for pain, exhaustion, discomfort that's not directly my fault? hard to believe that when am just told "exercise and sleep better. you're doing this on purpose! it's your fault!"
but why is it so hard to exercise through pain and discomfort and exhaustion? why so tired after work, being on feet and doing physical work for 4 hours every day so tiring? how exercise on top of job? why is 8-10 hours a day not enough sleep and still tired? why doing things i'm told supposed to do not helping? why so hard to keep doing them? why things getting worse and harder the more I try? why no one understand or try to help? why not deserving help?
don't know. might never know. maybe need to push self harder and try harder somehow. pretend struggle isn't real. stop caring about how things feel and do what i'm told instead. just hope it works one day.
today is struggle day. everything so hard. exercised yesterday and pushed self at work because is what am "supposed to do." today is very hard. trying harder. but doing worse somehow. why. so disappointed in self. am a disappointment to everyone. what is wrong with me ._.
#lee rambles#sorry keep rambling today. very hard day. because im useless and whiny and cant do anything right. sighs.#brain struggling. body struggling.#dissociating x1000000 but not enough to do things normal. wish to dissociate on autopilot and act like normal person#not turn into useless mush#sometimes just need to self depreciate rant to feel better. dont tell me not to. need to get ick out not keep it in. now is out of brain#its that coping thing i think. sometimes dissociating coping isn't strong enough so need a rant#idk what im talking about. i forgot already#i guess it worked. brain cleared for now
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i just wish there was a way for me to put out like a cry for help like I need help and support rn from someone but i just don't have anyone i really feel like i could ask and i don't really even know what i need or think anyone could help so ultimately there's no point, im just so painfully lonely
#sorry to be so whiny today its just hitting extra hard today and idk why#i think maybe bc the last thing i had to look forward to is really over now#like im really probably not going to get to hang out with a friend again any time in the next few months at least#even virtually like i dont have anyone that would even call with me anymore#i know i did this to myself and i dont have a right to be sad but im just so lonely#i feel so empty and doomed and i miss having people to talk to#i just want to tell someone about the tv shows ive been watching and have a conversation and feel okay#i just miss everyone so much#so so so much every day with my whole being i miss all my friends and i know in my heart that none of them miss me like that#bc ultimately they all have other better ppl to be around and i just dont#the friends i had were so good and they were all the best ppl i couldve had around me and theyre all gone and it hurts so much#anyway sorry i know this is dramatic its just been a rough day#maybe tomorrow this will feel a little less bad but today the loneliness is just too much
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⠀⠀⠀ ONLY FOR YOU ε🪴⁺ you making them flustered
synopsis : things you do that makes them flustered
ft . bf ! enha x f ! r cw. kissing, skinship .. sfw, fluff ✶ wc. 1k ◜ ◝ seiu : hope you enjoy ^^ its the enha pov of my pervious post that ik i did long back but its alright.
HEESEUNG
his hearts melt when you reassure him, tell him you are proud of him or compliment him, he is a sucker for it, could be any moment and he would just turn into a puddle for it.
he looked at you in disbelief as you emptied his portion of cake that he baked “yn, that was mine you already had yours” he pout, on the verge of tears “baby you baked so good it was so yummy i couldn’t control myself sorry but you are such a great cook” if he had a tail it would have been wagging right now “you think so? oh my okay you know what i will make more for you, im glad you liked it” he rubbed his cheeks on yours , while you celebrated escaping that.
“i’m proud of you hee” you plop yourself next to him as he put his head down on your lap “you did great out there” after a long day work these words are his favorite to hear, it makes it all worth it. he looks at you big eyed
“you make everything fade into the background”
JAY
pda and sweet or flirty messages always gets him smiling, though jay likes to keep it nonchalant and cool on the exterior but if you hold his hand or kiss his cheek in the public his ears will turn read despite his best efforts to stay cool “we are in public my love” he whispers “so what” you smile.
also giggles when you text him, tries his best to not show or answer your text in a fraction of a second and focus on his work but he fails miserably everytime “today was so tiring, i want to stay home with you always” collapses on you, hugging you tight “and you are a meanie too, teasing me like that” you giggled at his whiny voice “you can always come home jay”
“i could spend a lifetime just watching you.”
JAKE
being centre of attention by you, he loves attention but from you only, it makes him giddy “then this step was a little difficult but i worked hard on it, so i guess im good now, maybe?” you were doing your work but jake bust in to show his new dance to you so of course you had to give up everything and watch him “it’s really clean jake you did a great job” you got up from the sofa and pecked his cheek.
his whole face got red, not like you haven’t kissed his cheek before but nothing gets him like you sweet compliments and your dreamy eyes giving him 100 percent of your attention, even if he is trying to pull something stupid.
“i must be dreaming because there's no way you're real.”
SUNGHOON
wearing clothes he picked out, sunghoon takes pride in knowing his girl better than anyone, no surprise he picks up on your dislikes and likes, he tries his best to style something that makes you feel like the most beautiful “i was out yesterday and i thought this white dress would look great on but then i saw this necklace and then i thought its the prefect match so here” he smiles,“thank you so much i love these kind of dresses you know me so well” you hug him, inner him is jumping and rolling.
“i’m ready hoon let’s go” he turns back to see you wearing the dress he bought you “oh my goodness, how can you look so beautiful effortlessly” you giggle at his compliments, he is a gone case, a loser if you may, for you. totally smitten and starstruck.
“how am I supposed to look at anything else after seeing you like this?”
SUNOO
loves handmade gift, it gets his heart racing, he feels the most special when you sit to crochet after learning it online, even though the heart bag looks more like a square he would accept it lovingly, in fact he is the most happiest you would ever see him, he would be seen with that bag at every given moment “i love it no please” he said as you tried to take back the bag “but it’s embarrassing sunoo” , he is the type to have all your handmade cards and notes stacked in a box, polaroids of you and him, all your favorite memories to look back to.
“anything you make for me is never embarrassing, i will treasure everything with my whole heart”
JUNGWON
making direct eye contact or looking at him heart eyes when he is talking, nothing gets him all blushing mess, ears red, hiding his face like you do, you always look at him lovingly, humming and nodding, listening carefully. randomly touching his cheeks or tucking his hair behind his ears, gracing his ears “go on hun”
“no” he said burying his head in his hands, all flustered and red “why not” you giggled “because you are teasing me” he huffed glaring at you “stop playing yn”
“sorry won you just look so beautiful when you talk” you bite his cheeks “ow meanie” — “what were you going to say”
“you are so stunning i forgot what i was going to say”
RIKI
pulling him by his tie to kiss him , him being tall is extra fun when he can tease you when you try to kiss him “riki please” you tip toe to reach his lips only for him to smirk and not help you “please what yn?” you pout at his smug face boasting his height “bend down” you pulled on his tie which caught him off guard, your lips smacked on his.
his hands snaked around your waist to pull you closer him, your body flushed with his, your hands still gripping his tie “you can really make anything possible huh?” he giggled , cheeks red “you can let my tie go now” he tired to free his tie trying to hide the fact his heart is beating so fast “now you get how it feels to me teased” his hands still on your waist, he kissed your cheeks.
“how did i get so luck to be with someone like you”
#en-log#enhypen headcanons#enhypen scenarios#jake x reader#niki x reader#sunoo x reader#jungwon x reader#jay x reader#heeseung x reader#sunghoon x reader#sunoo imagines#sunghoon imagines#park jay imagines#sim jake imagine#jungwon imagines#niki imagines#niki scenarios#jungwon scenarios#enhypen imagines#enhypen x reader#heeseung scenarios#enhypen#sunghoon scenarios#enhypen reactions#enhypen oneshots#sunghoon fluff#yang jungwon#niki fluff
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ignore - Matt Sturniolo
summary: you've been in a mood all day, ignoring matt and giving him little attention, you won't tell him what's wrong so he has to fuck the answers out of you.
contains: smut, arguing, crying, swearing, rough!matt, slight overstimulation.
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i've been pissed and emotional all day, i'm not even sure what for anymore, everything that people do is pushing me to my limits, especially my boyfriend, matt.
3:39pm
"c'mon we've gotta go." matt says, tapping my arm as i sit with my arms folded on the edge of matts bed. "i'm not going!" i raise my voice at matt, my eyebrows raised as i roll my eyes.
"chris and nick are waiting for us, we've booked the top golf session, we are going its for the celebration of nicks brand come on." matt says with a dad like tone.
i shake my head, "i don't want to, my head hurts." i say in a whiny tone, somehow on the verge of tears, matt lets out an exhausted sigh, tears start to fall down my cheek as i rub my eyes.
"why are you crying." matt says in a calm tone with a sigh. "go away!" i groan, matt walks out of the room shaking his head, he closes the door behind him.
"i don't know whats going on with her, im sorry nick." i hear him say to his brothers outside the door, i sniffle as i flop down on the bed behind me.
6:12pm
i've been enjoying the empty house by myself for the past few hours, i hear the triplets pull into the driveway before knocking on the door, i unlock the door and they all walk in, i give nick a hug, before asking chris how it went. he instantly starts to yap about his golf shots.
after a handful of minutes chris decides we should all watch a movie, matt tries saying something to me but i simply ignore him,
"y/n." matt repeats himself, i shoot him a side eye before continuing to speak to chris.
nick and chris pile onto the couch, matt sits down on the other side of the plush couch, i walk over to matt, sitting down on his lap and laying down against him, my back pressed against his torso and the back of my head resting on his shoulder.
matts chest rises and falls with each breath, lifting me up and down subtly.
9:29
the movie has been playing for over 3 hours, i've shifted around slightly against matt a couple of times, but haven't said anything to him.
i let out a heavy sigh matt taps my waist before whispering in my ear "please talk to me, you've been acting very off today."
i scoff "i've been acting off?" i whisper back, an attitude clear in my voice.
"yes you have, been acting like that, bratty." matt replies, i stay silent after that.
"talk to me about it." he says again, i shake my head no.
the closing scene of the movie finishes, chris and nick get up, "im headed to bed, see you guys in the morning." chris says with a yawn, "bye chris!" i say chirpily.
nick stands up, "see you!" he says running over and hugging me before leaving the living room.
matt and i sit in silence for a minute or so before matt pushes me off his lap, "come with me." matt says, i stare straight into his eyes, not moving nor speaking.
"come. with. me." matt raises his voice, grabbing my wrist and dragging me to his bedroom. he slams the door and locks it vigourously.
i sit down on the edge of his bed, fiddling with my nails. matt storms over to me, picking me up then throwing me back down on the bed, i fall straight on my back, my head landing in his pillows, one specific pillow having a stupid pug on it.
matt rips off his cute crewneck sweater, my eyes drawn to his tattooed arms.
his two hands firmly grip the waistband of my sweatpants, before yanking them and my panties down in one go. he unbuttons his jeans before pulling me by my ankles towards the edge of the bed.
"matt-" i start, he cuts me off, "dont start."
his boxers drop to the floor before he stands at the edge of the bed, i wrap my legs around his waist. matt stares into my eyes, asking for permission, i stay silent, just staring into his eyes.
"use your words and tell me what the fuck you want." he almost demands, his right hand now firmly gripping my waist.
i can't deny the fact i need him, the sudden switch in mood turns me on, along side matt being angry which he is never like, hes never fucked me while hes mad.
"just fuck me then if your so desperate." i mumble, matt lets out an exasperated laugh before lining himself up with me, slamming into me, his tip bruising my cervix.
i let out a yelp, "fuck!" matt starts to pound in and out of me, not showing signs of slowing down.
he grips my waist with both hands, his fingers digging into my skin as small grunts fall from matts lips.
the sounds coming out of me echo throughout the room, resulting in matt slamming a hand over my mouth, the cold metal of his rings pressing against my cheek.
"gonna act like this whole day? think you can act like that?" matt breathes out, his left hand which is still firmly placed on my waist tightens. matts breathing picks up,
im starting to consider always acting like 'this' so that matt fucks me like this again, i dont think ive ever had better sex in my life.
he repeatedly hits a spot inside of me which is driving me closer, and closer to my orgasm.
"awnser. me." matt says, staring into my squinted eyes, he removes his hand from my mouth, reaching down and brushing my clit.
"i- i didn't mean to" i say cluelessly, my mind completely fogged as i clench around him.
the pit in my stomach realeases as i orgasm, matts thrusts stop, after all this not wanting to overstimulate me.
"gonna talk to me now sweetheart?" matt says his voice soft but his breaths heavy.
i scoff with an eye roll, matt raises his eyebrows before thrusting into me again, i wince, "sensitive.." i say as matt presses on my clit, he starts to thrust again, waiting for me to speak.
i let out loud moans as matt starts to pick up his thrusts "please-" i groan, "matt-"
"i'm sorry- fuck" i say, my thighs dropping from his waist and squeezing together, matt pulls out, finishing with a whimper and painting my stomach with white streaks.
"oh my god-.." i groan, covering my forehead with my arms as i wipe away the few tears that fell from intensity.
"are you okay?" matt says, picking me up off the bed and carrying me towards the bathroom.
i hum in response, "was it too much? did i hurt you?" matt asks, worry in his voice as he places me down on the edge of his bath.
he bends down between my thighs, dabbing a towel gently against my skin. he walks out of the room, shortly coming back now wearing sweatpants and a white wifebeater tank top.
he brings me over the shorts i was wearing previously, and one of his black shirts. he pulls them onto me gently, his cold finger tips brushing against my skin.
he picks me up again, carrying me over to his bed and flicking off the overhead light, leaving his dim lamp on which illuminates the room just enough. he lays down on the bed, i lay ontop of him.
we lay in silence for about a minute before matt breaks it "are you okay? i mean you've seemed really off today and i should've talked with ya." matt says, running a hand through his hair.
"im sorry." i sigh, "no no, don't say that." matt replies instantly, "i'm not actually sure whats going on, i think i'm just a bit hungry" i say quietly,
matt laughs, "i did all of that for you to just be hungry?" he jokes, rubbing his eyes with a smile as his ears go red.
"i don't know!!" i laugh back, matt wraps his arms around my waist as i lay on top of him.
i suddenly spring up, "i'll be right back." i say, jogging out of the room towards nicks room, i knock twice before opening the door, nicks laying on the bed on his phone,
"you okay?" nick asks, i walk over to him, giving him a hug.
"im really sorry about not coming to topgolf nick, i was in a mood and i am extremely happy about your brand."
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