#sorry im just upset rn
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Why don’t you like sonadow /genq
I generally don't ship anything by default and it just isn't aligned with some headcanons that I hold close to my heart. I think it's annoying how popular it is and how shippers just assume everyone else ships it too. People don't tag it so I can filter it, I constantly have to see some posts about how it's 'canon' because they looked at each other. Like, it just gets tiring with time and I dislike even mentions of it more and more now... Like, its popularity ruins it for me so bad, not even mentioning how it's hard to make a post about the two of them without people making it romantic.
#im just so so sooo tired of popular ships ruining my fandom experience man ToT#first dxstiel now this#i WANT to see platonic content of them and it's just buried under ship content#like really i just don't agree with it I don't think sonic is gay first of all so. and its a very important hc to me!#so i hope you can see why i just dislike it more and more#honestly I personally think they have no chemistry lmfaoo they're better as hesitant friends#hope this is comprehensive sorry im a bit upset rn -_-
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hey if i send u an ask and then like 5 minutes later send a different ask going "nvm actually imma do this thing instead" or anything similar
sorry i am incredibly impulsive and indesicive
#🗡️ :: personal#this is for one specific person rn who i sent two asks to in the span of 5 minutes#only for my boyfriend to be like “baby thats weird and rude” and me to go “oh oops”#im just a silly lil guy!!!! and also im very impulsive and a lil dumb!!!!!!!#bleeeeehhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!#(fr though if u see this#sorry friend i hope i didnt upset u)
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Hate thissss I feel like I haven't been properly productive today (somehow posting two art things Doesn't register properly in my mind) so I wanna stay up to get as much as I can down, but I also need to go to sleep in case I'm called in tomorrow because fuuuuuck going to work on little sleep that shit sucks. But also, the possibility of being called in makes me wanna stay up even more, so I can finish art in case I don't have time tomorrow. So now I'm sat up at 12:30 tired as shit but unable to draw or go to bed. The never-ending cycle of hell.
#ramblings#i wish they had someone else to call in on short notice. i dont hate coming in extra but i hate getting a text at like 7:10 when kennel#hours in the morning start 7:30. i knowww i should probably set a boundary but like. fuck#and you know what i wish my parents bothered to fucking understand how frustrating it is being called in so frequently#my mom specifically. i bring stuff with work up and its like a broken record. `if you go in all the time youll be seen as reliable!`#when i was talking about getting a day off to see my brothers marching last weekend she was like#`see what did i tell you? you make yourself reliable and theyll let you take off what you need` talking like i just asked for it off#after it had already been scheduled. girl i had to ask people to cover me still. i just#i hate it. i havent told her i told them i didnt wanna work clinic hours because she'd drill me about why#its just frustrating !! and when i say my genuine feelings its like she needs to correct me. like im thinking wrong.#this is why i had to fucking snap before setting the boundary of not covering clinic hours. because its always#`do what they ask every time because youll seem reliable` from my mom no matter fucking what. and then i already have issues#setting boundaries in general because i dont want to upset others or make them mad at me#ok sorry this has turned into. a wholeass vent. im just. at my wits end can you tell?#at this rate im really just getting nothing done. im going to bed#dont worry about me ill be fine. i just need to let it out and this is kinda my only outlet rn
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lonely sad and so so poorly so think I'm gonna work on requests until I get sleepy :)
#🧚🏽♀️ — luxe chit chat#ive had such a sore tummy all day :(((#and im a lil down bc i saw something i wish i hadn't but#im trying not to let it get to me too much#i don't rly have anyone to talk to though so that's a lil upsetting!#contacting a mental health service tho bc i don't want to spiral abt it#ive had a lil cry!! i managed to hold it together for a while but i started thinking too hard and had a lil weep#but im not crying rn and i just wanna be proactive abt it so i dont end up feeling worse#but yeah since i got no one to talk to rn i have some time to write so i thought i'd try and get through some requests!!#sorry ive been so sucky with them#i love u all very much and sorry im not as active these days#thank u all who still support me and reach out tho ily all a whooooooooole lot :3#i hope ur all having lovely days and nights mwah mwah
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"only drawing fat people is gooner stuff !!" oh well following that logic only drawing slim people would also be gooner stuff
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felix will rlly b like “it’s not my job to make sure dimitri’s ok” & the very next scene he’s like “hey dimitri stop being so sad” like……… he’s SO subtle
#sorry i’m replaying azure gleam and i’m rotating about it. it’s fine#they’re just soooooo stupid. they are so stupid#i’m going f!shez this time and i loveee her sm <333#i was also actually reading the documents this time & the one abt fódlan mythology is SO GOOD#the faerghan legend where the ghosts of the vengeful dead come from under the earth to pull u under…… thinking about dimitri. just thinking#also i opened the documents and immediately saw old letter and was like ? its the glenn letter. im so upset#few3h#dimilix#feposting#if u don’t wanna see these u may wanna blacklist that bc. i’m unwell abt this rn#deertalking
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#hhhghhhhh#feeling yucky rn#upset even#dont really know why#i dont really get why anyone likes me???#or just. anything i post/say in general?? especially in regards to my art (i literally stink????)???#baffling even?#im feeling like. not good rn sorry#idk just getting this out#um. yeah#sorry again
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hi if u saw my drawing (i deleted it)… i genuinely forgot. idk how. i knew my memory is bad but holy shit how the fuck did i forget that. sorry pls dont hate me i didnt mean it
#🙁🙁🙁#i would never whitewash her on purpose i just didnt think about it#like i have no excuse i just genuinely forgot#are u guys mad at me#im gonna post it tomorrow with fixed colors#:- ( i liked the drawing i didnt realize and bow im so upset :- ( i didnt need thsi rn#do u hate me#they need to make an emoji that shows being terrified and sad but ill go with 🙁#maybe my brain is actually stopping working this is lowk scary wdym i forgot. i was imagining her in my head wdym i didnt notice.#how am i meant to survive life if my brain doesnt work#im going to bed im sorry
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not knowing how someone else thinks of me is so scary and also really sad. someone who i've been friends with for literal years could have "dniuc" in their status and i just can't say anything because i don't know if that person views us as close. or i'll want to interact with someone really cool by sending them an ask or reblogging with silly tags but my brain immediately assumes "what if they think im annoying as all hell maybe i should be quiet instead".
#lennyrambles#vent#sorry im just#really really upset rn#its one of my dumbest insecurities#and also probably my underlying anxiety + autism#but like.#i just cant bring myself to do these things
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I try but it’s never good enough
#object shows#object show community#bfdi#my art#x bfb#kinsona#vent#sorry im venting so much#I’ll draw something happy :]#Im just upset#idk I feel empty rn#okay im gonna draw :3#ALSO DONT WORRY IM FINE JUST FEELING ALL THESE FEELINGS!!
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following up from My Body Is Being Concerning, today i learned that i am in fact capable of experiencing a panic attack so severe that i faint
#sorry for talking about this im just. Processing. bc wtf was that#but also when u think about it... pretty metal right#i know this sounds very sucky but like. there are other good things happening in my life so it kinda offsets This#im upset and a bit shaken that this happened as an Isolated Incident#but like. im drawing lots right now! and feeling good about that. so it's okay. but wtf#maybe will delete this later? my brain still feels fuzzy#hopefully the last post of this genre for a while i dont like the vibe it's been bringing to ladynoir brainrot blog#i think it's weird because there's like a LOT of pressure im experiencing in most parts of my life rn which clearly seem to be taking a toll#but the one thing im actually consciously spending time on (art and writing) has been going well. so i feel like. i at least have This#idk why i feel like this is necessary to post#i guess it just helps to know that y'all know that there r weird things afoot behind the url because it feels less like i have to be alone#with it#♡alizeh talks♡#vent#panic attack mention
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When your friend needs you to be there to comfort them, but you have no energy for serious conversations and so you're stuck wondering if youre being a selfish asshole or if youre justified in not wanting to be the one to sort their problems out
#vent#its not like they didnt offer to hear my problems. but i just dont want to talk about. or anything#i dont want serious conversations. i dont want to have to worry about other people. i just cant.#im just so fucking exhausted and i dont know if its talking to them and feeling drained by the fact that theyre going through something-#-and that i need to be the therapist or if im just sick. again.#plus yesterday i slept late. my mum made me cry (i think she was just tired out by that point in the day so i doubt it was personal)#and just#im fucking tired ok#and I'm sorry im a bad friend#i just dont have energy. i want to have good energy around me to try give me some.#but when theyre upset it gets into me and drains me and I've been there as much as i can but i just cant right now. im too tired#i know im a shitty person but literally everyone got to be a shitty person at my expense so isnt it my fucking turn?#and then assuming i was acting like that to hurt them. I DO NOT WANT TO HURT ANYONE. IF WE HAVE A FIGHT I WANT TO MOVE ON.#I'm not gonna be caught up in it if we resolved it#but yeah. long story short they're going through shit and i feel like shit#and i think them going through shit is what makes me feel like shit. because i worry about them#and they can lash out on me#i just dont know anymore. i dont know if im an awful person or not#last year i broke up with a friend and my mum said I'll do the same with the next friend#it wasnt my fault#that friend ghosted me#im trying not to be her rn too and im scared that ive been in the wrong im scared im a shitty person too#but at the same time im too done to even really care#i just wanna stop fucking feeling all this and just get on with my day
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"i wouldn't call myself a sucker. i actually think i got pretty damn lucky there. i shot my shot and it worked."
"Yet you won't shoot your stupid dumb shot at putting an ice cube down his shirt. You got lucky enough to score drinks but you don't think you're lucky enough to survive a cube-in-his-shirt prank? Stupid head. If you're good enough for each other then a prank like that would be fine.
"But no! You're a lame sucky loser who sucks and is lame and sucky. Get bent, coward."
#ic | (heard and loved);#oficeandwind#era | (giant powerful omniscient tree said go take a vacation probably);#(im sorry kami LMAO tonitoni is just so upset about this rn)#(she'll forget by tomorrow morning tho probably. maybe. hopefully. no worries!)
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Opening the local bubble tea store absolutely livid and shaking in rage and upset bc my bitch ass boss is too concerned about us sitting on the job to order the tea bags I requested Two Fucking Weeks Ago (it only takes like 4 or 5 days to ship) and so we're out and I had to hand wash the 1 reusable bag to make black tea and I have to strain the free floating tea leaves from the cold brew and I just KNOWWWW he's going to have something more to bitch about because he always does
Last straw on the camel's back, etc etc, I want to put in my two weeks notice by the end of this week. That's a goal for myself.
#speculation nation#i currently dont have a job lined up but im going to start applying Today#because i cant take this anymore. i cant fucking take this anymore.#i feel like im about to shatter from the strain of hos chokehold#8 years total under his thumb and for What? he doesnt appreciate me. he doesnt value me.#he's an asshole this place sucks and it makes me so sad because i really do care about the people here#but i cant. i cant fucking do it anymore.#im really glad im alone on shift rn bc ha ha ha. ill put up the mask for customers but i am#genuinely shaking rn. im so upset.#this being after he complained Again about people sitting on the job during the meeting last night like#shut UPPPP I DONT CAAAARE#YOU TRY WORKING WITH CHRONIC PAIN AND FATIGUE AND A JOB THAT DOESNT GIVE GENUINE BREAKS#'oh if you need to take a break then do it but just dont sit down on the job“#WHEN DO YOU THINK I COULD TAKE MY BREAK? IM WORKING ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!+#and when im.not working alone im working with trainees so i still cant leave the store unattended#im sick of him.im so sick of him and im THIIIIIIIIIS close to just breaking down here and now#i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him i HATE HIM#negative/#sorry for the vent i just feel like.im about to blow up and everyone's busy so ic cant. vent properly#im not even done opening bc im too busy freaking out and pacing and being angry#and hes gonna watch me sitting here thru the cameras and be like Ho Hum Look at you immediately doing what i said not to#like fucking STOP!!!! WATCHING US!!!!!!! YOU FUCKING CREEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#IM SO SICK OF HIM WATCHING US THROUGH THE CAMERAS. HE HAS NO TRUST IN ME DOING MY JOB#0 value for me as a person or employee 0 value for my to this day dedication to this company#i want to send my heel through those front windows. watch them shatter. wreck the whole place#because fuck this place and fuck him#i wontttt bc i dont wanna go to jail lol but the temptation is there. i fucking hate his guts.#im going to put in my 2 weeks by the end of this week. im going to start applying to places Today. just fucking watch me.
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augghh ,.....
#girl i wanna cry so bad#im so tired#and my gormones are not helping#my mother just fucking bombarded me with so mant questions about uni and i know shes trying to help#but im genuenly so tired i just want to go to sleep#and she keeps asking me stuff and im standing up and my uterus hirsts so bad but she didnt stop expanding#on shit that was SO unnecesary#fucking . have u not heard me before#i told you 5 times that im not recursing this class because it would be so bad#and you keep asking my stuff about what if i did retook it#why do you never listen !!!!!!! and then when im tired of trying to get a word in#you start complaining that this is jow a lonologue and not a concersation !!!!!#my sister in christ whenever i try to speak you dont stop tlaking. what do yoh mean#and i took 2 bugs out of the house and now i have phantoms bugs feelings . feel like there are moths flying toward sme#would be ok in other situations but i cant deal with the phantom sensation rn#crying from frsutration. help!!!!!#im genuenly so sad and angry and upset#not even at my mom. shes ok but rn shes getting on my nerves because im very sensitive and im so tired#i just want to sleeeeep. please.#girl i frel like such a failure#the 10 girl goes from getting 10 in four classes to barelt passing 5 classes. devaststing#i prommy i know im more than my grades but my ego is not feeling it this time#i feel so burned out time is slipping through my fingers#i want a hug 💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪 fuck#sorry for the long venty post. if u read this far u deserve an award
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I lied about going to bed and against my better judgement decided to check the tag One Last Time before actually sleeping and okay I'm actually truly genuinely touched by the amount of people defending me and the poll and telling Certain People off for the ridiculousness that was my inbox today. I am going to bed on god fr now but. God. Thank you.
#sorry sorry ik this isnt haha funny or even me being mad at stuff#if you dont follow my like MAIN main (not my asking blog. like my actual main) but i was um#i was actually upset to a point of tears earlier#partially bc i hadnt eaten a lot partially bc im very tired#(i have since eaten dw)#but i was. yk. upsetti spaghetti as the kids say#i spent WAY too much energy today deleting asks which shouldnt take more than like a second#but hundreds of them make for hundreds of seconds yk. and its a lot.#but the tag rn is both people having fun (WHAT I WANTED IN THE FIRST PLACE)#and people defending me. and its genuinely just so touching and so much#thank you. from the bottom of my heart and soul thank you.
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