#sorry im just upset rn

[rapidhighway]

Why don’t you like sonadow /genq

I generally don't ship anything by default and it just isn't aligned with some headcanons that I hold close to my heart. I think it's annoying how popular it is and how shippers just assume everyone else ships it too. People don't tag it so I can filter it, I constantly have to see some posts about how it's 'canon' because they looked at each other. Like, it just gets tiring with time and I dislike even mentions of it more and more now... Like, its popularity ruins it for me so bad, not even mentioning how it's hard to make a post about the two of them without people making it romantic.

[broareweabouttoviberightnow]

an incredibly ridiculous rant on obx season 4 below the cut read at ur on risk 😔 also if you liked the ending of season 4 keep scrolling I'm happy for you but this post isn't for u loves

ok. I got something to say. lemme preface this with I have no knowledge of Madison and Rudy's off screen fall out or the relationships of the cast. I'm SOLEY talking about the writing and characters here. so with that out of the way.

what the fuck.

I'll be coming back to this after I have finished watching season 4 but I've read over many posts from similarly baffled fans and gotten the gist from articles summing up the shit show of season 4.

this is gonna get lengthy here so feel free to scroll I just have a lot of thoughts.

obx has been one of my comfort shows for many years now. I have watched and rewatched and jj maybank has been a comfort character of mine since the start. so with the previous backstory of my love I am so disappointed over this season. They stripped JJ of the complexities of his character and had such an interesting dynamic with his dependence, fear, and the heart breaking hope maybe one day his father would love him like he deserved to be loved. and they took all that and not only gave Luke a disgusting 2 bit redemption but made all his character depth null and void. perhaps if it had been handled better it would have been interesting. I forgot for a moment what show I was watching. he death was utterly meaningless.

Regarding JJ's death I will put it bluntly. fucking stupid. this show is a shitty teen show. we all knew it from that start and for me it made me love it for what it was. they are not a soap opera. they show was never intended for one of the main characters to die. its silly. it's found family. it's treasure hunting. it. is. not. a. fucking. soap opera.

the pates could have ended it here. the pogues could have had their stories end. pleasantly. bitter sweet maybe, but the end of a coming of age always is. this shit was a fucking flat out money grab. kill the actor who doesn't want to continue and let the show move on. it's beyond frustrating. his character was not finished. no where near. and it wasn't a heartbreaking moment where a character was always doomed. he could have had a happy ending. this was cheap.

all in all season 5 will fall flat. the show was built on the 5 of them and without JJ the show is permanently lopsided. the pates should be sorry for this bullshit. sorry obx fans.

tldr:

[gemharvest]

Hate thissss I feel like I haven't been properly productive today (somehow posting two art things Doesn't register properly in my mind) so I wanna stay up to get as much as I can down, but I also need to go to sleep in case I'm called in tomorrow because fuuuuuck going to work on little sleep that shit sucks. But also, the possibility of being called in makes me wanna stay up even more, so I can finish art in case I don't have time tomorrow. So now I'm sat up at 12:30 tired as shit but unable to draw or go to bed. The never-ending cycle of hell.

[rinhaler]

lonely sad and so so poorly so think I'm gonna work on requests until I get sleepy :)

[mannyheffleyfromdiaryofawimpykid]

"only drawing fat people is gooner stuff !!" oh well following that logic only drawing slim people would also be gooner stuff

[deerlisteners]

felix will rlly b like “it’s not my job to make sure dimitri’s ok” & the very next scene he’s like “hey dimitri stop being so sad” like……… he’s SO subtle

[moethh]

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[mushed-kid]

hi if u saw my drawing (i deleted it)… i genuinely forgot. idk how. i knew my memory is bad but holy shit how the fuck did i forget that. sorry pls dont hate me i didnt mean it

[lenny-zesty]

not knowing how someone else thinks of me is so scary and also really sad. someone who i've been friends with for literal years could have "dniuc" in their status and i just can't say anything because i don't know if that person views us as close. or i'll want to interact with someone really cool by sending them an ask or reblogging with silly tags but my brain immediately assumes "what if they think im annoying as all hell maybe i should be quiet instead".

[p4rty4nim4l]

I try but it’s never good enough

[rosekasa]

following up from My Body Is Being Concerning, today i learned that i am in fact capable of experiencing a panic attack so severe that i faint

[moonlit-orchid]

When your friend needs you to be there to comfort them, but you have no energy for serious conversations and so you're stuck wondering if youre being a selfish asshole or if youre justified in not wanting to be the one to sort their problems out

[abyssmalice]

"i wouldn't call myself a sucker. i actually think i got pretty damn lucky there. i shot my shot and it worked."

"Yet you won't shoot your stupid dumb shot at putting an ice cube down his shirt. You got lucky enough to score drinks but you don't think you're lucky enough to survive a cube-in-his-shirt prank? Stupid head. If you're good enough for each other then a prank like that would be fine.

"But no! You're a lame sucky loser who sucks and is lame and sucky. Get bent, coward."

[orcelito]

Opening the local bubble tea store absolutely livid and shaking in rage and upset bc my bitch ass boss is too concerned about us sitting on the job to order the tea bags I requested Two Fucking Weeks Ago (it only takes like 4 or 5 days to ship) and so we're out and I had to hand wash the 1 reusable bag to make black tea and I have to strain the free floating tea leaves from the cold brew and I just KNOWWWW he's going to have something more to bitch about because he always does

Last straw on the camel's back, etc etc, I want to put in my two weeks notice by the end of this week. That's a goal for myself.

[amyloveletter]

augghh ,.....

[incorrectskyrimquotes]

I lied about going to bed and against my better judgement decided to check the tag One Last Time before actually sleeping and okay I'm actually truly genuinely touched by the amount of people defending me and the poll and telling Certain People off for the ridiculousness that was my inbox today. I am going to bed on god fr now but. God. Thank you.