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citrusai · 2 months ago

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taash said "they were doing it" and people ran with the interpretation of an npc that doesn't know solas or the history of the elvhenan even when bellara interjected and said, no, that's not right. that's not how it was for the elvhenan. they formed bonds before they had physical bodies. and people ran to doompost or create weird anti-solavellan shit even though mythal & solas refer to each other as old friends and when she releases him there is no tenderness or love in it. it is the act of unchaining a dog from his post, the stepping down of a general. but to each their own ig.

#let the record show i think love was there. do I personally perceive it as romantic / sexual? no.#mythal's perception of love & care is warped in and of itself #i think they loved each other. but she loved what she could take from him and what he could give in terms of service #not because she was romantically into him #also i wish we knew more about her & elgar'nan. her regret prison form says she holds no love for him anymore #and it makes me wonder when that love soured. was it when she was blighted? before that? was that love also born of duty and companionship?#this is the last post i'm gonna make ab this i think #bc i believe people are too caught up in the modern western ideas of love as thing we give solely to our romantic partners #and we literally have a character go ”our perception is warped bc of the age we live in” and some of you are still being purposefully obtuse #and i think trick saying it's up to interpretation is basically admitting EA had them dumb down the game anyway #if everything ab the rise and fall of the evanuris in game #was condensed to five 2min cutscenes it says enough that whatever the writers wanted #was swiftly cut down by corporate dept. basically saying it's in the fans' court now #also bc it's an easy cop out around new players & non solasmancers who are indifferent ab him / dislike him #as a way to appeal thru a more sympathetic lense of look!! he loved and was led astray #not to mention the clear justinia / leliana parallels #and leliana gets angry if you imply she was romantically involved / in love w justinia #and the romance descr when you remake your inq saying the dread wolf could not predict what it would mean to fall IN LOVE #implying he had never fallen in love before or at the very least experienced a romantic love #also him saying drinking from the well would make you a slave and he gets really upset #yet ive seen takes of ”hes doing this for her cus he dgaf ab lavellan” ?? he got mythal killed when he told her ab the blight #whatever feelings of admiration he had for her have rotted. he is literally burdened by his mistakes and his choice in joining her #i feel like if i were a spirit bound and twisted into a weapon i would need my creator to tell me i am Free. i would need that closure #like when cole says its not abuse to bind him if he asks and solas said thats not always true???#if you perceive her interaction w him in vg third act as #anything more than the way justinia released leliana in inq then im sorry maybe youre just obtuse #solavellan #mythal #dragon age meta

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slamrink · 8 days ago

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Nothing to see here just steph stealing glances of klay like he’s afraid he’s going to get caught 😃😃 (via namxsj on twitter )

#nba #golden state warriors #dallas mavericks #steph curry #klay thompson #steph/klay #ok first of all oh my god #secondly i need asg week to be NEOW actually I don’t think im capable of waiting til feb #both teams have kinda been floundering (mavs to a lesser extent but still) and I am growing Impatient for the reunion !!#also the buddy hield cycle being proven right for the 4th(?) time. lmao. some of those dumbasses rlly thought they got prime klay back #the victory lapping after beating the blazers jazz pelicans and pelicans was like nothing I had ever seen #especially towards a fucking legend !! like klay fucking thompson !!!!#no one not even pr-trained to high hell steph curry himself could ever convince me that he’s hopeful or even okay with this bullshit #he needs klay. klay needs him. they need each other and always have but it’s looking more and more likely that steph is #gonna go out like kobe while klay is gonna gonna keep chasing the ghost of pre-injury self #that last part felt so wrong to type out because i personally think he’s been everything you could want and more from a guy #who went thru everything that he went thru and #his comeback is probably my favorite comeback story in any sport ever of all time bc it’s such a fairy tale. and it also actually HAPPENED #!!!!!!!!!!!!#ppl talk abt the injuries like they happened to him and then he just disappeared forever like no bitch !!!!#he came back and they won it all that same year !! led the league in 3pm the year after that !!!!!! led the league in ft% the year #after that n ppl still acting like he adds virtually no value to any team that wants to win a chip when in reality that couldn’t be further #from the truth #I wrote it like that because I get the sense that they both look a little lost/confused at times and I can’t help but think that #losing embarrassingly or not they might at least be in better spirits (if nothing else) if they still had each other’s company #oh well. lol #ok I think that’s everything I had and a million sorrys if this post exploded on ur dash i wish I could turn off my stupid sports rpf brain #but I can’t ❤️#wishing every happiness to the two of them tho they’re my babiest girls frfr #nik's rants

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p4nishers · 1 year ago

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thinking about the relationship between mightily oats' "the worthwhile [words] don't burn" and constable dorfl's "the words in the heart cannot be taken"

#especially the journey both of them had to go through to get to the point of saying that. like the whole of carpe jugulum oats was so TORN #and before that too about what words could you believe and who could you really trust on their word about om and the prophets and he went #out of his way to look up records disproving what the book of om said bc he KNEW nothing they said could be believed and just all the pain #and all that doubt he went thru and the part where he questioned om's 'infinite compassion' as he prayed bc really what compassion?#how many people prayed at the stake just like he was doing in that moment? how many people had to live with the silence of their god just #like he did? but still when his book of om – that he clung to the whole book for reassurance – burned he said the worthily words don't burn #the worthily words are in the heart and in the mind and not feed into his mouth by old man who just #made things up to justify their actions. he had all the words he needded the whole time and holiness was always all around him. he just had #to look #and dorfl being created with words in his head that dictated his every move . words that chained him. then he and the other golems created #'king' for themselves in the hope he'd lead them to freedom but they put too many words in his head and he failed and carrot gave dorfl his #own freedom and his own words and that lead to dorfl destroying his well child basically and destroying himself in the process but the word #in his heart his OWN words remained and they were able to rebuilt him and vimes give him a voice and his words and belief remained in him b #they were always his #god. sorry for the ramble im severally unwell about them #mightily oats #constable dorfl #carpe jugulum #feet of clay #gnu terry pratchett #discworld

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azuneekun · 10 months ago

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i come check ur blog everytime my friends slander shane to my face. its a type of shane palette cleanser. ur the only mf who gets me

Im glad you can feel some sort of sanctuary in my blog bcz shane fans r always going through the fucking trenches in this fandom

#i just went through facebook looking at a page that did not ask for permission posting my art (i gave up) and im reading thru the comments #and most of them r just slandering shane left and right like CAN U GET OUT #i know that old man is stinky!!! now GET OUT OF MY HOUSE 👉🚪#i keep getting shit in reddit too everytime i post shane. this never happens w the other characters 😂#they all complain abt me drawing shane “handsome” like idk how to tell these ppl but can u fuckin imagine if i drew shane more poorly than #everyone else LMFAOOOOOOOOOO #like even if im not a fan of a character i wouldnt draw them intentionally 'ugly' 😭😂 there would always be someone who loved that person #ppl r entitled to their own opinion ofc and we cant stop them for not liking shane but they dont have to rub it in our face either 😭😂#i normally just avoid/ignore ppl who dont like shane (obviously. incredibly normal thing to do.) but shane haters will go to shane fans #and shit right in their front yard and personal spaces lmfaooo 😭😂 good lord #sorry for the yelling in the tags

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writesology · 3 months ago

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how grateful i am, to be able to call you mine

#my art #twisted wonderland #riddle rosehearts #ace trappola #ridoace #acerido #twas fun rendering practice.. thank u riddle for being my silly little experiment w the skin rendering and everything #still so proud of riddle's expression he's sooo in love!! with ace!! they're such babey i love them #for such a silly confident dude ace gets embarrassed so easily #but doctor prescribed me ridoace for my crippling loneliness </3 #when mourning the friendships that could've been just draw ur fave blorbos #sorry guys im kinda going thru it lmao. but ridoace always makes me feel better so it's okay

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oonessawness · 6 months ago

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Some art of Regalrains Ivyiplier!! I think hes so so pretty and the idea makes me giddy cause i loveeee poison Ivy ^_^

[ @regalrain ]

#regalrain #for regal #^0^ been forever since ive been drawing consistenly and without fail mark/mark adjacent art always gets me doodlin #im redrawing some of the old drawings from this blog too like the darkiplier one :] i hope theyyyy come out good!#as always rbs and comments appreciated #and requests r semi open! ill get to what i can whenever ♡ and ill go thru some of the old inbox ones!#love u alllll #art #my art #ivyplier #seraph scribbles #annus.img #fan ego #??? idk how i should tag this but i heart regalrain #sorry if the weight of the sweater doesnt look fantastic wah wah #had to add the bracket tags bc it wouldnt let me in the main text >:[

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anonymocha · 5 months ago

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i love demure and sweet depictions of lesbianism and sapphic/trixic relationships. but lesbianism to me has always been bloody and a little bit cruel so i tend to feel more detached to such depictions.

#theres something incredibly healing about seeing girls in ethereal white sundresses embracing each other #but at the same time that will never be me. i think.#im more of a beast and not even a girl #and i want to see more… beasts #beastly freaks being loved will always hit my heart in. a way. yeah.#mochats #but i still love pretty sparkly cutesy yuri like hell yeah #sorry for the lack of content im going thru it irl

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b4kuch1n · 1 year ago

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ough brain is doing SO bad but sometimes. there are colors

#bakuspeech #WIP #cw: gore #the stuffed animal cartoon kind. but still #ask to tag #Im so fucking sorry I keep going like I will draw! (does not draw for three weeks #I. ngl Somethin is goin on up there. I finished writing a Thing and it doesnt solve that #I just. this is my capacitance really I think. I just gotta. accept it. work with it #its always so funny tho bc like I look at whatever it is Im drawing rn and its like hey this looks like shit! this looks ass #and then I keep drawing it.#like this piece is at Least two weeks into something thats supposed to be a pretty quick revised illus for #an old wizard leon design. and like if I werent Bit Off it wouldve stayed that way #instead. this is how its goin #I have not slept for 23 hours. I should uh. fix that #but yeah its just. my brain is wrappin itself around some new ideas n concepts n shit rn #like. I was really afraid I wouldnt be able to paint digitally if Im not on the screen tablet #and its kinda fuckin with me? like obviously I can. I am literally doing the exact same things Im doing on the screen tablet #but now on a graphic tablet #thats just. not getting thru to my brain yet. for some reason. its still generating goo n such #well! what is a guy to do. if not blastin off regardless #sorry. I really should sleep now #have a good night lads! this piece will be done when its done. I am NOT saying more I am not jinxing SHIT #u should change ur pillowcases! it really does send u to another realm

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electoons · 5 months ago

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another day another taco bell drive thru murder-suicide

#two nickels #actually the other one was aggravated assault and the guy survived. still #anyway this time i was in the walmart next door. oblivious #what the hell is it about taco bell that just attracts violence when im nearby. is it me #(cause of death not yet determined btw. but the last one a guy beat another guy unconscious like RIGHT before i got there #turned right the fuck around and went home. i also once almost got run over by a man asleep at the wheel of his pickup truck #at a. you guessed it. taco bell drive thru)#anyway sorry im not trying to make light of someone's literal death like thats horrifying. its just WHY IS IT ALWAYS TACO BELL?#(dont worry btw i didnt just like leave the unconscious man there like the cops were on their way and there were lots of people on the scen #already so. like. i JUST want to make it clear i did not see an unconscious man and drive away)#mia.txt #IM SORRY AGAIN IM NOT TRYING TO LIKE MAKE JOKES ABT SOMEONE'S DEATH IM JUST IN SHOCK #update: it was road rage :( a woman cut a guy off at the drive thru so he fucking shot her. what the hell is going on anymore i hate it here

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greasydumbfuck · 4 months ago

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i miss my wife tails

#the wife is a fictional middle aged man #another one of those days where i just miss him a lot for zero reason at all and theres nothing i can do to make it better #i was hormonal earlier but then i started feeling bad about it and now im just needy. arms outstretched to nothing. hold me please. frank.#and yeah im thinking about him and kids again. saw something on twitter that like shot me dead #so now ive just been sitting here. thinking about him holding a baby in his arms. its not his but it has nobody else to hold it #and i know that while he will never let himself keep it for a moment in time hed love it like his own #god sorry im going thru something. give this man a child. force him to be the father he was always meant to be

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dandyshucks · 4 months ago

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i Love pkmn but i love it as a worldbuild. when i play the game its just bc i like exploring the world and the critters. and i feel like everyone else who likes pkmn are all ppl who Love the games and competitive parts of it. so i feel a little embarrassed about not being a game-lover and competition-lover... i simply enjoy the world and the silly creatures 😭😭

#i dont talk about pkmn very much outside of this space and even here i just talk abt Guz mostly #bc i always worry ppl are going to think im silly (derogatory) for not being a proper gamer fjdkdl #when i was a kid i was able to remember the pkmn names a lot more and i probably could've learned the type matchups #but i didnt have a chance to play the games (bc of abuse and misogyny lol) so i couldn't like... learn stuff as a kid when i actually-#-had a functional memory still 😭😭 once i hit 15 i started losing my memory capabilities #and i only started playing a little bit when i was 16 so rest in shit LOL #(also the misogyny thing is just that my brothers were allowed to play video games but i wasnt bc i was a girl lmfao)#I JUST FEEL EMBARRASSED i wish i could be a Gamer™ but I'm just. not good at it.#i Could be good if i rly put in a bunch of effort but like... i got better things to do and things i care about more sbdjdkl #AUUUGHHH sorry for this im just embarrassed all of a sudden abt this djfkdl #and also worry that ppl are going to expect me to be Good at this or smth but yall im rly not fjdkdl i just sort of brute force my way thru #all the battles and everything fnfkdl i use almost No strategy fjdkdl i prefer offensive moves over defensive moves even #its just... im not good at this stuff dhdkdl #dandy.cmd #dandy.exe #vent //

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her-canine-teeth · 10 months ago

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bad astrology by flower face

#yellowjackets #jackieshauna #ITS DONE OMG ITS FINISHED #what do I do now. with my life (ranking)#also ive decided i am gonna do literary analysis. on all of em #literally i have NO idea if anyone cares. well. i do bc I care and tbh that's enough to me #<- guys look im living so healthy #anyways this was a blast #hope somebody has at least discovered flower face trhu me bc its one of my fav artists #mitos incredible life #mine art tag #also im sorry the like long scenes 3 and 4 arent on beat :/ i love that song but it has so long instrumental stuff and idk what to do there #ALSO!! i had it all planned out like at least half in my docs (like always)#and then in the middle i was like 'omg what if I only show jackie-after-the-argument and shauna-after-jackies-dead'#(excluding the argument and the flashbacks (they used to hear us thru the floor))#which was. restricting. very much #also meaning was changed (originally wanted jackie to have the line 'idc if ure not made for me' but the only scene i could think of was th #ure hungry for and that was the next scene already so.)#anyways this was originally gonna be lottienat before i started with The Shark In Your Water #bc I thiught it fit them SO well. (still do) but now I like have to get away from the jackieshauna thought and then ill do the lottienat #probably #omg also I want everyone (who has read this far. whoever would do that) to know i was running on like 25 screen #recordings and 3 jackieshauna scene packs form yt #that's why. I dknt have that many clips alright im not using like 10 scenes over n over on purpose #gotta go but im gonna make a wrap post thingy once im back slay #no actually I get like average 7 notes (<- that's a lie Idk bc I didnt count) but im proud of myself this is amazing #ive wanted to do smth similiar alr #but it was some album by alec benjamin and a different thing for every song (like a poem‚ a painting or a play)#but I lost motivation this is the first thing that i actually pulled though all the way I think #jackieshauna: The Shark In Your Water

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elliesbelle · 1 year ago

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NOW I HEAR YOUR VOICE EVERYTIME THAT I THINK I’M NOT ENOUGH

#but literally like #that’s exactly what happens now #AND I FANTASIZE ABOUT A TIME YOU’RE A LITTLE FUCKING SORRY #LIKE???? is there NO guilt?!?! i have to live with the grief and you get to be fucking happy #‘i deserved to move on’ ‘you think it was easy to move on’ IDGAF you still moved on??????#YOU ONCE CALLED ME FOREVER NOW YOU STILL CAN’T CALL ME BACK #the FUCK happened to loving me always????????? through thick and thin???? i never stopped fucking loving you despite what i was going thru!!#all i feel now is fucking shame and disgust for myself because didn’t i fucking say?????? didn’t i fucking say you were gonna leave me again #and you swore you never would again!! then wtf happened!!!#you couldn’t handle my trust issues with you and i just know you hated me for not getting over them #i literally can never trust anyone ever again i am never trusting anybody with my fucking heart again EVER i can’t do it anymore #AND I JUST CANT IMAGINE HOW YOU COULD BE SO OKAY NOW THAT IM GONE #literally you’re fucking okay and in fucking LOVE with SOMEONE ELSE i am literally fucking NOTHING to you anymore #you always have and will ALWAYS find love in and with someone else and i never will again #the possibility of being with someone again literally disgusts me i am not doing it ever again #‘you’ll find someone else eventually’ i am NOT like YOU who always finds someone else i literally have NEVER found anyone else since you #i am literally and have never been enough and you don’t care #v #belle speaks

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tytonnidaie · 8 months ago

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i love to read meta of knives as an abuser and nod my head thoughtfully at all great points and then once the post ends i go back to considering him as my darling son who never did anything wrong ever

#let him out your honour yeah he did it all but i dont care #he had some points #so what he and his twin brother fell into and perpetuated the cycle of abuse that hurts each other #they broke out of it at the end. that has to count #“we cant go back. we cant be those brothers again. so ill kill you if you kill me. why didnt you kill me. WHY DID YOU SAVE ME”#and then at the end he did the thing vash tried to save him from anyway (disappearing forever and ever and ever and ever and )#sorry. lots of thoughts abt these tragic siblings #forever thinking about how vash threw the first stone between them #like that fuckssssss me up #i know tristamp changed that #but to me its always. knives loving him thru violence bc its the only way that makes sense. only for vash to use it on him #so of course knives lashed out. imagine realising the thing u use to protect ur brother can hurt you back just as bad #imagine killing a town of people that hurt your brother only for him to shoot you #and then you cut his arm off #not taking any critique at this time. im fully aware of the text. im just choosing to love him anyway :)#this is also why i find swap fic sooooo compelling. where vash is the dangerous one and knives is his victim #oooo u are two sides of the same coin. you could have been each other if only a few things went differently #but you could never be The Same

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red-dyed-sarumane · 2 months ago

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i can draw rime so nicely when its just like 15 minute sketches god forbid i sit down to draw her seriously & she just becomes completely uncooperative. why must u be difficult tenshi wouldnt do this to me.

#this could be so cute if she LET ME DRAW HER #TENSHI wouldnt be this difficult whats ur PROBLEM. LET ME DRAW YOU.#okay from an art perspective the problem actually appears to be the angle and lack of motion #but its more fun to say shes being uncooperative #and since my mecchi is so so jealous of tenshi she can get compared to her.#revenge for making me mad #u want to be her so bad yet u cant even be a good model for me to draw come ON #sorry im going thru it in so many ways rn #im like never satisfied with how i draw rime theres always something off no matter how i try #even the ones ive posted like come ON. UR NOT EVEN THAT DIFFICULT. WHAT IS UR PROBLEM #none of the series girls give me this issue. fuck kafu and sekai dont give me this issue #coko is an issue in herself theres so many parts to her outfit. i havent draw haru enough to say #what i have drawn of her hasnt given me any issue tho #rime is so simple WHY must u trouble me so #coloring her eyes is a different story i style havent figure out what i want to do there #im talking about just. sketching out an outfit on her.#what EVEN ever goodbye

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oatmealcrisp-freak · 2 months ago

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the 2002 count of monte cristo adaptation is at once god-fearing yet bristling with queer undertones. to me? yes. however.

judging by the rainbow in the background as one man stabs another man straight through with his sword in a culmination of bitter betrayal and jealousy that tore apart their previously loving childhood friendship, even god agrees with me.

#fernand i know this is napolean era france but maybe if you'd explained your huge bi crush you mighta been able to get in on that and #enjoy a wonderful triadic relationship im js. ur rich the rules wont apply to you :/#your friend is an oblivious puppy who only has sunshine and flowers between his ears until rage unlocks his brain hes not #picking up on anything youre putting down. his girlfriend who has more brains than the both of you is also not impressed by #your inability to stop being such a cad. so stop being such a cad.#or dont i guess #sorry im overwhelmed by the way he escaped only to stop and stare out into that open empty field #then turned back to scream edmonds name #my being queer is always going to colour my perception obviously but even outside of a queer lens #the love turned sour here is poignant and powerful #i will fully admit to being a fake fan ive yet to read the novel all the way thru tho

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