#sorry i was kinda babbling

[l4deeznuts]

one of the things i love about nellis is how it really doesn’t seem too unrealistic of a relationship

nick and ellis are what most people would consider your average men who would probably realistically be straight (obviously nick having an ex wife, ellis being attracted to zoey)

but as they travel deeper into the apocalypse they become closer, and this really doesn’t just apply to nick and ellis. all four survivors are people that most likely would not have anything to do with each other in normal everyday life. but here they are, a family now basically. nick even admits that the other three are the first people he has ever trusted in his entire life— and knowing nick’s character, that definitely means something.

so going back to him and ellis’ relationship, it isn’t entirely unrealistic that something could happen. when you’re in a literal end of the world scenario, all bets are off the table. anything and everything could happen.

it’s not too far fetched being straight and then all of a sudden questioning your sexuality, it happens quite literally all the time. so imagine trusting your literal life with someone every second of every day, building a genuine connection with them.. one day you might just be sitting there and the realization of feelings hit you, or you could have sudden sexual urges, etc. normal human emotions and functions right?

and this doesn’t just solely apply to nellis, any l4d ship could potentially work because of what i call the end of the world theory lmao. i love it because there’s just enough lore in the game and characters to have a proper foundation, but leaves it empty enough to where majority of headcanons and whatnot could probably work in canon, if that makes sense!

[divine-misfortune]

The floor is yours good sir 👀

CLEARS THROAT

After his transition, Dewdrop felt nothing but loss. Everything was taken from him. His element, his pack, his bass. And what pack he had left felt like strangers to him, though some of them were strangers. Mountain and Aether looked at him different. He was just Dew now. No more Dewdrop, the clergy had even stolen his own fucking name from him. No more droplet, no more water lily, no more catfish. Sure, the nicknames changed. Sure, they were still endearing. But they weren’t his. It felt like he’d stolen something from Ifrit - like every passing ‘spitfire’ was desecrating something sacred.

In the weeks and months following, he hides the urge to grimace every single time these new pet names find their way to his ears. Dew wants to like them, wants to feel that familiar fuzzy warmth in his chest. Yearns for the feeling of love to settle into his core like an old familiar friend. He also does his best not to looked like a kicked puppy when Mountain calls this new ghoul ‘tadpole’ for the first time, and the second time, and every occurrence after that. It was like being replaced. More confusing of a feeling though, keeping him around to watch this new water ghoul blossom was painful. Could have been classified as Dewdrop related cruelty.

And there is no way for him to swallow down the resentment and anger that boils in him when Aether purrs the faintest ‘raindrop’ against Rain’s kiss plumped lips. Puts off sparks, the fire in the hearth crackles and flares violently before snuffing out abruptly as he gets off the couch and storms out of the room.

Time blurs eventually. They say it heals all wounds but all it does is numb him to the hurt. Dew can force it down far enough he can force himself to be in the same room as Rain. And then after a bit longer, tolerate a conversation with him, which turns into multiple over time. Spirals into thousands of shared thoughts and words between them until Dew can’t get enough of listening to Rain talk. Disdain and arms length distance becomes infatuation and a desire for proximity he didn’t think possible before.

Dew kisses him. Suddenly and without even considering what he was doing, the fire ghoul was leaning over the sleek white bass in Rain’s lap to sate an itch he’d been ignoring since the day they met. Their mouths fit together like they were made for this. He tastes like everything Dew had dreamed about and more. It tastes like home and conflict mixed in one but it doesn’t drive him away like it should. Curiosity has him licking over the seam of Rain’s lips and dipping past when Rain allows him in. His gasp lights a fire in Dew he’d never felt. Not simply arousal, but something deeper than even he knew. Completion.

They’re lucky Rain has the shoulder strap on because if not that bass would’ve hit the floor because Rain’s hands had abandoned it to fit on a more favorable body. One against his cheek, the other on the back of his neck. Every point of contact Dew can find helps make the world make sense again. He’s practically trying to crawl into Rain’s already occupied lap, wanting to press their bodies together in a way not entirely sexual.

And they part, and Dew’s world feels broken in half. Ripped away by the distance between their lips. The taste lingers and Dew hopes it stays forever. Hopes that this might be the one thing they can’t take from him.

“Rain, I-“

“Took you long enough,” he interrupts and pets his thumb over his warm cheek. “Kept me waiting, droplet.”

There it is. That single fucking word and Dew’s shattered world is flipped on its head and forced back together despite the missing chipped pieces.

The clergy may have stolen it from him, but Rain gave it back just like that.

Dew could laugh, should probably cry, but he just stares at those pretty blue eyes. Frozen until relief thaws him and reminds his heart to start beating again, even if it is a bit faster than it had been. It didn’t matter, his heart could beat right out of his chest and Dew wouldn’t care. Too fixated on the way the word leaves Rain’s tongue, fascinated by the fondness it carries, enraptured by the way he looks at him. It didn’t cure the pain his transition caused him, but it did stitch the open wound shut so it could finally begin to heal.

“Say it again…”

“Again?”

“Call me that again, please.”

“As many times as you want, droplet. Anything you want.”

And each one is a reminder of who he was - who he is. His name no longer felt strange and foreign like ill fitted clothes.

[fatherentropy]

Xelzaz's line on Maormer made me chuckle because... y'know. Yorick. Also been rocking a hood w/ his usual face mask so you can't see shit on his head so he could easily pass for whatever which is fun for situations like this??? idk Anyway!!

Playable Maormer w/o needing mods when (never, I know but shh)

I might be the only person that jokingly threatens people I'm comfortable with but y'know. Never said I was good with people. Said the opposite actually lmao

Also I keep drawing Yorick as super aggro but I think that's just the Nebarra effect because he's a space cadet tbh.

was gonna have Xel and Lucifer say something at the end here but I... forgot what but also not happy with these faces because blah blah argonian hard blah. Same thing I'm always complaining about lmao

Judging

anyway, silly nonsense that's probably funnier in my head but now it's OUT of my head and that's what's really more important tbh. That all of you have to be inflicted with it is a sacrifice I'm willing to make.

[mischievouslittlecreature]

Having one of those days where I wanna delete everything I've ever written and crawl into a hole to hide for forever.

Don't worry, I'm not actually gonna. My brain is just being stupid.

[bikebian]

another way that it chapter 2 screwed over mike i feel like was trying to make him scary when calling bill or any of the losers because like imagine getting a. call ans u hear the person saying “it’s mike” “you need to come home” LIKE SO OMINOUSLY like WHY is he so vague ? that shit doesn’t make sense….. there r millions of ppl named mike …. i still don’t understand why they did that u can make a horror movie but still intertwine the love. they focused too much on horror, the losers are just not Losers like they’re supposed to be… ur supposed to stay bc u LOVE each other not bc ur FORCED to stay

[lottiies]

life lately (ft. a cute raccoon i saw last night </3)

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[saturnvs]

the chest pain that comes with living under constant stress is really something huh. ouch

[acupofmochaa]

since we don't have a canon character sheet for kyogoku yet, do we think he's taller or shorter than ayatsuji? either outcome is hilarious for me tbh though i am a firm believer in shorter kyogoku

im definitely projecting my scoliosis problems onto him but i am backing this up with his age (then he turns out to be like. in his mid to late 40's or something. asagiri let me have this please).

constantly has lower back and shoulder pain and has this fuckass horrible posture. he's already shorter than current ayatsuji (i also headcanon ayatsuji to have had a freaky ass growth spurt when he was in his teens, lowkey spooking kyogoku), and his posture is not helping him. he's highkey happy to be an apparition now because that eliminated his back problems. anyway. he's probably not that much shorter than ayatsuji? probably a couple of centimeters off, but still noticeable if you look close enough.

taller kyogoku is also a hilarious image for me. he's already got the senior citizen and old age jokes under his belt, what more that he add his freaky height to the mix of his twisted humor? though ayatsuji is around 179 cm i can't really picture kyogoku to be taller in my head. but i repeat myself and reiterate, it is a hilarious image

do we think kyogoku teases him along the lines of "oh you've grown so much... i still remember taking you back in when you were still such a sweet child and barely reached my waist...." and ayatsuji tells him to jump off a cliff or something

[cerealmonster15]

haikaveh... save me haikaveh...

i KNOW it's been talked about to death but. the haikaveh research project. it literally haunts my mind. i cannot get over the implications. alhaitham going through his school life as someone that most people dont even really know about because he keeps to himself and doesn't socialize, with kaveh being the one exception to that, finding his way into his life as his Best Friend, and then leading to alhaithams one and only time he participated in a research topic. his bio says he only ever did ONE joint project!!! one!!! the one with kaveh his best friend and i think also his only friend at the time!!!! and then it ended in not only the project falling apart but also alhaithams only friendship. kavehs best friendship. they were each others closest person. they had no family around - alhaithams parents having died when he was young and his grandmother dying before he joined the akademiya, and kaveh's dad dying when he was young and his mom having moved to fontaine. like even if you dont look at it through a romantic lens it's still undeniable how important they were [and are] to each other..........

i'm getting off track but my point is very specifically for alhaitham, the one time he got close to someone, made a friend, even agreed to join one(1) group project ever, it ended in disaster. it led him into a fight so bad that his one and only friend said he regretted that friendship!!!! it was so bad alhaitham left the project and he and kaveh didnt speak for ages until they just happened to run into each other again at the tavern!!!!! like obviously it has to be incredibly awful for both of them but i just think how this probably had alhaitham in the cynical mindset that friendships and collaborations like that might just never work out for him because the one time he let someone into his life, it blew up on him and he was all alone again. even though alhaitham never seems to care much if people dont like him, that clearly cant still apply to someone he was exceptionally close to. like if he didnt care he woudlnt have been the one to take his name off the project and mutually not speak to kaveh...... kavehs words are the ones that hit the most significantly to alhaitham.......... kaveh is said/implied to have had at least some other friends while at school / people knew who he was, but not so much alhaitham. people didnt know him and the ones that did just knew he didnt socialize/he was not easy to get along with. he only had kaveh and then, for a while, he lost him too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[thebrookesnook]

my tabs rn are a mess. rip my patience, trying to find the tab i need.

On another note...

...nom nom

[breezy-cheezy]

@grumpyoldsnake Thank you, you're very sweet!! and hhsdhgfkds THIS GOT SILLIER I was like what's the opposite of swoopy and round...

Isa: Box head man

Me: RIGHT

Stiffer thicker lines attempt too! closed smaller eyes and all too hehe

[a-ikuoliver]

……,…should i fire shots to keep the rent down?

[twistedappletree]

they should invent a period that doesn’t last over 2 weeks and doesn’t cause so much pain that you spend the first 5 days on the bathroom floor crying and throwing up because it feels like someone is slowly ripping out your uterus and intestines with a medieval torture device

[ltlemon]

Beweeepp bwop bweop bep bep bop bep bweeeeeap bwamp. Bewmp.

LMAO

SORRY I JUST CLICKED ON THE NOTIFICATION IN THIS 👇IMAGE

[tiny-tokunaga]

Today I finally had the appointment I've been waiting for since December and it went better than I imagined. The doctors were SO nice and listened and so knowledgeable?? They answered my questions easily and then some, and were even familiar with my other conditions???? It's been hours and I'm still in shock over how smooth everything was??? Anyway, I'll be getting surgery this year and while it won't cure me (impossible, unfortunately) it should improve my quality of life tremendously and I'm so excited 😭

[wurmzirkus]

THANK YOU FOR TAGGING ME @raylangivins AND @imperial-evolution !! lemme combine these two

tagging @rhizomehaunt, @tallahasseemp3, @agentmika, @jacobied, and @udonthreens AND ALSO everyone who really wants to do this bc i think its such a cute concept