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Novice sewing pattern: Cut out shapes. Line up the little triangles on the edges. Stitch edges together. We've also included step-by-step assembly instructions with illustrations.
Novice knitting pattern: yOU MUSt uNDerstANd thE SECret cOdE CO67 (73, 87, 93) BO44 (63, 76, 90) 28 (32, 34) slip first pw repeat 7x K to end *kl (pl) 42 * until 13" (13, 13, 15) join new at 30 pl for 17 rows ssk 27 k2tog mattress lengthwise BO and sacrifice a goat to the knitting gods. WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU WANT "INSTRUCTIONS," I JUST GAVE THEM TO YOU
#knitting#no it's not a real pattern but I can't write one that makes sense because I have no freaking clue what any of that means#How do you make things that aren't basic rectangles#Why has every knitter I've asked for help just said 'patterns are easy; you just have to know how to read them' & then refused to teach me#Where do I even find a goat to sacrifice#How do I join the pattern cult#I am so confused#I've been knitting for almost a decade but I can only make scarves and potholders#I learned one (1) stitch by watching a YouTube video and none of my friends or family knit so I have no IRL resources#And nobody I meet seems to want to take the time to explain the rest to me#I taught myself to sew through trial and error but that doesn't really work with knitting because error is pretty much just... Unraveling?#Anyway sorry for the tag rant I'm just frustrated that I see pretty things I want to make but the instructions are in an alien language#And the gap between 'absolute novice' and 'intermediate' seems to be about 20 years of experience and formal instruction
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Serious Bitch Opinion: lan wangji...would be a terrible chief cultivator. yes, he is righteous and honorable and has a stalwart moral backbone. however, when you are given the responsibility of leading others, the impeccability of your own moral character must come second to what tangible results you can actually achieve for your people. and if you want to actually achieve any tangible results, instead of getting deadlocked forever or getting done in by your political enemies, you have to learn to compromise on some of your ideals. instead of freezing out the people you find morally despicable, you must learn to cooperate with them; otherwise, you will not achieve anything. and in order to achieve your goals, you must learn that not all of your goals are achievable--that, in order to get the more important of your desired measures passed, you must give up on some others.
now, this is almost the polar opposite of what MDZS as a text champions. arguably one of the central thematic thrusts of MDZS is the importance of not compromising on your ideals, even when it would be far more pragmatic to do so. thus, if lan wangji wanted to become a leader who could actually achieve things, he would have to directly contradict one of the most important messages of the very text that valorizes him.
the moral framework employed by MDZS to evaluate its characters and convey its themes is much more focused on ideals than on results. what matters to MDZS as a narrative is ultimately not the results of one's actions, whether one's righteousness led to joy or to ruin, but rather that one attempted to be righteous even in the face of almost inevitable failure. attempt the impossible, after all. the text of MDZS does not follow utilitarian ideas; it does not condemn wei wuxian for ultimately failing to save almost anyone. rather, wei wuxian's stalwart moral character is celebrated in spite of his failures because he, unlike everyone else, tried.
unfortunately--while someone who is only responsible for their own life can attempt the impossible, someone who is responsible for the lives of millions must instead achieve the achievable.
#mdzs#cql#lan wangji#wei wuxian#tbh as someone who leans heavily towards utilitarianism myself. i can't fully agree with a one-dimensional valorization of wwx.#sometimes the consequences of your actions matter. sometimes if it is apparent something will end in tragedy#you should not attempt it. even if it's righteous. even if it would be morally despicable of you not to try.#sometimes...the morality of an action is determined by its result. rather than anything inherent to the action itself.#sorry for the utilitarianism.#i guess this also explains why i gravitate more towards characters like jin guangyao and jiang cheng.#because they actually seem to understand that actions have consequences#and that sometimes those consequences are more important than maintaining one's own impeccable moral character.#they understand the limits of their own abilities.#are they always correct in their assessments of the situation? no. lmao.#but i find such pragmatic characters to be refreshing in a genre inundated both with single-minded “heroes”#and with writers desperate to exonerate said heroes from consequences.#yanyan speaks#bit of a haterpost sorry
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I've been very slowly replaying the start of botw recently (as in: I'm still not out of Great Plateau) because I wanted a chill game on the Switch for when I'm deceased, which is a state of being I often find myself stuck in lately, and I have to say that... even if it's not revolutionary, the care and caftsmanship in setting up the stakes that is built up in the Great Plateau makes for a rough comparaison to TotK's Great Sky Islands. Dialogue feels like it's not a first draft. There is subtext. There is actual environmental storytelling with a well-trodded pacing in its revelations. There are questions the player will ask themselves organically, and then there are answers being provided. I don't feel like looking at wordcount right now, but I'm fairly certain, from gut feeling, that the wordcount for BotW's tutorial is way way low compared to TotK's, and yet we learn soooo much more.
Ok one could argue the end of the Great Plateau is where the story ends, and honestly, it's a fair critique --but that pretty elegant introduction to the world we get in the beginning is, in my opinion, was taught players to look for meaning in the environment, build up connections, unravel the past, and it might be a big factor in creating this very theory-heavy era of the Zelda fandom. It was interesting to revisit for this reason alone!
#botw#totk critical#I have zero energy or time and also so much work I can't get myself to do but#in my heart I'm doing a detailed comparaison between the two intros#just to explain how actually baffling totk's into is#(and it's the part of the game that was praised the most and still is)#(and yet from a narrative design standpoint it is... let's say that it's lacking in even the most basic fundamentals)#(sorry also I misfired on my main blog for a second)
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I mean, in defense of people who are hesitant about trusting fae dream... he did turn someone into an exotic pet before.
that didn't actually happen, that was just a drabble i developed and people asked for elaboration on sldfjlsfjs. it's technically a non-canon event, it's just on the blog and tagged and all that because it's still a (hypothetical) part of the story and there's some characterisation stuff in there. but the MC wasn't his pet, they were just a bird for the deal to work. he still treated them like a member of his court.
and i get where people are coming from, but if you're hesitant about trusting Dream you should extend that hesitancy to all the fae. especially Nightmare. between the two of them Nightmare is far more likely to trick you into a deal that you don't like, or that causes you to lose something of importance. it's just that nobody's asked about anything like that, so all they've seen is Dream being the poster-child for fae shenanigans lskdfjlsdsljfkd
like. Blue is the 'nicest' fae out of all of them when it comes to avoiding deals and giving humans leeway and helping them out, but that doesn't make Dream the worst (that'd be Killer)
tricks and wordplay are a major part of fae stories, and to ignore them completely to sanitise the characters and make them more approachable is disingenuous. Dream's a nice, friendly guy, yes, but he's still a fae and will trick you. Nightmare is cold and aloof but fair, and he will also trick you. Dream's not the bad guy, there is no bad guy, that is just their nature ദ്ദി ꒦ິ꒳꒦ິ )✧
#like. of course feel free to be hesitant around him and distrustful. but be that way with them all slkjflsdfjlsdkjsld#and if you can't look past that then maybe this au isn't for you-- like... fae tricks and all that aren't for everybody#i know that#not everyone can look past being tricked or losing something to a deal and still enjoy the story and characters. and that's okay. but like#you can't apply human morals to this-- they're not human. they're fae. this is how fae are. we are writing them to be fae#(not mad or anything i'm just desperately trying to explain myself and it's starting to bother me that dream's being painted as like.#an evil manipulator with no redeeming qualities)#i should probably tag that drabble as non-canon sldkfjlsdfsd#i just wanted to explore the concepttttt i didn't mean for it to influence how everyone feels about Dream and make them distrust him#valrayne-faeu#sorry if i am not explaining myself well this has been bothering me for a bit now and i'm kinda (╥﹏╥) about it
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my master plan is i'm going to draw so much Dafpork that it makes everyone sick and then i'm going to post it on all accounts on all social media platforms and reblog it constantly and spam tags, and i'm going to keep doing this so much that any time you try to look up Daffy, anything at all, maybe even anything Looney Tunes related, it's all going to be Dafpork. google search will just be flooded with Dafpork. it's all going to be Dafpork. and then humanity will be saved.
#< person who's about to flip out at seeing TLTS and 🐰🦆 fanart clogging up everything anytime i search Dafpork. ok jk for tumblr#i at least have the terms blacklisted on tumblr savior so i can't see them at all#person who thought it'd be a good idea to look at Pinterest to see if anyone had drawn anything cute or done anything for the dafpork cause#nope#😭 again i'm very thankful it really used to be just me but i'm having a moment here#anytime i try to explain myself on this i imagine every one of my followers going 'please get mental help' so i just kind of sound like an#asshole but 💔#i would like 🐰🦆 if it weren't shoved down my throat and if its fans werent mean to me and my friends and publicly mocked me and i would#like it if i looked for it and it came up on my own accord instead of anything Daffy/Porky related being 85% 🐰🦆#i need to. work on the actor au and calm down sorry guys i'm probably PMSing LMFAO#i hate being a hater but i've swallowed my tongue for 6 years it's maybe ok to rant in the tags of a post on this out of the way blog i hav#hidden and censor words so it doesn't go into tags because i don't want to upset people minding their own business#but. Man 💔
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going through some old left-for-dead projects and just found this one where I was like. INTENT on dissecting jeff's brain on the operating table (i.e. google docs) but only from todd's weird skewed pov
[professor voice] it's about brothers as eternal combatants and it's about being so convinced of your own goodness you excuse your shitty actions. it's also about comparing yourself to a dog because you feel less fully formed than your brother. lol.
#“so-and-so is an irredeemable character with no depth” jokes are funny sure but unfortunately i'm unable to not take things seriously#anyway: i remember people being like [about hymnal] this is crazy! this fraternal dynamic is so fucked up! and being kind of non-plussed#because the dynamic i wrote into the fair folk wip [this one] was like fifty thousand times more. argh. bites#THIS WASN'T EVEN SCRATCHING THE SURFACE#also i've always been an advocate of writing cruel characters with sympathy because the best feeling as a reader is when#you're reading and start nodding along with a particular guy and have to take a step back and recoil at how receptive you were to them#when the character is kind and jolly and cares but he's still letting the abuse happen under his nose :eyes:#anyway this ALSO isn't an accurate jeff portrait because todd's pov is weird and jaded and sardonic at the beginning of the story#and also he's like three seconds away from exploding. lol#hm. i never explained it to myself fully [probably why i never finished this] but i think the issue was that#todd is Too understanding and he's perceptive enough to see everyone's motivations but that makes it worse because now he's too#not forgiving. but he can excuse people's actions very easily#and thus when people actually do shitty things and it makes him mad he can't really justify being mad to himself - but he still is#and this makes him sooooo volatile. and becomes a problem later on in the wip when he's trying to work on cameron#because understanding isn't the ending point you have to do the action sometimes! lol!#goddamn. i miss writing this au.#dead poets society#tristan writes#dps#dps fic#todd anderson#jeff anderson#SORRY THIS IS VERY LONG. I JUST REDISCOVERED THIS AND IT BROUGHT A LOT OF MEMORIES BACK.
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On Wednesday before I gave my presentation I confessed to a new employee that I was worried it would be too long and she brightly told me her life hack was to just let AI rewrite things for her. She said I should put in all my talking points and ask ChatGPT to give me a five minute exactly presentation. I was like....how is the most polite possible way (since this is a new colleague I shouldn't get off on the wrong foot with) that I can express that I will Not be taking this advice. Ever. I told her that I didn't think we were allowed to use ChatGPT at this job (we most certainly are not, it is a nightmare for any type of protected information) and also that I prefer to write all of my own work. Despite my best efforts the last part of that was still passive aggressive, lol.
Something about being a writer makes it so that it's almost offensive to me for someone to suggest I use AI to do my work instead? Like, the day I reach the point where I let AI write something for me is the day y'all need to be checking me for brain damage because clearly I'm losing it
#i also told her i was capable of making a 5 minute presentation but that i had too much information to cover to explain the project in 5 min#and she was like oh that makes sense!!#but like im sorry 😭am i the insane one or like....#idk to me suggesting I use AI isn't a helpful suggestion it reads as someone telling me i don't know how to do my job#does that make sense?#i don't consider it a lifehack or working smarter instead of harder. it seems like you're suggesting i am incapable of writing well myself#i know a lot of people right now thing AI is the best thing ever#to me it's a blatant omission that you can't do your own work or think for yourself#this is also even crazier of a suggestion to me because that morning i had TWO managers on call debating wording of a sentence#like we were reveiwing this presentation tightly so that we said exactly what we wanted to and met the standards of our administration#chatgpt is not going to understand the nuances of what we can/cannot say or official/approved wording lol#i think we use ai tools in the sense of like...photoshop generative fill or ai stuff in scientific research/arcgis#but i'm like 99% sure we were banned from using chatgpt over privacy concerns of putting controlled information into it#anyway. idk. i know not everyone writes as well as i do.#but i'd rather read bad writing that came from a person than something that was generated for you tbh#and i will help review my colleagues' writing any day
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In here before he turned to Rayman ->
He was sulking, in deep thoughts.

Just look at him. I know we can't see his face but he is, of course, not all happy; bittersweet might be a better word to use then happy. He said so himself. He has regrets, he failed to save his friends. He is upset and mad at himself.
Why am I even saying this here? You guys already now this.
Yes, It's not a secret or anything. I just wanna point out how it effects him deeply.
While sipping his juice he is scolding himself maybe until he notice Rayman and turned to him a bit like; Oh, isn't this one and only Eden's favorite boy?
I thought maybe sipping his juice might be how he cops too lmao. To help him relax maybe and ease him down? He also offers one to Rayman too. To help him ease down? Or maybe he is just being friendly (which I don't believe that much)
He did show understanding and sympathy after he saw that Rayman learned he was being used. (He was calling him 'sir' he was clearly keeping his distance and making it clear that he didn't like him or what he had been doing with Eden. Though it quickly change and he called him 'mon ami' after he saw Rayman understand have been manipulated.)
#bullfrog#captain lazerhawk spoilers#captain lazerhawk#rayman#can this be count as analyzing?#love this frog#sorry i can't explain myself really clearly lol
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Ok so um. Eventful first day. I have a blended schedule so i have short school days
Everyone is chill in algebra 1 nd academic literature ,,
History and english arw gonna be a bit of a problem cuz the 16-18 yr old boys are. Yknow. Probably gonna annoy me to death
And uhh homeroom is just homeroom
I masked really hard though nd came home sobbing just cuz im not gonna be used to masking again in a school setting,,
#sydneys thoughts#Look i know i got over my bullies from the past few years and all#But it might be a bit difficult if the problem persists again#I already have a fragile self esteem i am not ready to experience cyberbullying making fun of my looks and behavior#Hhhhh#If i dont like it ill just consider dropping out cuz i can't go back online nd that's my only better option yet its taken away from me now#Sorry a bit of a rant um Im Fine i suppose i just feel really emotional over having to explain my disability over and over and over.and +#+ stillbeing treated like im stupid#Like okay i get it you think im stupid what else do you expect#Sorry#Might not be myself much recent now im just extremely emotional over masking and being picked on again
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#its hito...ro...? (deranged)#drawing this was comparable to exorcising a demon#hitoya and rosho is really funny as a pairing to me.#i can't explain myself you just had to be there#ALSO. sorry they are staring so judgementall.y#i dont know why. its just kinda how i envisioned the drawing. its like you ruined their moment and now theyre pissed#anyways. um goodbye forever
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[Id. A series of Gintama x Taskmaster pencil sketches 1-2 Kagura, Gintoki and Utsuro holding hands, expecting Shinpachi's (holding Hijikatas's hand) whistle. 3. Kagura holds a donut lifesaver with her mouth while Gintoki is screaming to someone on the audience and Utsuro stands there with a half amused half scared expression. 4. Utsuro is being dragged by the contestants. He looks surprised. 5. Hijikata has his donut lifesaver around his neck waiting for the task to end. 6. Gintoki is pointing at someone on the audience with a celebratory pose. End Id.]
Series 7, episode 6 final task. Starts at 38:26.
#gintama#gintama fanart#my art#sakata gintoki#kagura#shimura shinpachi#hijikata toushirou#utsuro#gintama x taskmaster#beautiful chaotic task a treat to myself 'cause i had a shitty day#again#the description can't (ugh words) really explain the chaos of this task i'm sorry i'm bad at descriptions#if you can watch the video I promise is worthy even if you don't know who these people are#was dying to draw Hijikata on one of those James' shirts#really really happy the taskmaster virus is spreading#(actually the only thing keeping me sane this week)
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NO!! It wasn’t asked because you haven’t written a lot— you have!!! I’m just super looking forward to a lot of the prompts (I’m a sucker for the hurt comfort that specifically comes from safeword use so I’m v excited for that)
Haha, I'm happy to hear it, thank you!😁💓 I was just half-joking (or was I?)😉 (sorry, I couldn't not have reference to this meme) I feel you though. I'm SO EXCITED to do and write many things, but alas, my university and work consume too much time and strength :((((( (I'm sucker for hurt/comfort as well😚) So yeah, I guess we all have to be patient😊
*this is me being sad because I really want to complete requests and start publishing headcanons, but unfortunately, not everything goes like we want to:
#sorry for complaining about my uni and job (almost in my every post)#I just feel guilty that I don't post frequently#and feel like I need to explain myself#but I also know that you guys understand everything#though I still want to make all of you happy as often as I can#because every like or comment or reblog or request or ask brings me so much joy (you can't even imagine)#alright i'm shutting up now#got carried away a bit#sorry haha#:D
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I JUST REWATCHED PIWON MOVIE AND I HAVE THINGS TO SAY

#okay first of all THEY DEBUTED WITH A MOVIE !!!! that's so crazy every time i think about it im like woooow#jongseob and intak acting debut when ???? they were sooo good omg unlike kyo i didn't remember how bad he was 😭😭 but his#character is hilarious so it's fine <3 ALSO i completely forgot yoo jaesuk and jung haein are in it like guysss what are u doing here hihi#anyways absolutely oscar worthy real cinema if u ask me#now after taking notes and watching the new trailer a few times i think that p1epi is actually chaeyoons weird talking plushie#but since it's away from her it can't talk so that's why jongseob create that thingy to translate from#dog language to human language and i think it's there because maybe the members got like lost in time and#it wants to remind them that they have to save the entire world from the apocalypse#also p1epi came down from the sky just like the alcot meteor like ummm yes we love symbolism 🙂↕️#i saw someone saying the dog it's actually intak because the dog came through the window and intak wakes up next to one but it doesn't make#any sense to me so we're throwing that idea in the trash can#talking about intak hes now has blue eyes so that means he got infected but honestly when did that happen while he was fighting#some zombie? idk i think i have to watch all their mvs again for clues but what that means he's one of the bad guy now??#also i may be insane but what if the shop represents the world and seeing it in flames means the members couldn't save it and their lore#ends with the saddest ending ever like yeah sorry the apocalypse won#OR WHAT IF !!!!! they aren't the ones who can save the world they actually are the reason why it's ending like the masked ghost#actually created them to spread the virus and that would also explain them at the end of the trailer looking#at the burning shop without doing anything like they ARE alcot the meteor thats gonna destroy the world#but that would be too dark i know they're the heroes so it will have a happy ending#i have many theories but im starting to scare myself so ill shut up#pt
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watching people realize im on the spectrum by how hardly they try to make me look them in the eye is sad to witness
#happened with the mom of the kid i used to babysit. now its happening with a woman in choir#i can tell she's trying not to be weird about it#i cant explain it but i Feel that she's a teacher and she really wants to like. use her phycology on me lmao#idk its awkward like i can see myself not looking at people and i see them realizing and doing that thing#where they move around a bit to see if you follow them or if you catche them with your eyes#and like. sorry! im trying! i can't!!#makes me feel like a special little kid again 😭
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im like a gay man who's also a girl
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my mom has joked that i'm probably the only food insecure kid* in this rich white neighborhood. i'm sure that's really funny for you!
*this was before i was an adult
#vent#recently when we were on vacation she bought me some sort of chicken tenders at the grocery store for a meal. i immediately recognized them#as tyson's crispy chicken strips. it was hard to bring myself to eat them. she asked why. i explained that they were tyson's crispy chicken#strips and that there was a very long period of time where i was eating pretty much only that.#i was expecting her to be like 'what? when?' or 'oh i'm so sorry' or something. she doesn't tend to remember these kinds of things.#she just said 'ah. yeah.'#like oh you remember? and you're not going to apologize? ok!#yesterday i asked if we could order pizza and she said we can't because 'the fridge is already exploding with food as is'#WOW!!! COOL!!! SO IS ANY OF THAT EDIBLE TO ME??? OF COURSE NOT!!!!!!
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