#sorry for my bad writing in the doodles

[happi-dreams]

Sooooo wish kinda infiltrated my brain after I watched a bunch of essay videos and vids of how much potential it had so my brain went ‘o hey why don’t I do that’

So here’s my little interpretation ( mostly based on the Disney development ideas in that one book ), with star also being non verbal and a silly little guy

I dont have much in my cranium right now so I don’t have much to talk about , character wise lol (except that love story will love story I want my starcrossed lovers )

[frm9pm]

Sometimes I remember they lived through the 90’s which also means boybands

[suja-janee]

what are your thoughts on Harumi x Kuai Liang (I need to see them in your art style)

To be completely honest with you, I’m still neutral to them- but he looked pretty happy in the recent trailers!

[lemongogo]

they should get to kill each other at least twice .i think

[wolvesbaned]

sad butch werewolf i love you.

[masakuterarr]

HxH Doodle : Shalnark Chrollo

just them. I love them. I live for big Shalnark 🧍

[flowerakatsuka]

wip while i'm at woooork~

[geikurre]

„Here. I’ll do it. „

Alastor now waved Vyatt to come over as he poured a cream against irritations on his hand. Vyatt did as Al told and gazed at the Radio Demons hands. They were black like the dust of the burning corpses in hell. It was like he was made out of them. Fingernails long, red and sharp. Truly a monster he is giving himself into.

Idiot.

Vyatt felt shock as the Radio Demons hands touched his eye wound. It still felt like yesterday when it happened. Blood spread as he saw the beauty in death finally grabbing to his own bare soul. His vision blurred as he saw his dearest friend for the last time. Face covered in red, red like roses he bought Vyatt. Truly beautiful.

Every single breath brought the light closer as he hugged and embraced him.

„Father once said that death comes faster than planned. I didn’t believe him. I’m the one who decides death and survival.“

Yet he now believed him. He felt it. His life flashing through his eye, the choices he regretted and embraced. It was so close he could hold it in his own bare hands, like the universe in his palm.

If they were God then he would be Death.

The one eyed man held his hands on Alastors. His eyes flashing into the other demons, sharing his thoughts and beliefs.

„You have quite the elegant imagination and fantasy.~“ Al’s words were playful as the radio effect filtered the true meaning. He sounded sharp and ugly, a disgrace, in an enthralling and somewhat hot way. „Take the lube with you next time. I’m in the middle of shedding.~“

Vyatt’s hand moved forming the hand sign „help?“. Vyatt wasn’t a man of many words. Though he means them. Every single time he reached out.

„… I would like that very much.“

[dhmis-autism]

SORRY. JUST REALIZED I ORIGINALLY SKETCHED THE STUFF FROM THAT LAST WIP POST IN. MARCH.

GODDDD...

[iwakuraz]

doodle diary 2

[shooks-stupid-stuff]

it's time to be annoying about masumii and takoshi again :]]]]]]]]

only this time, it's au versions (the base concept is what if they swapped places, but in like a masumii was born to takoshi's parents and takoshi was born to masumii's parents so they had the other's lives and genetics and yada yada you get the point way-)

so here, shitty pen doodles (which are inaccurate actually bc i decided to make masumii's turtleneck sleeveless like she usually has)

more art (from aggies)/inane ramblings under the cut, bc there is A Good Amount and i don't want this post to take up too much space xjdhdjdk-

ok so takoshi first (ft a knife pika drew hurtling towards him which inspired the 2nd doodle fjcnck) and like. this is just takoshi if he had enough time to cope with his trauma and stop relying on his masking tendencies constantly, and therefore he is just A Little Guy. A Little Goober, if you will. silly and goofy and kinda pathetic but very well meaning and kind. i like him :]

...he is still very depressed though don't be fooled, the trauma is Not As Bad Anymore but it still affects him deeply.

and now masumii (ft. a bunch of Little Guys drawn by pika) (i didn't feel like drawing her suit jacket also) who is Significantly More Depressed. unlike takoshi she doesn't even try to pretend she has any light left in her eyes, girl is dead inside and dead serious about everything. also unlike takoshi, she's incredibly competent at running a business, you love to see a girlboss win

the interesting part about this au is that, since takoshi and masumii have what i have begun to refer to in my head as "genderlocked trauma", by switching places they kinda avoid the worst of it (and while i definitely could have just changed stuff slightly to make it still work like in the boy masumii/girl takoshi au that i ALSO have solely bc they would have a very comedic height difference, that kinda feels like it would be cheating in this au and also is boring bc i've already done it-)

emphasis on kinda.

because that doesn't mean they can't have DIFFERENT trauma-

overall though, in broad strokes bc i don't wanna get into the trigger-warning hell that is their backstories, takoshi still has his masking tendencies and struggles with doing things that aren't in line with other's perception of him, even if it's not what he wants to do or how he wants to act (this is where the whole flirty fuckboy act comes from) and masumii still has her general disdain for, well. flirty fuckboys, as well as her general abrasiveness towards people she has a bad impression of (and people in general, though normally she does conceal that one (albeit normal masumii does a better job of this)) and she is still incredibly sensitive about people touching or even seeing her neck, which do still have horrible scars(?) on it in this iteration (i'm not 100% sure scars are the right term but idk what is so)

the most interesting part to me though is how this au changes the way their deep rooted self hatred manifests. for takoshi, he really does hate himself, but he knows that all he does by punishing himself is hurt the people who he cares about, and who care about him in turn. and so even though that is something that just makes him more miserable, which he feels he deserves, he's the kind of person who is willing to do ANYTHING to ensure his loved ones are happy, so... he tries to treat himself kindly, and to let himself be happy even if he feels he doesn't deserve it, for their sake. this contrasts regular takoshi, who has absolutely no one to lean on for support, and has a self hatred so deep that he's on the brink of quite literally losing himself since he is pretending to be someone he isn't literally anytime he's around another person. which is like 95% of the time since he almost always has a girlfriend. he doesn't think he deserves anything, and that since people don't want the real him from him, he should just disappear. it's bleak, he's in a really bad place .

masumii, on the other hand, also really hates herself, but she actively takes it out on herself because she thinks she's a good for nothing disgusting hypocrite who deserves everything she gets. she hardly lets others get close enough to help, both because she feels she doesn't deserve it and also because she's incredibly wary about opening up or being vulnerable. and when she does start to enjoy being around someone, she does all she can to deny and suppress those feelings, because in her mind she doesn't deserve to be happy, and no one would want to be near her if they knew the truth (this is something that takoshi also feels, though to a lesser degree than masumii). this is actually pretty similar to regular masumii, with the main difference being WHAT trauma has brought on those specific feelings and responses. regular masumii has also had a lot more time to process said trauma, but (unlike this au's takoshi) has been unable to raise her opinion of herself at all, simply getting better at hiding it rather than actually healing and slowly starting to get over it (that said, regular masumii is at the very least a bit better about her self hatred than this au's masumii; it's still there and strong, but she can force it down and ignore it atleast partially if need be).

yeah i just. i love these guys so much, they're both such horribly broken people but they're able to find love and joy in each other and help each other heal and man that's just so fucking beautiful. it's not like things get better immediately, it still takes time (hell, corporate hell masumii and takoshi who have been together like 60+ years are STILL struggling with their trauma, and they're comedic relief characters-) but they're able to help each other make it through each day, one at a time, and learning to love themselves in the process.

i fucking love these two terrible straight people, thank you for coming to my ted talk

[doodlingwren]

Hiatus

I am going on hiatus for a bit more. I really really hoped the stuff that have been going on lately were already "sorted out" but, uhm... they aren't. I need to take a bit more time offline once again, and try to work things out.

Thank you for your patience ❤

Wren

[ur-friendly-nbhd-cardassian]

Lance-constable Anna Farrell, Night Watch

My Discworld OC

[gemharvest]

Need to get on top of whatever dumb fucking inferiority complex I got going on I'm tired of looking at everything about myself and going "Wow I am really sub-par." I know it's 2am but this isn't the midnight thoughts talking this is a fucking persistent curse throughout my day.

[lucidd-the-weirdo]

@jellyaibo Hello Natus. I have a small gift just for you!!!!! :3c Loser creature concept, I tried my BEST to shove (almost) all the things you associate with Loser in this design!!! Couldn't fit them all but y'know- Enjoy, friend!!!!

[chibelial]

Doodlin some ygos no idea what I’m actually planning on making this look like once I go over these first layers