#sorry anon if this sounds like im. kind of defending

[fagmaster69696969]

Hey I'm glad after all you been through you are still able to enjoy this game, it sucks that McPig and a few others on the team are human garbage but I am not shocked; shit like this happens and while people say "but it was 2018!!! HE SHOULD HAVE KNOWN BETTER!!!" that doesn't stop racism & transphobia from existing; it takes honestly growing as a person and being able TO grow, even if McPig & others apologize; we will treat him how we do Scott. No trust till his actions speak louder.

Agreed! And no forgiveness until he actually apologizes and makes the steps to change the problems with the game and his attitude. I already think he's improved on some aspects such as the transphobia, what with LGBT ppl being on the playtester team last I checked. It's small but it shows signs that he can change from what he's been like

Until he does though I ain't trusting it.

[hella1975]

hiiii haha. hello. exceptionally awkward introduction bc idrk how to start something like this so let's just jump right in. im taking a break from this account for a bit. i know i said i wanted taob out before halloween and currently im fine sticking with that deadline, but if i decide i need longer away then i will take longer away. every time ive reassured people that id never abandon a fic and updates will always come eventually i never once considered that my writing and ability to feel safe and comfortable on this site would be actively taken from me, so im not even going to apologise. i dont want this either and more importantly i dont fucking deserve it. i dont know what it is in the past year, if ive hit a certain amount of followers or 'popularity' that's made it so the natural ratio of positive to negative interactions must in turn go up, but there's been a serious uptick in weird asks for me. the annoying part is that a very small amount of them are actually objectively mean and hateful, the rest are just weird and invasive from people who seemingly dont realise that's what they're being. ive reached a point where i dont care if the intentions are good. it's not my job as a 20 year old tumblr user of all things to defend the morality of someone who couldnt even bother to come off anon. unfortunately, after blocking only one or two anons, the weird asks have decreased substantially, which says all you need to know about the fascinating and exhilarating lives led by these people, but ive also gone on to turn anon asks off entirely. this is something i actively fought against doing and had to be pushed into by my mutuals (who have been the coolest people on planet earth during this entire thing). turning off anon was a big deal to me even if it sounds silly. i felt betrayed and like id been backed into a corner because it was so vehmently something i DIDNT WANT that to feel like i had to do it anyway for my own mental health??? that sucks. so even though ive 'fixed' the problem, im still kind of reeling and uncomfortable every time i come on tumblr. i hope it's just something i need time to ease because i'll truly be devastated if this becomes 'ruined' for me. tumblr exists as the only place in the world where i am honestly every facet of myself without shame or hesitation; losing that would be insanely harmful to me. and to the people who cant appeal to the actual human behind the post, let me put that in words you can understand: we wouldn't get any more writing 😦😦😦 riots and fires and sirens, i know. so yeah. to anyone who has sent me an anon ask and you're now wondering if you were part of the problem, im firmly of the belief that you'll know if you are. when i say 'weird asks' i dont mean 'you sent me a para about your personal life just to vent or ask for advice' or 'you sent me a really deep emotional compliment about the impact me and/or my writing has had on you' - i love asks like that, so much that i put off taking a break and turning off anon solely for the joy they bring me. im sorry that it might feel like you're being punished too bc of the actions of what in reality is a HANDFUL of weird people, but this is what i feel like i have to do to feel safe and not go insane every time i log in. love you guys, hopefully ill see you soon x

[cosmicjoke]

Im so tired of this fandom. I really think I’m done with it honestly, people have completely ruined this show for me. Levi is one of my favorite characters in all media and I’m just tired of logging on and seeing people go to Levi blogs like yours to hate on him. I’m sorry you have to deal with that. These people go out of their way to hate on something people enjoy and it’s awful. And they are just vile with their comments because they can hide behind anon. I’m sick of seeing certain character fans hate on Levi because they’re upset he’s popular. Newsflash to them: it doesn’t make us regard their faves any higher!! And I know this may sound stupid but I see this happening so often lately that every time I think of aot I think about this shit and it has severely diminished my enjoyment of this work. I can’t imagine getting asks like this constantly. I’m so sorry :( I’m so tired of the idiocy and lack of media literacy people have in the fandom. I’m sick of the superiority complex certain character stans have. And I’m sick of people attacking others for just liking a character like Levi. After a long day I just want to login and see art and meta from people who share a love for Levi.

I totally feel you. I get unbelievably sick of the crap I see go on in this fandom, and the constant bullying and harassment that takes place, on top of the way you aren't even allowed to fight back against it without someone else coming at you for saying something they supposedly find offensive, really does make being in this fandom exhausting. When you end up being attacked for defending yourself against bullying, it really is easy to become discouraged. So I thank you so much for your support, truly.

And yes, that anon really is a vile person, truly just disgusting. I honestly don't even know what their agenda is, other than wanting to make other people miserable, and I guess that says it all about the kind of person they are. That they've now resorted to trying to degrade Levi by using slurs and ableist language about him also says it all. Well, I refuse to let them do that to me, or allow them to ruin my enjoyment of AoT or Levi. Fuck them, I say. The harder they try, the more I'm just going to keep engaging and talking about how great Levi is, lol. I think that's the best revenge. And truly, they expose themselves anyway every time they open their wretched little mouth for the insecure twat that they are, lol. The fact they'll only send their messages on anon also speaks volumes about their pathetic cowardice.

So yeah, I totally understand where you're coming from, and wanting to just leave the fandom. But for me personally, I won't give these clowns the satisfaction of driving me away. Every time they say something to me, I'm just going to remind them that they're the ones who can't seem to stop talking about Levi and his popularity. Because at the end of the day, they only prove how popular he is by being unable to move past him, trying so hard to deny how loved a character he is, while themselves literally obsessing over him. It truly is the definition of pathetic.

[sp1resong]

im making this its own post, as op has politely requested that others do not flood her notifs with this, but...

…there is screenshot evidence of pansear-doodles, in the above post mentioned only as "the host", telling someone to cut themself deeper for free art.

sure, we should think on how our words affect the people behind the screen. but pansear also should have. you sound like you either don't understand how truly horrible this is, or what's really happening.

i do not condone harassment of them. i do not condone harassment of anyone. but this is not 'someone disliked their AU and sent them anon hate'. this is 'they hurt someone else badly, in the presence of a proven groomer who they claimed to have cut contact with'. this is not 'they were bullied off the internet'. this is 'they were rightfully called out for their shitty behavior and threw a pity party when confronted'.

some may have harassed them, i don't know, i did not follow pansear when it happened. if so, i am truly sorry and ashamed of sharing my stance with these people. but what pansear did was not excusable. they have a history of playing the victim when criticized and downplaying their own actions, such as referring to the time they told a grooming victim that they were not /really/ groomed (by aforementioned person they lied about having cut off, no less!) only as "the may incident".

on the off chance that you're seeing this, north: please know that it's honestly concerning to me that you, with your large platform, would play it off as them having been bullied for no reason - when there was a very good reason for them to have been more than just 'criticized', when they were actively dangerous to their mostly young community.

i don't often speak on this kind of situation out of fear for my own safety, but i've looked up to you for a very long time, since i was an 11-year-old kid drawing warrior cats. i feel like i have to say something about this. i feel betrayed.

to anyone else who is reading: please do not harass north or pansear, not that you should need me to say this. please do not harass anyone. it's late in the evening, and i'm hungry and tired and angry and sad, and there's every chance that i'll regret posting this come morning. i just felt like i had to say it, in this moment, while i still can.

if you are here to defend pansear: don't. i will not accept any asks on this topic. this is all i'm willing to say, and you won't change my mind. i don't want to be involved in this any more than this post already involves me.

that is all.

[cupioriot]

any octavian/octkahale song recs? i've been listening to 'we will commit wolf murder' (of montreal) a lot recently and i feel like it kind of fits octkahale but honestly it might just be my brain projecting them onto it.

oh my gods yes hi hello i have been working on a playlist for octkahale for a bit and ive had an octavian playlist for a while that i have not shared thank you sooo much for this ask. i am SO SORRY it took me this long to answer this i kept forgetting about it

ALSO YES OH MY GODS THAT FITS SO WELL HELLO IM SCREAMING?? anon ily and this song

but yeah this post isnt much analysis sort of just observations and me connecting themes from songs to octavian (and mike)

warning. pretty long post under cut

as for the songs i associate with octkahale;

I will never shut up about them and Vampire Empire by Big Theif. I think about them everytime i listen to it, honestly. So, this, as I see it, if from Mike's perspective, talking about Octavian, more specifically Blood of Olympus era.

"[...] I'm not quiet, you've been quiet just recieving what you said Reeling, feeding, feeling filled by everything you fed I see you as you see yourself in all the books you read Overwhelmed with guilt and realizing the disease."

"You give me chills, I've had it with the drills I am nothing, you are nothing, we are nothing with the pills I am empty till she fills, alive until she kills[..]"

"I wanted to be your woman, I wanted to be your man I wanted to be the one that you could understand"

"Well I walked into your dagger for the last time in a row * It's like trying to start a fire with matches in the snow Where you can't seem to hold me, cant seem to let me go So I can't find surrender, cant keep control"

(*the end of this lyric was removed in the now released version of the song, making the actual lyric "well I walked into your dagger for the last time" however I though the demo version fit better for them here)

alsoooo. P.U.N.K Girl by Heavenly. This to me sounds like Mike trying to defend Octavian in some way. Much more domestic than the other one lmao

"People say she's bad But they don't see The way she is with me"

"P is for the painful way she makes me feel some days U is for utopia, the other times with her N is for the new wave dreams she had back in her teens K is for the kid in her [...]"

"She is honest in kind but in a way that people see As telling lies and being mean She has thousands of dreams but what they are I'll never know I hope I figure in them though"

"I don't care if they don't see Just how great that girl can be But I wish she'd find a way To act well for just one day I don't mind if they can't see Just how much she means to me[...]"

"She is hardened to hurt her softness hidden from the world But almost ready to unfurl She tries so hard to change but something always happens to Persuade her, it's too hard to do"

I put like. almost the whole song their. It just works very well imo :')

Allies or Enemies by The Crane Wives. This to me also reminds me of Blood of Olympus. augh. Mainly just Octavian and Michaels tenseness. This one I'd say is from Octavian's perspective. I have been meaning to do a oneshot about this for so long and I prolly will once I figure out how to do Octavian's narrative voice (i have been working at it too long. anyways)

"The words I speak Are wildfires and weed They spread like some awful damn disease And I swear, I didn't mean what I said I swear, I didn't mean it."

"Now listen close You owe me ears for dropping eaves Forget it all, you caught me in a moment weak Sometimes I just can't help myself[..]"

"Remember when I could tell you not to smile when you were mad? And you would always crack And we'd both be laughing in the end Now you're not so quick to forget"*

(*this verse specifically I think fits in Mike's perspective. only this one specifically tho)

"Are we allies or enemies? This will be the death of me This will be the death of me All is fair in love and war, but I can't fight with you anymore This will be the death of me"

"What happens now? Do we have another go? Do we bow out and take our separate roads? I'll admit I've had my doubts But I want to be let in, not out[..]"

Nothing's New by Rio Romeo. Ohhh my gods yeah. I like angst with them very often sorry guys. Octavian's perspective, rocky times w them. Not much more to elaborate on methinks.

"I want to be touched, be loved I wanna heal, be hugged It's just the two of us Or that's what we swore And if I lost my charm Apologies due, no harm Cause you got ahold of my heart And I know it's worn"

"I want to be close to you But I don't know what to do 'Cause if we are near to through It may make it worse And if I start to grieve 'Cause it feels like you're 'bout to leave Forgive me, I'm not naive I've been here before"

Tongues & Teeth by The Crane Wives. Oh my gods. No thoughts just Octavian warning Mike that he's flawed and despite the fact that Mike is fine with that and wants to help him, he [Octavian] just knows it wont end well.

"I've grown a mouth so sharp and cruel It's all I can give to you, my dear"

"And I know you mean so well But I am not a vessel for your good intent"

"Desperation will erase the fact I'm keeping all Of the answers in my cigarette box Yeah the answer's in the second before the other shoe drops[...]"

Octavian specifically!(a lot of these r like him and his relationships with other charavters);

Brutus - The Buttress. OCTAVIAN TALKING ABOUT JASON AND ABOUT THE GIANT WAR/HIS DEATH HELLO YOU ALL SEE MY VISION YES. I almost cited the entire thng but. just listen to it the ENTIRE THING WORKS!! i have literally no intelligent way to explain said thoughts i just. take these mid observations

"Or am I just wishing I could be like you? That the people would see me too as a poet, And not just the muse. Oh, it's not true, I don't wish harm upon you From birth we've been like brothers from different mothers Within the spirit of the same womb May the Gods strike me down if I forsake you, Frater meus, you're beautifully made And to you I'm forever grateful[...]"

"I know the love you showed me came from a pure and noble heart I love you, and if you want, I'll call you king But why do I lie awake each night thinking 'instead of you, it should be me?' "

^^ugh on the topic of how he feels about jason's status. i think he would feel a weird sort of jealousy, and a lot of that would be distressing because he likes jason. its not jasons fault that he has the acomplishments octavian wants. but he's human and that comes with loathing.

"Something wicked this way comes And as I set to face it, I'm unsure Should I embrace it, should I run? What motivates me? Hatred? Is it love? What's more wrong; that I too wish to be great Or my mother wished she'd had a son? And even if I can't be the one Maybe I could at least help make way for him Until the day that he comes Maybe my name could also be known That I helped return good to the people And restored greatness to Rome."

^^all just about the giant war. oh my gods this boys desire to save his city. ALSO THE 'wished she'd had a son' LINE. cheering and clapping as a trans octavian truther (literally either way. it works either way transfem and transmasc octavian truthers unite)

"So with a heavy heart I'll guide this dagger into the heart of my enemy My whole life, you were a teacher and friend to me Please know my actions are not motivated only by envy I, too, have a destiny This death will be art The people will speak of this day from near and afar This event will be history, and I'll be great too I don't want what you have, I want to be you"

'goodbye, traitor Jason Grace!' ahh lyrics. oh hell he makes me ill.

"I always knew I could be the one Though I feel the endless pain of being And I am scorched by the Sun Of humble origins and born of the cursed sex My name is Brutus, but the people will call me Rex"

mmmm. something something prophet of apollo. something something transgender my brain is radio static.

now. heres a few where i really dont know how to draw any specific connections between him and the lyrics just. sort of themes which i apply to octavian. all of the songs are good listens though imo (especially wannabe which is SO UNDERATED AND SO GOOD)

Wannabe, Pt. 2 - North Bloom

Saint Bernard - Lincoln

Flight of The Crows - Jhariah

CHOKE - IDKHBTFM

A Mask of My Own Face - Lemon Demon

I Am Not a Robot - MARINA

Teen Idle - MARINA

Under My Skin - Jukebox The Ghost

Migraine - Twenty One Pilots

THANKYOU SO MUXH FOR THIS ASK I LOVED MAKING THIS POST

[valentinoappreciator]

saw your post about people who like Alastor but not Valentino and I hope you don’t mind me responding here instead of the post itself!

For me it’s because not only have we actually seen him+his personality (the only times I know of when Valentino has actually talked in-universe is Dirty Healings and maybe his Instagram, but I don’t have Instagram) and Alastor has like funny lines and a song in the pilot. I could probably defend every single bad thing he ever did if I wanted to but I don’t think anybody cares and my apologizing for him would be hollow anyway but as far as I know we’ve seen him kill/try to kill twice and one of those times was Sir Pentious, who attacked the hotel, and the butcher shop owner in A Day in the After Life, who was attacking a customer. Although Alastor did kill many other demons, we only know what happened from Vaggie’s possibly biased and overdramatized retelling of events, and since they are demons in hell it’s possible he was only killing bad people like a really horrible superhero. We also know he was a serial killer in life, but again, we don’t know the context, and he could’ve fancied himself a vigilante or something(which still doesn’t mean he’s innocent, because it’s still murder and very unlikely, but hey! Hasn’t been disproven). Also, as an asexual, I’m probably projecting a lot onto him and it’s way easier for me to like his character than Valentino.

Sorry this is so long, and I’d like to make it clear that I didn’t intend for this to be any kind of anon hate or something; I bear no ill will towards you. I just saw your post and couldn’t resist answering your question, I suppose. Again, I’m really sorry if this comes off as rude, I don’t mean for it to be! We just have different problematic faves I guess, and that’s fine! To each their own or however it goes

TL;DR: I find Alastor to be very entertaining and a fun villain, while nothing really stands out for me with Valentino

thank you for clarifying that you didn't mean this ask as hate. i didn't read it as such, but its still nice of you!

i dont know how to answer this without sounding like an asshole though. but, all im hearing in this is still "defending" / "reasoning" why a serial killer (and potential (?) cannibal) is better than a sexual predator. which, that's fair, that's fine, we're all different after all! and Alastor and Val are both evil, so like we're both on the wrong side of the fence, but y'know

[mistyyywhisper]

(different anon, im one of your moots and a jannik fan, but i want to keep everything to this matter only so im using anan)

i am no law student but i did take private law courses for 2 years in a uni that has one of the best law majors in the world, and if there is one thing that i learnt from that absolute nightmare (😭), it is that richer people will always ALWAYS be favoured when it comes to sorting out matters inside a court. the ability to give 'plausible explanation' is not only dependent on what actually happened but also how they are explained to the court, and with cases dealing with intentions and not just actions, that is especially the case. if the credibility of explanations only depend on what factually happened there will be no multi million dollar earning lawyers in this world.

so i do not think jiri is saying anything particular about jannik, because what he said is true for like... every legal case in this world???? from that statement i do not read jiri trying to suggest jannik getting preferential treatment because he is the world no.1 atp player jannik sinner. what i understand is he's suggesting that jannik has the financial ability to employ a legal team that has the ability to make the itia deal with jannik's case as cautiously as possible. that is to say, jannik defiantly acted within the frame of the law and did not get special treatment because he is jannik sinner, but he was able to get away in ways that many other players will not be able to because of his financial status. obviously he very much earned that position himself but thats another discussion. for me, jiri is not questioning the transparency or procedural justice of itia's decision(which if he did, would also throw shade on the credibility of itia's decision), he is pointing out an issue that every legal system in the world has and we all just kind of accept it as what it is(and thus does not suggest the decision is less creditable).

so yea, jannik followed all the rules and jiri could still look at the result and the process and reasonably think the tennis legal system is somewhat fucked, both things can be true at the same time.

and also, i do not think jiri needs to be in the position of those who is absolutely unable to employ any decent legal professionals when they get into doping cases, because novak made a very similar point and hes the richest active player (i mean its technically rafa but 😭😭😭😭😭)

Hi anon/mutual! Thanks for sharing your experience and your view with me. I genuinely appreciate being 'challenged' and people providing their different opinions <3 I understand what you're saying: if you are rich, you have a better chance to defend yourself and overall the legal system is fucked up. I think yes, and no? I can give you the example of another Italian athlete who was found with traces of the same substance in their system: they appealed and got their ban lifted. Same as Jannik. Same as Jannik, they also got completely deemed 'not guilty' by the Independent tribunal. The above player is a double player around 300 in the World, he declared he spent a total of €300 in legal fees. WADA did not appeal his case. (Sorry I didn't include his name, I am at this stage so tired of googling this matter. Please trust me I have researched this.) I am very well aware that money can mean better legal treatment, my points were the following: 1. Jiri can afford a legal defence 2. The tone of his statement didn't sound like an holistic discussion around fighting to offer better treatments to ALL players (unlike Nole's imho) but more of a petty attack on someone who is elite 3. I hardly believe he has read all 33 pages, otherwise his statements would be more in line with Casper Ruud's who understood the process/legal framework. That being said, neither of us can realistically assume Jiri's intentions, I can tell you his declarations were perceived like other players complaining about Jannik receiving special treatments (I assume the same thing tbh.) But maybe you're right, he's done his research, he read everything there was to read, and he simply used those words to advocate for better treatments for lower ranked players. I guess we will see in his future statements, I assume he'll be asked about Jannik's case in the presser tomorrow.

Hope that my point was as clear as possible. I'm afraid it's one of those instances where we don't see eye to eye, but I genuinely understand where you're coming from. I just tend to disagree on this matter. Still sending virtual hugs to you mutual <3 I really appreciate your comment!

[hexcryingwolf]

im sorry but talking about if they should bother being nice to you then complaining about how youll convince yourself if it isnt genuine? as if the fact that they are all debating if you should be given kindness doesnt show that they dont care; as if you deserve it as is implied by they all think you dont when talking about how youre "dangerous" and ranting about wanting to get verbally abusive by yelling at you ????? the conversation they have about if you should be given kindness from friends out of fear that it wont be seen as "genuine" and thinking that it would actually be genuine if they did comfort you???? its?? they are talking about how they genuinely dont want to help you? and then despairing about how if they try to help you wont think they are being genuine? only to start talking about wanting to get angry at you for being hurt by their actions? talking about responding to you being hurt by trying to hurt you even more??

im sorry if this sounds weird im just genuinely confused how anyone couldnt see all that as a red flag outside of just ignoring and lying about your story to defend all of them

no i get it its a tangle and the reason i still think about it so much after all this time is because every now and then my brain notices something that i didnt realize before. its like every now and then a layer peels off of revealing a brand new level of bullshit

its hard for me to follow their (the flora inner circle not just glip) thought process because my brain doesnt jump through a million hoops to turn "we should comfort our friend in crisis" to "we should yell at our friend in crisis"

this is what ended up happening btw

when they talk about how annoying it was to have to re-add me because i had a panic attack and removed them. they didnt even end up yelling at me but i wonder if it satisfies them to know this hurt me very, very badly. then the comic about me dropped not long after

and youve pointed out a new layer to me anon; the fact that they didnt genuinely care about me but were making it my fault if i didnt believe their care was genuine?

this was in response to my first attempt to cut everyone from flora out of my life. i wish they could have just left me alone instead of digging their hooks in. why did they even do that if i was so terrible?

[eulchu]

im gonna get the record straight and be completely transparent.

i have never lurked critblr or leaktwt. i barely know who any of these people are. if you're critblr and i have you blocked it's because you interacted with dtblr and your url sounded weird, and people fact checked what kind of people were under your likes. or in your following list. you guys don't really know how to be subtle

many of us have been here for long enough to know urls of the people who post the most fucked up posts, because once in a while you'll pop up on the based on your likes tab.

implying im in critblr is fucking insane. i can genuinely tell all of you the exact number of leaked info i know. the truth is if you're in dtblr and you recieve more than 3 asks a day you ARE gonna get freak anons bomb dropping leaks in your askbox. there's unfortunately very little way of modding that. we try our best by blocking but every single day we get harassed with information we don't fucking want.

i am not in charge of the fandom and i will never be. tumblr is the least fucking relevant site in the fandom hierarchy. i'm no god of the fandom i don't make the rules of the fandom and i am under any impression than im more important than any other blog in dtblr. my blog would be NOTHING without all the members of dtblr. i am not special i am not famous. it's not my fault people who don't like being active blogs come into my inbox to express themselves. i don't pretend to be any authority figure. i say shit and if you agree with me cool and if you don't, that's cool too.

i am so fucking sorry that some of you have a complex over blogs that get attention, but that's not my fault. i have been here for Years of course i'm gonna have a big number of followers. especially since october all dtblr has tried so hard to not become what it used to be, and if you have a complex that's on you. there's tens of blogs with very little followers who are amazing. because a following count means NOTHING.

it's crazy to tell me im only finding reasons to shittalk dizzy and alison. i didn't know dizzy prior to their gross behavior regarding the shit they write about and the people they're friends with. if you know me well enough you'd know i have 0 problems with saying i hate x person for whatever personal grudge. i have done that plenty of times. i don't have to hide behind any excuse to shittalk someone.

calling me petty is ridiculous. petty over what girl? i'm just here to vibe idgaf what other people are up to if it's harmless shit.

yet another clinically fucking insane statement to make. i very politely to invite you to scroll my blog and tell me where i have confirmed anything. the only things i have talked about are dream's ex and those "body issues". i have never verified any kind of leak and you're insane for thinking i have. i genuinely invite you to send me one of those instances you talk about.

in regards of "a bunch of blogs complaining" i'd love to know what kind of blogs you're talking about because as far as i know the only conversation that's happened before regarding this topic, was something extremely similar to what i'm saying right now and not at all close to verifying any kind of leak. if you get those blogs on your dash that's a you problem and you should curate your experience better, but don't drag me into it.

yes. all of this. yes.

i do apologize for the confusion. dizzy didn't write that fic but they did defend it and they've co-written together before.

i'm not a lurker and i don't know them, don't think i know all this information because i'm a stalker. i don't even know alison's tumblr. some of these people used to be friends. friends of a lot of people in the fandom. but you can only cover your behavior for so fucking long, and then people talk, and shit gets brought up.

both alison and dizzy have done more than morally incorrect things in the past for other fandoms. other than the choice of the kind of fics they write and bookmark, they both are 100% friends with people who discuss doxxes like it's top of the morning news. dizzy particularly was part of the phandom in the side of phannies who harassed and were weirdly invasive of their lives to the point where it affected their mental health.

again, read what you want like what you like but be aware that these are the people you're reading fics of. hey if you're one of them, kudos to you. but genuinely. don't even try to say they're not the kind of people im describing right now. people across different fandoms who have had the displeasure of knowing them will tell you the same thing.

[defensivelee]

ok... i just blocked anon at this point but heres what they said bc apparently i didn't read what i wrote myself(?!)

i would just leave it at that, but honestly? i do wanna address some things here not bc i feel the need to defend myself to anon, but bc i wanna make it clear to you ppl WHY all this stuff was written.... like im not gonna sugarcoat it, i DO enjoy writing this bc hi. huge whump lover here. making pretty people suffer is my favorite thing. but it's also so important to say that this is FICTION (this is historical rpf which is kinda funny but still, none of this actually happened). there is no real abuse going on so there is no need for any of this performative bullshit. anon is just wasting time bc it goes without saying but i would never ever condone or do this shit irl. idk how it works for other ppl but for me fiction does not affect reality, the only way it does is that it makes me happy precisely because i can do whatever i want and nobody gets hurt. and these mfs dont care, they're dead im sure they have better things to do. anyway i just wanna say:

all the details anon is giving me abt my story makes it sound like they read the whole story, both Dona Dona and the main chapters. that's almost 100k words. when they could have clicked off at any time. when the tags are so clearly right there. like... you did this for what 😭

i assume the gang rape anon is talking about is in the Tenth Hot Spring when Bentinck serviced a bunch of dudes to seal a deal for William. i would find it kind of difficult to describe it as that... but tbh, yeah, it would have been incredibly hard for him to say no. in any case, so sorry to tell you this anon but there are no perfect victims in this AU! he never sees it as rape because he thinks he deserves it, and because he does enjoy it at times. his whole image as an Ally under an Overlifer kind of relies on that. and while i'll tag it properly, i'm not going to sanitize or sugarcoat it as it's a huge part of his character arc. he doesn't think he's allowed to say no or have boundaries, so he won't! in this society i think it would be hard to find a "perfect victim." Bentinck doesn't cry about this because he thinks he's fulfilling his purpose.

Bentinck being described as a shotacon..... im so sorry that was so fucking funny to me LMFAO

i wouldn't say he enjoyed kissing William's father as a boy, he just thinks he did. obv we don't get to see much of it in Dona Dona bc it's from William's POV. but even then, as an adult, he stills sees it as an honor. AGAIN, part of his whole arc of how he views himself, the religion, and his role in it. that event is kind of the starting point of that, it was put there for a reason and not bc i actually think kids can consent/enjoy assault! in my experience, they can think they did. here again, the perfect victim narrative does not always reflect reality.

you're right, kids can't initiate that! like i said in my disclaimer, it's a result of grooming and how they've been raised. they think they are, but it's just making them easier to abuse. i never once believed they could consent.

im not a rapist period full stop. just not

yeah i romanticize abusive relationships. in FICTION. they're fun to write. jamesborough is a delightful ship and the succubus au has been so fun to work on. real life abusers can choke and i would encourage anyone in a relationship like the ones i write about to seek help immediately.

Anne called Marly a slut bc SHE is victim blaming. EVERYONE victim blames Marly in this story. it's part of HIS arc. i would not blame any victim of this sort of shit irl. and even then, in this universe "slut" doesn't have such a negative connotation as in our world. yes, it is still victim blaming, but how can you read the story and still have it completely fly by your head like that

im aromantic, which i dont know how you wouldnt have just picked up from idk... SCROLLING THRU MY BLOG LIKE ANON SO CLEARLY DID?? LOOKING AT MY ICON?? so no need to pray for those hypothetical partners, it's never happening.

[ask-serendipity-sky]

If your theory about the company retaliating on Jimin for hinting about his queerness turns out to be true, then damn, I'm sorry but I think he better leave the company. I get that they're bounded by contract and that coming out has its repercussions, but if he's only hinting, why would the company retaliate that badly? It still has plausible deniability so it shouldn't really affect his career. That also sounds like the company does not respect Jimin at all. It's discriminatory. And in a way, wouldn't that hurt the company's profit too, because if they would suppress Jimin, they're also losing earnings? It's not wise and it's just self-sabotage.

Now for laying low for the sake of their careers (more like for the sake of JK's career and image), I can get behind that because people in relationships make sacrifices. To what extent though, well that depends on them. But would that be fair to Jimin, at least? I can see Jimin making sacrifices and being kind, yes, but he has his limits too. He's smart and not a pushover, so I think that if the relationship is starting to become a liability on JK's side, I can also see Jimin calling it quits. I don't know how much he loves JK romantically but Jimin also knows what's good for him and if things are not working out. And for years, jikookers have been highlighting that JK is the one who wants to make it more known that JM is his boyfriend, then suddenly he wants to be seen as a het male? It's baffling to me.

It also strikes me that JK doesn't quite know what he really wants and how to express himself yet. He has this "rather be dead than cool" tattoo (though tattoos are always up for interpretations) but then wants to be seen as a cool, giant pop star. He seems to want to be taken seriously and change his image, but then he goes to say things that, for me, sound shallow and superficial. Showing that you're mature or a grown-up by singing about literal sex and swearing isn't also the only way you can express it. (Maybe he'll experiment about it more in his upcoming album, so we'll see.) I don't know, it all seems contradicting to me.

Seven also has no connection to JM. AT ALL. I dunno why other jikookers keep on insisting that, but there's nothing romantic that you can connect with that to JM. Be for real. Don't even get me started with the concept photos. Idc what anyone says, I know a copy attempt when I see one, and no, doing that is not romantic or anything. It says something about you as an artist instead.

Sorry for the long ask, but I'm just wondering about all these things. Thanks for indulging me.

Hello anon,

Write away. These are things I wonder too.

Yeah, I don't see why the company would self-sabotage too. But they have been by not utilizing Jimin to the fullest potential.

Example: Jimin in mvs and interviews. His parts are the most replayed.

Yet, we only get bits of him now. Less lines too. Ugh like in Take Two where he sang like 2 lines and then was used as a choir boy for the rest of the song. Or all of FACE promo.

So I don't know. It has to be something strong enough to make them not care about losing money.

I believe that there are other queer members but I don't see any of them queer coding all of their project likes Jimin does. Jimin embraces femininity and masculinity as well. I havent noticed other members doing any of this?

I don't know. I'm just trying to make sense of things. Why would someone in that company hate Jimin?

As for Jk...

I do think his goals and ambitions have changed from before. He changes often. I feel he hasn't quite found his place yet.

For now, he wants to be a het pop star. Being a het pop star could have it's perks for jikook. In Korea, people will judge an idol for eating a strawberry the wrong way (wonyoung im always with you, girl 😭). You don't get that dumb criticizing when you are a big international pop star. In fact, the more controversial you are (Johnny Depp, JB, HS), the more people get used to you and defend you.

This could mean that it will allow Jk to do whatever he wants without fearing the wrath of army because he will have other fans who will be chill about him doing what a normal 25 year old does. This works for Jk and this could work for jikook.

It all does seem contradictory, though. Especially in terms of jikook. We will know in a few months if Jk will use his fame to be more open with Jimin without the fear criticism or if jikook will still be low so Jk can get more famous.

And YES! Seven has nothing to do with Jimin. No matter how much we want to tie it together. It doesn't. Jk said it was a fun song and he took it. That's it. There is no more to it.

I see your point on the concept photos. It makes sense. I know that as a Jk fan, I would be dissapointed.

I raise you my theory:

People keep saying that jikook probably agreed to the concept photos together but...

Jm wasn't in on it. Jk did it as a surprise since he does those sort of things.

Jm was like hmm ok on the outside but on the inside was like "seriously?"

Imagine Jimin being ok with his beautiful concepts used for a song made by a gross and evil white man who shades you?

You all don't know Jimin at all if you think he would be happy.

Be for real. At least since Festa, Jimin has been taking his career more serious than Jungkook. He has worked hard and gave FACE everything. He likes to set the path. He sets the trends. He likes to be unique. He has said this.

If the concept photos match, I completely believe that it was because of Jk. He is a hopeless romantic...

(Ahhh and this goes with what my partner said in this post:

If they were Jk, they would spoil me to try to make up for the sabotage.)

So no, I will NEVER EVER get behind the photo concept theory that was thrown around saying that Jikook thought of it together and it was them letting the world know they are "I am you. You are me."

The matching clothes and matching brands, yes. But not the concept photos.

Thanks for sharing your thoughts!

[cuuno-moved]

uhh so questions, lemme think… hmm do the turtles and co. run into any conflict with the foot clan? because i imagine they wouldn't be too fond of splinter because they thought he was dead and wanted to do experiments on him (speaking of which where did the foot clan get mutagen? is stockgen a thing) and now maybe they want to know more about them since they were still only testing mutagen. speaking of which, do a lot of official characters show up? how are they different from canon? do you have ocs? and judging by how the turtles were able to find casey, how often do they go to the surface? is it a casual thing where they like to explore or is it like in 2012 tmnt where splinter is very cautious about them heading out? how do they feel about humans outside of casey and april? do they get seen sometimes but then most people just are like "some turtle guys walking around just another day in NYC amiright" or do they try very hard not to be seen by people? does casey act different from spending so much time with the turtles? is there any places they like to hang out? how is their home in the sewers, is it like decorated n' stuff? do they all get to have a lot of personal area or is it kind of cramped? what stuff does donatello build, and do they have a version of the turtle van? how do the turtles go about resolving the occasional conflict? i imagine they don't fight as often as they do in some official stuff, but like do they get into silly squabbles often that aren't too serious? and when they are serious, how does everyone act? also, if mikey is similar to the 2018 one, then does he also kind of try to help his family in a lot of stuff when it comes to conflict? when it comes to villains and stuff, what kind of people do they fight against? is it more "we fight when we have to but generally try to avoid it" or is it more "i am going to go on a space adventure to fight the utroms or something WOO!" oh wait this ask is kinda long now. uhh well you don't have to answer everything!!!!! i just saw the post asking for asks and thought oh i like tmnt aus lemme try to ask as many questions as possible. sorry if it's kinda rambly!!! okay have a good day or night

OUGHHHH i love you so much anon thank you thank you thank you

okay so. the footclan originally think they died because. yk. mutagen. but when they find out they mutated (via mikey getting a little too clumsy on a suply run) they decide they need to make more mutagen. that's the first time that the turtles have to fight for the safety of the public. however, some mutagen does in fact get out in the bottled water, and some people are transformed

there will be a couple of canon characters - i've already mentioned usagi, and im adding barry just for kicks as a sheep mutant. and i've got an oc named dusty miller who im adding because i like him.

the turtles weren't supposed to leave the lair as kids, but casey happened to make the insane decision to hide in the sewers from his bullies, which is how he met them. over time they began to sneak out more and more until splinter found out and realized he couldn't stop them anyways, and started to train them more. just to be sure they could defend themselves

casey does end up picking up a couple habits from the turtles, like trying to mimick their sounds, ie growling or chirping. he also forgets he cannot in fact hold his breath for an hour underwater sometimes

they live in an abandoned subways station, and they each have a tent set up where they sleep. it's not super exciting or nice to look at, just like a regular homeless camp, but donnie made a power generator and they have a tv that works pretty well most of the time

donnie works mostly with junk he finds in scrapyards or pulls off of old trains, but when they run into the foot clan, he manages to steal some of their technology, which really helps him. they have a sort of turtle van which is an old volkswagen that they decked out and occasionally drive around town. they call it the shellraiser because i think that's a really funny name actually

they do get in a lot of fights. especially when it comes to donnie. he's really bad at tone and understanding when people are mad at him, so he will overreact and assume everyone hates him, which they don't, which inevitably pisses raph off, which upsets mikey, which upsets leo. mikey does his best to smooth things over by clarifying what people mean to donnie, but it doesn't always work, and that kind of affects mikey in. really negative ways. like he thinks he isn't important if he doesn't help people

the villains are mostly foot clan and some mutants. most of the turtles don't like fighting them, but leo is so obsessed with being a hero that she actively starts picking fights with the villains.

[mlynar-nearl]

omg hi it is anon here i apologise for uh. my previous ask, i must have been more than a little insane, very sorry. but yes actually, my original idea was that since both he and skadi are technically bounty hunters (and bounty hunting is technically all about taking down one person and turning them in for the reward) hed probably be a good single target guard (is it called dreadnought? i think it is) but frankly he seems so oddly versatile to me like he could be a specialist too tbh or a vanguard as the other anon pointed out like personally i dont quite like agent vanguards (but thats probably cos im not using them right) but i think it would suit him as well ! as long as toland is a melee it sounds abt right (to me) tbh (maybe not a defender tho thats just a bit hmmm) and honestly, if they r shifting up mlynar im so doomed cos i barely have 50-ish pulls for old man nearl like....... even if gavalter/pozy banner was nice and only made me spend 70 for gavalter + pot2 pozy i dont have much savings at all.... but i guess its a little nothing opening my wallet cant fix (absolutely in pain) and er, yes i do suggest honkai (out of personal bias i love the game), but objectively, i would say that the game is not in the best of places rn it feels quite desperate for money ? like they r throwing out cashgrabs and all but the story (up to 32+) is really great ! i mean certain chapters are a slog but when it hits hard it really hits hard. the game is also kind of weird in that the real game only really starts once youre 70 at least and can somewhat build or 81 and starting to really get invested in other game modes. all in all, i just think that you really have to slog through the first few bits to get the fun parts. the spin off star rail which is coming soon is probably better if you want to be casual. ok wow this is long i shall stop here. thank you and once again, have a nice day :D

i may have to open my wallet as well but it'll be worth it. i've planned this in advance. the old man will be worth it. knock on wood though because i have about as many pulls as i tend to expend on a limited banner left over from gavial/pozemka (approx 170, the outlier so far has been ling since mr lee decided to evade me for like 290 pulls and i got max pot on ling instead with the spark store plus times she came home instead of him...so that was miserable.)

mostly i just want him to be moved up because 1. i'm impatient 2. i'm impatient. everyone's mad that dorothy got pushed back a bit for 3rd anniv but i don't CARE just give me my OLD MAN.

as for honkai i've heard good things about the lore but less so about the gameplay so that tracks. i try and minimize how many gacha games i play and arknights is the only one i consistently whale on and i justify it to myself by the quality of the story, gameplay, and the fact that blorbo from my games is there. though for other games if they end up having something like the arknights anime i'd be interested in getting into that.

[sharuk28]

Heads up, probably a really long one cause I have lots of views here.

Firstly, @mandiemegatron I want to just give you the absolutely biggest applause I can but also a virtual hug for the way you handled this despite how hurt you most definitely are. I'm so so sorry anon said these things because I can tell you're the kind of person who even though you dislike their words, still take it to heart because at the end of the day, you do care about their opinion as they did read your work and you care about your readers so it's just extra hurtful, and I dont think you deserve something like this.

Which is why I wanted to step in. I haven't watched one piece so I haven't read your works before (I'm assuming you're a one piece writer cause quin reblogged you and I recognize some character names from his) and because I want to cheer you up, I need you know that while I'm trying, I'm also doing my best to be unbiased, so that what's said is more genuine and more likely to actually have an impact instead of letting you think I'm just saying what I say cause I'm quins friend and wanna cheer you and this and that Yada Yada. I'm basically a third party with an outside viewpoint, so I urge both you and anon, if you're reading this, to take this to heart so that hopefully, both of you end up better. <3

Also, before I carry on, just for the record, I'm not tryna insert myself or make myself feel important, Im just sharing my thoughts because I want to. Its sortve the whole point of social interaction, so i dont wanna hear anything about that from anyone. (Saying this because that was some criticism someone told me before when I shared my opinion in something else before)

Anyways, that out of the way, @mandiemegatron I think that's superb writing! I'm not a writer but I'm certain I wouldn't be able to think of that. And if anything, that twist of the reader dying isn't proof that you dislike your readers, it's proof that you have a well developed sense of sympathy and you're able to incorporate that into your writing to make the readers feel the way you intended (which I take was sympathy for Kid) and that, my dear, is a plot twist I don't think the average writer would have the balls to even attempt or pull off to the effect you have. So keep holding your head up high. This sounds like a creative masterpiece, and I'm so very proud of you for it! Also, the fact that you eventually found yourself responding to this hate after many attempts from them it seems, just goes to show even further just how much you care for your readers even when it's directly from the party providing the hate. Because I'm certain you knew you didn't have to reply, that you didn't have to show your thought process or explain yourself. And while you may feel it's because you were pushed off a ledge, the way I see it, it's because (defending yourself aside) you really care about around and can see that something isn't right. That nobody deserves to be this hateful. I fully believe it's because you wanted best for them, whilst catering to your own mental health needs, otherwise you wouldn't try to explain nor get them to understand anything whist knowing deep down chances are unlikely that listen. Trying in the face of what seems hopeless. Now that's love (in this case to your readers) if I've ever seen it. Just know that you did absolutely nothing wrong; your work is outstanding; you are outstanding, both as an author and as a person. I well and truly hope this cheered you up, because I'd really for you to keep feeling this level of pain and beating yourself up over something thats actually quite beautiful.

Now then, this is for anon.

Hey, I'm not trying to be a bitch and I don't have anything against you, but I am a bit disappointed that you let yourself get to the point of hatred and resentment to the level where you became hurtful to others. I'm sure you didn't actually intend to cause harm, so I do urge you to apologize privately, as yourself and not anon. You're the only one responsible for regulating your own emotions. I worry your perspective is tainted in red, and so you don't truly the see beauty of things in general. I'm so sorry for what must've hurt you to make you want to protect yourself so much, and it's obvious that you don't like feeling vulnerable, but I'm not gonna try and have some sort of moral highground, I just want to try and help even if you don't want it. Please just look into why you're so hurt by this, go deeper and figure out why you're actually hurt by this and not why you think you're hurt by this. Be kind to yourself. I don't blame you as I'm sure circumstances must've molded you into this, but you have to remember that while trauma does make you act certain ways, it's your responsibility as a human being to deal with that trauma and not let it spiral this much. It's okay, like I mentioned, mistakes happen and it's not gonna be easy, but I fully trust that you're gonna reach a point somewhere down the line where you learn to not be hateful towards yourself. Till then though, please work on treating others the same way you want to be treated. Become someone you'd actually wanna be friends with.

Okay, I think that's all. Unrelated to the emotions of all this, but like oof, I'm atheist! xD the way you said it, I'm sure you didn't mean any harm, but oof I feel kinda attacked for some reason, lol, but dw, I'm sure you didn't mean anything bad, just a thought I couldn't help but share.

Oh and PSA, if anyone involved, or anyone unrelated even, messages me, if I think it's too draining, I'll probably just never respond. Don't take it personally, I just dislike subjecting myself to negative things unless I absolutely must or if it involves someone I care about. So again, please don't take it personally. That's all. Thanks to whomever reads this far, and I hope you all have a fantastic day full of boops >.<

<3

Why kill off the reader in the second part of losing the war? I was expecting Kidd or Killer to get hurt or something but killing the reader? Tell us you don't care about your readers without telling us you don't care about your readers. Who the fuck kills off the READER? Take the L and maybe stop acting like your writing is better than it actually is.

*deep breath*

Okay.

I've received a handful of anons similar to this one and I didn't think I'd have to come on here to break down my ideas and give reasons as to why I wrote something the way I did, but clearly some people are pretty pressed over my choices for Just Come Home. Everything under the readmore so I don't clog up people's dash.

Let's break this down one point at a time. So firstly, my choice to kill off the Reader was actually a last-minute decision while finishing it off. My original idea was reader never forgives Kid and decides to fight Kid and Killer instead, losing and being left for dead (for Law to find), but decided, why not even more hurt? More pain and more anguish, as I was asked to put Kid through via some askers/anons. I found the best way to do that, was to kill off the reader. Have them make amends only to have that ripped from Kids hands and destroyed with a simple flick of the wrist, and honestly, the fact that I had myself in tears while writing it gave me the motivation to continue with that idea.

I also wanted to delve into trying my hand at Law who felt backed into a wall and decided to spill blood, all for the sake of having an upper hand, and if that meant he had to off the reader to keep that upper hand, then so be it. I wanted to write something different from my usual angst, something a little more devastating and I feel like I hit that mark pretty damn close. Truly, I'm sorry you feel differently about it.

Secondly, don't you EVER come into my inbox and point fingers, saying I don't care about my readers. Buddy, I probably care TOO MUCH about my readers, about what they think and about how they feel when reading my writing. This is incredibly hurtful for you to come up here and essentially scream in my face that this isn't good enough. I need you to understand that if you dont enjoy something, that means it wasn't written for YOU. Not everything you come across is going to be to your taste and it's insanely self-centered and entitled of you to come in here and tell me I don't give a fuck about my readers because YOU thought it was stupid. It feels like you're taking this a little personally and I don't understand why.

Lastly, i don't sit here and brag about my writing. In fact, I feel like I stay pretty quiet other than some self reblogs of things I've written when I'm feeling that certain blorbo. It's confusing and again, hurtful, for you to come in here and essentially tell me to shut the fuck up... on my own blog. That's some strange activities there, buddy. I think you maybe need to log off for a bit, go sit in nature and do some deep breathing because this is crossing the line over to chronically online. Please go outside for a bit. Please revise your manners and remember the golden rule. You don't have to be religious for you to understand "treat others the way you want to be treated".

Do better.

[kcnnarys]

no one is making fun of the suicide, we're just mad that she did this right after she doxxed a 19 y/o and said some really hurtful shit abt the pandemic, suicide is a really heavy thing and for her to just pull that shit when the heat is on her leaves a bad taste in my mouth

(this will be the last ask that i answer for a few days) im guessing you didnt see it but people were making fun of the situation. of course we're mad about rocket scientist doxxing someone, that was wildly inappropriate. but people were telling her to k*ll herself and telling her that they hoped she would get r*ped and everyone should be mad about that too. she suffered from underlying mental health issues which makes her most recent post extremely concerning, especially considering the fact that none of her friends have been able to get into contact with her for over 24 hours. i will say it again: i am not condoning any of her past actions. i do however think that we need to be empathetic and concerned during this time

[gb-patch]

Hi, the 'refund ask' person here. Please don't feel pressured to give an answer, I just want to clarify and apologize for a few things, for whoever is behind this acc, reading and taking their time to give detailed answers :)

First, I am sorry, truly, for coming across as a rude person who would scam a small business, and such valuable creators and artists. It was not my intention. I didn't think of it in the moment, I didn't even think that my question would be answered. (Which obviously changes nothing because you would still read it, and it apparently took me a while to realize, but you are a real person. A personal 'sorry' here.)

Like you said, it definitely was an 'it doesn't hurt to ask' mindset that I wrote the question with. Thank you for assuming I meant well, I really did. But I do see my fault now, so really, really thanks for taking your time to explain it in detail. In retrospect, no matter how 'well' I meant, I was in the wrong. To put it mildly, I was ignorant. It feels stupid to say it, but I guess I needed to hear from someone that I couldn't just give someone money, take what they're offering, and ask for my money back. It wasn't how I viewed my question then, but it definitely is now. Also, they might not see this, but a sincere thank-you to the other people who commented on my ask, for making me see how wrong my words sounded when they weren't just in my head. It was a lesson learned, to say the least.

Also, please understand that I didn't mean to say it wasn't worth $5 for 'just a moment', even though I did say it that way. I see how I could've worded that differently. Each and every moment of the story is super important to me, and believe me, I do think thay they all are worth way more than what you're charging, or mostly, not charging. However, it was silly and greedy to ask you to just give away even more of those beautifully made moments. Of course it is your right to charge for your hard work, and I am actually glad you're doing so.

I know it doesn't change anything, or take back what I previously said (no matter how much I wish it could) but I really wanted to make sure you didn't think there was someone in your audience who would be willing to scam you and even shamelessly ask for permission to see if they could. Again, not the intention at all.

Finally, it is actually so nice to see that a small company like yours has a lot of supporters willing to defend it. My question definitely wasn't a scam attempt, but if it were, I'm so glad to see that it wouldn't succeed or go unnoticed.

I will keep on supporting you, albeit silently for the time being, and playing your games for as long as I can. Our Life is an absolute delight of an experience, it inspired me a bunch, helped me through some tough moments in my own life, and is a game that is far more than just a game to me. I can't wait to see what you put out there next. You guys are some of the best out there in my opinion. Love what you do, love the way you communicate with your audience, and love how you handle crises like this. Hope you all have very nice lives where you can create to your heart's content :)

Sorry for the drama I caused, and sorry again, bc this ask is too long :) Thank you for reading.

It's alright. You don't need to apologize. I'm happy you were sympathetic to where I was coming from and that's all I would want. You didn't upset me or cause me any harm and I absolutely don't want you feel unwelcome over asking a question. It took years to make a game that could make people happy, but in only minutes I can sour the experience for people forever with what I post in these ask answers. I hope to avoid that as much as possible.

Not long before you sent your answer, there was another ask about this that was understanding of your situation.

"Im NOT that anon but I'm kind of sad how many other anons are judging them and seem to be a bit eurocentric? not everyone who plays these games have the same currency or similar currency conversiom rate as someone whos family is from venezuela, $5 is barely enough to buy flour, rice, and fish so what may seem like pocket change to you might be all someone else could live on. scummy would be to do so without ask. just disappointed bc i thought this community was more open-minded"

I agree that money is a difficult thing to get and people can't be blamed for not being able, or simply not wanting, to use it on visual novel content. Though, it is also a sore spot for artists who are very familiar with people who flat out devalue their time/effort and think there's no reason to pay for it. It can be hard to always take the question of 'can I get your hard work for free?' with no frustration. But that wasn't the intention of the original question.

If it the question had gotten a different type of response people wouldn't have felt the need to come to my defense over it. At the end of the day, I'm the one who could've avoided this and answered the question in a way that left the asker and the other readers satisfied/informed. It went too far this time.

It's always hard to know how to manage these situations. When a question comes along about a touchy topic but I think it's important to answer, I try to make it definitive and also to make clear that this doesn't open the gates for future asks about this. If I don't, then inevitably more asks come in and I either have to keep addressing/arguing a topic or ignoring them without explanation. It can make a development blog about posting previews a pretty unpleasant place. But if I use one ask to make an overall statement, it can come across unnecessarily strong against the single question the asker sent in.

To the OP, I'm sorry for making you feel like what you did was a huge mistake. It really wasn't. It was a just question over a policy that was intended as neutral and ended up with extra meaning put on it because of outside circumstances/other people's prior and potential actions. I hope you're able to feel reassured after all of this.

And the last thing I'll say is that future asks commentating about the situation won't be posted.

Thank you again for playing!