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eroselless Ā· 2 months ago
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series summary: you just work in hospitality for McLaren and heā€™s their star driver. what happens when your paths cross and you find yourself questioning your feelings for each other? [2.8k]
[lando norris x reader]
masterlist | previously
warnings: angst, mentions of sex
note: hi friends! I'm so sorry i've been a little awol recently. like i said before, I had been prepping for a big trip. I am studying abroad for a few months and I am slowly starting to settle in. this chapter is an insight on Lando's point of view, exploring his feelings and such. This does mean that this series will be coming to a close soon, one or two chapters at most will be added after this. Thank you guys so much again for reading and for being patient with me! Happy reading <3
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Lando hadnā€™t been looking for anything serious. He wasnā€™t the type, or at least thatā€™s what he told himself. He was young, successful, and people often told him how lucky he was to live the life he had. Fast cars, travel, a wide circle of friendsā€”what more could he ask for? He wasnā€™t sure what to make of her at first. Their initial exchanges were easy, filled with harmless flirting and the occasional back and forth. Magui was gorgeousā€”there was no denying thatā€”and they got along well enough.
Weeks went by with casual texting, late-night conversations, and occasional meet-ups whenever they could. They had met at a party a few months ago, and things had escalated quickly from casual texting to late-night conversationsā€”the kind where they laughed a little too loudly, even over the phone. He met her when he could between races, and sometimes they kissed, letting the evening unravel into something more. The first time they kissed was in the darkness of a nightclub, lights flashing around them, the music loud enough that he couldnā€™t hear his own thoughts.
He kissed her because it felt like the right thing to do at the time. His lips found hers, and everything else fell away. The next thing he remembered was stumbling into her apartment, their lips barely separating as they fumbled with the door, their clothes falling off as they made their way toward her bed. It felt right. At that moment.
It was fun, exhilarating even. They knew each other on a physical level that went beyond any of his past experiences. In the dim haze of his newfound adulthood, this was what Lando thought he needed. And people thought they looked good together, so why not? It could work.
But something still didnā€™t feel complete. He began to wonder if he was missing something, something more.
Then he met you.
Lando had noticed you before he had even spoken to you directly. There was something different in the air around you as you moved through the hospitality suite. He remembered watching you stand near the garage, focused, observing everything but never really interacting unless needed. It intrigued him. You werenā€™t a fan, he could tellā€”not in the way some others were. Unlike most, you didnā€™t treat the drivers like celebrities; you treated them like people. It was refreshing. He watched you from a distance at first, trying to figure you out. You were polite but distant, professional.
You werenā€™t the kind of person to seek attention, and that intrigued him. You were there, working quietly, your head down, but always aware of your surroundings. He liked that.
After that first day, he found himself wandering back into the hospitality suite, dodging journalists and photographers as he snuck away to find you. He always made up an excuse to see you, not fully aware of the brewing feelings in the back of his mind.
You were friends, exchanging late-night calls, staying behind sometimes at the hospitality suite to keep you company as you arranged things back into their places. Heā€™d ask you questions about your life outside of racing, curious about the parts of you that didnā€™t revolve around the sport. Over time, you opened up more to him. You indulged in his mannerisms, leaning into him when the opportunity arose. He gradually picked up on your habits, like the way you concealed your smile behind your hands or how you fiddled with the long ties of your work apron. Seeing you began to make his heart race.
The more you interacted, the more fascinated he became. Without even realizing it, you became someone he relied on. When he was feeling down after a tough race or just needed a distraction from the world, he found himself texting you, sending you stupid memes or random thoughts. And you always replied, often with that teasing wit heā€™d grown to love. It made him feel like you were more than just a part of his worldā€”you were becoming his world.
The moments that made his heart race became more frequentā€”a photo of your smile, a teasing emoji after a flirty remark, or that time you sent him a voice note, laughing at something he had said.
That laugh... it stuck in his mind for days. He found himself cringing at the thought, comparing it to music. But truly, was a melody, a song he never wanted to stop hearing.
*:ļ½„ļ¾Ÿāœ§*:ļ½„ļ¾Ÿāœ§
He hadnā€™t even realized how touchy he was with you until someoneā€”probably Carlosā€”pointed it out. ā€œMate, youā€™re always finding an excuse to be near her,ā€ he had teased, nudging Lando with his elbow.
Lando shrugged it off at first, but the truth was, Carlos wasnā€™t wrong. Whenever you were near, his hand naturally found the small of your back, his arm draping over your shoulder when you both walked together, or his fingers brushing against yours when you handed him something. The touches were light, casualā€”but they werenā€™t insignificant. You leaned into his touch, beginning to feel at home. It felt so natural, like youā€™d always been in his space.
Lando felt the shift long before he was willing to admit it. It was subtle. The way you began to pull away during team events, your texts becoming shorter and less frequent. Your touches were more hesitant, less willing to stay in his arms when they enveloped you. More quiet when others were around, and even more so when it was just the two of you. He racked his brain trying to figure out what went wrong, but every time he thought about asking, he stopped himself. Could he be imagining it?
He tried distracting himself, telling himself it was nothing. There was always Magui, after all. Sheā€™d been popping in and out of his life more times than he could count, and every time he thought he was done, she found a way back in. Sometimes, when he felt lonely or frustrated after another awkward interaction with you, heā€™d slip into old habits. Heā€™d wake up in Maguiā€™s bed, her arm draped over his chest, and heā€™d tell himself it didnā€™t mean anything. And it didnā€™t. Not really.
But it didnā€™t fill the gap. It didnā€™t make him stop thinking about you. No matter how hard he tried to push those thoughts away, they kept coming back. He missed you, he felt lonely without you in the busy world you both found yourselves in. You were the one he wanted, even if he couldnā€™t say it.
*:ļ½„ļ¾Ÿāœ§*:ļ½„ļ¾Ÿāœ§
The night at the club was a turning point. You were there, a few drinks in, your inhibitions lowered, and for the first time in a while, you werenā€™t pulling away from him. He had to stop himself from kissing you when he first pulled you into his arms. Your perfume was one he almost hadnā€™t recognized, knowing you only wore it a few times when going out. Heā€™d smelled it on you on the rare occasions when you werenā€™t working hospitality at McLaren dinners. It was soā€¦ you.
He spent most of the night watching you, unable to keep his eyes off your frame as you swayed drunkenly with Alex and Lily. He couldnā€™t take his eyes off you, couldnā€™t tear his gaze away from the way you were so you in that moment. Every time you moved in time with the music, he could feel himself falling deeper under the spell you unknowingly had him under.
He had to stop himself from kissing you right then and there when he pressed into you from behind, taking your hips into his hands. Your flowery scent mixed with the tang of alcohol and sweat was intoxicating, and it took everything in him not to lean down and meld his lips to yours.
He leaned in, his lips brushing your ear as the bass of the music thumped in his chest. He didnā€™t say anything, didnā€™t dare ruin the moment with words, but he knew you could feel the way his body responded to yours. The tension was electric, each second of your closeness like a silent admission that neither of you could avoid anymore.
You didnā€™t pull away. You didnā€™t tell him to stop. Your body felt heavenly against his, fitting right where it needed to. His hands were everywhere and nowhere all at once. He couldnā€™t get enough of you.
Landoā€™s thoughts were a mess. Every time your hips brushed against him, his breath caught, and his brain spun in circles, trying to make sense of what this was. Did you feel the same pull? The same desire that clawed at him every time you were near? He didnā€™t know, and he couldnā€™t bring himself to ask.
The moment you stepped off the dance floor, Lando took your hand, leading you toward the darkened hallway. Neither of you said a word as you slipped into the bathroom, the music muffled by the walls around you. He pinned you against the cool surface of the sink, his lips crashing into yours with a desperation he hadnā€™t realized he was carrying. You kissed him back, just as hungry, and for a moment, he let himself forget the confusion, the hesitation, everything except the way your body felt pressed against his.
He wanted to take you right there and then, not wanting to wait any longer. Your soft moans sent shivers down his spine, and he wanted moreā€”needed more. His hands slid down to the hem of your dress, ready to lose himself in you entirely.
And just as they did, there was a sharp, sudden knock on the door that had the two of you jumping. He cursed the Dutch driver as he pulled the two of you out of your lustful haze, grounding both of you back in reality. There was a sudden soberness instilled in your bodies as you left the restroom, only spurring him to drink more as the night dragged on.
The rest of the night was a blur. He remembered drinking more, trying to drown the frustration gnawing at him. But he knew one thing for certain: you had come home with him. He remembered your face hovering over him as he lay in bed, the soft light casting a glow around your hair like a halo.
You slipped under the covers beside him, and for a brief moment, everything felt perfect.
When he wakes up alone, he can still smell your perfume. It lingers on the sheets, the only proof that you were there the night before. He lies there, staring at the ceiling, his bed still warm from where you had been beside him, and he tries to convince himself that it doesnā€™t matter. That youā€™ll be okay, that things will eventually go back to normal.Ā Ā 
He sees his phone charging on the opposite bedside table and reaches across the bed to check it. It's almost dead, having just barely been plugged in. He reaches for it, expectingā€”hopingā€”for a message from you, but instead, itā€™s from her.Ā Ā 
already missing you, when are you coming over again? last night was fun ;)
It's a message heā€™s been avoiding, a message heā€™s been ignoring all night long. Lando swears under his breath, tossing his phone to the side. He hasnā€™t seen Magui in weeks, but she has a way of showing up at the worst possible times, like a ghost from his past that refuses to be laid to rest. He feels a wave of guilt wash over him. What if you saw the message? What if thatā€™s why you left?Ā Ā 
But deep down, he knows that isnā€™t it. Thereā€™s something else going on, something more that you havenā€™t talked about, something youā€™re both avoiding. And he hates it.Ā Ā 
Sitting up in bed, he runs a hand through his messy curls, his mind racing. He canā€™t keep doing thisļæ½ļæ½ļæ½dancing around his feelings, pretending everything is fine when it clearly isnā€™t. He needs to talk to you, to figure out whatā€™s going on, but the thought of confronting it scares him more than heā€™s willing to admit.Ā Ā 
Because what if you donā€™t feel the same way? What if this is all in his head, and youā€™re just trying to let him down gently? He canā€™t bear the thought of losing you completely, even if it means staying in this strange limbo where things are left unsaid.Ā Ā 
But one thing is clearā€”Magui isnā€™t what he wants anymore. Not really. Sheā€™s a distraction, a way to fill the void that has grown between him and you. But itā€™s not enough. Youā€™re what he wants, the one who makes his heart race and his thoughts spin in ways he hasnā€™t felt before.Ā Ā 
Lando glances at his phone again, the urge to text you overwhelming. He types out a message, his fingers hesitating over the send button.Ā Ā 
Hey, can we talk?
Simple. Direct. But as his thumb hovers over the screen, doubt creeps in. What if you donā€™t reply? What if this is the end?Ā 
Before he can hit send, he tosses his phone to the side once again, the message box now empty.Ā Ā 
*:ļ½„ļ¾Ÿāœ§*:ļ½„ļ¾Ÿāœ§
When he pulls you into his driverā€™s room, itā€™s not a decisionā€”itā€™s instinct. Carlosā€™s words still ring in his ears, but itā€™s the image of someone else's hands on you, someone other than him, that makes his blood roar in his veins. His thoughts, his feelings, everything heā€™s been holding back solidifies in an instant. He crosses the distance between you, heart thrumming wildly in his chest. Without a word, his hands find your face, and his lips meet yours, slow and deep, pouring everything heā€™s never had the courage to say. You donā€™t pull away; you donā€™t ask questions. Maybe, somehow, you always knew.
It wasnā€™t like the kiss in the clubā€”this one was softer, filled with all the things he couldnā€™t say. Itā€™s tender, woven with unspoken confessions, full of the vulnerability heā€™s buried for too long. His hands slide to your waist, pulling you impossibly close, and you match his intensity, your body melting into his, as if youā€™ve both been waiting for this moment forever.Ā 
Neither of you speakā€”words would only shatter the fragile understanding that lingers between you. Slowly, he rises, his mind a whirl of confusion, already imagining what he might say the next time he sees you. Surely, this couldnā€™t be the end. All those momentsā€”the brushes of your hands, the late-night calls, the silent glances that spoke louder than wordsā€”surely they werenā€™t meaningless?
But as quietly as you slipped into his room, you slip out and away. Heā€™s left sitting in the dim light, staring at the bed, his heart still racing but now hollow. You left without a word, but this time the emptiness feels sharper. You had clung to each other as though trying to hold back the inevitable, a storm of passion that left him breathless. Yet, as he had laid on your chest, listening to your heartbeat fade into silence, he canā€™t shake the feeling that this was an ending. That whatever it was you hadā€”whatever it could have beenā€”was slipping through his fingers like sand.
Slowly, he rises, his mind a whirl of confusion, already imagining what he might say the next time he sees you. Surely, this couldnā€™t be the end. All those momentsā€”the brushes of your hands, the late-night calls, the silent glances that spoke louder than wordsā€”surely they werenā€™t meaningless?
*:ļ½„ļ¾Ÿāœ§*:ļ½„ļ¾Ÿāœ§
When the next race weekend arrives, Lando paces restlessly through the hospitality suite. His stomach is in knots, his mind spinning at a pace faster than heā€™s ever driven. He goes over the words heā€™s rehearsed a thousand times in his head, thinking about how he shouldā€™ve spoken sooner, how he shouldā€™ve laid everything bare instead of relying on touches and stolen moments to convey what heā€™s felt for so long. Fifteen minutes pass. Youā€™re still not there.
In the time heā€™s known you, heā€™s learned that youā€™re never late. Even when you were nervous or uncertain, you would always show up. Maybe itā€™s just traffic, he tells himself, trying to ignore the gnawing pit in his stomach. Maybe youā€™ll arrive later. But you wouldā€™ve told him, right? You always told him.
Then the doors open, and his heart stumbles in his chest, but itā€™s not you.
ā€œOh, she quit,ā€ a colleague tells him when he asks for you. ā€œHer contract was ending anyways, something about heading back to university.ā€
The words hit him like a cold wave, their meaning sinking in with agonizing slowness. Youā€™re gone. Just like that. No warning, no farewell, no final glance. As he stands there, staring at the space where you should be, at the bar, at the tables you once hovered over, the reality crashes down on him with the weight of a thousand unsaid words.
And in that moment, the depth of his loss becomes a stark, aching reality.
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tags: @horseymchorse3 @bluebluesol @sltwins @sarx164 @f1fantasys @obxstiles @moonvr @spideylovin @lipstickstateofmind @rafeyybabyy
a/n: hi everyone, thank you much if you've gotten to this point! I really loved being to explore Lando's point of you and seeing more of his side of the story. let me know what you guys think of it, i always love to see what you guys have to say!
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Updates, Apologies, and Moving Forward!
Hello everyone! I am not dead, and this blog is not dead. I know I've been gone for a very long time again, and I'm very sorry.
I had to say goodbye to my cat, my emotional support animal, my baby. I won't say too much here, but she was suffering, and unfortunately there was nothing that could be done. My mental health is fragile at the best of times, and while I am okay and safe, it has been a difficult few months for me. I am also a full-time college student with a job, so all of my free hours were spent in grief. It's taken me a while to feel alright enough to come back, but here I am. I'm still passionate about queer representation in media, and I want to continue to share queer characters with the tumblr community. Starting tomorrow, I will resume the 8 times a day posting schedule that I was starting to utilize before my disappearance, as queueing posts makes my life much easier. I'm sorry if I don't respond to notes or asks left during my break. It's a lot to sort through and I value community engagement on this blog more than anything but I am just one person and I can only do so much. Feel free to re-send asks! Going forward, I'll be making a few changes. I am working on a publicly available google sheet of all characters that have been posted on this blog with results that I will link in a visible place so that people wanting to submit a character can (hopefully) quickly search to make sure that character hasn't been posted yet. I also will eventually be looking for another mod, although that will not be until the summer and I will make more posts when the time comes. I will personally be awol for the last few weeks of may and the first few weeks of june due to a job opportunity out of the country, but I am intending to have queued posts continuing to upload at the regular schedule during that time. Unfortunately this means I won't be able to edit mistakes or answer questions, but hopefully any issues can be addressed when I return. Thank you all for your patience, I'm sorry that this radio silence has gone on for so long, but I've thought about this blog a lot during my absence and I'm certain that it's not a project I'm giving up on any time soon.
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theshitpostcalligrapher Ā· 1 year ago
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sorry if it seems i've been tumblr awol a few days, please know that i pack all my orders by hand and I've cleared over 200 orders in the last three days
i feel like the emotional equivalent of the baby dented meme
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nukanobody Ā· 5 months ago
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Funny Familiarity
For context: I posted a head-canon a few days ago, on how Danse actually ended up in the brotherhood of steel as a synth despite not being sent as a spy but instead is listed as "missing". It's probable he ran away from the institute where the railroad helped him escape, with Deacon knowing about the case.
I'm so obsessed with this idea now so read below for any thoughts or further hc's i had when making this. Or ask me anything about this hc i am going cray cray. sorry if this is ooc i'm bad at characters.
ty to @ericadrawsstuff for your addon btw!! it fueled me to draw this haha
For Danse, I don't believe he was a courser but maybe a failed experimental synth/synth meant for manual labor? The institute would probably be in a panic if a courser with a courser chip went awol, they'd probably take notice if the same missing courser became the poster boy of the people whose trying to destroy them.
Danse stayed in the railroad for a bit, like maybe 5 months? Formed a somewhat close bond with Deacon who was "Debbie" at the time.
Deacon loves collecting sunglasses, was toying with the idea of being a woman when he found novelty heart sunglasses. I see him as identifying as male but really flexible when it comes to presenting himself.
Obsessed with the idea that despite being reset/memories wiped synths may carry flaws or mannerisms. In Danse's case his fierce loyalty and self sacrifice are his major flaws, pre-wipe he didn't want to be a danger to the railroad and felt he needed to be wiped, post-blind betrayal he felt like he was a danger to the brotherhood and needed to be killed.
Deacon's a good liar sometimes, but in the cases where Danse says something against synths his hands clench and has to lean on a wall to catch his breath while the sides of him fight in his head. The first side is the railroad agent who has huge empathy for M7-97 and knows that if his identity is revealed it'll absolutely ruin him and get maimed by the brotherhood, the other side of him is absolutely disgusted by Danse and wants to put him in his place, the 3rd just thinks it'll be funny.
I depicted Nora as how I'd imagine she'd be. A woman from a pre-war era being dropped in a wasteland, it's kind of a culture shock for her and she has a savior complex, she assumes that everyone just needs to sit down and talk. Her main goal is to somehow "unite" the commonwealth, she's joined all the factions and some of her companions are kind of peeved about it. In the comic she introduced Deacon to Danse thinking they could have a civil conversation where Deacon could steer him to a better mindset (she sees Danse as a kid who got into the wrong crowd, despite being a fully grown man)
okay jesus, this took like 3 days of non stop drawing for me to do. Whoever designed power Armour i pray for your downfall what the hell. Sorry if it looks bad i study software so I haven't gotten the chance to draw in like, 7 months. Can you tell which pose I was able to find refs for and not the rest? lol
I ship them now too, i've been researching them and I love their dynamic and damn if the plot "Person A knew Person B before Person B forgot them and became a different person" doesn't hit like a ton of bricks.
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diazheartsbuckley Ā· 10 months ago
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Fuck It Friday āœØ
I'm sorry for being AWOL (again lmao) but I've been working on the omegaverse fic literally every day for the past week and you're not gonna believe this, you guys - I DID IT!! I FUCKING FINISHED A FIC FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER šŸ˜­
So many of you have tagged me in these last few days and I can't wait to go through all of your amazing works šŸ’•
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In the bedroom, he sits down carefully next to Buck and strokes his lower back gently, a soft sigh of relief escaping Buckā€™s lips as he feels the warmth of Eddieā€™s hand on his skin. ā€œYouā€™re in laborā€ Eddie states, his heart skipping a beat as a fatigued Buck sits up to meet his eyes in the darkened room. Buck swallows harshly, feeling bad for lying again. ā€œYesā€ He says and bites down on his lip, chewing on it gently as he places his hand on Eddieā€™s stubbled cheek. ā€œWhy didnā€™t you say anything?ā€ Eddieā€™s heart aches in his chest, hating that Buck kept a truth from him once more. But this time, he was more willing to hear the reasoning why. ā€œI didnā€™t want to take your time with your family away, I wanted you to be able to celebrate Christmas with them and to not worry about me. Besides heā€™s not supposed to be here for another three weeks and I think that-ā€¦ that I didnā€™t say anything because that would make it all a little more real. Iā€™m not ready, Eds. Iā€™m not ready for thisā€ Buckā€™s words are dripping with sincerity and he even sniffles quietly a few times to calm his racing heart down. Eddie reaches onto the nightstand and turns on the lamp, wanting and needing to look at Buck right now. He cups Buckā€™s head in his hands, feeling warm tears making their way down the sides of Buckā€™s face and he lets out a deep breath, one that had seemingly been growing inside of him because the pressure on his chest lessens. ā€œHey, letā€™s just get one thing clear, okay?ā€ Eddie begins and tilts Buckā€™s head carefully, making him look into his eyes. ā€œYou are my family, mi amor. You and our son are my family too and I will always, always worry about you. Even if you donā€™t say it out loud. And I donā€™t want you to hide something like this just because my family is around. Weā€™re in this togetherā€ He says, concern etched deep into his face as he holds eye contact with Buck, not letting him look away. ā€œAnd I know that he isnā€™t supposed to be here just yet but weā€™ll handle it. Weā€™re ready, you are ready, baby. You hear me?ā€ His voice grows a little more firm as Buck averts his gaze and shakes his head, not wanting to hear it. ā€œWhat if Iā€™m a horrible dad? What ifā€¦ā€ Buck wipes his tears away with the back of his hand, all of his unspoken fears bubbling to the surface as another contraction surges through his body, making him wince in pain and surprise. ā€œWhat if heā€™s like me, Eddie? What if heā€™s an omega too? I spent so many years hating who I was because of it, feeling like I wasnā€™t good enough. What if Iā€™m just as strict as my father and I canā€™t love him how Iā€™m supposed to?ā€ Buckā€™s voice breaks at the end of his sentence, insecurities washing over him like a tidal wave, sweeping away all of the confidence that heā€™s spent years building, with it, leaving nothing but a wreck of a man. ā€œYou are not your father, Evan. Just being able to recognize that you donā€™t want to be like your father is already a step in the right direction. I know that you will never hurt him like your father has hurt you, I know that you will help our son build the confidence and strength to be proud of who he is, no matter what. I know that you already love him and would do anything to see him happy. You are going to an amazing dad, you already are an amazing dad, promising to not be like your own and loving our son so damn muchā€ Eddieā€™s speech is filled with adoration, love and so much pride in knowing that heā€™s creating a family with someone like Buck. Someone who loves so unconditionally. Someone who, in the face of adversity, is still able to show others how strong that he is. Someone whoā€™s kind and caring. Someone makes Eddie want to be a better version of himself. Thatā€™s the man that Eddie knows that heā€™ll love for the rest of his life.
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greazyfloz Ā· 2 years ago
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Could you do where Mackie Samoskevich gets mad at the reader and says ā€œWhatever, Iā€™m leaving, Donā€™t call me!ā€ But he ends up calling her anyways and they make up, I donā€™t know if that makes sense.
@jorjie-nhl thanks for inspooo :)
Angst: 2. "Whatever, I'm leaving", "Don't call me!" w/ Mackie Samoskevich
Forgetfulness
Today was my and Mackie's 1 year anniversary. I did hint at it last week when I was going through snapchat memories, so there is no excuse for him as to why it's 3pm and I haven't gotten one 'happy anniversary' texts, I know he forgot. I stay hopeful that maybe he has a surprise planned though.
I feel my phone buzz in my pocket and I check my Apple Watch to see it was Mackie that texted me, I read the messaged displayed on my wrist:
MackiešŸ’˜: Going to stay a little late at practice tonight, you can come by later tho
I roll my eyes and don't even answer him. He fucking forgot. The worst part is he text me or anything again,
4pm - nothing
5pm - nothing
6pm - nothing
7pm - nothing
I'm not going over. I'm way to stubborn to. I go to my kitchen to clean up a few dishes that were piling up in the sink as I hear a knock at my front door. I turn around and shake my arms so my sleeves fall as I make my way over to the door.
I open the door and see Mackie, he smiles at me "hey babe" he says walking in wrapping his arms around my waist. I hug him back to save the awkwardness but turn around after we pull away.
I go back into the kitchen and roll my sleeves up again as I start to finish the last couple plates, I hear Mackie follow me into the kitchen then lift himself on the counter beside me as he watches me finish.
"What's wrong?" he asks as he continues to watch
"Nothing" I say as I turn to open the cupboard beside his head, and begin to place the clean dishes away
"You just moody today?" he asks me and I turn away leaving the kitchen rolling my eyes.
I sit on the couch and soon Mackie follows, sitting beside me before wrapping an arm over my shoulder. Before he could even pull me closer to him. I took his arm off lifting it over my head and setting it back in his lap.
"What the fuck?" he says slightly laughing. I look at him for a second before looking back at the tv, "Seriously what is wrong with you?"
He slides over a little so our legs were no longer against each other as he looks over at me. "What?" I say looking at him briefly, then turning my head back to the tv again.
" Are you mad the I stayed late at practice tonight? I know I've been kinda AWOL lately but babe, it's the frozen four"
"No" I say answering his question
"No, what?" he says and I ignore him, "I'm way to stressed to play your stupid guessing games, so you're going to have to tell me what I did because by the way you are acting I know I did something"
"I'm not acting any differently than I normally would" I say back to him and I feel the couch move beside me.
"Whatever, I'm leaving" Mackie says making his way to the door, I only glance over slightly.
"Figures you'd have a better place to be" I say acting as if I don't care.
"I'm done playing games" I hear Mackie say
"Holy fuck, would you leave!" I say looking over at him, "And don't call!" I say as the door slams behind him.
I feel like normally I would be pretty upset, but I'm just so angry that I don't feel any sadness. However I do wonder if he will ever realize or if I'm going to have to tell him.
Later that night, I am in bed almost falling asleep my my phone buzzes beside me. I look at my phone seeing it is Mackie and let it ring. Once it stops, it immediately starts ringing again. This time I pick it up, "What part of don't call me don't you understand?" I say harshly into the phone
"Baby please I'm sorry"
"Are you just realizing now? It's 11:40"
"I know, tomorrow I promise I will rent a whole restaurant for you, I'll buy you the nicest pair of earrings I can find, I'll spend the whole day doing whatever you like"
"I wanted to spend time with my boyfriend on our anniversary, but he loves hockey more than me"
"No don't say that. I love you" he says, "I'll tell you what every year I will one up myself every year will just get better and better"
"So next year I'll get a 'Happy Anniversary' or maybe just a text" I say harshly through the phone
"Babe I-" he stops realizing he still hasn't said it yet, "Happy Anniversary baby"
"Little late"
"I know" he says and I can hear him scratch his head on the other end, "Fuck it, I'm coming to get you"
"Mackie it's almost midnight"
"See you in 10" he says before hanging up.
Mackie redeemed himself. He picked me up and drove me outside of the town to one of those truck stop dinners that are open all night. He bought us dinner and dessert and we stayed until 2am. I gave him a new chain and he told me he was going to shower me in gifts tomorrow
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hlxtn Ā· 10 months ago
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I AM ALIVE OHMGOD
I FEEL SO HORRIBLE FOR GOING AWOL SO SUDDENLY BUt life really wrecked me over the past few months (it's getting better now so its okay) You can read a part of what happened here
but tldr; my friend fucked me over/scammed me during my most vulnerable period and while trying to get ahold of my personal problems I also had to beg for all my money/stock back from the 'friend'. I've been taking socials one-by-one and tumblr is now next for me to come and answer messages and give updates. I will tackle my inbox in the next two days once I get off from work and can properly focus on giving actual replies. Just wanted to quickly update and say I didn't disappear without a reason and I'm really really sorry about that
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sitp-recs Ā· 1 year ago
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Hi Liv! I was wondering if you have a rec list already where either Draco or Harry struggle with alcoholism? I have read maybe like one before, but I couldn't find it again. I've been sober for almost 4 years now, but things are super stressful and that makes me stupid sometimes. Idk, it just helps, reading about my favourite pair. Anyways, thank you if you have any that you might wanna rec, and if not, thank you anyways, I really enjoy your blog, I always find some great fics through your recsšŸ’ž Hope you have a lovely day!šŸ«¶āœØ
Hi anon! Congrats on being sober for almost 4 years, youā€™re doing great šŸ’œ Iā€™m sorry things have been hard lately, I hope the recs help. Iā€™m very particular about addition in fic so I havenā€™t read much or often, but I do have some recs for you. Maybe my followers can share more?
again, for the first time by @aibidil (E, 14k)
Five times Draco lied about why he wasn't drinking, and one time he gave an honest answer. Or, a love letter to sobriety.
War Wounds by SilentAuror (E, 30k)
Some wounds take longer to recover from than others. HP/DM, with background HP/GW. Themes of alcoholism, love triangles, and dubious fidelity.
Dreaming Darkly by @quicksilvermaid (E, 39k)
It's five years after the war, and Harry is not okay. He hates his job. He hates Robards. He hates Ron's promotions and Hermione's concern. He chases oblivion in booze and weed and quick dirty fucks, but it's never enough.
Take A Chance On Me by @mintawasalreadytaken (E, 41k)
There's a DJ on RareFM with a secret. Or: the one with all the ABBA in it.
Polar Night/Midnight Sun by toomuchplor (E, 54k)
Harry travels to arctic Norway on the trail of dragon egg poachers, only to find he's been assigned to work alongside the only NorMagPol Auror north of sixty: one Draco Malfoy. It's been ten years since they crossed paths, and Malfoy isn't exactly what Harry expected or remembered. For one thing, he wears a lot more hand-knits?
Lemon Colour, Honey Glow by @thusspoketrish (E, 67k)
Over a series of unfortunate pub nights at the Leaky Cauldron, Draco Malfoy falls in love. A story about finding strength and forgiveness in unlikely places.
Unhook the Stars by jad (E, 70k)
Seventy-thousand words of pornographic discourse between two boys-turned-men that still haven't learned how to communicate like normal people ā€“ with words. Guest appearances by Pansy Parkinson, Neville Longbottom, Hermione Granger, Blaise Zabini, Teddy Lupin, Gregory Goyle, the Weird Sisters, ex-wives, several Weasleys, a Boggart, and a Honey Badger.
Nor All That Glisters by @sweet-s0rr0w (E, 110k)
Lonely and frustrated on house arrest, with no prospects for the future, Draco begins brewing Felix Felicis in an attempt to improve his lot. Just in the short term, of course. He isnā€™t a total idiot. But before long he finds himself with a thriving business, a nice flat, some actual (albeit irritatingly Gryffindor) friends, and a very satisfying sex life. Whatā€™s more, no-one is hexing him in the street. And Harry Potter is single, and gorgeous, and giving Draco decidedly interested looks.
Another Mask Behind You by lettered (E, 116k)
Draco is a high-end prostitute who hides his identity. Harry unknowingly hires him. And then there is porn, questions about identity, domestic bliss, more porn, and truth as seen through a web of lies.
Dwelling on Dreams by @the-sinking-ship (E, 135k)
Draco thought he could avoid Potter for the duration of his brief return to England. Heā€™d stick to his schedule and be back home in Paris, where he belonged, in a few short months. No trouble at all. He had plenty to occupy him, what with the opening of the London branch of his successful apothecary, his innovative research, drinks with Pansy, a backlog of unread potions periodicals.
Number Seven by sara_holmes (M, 253k)
Harry already has small children, an ex-wife, annoying colleagues and an international crime ring to deal with. So when Draco Malfoy reappears after eight years AWOL in France, of course Harry is going to leave him well alone...Right?
Whatever You Want, Draco Malfoy by @dorthyanndrarry (E, WIP)
Draco lost his home and the only society he knew after the war. He ended up living in the muggle world, making new friends and new connections and maybe some sort of peace. Even if that peace was usually found at the bottom of a bottle. It was enough for him. He was content to just exist. Then Harry Potter decided to ruin everything.
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mesillusionssousecstasy Ā· 7 months ago
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Heart Break High : Season 2
I think this season was a bit darker than season 1, even if the end showed growth and acknowledgment.
Amerie was doing her best to be a better person.
What I didn't like was the absence of parents (like in Euphoria).
I was heartbroken when I learned the truth about Rowan's brother.
Also, I would have been great to see a throuple between Amerie, Rowan and Malakai.
Is Timothy Voss supposed to be Spencer's father?
I think that the abortion was none necessary. They have plenty of condoms at this point.
But I think that the magic from season 1 was lost.
Btw is the new generation all queer?
What can we expect after the school burned down? It was definitively a night to remember.
Some quotes :
"- It's up to 68 comments. I'm a monster." (Amerie - Episode 2)
"- You're just an equal opportunity arsehole." (Episode 2)
"- How can you love me if you think I'm that kind of person?" (Amerie - Episode 2)
"- See, you do care. I knew it." (Amerie - Episode 2) - This is just so typical of you. You're making drama out of nothing." (Malakai - Episode 2)
"- Sir, no offense, but what exactly are we doing? (Spencer) - Other than breaking child labor laws. - Are we digging our own graves? I'm not really into that." (Ant - Episode 3)
"- There's like... There's like a code, right? Like, you don't out someone if they're queer? (Malakai) - Oh, you mean the being-a-decent-person code?" (Darren - Episode 3)
"- I don't wanna hurt her. (Malakai) - You can't hide who you are to protect other people." (Darren - Episode 3)
"- I mean, I'm not about to start protesting. (Missy) - Oh, my God. Yeah. Just keep him down there. They can't say anything stupid when their mouth is full." (Sasha - Episode 5)
"- Uh, I think sometimes we cling to a few nice moments with someone and make them bigger than they were. But actually, we've spent the majority of the time forcing something that doesn't fit." (Rowan)
"- I could just tell Malakai wasn't all in. And I deserve someone who is... I think everyone does." (Amerie - Episode 5)
"- Don't turn up at your ex-girlfriend's house asking for tips on how to win back the guy you left her for." (Amerie - Episode 5)
"- You're smart, but in a way that never makes other people feel dumb." (Episode 5)
"- Quinni, I love you. But the world can't always play by your rules." (Darren - Episode 5)
"- I like it 'cause it's a reminder that the most beautiful love stories can sometimes have painful beginnings." (Rowan - Episode 5)
"- But I don't buy any of that shit she was saying. You always have a choice about the kind of man you wanna be." (Missy - Episode 5)
"- Look, I know things have been really, really hard, but you should at least stay and try to sort your shit out. Otherwise, you'll never know if you left 'cause you wanted to, or 'cause you were running away like a little bitch." (Episode 6)
"- I'm looking for my friend Quinni. She's been AWOL for three days. Have you seen her? (Darren) - Sorry, I didn't feel like replying." (Quinni - Episode 6)
"- You've been avoiding me. (Rowan) - No. Just giving you a chance to miss me." (Amerie - Episode 6)
"- I wanna change. (Spencer) - All right, well, it's easy to say, but it actually requires some meaningful action." (Missy - Episode 7)
"- I just wanted to say make this a night to remember, not one to regret." (Zoe - Episode 8)
"- I feel like someone's always gonna be making a sacrifice if they'd be with me." (Harper - Episode 8)
"- There's all kinds of ways to love someone, to be with someone. You don't have to play by other people's rules." (Episode 8)
"- Well, at least I have a heart. Yours is just a piece of dog shit." (Amerie - Episode 8)
"- I wanted you to see how much I do under the surface that no one ever sees. I've been performing who I thought I should be for my entire life. I don't think I know who I am anymore. I'm gonna find out, but I don't wanna lose you in the process." (Quinni - Episode 8)
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aragarna Ā· 8 months ago
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I'm back!
Sorry I've been a bit AWOL for the past two weeks. If I've missed anything important, let me know :)
I shall resume my (somewhat) regular posting schedule.
But for now, a meme! tagged by @professorlehnsherr-almashy Thank you!! :)
Favorite Ship: Aziraphale/Crowley
Last Song: I'll Find You In the Dark, by Tony Bruno (From Doc, see below)
Last Film: I flew over the Atlantic a couple weeks ago, so I watched quite a few. None very good. Barbie was honestly quite a disappointment. But right before that, in theater, it was Dune Part 2.
Currently reading: Les Enfants Sont Rois, de Delphine de Vigan. About parents over exploiting their kids for their Youtube channel.
Currently watching: I might have been rewatching my favorite Italian medical show, Doc... (Trailer) Look, he's cute, he's got great hair and the sweetest of smiles. And there's so much great angst in the first few episodes, how not to fall in love with him?
And one day, when I'll have found a way to have enough time to write all the fics in my head, I'll write that POI fic based on that show.
Currently craving: More time off. I reaaaally don't want to go back to work tomorrow.
tagging whoever wants to play :)
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zero00o0 Ā· 2 years ago
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Quiet pt 4
Cw: mcyt g/t, cursing, fear play, (major) horror elements, (major) character injury, blood, (major) angst, (major?) violence
Chapter 1 , Chapter 2 , Chapter 3
// OK, I am sorry for disappearing for so long. I should've said something, but to keep it short and simple bad life stuff happened, I had to get more jobs to keep myself up and just didn't have time for social media. Thankfully I'm really close to finishing school now and these past few days I've gotten sick so it gave me time to finally sit down and finish this. I'm not making any guaranteed future promises but I don't plan on staying away forever. At least until I can finish school and get my shit together properly! I'm so so sorry for staying AWOL for months. Please enjoy ^^ I tried to make it more lengthy than I anticipated to make up for the lost time. //
Heā€™s sure that at some point, in his scrambled hyper-energetic mind, he noticed how fidgety and nervous George had been acting while he was in his shop. Heā€™s sure that, even though he wasnā€™t centered on his clammy hands or sweat-soaked hairline, there was something in him - may that be human instinct or something more profound - that could tell something wasnā€™t right.
Because if he hadnā€™t been sure that everything was okay, would he have stopped frantically mopping the juice staining his floor, to make a call that he surely had no business making, because he felt, 'unusual'?
Who knows. Regardless, it was that feeling-driven phone call he made that led him to speak with the countyā€™s entire police force not even half an hour later, regarding the case of a missing vacationer wanted for vandalism and the destruction of private property.
ā€œLike I said, officer; George didnā€™t steal or threaten my life or anything like that. He just seemed ā€¦ off. I donā€™t know how to put it?ā€ Alex struggled to find his words as he shrugged at the big, burly officer towering above him, arms crossed with black shades covering his eyes.
The man hummed and shifted, standing more upright and increasing his height. ā€œCourse he seemed off,ā€ he grumbled sternly, ā€œboy just caused a few thousand dollars of damage. He outta be scared. Once we find him heā€™ll be working for years trying to pay that off.ā€
The officer glanced over his shoulder towards where his other officers stood around talking by their cars. Then he leaned down slightly, getting closer to Alex's face. "You better not be bullshitting us, Maldonado. I know your history." The clerk clenched his fingers into a fist behind his back. "Officer, I'm not..." he trailed off, frowning nervously. "I'm not trying to imply anything about... 'it'. I didn't even intend to call you, I was just concerned about George. I thought he was sick and called that lady at the resort to connect me to his friends. That's when I realized he was missing and called you to do the 'right thing'." There was an edge to his voice at the final two words. The officer stood back up straight and just nodded. "And it's good you finally have," He said.
"But officer-" Alex was cut off. "Son, I think it'd in yer best interest to stay out of this one. For yours and my station's own sake. Okay? Don't wanna have to take this place away from you, understand?"
Alex bit his tongue and nodded as the cop returned to his car. He disagreed with the man entirely. The officer clearly hadnā€™t met George in person or had seen him. It didnā€™t take years of a lasting friendship for the store clerk to know that a little guy like George couldnā€™t cause damage like that within the span of a few hours. George probably couldnā€™t do damage like that in a few days.
The sound of car doors shutting pulled Alex away from his thoughts, and he looked over at the source of the sounds. It was Sapnap and Karl, though they didnā€™t look as cheery nor as rested as they did the last time they met. It was almost intimidating, the manner of the way they approached Alex. If he didnā€™t know any better, heā€™d say Sapnap looked ready to beat somebody up.
ā€œHey, guys..ā€ Alex greeted, raising a hand to give a small, awkward wave. Karl gave him a small smile and waved back, but Sapnap didn't bother with greetings as he bluntly said, ā€œtell us what actually happened.ā€ Alex frowned with confusion. ā€œWhat do you mean? I havenā€™t lied to the cops about anything,ā€ he said carefully. Karl stepped forward, his tone much more gentle than Sapnapā€™s as he said, ā€œWe donā€™t think youā€™ve lied about anything but..ā€ He trailed off, ā€œwe think that there are some... elements you may have left out.ā€
Alex half-scoffed, half-gasped as he just slightly inched backward. ā€œWhat? What could I have possibly left out? You havenā€™t even heard my story yet,ā€ he exclaimed. ā€œThen tell it,ā€ Sapnap said, leaning closer to the clerk.
Alex told them everything that had happened from the moment George entered the shop, to him buying the chocolate for Karl, to him leaving in an odd, rushed manner.
ā€œAlex,ā€ Karl began. ā€œI need you to think about everything you just told us. Yes, it was all very off and weird and whatnot.. but was there anything else that struck something in your mind? Something he did that.. maybe you have seen before? Or something you heard that.. maybe youā€™ve heard on other quiet nights that you try to explain away but.. you know isnā€™t right?ā€
Alex bit his cheek as his gaze refused to meet their eyes. ā€œā€¦No.ā€
ā€œYouā€™ve felt like somethingā€™s been off for years now, havenā€™t you?ā€ Alex looked up at Sapnap with surprise. ā€œThat look in your eye, itā€™s the same as that womanā€™s.ā€ Sapnap stepped forward and Alex looked away again. ā€œOne might think this place is a vacationer's dream, and you see it happen all the time. Happy tourists stopping by, telling you about their sweet, getaway cabins and going on and on, just like us, and you always wanna say something, but you canā€™t. You think theyā€™ll think youā€™re crazy, donā€™t you? But.. you know somethingā€™s wrong. Youā€™ve known it since you started working here, but you never admitted it.ā€ Sapnapā€™s eyes softened for a moment as if he were reflecting his words on an experience of his own.
Alex frowned and turned his back to the Texan. ā€œIā€™m sorry about your friend, but I donā€™t know anything.ā€ He spat as he started to leave.
ā€œAlex, please,ā€ Karl cried, grabbing the clerkā€™s arm. ā€œGeorge is our best friend, he means everything to us, and his fate could be resting on whatever information you can give!ā€ Alex turned to stare at Karl. ā€œPlease,ā€ the man pleaded. ā€œAnything.ā€
The warm hand left Alexā€™s arm and the clerk sighed. He glanced around a few times before leaning closer to the men. ā€œMy grandma told me to never, ever go into the woods alone, especially at night,ā€ he murmured. "As a matter of fact, it was the last thing she told me." Sapnap and Karl glanced at each other.
ā€œAnd itā€™s not like I ever wanted to,ā€ he said slowly, his words shaky. ā€œI always felt watched when I went out there.ā€
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It took every ounce of willpower he had to keep himself from gagging. George turned his head and waved the giantā€™s hand away. ā€œN-no, thank you,ā€ he managed to say without lurching.
The monster, whoā€™d been trying to offer George a bloody lump of raw flesh from god only knows what pushed the raw meat closer to the human. Using its other hand, it pointed to where its mouth was, trying to explain to George that, This is for you to eat.
George shook his head and finally gagged aloud, getting up from where he sat on the grassy ground to lean over a log, his face green with sickness.
Itā€™s now officially been over a day since the monster - who George prefers to call, 'the giant' now, had kidnapped George from his cabin and taken him throughout the woods of this cabin resort heā€™d unenthusiastically agreed to go to with his two friends, Sapnap and Karl. For their first hours together, George was dead-set that this giant creature had malicious intentions for him, whether that be eating him alive, torturing him, or doing sadistic experiments. But after it had convinced the human to get chocolate and acted very appreciative and domestic towards him after he did, George wasnā€™t so sure his initial assumptions were correct.
He coughed a few times as he cleared his throat and tried to clear his mind of the thought of that meat. Behind him, the giant watched with interest and confusion as it took the hunk of bleeding flesh away from George and tossed it into the dark cavern of its own maw. A cold finger brushed up against Georgeā€™s back, doing its best to rub up and down gently, soothingly. It wouldā€™ve felt nice if the giant had any body warmth at all.
The more time George spent with this creature, the more curious it was. Though it had a humanoid body, it lacked key details that, as result, made it very inhuman, like a normal mouth or a normal shade of skin. The tar-black color of its body reminded George of the blackness of looking down at a deep well during the night. It was spooky, yes, but very interesting. Things like these set it very clearly apart from people, but it had so many human-like qualities, that discrediting it as a homosapien all together felt wrong. Besides obvious physical similarities, it also displayed human-like intelligence as well as some sort of emotional intelligence. It had to understand emotion to some extent; if it didnā€™t, it wouldnā€™t be mocking a back-rub to George right now to calm him down.
George shrugged the finger away, rubbing his hands up and down his forearms to prevent himself from trembling; partly due to the cold and partly due to the intimidation of something of that size being anywhere near you, let alone touching you. Sure, itā€™s been over 24 hours now spent with the giant, but most of the time had been asleep and or shitting himself in fear. If he had to guess itā€™s only been an hour or so since he went to the shop. Just because it was showing George domesticity, didnā€™t mean he was in favor of showing it back. Quite the contrary. He wanted to go home.
He missed his friends.
The giant, who appeared to have grown bored of sitting around and staring at George, suddenly moved to grab the human and lift him, standing a bit too fast for Georgeā€™s liking as the human hurried to grab onto its thumb for support. Yet again it was walking with purpose in a random direction, and yet again George was forced to tag along for the ride. Although this time George didnā€™t want to sit in silence.
He knew it couldnā€™t understand him, but he needed to hear someoneā€™s voice right now, even if it was just his own.
ā€œI hope youā€™re going somewhere that has food,ā€ George said aloud, crossing his arms over his stomach. ā€œI donā€™t know how long you can go without eating but I canā€™t last that long.ā€ He heard a guttural grumble answer him from within the chest behind him. George sighed, ā€œMaybe I shouldā€™ve smuggled one of those chocolate bars for myself,ā€ he said airily, longingly. George sat up straighter. ā€œYou probably wouldā€™ve smelled it out, though. Wouldnā€™t youā€™ve?ā€ He asked, glancing up where its head loomed just a few feet from where he sat. It didnā€™t answer this time. It was just enjoying listening to its human speak gibberish, George figured. ā€œWhere are we going, anyway?ā€
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ā€œWhen I was younger, I decided to come live with my grandma and work in her shop; this shop.ā€
Sapnap focused his sharp gaze on Alex, who was zoned out as he began his account of this place. Though he couldnā€™t see him, he could also tell that Karl was listening closely as well. (He definitely had that cute, scrunchy face he always made when he focused, Sapnap thought in the back of his mind.)
ā€œI was about 17 when I made that decision,ā€ Alex explained. ā€œWell, the truth is I wanted to come here because I knew grandma couldnā€™t work much longer, and I wanted to make some easy money. This actually pays pretty well. You know, in one month I make-ā€œ Sapnap cut him off, ā€œFocus.ā€ Alex gave him an apologetic look before continuing,
ā€œWell.. it was after she died, and I inherited the business, that I started noticing weird things. Like, paranormal weirdness.ā€ He rubbed his hands together as he thought for a moment. ā€œBut not the kind of paranormal like ghosts.. paranormal likeā€¦ massive shadows appearing and disappearing faster than you can blink, a loud bird-filled forest becoming suddenly quiet, and.. people.. people going into those woods and never coming out."
Sapnapā€™s eyes widened. ā€œPeople? As inā€¦ more than one?? Why havenā€™t we heard anything about other people!?ā€ Alex frowned. ā€œThe cops used to try and investigate these cases. But after case after caseā€¦ person after person, and nothing showing up? They gave up and dusted any new disturbance under the rug. The town has decided that these 'missing persons' are just people doing criminal shit in the woods and then 'disappearing.' The story's different depending on who you ask. The cops tell you that it's a human trafficking ring, while the politicians swear there's a drug empire somewhere out there, all while everyone in town thinks that people go out there to kill themselves in the abandoned lake. There haven't been enough people to come back out of the woods to confirm any of this, so every word is just lost in the whirlwind of conspiracies. The only reason your friend is getting any attention at all is because of the property damage.ā€
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...
This place was untouched by man. Even though he was stories up in the air, George could tell that there wasn't even a single plastic wrapper to be found. It was lovely, of course, but... in a way... kind of offsetting. Litter was bad, obviously, but seeing litter was a telltale sign that humans had been present there at some point in time. So, seeing none now confirmed to George that he truly was alone out here. No one else would see him in the palm of this creature, and no one could call for help.
"You, uh, you keep it nice and clean around these parts, hm?" He said out loud. Of course, the giant didn't answer, but that didn't surprise him. Honestly, he'd be more surprised if it did answer. , 'Why yes, I do keep it quite clean around here, thanks for noticing!' George couldn't stifle an amused snicker at the thought of a British giant. How amazing would having tea with a giant with a British accent be?
A clicking sound from behind him took him away from his thoughts. "Yes?" George said in response. The giant looked down at him, its green gaze shimmered at him with excitement as it pointed ahead of them. George followed its pointed finger and gasped. They were standing right before a huge lake. It had to be the most beautiful body of water George had ever seen, shimmering water so clean you could almost see to the bottom. Fish splashed on the surface, and just a little ways away he could see some deer stopping by for a drink. Disney WISHES they could capture such beauty. This scene was the epitome of nature, no doubt.
"Oh my..." He gasped, fighting to find words to fit how he felt. He looked back up at the giant. It was looking down at George with a gleam in its gaze. It looked proud to show George this place. 'Look, look at what I have that no human has! Are you impressed?' And George would've said, "Yes! I'm impressed. This is amazing!"
"You're telling me that no one else is here? Why isn't the resort capitalizing on this?! It's amazing! I'm not even an outside guy and I would pay to come out here! You can't tell me that nobody else knows about this place!" George beamed, antsy to get down so he could see it up close.Ā  But instead of letting him down, the giant held onto George's tiny body as it walked forward, stepping into the water.
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ā€œYou said that some people come out..ā€ Karlā€™s voice made an appearance suddenly. "... so there are people who come out alive?ā€
ā€œYes,ā€ Alex mumbled. ā€œWell, noā€¦ I mean- My grandma. Sheā€™s- She was the only one." Sapnap cocked a brow. "You're telling me that your grandma - and I don't mean to be rude, but - your elderly grandmother went into those woods, encountered theā€¦ā€ He glanced at Karl in brief hesitation. ā€œ...whateverā€™s out there... and came back alive to tell the story, while no one else has gone in and made it out?" The Texan questioned. ā€œIā€™m sorry but it sounds made up.ā€ There was an odd tone of hopefulness in Sapnapā€™s words. A hope that, maybe, the giant wasnā€™t real. That the lady really was just crazy, and he hadnā€™t really seen green eyes watching from the trees their first day there.
The clerk bit his nails as his frown deepened in response to Sapnap's words. That sentence resonated with the clerk on a deeper level than the two boys currently understood.
Alex sighed, deep and long. "That's exactly what I told her up to the day she died," he said dryly. "Me and my entire family. It.." his voice ached with hurt, "it was like a family bonding activity to ridicule and make fun of her. Like belittling this little old lady made us superior. It always hurt her feelings, and we knew it."
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George grasped onto the giant's fingers as they went deeper and deeper into the lake. The lake only reached the giant's waist, but that didn't seem to upset it at all as it bent down until its shoulders were submerged as well. It let go of George and let him gently float in the water. It kept its eyes fixed on the tiny human as he swam around, enjoying the warm water.
Geroge laughed as he held his breath and went under the water. All around them were fish swimming, surely confused about why there was suddenly a ginormous black mass in the center of their home. The gentle rays of sunshine illuminated the space nicely and presented a gorgeous scene for the human to behold.
He resurfaced seconds later and gasped for air. George was never the best at holding his breath. Last he checked he could hold it for about 25 seconds before he started struggling.
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Karl raised his hand for a moment but put it back down. Seemingly deciding against his initial thought, which Sapnap assumed was to comfort Alex. "Hey," he said softly. "You don't have to go into so much detail if it's too much... we just need to know what's out there, and how she made it back out alive." Alex furrowed his brows and tightened his lips into a thin line. Then, the clerk shook his head slowly. "Karl. I-Iā€¦Iā€¦ I swore I would never talk about it again.ā€ He sharply inhaled a breath of air. ā€œI'm sorry... you guys are cool and I wanna help but..." Alex clasped his hands together and blinked a few times like he was composing himself.
"I... want to help you, tell you what I know, but if those pigs down at the station heard that I was talking about 'it' again, they'd take the shop away from me. They already threatened me earlier." The clerk turned away sharply, his posture suddenly tense. "That's all I have left."
He began to walk away.
But he didn't get far.
Alex gasped in surprise as he was suddenly whipped around and facing Sapnap. He didn't have much time to look at his face before he was hit on the side of the head and staggering to the side, disoriented. Before Alex could stabilize himself, the boy grabbed the clerk by the collar of his shirt and lifted him with adrenaline-driven strength. "Now listen here you pussy," he hissed with venom. "Stop thinking about your own damn self and think about someone else for once!" He shook him a few times, Alex's head lolling back and forth violently. "George is my best fucking friend! Heā€™s all WE have. And whatever you know about your grandma surviving could literally determine if he comes out alive or dead. You've sat by and watched all these other people, just like us, come into the resort and NEVER come back home because you were only concerned for YOURSELF! This is your chance to do the right thing for ONCE and save a goddamn life! What would your grandma say if she knew you were too scared to do anything to help these poor people?!?! What is WRONG WITH YOU??"
"SAPNAP quit that," Karl hissed, pulling his friend backward and away from the clerk, causing Sapnap to let go of his shirt. Once released, Alex fell to the floor with a dull thud, he was whimpering and sniffling, snot and tears running down his face. "Ridiculing him isn't going to help us, you idiot!" Karl snapped.
ā€¦
ā€¦
He looked up at the giant. It was just sitting there watching him carefully, content with just observing George's behavior. The human smirked at the giant, gaining a newfound feeling of confidence. "Well, c'mon! Are you just gonna sit there?" It blinked at him. Blank. Unreadable. George laughed as he used his entire arm to splash its chin. It leaned back, surprised by the action. George smiled endearingly at it. It could be so cute when it wasn't a potential threat to your life.
The giant lifted its arm and used it to gently stir the water a bit, making a mini water tornado. George yelped as he was pulled with it, though he quickly composed himself and started laughing. This seemed to spur the giant on, giving it confidence. It cooed at him as it stirred faster, clicking in a manner that reminded him of laughter. George tried to swim against the pull of the water, but as the giant's enthusiasm increased so did the speed of the water. George's laughter turned awkward, and a bit nervous as he was swept with the spinning waves against his will.Ā 
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ā€¦
Alex sniffed and shuddered as he got back onto his feet. He was cowering away from the two now, his face an entourage of emotions, most of which seemed to be old and resurfacing from the protective shadow of his mind. Delirium, guilt, shame, fear. If the man had lost any more stability in the moment, there was no doubt in Sapnap's mind that he would've been screaming right now.
"If I w-would tell you, if I-I warn you about the demon in the woods, about the-the missing bodies, the screams I sometimes hear at night, would you believe me?! Would you REALLY have believed me earlier??" His voice shuddered and cracked with a growing weakness. "I've tried so many times," Alex whispered, "I've tried to warn people, I've tried to explain, to get SOMEBODY to believe me!!" He wiped the snot off of his face. "Eventually I just stopped trying. The cops told me I was inflicting terror onto, and harassing my customers." He bit his bottom lip so hard Sapnap was surprised no blood trickled down his chin. "Sometimes people come and leave without a problem.. so I just started to have wishful thinking. Maybe it's all my fault.. for not being convincing enough. For not following my gut instinct and stopping George before he could run back out there..."
ā€¦
ā€¦
The giant didn't seem to notice the human's change in behavior, though. It just made excited noises as it added its other arm into the mix, spinning George around like he was a pool toy. Nervousness turned to panic when George was caught in the waves with no way of escaping. He was losing strength and was becoming weaker and weaker as he was rag-dolled around in the water, unable to prevent himself from going under just to spin right back to the surface. "Wai- Wait," he cried, but his voice was muffled by the water. He could barely see it, but when he surfaced once again, he caught a glimpse of the wide, empty, sadistic glee in the giant's gaze as it toyed with the human, the being that had no power over it, that it could bend to its will and play with like he was nothing but a toy.
And then George went under.
The rays of sunlight illuminating the lake were gone.
And it was dark.
...
...
"Alex," Karl's voice was a nice calming interruption to Alex's stress and Sapnaps anger. Like a mourning dove sounding over a storm's wind. "We may not have believed you before, but we are here listening to you now and we do believe you. Maybe there is still hope. So please, just tell us what you know."
Alex choked out a whimper as his head fell, his hair falling over his eyes as he tried to calm himself. He sounded defeated.
"I don't know exactly what it is, but I do know that it's big. Really big. Big enough to cast down enormous shadows and tear apart two-story cabins. It has two arms and two legs. It's fast and deathly quiet. Though Iā€™ve never seen them yet, my grandma always said... ā€˜You don't know it's there until you see its eyes,
And you don't see its green eyes unless it wants you to know that you've been foundā€™."
Karl gasped and Sapnap grabbed his head in panic. Alex blinked in surprise at their unexpected reactions. ā€œWha-?ā€
ā€œThe old lady,ā€ Karl explained frantically, ā€œthe one who you called at the resort. She told us that her wife was killed by a giant green-eyed monster. We believed her but-" ā€œBut to hear someone else say it,ā€ Sapnapā€™s shaky voice interrupted. ā€œTo hear someone else say it justā€¦ makes it more real.ā€
For a heartbeat, they were all quiet. Each and everyone one of them was just beginning to truly feel, to truly realize the realness of all this. As if they'd been holding onto a logical blanket of comfort that told them, ā€˜Monsters arenā€™t real.ā€™ Now their eyes were forcibly open. There were monsters.
Monsters are real.
Monsters are real, and it took George. It took tons of people like George. Stalked them, hunted them down, and took it for itself.
ā€œAlex, you have to tell us how your grandma escaped.ā€ Sapnapā€™s voice was as sudden as it was frantic. Once again his hands were clasped around the shirt collar of the store clerk as his pleading eyes stared into Alexā€™s very soul. ā€œPlease, please! Right now! We have to get going and find him before itā€™s too late!ā€
Alex clenched his teeth as he held onto Sapnapā€™s wrists. ā€œThe monsterā€™s eyes!ā€ The clerk trembled. ā€œIts eyes are its biggest advantage and biggest weakness. It canā€™t catch you if it canā€™t see you. That night when she went in the back to put out the trash and saw them- she threw a can of cola at it and burned its eyes long enough to escape! It never messed with her again.ā€
The two boys nodded. ā€œOk,ā€ Karl said. ā€œWe have to blind it. But- how and-and where are we even gonna find it, Sapnap??ā€
Sapnap didnā€™t answer as he grabbed Karlā€™s hand and ran back to the car, leaving Alex alone as he watched the two drive back towards their cabin.
Right back towards the heart of the woods.
...
...
A cold shock pulsed through his body, his heart jumped and he let out a half-gasp, half-scream as he jerked violently, his eyes wide open yet unfocused.
The last thing he remembered was being pulled into the dark abyss of water stirring around him violently, confident that it would be the last sensation he'd ever feel.
And yet... here he was. Breathing, albeit with some struggle.
George sat up and leaned over, coughing and choking as he spat out the water that filled his lungs, desperate to get a clear, uninterrupted breath.
After a few minutes of heaving, gagging, and sputtering the Brit was finally able to get a grip on himself and his surroundings. But he couldnā€™t say he was pleased with the first thing he saw once he looked around.
The giant - the monster - was there, sitting a few yards away from the boy. Its hand was closer to George than its body was, which indicated to him that it had definitely been the source of the cold shock that woke him up. It looked conflicted- surprised. Like it hadnā€™t expected George to start back to life. Iits haunting green gaze domineering over all other aspects of it, seizing Georgeā€™s attention. In a way, it almost looked relieved.
But George didnā€™t care what the giant felt right now, it just tried to kill him.Ā 
His heart raced and his hands began to tremble as he found that he was once again struggling to breathe. He forced his eyes to peel away from the glowing green orbs and to his surroundings. He needed to run. He needed to get away. Thisā€¦ thingā€¦ was unstable. It had tricked him into trusting it, and what a fool he had been to feel comfortable around the monster that terrorized him for an entire night- no- that terrorized him since he got here. This thing had been hunting him since he got here! It made him lose his mind, lose his sanity, and make him think he was going insane.
They were back in the monsterā€™s burrow. It looked like he was deeper inside now. He whipped his head around, studying the walls, moss, bramble, and all the different things that were growing inside. Wait, he wasnā€™t deeper inside. The burrow didnā€™t go any deeper. His breath came in short gasps as he tried to figure out why he felt different. Why were the surroundings off?Ā 
The giant made a move and George screamed, scrambling backward and looking for anything to hold onto for purchase. The giant froze as George moved away from it. It was making sounds reminiscent of the comforting rumbling it had been making hours ago when it saved him from the bobcat, but the Brit could barely hear it over the sound of his heart racing, causing blood to pump through his veins powerfully.Ā 
He didnā€™t stop trying to move away until he felt his hand come down on something hollow, breaking it and causing George to fall on his back. He winced in pain as his neck hit something hard and sharp, making his head spin. George was still holding onto the thing his hand had broken as he forced himself to sit upright, his vision spinning and out of focus. He lifted his hand to shake the thing off, but as he looked down, the only thing he could do was scream.
His hand had broken through a worn-down human skull. And as he turned to look around at where he was sitting, he realized that he had fallen right onto a spine.Ā 
His head was spinning, his eyes were unfocused, and his heart threatened to send him into cardiac arrest. He frantically looked around. There were more. Skulls, spines, arms, legs, piles piles PILES. He was sitting in piles of human remains. Dead bodies. People who went into these woods and NEVER came back out. People who saw the monster, and never lived to tell the tale. Dead. Gone. Thrown into a hole and forgotten about forever. Killed. MURDERED.
Cold fingers wrapped around his arms as he violently thrashed, kicking, screaming, biting. He was acting like a feral animal. He was hysterical. George didnā€™t know what he was doing anymore. It was inaccurate to say that George was even conscious at the moment.
This was nothing but primal human terror fighting to stay alive.
He saw another black hand reach under him and wipe dirt over the exposed graveyard of discarded bodies, covering it up. The hand seemed to shake as well. It had been caught, of course, it was nervous.Ā 
Before the monster had a chance to lift him up any higher George managed to reach a hand onto the ground and grab a fistful of dirt. As he was lifted towards its face, he hurled the dry dirt at its eyes with as much power as he could conjure.Ā 
The monster wailed as the earth hit its exposed pupils. It wailed so loud, so high pitched, George could feel warm blood trickling out of his ears. The pain distracted the monster long enough for George to struggle his way out of its iron fist, fall to the ground, and sprint around, out of the exit.
He didnā€™t know where he was going. But he knew that his best bet would be the opposite way that he tried before. It had to work. He HAD to find his way back to his friends. Heā€™d run all the way to Florida if he had to.Ā 
Heā€™d do anything just to hear Sapnapā€™s laugh.
His footsteps pounded on the forest floor, sticks and grass, and leaves were thrown behind him as his powerful steps dug up the ground. The wind felt like thousands of needles pinching his face as he ran through it, his lungs were ice cold with the freezing air.Ā 
Heā€™d do anything just to feel one more hug from Karl.
George cried. He cried for warmth, he cried for rest, he cried for safety, he cried for his friends. He wanted to go home. He wanted this hellish nightmare to be over.
And suddenly the ground was gone. And in its place was concrete.Ā 
George gasped as he fell over trying to abruptly stop. His face hit the hard surface, and he heard a deep crack from his nose, but he didnā€™t care. He couldnā€™t even register the pain. A road. A road! The road to the cabin! To Sapnap and Karl! He laughed as he threw himself to his feet and stomped on the concrete with glee. His path home!
Or maybe home would come to him.
ā€¦
ā€¦
Sapnap drove the car as fast as it could go. It could barely make the sharp turns of the backroad at this speed, but they had to get to the cabin. They had to start somewhere. ā€œSapnap! Please- please just go a little bit slower!ā€ Karlā€™s terrified voice shook with fear in the passenger seat as he clutched onto Sapnapā€™s shoulder. ā€œWeā€™re so closeā€¦ā€ Sapnap would mumble back. His eyes were glued to the road before them, his thoughts however were miles away. Back in Florida where nothing was wrong. He shouldā€™ve just let George play his stupid games. He shouldā€™ve just joined him. He shouldā€™ve just-
ā€œSAPNAP STOOOPPP! LOOK OUT!ā€
Karlā€™s scream snapped Sapnap back into reality as he realized he was racing right towards somebody walking in the road. ā€œFuck- Wait!ā€Ā 
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ā€¦
George heard the roaring of an engine coming up from the road. His heart leaped as he turned to wait for it to come. But as he stood with his hands in the air, screaming for attention, he realized that the car was hurtling down the narrow road. He could hear the tires squeaking, the engine roaring with passion. The sounds make him feel scared all at once. Why would someone be driving so fast back here? Unless they saw somethingā€¦
The Brit became ultra aware of the silence deafening his ringing ears.
His knees felt weak all at once, and he had to strain to keep himself standing. He looked around, his eyes desperately scanning the edge of the trees for that horrible green color, that all too eerie black shadowy form. Thatā€™s when the car came speeding down the road right toward him.
All his life heā€™d never understood why deers would stand so still while a car came right at them. He always assumed it was because they were animals, and animals were dumb.
But this week heā€™d realized that to that monster, he was an animal. An animal to be hunted. To be found as a prize. And at this moment, he and a deer werenā€™t really that different. Were they?
ā€¦
ā€¦
Deafening ringing filled his ears as Sapnap tried his best to steer the car out of the way, tried to avoid the man in the road, but wasnā€™t fast enough and still hit half of him. The car came to a screeching halt, all too late, and the men inside were left sitting in a fog of shock.
Red crimson painted the hood.
The body lay limp right on the edge of the road.
The car had stopped right next to a cliff, just feet away from rolling off.
Karl was the first to react. He gasped as if he was holding his breath like he had been drowning in the thick tension of the situation. It was the blonde who was strong enough to get himself out of the car, to walk down the road and toward the body. But it was Sapnap who, after following in pursuit at the sound of Karlā€™s horrified scream, was strong enough to say the word, ā€œGeorge-ā€
Karlā€™s wails became background noise to Sapnap. The Texan didnā€™t even realize that the blonde had fallen to his hands and knees and crawled over to Georgeā€™s body and splayed himself over his friend. Hugging him and wailing out for help. The only thing Sapnap could focus on was the horrified look on his friendā€™s face. Like it was a picture printed right onto Georgeā€™s face. It didnā€™t look real. He looked like a wax statue. His fingers ran through his hair as he watched red pour onto the green-turning-yellow grass of mid-autumn. He stared until he couldnā€™t take it anymore, turning around to look at the murder weapon - the car - with tears spilling from his eyes. It was barely damaged. The only thing wrong was that the trunk had popped open, and the shotgun he had packed had fallen onto the road. It was laying right in a pool of blood. The man trembled, losing balance suddenly as his own sobs threatened to escape his throat.Ā 
What. Had. He. Done.
Karlā€™s screams suddenly got earsplitting louder. So much louder, that it got Sapnap to turn around. His heart stopped beating as he looked up. Up. Up. Up. Up at those green, hollow, evil eyes that glared with a rage readable by any living thing at them. The shadowy body that the eyes belonged to lurched forwards at paranormal speed with inhumane movements. It came out from the treesā€™ edge and right towards Karl. The blonde wailed with fright as he moved away slightly, but not far enough. The monster put a giant hand over Georgeā€™s body, blocking him off from the boysā€™ sight as it used another to hit Karl away.
If it were the size of a human, the slap wouldā€™ve been only just strong enough to send a small object a few inches away, but this monster had the strength of a hundred men, and what a flick of a wrist was to it was powerful enough to send Karl right into a trunk of a tree. A snap echoed until it reached Sapnapā€™s ears, making the boy cringe. A trembling wail escaped his throat as he watched Karl hit the trunk with awful force. It didnā€™t appear to kill the blonde, thankfully. But Karl definitely wasnā€™t getting up any time soon. Sapnapā€™s gaze traveled from Karl to the monster, who was hunched up into a tight ball and curling its fingers around Georgeā€™s form. There was water spilling from the thingā€™s cheeks (tears?) that fell and landed on the ground around the unmoving human, staining the road.Ā 
There were a few long, drawn-out moments that passed where he just watched the thing coo and grumble at his friend, almost like it was trying to get a response out of him, to the monster finally noticing Sapnap watching it.
The boy breathed out a gasp as he tried to back away, trying to find his footing, but he wasnā€™t fast enough. The green-eyed monster got to its feet and pounced on him first. It stood over him for not even a moment before he felt the force of its foot kicking him towards where that cliff was by their car. He groaned in agonizing pain as the giant force flung his body like a dog toy. He landed awkwardly on his back, his head hanging over the edge of the cliff. At this angle, he could see how far down the fall was. It looked like a fall straight to the gate of hell. Maybe it was a foreshadow for him. His last sight on Earth would be his first sight in his afterlife. Ironic.
Sapnap didnā€™t have enough time to laugh cruelly at himself before a horrible force was placed on top of him. He yelled in pain as the giant dug its foot into his body, but not so much as to crush him at once. It did it slowly. It added pressure every second. The pressure changed, but its haunting gaze never did. It stared down at Sapnap with a quiet rage. Pure evil. He couldnā€™t breathe anymore. He could feel his life draining.. drainingā€¦ draining.
He fucked everything up. He killed his best friends. Maybe he was the real monster.
ā€œYouā€¦ā€
A weak voice made the pressure killing Sapnap stop. He was whimpering, his voice straining as he tried to call for help. Suddenly the monster moved away altogether. Sapnap choked in a breath, coughing hysterically as he sat up frantically looking around. It wasnā€™t until he followed the giantā€™s startled gaze that he saw what had been the source of the voice.
ā€¦
ā€¦
He felt no fear. For once in this whole experience, George felt fearless. Awaking to the sounds of his friends crying in pain because of that fucking monster triggered something deep within him. His legs had to be broken. Maybe even his arm. He was losing blood by the second, and there was no way he could be standing right now by every law of nature, no way he couldā€™ve crawled over to the wrecked car. But here he was, standing upright, staring right at the monster as the monster started right at the eye of the shotgun he was aiming at its face.
Its green eyes sparkled when they saw him. Gleeful that he was alive. They made eye contact only for a moment before it realized what George was holding. It didnā€™t have enough time to react, to move, to do anything at all.
Fuck this monster.
ā€œGo to hell.ā€
One shot rang and not even a moment later the monster was wailing as it clutched a cold, dark hand over its bleeding eyeball. It screamed and cried with sounds George had never heard it make before. It staggered with imbalance as it fought for purchase on something it could grab- but there was nothing around for it to take as it tripped and descended right off of the cliff's edge.
Relief washed over him as he finally succumbed to his injuries and fell to the ground. Not even a moment later did he feel hands supporting him, lifting him up. ā€œGeorge! George! Oh my god! Holy- I- George youā€™re alive!ā€ It was muffled by his ears, but he knew it was Sapnap. After a minute he could feel another pair of arms wrap around him. Somehow Karl had managed to drag himself over to the two, as they all embraced with relief and joy.Ā 
George frowned as he held onto his friends tighter. He didnā€™t want to, but he thought about the monster. Why did it take him? Why did it treat him so nicely, only to try and drown him? George let tears wash over his red cheeks as he sobbed. Maybe it didnā€™t mean to drown him. It was trying to play- trying to make George happy. It wanted to make the old lady and her wife happy. It left gifts, it played pranks. But it got too enthusiastic and killed her. The monster was shunned and was left to be alone again.
George looked at Sapnap and Karl as they lay on the side of the road, not speaking quite yet but just taking in each otherā€™s presence. He loved being around them, loved it more than even talking to them.
And he realized that thatā€™s what it wanted. It wanted a presence to be around. Company. A nice warm body to hug when you felt lonely, someone to go to when you need something. Someone to have fun with.Ā 
But it wasnā€™t human. It was too big. It never realized its own strength. Never meant to have casualties. In a sense it was careless. It was greedy. Going back for more people despite knowing it couldnā€™t contain itself.
But George couldnā€™t help from feeling sympathetic. Because all that time away from his friends made him realize how much he missed them.
All it wanted was a friend.
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anika-ann Ā· 2 years ago
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Cookies and Spark(le)s - sneak peek
aka small prequel to Love on the Brain is in making šŸ˜‡
Pairing: Steve Rogers x reader (Agent Jones) WC: 450 Warnings: fluff, gun violence mention
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He was just slipping into the sleeves on his hoodie, catching a glimpse of Rollins patting Agent Finnegan on his back as they were leaving, when he heard your voice, instantly attracting his attention despite the slightly awkward note to it. Ā 
ā€œCaptain Rogers? Can I have a second?ā€
A brief smile passing over your lips made the corners of his own rise higher on instinct. Your hair was messy, some sticking to your forehead, some flying around as you had had to just pull a hoodie over your head, your stance speaking of both determination and hesitance.
ā€œSure,ā€ he said, gaze involuntary flickering to the Tupperware box in your hands. ā€œHow can I help you, Agent Jones?ā€
A flicker of surprise caught on your face as if you hadnā€™t thought heā€™d remembered your name ā€“ a pleasant surprise, Steve hoped. He hardly ever forgot names and faces, a blessing and a curse of his eidetic memory; but he had a feeling that even without his gift, he wouldnā€™t forgot yours. You stood out ā€“ subtly, but firmly, at least to Steve; and it had little to do with the fact he had covered you and probably saved your life on your first mission together just a few days ago.
ā€œI, uhmā€¦ I know you probably get this all the time, becauseā€¦ well, because you save someoneā€™s life all the time, but. I wanted to thank you,ā€ you explained, a mixture of emotions difficult to decipher sinking into your voice, embarrassment at the forefront as if you already questioned your decisions.
And you should ā€“ there was no reason to thank him further. You expressed your gratitude before, thanking him with shock right at the site of the shooting and then again on the plane when he made rounds, checking on all the agents. You owed him nothing.
But he had to admit you were being ratherā€¦ cute, looking up at him like that, sure and unsure at the same time, clearly hesitant about how to handle the situation and desperately trying to get a read on his reaction.
So, Steve took a deep breath, gaze flickering all over your face and minding to sound sincere ā€“ as he was ā€“ when he spoke again.
ā€œYou already have,ā€ he pointed out gently.
ā€œI know. But. Itā€™s my life and just saying thank you doesnā€™t really seem like enough for something of that magnitude so. Here. A bit more of a thank you,ā€ you said, standing your ground as you held out the box. Your smile grew, a little playful note in your voice as you shrugged. ā€œYou strike me like more of an apple pie kind of a man, but I donā€™t think anyone ever gets offended with cookies.ā€
Busted. You clearly werenā€™t a former FBI profiler for nothing. His hands twitched as he almost reached for the box, slightly embarrassed himself now.
ā€œThatā€™s really not necessary, Agent Jones.ā€
...
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Sorry I've been AWOL... it won't get much better šŸ„ŗ But I'm trying.
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ink-and-dagger Ā· 1 year ago
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3 and 4 for the fic writers questions!
Also, hi, Inky ļæ½ļæ½ļæ½ļæ½ hope you've been good!
HI PAL Yeah sorry I've been awol the past week or so. Life stuff blah blah šŸ™ƒ
3.) What are some tropes or details that you think are very characteristic of your fics?
Two tropes that you're guaranteed to find in all of my multi-chapter fics are Found Family and Miscommunication. Although I like to think that I add my own twist on the miscommunication trope.
There's also a 99.9% guarantee that there will be a drinking/drunk scene, a dancing scene, and an interrupted kiss in any of my fics šŸ¤­
4.) What detail in [insert fic] are you really proud of?
There are quite a few details in my fics that I'm proud of. But seeing as it's Maestro Coi asking the question I'm going to do the equivalent of flashing my macaroni art to Van Gogh.
In Chapter 16 of my Zutara fic These Tides Do Turn I wrote a whole ass song from scratch. Well, I wrote the lyrics, it doesn't actually have an official tune.
The idea behind it is that it's an old Fire Nation folksong. I was going for a moody Irish sort of vibe, and very much had Oh Danny Boy in my head as inspiration. I always imagine it sounding a bit like Jenny of the Oldstones from GOT. I'll post the lyrics below the cut incase anyone is interested.
Writer ask game
[Context for non-atla fans ā€“ fire lilies are a flower that's native to the meadows of the Fire Nation, and they only bloom for a few weeks each year.]
I first met my love, in the fire lily meadow We were only mere children, when she whispered to me Here weā€™ll spend our life, my loveĀ  Amidst the grown-jewel of our land And in your arms Iā€™ll give, my love My heart to the palm of your hand
We shared our first kiss, in the fire lily meadow We were innocent and young, and she whispered to me Here weā€™ll spend our life, my love Between soft silken petals of red And in your arms Iā€™ll dance, my love On the day we are finally wed
I married my love, in the fire lily meadowĀ  Full of radiant hope, as she whispered to me Here weā€™ll spend our life, my love Basking bright in the soft ruby glow And in your arms Iā€™ll stay, my love While our home, and our family grow
Our children ran wild, in the fire lily meadowĀ  We watched on with joy, and she whispered to me Here weā€™ll spend our life, my love Lazing stretched in the morning damp blooms And in your arms Iā€™ll weep, my love When the day of their adulthood looms
Our babes flew swift, from the fire lily meadowĀ  We waved them farewell, then she whispered to me Here weā€™ll spend our life, my love Fond memories curled safe between stems And in your arms Iā€™ll rest, my love ā€˜Til our days draw near to their end
Your hand frail in my palm, in the fire lily meadowĀ  We were agĆ©d and wilting, when you whispered to me Here weā€™ve spent our life, my loveĀ  As sure footprints amongst the flowers And in your arms Iā€™ll sleep, my love ā€˜Til Iā€™m scattered beneath the bowers
I wait old and alone, in the fire lily meadow I smile and remember your whispers to me With you I spent my life, my love Reflected in soft drops of dew Seasons and years together, my love Soon to be reunited with you
Entwined evermore, above the fire lily meadow Ash carried on wind, and whispering free Theyā€™re waiting for midsummers eve, my love ā€˜Neath earth young buds ripen and burn Eternal and endless as us, my love Growing steady as these tides do turnĀ 
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lexa-griffins Ā· 2 years ago
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Hi lovely šŸ’• I'm sorry I've been awol for a few weeks. I've been super busy with life. I've recently been catching up with your blog and I love everything you've been posting especially with Alycia for Saint X. She's so pretty that I can't stop watching all the new photos and videos of her as Emily or promoting the show. I can't wait to read what else you post about her. Your tags are always the best part of my day whenever new Alycia content shows up šŸ’•
Hello my lovely anon šŸ’•
No need to apologize at all! How have you been?? :D
This past week was /intense/ with content, we havent eaten this good in YEARS!!! Did you see the gif of Emily walking away in her too big for her shirt tho? šŸ‘€ i think it should be mandatory to grace yourself with the opportunity to look at it at least once! Also that freaking white dress will be the death of me (and daddy clarke... more on that later šŸ˜).
Aw thank you šŸ„°šŸ„° youre always too sweet šŸ’•šŸ’• hope everything going good for you :DDDDDDD
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rebelelegance Ā· 2 years ago
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Hey guys
A little update.
Sorry for being AWOL. Got only a few days off before I get promoted and I'm terrified....scared....and busy lol.
One's things get back into the normal swing, I swear I'll be back.
Got a bunch of work lined up too.
I'm absolutely grateful for the responses I've been getting. The reblog notes, the anons...I love 'em all.
Thank you all so much.
I promise, I'll be back soon.
Very soon
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whiskyrivers Ā· 30 days ago
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I feel this on a spiritual level. I get out of work anywhere between 430p-6p (depending on the day, due to medical circumstances) and after that point I have no idea what to do with myself. I game on the weekends - I don't like doing it during the work week - or what I not so affectionately call my 'school days' - because I can get really, really involved and not pay attention to time and I don't wanna fuck up my sleep schedule for work or end up going to bed too late and miss my alarm. But lately I don't even feel like doing that and often only play because I play with my brother and our mutual friends so sometimes I feel like I'm obligated to.
I've binged anime for months prior so I feel burnt out enough on watching anime that I'm not even watching the new seasons of shit that just came out that I'd been excited for - I'm waiting for a few weeks to let the eps pile up. I still need to finial MHA, which ends this weekend, and finish Twilight out of Focus. So at the moment I'm burnt out on watching anime.
I'm also burnt out on reading - I spent the last 3-4 months binge-reading Steter - and Stetopher - fanfiction that I'm not really in the mood to read fanfics either. So I'm just stuck trawling Tiktok or Youtube for something quick to watch to fill time that isn't too engaging or listening to music so I can disassociate for a few hours until it's late enough that I can take my meds and go to bed without it feeling like it's 'too early' and feed into my already depressing depression.
To be honest, I really want to rp. Like, really, really want to rp. And at the moment I'm hyperfixated on wanting to rp Stiles. I had a friend I was rping Vashwood/Plantwood with almost daily for a year but they went awol a few months ago and now I barely hear from the. At least I know they're alive, I guess. I've tagged a few memes on Dreamwidth with Stiles' journal that I revamped and updated but there's been barely any bites and it's depressing because he's one of the very few characters that I felt I connected with (and still connect with) on such a deep level that I fell in love with playing him.
Maybe I'm just getting old and trying re-capture the fun of my "youth", as it were, or maybe I'm hitting a mid-life crisis or something. I don't know. I just know that I really, really miss it and really, really want to get back into it. I tried writing, but it's not nearly the same or nearly as satisfying as playing with/against someone else.
I don't know. Sorry for the depressing tl;dr rant.
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