#sorry I’m crazy but I love ace sm

[throwmethroughawindow]

made a vision board this year and my cat decided to help me :-) it’s not complete JUST yet but I love what I’ve done!! His name is Banana but I call him bubby, he’s the literal definition of an orange cat😙🤍 my #1 goal is starting up my podcast 🤭🤭🤭🤭🤭

YES IM DELUSIONAL AND IM MANIFESTING MY OWN PERSONAL ACE!!!!!! PLS DONT JUDGE ME😭😭😭😭😞✋🏽 he’s quite literally my soulmate

[hcsiqs]

16, kate martin, 🩹 ? love love love your writing

| expert at sorry

• pairing: kate martin x fem!reader

• prompt: “i want to hate you. but i can’t. and that—that sucks.”

• warnings: angst with no happy ending

awww thank u sm that means the world to me!!

You had moved to Vegas after college to have a fresh start. You had gotten a well paying job in your field and had made all new friends. It was nothing like college, which was exactly what you needed and wanted.

To not have to see Kate’s face everywhere you turned, to hear about how good she had played in a game, or being forced to go to her games even after the two of you broke up so your friends could go see Caitlin Clark shoot from the logo.

You could just live your life by focusing on your work and going out with friends at night. And now the people around you cared so much for you, even if you’ve only known each other for a little amount of time, you’d consider them your closest friends.

They met you at your worst and have helped you everyday to feel better about yourself and get you out of your shell.

“You look so sexy!” Andriana gasped as she turned you around to get a full look at your outfit. You had on a black see-through lacy top, a red bra underneath, and then a black mini skirt paired with black shoes.

“All the girls are gonna be begging to take you home,” Olivia giggled as she ran her hands down your arms.

“Thank you,” you shyly smiled, accepting their compliments, “And the both of you! Hottest couple of the century,” you smiled looking at them as Andriana’s hand found itself firmly planted on Olivia’s hip them both leaning into each other.

“Ok come on let’s go!” Devon yelled as she twisted the keys around her finger, trying to shoo everyone out of the apartment.

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Y’all had been out for a couple hours and the loud music and lights were staring to get to you. Girls had came up to you and flirted but none of them were Kate.

Even after she had done you so wrong you still wanted to be under her arm, the place you found most comfort. But of course that would never happen.

You hadn’t heard anything about the blonde since March Madness as you had ignored every piece of basketball media because it hurt you too much. So, when the dj announced the Las Vegas Aces were there you weren’t expecting the next line to come out of his mouth, “And everyone’s favorite rookie, Kate Martin!” as cheers filled your ears you felt your heart practically stop.

“Y/N, are you ok?” Devon asked pulling your eyes away from the place that you had heard her name announced. “Y/N.”

“Yeah, Yeah, I’m good,” you gave a tight lipped smiled, “I’m gonna go to the bathroom,” you her as you pointed to in its vicinity.

“Do you want me to go with you?” she asked, her voice still laced with concern.

“No, it’s ok,” you nodded your head, “Be right back,” you told her before exiting the sweaty crowd of people and beelining to the bathroom.

Your eyes began to sting with the tears trying to make their way down your cheeks. It was crazy how one name could send you down this spiral.

As you made your way to the bathroom you, you failed to realize a blonde following behind you. But, when you entered the bathroom you caught a glimpse of her in the mirror standing a few feet behind you. “Kate,” you said after turning around to meet her blue eyes, the ones you had originally fell in love with. “I didn’t know you got drafted, congrats,” you crossed your arms over your body, suddenly aware of how exposing it was.

“I—uh—I didn’t know you moved here,” her hand reached to the back of her neck, “I wasn’t even sure it was you who I was following.”

“So, why’d you follow me?” you asked, pushing your hip against the sink.

“I don’t know. I just,” she paused trying to find the right words, “I fucked up, Y/N.”

“I know,” you nodded your head biting your lip trying to keep your voice stable. Finally after all these months you were hearing what thought you wanted to hear, but now that you had it, you weren’t sure if this is really what you wanted. Closure, that is, because it means it would all be over.

“I said really shitty things to you—,” she was cut off by someone entering into the bathroom and silently apologizing for interrupting, “Do you wanna go somewhere else?”

“We can go outside,” you told her as you pulled your phone out sending a quick text to your friends. You then followed her through the crowds until you were outside in the warm atmosphere of Las Vegas.

“I shouldn’t have said those things,” you noticed the way she still played with her fingers out of nervousness, “They weren’t true. You didn’t add stress to my life, like you were the only thing that didn’t give me stress. I just took all of my anxiety out on you and I’m so sorry,” she finished.

You stood quiet trying to figure out what words to say. You had been avoiding eye contact practically the whole time she was talking, just trying to soak in the sound of her voice.

“You probably hate me,” she ran her hand through her long blonde hair.

“I don’t hate you,” you shook your head finally meeting her gaze, “Trust me, I want to hate you. But I can’t,” you bit the bottom of your lip trying to keep it from going into a frown and allowing the tears to spill out, “and th—that really fucking sucks. Because you ruined my self image. I believed all those things you said,” you felt a tear fall down your cheek and immediately wiped it away. “I’ve spent months trying to rebuild myself from the way you left me.”

“I’m so sorry Y/N, and I will be for the rest of my life,” she stepped closer to you, but you still kept your arms around you almost as if they acted as a barrier.

“Did you really believe all those things you said to me?” your voice broke as the tears clouded your eyes and stared to stream down your cheeks. She immediately brought you into her grasp, her hand racking through your hair.

“No, no,” she shook her head before lying her chin on top of your head. You stood there crying into the shirt of the girl who had made you hate yourself and think that you were the problem in everything. “None of what I said was true. I was just scared shitless and I took it out on you. I should’ve never done that baby,” the familiar nick name slips out of her lips, and it sounds so right on her tongue that it takes all your strength to push away from her and not melt into her.

“You can’t call me that,” you stood back, wiping the tears from under your eyes, the mascara on the sides of your fingers.

Kate nodded her head, “Do you,” she started, “Do you think we will ever get back together?” she asked and you could hear the vulnerability in her voice.

“Not right now,” you shook your head, “I’m not saying never, but right now. No, I think I still need time.”

“I’ll wait,” she whispered. As you went to respond your friends came out of the club and stared at the two of you.

“Ok,” you nodded before walking over to them and waving a small bye to her before walking off.

Honestly it felt like a weight had been taken off your chest. You weren’t being weighed down by the blonde anymore.

And you were honest about maybe trying again in the future. You would just have to see a difference in her for it to happen.

[winwintea]

okay urmm another thought🤞🏻

SORRY IF I’M ANNOYING YOUR SMAU IS MAKING MY THOUGHT DAUGHTER PERKS WAKE UP✊🏻✊🏻

so what if what if kun makes an appearance too (at this point we are throwing all Wayv members in here😼���) So what if kun was yanan’s first love and ex boyfriend???? Yeah crazy but a power full thought so when yanan and kun meet up again kun peacefully respects yanan’s bew life he even meets ten and ten is totally chill about it and they are all besties at this point but suddenly yanan is freaking confused with his feelings for ten and feelings for kun…i will let the rest for your mind to imagine

WHAT IF YANGYANG WAS RENJUN’S EX BOYFRIEND🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨 like yes renjun is an ace but like before he was in an established relationship he loved yangyang yangyang loved him they were the perfect couple but yangyang got in a car accident a year ago and is in coma since then and renjun really suffered from this but he never told anyone except for chenle and chenle is keeping a great secret BUT THEN YANGYANG WAKES UP FROM THE COME GASPP i will let the rest for you!!

god I swear to god this smau is making me feel things

i love how you just tossed in every wayv memeber except winwin bc let's be honest winwin is like the token straight in wayv like everyone else gay af and winwin only acts gay for fanservice but bro that man straight as hell 😭😭😭 (sucks for me but thats okay we cope)

also thinking about this i can't pull up weibo rn but i was absolutely stalking the chinese idols on weibo and seeing who they follow and i think it's so funny how the nct china line, svt china line, and yanan are quite close bc they're all following each other. and KUN AND YANAN DOES KINDA MAKE SENSE IDK UR KINDA COOKING HERE

i'll be honest i had no intention to toss in more characters, maybe winwin bc i love him, and kun maybe bc of chenle and his dynamic but i wasn't sure maybe BUT RENYANGIST SO REAL TOO I LOVE THEM SM THEY'RE SO CUTE. they def match each others freak i love themmmm.

u might make me change my mind idk girl keep those ideas coming

[chuluoyi]

noooo 😭😭 who you gonna use the s-chips on then 😭

UNHOLY BLOOD!!! It's my 1st Vampire-related manhwa and it's so good!!! Hayan is such a GIRLBOSS! I LOVE THE MAGICIAN DUDE AND HIS LION 🥹🥹🥹 But yes Euntae and Hayan's relationship was too slow I couldn't take it... But at least they had such a cute relationship at the end 🫶🏻

do you know the manga artist has a new webtoon? I'm not sure what it's called but I heard it's good! I've yet to read it myself... On another note, I love the art so much it's so unique and different from other manhwas!

And hmm few of my faves are "Death is the only end for the villainess", "No longer a heroine!", and "The Couple breaker". The last 2 are by the same artist! The 1st is a regular "I died and was reincarnated as a villainess" kind of story, BUT It has a twist! It's in an otome game instead of a storybook! Quite interesting... The 2nd is based on the life of an actress. It's pretty realistic and is a little dark... Not much romance tho...The last is really drama HAHAH It's crazy like the name says it all. As for childhood friends to lovers, I recommend "The Secret Bedroom of a Dejected Royal Daughter". It's a little bit enemies to lovers too. And it has 18+ Scenes 😁🤭 That's a bonus.

For status?! Honestly I don't get how that works LIKE you don't feel anything for him? And yeah! I agree that we definitely want the real thing. Woahh but 23 isn't that bad! Exactly I don't wanr boys I want men.

And HAHAHA don't worry bae you're not lecturing at all! I kinda like it when people give me advice.

It's not hot but it's too rainy 😭 I love the rain but I'm on school break now and I wanna go out with my friends 🫠

HAHAHAH I FEEL YOU OMG! Like its so gut-wretching and painful but IT FEELS SO GOOD TO READ!

Impulse buying HAHAH Makeup ain't Impulse buying it's a necessity 🫶🏻 WOAH 10 EPS IS A LOT- My best was like 4 eps maybe HAHAHHA

Omg You're so right my Twitter was always untouched until I started receiving notifs of Gojo being alive theories... And Gege continues toying with us till the very end...

AHHAHA To be fair I started Aot cause of Levi like PLS HE'S SO HOT idc if he's like 8cm shorter than me- But it's really ... complicated.... Too complicated for my liking...I understand where your girl friends are coming from ...

HAHAHAHA Karma hitting him hardddd

Also Karma is the guy on the screen (Gojo) coming straight home to youuuuu [If you listen to Taylor Swift you'll understand haha]

Also I flunked my excel exam... Idk why I have this module it sucks cause I'm not tech savvy... I think I aced my accounting test tho so that's good! Thanks for believing in me tho 😭😭😭 so touched rn..

We'd PAY to be Suguru's monkeys 🐒 🙈

Lmk once you read it omg I wanna know what happens I LOVE this AU it's so cute!

And hang in there, Chu!!!! You can do it!! Ik its already Saturday but still!!! Atb for next week babe!!

p.s. so sorry I took so long to reply, I'm overseas now...

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hii disco anon!! sorry for the late reply too i was just back from my weekend break!🥹

for christmas event?🥹 there must be a christmas event… right? i haven’t checked the chinese server yet but there must be! (#trust💁🏻‍♀️)

RIGHT it was so good and i’m glad i found people who also like them bcs my friends don’t seem to be interested😭 i know it’s so slowburn but the story is so great too. I KNOW I LOVE HIM TOO but wait i also forgot his name😭 but euntae is so hot i can’t—

really?! i’m looking into it now!! i really love her story and art so it must be good🤭

oooh i never have much affinity for isekai manga but now that you said it’s good then i’ll def check it out!!👀 i read no longer heroine too!! aaah that was so good i was on the edge of my seat every chapter🤧 and hey couple breaker seems interesting?? i’ll eat that up this weekend and oooh what’s that in the end👀👀 okay thank you sm for the recs!!🫶🏻

i have a rec too!! must be a happy ending! have you read it? the art is soooo majestic and the plot got me like 😩🥲🫣🤭 many times i love it so much from the start to the end!!

honestly i don’t really understand to till this day actually, but yeah she didn’t seem to like him that much because as she said it herself it was all out of “curiosity” which is a big red flag in and of itself💀 mind you not even a year later they broke up 🙄

(aww i’m glad you feel that way <3 when we’re close i tend to run off my mouth so…)

ahh school break!! i used to sleep in most of the time🤭🤭

it’s necessity for us but some boys are just too nosy *sigh* they be like “i love natural look!” and then be 🙃 when they see our bare face 😩 HAHAH yeah back when i had so much free time i spent it all on binge-watching🥲 do you have any show recs?? can be anything, even anime too!!

HAHAHHAA omg there’s this one twt account that always makes points about how gojo will live until this day 😭😭 i have accepted it by this point but evidently twitter nation is still going strong🥹

OMG SAME like i know levi but i didn’t know eren at firstt🤧🤧 he seems so cool and so fine (my bf 🙄 again at me when i mentioned that) even with one eye missing in the recent last part of aot too!!

OH YEAH I LISTEN TO HER THESE DAAAYS omg i must make a confession; her songs are the inspiration for my fics these days🥹🥹 like everything is so relatable and the tune are so easy to remember i love her songs 🫶🏻

ohmy i’m sorry🥺 i used to be sooo bad at excel (esp macros) too but ever since i’m following some yt tutorials i started getting better! and let me give you some shortcuts too:

chat gpt. believe it or not it works on codes! my friend who is a programmer cheats from chat gpt sometimes🥲 not totally recommended but it can be your last resort

excel forum. whenever i get confused regarding codes or formulas, i drop by the forum to ask. there are many kind people there! and most of their codes and formulas work too

whaa accounting!! i used to be so bad at it like i would tear my hair out to find “why are they not balanced?!” 😭😭 i love science subjects better🥹 and aw you’re welcome!!

i haven’t read the bakerlon card yet but i will tonight!! will update you once i do!!🥹

awww thank youuu disco anon!!😭🫶🏻 you’re so sweet thank you for interacting with me!!! and it’s totally okay! waaa i hope you enjoy your vacation!!✨

[greycappedjester]

Hey Jester the first series of yours I read was all in the cards which I’m currently rereading and something just hit me.

So I know it’s just a silly haikyuu au fic but the fates are really sexist. Yukie is the only female monarch of the whole card kingdom rn like slay Queen (or should I say ace ;) ) but it’s crazy to think about. I know that the last generation has some female monarchs like clubs’ ace and Jack but it’s still crazy no??? Also thank you for writing this fic sm, it’s by far my favourite haikyuu fic though your hogwarts au is a close second. You’re the best thank you again!

oh and I know that bokuaka got a lil prequel but is there any chance that they’ll be more important in the story in the future? Also sorry about the long ask!

Lol, I think about this so often! The problem of working with a fandom that is like 98% male with only a few females with character development. Love them and it makes sense for a boys volleyball show but...man, everytime I look one of my fics and am like...wait, did this even pass the Bechdel test????

Funny enough, one of my friends in rl who read this story told me I should try to edit it and publish it or something but one of the bigs things that held me back was that I'd probably have to take it off ao3 then (which I in no way want to do or plan to do, don't worry) and that there's waaaaaay too few female characters.

Anyway, to answer your other questions, yep, bokuaka is probably up for the next time. I try to do somewhat focus on Spades and another (first one Hearts, second one Diamonds) so Clubs should be up soon. The funny thing is that Clubs is by far the most stable of all the kingdoms--they're rich and the least easy to attack--which means less drama=less screentime since they're fine.

[elysianslove]

please for the love of everything holy, give us attack on titan dick headcanons like you did with jjk and haikyuu 🤲🏻🤲🏻

i've been waiting for this one and i love your fics sm,, you're literally one of my fav bloggers ily <33

havsjdd ONE OF MY FAVE SERIES YES,,, i can’t just do all characters so i did the ones i’m most familiar with (aka mains 🤧) if you want others lmk!!

as always, this is purely for fun!! i don’t intend to be crazy realistic :)

other works; haikyuu captains, setters, middle blockers, aces and jujutsu kaisen

ATTACK ON TITAN DICK ANALYSIS

levi ackerman

as much as this hurts, he’s probably barely average. i mean, to be fair, he was extremely malnourished as a child, but i’ll be generous and say he’s 5.2 inches. such a pretty cock :( like it has a dark golden/brown tan to it, with a pink tip. also idk why but something tells me levi has a birthmark on his dick. don’t ask, he just has like this cool, brown splotch right beneath the tip. anyways, it curves up and inwards, i’m so sure. the girth and length are proportional, and he’s relatively veiny!! cute, thick balls too. is being clean shaven a thing in that universe? if it is, consider it done obviously.

eren jaeger

he has a big dick idc. just so hung i cannot. eren dick print is immaculate i will cry. fat cock, 6.8 inches, veiny as fuck. like thick veins you feel them when he’s inside of you. the shaft is just the tiniest bit darker than his skin, and the tip is dark, angry red, especially he’s all hard and wet. doesn’t really curve, to be honest, maybe a little to the right. oh and he has fat balls. heavy balls. breeder balls. he cums and his balls are still so full — insanity. doesn’t shave at all though like it’s so unkempt <//3 likes to shove your face down when you suck him off as if to make a point <//3

armin arlert

omg his dick’s so pretty. like sososo pretty. pale shaft and the cutest pink tip. like it’s kind a pastel pink but then he’s hard and it gets even darker, like a dark pink. it flushes so gorgeous when he’s hard and dripping for you. he’s like 6.3 inches, and it curves at the tip a little. more veiny than you’d imagine actually!!! his balls and tip are extremely, over the top, sensitive suck on them and he’s gone. oof and if you suck and then blow cold air? he might pass out. obviously clean shaven! sometimes he forgets tho but same way he doesn’t care if you are, you don’t care if he is either. nothing screams thoughtful like armin after all.

jean kirstein

HES SO BIG HELP. idk the timeskip.... he screams bde..... horsecock jean..... 7.2 inches bye. literally mouthwatering pretty, just a tan, bronze-ish shaft, prominent veins, dark pink tip that gets all bright when it’s wet. longer than he is thick but he will rearrange your guts absolutely. stick straight, doesn’t curve, isn’t sensitive so he’ll straight up cockwarm you whenever wherever (cockwarm any of your holes which one is available rn shawty). he trims, and there’s the hottest happy trail from beneath his belly button down to his crotch. when he stretches and it shows fhdbdhcjf

connie springer

my boy has an average dick <3 just 5.6 inches, good girth, good length, no curve. actually it’s kinda fat.... kinda.... might be a stretch taking him.... it’s okay he lives between those thighs anyways. pale pink tip that doesn’t darken all that much when hard, golden shaft, prominent veins. he’s clean shaven because he’s scared you’ll leave him if he wasn’t </3 forgot once and had a freak out session the moment he undressed till he realized it wasn’t that big of a deal.

reiner braun

HOLT FUCK PLEASE. HIS DICK IS SO BIG STOP. he’s 7.7 INCHES NO TAKESIES BACKSIES. hole splinter. pussy/bussy destroyer. cervix kisser. tummy bulger. golden shaft and a dark pink tip. literally so veiny. so much girth you cannot. cannot imagine. just size kink with reiner pls. heavy balls that have so much to give, but baby’s so easily sensitive <3 kind of clean shaven? depends on his mood? the time he has? whether you’re 100% for/against it or 50-50, etc.

bertholdt hoover

why do i get the feel, the vibes if you will, that he has such a big dick. like it shocks people when they see it. he’s probably hella long like 7 inches long, listen i cannot explain it he just has a big dick. dark shaft and the deepest red for a tip. not that veiny, but curves nicely to the right. extremely sensitive balls oh my god. will cry if you overstimulate him <3

niccolo

sasha’s so lucky <//3 big dick i know it. 6.7 inches and it’s gorgeous, with a golden tan to the shaft that flushes out to a bright, pale pink tip. when he’s hard it gets a blush pink/red so pretty. kinda veiny, kinda not. like it’s alright! he has amazing orgasm control his dick‘s tip will be purpling but you have to cum a million times before he‘s okay with cumming. trims, so not 100% clean shaven.

porco galliard

such a fat dick. it’s like 5.1 inches but it’s so fat you will cry taking it. the stretch burns oh my god. also he has no concept of prep so please, teach him. mauve/pink-ish tip, just a light tan shaft. it’s kinda flushed all over tbh, darker at the tip, lighter the longer you go along his shaft. curves to the right a little! doesn’t believe in being clean shaven sorry <//3

kenny ackerman

sorry am i allowed to do him? dilf! or gilf? 🤔 idk i just know his dick is huge. massive. 7.5 inches. so big. the tip is such a dark red, the shaft is dark and tan. hella, hella veins. like so much. not clean shaven obviously. im not gonna say anything else i dont wanna taint my dignity even more.

[maiverie]

hi mai senpai ！Σ(×_×;)!) I'm not the same annon as the one who requested the siblings moots tag but can u do the idol one too pwease 🙏 it looked so fun and I wanted to see what u think your moots' idol position were~!

no pressure on doing it quickly take as much time as you need and I hope you have such a wonderful day!✨✨

hi anon!!! so sorry for the late reply 😵‍💫😵‍💫 been a bit busy w work hehe but HERES THE IDOL TAGGG 💖💓💞 thank u sm for the request hehehe it was super fun doing this!!! 💗💗 hope u had the most wonderful day too <333

@yerion — starting off with a special mention to a bitch that isn’t even on enhablr but i wanted to add her anyway 🕺 she’s definitely the smallest link of the group 💯 nobody gives a fuck ab her, she can’t dance, sings like a whale giving birth, absolutely nobody’s bias ‼️ i said what i said and will not take it back tyvm 🗣🗣 #yerionflop legend has it that when u pull her pc, a child dies 😟

@seungstarss — SEI LOML SHE’S THE MAIN VOCALIST 😙😙 can literally imagine her being the ace tho like she’s an all-rounder 🤨 YK WHAT I IMAGINE HER DOING THO?? SHES LIKE THE ONLY IDOL THAT SITS THROUGH ALL THE CRINGE ASS TORTUROUS MF FANCALLS and manages to keep a straight face like 🙂😁😇 while cringing inside trying not to burst into tears HAHDKDJDHDJS 💀💀 but no fr sei is deadass the most popular member, a true slayer, bias annihilator, vocal queen and we love to see it 😌

@wonvelvet — yeonie is literally main vocalist energy 10000% I WILL ACCEPT NO OTHER ANSWER. she’s deadass the kind of member that would literally outsing everyone’s faves & add crazy ass adlibs (she’d be all like WOOOAAHHOOOOAAHHHH OOOAAAHHH HSJDJDJS💀) like her group would deadass never have to fight lip syncing allegations bc 🗣🗣 YEONIE WOULD CARRY 🗣🗣 idk why i think this but fr i picture a powerhouse vocal for yeonie for sure 💪 i think it’s cos her fics genuinely radiate vvv powerful vibes for me?? 🥰

@jangwonie — OH EM GEE maknae vibes but wbk that 🥰 literally the group’s angel and coddled baby and probably actually has a really really soft and clear voice?? like i’m getting lead vocalist vibes 😳 BIAS WRECKER THAT PROBABLY GOES VIRAL ON TT FOR A BUNCH OF EDITS AND HER VISUAL SHDHAHSHDHA AND EVERYONE’S SOFT SPOT 😚💖💓

@shoyotime — LEADER VIBES??? ASKDJFKF BUT WHY DO I PICTURE HER RAPPING 😭 AM I INSANE FOR THAT JSJDKDD I JUST FEEL LIKE CAEL RADIATES VV POWERFUL VIBES like for sure someone that’s gna have a really great stage presence bc i defs think her presence on tumblr is quite prominent??? like hello yes cael step on me please just stomp on my face and crack my jaw mommy😻

@nyanggk — MIRAI DANCING MACHINE ⁉️ ABSOLUTE UNIT FOR SURE 💪 THO NGL I BET SHES THE KINDA MEMBER THAT JUST DANCES FOR NO FUCKING REASON WITH NO FUCKING CONTEXT WHATSOEVER ZHDJKSJDJDJSK 😭😭 she’s probably carrying the group’s tiktok 🤩 no but fr i’m getting massive dancer vibes and maybe like rapping too 😳 she’s defs gna be the mood maker of the group and the one that’s the best in variety shows 😌

@taekbokki — MY MAIN SLAYER BIANCAAAA 😭😭‼️ FUCK ME I TOTALLY SEE BIANCA AS A RAPPER??? like she definitely radiates the vibe of the funny charismatic rapper that gets along w idols from other groups too?? LIKE I SWEAR BIANCA AND I BECAME FRIENDS SO QUICK AND ID TRUST HER W MY LIFE’S FUNDS IM LEGIT CONVINCED SHE’D BE SUCH A POPULAR MEMBER 🤩🤩 maybe even a dancer??? 😳😳😳😳

@enaus — OH EM JAYYYY THIS IS KINDA HARD BUT I FEEL LIKE ELY COULD TOTALLY BE THE LEAD VOCALIST?? i see her singing pretty ballads and sentimental songs 😭 probably gna be the first person of the group to have a solo album and outsell everyone 😌 HOWEVER i can also see ely having multiple roles in the group like HELLO SHES BOUND TO BE THE VISUAL???? just queen shit 💪

@blessed-sky — funniest member FOR SURE ‼️ as i said before shes 100%% the mood maker and probably everyone’s bias wrecker 😭😭 I CAN DEFS SEE SKY AS ONE OF THE VOCALISTS??? OR KIND OF LIKE A DANCER W A MORE GRACEFUL INFLUENCE? like a previous ballet dancer / mina from twice vibes 😳😳IDK WHY I JUST TOTALLY PICTURE SKY AS THE KIND OF PERSON WHOS RLLY LIGHT/QUICK ON HER FEET ?? bruh not this being oddly specific i— 💀 ANYWAY SKY SUPREMACY 🥰

@cloudykyu — no because I LITERALLY SEE MANI AS THE TIRED LEADER WHOS PROBABLY SICK OF ALL THIS IDOL SHIT AND PROBABLY WANTS TO GO BACK TO HER NORMAL LIFE 😭😭😭 KAJDKSKS THIS IS SO ODDLY SPECIFIC but i can picture an exhausted mani who probably has another job on the side 💀 she’s sick of dealing w all her members’ shit y’all FREE MANI 🗣 no but seriously i’m getting leader vibes for sure ‼️ someone who’ll take care of her members and ensure everyone has their time to shine; super talented and underrated but adored by the fandom 😭

@goodforgyu — PROBABLY KNOWN AMONGST THE COMPANY AS THE SLUTTY ASS IDOL THAT GETS WITH EVERYONES MAN 🗣 U HAVE A FAVE? SHES PROBABLY SLEPT W THEM 😌😌 TOO BAD SO FUCKING SAD BOOHOO BITCH 🗣 HSHDJSJSK KIDDING ILYSM KAT SHES LITERALLY GNA BE THE funniest one out of the group for sure 😚 she’s always making me laugh and idk why but she gives me main dancer/rapper vibes for sure??? SUCH A POWERFUL PRESENCE BUT BE CAREFUL OF THE PUSSY POWER ‼️‼️ pussy tight pussy clean pussy fresh 😌

@softforqiankun — OH MY GODDDDD I SEE HEATHER as the member who people r surprised isn’t the leader?? like she’s not formally the leader but she takes care of everyone and always ensures everyone feels included 🥺 i can defs see heather in any vocalist position; for some reason i picture a deep voice that belts and does crazy ass shit for sure ‼️ shes a powerhouse yall 🤩😻

[anxious2dsimp]

Everything He’s Not | Iwaizumi x GN! Reader | Short Fic

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Flavour: Angst (Reader x Cheater!Oikawa) to Fluff (Reader x Iwaizumi)💔→☁️

Reader: Gender Neutral!

Format: Short Fic (alternating between two sides of the story, y/n and Iwa’s)

Part: 2 out of 2 (read part 1 here)

Word Count: 2.2k

Summary: Y/N, has dated the very popular Oikawa Toru for a while, through him becoming friends with his group. However, little do they know about a certain stoic ace’s feelings for his best friend’s s/o. When Oikawa screws up big time, will Iwaizumi’s true feelings finally show? And what will Y/N do when everything goes down?

Warnings: Cheating, cursing, breakups, basically Oikawa x Reader angst turned into Iwaizumi x Reader fluff.

A/N: I am so late with this I'm so sorry, college has been whooping my butt!! But, it was nice to take a break and edit this. I love this story sm I hope you enjoy the finale! :D

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“I’d love that,” they replied, a genuine smile appearing on their lips as they played with the sleeve of their shirt. I nodded and immediately went to get everything from the kitchen, setting up the movie in the living room and calling (y/n) over, handing them a blanket as they sat down on the couch. I stood there without knowing what to do before they looked at me and patted the spot next to them, moving the blanket so I could sit. Without thinking about it twice I sat down beside them; I was crazy for them, more than I cared to admit, so it was enough to see their eyes sparkle happily at me to get me to do whatever they wanted. We watched the movie and ate our ice cream without mentioning Oikawa again, I turned off my phone knowing he would probably call me like he always did, and (y/n) blocked his number so halfway through the movie the bad had faded away and it was just us having fun. However, they must have gotten tired from the crying and running because they fell asleep midway, their head ending up resting on my shoulder.

I was glad they were asleep so they wouldn’t be able to see me smiling like an idiot, I was surprised enough to see they still liked hanging out with me despite what my best friend did and didn’t want to give them a reason to think we shouldn’t see each other anymore. I figured they could use the rest, so I lowered the volume of the tv and leaned my head on theirs, enjoying their company and relaxing to the point I nodded off as well. What felt like a second later I opened my eyes to the sound of (y/n)’s phone ringing and was greeted by an unfamiliar sensation. Somehow in our sleep we had ended up cuddling, their head resting on my chest and my arms around them. It was too late to get out of it now though, they had woken up and probably realized the same thing from the way they were blushing while picking up the phone. They apologized to their transfer mom and told them they’d go home right away, and once I looked at the tv screen for the first time since waking up I realized it must be quite late since the movie was over.

“Uh, I should get going,” they said while standing up and fixing their clothes, their face still shinning with a hint of red, “thank you for everything though, really. I would still be a mess if it weren’t for you.” It was my turn to feel flustered as I nervously rubbed my neck before replying, “no problem, I’m glad I could be of service.” They giggled and my heart fluttered as I stood up, grabbing my coat from the hanger by the door, earning a confused glance from (y/n). “What? Did you really think I was going to let you go home by yourself at this hour?” I explained as they smiled and picked up their backpack, walking over to the door and following me outside.

The trip back to their house was about twenty minutes, the first ten by bus and the second ten walking, so although it was easy for us to stay quiet on the bus without being awkward thanks to the noisy engine, that was no longer the case once it was just us walking through empty, moonlit suburban streets. I didn’t know what to say, and I could tell (y/n) was feeling the same way. “I hope that what happened with Oikawa doesn’t ruin our friendship,” (y/n) said, their eyes lost somewhere among the stars.

Your POV

You held your breath as you waited for the boy’s response; you meant it, you loved hanging out with them, but now that Oikawa and you were clearly over you were afraid things would change for the worst. You cared for all of them, especially for Iwaizumi, and didn’t want his friend screwing up to be the end of that as well. “Right, friendship,” he mumbled, his voice disappointed, causing you to look at him to try and figure out what that was about to which the boy shook his head slightly and quickly added louder, “why would it ruin it?”

“I don’t know, I care about you Iwaizumi, regardless of what happened with Oikawa, so I know I’d miss you if we stopped hanging out,” you confessed, blushing at the sight of his cheered up smile. ‘What was up with me? I just broke up with his best friend, and yes, I always found Iwaizumi to be attractive physically and personality-wise, but he was so different from Toru I never thought anything would happen between us, why would someone like him like me?’ you thought to yourself as you mentally kicked your racing thoughts. “Nah, don’t be stupid, I care about you, and I bet the others two do too, so there’s no way in hell you’re getting rid of us,” he joked, making you chuckle, he had always been great at making you feel better. “Except for Shittykawa, I already got rid of him,” you said crossing my arms and huffing comically, trying to lighten the mood, as he smiled and nodded in return.

“Yeah, that sounds about right,” he chuckled and looked down at his feet falling silent before quietly adding, “you know you deserve someone better than him, right?” It was a weird question, after all at first it seemed like Oikawa was the best there was, everyone was after him. You sighed and then replied unconvincingly, “do I? I mean, I know I don’t want someone who cheats on me and in hindsight isn’t as self-obsessed, but according to everyone, he’s all that so,” now you were the one who fell silent, looking to the side to see Iwa frowning. “Oh, trust me, there are better people than Oikawa. I’ll be honest, I’ve always thought of his fangirls as stupid for being blinded by the spotlight, but it kind of serves them right. With you though, you weren’t blinded by anything and instead chose to see the good in him, you’re special. So since you don’t really care about the sparkle, I just think you need someone who… who’s everything he’s not.” You stuffed my hands into your hoodie’s pocket and sighed, thinking about what he said you realized that he was right.

“Wow, that actually makes a lot of sense,” you smiled at the boy, making him do a double-take as his eyes went slightly wide. “It does?” he asked, rubbing his neck and looking away as he moved closer beside you to let a car pass by, now that you two were walking closer to each other you could definitely tell he was blushing. What was this all about? Maybe he liked you, but the question that was making your mind race was, did you like him? After all, he was everything Oikawa was not, careful, quiet, in the shadows instead of the spotlight, but with a huge heart once you got to know him. “Yup, but it kinda sounds like I should look for someone like you after what you described,” you said, biting your lip out of the nerves, were you really risking everything because of a hunch? Instead of replying immediately, Iwaizumi stopped in his tracks, looking at the floor and kicking the ground. You stopped and turned to face him, walking up to him and trying to meet his gaze with your eyes.

“I feel awful,” he said, his face as redder than you had ever seen it, your heart feeling more crushed than before; of course, you’re wrong, he’s Oikawa’s best friend, why would he jeopardize that or catch feelings for his best friend’s ex? “I- I’m sorry just forget what I said, I should hurry home,” you spun around, ready to start jogging again when you felt his hand grab my wrist gently but firmly before mumbling, “no, wait!” turning you around to face him. “It’s not that. I feel awful because, although Oikawa’s my best friend, ever since I saw you two together, I couldn’t shake the feeling that you should be with me instead. Yeah, I’m everything he’s not, so that’s why I thought I should just forget it, because I never thought you’d be into that, especially after being with Toru. So, before you go, I just… I had to say that, if you were with me, I promise I’d treat you like you deserve.”

“Do you… do you really mean all that?” you asked, your face pretty much burning off as you looked into the brunette’s eyes, only then realizing he was still holding onto you but was now holding your hand. “Yeah, I mean,” he looked away, not letting go, “you’re the most amazing person I’ve ever met. You’re so smart, chill, funny, kind, and beyond beautiful, and I was dying inside whenever I saw Oikawa kiss you because I wanted to be him so bad but I-”

You squeezed Iwa’s hand, taking a step forward almost involuntarily as he did the same, his face still showing the concern that had appeared as he rambled but now only inches apart from yours. “I know this may be weird, but I like you too. I just never realized how much until all of this went down and suddenly, I wasn’t absorbed by keeping Oikawa happy and I finally saw you, still there,” you replied, smiling at the spiker whose worry melted away into a sweet smile, the kind that you had only seen momentarily before, in moments where it was just the two of you and you forgot about everything else. He took a deep breath, letting go of your hand and opting to rest his against your cheek instead before whispering; “I’m crazy for you, loser.” You both laughed softly, and at that moment it felt as though you were the only two people in the world, surrounded by nothing other than the night sky and silent streets.

“I figured as much,” you joked in return, Iwa rolling his eyes in response before dipping his head down and making his lips meet yours. For a second you were taken aback, but unlike what you expected, it didn’t feel wrong, on the contrary, it felt like it was the right thing all along. So, you let your arms snake around his neck as he placed his hands on your waist and pulled you in deeper. The trance was broken by your phone ringing, making you two break apart only to see the spiker smiling like crazy. “Wow,” you whispered, still in awe of everything that had happened and how it had all gone down. Staying in each other’s embrace, you picked up the phone and told your transfer mom you were only a street away and ended the call, looking up at Iwaizumi.

Iwaizumi’s POV

“I’ll call you later?” I asked, happier than I have ever been, as I held (y/n) in my arms, lost looking at the way their eyes sparkled as they looked at me. It felt even better than I had imagined all those times; seeing them look at me like I thought they never would. “Sounds good,” they said, standing on their tiptoes and kissing me again before we let go of each other and walked down the remaining street to their place hand in hand. “Bye,” they beamed at me after I stopped them for one last kiss before (y/n) walked up to their front door, me watching them walk away still smiling like an idiot. Once they were inside I started walking back to the bus station, checking my phone for the first time since (y/n) showed up to see 27 missed calls from Oikawa as I took it off of silent mode. Only a few minutes later my phone rang again, and despite how angry I was, I knew I had to pick up.

“I fucked up with (y/l/n),” the usually upbeat boy said the second I picked up, I could tell he had been crying, but I didn’t feel as bad as I should have for my best friend, he deserved it. “I know,” I replied, my voice unintentionally colder than I expected, “I talked to them.” The other side of the call fell silent, I wouldn’t let him guilt trip me after how he treated them. “How are they?” Oikawa asked genuinely. “Getting over it, but you should know what you did was fucking horrible, Shittykawa,” I said, making a mindful attempt to sound less harsh, we were friends after all. “I know, and I feel terrible, but I also know (y/n), so there’s no way to undo this,” he said seriously, it wasn’t often that I heard him like this, “and I don’t know if I want to either, the odds of me screwing up again are too high and I don’t want to hurt them.”

“So you’re saying they deserve better than you?” I guessed, knowing that’s probably what he meant without realizing. Toru just sighed, falling silent for a second before stating, “You know me too well. See ya at practice tomorrow Iwa-chan.” I said bye and hung up right as I got on the bus, taking a seat by the window and looking out towards the quiet streets, letting my mind wander. I was feeling too many things at once, there was too much going on and still so much to figure out, but it didn’t matter; I closed my eyes and remembered the kiss, the way (y/n) looked at me that made me feel like the luckiest person alive. Nothing else mattered, because I had them.

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tags: @bakugouswh0r3

[taejeonie]

i’ll be there to catch you fall

— when things get to rough for taehee, she can’t help but crumble down

they just got home from promotions and they were tired as hell

doyoung was in the living room watching tv

taeyong was in his room playing games

johnny’s in his room

hyuck’s in the dorm on the upper floor hanging out with mark and taeil

taehee decided to go down and stay in doyoung’s room bc she figured it would be more quiet in the downstairs dorm

she went through twitter and searched up her name

she was actually interested in what the fans had to say about her

the members told her that she’s one of the members that changed the most this cb so

she’s wondering if the fans thought the same

but then twitter at that time was

a meanie :((

so she saw the hate tweets

all of it

she saw some good ones but....

seeing the hate ate her mind like crazy

she knows what she’s getting herself into by debuting as the only girl in the group

and that getting hate is normal for idols

but she doesn’t get it now

they’re telling her to leave

to leave their boys alone

that she wasn’t needed in the group and nothing wouldn’t change if she left

she felt so hurt

she worked very hard for this cb, just as much as all the other cb’s they had before

she stayed up late at night trying to find out what could be missing in the song

or if she was doing a move right in their choreography

it wasn’t this bad during her debut

but now they started calling her names

names she tried to avoid

she knew she did well, she’s sure of it

the other members assured her too

but why would they say things like this

she’s a good person, isn’t she?

she didn’t do anything wrong

she sees some of her fans defend her

but then the anti’s just bully them and it hurts knowing that her fans are getting hurt bc of her

but #taeheeprotectionsquad is strong ᕦ(ò_óˇ)ᕤ

she was thankful that they were defending her but she didn’t want them to get into fights

taehee was crying waterfalls by now

then she started thinking about how doyoung would have to change his pillows since she cried on them

so she cries more

and if her day couldn’t get any better

a s*esang messaged her

but it wasn’t her sae*ang

it was one of the boys’

they keep telling her to back off and kept calling her names

but they’re on the same team??? so how >:((

smh she gave her all into the team and people are acting like this

taehee felt like leaving the group countless of times before

but the support of her member’s kept her going

but now she doesn’t know what to do

she feels her breaths becoming shorter

and it gets harder to breathe

she feels like falling and her chest starts to hurt

she’s having a panic attack

it takes her a while to get herself together

and focus on calming her breaths

her mini-episode was over but the tears. won’t. stop. flowing.

so she lays there and continues to cry and let it out

just like taeyong told her to

she screamed into the pillow. hit the pillow. cried into the pillow. and screamed some more, her cries muffled out by doyoung’s pillow

she’s still crying but she’s calmer now

you gotta do what you gotta do to let it all out ://

“and after you calm yourself down, drink a glass of water. then go to your room and turn the ac on so you won’t feel too hot,” she remembers taeyong saying

so taehee gets up slowly

as she walked to the kitchen she feels her eyelids get hot and her legs wobble

but her throat is dry so she needs to take a drink

she decided that she would nap and hope everything will be better the next day

but then she remembers all the comments again and the tears flow harder

she was shaking so much she dropped the glass

her legs give out soon after

so when she feels the glass pierce her hand and leg, she let out a painful cry

the sound startled doyoung so he immediately runs to the kitchen

“taehee!”

when he gets there his heart breaks

taehee’s hair is messy and her eyes are so swollen

her cheeks are red from crying and she’s sitting on glass

:(((

so doyoung quickly rushes to her and pushes the glass away with his slipper

taehee couldn’t breathe again as she choked out sobs

“i’m sorry. i’m so sorry,” she said

doyoung thought she was referring to the glass falling so he was like “it’s fine, okay? it’s not your fault.”

and then he was telling her to breathe

she had episodes before, predebut

and he and taeyong would always be there to help her

they both didn’t notice taeyong and johnny were there until the former appeared in front of taehee

“taehee?,” taeyong called softly, “i want you to breathe, okay? count with me, ready?”

“one....”

“o-on,,,one....”

“two....”

“,,,,t,,two.....”

they counted all the way up to ten until taehee calmed down

“can you stand up?,” doyoung asked her and she nodded

“okay....i’m gonna clean your wounds up, okay?”

“okay,” she whimpered

so doyoung led taehee to his room and closed the door

meanwhile taeyong called the manager

and johnny cleaned up the glass

“it’s happening again, isn’t it?,” johnny asked him.

“yeah....but this time we have to get it out of her. if she doesn’t tell us what’s wrong then we can’t help her,” :(((

okay taeyong mom

back inside the room

doyoung’s wrapping bandages around her leg and arms

“do you....do you want to tell me what’s wrong?”

.....

.....

.....

.....

“maybe....later,” taehee answers him

so he nods at that and rubs her arms comfortingly

“i’ll get you water. get some sleep,,,and tell taeyong, okay?”

he didn’t wait for her to answer and walked out the door

so taehee tried to sleep

but she couldn’t

she can’t help but think about what they said about her earlier

so for the whole two hours doyoung left her alone to sleep

she didn’t sleep

she felt like crying more

so she got up and left the dorm

taeyong and doyoung were talking in the living room and they saw taehee walk out their door

and they were unsure whether to follow her or not

bc it looked like she wanted to be alone

but then they wanted to help her :(((

so they settled with texting the other members upstairs if she got there

when taehee got back to the upstairs dorm

they were all in the living room taeil, jungwoo, hyuck, and mark

they stopped talking as soon as they heard someone enter the dorm

and they looked at taehee

and they got worried

when taehee entered her room, mark got a text from taeyong asking if she was there

he replied and asked what happened

so taeyong told him she had an episode downstairs and mark immediately felt bad

taeil and hyuck told him to go to her

so he did

and when he entered the room he heard her crying :(((

so he turned the ac on

put up some soft music in the bg

and he kneels down beside her bed and hugs her from behind

“do you want to talk about it?,” he asks quietly

“...maybe tomorrow,” so mark nods and rubs her arm until she falls asleep

the next day they had to perform kick it again

everyone knew by now what happened to taehee

so while the members were getting their makeup and outfits done

taehee was asleep on the couch since she didn’t get any proper sleep last night :((

when their performance aired

the fans noticed the bandages

and the times taehee was out of it

so it blew up on social media again

other were calling her lazy

others were calling her an attention seeker

and taehee was it again

so she was back to crying but this time it was in her room

mark laid down on his own bed listening to taehee

and whenever he felt like her breaths were getting shorter

he helped her calm down

and when it’s okay he comes back to his bed

the following day the manager told her to do a vlive and tell everyone your okay

“bc sm’s got a lot of problems right now and we don’t need you to add to them. so act like you’re fine so they could stop” - bad manager

so before she went on vlive she tried to sleep

but she couldn’t

taeyong texted mark he was coming over so he left to go to the living room

and they talked for a few hours when they thought she was sleeping

so taeyong quietly got in the room, thinking she was awake now

but he only saw more tear streaks on taehee’s face, telling him he didn’t sleep

so he goes to sit behind her and rest his head on the headboard

“whenever your ready,,,” he whispers

“we’re ready to help you, okay? you’re not....you’re not a burden”

so he waits

three minutes pass and taeyong thinks she’s fallen asleep

but slowly, she sits up and sits beside him

she fiddles with her fingers while taeyong brushes her hair out of her face

“they,,,,they want me to leave....”

“i mean they told me that during debut but i thought i was doing so well-“ she sniffs

“it’s getting harder,,,,to ignore all these things. the fans do so much for us but i guess i saw it at a bad time.”

taeyong knew what she was talking about

“oppa,” she said as she turned to him

“did you know.......did you know i wanted to quit before?”

taeyong was shocked

bc he didn’t know even if he was the leader

all of them didn’t know except the manager

but how? you looked fine back then

you were doing fine,,he knew that

“i saw that a lot of people said that you guys would be better off without a girl in your group,,”

“but then we went out to celebrate for ‘regular’ so i thought,,,it wouldn’t be so bad.”

“you guys are strong, you know? i want to be like you.”

“but then i’m acting like i’m the only one having problems when you guys should be resting”

it was silent for a moment before she laid her head down on taeyong’s shoulder

so he thought it was his time to speak

“you know as idols, we couldn’t avoid it right? sometimes they’re ridiculous, but there are times where it gets out of hand too,,,”

“it’s okay that you feel that way,,,,maybe this is your way to cope for all this....”

“you’re not a problem to us. we don’t regret debuting with you no matter what the others say. you work just as hard as all of us, please remember that....”

“the members and i will be here to support you always, okay? that’s what a family is. no matter what they say, you always have us. and that won’t change.”

“we love you, taehee. so much.”

taeyong gave her a proper hug from her side and rubbed her back comfortingly

“thank you,” he hears her whisper

and taeyong’s a but relieved bc she’s opening up more bit by bit

“do you still have to do that vlive?”

“yeah,,,,”

“okay, rest up then. mark will wake you up when it’s time.”

so he leaves after a few moments

and ever since yesterday, she was able to sleep well even just for a few hours

then mark woke her up so she’s like

fight mode: on

so she turns on the vlive

and she sees those people again

but this time she ignores them

and tried to focus on the good people :>>>

she talked with the czennies

telling her about her day

sharing her music recs

and movies she wanted to watch

until it got silent

since all the comments now were about protecting her from the hate

her manager was there in the room with her but she didn’t care

she wanted to say this first and get it off her chest

“you guys say i’m good....because you’re a czennie,,,,”

“everyone,,please don’t think like that. the way you see me,,,is different from how the world sees me.”

“and i’ve accepted that now.”

you smile at them before continuing to talk with those in the commments

ignoring the disappointed looks on your manager

but after the live

i guess u could say everything went back to normal

taehee was her happy self again

but she’s stronger now

she was greatful for opening up to taeyong

she’s learning to do that with the rest little by little

so the members are silently greatful for that

she learned that her members would always be there for her no matter what <3

ping!! text from

doyoungie <3: we’ll always be here for you. i love you

[herakosmos]

matchup exchange w/ @xizimagines! 𐐪𐑂

i would like start off by saying this is my first ever matchup/matchup exchange, so go easy on me!!

also to thank xizi for accepting this matchup exchange 🥺

pls check out @xizimagines i love her hcs and scenarios sm! 🥺

if you want to do a matchup exchange with me pls dm me! <3

i match you up with . . .

tetsurō kuroo!! 𐐪𐑂

✰ you and kuroo would already be friends when he asked you out. your shyness and awkwardness really didn’t bother him since he was the same as a kid and is best friends with a socially awkward kid cough* kenma cough*. he waited till i’d say a lengthy amount of time into the friendship until he mustered up the courage to ask you to be his :)

✰ he’s definitely the type to ask YOU about his little crush on you, but would leave out your name. idk why, but it’s so adorable since he already goes to you for advice about almost everything. you of course being quite intelligent would kind of figure out yourself he’s talking about you.

✰ (HE MAKES IT SO OBVIOUS) 😭😭

“so there’s this friend i have that’s so talented in arts and incredibly gorgeous that i want to make mines, but i don’t know how”

“…..kuroo…i’m your only friend who’s a girl”

✰ WOULD DEADASS TRY TO LAUGH IT OFF WITH HIS HYENA LAUGH

✰ the amount of affection this relationship holds makes me wanna cry in single. i could just imagine kuroo sneakingly come up behind you and back hug you. then starts to ask about the piece of art you’re working on. he’ll take any opportunity to talk with you! plays with your hair 24/7 because he LOVES it. (basically canon he likes girls with long hair ;) and TICKLE fights with you!

✰ he loves the sound of your laugh, it’s like music to his ears🥺

✰ you of course also being very affectionate, makes him feel so mushy inside. whenever you would want a kiss, he would either have to bend down for you or you would have to tippy-toe to reach his face AWHHHH probably would ask you for a piggyback ride and you would shyly say yes to it :((

✰ would 100% volunteer to become your next inspiration for a painting. probably would walk in shirtless and a rose in between his teeth and starts to lay down on a couch before saying a cheesy line like:

“paint me like one of your french girls…guys”

✰ idk about you, but i would blush like CRAZY from this😳

✰ kuroo would always want you to tell him anything that bothers you, but at the same time respects your boundaries if you don’t want too. although the times you do need him when you’re overwhelmed with something, he’ll swoop in and give advice or maybe just comfort you if that’s all you want. this would make him feel special asf because he knows how difficult it is for you to share out your feelings

✰ kuroo would know how intelligent you are, but the fact that you “dumb down” in order to be more “likable” to people makes him kinda sad. it’s honestly one of the many reasons why he fell in love with you and he reminds you that every single day. especially whenever you ace a test on two of your stronger subjects (reading and writing) he’ll shower you with praise showing how much he’s proud of you

“i’m so proud of you baby, i just want to tell the whole world know how my little kitten is the smartest cookie in the world”

✰ you guys would have so much inside jokes and sometimes laugh about it in front of people who have no idea why you guys are laughing. other times i could just imagine you two just relaxing on the couch and you would have kuroo’s hyena’s laugh stuck in your head that makes you start laughing so loud. kuroo would probably have no clue why you’re laughing, but won’t ask because it’s honestly a normal thing at this point

✰ another scenario i can imagine is when you’re working on a painting, kuroo would ask you for art lessons. this boy LOVES to learn new things, especially from the love his life. everything would seem all innocent until he “accidentally” paints your face with paint

✰ then before you know it the whole place is messy from a paint war 😭

✰ don’t worry it ends with a soothing shower you guys both take together 🙈

✰ whenever you feel like experimenting on cooking bed head haired boy would 100% wanna help you

✰ wash the vegetables? he got it

✰ cut some onions? he’s already on it

✰ would snake his arms around you from behind and whispers how much it smells good while leaving light pecks on your neck PLS IM GOING SOFT SOMEONE GET ME A KUROO IM LONELY <\3

✰ dates consists of staying home and playing video games! he’s very mindful of your introverted nature, so wouldn’t drag you into doing anything you’re uncomfortable in doing. kuroo would probably ask kenma what games you play and once he finds out you can be a good opponent in a fighting game? oh ho ho ho this mans smirk would stretch farther than the galaxy

“don’t get too upset when i win angel” ;)

✰ YOU WOULD SHOW HIM WHO’S BOSS IN THIS GAME

✰ you and kuroo would get fairly competitive and the aura between the two of you would change so much because of how intense it is. so much trash talk leaves each of your guy’s mouths omg. of course, in the end you two softies would feel guilty at your potty mouths :(

✰ i could just imagine the tv blaring the videogame while both of yall in sync would say, “i’m sorry!” to each other outta nowhere🥺🥺🥺

✰ probably becomes one of the many inside jokes you guys share 😭

✰ kuroo spoils you so much even if you don’t like it. he just feels the need to show you how much you deserve. he get’s you all the art supplies your creative soul craves! 🥰

✰ his pet names for you would be “baby” “honey” “kitten” and “his little angel”

✰ also would text you “good morning” and “good night” texts to you every single day with an “i love you” at the end 🥺 

✰ whether you like it or not, kuroo would not let you live a day without his science pick up lines ;)

“are you full of beryllium, gold and titanium? because you are Be-Au-Ti-Ful” 

✰ JANIUQSIAHBSLIAHBSHBSAH

✰ you being a sagittarius and him being a scorpio, each are both attracted to one another!

✰ sagittarius will be attracted to the mystery and charm in the personality of scorpio. scorpios tugs at their curiosity. scorpios on the other hand is interested in the optimism and child-like enthusiasm of sagittarius :))

bonus!

heres an anime relationship type gif that i just think you two would do 🥺

[staroflightning]

Michael!! (For the character ask thing)

Thanks sm for the ask!! I love that demon dad so fucking much

Sexuality headcanon: I really don’t have one for him 🤷🏻‍♀️ @shakesqueer-writes said aro-ace for him and I like that so I’m gonna go with that

Otp: None.

Brotp: Him with the entirety of Team Cockroach. His friendship with Janet is adorable. They’re two immortal dumbasses who share one brain cell. And I love his found family relationship with Eleanor.

Notp: shipping Michael with anyone romantically tbh. I just can’t see it

First headcanon that pops into my head:

Oh, man, I have so many for Michael, but my favorite has got to be the headcanon that Eleanor buys him a “#1 Dad” mug meant as a joke, but when she gives it to him, Michael nearly cries because he’s so touched. He still keeps it on his desk to this day.

Favorite line from this character:

God this post is gonna be so long because I have so many favorite Michael lines but here we go. Here’s just some of the ones that come to mind:

“I’m bad at lying now, Janet! Lying used to be my thing!”

Michael: “Young lady, you will go to the PTA meeting and support your mother! I won’t hear another word about it!” / Eleanor: “What the hell was that?” / Michael: “I was going for the ‘stern, but y’know, caring’ dad vibe. Did I do it right?” / Eleanor: “No, man, like... not even in the ballpark.” / Michael: “I was trying something, Eleanor. Give me a break.”

“Those four humans are all I care about in the universe.”

“In the words of one of my actual friends, YA BASIC! It’s a human insult. It’s devastating. You’re devastated right now.”

“You’re my friend, Janet. You’re my oldest, truest, most loyal friend.”

Eleanor: “Hey, be careful.” / Michael: “Eleanor, are you... worried about me?” / Eleanor, desperately trying to cover it up but failing: “Pssh, yeah, because you’re our ticket out of here, genius. Don’t be getting all goopy on me.” / Michael, who sees through her fake cover-up and is genuinely touched: “Worry about them. I’ll be fine.”

Chidi: “We got all four clues you left us.” / Michael: “Oh, that’s good. Well, I actually left more than twelve hundred clues because of how primitive your human brains are, but I’m so glad you got enough to figure it out!”

“All I’ve ever wanted was to know what it feels like to be human, and now we’re about to try one of the most human things of all: attempt something futile with a bunch of unearned confidence, and fail spectacularly!”

“I have an idea to get the four humans to stay in Australia, and only five random bystanders get hurt! It’s called arson!”

“Serious question: should we kill them?”

Jason: “I know this sounds crazy, but... I think we’re in the Bad Place.” / Michael: “Jason figured it out? JASON?! Oh, this is a real low point. Yeah, this one hurts.”

His evil laugh in the season one finale bc it’s so Evil™️

In the season one finale when Eleanor blows his cover and he knocks her potted plant off the table (like a cat) because he’s Salty™️

“We’re in love. And love is stronger than anything you can throw at us.” / “Love is stronger than anything I can throw at you? I could throw an elephant at you! You think a thrown elephant wouldn’t crush you because of love?” / “She was speaking metaphorically.” / “Even metaphorically, it’s lame.”

“That’s why I didn’t want you to see your memories. I didn’t want you to see how cruel I used to be. Plus, I wore a lot of French cuff shirts back then, I thought it made me look classy. It’s all embarrassing. The point is, I’m different now.”

“Which, gross. Kissing is gross. You just mash your food holes together, it’s not FOR THAT.”

Michael, well-intentioned: “As long as I’m with you guys, I’m always in the fake Good Place.” / Eleanor: “That doesn’t sound as nice as you think it does.” / Michael: “The real Bad Place... is the friends we made along the way.” / Eleanor: “Nope, still nonsense. One more try?” / Michael, trying his best: “In a way, the Bad Place was... inside the Good Place... all along.” / Eleanor: “Y’know, that’s technically true. I’m gonna give it to ya.” / Michael, proud of himself: “I just made an aphorism.”

*gleefully* “A BUS? I’m gonna get to take A BUS? Oh, boy! I’m gonna sit in a front-facing seat, or no, wait- maybe a sideways-facing seat! I’m gonna get so motion sick, it’s gonna be great!”

“Oh, man! I was just on Earth! It was incredible! The traffic, and the pigeons! And I saw this place that was, at once, both a Pizza Hut and a Taco Bell! At the same time! I mean, wow! The mind reels! A Pizza Hut AND a Taco Bell!”

“We should enjoy ourselves while we’re down here on Earth. I know it’s touristy, but I’d really love to visit a Lens Crafters.”

Good Place committee member: “Every single Bad Place employee is a disgusting monster.” / Michael: “Well, I mean, I’m sure some of them are probably cool, handsome, men-about-town types-”

Tahani: “Can I ask an unrelated question?” / Michael: “Absolutely not! The fate of all of humanity is at stake, and time is running out!” / Tahani: *makes a pouty face* / Michael, sighing: “Go ahead.”

Michael: “This can’t be happening. He was supposed to tell us what to do! If he’s not gonna fix this, who is?” / Janet: “You, Michael.” / Michael: “What?” / Janet: “It has to be you. We keep wandering around these different realms expecting someone else to have the answer, but no one ever does. You’re the guy, Michael. You’re the only one who can fix whatever’s wrong with the afterlife.” / (skip to a bit later in the same scene) / Michael, to the humans: “Guys, I’m so sorry. The Accountant was no help. No one’s coming to save us. So... I’m gonna do it.”

Michael: “I need one of you to do something outrageously insane that will either make you cease to exist, or... be really fun.” / Jason: “That’s most of the things I’ve tried!” / Michael: “That’s my guy! C’mere!”

And so many more

One way in which I relate to this character:

I, too, love the members of Team Cockroach more than I love myself

Thing that gives me secondhand embarrassment about this character:

I was gonna say watching him be evil in season one / early season two, but tbh? Even when he was a villain, he was still incredibly well-written and really fun to watch. So, uh... really nothing.

Cinnamon roll or problematic fave?

...Depends on what season you’re watching, tbh.

[wooziuji]

they sound adorable and i've seen a few posts of them 🥺🥺 so lucky, always wanted a dog but my mum says no lol.. in a few years i will get one. sorry i've been so mia ~~ i've been flip flopping between my kpop groups and THE FEELS 😭😭😭 i missed mx so much and began to watch the twotuckgom series, they're so cute 🥺🥺 ahaha minhyuk made me laugh so much when he was with eunjun bc minhyuk is 5 too 🤣🤣 and changkyun 🥺🥺 he just wanted to be liked bless him :( also WONHO!! [1] - team jj

Hehehe thank you 💕 aw well hey at least you'll be able to get one in a few years!! They're a lot of work but it's worth it 🥺

Also it's okay!! Sorry i wasnt able to answer this yesterday, I've been crazy busy lately :(

Omg i need to watch the twotuckgom series asap :((( i keep telling myself ill sit and binge that and going svt but!!! Stuff keeps happening and im so sad. Minhyuk is 💕💕💕💕🥰🥰🥰💕💕 i love that big baby sm 🥺 who's ur mx bias??

ALSO W O N H O!!!!!

Jungwoo has been extra uwu lately omg it's been hurting me. Like i'm so sorry @ johnny, uwu boy has been getting most of my attention ahdjfj TAEYONG IS BABIE HES CUTE BOY GOOD BOY

I did hear about the dreamies and I'm so!!! Happy for them!!! But also rip poor mark between superm, 127, AND being able to do stuff with the dreamies again lmao hopefully he gets a good rest in

UGH me on a daily basis with svt omg they're all precious boys we're so lucky to have them 😭

I've already rambled myself but ahfjdbdks i'm okay! My laptop has basically died so i failed out of one of my classes until i can get a new desktop so i'm kinda :/ about all that BUT i'm ordering a new one today so that'll help. Other than that I've just been busy with AC and trying to get back into art 😞

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October 2017 ⋅ Who the hell are you?

W, Here – NU’EST W

If there’s something that I have to thank Produce 101 for, is that it finally opened my eyes to Nu’est. I regret not paying any attention to them earlier, and even looking back I realise that I liked all their songs, but never really had any interest in the group itself.

Since their debut, Nu’est have been doing stuff that was basically avantgarde in terms of k-pop; now that electronic/EDM inspired pop has reached Korea, they can keep doing what they’ve always done and still sound better than everyone else.

Their title track Where You At is completely faithful to what their style has been so far; it’s EDM, but it somehow feels more refined than a lot of stuff that’s been put out recently. There’s a very trendy drop, but it’s announced by Dongho’s explosive vocals. There is a rap break, but it isn’t completely disjointed from the song.

While I wasn’t expecting that most of the album tracks would be solo songs, I do think that this is the best time for them to experiment: they were on the brink of disbanding, so anything that happens between now and contract renewal (and Minhyun’s return, hopefully) is a chance to test themselves and prepare for what they will do when they are back as 5. It’s also true that each of them can absolutely hold his own as a solo singer, which is not true of every group.

7 for 7 – GOT7

I’m going to quote my March 2017 self:

I never felt like GOT7 had a clear identity, but listening to their singles up to Fly, there is a faint thread that was completely cut with Hard Carry (the wooooorst) and hasn’t been picked up with Never Ever.

As of October 2017, I think GOT7 are back on track: with 7 for 7 and lead single You Are, I feel like they’ve finally gone back to their “romantic universe” concept, which is what has suited them best right from the beginning.

I was hoping this would happen ever since JYP’s new boy group, temporarily called Stray Kids, was announced. They seem to have been assigned the iKON/BTS image, leaving GOT7 free to shed their Never Ever grimy concept and go back to what they do best.

While previous songs relied heavily on GOT7’s not-so-amazing rappers, You Are features their super talented singers – not a complete surprise, after JJ Project had done so well this summer. The EDM elements of their previous releases are still there, but the vocalists really make the song special; I never stop being surprised by how lovely Youngjae’s part in the chorus is.

Of course I’m happy that the singers get to shine because that’s my personal taste, but it’s worth noting that this completes the shift of Jackson and Bambam from the most prominent members of the group to background figures. The difference between their presence in the Fly and the You Are performances is stark.

This bizarre dynamic – the members who caused trouble shoved in the back and the popular members thrown at the front – in the context of an album that is literally called 7 for 7, and the rhetoric of them being a 7-member group being very much reinforced.

I’m quite wary of this language being used at a time where the group is quite fragmented – there was a point a few months ago in which the members were spread over four countries when they were supposedly preparing two comebacks. Instead of feeling reassuring, it suggests that the situation is not quite as stable as it should be.

As far as I’m concerned, GOT7 have found their sound (again) and I would be more than happy for them to continue on this path. I’m curious to see if they will manage to stick to it for two comebacks in a row, and if it’s really true that #OT7 is forever.

Move – Taemin

If I had more time and more of a willingness to be disappointed by SM Entertainment, I would look into what was cut from the subpar video for Move, the title track of an otherwise perfect comeback. There isn’t a single bad song in this album. The aesthetics and styling are wonderful. The choreography for Move is the sexiest thing to have been performed by a man on a k-pop show this year.

K-pop either does big bangers or big ballads, but Taemin needs neither. The 80’s synth works perfectly with his breathy, sexy vocals. Move doesn’t exist in a completely different universe to last year’s Press Your Number, which had different 80’s elements, but it’s still something new and unique in the k-pop panorama.

While every single song on this album would be worth mentioning, I’m always struck by how much emotion he manages to put in his ballads. He could be talking about socks, and Rise would still make me cry for three hours.

I will be endlessly impressed with Taemin, who could have had nothing at this point if it was for SM (not the greatest at growing talents, sorry not sorry), and instead has managed to find an image for himself and to grow as a true artist. I hope he keeps it up for a long time.

Twicetagram – TWICE

It turns out that I’d rather hate Twice’s songs: at least I can pretend they don’t exist. When I find them catchy, which is the case for Likey, I am destined to suffer because of the absolutely revolting lyrics.

“In that small screen / I want to look the prettiest”

“Getting all dolled up / Is so annoying / But I can’t just be careless”

“I’m holding in my breath so I can zip up / Pulling it over my waist once more” “There are so many / Pretty clothes in this world”

I know that pop songs aren't that deep, and that this is not their first song with terrible lyrics, but it's shameful that a group as loved by young girls as Twice would push the idea that it's women's duty to look attractive to others (men, that is). This is one of the cases in which I’m kind of happy that my Korean is not that good, because I can just pretend that they’re not being absolutely idiotic and enjoy the song on my commute.

This is one of their better comebacks as far as I’m concerned: they all get to properly dance after Momo’s break, they aren’t dressed like schoolchildren, there is some actual singing from members that never made a sound before.

On the upside, while they still have zero production credits, many of the members got to write lyrics for the album tracks, which is more than many other girl groups ever get to do. Even the Wonder Girls members only had a handful of lyrics credits until the group was on the verge of disbandment and had to write their own songs. I love 24/7, Rollin’ and Don’t Give Up.

RAPID FIRE ROUND

Max & Match – LOONA Odd Eye Circle

I don’t know why it’s been so exhausting to follow Odd Eye Circle. I found Girl Front a bit too cute for what I was expecting, but on the other hand the choreography for repackage single Sweet Crazy Love is a bit too sexy for Choerry (who is only 16). While I love the song this time around, and I do think they look incredible in the video, I’m just looking forward to moving onto the next batch of girls and not have to question the concept of OEC anymore.

Fantasy – JBJ

With JBJ, basically all my Produce 101 favourites who didn’t make it into Wanna One have debuted in one form or the other. The song and the costuming have a very old school k-pop flavour, which is an interesting choice in a context where the trendiest post-Produce group wins (hi and bye, Rainz). I’m especially glad to see model-turned-idol Hyunbin onstage, because now YG will be forced to put him in the next boy group (muhahahahhah). I also live for Taehyun’s dancing and Sanggyun’s face rapping, so following them has been an absolute delight.

Knights of the Sun – SF9

I low key wanted to hate SF9’s O Sole Mio because Italy has nothing to do with the Latin sounds and “te quiero”, but my brain has been mushed by Despacito and anything by CNCO, so I was totally endeared by SF9 using their shirts as muletas and those random guitar interludes. I’m also not sure if someone thought that “Latin sounds” referred to actual Latin, because the phrase “ego dormio” is repeated several times in the song and friends, that’s the dead language, not the Enrique Iglesias genre.

It has to be said that all their albums have been excellent so far (I was obsessed with Breaking Sensation earlier in the year) and Knights of the Sun, despite not really sticking to the Latin theme, has some really good songs in it, like falsetto extravaganza Just On My Way.  

Hallelujah – Jimin (AOA)

I don’t even know how to justify this. Jimin’s voice is as grating as ever, and I love it as much as I always do. There is nothing that should bring together her squeaking, the pseudo-reggaeton, the signature “HEY HEY HEY HEY”, and the Christian hook that has nothing to do with the rest of the lyrics. This song makes no sense, but I’ve been listening to it constantly. What the hell are you, babe, hallelujah.

MORE SONGS OF NOTE

The whole of Epik High’s We’ve Done Something Wonderful Red Lie – BTOB Callin’ – ACE Pinwheel – Seventeen (more on this next month) Good Night – DIA I Wander – HA:TFELT When You Love Someone – DAY6

STRAYS

Monsta X Shownu and Jooheon dancing to Ariana Grande’s Side to Side, because why not.

I love, love, love, Twice’s Japanese single One More Time.

[cheesypopcorn]

🌹 — everyone is plottwisting them and i'm over here shipping them like crazy — i love these gfs sm, you don't even know — this is so basic aaah — ac: idk sorry — cc: stilesisreal (edited) #claia #claiaedit #shadowhunters #shadowhuntersedit #sh #shedit #maiaroberts #claryfray #claryfairchild #clarissafairchild #katmcnamara @kitkatsmeow @alishawainwright

[hotelsweet]

HI and thank you so so so much if you got involved in this!!!! I’m so excited to be celebrating 1.5k w you guys and can’t wait to dish out some of these lil prizes <3

u guys I’ve had so much fun doing this and I’ve legit sat here for HOURS going through everyone’s blogs and tags and I’m just so,,,, in love,,, this fandom is amazing and u guys are so gorgeous and amazing! I’ve been whining at @peraltiagoisland​ all day about how much I want to include everyone and shower u all in compliments and just!!! I’m so blown away tbh  A QUICK REMINDER OF THE PRIZES WINNERS:  - a big personalised playlist from me to u (u kno how I love my tunes) - a follow from me if I’m not followin u (duh) - a mention here!! - a b99 fic from me if u want it!!! any prompt ya like - hugs and love obvs

RUNNERS UP: - a lil personal playlist from me to u - also a follow if I’m not already - also hugs and love - and a lil mention here <3

if you’ve won/are a runner up please message me so we can talk and I’ll get started on your stuff! i’m so excited to talk to a bunch of you and give u music and writing agh <3

OKAY WITHOUT FURTHER ADO (I have added notes in italics bc I am just so excited and amazed by u guys)

BEST SMALLER BLOG (a very important category bc I actually do not understand how these people don’t have thousands of ppl following them??)

WINNER: @the-pontiac-bandit​ OKAY let me tell you about carrie and her blog. I spent a solid 60 mins reading her amazing writing and admiring her theme and then I checked her reblog and she had the #under500 tag and I yelled. not kidding. like an actual noise left my mouth because HOW THIS GIRL DOES NOT HAVE A CULT FOLLOWING I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND. FOLLOW HER RUNNERS UP: @theartofdreaming1​ aka Vicky who is the sweetest person and SUCH a talented artist!!! @khwabonkeparindey​ anna’s blog is so adorable and maybe it’s bc I’m type A but the layout of her navigation actually turned me on a little bit oh my LORD it’s beautiful and so well-organised @two-drink-amy​ I was only gonna have two runners up for this category but nicole and everything about her blog is so sweet!!

BEST URL WINNER: @jake-purealta​ not only does tash seem incredibly lovely BUT this url is so perfect and well-fitting!!! I feel like, given her obsession w Tswift, it fits beautifully well with jake’s obsession too??? everything about it clicks I love it RUNNERS UP: @roscoesantangelo​ because I mean!!!!! you’ve scored the perfect url of jorma taccone’s character in parks and rec!!!? like damn good on u my guy  @amysantiagone​ okay I wont lie this one is for personal reasons- although I happen to absolutely love Nate’s blog- bc for some reason the url reminds me of when u get super drunk and describe urself as “gone” (a v popular phrase here in the UK) and as a result I just picture drunk Amy whenever I see ur URL

BEST EDITS WINNER: @juliadorable​ RIGHT OKAY SO JULIA (julia) is one of these people I’ve always wanted to chat to bc she seems amazing but what I absolutely love about her edits & gifs is that she picks/ creates posts for some of the most underappreciated moments in the show!!! I love em and this blog is a blessing thank u sm RUNNERS UP: @jakeperallta​ aka @deepshadows​ !!! look at these edits immediately oh my god they are actually incredible and so creative!!! i’m not worthy!! fam I love ur edits so much thank u for providing me w this goodness <3 follow alexa immediately on both blogs seriously @brown-aces​ I won’t lie I’m not sure if these count as edits but I legit couldn’t not include you because of THE INCORRECT QUOTES TAG. this is legit one of my fave things and ur posts never fail to make me chuckle

BEST GIFS WINNER: @fourdrinkamy​ okay so not only is Emma gorgeous, talented, super clever and just all-around marvellous BUT her gifs are like... so good they’re satisfying? like I spent a good half hour just scrolling and admiring ‘em RUNNERS UP: @amesantiagos​ okay this girl has such an eye for colour and aesthetic I’m not kidding everything just looks so Good!! like I adore her stuff to the point where I followed her on insta too (hi Amy I’m darcey_wm if ur wondering where I am) bc it just looks so damn good @sergeant-santiago​ I’m just.... like.... shooketh..... I’ll get back to this later

BEST FICS (oh my god what a category I legit could NOT pick someone lol this was painful bc u guys write the best shit)  WINNER: @elsaclack​ this feels a little obvious/predictable of me bc I’ve rambled about em’s stuff before but Dear Fucking God can this woman write. her fics and the way they had me laughing/crying/glued to my phone are the reason I  RUNNERS UP: @peraltiagoisland​ MICHELLE aka the love of my life KNOWS HOW TO KILL ME NO MATTER THE TIME NOR PLACE dear god I recommend so hard,,,, jump in and give the drama club au a spin trust me u won’t regret it  @jakelovesamy​ oh my god okay so let me tell u. let me TELL U i did not realise that this gorgeous girl was on AO3 but then I clicked over from her blog and it all came flooding back once I recognised her handle!!! I recommend u go and read ‘and all my world is losing light’ bc it’s gorgeous @oceanvirus​ again I didn’t mean to have three runners up but I had to bc I’m just..... a piece of shit lol BUT ANYWAY please please go and read Bella’s stuff I love it so much

BEST ICON WINNER: @brown-aces​ GIRL THIS ICON FITS THE THEME SO WELL AND ALSO IT’S THE LIGHT OF MY LIFE ROSA LOOKIN FIERCE so obvs I’m obsessed  RUNNERS UP: @jakelovesamy​ bc it’s adorable and I adore it @three-drink-amy​ bc it’s my beautiful, smiling boy,,,, grinning at this wonderful blog

BEST DESKTOP THEME WINNER: @smolsamberg​ okay kara’s blog is gorgeous anyway (go follow!!!) but this theme is fuckin funky as shit??? navigating it genuinely felt like operating the sexiest lil website on earth and for that I am grateful RUNNERS UP: @bastillebananas​ this theme is FUCKING ADORABLE not kidding I love it omg I had so much fun w it (also hi fellow fan of bastille!! I’m seein ‘em this summer at a festival exciting) @amesantiagos​ this theme is so cute oh my lord (almost as cute as the wonderful Amy who runs this blog!!! seriously it’s just so wonderful and satisfying and Good Choice my guy I love it (and u)

BEST MOBILE THEME WINNER: @swansongcas​ MATE omg your blog is so satisfying and blue and just like.. sexy to look at so well done my guy!!! also helps that I adore ur blog in general but omg is it aesthetically pleasing RUNNERS UP: @oceanvirus​ bella your mobile theme is almost as sexy as u ;) x (I’m sorry if that was creepy I promise it was well-intended) @two-drink-amy​ okay this is partially bc of the adorable icon but mostly bc of the theme and I just... it’s so bright and sweet and honestly just reminds me of my joyous response to every b99 episode ever WHEW OKAY SO BEFORE WE DO THE BEST OVERALL BLOG,,,, I WANNA JUST THROW A FEW SURPRISE SUPERLATIVES / FUN CATEGORIES 

this is also gonna include some honourable mentions bc I am supported by some brilliant people and also bc not everyone I wanted to put in on here I could??? which is crazy so:

A big round of applause to the X-drink Amy crew who I see all the time and firmly believe should all be led by the adorable @full-santiago​ ?? like a little clan of Amy-themed URLs: @two-drink-amy​ / @three-drink-amy​ / @fourdrink-amy​ / @fourdrinkamy​ / @fivedrinksantiago​ / @six-drink-amy​ (I’m sure there’s more of you out there but these came to mind and I want u all to form a band or something)

A big fat shout out to emily aka @jakefreakingperalta​ who!!! made these valentines cards that I used this year for my friends but never knew the source of!!! another example of the funny and amazing ppl I follow here

an honourable mention for the amazing @tiadorable​ whose comments on my first works on AO3 (and my more recent stuff, too!) made me smile and motivated me so much <3 now for some superlatives!! follow these people rn!!! and if ur here please feel free to come ask me to write or make anything for u ever I love u 

most likely to lure me onto the sin train and never look back: my girl erica aka @startofamoment.... can u believe.... the creativity and the happiness/giggles this lady brings me 

most likely to literally ruin my fucking life thru writing: obviously em?? aka @elsaclack. I appreciate this is a fairly harsh title but dear god the things u could make me feel?????? also a brilliant woman i love u

most likely to always have complete faith in me, chat to me constantly, make me smile, & constantly be a complete angel w a heart of gold and amazing writing: @peraltiagoisland. need I say any more????

OKAY so the big 1:

BEST OVERALL BLOG RUNNERS UP: everyone who reblogged my first post. not a cop out. not kidding. u guys are amazing WINNER: @sergeant-santiago​  okay okay okay let me tell u about this blog. everything from content to quality stuck out to me when I was looking through everything for the blog awards and I was just completely blown away and in awe??? this girl is perfection and if you’re not following her blog then I DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHY get ur late ass over there bc u are missing the fuck out. I can’t stress this enough!!!!  alright!!! I think we’re about there!! thank you so much (again) for 1.5k. u guys are wonderful

[ryanurzi]

prompt, but necessary love letters

in no particular order.

KK- You already know most of this, but I just wanted to put some of it in writing. It still baffles me that we can talk about nothing for so long. It’s like a never ending episode of Seinfeld.  Your phone calls keep me sane and your instagram memes keep me grounded. Even though we’re a couple hundred miles away, I don’t think we’ve ever been closer. “Knowledge Speaks, Wisdom Listens” This is going to take you far. Even though we won’t be together this summer, we have to keep each other motivated. Thanks for being such a great friend.

JW- To my oldest friend, I’m so glad that I kicked you in the shin in 3rd grade. Thanks for sticking with me through my chump years in middle school. Even though we’re far apart now, I have no doubt in my mind that we’re going to be friends forever. When we hang out, all my stress melts away and I feel like I can just be that goofy kid I used to be. You’re the most honest and genuine person that I have ever met. Thank you for holding me accountable and telling when I’m being an idiot. I can say without doubt that I would not be who I am today without you. Thanks m8. Much love (PS. The Dream Killers will soon return to their former glory)

JM- Dear Mr. Sir,

You’re probably never going to read this because I don’t think you ever check your phone, but in the event that you do, know that I really appreciate you man. It’s so incredible that we can go months without talking while I’m away at school and then come back and pick up right where we left off. You’re an incredibly hard worker and one of the most talented people that I have ever met. If you can make it through three years of digital imaging, I’m positive that you can do anything that you want. Wherever you end up, I know that you’re going to change the world.

JR- Lemme just uhhh, appreciate you really quick. I’ve really really missed you this year man. I get so nostalgic every time I think of last summer. All the time that we’ve spent together has been so much fun. You’re kinda like my November. I can’t wait to see you again

LH- Damn buddy, what a time it has been. Just about every good memory that I have from 7th grade forward has you in it. Project W, turning off the Xbox on round 30 of Nuketown Zombies, plotting to kidnap Taylor, small groups on Wednesdays, senior sunrise, Yosemite, Long Beach. So crazy to think how far we’ve come. From chumps in middle school to now being people who are actually doing things with their lives. Weird to think about. Thanks for being there for me man.

LS- Wow. Crazy to think that we met only a couple months ago.  You’ve been so honest and open and kind and helpful and I can’t thank you enough for that. Your hugs kinda hurt but it’s so worth it to be your friend. I have so much admiration for how genuine you are with everyone that you meet. I aspire to be the kind of friend that you are. Short in stature, but big in heart. Thanks for the good times this semester and I very much look forward to this summer.

ATG- Homie, I’m so glad we met this year. It’s only been two weeks, but I already miss you like crazy. You’re one of those people that I feel like I could talk to forever. I don’t think I’ve ever told you this, but you really inspire me. You’re so incredibly talented, but you’re also one of the most humble and down to earth people I’ve ever met. I feel like every time we hang out, I learn something new. Thanks for all the laughs, quotes, and music recommendations. Our nights out were definitely the highlight of this last year. I’m gonna miss you this summer, but next year is gonna be one hell of a time. We’re gonna get true jedi on every level of Lego Star Wars. Mark my words MF. Talk to you soon, ya beepis.

A葛涵 G- To be completely honest, I don’t really know what to say here. All I know is that I wanted to write one of these for you. Whenever I see you on the sidewalk and we shoot the shit, I just get kinda happy. I realize how weird that sounds (I don’t mean it to be), but it’s true. When we hang out, I feel like I can say dumb shit and make stupid jokes and have someone that gets it. It makes me feel like I’m home. I really appreciate it. Keep rockin’ the double baseball hats and instagram polls.

MS- I’ll start by saying thank you for helping me get the internship because it means more to me than you know. I’ll follow that up by saying thank you for handling everything with housing so well. That was definitely the most stressful thing that I had to deal with this year and I’d probably be sub-letting a bush from the Morlan bunny if it wasn’t for you. But also, thanks for being such a good friend this semester. You’re an incredible guy and getting to know you has been an absolute pleasure. Working with you and living with you is something that I’m sure will be a highlight of our college experience. Next year is going to be our best year yet.

JY- I feel like I can’t say anything here that won’t sound whack as f00k, but hey #timesup amiright. Your cow milking skills are unparalleled but your sandwich eating could use some work. Seriously though, thanks for being such a bro. You don’t know it, but you’ve really helped to remind me to not take everything seriously and to have a good time above all else. I’ve had a great time this semester and I have no doubt that next year will be even more incredible (especially since we’re all sleeping in the same room). Pound it.

CVA- I’m convinced that you’re the only person in the greater Los Angeles area that can rock a peacoat in the summer. But in all seriousness, I’m so glad we met this year. There’s never been a time that we’ve hung out that hasn’t been loads of fun. I am beyond excited for next year and the years to come. It’s gonna be so much fun living together next year, even though it’s only gonna be for a semester. Thanks for being a friend this year and thanks for catching me when I fall ;)

SB- 1st off, thanks for giving me this idea. I remember when I saw you post this on your page and thinking to myself that I had to do that for my friends. That was such a genuinely nice thing to do. I’ve never really seen a guy do something like that before. It really made me realize how great of a person you are. I seriously don’t understand how you stay so humble because you are one of the smartest and most talented people I know. It’s also still so crazy to me that you were in LOK, but I’ll keep it on the dl. I can’t wait for next year man. It’s gonna be the time of our lives.

MZ- First off, oh my god. Second, you are actually the nicest person I have ever met. I genuinely do not understand how you always stay so positive. I get tired just being around you; I can’t imagine being you. You have this special way about you that makes it impossible to be in a bad mood when we’re in the same room. It makes me feel like I’m at home when we’re together. You’ve been a great fraternity mother and an even greater friend. Even though we had to say goodbye the other day, we’ll be back together soon.

SM- Honey, I don’t even know where to start this one. I never would have guessed that we would have been this close. You spill the tea a little too much and I’m still not 100% positive that you don’t want to shag all the pledges, but it’s ok. You’re a perfect example of striking a balance between working hard and playing hard. This semester would have been a completely different story if it weren’t for you constantly inviting me out. You’re extremely dedicated and extremely talented while also being one of the most genuinely fun people that I’ve ever met. I can’t remember the last time a came across someone that cares as much about their friends as you. You’re so nice and caring that in retrospect, I don’t see how we couldn’t be this close.

MC- Ummm, yeaaaa… sir? I remember when we first met. I thought you were just super nice and outgoing for o-week and I was like, “Hey, this person is pretty cool.” And then we started hanging out and you were still super nice and outgoing and I was like, “Wow. I really respect this person.” There are very few people that I know that can be super nice all the time and super honest all the time. I feel like most people are one or the other but you are somehow both. Thanks for being such a consistently good person and sorry for calling you names (but let’s be honest, that name is just too perfect). It was and will be an absolute pleasure, forever and always.

AC- It still kind of blows my mind how well we get along despite how vastly different we are, but at this point, I don’t question it anymore. Thanks for teaching me how to cube and thanks for giving me an excuse to watch old movies all the time. Thanks for making me laugh and attempting to motivate me. Even though we don’t hang out as much as we used to, it doesn’t mean that we didn’t have some great times this past year. Thanks for being my friend when few others would be.

AO- What can you say about a girl like you… It’s been truly incredible getting to know you this year. You’re so nice and funny and talented and I definitely don’t deserve to be your friend. I know that I’m a total flake, but thanks for sticking with me. I’m gonna try to forget the terrible formal that I took you to, but our countless trips to Disneyland will be one thing from last year that I will remember forever. Even though we won’t be bumping into each other at the caf anymore, this friendship is far from over.

LM- You were the first person at Chapman that I really clicked with. I remember the first night that we met. We were at someone’s housewarming party on the third week of school and we left and talked on that backyard porch for a couple hours about dumb shit. I know that it was just dumb shit but that meant a lot to me. I was a little worried when I got here that I wouldn’t fit in but that made me feel at home. Thanks. We had some really good times this year and we’re gonna have some more this summer and next year. If you ever need anything, you know who to call.

JI- You are truly one of a kind. You’re also the cutest MF at Chapman. I’m kind of in love with you man. Thanks for being such a gracious host this semester and thanks for being such a great friend. You’re one of the most fun loving and genuine people I’ve ever met and I can tell that we’re going to be friends for a long long time (especially if my SSN is still hung up on your wall).

NP- M’lad. I am seriously so happy that we met this year. I really appreciate how enthusiastic you are. You bring new energy into every conversation that I have with you. I feel like I learn something new every time we talk. I just really enjoy being around you. And I don’t mean that in a weird kind of way; I just genuinely enjoy hanging out with you. I can’t wait for next year man. I’m sure that we will have many more good conversations.

AL- Sometimes I forget how long we’ve been friends. It was that one Thanksgiving all those years ago and then countless Tuesday nights and weekends in between. I’m sorry that I haven’t kept in great touch since I’ve been away, but I’m so thankful for all the time that we’ve spent together. Seeing your grad pics the other day made me so happy for you. It was so so so good seeing you the other day. I hope it won’t be too long before we see each other again.

JCG- To be completely honest, you’ve been a really important figure in my life these past few months. Before we met, I hadn’t had an honest, open conversation with anyone in a good while. And the fact that we’ve continued that past the opening stages of our relationship means a lot. Thanks for being that for me. I know that sometimes I speak a little too openly, but the times when we can just sit down and talk about our feelings are some of the most relaxing and relieving times I have at school. I’m glad that we’ll get to continue that this summer and for the rest of our lives. Miss you. Love you. See you soon.

BJ- The 11th hour friend of freshman year. I don’t know how it took us so long to meet but we’re here and that’s all that matters. Damn dude, there’s something special about us. You just get it. You’ve got such a strong creative vision that I know will take you far. I can tell that we’re going to be friends for a very long time. I very much look forward to collaborating with you and getting to know you more in the process. Grand is gonna pop off next year. My door and my line are open at all times. Thanks for being such a broe.

sunday, june 3, 2:55 am