#sorry I never responded to this or any of the responses to post/ramble/thing

[animalsandskyyy]

Hey. Did you know that you're really cool?

I mean

You run a big blog. That's amazing. Your sense of humour is also great. By the way, baking is a difficult thing to do, yet you manage to make things that don't look bad.

I don't know if you are nice/kind/anything simillar, but to me you are on the level of coolness I'll never reach, hedgehog girl.

that is very kind and thoughtful of you to say, thank you <3

[dailyblueberror]

uuughhhhh, was off tumblr for a bit and missed all ur cool posts.

Anyways! So I totally haven't been thinking myself into a feckin trench over your hc responses and its totally not over the most causal one you said. That'd be weird of me. Yeah.

Mm.

What does him having a motorcycle imply???

Ok ok- hear me out. Having a specific vehicle, assumedly a custom vehicle by the way you said it was a really cool motorcycle (Or maybe you didn'tsay it was really cool and I'm just imagining that, but I'm too late to go look back at). The need for a vehicle would suggest a need for physical travel by means other than some form of televitation, which either means that he just has it for shits and giggles. Which OK go off I guess?? or you're multiverse travel system is altered in such a way that would make having a motorcycle practical. Actually where does he live? Does he live in the omega timeline or does he live in the anti void? Or does he have like a secret third location? I think some people make him a nomad which is really cool. I actually personally make him a partial-nomad, but he does have a little stop and rest place going on in outertale, but I'm rambling now and that's not what we're talking about. If he doesn't have a sit down residence then where would he even keep the motorcycle? How would he keep the motorcycle in good condition? Does he know how to do that stuff or does he take it to a mechanic? Is it just a random mechanic or does he have a personal mechanic? If he did live in the omega timeline, are people actively using some sort of transportation... Does the omega timeline have public transport???

when i was writing that specific hc i was mostly thinking about that popular headcanon that underswap sans would like motorcycles the same way undertale papyrus likes sports cars (dunno how he'd have a motorcycle bed but imagine....) and thats all i really had in mind.. but who says i cant make up some more headcanons on the spot..

I think he would get a motorcycle in a kinda fulfilling-old-wishes kinda way-like hes not trapped underground anymore, AND he can go to any au he wants (probably-Based off of abilities error has from being a glitch) so i think he totally would try to do things he couldn't before.

A multiverse traveling motorcycle. Sounds SO sick. Definitely wasnt what i had in mind originally but that sounds SICK?!!????

Canonically!! He lives in the omega timeline and is happy making friends there, which i think makes sense for his character. i dont personally see him as the kind of person to never settle, mostly based off some other headcannons of mines surrounding his want for long lasting relationships with people. But i really like the semi-nomad idea! It definitely makes a cool multiverse motorcycle practical as you said.

I also think that if he were to get a motorcycle purely out of wish fulfillment, he'd probably take alot of pride in keeping it in perfect condition :33 I think it could be a fun little hobby of his, learning the basics of being a mechanic (or just finding a real one in the omega timeline)

l actually have NO idea how omega timeline transportation works. Id have to guess theres no vehicles?? It definitely feels like a more foot-trafficy place. Blueberror would probably be the only resident to break this rule, generally causing minor hijinks by riding a motorcycle directly through a public park or something. Others would probably find it annoying, but hes so happy with his stupid bike noone has the heart to tell him off </3

sorry for taking like a billion years to respond to this ask </3 heres some stupid doodles of blueberror realllyyy wanting a motorcycle to make up 4 it :3

and what i think his helmet would look like :3

[timoogismain]

NEVER STOP MAKING SUFIN AR T!!!! YOU DRAW THEM SO CUTE SJDJDKDSNFKDJWEIDWIO, MY H E A RT!!!! I WANT WHAT THEY HAVE

GWAAAGHHHHHH thank you so much anon! I’ve had this ask forever in my inbox and I’m sorry it took so long for a response!! THIS MESSAGE MAKES ME SO HAPPY I CRY TEARS OF JOY 🫶 I will never stop making SuFin art :3 they are so special to me I love them!! Even when I take some breaks and explore more characters, I always come back to them eventually!

I also want what they have!! They’re so sweet and their relationship is so good, I just RAAAHHHHHHH I love pure and soft relationships so much, but that isn’t to say they don’t have their own struggles! Why I think they work so well is because they can help each other and know that the other won’t fault them on bad days! I love a little angst here and there, but only if there’s a resolution and comfort in the end! Depending on how long you guys have followed me, you might already know that I’m a sucker for happy endings! I think the world can be too scary and chaotic sometimes and I like to make art and write things that make it a bit brighter! I don’t handle heavy angst well personally, so I prefer to give my favorite characters happy lives, with some hiccups once in a while of course! I love SuFin’s relationship and I’ll continue writing about them and drawing them probably forever!! 🥺🫶

Thank you so much for this message anon! It genuinely makes me so happy! And apologies again for taking so long to respond!! I just didn’t have any recent SuFin doodles to post with it! 😭🫶 I drew this real quick just so I could finally say thank you and do some rambling! :D THANK YOU ANON 💕💕💕

[dilfspitdrinker]

Let The Light In | Joel Miller x reader

Description: You’ve been babysitting Joel Miller’s daughter all summer. No matter now much you try to deny it, you know you’re into him. But it’s just a little crush that you thought could never be reciprocated, until one fateful phone call. The shift between you two is irresistible, and you’re in for more than you ever anticipated. A/N: I love the babysitter trope lol, also pre outbreak Joel makes me feral. Basically, I couldn't resist writing and posting this, it's lived in the notes app for long enough. Masterlist Chapter 2

Chapter 1

You listened to the rings intently, praying that Joel would pick up the phone but dreading the moment he does.

The fresh night breeze swept over you the moment you swung open the door, exiting the frat house. You didn’t know when it had started raining, but you didn’t care, it was still better than the suffocating atmosphere inside.

Joel answered on the fourth ring, “Hey, is something wrong?” The worry in his voice was apparent, and you couldn’t help but feel a little pathetic for having to ask this.

“I’m so sorry to bother you Joel, I know it’s late but… do you think you could pick me up?”

Before you could even explain yourself, he responded, “Of course I can, where are you?”

You told him the address, watching people stumble out of the door. You wrapped an arm around yourself, as if that could shield you from the downpour.

“Alright darlin’, I’ll be right there, stay put.”

“Okay, please hurry, I’m hoping to leave without anyone noticing-“

Bursting out the door was the guy you came here with, his whole demeanor looking irritated and volatile. He caught your gaze and walked over to you, feigning a more cool attitude.

“Hey, that’s where you went! Come on, the party’s inside,” he tried tugging you along, but you took a step back.

“I’ll be right in, I’m talking to one of my friends,” you attempted a smile, desperate to not provoke his anger.

He raised an eyebrow, “Your friend a chick?”

In a split second you decided that maybe you shouldn’t give any indication that you’re actually asking a grown ass man to come get you. The only response you could manage: “Yeah.”

“Cool, tell her to pull up,” he started walking back towards the door, “and hurry up, I got a drink waiting for you babe.”

Only after he closed the door did you go back to your phone conversation. “Sorry about that.”

“Who was that?” Joel’s voice turned low and serious.

“The guy I came here with,” you sighed, embarrassed.

“Why’re you hanging around assholes like that?”

“I don’t know, I have a class with him and he randomly started talking to me and he didn’t seem so douchey at first. But I should’ve known he’d be the same as every other frat boy,” you rambled, excluding how he’d been trying to get you to drink since the minute you two showed up.

Joel’s tone softened a bit, “Don’t beat yourself up darlin’. Nothin’ wrong with trying to see the good in others, but that doesn’t mean you should overlook the negatives, either. I’m almost there, alright?”

He’d have to be going at least 20 over the speed limit to be almost here. You were about to insist that he slow down, be careful, if you’re gonna get me I need you to actually make it here. But the rain stopped you from protesting as the chill seeped into your bones. About an hour ago it was such a warm night, you decided to forgo a jacket. Heavily regretted that now as your clothes and hair quickly got soaked.

A few anxious and cold minutes later, a pair of headlights finally approached. You cut through the lawn to meet him as the black pick up truck rolled up next to the crowded driveway.

“Hey darlin’,” he greeted you as you climbed in. God, you poor thing, you looked like a wet puppy, it made him want to wrap you in a warm blanket and scoop you up.

“Hi Joel. Thank you so much for getting me, I know it’s late.”

“It’s no inconvenience to me, I was still awake anyway,” he glanced over at you, adding, “And I’m glad you know that I got you whenever you need me.”

You nodded, suppressing a smile. Once your seatbelt was on, he drove away, and a sense of relief washed over you.

You’d been babysitting Joel’s daughter Sarah all summer, and in that time you and Joel had really grown fond of each other. Not that either of you showed it much. He was your employer, and at least 10 years older than you anyway. At best, you figured he thought of you as family. Still, you didn’t want to push it, since it would be all too easy for the lines to get blurry, and you both knew that. But he clearly cared deeply for you, and would often remind you to call if you need anything, anytime. And tonight was the occasion. You’d only convinced yourself to dial Joel’s number by telling yourself that there wasn’t really anyone else you could call. You were still new to Austin, and hadn’t made any solid friends yet this early in the semester. Sarah was pretty much your best friend now, and Joel…

It was a conscious effort to keep him at arms length.

He broke the silence, “So, I didn’t really think frat parties were your thing.”

“They’re not. I was barely there for an hour and already looking for a way to leave,” you laughed, shaking your head. “I don’t know what I was thinking. At least I knew not to drink anything.”

“Very smart. Good job looking out for yourself there.” You noticed the way his calloused hands gripped the wheel. “That guy, does he know where you live?”

“Yeah,” you swallowed, thinking of the same worst case scenarios.

He paused for a minute, hoping this wouldn’t come out the wrong way, “Okay, here’s what we’re gonna do. I don’t want you staying at your place alone tonight. You can stay at mine, I’ll set up the pull out couch.”

The truck came to a stop at an otherwise deserted intersection. A left would lead to his place, continuing straight would take you to yours.

He turned to you, “What do you think?”

The suggestion caught you off guard. The thought of sleeping at his place filled you with a sort of nervous excitement, like you were about to do something you shouldn’t. It definitely felt like you’d be overstepping a very delicate boundary. But he offered, so it would be no harm, right?

“I just want to make sure you’re safe,” he added, voice earnest.

The light turned green. He waited for your response.

“Sounds good,” you nodded.

The truck took a left turn, and you two were silent for the rest of the ride.

At his house, you stood in the living room, feeling strangely out of place. You had been here so many times to look after Sarah, but being here without that purpose made you feel like an awkward guest.

Placing his keys on the coffee table, Joel said without looking at you, “Alright, you go take a shower, warm up. Take as long as you need.”

The statement made you red in the face, but you weren’t about to refuse. You’d had a shitty night, you needed this.

In the bathroom, you winced at yourself in the mirror. You were a bit of a mess, and became newly embarrassed that Joel had to see you so disheveled. Your hair was soaked from the rain, and you knew that would make it dry all frizzy. Couldn’t hurt to wash it, even though that would take some extra time… Joel did just tell you to take as much time as you need. But you already felt a little opportunistic for agreeing to stay the night at his house, you didn’t want to take advantage of his hospitality by hiking up his bills. You sighed at your reflection. Your clothes were dark with rainwater, and peeling them off made you shiver. Take as long as you need echoed in your mind. The way his voice had turned so gentle made you shiver too.

You turned the knob until the water was nice and steamy. Sweet relief. Felt like a warm hug. Don’t think about Joel hugging you. You took a look at the shampoo options. A bright pink bottle with a unicorn on it, obviously Sarah’s. Smelled like an artificial fruit salad. The bottle next to it was dark green, the label declaring cypress and mint. You went with that one, trying to ignore the fact that it’s Joel’s shampoo. Something about that felt a little too intimate.

Then came two gentle knocks at the door, followed by his voice, “I set out some dry clothes for you in my room. I’ll be in the kitchen when you’re ready.”

You sighed contently. You scrubbed your hair clean, soap and worries washing down the drain.

His room was right next to the bathroom, and out of sight from the kitchen. Wrapped in a towel, you scampered over to the bedroom.

There you saw some folded clothes set on the corner of the bed. Somehow it didn’t occur to you before that it would be his clothes. You slipped on the sweatpants, the extra fabric bunching around your ankles. The sleeves of the hoodie covered your hands entirely. Not allowing yourself to indulge your fantasies, instead you were a little mortified about this whole situation. You almost didn’t want to step out there and face him. But you had to, thinking it would be weird if you stayed in his room any longer.

As if to avoid creating a disturbance, you treaded lightly down the hall and rounded the corner into the kitchen. He was sitting at the small dining table, and quickly lifted his eyes.

He could hardly believe the sight before him. His clothes hanging loosely off your shoulders and hips. Hair still damp, framing your face. Straight out of his daydreams. Every time you came to look after Sarah, he secretly loved your little outfits and hairstyles, but you’ve never looked this good.

“Can I throw these in the dryer?” you asked, holding the bundle of your wet clothes.

His voice caught in his throat for a moment, “Of course-“

You already turned to do it yourself before he could offer. In the minute you were away, he noticed his heart beating faster than it should, and scolded himself.

Returning to the table, you eyed a plate of food that you hadn’t noticed before. “What’s all this?” you asked.

“Uh, sorry, it’s just leftovers, but I figured you might want something warm.”

You looked at him tenderly, voice soft, “Oh, Joel. Thank you.”

“Of course.”

Taking a seat, you noticed that he sure was of course-ing all over the place tonight. You stared down at the reheated chicken and rice, wondering if he was uncomfortable.

From the corner of your eye, you saw the way he leaned in before asking, “You alright?”

You smiled a little, “Yeah, I just feel kinda bad for making you take me in.”

“You’re not makin’ me do anything.”

You lifted your eyes to meet his. God his eyes were gorgeous, just his stare was enough to charm you.

“Any plans for the rest of the weekend?” he asked.

You shook your head.

“Well if you’re not busy studying, I’m sure Sarah would would love to have you around. I’ll be here too, but I’ll still pay you.”

“You paying me just to hang around now?” you couldn’t stop yourself from grinning.

He chuckled, shaking his head. You finished your plate while you two talked about Sarah, her new friends, her plight with fractions. This felt more familiar, more comfortable.

He frowned, “Lately when I’ve been dropping her off at school, some boy is always there waitin’ to say hi.”

“I don’t think you have to worry about that Joel. They’re like 12.”

“I know, it just gets me thinking about what it’ll be like when she’s in high school.”

“Cross that bridge when you get there.”

He sighed. “I just wish I knew what to expect.”

In that moment, you realized that this might be his roundabout way of opening up to you. You could only imagine how difficult it must be to navigate single fatherhood, especially having a daughter.

He cleared his throat. “I know this is none of my business, and you’re right, I don’t need to be worrying about it yet, but… do you have any boy advice for me?”

You laughed, maybe a little too loud, “You’re asking the wrong person, Joel. I’m not super experienced in that field.”

A playful glint appeared in his eyes that you’d never seen before. “What? Come on now, you’re too pretty to not have at least 10 boyfriends.”

You caught that, but shook your head.

“You tellin’ me you weren’t prom queen?”

“I was too dorky for that,” you waved him off.

“Well,” he leaned back in his chair, and your eyes skimmed over his broad shoulders, “here’s my boy advice for you.”

“I’m listening,” you grinned.

“Don’t hang around boys.”

“Gotcha,” you nodded, “so you’re saying I should go after men.”

He caught that, but dodged the implication. “Well, I’m sayin’ most of these college guys are still boys in here,” he tapped on his forehead.

“You’re telling me.”

He grabbed your now empty plate, and announced while placing it in the sink, “The room’s all yours when you’re ready.”

You looked at him with confusion across your face.

He motioned toward the hall, in the direction of his bedroom.

It finally dawned on you, he meant he’s going to sleep on the couch. Immediately you protested, “Joel. Come on. I’m not taking your room, the couch is fine-“

“No, no, no. This is not up for debate,” he pointed at you, “You need a good night’s rest.”

“Joel I’ll sleep fine on the cou-“

“I’m not fightin’ you on this.”

You stared at each other for a moment, a stand off you knew you’d lose. You finally cracked under his unrelenting gaze, but had to make one last effort, “You’ve done more than enough for me tonight.”

“I’d do damn near anything for you,” he couldn’t stop himself from confessing, but he almost didn’t care if it meant you’d take his bed. He’d never admit it, not even to himself, but he wanted you there, and not just because it was courteous to offer. To know that you were wrapped in his sheets, head cradled by his pillow, your breath filling his space.

You let out a sigh, “Fine.”

“Good. Thought I’d have to drag you.”

You chuckled, and in your mind flashed an image of him picking you up and tossing you onto the bed, oh God he’s so strong he could do that so easily-

You banished the thought, pulling yourself back to reality, but another idea invaded your mind. “Thank you so much Joel. I really owe you for this.”

“You don’t owe me nothin’. I’m glad you know that I’m here for you.”

If this whole situation hadn’t already overstepped a boundary, this certainly would, but you really couldn’t help yourself. You took a step forward, pulling him into a hug. Every nerve in his skin suddenly became hypersensitive to the feeling of your hands on his torso, moving to his back. He wrapped his arms around your shoulders, then froze. You smelled like him. You, in his clothes. You, with his scent. You, in his arms. He could only hope that his heart wasn’t beating too loud.

You pulled away from each other, hands lingering a second longer than necessary.

“Sleep tight, darlin’.”

“You too.”

“And sleep in as long as like.”

“Thank you.”

“Let me know if you want an extra blanket or anything-“

“Goodnight Joel,” you laughed, walking away from him finally.

When you closed yourself into his room, you let out a breath you didn’t know you were holding.

You both laid awake for a while, having the same doubts, ruminating on words, body language, tone, meanings that may or may not have indicated something else.

You tried to be objective. He’s naturally generous, kind hearted beneath a bit of a rough exterior. He was instinctually nurturing, look how devoted he is to his daughter. Besides, with her to look out for, he wouldn’t want some silly college girl. He takes his responsibilities as a father very seriously and as far as you knew, he avoided things and people that would disrupt her life.

You’re a sweet girl, he reasoned that you hugged him because that was your nature and nothing else. One night at his place didn’t mean anything beyond what it was: you called and he answered. He knew nothing would come of it, ridiculous to think anything would, really. Young, promising college students like you don’t go involving themselves with middle aged men with children, not unless the man was rich, which he definitely wasn’t.

These thoughts kept you both awake, so finally you each relented to the more hopeful side, even if it was just a fantasy to doze off to.

Cheek pressed against Joel’s pillow, surrounded by his scent, you sleepily indulged in the thought that he treated you special because he felt a special way for you. Maybe he’s even protective of you.

Hand tucked under a cushion, he entertained the idea of you knowing that you want a man who wouldn’t waste your time. Someone who has some real experience in the world and knows what they want.

He was starting to think that insisting you spend the night was the worst idea he’s ever had.

Chapter 2 Masterlist

[starshower1215]

as a writer - what are your thoughts on fanfic comments? do they inspire you? is it disappointing if no one leaves a comment?

Hello, anon. So, I did answer something similar to this before in this ask, but I'll give it again. For me, and I believe most writers, I really appreciate comments. It touches me that strangers will take the time to write out what they think once they read my stories, not knowing whether I'll respond or not. It shows that they haven't blindly consumed the content, and perhaps gave it some extra thought. That's what I'm looking for from people when I put my writing out there.

They do inspire me. Quite a lot. Just a few days ago, I received a comment where the reader simply told me what they liked and said that they hoped I would choose to continue the fanfic (as I haven't updated in a while). I'm now finished with the first draft of that chapter, after about four months of having it unfinished. The sense of connection it gives me to know someone enjoyed what I put out there enough to tell me and to want more makes me smile. I would say that comments also rekindle my passion for what I'm writing, as I often find the process to become very dreary and burdensome, and I sometimes lose interest in the story. I can alleviate the feeling with music (I have playlists for all my stories to get me in the mood), but comments that really convey to me what the reader enjoyed have the same impact.

Is it disappointing if I don't receive any comments? It depends. Some fics have been word-vomited with no thought at all, so it doesn't bother me not to get comments on those. But sometimes, I pour a lot of effort into something I work on, and when I post it, it's like presenting a little kid presenting a drawing to an adult. I find myself hoping someone else will like it as much as I do. In that case, it can be quite disappointing not to receive any thoughtful interactions with the people who come across it, especially since those works aim to make the person think at least one thing about it.

I know many writers feel a great disappointment not to receive comments. I spoke for myself, but now I'll also speak from the perspective of others. Fanfic writers put out hours of work to the fandom free of compensation. Many people do write for themselves, yes, but to speak honestly, if we wrote completely for ourselves, would we post our work at all? Or do we write for ourselves, then post because we like and want to interact with other people's thoughts on our passions? For big-time authors with a high number of hits and kudos for their works, it can be really disappointing not to get comments, because people obviously like the work, but won't put in the effort to express it. For smaller authors, comments can be a very pleasant surprise, and some authors, I know, will even be motivated to finish an entire fic just from one person's love for it.

To put it in perspective better, kudos are like offhanded remarks saying the reader liked it. Once the kudo is given, I will never see this person again. I will thank them politely in my mind, and we will both move on with our lives. Comments show thought, and are more personal ways of interacting with the author. I have gotten comments about how my work has energised someone to get through their work day, or how a song got them thinking of my work. And when people absolutely freak out, typing in all caps and screaming at me, you have no idea how elated that makes me inside. It leaves a mark on me, and I smile when I work on the story again, or another story, knowing that my writing has made a person happy. It encourages us to keep posting. My own comments seem to mean a lot to other authors, too, at least from those I've received responses from so I can vouch for what I'm saying with other opinions.

Anyway, sorry for the ramble. I'm quite passionate about it, even if my outward expression of it is mediocre. But thank you, of course, for your curiosity, and I hope that answers your questions.

[damnfandomproblems]

"Oh great, is one of those weirdos who goes around checking the notes to argue with everyone who disagrees with them. Well since you're going to read this, how about instead of going on a nonsense rant of how dubcon doesn't exist in the real world and therefore people should use the rape tag or whatever, how about, hear me out, how about you just, exclude the dubcon tag? just an idea, that's how people normally avoid things that might upset or trigger them, instead of, whatever you're doing here"

I was just adding my thoughts and options to the discussion around the original submission? I also just like seeing how people respond to my thoughts and having conversions with others about those thoughts. I don't see how reading replies to something I said and then replying to those replies is weird? How is this any different then reading and responding to replies to a post a made, or would that be weird too according to you? I don't see what is so special about an ask that it has to be a one and done deal where you make one and never look at it again

It's not like I'm throwing insults or throwing a tantrum about the original submission or about your response, or saying people MUST use the chose not warn or rape/noncon tag, just saying I really think they should and why I think that. I think I'm being pretty calm and polite, if not, then I am trying at the very least.

And I was just replying to your comment, not trying to argue? I never said you or anyone couldn't disagree either, Hell, I didn't even think you were disagreeing at first. I figured you didn't read my clarification that I understood fiction is fiction and doesn't require to follow the same rules, but that I believe tags should follow reality to avoid confusion and what-not, and so I tried to communicate that clarification even more and also mention that I didn't understand the point of it because it didn't bring up anything I didn't already mention. I didn't realize you had a problem with me voicing my opinion on an option blog, not a misunderstanding.

I also don't see how explaining myself is a " nonsense rant" either, ramble-y sure, but not a "nonsense rant". And yeah, I absolutely can and do exclude the noncon tag, I never said anything that even implied that I didn't do that. But guess what? I also can and will encourage others to use the archive warnings that I believe apply and explain why I believe they should do that. In case you didn't realize, those aren't mutually exclusive things.

And I'm sorry to say, but you're weirdly aggressive about someone having some thoughts and thinking they're having a conversation with you. Maybe if you don't like people responding to you, you shouldn't comment/reply to posts, because, y'know, that's what people normally do if they don't like responses

Posting as a response to a previous ask.

Going to include an additional reply here:

Anon:

you guys know you can literally just. exclude multiple tags, right? you guys know you can read the tags of a fic, not just the archive warnings, right? you guys know that it's not the author's fault if you click on a fic without reading the tags, right? you guys know that fictional circumstances are not the same as irl ones... right??

[stellarcuriosity]

Rules & Mun Info

Mun Info

Howdy! My name is Color, and my pronouns are She/Her & Fae/Faer! I'm a silly sleepy space dragon who's here for a good time. I was born in 1997 and I've been roleplaying online since about 2010-ish on iscribble, deviantart, tumblr, and discord! I've explored a multitude of fandoms and roleplayed a variety of characters, though I am new to the Transformers fandom and am still learning about the content. (There is SO much content!!)

Transformers Related Info:

✦ Favorite Characters: Optimus Prime, Ratchet, Bumblebee, Predaking, Ravage & Soundwave ✧ Favorite Series: Transformers Prime ✦ Favorite Movies: Bumblebee (2018), Transformers ONE ✧ Favorite Comic: Transformers x My Little Pony Crossover

Content I'm Familiar with: Transformers Prime, Transformers ONE, Transformers (2007), Bumblebee (2018), Transformers: The Ride 3D, Transformers: The IDW Collection Vol 1-4, Skybound Comics, & My Little Pony/Transformers Crossover Comics.

Rules: 

✦ I talk very casually, you'll be able to see this with how the rest of my rules are formatted. Since I have to talk professionally in real life, I like to use my time online as silly clown hour! However, I can (as the kids say) #lock in and talk seriously when it's needed! My silly shenanigans and nonsensical attitude also extend to my writing and characterization as well.

✧ I'm not "pro-ship" or "anti-ship" and I'd really not prefer to use either of those labels due to how the terms have become muddled through the years. (Being able to consume media critically and differentiate fiction from reality but also recognizing that people can use fictional themes and content for grooming and manipulation are two ideas that can and should co-exist!) With that said, while I likely will not have a focus on writing 'darker themes', if anything comes up it will be tagged accordingly with appropriate trigger-warning tags! Due to this, I'd prefer minimal interactions with minors for your safety and my own. I don't want anyone to be subjected to something that they shouldn't, sorry!

✦ I'm semi-selective with a preference for friends & mutuals! I'm down to clown with anyone and everyone. I can however smell bad vibes, and so even if you are kind to me but disrespect my aforementioned friends or mutuals, I won't be interacting, sorry! I really don't tolerate drama-mongering or vague-posting whether it's about me or not. 

✧ I'm a very forgetful person so sometimes if I don't respond to something after a while, you're free to poke me about it! However, my attention span and interest levels are fickle like a flitting flock of fairies, so there's also a non-zero chance I might have lost interest in something. It's nothing personal, I promise!

✦ I have a tendency to ramble and yap both out of character and in character, but if my responses end up being long, you don't have to match my reply length! It's always appreciated if you do, but it's never expected! I just like to yap!! If you're uncomfortable with how long my responses can get, please let me know and I can edit them down if need be, or I can make a mental note to focus on short form or script based roleplays with you!

✧ In terms of shipping, I already have some things that I've planned on my own with the help of some friends, however due to the nature of my muse I am willing to explore unrequited crushes on either side, or if our characters have good chemistry we can use AUs to have fun!

✦ In a similar vein, I love roleplaying with different interpretations of the same muse! My character will consider @autobotmedic & @atlas-ordained's interpretations as the 'main' Ratchet & Optimus Prime respectively (AKA her 'dads') but that doesn't mean she can't interact with other Ratchets & Optimus Primes! She'll just know that they're different versions than the ones she's used to. This goes with any and all interactions where there are multiple individuals playing the same character!

✧ Despite the fact that I am roleplaying an OC, I am going to try my absolute hardest to avoid disrupting the canon too terribly. I did extensive research on the timeline of Transformers: Prime and did my best to sneak my character in a way that didn't shake up the story too terribly.  Of course, if you want our characters to interact in a way that doesn't fit into the timeline- please let me know! I'm eager to brainstorm and figure something out, whether its an AU or we keep it ambiguous for what point in time it is or what verse.

Thank you for reading and I look forward to our interactions!

[luna-loveboop]

Why don’t you have your pronouns in your bio? I want to interact with your account but as a trans person it makes me feels unsafe if an account doesn’t have pronouns listed. (Genuine question, not trying to attack or anything)

Hello hi :D

I generally take a long time to reply (I choose to take a while so I am not rushing my responses), but I want you to feel safe so I will try and respond quickly

***I tried to respond as a private ask but I think I can't, so my response to anon is under the cut. It is way too long, but I don't want to trim it down and keep friend waiting

^^tone indicators for all of my response is positive and genuine- I am curious and sincere

Thank you for sending this- I love that you are brave enough to ask and I hear you. I'm honoured that you like my account and would love for you to interact with it! I want you to feel safe tho, let's figure it out

Could I ask for advice? I am not yet completely understanding of tumblr or how everything works. I'm not certain what a bio is or where to put it.

I have so far avoided posting a pinned post, or having personal information in my blog description (<is that bio?). I have preferred just having posts- I am also not very comfortable reblogging things yet. I'm not certain how to explain why, but that is the form my anxiety has taken in managing my account appearance. Is it ok to leave it as is?

As far as changes I am slow on that as well, and might take a bit- but again I will try to hurry because I never want you to feel unsafe. You are worth any extent of kindness

So if I may ask- what is a blog bio, and where would I be supposed to put my pronouns? I think others have explained a bit on this but sometimes I don't understand immediately. Is this something that will make people feel unsafe? And may I ask why? I understand if this is uncomfortable, but I always want to be honest and genuine, and learn rather than pretending I know everything. I am autistic and often take a long time to understand things socially. Could not having pronouns be seen as a rejection of my trans friends?

I also have believed they/them to be the sort of default- as a sign of respect for my trans people I say they/them if I am uncertain. I want to help people feel validated with they/them, rather than assume and say something that is not who they are

My pronouns are she/her! :D but I am ok with they/them as normal which is another reason I hadn't put them.

I have several friends I plan on asking for advice on this as well, but I would love advice from your perspective. I want to make sure your concerns specifically are cared for since you asked. If you are ok to go off of anon, could you dm me or talk in replies? I want to learn. Or you could send me asks in anon- but I do not want to seem like I’m telling you what to do, or demand you talk openly if it makes you uncomfortable.

Friend :)

If I have accidentally said something very offensive I am so sorry and please help me understand- I have a heart for you even if words get in the way. I hope I am not defensive- learning and growing and changing are the best parts of life

If anything I said came across as rude or blunt I am sorry- I tell you that is not what I mean and I want to be friendly and light. I struggle with language sometimes (sometimes) which is why I normally take long to respond.

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Hi friend! I think you are very cool and you've made me happy- now I can learn more :D if I was too intense or seemed demanding I am sorry- I got slightly panicked. I want you to feel heard and safe :)))

I feel secure in my gender identity and would not be adverse to being trans. I have spent so much time searching tho- I enjoy bragging about always having skirts with the best pockets.

I know this post is way too long and I repeated myself- I ramble lol but want to help you feel loved quickly

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Edit: hate to add more, but hi anon! Many of my friends have come to help me understand more. Thank you for asking- I did not know and love to learn. I've added pronouns, and want to always make changes so people can feel safe. You don't have to go off of anon if you don't want, but if there's anything else I can do let me know. You are so so cool :)))

[artificial-absinthe]

I wanted to give my point of view as someone who enjoys fem!Megs.

It's true, a lot of content made is ooc and people having fun making up things. We should have came up with a tag a while ago, it just didn't seem like a big deal at the time. I can't speak for all of them but we genuinely didn't mean to cause this much trouble.

I personally jumped in the bandwagon to try and express certain parts of myself that I was never able to explore freely but that would be too much stuff you probably don't care about.

I don't mind using a new tag/another tag at all and im sure others don't mind too. I think the main issue came from your wording of the request and the way you have been responding. 

As someone who has difficulty understanding tones of sentences you're words were (to me) snobbish and rude.

I know you hate it but please try to understand some people might misunderstand you. The way youve been speaking about the issue made it look like it was an absolute stain and abomination to fandom culture.

Another thing I would like to say is that yes, there is a lot of ooc stuff. I can't control the number of time people post. But some people have completely normal AU/headcanons where everything is the same except Megatron is female.

Some of them only use the character as a placeholder or a doll to represent certain things. Should it be tagged as ooc? Yes. Absolutely. But please try to understand that based on some of your replies, not everyone will take it kindly. You've given some people a bad "attitude" despite giving suggestions such as blocking blogs and tags.

It's true, some anons are rude and infuriating but don't forget to try and see other's perspectives.

Im sorry this is just a messy ramble, I only wanted to share my perspective/opinion on the situation.

-ZN

Actually, I modulated the words to be polite. I'm quite sure I do not insulted anyone, nor even placed adjectives on the trend, or anything of the like. I do find it odd that people agreeing with me don't think I'm being aggressive, while those who like the trend perceive me as rude and snobbish.

Perhaps it's only my way of speaking, I'm not cute nor try to be it. I'll let you know that I'm not the kind of person who places emoticon hearts all over to make the post seem friendly. It might also seem as a disposition to read things in bad faith, or the unwillingness to accept arguments or disagreement when the one disagreeing does not constantly apologizes for disagreeing. This is actually my politeness. If we were face to face you'll perhaps be able to see that. Usually, writing comes across the way the reader is more inclined to interpret it in this cases. I'm absolutely insufferable when I'm aggressive, I recognize that (which I'm not being right now nor in any of my responses). I'm just not your kind of creature/person, I assume.

And yes, as I said many times by now, whatever the reason to be on some kind of content, fun, trend, etc, whoever enjoys it will do and is free to do whatever they like. By all means, do it. Just be aware that not everyone likes it and there's nothing horrifying on people trying to avoid that thing while making use of a function that exist exactly for this reason.

[incomingalbatross]

Hi, I hope you're doing well!

First of all, thank you for responding to my last ask so quickly, I really appreciate it!! But I'll cut right to the chase:

You're absolutely right, Tim is definitely the toughest nut to crack of the entire Family when it comes to faith because of the reasons you mentioned. However, we must be careful with this because it almost implies that, as Catholics, we put faith over logic, which is ABSOLUTELY not true. The Gospel of Matthew (24:24) even reminds us to beware of false prophets, and how else to we distinguish them if not by logic? Heck, we have an entire Order (the Dominican Order) that focuses on teaching and wisdom.

So perhaps that's how Tim starts getting warmed into the faith? Via the Dominican way of acquiring knowledge? Also, he was the one that was the most rattled by Bruce's "death" (I mean, he was the only one to figure out he was alive), so perhaps that was the tipping point: he goes to Ra's for help, and goes through the same crisis Bruce did during his youth. Then, he discovers a Dominican monastery, begins his research, and discusses his findings with a certain playful but intelligent priest in England (wink, wink).

Also, yes, Jason's dip in Lourdes would be the perfect first step. Perhaps he begins returning to the faith and mending his relationship with Bruce just before he "dies"? Not completely mended, but they are both trying so hard: working together on the field, trusting each other with their territories, Bruce gives him his old rosary, they go to midnight mass at the same church (but never speaking), and praying together at the Crime Alley chapel. And just as things are getting better, WHAM! Bruce "dies", leaving Jason with a gaping hole in his chest again. He almost leaves the faith again, but he stays true and following Dick's example, grows his faith until he fully returns to it. Then, when Bruce returns, they fully mend their relationship.

Sorry for the rambling, I did not mean for it to be this much. Perhaps I should make my own post on it, so I can fit everything. Again, thank you for inspiring this, and may God bless you!!

Hey! :)

Oh ABSOLUTELY. Faith and reason are incredibly and beautifully intertwined—I think Bruce in particular would be very, very grounded in that approach to the faith and it would very much shine through in his religious life. Dominican fan Bruce Wayne for sure. (Third Order member maybe?)

On reflection, I think what I was thinking with Tim is that he's so founded in finding active solutions to the problems of this world—things he can do and solve for himself—that I find it hard to picture him looking for spiritual answers. Again, if he was raised in any religion I think his odds of staying in that religion, or deepening his relationship with it in response to personal crises, is much higher. But if he was raised secular I have a harder time seeing him leaving that mindset.

I wouldn't position him going through a spiritual crisis and seeking religion after Bruce's death, personally, because my understanding is that he responded to his personal crises at that time by doubling down on getting Bruce back. Again, sinking all of his hopes into an active solution he can achieve by his own efforts! But I feel like he didn't have any energy to start researching religion at that point in his life...

...actually, I'm kinda thinking now that Tim might need a period of security without severe problems to get interested in exploring the faith more deeply. If Dick's path is opened by grief, and Jason's (probably) begins by remembering what love and mercy feel like... think Tim's path might have to begin with a chance to breathe. Maybe at some point a while after his siblings' conversions, Tim has the energy and the openness to start wondering what they see in it? Or maybe it just takes years of household debate. That can happen too. :P

I love your picture of Bruce and Jason's hesitant, struggling reconciliation, forming tentative bridges partly through their shared faith. I still don't have a favorite timeline for that pinned down in my head, but this picture of the early stages...really good. Bruce giving Jason his old rosary?? Praying in a chapel in Crime Alley? I love that. Crime Alley should ABSOLUTELY have a chapel in it, incidentally. I'm assuming Bruce helped make that happen.

Love the rambling! Also happy to have you make your own posts, though, if only so your thoughts aren't dependent on me to get out there and be visible. But both ways are good. :)

Thank you, again, for all you've already added to this version of Batman!

[snickerdoodlles]

✨What's a fic you've posted you wish you could breathe life into again and have people talking about it? (or simply a fic you wish got more credit)

(prev) hmm, maybe Hair-Trigger? like, it got a good response, i'm very grateful to everyone who's read it ❤❤❤ i don't mean in a 'im looking for more hits' sort of way, i just really love Porsche & Kim as a duo and spin them around in my head like a shiny rock all the time. this mostly manifests in me spamming tortoise with Kim & Porsche snippets and thoughts that never seem to flesh out into proper fics, so Hair-Trigger has a special spot in my heart because it's my one finished Porsche & Kim fic and I want everyone to look at Porsche being extremely fond of Kim and Kim feeling all sorts of things about how fond Porsche seems to be of him (surely???? this is a trick????? he is so nice and smiley????????? a mystery)

💫what is your favorite kind of comment/feedback?

i like them all!! i genuinely enjoy all "types" of comments for different reasons, it feels weird to rank them against each other. so long as the comment is excited to engage with me/gush over idiot nerds together, i'm excited to answer and chat with them (although, i am. very behind on my inbox rn. hjghjg im sorry friends, i promise i will respond even tho it might be v late 😂💦)

💘Is there any posted fic you want to rework/re-edit/re-write?

I've actually been rewriting a *checks date* 5.5 yr old yoi WIP (*winces*) for a while now. very slow as my attention gets drawn away, but i love epistolary fic and there's a funny satisfaction without pressure to re-writing it.

but the story rewrite that actually has been sitting on my head for...forever really, is my ft story Jinxed. i was very new to fandom/writing fic when i first posted it, and at the time i'd just posted what i wrote and then went "...wait, how the fuck do you write a multi-chapter story???" and i really psyched myself out of posting more for it.

however, it's always like...sat in the back of my head, even after the fandom bullshit and when ft went to shit. because i just...don't like soulmate/soulmark AUs. 😅 the reasons behind my dislike for the trope are uh...kinda long and extensive actually, so i'll save that for a different post if anyone cares enough to ask, but the premise in this story of two girls with mismatched timers who fall in love and choose each other anyways is one i'm extremely drawn to. and i'm still like, figuring out how to write long stories, and i'm never going to write again for ft, so whenever i look over the old story drafts and notes, i'm actually thinking about it as an original story. not one i've started and maybe i'll stumble into a fandom that i want to apply this premise to, but...after i figure out long-form stories, i really want to swing by this one again, if simply to have it stop haunting my brain every few months.

(rest under the cut because i am rambly lol)

🌈is there a fic that you worked *really fucking hard on* that no one would ever know? maybe a scene/theme you struggled with?

hmm Silver for Truth is the obvious one since i whined about it taking a yr+ to write, but i think everyone understands when i say Tawan is an annoying ass bitch to write.

i'm actually going to cheat and say the freezer!Kim WIP i'm writing with @majestictortoise. there's a few different POVs in this story and one of them is Porsche's POV, and there is something about Porsche's POV specifically that i find very hard to capture. even when i know what i want from his arc and character struggles, post-canon Porsche carries around some conflicting beliefs and mindsets that i find really tricky to write, plus he's also a guy of action who's been forced to a standstill and i want to capture that trapped feeling without making it obnoxious. he's just tricky to me in a way that other characters aren't. (i actually ran into this issue with Hair-Trigger too, except it wasn't so hard because that's a fic about him Doing A Thing He Wants To Do, which is why i was able to write it within the timeframe i did. oh Porsche, ilu, why do u stick in my head so. orz)

🦋what are you most insecure about when you post a fic?

everything? idk, my reaction after i post a fic is to either Stare At My Inbox or desperately try to distract myself from the fact that i Posted A Fic, which really go to show how secure i feel about my writing 😂 i try very hard not to let a fic's reception get to me when i post because i've been down that road and it's really bad for me. all fic i post is fic for me, but i haven't hit the carefree attitude of "idc what you think, its for me first and foremost" yet.

🌻what makes you want to give up on writing? what makes you keep going?

there's nothing that makes me want to give up on writing specifically. i wail and cry when stuff isn't flowing right, but like. so i had an irl thing run me over like a truck april/may of this year and it's bullshit kept spilling out through june and july too, so i had like no time or energy to write or even spend much time on fandom stuff for four months, and i went absolutely bananas. i need to do something creative to feel good, and writing is my favorite of those.

posting...posting is a different story 😂 weirdly if im chasing the high of posting a fic/the high of comments on fic, i dont like to post as much. the hill in my head is too much to get around, so that ig.

🌿how does creating make you feel?

*points up*

also prev

🍉in what ways has writing helped you process trauma and/or navigate through your own life?

...this is such a weird question lmao (not u, the person who made the question list should have deleted this). i've always found writing as a good way of examining my internal biases and preconceptions i might not have otherwise had opportunity to find and reflect upon so clearly, and i'm going to leave it at that.

🎈describe your style as a writer; is it fixed? does it change?

fuck if i know what my writing style is 😂

🎀give yourself a compliment about your own writing

*curls up in more shy* hmm, i really like reading my own stories. like, i always have cyclic periods of "oh god this is garbage what the fuck was i thinking" feelings for each of my fics, but i know now that feeling is brief and it'll be gone soon enough and it will stay gone longer than it comes. the person who reads my stories the most is me, and the fact that i want to go back to read them again is really important to me.

🎉how often do you celebrate completing & posting a work? how often do you give yourself the credit/validation that you seek from others when you post? (if you don't, you should!)

i don't think i linger so much on the actual posting of the fic, but i return to my fics a lot and i've also started paying more attention to how much i post. i'm trying to find a balance between acknowledging that i posted stories vs "oh god, im not posting ENOUGH," but back at the turn of this year, i was really bummed that i didn't get as much posted during december as i had set out to do, specifically because i felt like 2021 had been a really strong year and i'd let myself down not finishing as many fics in 2022. then i actually checked my AO3 stats for 2021 to 2022, and realized i'd posted 4x as much in 2022 than i had in 2021. over 100k words altogether even!

i think i'm getting off topic, but between rereading my own stuff pretty frequently and trying to get a better grasp on how much i've actually posted vs what's in my head, i think i celebrate pretty often? idk 😂

💞what's the most important part of a story for you? the plot, the characters, the worldbuilding, the technical stuff (grammar etc), the figurative language

characters!!! everything's built around the characters. i love worldbuilding, making up worlds is a lot of fun, but i worldbuild through the lens of "what am i interested in?" (which starts with characters) and "how does this affect x?" (because if it doesn't matter to/affect the character, it shouldn't be a priority to me). similarly, plots exist for me to put Specific Guys Into Situations. a plot can be objectively interesting, but i'm not going to stick to it if i don't care about the people going thru it, my brain just doesn't focus like that.

the actual writing of the story is lowest priority on my list. there's a lot of writing types i don't like, but i can muscle thru a lot in the name of a good cast or plot. similarly, i don't give a flying fuck how pretty or polished a writer thinks their sentences are, if the actual story is boring or OOC, i am not reading it. or i am reading it and bitching extensively in friends DMs, which is worse. 😂

💝what is a fic that got a different response than you were expecting?

honestly, hard for me to answer because i'm actively trying not to think about what sort of response i do get. i guess one that still amuses me quite a bit is the response to my fic Shining Dishonesty (howls moving castle AU for haikyuu!!). i love this story to bits and i really love the comments i have on it, but it's weird/funny to me because it's my most recommended and mentioned fic on twitter, but it's one of my lowest in terms of kudos & comments. idk what's up with that 😂

🤍what's one fic of yours you think people didn't "get"?

*big shrug emoji* nothing that comes to mind???

maybe Silver for Truth, just a little bit???? everyone got the message of "get fucked Tawan" but there was also a little more pity for Tawan than i'd expected. like, not really, because Tawan's annoying, but i don't know that everyone quite caught Khun's trap for Tawan in it. Tawan could've completely turned things around for Vegas and ruined Kinn's lie by confessing his own failures/betrayals and accepting the consequences, except Tawan puts himself before all others, even someone he claims to love.

🕯️was there a fic that was really hard on you to write, or took you to a place you didn't think it would take you?

honestly? i don't remember the specific writing issues once something is done. even for something that takes me a while to write. usually my writing hang-ups are related to irl stressors. Pitch It was an extremely hard fic for me to write, but that was because it had a deadline attached to it while i was also trying to come up with money for a new car after my previous one was totaled 😂 and while i approach all stories with a vague plot in mind, it's purposefully vague so i can adapt to where's best for the story to go. that's the part i look forward to the most when writing lol.

💥find your least kudos'd fic - say something wonderful about it.

lol i don't even have to sort my stories to know which one is my least number of hits/kudos. it's by dawn's early light, which i wrote for the bnha myths zine, and it is literally one of my favorite fics i've ever written. there's some stuff i would've done differently now, but i liked it when i finished it, i liked even thru that fucking project's mess, and i liked it enough to post it after the project was finished, and that is probably the highest praises i can give that particular fic.

(this response probably doesn't make much sense to anyone who hasn't participated in a zine before and i'm not going to burden you with context if you haven't, but like. trust me. that's saying a lot 😂)

🍭why did you start writing?

to make a dick joke. i haven't changed.

💎why is writing important to you?

it's just fun. i really like doing it and i really like connecting with people over it/through it.

🪄what is your post-writing/sharing aftercare? How do you take care of yourself or celebrate yourself when you've finished a fic?

i re-read the story about a bajillion times in that first week. you'd think i'd be sick of it by the time it's posted, but the satisfaction of having finished something changes the way i read it and i just bask in that.

📡why is writing and sharing your writing important for fandom?

another terrible question in this otherwise nice questions list.

i like it, so i do it, and i'm lucky enough to have made friends through it.

🎙️which one of your fics would you like someone to make a pod-fic of?

i'm excited if anyone wants to make a podfic of my work and i give general permission for it, but it's not something i seek out specifically. i have very bad ears, it just doesn't really cross my mind.

🤲what do YOU get out of writing?

*points up however many questions ago* it's very fulfilling for me and i like it a lot. i'm lucky enough to have also made connections to others by way of writing, but first and foremost is i enjoy the actual act of it.

💋when you leave comments on a fic, do you want to hear back from the writer?

maybe? idk, i leave comments because i like to leave comments. i like hearing back, but its not like im leaving a comment looking for that. wrong mindset for this question, u know?

☯️how do you think engaging with each other through tumblr, twitter, comments, kudos, creates healthy fandom experiences? How do you deal with that if you're not a social person/experience social anxiety?

*sighs* this fucking questionnaire maker lmao.

responding to fics is fun for everyone. it's a great way to make new friends if that's the fandom experience you're hoping for (same goes for responding to edits, art, etc). if you're anxious to start talking to people or leaving comments or whatever, take the babysteps you need to try to push and expand your comfort zone. and be gentle on yourself -- there's no "right" way to interact with fandom, and you don't have to be perfect at what you want to do right away either.

but if that's not the way you want to interact with fandom, you don't have to. there's nothing wrong with "lurking" and frankly i care about my stuff being enjoyed (even if i never hear about it!), not the ~proper~ way to be in fandom or whatever. furthermore, my healthy fandom experience is regulating and maintaining my own reactions to the reception (or lack of) i get when i post so that it stays fulfilling for me, and that's how i create my healthy fandom experience.

🧿what steps do you take to not take things personally if a fic doesn't do well, or if your writing/posting/sharing experience isn't going how you'd like it to?

mostly i look inwards to see what exactly im dissatisfied with and examine why. there's plenty of stuff that i wish had a bigger reception, but i focus on things that i can control (what im happy with in a story, what i enjoyed about the process, talking about it more in my own blog space so people can choose to engage or ignore, etc) and push myself to that framework of mind. the worst thing you can do is focus on things you can't control, especially something as random and fickle as other people's reactions or a post/story hitting the trend wave just right.

💌share something with us about an up-and-coming work (WIP) that has you excited!

timeloop AU!! (prev)

timeloop AU will be 3 chapters + an epilogue. first chapter is Kim POV, the second one is Big POV, and third is Chay POV. Kim is the first one trapped in the timeloop. Big joins him later. Chay never does.

💌share something with us about an up-and-coming work (WIP) that has you excited!

in my fic Single Star Review, Khun goes to university and then starts seeking extra therapy help. i am Extremely excited for this one, but one of my favorite-favorite parts of it is Khun dismissively says "it's not like i can call Kim and gossip about boys" and Flop (the therapist, no that's not actually his name) asks Khun "why not" and Khun stares through a wall for a solid three minutes realizing hey, he CAN call Kim to talk about boys actually.

-later that night-

Khun: Kim! Kimmy-Kim my littlest kin! forget your other plans, tonight we are painting our nails and gossiping about BOYS

Kim: what the fuck

Khun: my therapist thinks i should try talking to you about stuff

Kim: THERAPIST?!

Khun: THAT'S NOT THE IMPORTANT PART HOW DO I HANDLE HAVING A CRUSH

(Kim is, ofc, over the moon and extremely excited when his brain catches up with his ears, even though he's a total little brother about it.)

💌share something with us about an up-and-coming work (WIP) that has you excited!

Red Line fic is the first installment of a 4-fic series (tortoise is laughing at me for thinking it'd stop with 1). mostly because it immediately dived into one of my favorite variations for how Chay kills Korn.

Korn's death is not a fix-it.

[everybodyshusband]

Ok so I'm not really back to normal but I'm gonna ignore my tummy for a couple minutes in favour of talking to you because I've been dying to send another ask after your wonderful responses!!!

I'll send it in sort of bullet points bc idek if anything I'm saying is even coherent and this might be easier for you to understand? (Or it might not, I'm sorry) In my brain everything makes sense but then sometimes when I say it out loud or write it it's like "what the hell is she saying rn?" So here I go:

- that bit you wrote about swiss and Copia with the soap and swiss stops swearing even when not regressed... oh, it has my heart... Poor baby, I hope Copia makes it up to him with lots of cuddles! I can imagine them laying in bed, Swiss with his head on Copia's chest, as Copia kisses his forehead/hair/nose/whatever he can reach, and promises it's never going to happen again over and over until swiss believes him and eventually falls asleep... (He even drools a little in his sleep, but don't tell him shhhh)

- I understood what you meant about the part I thought I didn't understand in the rain fic! Ugh every time I read that fic I just wanna give him the biggest hug my poor baby... Their dynamic in that fic is so "it's rotten work" 'not to me, not if it's you' I'm screaming and sobbing about it 😭🥹😍

- I will literally always enable you to ramble about any of your fics! Anything! I'm interested!!! I promise!!!! Anything you want to bring up??? Guess what!? I'm all ears!!! Always!!

-not gonna lie I felt pretty shitty all day bc of my tummy (and still do) but your super sweet responses and thinking about sending you an ask kept me a bit motivated (and distracted from the fact that tomorrow is Monday and I gotta work 😭) so thank you!

- I wanted to ask if there's a specific fic that's close to your heart or one that you like a bit more or one you wish got more attention? Because I'll get my greedy lil paws all over it in like 2 seconds flat and start discussing it... I think I've read everything you've posted but I wanna hear your thoughts on your own stuff too!! 💓💓💕💗💗💖💖💗

You're probably sleeping rn and you'll probably see this tomorrow so I hope you slept well and the day ahead is good to you! 🩷

ooh, my darling anon, i've been hoarding this and all your other asks for much, much too long, i am so, so sorry !!! please know i love and appreciate each and every one of your kind words, even if it takes me a very long time to respond 💙

under the cut because of length, haha :'D

i hope that by now your tummy has settled down a bit, i'm sorry this bout of stomach issues seemed to hit you so hard :0 (oh, and don't worry ! your asks always make perfect sense, my friend !!)

don't worry, after the incident, copia makes sure to give soooo much extra love and care to swiss. that ghoul is not escaping those cuddles from copia without plentiful doses of extra love and chaste forehead, cheek and nose kisses, haha !! copia is so very willing to reassure swiss that he's safe and that it won't happen again, you're right (and you're also very right in that swiss drools right onto copia's papal vestments, but not to worry, the stain comes out ...eventually)

ah !! i'm glad it's making more sense now :D i have a chronic case of the "does not write the things in his head into the actual fic" haha !! i agree that rainy deserves all the hugs in the world, it's a very icky headspace for the poor little guy to be in and he deserves so many hugs for doing his best to navigate it. whether or not he accepts the hugs though is another story entirely...

again, i hope your tummy is feeling better by now. or maybe it's been long enough that you've cycled around into another rough patch ? ooh, i hope not. but either way, i'm sending you so many good tummy vibes, hehe <3 (and maybe you'll take solace in the fact that as i'm answering this, tomorrow is a wednesday rather than a monday ?)

ooooh, that's difficult, haha !! the rain fic you mentioned before is the one that's closest to my heart at the moment, i think. but i'm also quite attached to my most recent ficlet with regressed aeon and zephyr because oh my goodness, i love their dynamic and i want to explore it as much as i can, hello ?!? and then on the complete other side of the spectrum i'm very proud of this t4t raindrop filth, haha !! i think because they're all my newest works i haven't had the time to build up an "ew, what was i thinking !??!" response to them, so i'm still feeling very good about these three. and by the looks of it, other people seem to like them as well, which is a nice bonus :)

thank you very much again for your lovely asks, anon 💙 they make me smile and brighten my day every single time i look at them !! i hope life has been treating you well, my dear, and i hope that you have a wonderful day/night depending on where you are in the world 💙

[pixl-vents]

Purps told me like 2 days ago that she's sorry she hasn't been responding very well lately. Said she had a hectic day and wasn't feeling well for some unknown reason yesterday. I reassured her and said that I hoped she felt better soon. Haven't heard anything since. I wasn't trying to look, but my Steam feed showed that she started playing some new MMO today. I don't know what to do. Obviously she's allowed to have friends and spend time with other people, but it just hurts me that I'm not able to get any response out of her. It feels like it's something wrong with me specifically since she has seemingly no issue responding to her other friends. I hate feeling that way, but it just makes me feel like she's avoiding me in particular.

I've been trying to focus on being happy doing my own thing lately, but seeing signs that I'm potentially being ignored just triggers something in me that tells me I'm going to be blocked or replaced soon. That I was fun to talk to and hang out with at first, but she's got dozens of people who are interested in her and... It makes me feel kinda' stupid honestly.

She made me so happy at a time when I was so sad. She seemed to text me with enthusiasm and make me feel like I wasn't this unlovable horrible person that I felt like I was. She validated my feelings and never made me feel like it was my fault for being insecure or depressed. She even shared some of those feelings and said she could relate which made me feel less alone.

On top of that she's just an amazing person even when I'm not "getting anything out of it" like validation or reassurance. She's interesting to learn about, she's funny without even trying to be just down to little things like the way she talks and uses little emojis and adds extra letters to the ends of words. She's smart both in an emotional maturity sense and she's just good at understanding more complex things like building PCs and quickly picking up on game mechanics. I like when we watch movies or shows and she always has a gif ready to post of her favorite scenes.

At this point I'm kinda' just rambling about her... I think it just felt nice to meet such a great person and feeling like they seemed to like me for whatever reason. I don't think I'm anything special and here someone was with so many great qualities thought that I was worth spending time with. I know that might sound like I'm "getting something out of having her as a friend" which honestly makes me feel a little gross for some reason. I don't like how it makes our friendship feel like a transaction and that makes me feel like the only thing I really care about is myself.

I already struggle with thinking I have an inflated ego and that I think far too highly of myself. That isn't at all helped by anon constantly telling me that's the case. At this point I don't know what this post is about anymore. I guess I just wanted to get all my thoughts out there. I do think a lot of why I'm feeling so down lately is that I just want the feeling I had before back as bad as that might sound. I could make friends in Party Animals and hang out with people who seemed to like me.

I think the more I think about it though the reality of everything kinda' sets in. I felt like I meant a lot to her but how much of that was just in my head or me misinterpreting her kindness? How could I possibly mean that much to anyone after only knowing them for a month? They've got a whole history of friends. I think I feel stupid for developing a crush on her, but at the same time she's great and saying that only feels like I'm insulting her in some way. Who wouldn't like her? Clearly plenty of people do. Am I just another of many? Does it annoy her? Does it feel genuine? Is it superficial? Why do I have so many doubts and insecurities?

I should wrap this up and take a bath. These thoughts are really bugging me, but I had to get them out of my head.

[charlottesbookclub]

thank you so much for your response, my dear! 🥰 (also so sorry I'm late to responding to your response - I did that thing where I wrote the response in my head and thought that meant I actually wrote it but I didn't lmao 😅)

I am so so so happy to hear that you're enjoying 'time after time' and that the chapters can be a bright spot for you even when things are shitty!! 🥰🥰 and truly, never any worries about commenting at all! I really just wrote the story because I was having fun with it and then posted it in case others might like it, but legit there is never the expectation for comments or anything! ☺️ just knowing that you're reading it and enjoying it and that it's making your day even the slightest bit better is more than I could ask for! 🥰🥰

and omg yessssss I lovelovelove your writing!! 💕💕 in fact, I think there were a number of things of yours that I read before I even had a blog that I think about quite often and which I've been meaning to find again and properly react to/reblog! ☺️ and also totally never any pressure to write things ever!! writing takes so much time and energy and you have already shared so many incredibly lovely pieces that truly do live in my mind rent free and that I am so lucky to have read!! ☺️💕

and just know that if you ever want to brainstorm or share any blorbo thoughts or just ramble, I'm always here to listen and be Unwell about fictional characters with you! ☺️ but absolute no pressure to do that though either! 💕

I hope things have gotten better and that stuff isn't so shitty anymore! ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 I'm always sending good vibes your way!! 🥰🥰

hello star! 💕

I just wanted to pop into your inbox super quickly and say that I'm so sorry you had a shitty week! 😔😔

idk if this helps at all, but I did want to let you know that last night I was once again thinking about your arranged marriage au and about how you were saying that Hux is starved of beauty for beauty's sake which is why he has an attachment to some of RC's outfits, and I was so consumed with feelings over this once again that I just had to look out the window for a little bit 😭😭 so when I say your writing/ideas live in my head rent free, I absolutely mean that (in the best way!) ☺️💕

again, I have no idea if that helps in any way, but I did just want to say that I hope things get better and I'm sending you such good vibes! 🥰

Thank you, lovely! I have to say that the Time After Time chapters were a bright spot for me every morning even though I didn't get a chance to comment on them. Just know I'm reading first thing every morning and gobbling it all up!

It's very nice to know that anything I end up writing sticks with you!! I wish I was faster at it so you had more to rotate in your mind, but I'm glad that even my quick little rambles have little nuggets you enjoy 💖

Thank you for the message and the good vibes! They are needed 😫

[g0nta-g0kuhara]

INFO

Howdy all!! Welcome to my DR sideblog <3 I hope you enjoy your stay here!

ART

You'll be able to find my finished pieces under [pluto creations] and less finished doodles under [pluto doodles]! I usually don't have requests open, but I sometimes do art games, so keep an eye out if you're interested.

NAVIGATION

I'm super talkative in the tags, I love gushing about these games and the amazing work the fandom makes!! I also have lots of categorization tags:

Game tags:

DRTHH -> #dr1

SDR2 -> #dr2

NDRV3 -> #drv3

DR:AE -> #udg

Special tags: I have a few more DR specific tags for things I love!

Gonta and Gundham interacting -> #bugs & beasts

Gonta + Kaito (qpp, romantic, besties, idc) -> #bugs blast off!

Pregame V3 stuff -> #pregamev3

V3 Survivors trio -> #ourrealitytrio

Gonta serious/angsty posts -> #gontangst

In general, I don't tag any ships as it's very difficult for me to remember all the ship names. If we're mutuals, feel free to ask me to tag a ship/trope either for filtering or later searching purposes!

Other tags:

#shut up me -> Personal thoughts and ramblings by me! Usually about DR or DR related things but no promises

#pluto answers -> Asks tag

#ask games -> Responses to ask memes

#reblog games -> Any of those "reblog and say in the tags..." posts

#fav -> Posts that I love so much I want to be able to find later

#ultimate fav -> above but EVEN MORE!!

#pluto creations -> My art tag!

#pluto doodles -> Doodle tag to keep my art tag less cluttered

#misc -> Any non-DR posts I reblog

#txt -> Silly textposts I tag as DR characters

#bugs -> I occasionally reblog pictures of bugs on here cause they remind me of Gonta <3

#drv3 relics -> Old DRV3 posts that I consider important or relevant to fandom history

WHERE ELSE AM I FOUND?

Likes and follows are from my main blog @bare1ythere! I post everything non-dr related on there.

My non-DR art blog is @bare1yart, although these days I'm mainly only drawing DR stuff, and even when I'm not I'm posting it on my main...

I'm the main mod over at @drv3giftexchange! Although no future events are currently planned, feel free to take a look at what we did in the past!

I have a twitter, although it's only for retweeting artwork that is sent to me from there. Follow [Autistic_G0nta] if you're interested in that!

You can also find me on Instagram at [G0nta.G0kuhara] if you want to follow my art there as well

My bluesky is [bare1ythere] but I haven't used it too much yet.

INTERACTION & PREFERENCES

I love getting and responding to asks/messages so please send me as many as you'd like! I also love getting sent/tagged in posts, especially one's related to my favs <3 I'm sorry if you ever send me a message and I never reply. Sometimes tumblr doesn't send me notifications or I'm just overwhelmed by the amount I get. Thank you for your patience ;u;

If you DM me and I never responded, please send me an ask. Tumblr especially hates sending me notifications for DMs.

Just a heads up! I use she/he/they pronouns for Chihiro, though with a bias towards she/they, and will occasionally reblog things using he/him for Chihiro. Most Chihiro headcanons are welcome here. Feel free to block the tag [#masc chihiro] for blacklist

Please do not tag my original works with Gonta and Kokichi interacting as ougoku! Just a personal squick of mine. Feel free to tag any of my reblogs here as that ship, as I occasionally do reblog some ougoku stuff.

FAVOURITES

•DR1 -> Kiyotaka Ishimaru, Sakura Ogami, & Chihiro Fujisaki

•DR2 -> Gundham Tanaka, Fuyuhiko Kuzuryu, & Nagito Komaeda

•DRV3 -> Gonta Gokuhara, Kaito Momota, & Tsumugi Shirogane

[aro-comics]

Fashion

Fashion, 1/1 - I’M NOT DRESSING UP FOR ANY MAN UNLESS THAT MAN IS A POTENTIAL EMPLOYER AT A NETWORKING EVENT 😤😤

Ok but in all seriousness, like I mentioned in the disclaimer, this post was originally meant to be a lighthearted joke about this idea all too many of us (especially people who were perceived as girls growing up) have been told time and time again – that you’ll grow up and “fall in loooooooove” and then suddenly you’ll be transformed into the heteronormative ideal of a woman who’s hyperfeminine 🙄 … Yeah, I can’t stand it either, it genuinely makes me cringe to even type this 😫

But as I kept working on this, I realized that … this whole situation goes deeper than just aromanticism and proving your parents/guardians wrong about how you would be when you grew up. This entire joke, and my experiences, are tied with so many other things. There are so many factors to consider, like sexism, classism, environmental impacts, ableism, racism (just to name a FEW). And as usual, if I let myself start rambling this description is going to be waaay too long, even by my standards.

So I’ll summarize my general thoughts in the comments, but if you’re interested in this subject I’ve actually written (… and don’t judge me, PLEASE 😳) a 12 page informal essay covering everything from social factors to my personal speculations on where Aro fashion might go, which you can find a link to on my carrd or on my Tumblr (which will also have some extra art, btw 👀)!  

NOTE FROM ARTIST: Since this is the tumblr, I will be posting the essay in parts here shortly!! There have been a few logistics issues (since the essay is VERY long) but I promise I will try to get all the parts up and linked to each other shortly. Sorry for all the chaos ^^” If you’d like to see the whole thing all at once, though, you can always read it in the original google doc! 

(And as one last note: due to some hand problems – though I’m getting better now thankfully – I’ll be responding either on my computer or with voice to speech! If my responses read differently that’s why 😅)

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Slide 1: “When I was a kid, I hated the idea of fashion, makeup, and dressing up.”

Young Celia grimaces “ewww no!” as she tries to push away a lilac coloured dress being offered to her by an adult off screen, who asks her “Can you try it on please?”

Slide 2: “And all the adults would tell me –”

Shot switches to Celia’s back as she looks at two women in her family. The younger/taller woman who holds the dress says, “oh you’ll dress up one day, when you fall in ~looooove~”. Celia is unimpressed, and annoyed, very firmly stating “Never!!”

Slide 3: A flash forward through Celia’s life growing up, where she does not care much about looks/fashion. The panel is split into 3.

The top third is labeled age 7. She’s running into the forest, saying “Eh, it’s appropriate –” wearing a plain orange t-shirt layered over a light grey long sleeved shirt. Her hair is wild and unkempt and a written note says “Running around like a little gremlin”.

The middle third is labeled age 11. Celia is shown hiding in the shadows in the corner of her school building on the playground. She says: “Well, it’s BETTER if I look plain. It’s easier to blend in!” A piece of context is given to the side: I was an avid manhunt player and my strategy was hiding until late in the game.

The bottom third is labeled age 15. She sits hunched over at a desk with short, messy hair and bags under her eyes. It’s late and she’s still working on some assignment.

“Dressing up? That’s … a luxury that nobody has time for,” she says. A note to the side says: Unhealthy work habits from school.

Slide 4: “And I hate to admit it but … they were right about wanting to dress up eventually” Celia ponders with a slight bit of embarrassment now, at her current age. Her outfit is an orange tank top paried with matching orange barrettes.

Slide 5: Note at top of slide: “At a special networking event”. Celia stands bewildered as she stares into the room of the networking event. A projector slide shows the event is called “Climate action lab”. In the distance, two well dressed young professionals talk.

Slide 6: Celia shown from the front now. She is wearing a very plain/somewhat weirdly cut long sleeved plain shirt with old black jeans (in essence. Not something you would wear to a business casual event). She looks a bit uncomfortable, and says “Oh shit, I really gotta up my fashion game …”

In the background two other people (who are also, appropriately dressed for the event) talk. The shorter man says “actually, I’m an environmental scientist to a tall girl who responds “that’s cool!”

Slide 7:

A montage.  At the top left, Celia is shown immediately after the event on her phone, making a note to herself to research business wear when she gets home. Then, in the center right, she is seen typing furiously as she researches on pinterest with a notebook open to her side. At the bottom left, she has already gotten a haircut, has some new hair clips and her now ubiquitous turtleneck top with a green gemstone ring strung on a necklace (which is split in orange and white). She is holding up a spring green puff sleeved blouse with white collar/sleeve details.

The sentence “I WANT TO BE A PROFESSIONAL” is written between all of these scenes.

Slide 8: Celia drawn shrugging nonchalantly now. “It really would have been a lot easier if my parents just told me as a kid “it’ll help you get a job you like”]