#soooo tired of capitalism

[theeblkcommie]

one thing that’s becoming more and more apparent to me is the way healthcare has been industrialized and just how disgusting most health care systems are. like what fuckin sense does it make that you’re going to deny someone lifesaving care just because they can’t pay? the bitch that decided to make medical care a capitalist endeavor is burning in hell as we speak cuz bitch you evil as fuck, how you gon decide to profit off of people’s need for medical care?? not to mention the role that racism and colonialism have played in a lot of these advancements we’ve been able to make in the healthcare field. how many black bodies were stolen, abused, observed in after their deaths in museums? need the people in the field to start clocking this shit and actually educating themselves and other cuz people, especially my people, are siffering at their hands due to their unknown racial biases.

if i had it my way, people (especially white people) wouldn’t work in the healthcare field unless they asses pass a bias test that’s actually crafted by racially marginalized people cuz clearly whatever psychological testing they doing know to clear these workers isn’t doing enough to keep people safe. not like capitalism gives a fuck tho since this is actually a necessary feature this egregious ass system.

[talkorsomething]

I have Got to get more transgender

[messenger-of-babel]

In Your Eyes

Summary: Clark isn't much of a morning person, but your eyes are enough to get him out of bed each day. (Clark Kent x reader)

Word Count: 2.1K

Notes: First Clark and this piece nearly had me dead on my feet (simply just tired- after this month I need to take a holiday and move house soooo). Fun Fact: I was actually the biggest superman fan when I was younger so he's kind of like my comfort now haha. Not really any warnings on this one, general mentions of violence again? angst? Either way, it hurt doing this to my boy.

Enjoy~!

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Clark wasn't particularly a morning person.

In fact, the longer he could stay curled in his sheets he preferred. Working as Superman was hard, but not nearly as hard as being a reporter at the Daily Planet. He worked long nights before getting changed into his suit, his headlines, deadlines and taglines rattling around his skull while he did his patrol. Even with his Kryptonian stamina and ability to synthesise the sun for energy, it did nothing to stop the tiredness endemic of working a nine-to-five for the sake of capitalism.

You however, rose for the sun. Gently shaking his shoulder each morning, greeting him with a soft smile that fooled his eyes into thinking the sun was already up. He'd groan, smile in return and pretend to roll over to go back to sleep, making you giggle. It never lasted long, and you'd flop on top of him, draping your arms over his stomach before pinching at the skin playfully.

"Rise and shine, sleeping beauty." you'd say, pushing at him to get him up. He'd just huff and bury his face into the pillow.

"The sun isn't even up." he'd tiredly protest, sound muffled.

"Yeah, but it's about to be." you'd laugh before moving off of him, slipping out of bed to get dressed. He'd just watch you through one eye lazily, studying the way that you would flit around the bedroom so effortlessly. Humming softly to yourself you never noticed how his eyes clung to your figure, the slope of your shoulders and the arch in your spine. Unaware of the lovestruck gaze he'd send your way as you got changed, pulling on clothes for the day and washing your face.

When you made coffee he'd finally rouse himself, pulling him from the warm embrace of the bedsheets to seek yours out instead. He'd hug you from behind, leaning his weight on you and cheek pressed into your hair. Inhaling softly, his senses were alight with the smell of coffee and your shampoo, soothing his irritation of being woken before dawn. "Double shot." he'd mumble sleepily into your hair. "Please."

"Already added," you say with a smile, finishing his coffee first. You take in in your hands, turning to the side so you can offer it up to him. He moves one hand from your hip to grip the mug, bringing it to his lips and taking a sip.

"Thank you, honey." he murmurs with a sigh, unwrapping from you so you can make your own. He watches how you busy yourself, slow yet methodical in your movements. He leans his chin in his hand, set up at kitchen counter and a lazy smile on his face. He might not have liked mornings, but he sure as hell liked you.

Your morning routine was always followed by getting changed, checking each other’s outfits and making sure you were both presentable for work. You also worked at the Daily Planet, being introduced to him as a reporter previously at the Gotham Gazette. The darkness of Gotham had gotten to you, the constant reporting on crime, corruption and the latest murder on the block slowly wearing away your soul. So, you had moved to Metropolis with its art deco buildings and lit streets for a change of pace.

He could tell from the first time his eyes met yours, that you were meant for Metropolis.

Clark didn’t want to be biased, doing his best not to be swayed by the thudding in his chest and ears every time he saw you. Yet he still couldn't help the thought popping into his mind every time you passed his desk or waved to him in the mail room. The way the tension eased out of your shoulders day by day, getting to report on new things. As you wrote about medical breakthroughs and charity events instead of gangs and mob violence, your smile peeked out of the shadows. You took the stories no one else wanted to take, the local library art competition, the national science fair, the new displays at the museum. The stories no one else wanted to fight for, his coworkers all stepping over each other for a scoop on Superman or the latest minor crime to rack the Metropolis streets.

Clark could see though.

The same way he could see the darkness that clung to Bruce, like a shadowed cloak heavy on the shadows of all Gothamites. Your pen was already heavy with death and violence, desensitised and numb. The way that your eyes cringed slightly when Perry asked you to take larger articles. You finally got to report on the positive, got to embrace the things that came so easily in Metropolis, yet you fought tooth and nail for in Gotham.

So, who could blame him when he fell in love?

He had worked up the courage to ask you for a date, which turned into two and three. On the fourth he might have accidentally revealed his identity as Superman, but you promised to keep his secret before kissing him breathlessly. Now you were in his apartment, your apartment together, making coffee. Clark was sur that this is what heaven was like.

his favourite part of the morning, however, was going to work together. You were close enough to walk to work, and you'd show up to work hours before anyone else, an hour before the sun showed its face. In the dark you both would scan and drop your bags at your desk before heading for the stairs, his hand on your back the whole time to make sure that you don’t trip or fall. When you unlock the door to the roof a cool gust of air hits your face, making you sigh happily while he winces slightly at the sudden breeze. Every morning you'd sit there together, watching the sun come up.

When that golden orb began painting the sky a beautiful pink and orange, he woke up fully. The beams settling onto his skin made his DNA thrum with energy, as if his cells were waking up as well. It was a shot of energy stronger than anything coffee could give him, muscles relaxing under the touch of its light. He loved the feeling of the sun, the warmth, the light, the gentle caress of the morning and the last hug of it before it set in the evenings. Yet all of that was nothing compared to the way he felt when he looked over at you.

You always wore the softest smile as you watched the sun come up, the gorgeous colours of the sky mixing with the shine of your irises. Clark felt like was looking into galaxies more beautiful than any other he had seen in space, and endless sea of colour and warmth he wanted to dive into. Every morning without fail it made his heart overflow, and he could never resist pulling you to him softly and dropping a soft kiss into your hair. It was his favourite way to watch the sunrise, through your eyes instead of his. He'd look at your eyes no matter how many skies you sat under, just to see if what you saw was different. You always looked up with such amazement and wonder that Clark was convinced you saw a different sky from him. When he took you home to meet his parents, the purples trails of the cloud looked like fields of lavender in your eyes, the blue of the clear sky appearing as an endless ocean. You had both been sitting out on the fence, pressed into his side to block out the sting of autumn's chill. He had kissed you on the head like he now did every morning, and that's when Clark realised that he wanted every day to be like this. Wanted to be able to look into your eyes every morning to try and get just a glimpse of what wonder you managed to capture in your gaze.

So, he had proposed.

The backdrop was the farm visiting his parents, under the tree down by the creek. He had waited for the most beautiful sunset, the dusk just beginning to settle in and stars peeking through the soft blanket of purple and pink. when you said yes, the joy and sparkle in your eyes had been something unmatched still to this day, outshining every star that had twinkled to cheer him on that evening. As soon as you said yes it felt like his heart had soared to the heavens, and finally, he could see those eyes every morning for as long as he lived.

When Clark wakes up one morning without the gentle shaking of his shoulder or your coffee on the counter, he barely makes it to work. He drops his bag as usual, walking up the stairs and settling on the roof, legs over the edge of the building. He sits there, waiting in the darkness. He turns his head, hoping each time that he'd see you walk through those doors and apologise for being late. For not making him a coffee, for not calling ahead and telling him you weren't going to be in work. For not coming home.

You had been called back to Gotham for family business, and the darkness you had finally managed to shake from your shoulders finally got you. He had received the call from Batman, not Bruce, making his heart lurch. Bruce had been the best man at his wedding (shocking a plethora of guests), so of course he knew what you looked like. Knew that it was you even when you were splayed out over the pavement, unseeing and still. You were friends with Bruce as well, and Bruce’s own pain was evident in the sombre tone as he tried to break the news to Clark.

Clark had flown over there, his best friend intercepting him before he could get close to the scene. He hadn't even been allowed to help, forced to sit in the shadows knowing that you were right there metres away and he couldn’t touch you, hold you, confirm for himself what he had heard over the phone.

Gang violence. A mugging gone wrong. Another victim, just another number.

And now you had become the thing you hated writing about, a death so common in the city of Gotham that you didn't even make front lines like it would have in Metropolis. You were on the fifth page, the ninth name down on a list.

Clark felt sick.

He felt sick being called in to ID your body and seeing the face he loved so much. Staring dully upon the cheeks he'd pepper with kisses every morning and every night before bed, the shoulders that held up his chin when he read over your shoulder or to watch a video you wanted to show him. The hands that interlocked with his so perfectly when you walked together held limply and empty at your side, unable to ever feel the warmth of his palms again.

So, when you were gone and it had sunk in fully, he struggled to get back.

 Things around him seemed to fall apart, things that even the support of Bruce and the financial aid couldn't fix. Yet the one thing he kept together was the routine, dragging himself like a zombie through the behaviours so deeply engraved in his muscle memory. Even if he wanted to sleep in his body woke up like clockwork, spectral hands rousing him, and he could dream that you really were there. That when he rolled over, he'd see you beaming back at him. His hand ached to escort you up the stairs of the Planet, uncomfortably heavy by his side instead.

He’d turn to drop a kiss into your hair but was always met with air, and he'd falter. Then the sun would come up and the energy would zing across his skin, but the morning after he lost you was the darkest sunrise he had felt to date. The beams would fuel him, humming across his cells and stirring his DNA. Yet he’d still stare out at the sunrise, the colours mixing across the sky in a beautiful display. He couldn't get his heart to fall in love with the sky again, nor warm at the image of it. After all, you were now looking at a completely different sky from him, and the sky just wasn't as pretty when it wasn't reflected in your eyes.

Clark just hoped that wherever you were now, that you had the most beautiful sky to look at. That somewhere, you were out there, galaxies reflected in your eyes that never had to close again.

[anomura]

so. i've been thinking probably way much about bucky's attachment/abandonment issues bc they're soooo loud to me like he clings to people so hard!!! he wants to be chosen!!! him asking gale "did you miss me?" after spending objectively not that much time apart half joking but half sincere bc he's used to people getting tired of him and leaving so he has to make sure.

And it makes gale saying no to london even more of a Big Deal. and paulina leaving him the morning after even when he asked her to stay!!! and lil kissing him but getting with dye!! and once again feeling rejected in the stalag when gale won't leave with him, won't even entertain the thought of it !! andddd not having anyone writing him letters, possibly not even his family for reasons we don't get to know but probably are a big part of why he has attachment issues

i've already said this but i'll say it again even though he's confident/cocky at times he doesn't... like himself . or has a lot of regard for his own life which we literally see in the show. he was Capital S Suicidal – bc of the stalag obviously but come on he drinks like crazy and gambles and smokes even before things get Really Bad. and the plane wing sceneeeee you don't goad your friend !! not even a random person but a Friend into hitting you if you're a well adjusted individual. And he was ready to give up fr when gale went down. he did not want to bail out with brady!!! AND him risking his eye to get gale a bike (which while yeah crazy yaoi moment . to me also ties into him needing to be wanted/needed so people won't leave him) so yeah clearly not huge on self preservation which at least in my perception is something that stems from self hatred

all of these rejections (even if justified at times) are probably a series of blows to his perception of himself/sense of self and just reaffirm to him in his head that he's not good enough and he is right to expect to be left by the people he loves. and he tries to stop that by clinging as hard as he can and not being expendable/replaceable. but if they do leave he can rationalize it because if everyone leaves him clearly it's his fault, he's the one lacking – which feeds his recklessness and self destructive coping mechanisms even more

[woman-respecter]

okay one last rant about chappell cuz i'm sure you're sick of herr (same):

i'm soooo tired of white people. i hate how chappell acts about palestine because it's SO "i learned activism from the internet and i have insane white guilt and i feel guilt for being a privileged white american" and that helps no one. bonus: she has republican parents so she has to force the activism even harder to compensate for her shitty family. i hate both sides as well but i'm not a stupid ass white person who won't be affected as much by not voting and not backing kamala.

chappell is so embarrassing like even taylor swift said i support kamala. her internet activism means that she would rather say guyssss both sides bad :/ than actually do anything of any value (it feels like she wants to be leftist so baddd that she ends up a fool... "all presidents bad i can't support any" girl you're high up in the evil capitalist music inudstry i wouldn't judge too hard if i were u..) but that's current activism for you doe. why make any change when you can just complain and do nothing? besides, leftists rn would tear any change apart to shreds cuz they expect everything to be fixed immediately. i've seen so many leftists get upset seeing progress of anything rn because because g-g-genocide!

leftists: you evil white gays celebrate improved gay rights in a red state ur so evil ugh a genocide is happening and ur happy? you need to blow yourself up to prove your loyalty to palestine and to understand what they're going through!

lastly everything chappell and ethel cain does for palestine is so forced and fake lol. it's all to make them feel better about being white and privileged. ethel cain makes jokes about killing the president girl! 🤔 youre enjoying your nice white life in a comfortable position in the music industry...you'd never give that up and stand on business cause ur all words no action..

ethel made a song for palestine and it was good but since she graduated with honors from the school of internet activism i cannot take it seriously. everything she does screams "sorry for being white :("

and then hunter from euphoria got praised for getting arrested at a JVP PROTEST (LMAO). like that rich white girl getting arrested and then nothing happened to her is not revolutionary it's actually giving kendall pepsi ad ! i will say it's more than ethel and chappell put together but still pathetically whitee.

lastly hayley from paramore ethel hunter chappell none of them actually support palestine. they try so hard to be leftist and activists which is ironic because they are capitalizing on palestine to look good, to overcompensate for their whiteness and privilege and because of guilt. their "support for palestine" are just large pr stunts that bring them more fans and more money. look at ethel. she LOVES florence (i believe they are good friends) and florence is besties with taylor swift and endorsed kamala. all bark no bitee :)

i HATE all of the performative leftist celebs you mentioned (except hayley from paramore) so fucking much. it’s obvious that their priorities are getting rid of their white guilt, being edgy, and winning clout points with the online left. they do not give an actual shit about palestine. the funny thing is that if taylor’s endorsement really does help keep trump out of the white house she will have done more for palestine than all those losers combined. sorry!

and yeah its funny that ethel, and almost every pop girlie, is at most like 2 or 3 degrees away from someone who is friends with taylor or idolizes taylor. sorry haters it really is that way. she’s your favorite artist’s ACTUAL favorite artist

[jrooc]

✨ it's random weekly tag wednesday✨

Thanks @spookygingerr (+ for the game), @energievie, @kiennilove @ms-moonlight-inn for the taggggssss

it's that time again...

what weather would you use to describe you current mood?

A confused weather day where it's cloudy but not cold. There's a rainbow 'cause it rained a little but there's bright moments.

have you ever had braces?

yes! For forever and I still have bad teeth

do you celebrate halloween?

Halloween is the actual best 👻🎃

best halloween/fancy dress costume you've worn

I always had good intentions and terrible execution. Mostly cause i was cheap/broke. Best costume was probably Robin Sparkles from HIMYM but no one got it lmao. Or Paperbag Princess but I couldn't find a adult size paper bag so I used a Canadian Tire (Canadian home hardware store lmao) leaf bag which had huge logo's on it which really ruined the effect 😂

last song you listened to

Kyle - Fred again.. (why is the line 'our shoulderblades kissed' so fucking lovely)

last thing you googled

How to write capitalized titles correctly in grammar 😆

dream car

I love an Audi cause they're soooo fun to drive

what's your favourite type of cheese?

Jesus why would you even ask me to choose? Dutch Gouda. Asiago? Swiss. *Panics and runs to eat cheese*

what colour are your socks today?

Grey Canadian Roots socks with the red line. IYKYK

what was your favourite subject in school?

Russian Studies

has your mood weather changed after answering these random questions?

Yes they brought me joy AND I took a short break from work for the first time in days so there's more sun peaking out.

Tags below the cut. Or have some halloween candy and a hug 🍬 If you are seeing this and want to join in pls do! Consider this a tag.

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@doshiart @such-a-barbarian @creepkinginc @transmurderbug @ian-galagher

@heymacy @heymrspatel @crestfallercanyon @stocious @too-schoolforcool

@thepupperino @sleepyheadgallavich @callivich @captainjowl @roryonic

@suzy-queued @palepinkgoat @look-i-love-u @spoonfulstar @ifallonblackdays

@its-a-queer-thing @ardent-fox @rereadanon @andthatisnotfake @darlingian

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@vintagelacerosette @mmmichyyy @pookiebearmick @transmickey

[divatakesontruth]

Im sooo tired i just want to know 🥲🥹 the other day I was like yeah omg ofc I’m always aware I’m awareness but just a lil after it’s like I don’t get it anymore and I just watch many videos or read soooo much I’m just so lost, how did you just stopped for a minute and remembered ??🥲

By the realization that all is Self

All these feelings like being lost and tired, even the feelings that you got from saying you’re awareness are all just baseless expressions of Self. Allow me to say that they’re nonsense and the seeming mind gives it sense.

But in the very core of it, it’s all nothing (no-thing)

And ‘you’ aren’t awareness , no

You (capital Y) are awareness, meaning that, only awareness is

This seeming person is just another expression of awareness just like a tree or a book

Something is aware of the person no? That’s enough to know it isn’t fundamentally who You are.

Once you understand this, there is a sort of way ‘you’ll’ begin to experience seeming life

Nothing is anything, we can’t see what it is because the mind’s narratives interpret what’s happening(nothing) to be something

And there is nothing wrong with that (there’s nothing wrong with anything) but there must be a realization that everything is Self

all ideas,thoughts,feelings,desires = Self

So just let them be, the same way you’d see a butterfly, would you immediately get worried about the presence of the butterfly? No, so do the same with everything else

They’re just there , and on top of that they have no independent existence

[loopeyfluff]

Spiderman across the spiderverse thoughts and spoilers underneath read more. it's all just gushing, do not expect a proper review.

That. Was. Fucking. Insane. That was the best movie I’ve watched. Literally captivated from start to finish. WHAT AN EXPLOSIVE INTRODUCTION?! with gwen stacey and her drums? Such powerful animated movements, in fact ALL THE ACTION SCENES carried SUCH GOOD WEIGHT, made SUCH GOOD USE OF THEIR ENVIRONMENT, and were just generally so well choreographed! The first villain was just so visually stunning and animated, I LOVED his style. And the humour from the very start was just, on point. This entire movie WAS SOOOO FUNNY. IT WAS HILARIOUS! Hahaha the lego spiderman scene? How miguel was like, “you’re one of the best of us” XDDD. And omg the MAIN ANTOGNIST IS THE BAGEL GUY. I CANNOT. THATS SO HECKING FUNNY. HAHAHHWYWHAJABWHAJJAHAHAHAH.

Such a visually stunning movie man. Like the first one was amazing, but this somehow topped that. The ENVIRONMENTS AND WORLDS THAT WE EXPLORED WERE SOOOO BEAUTIFULLY CONSTRUCTED? Indian spiderman- just everything about him was hilarious- had such an amazing universe, just the layered upon layers of buildings and roads EVERYWHERE. omg HOBY??? I LOVE HOBY MAN. How earlier he was like, miles u gotta use ur palms too not just ur fingers, and then he was also very established to be an against capitalism and institution type man, AND OMG MY GUY AAAAAA HELPING MILES OUT!!!! WHEN NO ONE ELSE WAS DOING ANYTHING FOR HIM??? HOBY’S A REAL ONE GUYS I LOVE HIM.

MAYDAY WAS ADORABLE! Peter being such a doting father was so adorable and EVERYTHING. Like that sequence of him showing all the baby pictures to miles and gwen, and then when he told miles that he should HOLD THE BABY IT’LL MAKE YOU FEEL BETTTER!!!! And ofc it did XD THAT TRAIN FIGHT SCENE??? SO MANY MOVIES HAVE TRIED IT BEFORE, BUT THIS WAS THE ABSOLUTE SICKEST TRAIN FIGHT SCENE IVE EVER SEEN. Just the train BULLETING UPWARDS, and then the call back to the leap of faith?

AHHHH but also! So many wonderful computer screen background worthy shots within this film. I absolutely adored the way they kept having the spider people sit and hang upside down. It made so many visually stunning scenes! Like when they were going up the elevator,,, AND THEY WERE ALL UPSIDE DOWN!!! AARHEGEH SOOO COOOL!!!!

Oh man but that brief appearance of peni parker! SHE LOOKED SO TIRED :(!!! URGEGWHW WE GOT TO SEE SPIDERHAM AND SPIDERNOIR AT THE END BUT MAN I RLLY WISH I CUDA SEEN MORE OF THOSE GUYS WYHWHAHWUIAKjahauai!!1!1!?1!1!1 I was so happy when they finally appeared with gwens group of spider allies tho ; - ;!!!!!

Okay back to bagel guy, what a fun and hilarious opening and introduction? Hahaha trying to steal the atm machine and their whole banter, it was just so funny. Amazing introduction. I loved miles’ roommate too! I wish we got to see more of him haha.

Oh oh oh, I loved all of the impact frames in this movie, and also the speech bubbles and sound effects and other fun comic style things, but the glossary squares that kept appearing on screen??? AMAZING!!!! I would love to go through this movie again and just pause and read over everything! THE COLOURS WERE SOOOO GOOD IN THIS MOVIE??? THIS MOVIE REALLY STOOD OUT FOR ME IN IT’S PALETTES! SOME SCENES WERE JUST COMPOSED SO BEAUTIFULLY I JUST AYWHAHAHWUJAHAHAHAH!!!!

The plot twist at the end was so good. It was so well built up too, there were so many hints and what not but it only hit me when aaron showed up… the mom’s eyes being different, her not knowing who spiderman is,,, earlier when the screen got the WRONG DNA,,, and also just the different colour palette? So many good clues. I’m over here laughing at how anticlimactic the mom is taking the news, and then AARON SHOWS UP. And the revelation HIT ME LIKE A TRUCK MAN. IT WASN’T A JOKE.

can we talk about the amazing sound track and sound design for this movie??? I watched this in VMAX which is a cinema which had a larger screen and louder speakers, and wow, I WAS SOOO IMMERSED MAN. Not only does the music SLAP and match each new place so well, but it just adds so much to the viewing experience!!!!

This movie was an absolute masterpiece. Wow. Jesus. The first movie was like my favourite movie. But this somehow TOPPED THAT???? Insane.

[kiriwiwii]

i REALLY need to rant about eichi right now.. cuz im soo tired of people not understanding him at all.

i hate how this fandom acts like he is the ONLY bad person in this game. i mean, he is not a "bad" person but he made a lot of mistakes in his school years and his methods were cruel, i know. but,, most of the enstars characters did bad things. it's just how the game goes.

as the story progresses we can clearly see eichi regretting his actions. and even if he did NOT regret it, we can still like his character since it's fictional and i believe it's okay as long as we don't support his actions.

shu and kaoru also had a bad reputation during the ! era, but they both had good character development afterwards. most people do the same thing to them as well. acting like shu never changed etc. or kaoru even mentions this IN THE GAME how he feels upset when people still care about his past actions.

well- the topic was eichi so let's get back at that... in my opinion, he is one of the best-written characters in the game. his inner thoughts and conflicts within himself are reflected very well. almost all of his motives make sense. people literally have no empathy for him which makes me upset. he grew up in a hospital and tried to live with the stress that he could die at any moment. none of his parents cared about him that much and he was so socially awkward that even if he managed to get out of the hospital he had a hard time making friends. him not understanding people and having a hard time feeling empathy comes from this. he grew up all alone, in a literal hospital room😭

and his intentions were always good. i don't recall a moment when eichi hurt someone just because he wanted to. it was always because he had lots of goals in his mind and since he could die at any moment, he wanted to succeed as soon as possible. that's why he tried to destroy everyone who got in his way. and that totally makes sense, adding that he's also not good with social stuff.

I KNOW he hurt a lot of people. i don't support him. i'm just trying to explain why i think he's well-written. actually, while reading the stories there were soooo many times i hated him and his way of doing things but i believe thats what makes his character so "human". he's very flawed and this makes him interesting, i love that.

also, he did get the consequences of his actions. whenever he did something bad he was aware of it and it led him to depression and hating himself. there are so many quotes of him saying he believes he deserves to die etc... and i remember in ! era, he kept having nightmares about the war and the things he did. so, he did suffer just like the people he made suffer.

we don't see this kind of regret in keito and tsumugi. and another thing- people always bash eichi for the whole "capitalism" thing and the stuff i talked about above, but they never do this to ibara?? I LOVE ibara, but i never saw someone blaming him for some of the bad things he did?? and bro is literally capitalism itself but no one even jokes about it that much😭 im sure there are other characters we can add here. some of them get treated like a baby and no one cares about the mistakes they did, but when it comes to eichi (or shu, kaoru, any other character you might wanna add) they despise him.

sure, everything eichi did was more visible, and it's easier to hate on him. but i believe he deserves recognition and love just like the other characters in this game.

this is it. sorry for yapping can't believe i'm defending this guy out here🙏🏻

[p-redux]

From Anon...

Anon, I'm assuming English isn't your first language and when you say "he", you mean "she." Madalina has a daughter, not Sam. 👆 And "she" accepted an invitation, not "he." 👇

Hi Anon, before I answer you, I'd like to make a request of you and others. I know people like to use initials instead of full names when they write about Sam's dates, but I'm tired, getting old, and the brain ain't working as quickly as it used to. I don't have time to be concentrating super hard to figure out WHO people are talking about. So, PLEASE when anyone sends Anons or even just DMs, write out full names. I would really appreciate it. On my blog, I've never been subtle about who I'm writing about. I always use full names.

In this instance, because you put that MG was Gerard's ex, I assumed you meant Gerard Butler. And I was able to look her up this way. But, if you hadn't done that, I'd never know who you were referring to.

Sooo, the MG the Anon is referring to is Madalina Ghenea, Romanian model/actress/producer. And, yes, Sam does follow her.

👇

Here's a short bio on her. 👇

She reminds me of a young Sophia Loren. Here's who she's dated. Some very famous men. 👇

Above, it says she's in a long term relationship with Matei Stratan, but this Romanian tabloid article says they broke up, and he's dating someone new as of this year. Who knows. I literally never heard of these people up until today. 👇

Here's her latest IG stories 👇 Halloween Party this past weekend.

Here are the white roses and note the Anon is referring to. 👇

BUT, it's clear that the note above was NOT written by a man whose first language is English. "Would you mind to accept" is not proper English. That's definitely a non native English speaker. Also I highly doubt Sam would use that silly grade school check the box yes or no.

AND, more importantly Sam has said in the past he writes using all capital letters. This is Sam's handwriting 👇

The man who wrote the note with the white roses used both capital letters and lower case letters. Sam only uses capital letters.

Soooo, unless, we get concrete proof, I'm chalking this up to "nothing to see here..." But, I've been wrong before, so we shall see... and all that jazz. 😘

Happy Monday, darlings!

[finalghost]

— 𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐬 , 𝐒𝐄𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐒 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐧𝐨 𝐟𝐮𝐧 ⁽ ᵗᵃˢᵏ ⁰⁰¹ ⁾

attention is flattering but when is enough ENOUGH ? eliza was growing tired of luke’s never ending advances — touching her when no one was looking , following her , & even asking her parents for their blessing . her wish for him to ‘disappear’ , along with other dark thoughts & secrets ( not just about luke ) , lived within the privacy of her diary . . . which vanished in monte cristo along with him .

eliza's diary contains 50+ entries that range from mindless rambling , short shower-thoughts , & lengthy reads on her so-called 'friends' . i am so so down to plot things that may be in her diary ( secrets or shade about other muses , etc. ) .

also , i wouldn't be opposed to someone in the group being in possession of it . or , perhaps it'll show up later in the story somewhere on the mountain .

𝐉𝐀𝐍𝐔𝐀𝐑𝐘 𝟕𝐓𝐇 , 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑 .     dearest  diary ,  i  have  a  feeling  this  semester  is  going  to  be ,  as  the  wise  sharpay  evans  once  said ,  FABULOUS .  cam  &  i  are  going  bar  hopping  tonight  to  kick  things  off .  i  don't  care  that  it's  supposed  to  be  30°  tonight ,  i'm  wearing  my  micro-mini  skirt  &  rene  caovilla's . 

𝐉𝐀𝐍𝐔𝐀𝐑𝐘 𝟏𝟐𝐓𝐇 , 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑 .     i  must  be  dreaming .  or  .  .  .  nightmaring ,  i  mean ???  allow  me  to  set  the  scene :  the  theatre's  main  stage ,  ten  minutes  before  class  ends .  professor  riley  announces  this  semester's  show  —  ' fiddler  on  the  roof ' .  fiddler .  on  the  fucking .  roof .  how  about  i  TOSS  myself  OFF  the  roof .

𝐉𝐀𝐍𝐔𝐀𝐑𝐘 𝟏𝟗𝐓𝐇 , 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑 .     reeve  aziz .  capital  'E' ,  capital  'W' .  even  thinking  your  name  makes  me  sick .  i  hope  you  die  in  a  ditch .  i  hope  you  backflip  off  the  side  of  mount  rainier .  i  hope  a  stage  light  falls  &  crushes  you .  your  hand  is  so  far  up  professor  riley's  cunt  ( or  as  you  soooo  fondly  like  to  call  her :  meg's )  she  must  see  stars  .  .  .  rather  than  seeing  ME  —  the  brightest  star  of  all .  like ,  what's  your  damage ?  do  you  hate  me  because  i'm  BETTER  than  you ?  do i  intimidate  you ?  or  is  it  because  luke  gives  me  the  attention  that  you  want .  sorry ,  babe ,  but  i  don't  think  you're  his  type .  you're  just  a  bitter ,  bratty  bitch .  die  slowly .

𝐉𝐀𝐍𝐔𝐀𝐑𝐘 𝟐𝟎𝐓𝐇 , 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑 . how do i trademark the color pink ?

𝐅𝐄𝐁𝐑𝐔𝐀𝐑𝐘 𝟑𝐑𝐃 , 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑 .     riddle  me  this :  what  does  a  'camliza  movie  night'  become  when  puppy-mutt  milo  invites  themself ,  and  then  flop-thomas  &  kody  show  up  halfway  through , too ?  it�� becomes  a  horror  freak-fuck-fest .  pda  should  be  illegal ,  punishable  by  stoning .

𝐅𝐄𝐁𝐑𝐔𝐀𝐑𝐘 𝟗𝐓𝐇 , 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑 .     today  will  go  down  in  the  history  books  as  one  of  the  worst  days  ever .  cute-barista  totally  fumbled  my  coffee  order ,  my  cowlick  won't  lie  right ,  &  my  favorite  bottle  of  perfume  shattered .  somebody  sedate  me !

𝐅𝐄𝐁𝐑𝐔𝐀𝐑𝐘 𝟏𝟎𝐓𝐇 , 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑 . cute-barista made me the most delicious iced latte ever . all is right in the world again .

𝐅𝐄𝐁𝐑𝐔𝐀𝐑𝐘 𝟏𝟒𝐓𝐇 , 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑 .     you  date  a  guy  for  two  months  in  middle  school  and  he  treats  the  next  decade  &  a  half  like  some  tragic  love  story .  news  flash :  you're  no  romeo  —  you're  just  some  creep  who  happens  to  have  decent  genetics .  too  bad  that  'pristine  dna'  isn't  enough  to  make  up  for  a  half-formed  frontal  lobe .  seriously  .  .  .  if  luke  sinclair  doesn't  keel  over  &  die  soon ,  i'll  have  no  choice  but  to  take  matters  into  my  own  hands .

𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐂𝐇 𝟖𝐓𝐇 , 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑 . in my next life i wanna be reborn as a lipstick lesbian . then cam & i could run off into the sunset together ; no more gross guys with their cliche drama . just me , my bestie-bae , and an endless supply of frozen margaritas while we lounge on the coast of the isle of lesbos .

𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐂𝐇 𝟐𝟔𝐓𝐇 , 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑 . my hear me out's : brahms 'the boy' , simon chipmunk , hiccup , flik 'bug's life' , all the 'avatar' blue people , dipper pines , rumpelstiltskin 'ouat' , gnomeo , the scream mask , celia 'monsters inc' , willem dafoe , fix-it felix , thomas jefferson on the $10 bill , thomas ortesky .

𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐂𝐇 𝟐𝟖𝐓𝐇 , 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑 .     on  top  of  the  pyramid  this  week  —  kingston ,  for   walking  me  home  after  the  frat's  train-wreck  of  a  party .  bottom  of  the  pyramid  —  reeve  &  milo .  reeve ,  for  ruining  said  party  by  trying  to  crowd-surf .  milo ,  for  dying  their  hair  pink  .  .  .  a  color  i  am  in  the  process  of  trademarking .  honorary  mention  to  kody ,  who  brought  shrooms  to  the  party .  not  that  i  took  any  ( gross ) ,  but  luke  was  so  high  ( unearthing  the  secrets  to  the  universe  through  the  cum  stains  covering  the  bathroom  tile )  he  stopped  playing  handsy  with  me .

𝐀𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐋 𝟏𝐒𝐓 , 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑 . april fool's has been promoted to my top 3 holidays . amazing content today . i love to laugh .

𝐀𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐋 𝟏𝟓𝐓𝐇 , 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑 . seriously , i'm sick of cam dragging milo everywhere like a dog on a leash . the guy was funny at first , and maybe i'd still think so if alllll their jokes weren't pulled from the same braindead gag-bag . maybe the two of us could even be friends . but , alas , anyone nipping at the heels of MY best friend is my enemy . camille is much too pretty & much too smart . . . maybe they keep getting back together with him because they're a masochist . like some kind of humiliation ritual .

𝐀𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐋 𝟐𝟗𝐓𝐇 , 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑 . kody & thomas made prolonged eye-contact across the quad . . . i might do something drastic .

𝐀𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐋 𝟑𝟎𝐓𝐇 , 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑 . should i be concerned ?? tommy didn't text me all day , and when he finally came over , bit my lip too hard . should i ignore him the next 3 days ?

𝐌𝐀𝐘 𝟏𝐒𝐓 , 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑 . i wonder if he's thinking about me right now . probably not . well , maybe my boobs . a win is a win , i guess .

𝐌𝐀𝐘 𝟏𝐒𝐓 , 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑 . i wish the word 'love' didn't feel so dirty on my tongue . i wanna say it — scream it . shower him in it . but i can't because i hate him too much . i hate the secrets , the sneaking . i hate holding my tongue around camille . i hate the way he looks at me when i brush too close in public . i hate that i know he wouldn't say it back . and still , he's all i think about . he's turned me into some kind of heart-eyed high school girl or obsessive , psycho stalker .

𝐌𝐀𝐘 𝟐𝐍𝐃 , 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑 . okay . he brought me flowers . i feel better .

𝐉𝐔𝐋𝐘 𝟕𝐓𝐇 , 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑 . i love my birthday , & i love how much everyone else loves my birthday . i am so loved . i am so happy . camille <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 surprise party planner extraordinaire !

𝐉𝐔𝐋𝐘 𝟐𝟕𝐓𝐇 , 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑 . mother-dearest must think she's doing me a favor by playing matchmaker ( engaged by graduation ?? get fucking real , lady ) . but i'd rather star in an episode of 'dateline' than 'desperate housewives' . being stuck in a coma with my darkest nightmares playing on loop still sounds sweeter than the living nightmare of waking up next to luke each morning . H ! E ! L ! L ! N ! O ! at least if i were to kill him i could earn a feature on @mugshawtys .

𝐀𝐔𝐆𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝟑𝐑𝐃 , 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑 . earlier today , i watched kingston bend down to tie isla's shoe for her , then carry her books to tech . gonna beat the shit out of thomas tonight .

𝐀𝐔𝐆𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝟗𝐓𝐇 , 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑 . who the hell goes camping for fun ? i'm twenty-five & hot . i should be in the club .

𝐀𝐔𝐆𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝟏𝟏𝐓𝐇 , 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑 . luke sinclair , i hate you .

[queer-advice-hotline]

Hello! Soooo long story incoming...

CW For homophobia and religion

So, for context, I am a 20 y.o autistic lesbian living in a small conservative and religious town, and I live with my parents and my teenage sister. My mom is very religious and homophobic. The type of homophobe to say that they would never hurt a gay person, but still thinks being gay is unnatural. She already knows I'm gay, but refuses to accept it. My dad just doesn't give a fuck about either helping me or being against me, so he is just very neutral.

Recently I was planning on leaving my home town to study on college, maybe in another state or at least in the capital city in my state. Partly because I want more oportunities but also because I want to leave my home, have my own space, and a little bit of privacy, without my mom's watchful eye judging me all the time. I didn't tell my parents about that last part tho, I just told them I wanted to go to college to certain places and they were trying to support me.

But my mom started to catch up to my plan and asked me if I just wanted to leave the town, and I was honest and I said yes. She asked me if it was because of my sexuality and I also said yes. She started to try to convince me that bad people from the internet made me go to the "wrong path" and that I just had to meet the right man. I was already so tired because we had these types of conversations for a 100 times already. I barely even argued with her because I didn't know what to say anymore.

The she started to cry, saying that she was suffering too much, how she probably did something wrong and this was all a punishment from God. When she started to realized I did not want to change and give a chance to men, no matter how much she tried to convince me, she started crying really hard and left. It was almost as if I died. Apparently not marrying a man and not wanting to have kids is that devastating to my mom to the point where I am basically dead for her. I feel guilty and horrible. I feel like I'm a mistake.

I just locked myself in the bathroom and cried. I had no idea what to do. I only have my girlfriend who lives in another state (who is trying to help me as much as she can, dispite not being able to do much outside of giving emotional support), only a single friend from high school and a few mutuals.

My mom will definitely not let me go to college somewhere else after this, or at least she won't help me financially. I am basically alone and also broke. I don't know how much longer I will be able to live in this house without becoming completely insane, so I still wanted to leave, but I am not sure if it's a good idea.

I am not sure what options I have... I would like to get help from more experienced queer people on that matter.

(Also, for more context, I don't live in the US, so I need general advice that doesn't apply only to people from the US)

If you’re comfortable lying, you can always try and go back on what you said, just so she will financially help you to move out.

I’m not sure what the options are in your country, but you could look into scholarships and other forms of financial aid from the university you want to go to. They may offer assistance with housing and payment so you can still go. You can also look into other universities that may offer that sort of thing.

You can see if any friends of yours are willing or able to help in any way. If you can stay with them temporarily while you find work to support yourself, that could at least get you out of the house.

[gnirewolf]

missed some sleep and I'm soooo tired but ya know what? I'm also soooo full of love, so take that capitalism!

[rye-kin]

Idk what your drawing are from but theyre skrunkly and i love them

TYSM!!

They are from old ass books <\3

Mainly: Frankenstein and strange case of dr.Jekyll and mr.hyde (not going through and capitalizing that whole ass title idgaf)

Butr YEAHHH!!!. Just some books I read when I was 12 or 13 and am soooo normal about!,

Some context ig: Frankenstein is a book about a self induced lonely dropout who makes a big sexy man,, UHHHH Jekyll and hyde is about a crazy daddy dilf doctor who is tired of having an awesome life ig and turns himself into an uglier shorter version of himself <333 Hope this helps!!!!

[foxymoxynoona]

foxy.... i'm absolutely SICK to my stomach. the last chapter of MM.... i'm going to commit a capital crime. jungkook you immature little shit!!!! when sasha leaves you again because she gets tired of your shit, i won't defend you!!! he's absolutely punishing her for breaking up with him and i don't think this is going to end up okay like, it's really doing to blow up on his face and it will actually be his fault. i still think jimin and tae should've just told him straight up what they thought but i don't think he would've taken it seriously. for me, jungkook is the type of person that doesn't like to hear he's wrong. no one likes that but he's stubborn to the point that he can't see reason because it doesn't fit his narrative. i absolute hated him when he asked if she had seen dr. kim like boy ?????!!!!!! sasha might be emotionally stunt and closed off but she's way more mature than you and can be a reasonable person 😭

this time he fucked up and she was 100% right in asking him to choose another artist and the fact that his "friend" called her a bitch and he didn't care ???? i would hang him from a very tall building and watch him fall

sasha, my little snowstorm, i hope it will get better some time soon for her 😭 all my baby does is suffer because of the choices of men and i need to see my girl happy. yeah, she broke up with him but not because she didn't love him or because he did something but it was because of her own trauma. she really is a survivor but how much can she take? and she sounded so defeated on the voicemail and the call, "yeah, do whatever you want because if you don't get your way, i'm gonna lose you and you're going to resent me otherwise."

how much angst are we getting in the next few chapters? cause i know that naoko took a picture and she's absolutely going to do something petty and mean with it and i need to get emotionally ready for the fallout because i know sasha is going to blame herself somehow and jungkook, if he continues to ask like this, is just going to be watching around like it's not that big of a deal and do something what will hurt sasha. again.

anyway, even if it doesn't seem like it, i absolutely adored the new chapter. the story is so realistic when it comes to characterisation and relationships. like, it really feels like i'm reading about two real people. thank you for sharing your writing with us. have a good day or night 🩷

The "did you talk to your therapist about this" is one that haunts meeee when I've been asked that in real life. Isn't it funny how something that could be intended as an innocent question can actually cut so damn deep 😭

There are so many layers at play here, it's really fun for me seeing which things people dig into as the part that makes it "that bad" for them. Everyone is very mad about him not reacting to Sasha getting called a bitch though that seems pretty unanimous 🤣

The reaction to it all is soooo fun, I'm glad you enjoyed it even if it made you rage!

[alfred-e-neuman]

Thoughts on Picard S3E9 Vox **Spoilers**

I want to begin by saying the fan-service in this episode was MUCH appreciated by someone who has been watching TNG since they were 5. Many feels were had and I love love LOVE seeing my crew back together again. 

However... I’m not too impressed with where this season went. They played this card in Season 1 AND 2. The Changeling angle was great. It was new, it was unique, and it was leading to what I thought was going to be Star Trek’s own Secret Invasion story. Who is real? Who isn’t? How far and how low does it go? How far back does it go? Was Section 31 aware, are there time traveling agents fighting some historic characters that turned out to be Changling........

No, it was the Borg. Again. For the third time. Sigh. 

Because there is only one bad guy and one enemy of Picard that a whole motion picture and now three whole seasons of Star Trek was needed to showcase the internal struggles of once and infamous Locutus. 

The child in me is so so soooo happy he gets to see everyone on screen again. Having that ability to throw humor in unexpected places. The memories, the nostalgia, it’s so good to see everyone on screen again. 

Adult me is tired that the Borg seem to be the only card in the deck of these show runners. I was so hyped and was so sure that a Star Trek: Secret Invasion story was going to kickstart a new Next Next Generation with combination Kirk/Picard Jack, the genius of the LaForge sisters, maybe Alexander comes into it, who knows. No one, because it’s the Borg. Again. With steaks so god damn high they have one episode to resolve it and it’s going to be rushed and fixed in 3/4ths of the episode length so they can spend the last quarter pumping nostalgia into our hearts as the crew truly, for-realsies, signs off and parts ways. 

I hope something truly spectacular happens in the final episode that changes my perspective on all of this. Otherwise they used nostalgia to hype all of us up for a subpar story conclusion and it feels really dirty.

I now fear that Star Trek as a franchise has gained a big enough audience revenue that it’s going to be turned into the garbage most of Star Wars has become and all of Marvel and DC have become. I wanted Star Trek back so bad, but not like this. They’ve announced the cancellation of Discovery, and this is the end of Picard. Lower Decks, Prodigy, and Strange New Worlds are currently running with Starfleet Academy and a Section 31 show in the works, plus more, maybe?? This is a lot of money for a heavily CGI-ed franchise, I feel the stories of the shows might suffer from it, or studios do what studios do and start prematurely canning shows that aren’t making money. Because--ironically--that’s what it ultimately comes down to. (Irony because of the capitalism being had over a pretty socialist show haha... sigh)

Prove me wrong Star Trek. I wanna be wrong so bad.