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Adam sat on the edge of her bed, his wings folding close as he exhaled deeply. āKari,ā he began softly, his voice uncharacteristically tender, āI get it. You want to help. Youāve got this crazy, burning need to fix everything, to save everyone. Itās a good thingāit really isābut youāre just one kid. One stubborn, scrappy, badass, loud-mouthed kid with more heart than sense.ā
He reached out, resting a hand gently on her shoulder. āBut hereās the thing: you canāt help anyone if youāre dead. Pushing yourself too hard, running straight into the fire without thinking, itās just gonna get you killed. And then? No one benefits. Not Moxxie, not me, not the people you want to save.ā
Adamās tone shifted slightly, a tinge of regret slipping through. āAs for Moxxieā¦ Look, I liked the guy. For a shitty little Imp, he wasnāt half bad. Got a good head on his shoulders, even if itās a little big for his body.ā He smirked faintly, though it didnāt reach his eyes. āI hope heās dead.ā He held up a hand before she could protest. āAnd I mean dead dead, not shambling-around-like-one-of-those-zombies dead. No one deserves to go out like that. Least of all him.ā
Adam leaned back, looking at her seriously. āYou did what you could. Youāre still doing what you can. But sometimes, helping doesnāt mean running into the fray right now. Sometimes it means sitting still, fortifying your spot, and living to fight another day. Youāve got a good head, Kari. Use it. Weāll find Moxxie if we can, but right now, youāve gotta focus on staying alive and sane.ā
He gave her shoulder a light squeeze. āThatās not giving up. Thatās strategy.ā
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ļ½”ļ¾.ļ½”ā§ some tricks. .
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* always prepare if your gonna eat heaver mealsā ex. i have Bloom before to help with bloating and digestion, and about an hour after i eat or whenever i get home i have a straight ACV shot. sometimes i will have ginger too, just depends (i use the ready-to-use paste, about as much as the length of my finger). lastly, i usually always have a cup of lax tea (x2-3 packets) before bed as a natural laxative and digestion aid. if i decide to fast after that consecutive day, i will normally continue this for 1-2 days. limiting the effects of eating like this might be a small thing, but with consistency it works.
* gradually drink full glasses of water before eating (within the span of about 30-45 minutes so you donāt get sick) or, have āsipsā of water between bites. in my experience, this makes what little food i actually do eat pass quicker (depending of what i eat ofc, which is not usually junk).
* using small plates/bowlsā take time to prep your meals. spread out and separate what you are having to cover the whole plate and AGAIN, make a little seem like a lot. ofc sometimes eating from bigger dishware is unavoidable, ex. some holiday like Thanksgiving. if that happens, try to fill your plate with primarily vegetables. however still in this case, do your best to never finish whatās on your plate.
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* cut your food into smaller pieces; make a little seem like a lot then, limit furtherā ex. cutting a plain burger patty in 1/2, and one of those halfās into small pieces while leavening that other half alone on the plate. remember, less is always better<3
* enjoy your meal but donāt finish before othersā chew your food slowly and thoroughly. match pace with who your around; trick them into thinking that your eating as much. do not make it obvious; engage in the conversation more to help as a distraction.
* illusion; you have to make it seem as if your actually eatingā start leaving wrappers around the house, eat (throw away) some leftover meals and dirty a plate, etc. . . saying you ate at work or school will not work forever. u need to make them actually see evidence of food. plan your meals so when you do eat, they see. trust me<3
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* focus on clean eating and gut healthā limiting sugar, dairy, and carbs; thatās as simple as it gets. (what keeps me from eating that bad shit is my fear of acne; yes, ofc weight gain and bloating too, but acne actually visibly shows on your skin and who genuinely wants to see that). ALSO, keep in mind that the more healthy you eat, the better it will actually taste. trust me<3
* choose quality if bingingā hereās the thing; we all are gonna have binge and meta days, and wether you b/p or not, your still eating calories. itās inevitable. nonetheless, whatās important is that you to pay attention to what you put into your body. in other words, binge on diet foods, dairy free options and overall lower caloric content. like if you want pizza, maybe choose cauliflower crust rather than regular. bread is super high in carbs and same for calories (iām sure thatās obvious), but my point is that at least youād be able to cut back some of the calories youāre consuming rather than eating say double or triple what the original product is. itās a small difference, but it helps.
* adding 100% lemon/ lime juice to waterā it helps curb hunger, speed up your metabolism, and reduce bloating (i bring a water bottle of this to work so i donāt eat on my lunches).
* tea and coffeeā literally the best, but really try to cut/limit out the sweetener and additives (sugar is sugar, despite it being 0 cal, and u honestly really donāt need it; get the sugar you need from fruit) and, the bad taste of black coffee may deter you from eating.
* bone broth/ vegetable stockā soooo good for you, extremely low cal, and is a wonderful way to get a bit of energy without actually eating. itās a healthy liquid that has nutrients BUT it is bland, so on occasion iāll add a tablespoon of salsa (might sound strange but itās actually reallyyy fucking good).
* diets drinksā i personally try to limit myself because of ānonexistentā sugar (again, even if it says 0). however, caffeine is caffeine and it helps you seem full; go crazy on it because they will become your best friend.
* juiceā most juice brands add sugar anyways (even the all natural ones) and if they donāt, still get in the habit of cutting that shit out of your diet. you honestly donāt need it. ofc if you do crave juice, have something on a meta day or spoil yourself with a yet low cal option (like an Sparkling Ice [5cal]). even better, make a smoothie; the best thing is actually knowing what you put into your body.
* honeyā itās very good for you, but it is HIGH in sugar. hear me out: as little as iāve had it throughout my life, whether itās in tea, baklava, graham crackers, or whatever else (like it doesnāt even matter how much or what i consume) iāve found that honey WILL break me out without question. so, while itās good for you, i do everything to avoid it because i usually get the sugar i want/ need from fruit. ofc there are those few people that can literally eat itā practically drinkā as much as they want, so donāt be scared of it because it is sugar. remember, it still is a 100% natural source of sweetener. this is what just works for me, that being cutting it out from my diet completely.
* chia seedsā they are an excellent source of fiber (when i have them, its when i need a pick-me-up; like rather than breaking my fast completely by having solid foods, iāll always have less that a tbsp with a glass of water instead). just keep in mind calorie content.
* chili peppers/ hot sauce & seasoningsā a really good way to help boost your metabolism and limit what you eat; if spice makes you uncomfortable, try to start slowly and build a tolerance (i like to pickle/ jar the chili peppers i get and i usually just add few to my meals, or, i use the alternative: hot sauce).
* gumā itās a staple, but try to lean towards the sugar free option. (i like fruit flavors most; i just canāt chew the others on an empty stomach easily. sometimes i treat a piece as if itās a meal and that typically it works for me. it really honestly makes me just drink more water, which is obviously an added bonus).
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* fastingā be mindful that metabolic adaptation can occur in as little as two weeks so donāt overdo; the goal is to continuously lose weight. but again, if u do break a fast, itās okay. please donāt beat yourself up: just accept it and move on.
* we all know this, but distraction; find ways to keep yourself occupiedā research something interesting, do something you like, or try something new (thereās infinite possibilities, just keep exploring).
* continuous movementā doesnāt matter what, just burn calories (ex. i try my best to walk at least 10k steps everyday at work, even if i decide to workout or not that night. on my days off i try to focus primarily on reps.). mindset: even a little exercise is better than nothing.
* brushing your teethā i was actually skeptical about this one, but it does work (i like to do it all; brush and then floss, mouthwash, and then do whitening strips or whatever when iām really craving something).
* food log/plannerā i know that this is controversial, but i personally like to plan out ahead of time (as in weeks) of what exactly iām going to eat and when/how long iām going to fast, including meta days. i count calories usually that āscheduledā day before i eat so i donāt go over. i mainly just do this to make sure iām getting enough of everything, or at least a taste, so i donāt get horrible cravings and binge really bad. however, do NOT obsess; itās important to treat it as a guideline.
#light as a feather#āļørving#3d f4st#@na motivation#an@rexi@#st4rv1ng#tw restriction#4nor3xia#tw 3d vent#tw skipping meals#3ating d1sorder#āļøve#34t1ng d1s0rd3r#tw ed disorder#4norexla#tw ana rant#miabluee#thin$po#anor3c1a#stāļørve#starv1ng#thinspĆø#i need to be thinner#ed but not ed sheeran#light as a šŖ¶#anamotivation
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I wanna make a tf2 oc so so bad but Iām terrible at drawing people. Got any pointers?
So you wanna learn how to draw humans. Good for you! Drawing humans is complicated as shit and theres a lot that goes into it. I still need to improve in some areas of anatomy, and especially with drawing shit like clothes. There's millions of good guides out there for drawing all these specific aspects, but they're going to vary in complexity, style, etc. So I've instead put together my bullshit guide for drawing humans that can apply to people of any style and skill level!!!!! Welcome to Grey's 3 steps to draw humans.
STEP 1. DRAW BAD.
People get bashed over the head with the advice of "just practice bro." But the realistic thing is that if you're a perfectionist, it'll make it difficult as shit to improve your art if you don't let your art be bad. This doesnt mean, oh draw poorly on purpose. This is more a mindset thing. Embrace the fact that, while your art might not be at the level you'd personally want it to be, it's still worth making. If you enjoy drawing, it shouldn't matter if its "bad." You'll draw tons and tons of "bad" stuff and eventually look back and realize you've gotten better, even subconsciously. But if you can't get over the hurdle of letting stuff you draw be "bad" sometimes, you'll probably be too frustrated to keep going.
STEP 2. Practice drawing blocky shapes BEFORE details.
This is a skill I learned in the two art classes I took, but you can learn it on your own too. Basically humans have a lot of details going on and it can get a little overwhelming trying to capture it all. Work big to small. Focus on overall shapes first. Keep your sketches light and messy, cause itll be easier for you to overcome the hurdle to change something if you don't like it. Gradually build up to drawing the more intricate shapes like fingers, facial features, etc. If you're doing a full render, capturing the overall shapes of lights and shadows is helpful too!
When it comes to drawing your first sketch, try not to get too caught up in those tutorials that make you draw a specific type of sketch with like all the circles and cylinders and straight lines, thats all fine and good but if you're starting out its just kinda confusing and misses the point. Those are tools that'll help out when you want to hone in your ability to draw things in perspective.
STEP 3. Don't draw humans if you don't enjoy it.
Have you tried drawing humans but just don't really like doing it? Then fucking dont baby!!!!! Don't miss out on making things you enjoy just cause these goddamn humans are in the way! Make em a furry, a mech, an object character, a disembodied gangle of nerves floating in the abyss. Hell if you don't like drawing at all, WRITE em instead! Don't feel shackled by this mortal coil! Shed that shit!!!! Draw whatever the fuck makes you happy, and you'll be on the right track.
Hope this helps!
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sometimes people who struggle like to make jokes or find positives about their condition that causes them to struggle so they can escape the constant negative and struggle. sometimes autistic people will say things like "the 'tism" or use the "autism creature" or say their autism helped them have a *positive trait* to feel better about their struggles. because living your life only focusing on the struggles and negatives is depressing and makes it hard to want to live, even if those struggle take up 100% of your life and you can't actually escape them. sometimes any little seemingly positive thing can help a lot.
but there's so many other autistic people that hate when we do that and call it "reducing autism to a cute trendy thing" and say it takes away from *their* struggles and is bad and shouldn't be used. maybe *you* want to only focus on your struggles, but some people can't live in constant negative and need some positive or to find ways to make their condition more positive so they can feel better about living with their struggles. life is hard. I take anything I can get.
I cant get jobs. I can't make and keep friends. I can't get help and support for doing "normal" things so sometimes I go weeks without being able to shower and without eating more than a bowl of cereal a day. most times can't even do things I like. struggle to communicate. have meltdowns. i'll never be able to live independently. I struggle a lot. but instead of sitting here always depressed and having no motivation to live, i'd rather try to joke about "my 'tism is acting up again" when i'm struggling (just an example. don't think I ever actually used the 'tism thing but i saw others use it) or say "i'm just being a creature" when I need to stay in my dark room because everything is too much and I personally find it cute to be a little creature meant in a positive way. i'm not actually downplaying mine or anyone else's struggles. I still acknowledge them and that silly jokes dont make them go away. i'm not trying to be trendy. i'm not doing any of the things people say we do by making silly little jokes. i'm using the silly little jokes to convince myself life can be a little more than pointless, painful garbage all the time.
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#dont know why continuing in tags but here is more#sometimes we need to ask āwhyā and not just get mad about how we feel personally. because other people feel differently#yes im guilty of only thinking my feelings and situation and how it relates too and forgetting other peoples. i also need to learn#and everyone's feelings should be valid. just because something might āhurtā you it might be important for someone else#everyones feelings are valid. but we cant protect everyones feeling. so idk the solution#but stopping someone from having a small positive among a sea of nevgative seems a little mean to me#youre not being empathetic to their side. and i can turn it around and be not empathetic to your side and say stop being upset#and get over it and let people have fun. but i wont. i hear you. but at the same time maybe hear us too.#not everyone wants to live only negatively. youre allowed to but dont expect others to.#and yes i GET IT these things can make the allistics and neurotypicals be even worse towards us. but what do we do?#throw out any positivity we can find and grovel in our struggles because the allistics wont take us seriously?#DO THEY TAKE US SERIOUSLY WITHOUT THOSE SILLY TRENDY THINGS? NO! THEY NEVER HAVE#like i said i dont know the solution and everything still be used against us by those people anyway so might as well have fun?#if we focus on struggles they baby us and dont let us do things and block us from living life#if we focus on positive they dismiss our struggles and try to make us do what we cant and dont help us#we cant win! so its not āthe 'tismā or whatever other things people made up that cause them to act this way#they already act that way and wont stop unless we figure out how to teach them! but i dont know how! im just a useless little creature#this is probably controversial and someone will get because i dont agree with their perspective despite respecting it#someome will comment to lecture me even though i get it. i do. but two things can exist at the same time!! idk what to tell you!#autistic#autism#actually autistic#lee rambles#words are hard so dont know if i worded it well or not. probably not#also why take away fun things because another group used it for bad? make them stop the bad not stop the good!#i also might be missing more context. i think is about tiktok using these for bad. tiktok is just bad in general and i refuse to use it#why tiktok dictate and ruin our lives now in general? tiktok is really bad š but that another conversation#no one yell at me and say i dismiss struggles of struggling autistics. maybe you dismiss me needing negative thing to have positive?#not in mood for negative response. will probably cry fhhddhsjdjdjkd#today is real struggle day but if i be little creature i feel better
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Phullo it is I again!
I am very glad that you actually responded and given me an actual advice since I was worried about the question I sent you.
Though besides that I have another question for you (hoorayyy)!
So, about the reading books earlier- Iām fortunately a bookworm too! Itās just that I notice I prefer reading the genre science fiction/psychological horror more thanā¦ anything else!
And while the books I am currently reading, āFlowers For Algernonā and āIām Thinking Of Ending Thingsā (these books are seriously so wonderfully made they make want to tear my walls), DO have romantic aspects of it- itās not really the main plot of the story..
āFlowers For Algernonā has amazing storytelling and is very unique- though Iām not sure if youāve read it before but, itās actually just the main character taking notes. Hence why there was a lot misspellings which honestly makes it a great touch if you know the context behind it.
On the other hand, āIām Thinking Of Ending Thingsā too shares the same uniqueness as the other, possibly even more unique if I must say so myself. Though I REALLY donāt want to make my story similar to them since I want to make it more heart warming than fucked up..
Which is why I feel like I have the need to borrow or buy at least one romantic book because, I lack of it. I mean I accidentally borrowed it one time but it was kind of disappointing.
I donāt know if its a good idea and if I should do it or not since does it really matter of the genre, or just the writing?
Still, if you have any good books that are in the romance genre. Feel free to recommend some to me!
-lots of love, from another bookworm
welcome back! happy to hear you're a bookworm as well <3 im writing those titles down since i read a criminal lack of sci-fi despite loving it
i actually don't have any straight up romance recs - i don't actively search it out (outside of fanfic), so any romance i read just comes with whatever book i've picked up. just straight up romance bores me, unless its a fic with a pairing i actively like. and even then, i need to take breaks from it unless the romance is interspersed with an actual plot. im not a romantically-geared person! i dont have single Main Plot Is Romance book on my shelves!
but imo its really just the quality of writing that helps. ive never been in a romance, im the child of two different divorces, and yet ive been told that i write romance fairly well. go fuckin figure lmao.
so actually my advice on romance is to just like. wow idk what i do is pick apart the romances i see on tv / in writing. what makes them good together, how do they act around each other, what are their love languages, what's their dynamic, what traditional romance things do they partake in, what dont they partake in, do they have anything nontraditional, do they work and why do / they dont they - does that make their relationship more interesting or is it flat. are they a good match.
you don't have to have every answer, but ive found that at least understanding their characters / dynamics, and having them interact in a way that suits them will help your romance feel natural. dont conform to tropes or tradition, that will just make the relationship flat and unrealistic. and you can always sprinkle in little things that you like / would like, which will help ground the romance and get you into the groove
tldr with romance, i think it's better to observe real life (whether that's paying attention to couples or reading reddit threads) & analyze in-love or in-a-relationship characters instead of just reading romance novels. bc honestly, and from what i can tell, they can tend to be over the top or cookie cutter
just realized you did not explicitly ask for romance advice! Oopsie! i got a little carried away here....
#another thing i like to do is analyze bad fictional relationships / ones i dont like#both bc it gives me a concise argument / explanation if someone gets on me about it#and bc it helps me understand what makes good romances Good#bc bad relationships make me sit there and ask 'well. what went wrong here? why dont they work? why do i hate this? whats Missing?'#and filling in those gaps teaches me what Does work. what will go Right. why i Love it. what Is there.#sometimes the answer is simply bad writing & after taking a deeper look#i can conclude they they Are good for each other - the show/book just shoved them together with no reason other than#'need romance' or 'boy meet girl' or 'love at first sight'#i mean there are some romances that i look at it and im like 'wow! this should not be happening!'#but i Like it because its interesting enough! a good example is aline & the darkling from the grishaverse#such a fucking unhealthy relationship. really well written. fascinating. hot as hell. important for the story/characters.#i wanted to rip them apart but also glue them together to see how horrible the train crash would be!!!!#absolutely unprompted#so i mean... i think i can rec books that Have good romances in them? but thats not the focus by any means#lemme know... i know im less helpful this time around but i hope im helping a little!#feel free to ask as many questions as you like - ill do my best with all of them
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gonna keep it shmoovin man
#just me hi#i have a piece i was working on last night that i realized after i didn't have my computer could actually be Much more accurate to my ideaa#but that means i gotta scrap some stuff. sigh į“.į“#also i couldn't get around to readin my thing yesterday cuz my focus was shot for some reason lmao <//3#i would open the thing and then just start. driiiifting away kfshvg#//anyway idk what happened but why have i started to miss Gs at the end of my words Lmfhvaf#i already do that in real life we don't needa do that here too kfshvh#'asz wu' 'm sayin man !!' <- my engrish :3#i do like it though i think it's fun :> but my typingggg not you too kfsvhg#//anywho i've got a $1.75 thing i'm workin on :D#it's gonna hopefully be the third part to those last two i did for that thing#which goes adoration -> devotion -> guess hfh :3#i'm normal abt these guys. [places them in a lunchbox and throws it into the river to watch the bubbles] yea :)#//anyway Wednesday#not the best of the week days i will not lie#like you're stuck between the beginning and the end and it's just got that undecided feeling to it ykno what i mean pfshv#//also LMAO i've been calling feet/foot 'peets/poot' bc i think it's goofy and i don't like the F sound#and i got leo into saying it and he was talkin to somebody and had to explain what it was Lmfhjshfg#my infec- influence is spreading. influence. that's what i said#my woerds: peet. poot. tomach. shnoze. ham. heed. fingaa. ect ect#//ouhhh my collarbone keeps making these snappy noises when i pull my shoulders back#it's only occasional but holy shizz it's loud sometimes. like 'when we're in church i think you can hear it 4 pews back' loud khgsfjhfvjg#//ANYWAY i was mentioning wednesday earlier cuz it's not the best of days on the week (we know this) but i wanna go skating </3#'why isn't wednesday good for that' because it's the middle of the week. [gesturing]#i can't explain it but things need to happen on- Oo i like this songgggkkggg- either weekends or the other 4 days of the weekday#wednesday is for appointments you really don't want. i'm sorry but it's a filler day <//3#which means no happenings on a wednesday. it's illegal. that's right. Illegal#even thursday is iffy man. tuesday? tuesday is your last-chance stop. perhaps i do have thoughts about silly things Kfhvsjhgsf#nobody tell leo he's tryna get me for having a weird brain. the sentence is 5000 years of i-told-you š Lmaooo#//OKAY i think i'm outta tags tho lemme say ciao here loll :3 toodles tooooodles !!! <3
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having a lot of thoughts about how people use 'normalize' when they mean 'destigmatize' or 'make the nature of into common knowledge,' and how they conflate 'the perception of this thing as normal' with the thing actually being a normal occurrence, and how it is in fact incredibly harmful to try to convince people that an ideal situation is normal when that does not map onto their lived reality or the dangers they need to be aware of to avoid. it is 3:33am though so writing up an actual poast about it will have to wait for later
#whosebaby talks#this post brought to you by 'spreading awareness of what an abusive relationship is and looks like compared to a nonabusive relationship'#'is fantastic and i support it fully and think it's deeply important. giving people the false idea that abusive relationships are uncommon'#'and are flukes that go against the grain of society functioning as it normally does; is insanely dangerous to people who are potential#targets; and incredibly alienating and isolating and cruel to people who have already been targets'#'in uniquely awful ways depending on whether they're already aware of that or aren't. don't fucking do that'#it applies much more broadly than that; but it's an instance i think about A Lot and it's what led me to this line of thought to start with#there's also 'normal does not mean good and saying so has incredibly unbelievably harmful implications keep that shit out of your mouth'#but that is so obvious it boggles my mind that it has to be explained to anyone on this site; and it is talked about often enough#that i would rather focus on the parts i don't really see talked about much; if at all#also like the fact that 'statistically average' normal vs 'things are functioning as they usually do' is a critically important distinction#they are closely related and interplay heavily with each other but they are Not the Same Thing#and how 'normal' can refer to different layers and aspects of a subject--people with rare health conditions are not statistically average#and that by itself is fine. and those people having conditions that are disruptive to the usual functioning of a space or system#is avoidable in some cases by establishing as much infrastructure as possible to integrate their more common needs smoothly#and unavoidable in others; which means the normal functioning of a system/space that accommodates people with unexpected needs#has to account *for its normal functioning being disrupted sometimes*#and bend around that disruption without either breaking down or rolling right over the disabled people who Cause Problems#and at the same time 'rare health condition' gets applied to health conditions that are not rare *at all* to not only justify not bothering#to make the system integrate their needs in general when it could do so easily; but make it so that accommodating their needs anyway puts#immense and unnecessary strain on the system; so there is zero margin for anything you didn't specifically fight tooth and nail for already#anyway it's a really extensive subject and a fascinating one. for later. sleep now#abuse cw#ableism cw#the salt files#is there a name for that tag
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Miss maāam, hi hello how are you?
I am presenting myself here, very very humbly to ask if we could please get another part of your Nerd Nanami fic?š„¹š„¹ please please puhleaseeeeeeeee
That was an actual masterpiece, I had to read it very slowly and savour it, making sure to process every single sentence of that fic. Youāre so talented it makes me cry
Please offer us more Nanami, pleaseeeeeee
Giving the nerd a chanceā¦ part two
Tags: nerd!Nanami x fem!Reader, college au, smut with plot, nsfw, cunnilingus, unprotected sex, size kink, breeding kink, dom!nanami, sub!reader, marathon sex, exhibitionism if you squint real hard, mdni
Synopsis: Your nerdy boyfriend is so prim and proper in real life, but he has big dick energy over text.
An: 4K Follower Special! I got over 20 requests for a part two of this fic. At this time, it is my best performing fic on tumblr, and I fearā¦ I may have peaked with it. I never EVER intended on writing a second part because I was sure that I couldnāt ever follow that fic up with something as good, but this sweet anon request warmed my heart so much that I decided to give the people what theyāre asking for. This oneās going to be a long oneā¦ pace yourself because there will NOT be a third partā¦ right?
Nanamiās a stoic lover. He doesnāt keep you hidden, but he doesnāt outwardly drag attention towards your relationship. Too much attention meant drama, and Nanami hates drama.
Nanami asked you to be his girlfriend a few weeks after the first time you two slept together. Of course, everyone in his friend group saw it coming long before you two had even hooked up.
They saw the longing gazes between you two when you pined for each other. They saw the cheeky glances once you two finally started texting. They noticed how their dear friend smiled more ā was more laid back and relaxed.
Everyone welcomed you into their small found family with open arms. They simply couldnāt have picked anyone better to balance out Nanamiās far too strict nature.
Things with Nanami were absolutely a dream. You two had great chemistry emotionally and physically. Of course, he just made things so easy for you.
While he is a stoic lover, you never ever feel unloved by him. Heās always there to reassure you with words of affirmation or small touches that just remind you that heās there.
Like when you two are at one of Satoruās āexclusiveā gatherings, if youāre not in Nanamiās lap, then heās got his hand on you somewhere. Sometimes he gets so bored during those little get togethers that he spends his time leisurely pressing kisses into your cheek and neck. He never quite understood Satoruās and Suguruās affinity with public displays of affection until he met you.
Or there's those times when you need a little extra help with your studies. Kento is right behind you, with you on his lap, his cock is snuggly being squeezed by your warm leaking cunt. He presses small chaste kisses against your temple and ear while you try your hardest to focus on the homework.
"Do you remember this one, sweetheart? We went over it in class yesterday... Aw, don't go all stupid on me now."
When you get an answer right, he'll reward you with small, shallow thrusts, but you have to finish the whole assignment to get him to really fuck you.
Or if you two are walking together in the halls, Nanami holds his arm out for you, letting you latch onto him so he can guide you two through the crowd of people. He knows how you are in crowded areas, so he's keen on not letting anyone get too close to you.
Nanamiās a true gentleman too. His parents made sure they raised nothing less than a perfect man. Youāve never had to touch a door handle, any of your own money, or bags when you two go shopping. Nanami handles all of that for you. He doesnāt let you walk on the outside when you two are on the sidewalk. Heās respectful of you and your time, and he always listens to everything you have to say with his full attention because you deserve nothing less.
Nanamiās parents truly did their best work with him, and speaking of his parents, Nanamiās the type that wants to take you back home to meet them.
It was nearly fall break as you were sitting in your experimental research class ā your final class before youāre free from the hell hole of academics for a full week.
You glance down at your phone as it buzzes in your lap. You and Nanami had been planning a trip out to his familyās home in Hakone for a little bit now, and the closer that time gets to you two leaving, the more stressed out Nanami feels.
Nanami: Weāll probably leave out early tomorrow morning and catch the first train. Will you be okay with that?
Yn: Mhm. That sounds fine, Ken.
Nanami: After class, I need to inform you a little bit more about my parentsā¦ I just donāt want you to feel shocked or surprised when you meet them.
Yn: Iām not sure why Iād be shocked or surprised, but Iām excited to hear more.
Nanami: Donāt get too excited.
You stare at his message for a bit, pondering what he couldāve meant by that. He hadnāt ever spoke poorly of his parents, but he didnāt necessarily praise them either. Actuallyā¦ he never spoke of them.
*** *** ***
For the rest of the class, you wondered just what you were getting yourself into by going and meeting them. Maybe you two were moving too fast or..
āSweetheart.ā His steady voice broke your trance. Heās crouched down next to your desk to be eye-level with you, and the palms of his hand is gently caressing your cheek. āThere you are. Spaced out on me.ā
The entire classroom is empty. Class mustāve ended a minute ago because not even the professor is in the room now. You mustāve been deep in your own head.
You let force out an awkward laugh before nuzzling your cheek further into his palm, seeking out his affections as comfort from the insecure thoughts that somehow always manage to find a way in.
āI was just.. thinkinā about your parents is all..ā You finally give him some sort of explanation, and Nanami softens a bit.
āItās just a weekend, my love. Then, Iāll make it up to you.ā His words are a promise. You know for a fact Nanami doesnāt say things that he doesnāt mean.
āI think that was the part where you were supposed to reassure me that theyāll like me-ā
Nanami pulls you forward and presses a soft kiss to your forehead. āIt doesnāt matter. Iāll still love you regardless.ā
Gods, his words are so sweet, but they cut deep like daggers.
āTheyāreā¦ not going to like me..?ā You mumble in a tone that makes Nanamiās heart sink. He takes your hands into his as he gets on his knee to better talk to you while youāre seated.
āMy parents areā¦ very traditional.ā He carefully explains, and his hazel eyes search yours for a reaction before he reluctantly continues. āThey want me to marry a girl from a specific family-ā
āAn arranged marriage!?ā You blurt out ā unable to control your emotions as it feels like your heart is trying to force its way up your throat.
āSomething like that - but not exactly. Itās not arranged, but itās definitely heavily pushed.ā He tries to keep his tone steady, but seeing you so upset like this has him feeling raw with emotion as well.
āSo, no, they will not be happy to know that Iām going against their wishes, but theyāll come around eventually.ā His eyes focus on yours, and he gently tucks a strand of hair behind your ear.
āā¦ and if they donāt?ā A small sniffle escapes you before you can stop it. The thought of Nanami being with anyone else has your head spinning. Thereās another girl out there who might be expecting for him to take her hand in marriage.
āHey... look at me.ā He coaxes softly as his hand guides your face to look him in the eyes. āI couldnāt give less of a fuck. Iām doing this as a courtesy for them ā not because I need their approval.ā
Chills shoot up your spine from his words. Nanami rarely cusses, but when he does, itās enough to even make Satoru blush when he hears it.
Your worry instantly flees your body when Nanamiās lips press against yours to seal the deal. This was just a visit to his parents. Nothing more. Nothing less.
āIām still gonna love youā¦ā He mumbles his words against your lips before seeking out more of your honeyed kisses. āā¦still gonna marry you one dayā¦ā His deep voice groans a little as he gently suckles on your bottom lip. āā¦still gonna fuck you senseless every night.ā
āKen..ā A breathy whine; a whimper; a plea.
āBecause you need it every night, donāt you?ā His lips are still chasing yours with an insatiable hunger. It just wasnāt enough. If the next class wasnāt coming in the next 10 minutes, heād take you right here on your desk, but he doesnāt fancy the idea of anyone elseās eyes accidentally falling upon your ethereal body.
āMhmā¦ need it.ā You murmur against his lips quietly in agreement.
Nanami suddenly pulls away, and he reaches out, wrapping his hand around your wrist. āCome on before I fuck you right here.ā He threatens and picks your bag up off the floor for you.
*** *** ***
A gasp flees you as Nanami pushes your back against his bed. His lips are immediately assaulting your neck: suckling soft red marks into your skin and nipping at you gently.
He loves to see the aftermath of his love on you, but he has to be careful this time. Canāt have you going to meet his parents with hickeys all over your neck, can you?
āMmm~ What about Haibara?ā You ask now before you find yourself too hypnotized by his affections.
āHe has a class right now.ā Nanami answers before his hand trails up your thighs towards your already damp panties. He has had this on his mind all day since he saw you in that cute little skirt youāre wearing.
āAlready so wet.ā He groans into your neck before biting at your shoulder. The pads of his fingers tease your sensitive clit through the cloth of your cotton panties. āFuck. Youāre so good to me.ā
Nanami drops to his knees on the edge of the bed, and his strong arms pull you by your legs to where youāre situated at the edge for him to eat you out to his heartās desire.
He doesnāt even remove your panties before he leans in and presses a sloppy kiss to your cunt. He can already taste you through the fabric, and he needs more.
His fingers hook in the waistband of your panties, and he tugs them down your legs, carefully placing them on his bedside table. If he can swing it, heāll definitely hide them from you and claim that you lose them ā just so he can keep them for when youāre not around.
Heās not a pervert!! Wellā¦ he loves jerking off into his girlfriendās panties when heās too needy at nightā¦ Feeling the wet fabric that was pressed so unceremoniously against your heavenly cunt is more than enough to get him off quickly. It would be ungentlemanly to wake you up at your dorm for such a scandalous adventure. At least he washes and returns them to you promptly after using them a couple of times.
As soon as your panties are safely discarded, Nanami has his face right back between your legs. He uses his hands to prop your legs up on his shoulder, and he just.. absolutely begins to devour you.
āNgh.. oh fuckā wait Ken.. I wan..ā You can barely get your words out right while his tongue is lapping at your slippery folds.
āDidnāt anyone ever teach you not to interrupt someone during a meal?ā His hazel eyes look up at you with such a serious look ā you feel like youāre being scolded.
Your face flushes a bright red before you relax back into his bed ā accepting your fate. Kento smiles to himself, knowing that it doesnāt take much to pacify you. Youāre too much of a good girl for him.
āMmm~ thatās right. Just lay back and take what I give you, pretty girl.ā He hums in satisfaction as his tongue connects with your cunt once more.
He licks up all the sticky wetness that you so graciously leak for him. Heās so messy with it, practically french kissing with your cunt. Your juices are smeared across his chin from him hopelessly lapping at you. His tongue writes love letters to you against your clit, making your body shiver with pleasure and excitement.
One of your hands is clasping at the sheets, and the other hand is entangled in Kentoās blonde hair, giving him small tugs as he gives you the best head of your life.
Your thighs unconsciously press together, trying to run from the weird sensations that his mouth gives to you. Your boyfriend grunts in dissatisfaction ā not enjoying the sudden disobedience from you.
His hand press against each of your knees, and he forces your legs back open ā spreading you wiiiide open for him.
āYou want me to fuck you, donāt you?ā He asks while looking up at you through his lashes.
āPlease ā please~ā You whine. Your hips involuntarily buck up, trying to get any sort of friction.
āThen be good, and sit still.ā Nanami orders, and his hand ever so carefully swats at your sensitive cunt ā sending shockwaves of electrifying pleasure through your nerve endings.
āām sorry.. ām sorry.. please.ā Youāre so whiny and desperate to be stretching by him. Itās honestly so pathetic that he pities you.
āMy poor sweet girl.ā He chuckles lowly before pressing a more gentle kiss against your clit. His tongue carefully dips into your wet heat. āTastes too sweet for your own good. How am I supposed to stop enjoying you, huh?ā
A glob of spit rolls down your cunt from Nanamiās mouth, and he uses his own two fingers to spread it around, softly toying with your glistening pussy. A smirk curls on his lips as he watches the way your entrance flutters ā so enticed by the potential of being filled by him.
You quietly stifle a squeal as he stuffs you with two of his thick fingers. āSo reactive, baby.ā He murmurs as his tongue darts back out to gently lap and flick at your clit.
āKen.. fuck, fuck-! Mmmph..ā Your hips start to roll against his fingers, trying to force them inside you. Your boyfriend obliges your silent request, and he pushes his fingers in deeper, curling upwards to that spot he knows will make you cry out his nameā¦
āNanami-!ā There it is. His fingers begin to roughly pump in and out, abusing your sensitive g-spot over and over again.
āBetter be a good girl and tell me you love me.ā He mutters lowly into your cunt. He knows he doesnāt have to tell you anymore ā youāre already conditioned to tell him you love him when you cum. Even if heās not the one making you finish, youāll text him a quick āI love youā as you clench around your own fingers to the thought of him.
Your hips roll harder, and your moans are way more throaty ā interrupted by small gasps for air. He can tell that youāre getting close. His mouth gently begins to suckle on the small bundle of nerves, and he focuses his tongue on swirling circles around your clit.
Itās all so much. It feels like Nanami is literally playing you like an instrument. He knows exactly what to do to make you a whiny trembling mess.
His fat fingers are pummeling into you, slamming into your sweet spot ā making overstimulated tears well up in your eyes. āSh-shit.. gonna cum.. Nanamiā¦ ah~ more..ā Youāre babbling utter nonsense while trying to find your orgasm.
Your stomach starts to clench, and it almost feels uncomfortable. Your breath stutters as Nanami murmurs into your pussy. āLet go for me, darling. Let it alllll out.ā He encourages you as if his fingers and tongue arenāt absolutely tag teaming you.
āAh~ Mmphā¦ I.. fuck- I love you-!ā You moan as you finally feel your orgasm suddenly break. Your tight walls clench around Nanamiās fingers, and fluids from your arousal gush out, making a big mess on his face and clothes.
Nanami quietly chuckles as he comes to realization that you just squirted on him. āOh? Thatās how you feel, huh?ā He mocks playfully before pressing one last french kiss against your cunt. āI love you more darling.ā
For a moment, you donāt know if itās more directed towards you or your pussy.
*** *** ***
The early morning train ride was spent with your head cozied into Nanamiās shoulder as he had a protective arm around you. The scenery outside was beautiful. Hakone is known for their breathtaking sights of Mount Fiji. Too bad your eyelids were so heavy from getting up so early.
Nanami takes the silence as a time to reflect. He truly canāt remember a time when he was nervous like this. It was as if that emotion left him when he was a teenage boy. His familyās harsh regime for raising him left no room for shy or nervous behavior. Men were strong, confident, sophisticated. They exuded chivalry in everything they do.
Honestly, heās glad that he was raised the way he was. Every time he bears witness to Gojoās crude behavior, he can only think of how happy he is to have had a strict childhood.
But right now, he wishes he wasnāt so nervous. His heart is pounding in his chest, and heās silently praying that you canāt hear it. Even though he didnāt care what his parents thought of you, he didnāt fancy the idea of seeing you torn down by his parents. Hopefully, theyāll have enough class to take up the issues with him ā not you.
*** *** ***
Nanamiās parentās house had a very traditional vibe to it, and it was easily twice as big as the house you grew up in. It was beautifully decorated, and the lawn was obviously meticulously cared for. It makes sense that Nanami grew up here.
āJust one weekend. Then, weāll be back to normal.ā Nanami murmurs softly into your ear. Though, he doesnāt know if heās reassuring you or himself at this point. He takes a deep breath before knocking on the door with a heavy fist.
āOh, Kennn.ā His mother immediately ran up to Nanami and gave him a big hug after answering the door, which he returned back to her.
āItās good to see you, mom.ā He responds heartily before he holds out his hand to his dad.
āLook at you. Our son has grown up on us.ā His dad gives a sweet smile while gently nudging his mom with his elbow.
āDonāt remind me!ā His mom practically wails with her arms still wrapped around Nanami, and youāre awkwardly on standby.
Nanami finally puts his hands on his momās shoulders, and he forces her to take a step back. āIt hasnāt even been that long since you two saw me, and besides, I brought someone for you two to meet.ā
His arm carefully wraps back around your waist, and he looks at his parents before collecting himself briefly. āThis is my girlfriend, Yn. Yn, these are my parents.ā
His momās smile falters almost unnoticeably, but you immediately pick up on her dissatisfaction. His dad seems to just he surprised.
āAh, yes, welcome to our home, yn.ā His dad finally says with an earnest smile, and he subtly nudges his wife. Itās definitely a silent reminder for her to stop looking at you like youāre an intruder.
āYour home is lovely, Mr. and Mrs. Nanami. Itās nice to meet you two.ā You try your best to not sound nervous at all, but his momās face just makes your stomach turn.
His parents guide you through their home, but they mostly focus their attention on Nanami: asking him about his studies, asking how Gojoās doing, and asking if heās contacted some girl namedā¦ Allegra. You couldnāt help but wonder if that was the girl who they wanted him to marry instead.
They didnāt ask you very many questions. His dad was friendly, but it seemed like he was tip toeing around all the awkward tension. His mom was just flat out ignoring your presence ā clearly in denial about her son having a girlfriend who wasnāt this mysterious Allegra girl.
When it came time for dinner, his dad finally broke the awkward tension and asked about you.
āSo yn, you go to the same college as Kento?ā His dad seems to be genuinely sweet ā just more on the passive shy side.
āYeah, Ken and I actually share quite a few classes together.ā You smile as your utensil grazes along the food they prepared. It smells delicious, but your nerves will barely allow you to nibble on it.
āWhat are you studying?ā
āOh, Iām in general studies for now. Iām still deciding on what to major in.ā You reply as you finally feel yourself beginning to relax in your chair.
āDid you tell your friend that Allegra is studying to become a doctor? Wouldnāt that be nice to have in the family?ā His mom finally speaks up, only addressing Nanami and not you.
Your stomach sinks as you realize why Nanami was so apologetic and reassuring this entire time. He knew his mom was just going to take subtle digs at you the entire time.
āOne, sheās my girlfriend ā not friend. Two, no, I have no reason to speak about Allegra with my girlfriend.ā Nanami responds, and he gives his mom a subtle look. It appears they have a brief challenging moment before his mom looks away and relents.
Nanamiās foot gently nudges yours underneath the table, and you try to give him a small smile in response. Itās just hard when clearly youāre not wanted in this household.
The dinner goes silent for a moment, and the dining area fills with the sounds of chopsticks gently touching against plates. You subtly check your phone for an escape.
Nanami: Donāt pay her any mind, okay?
Nanami: I promise Iāll make up for this tonight. Iāll kiss you for every rude thing she says.
Yn: and for every time she says Allegra?
Nanami: Iāll fuck you until you canāt remember her nameā¦ make you so dumb until you can only remember my name. Thatās all you need to know anyways.
Yeah, thatāll do it. The negative emotions are gone ā replaced by a feral need for his cock. You take a subtle breath before putting your phone away, not wanting anyone to accidentally see him dirty talking you right in front of his parents.
āAh, do you think you can help me out with the car tomorrow, Kento? Your old man is getting too old and worn out to crawl underneath there.ā His dad finally breaks the silence once more.
āOf course, dad. What are you needing done on it? Iāll probably wake up early and get it done before day breaks.ā Your boyfriend is such a good son. Itās no wonder that his mom is stupid protective over him.
āI just need to breaks changed on it. Itās probably due for an oil change too.ā His dad explains, and Nanami assures him that heāll get it done.
āI didnāt know you knew much about cars.ā You take the chance of speaking up, and Nanamiās hazel eyes meet yours. His face instantly softens, and his mouth opens to speak. Too bad his mom beats him too it.
āOf course, he does. He needs to know all sorts of things like that in case his future wife needs her car repaired.ā His mom says with a hint of hostility in her tone. āSpeaking of which, Allegra just bought a new car a few months ago.ā
You sit in silence for a moment, and you feel your stomach twisting in discomfort. You donāt know why you care so much for this womanās opinion of you. Nanami already warned you that they likely wouldnāt approve of you, but you didnāt know you signed up to practically be bullied all weekend.
āI know a few basic things about cars. Nothing major.ā Nanami responds to you ā ignoring his motherās comments. āI can show you too if youāre interested.ā
A small smile curls on your lips, and you swallow back your emotionsā trying to stay strong for him. āThatād be nice.ā
āYou definitely have aā¦.ā
āMom.ā Nanami immediately warns, staring down his mother before she can even finish her sentence.
āWhat? I wasnāt going to say anything mean.ā Sheās immediately on the defensive, casually laughing as if sheās been nothing but friendly this entire time. āI was just going to say that your friend certainly has a bold personalityā¦ wearing red to meet someoneās parents is definitelyā¦ a choice.ā
Your eyes look down at the nice blouse youāre wearing, and you swallow harshly. Nanami was actually the one to pick it out for you. He reassured you this morning that you looked gorgeous ā unknowingly signing you up to be bullied.
Your face is burning hot with embarrassment, and you wish you could just fold in on yourself and die right on the spot.
āDonāt talk about my girlfriend like that.ā Nanami frowns, and he puts his chopsticks down on his plate. āIām serious. Being a bully at your age is unbecoming to you as a mother.ā
āKento.ā His dad warns, but Nanami doesnāt relent for a second.
āNo. Iām not going to sit here and allow her to continue disrespecting my girlfriend like that.ā Your boyfriend retorts, and he switches back to glaring at his mother. āIām not dating Allegra ā nor do I want to. Iām doing you a favor by introducing you to yn. I figured youād like to know your future daughter in law.ā He gestures to you,
The color leaves his momās face as she stares back at her son ā as if him implying that he is going to marry you is the worst news sheās ever heard. Her eyes cut over towards you in a vicious glare. āHow long have you even known my son?ā
Your heart is beating straight through your chest. Confrontation isnāt your strong suit, and to be honest, his mother was terrifying even though sheās literally shorter than you are.
āW-well, we met in college soā¦ā You inwardly curse for stumbling over your words, and Nanami frowns as he looks at you. He hates that his parents are making you so unsure of yourself and your role in his life. He wants to take all your insecurities away and make you forget this ever even happened.
āItās not even been that long! You donāt even have history with this girl. Allegra was your first kiss.. your first everything!ā His mother raises her voice at Nanami, making exasperating hand motions.
His first everything? He told you that you were his first.
Tears prick into your eyes before you can even think to stop him. Overwhelmed by shame and just utter defeat, you donāt even know what to do other than to hide and cry.
Nanamiās eyes widen as he sees you clearly trying to cover up the tears streaming down your cheeks. His jaw tightens as he returns his gaze to his mother.
āThatās funny. I donāt recall you ever being present for any of those things.ā His mom starts to speak up, but he is quick to shut her back down. āI kissed Allegra because you were breathing down my neck to. I was barely 15 at that time, and it happened once. That was the first and only time I ever even touched her.ā
His mom starts to try to speak up again to probably bring up some other point about why he should be with Allegra. Nanami interrupts her again.
āAllegra and I do not like each other. We hardly tolerated each other for yours and her parentsā sake. You have to get over it. Iām with yn, and Iām happy ā happier than Iāve ever been. She was my first everything. My first real kiss, my first girlfriend, and since you seem to want to stick your nose so far in my business, she was my first in bed too.ā
āKento, youāre being incredibly disrespectful.ā Her voice is much more strict now as she scolds her grown son.
āI wonder where I get it from. It seems as though we both have a propensity for being rude.ā He retorts, and while heās arguing, his hand slides over to your inner thigh under the table, and he gropes it harshly.
Heās so pissed. He doesnāt even know how to get rid of this anger. His hand squeezes your thigh tightly, making your face go bright red as you look away from everyone.
āIām not accepting her into this family. You can forget that. Sheās changed you.ā His motherās words are growing harsher, and his dad is trying to quietly calm her. She doesnāt pay him any mind though.
āFine. Weāll just go make our own family.ā Nanami scoots his chair back, and he stands up. His hand roughly pulls you up as well ā not giving you a chance to even think about what he just said. He bends down and effortlessly throw you over his shoulder, making you gape in surprise. His arm securing you by wrapping around the back of your thighs. āAnd by the way, I chose the red blouse. It matches the cute bra sheās wearing that I also chose for her.ā
His parents stare at him ā both completely dumbfounded by what just happened. They didnāt raise him to be like that, but what were they going to do?? Stop him? Thatās a laughable thought. Youāre not even sure God himself could pull Ken off of you when heās feral like this.
His footsteps are heavy as he stomps up the stairs towards his teenage bedroom. Nothing has changed since he was last in here. Itās still completely sterile from how he was made to clean it each day. The walls are littered with posters of various science related things, and he has some posters of older video games he use to enjoy.
Your body is practically flung onto the bed, and Nanami doesnāt waste a single second. His heart is pounding in his chest. His mind is fogged with pure anger. He hasnāt felt like this in so long. It reminds him of why he took up going to the gym.
With no punching bag in sight, youāre his only outlet.
His body is unwavering on top of yours ā a force to be reckoned with, and his mouth immediately connects with yours in a suffocating kiss. Quiet hums and moans fill the air between you two, and he quite literally steals the breath from your lungs. His fingers wrap around your wrists easily, pinning them above your head on the bed.
No longer satiated from robbing you of your breath, Nanami trails his kisses down to your neck. To hell with not marking you ā he needs to see his brand on your neck. Youāre his, arenāt you? Who cares if his parents see?
āAh~ā You let out a breathy whimper as he angrily sucks and bites on your neck. Your skin is sensitive - already turning bright shades of blue and purple from his mouth. His dental imprint litters your neck and shoulders.
āK-Ken.. what about..?ā You start to ask about his parents. Theyāre going to hear you two. Wouldnāt that just make things worse?
āDonāt care.ā He responds so brashly. If he thinks about his parentās behavior any longer, heās going to need to fuck you into next week to get all his anger out.
Riiiip!
Your eyes widen as you look up at your boyfriendās hulking figure. The blouse that you were just criticized for was now more like a coat, split down the middle, revealing your perfect breasts, so prettily on display in your red lacy bra.
His mouth waters as he looks you up and down. You have almost this panicked look in your eye, provoked by his unpredictability, and for whatever reason, itās driving him insane.
His mouth is back on you like it never left: kissing and biting on your mounds, painting them so beautifully with his mark. āYouāre mine.ā He grunts lowly. His jealousy almost makes it sound like his parents were insinuating that you should marry someone else.
āSay it.ā He demands before his teeth graze over your collarbone. His warm breath fans over your skin, making you shiver.
āYours.ā You comply with such a small whimper, and your body jolts when you feel his raging bulge rub against you.
āSee what you do to me?ā He rumbles lowly as he looks down to where heās now shamelessly dry humping you through clothes like heās a horny teenager.
āFuckā¦ Ken..ā You whisper as youāre also mesmerized by the sight. His slacks are completely taught, outlining the shape of his cock so well. You can almost see the veins that protrude on him.
His hips rolls slowly against yours, savoring the way the fabric rubs against him and you. His dick is painfully throbbing ā begging for the reprieve of being squeezed by your gummy walls.
āAre you as much of a mess as I am, baby?ā He asks as his hand dips into your pants. His eyebrows furrow, and he lets out a low groan as his fingers are instantly coated in your slick. He slips his hand back out of your pants just to slide his fingers into his mouth. He holds eye contact with you as he hums in satisfaction. He'll never get enough of your taste.
āYou want this, donāt you? Want me to fuck you where my parents can hear you?ā He slides his hand back down into your pants, and his fingers rub tight, firm circles against your clit, making your body squirm from pleasure.
āNngh~ ah!ā Youāre already so noisy, and he hasnāt even began fucking you yet.
āGive āem a show, baby. Let them hear how good I make you feel.ā
āMmm~ Kenā¦ā You moan as your back arches up off the bed. His fingers press down harder on your swollen clit.
āYou can do better than that, darling.ā He can be so condescending in bed, using that insatiable need for praise against you.
āKen!ā You shout, all logical thought has abandoned you. He tells you to do better? You do better.
āGood girl.ā He purrs before sliding his hand out of your pants. He canāt get your clothes off of you quick enough. His cock is beckoning for attention, still neglected from yesterday of just eating you out.
Your hands shakily try to unbutton his shirt, and he chuckles lowly at your pitiful efforts. āAw, my poor girl. Already so shaken up. Go on. You can do it.ā
You huff at his taunting. Usually, heād just see you struggling and take off his clothes for you, but today he was thriving off watching you so desperately trying to get his clothes off him.
It takes you a minute to get his clothes off him, and you donāt even properly take off his pants. You merely shoved them down along with his boxers just low enough for his monstrous cock to spring out. Nanami merely watches you with a cocky smirk.
āYeah? This is what you wanted?ā He purrs lowly, and he carefully drags his tip up and down your core, smearing his precum along your lips as if his tip was giving you a sloppy kiss.
āGonna take all of it, arenāt you?ā His other hand releases your wrists, and he lovingly cups your cheek. His hand is so big compared to your face. He loves watching you nuzzle up into his palm.
You nod your head quickly in response, lifting your hips up to meet his with each slow movement. Wet slippery noises from your cunt weeping for him fill the room.
āUse your words.ā He demands before he speaks up louder ā just to spite his parents who are right below you two. āI said. Youāre going to take this dick like a good girl, arenāt you?ā
āYes!ā You whine before your body is completely shell shocked from a quick slap to your cunt. His cock is so heavy ā you can feel the weight of it as his rudely smacks it against you again.
āLouder.ā
āYes sir-!ā You immediately oblige, following his commands without a second thought in your brain.
His lips curl into a lopsided grin, and he carefully guides his sweltering tip towards your entrance, plugging your hole with just his head.
āKeep being a good girl like that, and I might have to give you baby. Do you want that?ā He asks while carefully stretching you by fucking his tip in and out of your tight hole. āYou wanna have my baby, donāt you?ā
āFfffuck- Ken! T-too much..ā You squirm your body against his bedsheets, and he chuckles at your poor attempt at getting away.
āYou clearly want this, so why are you running?ā He hands latch onto your thighs, and he pulls you back down towards him, inadvertently impaling you even further on his cock.
A smug chuckles bubbles up in his throat as he sees how much of a mindless mess you are. He loves how he can make you all dumb so quickly with his dick. It brings him great joy to know that you trust him and can just let go, letting the more primal urges take over.
āMmm~ so tight and wet for me, arenāt you darling? Need to just let Ken take care of you, yeah?ā His voice is like velvet as he slowly thrusts himself in and out, sinking deeper into you with each movement, splitting you wide open.
āAh~! nnnnnā¦ so good.ā You manage to whine out.
āWhat a crybaby. I know you can take me better than that, darling.ā Nanami gives you a soft kiss on the forehead before his large hand wraps around your neck, applying pressure in just the right spots to make you all lightheaded.
"Come on. Show me how good you can take it~" His hips snap forward suddenly, sinking his full length deep inside you. Your eyes roll back into your head as he takes full control over you.
His hips are pounding forward, bumping his tip right against your cervix with every mean thrust. His balls are heavy and slapping against the flesh of your ass ā a reminder for how pent up he's been recently.
Maybe it's the lack of an orgasm for the last couple of days or maybe it's his parents being utter assholes to you, but Kento finds himself feeling frustrated all over again. Low grunts and growls escape him, and he uses his grip on your neck to push himself in even further -- harder.
The sound of skin clapping against skin fills the room, and his childhood beds starts to squeak out with each forceful blow. He knows for a fact that his parents can hear every single noise. The thin walls of this house absolutely hide nothing. He may as well have fucked you right there against the kitchen table to really prove a point.
"Fuck-! Kenkenkenken! Ah~" You can't even form sentences much less words other than his name. Before you can even warn him, your walls begin to pulse around him - practically milking him while your orgasm takes you over. "Nnngh~ I-I love you.."
"Mmnn~ I didn't tell you that you could do that, sweetheart." He hazel eyes bore into your very soul as his grin shifts to a more wild one. His hips move with even more vigor as if he's trying to push himself straight into your womb,
His hand lets go of your throat, finally allowing you to get a deep breath of air while trying to cope with his massive size pumping in and out of you as if you're nothing but a senseless fuck toy, but you clearly fucking love it. You're practically dripping all over him, soaking his bedsheets in your arousal.
At this point, his parents aren't sure if he's killing you or fucking you. Either way, they're too afraid to intervene. They didn't raise a gentleman at all. They raised a monster.
"Mmph... Need to give you a baby. Can I? You'd make such a pretty mama. School be damned. I need you." Normally, Nanami is pretty controlled over his pillow talk. He's really good at it, but right now, he's completely lost in you -- just babbling promises of giving you a baby and marrying you.
"Y-yes, Ken! Fuck... give me a baby, please." Your legs are trembling around his waist, and your fingernails are giving him such pretty decorations along his back. Small trophies for fucking you just right.
"Fuuuck- Take it. T... take it all..." His voice is a gravely groan as his cock twitches inside you, spilling all of his seed directly into your tummy. It's so fucking much from holding back for a couple of days - completely filling you up. "I love you so much. Gonna marry you one day."
The house is eerily silent for a moment as both you and Nanami catch your breaths. He stays planted on top of you, keeping your legs hooked around his waist. Small creaks of footsteps against a floorboard fill the air, and you tense up, thinking his parents were going to come in there and raise all sorts of problems.
Nanami gently strokes your face with the back of his hand. "Shhh, they're not coming in here. Promise." He whispers lowly, pressing a loving kiss to your forehead. You slowly relax in his arms, trusting his words that his parents weren't going to come in there.
You can hear a door open and shut, and it sounds like bickering back and forth between his parents.
"See? They're just going to bed." He presses another reassuring kiss to your cheek.
His hips continue to lazily pump in and out of you, basically fucking his cum back into you as it seeps out. His cock is hyper sensitive, but he can't get enough. You're completely drenched for him. You deserve more of his loving.
"Keennn~" You whine quietly, shifting in the bed slightly as your legs are all achy and sore from him taking out all of his anger on you.
"What is it, baby?" He asks in a hushed whisper against your ear. His breath tickles your skin, making you slightly squirm in response. "I'm just making sure it takes, yeah?" His cock sinks further into you, already growing hard all over again even though he just finished.
"Mmmph~" You hum as your eyes slipped closed. Nanami smiles and presses a kiss to your forehead, knowing that you're already needy all over again for him.
"Answer me, darling. Want me to stop?" He asks while peppering kisses all over your face. If the last round was about degradation and taking his anger out, then this one was about how much he loves you and can't get enough of you.
"Nonono... don't stop, please." You murmur out quickly, looking up at him with big, pleading eyes.
"That's my good girl... Always needin' more, aren't you?" He hums lowly, and his cock pumps in and out so slowly, delicately smushing against your cervix with each loving thrust.
"Mmn.. I love you." You slur out, completely cock drunk at this point. Kento just smiles and continues to dote on your with messy kisses against your cheeks and neck. His hand is gently massaging your breast, just barely teasing your nipple while he makes love to you.
"And I love you, darling." He responds before he feels you squeezing around him already. "Oh pretty, again?" He asks as his eyes look down to your fluids gushing around his length. "Such a mess. How are we meant to sleep on these sheets now?"
"'m sorry... I c-couldn't help it. 'm so sorry." You whimper as your face dips into his shoulder, hiding you obvious embarrassment.
Kento's arms wrap around your waist, and he uses his hold on you to drag you up and down along his length ā still moving at such a torturously slow pace, making you feel every inch as it enters you.
"Aw, that's alright, darling. I'll clean us up. Just take a little bit more for me, yeah?" He whispers into your ear while your pelvis is slotting against his. He's damn near holding you up into his arms. Lucky you for having such a strong boyfriend.
His lips find yours for a messy kiss. His tongue slips past your lips, claiming your mouth as his completely. A few seconds later, his cock is pumping you full again with his cum ā still so much on the second round.
Without even missing a beat, Nanami's mumbling breathily in your ear. "Mmm, I know I said I'd clean us up, but you wouldn't hate a third round, would you?"
*** *** ***
Nanami didn't wake you up the next morning to watch him work on the car. He knew your poor little body was put through the ringer yesterday, so he gave you a tender kiss on the temple before making his way into the garage in just his sleeping pants and socks.
His father's car was already propped up on the jack, and his father groaned as he leaned up off the ground. "Well good morning." He says in a knowing tone.
"Good morning. Why are you down there? I told you I'd fix it today." Nanami asks as he shoos his dad out of his way, and he slides himself underneath the car.
"Well, I didn't know if you'd be up for it after your fun ventures last night." His dad hands Nanami a tool to help get the brake pads off the car.
Nanami stays silent. In his new found clarity, he does know that fucking you so loudly to where his parents can hear was a weird retaliation method, but he doesn't regret doing it.
"Your mother cried all night last night."
"Maybe she needs a reality check if she's that damn upset about who I choose to romantically involve myself with." Nanami rolls his eyes, and he grunts as he forces the brake pad away from the car.
"I don't think she was crying because of that. I think she realizes just how far she drove you away from her with her constant pressure over your love life." His dad explains, and he hands Nanami the new brake pad to replace on the car. "I'm not saying you or yn have to forgive her for how she acted today, but I am asking that you try to give her another chance today. I think she understands now."
Nanami takes a deep breath, but he nods quietly. "She's got one more time to say anything rude to my girlfriend, and we're taking the first train back to the university."
*** *** ***
Your eyes darted over to Nanami's nervously when his mother asked you to have a girl's day with her, but your boyfriend gently rubbed your back, silently assuring you that it'd be okay. At least, he hoped it'd be okay.
Nanami: Text me if she says anything rude. I'll pack our stuff up and we'll leave, okay?
Luckily, you didn't have to text him at all that day. His mom took you sight seeing around the town, out to eat at one of Hakone's favorite restaurants, and you two got your nails done.
"You know, I was being a bad person yesterday." She starts off as you two are sat next to each other. Her feet are being massaged by one of the workers, and you're getting your toes painted. "I guess I just had this idea of how I wanted Kento's life to go, and when things started not going to plan, I started trying to grasp onto anything that'd give me control."
You glance over at his mother, and she has a small nostalgic smile upon her face. "I can't believe I allowed myself to act that way towards you... especially after my parents did the same thing to Kento's dad."
"Your parents didn't accept Kento either?" You curiously ask, wondering how similar your stories were.
"No, but they didn't try to arrange me into a marriage either. They just didn't think Kento's dad was manly enough for me. They didn't like seeing me wear the pants in the relationship, but that's just what works for us... I use to beg for them to just let us be happy, but they never stopped criticizing him. I finally just.. stopping talking to them when I fell pregnant with Kento." She explains in a voice raw with emotion. You can clearly see how this still impacts her to this day.
"I don't want Ken to do the same to me... I want to be in his and your life and my future grandchild's life if that's what you two choose to do. I raised him well, and I know he has a good judgement of character. So, I know you must be a good person. If he's happy, then that's all that matters to me." She goes on, giving you a small apologetic smile. "I'm really sorry for how I acted towards you last night. It will never happen again."
*** *** ***
Nanami had spent the whole day checking his phone religiously while his dad kept him employed with random home renovation tasks. He was waiting for the moment to start packing up your stuff and telling his mom that he wasn't going to speak to them again.
When he heard sounds of wailing coming from the front door, he immediately hopped off the ladder that his dad was holding for him.
"Kento-!" His dad shouts as he wobbles around, but Nanami was already speed walking towards the front door to see what was happening.
To his surprise, there was no wailing. It was only hysterical laughter coming from you and his mom. He stood in the door way with a confused look on his face as he observed you two.
"Yes, he was such a cutie pie.." His mom laughs as she shows you another picture of Kento in high school.
"Aww, Ken... you didn't tell me you were emo." You greeted your boyfriend with a fit of giggles from seeing his high school photos. His fringe proudly in view.
Nanami rakes his hands through his shorter hair now, and he lets out a relieved laugh. Seeing you interact so happily with his mom was enough to make him feel full with love. His heart feels at ease now... until he remembers that he has to meet your parents at some point.
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Pussy Drunk Thomas Hewitt - Drabble
Thomas Hewitt x FEM!Reader
Tags: established relationship, cunnilingus, forced orgasms, talk of bruises, wet and messy, squirting, dacryphilia, overstimulation
Word count: 1.1k
fucking obsessed with the idea of Thomas getting absolutely, down bad, pussy-drunk as soon as he gets a taste
like his virgin-ass being too afraid of hurting you to fuck you at first and getting on his knees for you. he gets a taste, kind of pulls back and licks his lips and you can see his pupils dilate and his eyes fucking glaze over and he just falls face first into your pussy
sloppy, wet, spit slick, hungry oral from that man. his teeth bump into you in all the right ways sometimes. one moment he's whimpering into you and the next he's grumbling and trying to get his tongue deeper and deeper into you to taste more
and it does not matter to him when you beg for him to slow down and how you can't cum anymore. because you keep dripping on his face and tongue and making wonderful noises and you just taste so fucking good, how could he stop??
his arms wrap around your thighs and he holds onto them hard and firm and keeps you pulled close to his face. you can feel that it's gonna bruise and you're going to cherish those bruises for days
he doesn't even notice how hard he's gripping you because he's trying to get all of his senses filled with you. he tastes, smells and feels nothing but you. the only thing his ears can focus on are your moans and whimpers. his hands massage your thighs periodically and when he opens his eyes it's just to look at your face, thrown back in pleasure. the only thing better is when you're looking down at him with tears in your eyes, still moaning for him
Tommy is completely drunk off your taste. he loves the feeling of your pussy on his tongue and he loves the little whining groan you let out when he sucks on your clit
now, when he keeps going and going and your hand in his hair trying to push him away finally falls to your side, he doesn't even realize what he's doing next. it's all out of instinct when his hands readjust so his arms stay wrapped around your thighs but his thumbs are spreading open your folds. that's when he really loses it
because he can get his tongue even deeper like that. he can bury it inside you and find the spot that makes you drip a little more and that makes you moan all broken and needy. once he finds it he abuses the fuck out of it. keeps licking over it, poking at it with his tongue and savoring every drop of you that spills into his mouth
and then. his holy grail. you grab his hair again and moan louder. you're sobbing and begging him to slow down because it feels different this time. he doesn't listen of course. all he knows is you're about to do that thing again where he can feel your pussy flutter and twitch and your thighs squeeze around him and your moans get all whimpery
he keeps going until your hips lift up into him. he stays attached to your pussy and keeps doing what he's doing, knowing he can't stop. needs to keep going to get you to do that thing
suddenly you gasp and go completely quiet. then you moan so loud it's almost a scream. a sobbing sort of thing that's absolutely gorgeous to him. on top of that your hips start wildly shaking along with your legs and your pleasure starts gushing out of you
Tommy moans into your juices and gets closer if that's even possible at that point. he shakes his head so he rubs over your clit side to side while he keeps his tongue abusing that spot inside you. and fuck does he get drenched. he swallows down as much as he can of you and whimpers into it. anything he can't get, drips down his face and drenches his shirt and lap
once you come down you realize he's still going and you can't handle it anymore. you start crying more and weakly kicking your legs out which finally makes Tommy look up. he sees your devastated face and while he thinks the sweat mixed with tears and drool, as well as the tortured pleasure in your eyes is a heavenly sight, he listens to your weak pleas
he finally pulls away and you sigh in relief. Tommy stays away from your pussy (as much as he hates it) and spends his time licking your thighs clean. just a minute away from your pussy makes him whimper and look up at you pleadingly. your legs are still shaking and you shake your head at him
so Tommy whines and starts biting your thighs instead, getting closer and closer to your pussy until he's mouthing right next to it. you're shaking and sweating and still losing a coupe tears when he licks flat over your clit once. then your back arches and you gasp, trying not to make too loud a noise
you know if you moan he's gonna start again and you think he might actually kill you that time. he softly licks over your clit again, wraps his lips around it and you slap a hand over your mouth. but Tommy sees your lack of noise as a sign to keep going and starts sucking on your clit. when his teeth graze over it your hand whips away from your mouth to his hair and you yell out a moan that ends with a broken whine
immediately you know you're in for it. Tommy moans happily and grabs your thighs hard once more. he dives into you again and gets back to his sloppy, needy and enthusiastic pace without hesitation. all you can do is moan, whimper and whine as Tommy makes you see stars over and over again
he's obsessed with making you squirt on his face and listening to your whimpers as he tastes you. he loves the feeling of your heartbeat in your clit, pounding against his tongue
sometimes you can't get him off of your pussy until he's had at least a couple hours of his way with you. he's obsessed with your pussy and a single taste makes him entirely lose his mind. he'd do anything to fall to his knees in front of you
he would spend forever between your thighs if it was up to him
your pussy is his paradise and his salvation. every gush of your juices is a baptism of wonder. you are his goddess and he worships you at every turn
#thomas hewitt x reader#thomas hewitt#TCM#texas chainsaw massacre#texas chainsaw the beginning#thomas hewitt smut#texas chainsaw smut#DisastersAreAJoyDrabbles#this was supposed to be a short idea#and then i just couldn't stop#Tommy has been haunting me lately and this just wouldn't stop playing over in my mind#if literally anyone wants this idea more fleshed out and an actual fic lmk#will absolutely write it if only one person says yes#ill probably write it anyways#HES HAUNTING ME AND I LOVE IT
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Listening in and panicking
Mattheo, any Tom, Enzo, Theo, Blaise and Draco
Your boyfriend overhears you say something that makes him believe heās not the one you planned to be with and panics, with each having their own dramatic reaction.
Thanks for the request! Usually itās the reader that overhear something, so it was fun to focus on the guys overhearing something, misunderstanding it and panicking about it. I actually almost had this finished last weekend but Draco was being difficult and it took me another week to finish this! So Iām happy itās here! Sending you all a lot of love and kisses. Happy readings!
Mattheo
That the quidditch game hadnāt gone well was a light way of putting it and Mattheo really needed you to brush through his hair so his muscles would instantly relax. For the past few hours Mattheo had been contemplating whether or not to crash your girls' night. He knew he could be demanding and didnāt want to be the asshole boyfriend who ruined this for you. He was especially afraid of your judgy friends who probably didnāt hold Mattheo in a high regard as a boyfriend. However, he was damn near losing it when he heard the Weasleyās fireworks. āThey won a game. Not the cup.ā He hissed, throwing away his cigarette and surrendering to the desire to be with you.
He could hear the giggling of girls when he approached Pansyās dorm and took a deep breath as he raised his hand to give a gentle knock on the door.Ā
Mattheo halts his movement as he hears your voice, he listens intently but is only able to make out some words. āWhat?! Someone like Cedric? How did you end up dating Mattheo Riddle of all people?ā Pansyās sharp voice sucks out all of Mattheoās breath and heās nailed to the floor as he listens to your voice. He canāt really hear all youāre saying because your voice is soft and further away than Pansyās, but he does make out one thing. āYeah, sometimes I wonder how I ended up falling in love with someone like Matt.āĀ
Mattheoās distrusting nature took this entirely the wrong way and he didnāt even bother to listen in further. After those words his feet take him far away from you. His heart aches as he now believes heās not the guy you want to be with while you are all he wants for the rest of his life. He feels suffocated by the fear of losing you and rushes out of the castle.Ā
Itās Fred that spots Mattheoās appalled face first. āStill not over your epic loss.ā He snickers, not aware that Mattheo is more than pleased to run into an excuse to punch. āGet off of my brother!ā George screeches before taking a swing at Mattheo. Fuck, I forgot there are always two of them.
A soft knock at the door has all the girls narrow their eyes at the door. āAre we expecting anyone else?ā Pansy looks disgusted at the thought of some loser girl wanting to join her elite girlsā night, but as she gets up to open the door itās Theodore who pushes it open just wide enough to stick his head through it. āYou better have a damn good excuse Nott.ā Pansy crosses her arms with a death glare that would match your boyfriendās. āMattheo.ā Theo simply states making your heart skip a beat not just at your boyfriendās name but at the seriousness of Theoās voice. āThat guy is always in some kind of trouble and not an excuse to come in here.ā Pansy snaps, far from interested in whatever mess Mattheo had gotten himself into, but you had already gotten up from your spot among the soft pillows. Pansy lets her head fall, not pleased that you were leaving, but you just give her an apologetic smile and pull your hoodie over your head.
Mattheo rolls his eyes when he sees you enter the hospital wing, but he also couldnāt help but return his gaze to you. In short pyjama shorts and an oversized hoodie that Mattheo didnāt recognize was his, you looked so innocent and for a moment he forgot that you broke his heart. You took a seat next to him on the hospital bed, while studying his injuries. āYouāre an idiot.ā You whisper, but Mattheo just snorts and lets his head fall back into the pillow, staring up at the ceiling. āYeah well, apologies that Iām no Cedric Diggory.ā Mattheo says with a quiet but poisonous ring to it.Ā
Your eyebrows knit together for a few seconds before it hits you. āUnbelievable.ā You chuckle and Mattheo looks up at you with pained and confused eyes. How could you think this was funny when it was heartbreaking to him.Ā
āYou sure are no Cedric Diggory.ā The soft laugh that follows your words puts Mattheo at ease. āYouāre better than anything I had ever hoped for. So Matt, donāt ever jump to conclusions as ridiculous as the ones circling your head now. I love you and I donāt think I could ever love someone else.ā Mattheo stares at you with a clenched jaw and glassy eyes. āI really hope so, because I donāt want to lose you.ā His voice is raspy and you give him a soft smile, before leaning in. Your boyfriend is more than pleased to feel your touch, deepening the kiss as soon as your lips brush his.Ā
Tom
You and Tom had been dating for a while and it was clear that you were his girlfriend and he was your boyfriend, but Tom was not one to put labels on relationships especially with all dark things surrounding him. He was losing his patience with Hogwarts and its professor questioning his ambitions. His always stoic and charming attitude had almost been broken by Dumbledoreās intrusive questions. It had upset himĀ to such a level that he needed you around regardless of your plans.
Agitated and in need of your calming voice Tom is ready to burst in and ruin girls night when he overhears you and your friends banther. āWhat, him? Heās nothing like Tom?ā Some girl squeals. āHeās the exact opposite.ā Another laughs. āYeah, sometimes I wonder how I ended up falling in love with someone like Tom Riddle.ā His eyes go dark the instant he hears you say his name. His tongue moves as his mind rages with absolute fury for you. You of all people, you that he needed more than anyone. He wasnāt even your first choice. Suddenly all your friends in the room faint and you jump up, immediately checking for a pulse. Itās in that silent moment of relief when you realise that your friends are just asleep that you hear footsteps outside.
You swing the door open with your wand ready in hand, but when you spot your boyfriend you relax. āYou canāt just hex people.ā You sigh, you tense up a bit when Tom turns to face you with emotionless eyes. āI can, I'm a wizard.ā You knew better than to mess with him when he was as cold as he was now. āWhatās going on?ā You calmly ask, walking towards him. āExplain to me what you meant with āsomeone like Tom Riddleā?ā A featherlight huff of air escapes your lips as you meet his eyes, you canāt keep a smile from tugging at the corner of your mouth. āSomeone who hexes four people to sleep because heāll take any excuse to believe that he is unloved, rather than listen to the sentence as a whole. I fell in love with you Tom Riddle and I donāt intend to fall out of love with you.ā Your boyfriend feels almost attacked by your words. You love me? āYou mean love as in the big sense of the word?ā Tomās voice is hesitant, failing to sound demanding or charming. āTom, the word love has no small sense of the word. Itās a word thatās always true and always full of emotion.āĀ
āShould I wake up your friends?ā Tom offers, feeling a bit embarrassed at how he overreacted. You chuckle and walk over to him and heās happy to wrap his arms around you as you think over his offer. āNah, I much rather spend the night with you.ā His lips search yours for a tender kiss. I love you too.
Enzo
Your boyfriend was insulted when you picked Pansy over him. We could be having a bath together, but no girlsā night. I need a new girlfriendā¦ Who am I kidding, I need just mine asap. Ignoring his friends warnings about how dangerous Pansy could be when someone interrupted her gossip nights, Enzo basically ran to Pansyās dorm, like he needed you for urgent matters. Then again, in Enzoās book intimate quality time with you was always an urgent matter. He needed you and he would have you now. āYeah, sometimes I wonder how I ended up falling in love with someone like Enz.ā Enzoās happy puppy face falss the second he recognises it was you talking.Ā
The next morning an unwashed, unshaven, not properly dressed Enzo is picking at his food when you jump in to give him a kiss on the cheek. He lets you, but he doesnāt react and you frown, looking over at his friends you see them raise their shoulders. Odd. You shuffle between him and Blaise and turn to face your boyfriend. āTalk to me Enz?ā āNot hungry.ā He states and without even giving you one look he gets up from the table and leaves. You are absolutely frozen in your seat at what had just happened. āWhat did you do?ā Mattheo asks, unable to hide his curiosity and amusement. No one had ever seen Enzo like this so everyone at the table was dying to know what had happened, but you didnāt have a clue.Ā
You take breakfast on the go and follow your boyfriend. Quickly stuffing your mouth as you head for his room. You enter and see him lying on his bed with his back turned towards you. āEnz, talk to me, whatās wrong?ā You get no response except for a lazy shrug so you decide to move closer and sit by his side. As soon as you do so he turns around so again his back is facing towards you. At this point you were getting slightly annoyed with his behaviour. āEnz-ā āJust break up with me already!ā Enzo snaps and he jumps up heading for the door.
When you see him angrily swing open the door you snap. āSit your ass down, Berkshire!ā Enzo stops in his tracks and for a second no one moves, not you, not Enzo, not the people in the slytherin common room who were absolutely terrified of what was about to go down. Enzo closes the door and turns to face you. You immediately notice his tired eyes and you walk over to him. āEnz-ā Your soft voice breaks your boyfriendās stubborn attitude. āIām nothing like the type of guy you wantedā¦ you just accidentally ended up with me.ā Your eyebrows knit together and Enzo explains himself further. āI overheard you and your friends talk last night, I wasnāt listening in or anything, I just missed you.ā His voice sounds painfully broken and your grab his hands meet his eyes with a sincerity. āI didnāt accidentally end up with you. You charmed me. You spend days flirting your way into my life, my head and my bedā¦ You made me fall in love with you and oh boy did I fall for you, Enzo Berkshire, you and all your charm. Did first year me think to ever end up with you? No. Do I ever want anyone else? No! You are the one, Enzo.ā A small smirk tugs on his lips as he canāt hide his happiness anymore. āIām the one?ā Your boyfriend questions sheepishly and you nod, making him smile brightly. āIām the one.ā He repeats, eyebrows wiggling, pleased with that new piece of information.Ā
Theo
Stealing you away from a girls night wouldnāt be easy, but Theodore had come prepared. He hated himself for being this needy and this cheesy, but he flicked away his cigarette anyways and picked up a small box filled with your favourite snacks. His friends and everyone else at Hogwarts were starting to see that the tough guy act that Theodore had been keeping up for years was cracking as his softer side was becoming more and more visible everyday all because of you, the love of his life. Walking towards Pansyās dorm a small smile creeps up your boyfriendās lips as he stares at the snacks in his hands. Salazar, Iām whipped for this girl and I donāt even mind. Your voice interrupts his thoughts and his eyes lift to the door in front of him. āYeah, sometimes I wonder how I ended up falling in love with someone like Theo.ā Pansy snickers āYeah, heās nothing like the guy you just described. So weird you fell for him.ā You chuckle at Pansyās words. āSilly, I know.ā The word silly rings in Theodoreās mind as he speedwalks away.Ā
āI so want to marry him.ā You laugh and continue dreaming out loud. āHe would be such a sweet and sexy husbandā¦ oh and omg he would be the greatest dad to our kids. I just know heāll be so invested with their dreams and hobbies.ā You roll on your back and stare up at the ceiling, when you sigh in a dreamy way Pansy smashes a pillow in your face. āHello! Girls night, stop dreaming about your boyfriendā¦ and instead tell us nasty sex stories or something.ā Everyone burst out laughing and you spend the night not having a clue that in Theodoreās mind you two were done.
The next morning you are still unaware of your break up and instead fall in love even more when you find a box filled with your favourite snacks outside of Pansyās dorm. āThatās just disgustingly adorable.ā Pansy jokes as you walk in the direction of the great hall. āHusband material.ā You sing and smile at Pansy. However, you stop in your tracks when you spot Theo lazily hanging over some girl's shoulder joking with her about something. He notices you and you want to smile, but he instantly looks away making you frown. You and Pansy walk over to him, but your heart already knows something is wrong. When you stand beside him Theodore reluctantly pulls his attention away from the pretty girl at the table to give you an agitated look. āLook (y/n), I heard you last night, Iām not the guy you planned on ending up with and I donāt mind, but letās not waste any more time on this relationship and just go our own way.ā You stand there absolutely perplexed and youāre absolutely horrified to hear some girls giggling at the scene in front of them. When you finally open your mouth Theo doesnāt even let you speak. āItās been fun, but really Iām busy here.āĀ
Never had anyone stomped on your heart and humiliated you like this. With teary eyes you turn around and rush out of the great hall, only to hear Ron hushed voice, āThat was brutal.ā, followed by loud smack, probably Hermoine.Ā
Theodore didnāt even look as you walked away, but Pansyās silent but demanding presence forces him to again look away from the girl heās trying to play. When Theo looks up Pansy wastes no time. āYou absolute baboon!ā Thereās a silence as she just looks at him like heās vermin. āFirst of all you donāt eavesdrop.ā She smacks him on his arm. āSecondly, you missed out on the part where she said she wants to marry you.ā Smacks him again. āContrary to her opinion, I think you would be a shit dad considering you are a god awful boyfriend.ā Smacks him even harder. āGo apologise!ā āBut she said-ā āApologise!ā Pansyās shriek horrified everyone in the great hall, but Theodore just stood there confused. He had been so convinced you didnāt really want him, you had just fallen for him but it was never supposed to last and now Pansyās telling him that you want the same as him, marriage and a life together.
Slowly and slightly terrified Theo opens the door to your room. Heās immediately met with the sound of your sobs and when he spots your figure curled up into a ball his heart breaks even harder than it had done yesterday. You turn around expecting to see Pansy, but youāre shocked to see an apologetic looking Theodore slowly walking towards you. āNo!ā You snap at him and get up. āGet out!ā You yell and throw a pillow at his head. āPlease listen, I made a mistake.ā You grab the table lamp on your night stand. āYes, you did by coming here!ā Heās quick to grab your hand and keep you from smashing the lamp on his head. āDonāt. You love this lamp.ā You girth your teeth, of course Theodore knows you love that lamp, he knows everything about you. You start sobbing again and Theo struggles to find words so he just gets to his knees. āIt was a misunderstanding. I thought I was just a fling to you and it broke my heartā¦ and I did a dumb thing.ā Your eyes go wide. āA fling? You thought you were a fling?ā You canāt believe your dumb ass boyfriend. Theodore takes your hand in his and kisses it softly. āPlease forgive me.ā He begs in a soft voice. You look at him sitting on his knees, holding your hand, looking lost. āPlease.ā He urges and you start laughing. āThere are no words to describe you, Theodore Nott.ā Theo gets up and smiles. āHow about future husband? Does that describe me?ā He pulls you closer and a cheeky smile forms on his lips. You loved him, but forced your smile into a line. āIām still mad.ā You state and your boyfriendās confidence fades. āObviously. Just let me make this up to you.ā You better!
Blaise
āI dare you.ā M attheo whispered near Blaiseās ear for the millionth time. āStill not playing.ā Blaise sighs and Mattheo growls in annoyance. āWhy?ā Blaise looks up from his book. āIām not ruining my girlfriendās girlās night because you want me to spy on your crushā¦ I also donāt believe they would even let me stay.ā Mattheo huffs. āI donāt have a crush, itās research, and you should at least try to get in there.ā Blaise shakes his head no. āIāll do your homework.ā Mattheo offers. āIāll do it better.ā Blaise sings, making Theo chuckle. āIāll clean your side of the dorm.ā Blaise looks up at Mattheo. āHave you cleaned a thing in your life?ā Mattheo thinks about it and quickly realises that he needs to think of a different offer. āIāll shut up for at least 24h hours if you try to get in.ā āOh, please Blaise, do me a favour and just go, so Matt will be silent.ā Blaise sighs and gets up. āFine, Iāll take one for the team.ā Draco and Theo both cheer, making Mattheo frown.
As Blaise approaches Pansyās dorm he hears several girls snicker and followed by lots of chatter that he canāt make out, until heās right in front of the door. āYeah, sometimes I wonder how I ended up falling in love with someone like Blaise.ā Without a second though Blaise turns on his heels and walks back to his friends. Once there his friends all look up to see his horrified expectation. āYou okay mate?ā Mattheo asks worriedly and Theodore puts his book down to listen, but Blaise canāt form an answer. What does that mean? Why does she wonder about how she ended up with me?Ā
Blaise just stares in front of him like he was solving some physics problem and not being very successful. Draco takes a piece of parchment from his study notes and forms it into a ball of paper before throwing it at Blaise who seems to wake up from his thoughts and again turn on his heels. āOdd.ā Theodore says and Draco shrugs, but they all continue with their business.Ā
Blaise is back at Pansyās door and swings it open this time, making all your friends scream for a second. āWhat the hell, Zabini!ā Pansy snaps. āWhy do you wonder how you ended up falling in love with someone like me?ā Blaiseās eyes focus on you. āWhat does that mean, someone like me? You mean my colour, my nerdiness, sporty side, or that Iām a bad boy type of guy? And more importantly, are we done? I mean, I would like to know if youāre breaking up with me.ā Pansy crosses her arms and groans, dropping her head before snapping at Blaise. āDid she not just say that she fell in love with you! Seriously, if you eavesdrop, at least do it right!āĀ
āIām not breaking up with you!ā Blaise sighs in relief and you get up from your seat. Blaise looks around and feels a bit embarrassed when he notices all your friends saw his moment of panic. āAnd what I meant with someone like you was someone as cool and composed as youā¦ but I guess that facade just fell.ā Blaise chuckles as you wrap your arms around his neck. āI guess I panicked for a moment, but that was only because I thought you were going to break up with me. Now Iām cool again.ā YouĀ smile and lick your lips. āIt was kinda sexy.ā You whisper and his hands make their way to your hips as you kiss him.Ā
āEw! Get that dude out of my girlās night!ā Pansy expresses her annoyances making you both smile into the kiss.Ā
Draco
āGirls like it when you interrupt their little parties and show them love in front of all their friends.ā Enzo frowns at Dracoās statement. āYour girl might like it but Pansy will not.ā Draco huffs and straightens his shoulders. āIām not afraid of her.ā This false play of bravery makes Enzo snort. āEven Matt is scared of Pansy and his father is the dark lord.ā Enzo argues, but Draco just waves his arguments away and heads for Pansyās dorm.Ā
āThe guy you describe is nothing like Draco!ā Pansy squeals, shocked by the person you had just described. āYeah, sometimes I wonder how I ended up falling in love with someone like Malfoy.ā You say rather serious. Draco considers whether to continue listening in, but his ego is too bruised. Iām not the kind of guy she wantedā¦ Did she start dating me out of pity or somethingā¦
After a few seconds Enzo sees Draco return, clearly upset. āTold you, Pansyās scaryyy.ā Enzo sings as Draco just speedwalks past him and Theodore lounging in the common room. Both Slytherins shrug, but make no move to check on Draco.Ā
The next morning you joyfully walk, almost skip, to your boyfriend who is rather depressingly resting his head in hand as he stares endlessly in front of him. āBad night?ā You ask in a gentle whisper and his eyes move to yours, but he doesnāt answer, only the corners of his mouth twitch in response. The heartbrokenness is obvious in his eyes and your joy fades away as you sit beside him. āWho is he?ā You almost hurt yourself trying to figure out who Draco is asking about. āThe guy you actually like?ā You raise your eyebrows and his absurd question. āOh that guy, total moronā¦ YOU! You dummy! I like you, you know that.ā You laugh at Dracoās silliness but he doesnāt even smile so after a few seconds your smile fades as well. āI heard you talk yesterdayā¦ about this other guyā¦ thatās nothing like me.ā Thereās a long silence as it takes you a moment to figure out what your boyfriend is talking about. When you do, you immediately want to assure him, but interrupts you before you get the chance. āI just need to know if I still have a chance with youā¦ā His eyes look lifeless as he confesses his fear of losing you and you.Ā
You sit up straight and cup his cheeks. āDraco Malfoy, I love YOU. There is no other guy! You hear me?ā Even though youāre holding his face in your hands he shakes no. āYou said-ā You sigh. āDraco, before I came to Hogwarts I had a crush on another guy who was nothing like you, but as soon as I met your dumb ass I thought that has to be the love of my lifeā¦ weird but true.ā Draco stares deep into your eyes in an attempt to check if youāre telling the truth. āSo youāre not dumping for some tanned six pack bodybuilder type?ā You laugh out loud and Enzo and Mattheo raise their eyebrows as they approach you. āDraco is an idiot.ā You say smiling. āI could have told you that before you started dating.ā Mattheo jokes sitting down opposite of Draco. āLooking for a new boyfriend?ā Enzo quips, wiggling his eyebrows at you. āIām single and ready to mingle.ā Draco throws a pancake at Enzo who dodges it elegantly. āDonāt even think about it Enzo! Iām an idiot but not that big an idiot to let her go.ā You smile at your boyfriend and he kisses you gently.Ā
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Medieval Scorpions Effortpost
So yesterday I reblogged this post featuring an 11th-century depiction of the Apocalypse Locusts from Revelations, noting the following incongruity as another medieval scorpion issue:
The artist, as you can see, has interpreted "tails like scorpions" as meaning "glue cheerful-looking snakes to their butts".
Anyway, it occurred to me that the medieval scorpion thing might not be as widely known as I think it is, and that Tumblr would probably enjoy knowing about it if it isn't known already. So, finding myself unable to focus on the research I'm supposed to be doing, I decided to write about this instead. I'll just go ahead and put a cut here.
As we can see in the image above, at least one artist out there thought a "scorpion" was a type of snake. Which makes it difficult to draw "tails like scorpions", because a snake's tail is not that distinctive or menacing (maybe rattlesnakes, but they don't have those outside the Americas). So they interpreted "tails like scorpions" as "the tail looks like a whole snake complete with head".
Let me tell you. This is not a problem unique to this illustration.
See, people throughout medieval Europe were aware of scorpions. As just alluded to, they are mentioned in the Bible, and if the people producing manuscripts in medieval Europe knew one thing, it was Stuff In Bible. They're also in the Zodiac, which medieval Europe had inherited through classical sources. However, let's take a look at this map:
That's Wikipedia's map of the native range of the Scorpiones order, i.e., all scorpion species. You may notice something -- the range just stops at a certain northern latitude. Pretty much all of northern Europe is scorpion-free. If you lived in the north half of Europe, odds were good you had never seen a scorpion in your life. But if you were literate or educated at all, or you knew they were a thing, because you'd almost certainly run across them being mentioned in texts from farther south. And those texts wouldn't bother to explain what a scorpion was, of course -- everyone knows scorpions, right? When was the last time you stopped to explain What Is Spiders?
So medieval writers and artists in northern Europe were kind of stuck. There was all this scorpion imagery and metaphor in the texts they liked to work from, but they didn't really know what a scorpion was. Writers could kind of work around it (there's a lot of "oh, it's a venomous creature, moving on"), but sometimes they felt the need to break it down better. For this, of course, they'd have to refer to a bestiary -- but due to Bestiary Telephone and the persistent need of bestiary authors to turn animals into allegories, one of the only visual details you got on scorpions was that they... had a beautiful face, which they used to distract people in order to sting them.
And look. I'm not here to yuck anyone's yum, but I would say that a scorpion's face has significant aesthetic appeal only for a fairly small segment of the population. I'm sure you could get an entomologist to rhapsodize about it a bit, but your average person on the street will not be entranced by the face of a scorpion. So this did not help the medieval Europeans in figuring out how to depict scorpions. There was also some semantic confusion -- see, in some languages (such as Old and Middle English), "worm" could be a general term for very small animals of any kind. But it also could mean "serpent".* So there were some, like our artist at the top of the post, who were pretty sure a scorpion was a snake. This was probably helped along by the fact that "venomous" was one of the only things everyone knew about them, and hey, snakes are venomous. Also, Pliny the Elder had floated the idea that there were scorpions in Africa that could fly, and at least one author (13th-century monk Bartholomaeus Anglicus) therefore suggested that they had feathers. I don't see that last one coming up much, I just share it because it's funny to me.
*English eventually resolved this by borrowing the Latin vermin for very small animals, using the specialized spelling wyrm for big impressive mythical-type serpents, and sticking with the more specific snake for normal serpents.
Some authors, like the anonymous author of the Ancrene Wisse, therefore suggested that a scorpion was a snake with a woman's face and a stinging tail. (Everyone seemed to be on the same page with regards to the fact that the sting was in the tail, which is in fact probably the most recognizable aspect of scorpions, so good job there.) However, while authors could avoid this problem, visual artists could not. And if you were illustrating a bestiary or a calendar, including a scorpion was not optional. So they had to take a shot at what this thing looked like.
And so, after this way-too-long explanation, the thing you're probably here for: inaccurate medieval drawings of scorpions. (There are of course accurate medieval drawings of scorpions, from artists who lived in the southern part of Europe and/or visited places where scorpions lived; I'm just not showing you those.) And if you find yourself wondering, "how sure are you that that's meant to be a scorpion?" -- all of these are either from bestiaries or from calendars that include zodiac illustrations.
11th-century England, MS Arundel 60. (Be honest, without the rest of this post, if I had asked you to guess what animal this was supposed to be, would you have ever guessed āscorpionā?)
12th-century Germany, "Psalter of Henry the Lion". (Looks a bit undercooked. Kind of fetal.)
12th-century France, Peter Lombard's Sententiae. (Very colorful, itsy bitsy claws, what is happening with that tail?)
12th-century England, "The Shaftesbury Psalter". (So a scorpion is some sort of wyvern with a face like a duck, correct?)
13th-century France, Thomas de CantimprĆ©'s Liber de natura rerum. (Iād give them credit for the silhouette not being that far off, but thereās a certain bestiary style where all the animals kind of look like that. Also note how few of these have claws.)
13th-century England, "The Bodley Bestiary". (Mischievous flying squirrel impales local manās hand, local man fails to notice.)
13th-century England, Harley MS 3244. (A scorpion is definitely either a mouse or a fish. Either way it has six legs.)
13th-century England, Harley MS 3244. (Wait, no, itās a baby theropod, and it has two legs. (Yes, this is the same manuscript, thatās not an error, this artist did four scorpions and no two are the same.))
13th-century England, Harley MS 3244. (Actually itās a lizard with tiny ears and it has four legs.)
13th-century England, Harley MS 3244. (Now that weāre at the big fancy illustration, I think Iāve got it ā itās like that last one, but two legs, longer ears, and a less goofy face. Also Iāve decided itās not pink anymore, I think that was the main problem.)
13th-century England, MS Kk.4.25. (A scorpion is a flat crocodile with a bearās head.)
13th-century England, "The Huth Psalter". (Wyvern but baby! Does not seem to be enjoying biting its own tail.)
13th-century England, MS Royal 1 D X. (This triangular-headed gentlecreature gets the award for āclosest guess at correct limb configurationā. If two of those were claws, I might actually believe this artist had seen a scorpion before, or at least a picture of one.)
13th-century England, "The Westminster Psalter". (A scorpion is the offspring of a wyvern and a fawn.)
13th-century England, "The Rutland Psalter". (Too many legs! Pull back! Pull back!)
13th or 14th-century France, Bestiaire d'amour rimĆ©. (This is very similar to the fawn-wyvern, but putting it in an actual Scene makes it even more obvious that youāre just guessing.)
14th-century Netherlands, Jacob van Maerlant's Der Naturen Bloeme. (More top-down six-legged guys that look too furry to be arthropods.)
14th-century Germany, MS Additional 22413. (That is clearly a turtle.)
14th-century France, Matfres Eymengau de Beziers's Breviari d'amor. (Who came up with that head shape and what was their deal?)
15th-century England, "Bestiary of Ann Walsh". (Screw it, a scorpion is a big lizard that glares at you for trying to make me draw things I donāt know about.)
I've spent way too much time on this now. End of post, thank you to anyone who got all the way down here.
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might I request how tf 141 tries to turn you on maybe? Sorry kind of a weird request you donāt have to do it if you donāt want to ;-;
Not a weird request at all, anon! Hope you enjoy! 18+ only, GN!Reader
Price
Three words: full body massage
That man loves to get his hands on you, and it doesnāt even have to be sexual in nature, honestly. Any opportunity to touch you, to caress you, to help ease the tension from your body, heāll gladly take it (and if afterwards youāll let him ease himself into you, well, thatās just an added bonus š)
He might use special rollers or electric massagers sometimes, but mostly he just sticks to those big, strong hands of his
He'll start by slicking up his palms with some oil, warming it up before he applies it to your skin
Beginning with your shoulders, heāll slowly work his way down your body, paying special attention to the areas you need most targeted
Aside from those tender spots, heāll also be sure to focus on a few of your more erogenous zones, namely your thighs and your ass (he's an ass man for sure)
By the time he's finished, you're all supple and pliant before him, but thereās something else too ā a sort of warm, fluttery feeling in your gut
Luckily, he knows just the remedy for that sensation. And oh! Would you look at that? You're already in his favorite position: prone
Ghost
We all know he tends to be a man of few words, and this applies to every environment he finds himself in
ā¦At least, every environment outside the bedroom, that is
Because when he's in the mood, you best hold on tight to your pants if you don't want them flying off from how he talks to you (but, I guess, your pants coming off is his end goal anyway)
You'll just be going about your day, minding your business, when you'll get a call from him while heās ābusyā at work
He'll start off casual at first, inquiring about your day, your plans for the night, etc., but it won't take long for the conversation to steer to the real reason for his call: to describe the way he's going to fuck you when he gets home
He'll go into excruciating, toe curling detail about all the things he's going to do to you; just how good heās going to fuck you until you forget your own name
I hope you're not in public when you take his call, otherwise you better have the poker face of a lifetime if you don't want to make a scene in front of several dozens of witnesses
Gaz
He's a big romantic at heart, so rather than just going straight for the bedroom, he'll slowly work his way up to it over the course of the evening
First, he'll treat you to a nice dinner ā either by cooking it himself or by taking you to that fancy restaurant you love but think is much too expensive for every day dining
Beneath dimmed, romantic lighting, together you'll share a delicious meal, a glass or two of wine, and of course a tasty dessert to cap it all off
The conversation will be light and pleasant (nothing unbecoming whatsoever), but while he might not outright voice the plans he has for you later in the night, that look he keeps giving you from across the table speaks volumes
When youāve finished your meal and gradually made your way back home/to the bedroom, even then he still isn't done buttering you up just yet
He'll put on some slow music, maybe light a couple candles to really set the mood, even draw you both a bath if you're feeling up to it
Once he does finally take you to bed, it'll be a seamless transition from an evening overflowing with desire and passion
Soap
āSubtletyā is not really a word in his vocabulary, so most of the time when he's horny, he's just turning to you and asking if you want to fuck
However, sometimes when you need a little more build up than that, he has a few tried and true methods he knows will work you up
He'll change so that heās walking around your flat wearing a pair of gray sweatpants. Wearing only a pair of gray sweatpants, mind you
Whilst wearing said sweatpants, he'll proceed to stretch and flex around you, showing off all those muscles he knows you love, as well as highlighting a few other assets he knows drives you crazy (i.e. bulge printtttt š)
He'll then get really touchy with you, starting innocent at first ā brushing an eyelash from your cheek, straightening the neck of your shirt ā before he gets more and more brazen with his petting
And when he's real close like that, leaning right into your ear, heāll mutter soft praises to you: telling you how beautiful you look, how good you smell, how soft your skin is where heās touching just there
By the time he finally goes to ask if you want to have sex, he doesn't even get the words out before you're jumping him like a wild animal. All according to planā¦
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ā” soap's little plan ā”
abo!141 x omega!reader
ā” masterlist ā” request more! ā”
summary: despite having a pack of his own, soap finds himself wanting more. he's grown tired of being the only Omega with 2 unruly Alphas. good thing you showed up, now he can flush those pesky little suppressants and make you theirs.
ā ļø suggestive themes, soap being a little obsessed, invasions of privacy
a/n: series??? idk where this came from but enjoy
Soap wasnāt an unhappy man. He was talented, knew just how dangerous he was in the field, how many brushes with death heād skillfully skirted with a big āfuck youā and a bloody smile. He had the respect of his peers and fear of the new recruits. Most importantly, he had a pack he loved. Never went to bed wanting or alone. His inner Omega should be satisfied, all things considering, and yet, he still yearns.Ā
He feels guilty sometimes. When heās laid out on one of his mateās beds, sweaty and thrumming with release. He rolls over, pressing wet kisses to damp skin and trying to focus on fingers that ghost over his head. Tries to push out the gnawing subconscious thought of more. He wants to scoff at himself. 3 mates and somehow he still couldnāt help but be greedy.Ā
Itās like Price says in the field (and in the bedroom, funnily enough): āYou're a goddamn restless dog aināt āya? Restless and a dog, indeed.Ā
His words run through Soapās mind as he stares at you. His dirty little one-sided secret. Heās watched you for months. Smelled you immediately when his eyes first landed on you, an unforgettable mix of vanilla licorice, fruit, and a tang of something earthy, like grass or rain. So unbelievably feminine and soft, he was intoxicated. Couldnāt help but watch as you walked down the hall. You had glanced at him, eyebrows furrowing slightly; he remembered the chill that ran through him when you locked eyes.Ā
Ā° šŖš ā” šŖš ā šŖš ā” šŖš Ā°
He had immediately sweet talked the Beta receptionist into handing over your file. He had tucked it under his arm and taken it to his room, locking the door and glancing around like he was a teen with a raunchy magazine. Read it front to back. You were smart, specialized in cybersecurity before you joined the military. Now you drifted from team to team, going where you were needed. Helping run covert hops here, a little hacking there. He felt a grin take over his face when he saw that in your last assignment, you acted as a demolition expert. An impressive resume, he faintly wondered why you hadnāt been pinned down by a team yet. Clearly, you were an asset.Ā
He got to your current contract papers, seeing you were brought on to be a floater. Youād help with missions in the unit how they saw fit. He could only pray that heād be working with you eventually. He closes the file, thumbing the small file photo of you. You were beautiful no doubt, not smiling but still holding a hint of softness.Ā
He pauses when he realizes he didnāt see a presentation in your file. He flips through the pages again, skimming through your medical report. The boxes next to āOmegaā, āAlphaā, and āBetaā are all unmarked. It clicks then, your sweet smell and the lack of presentation in your files. You were an Omega.Ā
Soap wasnāt really supposed to be where he was as an Omega. While there were no rules against it, there were hardly any Omegas here for a reason. It was hard, both physically and mentally. Soap had taken twice the recommended amount of suppressants and nearly went broke buying scent blockers. Put his body through hell and back to prove he was worthy. It was only when he became Lieutenant and had the protection of a pack that he felt comfortable enough to stop hiding his presentation . By then, no one could really say anything about it.Ā
His heart raced. You were an Omega. He had no proof other than being one himself, but he was almost sure of it. It did nothing to curb his growing curiosity.Ā
He should have pushed you out of his mind, but heās Soap. Heās insistent and can be downright stubborn when it comes down to it. It was just his nature. He formulated a whole plan, get close to you, slowly ease you into meeting his pack, then make you theirs. Plain and simple.Ā
It was not plain and simple.Ā
First of all, the guilt started eating at him. He had everything heād ever hoped for, a family, a successful career, and here he was. The worst part is that Soap couldnāt help it, he loved his mates, their masculine presence and smell that filled a room. But he secretly canāt help but wish there was another Omega around, someone who could help him ground his Alphas. Gaz did a great job, but he was a beta, and Soap often received the brunt end of Ghost and Pricesā more baser instincts. Not just an Omega, but a woman. Someone with that femininity and power that balances and soothes an entire pack into submission.Ā
Second of all, you didnāt want to give him the time of day.Ā
The first time he approaches you is in the dining hall, your face stoic and focused as you grab an apple and place it on your tray. He takes a few breaths, your muted and yet somehow still overwhelming scent filling his senses.Ā
āNew around here bonnie?ā He finally gets the courage up to speak.Ā āNames Johnny, but people call me Soap.ā He reaches a hand out.Ā
You take it hesitantly, and he revels in the softness. He tries not to get distracted by the way his hand almost completely covers your own.Ā
āY/n.ā you respond curtly, releasing his hand and grabbing your tray.Ā āTransferred a week ago.ā You donāt wait for his response, making your way over to one of the many tables littered with people chatting. Soap hastily grabs a banana and his tray, taking long strides to catch up with you.Ā
āSo uh, how you likinā it so far?ā He flinches at his own stutter. God, heās out of practice.Ā
You give him a pointed look.Ā
āSāfine.ā You sit, hastily picking up your spoon and taking a bite of oatmeal. It doesnāt deter Soap.Ā
He spends the next 30 minutes talking your ear off, receiving the occasional nod or āmhmā from you. You give up very little about yourself, answering shortly and precisely. It drives him mad.Ā
You cut off his rant on the latest recruits, standing abruptly. āIt was nice talking with you Lieutenant MacTavish, but I have to get going.āĀ
He watches as you leave, stunned and frankly a little turned on at how easily you brushed him off. Soap was a sucker for a chase.Ā
He faintly realizes that you knew his rank and last name, and has a feeling that youāre a careful and intelligent woman. It only fuels his growing suspicion of your presentation.Ā
Ā° šŖš ā” šŖš ā šŖš ā” šŖš Ā°
Soap keeps trying after that, despite the gnawing feeling of guilt and greediness. The less you give him, the more enraptured he becomes. With every eye roll and silent stretch you give him, he falls deeper and deeper into the need to make you his.Ā
It only takes a couple months for it all to come to a head. Soap finds you in a hallway late at night, most people tucked away in their quarters. Your scent is slightly off, soured and citrusy. He loves it.Ā
āWhere are you storminā off to?āĀ
You donāt answer, which is not unusual, but the way you push past him without so much of a glance, is. āAye, cāmon love, whatās got you so worked up?āĀ
You turn on your heel, almost crashing into Soap. You didnāt hate him, sometimes you even welcomed the company, even though his jokes were shit. Not that youād let him know you even remotely liked his presence. You stare him down for a second, teeth gritted.Ā
You had just overheard some particularly nasty and sexist comments about you, not the first time- hell not even the fiftieth time. But it never stung less, that people refused to see your experience and rank simply because you had the misfortune of being born a woman. You regret the words almost as soon as you say them.Ā
āLeave me the fuck alone, MacTavish. Iām not interested in your company, and I sure as shit didnāt ask for it. Go bother your pack, and leave me alone.ā You spit the word at him, and youāre not sure why. Maybe itās a reflection of your own loneliness deep down. You canāt stand the shock on his face, so you turn around and sulk to the kitchen to find a sweet treat to placate you.Ā
Soap watches as you leave, and heās hurt. How can you not see how perfect youād be for the pack? Granted, heās the only one that knows, he still has no idea how to broach the topic with his pack. Would they hate him? Call him selfish, wonder why they werenāt enough for him? His fists clench at his sides as your scent completely fades.Ā
Then it clicks. He doesnāt know why he hadnāt thought of it before. He smiles to himself, no longer upset at your blatant rejection. He almost skips back to his room.Ā
He has it all figured out.Ā
Ā° šŖš ā” šŖš ā šŖš ā” šŖš Ā°
The next morning he flirts with some nurses, brings them donuts from the place off base. While theyāre all distracted and giggling amongst each other, he quietly slips into the record room and grabs your files. His heart beats out of his chest at the little checkmark next to āOmegaā.Ā
He knew it. He flips through the files quickly, finding a detailed page tracking your heat cycles. You havenāt had a heat in years, seeing a note that says you denied a doctor's request to go into heat at least once every 3 years. He knew that pain, he couldnāt imagine you putting yourself through that. You shouldn't be putting yourself through that. Heāll make sure that you donāt have to anymore.Ā
He flips a few more pages, going back to when you did have your heats. He finds an entry that notes that you had unusually long and painful heats, along with a prescription of sedatives. The next line states that you usually have them every 3 months, February, May, August and sometimes December. He hears his heartbeat in his ears when he realizes his luck of it being the beginning of December. It was meant to be.Ā
He closes the file quietly, closing his eyes in relief. Youād be his, and his packās, soon.Ā
That night, while youāre showering in the gym, Soap is breaking into your room. It doesnāt take much effort, heās in within minutes, stepping into your sacred space. Thereās a half assed nest in the corner of your room, your instincts must be strong if youāre still nesting while taking suppressants. He wants to go over and fluff it for you, add his scent covered shirt to the pitiful pile. He shakes his head. He needs to focus on why heās here.Ā
He rifles through your cabinets, desperately searching. He knows you like long showers, but heās still on edge. If he gets caught, itās all over. He tries to be quick without disturbing the placement of your items, but he begins to panic when he canāt find those familiar little pills. He rushes to your bed, looking underneath. Heās about to lose hope when he moves from underneath your bed, cursing when he knocks his head on the frame.Ā
He almost doesnāt hear it. The soft thud of something falling. He looks back under the bed, eyes falling on a tiny box meant for jewelry. He grabs it, slowly opening it and removing the piece of foam on top.Ā
Bingo.Ā
He stares at the tiny pills, the familiar pale blue a contrast against the black of the box. He spills a few in his hand. There were enough for months. You were like he was, handing your health over in exchange for surviving here. His fist closes over pills as he makes his way out of your room. He locks your door behind him, trying not to run to his room. When he makes it there, heās buzzing with excitement. He goes to his bathroom, opening the toilet lid and fishing the box from his pocket. He doesnāt hesitate in throwing them all into the bowl, and watching as the water swirls when he flushes. The water settles, and your pills are gone.Ā
Omegaās are the most sensitive of the three presentations. Senses more in tune than even the best Alpha. It was in their very biology to be strong in ways Alphaās were not, to hold a pack together. Your biology would work quickly, work through the artificial hormones youād been poisoning yourself with in haste. It happened to him, after so long of suppressing his Omega, it came back with a vengeance. You would be no different.Ā
And with Priceās rut- and Ghostās, coming up soon, they wonāt stand a chance against the strong smell of an Omega in heat. Heāll make sure that they find you, that they take care of you.Ā
It was all part of his plan, after all.
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š NEW IDEA: ASK CHAT GPT š
źØ Use AI to your advantage when it comes to manifesting and shiftingā¦
Although AI can get a little weird and scary sometimes, itās actually such a great way to get information, motivation and inspiration all in one
Instead of hounding bloggers for the same thing all the time. Go to Chat GPT.
Now, how about i give you a few examples, letās imagine someone called maya šØ
maya is having trouble because she feels like when she tries to induce the void, she always falls asleep and thatās taken away so many years from her dream life
she asks Chat GPT: āI keep falling asleep every time I try to induce the void, I feel so frustrated all the time and I need some helpā
Chat GPT answers: āHi Maya, falling asleep during void practice is common, so donāt be too hard on yourself. One way to combat this is by practicing at a time when you feel awake and alert, like in the morning or after a light exercise session. Another tip is to sit up in a comfortable position rather than lying down, as it can help you stay focused and avoid dozing off. Keep practicing with patienceāitās all part of the process!ā
now letās imagine joey šØ
joey is feeling frustrated because he feels like he hasnāt progressed, heās been in the community for 2+ years and really wants his dream life
he asks: āIām feeling so frustrated and upset, like I want to give up, Iāve been trying to induce the void and get my dream life for over 2 years, I need motivationā
Chat GPT responds; āHi Joey, I know itās tough, but remember that persistence is keyāsometimes the journey teaches you just as much as the destination. Instead of focusing on the time passed, celebrate the fact that youāre still trying, which shows incredible resilience. Take a short break if you need to, and reconnect with why you started. Visualize your dream life vividly, and remind yourself itās worth the effort. Progress might be closer than you think!ā
now chloe šØ is feeling really powerless lately, circumstances hit her hard on some days and she feels stuck, she wants to be reminded how the void is so possible and so easy and sheās so capable of it all
she asks: āCan you remind me how powerful I am? Some days circumstances hit so hard and it gets thought!! Can you explain manifesting from a logical point of view to remind me how easy it all is?ā
Chat GPT responds: āHi Chloe, let me remind you of this simple truth: you are the creator of your reality, the God of your world. From a logical point of view, everything you experience stems from your thoughts, beliefs, and focus. Circumstances are just reflectionsāthey only hold power because you give it to them. Shift your focus, and the reflection changes effortlessly. When you truly accept that youāre the one in control, nothing can stand in your way. Youāve always had the power!ā
Now you can see how well it works!! You can even use them to give you affirmations, help you with vaunts. You can be as specific as you want, trauma dump as much as you want and say whatever you want without crossing boundaries or being judged. You can use Chat GPT to script, iāve used it so many times and it has given me so many ideas. And your script will still feel like your own, just see it as your collaborating with Chat GPT and that it you helps put your thoughts into words.
You can even use it when youāre having one of those days and just need to be reminded of the fact that youāre in charge. You can even use it for some tough love or to comfort you as you vent.
Like guys you can do so many things with this, I love Chat GPT so much weāre locked in like this:
LMFAOOO IM JOKING (or am i? š)
But in all seriousness, some of you need this. Flooding bloggers asks and dms with questions that they have repeated the answers to multiple times, asking things you damn well know the answer to or just asking for motivation repeatedly can take away from people who actually have a good question to ask and actually need help. Like fogging up a bloggerās inbox repeatedly venting about the 3d, or asking āhOw Do I gEt iNtO tHe VoId?ā knowing damn well you know the answer to that, will prevent a blogger from noticing someone who actually has a good question that many people might also have and would actually spark an interesting discussion.
So just ask Chat GPT, itās okay to have doubts creep in from time to time, itās okay to need a reminder of basic things, itās okay to forget how powerful you are sometimes, but you can literally ask Chat GPT to help you with that and it will. Instead of waiting around for bloggers to answer your dm or ask just to say the same thing, you can get actual help, and get it when you want it and how you want it.
Why donāt you ask āexplain the law of assumption to me like iām 5ā
āexplain the void state to me from a scientific view to help me believeā
āgive me some dream body affirmationsā
āiāve been so demotivated, remind me who tf i am againā
āIām going to come from a filthy rich family when I permashift, can you give me some Ā£10Million+ per year jobs that my desired parents can doā
āI feel so lazy today, bully me into inducing the pure consciousness instead of procrastinatingā
you donāt need to harass bloggers for these things when you can have immediate access to the answers you seek.
źØ ļæ½ļæ½ļ潚 Go download Chat GPT and knock yourself out!! š
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(Astrology Observations)
- Aquarius Risings are good at communicating in love thanks to their Virgo/Leo axis of 7th and 8th house signs, they may also crave a lot of physical touch
- Aqua/Scorpio/Capricorn Risings can have Sirene eyes, and if you have Pluto - Asc aspects you have the same thing
- Virgo/Cancer and Taurus Risings on the other side can have doe/deer eyes shape, they really look like Bambie (the deer)
- Sun aspecting Chiron natives happens to have other people throwing their insecurities on them, like your friend feels insecure and immediately throws that energy on you
- Chiron in the 7th house is both a curse and a blessing, sometimes you met hurt people already sometimes you're the one who hurts or heals them
- Chiron in the 12th house can show your subconscious is in pain, and can mostly be from your past life, does it happens to have a lot of deja-vu?
- Mercury in the 7th house are so good at talking and expressing their love language. I really love how comfortable they can get around people
- Mars in the 11th house sometimes creates a "love-hate relationship" between you and your friends, even conflicts can rise up
- Venus in Aquarius Degrees (11Ā°, 23Ā°) can really have an outstanding fashion style because of the uniqueness degrees of Aquarius energy
- Mercury at 8Ā°, 20Ā° degrees they can literally talk about every taboo topics without any fear of judgement. Their talk is freely open to everything
- Pisces Sun/Venus/Moons/Rising can get influenced more easier than others and I can say is that because of their neptunian energy
- Jupiter Dominant natives are wise from a young age, they perceive things differently than other people. They're also very lucky in their life path
- Venus in Fire Signs loves to be chased in love. Like that's a way to show you're interested in them, sometimes they can play hard to get too
- Earth Moons are the most stable people I know both physically and mentally, their are so strong in both things but sometimes they can have a hard time to balance those things out
- The Ethereal energy of a Virgo Moon is so naturally beautiful, they are the best supporters of people. So charming, calm and kind
- Uranus in the 2nd house can end up buying things they never expected before, for example you never expect to buy a phone you liked before
- Venus conjunct Pluto is so "Obsessed" vibes, people get so obsessed with them very easily, and you know they are damn loyal to you
- Pisces Moons & Moon in the 12th house have an energy like they are sometimes aware of what happens around them and sometimes they are not
- Neptune & Jupiter/Uranus in the 12th house are so spiritually connected with their subconscious, they can sense entities and often experience goosebumps (Spirit Signal)
- South Node in the 9th house can indicate that in a past life you gave your life for religion/God/etc.. and you need to focus more on yourself in this one especially at expressing yourself
- Sun & Lilith aspects are the most rebellious people you'll met, but they also have a side magnetism to them that makes people to like them
- Guys imagine having a man who wants a traditional wife/spouse but you don't have any 4th house placements like šļøššļø (Traditional guys scare the sht out of me like go away)
- Sagittarius Sun/Moon/Rising/Mars natives are so wild. Like they can be the wildest people you'll met through your life and do the most craziest things with
- If you have an empty 7th house just look at its ruler everytime you want to discover more about your future spouse (specific person)
For example if you have 7H in Taurus look at your Venus. 7H in Aquarius look at both Saturn and Uranus as your 7th house rulers
- Mars at Virgo Degrees (6Ā°. 18Ā°) have a good looking/attractive waist. Virgo rules upon that body part and it tells you about your attractiveness
- This is just between us but Mercury - Pluto aspects can be good at lying, if someone has prominent or strong aspects between those they are good liars
- Saturn in the 6th house natives are both productive and tired in the same way. Like you try to be productive or to work and suddenly you get tired.. damn
- I have Saturn quincunx Venus and honestly the energy it feels like having Saturn opposite Venus is just so hard sometimes to fall in love especially if you have questions about a specific person
- Asteroid Juno (3) sextile/trine/conjunct Mars are looking for a really hot, fierce, sparkling relationship like they want everything that's intense
- My asteroid Groom (5129) is at 1Ā° (Aries Degrees family, 1Ā°, 13Ā°, 25Ā°) and I read more about those degrees and I find that the spouse can have some dominant, confident, powerful, leader traits basically describing an Aries
- 2nd house placements are always hungry or thinking about food. Especially Sun/Moon/Venus in the 2nd house are really power hungry
- Sometimes Pluto/Neptune in the 6th house can indicate problems with health and that you'll need to prioritize your health
- Moon in the 8th house can indicate that in general the women in your family could've have suffered a lot, like your mother/grandmother/grand-grand mother etc..
- Water signs in the 5th house can indicate a passion/talent towards swimming/surfing š
- Sagittarius/Jupiter in the 11th house can indicate that you make friends easily or just connecting with people easily
- In the vedic chart Chitra is my Nakshatra (2nd Pada) if you have the same star in the vedic chart is like a combination between the materialistic and spiritual world and you need to find a balance in between (What I love about this is that Chitra's symbol is a shell š and I love shells with all my life)
- Neptune in the 7th house natives can create an illusion about their partners, like creating something that is not real about them, sometimes even fake scenarios
- Gosh people with the 10th house placements really focus mostly in their lives on their career/job/career path like this is so important for them. They really want to succeed
- Venus conjunct Mars or Venus and Mars in the same house makes the native to more passionate towards the lovers in their lives, they're full of surprises
- Neptune square/opposite Moon cannot be aware of their spiritual side or aware of their intuition, but they are so powerful when they search more about it
- Lilith in Water Signs really have beautiful eyes, you will get lost in their ocean eyes š, just like a sirene in her natural habitat
With all the love and peace have a good day today
š Harmoonix š
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It's a Love Story - Chapter 6
Summary:
Azriel's shadows find their master a wife.
Azriel would just really like his heart not to get broken again.
And Sky...well, she's just really surprised that that far too handsome male is interested in her at all.
Warning:
DEFINETLY NSFW! Rhys Bashing (as usual), I classified this as Azriel x OC, even when it't technically Azriel x Sellyn Drake (but we kinda know nothing about Sellyn Drake other than that she writes books so Sky is kinda an OC), Cassian is kinda a good guy for once, Azriel has a horrible time, as usual... Stuttering, toxic families (For once I do not mean the IC), Self-Esteem Issues, Secret Identity, Body Image Issues, Fat Shaming, People being utterly horrible.
If any of this triggers you or makes you uncomfortable, please take care of your own mental health and don't read it.
For somebody that filled her romance novels with plenty of smutā¦ Sky wasnāt exactly as experienced as one may expected.Ā
Actuallyā¦she was woefully inexperienced.
There had been Admonā¦and Admon it had been.
The rest of the stuff in her booksā¦well, that was just her fantasy wildly spinning stories about how sex should feel. Informed by plenty of books she had read, other authors, and of courseā¦there were the two people that got to read every book she wrote before it was published: Orla, her publisher, and her friend Ressina, who was nice enough to take the pen to every thing she wrote that was woefully inaccurate.Ā
Because nothing ever felt to her like she portrayed it in the books.
Maybe that was normal. Maybe it was because of course her books portrayed somethingā¦better than reality, an escape from it. But stillā¦sometimes Sky had just wonderedā¦
As Azriel carried her towards the bedroom, Sky couldnāt help but feel a flutter of nervousness in her stomach. It wasnāt that she didnāt want this, she did, more than anything. But the truth was, she wasā¦nervous.
She had written about this moment countless times, had described it in vivid detail in her novels. But now that it was actually happening, she feltā¦insecure. What if it wasnāt as good in real life as she made it out to be on paper? What if she did disappoint him?
(Sky knew that she had disappointed Admon numerous timesā¦that she seemingly had never been enough for himā¦had been so bad at it in fact that he had instead slept with her sisterā¦which was a whole other kettle of fish that she really didnāt want ot think to close about right now.)
Sky tried to push those thoughts aside, to focus on the here and now.Ā
Azriel was here with her, he wanted her just as much as she wanted him. She could feel it in the way he held her, the way he looked at her. And yet, that nagging feeling of doubt still lingered.
And then there was the fact while he had admitted to sending his shadows to search for herā¦ Sky was still keeping a rather big secret.
āAzā¦Azrielā¦ā she said hesitantly.Ā āThereā¦there is one thing you should know about me.ā
Azriel paused, setting Sky down on the bed gently before turning to look at her.Ā
"Go on," he prompted her gently, taking her hand in his as he sat down next to her and giving it a reassuring squeeze. "You can tell me anything, Sky." She believed him. he wouldnāt judge her. She was sure of that as well.Ā
āYouā¦You kā¦know howā¦how Iā¦I writeā¦ roā¦romance no..novels?ā Sky asked him, biting her lip.
Azriel nodded, a small smile playing at the corners of his lips. "Yes, I do," he said, leaning in closer to her. "You told me.ā
āIā¦I am Sellyn Drake,ā she blurted out.
She had never outright admitted it to another person.Ā
Ressina had been the one who had send off her first manuscript to be publishedā¦and Orla had met with herā¦these were the two people in existence that knew that Skylar Alden was also Sellyn Drake. And Skylar had always been comfortable with keeping it that way.Ā
There was no need to tell anybody else.Ā
Which was why it worked so well, that Ressina was an artist and could paint the bookcovers for her. No need whatsoever to let anybody else see the hesitant first drafts until she was sure this was where she wanted to go. Just Ressina. Just one of her very few friends. If not her only.Ā
Azriel stared at her, his eyes widening in surprise. "What?" he asked, completely taken aback. "You're...Sellyn Drake?" There was noā¦outright disbelief in his voice, just shock.Ā
*We know! We made Master read your books!* the shadows cooed. *Lady Death, The Priestess and The Shopkeeper love them too!*
She had no idea who any of these people were butā¦
Azriel's eyes widened even further as the shadows spoke up. "You...you knew about this?" he asked them, turning towards the shadows in disbelief. "You knew. Thatās why you gave me her books to read!ā
This was just getting better and better.
Sky, who had been watching Azriel and the shadowsā exchange with a mixture of nervousness and embarrassment, couldn't help but laugh at the absurdity of the situation.Ā
āDoā¦Do they alwaysā¦ā she couldnāt even put it into words.Ā
Azriel sighed. āThey like to meddle,ā he said darkly. āAnd this time they were particularly persistent.ā He shot a reproachful look at the shadows, who cowered a little under his gaze. "I won't lie, they did manipulate me into reading your books. And when my shadows do something they are rather...convincing."
She swallowed.Ā
āDidā¦did youā¦liā¦like them atā¦at least?ā Sky asked hesitantly.Ā
Azriel hesitated for a moment before answering.Ā
"I...I did," he admitted earnestly. "Your writing...it's brilliant, Sky.ā Her heart soared at his words. She treasured them, hoarding them away like a dragon. But he wasnāt done. āThe characters, the emotions, the way you make the reader feel everything...it's incredible. I couldn't put them down."
Sky grinned at his words, feeling a swell of pride in her chest. "Iā¦I'm glad you..you liā¦liked them," she said softly.
*Master especially liked theā¦*
āShut. Up.ā Azriel snapped, his ears reddening and Sky started laughing. She could just about imagine what the shadows wanted to tell her at that moment.Ā
Azriel groaned, burying his face in his hands. "I'm going to kill them," he muttered under his breath.
"Theyā¦they are juā¦just tryā¦trying to help you, aren't they?" she asked softly, squeezing his hand in hers. Only now she noticed the violent scars that marred them, the texture of raised and bumpy skinā¦but she didnāt care. Not one bit.Ā Ā
*Of course, we are,* the shadows said, like any other idea was simply blasphemous. *We gave Master the best information we could. So that Master would know what you like.*
Sky probably shouldn't find it as adorable as she did. But the lengths they had gone to...the way they had made Azriel read her books so that he would know what she liked...nobody in her life had ever gone to these lengths just to find out what she liked.
"I swear I am not a total creep," Azriel told her with a grimace.
Sky laughed, shaking her head in disbelief. "Noā¦no, no, you're not," she assured him, squeezing his, hands gently. "Iā¦I acā¦actually think it'sā¦ quiteā¦ sweet. In a weird, sliā¦slightly invasive kind of way. But sweet nonetheless."
"I think you are the only female that could possible think that," Azriel muttered, glaring at the shadows that didn't seem apologetic in the slightest.
Sky grinned, leaning in closer to him. "Itāsā¦ endearing,ā she finally settled on. āMaybe even a litā¦little bit charming," she promised him earnestly.
Azriel looked at her incredulously, his expression softening a little. "You're not just saying that to make me feel better, are you?" he asked her.
Sky shook her head. "No. No, I'm not," she said, her voice unwavering. "Iā¦I mean it, Azriel. It iss actually really sweet that you would go toā¦ such lengths just to try to unā¦understand me better. And you adā¦admitted to it. And not just after the mating bond was accepted but within hours of meeting me."Ā
Azriel didn't keep it a secret, even when he could have, and she would have been none the wiser.Ā
"I don't know what I ever did to deserve you. But I'm not going to question it," he whispered.Ā
She swallowed. That's what she was thinking. The exact same words.Ā
Sky pulled him down, letting his forehead rest against hers.
"I know that...that I am supposed to cook you something...but how disappointed would you be if I gave you one of those caramel bonbons in my purse to accept the bond instead?" she asked him softly, meeting his gaze.Ā
His eyes widened and he stared at her in pure, undiluted wonder.Ā
"I could not possible be dissappointed by whatever you offered me," Azriel whispered. "But...are you...are you sure?"
"I am being utterly selfish," she whispered. "Yes. I want you." She didn't care that people would have thoughts about it...that she was rushing into this.Ā
They were probably right.Ā
But Sky really didn't care. Sky only wanted him. Sky was ready to throw caution overboard and rush into this headfirst without a thought about the consequences, if that meant that she would get her mate.
"Then let's be selfish together," Azriel whispered.
With shaky hands she reached into her purse, finding one of the caramel bonbon she kept in there...unwrapped it out of the paper and then...then she offered it to him, lifting it to his lips.
Azriel looked at the bonbon, then at her, and for a moment she thought he would say something. But then his mouth opened and he took it from her hand... He chewed it, swallowing carefully, his gaze never wavering from hers. For a moment, they stayed suspended in that moment of tension, the only sound their breathing. And then, he leaned in, closing the distance between them, and kissed her as if she was the most precious thing in his entire world.
A Mating Frenzy had always been protrayed as animalistic in every book she read. So of course, Sky had written the exact same thing.
But it wasn't...not really.
Not for them.Ā
And being with Azriel was also a far cry from being with Admon...mostly because then it had often been...embarrassing and painful.Ā
Admon had always found something to criticise on her body...foreplay had been nonexistent, even when she had tried...and while he had been more than willing to use her mouth to find his own pleasure he had never returned that favour.
With Azriel it was different. Every touch, every caress, every kiss made her feel things she had never felt before. It was like her body was coming alive for the first time.
All her senses were heightened, every nerve in her body singing with pleasure, and Sky couldn't get enough of him. She wanted more. No, she needed more. As Azriel trailed kisses down her throat, she arched her back, pressing herself against him, her hands roaming over his body, exploring every inch of him that she could reach.
"Can I...Can I touch your wings?" she asked breathlessly, not wanting to...cross some unsaid line.
"Please," Azriel breathed out. "Yes, Sky, please." He lifted his wings, extending them out behind him, giving her free rein to touch and explore to her heart's content. As Sky's fingers brushed against the contours of his wings, Azriel let out a low, guttural moan, his wings twitching and shuddering at the sensation. They were massive and pitch black.
"They are beautiful," she whispered, running her hands over the silky black skin, feeling the warmth radiating from them.
He shuddered at her touch, his wings arching and trembling beneath her gentle caress. he leaned his forehead against hers as he gently tipped her back against the bed and she went willingly, wrapping her hands over the gleaming talons at the tip of his wings as she kissed him.
Azriel growled softly in response, his hands sliding up beneath her dress, opening the lacing in one fluid motion. As the dress fell open, revealing her body beneath, Azriel pulled back for a moment, looking down at her with dark, hungry eyes. "You are so beautiful," he breathed, his gaze roaming over her body.
She didn't even have the time to feel self-conscious, not when she was drowning in the waves of desire that shot across their bond from him. Not when her whole body seemingly trembled against his and she kissed him again, opening her mouth to his tongue.
He slipped open the dress and she opened her mouth, halfway ready to tell him how he could get the corset she wore off, but he already opened the lacing. "Why?" he asked her softly, as he saw the red indents left on her body, and she grimaced.
"Claire," she whispered.
She wore corsets usually for support, because her breast could get heavy and painful without the proper support...but she never laced them as tightly as she did when she saw her family. Or her sister. Then she pulled them tight, trying to squash her body to be somethingā¦something her family could stomach, something they maybe wouldn't comment on...she always failed.
Azriel hissed softly, his fingers lightly tracing the red marks on her skin. She knew that they looked horrible, and yet he looked...angered? Almost furious. His expression softened as he looked back into her eyes, his fingers gently tucking a piece of hair behind her ear. "Why would you do something like that to yourself, Sky?" he murmured, his eyes searching hers. "You are beautiful. You don't need to change anything about your body." He leaned down, pressing a gentle kiss to a particularly hard imprint the corset had left.
Sky swallowed hard, feeling a lump form in her throat as emotion welled up in her chest. No one had ever said something like that to her, had ever made her feel like she was good enough just the way she was. She opened her mouth, trying to speak, but no words came out. Instead, she just nodded, feeling a single tear slip down her cheek. Azriel wiped it away with his thumb, his other hand coming up to cup her face tenderly.
"You are perfect," he whispered, pressing his lips to her forehead. "Just the way you are. Don't ever let anyone make you feel otherwise. Not even your family." Sky leaned into his touch, closing her eyes and just focusing on the closeness, the warmth, the feeling of being cherished and protected.
With every word he spoke, she felt a weight lifting off her shoulders, her fears and insecurities melting away. She realized that maybe, just maybe, she had found someone who truly saw her, the real her. Who accepted her exactly as she was, flaws and all.
It was so easy to sink into that. So easy to trust him. So easy to just kiss him, as she pushed the shirt he wore over his shoulders...to feel acres of gold skin, dotted with scars and dark markings...to bare him for her view and see how utterly gorgeous her mate was.
He growled softy as she ran her hand down his chest, tracing the scars that marked his skin. His body was a tapestry of pain and survival, yet she wasn't deterred. She only found him more beautiful for it.
"Mine," she whispered, pressing her lips to his chest, to one particularly nasty scar. "All mine." She could feel his heart pounding beneath her lips, the steady beat matching the rhythm of her own heartbeat. Her hands trailed down his chest, his stomach, until she reached the waistband of his trousers.
It was so easy.
So easy, to shed clothing until they were bare...so easy to press against him and feel warm, perfect skin...so easy to relax underneath him as he stretched over her...so easy to simply cup his face as she kissed him...as her legs wrapped around his hips and he groaned and she whimpered as she felt him...hot and hard and huge, pressing against her...She was dripping wet without him even laying as single finger on her beneath the waist.
Azriel didn't look unaffected, his breath coming in ragged pants, his eyes fixed on hers as they were blown wide and dark with want. He didn't move, didn't kiss her, didn't pull her closer. He only waited. Waited for her.Ā
"I need you," she whimpered. "Please. Please, Az." He let out a sound somewhere between a groan and a growl, his hips rocking gently against her, teasing them both with the heat and friction between them.
Nothing hurt. Nothing ever even threatened to hurt...Even as she could feel him notch against her there...even when she could feel herself lewdly stretched open on his cock...
It was so soft and gentle and sweet andā¦
It was everything Sky had ever wanted.Ā
Not the rough kind of fucking...not the animalistic coupling she wrote half the time...but she had wanted this. She had wanted sweetness and adoration and...love...and to be wrapped up in her mate's arms like she was a precious, precious thing. She had wanted whispered praised against her skin and to be touched like she mattered...
"Sky," he whispered, his hands running up her side, his touch was soft and soothing, worshipping her body. He kissed her, slowly, deeply, and there was something...almost overwhelming about it.
About the way he made her feel. The way he made her feel loved and adored. The way he made her feel cherished. Her hands wandered up to his back, tracing the muscles shifting beneath scarred, scarred skin.
She could feel him trembling, feel the tension in his body as he held himself back, but still, he moved in slow and gentle thrusts, taking his time. He worshipped her - every little gasp and moan, every curve of her body. He traced her shape with his fingertips and lips, exploring her as though he was trying to memorize every inch of her body.
She didn't know how long they stayed that way, their bodies as one, but Sky didn't care. She was surrounded by him - the heat of his skin, the sound of his breath, the way he whispered her name like a prayer. Sky could feel the love and devotion pouring through the bond, washing over her in waves, and she knew that this was exactly where she was meant to be. With him, in his arms, completely and utterly whole.
It nearly came as a shock as she came.
A breathless moan fell from her lips as her orgasm rushed over her, her body arching as she called out his name. He kissed her through it, murmuring praise against her lips as he held her close, his own release following soon after.
They stayed there for a moment, tangled together, both of them breathless and sated. Azriel's wings slowly wrapped around them, cocooning them in a warm, protective embrace that made Sky feel safe and cherished in a way she had never experienced before.
***
There was not one inch of his mate's body that wasn't utterly beautiful. From the tips of her arched ears, to her beautiful eyes...to the swell of her breasts and the dip of her waist and the soft flesh of her belly and the flare of her hips...she smelled so good too...especially now that their scents had started to mix, and he could breath in caramel and hazelnuts and cedars and the sweet, beautiful scent of happiness as she laid underneath him. His head was bedded on her stomach, as she drew short fingernails through his messy dark hair. He nearly wanted to start to purr as she scratched at his scalp.
Azriel felt...content.
More content than he ever remembered feeling. He was wrapped up in her, his mate, with her gentle hands in his hair, and he felt utterly and completely at peace. He didn't care if they never moved from that bed again. He didn't care if the world outside their little cocoon burned. So long as she was by his side, he was content. He had never felt like this before. He had never felt this...happy. This...whole.
"I need to go feed Hector," Sky told him softly, trailing her fingers through his hair.
"Can I just have the shadows kidnap him and bring him here?" he asked, not wanting to move.
"You can't go kidnapping my cat, Az," she chided him gently, but even as she said the words, she didn't stop drawing her fingers through his hair, and Azriel didn't move. He was far too comfortable.
"Why not?" he complained.
"You'll terrify him," she said with a laugh. "Besides, do you have cat food here?"
"I'll have the shadows find some Tuna," he mumbled.
"Doā¦Do they just acā¦acquire whatever you tell them to?" she asked him with some amusement.Ā
And lots of things he didn't tell them to, as well. They thought he didnāt know.Ā
Azriel raised himself on his forearms, looking down at Sky with a glint in his eye. "You have no idea how many things I've acquired that way," he told her with a grin.
She lifted her hands, cupping his cheeks and pulling him down towards her, resting her forehead against his. "You're a menace," she murmured against his lips.
"Your menace," he replied, kissing her softly.
Sky smiled, a warm, slow curve of her lips that made his chest feel tight. "Mine," she agreed, her voice soft. "But no kidnapā¦kidnapping my cat. He's at home."
"We could make this our home," he protested softly. "Move in with me."
Azriel had no fucking clue what was even coming over him. They should have slowed down, stopped to think...but neither of them seemed to want to.
They justā¦they seemed utterly content to crash through what other people considered a normal timeline and just be together right now.Ā
He just wanted to be near her. He wanted to share a life with her, a home. He wanted to curl up with her in front of the fire on a cold winter's night, and spend lazy Sunday mornings in bed with her. He wanted to take her flying, and watch as she wrote and listened to her read the words she wrote.Ā
And he wanted - Gods, he wanted her to want that too. He held his breath as he waited for her response.
For a moment, she was silent, and Azriel wondered if he had stepped too far, asked too much too soon.Ā
But then, Sky smiled again, her eyes sparkling with emotions.Ā
"...Alā¦Alright," she said, her voice barely above a whisper. "I'llā¦Iāll move in with you."Ā
Azriel couldn't help but grin as he pressed his forehead to hers. "Really? You mean it?" he asked, still unable to believe his ears.
"Really," she echoed with a laugh, before her expression turned serious. "But Iā¦I have one coā¦condition."Ā
Azriel raised an eyebrow, waiting for her to continue. "What is it?"
"If I move in with you..." she began, wrapping her arms around his neck. "All my books need to come to," she told him seriously.
Azriel laughed, leaning back in to kiss her softly. "All your books can come, if that's what you want," he said. "As long as you're here, I don't care what else you bring."
And then the shadows unceremoniously dumped a screeching demon on the bed with them.
Sky let out a surprised yelp as Hector landed next to them with a thud, quickly scrambling away from the cat - and from under Azriel's weight. Azriel, for his part, sprang up, his wings flaring out in alarm. For several long moments, the three of them just stared at each other. Hector, his mismatched eyes glowing, his fur puffed up to twice itās normal size, and Sky, her expression a mixture of surprise and affection as she looked at her pet. Finally, she cleared her throat. "Well, that's one way to introduce the two of you. Az, meet Hector."
...Gods, the shadows had really not been lying when they said that the cat was the ugliest thing they had ever seen.
Azriel slowly lowered his wings, eyeing the creature that was half-cat and half-demon. "He...looks like he wants to kill me," he said slowly.
Sky laughed, reaching out to scratch Hector's head. "He's just grumpy because he got teleported here so suddenly," she told him. "And he's not used to strangers." Hector's fur slowly flattened, and he began to purr, rubbing his head against Sky's hand. "Besides, he'd never hurt anyone," she added, looking up at Azriel with a smile.
Somehow Azriel highly doubted that.
Sky picked Hector up, cradling the cat in her arms as his purring grew louder. "See? He's not so bad," she told Azriel, moving towards him, and Azriel had to resist the urge to back away. "Hold out your hand, let him sniff you. He just needs to get used to you."
Azriel hesitantly held out his hand, trying his best to ignore the way Hector's eyes seemed to glow with an eerie light. After a moment, Hector moved forward, sniffing at Azriel's hand. Azriel felt the soft brush of whiskers against the palm of his hand, and Hector nudged his head against him, purring louder.
"See, he loves you!" Sky said enthusiastically
Azriel let out a laugh, slowly scratching the top of Hector's head. "I think he's just trying to lull me into a false sense of security before he scratches my eyes out, you know."
She rolled her eyes, "You are the most handsome cat I know," she cooed at him. "And you won't ever scratch out Azriel's eyes. No, you won't.ā
Azriel would not quite go as far as describe the cat as handsome...but then...his own scarred hands weren't particularly beautiful either.
So Hector and him had that in common.
And the fact that they both wanted to cuddle with Sky. Actually, he was pretty sure that the cat hated him just for taking away his monopoly on that.
But Azriel would have shared a house with the King of Hybern if that meant that he got to have Sky in his bed.
She smiled at him, her eyes warm and adoring. "I knew you two would hit it off," she said, holding Hector in the crook of her arm. The cat stared at Azriel for a moment, as if sizing him up, before leaping off Sky's lap and disappearing under the bed with a soft patter of paws. "He'll warm up to you eventually," Sky assured him, but Azriel wasn't so sure about that.
He pulled Sky in closer to him, slipping back underneath the sheets with her, kissing her forehead. "I'll win him over, eventually," he promised her. At least, he hoped he would - he didn't particularly enjoy the idea of having to wake up with his throat being sliced open by an angry cat.
He would buy that damn cat all the Tuna in the world if that made Sky happy.
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