#sometimes i concern myself

[butchkaramazov]

some of you old woman enthusiasts are fucking liars...... y'all only like hot moms....learn from me, who got metaphorically hard from seeing a 60+ woman tell a man she'd kill him with her bare hands......

[loverofmarsss]

Nah, cause my own writing made me cry.

[dead-core]

part of knowing me is watching me self-destruct. you cannot save me, you cannot fix me, and you cannot stop me.

[bigothteddies]

thinkin about how important it is for submissives to take control of their own submission and understand their own agency in kink and to communicate for themselves

[ncfan-1]

Am I weird for thinking that the moment when Sol sealed his own fate wasn’t when he continued to make excuses for himself even to Osha, but at a much earlier moment in Episode 8? “You’re not even sisters.”

Sol’s attempt to convince Mae that she and Osha aren’t even sisters is, in context, the most heartlessly cruel thing anyone does this season. Mae has lost everything—in large part because of Sol. The only thing she has left is her bond and her kinship with her sister. Her bond with Osha is basically non-existent at that point in the episode—in part because of Mae’s own actions as a child, but due in larger part to the lie Sol has spent the last sixteen years hiding behind. Her kinship with her sister is all Mae has left, and now Sol wants to take this from her, too? To leave her with absolutely nothing at all? To say to her “You have no claim on her love. You’re not connected.”

It feels like… Sol very much regards both Osha and Mae as his, though only Osha is ever afforded the gentler, more positive parts of him, with Mae left to bear the brunt of his worst traits, especially at the end as he’s completely unraveling. And now he’s desperately trying to gain and regain complete control over both of them, and it feels like he’s hit on the idea, whether consciously or not, that it might be easier to control them if he breaks the final bond between them, if he plays divide and conquer and leaves the more unruly of his “children” with nothing at all she can hold dear.

And down on Brendok, after he’s seen the desolate ruin he left Mae to struggle to survive in all by herself, Sol could have had a turnaround, Sol could have relented and actually taken accountability for what he did when confronted with the place and possibly having some memories jarred loose of the way things actually were, but he doesn’t. He just doubles down. He has the absolute gall to tell Mae that she and Osha aren’t even sisters again.

Thankfully, Mae seems to regard this argument with all the contempt it deserves, but that doesn’t make it better. How do you look a woman whose life you destroyed when she was just a little girl dead in the eye, not once, but twice, and even in the ruins of her home standing in the exact spot where you killed her mother right in front of her, try to take the only thing she has left away from her and grind it into dust?

…Because you’re so deep in denial that you genuinely have no conception of how vile what you’re saying to her actually is.

Not that that this makes it better. If anything, it makes it worse. Sol has one moment of something approaching clarity—the way he struggles to say aloud that yes, he did kill Osha and Mae’s mother, the way his denial breaks into self-loathing, the way this is the only moment in the whole episode where he looks at Mae like she’s anything other than a problem to be gotten under control. But it’s not enough to save him. Really taking accountability could maybe have saved him, but it’s only a moment, and the moment he realizes Osha was in earshot, he sinks right back down into denial.

But he still tries to deny Osha and Mae’s sisterhood. And that is something so heartlessly cruel that I think it is what seals his fate. Because you don’t come back from that. Particularly not if you are so deep in denial that you refuse to even acknowledge how cruel it is. If you never admit that what you’re doing is wrong, you can never feel proper remorse. If you don’t feel proper remorse, you can’t tell that you’re digging your grave. You just seal your own fate without even realizing what you’re doing.

For more than one reason. On a metatextual level, Osha and Mae are the main characters of this show. Their relationship and their past is the crux of this show. Sol seals his own fate by trying to deny Osha and Mae’s sisterhood because, well, they are the main characters. The story is hurtling towards their reunion and reconciliation when Osha learns the truth. And he has positioned himself as someone trying to keep them apart and break the bond between them even at the very last. In a story where the goal is for the sisters to finally understand each other and properly love each other again, a man who is trying to keep them apart and trying to deny that they even are sisters… has just made himself into the final boss. He’s made himself into something that has to be vanquished for Osha and Mae to have any resolution.

And you want him to be vanquished. Because by the time Mae was out of the restraints and shocking Sol with Pip, I was hissing something pretty familiar at my screen: Stop talking.

[uncanny-tranny]

There's something so insane to me about being able to create and recreate vintage or even ancient music, clothes, fabrics, building architecture, anything, really.

I watched this video about a lady who knit a WWII-era vest, and it was really unique, because the cable work would eat up yarn, when there were shortages of fibers. This pattern would have likely been used by people to send overseas to soldiers, and now it's being created in a time where this war has been over for generations. What were the people making this pattern thinking of? What about the people making the vest? Could they fathom a world where world wars didn't happen back to back? Could they imagine what peace felt like, or did it fade like a distant memory, a faint friend? All we have now are the remnants of their efforts, a "simple" vest that would warm the bodies of countless people the knitter would never have imagined were here on earth with them.

We're reaching across time to learn about other people - we're reaching our hands out just to grasp anything tangible. And when we've take hold of something, all we can do is say I love you I love you I love you

[snowflake-sage]

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[icewindandboringhorror]

sneeping with his legs up over his head for some reason... weird boye

[ihamtmus]

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[bunnihearted]

i cant fully control my emotions during a breakdown and then i come out of it and im like oh fuck........ ._.

[agendratum]

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[fennecfiree]

Tw vent in tags uh ed

Sobbing to this uh

[lost-my-dragon]

I will never get over the fact that your art style is so amazing. Like you can just. Crank out a super good drawing. Just like that. Crazy

Man actually thank you so much you and all the people who have even just liked a post of mine are the reason why I’ve even really kept drawing. Thank you so much for bothering to send me asks even tho I don’t respond to all of them, y'all are real ones

[supahstarrr]

so only the minority of people in the fandom point out the trend of fandom misogyny mostly definitely or *maybe* affecting how many people unfairly villianize a character who is a woman, engage with her character or treat her in a way that's more unfair than they do with characters who are men to the point of scrutinizing her for valid actions, has more heightened negative emotions towards her doing bad actions than they do towards men who do equally bad actions or worse actions, are more willing to justify the guys bad actions and then in return demonize the woman for doing bad actions. Then suddenly people are "scared" of the character's fans & make up the fans as being villians that accuse all of the characters' criticizers as being misogynists. Yeah im laughing in your face for missing the whole point of the discussions Sorry

[shalom-iamcominghome]

I completed my conversion a couple of months ago, and I was so happy. Never in my dreams did I think that in a short time, I will be experiencing actual global Jew-hatred, but here we are. So yes, the people, Torah, the mitzvot, all things I find immense happiness and purpose in - but nothing could have prepared me for seeing people I used to like and respect turn around and show their unmasked antisemitism.

That's a completely normal reaction... It feels almost... unfortunate to be in this timeline, I sometimes worry that my conversion will be delayed simply because of the antisemitism rise. I totally wouldn't blame any shul that is weary, but it does serve as a reminder that... things aren't okay. We can celebrate jewish life, jewish resilience, while also being knowledgeable about antisemitism and where it leads people. In fact, I think it's such a huge priority that it must never be neglected.

I hope you are safe - am yisrael chai. You will always be wanted and needed, and may you never lose your sense of belonging or joy in this world. This antisemitism rise does not have to last forever, may you never forget that

[sesamenom]

C&C vs PD: Tengwar Edition