#sometimes este because healing

[eri-pl]

Assuming the Valar were real and legit

..I can't write polls properly: "Manwe and Varda" means "Manwe or Varda", sorry.

[zapshazam]

idk something really rubs me wrong about the way fandom treats Astarion's reactions to the Halsin poly romance and ESPECIALLY the Drow twins stuff. like yes. i get the kneejerk reaction to feel really uncomfortable once you get the line from the narrator about Astarion disassociating during sex with the twins - it's not fun to deal with! you want him to have enthusiastic fun the whole time and your character at that point is definitely in love with him and he's reciprocating, so i get it.

but..... like.... he's an adult man who is coming to terms with how he views himself his sexuality and his desires. he DOES enthusiastically want to try having a big fun sex party once you've completed his personal quest. healing from trauma, certainly SEXUAL TRAUMA, isn't a one-and-done thing. just because he's ready to initiate sex with you at his grave doesn't mean he's going to be 100% comfortable all the time forever going forward.

it happens sometimes. even at your best and most thriving-est sometimes something happens that triggers you and if that's your defense mechanism? boom, you're far away, you're going through the motions. he isn't having a ton of fun but again, he didn't know going in, it's an experiment.

but like. reloading as soon as you see that line about him disassociating because it makes you feel icky (which again, fair, I get the impulse) is kinda. idk. babying? like he's SO enthusiastic about doing it when asked. it doesn't end the best. for me that just means he and Tav/Durge have a conversation afterwards where he comes to a realization that yes, he's into the IDEA, but probably only with people he trusts and knows aren't only banging him because of how hot he is. all the dialogue during that scene, as sexy as it is, is EXTREMELY objectifying toward Astarion. it fits his story that it would make him uncomfortable once it becomes clear that that's The Vibe! let him come to that conclusion, he's a big boy! you don't have to treat him like he's made of glass - he's a survivor and he's his own person who gets to make these decisions and deal with the consequences. with a partner who loves him and can help him through it! that's that real good shit imo, that's the shit that makes this game's relationships and character moments feel so real even when they have to veer into headcanon territory.

[hoodreader]

Sept. 7, 2024. Moon in Scorpio ♡

general transit reading. word count. 1.0K+

keywords healing. subconscious. vivid yet confusing dreams u gotta meditate on. surrender. shadow work. grudges. trauma. triggered. discomfort. survival. the chariot. reality. ���i saw things i imagined” by solange.

the moon enters scorpio on september 7th, 2024 @ 1:18 AM EST.

when the moon transits into scorpio, we begin to feel more protective over what is intimate to us, so we recluse into ourselves. transits like these, we become sensitive to the depths of our souls/psyches/minds/emotions.

but the moon isn't comfortable here. despite the fixed-watery nature of scorpio, the moon in scorpio is like frozen ice that's cracking under pressure. there's only so much weight and heat that can be taken before the surface succumbs and vulnerability is exposed. water characteristically flows. it's meant to be malleable and movable, which scorpio isn't (as a result of it being fixed). u must learn to move the water.

for that reason, even though we are now more sensitive to our unseen energies, for those unfamiliar with navigating a malefic-influenced moon (and unsure how to get that water flowing) this can be a confusing and triggering time. u can feel a bit emotionally stuck on what ur being exposed to during the descent into ur own psyche: buried memories, things u tried to repress, and unresolved grudges may bubble to the top like underwater volcanic fissures.

some of these things can trigger u into survivalism if u never processed them. the moon is as integral to understanding ur root chakra energy because it represents shelter, instinct, protection, and intuition: evolved traits we use to protect ourselves. and this is the case of mars (the ruler of scorpio) as well. mars is the blood, the desire to fight and advocate for urself, and so on. but the moon is the benefic, representing security. whereas mars is the malefic, representing insecurity.

moon is the home, the immediate community, food, rest. u must be secure to have a shelter to protect u from the elements/enemies, to have a loving people around u, to be nourished, and to be able to comfortably be unconscious - this is why the moon is truly one of the most intimate planets there is, as u surrender logic and awareness when u sleep.

but mars is the insecurity of survival, of enemies, of starvation, of sleeplessness. when u feel unsafe, u are unable to feel secure. which is why the moon in scorpio transit can trigger people into feeling unprotected, thus, they feel they must switch over to survival mode in order to ensure that the body survives.

this is also the case considering mars in cancer will form a trine and mutual reception with the scorpio moon transit. both of these planets of survival are afflicted. mars doesn’t fare well in the sign of cancer, as cancer/moon is nurturing. cancer/moon represents empathy. and the fact that the moon exalts in the third house shows that these qualities are necessary for community, emphasis on unity. this is at odds with the core principles of mars, which is aggressive and unharmonious.

the mutual reception means that they help each other, but only when blending the respective energies. sometimes feeling triggered is a necessary catalyst. mars will bring heat to encourage the frozen exterior of scorpio to melt away, and expose ur shadow to urself. how many of y’all ever tried to hug, embrace, understand, or merely see ur shadow? y’all get told to kill it, but no. the shadow is a part of y’all. it’s the natural consequence of light.

translate this to the emotions and psyche. the things that may trigger u emotionally up until september 9th, 2024 (when the moon enters sagittarius) may be the shadows u house within urself. a moon in scorpio transit is a time for emotional transformation. mars in cancer likes feeling safe. it’s reluctant to be triggered. it side steps and avoids confrontation unless it’s cornered.

scorpio moon transits can bring a spiral of paranoia. fears of jealousy, enemies, mal ojo, and more. but a lot of times, we undo ourselves in our psyches. sometimes, we corner ourselves with our fear and grudges. when u always looking for an enemy, all u gon find is an enemy. and all u gon find is shit to confirm that there is an enemy. so what u gon do?

eventually, the scorpio moon will form a trine with the boundless saturn in pisces retrograded. many think it is scorpio/pluto who is the body of shadows, but saturn is also significant in interpreting them. this shadow is something like a blurry haze. like the shadows u get from various different light sources shining on the same subject.

reality is tangible and shows one subject, but the shadow (representing the unseen, the misunderstood, the repressed) shows as many subjects as there are light sources. and this can be disorienting for the moon in scorpio — the frozen river — who desires fixed structure for security.

but saturn — being not only retrograded and in pieces — says relinquish reality as u know it. it’s the understanding that the unreal and the real aren’t mutually exclusive. that they blend into each other freely. saturn, the planet of grudges and baggage, tells the scorpio moon (who craves a constant) to let go. let go of the need to constantly be on the defense. the active cancer mars melted the waters. now the boundless pisces saturn Rx encourages the waters to pass.

the afflicted moon contacts two malefics before it enters sagittarius. i don’t expect this transit to feel easy. i expect some folk to be a little defensive. i expect some folk to immediately deflect when triggered b/c they feel attacked. shiii, i myself got cancer placements and a scorpio moon. baby, i’m tired. i know i’m about to get tested. but… this process would be less draining if we stopped resisting our own internal, energetic ‘riverflow.’

knowing that reality and unreality blend in and out of each other, what do u accept in ur reality? what do u want to ‘freeze’ and preserve? what do u want to let wash away? what do u wish to protect and house within u? that’s ur choice. saturn in pisces Rx shows u free will. that ur karmic descent into ur psyche isn’t as determined or fixed as u think. remember, u hold the reigns to ur chariot.

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[a-d-nox]

pac/pap (creature feature: beholder): what do you see that no else does? what aren't you hearing?

welcome to my october pac/pap creature feature series - instead of having a single pac/pap this month, there will be five! every monday (at 5p / 17:00 EST) this october, a new creature will be coming out to play as the sun begins to set earlier and earlier... keep an out; you never know what is lurking in the darkness...

today's creature is the beholder: song queued: "somebody's watching me" by rockwell! do you live in the mountains or near cave systems? the beholder is likely right underfoot or lurking in shadows of your mountainside as we speak... the beholder is a fictional monster originally depicted in dungeons & dragons, a fantasy role-playing game. this creature is a floating orb of flesh with a large mouth containing hundreds of sharp teeth. a majority of its face is a single central eye; surrounding this creatures head are many smaller eyestalks each with their own powerful magical abilities. this creature is mainly reliant on eyes - but where are their ears? their hearing is akin to a snakes - poorly developed and prone to common diseases/infections.

take what resonates leave what doesn't - nothing is 100% for you because these aren't personalized so please no angry comments or dms about what i am saying not being a good fit for you or that you "don't claim" just keep scrolling if that is the case. be kind, self reflect, and have fun.

last pac/pap: how can you be more honest with yourself?

masterlist of pap/pac posts

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pile one

you see other's pasts more clearly than they themselves do. for instance, you can see and understand more clearly why they are discontented in their present / how their past effects their future. you also can see how people can best heal from their past to have a better future. and because of that, you know that change is an inside job first and foremost.

you are likely struggling to hear your feelings; mainly, you are struggling with intuition and self-trust. taking life too seriously and not making time to play and explore causes a lot of strain on any of us. we then struggle to understand our emotions and thus lack a knowledge of what truly brings us joy and happiness. be more sensitive to your, and others', feelings. don't take things too seriously - play; have fun - and realize that not everyone is trying to harm you or your feelings.

pile two

let's face the facts - you see everything. you have a true curiosity when it comes to the world around you. you can also see good thing come towards you from a mile away - chances are you can sense who/what is good or bad for you. keep a watch for opportunities in the world around you; they are surely set to appear.

you aren't hearing the universe shouting at you not to settle. there is no time limits on life. listen to your gut - if you feel something is missing, listen. it is never too late to fill the spaces in your life that you feel are lacking. follow you heart and your instincts when seeking what exactly those missing pieces are. know it is okay to release the things that once brought you joy - you are allowed to change. it's time to declutter life.

pile three

you see what motivates others - you see what they truly want beneath the front they put forth. you also understand what you do and why you do it. you know when someone wants recognition versus when they want attention from others. you might also see the ideal state of things; in that respect, you are sort of an optimist!

you aren't listening to those, and yourself, that it is time to let go and free yourself from false hope. hope is a good thing to have but know that when a pattern presents itself or when you are stuck in a cycle, sometimes it is up to you to walk away. it's not enough for you to hope that things will change, you are have to take action for things to get better. hear me when i say that you must free yourself from your past and from the destructive things in your life - the new year in around the corner; drop the old in time for the new to come in. it's alright to make difficult or unpopular decisions.

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other then that, thank you for reading! don't forget to comment down below which monster you believe is coming to join us next monday?

[katiifaestarot]

Before we get started: IM GOING LIVE ON MY TIKTOK TODAY; February 29th, 2024 AND GIVING OUT FREE READINGS!!!

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THE READING TODAY IS: A Message from the Fae: Using Charm Casting + Mini Tarot ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚

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There are 3 piles and you will be picking through the Crystals/Worry Stone in the picture right below this text!!!

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✨️🧚🏽‍♀️please choose your pile and may your intuition and inner knowing guide you to the pile with the energy most suited for you and most suited to help you along your path at this current point in time, no matter what that looks like🧚🏽‍♀️✨️

PILE 1- Amethyst + Clear Quartz Wand

PILE 2- Aragonite Star Cluster (Raw)

PILE 3- Hawk Worry Stone

** sometimes ( most of the time ) i will pick up on multiple energies that need attention or want to be expressed during the reading so i ASK YOU TO UNDERSTAND THIS DURING MY READINGS:

depending on how the reader(YOU) chooses to look at the situation or however the situation resonates for the reader(YOU) and because this is a general reading;

⚠️you HAVE to be able to use your better discernment + better judgement skills to fully absorb the message and be able to do the necessary work to keep you on track for the future you WANT for yourself⚠️

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OKAY PILE 1:

Your message from the Fae is more of a gentle reminder that you must course correct yourself at this time. While you are doing what you can and must for yourself during this period of your life (no matter what that looks like rn) you are being encouraged to take one step back and fully feel, release, and move towards a better outcome or future. The universe wants you to keep an open mind and for you to have fun again!! Keep your plans to yourself, Keep yourself in TIGHT, tip, top shape!, and give yourself freeedom however, and whenever you can! Its not childish to play like your child self would've or consume things your child self would've loved to consume: its healing. Dont feel shame for taking a break or vacation if you have that privilege! and dont stay wallowing or in a negative mindset because of your past: Move on, gain the proper clarity, stay rooted in your truth and honesty, and release those emotions that want to come out!! Take your time, do not rush yourself♡

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OKAY PILE 2:

Your message from the fae is unique and rather specific, so let me know if you chose this pile and how it resonated with you if you can! This pile will NOT be for everyone so please exercise discernment: Yes, you're cunning and very good at getting what you want pile2, but you are using this talent and skill on the wrong person/people/situations at this point in time. You could easily manifest more for yourself if you trusted the fact that what is leaving your life is meant too. You keep looking back on "better days" that aren't better. They're just familiar or comfortable for you. You create unnecessary conflict within your mind or your immediate environment because you're acting on thoughts that aren't true. You must walk away from things that trouble you or keep you stagnant and stuck. If you want to get what you deserve... Make sure your attitude and actions are geared towards YOU, not anyone else. Make sure your intentions are in the right place and that you continue to trust yourself and release what no longer serves you. Dont try to hold things together that are clearly broken for good.♡

extra things: scorpio energy, night owl, wanting to buy cute keychains, gold jewelry.

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OKAY PILE 3:

Your message from the fae is very light and positive, even if you dont feel very...light or positive in your life. You are holding onto many burdens and this is your reminder; Drop Them. You have the world at your finger tips but you cannot go out and explore when your worried about unwanted/unnecessary things. Allow the tower moment(s) to happen so you can rebuild a solid, fun, worry free ( hehe there is a reason you picked the worry stone ) foundation for yourself. Maybe pick up a worry stone for when your anxiety becomes overwhelming. Pile 3, you will figure things out in time and you will ultimately be victorious and achieve great things for yourself as long as you watch your own back, believe prosperity is possible for you, and stay optimistic! Go out in the sunshine and bathe like a flower! Blossom into who you were always meant too. Authentic and Bubbly ♡

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I sincerely hope you received what you needed and released what you don't !! See you again soon!! Take it easyyy and just breathe and fllooowwww!!! you got this! byyeee~🧚🏽‍♀️✨️

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***AND REMEMBER: your own free will is always present within you; which has nothing to do with me or ANYBODY else. I am NOT responsible for YOUR choices after YOU consume my content on ANY of my platforms.

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[freyafukunaga]

❤️‍🩹 freya fukunaga on the scene!

there was once a girl in love, and when she was left behind, she couldn't accept it. long did she slumber in a cocoon of blankets, gorging herself on wish fulfillment, until at last she emerged, and declared,

"I'll become one of those vtubers that he loved so much, and make it big so he'll have no choice but to turn his eyes towards me!!"

... but that's an old story! having healed from much heartbreak, this variety streamer is here to stay! and i am doing! my! best!!

about me!

my usual schedule is thursday, saturday, and sunday evenings at 7 PM EST, sometimes with afternoon streams on thursdays and saturdays as well!

my specialty is otome games, but i'm bi so really i'll take any romance game that lets me be a lovestruck maiden!

i enjoy exploration games as well (counting minecraft and dark souls as part of the same genre) and my utter lack of a sense of direction does not stop me

You cannot begin to comprehend how powerful I am.

i try to get in an art stream once a month as practice as well! trying my best to improve!

overall, just wanna have a fun and relaxed time, because it turns out that streaming is fun! i like to do it, and hope that you'll like to come watch as well 🍀

links: Twitch | Discord art: baimaobai | rigging: ️toxicneka

[pumpkin-genocide]

“Abnormal Nights in Gotham”? Never heard of her!

I know that isn’t how the joke goes, suffer.

Here are some questions about this page and the “Abnormal Nights in Gotham” podcast my crew reminded me I probably should answer;

What platforms are the episodes going to be on?

Currently, episode 1 and 2 are up on YouTube. We also have episode 1 and 2 scheduled to come out at 4:00pm (EST) on Sunday and Monday on RSS. I am planning on putting it up on Spotify if I ever figure out how that works, and I’ll notify you guys if I ever figure out how to use any other platform. https://youtube.com/@pumpkingenocide?si=mLPVhLvJNMpNunAm

https://rss.com/podcasts/abnormal-nights-in-gotham/

How many original characters are added to this series?

Ummmm errmmm uuuhhh *looks over to my entire landfill full of original characters* ummm just a few :D

No, but seriously, there are a lot of original characters in this. I’ve had this story for a while, and half of these characters I even put into my own original stories just so I can have them for myself. The Ruby-Blu siblings are just a few main character original characters, I have a lot more where that came from that you’ll meet in the series.

Who voices who in the series?

This list can change because we have a limited amount of voice actors and a lot of characters, but here is the list so far:

Ernest Ruby-Blu - Roy

Jay Ruby-Blu - Nick

Oliver Ruby-Blu - Oliver aka Dr Strainge

Elijah Clystone - Roy

Chelsea Chesher - Shannon

Harley Quinn - Chloe (sometimes Roy because of scheduling problems and such)

Two Face - Roy

The Penguin - Nick

Riddler - Oliver aka Dr Strainge

Scarecrow - Caleb

Mad Hatter - Nate

Catwoman - Shannon

Calendar Man - Oliver aka Dr Strainge

Killer Moth - Mikey aka Humanity

Poison Ivy - Taylor

Dr Joesph Arkham - Oliver aka Dr Strainge

Jack Ryder - Roy

Matthew Steward - Mikey aka Humanity

Vicki Vale - Taylor

Robert Martin - Nate

Kitty Feldzeig - Roy

like I said, this list could change at any moment and we make more episodes, more characters will be introduced onto this list.

Are there explicit content? (Bonus question that one of the crew said I should clarify - Do you make money off of this?)

You bet it! Always look out for the content warnings, because a lot of these episodes dive into some serious and sometimes sore subjects. I like to use my storylines as ways to address real life problems that people face, and this story is no different. There is going to be angst, hurt, anger, despair, and a lot of pain that eventually can turn into healing.

bonus question answer - NOPE, we just like making this stuff and we literally make no money at all. Like we’ve said in the past, we are just some buds having a good time.

[thediktatortot]

Putting out feelers for a Harringrove, Steddie or some Harringroveson friendship The Last Of Us Au Rp. I’ve been trying to get myself back into writing after this winters bout of depression so I need something I can chip away at with someone. I have a NSFW Rp going on with someone else atm, so I’m looking for someone very Gen for this one (though I still want there to be like…romantic tension and all that good stuff.)

Looking for something either medium or long story idea wise. Low pressure to respond, I can sometimes need a few days reprieve from writing, so no pressure for having to wait between posts. I can also get into the groove, so if you get into a groove no shame lol. EST hours.

I wrote up an opening already because I was inspired, so just hit me up if you are interested. I’m primarily asking Mutuals.

I had a partially thought of story idea for a TLOU crossover where Steve and Billy end up meeting up in the open world, probably a smaller city where Steve was separated from the kids and the other adults at some point in time but he learned about where they were taken, somewhere up northern to another GQ zone that's much bigger and is run by more official government so it's assumed to be 'safer' though it's not necessarily, but it's still pretty heavily guarded. Billy is ALSO trying to get there, but for very different reasons (I imagine he's apart of the fireflies in this only because he doesn't agree with Fredra's ways and he is a survivalist). He got seperated from his partner Eddie who was taken by raiders and he's trying to track him down since he had the information they needed to bring down that particular section of Fedra.

Billy has been unfortunately wounded and is holed up in a house/building somewhere to heal, rationing his food before Steve comes along and finds him. They get into a fight obviously, or Billy traps him or catches him off guard but they eventually figure out they aren't going to kill each other.

Steve is open, too open and just happy to see people and tells Billy all about the kids and his adult friends and how he's desperate to find them and be reunited with them. Billy of course, at first, takes advantage of his naivety bc he doesn't know this guy from adam and he needs help to get what he needs. So he tells Steve he'll guide him to the GQ if only they go after to save his partner.

Queue adventure.

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Steve stepped up to the entrance of what looked like an old dollar store, glancing side to side down the road to make sure there wasn't anyone watching where he was going before he adjusted the backpack against his shoulders and pushed the old glass door open. It creaked on it's hinges causing him to cringe, stopping so there was just enough space for him to squeeze himself through before closing the door once again.

He'd been safe so far, strayed away from populated areas after escaping the Indiana GQ zone, stuck to dense forests and mountains before walking large swaths of flat grasslands that made up the Iowa state. Or at least, he hoped he was in Iowa, seeing as he'd never used a map before his escape from Fedra's walls.

"*fuck*." Steve whispered to himself, staying quiet as he listened for any movement inside the smaller building, eyes raking through the pilfered racks of old junk food and magazines. Nothing was ever easy, nothing was quiet and nothing ever turned out right if he was to believe the people in Fedra, their propaganda on staying in the safe zones they'd made for the people of this world.

Safe was relative in this life, seeing as Fedra had done their own fair share of destruction and killing to rival the infection.

Steve wished he saw what the world before looked like, seen it in magazines some of the other boys in the GQ had found after coming back from illegal trips outside the walls. It was...colorful back then it seemed, lights everywhere, music and noise, no one afraid to step outside their door in fear of getting bitten or raped by the many monsters that existed in this world.

But he'd never get to see that so he pushed on, ruffling his hair of the dust that fell down from the top of the old door and coated him, leaning down to pick up a piece of debris to toss into the back of the store.

Nothing. No movement.

"Fucking finally." Steve sighed, rubbing a dirty hand over his stubbled face as he walked further into the old store. He was exausted and hungry, his rations getting smaller and smaller by the day and he knew he needed the energy to spend a few days resource gathering but he'd only manage to do it if he had a nights rest. Sleeping on top of box trucks and in trees wasn't really a way to get a full eight hours of shut eye.

"Ok...search, secure, sleep." Steve mumbled to himself, having been alone for a while now that it was the only way he got to hear another voice. "Maybe you'll get lucky." He huffed, fingers sliding along the metal shelf as he walked the isle slowly. "Maybe this time you might find some expired boxes of crackers or something- *oh* or maybe-" Steve moved quicker to the back of the store, his eyes lighting as he saw a can on the ground, the top unopened.

[shortpplfedup]

My School President Episode 11: So what now?

Man I freaking loved this episode. Grief, healing and the power of friendship? An overprotective mother's internal struggle to let her son grow up and live his own life? Sign me up. An incredibly focused episode this week, as Chinzhilla doesn't win Hot Wave and almost comes apart over it, and Ms. Potjanee contemplates how to broach the subject of Gun with Tinn now that she's realised they're together.

Verse: Sad est moi

Didn't I give it all? Tried my best Gave you everything I had, everything and no less

Adele | Take It All (2011)

The stages of grief, starring Anger as the main character. Watching our boys first turn away from each other, then lash out at each other as Por (!) tries desperately to keep them all together...that hurt a lot. To fail at this thing they had so much of their self-worth tied up in causes a big spiral. They really left everything on that stage, and still came up short. Life goes that way sometimes. Add in the disastrous return trip to the temple at the beach where everything that can go wrong does go wrong, and it's no wonder they're all at each other's throats. Harsh words are spoken. Fisticuffs are threatened. Tears are shed. Watching Win lash out at Gun was especially painful, because Win has been the most loyal. He has been the one most supportive of Gun's leadership, so to see him scream repeatedly at Gun that their loss is his fault...oof. We already know that's exactly how Gun feels, so for Win to just scream it in his face over and over and over was the absolute worst. I hated every minute of the boys fighting, they're all so fragile, so scared, so hurt, so sad.

We've already seen that Por may be dumber than a bag of hair, but has a keen emotional intelligence. I loved him bringing the fight to a swift close by taking the blame onto himself, by reminding them that THEY ARE FRIENDS FIRST AND FOREMOST and they shouldn't be fighting like this, that they have to mourn together, and keep going. He basically shames them all into acting right, all while wearing a fab outfit and sporting a broken leg. And then Yak, who understands intimately this particular pain, calls to remind them in his own way that there's life after this. That losing Hot Wave doesn't mean they're losers. Yak's band winning their Freshy Music Contest (look, in my head BB and MSP exist in the same universe, just go with it) is some sweet after the bitter. This defeat isn't the end, as much as it feels that way. There will be victories to come, and one of those victories is getting to see the next generation try and hopefully succeed.

There hasn't been a great deal made of the fact that the Music Club doesn't have any juniors for Gun et al to hand the Holy Chinchilla over to, but it's been noteworthy to me. Chinzhilla is a tradition that's been passed down, along with You Got Ma Back, for generations we've been told, but Gun and the gang seem to be the end of the line. There hasn't been interest in joining the bunch of slacker losers who just eat BBQ pork and never accomplish anything. But it seems like the band are more loved than they think, with the student body voting for them to play the prom. The school year might be winding down, graduation might be approaching, but there's still time for some kid or kids to poke their head around that corner and ask 'is this Music Club?'

Bridge: Facing the music

I'm holding on (barely) Mama's got a lot to learn (it's heavy) I'm holding on (catch me) Mama's got a lot to learn (teach me)

Adele | My Little Love (2021)

The other big story this week is Ms. Potjanee slowly and quietly coming to terms with her baby boy being queer. She almost fumbles it at every juncture, but she always pulls back and does the right thing. I was SO NERVOUS when she went to see Gun, but in the end she didn't put her jumbled feelings on him and I breathed a sigh of relief. Her asking Tinn flat out if Gun invited him to the beach, and him deciding to trust her with the truth that he is going on Gun's invitation, and her just quietly allowing it without asking questions in that moment...it's all so well done. Potjanee is trying so hard to do right by her son, even as she struggles with all that means, like not being overprotective and trusting that she has raised Tinn to handle the slings and arrows of the world. It's a different response from Ms. Gim, who I think is going to start wedding planning when Gun tells her he and Tinn are dating, but it's still the response of a loving mother. It's why I don't buy the cliffhanger dread and the doom preview: because Potjanee has continued to struggle but in the end do the right thing.

Ad Libs

It looks like most of the Chinzhilla boys haven't secured a university place. I wasn't surprised at Gun and Win, but Pat and Por not having future plans in place yet was a bit unexpected. I wonder if this is kids who've done the direct admission exams at this point while the others are still preparing for the GAT.

Watching Chinzhilla dream-sing 'Healing' to themselves put me right in my feels.

Is Ford gunning for the Mix Sahaphap sultriness crown? There was WAY too much sauce for a high school romcom coming off Por when he was flirting with Tiw.

That said, the Tiw/Por came out of nowhere but I refuse to be mad about it.

Tinn is EXACTLY the kind of boy who would gift his musician boyfriend a custom-made music box that plays the love song he wrote for him. Mixtapes are for the weak!

They're playing with us now when it comes to a Tinn/Gun kiss...lol. But in a way I'm glad they're dealing with the parents stuff first.

After the Bad Buddy episode 12 preview I'm absolutely not believing a single moment of this one.

The finale is going to be prom, and I can't think of a more fitting way to end this story (until Our Skyy 2 anyway).

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Earenya meditation and offering

Below is a long transcript of a weekday observation for tolkien elven religion <3 Thursday is Earenya, the day of waters and the three Valar associated with water.. It is a day of the external waters of the world (Lord Ulmo), and the internal waters of our hearts (Lord Nienna) and our bodies (Este.) These three Valar are communed with, worshiped, or worked with on this day. My practice every single day is to give a potion offering to the Valar of the day and meditate on their place in my life. Sometimes the moon phase or month changes how specifically i focus on this practice.

Starting out with seven minutes of silent sitting with this drone in the background, just breathing and feeling the flame of my fëa, the light of the flame imperishable in the world around me. Slowly, the boundaries between my ideas of things and the reality of them goes fuzzy and soft.

Then, prepping my offering for today. Just clean drinking water with a little potion of powdered lion's mane, rhodiola, and orange, then tincture of mullein. Stirred while admiring the swirl of the water counterclockwise, opening the nets of my body and heart to release what it has caught over time.

I stand and sing lindë elenlotë using my finger to mark the points of the star flower: like a clock, 4-- Elenya, 8-- anarya, 2-- isilya, 7-- alduya, 12-- menelya, 5-- earenya (today! the warmth of Ulmo's joy washes over me), 10-- valanya, and back to 4-- arda.

I then face the directions and intone them one at a time: East, Rómen. (also 12 on the star: menelya, the day and direction of Varda and Manwe) Downward, Undo. (5 on the star: Earenya, day and direction of Ulmo and Nienna) North, Formen. (10 on the star: Valanya, day and direction of Tulkas and Vána (though valanya is day of all valar, not just those two.)) Within, Enda. (4 on the star: Elenya--day of Varda and all elves, but direction of Orome and Nessa) West, Númen. (8 on the star: Anarya, day of the sun and fiery valar, but direction of Namo and Vaire.) Above, Vilya. (2 on the star: Isilya, day of the moon and cool/silvery valar, but direction of Este and Irmo.) South, Hyarmen. (7 on the star: Alduya, day of the two trees and day and direction of Yavanna and Aule.) facing same direction, intoning Illúve for the illumination of Eru we all share.

Because today is Earenya, day of waters, day of Ulmo, Nienna, and Este, I crouch and set my offering down and put both palms on the floor to either side of it.

"Hail Ulmo, lord of all waters in the world, whose waves carry the sound of the original song of creation and stretch over all the width and depths of the world. You touch my life at every possible layer and support me in ways i cannot fully know. Thank you, for your joy in the creation, for staying with my people in all forms of exile, for your warnings and protections. Enjoy the fruits of my cup, which are your fruits--this clean water is your gift to me. My joys are your joys, and my sorrows are your sorrows.

"Hail Nienna, Fui, whose heart stretches across all darkness and all time, to every wound and uncertainty. Thank you for the cleansing process of grief, the waxing and waning of suffering that lets wisdom grow. Thank you for your constancy in my life and the depths of compassion you enable in my heart. Take the fruits of my cup, the waters of my tears and my labors. My joys are your joys, my sorrows are your sorrows."

I then stood with the cup and lifted it upward, Vilya, the direction of Este and Irmo.

"Hail Este, who teaches me my trade and has designed so many wondrous plants in communion with other Valar. Thank you for your kind attention to our bodies and their capacity to heal, and for the wide interwoven web of plants and other life that can heal and feed one another. The fruits of my cup are absolutely yours, the fruit of my learning herbalism, which could not be without your constant inspiration and remonstrations. My joys are your joys, and my sorrows are your sorrows."

I then faced south and held my cup outward.

"Hail Lord Yavanna, giver of all fruits and maker of life: this is your month, Yavannie, the month of final harvest. This time is rich with food and light, though soon it will wane and fade. Thank you for the cycle of life and death that feeds and makes food of all. My cup is your cup, my joys are your joys, and my sorrows are your sorrows.

I sat a while with the cup to my chest, breathing in joy in the light of our flaming souls, and then drank the offering after the Valar had their time to enjoy it.

This was crossposted a couple of places including cohost.

[sailforvalinor]

The Nutcracker and the Four Realms is by no means a fantastic film, but it’s a such a shame because it could have been! The pieces were all there! The concept of Clara, feeling lost and out of place in the world that her mother left her in, stumbling into an entire world also dealing with the loss of the same person is fantastic, and if the film had done even just a little bit more with it it could have been great. Marie is mentioned all the time, but as the film is more concerned with showing how visually stunning the Four Realms are than actually diving into its characters, we never get a sense of the hole that she left behind and how Clara is (or is not) able to fill it. If Marie had been given a bit more of a tangible presence in the world, rather than just characters talking about her constantly (but never actually telling us anything of substance about her character except for how wonderful she was), the Sugar Plum Fairy’s betrayal would’ve felt a ton more justified. Clara and the Sugar Plum Fairy were clearly meant to be foils for one another, and the film could’ve benefited from bringing how they both handle their grief into sharper focus—Clara pulls into herself and doesn’t engage with the outside world, while the Sugar Plum Fairy tries to extend her power outward beyond herself to try control her environment, but what both have in common is that they both try to exert control in order to establish the security that they feel they’ve lost in Marie. I wish the film could’ve been a little bit clearer in its “it’s okay to miss me, but you will heal and you have the ability to stand on your own” message, which is at least what I think it was going for, rather than the cliched “the power was in you all along and your the most-est special-est person ever,” which is definitely what it felt like at times. The “the wonderful invention your mother ever created was you” rang especially hollow at the end, as it kind of ignores the existence of Clara’s two other siblings. Were they just not special enough? Because, if so…yikes.

I’m holding myself back from going on a whole rant about how this film handled Clara’s siblings, because that would take awhile, but I will say that if this film ever gets a sequel (which I still hope it does, as I said, there’s so much here), it HAS to include Clara’s siblings—the Four Realms are just as much their birthright as it is Clara’s.

Also, for a film called “The Nutcracker and the Four Realms,” it irks me so much how little the Nutcracker is involved in the plot. He’s just kind of there. In a film named after him he feels like an afterthought and I hate it! Why is he the only Nutcracker? Why is he guarding that bridge alone? Did he personally know Marie, or only as his queen? Is he actually a Nutcracker or a real person? There is so much they could’ve explored with him, but no, they decided to regulate him to being the guy with the sword and saying vaguely encouraging things to Clara sometimes. The one great moment he had was when Clara opens the music box and says, “There’s nothing here,” and he replies, “There’s music”—but then they undermine that a few scenes later by having him be wrong and there be a mirror in there! (I hate that mirror as a plot device so much.) I just—I—the wasted potential!

[shizukateal]

Mini Mahou May week 1: Ballerina Magical Warrior

This is Sara Dubois my single most beloved-est OC. While not really a ballet-exclusive magical warrior, it is one of her main expertises, and besides I almost never draw her and will use any excuse to do so.

Here's a rundown of her abilities:

Flight: self-evident enough.

Chlorokinesis: mostly through her dancing, but she also favors a bow-and-arrows approach for faster range. She usually makes vines to bind or hang around if one of her teammates can't fly, thorny vines for extra painful binding and blocking (note: she does not like harming people so.), or poison ivy, or straight-up trees sometimes, but she can get creative! She has a passion for plants, you see. (no I did not steal the bow and arrow from Madoka, it's just that my ideas are b a s i c )

Intimate Healing: as long as someone feels loved near her, she can heal them. She can also heal herself through affection. This can take the form of physical affection from/towards her, or other people being affectionate to eachother and her healing them by proxy. However, healing an unconscious, unconsenting/unaware person transfers the damage to her. One can only imagine what would happen if she tried to bring someone back to life. People who do not feel loved or like they don't deserve love may also be hurt by this power.

Flying kisses (not pictured above): the power system of her story allows her to send kisses in the form of arrows to her team to heal them during battle. Same rules as the power before apply.

Love Arrows (not pictured above): What it says on the tin except not, kind of? When someone says "love arrows" people usually think "basically an aphrodisiac, but in arrow form", but Sara's arrows are not an aphrodisiac. Whoever they hit will get real feelings of love for who they immediately see next, and those are not exclusively sexual or romantic feelings. Depending of the people involved, any kind of love will bloom.

The power system of the story would allow her to infect people with Hanahaki Disease. However, Sara would never do that, because she is a good person.

[choicesflashfics]

Week #31 Prompts

This weeks prompts are:

Prompt 1 — “I’ll be damned if I don’t make you smile at least once today.”

Prompt 2 — “Whoever said ‘time heals’ is a liar.”

Prompt 3  — “Wait a second. Pause and rewind … what did you just say?”

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[jameswilsonsupremacy]

Hi Lucas! Can I pls ask for Gold and Gray? Also can I participate in the ask game, too? Like, on my blog?

-juju🦦 @sarcasstic-jpmvr

OMG HI JUJU ILYSM /p🫶🫶🫶 of course you can participate in your own blog!!! I’ll be sure to send in some asks :)

Grey - is your bedroom themed?

Mine is not!! I’ve always been super envious of anyone who has a themed bedroom, they’re all so pretty!! The closest I have to a theme is that I have numerous musical posters on my walls—specifically Team StarKid and Tin Can Brothers! I also hang up my friends’ artwork :)

Gold - for any new followers, who are you?

A question I ask myself every day lol!! But in all seriousness, on Tumblr, I am just a silly little fandom blog! Primarily House MD, but I dabble in others as well—it’s just focused on one media because I am suuuper hyperfixated haha.

Identity label-wise, I’m a non-binary (they/them in English, elle/elles en español, & iel/iels en français!) latine/latinx student in the USA (timezone: EST). I am going for a BA in Writing, and am a part of my university’s honors college!

My dream job is a journalist covering the real-life stories of queer individuals (especially trans folks) in Middle Eastern and African countries, while also calling out western society & their hypocritical standings of shaming/critiquing other countries for how they treat their 2SLGBTQIA+ citizens when… the government (in the USA) is not doing much to protect their own queer citizens lol… I expect that this work will inevitably be something I cannot make a living off of, since western media tends to blatantly Not Care about anything that will contrast with their values, so I’ll probably work in a coffee shop for the rest of my life and live with a bunch of roommates!

I am also super pro-mental health care, and a real-life example that there is always a better tomorrow. I have multiple diagnoses that sometimes come up in my headcanons of characters because protection is a loved coping skill <3 I’ve been in recovery/healing for about 10-11 months now, and grateful for my opportunity to find love in the form of sunny days and comforting drinks. I still have dark days, and hopelessness still crawls in sometimes—that doesn’t mean my story is over yet. Yours isn’t either. Please stay safe and value your mental health <3

At the end of the day, I’m just a silly, overthinking black coffee lover who writes poetry in their free time and projects onto fictional characters! I’m really bad at answering messages right away simply because life is busy, but I always love making new friends!! Please feel free to reach out!!

[arcplaysgames]

okay before we get into anything, IF YOU PUT YOSUKE IN THE GEKKOUKAN UNIFORM, HE DOES JUNPEI'S VICTORY POSE. THE GALL. THE UNMITIGATED CHEEK. YOSUKE DREAMS OF BEING AS GOOD AS JUNPEI, MY MAIN MAN, MY RIGHT HAND, MY BRO-EST OF BROS.

still, very cute

okay so I FLEW through this place. Yosuke is doing 350-420 per special attack, which is even more than Kanji lately, and he dodges I would estimate about 40% of all attacks. I even wondered if I accidentally fucked with the difficult settings but no, everything is on normal, Yosuke is just a murder machine?????? wild

We knew that Namatame bounced out via the TV, this is not shocking.

ALSO KANJI AND NAOTO HAVE A DUAL-MOVE CALLED "THE BEAUTY AND THE BEAST" and listen I have wanted to swat Naoto before for being particularly rude but I'd never call them a beast personally

Green is not this guy's color, can I just say that?

But Namatame has Nanako, and it's November, and shit is Fucking Weird.

Namatame keeps talking about the Midnight Channel like it's putting a hit out on these people and he's reacting to it. So he's not especially informed about how the fucking thing works.

I... cannot figure out his angle here, and what he means about "saving" people. Does he understand that people left in the TV die? Like, how does he explain what happened to the announcer lady and to Saki? Why did he threaten Reverie to try and get him to stop rescuing people?

Is this guy so deeply confused about what the TV World does that he doesn't get that it kills people... or is he so far-gone on some righteous plight that he interprets their deaths in the TV as a salvation?

I have NO fucking idea!

When his Shadow emerges, it's already a part of him???? This... proposes a lot of questions. Is he unified with his inner self and is doing what he genuinely wants? Is there zero part of him that understands that shit is fucked?

Also, he thinks of the TV World as safe and clean while the real world is tainted. Why?

WHAT IS YOUR ANGLE MATT MERCER i mean namatame (matt mercer is v capable of being a chameleon voice but this time I was liek "oh hi mercer whaddup")

Yosuke and Kanji force Namatame back so we get Nanako away from him and then shit gets Weird. Like Mega Weird.

Teddie and Rise say all the shadows are converging on Namatame, and he turns into a big weird angle with "love and peace" typographically on his robe and a huge halo made of peace signs.

What in the absolute fuck.

NAOTO SOMETIMES YOU ASK QUESTIONS AND I JUST WANNA STARE AGOG AT YOU

TURN AROUND DUDE, YOU LOOK AT THAT GUY AND TELL ME HOW SOLID HIS GRASP ON REALITY IS

Namatame is weird to fight. Not particularly difficult, feels very much like a Story Set-Piece. I can't help but notice that even more than other fight arenas, his looks like the central backlot area of the TV world, the 'hub' area. And his more dangerous attack is not offensive but when he seems to use a TV antennae to mind control party members to turn on Reverie.

A TV antennae that controls minds. Very intriguing.

Anyway, Yosuke kills the fuck out of him while Knaji plays back-up and Naoto and Reverie heal.

At the hospital, Nanako is in such bad shape no one is allowed to even see her, which is..... concerning. Teddie says she was too young to have a shadow self. WHICH REALLY? FEELS LIKE A COP-OUT. I WANTED TO SEE SHADOW NANAKO SO BAD.

..... Adachi is still giving me the heebies and the geebies but maybe I'm just being paranoid because he actually volunteers to do something and stays with Dojima so Reverie can go home and rest. Which.... okay. Did I misjudge Adachi?

I mean, I didn't misjudge Shinjiro, Ken The Murder Child, or Ryoji, SO I THINK THERE IS SOMETHING UP WITH ADACHI. I just have no proof yet. 8\

I know one thing for sure: Namatame doesn't know shit about fuck, so the actual mystery of wtf is the midnight channel is STILL completely in the air, so he's maybe the tool the killer is using but is not the, like, mastermind of wtf is happening.

OOF. Anyway.

[padredeem]

＊ TO LET ME DREAM OF YOU . ＊ independent , selective , private . ː Joel Miller from HBO's and Naughty Dog's The Last of Us . written by Katie , she/her , 34.

Back then, there were basically two main ways of lookin' at things. Some people wanted to own everything. And some people didn't want anyone to own anything at all

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