#something about them realising that no there isnt still a chance this is it this is the ending guqqie cant stay with them forever

[cartwheelapple]

a bit of writing about the sunshipduo zombie au where guqqie is partly infected, after guqqie's infection had fully taken over and guqqie eventually went past the point of no return:

eventually, just like c!aimsey, this aimsey will let guqqie go and move on, they will grieve, so so much, and they will keep guqqie close to their heart for as long as they live but eventually they'll find a way to enjoy life again, no matter the desolate world and circumstances he has to live in.

maby he'll find others like ranboo, michela, tubbo and tommy, maby phil and kristin and he'll have a family again, he'll wont be alone anymore.

he will find a home again,

a home without guqqie, but that's just how life is. It doesnt always go your way, and there isn't always a happy ending,

but it will be allright,

somehow,

impossibly so,

it will be allright.

[etherealstar-writes]

I WANNA BE YOURS | LIONESSES X READER | PT 8

pairings: lionesses x reader

summary: in which you're accidentally added to a random group chat, not knowing they're all actually famous footballers, and obliviously end up having many of them competing for your love and attention.

part: eight

part one here

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THE NATIONAL DIVING TEAM

stairway y/n, i gotta tell you something very important

the imposter okay? what is it?

stairway

the imposter when and where?

stairway i was thinking a beach wedding this weekend

willybum WOAH WOAH WOAH hell nah gimme a chance

the REAL karate kid i can be a way better girlfriend than all of them y/n

neev no meee!

the imposter as much as i love all these offers you guys don't even know what i look like

elton wdym? we all know what you look like

the imposter well that's not creepy at all i never sent you guys a photo of me wait a second so you guys are stalkers! OMG I KNEW IT!!

elton NO NO NO WE ARE NOT your friend sent us that one time she was on your phone we assumed you knew that

the imposter WAIT WHAT NO I HAD NO CLUE OMG WHAT PHOTO WAS IT?? SHE DELETED IT ON THE CHAT

stairway wait a sec

the imposter WHATT I DONT EVEN REMEMBER THAT THAT IS SO UNFAIR OMG hang on how do you even have that?

earpsy half of them have it saved on their camera roll in favourites

lauren 1 exposed haha

the REAL karate kid shut up

the imposter ..... um okay then that's not scary at all it isn't even a good photo

neev iSnT eVEn a GoOd PhOTo GURLLL shut upppp you're gorgeous i'll marry you instantly

the imposter aw tyyy ily <33

neev

the REAL karate kid NAHH BACK UP RN

stairway

i'm coming for you charles

neev

elton hold on you guys i just realised

the REAL karate kid oh hell no

lotte what could she have possibly thought of now

maya everyone prepare yourselves

elton if pregnant women were to go swimming would they be classified as human submarines bcuz you know they're pregnant

the imposter

earpsy you really have outdone yourself this time

willybum

neev toone how the hell did you even think of that 😭😭

stairway no but she lowkey has a point tho ... they technically are if you think about it

lotte not you too 😭

the imposter ella bae ily but .....

the REAL karate kid i second that

elton

honestly you guys are just jealous jealous of my

meado

lord save me

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THE NATIONAL DIVING TEAM

the imposter how are my favourite stalkers doing? y'all have been quiet lately and i haven't been spammed with notifications from this chat it's kinda concerning hope y'all are doing well

lotte i would say enjoy the silence while it lasts lol but i'm doing well thanks! hope you're having a good day too <3

the imposter that's great to hear, and thank you!! xxx

stairway i'm doing good too!

neev i'm doing alright too thanks

elton oi we don't stalk you .... all the time

the imposter hold on okay i'm back

willybum WE'RE NOT STALKING YOU 😭

the imposter

guess this is goodbye my stalkers this has to end 🤝😔

stairway Y/N NOOO

the imposter

just booked myself some karate lessons see you guys on the streets ✌️

neev oh my god 😭

elton that's it i'm never going outside or leaving my house again

willybum nahhh this isn't fair Y/N come backkk

the REAL karate kid y/n my lovee plsss 🥺 i blame ella for all this

elton oi it's not my fault!

stairway it's okay we'll just wait here .... y/n?

neev okay its been half an hour y/n and still not an answer pls answer

the imposter a bit desperate are we, guys? what if i was just peeing?

stairway no of course not

willybum pfft we're not desperate

lotte um if you were peeing for about 30 mins then i would be seriously concerned and would be booking you a doctor's appointment

the imposter yeah yeah whatever you say, my stalkers :)

part nine here

[ravers8fantasy]

💫Glass joe headcanons!⚜️

Started boxing around his mid 20s

The W.B.V.A only really kept him around because he brought viewer rates up but eventually he became a fan favourite for his determined attitude

He loves musicals you cannot tell me he hasn't seen les miserables and moulin rouge! multiple times and cried

He hates cats the costume are uncanny in his opinion (the musical is literally about cats introducing themselves for a chance to have a better life or smth)

His hair cut is lopsided because he tried to cut his own hair a couple of years back, now its just kinda growing out like that

Literally only eats bread but because im gonna drift a little from canon im gonna say he is also big fan of french pastries, especially canelles

His english isnt the best, he knows the words its just that his accent makes it difficult for him to properly say the words

He decided to learn Italian when he was younger due to their similar lexical fields and is now fluent

Patriotic AF one time he was asked what he loved most in the world other than bread by an interviewer and bro said France , he literally says viva la France in the ring

Speaking of France he also loves French history, dont get him started on the French revolution he will yap on and on and on and on until he cant yap any more

Can cook but cant really bake, last time he tried to bake a cake he somehow added way too much flour

Clumsy af, he somehow manages to find himself in the most cartoonish of situations

These include, slipping on a banana once, tripping over his feet numerous times, trying to catch something and dropping it on his feet, walked into many lamp posts etc

He tried to get into the football team during his school years but tripped up over his own feet whilst running and went flying

Somehow, during the fall he broke his wrist so all the kids at school made fun of him and said he was built like glass

Is quite an akward guy around people he doesnt know, he tries to make small talk but usually it ends up with them ignoring him

I like to think he collects vinyls but doesnt have a vinyl player so he keeps them out as temporary decorations until he gets his hand on one

Plays the accordian. Well he did play accordian until he accidentally broke it

Got massive culture shock when coming to America for the first time, he also didnt realise how HUGE it was as well

He likes helping others, but is veeeeeery hesitant when others try to help him since he wants the others to see him more as a role model (even though he has 99 loses under his belt and 1 win)

Cant dance to save his life, his uncoordination is most likely the reason he is quite clumsy bless

FINAL ONE‼️ Joe might not realise it but some of the other boxers, especially the younger ones admire his ability to bounce back.

At first they thought he was kinda stupid (and still kinda do) over time they learnt to sort of respect the level of resilisnce joe has

Yay! Joe is done! Onto the next one😈

[lexithwrites]

Pls prongsfoot.

I am on my knees. Begging.

Pls!!

im just gonna write basic prongsfoot and not sugar daddy au prongsfoot incase this isnt about that,,,,enjoy!

i love the idea of sirius and james growing up together, like they went to the same preschool and begged their parents to hang out every day and they both cry when they have to go home

they also go to the same primary school and BEG to go to the same secondary school and of course they got their way, their parents weren't about to deal with the fallout of separating them

their school life is similar to hogwarts, they meet remus and peter and they're THE group, like they're nerds and play DND but also play football and are great with the teachers and their grades are good too and they're always up to some shit

but james and sirius have always been a little closer, not to the point of jealousy in the group but just,,,its different

james isn't super sure of his sexuality in secondary school but sirius is like,,handsome and pretty somehow? he likes girls, lily evans is still the hottest girl in school and his first crush, but sirius is,,,there's something about him

sirius knew he was bi since forever lmao he's dated guys and girls but nothing has ever really been 'love' for him, at least not yet

he loves james though, obviously, he's always loved james how could he not? he's handsome and funny and smart and charming and tall and—

they're each others first kiss at a house party in year 10, its awkward and they're drunk and outside in the garden trying cigarettes for the first time and its,,,nice?

james finally dates lily in sixth form and they're the school's it couple for months, they are really cute together and they're affectionate and they're both top of their classes, lily is the school's netball team captain and james is the football captain, its great

and then lily breaks down in their last year crying because she thinks she might be gay and she's been so scared to tell james and hurt him but he's the most supportive guy about it

he cries with her because he feels awful for making her feel bad about it

of course he's upset, he really loved lily and always will, but if it isnt meant to be, it isnt meant to be (he cries to monty and effie for a few weeks before finally coming out of hiding and he and lily stay close, james even helps set her up with girls when she's too nervous)

when sirius finds out he basically runs to james' house, he's so worried about his best friend and his heart is hammering in his chest and when he gets there they talk about everything and james cries a little, lily was his first crush, first love, first girlfriend, he lost his virginity to her, she's a huge part of his life and his story

and sirius feels awful because he's happy james is single...because maybe he has a chance?

sirius kisses him and its bad,,,james reels. back, he's so confused and upset and so is sirius and sirius goes home and they dont talk for like two weeks, its awful

peter and remus are awkwardly talking as the other two are silent until peter breaks and begs them to just stop the petty arguing and talk because they're best friends and this is weird, remus quietly agrees and tells them to grow some balls and talk about their feelings like men

sirius apologises for kissing him, smoking a cigarette outside the bike sheds as james kicks stones around and its awkward for sure but they make up

and james is slowly back to his old self after the break up, he and lily hang out and everything is okay, but sirius is,,,james feels different about him

he's more handsome than ever, more charismatic, he was always like this??

and james realises he fancies him and he whines to remus about it and remus, the very gay man that he is, just tells james to tell him

silly remus

james instead just tries to hang out with sirius like its normal, even after they finish sixth form and look for uni's to apply too together james is looking at sirius' lips, his fingers, his hair, his ass, his chest, everything

he's just,,,,gorgeous

and then their first week of uni happens, freshers is underway and remus is down from edinburgh and peter is back from holiday and they all go out drinking with their new flatmates and classmates and its great,,,then james sees sirius chatting a girl up and his heart breaks

james tries to drink it away but that wont work so he just huffs at sirius and drags him to the toilets to yell at him for flirting with someone and sirius is SO confused because why does james care then it slowly sinks in and as james is yelling and nearly crying, admitting that he wants sirius to flirt with HIM and ONLY him, sirius just grabs him and kisses him, dragging him into a stall and locking it

its so heavy and hot and passionate and everything they wanted and needed and maybe they jerk each other off in the bathroom, whose to say? but they come out red faced and with messy clothes and they're both grinning because god theyre idiots but they're each others idiots

[tillthelandslide]

Unbelievably So - Matty Healy Fic

He lies on his bed, his bare back against the soft comforter she insisted they bought. His right arm is hooked around her shoulders, her head resting gently against his chest. Her fingers trace the tattoo under his rib, his caresses the part of her arm he can reach, pressing soft kisses to her head. A cigarette sits unsmoked on his bedside table, aside it a scented candle is alight, it was something sweet, Matty didn't care for them but they reminded him of her.

He sighs deeply and this alerts her, her head flicks upwards checking he's okay and it wasn't an unhappy sigh. He smiles down at her, knuckles find her cheek and smooth across the surface. Fingertips grip her chin, tugging her towards his awaiting lips, they merge and her sigh becomes his.

"You okay?" She murmurs against his lips once he pulls away, the kiss quenching his need for her for now.

"I'm happy" he says simply, his shoulders shrug and he lets out a laugh, as if the phrase was amusing. Her face lights up at this, it pleases her soul to know when he's with her he's happy. Truly happy. She doesn't speak yet, knowing he might want to rant for a bit, something she knows helps quiet his ever loud mind.

"For years I always put this pressure on finding what makes me happy. I thought 'making it', selling out shows, being successful would make it happy. And it did... Partly. But once it wasn't there anymore I felt shitty.... Whether I'm with you or not, I'm happy now, incredibly so. You've made my soul happy" he says and she smiles.

"I love you" she says simply and it's enough for him. He appreciates how she knew he didn't need her to say much, he needed her too listen, to understand and she did.

"And now everything else feels better. We're making great music and it's not about what it used to be about. We don't care if there's seats empty, or if some people don't like the songs. We like it and you like it. Right?" He asks and she nods.

"Yeah" he smiles, looking at the ceiling, her lips press against his chest, his fingers find her chin again, he gently presses against it, pushing her face upwards until her eyes meet his.

"You're happy right?" He asks, a slight, unsure frown resting against his lips.

"Unbelievably so" she says, she hesitates. He knows she's about to ask one of her infamous hard hitting questions. Another reason why he loved her. Most people wouldn't ask him the questions they knew he'd struggle to answer. They'd think he was too fragile to answer them. She pushed him and made him answer them and in turn it healed parts of him. At the beginning of their relationship, Matty would get annoyed, thinking she was being pushy, he soon realised he never answered them because he didn't want to have to admit certain things weren't right.

"What would happen if this was to end? You'd still be happy right? Your happiness isnt dependent on me right? She asks and he pauses for a few minutes, thinking about her question.

"Would you be happy if we broke up?" He asked, turning it back on her, something he sometimes does to deter from the question.

"I'd obviously be heart broken, I love you, truly and I never want it to end and it won't. But for the sake of the slim chance it does, purely hypothetically... My whole existence, my... I wouldn't die. I just don't want all your happiness to be dependent on me... Because mine isn't" her words seem harsh but he understands them and understands why she's asking this.

"I'd like to think I would still be happy in the end still.... But I love you so fucking much and I honestly think it would break me. I suppose my life wouldn't be totally fucked though... It wasn't just you and your presence in my life that made me happy... You were like this catalyst, you sparked this idea ... You made me realise that being negative about life is shit... You changed what I valued. You made me value the smaller things more, like the band and my mates and the beauty of the world... So I suppose, if you were to leave, that would hopefully remain and I would be happy... In the end" he explained and she nodded. He felt another wave of relief hit him, he loved the realisations you unfolded in him.

"In the end" she agreed. He pushes at her waist, turning her on her back as he moved to hover over her, his grip on her waist tighten slightly and she let out a little giggle.

"Yeah after months if not years of being depressed that I lost you" he jokes, her fingers push back the parts of his hair that flop in front of his face.

"God the guys would hate you, mopey Matty annoys them" she jokes and they both laugh. "They'd hate me more thoufh" she says seriously.

"They could never. And I could never'

"It's not going to happen though, you won't lose me" she says and he nods, they both truly believed it, leaning down to connect their lips. The kiss is sweet but firm and always passionate.

Their lips move like clockwork, each knowing the others like a map. His tongue makes a calculated swipe against her bottom lip and her mouth opens on instinct. His tongue finds hers and they mold together easily, moving naturally against one another. She sighs as his hand moves down from her waist, gripping her hip and pulling her upwards, her body arched, their cores flushed against each other. Matty groans into her mouth, breaking away for a breather. Her lips quickly find his neck and his hips move harshly against hers. Her sighs, moans and groans have him hardening to a painful extent.

'Im yours" she murmurs against his ear, something she knows he just thrives off of.

"Fuck, say it again" he murmurs, lips moving back to hers.

"I'm yours" she repeats, lips moving quickly against his again, not allowing much time to pass without them being connected.

"Your mine" he confirms. His lips smash against hers again.

[scentedpeachlandcreator]

so im going to a concert next year for the first time in awhile im kinda nervous ngl cause my seat is so high up it doesnt really feel safe but i love this group yet im bummed out im not going to get any extras due to the seat being basic and i wasnt going to overspend for no valid reason and imho but if i were to have got standing tickets id probably have struggled so my only option really was a cheapy seat so high up but my other thoughts is 1. at least im going and 2. if i was to have bojght standing all i would see is the members through the sea of smartphones which isnt that great of an experience

id still love to receive like a bonus or something to make the event feel more worthwhile

im just wondering what u think i should do or go about? i know manifesting works done it before in the past where i got a free bus ride twice and a few other things like that, my other question is they generally have been doing a send off and id loveeeee to go to that cause u get a chance to get merch signed by them or to see them more in person but idk if theyll fit it in here with their schedule. theyve not allowed much time so maybe even seeing them out and about was my other option yet ive realised theyll be spending it rehearsing again due to the fact they added a second date in the main coty which i was hoping they wouldnt cause i was planning on just chilling before the concert or maybe seeing them walking about the place.

its like the one time i will probably see them until the next tour so i have no idea what i particularly want or expect as its my first time seeing them perform i think it would be nice to have seen them but theres literally no chances now due to the stupid second date being added grrrr i was going to try to manifest seeing or meeting them somehow :c if u have any suggestions or advices itd be much helpful thank u. do u think i should try to get some cool freebies from the merch stall? :o sorry for rambling but tips would be nice cause i really couldnt get a different experience and its in two months time as well

Girl, don't overthink it, when you decide that you will then it is a fact.

You're the god of your own reality and what you Say goes.

Affirm your desired affirmation and know that it is done, it is gonna happen cause you said so.

You're gonna meet them cause you said so, and the moment you decided that it will then it is gonna happen cause it already happened in your imagination.

Now i need to hear your success story.

Xoxo, Eli

[aldritch-ao3]

(person who asked about toji and naoya) I'm really glad you feel the same way as me when it comes to their relationship, i honestly thought i'd only get a couple sentences, so thank you so much for that lengthy answer. Also with the 'naoya being an example of what gojo could've been' thing, i think that's really interesting. Cause i've seen something similar be explored before, with people writing naoya and gojo being raised as almost rivals of eachother, but they also seemed to glorify naoya in a way, so i took it more as their own intepretation rather than a reflection of how things would have been in canon. Back to your point with gojo and naoya tho, thinking about it more, you're really onto something there, cause kid gojo sorta acts like naoya?? still different, but the similarities are there. i also just realised toji seriously affected both of their lives. I can't imagine how naoya would have been had he not met toji. It just feels like he wouldn't be naoya. Christ, you were so right about toji haunting everyone. It's funny how someone regarded as nothing impacted so much of the lives of those who are regarded as everything. (you may be america's strongest run-on sentence soldier, but i'm britain's. we will compete to see who gains the title of world's strongest run-on sentence soldier one day..)

omg cross-sea solidarity ... why would we compete when we could instead join forces to make runon sentences that would make english majors puke

i case you couldn't tell by [gestures to playback] i have a lot of big big feelings about the zen'in clan in general, and naoya - honestly, feelings i didnt have before starting it that i've come around to the more i study these guys under a microscope! i dont know if the comparisons between young gojo and young naoya are intentional, but to me they're very much there - each is the prodigal genius heir of their clan, inheriting a genetic technique that sets them apart from a young age and has them both praised and isolated for this technique. each at a young age is egotistical and carries themself above others because that's been treated as outright fact by the people around them. gojo is exposed to other viewpoints and experiences that allow him to grow beyond it, though aspects of that mindset remain in him they don't take a malicious form - naoya isn't given that social opportunity, and instead stuck in an echo chamber that eventually makes him even worse than the people around him. they obviously aren't 1:1 but i do really think there's a comparison to be drawn

and imho the zen'in clan as a whole are kind of a microcosm of jujutsu society, where even those in privileged positions in the social hierarchy suffer and live less fulfilling lives for it. literally none of them seem happy. naoya is one of the most insecure, bitter, unhappy characters we meet imho, feeling challenged by and overcompensating to extreme measures to every single perceived threat and slight. we see much of the same with ogi, honestly, with one key difference - naoya doesn't seem to have anything or anyone that would make him happy, while ogi has a wife and children and yet self-sabotages every chance at a meaningful life and meaningful human connection because of his fixation on rank and power. his family is just an extension of himself, and therefore disappointing and discarded as worthless because they don't meet his expectations.

their hierarchy prevents a lot of meaningful connections from being formed with ideas of rank and power and honour and tradition getting in the way of them. not in a way that excuses the way a lot of these guys are, but as a whole this is a generational and societal issue as much as it is an individual one, and its noteworthy that someone like gojo, in contrast, turned out as relatively well-adjusted and normal as he did - under the right circumstances, he very well may have been much worse. isnt that just what all of their stories are? under the right circumstances, almost anyone could have ended up like geto, or like naoya. to me jjk is a series where theres a sense of nurture taking precedent over nature very often, and all the spectacular ways one's nature can remain unshaken and unchanged even in the face of that. or something.

this isn't even what your ask was about. i feel like a lot of this pertains to toji in interesting ways but also theres very little to be said about toji that hasn't been already. something something nature of cycles and how his breaking out of it had ripples across the entire world because the clan is representative of the world he was a part of something the way you must break tradition before it breaks you whatever.

[melodyssolarsystem]

saki tenma. ough i habe so many words about her.

she is so strong. she lost her entire childhood to the hospital, she lost her friends, sometimes she’d wish she would never wake up in the morning. only ichika came to visit, and even then that was rare. yet

she still went into highschool with a determination and a spring in her step. despite shiho and honami never visiting she had no ill will towards them going back into school qnd i think thats an interesting aspect about her. she knew the hospital was far away from where they lived sure but i would not doubt that at least once she thought “ichika is here, why cant they be too?” yet going back into school instead of just leaving them because they chose to split from ichika and herself she was determined to bring them back together and i think thats so lovely of her.

i can sympathise with her a bit too. no, i wasnt hospitalized my entire childhood, but sometimes i wish i had it back. sometimes i feel like it was robbed from me at the hands of those two. but this isnt about me, i just understand how saki feels. you wish and wish that you could have it back, to change the course of fate, but theres no way. what i admire about her is that instead of sulking about it she takes advantage of it. she has her 100 things i want to do list, shes jumping at every chance she gets and i thihk thats also great of her.

i alsp like how she doesnt let her sickness define her. someyimes the conversation will turn into her hospital days or how shes feeling but shes quick to change the topic becaude thats not all she is and i thihi the fandom shpuld realise that too. i saw this one post and i think about it a lot. “i cant relate to saki i havent been hospitalized that much” while yes its a big part of her character she is so much more than that. you can relate to her determination, her bubbliness, her kindess, her strength. you can relate to her childhood being robbed from her, you can relate to the situation with her friends, and you can also relate to her determination to keep going.

saki is such an interesting character to me and i think she’s overlooked a lot. there just something about her; constantly shes so bubbly and happy and bouncy that you have to wonder if theres something under that mask, that maybe those bright sparkling eyes really do hold an abyss of memories. it also makes you wonder that maybe that abyss isnt completly endless, maybe there’s something at the bottom. maybe theres something at the bottom of your abyss, too.

(ive been getting sappy over her ikanaide/do not go cover..)

[my-castles-crumbling]

okay so hi..

um ive seen people do this so ig im going to as well.

basically i and my gf (she/her) have been in a relationship for nearly 6 months (6 in two weeks). we're both 19.

we met through my bsf and her bsf dating and now we are (i had the biggest crush on her but genuinely didnt think she'd give me a chance).

ive had pretty bad luck in relationships before and they never lasted more than 3 or 4 months mainly due to the fact that im asexual and btoh previous oartners just assumed they could change me (???) but she genuinely understood and went out of her way to make me comfortable and make it known that nothing will be demanded of me more than that which i can give.

from the beginning of the relationship, ive made some rules very clear which are like my no nonsense ones, like i wont tolerate them usually at all.

one of them being not making me purposefully uncomfortable and the main big one is not yelling/shouting, especially at me. (i have past trauma from my parents and it has in the oast made me shut down completely for days at a time, only getting up to feed my cat)

on one of our beginning dates i mentioned this really nice and sorta expensive restaurant that ive always wanted to try but reservations are really hard to get.

she joked saying that oh id love to go with hou ehicb i laughed at but was mildly excited about.

so i got the reservation for yesterday, i made the reservation for two.

last month i told my girlfriend that i have finally got the reservation and would like to go with her, told her the dates and time and everything and she seemed genuinely excited to go with me.

now last week i confirmed her availability again, and asked her what colored dress she was wearing so i could match it with my clothes and we decided on a color etc and also to get ready at my place because her bsf has their family over so shes will be staying with me for 2 weeks.

now, yesterday, after i was done with my work i went to the living room just to well see her and hug her cz i missed her a bit since i hadnt really seen her in about 5 hours (i was working). when i knocked at her door, she opened it and was ready with a dress (not the color we agreed on), her purse laying in the background as she greeted me with a big smile and kiss (on the cheek).

i asked her isnt she ready a bit early and she just looked at me confusedly and said no i hve to meet R (her friend) at 4:30 so im just on time.

i asked why and where she's going just to know if she'd be back and she said that theyre going to the mall and then to the movies because R is leaving in 3 days to go on vacation so they want to spend some time togetehr.

i smiled and wished her luck, i thiught that maybe i got the day wrong but i hadnt and i was actually really sad because all my life, everyone in my family would repeatedly just forget about my plans and my shit for others' and she knew abt that.

but anyways, so i decided to still go and i took this really lovely lady, who's homeless but i buy her a meal everyday and take her out to lunch once a week. (shes like in her 30s btw)

we had a lovely time and the food was divine, i even helped the lady get ready in a changing room.

but anyways on my way home i realised i had 3 missed calls from my girlfriend and a text that just said.

we need to talk as soon as you get home.

the moment j entered my apartment, she just started to yell at me about how much of a piece of shit i am, how people forget and its not a big deal, how im an arse, how not everything is supposed to be about me, and could i possibly imagine how she felt coming back to an empty apartment, she thought something had happened to me.

that is not the order she sais everything in but someway through my breathing started to get extraordinarily fast and i coukd feel my vision getting blurry.

i said sorry to her, or i think(?) i cant really remember stuff when i get panic attacks like this. i took my cat and went to my room.

it took quite a while for my cat to calm me down bur she was able to in the end.

this morning, i made breakfast for her and since i have today off from uni i decided to go to my job (i work part-time remote but can come and go to the iffice if i wish)

its my break rn and im thinking about it, maybe it wasnt a big deal? maybe i should have reminded her again but like idk it was a pretty big thing for me.

i feel bad, i feel like i made a mountain out if a molehill and shouldve just apologised properly and explained to her that its okay and that it wasnt that big of a deal.

i dont knwo?

i wanted some advice because i truly feel very strongly for her and shes the only relationship ive had in which i feel valued and had zero self doubt (up until yesterday)

im sorry it was so long, and thank you for your help.

Hi!!

Okay so...this is hard because, I don't know if either of you are to blame, here. Your girlfriend wasn't great for forgetting, but then I was wondering why you didn't say anything? But then she was shit for yelling later....

I'm wondering if this is the first time this has happened? It sounds like a lack of communication, you know? I think you guys really need to sit down and discuss how you were both feeling. But if this becomes a pattern, especially your girlfriend yelling, I would think more about the relationship.

Keep me updated! I'm naming you orange anon.

[moonlightdancer26]

im not a massive prongstail shipper (prongsfoot <3) but i've had this headcanon for fucking ever and it just isnt appreciated enough in marauders circles childhood bestfriends with supposedly unrequited crushes its a v popular marauders headcanon that james and peter knew each other before hogwarts, having both come from established magical familes so i just get brainrot about bb james and pete running around and doing all those childhood bestie things like getting married in their gardens and making wedding rings out of paper etc etc and just,,, neither of them realised they were each others first crush? as they grew up they realised "oh,,, oh i like liked him, didn't i. you dont usually marry people you feel completely platonically about." they are both emotionally constipated teenage boys who spend ages stewing in angst going "i loved him, but he'd never love me back D:" even though if they had a single conversation talking about their hisss feelings the problem would easily solve itself. but they dont, and years in the future, everything goes to shit. and peter doesn't realise that james still kept that tiny paper wedding ring

YES YES YES, I always loved the idea of Peter having an unrequited crush on James but I was always kinda hesitant to fully explore the ship, and today I just went fuck it and decided to announce it on tumblr.

I totally believe Peter and James are both the most oblivious mfs to ever exist, so the idea of them both having crushes on each other and assuming the other person didn’t reciprocate their feelings so they kept it to themselves sounds so accurate.

I’ve heard a bit about that headcanon before and tbh it sounds like a pretty interesting one, I’d like it if it was more explored in fics.

doing all those childhood bestie things like getting married in their gardens and making wedding rings out of paper etc etc

lmaoo I used to always do this with my irl bestie (we’re still inseparable to this day) 😭 we were (are) also major Swifties so when Taylor released Paper Rings 4 years ago we were like OMG REMEMBER WHEN WE USED TO- *goes down memory lane.* Imagining baby!Peter and baby!James making them and having pretend-weddings in their gardens legit sounds like the purest thing ever 😭<333

and when they’re at Hogwarts and well into their teen years they both start thinking “yo wait……. maybe I actually liked him” but never say anything about it due to the fear of being rejected or realising the other person forgot about the weddings and paper rings. And when James got with Lily, that was when Peter accepted that he was genuinely in love with James and couldn’t handle the pain of seeing him with someone else, let alone “Evans.” He then started resenting the Potters and kept thinking to myself “what did I do wrong? why didn’t I tell Prongs when I had the chance?” And part of the reason why James agreed to switch to Peter as the Secretkeeper was because he remembered what it was like when they were kids and trusted him fully because of it. Then when the opportunity to betray the Potters to Voldemort came, Peter took it.

and peter doesn't realise that james still kept that tiny paper wedding ring

Y E S. and at one point James gave it to baby!Harry bc his fingers were almost the same size (either baby!Harry had chubby fingers or James and Peter had skinny fingers, we’ll never know), Lily noticed it and asked what it was. James told her it was “just something he put together,” Lily didn’t buy it because the paper weddimg ring looked a little worn out but decided not to say anything.

excuse me while I go sob into a pillow.

[2k4bts]

The rap line had already put out mixtapes and have been working on their own music since debut. The have the experience of presenting themselves in solo work outside of BTS (not solo songs in BTS albums or the occasional fan song, full mixtapes representing who they are outside the group). You can't expect them to have the same approach to that solo era as the maknae line.

Also, ironically, the rap line had less pressure to do numbers, to become the MJ/JT out of the group, as the eager maknae line solos wanted for their fave. Hybe studies the numbers always and you could see rap line gets less engagement (solo focused fancams, ect.... ). Saying they are favored by the company is a reach. JK got the push from the company, not the rap line. Tae and Jimin either didn't want the conditions for that push, or Hybe decided they could only push one and chose JK. We will probably never know.

Saying hybe favoured the rapline isnt a reach though lol. The first sentences are proof of that. There's even an article that called the rapline "the pillars" and the maknae line "just the visuals" or something along the lines. So no, it wasnt a reach. The had most things available to them and at their disposal. They had a chance to experiment and find their sound and basically do what they felt they needed to do. Collab here collab there collab everwhere. How long did it take before jungkook got a studio for himself. Jimin still aint got one, he's still making beats on his tablet lmao.

It probably started changing when they realised the odds with them versus the maknae line were great. And that is where jungkook starts to come in. Jimin is not a pushover, neither is tae in some forms. Bad as is it, jungkook seems to be the one that has his head on his shoulder the least. Plus, he's young, hyper, knows social media and how to use it and he's popular. Bingo, the money is there. But saying jimin and tae might've not wanted hybes push is not entirely false.

For instance, like I've probably said before, jimin wanted a music video for each of his songs on his album. He was told no. Which is weird asf since jungkook got so many. But that's where the push comes in.

The push so far has been nothing but controversial despite it's achievements, now you look at that and wonder "can i see jimin or tae being apart of this?" Honestly no. So while they might've not wanted the circumstances that came with the push, they obviously wanted support. But hybe is probably like "hey, you dont want everything that comes with it we cant push you." But they probably didnt expect them to do so well. Which comes next is "sabotage".

Which for some reason people thing is beyond hybe...

But we've talked about that already so...meh

[noxexistant]

I DONT REMEMBER IF I ACTUALLY ASKED YOU FOR FEEL GOOD DELANCEY AND TWIN THINGS (AND MY TRACK RECORD ISNT GOOD) SO JUST IN CASE

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feel-good morris n oscar + mike n ike interaction, on a bed of modern au (aka medda fostering au)

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Mike’s been watching Morris colouring for half an hour.

At first, Ike’d been worrying it was because Morris was colouring in one of Mike’s colouring books - Medda had asked first, of course, before she gave it to Morris, and Mike had immediately eagerly said it was fine, but maybe he was regretting his decision. Realised somewhere down the line that it was upsetting him more than he thought it would. So Ike’d asked, but Mike’d shaken his head and said honestly that he really didn’t mind. Even though it was one of Mike’s new colouring books that he hasn’t touched yet, one brighter and more childish - full of space and astronauts and planets and aliens - than his usual tastes.

“You’re still starin’,” Ike tells him softly, bumping their shoulders. “It’s okay if you don’t wan’ him to use your book. Medda can print him somethin’ else to colour.”

Mike shakes his head again. “That one’s for him.”

Ike…blinks, not quite understanding. “What do you mean?”

“That one’s his,” Mike repeats, like it’s obvious. “I picked it special for him, last time Medda took me to buy me colourin’ stuff. ‘Cause Morris don’t have any and Medda don’t buy any for him.”

“‘Cause Oscar don’t like Medda buyin’ ‘em stuff,” Ike explains, worried that Mike thinks Medda’s just neglecting Morris or something. Mike’s face shows that he don’t think that, at least not really, but he still clearly just doesn’t really understand.

“Why?” Mike asks, not for the first time. Ike takes a guess again, just like he had the last time Mike asked.

“Same reason Finch don’t, prob’ly. Think bein’ bought stuff means they owe somethin’ in return.”

“But Medda ain’t like that.”

Ike shrugs. “Oscar don’t trust that. Y’know how sometimes it’s hard for people to trust, if…people’a done stuff in the past.”

Mike pouts. “S’jus’ not fair that Morris don’t get stuff like I got. Even Oscar don’t get him stuff like you get me stuff. Colourin’ books an’ fidgets an’…an’ toys.”

Oscar looks up sharply from where he’s sat behind Morris, on the couch on his phone while Morris is on the floor colouring, having apparently heard Mike say his name. He’s louder than Ike is. Ike offers him a brief smile to hopefully assure him that everything’s fine, hoping Oscar won’t immediately assume offense like he tends to when it’s anyone else talking about him.

“Oscar’s doin’ his best,” he says quietly, leaning in closer to Mike so Oscar won’t hear any more. Morris had had a colouring book one of the last time he’d been over, but it was well-worn and he’d finished it, filled up every page, and Oscar’s apparently been forgetting to buy him a new one since, having to keep telling Morris every time he asks to colour that he don’t have a colouring book and he can maybe ask Medda to print him something. “Things’a just been bad for the both of them. They’re both doin’ their best.”

“There a problem?” Oscar asks, loud and edged enough for Morris to flinch. He looks up and back at his brother immediately, concerned gaze then falling to Mike and Ike. He falters when he sees Mike staring back at him, shuffling backwards towards Oscar.

“No, no,” Ike quickly assures. Oscar ignores him, looking at Mike instead.

“You been starin’ at Mo for ‘bout an hour. You got a problem?”

Ike swallows hard. Mostly because he doesn’t know if Mike does, but if that answer’s yes, then Mike’s all too likely to just say it outright, and there’s a good chance that’ll set Oscar off. Maybe set Morris off too, if he’s interrupted from his current task, torn away from where he’s settled colouring. Ike opens his mouth, hoping to speak first, do some damage control before any more damage can be done, but Mike beats him to it.

“I wanna colour.”

Morris takes a second to process the statement, then scrambles immediately to his feet like Mike’d given some sort of command. He leaves the crayons - also Mike’s brand new ones - where he’d poured them out and then meticulously organised them in rainbow order beside their box, and the colouring book, open to a page of a UFO half-filled with chaotic, colourful scribbles, and flees to Oscar’s side. Oscar catches him, wrapping an arm around Morris’ shoulders to pull him close.

Mike looks at the brothers, confused.

“No,” he protests, a little too loudly, frustrated that things apparently hadn’t gone how he’d wanted. Morris makes a soft sound, hiding against Oscar, so Ike nudges his twin.

“Gentle,” he reminds him softly. “Think you’re scarin’ Morris a bit. Try an’ talk softer, and explain what you’re thinkin’, okay?”

Mike nods seriously, and takes a few seconds of silence to try and organise his thoughts into words. “I wanna colour,” he repeats, pointing at the book on the ground.

“He’s lettin’ you,” Oscar snaps, defensive. “All yours, see?”

“No!” Mike shakes his head. “Both of us!”

Ike deflates a little with relief, finally understanding.

“He wants to colour with Morris,” he explains to Oscar. He then turns his attention to Morris, leaning to the side to try and see him, and turns his voice gentler at the same time. “He’s askin’ to play with you, not instead of you, Morris. D’you wanna colour together, with Mike?”

Morris peeks out from where he’s hiding half-behind Oscar. He looks sincerely confused and maybe a little overwhelmed, and Ike immediately understands it’s most likely that nobody’s ever asked to play with Morris before. At least not recently, not here. One-on-one might be a little overwhelming too, Morris clearly has a hard time trusting people.

“Can I join in too?” Ike asks. “Me and Mike colour together a lot. Maybe all three of us can colour together. That sounds fun.”

Mike makes an excited noise. Eager, he gets up and runs to the shelving unit where a lot of the toys and activities are kept for the living room, and pulls out a couple more of his colouring books and a pack of coloured pencils. One of them’s the colouring book he chose for Ike, a Star Wars one for adults, and the other’s one of Mike’s for himself, one of his mandala type ones.

“Make sure you give Morris some space,” Ike reminds him gently as he scurries to get them situated on the floor beside where Morris was set up. Mike does so, gives Morris a safe distance to return to his colouring without being too close to Mike, and then upends the box of coloured pencils to pour them out haphazardly between his and Ike’s stations. It’s how they always do it, just picking out the pencils they need from the mess as they go. Mike says it’s like another little game, finding the one they need.

Morris looks…perturbed by the system, but doesn’t say anything. And looks slightly less scared now too, openly peeking out from Oscar’s side as Mike and Ike both get settled. Mike picks a page at random, while Ike flicks through the book to find one he likes. He settles on a page of Padme - the Prequels have always been his favourites.

“Are you gonna join in?” Mike asks Morris, eyes big and eager. He then deflates a little, seeing Morris’ unreadable expression and Oscar’s open protective suspicion. “You don’ have to. If you don’ want to. Or if Oscar don’ want you to. But I want you to.”

Oscar glances away and swallows. “Look,” he says reluctantly, eyeing Morris and apparently reading something in his face that Ike can’t, “So long as you don’t hurt him—“

“He won’t,” Ike assures Oscar quickly. “He’s really tryin’ to be friends. He might…be a little overeager, but he won’t be mean. I’ll keep an eye on ‘em, I swear, don’t worry.”

“Oh, yeah? I will too,” Oscar says sharply. “Sure as hell ain’t leavin’ you with ‘im.”

Oscar’s whole demeanour is still…unkind, but Ike wasn’t really expecting anything else. He feels bad, wondering exactly what sort of stuff must’ve happened to make both Oscar and Morris like this, but he understands that it’s a step. For Oscar to squeeze Morris briefly in what Ike recognises as encouragement, however reluctant, and for Morris to crawl slowly from his brother’s arms back to his spot on the floor, eyeing the twins cautiously as he goes.

Slowly - sort of like he’s thinking it might be a trick, like he thinks Mike might explode on him as soon as he touches anything, Ike thinks - Morris reaches out and picks up the aqua blue crayon he’d been using. Mike beams at him.

“D’you like the crayons?” he asks eagerly. “An’ the book! Picked ‘em special for you. They’s yours.”

Morris blinks. “…mine?”

“Yeah! Got you crayons ‘cause Medda said pencils like this’d be too small an’ sharp for you. An’ I picked the book myself, for you. Space an’ aliens an’ stuff, ‘cause of your shirt you’re always wearin’. The alien one.”

This time, both of the brothers look a little overwhelmed when Ike looks between them. Morris is staring with wide-eyed wonder at the gifts, and Oscar looks…Ike doesn’t know. Oscar just looks like a lot, like he’s overwhelmed by someone other than him paying attention to his brother and wanting to get him things that are safe and appropriate, and wanting to play with him. Getting him a space colouring book ‘cause he likes aliens.

“An’,” Mike adds, grinning at Oscar with just an edge of mischief, “It don’t count as Medda buyin’ you stuff. ‘Cause she bought it for me, I just gave it to you. Jus’ a present.”

Oscar looks sincerely taken aback for a second. Then huffs a sound like a laugh, a slight smile tugging at his cheek.

“What do you say, Mo?” he prompts gently. Morris doesn’t look up, but he’s smiling down at his book, eyes sparkling.

“Thank’ou,” he says automatically, but utterly sincerely.

Mike beams again, bouncing his legs excitedly against the floor, looking incredibly proud of himself.

Ike’s proud of him too.

It’s silent once they start colouring, Morris retreating back into his own little world and not answering any of the few questions Mike tries to ask him, and Oscar’ll only look at Ike every so often to offer him a glance with a subtle warning held inside of it, but Ike doesn’t mind one bit. Mike clearly doesn’t either. It’s a step - a big one.

Maybe they can make friends out of the Delancey brothers yet.

[mikka-minns]

Opinions on characters: Kiryuu Nanami, Saionji Kyouichi, Tatsuki Shiori

Thank you for the ask! Im guessing its for the ask game(the general opinion is included so yeah) Sorry i didnt answer until now😅

Kiryuu Nanami

General opinion: She is everything to me. Her mere existance confirme half of my theories about Anthy and Akio.

She is a queen. She didnt deserve this.

The reason she isnt in the movie is because she realised the truth about Ohtori in time and when things started to go back to their bad nature she was able to leave.

She is the perfect first character to find out about Akio's abuse because she lived with one of his victims, he ruined her life in-directly and was about to make her another one of his victims. Her character and story are perfect, i would change nothing about her.

(i have a big post about her, Anthy and Shadow Girls to write so stay tuned for that)

A ship i love: i cant decide if i like the idea that Nanami is aromantic or a lesbian(so probably both) and i dont have a ship with her i realy love. I like Nanami x Kozue a bit, mostly for the parrallels, but i have my own problems with Kozue(which is its own topic), so im not sure how much i actualy ship it. But then again, most of my Rgu Ships go under "after 15 years of therapy they can actualy date", so... Who know.

A non-romantic relationship i love: her friendship with Utena and Anthy and her friendship with Saionji. I wish she got a chance to apologize to Anthy once they were both in a good place and far away from their brothers. For Saionji, i hope they got to meet after he left Ohtori with Juri and Miki. If he grew as a person(which is necessery for escapong Ohtori) he would be a great big brother. Also, the egg episode realy sells me the idea he is her brother figure. "No appreciation for brotherly advice".

A NOTP: Nanami x Touga and Nanami x Akio(OBVIOUSLY). I havent seen anyone ship it and GOOD. That is a one way ticket to hell. I Also dont like Nanami x Saionji, but thats mostly personal opinion cuz i see them as siblings. Might Also be the age gap but idk.

My biggest headcanon about them: as i said, SHE LEFT THE OHTORI NOT LONG AFTER THE SERIES FINALE! She is also an animal person but is not used to them because of her family(cats trigger he trauma too). Once she and Anthy make up, BECAUSE THEY WILL, Anthy  lets her spend time with her animal friends, maybe even helps her adopt an animal of her own.

An idea for fanfiction: Nanami meeting with everyone from Ohtori after they escape, exploring their relationships once they arent under control of their abusers.

(this one is in my WIPs, i Just have to finish it) Weed bride. Anthy and Nanami smoke blunts together along with everyone else. They Also take over Ohtori. I dont wanna spoil anything.

Something that makes me think of them:

Songs "Oh no!" and "Family jewels" by Marina and the diamonds, "allies or Enemies"(about her and Touga) and "Take me to War" by crane wives. And a few more but this is on the top of my mind.

Kyouichi Saionji

General opinion: He was the perfect first antagonists for the series. He is so pathetic, no one takes him seriusly, which is a perfect foil to Akio being adored and trusted by many characters.

He most likely isn pure evil as he is still a child, but he should defenetly be taken responsible for his actions(abuse of Anthy).

A ship i love: touga x Saionji but ONLY AFTER 20, NO, 40 YEARS OF THERAPY! They both hurt each other, they should solve their problems. I wish we saw Saionji's Thoughts about Touga in the movie, but hey, we cant have everything.

A non-romantic relationship that i love: as i said, he would make a great brother to Nanami. As i doubt either of them will ever see Touga again, they could help each other with the trauma. Saionji defenetly has family problems, everyone does in Ohtori.

I also like his friendship with Wakaba, i dont ship them tbh. I feel like she can put him in his place with ease(she beat Utena up as a petty joke).

Not realy a positive relationship, but his rivalry with Utena is very intresting. He is like a trashy version of her. Their straight love intrests are each other's real crushes, but they project. This would all be solved if the world wasnt homophobic. I want them to fight, middle-school-girl style cuz Saionji would get his ass handed to him.

A NOTP: saionji x Akio (OBVIOUSLY) and Saionji x Nanami (again, its just my personal preference)

My biggest headcanon about them: he projected Touga onto Anthy. Thats what kinda stings about how he treated her. Its obvious that relationship was going nowhere, but he never even liked her for her and so it was Just cruel.

He feels as if he isnt good enough for people around him and was at some point jealous about Touga's relationship with Akio cuz it seemed like Touga was so much more mature that he was getting attention of another adult.(angsty i know, but its based on reality)

A fanfic idea: him and Nanami meeting again(as you can see, im very normal a out them)

Maybe an AU where he and Touga dont go so off the edge ti become the pricks they are in the canon and instead Run away with Nanami and live as a little family(THIS SHOW HURT ME, OKAY)

In weed bride, Anthy wrecks his shit cuz he was with Touga and she was about to end Touga so obviously he will get some too. (that fic is Just pure crack)

Tatsuki Shiori

Something that Reminds me of them: tbh i cant think of anything right now.

General opinion: gurlfailiure. I love her. Just another child in a cruel world. She only had the worst adults to look up to and so she hurt the Ones she loved the most. She has room to grow and redeemed herself, she is only a child after all.

I think her place in the movie was great because of that. (i think her role was methaphore for what happend after the series finale, Just like with everyone else)

A ship that i love: i like Juri x Shiori and kinda Shiori x Kozue(both girls are disasters) but i wouldnt say i love either of those. Again, years of therapy, then they can get bitches.

A non-romantic relationship i love: not sure

Maybe her relationship with Touga cuz i dont see it as a real romance. I like it for the narrative(its not realy healthy) and how we found out a lot about Touga trough it.

I think her relationship with Ruka was a perfect example of an older guy messing with a younger girl. Toxic and cruel.

A NOTP: Shiori x Akio (look i have to make sure its known i do not unde any circumstances support these Ships) and Shiori x Ruka(he is an abusive asshole. A mini Akio, if you will)

My biggest headcanon about them: she is queer and full of internalised homophobia. She loved Juri but she is Just another pawn in Akio's game and so she could do nothing but hurt her. I dont think they made up after the end of the movie, im not even sure Shiori escaped, so idk if they even met after.

She liked Touga less because he is a prince and more because he is like a rose bride(like her, in a way) but is not a girl so its fiiine(side eye).

A fanfic idea: i dont have any right now

Maybe exploring her movie role and/or her mindset trough a fanfic?

Something that Reminds me of them: again, not sure.

[edge-oftheworld]

hey girl i saw your friends of friends post - do you think there's a chance maybe they're just being supportive of Palestine performatively now that everyone is on their ass about not speaking out sooner? i know you said 'they're on 5sos time' but isnt that kind of just excusing their poor effort up until now? it's taken so long for them to do anything supportive, Palestine's literally almost gone

:,(

love u just wanted to see your perspective!

hey anon! thanks for this lovely ask. i can't guess what's in their heads and i'm hesitant to either 1) assume the worst when there can be a million reasons someone doesn't get to something straight away, and I don't usually think well thought-through activism comes out best when it's immediately reactive, or 2) say that there's no possible way this is the case when we don't have evidence for that either. it could be the case!

however from what I've seen the kinds of things people have been on their asses about recently have been other things--like crushing watermelons or cancelling sierra or crystal or 'where is calum is he okay' or critiquing having any association with all time low or being mean about other things i don't really want to bring up on here. Like I guess that might've been there but I've honestly not seen a lot of it; I've been here for about a year now and the 5sos fandom still baffles me--like I realise it's probably just a small minority who are mean and kinda petty, but honestly I've not seen a heap of organised activism within the fandom and it has disappointed me a little--like yeah from their perspective they might be reading the comments on it and feeling the pressure from those, but honestly it's been so mixed up with stuff i can't imagine they want to read that I'm not sure that's the message the fandom is sending at all. I hope for the fandom's sake I'm wrong and it's just the negativity bias speaking.

I do also want to gently possibly push back on the idea that they haven't done anything supportive until now; yes they didn't involve friends of friends (i'm not sure why) or really outright say it (which I've got more opinions on, a mix of positive and negative in terms of why i think they chose to do it that way) but they did release an entire tour movie on youtube for us for free, and tell us to donate to help (in ashton's words) 'the children in gaza' with links in the caption--it's a more aussie style of activism for sure when it's less putting yourself on a platform (even if you already have it) to speak about something to try and get people to act, and more use the resources you have to make a practical difference, without being demanding of people or stressing them out with urgency. to me that was something that meant more than performative statements, but not everyone in the fandom agrees on that. all i'll say to it is 1) it was out of the blue and felt like they had kinda just discussed it and been like 'yeah we need to' the minute the tour movie was ready 2) it was back in december and 3) i think they underestimated how broke their fans are and also overestimated how many people would see the 'humanitarian aid' links below a video in the christmas break. i've rattled on about it, i'll always defend that particular action but everyone knows that, the decision to focus on the children and the downstream aid rather than the genocide itself was an interesting one (bound to appeal to the skeptics and more practical but in some ways a copout), but i'm also putting it here because it surprises me how many fans genuinely have no idea all of this happened because literally no one talked about it. I don't know if it's because we have an idea as a society how activism should be like or people genuinely don't know how to address more serious topics (again, no one seems to be talking about the friends of friends thing they're kicking off now either). brandy's been sharing information etc on palestine and evidence of the genocide since october, and michael wore that jumper thing that I forget the name of in what might have been cultural solidarity or a coincidence back on october 13th i think. again, it's not the same. brandy isn't actually in 5sos. decide what to make of these things for yourself.

i'll also add that in general from what i've seen, 5sos are usually not super swayed by fan pressure and more likely to get pissed off by it and become more unhinged as a result or turn it into a joke later (like with the soon saga). not to say that they don't feel it, I think they do, but are more determined to not let it take away from their authenticity than be led by it iykwim? having said that this is something i relate to a lot due to my neurodivergence so i could be very biased on this. I could be projecting. so i'm not sure!! i'm not sure what goes on in their heads. i'm not sure why this didn't come sooner, we can probably all agree it should've. but i do also want to say that i know it's not ideal but sometimes doing a good thing for less than pure reasons is still a good thing. it's just the timing that's obviously the pressing factor here, people are dying, and it's kinda insensitive to be talking about how disabling things like executive function and anxiety can be in activism--but this is another topic and aspect of it I think that not mentioning can sometimes cause an excess of blame to be placed on people who are doing good things that aren't good enough to fix what bad people are doing, rather than the bad people themselves. I know it's not that simple, I know there are systemic parts of complicity we can't really wash our hands of that easily but my point is things like neurodivergence and anxiety are by definition disabling and activism is not a sphere they don't touch. and i can't go and list headcanoned diagnoses for a band I listen to but I also can't in good conscience ignore that this could likely be a factor.

overall i feel like this is a mess of a post because i don't really know yet where the line is between holding people accountable (what even is enough in activism?) and letting them process the trauma we're watching unfold and turn that into action at their own pace. but i do want to say thank you so so much for engaging with what's been a topic that I don't think we're talking about enough but i do care about too. and if you've read this far down such a long post thank you as well, i really appreciate it!

[usertoxicyaoi]

reading your tags on his man 2 posts is my new favorite hobby!!! 🥰❤

hiiii my love!!! fhdbcicbf NO LISTEN i've rewatched all 5 episodes so far like ATLEAST 3 times already and youd think id be used to it by now everytime junsung and sungho come on screen BUT NOPE. gosh i LOVE them they just feel so well paced and so right and so .... organic that i just ... do not feel with anyone else on the show rn?? like sungho LIKES the fact that junsung is so direct and straightforward with him despite him also liking seunwoo but sungho's mature enough to realise that junsung is serious about him and he has to consider both junsung and seunwoo and give junsung a chance too and date him bc maybe he might actually end up LIKING LIKING him (despite the fact that they both ALWAYS say how polar opposites they both are from each other) and he respects his efforts and gives something back to him too like its not one sided or tugging junsung along where hes said again and again "oh should i ask him on a date?" "he makes me feel new things when im with him." "oh so thats how he feels about me? i'm happy inside." like!

if this was all one sided from just junsung and sungho was tugging him along id have NOPED out of there dead fast. BUT. it isnt the case!!!!! theres something mutual here to work with!!!!! "if you had woken up earlier we could have gone on a date!!!" LIKE. SUNGHO WANTS TO GO ON A DATE WITH JUNSUNG!!!!!!!!!!!

and junsung!!!!!!! oh my precious boy!!!!! our brave brave boy!!!!!!! hes just SO heart on his sleeve for sungho but in such a direct yet laid back way?? he isnt forcing or pressurising sungho into anything! he just lays his feelings out every night to sungho so that he KNOWS on the phonecall convo they have and then just steps back and gives sungho the time and space he needs to work through it! he does all these heartfelt little actions for sungho like make ramen for him or bring him diet coke that sungho just CASUALLY mentioned in passing once or gift him cookies in such a casual way and lets sungho decipher the meaning from it!!! and i love that so much!!!! like hes being so so brave despite knowing sungho also has feelings for seunwoo!!! and yet junsung is still keeping himself in sungho's eyeline and sight and on his mind but not being so in his face about it!!! and now SUNGHO HAS TO GIVE SOMETHING BACK. even SUNGHO at the end of ep 5 realises that he has to act on his feelings for junsung and indulge in them and give them two a chance to see where this goes between them!!!!

ANYWAY. I CANT WAAAAIT for whats to come for them im MORE than certain we are DEFINITELY going to get a date between them and WHATEVER the hell this ribbon tying thing is!!!!:

IS HAUNTING ME. LIKE. HELLO??????? WHAT ARE YOU TWO DOING!!!!

[freshlybakedspiderbread]

Reisen for the ask game!

General opinion/How much I care about them: aaaaah! Even though she's a 'classic' touhou, i feel like it was only in the last several years (though with my warped sense of time, this could be be anywhere up to a decade) where she really dug out a special place in my heart as one of my favs (which is maybe a bit of a crowded category admitedly n_n) She's always been super cool/cute/funny and her backstory and development i think really nicely summarises a lot of themes from both th8 and gensokyo as a whole

A ship I love: there's a bunch but there's two i want to mention together because its really funny to contrast. one is reisen/kaguya (himeudon), which is on surface just cute and sweet, with the devoted bunny servant to the enigmatic princess who finds her cute. As the years pass, I don't think Reisen would ever stop seeing Kaguya in a majestic light, buuuut i do think she definitely becomes more wiser to when Kaguya is actually being wise and when she's instead just being quirky (but Reisen may still be happy to indulge her whims).

In contrast, i think reisen/mokou is really funny because their first meeting definitely has to be something like a horrified Reisen coming across Mokou killing Kaguya before anyone had a chance to explain to Reisen their particular pastime, so Reisen spent a while either panicking or attacking Mokou on sight until it all gradually became normal. And the idea of going from that to now when they're happy to hang out with one another in the bamboo forest or in the village. All in all its basically just another version of the cute bunny and the noble(ish) immortal who finds her cute.

A non-romantic relationship that I love: I've always prefered to think of Reisen's apprenticeship under Eirin has a sort of guardian or parental dynamic that neither ever actually had in their formers lives. I think its a really nice how Reisen's continued learning under her reflects on both characters developmenet.

One might ask what is the 'point' to Eirin bestowing Reisen with her knowledge since you may think Reisen isnt likely to ever want to distance herself from eientei to strike out on her own, and also since Eirin and crew will outlive Reisen, it doesnt seem like a matter of passing on something to the next 'generation', right? But even if there may always be some version of them that might always exist in the future, the Eirin right now with her dear Udongein is only here now and so every thing they (and all the eientei crew) do is important for one another n_n

The NOTP: I think there's a really fun dynamic to be had with Reisen and Tewi when combining the facts that Reisen didnt realise at first that Tew was essentially all of their landlord, and that Reisen wants to be acknowledged as an earth rabbit which Tewi attempts to accomodate sometimes even if Reisen's always a little weird. But there's no version of this where I can envision it turning romantic from either side...

My biggest headcanon about them:

She's not wearing that blazer anymore. That is Not a headcanon That is a Rule and if zun himself ever puts it back on her I will kill the planet!!!!!

that aside, I think she's on a variety of medication. 👩‍⚕️ Eirin's personal perscription of course for perhaps her eyes aaand a bunch of other stuff, but Reisen is the ever eager learner so she often cooks up her own concoctions too (which she asks Mokou to help test).

the doctor thing combined with the lunatic eyes makes me imagine she would partake in recreational psychotropics but its only really worth it if she can do it with someone else (and probably the only ones who would accept are mokou, maybe marisa... kaguya would but i dont think reisen would ask her)

An idea for a fanfiction I would like to write/read about them: i do want to write At Least one more reisen-starring story in the future about most of the things i described above, specifically her apprenticeship under eirin...

Something that makes me thing of them: This is really only something that happens in fanart and only because she's got bunny ears and associated with the colour pink, but i truly Feel like the colourful gyaru aesthetics fit her or would be how she'd next choose to dress if she felt more comfortable or even experimental. like the street fashion looks of long pink sleeves or socks,animal or carrot stickers on a handbag (that carries her firearm). zun take notes when you put her in the next game please along with aya please.