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oh the unbeatable romantic bond between an obsessive stalker and the guy with a pathological need to feel like the center of the universe at all times
#natterings#zadr#iz posting#i joke but i am actually obsessed with this dynamic#both because it IS hilarious#and in a deeply pathetic way legitimately romantic too#having your most desperate dysfunctional emotional desires fulfilled by the one person who actually WANTS them#someone whose attention you dont have to beg for#someone to whom you are actually as central and significant as you delusionally believe you are#or someone that willingly invites your worst most neurotic tendencies#who plays the game and rewards you for your behavior with exciting spectacle and implicit respect#someone who quite LITERALLY thinks these qualities arent just inoffensive but actively make you better than your whole species#my point is they validate each others egos in the most absurd ways and its beautiful to watch
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My Hero Academia Masterlist
Izuku Midoriya (Deku)
Coming home covered in blood begging for love
Headcannons
âif you dont love me ill kill myselfâ
Deku vs Bakugo
Naga Izuku
S/o who is clingy during their period
Punishments
Kidnapped S/o giving up
Jealous S/o leaving hickeys all over him
College Roomate
Siren Izuku w/ Lost at sea S/o
S/o w/ Psychedelic quirk
Poly Uraraka/Deku w/ a S/o who loves to Knit
S/o w/ a Angelic quirk
Not letting anyone else touch his S/o
Poly Nage Deku/Bakugo w/ Harpy S/o
Naga Izuku w/ Crush whos terrified of snakes
S/o who is tired all the time
The Purge + Blind S/o
Poly Uraraka/Deku HC
Nurse S/o
Tough S/o using her quirk to play with kids
S/o who loves his fluffy hair
Bakugo + Izuku with a S/o whos Quirk ends up hurting them
Dating Aizawas daughter
âhows the weather up there?â
Siren
Villain Deku trying to supply his vampire s/o with his blood
Darlings whos accidently morbid and creepy
Finding Crush s/o crying cause they were rejected by someone else
Gifting him an actual heart in a jar for Valentines
Yandere Alphabet: B,D,H,M,O
Villain Deku Headcannons
Comforting S/o who is upset over a character design change
Goth Darling who melts at affection
Comforting S/o who feels objectified
Poly Deku & Uraraka Headcannons
S/o who cant kiss directly in fear of eye contact
Darling attracting butterflies to them with their blood
Kidnapped S/o breaking down in relief that they dont have to worry about school anymore
Kidnapped Darling demanding cuddles when coming home
S/o that demands affection
Darling who loves that love lolita fashion but broke
Poly Kirideku
S/o wearing a lolita dress inspired by his hero outfit
Izuku Midoriya vs Peter Parker
S/o likes to be carried by him
S/o escapes only to come back with fast food
S/o saying "Yo! Guess what I found!!" with a arrow in their shoulder
S/o who jokes they're basically a acrow with anxiety cause they love shiny
"Why would you want me? You could have anyone you wanted"
Bakugo Katsuki
Deku vs Bakugo
Shut in S/o
S/o who has low self esteem due to family
S/o whose friends are affectionate
S/o Practicing their Love Confession with Deku
Accidentally hurting S/os feelings
Unknowingly kidnapping Vampire S/o
Liking Naga Bakugos punishments
Poly Nage Deku/Bakugo w/ Harpy S/o
Werewolf Bakugo protecting his mate
S/o whose parents dont let them have more than the minimum
S/o does illegal quirk cage battles
S/o Revealing her Healing quirk
Tall darling with low self esteem
Parents not supporting S/o after Winning tournament
Quiet crush Kabedoning him
S/o who can beat his ass
Bakugo + Izuku with a S/o whos Quirk ends up hurting them
S/o has a âvillainousâ quirk
Kidnapped darling ignoring him
Naga Bakugo/Hunted down
Darling confessing to him first
Only being soft for his S/o
Villain Darling
S/o whoâs the polar opposite of him
Finding his missing  kidnapped S/o in his bed
Kidnapped darling loving him back
S/o who spars cause they want to be pinned
Accidently hurting a low self esteem reader
Bat quirked reader
Aizawa Shouta
Depressed S/o
Villain S/o
NS FW HC
The Purge
Vampire
Drider
Vampire S/o
Demon
Demon Aizawa w/ angel s/o
Life Threatening situation
S/o being forced to be a Villain cause their family is that way
Werewolf Aizawa
S/o who relaxes when he plays with their hair
Thicc S/o
S/o who loves cats just as much as him
Making him jealous from giving all your attention to cats
Cuddling HC
Hawks kidnapping Aizawas S/O prt 2 (prt one on Hawks section)
Shinso dating Aizawas child
Cat like S/o
Stalking celerity S/o
S/o with daddy issues
S/o w/ a Bear quirk
Taking care of his new child
Yandere Alphabet: A,B,E,L,W
Student reader turns out to be the UA Traitor
Finding his S/o tangled in his scarf
Headcannons
S/os personality changes around animals
Stalker Headcannons
Finding out crush sleeps with a eraser head plushie
Tall S/o that pulls him into their chest in every hug
Aizawa falling for a MILF S/o
S/o who was rejected at first before Aizawa fell for them
S/o avoiding him cause they think theyre annoying
Todoroki Shoto
Jealous Todoroki
Yandere Crush
Kidnapping Tourist S/o
âYouâve already made me a victim, no need to make me a liar tooâ
Naga Todoroki
Yakuza Leader S/o attempting to send a hit on his father
S/o who wants to be a Manga artist more than a hero
Sick Darling
S/o whos clingy during their period
Yandere Alphabet: C,E,K,W
Falling for S/o HC
Villain Shoto w/ civilian crush
Villain Shoto w/ Villain crush
Engulfing him in a hug after a battle happy hes ok
S/o doesnt speak the same language
Tsuyu Asui
S/oâs a fan of hers
Hitoshi Shinso
Siren Hitoshi using his voice to make S/o take their swimsuit off
Naga Hitoshi
Shinso dating Aizawas child
How he would treat you
Dabi Todoroki
Headcannons
S/o whoâs unfazed by Dabis appearance
Innocent Baby sitter crush
Witch S/o
S/o with healing tears family constantly makes them cry
Freedom HC
Stealing his drugged crush after a dental surgery
socially awkward and anxious s/o
another social anxiety s/o HC
Celebrating S/os Birthday
Commenting he should visit his mother more
Gentle darling S/o
S/os in a loveless quirk marriage
Loner S/o
Fluff HCs
S/o who has a cruel family
S/o whos so scared of dadi they cry anytime he gets near
Kidnapping his S/o
Shigaraki Tomura
HC
Buff s/o whoâs actually a softie
someone hurting his darling right infront of him
Younger sister reader
S/o also has skin problems
Affectionate and loving darling
S/o who only allows him to touch them
Yandere Alphabet: A,B,H,I
S/o w/ a quirk similar to his own
Sick darling
Proposing to him
Finding out S/o is his favorite streamer
Peaceful S/o who hates violence
S/o who looking at him with motherly loving eyes
Breaking down and coming to him for comfort
Gentle darling
S/o saying he takes away their emotional pain
naive and trusting darling
âDo I need to remind you what happened last time you acted out? Because I will if you keep pushing me.â
Someone trying to save kidnapped S/o
Kirishima Eijirou
Headcannons
Fluff HC
S/o who acts tough but is actually really soft
Finding his S/o fighting Bakugou
Poly Kirideku
Getting jealous over how you treat your friend
Momo Yaoyorozu
Headcannons
S/o Spoiling her
S/o wants more stuffed animals but already has a bed full of them
Poly Uraraka/Deku
Poly Uraraka/Deku w/ a S/o who loves to Knit
Poly Uraraka/Deku HC
More Poly Deku & Uraraka Headcannons
Tamaki Amajiki
S/o isnt bothered with being kidnapped
S/o whos on their period
Tamaki + Mirio Poly HC
Vampire
S/o also has Anxiety
Kidnapped s/o insisting on a movie night
S/o is something like the mom of 1A
Seeing his darling is stabbed yet calm about it
Coming home to S/o and their collapsed pillow fort
S/o who loves to cook
Gifting him butterfly hairclips
Hearing S/o saying "Do you have Five wilting Cabbage Leaves instead of a Brain?" to another that tried asking them out
Kidnapped S/o who just stands there after breaking out of captivity
Mirio
Tamaki + Mirio Poly HC
Accidentally bumping into Blind darling
S/o who likes cats but hes a dog person
S/o who has a god level quirk but is a dumbass
How his yandere tendencies are affected by losing his quirk
Darling flirting with other people
Bear quirk S/o
S/o missing school cause they got hurt while fighting a villain
S/o whos soft with Eri
Pregnant S/o who doesnt want to keep them
Rival s/o whos mad at him for taking their spot in the Big Three
Wooing a introvert darling
Villain Mirio
S/os boyfriend left her pregnant
Hawks
Equally clingy S/o
S/o with wings
Cottagecore S/o
S/o with a symbiote quirk
Cat Quirk reader
S/o having a depressive episode
Quirkless S/o whos afraid of heights
S/o who loves the petname âkittenâ
Hawks Bird habits HC
Soft S/o getting pissed and yelling in Spanish
Bathing with him
Finding out his S/o is pregnant
Kidnapped S/o whos chill as long as they have games
S/o whos dependent and clingy feels like he they dont deserve him
Demon
Vampire
Celebrating Halloween
S/o dressing up as him for Halloween
Purge
Villain Hawks
Comforting S/o whose friend started ignoring them suddenly
Falling for a different heros S/o
Hawks kidnapping Aizawas S/o (prt 2 on Aizawas section)
Almost forcing his Vegan S/o to eat meat
Wings HC
Raising a child
Vegan darling HC
Dealing with s/os teacher who doesnt treat them right
Raising a teenage child
Darling who has separation anxiety
Soft S/o whos tall and buff
Feral Headcannons
Shy, Awkward reader
Bat quirk S/o
Miruko & Hawks x reader Headcannons
Preening S/os wings
S/o who has self harm scars on their legs TW
S/os scared of birds
Hero s/o hates the hero commissions
S/o has a affectionate pet bird thats a little shit to keigo
Foreigner that hardly speaks japanese
Shy S/o thats scared of his wings
S/os cat loves hunting/playing with his wings
Yandere alphabet K,P,T
Yandere alphabet A,D,E,LÂ
Hunted down
Overhaul
S/o who has a body pillow of him
Trying to get him on a normal date
Angel
S/o whose power ultimately harms them
Darling ends up pregnant because of him
raising a child
S/o is as much of a clean freak as he is
Yandere Alphabet: A,B,I,K,W
Calling him a crow because of his looks
Escaping with Eri
S/o is a escape artist
Naga Overhaul
Kaminari
S/o scared theyll get zapped if they touch him
S/o who loves affection but is shy about PDA
Using him as a shield against socializing with others
Finding out S/o is Kirishimas sibling
S/o who isnt given gifts often
Werewolf
HC
Yandere Alphabet: A,B,J,W
S/o who loves him just as much
Would denki hurt anyone or punish his S/o
Sero
Darling confessing their love to him
Yandere Alphabet: A,K,S,R,T
Tokoyami
Finding out S/o goes out to feed cats with Aizawa and Shinsou
S/o going out of their way to spend time with them
Cuddling HC
Crush is Bakugos sister
Iida
Finding out S/o wonders out at night
Jealous HC
Koda
S/o who also has a animal quirk
Miruko
Chubby S/o
Miruko & Hawks x reader Headcannons
Nejire
Headcannons
Jirou
Headcannons
Mina Ashido
Headcannons
Inko Midoriya
Headcannons
Introducing deku to their new sibling w/ s/o
Average day with her
Haunted house
Rei Todoroki
Headcannons
Soft and quiet darling
Introducing her new child w/ s/o
Calm S/o yelling for the first time
Aoyama
Protective S/o
S/o likes his french
Deku
NS FW alphabet
SubmissiveÂ
Naga IzukuÂ
Praise Kink & Sugar Mommy S/o
Aizawa
NS FW HC
Werewolf Aizawa + BreedingÂ
FeralÂ
IncubusÂ
Neko s/o going into heat RopeworkÂ
Favorite Position & Breeding kinkÂ
Poly Erasermic
Poly Incubus EraserMic w/ S/oÂ
Todoroki
NS FW alphabet
Orgasm control, BDSM
Dabi
NON-CON + Incubus Dabi TW
End of the world + BreedingÂ
Poly Dabi/hawks
Poly Incubus Dabi/Hawks w/ S/oÂ
Shiguraki
Favorite PositionÂ
Praise/Body WorshipÂ
Tamaki
Sugar Daddy & One thing that would instantly turn them on
Hawks
Cockwarming and creampieingÂ
S/o likes it rough slightlyÂ
Breeding/Heat HCÂ
Using his Feathers as a form of bondageÂ
Breeding seasonÂ
Extra Heat HCÂ
Male S/o First Time & Corruption
Overhaul
Virgin S/oÂ
Kaminari
Using his quirk during sexÂ
Inko Midoriya
Lingerie & BodyworshipÂ
Rei Todoroki
Foreplay HeadcannonsÂ
#high key couldnt find a suitable gif so heres the most yandere ish#guess how long this took me#YANDEREAFFECTIONS GOLDEN MASTERLIST#last updated 3/5/23#mha#yandere mha#mha x reader#yandere hawks#hawks x y/n#hawks smut#deku x reader#deku smut#yandere smut#yandere deku#bakugo x reader#yandere bakugou#tamaki x y/n#yandere tamaki#tamaki amakiji#tamaki smut#we struggling out here#Last updated 4/24/23
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If you do not like what other people like, then this is not a reason to insult them.
You must distinguish the real world from fiction. If you can't do that, can you stop using social media, please? Why can't you just NOT watch posts tagged "Beluz" if you're so easily hurt by drawings?
Do you really want so badly to draw other people's attention to the fact that you do not like something that they like? Or do you think that if you insult them, then something will change?
Just don't interact with people whose content you don't like. Do yourself and them a favor
hey bucko, you seem to be lacking some braincells, so let me shed some light on that dark, empty brain of yours! đ
see, this is how the internet functions, bud! i make an opinion post on things i find that really grind my gears, as most people do on social media! before said post, i did not actively seek out any beluz posts. in fact, i have done my damn best to avoid them. a beluz supporter came on MY post, basically begging for attention at that rate.
you see, champ, what you dont seem to understand is that fiction bleeds into reality very often! take that one slenderman case, for example. yknow the one. that was caused by, you guessed it, fiction!
i do not actively engage with beluz shippers, i am primarily nonconfrontational! but theres a difference when someone who tries to defend it comes forward, clinging on to the mindset that 'fiction is fiction', which can be correct in some cases! when someone uses silly headcanons for a character that doesnt actively harm anyone, fiction is fiction! its a character, usually headcanons come from a form of projection in most cases.
however, bringing in pedophilia into the mix is when shit gets weird. y'see, pedophilia in all forms is wrong, something everyone is taught at a young age. common sense, right? when you take a young character and try to ship them with a much older, mature character, its obviously not right. everyone is aware of this.
fiction is just the projection of reality. i mean, realistically, if you saw a young girl dating an older man, you would be disgusted, wouldnt you? so why is it different within fiction? ill answer it for you, because people believe they can hide behind the face of fiction to condone their disgusting actions. pedophilia is pedophilia, regardless! see, get this, according to the Section 1466A of Title 18, United State Code, it's illegal for any person to knowingly produce, distribute, receive, or possess with intent to transfer or distribute visual representations, such as drawings, cartoons, or paintings that appear to depict minors engaged in sexually explicit conduct and are deemed obscene.Â
and that's just in america. it is ALSO illegal in the UK and Canada and many more countries! fiction does affect reality. many insults are warranted here in this situation, because news flash, pedophiles and those who encourage pedophilia are disgusting!
please get a grip, hope this helped, buckaroo! <33
#i had to dumb it down for you#youre welcome#youre all freaks#beluz#toh#the owl house#anti beluz#valid argument#but unfortunately#pipebomb
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how did you get your au to be so popular
i wish to follow in thine footsteps of getting lots of questiond (i have crippling asd and beg to be given permission to infodump)
lol but like seriously, how long'd it take for you and also you got any tips? kay thats really it haha thanks đ đ
oh mannn i dunnoooooooo. this aint my first au and tbh part of the success just comes from the fact that tmnt is like. a really big fandom, cause of all the iterations and how old the story is. i had a few similarly abuse-focused AU's for the owl house, and then i was obsessed with sun wukong & jttw for a solid few months there. (sorry, rambling, to get back on track-)
its not like i TRIED to be popular (feels like a weird thing to call myself. popular?? lmao i have like 5 friends) i just didnt avoid it either by like, idk, not tagging or w/e. I mean you basically just have to make stuff and keep making stuff forever. people will find it eventually, even if its only a couple of them who really engage in it.
AND CONSUME ART!! not just fandom stuff i mean whatever floats your boat, books (audiobooks in my case) movies comics- that's important to!! take note of everything you like in stories, write it down if you wanna. oh yeah and be pretentious (by which i mean, read symbolism into everything that you want to)
What I'm doing on this blog is basically what I was doing my entire life anyway, (drawing, making up stories, doing character design shit) except now i have people interested in it.
i really wasnt confident enough to do fandom stuff until like, first year of college tbh. at that point the owl house was like the main thing i relied on for any sense of relief cause my life was BAD bad haha.
OH ALSO I THINK THERE'S SOMETHING YOU'RE MISSING HERE:
(i have crippling asd and beg to be given permission to infodump)
I've got this BAD IRL, but the thing i remind myself is that this is MY BLOG and if someone doesn't wanna hear my rambling they can LEAVE. ALWAYS INFODUMP. ALWAYS RAMBLE. if attention is what you want then I'd suggest just genuinely talking about what you're passionate about, and if no one is asking you then ask yourself!
like, make a post that starts with "hey do u guys wanna hear about how much of a mess my three headed character is?? no?? TOO BAD HERE wE GO!!"
i really don't have a ton of advice hahhh this is all very ramble-y and im basically just telling you what I do. most of all I think it's important to like, not TRY to be popular tbh. don't try to be popular, try to make what you like the most and what you'd wanna see other people make- and that stuff will draw in the kind of people whose attention matters the most.
which is easier said than done i guess if you crave attention but its sooo much better than worrying about followers or something i promise.
like, if I wanted to be popular I wouldn't have advised myself to talk about incest and sa and all the shit that I do. but i dont wanna be popular, I wanna get the attention of people who ALSO like those stories and i want to explore themes of abuse that those people ALSO want to explore.
LONG STORY SHORT: I DUNNO MAN.
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you already know the drill annotation time baby!
Did you stop guarding Katsuki because youâre the spy Enji thinks or because not even the red wing captain could follow you undetected?
this is so funny WHO does that lunatic think we're spying for? the kingdom whose prince has spent like a quarter of his life in Takoba? nothing in that head but air and anger
All week, you growl through the effort of fastening garters to a stocking. Another. All week he has followed you and all week you kept his attention off your prince. If Bakugou had just stayed away, if heâd just hated you properly. You lean back to inspect neatly laced bootsâ Alderan dancing knotsâ boots so delicate they couldnât be made for actual dancing. What will he wear tonight? You force a hand through wild braids.
give it up for girls with weird ass attachment styles they make the world go round
A prized hunting dog. You will be beautiful for one night and you can no longer avoid your job; assassins love to hide at parties.
god there are few things i love more than a good dog metaphor. don't mind the blood on my teeth its not mine but its there for you. many such cases
Prince Natsuo doesnât have the energy to be surprised by you. He is not fazed by your drawn weapon and doesnât flinch in the dark, but he remembers your name, âCaptain Y/n?â
extremely nonchalant for someone who almost caught a blade between the eyes natsuo you will always be famous
Your Alderan senses are dulling in this kingdom. Your ghost never sounded so nervous.
Iâm sorry, Bakugouâs heartbroken voice parrots. Donât cry. He pleads with his hands on your cheeks. You canât change what youâve done. Bakugou Katsuki can haunt you til death, but you donât get to hide from him.
this story's ghost/wraith motif may be secondary to the ocean theme and the hot vs. cold Aldera/Takoba dichotomy but it is no less dear to me
You smooth your hands up your hips and rest both palms at your waist where Bakugou held you, bleeding, poisoned, his forehead slipping off your shoulders with sweat and the lurches of the horse. A ten minute ride from the edge of the forest to the city gates, it was only the sky watching such desperation.
such an intimate moment and they were still in the enemies phase. bkg and eyes really did write the textbook on hate that loves you and love that drives you to the pits of despair
You would have attended and served quietly, you would have dreamed of home if the flame in that last pretty candle wasnât flickering in a clear and lonely shade of blue.
you cannot imagine the speed with which my heart dropped to my stomach. chills.
Your prince will fight to the death, you cannot let him. Your prince will die for his friends, you canât bear to lose a single one. Send me instead, you beg. Me, wait for me.
i really dont even need to say anything its right there man
âHighness!â You shout into the blue before realizing the silence of the ballroom doesnât come from death. One thousand pearls startle immediately at the beast and her raised sword. Gowns of lace, suits of glass, feathers, freckles, masks and tiny shoes, bells, fans, crystal flutes of pink champagne, and not a single person speaking over a hush. Two hundred eyes watch the Alderan dog prepare to fire again into a party.
No one speaks. There is no laughter, there is a single violin playing from a fifteen piece bandâ did you scare the trumpets too?â weeping a waltz for the dancers who crane away from their partners to watch what you might do.
this is such uniquely freaky imagery i can't describe it. like me and eyes were on the same page the whole time what kind of party makes zero noise. we have GOT to get out of this kingdom man
The prince of Aldera climbs trees in the summer to reach the best apples. He likes to bathe at night. He is slightly shorter than his mother in her favorite boots and it bothers him, but never enough to say anything. His fingertips sparked when he kissed you.
MY MAN MY MAN MY MAN
âWonât,â he rumbles, âwonât let you look crazy alone.â Prince Bakugou Katsuki steadies his palm just behind your waist and draws you onto the dancefloor, hand in hand. He is more than beautiful. Polished boots, white suit and golden embroideryâ each button in his vest is flanked by a small Alderan sun. Dragons prowl along the hem. His red cape you thought lost, rocks you with homesick.
MY MAN PT 2 he's just so gorgeous it makes me ill
You, his war criminal.
They also invented matching each other's freak.
âThe candles are blue at the queenâs request,â he rumbles, sacrificing posture to watch you properly, to correct you. âThat mustâŚI, I didnât know. I wouldnât have let them.â
crazy place. intolerable place. rei my darling i love you dearly but my god.
âMind your ears, dragonne.â
with every new epithet and moniker he adds one diamond to the wedding ring. the royal coffers are almost empty Aldera is going to go into a recession
Kirishima towers over your prince and barks with laughter trying to get the man to spin under his arm.
Your red pleats swell in the air and settle with your hips on his broad shoulder. The hidden sheath under your bodice taps his ear. âAre you armed?!â He hollers and spins once to make you squeal and grip tight to his hair.
I know this is bkg's story i know i knowww but the soft spot i have for kirishima can't be ignored he is so big and so full of love and one day im going to marry him
Peruro is a game and so when Sero Hanta and his cheeks tattooed with lipstick kisses, plucks you from your partner, Mina can hardly complain.
i imagined a cartoon style lip stick mark right in the middle of his forehead and i laughed for like 5 minutes
âRed suits you, dragonne!â Bakugou roars and you land square in his arms to the coo of a shepherd's pipe. You blink and his, him, heâ he stares.
mhm mhm he's planning wedding colors
âY/n, âm sorry.â You fight yourself not to fight the closeness. Itâs rotten work. Your gown matches his suit perfectly and pressed together you spin in the chaos and climax of a beautiful song.
its right there pt 2
A tall man shifts between rushing servants on the catwalks.
heart in my stomach pt 2
The impact of the spear shattered a chunk of floor beside your princeâs heart where it landed. Missed, you grin feebly. Heâs okay. He is perfect and wide-eyed and beautiful, and the blade of your cherrywood halberd shines with blood from its home through your chest.
GROUP SUICIDE IN 20 MINUTES
head in hands pomme...pomme you've done it again...once this series is done im petitioning for it to be put in the library of congress
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ăźâ§ prince!bakugou x royal guard!reader
"He does not grab you by the collar or threaten you with his teeth and when you grasp his hand to steady yourself from an awkward step, he is the boy who makes magic for you in the dark."
slight cw panic sequence. (I) reader agonizes after yesterday's kiss and of course the ball is today. blue mages haunt you, red wing captains stalk you, the wrong prince finds your hiding place (II) bkg will not let you embarrass yourself alone. ballgowns, blue fire, champagne, pearls, a song from home, relief and peruro. dance my love, or die. 7.7k
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Captain Hawks has one job and youâve made it so much more difficult than necessary. Heâs had one job for fifteen years. Red feathers brick out southern wind from the hiding place heâs made above your window and he glares through gusts and goggles to watch you finally return to Prince Touyaâs room. You crumple in a pile at the foot of the bed when the door clicks closed. Youâre rotting. Sulking. The Alderan dragon everyoneâs so worried about, you who his king assigned him to watchâ you, the girl with wet eyes and hair full of hay.
You kissed your prince last night. He knows the feeling.
Hawks takes a sip of coffee and grips the barrel of his mug to keep ocean wind from throwing it off the roof. The king is right to worry about you. You have spent one week wandering palace grounds, greenhouses, pantries, walkways and stables and never once guarding your prince. Weird bird, are you the chicken or the egg? Did you stop guarding Katsuki because youâre the spy Enji thinks or because not even the red wing captain could follow you undetected? Because you know better than to keep close to your charge when something is stalking? Hawks winces in a particularly strong breeze. Itâs the latter.
Two eyes burn suddenly from your gloom to the parapet fifty meters outside your window where the captain spills his coffee in a rush to stay out of sight. What he wouldnât give to be warming a bed back in town but instead Hawks rolls his eyes, flat on his wings behind a gable wall. You rise and jerk your curtains closed, glare like black fire.
Princess Fuyumi runs clear through a ten foot portrait propped up in the hallway to be dusted. Sheâs cold, sheâs sick of sending maids to find you and the ball is today. Master Aizawa is securing perimeters somewhere too far away to be helpful, Urarakaâs finalizing guest lists, and Bakugou is getting stitches because heâs good for nothing else. The princess shakes paint flecks from her hair. She rips canvas from her belt and throws the standing frame to the ground.
Kirishima has never dressed for a ball like this before because parties in Aldera usually require armor. What do you do at a Ball if not wrestle? Do Takobans dance Peruro? Sero and Kaminari assure him he doesnât look silly in white. Todoroki sits outside beside the sea. Deku holds his hand tight to keep him from jumping in.
In the kingâs rear guard, Shinsou nurses a broken finger. Enji derives gross entertainment from screaming at soldiers all dressed in blue and it smells like the king came home for this party. The queen cannot be found. Few people think to look for you. No one minds blue fire.
An already tedious afternoon dissolved when a boy crossed your path on turret stairs, your hiding place from prying eyes. You didnât have the heart to bark when he stumbled through Excuse mes and My Ladys. The quiet wasnât helping. You could trust Bakugou with his champion for a day but your princeâs hands still danced on your skin the longer you let thoughts linger.
The little footman continued, melting, as you raised your head from between your knees. He carried a box under his arm and waited for your permission to move in the tight stairwell, âFrom Princess Fuyumi.â
Inside the box under the arm of the boy on the spire stairs was a dress.
You spent last night between pickle barrels in the distillery and hid in the morning where you knew your prince wouldnât think to find you, curled in the deepest sconce of the north wing watching staff fly past. Today is the ball. Itâs why the princess ordered you a dress and itâs why youâre pulling gold lace through your fingers by candlelight. Aizawaâs training pit echos pretty like the sea when itâs empty and the uniform room has a mirror. Itâs a dark little annex off the main ring without those Takoban windows Captain Hawks loves so much.
All week, you growl through the effort of fastening garters to a stocking. Another. All week he has followed you and all week you kept his attention off your prince. If Bakugou had just stayed away, if heâd just hated you properly. You lean back to inspect neatly laced bootsâ Alderan dancing knotsâ boots so delicate they couldnât be made for actual dancing. What will he wear tonight? You force a hand through wild braids.
Soldiers can fight armed or barefisted, fire cannons and crossbows, deliver first aid, hunt, guard, salute. You would be the head of your kingdomâs army and so you must know one thousand more important things, like how to string a corset and when to use forks in a line on pretty tables. Silk the color of blood gathers all the heat of your chest and keeps it close. Does the heir of Aldera waltz Takoban? You take the buttons at the ends of your sleeves in your teeth to fasten them closed. What will he look like in their blue costumes dancing with their pretty ladies? Can you remember how to count rhythm in threes? Can you even look at him?
More important than a soldier, court mages, even more important than a champion, you are trained as Head of Royal Guards. You are poison tester, navigator, weaponmaster and seaman, you judge the safety of the room by the shoes of its hosts and you wear fine clothes at fine parties to accompany your masters like a trophy. A prized hunting dog. You will be beautiful for one night and you can no longer avoid your job; assassins love to hide at parties.
âSteady,â you whisper to the gods.
Itâs been a few years but you know how to wear these clothes and you know how best to move, and you wince when the sheath of a dagger chills the skin under your ribcage where it hides. You sparkle unsettlingly in the gown and grunt through the effort of untucking stubborn skirts from hilts and scabbards. Wielding a candle to examine yourself more closely in the mirror, you judge the shapes impractical clothes make when theyâre meant to fit only you. Pleats of red fall over themselves from your waist to your ankles and in your reflection a bit of fire stirs, because in a cold kingdom this gift was made of love.
You are blood red tonight from neck to heel. Gold tassels align themselves like military badges across your shoulders and the sleeves of the gown bleed to lace at your wrist where two green buttons wink. You canât help staring. Jeanistâs dragontooth gleams on your breast.
This is an overstuffed week. Hedonistic, anxious like a blood clot heart attack. You are stalked, you are tested and attacked, youâve pretended not to feel, you did half your best, you snacked instead of training and sat in pleasant company you love, why wouldnât a ball punctuate this disaster? Something about preparing for war in the dark makes this bearable. Something about fastening a knife to your thigh keeps you from thinking about Bakugou Katsuki and the formalities waiting for you upstairs. Someone is watching you.
A man clears his throat outside the doorway, careful not to stand where you might see him but you are too focused to be caught by surprise. âWhat do you want?â
âApologies, Captain.â
At that, air falls loose from your nostrils. Your lips donât dare part to make a sound. Your self-important posture doesnât have time to settle before red pleats freeze and the candle cracks like a knuckle in your palm because the horror of this hadnât occurred to you. That voice will never leave.
âY/n?â the flame mage murmurs again.
Why would Aldera want you back? Playing princess instead of posting sentinel. Knowing youâre spied upon and letting Bakugou find you, day after day, letting him help you house spiders, letting him spar, letting him smile, letting him sit beside youâ you knew what was watching youâ something worse than flying captains. Itâs why this horrible place remains horrible and the cold like frost can never be shaken off the back of your neck. Itâs why the queen hides in stables and why your blood runs black in the instant you understand yourself through your reflection.
Your two shoulders fly through the doorway first so that when the blue mage attacks your legs will be spared enough to carry you upstairs. You can outrun him, you can outrun anyone. You should have paid more attention to ball preparations this month instead of languishing in your princeâs backwards attention. You should have killed yourself to kill him before his body hit the water. Why wouldnât an assassin slip through the cracks of your distraction? And why wouldnât it be him? Unkillable.
The candles inside the changing room are doused and shattered so that you are the only possible flammable thing in this dusty arena and you pull the knife from your hip as you soar over the threshold.
It would have flown hard when you released itâ might have even killed a ghostâ if you hadnât seized up as the figure came into view. White hair, tall with sunken eyes, only slightly shorter than his father. You right yourself to land on your new dancing boots, and their heels wail two lines through the sand at the edge of the arena.
Prince Natsuo doesnât have the energy to be surprised by you. He is not fazed by your drawn weapon and doesnât flinch in the dark, but he remembers your name, âCaptain Y/n?â
Like a cat your eyes go wide and your knife clatters to the floor. Half-fresh braids fall over your shoulders in a deep and rigid bow. Your fists bunch the soft material at your hips and you consider dropping to your knees in the silence and dust of the sparring pit so far away from any party he should be attending. Your heart beats to a new fear, âHighness,â you stammer to the ground, âIââ
âDo you dance, Captain?â
You do, and you quirk an eyebrow at the floor. Itâs becoming increasingly clear, for how threatening this country is, that its eldest princess actually took all the reason at birth. Swallowed it from the room with her first cry and left kings and countrymen to stumble on their words, for even when you are not threatening him at knifepoint thereâs a dread just behind the princeâs every word. Your Alderan senses are dulling in this kingdom. Your ghost never sounded so nervous. âIâm sorry, sir,â you lift only your head from the stiff bow, âI donât understand.â Â
Prince Natsuoâs suit is blue trimmed silver. He is white trousers and shining bells, military honors, rope tassels, broad like his father, beautiful like his mother and dressed like a blue glass bottle. Heâs never spoken to you and seems to have trouble even looking at you now, like a rabbit the dog runs past in a hunt.
You soften, âMay I escort you to the party, sir? Youâve made a wrong turn,â rising fully as the prince gathers his thoughts and keeps well away from youâ no. Less away from you and more just to himself. Like pouring a cup just full enough to tease the tension at the rim, Prince Natsuo is bursting with nothing to say.
All week you hid from spies and all week Alderans made it their job to find you, to be near you. Today you hide from just one man and suddenly every person in the cold kingdom knows exactly where you are. Winged captains weather the winds to watch you and squire boys can retrieve you from tall towers. Maids predict which hidden paths youâll take from the kitchens to ask if youâll need a bathâ intercepting you without issue or sweat. Are you that predictable? Unsubtle? Obvious and lacking, or does horrible Takoba deserve a little more credit? Her skittish prince can track you down to the darkest corner of his castle like it's only natural to hide from festivities instead of attending them.
âPlease excuse my being started.â
âItâs your job,â he musters just as you scoop up your blade and tip it back into its sheath amongst skirt folds. âThank youâ for your job.â Heâs fidgeting, not murderous, and his voice no longer sounds like a monster. The prince scratches gently at a bauble on his chest as you peer through the dark, âIâm sorry.â
Iâm sorry, Bakugouâs heartbroken voice parrots. Donât cry. He pleads with his hands on your cheeks. You canât change what youâve done. Bakugou Katsuki can haunt you til death, but you donât get to hide from him.
âYour Royal Highness, it would be my pleasure to escort you upstairs.â You square yourself to the blue bottle prince, âHumble Y/n, apprentice to the Captain of Her Alderan Majestyâs Royal Guard. My apologies. You had to come all this way just for a proper introduction.â And extend your hand to him, a polite smile on your lips. To death then. Youâve survived worse than a party.
Natsuo does not take your hand. He pops something off of his chest, drops the something in your hand and straightens his suit jacket, content with or oblivious to the fact that his sister inherited all his good social reason. You eye him first and then study the metal on your palm that glints in dim moonlightâ candlelightâ and tense as the roomâs circle of sconces suddenly blink to life one by one.
Of the fifty candles in the training room ring, the first five from the entrance miraculously catch bright warm fire. Six, then the seventh, one by one around the edge of the room. Natsuo rushes to pat out your panic, âMagic candles.â
âMagic candles,â you repeat, which makes much more sense than a drowned magician. You exist at the edge of complete catastrophe, always prepared to fight that man who was too bored to kill you, but magic candles make sense. When have you ever seen a servant in this cold place spend their time lighting candles?
âAnd a medal,â Natsuo continues. You follow his line of sight to the object in your hand. Itâs silver. It fits right in the cleft of your palm. The inscription around the edge is in a language you donât know but what is clearly the moon sits in the center. A comet streaks across it and together they make the emblem of the House of Todoroki. âThe medal of honor.â
âItâs beautiful.â
âItâs yours.â
âIt certainly is not,â you say, the air sort of floating from you instead of being pushed out by your voice. Eleven, twelve candles, a quarter of the room is lit. The badge warms in your fingers but you no longer look at it and extend your hand back to the prince in a gown that already makes you too ridiculous to breathe. He shakes his head and you push your open palm a little farther like a plea.
âIâve seen you. I heard aboutâŚmy fatherâs arrival in your training exercise and I, I didnât, I donât think my sisterâs champions would have been fast enough to stop him if you hadnât. You kept my mother from the mad magician and I doubt anyone has thanked you and I, I justâ my father wouldnât allow honors on your gown and mine is more than I deserve.â He straightens his jacket again and continues to struggle with eye contact. Twenty-two, twenty-four, twenty-seven candles come alive in the cold arena and the ring of light reaches the pair of you at the far end. âItâs much less than youâre owed.â
Prince Natsuo bows to you deeply and turns so quickly that arena-sand clouds his feet. He does not accept your escort and he doesnât turn around. He only strides across the room, thirty-three candles, and out the dark but open doors. Itâs easy to imagine him judging his own performance just where you canât see him; he exudes the nervous energy of someone who cringes when they turn your back to you. Youâre smiling before you realize. Fourty.
Itâs slightly warmer than youâve felt all month, in clinging red skirts and candlelight. Aldera is always bustling so Takoba is loney in comparison, but maybe there is comfort where you have never looked before. Comfort in red gowns. Comfort in sweaters beside the sea, comfort in silver soldiers and a training room where you are not their commander. That thought is a shock and you clutch the comet in your hand at the edge of the room. Forty-five.
Aizawaâs training pit warms by candlelight under its glass ceiling. Oppressively tall and so much like drowning, the stars blink down at you from their thrones like dappled moonlight on waves. You fasten the comet pin to your bodice with eyes tilted to the sky. Your first night here the sky was the only one who knew you. You smooth your hands up your hips and rest both palms at your waist where Bakugou held you, bleeding, poisoned, his forehead slipping off your shoulders with sweat and the lurches of the horse. A ten minute ride from the edge of the forest to the city gates, it was only the sky watching such desperation. There was comfort in that, under the threat of death. Comfort in your loss of rank here, in anonymity.
Rescued from a crowd, rescued from punishment, rescued from the sea, from cliffs, from sickness, from solitude. Saved by magic, saved by strength, by yourself and by your prince, over and over again in this wet kingdom.
There is comfort in teaching strangers to fear you and you blink through the memory of your cherrywood halberd soaring through a dinner party. The loss of its weight at your back makes you ache and your ears start to itch as the rest of the night replays itself. Forty-seven. Bakugou pressed close between your legs at the lip of a table. His thumbs smoothing your cheeks over like parchment and his cheeks flashing red at a realizationâ at everything you now realize he was trying to say, to show you. Youâre grateful for the privacy of the stars again so that no one can ask why you smile in an empty room.
Forty-eight. Dying for a person is so much worse than dying for a cause. You thought it might be the end when the blue flammed mage forced his hand around your mouth or when a garden screamed in ashes under his boot. When heâ he took you by the shoulder and branded the shape of his palm to your flesh, when your arm was relieved of its socketâ everything, all of it came so much easier than the moment your prince stepped forward to face him. Easier than Bakugou collapsing in a burning clearing, easier than counting the decline of his heartbeat through the clothes on your back, easier, so much easier than retching up seawater together on the sand.
Prince Bakugou is agonizing. Forty-nine, heâs upstairs, gilded, waiting for you.
You shake your head like unnecessary thoughts might come loose with the movement. For one night your worry can be in not staring after your chargeâ not tasting his lips when you wet yours at the edge of the partyâ and not in hallucinations of murderous mages. A comet and a dragontooth remind you of the weight of a heart. The last candle around the glowing arena beats to life beside the first and it is time for a ball.
You would have smoothed your skirts over the daggers hidden among them. You would have checked your hair again in the mirror and tested the fit of your boots with a few secret skips. Youâd have imagined the warmth of Bakugouâs hands and his magic, to ease the ache of watching pretty blue ladies waiting to dance with the barbarous and beautiful prince. You would have attended and served quietly, you would have dreamed of home if the flame in that last pretty candle wasnât flickering in a clear and lonely shade of blue.
Fifty.
âFind cover!â you hiss at the squire who collapses to the floor rather than get knocked down the stairs in your charge, âDouse the rugs!â
You call over your shoulder and hurdle the staircase railing rather than waste time sprinting to the bottom. If all of your training boiled down to a single skill, if there was only one chance, one thing you could be trusted to do in the blink of an eye it was arming yourself.
A shortsword shines in your fist as you sprint, its wall hooks worse for your wear after being ripped from the armory on your warpath. The scabbard is fastened sloppily to your left hip. Cruel images of half-scorched bodies, croaking victims that need both your hands to carry them to safety, your princeâ they necessitate the holster which whips your thigh as you tear through a quiet castle. Quiet, so quiet, too quiet for a ball, idiot, you should have known. Every single light in the castle blinks to life in the very last lilacs of sunset, and every single one of them quivers with blue fire.
Seed-sized wall carvings flow through their forms, animated by your speed. Stone does not creak when you step over it, hardly any servants linger in empty hallways and the thought that one squire boy will be the firefighting force for the whole castle is horror compounded by horror. âCaptain Hawks!â You bellow with the last bit of air between strides.
Heâs watching you, he didnât abandon his assignment for a party. You burst from servantsâ paths onto the exact blue rugs you knew the stairs would lead to; your Alderan senses might be dulling but this castle is no longer a maze. Takoban cluelessness can take over all it wants. All it needs to do is get you to the ballroom in this stupid fucking dress. One by one, sconces yawn in innocent blues and burn so hot and so quickly that wax weeps to the floor.
A window in the line takes your pommel to its pane as you retch the swordâs hilt through the glass and shout, âHawks!â louder, between flying shards, into the night, âFire!â
Candles instead of your dress, a candle instead of your flesh. He could be anywhere, nearby, outside, straddling corpses, you donât know the rules his magic follows and every step you take without bursting into flames is a second you canât waste. Your prince will fight to the death, you cannot let him. Your prince will die for his friends, you canât bear to lose a single one. Send me instead, you beg. Me, wait for me.
You soar down two flights of twisted stairs and lurch at a tight corner before colliding with a laundryman and his blue candlestick. âRun,â you seeth without stopping, vaulting over both the man and portrait strewn across the floor beside him, ripped at the center and trailing flecks of paint. The last turn is towards the right leg of the grand staircase, entryway and ballroom dead in your sights. Red wings donât appear and so you hook your hips, and your gown with it, over the lip of the banister.
Hardly a breath escapes the closed ballroom doors. Why are there always too few guards here? What ball makes no noise? What kind of monster could kill a room of people without making a sound? There are clicks, you panic as the banister ends and dismount the slide into a sprint. There is the bone chilling image of the blue mage clicking over corpses with the heels of his tall black bootsâ the body of your prince lying charred and bloodless before he could even let loose a spark.
Your dancing boots make the loudest sound in the entire palace as you run your legs harder, to carry you farther, until finally your hands are flat on the ballroom doors and your biceps scream under orders. The elven silver budges only slightly. There should be footmen outside to let guests in and the anxiety of their absence gives you an unnatural strength, enough to force one gilded door open a crack and slip into the destruction with your weapon raised.
Find him, find him, find Bakugou first, soft sunny hair and pomegranate eyes, the boy who barks laughter, he who wields the magic of old gods, your heart, find your prince, get him home.
Silver foot bolts shriek over marble as you force your way inside. You are a cacophony always. You are blood splattered across the edge of the dancefloor when you burst into the party.
âHighness!â You shout into the blue before realizing the silence of the ballroom doesnât come from death. One thousand pearls startle immediately at the beast and her raised sword. Gowns of lace, suits of glass, feathers, freckles, masks and tiny shoes, bells, fans, crystal flutes of pink champagne, and not a single person speaking over a hush. Two hundred eyes watch the Alderan dog prepare to fire again into a party.
Balls in Aldera breathe life to the city. Any comfort you felt for Takoba dies with your entrance. Waiters roll between guests with trays of cake and wine, and the winter floral decorations must have cost a fortune for petals to be sewed and draped and weeping from the walls because this certainly was meant to be a ball. Your fingers ache for the weight of your halberd for the first time since you lost it in the sea.
There is no mage when your heckles fall. No mage when your shoulders droop and your sword with it, not when you search the ballroom for your Alderan sun, not a single shock of white hair taunting from the windows. Every candle in every abra, every chandelier, sconce, cup, spike, or lamp, is a melancholy flickering blue above the sea of silent guests.
Your weapon falls slack. You exhale as the swordpoint chips the floor.
The queen sits on her throne beyond leagues of distracted dancers and servers and bards, with her hands folded and her husband beside her tense, hunched, and licked by fire where you startled him out of his seat. The great ballroom window blinks with its audience of stars. Just outside and over the cliffs, the maws of the sea applaud.
You jolt, as do the guests closest to you, at the sound of metal crush but it is only Uraraka in her uniform, catching the tray of a server who panicked at the sight of you. Shinsouâs hair isnât hard to pick out from his post beside a waitstaff door and he thins his lips instead of speaking. No one speaks. There is no laughter, there is a single violin playing from a fifteen piece bandâ did you scare the trumpets too?â weeping a waltz for the dancers who crane away from their partners to watch what you might do. Their every gown is white, blue, greenâ silver like sea foam. Their hair obeys them and folds into smooth shapes at the tops of their heads so that their noble throats can be struck sick by the air of a room above the sea. You are the only foul red thing here.
The flame of worry collapses in your chest along with your heart. Quietly, blue fire watches back without laying a finger on anyone.
Oh.
âY/n?â
There you are.
The ring of dancers at the center of the room curl around in their timid waltz, revealing new faces from the back of the crowd. Kirishima in a fit white suit, too focused on not crushing his Takoban partner to even realize youâve arrived and then Mina, full of worry with her hands in Fuyumiâs and both perfectly placed in the seaside painting with their layered dresses of white. She makes to break away from the current, to rescue you, but her prince beats her to it.
The prince of Aldera climbs trees in the summer to reach the best apples. He likes to bathe at night. He is slightly shorter than his mother in her favorite boots and it bothers him, but never enough to say anything. His fingertips sparked when he kissed you.
He is cloaked in red. An abandoned partner jingles angrily as he drifts through the tides and calling your name is the easiest thing in the world, âY/n.â He glows. You have hidden from this all day, and tonight his war cape arcs sanguine circles around him.Â
The Sun approaches, he glides to you like picking up a stray is part of this dance. He takes up your swordhand in his, weapon clattering to the polished floor and with a magic-heavy hand at your waist the scabbard belt falls away. Hair pushed straight back and two red earrings dangling, Bakugou rolls his eyes, âItâs a dogshit party,â and a few pieces of hair fall over a stitched gash on his cheek, âbut I doubt a swordfight will fix it.â
You donât understand and you donât try to speak through volley after volley of embarrassment.Â
âWonât,â he rumbles, âwonât let you look crazy alone.â Prince Bakugou Katsuki steadies his palm just behind your waist and draws you onto the dancefloor, hand in hand. He is more than beautiful. Polished boots, white suit and golden embroideryâ each button in his vest is flanked by a small Alderan sun. Dragons prowl along the hem. His red cape you thought lost, rocks you with homesick.
âHighness,â he steps to a rhythm in fours, heel toe, toe, toe heel forward into the fold of your dress to guide you back into the stream of dancers. âI didnâtâ Iââ Your feet barely make the proper shapes to keep up for your Alderan heart is a grease fire not a hearth. Bakugou holds his head high to the side with the posture of a king. His pupils occupy their lowest corners so he never need take his eyes off of you.
You, his war criminal.
âSir,â you manage and wince when you dare a peek past his shoulders towards onlookers.
He is embers, âI have a surprise.â He does not grab you by the collar or threaten you with his teeth and when you grasp his hand to steady yourself from an awkward step, he is the boy who makes magic for you in the dark. Bakugou Katsukiâs ears are scarlet even as he stares ahead, sweat pearls between your fingers and he sweeps you close, albeit awfully tight, through the steps of a Takoban dance. His face catches light from the candles above and the shadow of his pale lashes sweeps over both cheeks.Â
A corded thigh slips between yours and back again to the tune of one sad string. The rhythm doubles for four steps and calms again. You could dance the continent around for all the etiquette training youâve endured but something about the lack of ghosts here, something about your heart beating out of time with the song, about red eyes and a clenched jaw, the hand fingering notches on the small of your back like it might a celloâ you are suddenly on the catwalks again with your lips smiling into his, you are holding back tears, you are clicking teeth and stumbled steps and hands cupping cheeks, and your heart bleeds all over the dancefloor. Your voice cracks, âIâm so sorry,â and it is the loudest thing in the room.
âThe candles are blue at the queenâs request,â he rumbles, sacrificing posture to watch you properly, to correct you. âThat mustâŚI, I didnât know. I wouldnât have let them.â Bakugou raises his right shoulder in invitation for your hand to rest there but your fingers lift from his arm as he turns you both, and settle on that small new wound at his cheek. You breathe deeply as your chests slot together, no fight in sight. Your relief almost comes in tears.
Party guests do not stop staring, especially now that the foreign royal has spirited his beast to the dancefloor. At a distance, familiar faces train gazes your way. Little doctor Shuzenji and Aizawa beside her nursing a pink champagne flute, both ribboned in their bests. Uraraka offers you a tight lip at the edge of the dancefloor. Fuyumi boxsteps in line nearby, the lonely violin picks up pace, hand in hand with her youngest brother and attempts to lean in to whisper to you before Bakugou cages them both out with his shoulders.
He clears his throat, âCaptain,â the second-loudest thing in the room, âwill you dance with me?â
Itâs not your best, admittedly, but the thought your four-step is poor enough your partner needs to clarify does lighten the mood, and you nod. Half your focus is sacrificed to keeping calm in such a full room and the other half is completely at his mercy.
âPeruro?â Bakugou raises those flaxen eyebrows, his lips led by yours. The dance peruro. Destructive and certain to give the Takoban King an aneurysm. Something like comfort slips in. Your eyes widen suddenly and your prince with you. What does he see? you wonder. You nod again.
The waltz will reach its climax soon and Bakugou leads you through a perfect Takoban rhythm until the second he dips forward to whisper, through your hair and over the silence of this cursed party, âMind your ears, dragonne.â
You shudder immediately at the name, hand in hand, chest to his. Something in your perfect center bursts in white flame and you throw your eyes down to your skirts.
âDance!â Bakugouâs voice cracks like a whip of thunder above the soggy party and he lifts his chin over your head. The vibration of every syllable rumbles from his ribs to yours and his growl is smoke on water, âor die.â
The next second a horn howls one crescendoed note and every hair not squeezed into your silk dress, prickles. You jerk your gaze back up to Bakugou, unsure what expression you might be making, âHow?â
But your prince is still grinning wide so you must be too. âBribed em,â he leans close and as one confused violin trails off, another trumpet joins the fray. Dancers look around distractedly and onlookers whisper, louder, slightly louder, to be heard over the addition of percussion to the building swell of tuning instruments. A pair of cymbals crash like earthquake, a waitress topples over.
Shinsou shakes his head in the corner of the room and rubs his face, fondly entertained. The king is out of his seat again. Suddenly a fifteen piece band is making the sound of home. The band vibrates under an arc of camellias and the small woman seated at the front pulls a flute from her suit jacket. The herding call of her shepherdâs pipe gathers the cacophony and just as quickly as the group disrupted the peace, they hush behind seventeen beautiful whispers of the pipe, clear and bright as stars. It is the quiet start of Mitsukiâs favorite drinking song. Fear of crowds melts from you like bedtime stories.
faire of the fields
the girl who plays for me
dance and i will watch you
dance and i will join,
you who
teaches beasts to love
send us all to war
She draws the final note long and low, violins become fiddles, trumpets repeat the tune, a drummer growls, two pipes build, and the flute cheers back atop a flirty melody of three before the brilliant song erupts. Bakugou clasps your hand tight and throws you from his grip so that you might twirl and glow under his arm but the rules of peruro dictate a little more focus than that.
The closest dancers to you shriek when Mina barrels through them and pulls you out of his hold. She squeals with two gloved hands on your waist, âMiss firelight!â Her dress envelopes yours and the spinning doesnât stop until youâve tripped a man at the edge of the dancefloor and very nearly toppled over yourselves.
Over the curve of her shoulder you snort, shocked by your own glee, as Takobans try to adjust their waltz to the Alderan rhythm and inevitably four-step themselves into a fervor. Kirishima towers over your prince and barks with laughter trying to get the man to spin under his arm. Shinsou is no longer brooding at his post. He is hand in hand with Kanminari, flecked all over with petitfour cream, who has led him into the fray.
âLady Mina!â you bellow and take up her hand in yours. You fasten your waists together and both of you fly into the tide. When was the last time you put the blue mageâs voice away? How long has it been since you last danced Peruro? Singing while stepping, laughing, diving for bystanders and squealing when drunk guests toppled over themselves to be the one to lift you into the air. You steal your partners in peruro, and fight to keep them. It keeps the room from feeling small, from crushing you. When you are thrown whoever catches you gets the next dance and the songs never end.
Euphoria threatens to spill over the fire Katsuki started in your heart. Flame mages are far from your mind under blue candlelight.
The queen does not move, but she might be smiling. Fuyumi yelps when her champion scoops her up from behind and places her on her shoulder. Even the youngest Todoroki and his freckled champion tut about together to the rhythm. You hope no one tries to steal the blue prince; he might not survive it; and make eye contact with Natsuo while you completely butcher Minaâs three step dips. He stands at the base of his parentsâ thrones, unmoving, but pink with excitement.
Takobans, even servants, lingering at the edge of the crowd cannot outswim the rip current. They belong to a quietly stubborn nation who will attempt their delicate hop skips even to the bleat of an Alderan horn. Only cowards leave a dancefloor and it is the first respectable tradition youâve seen here.
In a flash of red across the room, your prince takes up two stiff women in each arm and you almost spit in laughter as they go purple under the instruction of the barbarian prince. The polished floor vibrates. Itâs too loud to think, a mix of happiness and screams of indignation as pretty lords and ladies are pulled into the fray by those countrymen only slightly drunker than they.
Peruro is a game and so when Sero Hanta and his cheeks tattooed with lipstick kisses, plucks you from your partner, Mina can hardly complain. The flutist roars her approval and her fiddlers breathe life into the happy song behind her. Trumpets pluck, bleat, and howl complex harmonies that prove youâre Alderan from the sheer intoxication of the sound.
Seroâs long arms wrap behind you and youâre off your feet before you can speak. âReturn of the Red Captain!â His grip on your sides is more ticklish than hell and you giggle and squirm as you fall into a dip. His palms hit something hard, the dagger concealed in your gown, âAre you armed?â He chuckles and tugs you up and close, back to chest.
âMe? Never.â You peek over your shoulder, both laughing, and he peels you from him so tight you spin away three times fully and far enough away from him that Kirishima poaches you without difficulty.
His Alderan fire rolls off the warm parts of him in waves of pine smoke and happiness. How many yards of fabric it must have taken for Takoba to stitch his suitâ the costâ you canât imagine. He hoists you onto his shoulder before you can think a moment longer.
Your red pleats swell in the air and settle with your hips on his broad shoulder. The hidden sheath under your bodice taps his ear. âAre you armed?!â He hollers and spins once to make you squeal and grip tight to his hair. Princess Fuyumi covers her mouth to hide laughter and you beam at each other from your shoulder seats, over the sea of Takoban heads. The champion shrugs you into his arms and back onto your feet. The new heels of your dancing boots click like bells every step you take.
Eijirou is a wonderful dancer, and difficult to burgle. He throws his hands above his head and the pair of you clap, kick one leg out and turn, eyes always locked and teeth shining. With your next kick, your hip checks a short man attempting to dance Takoban and knocks him into another pair. Eijirouâs next clap, behind his back, startles a woman so badly she covers her ears and the whole room reeks of home. Drown in it Takoba, dance or die.
Your friends are safe. Thereâs nothing to fear from shitty parties and you spare a thought for the servants you must have traumatized on your rampage down here. Wers and mers, the window you brokeâ Kirishimaâs hands are at your waist because you are distracted, you are searching, and before you can brace yourself he has thrown you clear into the air.
No matter how much you hate it here, the ballroom is beautiful and Natsuo might be a wonderful king. His decorations shine in the queenâs candlelight. Early winter flowers are strung by the thousands to garnish balustrades and window frames, they erupt from iridescent vases and hang in an arch over the howling band. Bundles of pearls dot every corner and swallow the moonlight. Silver shells and whistles, inlaid cuffs, white wigs, Takoba is most beautiful by moonlight. Thereâs no sun here. Did you ever think youâd hate him? That youâd miss him? Where is he? Your prince likes plums best because theyâre sour and he blows on dandelions when no oneâs watching and he works construction with his men when the city needs repair and he hates how dry paper feels on his fingers. The daggers at your hip cool in your descent.
âRed suits you, dragonne!â Bakugou roars and you land square in his arms to the coo of a shepherd's pipe. You blink and his, him, heâ he stares. He is terrible at piano and walks with his head down after rain to keep from stepping on worms. He mends his own clothes because his father taught him how to sew. âYou,â he attempts to speak, âCaptain, you,â but the high of the dance dissolves from him even as the music swells because you stare and bring your fingers to the wound on his cheek.
âYouâre beautiful,â you breathe. He does not find his words in the space between your faces. Your prince goes pink. Enough of the room is dancing now that you need to read lips to truly hear anything but he understands your every thought without effort as he lets you down. Thereâs a hand on your back to keep you close. Iâm afraid. It hurts to be so close to you. He presses his forehead to yours.
âY/n, âm sorry.â You fight yourself not to fight the closeness. Itâs rotten work. Your gown matches his suit perfectly and pressed together you spin in the chaos and climax of a beautiful song.
The prince rolls figure-eights against your forehead with his own. Two much less focused dancers jostle your duet and Bakugou sweeps a foot forward to trip the leader before lifting you over the pile of men and returning to the dance. You glow red in his arms above him, halo of the moon.
A tall man shifts between rushing servants on the catwalks. Your prince beams below you, king of the sun. It's a pretty party. It is perfectly loud. A polearm is readied on a scarred arm in the dark and no one minds blue fire.
The flutist picks up speed, spurred on by the tambourine, and each note from each instrument cuts itself off to make time for the next. Every place you touch one another aches. If it would just stay like this forever, dancing, knowing without speaking, you could kill any enemy. The sky would learn to kneel, if only you could keep the adoration of winespilt eyes.
A series of gasps, a yelp, and Kirishimaâs sweet laughter punctuate the thought. Bakugou was meant to wear fine clothes like these. Sparks like fairy lights twinkle where sweat beads on his jaw and you would have given nine lives to kiss him one more time. He will be a good king too. There is a scream.
Your hand on his shoulder bunches the fabric of his cape, and you lurch forward to lock your other hand around his back. Your foot is dead behind his before he can blink and with a surge of momentum from the dance, the last swell of fiddle, a prayer for old gods, luck from the sea and something like love, you knock the prince over your shoulder and onto the ground into the thickest thrall of dancers.
He laughs the whole way down and holds you where he can to keep from knocking your heads together. The sound is molten gold. You would sin to hear it always.
He is still laughing, howling, bursting with joy when he hits the ground and you with him in your perfect dance peruro. He doesnât notice the whine of dropped instruments or revulsion of the crowd because he cannot look away from you. On his back, on the floor, beneath you, Prince Bakugou lifts his arm to cup your face and freezes in the new and sudden silence.
The impact of the spear shattered a chunk of floor beside your princeâs heart where it landed. Missed, you grin feebly. Heâs okay. He is perfect and wide-eyed and beautiful, and the blade of your cherrywood halberd shines with blood from its home through your chest.
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i heard someone's got their requests open...... SO i dont really have much other than my thirst for smut and the total conviction that leon is a boobs man (while chris is an ass man), you can't change my mind. and its not even about size, i just know that man loves him some đ, big or small. anyways, im also a sucker for some angst so what about a little thing where leon and the reader broke up for whatever reason but deep down they miss each other a lot and wish they have not given up so easily, and then they sleep together... for like the first time since the break up and leon is all up on her and her đ that he missee so much. just smut w a little plot lmao, thank you if you consider!! :)
This has been my favourite request so far so I had to get to it right away! i hope you enjoy it anon! <3
Warnings: smut and some angst at first
Itâs been a month since Leon left. After one of the worst missions he ever had to face, he decided it was enough. If he had to face zombies and bio weapons and fuck knows what else, heâd do it alone and not risk her life too. Breaking up was the wisest decision, keeping her save. As a Kennedy, she would always have a target on her back, ready to be shot at. And if another person he loves dies because of him...Leon didnât know if he would be able to overcome the grief and sadness.
It was two in the morning when you heard someone banging against your door. Out of reflex, you grabbed the gun he had left at your apartment months ago, âjust in caseâ. Now was one of those times you thought. With an unlocked gun and in your nightgown you headed towards the door. The mysterious visitor was still banging against it, saying your name over and over again. â(Y/N), (Y/N), open up!â, youâd recognize that voice anywhere. Leon. And he sounded drunk.
You placed the gun away and unlocked the door. This caught Leon by surprise and he stumbled forwards, thanks to your great reflexes you caught him before his pretty face could kiss the hardwood floor. âLeon, the fuck you doing here?â, you asked as you helped him back on his feet. Together you headed to the living room where you sat him down on the couch, getting him a glass of water.
âI miss you baby!â, Leon hip cupped during the sentence, giving you his best puppy eyes. Fuck, not the puppy eyesâŚ
âLeon, we broke up a month ago.â, you replied as you placed the cup of ice cold water in his hands. It still hurt, and seeing him in a state like this confirmed your belief that he wasnât taking it easily.
Leon shrugged and took a few sips from the water, pulling a face. âThatâs not wodkaâŚâ, he muttered as he placed the glass down. âAnyway. I missed you and your smell and your soft hair and your boobs andâŚâ
You sighed and cupped his cheeks, âLeon, stop it. We broke up for a reasonâŚâ
âAnd that reason is stupid as fuck. I miss you.â, he confessed like the drunken mess that he is, still using his puppy eyes like you. Leon tilted his head, sticking his bottom lip out, âI miss waking up to you next to me, when you drool on your pillow and your hair is all messy an-â
You cut him off. Enough is enough. You had longed for him and his touch ever since he walked out of the door of your apartment, crying just like you did. Ever since you wanted him for yourself again, your Leon. You cut him off with a soft kiss, tasting the various liquors he had dumped into his body into the hours prior to your meeting.
âLeonâŚâ, you whispered against his lips, the stubble of his beard scratching against your cheeks as he rubbed against you. All the feelings pent up were crashing down on you, and you both couldnât hold back the desire burning deep inside of your bodies.
âBedroom. Now.â, Leon said as he stood up, pulling you with him. Despite his stumbling, the muscle memory told him where your bedroom was, and in no time you two were in the bed you had shared so many times. Leon pulled you into his lap, instantly burying his face between your breasts. As a breathy moan escaped your throat, Leon tugged on your nightgown. âOff.â
To his enjoyment, your nightgown found its way to your bedroom floor, and to his delight, you werenât wearing a bra. âDamn, how I missed themâ, Leon muttered as his eyes were fixed on your breasts, taking in their shape, form, even the colour of your nipples. His calloused fingers flicked your nipples, drawing a moan from your lips. Ever since he had found out they were your weakness...Nothing had stopped him from spending literal hours between them, drawing one orgasm after the other from your body.
âYou sound so fucking sweet like that...missed your cute moans, babe.â, Leon growled out as he placed one hand on your hips, guiding you to grind against him. As if it was in your blood, you moved your hips against his, feeling his rather obvious bulge against your panties. âGood girl.â, Leon flicked his tongue over your nipples, one time each, just enough to make you wish for more. Your hand dug into his shoulders, a silent beg for touch and satisfaction.
The moment Leon wrapped his lips around your nipple felt as if you were floating on cloud 7. The familiar feeling of his teeth gently biting into your soft flesh, leaving marks behind to show whose girl you are. How his beard scraped ever so slightly against your skin, tiny red traces of your connection for days to admire. He sucked and licked as if his life depended on it.
Because you were so busy with the pleasure Leon brought upon you with his mouth, you didnât realize that he had tugged your panties to the side, only when his fingers brushed against your clit was when you gasped. Leon pulled away from your tits, a string of saliva connecting his lips to your nipple. What a sight, what a view. âDo you want this?â
âOf fucking course.â, you breathed out, and before Leon could suck on your other breast, you pulled him into another kiss, breathlessly but full of need and lust. While you kissed Leon, his fingers collected enough of your sheer endless wetness and plunged them inside of you. The stretch and calloused feeling made you feel filled up, a feeling you had longed for since Leon had last touched you. âLeon, pleaseâŚâ, you moaned out as he stroked over your g-spot, feeling every little bit of your inside, of the place that made you feel so good.
âPlease what? Say it, little girl.â
âI want you Leon. Fuck, I need you. Now.â, and that was all Leon needed. He pulled his fingers out of your pussy, leaving you empty and whining. You wiggled your hips while he pulled down his own jeans and took off his shirt, giving you enough time to admire the beautiful man in front of you.
Leon pulled you closer once he was undressed, leaning against the wall by the bed, guiding your hips closer to his. God, he was so beautiful with his uncut cock, standing at attention just because of you. âI missed this.â, you confessed and to your surprise, Leon agreed with you before he slowly guided himself inside of you. Fuck, how you deeply you missed his. It felt as if you two were made for each other. You needed a hot second to adjust to his size, he wasnât so big that it would hurt, but...an impressive cock was hidden in his pants.
âFuck, little girl, you feel so good.â, Leon groaned as he started to move his hips along with your, moving as one. He rested his head on your shoulder, one arm around your waist, the other one busy with rubbing your clit. His touch alone made you see stars, and since you hadnât masturbated since he left, your orgasm was approaching fast.
The first waves of your orgasm caught Leon by surprise, making him look up to you. âAlready?â, he asked, his lips parted and swollen from all the kisses you had shared. You nodded as another wave washed over you, and Leon felt his cock twitching inside of you. So tight, so fucking goodâŚ
âFuck, babyâ, Leon moaned against your skin, pulling you into another open mouthed kiss. The taste of alcohol was fading off, replaced with his unique taste. And fuck, it was an addicting taste. Your tongues danced together as every moan was swallowed by the other party.
It didnât take much longer for you to cum. His thick fingers, his cock made for your pussy...together you reached your peaks, panting and moaning as the orgasms came over you. As you contracted around him, Leon filled you up to the brim, the sweetest feeling of them all with your lovers cum inside of you. Your neighbours probably heard your loud moans but at this moment, you couldnât care less.Â
As Leon went soft, his cock slipped out of you, his cum dripping out. But in this very moment you felt more connected to Leon than you had ever been, and judging by his soft smile, he felt the same.
âCome on little one, lets catch some sleep?â, Leon suggested. It wasnât even in question that he would leave. Fuck no, this bed had been his bed for so long and now came his chance to sleep in it again. You nodded and got off his lap. After quickly drying yourself up, you joined Leon under the covers, snuggling against his chest.
With a soft yawn you dozed off in your lovers arms, but you were sure you heard Leon say, âI love you and will do so forever.â
#leon kennedy#leon kennedy x you#leon kennedy x reader#resident evil#leon s kennedy#leon scott kennedy#Anonymous
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THAT ANGST DRABBLE WITH HAWKS CHEATING HURTS ME IN THE GUT. Do you think you can write a part two where we get with dabi? And maybe Keigo sees? THE MORE HURT KEIGO IS, THE BETTER. (I dont think heâd cheat irl though. I doubt birdboyâs trust issues would let him get a partner let alone betray them) Anyways I love you and your writing <3
thank u for the love anon :â^) hereâs some nasty revenge dabi x reader while burning (lol) hawks. the aftermath of this drabbleÂ
warning: mentions of cheating, degradation, the nasty, this is just sorta mean
|| Â part 1 Â || Â part 2 || Â part 3 || Â part 4 (final) ||
âOh, baby, youâre so wet for me already. I bet he could never get you this turned on, could he?âÂ
Dabi sneered it all into your ear, tongue lolling out and dripping spittle down your neck. It wouldâve been gross, maybe, if it didnât feel so fucking good. Not to mention true.Â
It had been a long time since Keigo had properly fucked you. Maybe a bit of meaningless phone sex between missions, an occasional blowjob under his desk at his agency that always left you unsatisfied. Perched on Dabiâs lap, lips already kiss-bruised and slick, you felt cared about for the first time in months.
âDabi, what the fuck is this?â Keigoâs voice echoed scratchy from the phone nearby on the sheets. Morosely, his contact was an old photo of the two of you, smiling and pressed against each other, a photo from an old vacation the two of you had taken. Looking at the picture made your eyes burn. Your nose scrunched, blinking back the angry, grieving tears that teetered close to falling.
âHey dumbass, donât think about that fuck right now, focus on me,â Dabi tightened his grip on your hips, hand nearly searing your skin, but fuck if it didnât feel good. You already felt yourself going mushy in his arms, mind beginning to jelly with his warmth and his insistent touches. You welcomed it. Anything to help burn away Keigo from your mind.Â
Fucking Dabi was probably the lowest blow you could make to Keigo, right? Calling him to listen in on your fuck sesh�� was also fairly low, but considering how Keigo had yet to hang up the call and how long Dabi had been toying with you on his lap, you couldnât feel all that bad.
Might as well rub salt in as many of Keigoâs wounds as you could.Â
You grabbed the front of Dabiâs shirt, âMake me.â
One measly hookup with a villain wasnât anything compared to the bullshit Keigo had been pulling for months. Days of no-contact, canceled plans, lost timeâ presumably all to fuck his heart out with someone else.
Bastard. Â
Dabiâs shoved two fingers into your cunt, up to the knuckle, without any sort of pause. You clenched, shuddering out a high moan sure to cut through the static of the phone call. He only snickered, curling his fingers and nipping at your jaw, âThis get your attention, baby?â
You nodded, sucking in a moan and tucking your face into Dabiâs neck. You tongued at his staples, feeling him shudder beneath you. Even the last few, unsatisfactory times youâd been able to fuck around with Keigo, it had never felt this good. Every one of his touches had felt empty and manufactured. He rarely made sound, looking back, simply thrusting until he came all over your chest. Occasionally, heâd help you come. More often then not, heâd toss you an old t-shirt and re robe to go âdo hero thingsâ or something or other.Â
It stung, to know that he was probably saving his stamina to fuck the little scrap youâd found him with.Â
Dabiâs thin fingers massaging your g spot and his growling voice singing you sweet praises, anything and everything Keigo had given you seemed to dull in comparison. Maybe it was a good thing you caught Keigo in the act, now you had plenty of new things to try, to folks to fuck. Â
âDove, please stop, listen to me,â Keigo sounded broken over the phone. Maybe he was even crying. Good.
ââOh, please little bird, please listen to me!ââ Dabi mocked him, high and scratchy, sucking a violet bruise onto your collarbone.Â
You let Dabi fuck with Keigo to his hearts content. Based on the sweltering bulge pressing against your cunt, you and Dabi were getting off on it.Â
âFuck you, Keigo. Fuck. You.â The words came out with so much venom, it stunned all of you. Keigo into silence, sniffles echoing from the line. You into some vitriol-filled sneer, and Dabi? He was rolling his hips up into yours, fingers leaving your cunt and wiped off on your bare tits.
âTalk like that more, baby. Youâre so hot like this.â Dabi groaned, pupils blown wide with lust. âTell him why heâs such a bastard.â
âWait, (Y/N), please, I promise I canââ Keigo pleaded like he deserved any kindness.Â
âPromise you can what? Explain why you lied to me, for months?!â You dropped your hips overs Dabiâs, his thumb rolling over your covered clit.Â
You didnât let Keigo respond, âCan you explain why I found you fucking some other cunt in our kitchen?! Where else had you had her in our house, Keigo?â
âI â â
Keigo truly didnât have anything he could say to soothe your wounds. The only things that were going to bring you pleasure was verbally curb-stomping your ex and the villain whose lap you were straddled and dripping all over.Â
You messily pulled Dabiâs cock out from his boxer briefs. It slapped against his lower belly, showing off the ribbing and barbells of his piercings. Your eyes widened, Keigo still babbling over the line.Â
âLike what you see?â Dabi cocked his head, far too smug for how angry you were.Â
Keigo went silent.
You grabbed around Dabi throat, constricting the sides of his neck. Dragging his face closer, you let your anger pour out. âShut up and fuck me. Fuck me better than him.â
A blissed-out smile forms on his face as you drop onto his cock, slowly lowering your with ragged breaths. He seemed more than happy to rub his new partner into the face of his foe, literally and metaphorically.Â
Dabi stretched and fumbled for the phone, holding your mouth near the receiving so Keigo could catch every little whine and keen you gave as you stretched around the girth of Dabiâs cock.
âYou hear that?â Dabi pressed the phone into the fat of your cheek. âYour little âdoveâ is gonna get a better pounding than you could ever dish out, huh?â
You nodded, whining and you managed to fully seat yourself, twitching as the piercings at the head of Dabiâs cock pressed against your cervix.Â
Maybe it was a little too much, all of it. Yet, as Keigo begged you for forgiveness (ha) Dabi began to fuck up into whispering how you were âfar too good of a fuck to be wasted on a bastard birdâ, you couldnât bring yourself to care. It all felt too good.Â
#Anonymous#salem writes#drabble#dabi x reader#hawks x reader#dabi x reader x hawks#god idk how to tag this#anyways#enjoy <333
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Maybe dont have a hot take, actually. Youre an occult/religious blogger, not a psychiatrist, and your opinion is actively harmful and dismissive to systems. What do you know about DID or OSDD-1? Do you actually, deeply understand introjects as a concept? Or is this a thinly veiled jab at psychotic people, too, because they "need to detach from fiction" or something? It doesnt matter if there ARE people who have this relationship with the topic - are you actually informed enough to speak about this without sounding like a smug asshole who thinks hes better than the ~mentally ill~ and knows more than people who actually hold these experiences? Honestly, even if YOU were a system, there is no way to analyze peoples experience from the outside, because frankly, its easier to exist as a #quirky system where you only put across your most socially acceptable symptoms to outsiders than one where you are truly open about yourself. Imagine if you said about trans people, "yeah i mean some of them are real and all but i think a lot of them just have a weird relationship with misogyny." Do you see how awful that sounds without any clarification? I hope you realize how alienating saying shit like this can be, and it puts people like me (meaning anyone with a dissociative disorder that manifests this way OR frankly anyone whose symptoms can be simplified down by misinformed assholes into """"too into fiction"""" without any knowledge of underlying cause) in a position where we cannot have a place in this community without CONSTANTLY having to police what we say and how we say it.
Maybe me sending you this will do nothing, since someone else has already much more politely explained in the notes of the post that its alienating, dismissive, and not at all your place to make statements like that, especially on any platform where you have a following. Ill try to give you the benefit of the doubt and assume you just havent gotten around to looking at the notes yet. Either way, maybe you just wont post this, which is both avoiding your mistakes and letting your audience (however large or small) be left with what is at best a well-intentioned, if misguided, post, and at worse be left with malicious borderline misinformation. Please consider your impact, both on your immediate community and in making the larger one less hospitable to anyone affected.
1. I don't have to tell you my diagnoses and whether I am diagnosed with something or not does not impact the point I made.
2. Did you literally just try and compare me saying "I don't think most people on the internet actually have an understanding of what DID actually is" to blatant transphobia and transmisogyny? Fuck off. Words mean things.
3. The next time I make a post you don't agree with, I am begging you to either just unfollow and block me or say this shit in a way that doesn't make my ADHD want to put a pistol to my attention span. I'm always willing to listen when I actually fuck up, but holy shit, this wasn't how you do it, chief.
I remain entirely unconvinced that most people on this site claiming they have DID or OSDD have any clue what they're actually talking about, and this was so far beyond convincing that what I posted was at all wrong that it's honestly actually impressive.
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//EYE CONTACT//
CORDELIA GOODE X FEM READER
(ANGST AND FLUFF)
A/N : she be looong as fuck sorry nat sorry đ
Eyes are the gateways to the soul, words and feelings can be exchanged by a simple act of making eye contact.
Cordelia is busy and seems to no longer have time for the reader . All the reader wanted to do was help.
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Cordelia knew that being Supreme was tiresome, but she never thought that it would be to this extent. She hasn't slept in almost a week and she is pretty sure that there is coffee coarsing her veins instead of blood. Cordelia has been up, keeping track of all the suspicious activities happening around the world in hopes the cause is a witch. That's just Cordelia for you. She is always looking out for others before herself. Putting the needs of others before her own. Staying up all day and night so that she can grow and teach those in her coven. She really is deserving of Supreme. Cordelia has been trying to rub the sleep out of her eyes for the past while. Her head bobbing while filling out documents and having to shake her head ever so often to keep on track of whatever file she was reading. Cordelia's new project has been her trying to track down this other witch, however her attempts have been futile. Everytime she thinks she has a lead on the witch she seems to change location and vanish . The witch is powerful and would be a great addition to the Coven. This took a toll on her, She was snappish and everyone knew it, but no one blamed her because she was stressed, even Madison didn't annoy Cordelia or made any snarky comments. After internally debating with herself, the choice of sleep won. She shifted the stack of paper that she was currently working on to the side of the mahogany desk. She laid her arm on the desk and laid her head between the crook of the elbow while her other hand tried to massage away the 3rd on coming migraine. Her migraine for the past days were seemingly becoming worse, as though her body was begging her to stop and reset herself. She didn't have a choice at this point, she needed to rest otherwise she would have crashed and gotten less time to get work done.
Y/N's POV
I am fairly new to Ms Robichaux's academy, I was "enrolled" 3 months ago, not by choice but by force. I set my mother's boyfriend on fire out of accident. YES BY ACCIDENT.... Well maybe not all the way an accident. I got angry and let my temper get the best of me. Surprisingly I didn't get in trouble from my mother, she said something about a witch bloodline. I didn't really pay much attention to her words or have much time to react to what i did,because my mother was quick to call some witch lady whose hair was firey red and the way she spoke was regal. I later learned on the ride to the academy, that her name was Myrtle Snow. I have learnt the names of my fellow sisters Madison, Zoey, Queenie, Coco and Mallory. So far they have been fairly nice to me but I don't really interact with them much. Most of the times I keep to myself and listen to Fleetwood Mac in my room all by myself. Apparently everyone has someone to room with but me,not that I am complaining. But i must say, out of everyone in the Coven whom I've met so far, my favourite is the Surpeme. The first time we met I was taken aback by her beauty. The way her blonde hair rested delicately on her squared shoulders , the way her makeup was done in such a way that it highlighted all of her best features, which by the looks of it. It was her whole body. Her eyes were captivating , she smiled at me through them. I couldn't help but stare right back into her dark brown eyes, they held power and safety. The eye contact wasn't uncomfortable, it was an unspoken exchange.
Cordelia took it upon herself to show me around my new home. It was majestic, I took note of every detail ,from the paint brush strokes done on the painting that hung on the walls to the crack on the 4th step going up the twin staircases. My favourite place however was the Greenhouse. Well, her greenhouse. She told me that it was her place of relaxation,her get away from it all. The walls were covered with vines, the sunroof allowed the golden rays of the sun to filter into the room and paint all that it touches. The walls variety of plant species and herbs that she has collected over the years was quite impressive. It was beautiful. Overtime this became our habit. After dinner or lunch we would both make our way to the Greenhouse to create new concoctions. Whether it would be sleeping potions, manipulation potions or simply love potions. We never used on each other , it was just done merely for the fun of it. I felt happy for the first time in many. The little hugs ,inside jokes and nicknames we would share. It was all innocent fun at the time until, one time I was making a potion and Cordelia stood right behind me watching my every moves. I don't know what came over me, I dont know if it was the closeness of our proximity ,the warm breathe of her breathing that brushed my neck whenever she exhaled or the fact that she kissed my cheek right after telling me how good of a job I was at following orders. After that day I can't help but blush whenever we locked eyes. Light brown on dark brown. Neither of us looked away. Her eyes felt like home, a place that i longed to be. These few months I've developed quite an attachment to the Supreme,one might even say a crush on her.
However these past days I noticed that she was quite distant. She wouldn't catch on to the jokes I made, like she normally would. The amount of times she paced up and down the walkway in the Greenhouse, the layer of dirt and colour of orange on the brick floor started to fade. Cordelia kept ranting and complaining about finding a certain witch. Of course I didn't mind her talking to me. I always liked to know what new projects she was up too. But It was evident that this one occupied her mind. When she was with me, she wasn't with me mentally just her physical appearance. She would sometimes forget about our daily meet up, some days turned into few days and eventually a few days turned into none. I didn't hold anything against her. She was busy. I took it upon myself to help her find who this witch was. So you know she can spend more time with me,it wasn't a selfish act. Just killing two birds with one stone. Cordelia would be able to finally relax and I would get to spend time with her more often. It's a Win/ Win.
Cordelia just went into her office so that meant I had basically the whole evening until dinner to find out who this witch was. As I sauntered my way to my room. I began to recollect all what Cordelia told me. It was a little witch on the run, maybe she didn't what to join a Coven like me. Cordelia knew every thing about the little witch. She was a slippery one, evading the hands of the Surpeme. I remember her saying that the witch was a little younger than I was, with black hair and green eyes. Her speciality is Cloaking, she could cover her tracks very well. A rare skill some witches possess.I laid out my pens and my leather bound notebook on the bed and started to make notes of what i knew so far. After I was done, I realised it wasn't much information. I needed more if i was going to help Cordelia. I needed to see from another set of eyes. I shifted my notes aside and laid flat on the bed. I closed my eyes and focused on my breathing. No one knew but i was Clairvoyant. I could make myself hear and see what someone was thinking.
******time skip*******
THAT'S IT !!. I found the witch. She was running from something or someone. The little witch was seeking safety,maybe she did need to be in a Coven. Without any time to waste. I quickly wrote down all that I gathered into my note book. I couldn't contain my excitement, Cordelia and I will finally get to hang out like old times. I scrambled off my bed and made a beeline towards her office. *knock knock* "Dee I found out how to get the witc-" I began,but she wasn't in her office. Huh where is she then? . After a few minutes of futile searching in the upstairs I decided to check the kitchen. As I walked downstairs, the kitchen came into my view. There she was. My supreme making her possible 7th cup of coffee. I couldn't help my heart from fluttering at the sight of her. We haven't spoken in so long. " Hey Dee, do you remember when we used to hang out in the Greenhouse, i miss those times but thats not the point, anyways you always used to speak about this witch you couldn't find??Apparently I never told you but i am Clairvoyant which is really handy beca-" I rambled but was quickly cut off by Corldeia," Y/N! Be quiet . Stop talking Oh my God shut up. Please can't you see that I am busy and tired??"
Immediately I felt small, wishing the ground would just swallow me whole. Her eyes were locked on mine, the once safety and calm that I loved were replaced with anger and annoyance ....at me. I could feel my chest tighten, so tight that it began to squeeze my heart till it slowly cracked. I bit my tongue to hold back the tears that threatened to fall. It was evident that Cordelia's expressions changed based on my now small demeanour. I forcefully swallowed the lump that built in my throath. Out of hurt I threw my notebook on the marble counter where she rested her half way made coffee. The only words i spat out were "There's how to get your witch to join this shithole Coven Miss Goode". Her mouth was now slightly ajar at my words. No longer wanting to stay in her presence, I turned my heels and made my way back up to my room as Cordelia struggled to find her words.
*******TIME SKIP PT 2********
Thanks to me Cordelia managed to get in contact with the witch who will be joining the Coven in 2 weeks time. For these past few days I have suscessfully managed to avoid Cordelia. Of course I didn't avoid her presence. I had more dignity than that. I just made sure that I was never alone with her. That way she couldn't "apologise"or ask me the questions she really wanted too. I was mad at her. She didn't have to yell at me,I know i am talkative to people when i get comfortable with them, but still out of everyone to yell at me I would never suspect that it would be her. I no longer joined her in the Greenhouse to help her with her potions. Having breakfast and lunch with everyone was the worst. I no longer sat next to her at the table, instead I sat next to Madison,but that didn't stop her from trying to talk to me. As everyone else engaged in mini conversations at the table, Cordelia silently spoke to me from the head of the table " Y/N how have you been?". I lifted my head and focused my gaze from my tea cup to the silver in her bracelet, dismissing the hopeful look in her eyes. "I've been better Ms .Goode" I replied with extra emphasis on her last name. You know for an extra punch of guilt. Cordelia has noticed my lack of eye contact over the past days and she couldn't help but feel hurt at the act.
********time skip pt3**********
It was probably about 7 pm when i heard the clattering on heels on the floor. Shifting my attention from the crackling of the fireplace I looked over my shoulder to see that all the girls were dressed up and ready to head out somewhere. "Hey? Where are you guys going?" I questioned. "Out." Said Madison. I couldn't help but scoff at her reply. "Okayy???And you didn't ask me because??". Madison abruptly turned around "You and Cordy need to fix whatever is going on between you too. Don't think we haven't seen the change" she commented as she roughly pressed her index finger into my chest. Before I could even find my words. The door was slammed in my face. If Madison and the girls think that I am staying alone in the academy with Cordelia alone they are wrong. In another situation I would have taken that chance in a heartbeat. Lost and confused at the exchange that just happened, this gave Cordelia time to enter the living room. " Y/N?" She spoken almost in a whisper. I swear to the ex Supreme herself my eyes almost jumped out my eye sockets . My movements were stiffened as i tried to turn around. I took a deep breathe and attempted to make the situation fall into the better of my hands. " Yes Ms Goode? How are you?" I asked, while facing the floor. " I am sorry y/n I didn't mean to yell at you, you helped me a lot on my project and I cannot repay you enough" Cordelia spoke. I genuinely smiled at her gratitude "you're so very welcome Ms Goode" . Suddenly I felt her hands wrap around my form pulling me in a strong hug. I was stunned for a while and didn't know how to react. Sobs and small apologises fell from her lips as she buried her head into the crook of my neck. I reciprocated her hug but this caused her to cry even more. " Ms Goode please don't cry" I tried to comfort her, but all that left her mouth was a small, muffled "no". As she calmed herself she pulled away and wiped her tears away as she tried to look presentable. "Don't call me that. Call me by my nickname" she demaded. I chuckled at her command " okay dee." She cupped my face into her soft palms. I could smell her vanilla lotion that she regularly applies on her hands. She lifted my face to hers, but my eyes still didnt need hers. " y/n look at me" she whimpered. " Dee I am looking at you" I said smiling nervously as my eyes darted over the beautiful features of her face, never settling on her eyes. " baby..." she whispered. My heart constricted . Cordelia repeated the statement to look at her once more. This time I complied. Did she really mean that? does she like me back?. Her eyes were watering, her gorgeous brown eyes even when they hold the emotion of hurt. I still cannot help but stare in awe. Her eyes were filled with longing and hope. I don't know who closed the gap but our lips met in the middle. Kissing Cordelia was pure ecstasy, the kiss was one of tender and love. It felt as though part of me was finally completed. After a while we both pulled away, she delicately laced her slender fingers together with mine, interlocking our hands. Both of us trying to catch our breathe , Cordelia slowly leaned forward and gently rested her forehead against mine. Ever so quietly whispering to me the sweet words," and I do feel the same..."
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Kuroo, Akaashi, Bokuto, and Tendou with a s/o that loves spoiling them...
Kuroo
ok but like
PLEASE GET THIS MAN THAT PERIODIC TABLE THAT HAS PIECES OF ALL THE ELEMENTS IN IT
PLEASE I BEG YOU
just like, one day go to his classroom or whatever and like just drop that shit right in front of him and watch as he practically goes insane over it
he'll freaking wrap his arms around you and just pepper your face with wet kisses and like djjdjfkkfkfk
in the beginning he was hella confused
cuz like he was used to to societal idea that men were suppose to spoil their lovers and what not, so he really wasn't expecting for you to swat his money away and instead take out your own card
if your a kpop stan, you are literally that video of Hobi clicking his tongue and waving his hands. The one that's used with the sugar daddy captions lmaooo
if he looks at something for too long, it's already paid for
if you see him liking an item from some Instageam store, it's already in your cart and being shipped your way
motherfucker never expected to be the sugar baby of the relationship but he dont mind one bit đ
hell you even got him an ecosphere---in fact, you got him multiple ecospheres
and while he loves being spoiled by you, that doesn't mean he doesn't like to spoil you
he doesn't really have much money so he often opts on gifting you his hoodies and making little trinkets for you
Hlclycyv
overall it's just very cute and geeky anducpcocoyc
Akaashi
oof
i-
how-
hmmmm
spoiling Akaashi is hard because he doesn't really make what he wants obvious so you often just pay for your meals together
but it's also a good thing that you're observant
you tend to notice when his shoes have worn out too much and were starting to slide against the wooden floors
you notice when his shirts become too ripped from every fall he took during practice all in efforts to stop the ball from touching the floor
other times, you spoil him with school supplies
a new backpack, new belt, new socks---you name it
he's not really used to be spoiled but he keeps quiet about it
and instead of protesting about it, he likes to thank you with many warm hugs and kisses on the forehead and cheeks
with every present he's a blushing mess
when I think of Akaashi, I always seen him as someone very submissive or maybe a switch but whose default is sub/bottom
i cant help it I just like seeing Akaashi in a cheerleader outfit đ¤ˇââď¸
Bokuto
BRO
BRO
COME ON
THIS MAN- COYCYLVOYFIYC
B R O
sugar baby is his fucking middle name
like come onnnnnnnm it's just who he issss
he absolutely loves to be spoiled
at first it was like a total shock for him, like fr
he was just yelling at Akaashi about something he saw the other day and about how much he wanted to buy it but couldn't because he had lost a bet against Kuroo the previous day and didn't have the money to buy it
when all of the fucking sudden, you show up with said item and five freaking meat buns
ALL FOR HIM
THE TEARS THIS MAN LET OUT AS HE CRIED INTO YOUR NECK HRJFJFJFJF
p h e n o m e n a l
and so it began
shopping consisted of him dragging you around as he pointed at things he would like and you pulling out your cards to pay for said items
but let's be honest
as much as our beautiful big owl loves to be spoiled, he's not dense about your needs
he works overtime to be able to buy you stuff that he thinks you would really life and the funny fact is that most of the time, the stuff that he buys you are stuff that would remind you of him lolll
you have a whole shelf full of silver owls in your room
Jfjfjfjf I really love this big titted man
Tendou
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ANYGAYSSS,,,
poor baby would have been so confused cause noone has ever really paid him much attention
like everyone would call him a monster and what not so for you to be gifting him stuff without wanting anything in return was the epitome of 'what the fuck?'
"why are you buying me all of this? What do you want?" He would ask in the beginning
and all he would get was a deadpan stare and a simple shrug
"I don't know. I just like spoiling you. You deserve it."
You deserve it
You
Deserve
It
shit be playin on a loop in his head for a entire weeks
lmaooo it's really messing with his head bc he be trying to wrap his mind around it
**insert picture of anime dude with the butterfly meme and the caption reads "what the shit is this?" And the butterfly is captioned with the word, "Love"
but after he gets used to it, man becomes a whole ass cat
he thanks you by rubbing his face against your cheek and cupvpuvu he sometimes licks it cuz why the fuck not
Ooooooo
wanna know what you spoil him with?
đđđ products
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a lil đ ain't ever hurt nobody đ
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Dont hang out with those Pogues
Your new BF Rafe doesn't want you hanging out with your pogue friends anymore and things get physical. You can't hide it from JJ.
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Pogue by birth, Kook by marriage. You were in an undefined area now that your mother, a pogue, married your now stepdad, a kook. The pogues were accepting of your new house on figure eight but they werenât so accepting of your new relationship with Rafe Cameron. Your relationship was new and exciting, he was sweet. They just hadnât gotten the chance to see that side of him yet.
Your family had met the Cameronâs at the country club for lunch one afternoon. You nearly choked on your water as Ward told you about Rafeâs first surf lesson. You stifled a laugh, excusing yourself to the restroom.
You stood outside the bathroom, checking your phone. John B sent you a video of JJ trying to jump off a rope swing, but getting tangled and swinging from it upside down instead. You laughed, typing out a response when arms laced around your waist. You jumped as Rafeâs head rested on your shoulder, his body pressed against your back.
âI was hoping to get you alone tonight.â He whispered in your ear, pressing a kiss to your neck.
You shivered as his kiss sent a chill up your spine. âHey, you.â You smiled, turning into his arms, tucking your phone away.
He leaned down, pressing a kiss to your lips, sliding his hands into your back pockets.
Your phone vibrated in your back pocket as you pulled out of the kiss.
âWhose got your attention?â He muttered, dipping his head into your neck. He pulled his head back, looking over your screen.
You smiled at your phone, locking the screen again as you looked up. Your smile dropped from your face as you met Rafeâs darkened eyes. âJJ Maybank? Really, Y/N?â He clenched his jaw.
âWhat? Rafe, stop. Theyâre my friends.â You craned your neck, pressing a kiss to his cheek.
He turned his face, bringing his hand up to your jaw. âBaby.â He brushed your cheek with his thumb. âDonât let me see you hanging around those dirty fucking pogues again, okay?â He tightened his grip on your face. âYou have a reputation to keep now.â He pressed a gentle kiss against your forehead before storming off.
You furrowed your brow, watching him disappear down the hall. You returned back to lunch, remaining silent as Rafe pretended nothing had happened moments ago.
You brushed off Rafeâs attitude as jealousy. He knew you and your mom were born and raised pogues. He knew they were your friends. He was just jealous. But you were stubborn and you wouldnât let a jealous boyfriend make decisions for you.
So, when John B called, you answered. The pogues were having a party and you had to be there.
âNo, seriously Y/N, it was the funniest shit Iâve ever seen in my life.â John B recalled JJâs accident.
âGod, JJ. Youâre a mess.â You laughed, leaning your head on his shoulder.
The night was winding down and the cooler was just about empty. âShoot, guys. I gotta go. My mom and I have plans super early.â You groaned.
âNeed a ride, chief?â Pope stood with you.
You nodded gratefully, waving goodbye to John B, JJ and Kiara before climbing into Popeâs truck.
Pope pulled into your driveway, giving you a questioning look as he registered Rafe sitting on your front steps. âHe looks pissed.â He spoke, turning the music down.
âYeah, he does.â You gulped. âThanks for the ride, Pope.â You muttered, climbing out.
Pope didnât pull away until you had reached the front steps and Rafe waved at him with fake sincerity.
âWhat are you doing here?â You asked innocently.
After Popeâs headlights had disappeared from view, Rafe grabbed your shoulders, pinning you against your front door. âWhat did I fucking tell you about hanging out with those damn pogues.â He spit, rage filling his eyes.
âRafe, stop, youâre hurting me.â You wriggled, trying to free yourself.He brought one hand to your throat, the other stroking the top of your head. âYou really donât want to upset me, Y/N. I donât think straight when I get upset.â He threatened. âIâll see you tomorrow.â He pulled his hand from your throat, running his finger against your cheek as you flinched away from his touch.
You spent the next few days avoiding your friends. You felt awful but you couldnât shake Rafeâs threat. You had every intention of ending things with him but you hadnât worked up the courage yet.
JJ had texted you, letting you know there was a kegger at the boneyard that weekend and he hoped you would be there. You replied a vague Iâll let you know and prayed he didnât push.
It wasnât until Sarah Cameron and Topper texted you, insisting you to go to the kegger that you decided you would go. Rafe couldnât do anything if you were surrounded by people. Besides, if Sarah and Topper were going, he really had no room to get mad at you for seeing your friends. You told yourself you would end things if you saw him there.
You pulled your hair back in two braids and pulled on an old flannel, probably belonging to JJ or John B. You met Sarah and Topper and headed to the boneyard. Rafe was nowhere to be seen, to your relief.
You found your way to the keg, filling a cup when a strong arm wrapped around your shoulder.
âDamn, Y/N. You look great in my clothes.â JJ teased. âWhere the hell have you been?â He slurred into your ear, leading you towards the other pogues.
âSorry, guys. Iâve been busy. I actually, um.â You looked over your shoulder to motion to Sarah when your stomach dropped. Through the flames you watched as Rafe crossed his arms, rage filling his eyes as he stared at you, tucked under JJâs arm.
âApple of your eye, eh Y/N?â Pope teased, motioning to Rafeâs rigid stance from across the beach.
You shrugged off JJâs arm, suddenly feeling constrained by his closeness. You ran your hands down your loose braids, tearing your eyes from Rafe. You stuttered out a rough apology, turning away from the pogues, heading in the direction opposite of Rafe.
âYo, yo, yo.â JJ called, jogging to catch up with you. âWhere you running off to? We havenât seen you all fucking week.â JJ uttered.
You glanced up behind JJâs shoulders Rafe began stalking towards you. You tore your eyes from him, looking back at JJ. âIâm so sorry, um, I have to go. Weâll hang out tomorrow, okay? I promise.â You gave his hand a squeeze before turning and jogging up the sandy hill.
You glanced up over your shoulder, sighing with relief when you didnât see Rafe trailing you.
âWhere are you off to, baby?â He spoke sinisterly, popping out in front of you.
âShit, Rafe. You scared me.â You raised a hand to your chest. You looked around nervously, hoping someone was close enough to see the two of you. There was no one. Just the two of you.
He gave you an ominous smile, craze twinkling in his eyes. âBaby.â He pouted, bringing his hand to your cheek like he had done so many times before.
The smile dropped from his face as he tightened his grip on your cheek, throwing you to the ground. âWhat did I fucking say?!â He leaned over you, spitting his hateful words into your face.
âRafe, please. I didnât come with them. I came with Sarah. And Topper. And, and I was coming to see you.â You pleaded.
He threw his hands into his hair, exhaling as you begged beneath him. âGod dammit!â He cried, kicking you in the stomach. âWhy canât you just listen to me?!â He shouted as you curled into yourself.
âPlease.â You begged, quieter now.He looked down at you, his expression dropping in concern.
He straddled you, holding your face in his hands. âI didnât want to do this.â He whispered, stroking your cheek.You pinched your eyes closed, flinching away from his touch. âIâm sorry.â
He bit his lip, pulling his arm back and slapping you across the face. You tasted blood as he leaned down, resting his forehead against yours. âYou made me do this.â He cried.
Your lip trembled as he came unhinged, slamming his fist against the ground next to your head, tears streaming down his face. He was ill, he was so mentally ill.
His arm fell limp against the ground. âI love you, Y/N.â He pressed a kiss to your forehead before climbing off of you. He looked down at you, wiping the sweat off his forehead. He shook his head as you curled into a fetal position, before he walked away, leaving you on the ground.
How you had managed to get home, you didnât know. You climbed into your bathtub, fully clothed, turning the water on. You laid in the ice cold water all night, not able to process what had just happened.
Rafe was sick. He was a sick sociopath and you were so afraid. He had beat the life out of you and professed his love for you in the same 30 second stretch. If he could do this to you, he could do worse to your friends.You had to end things with him, but how could you? He was deeply disturbed, who knew what he was capable of?
You promised. Come over. JJ texted.
Sorry, J. Canât today. You replied, tears welling in your eyes as you turned away your friends, yet again.
Thought you might bail. Too late. Weâre here. He replied. You peered out the window, sure enough, there they were at the end of the dock. JJ waved seeing your head peek through the curtain.
10 minutes. You replied, realizing there was no evading them now.
You stared at your reflection, how could you possibly go on the boat looking like this? You pulled on a bikini, tugging on an oversized sweater on top. You pulled your hair out of your braids, hoping it would shield any marks left from the night before. You pressed concealer to the majority of the bruise on your jaw but frowned, realizing you couldnât cover your split lip.
You walked out to the dock, glancing over your shoulder as nerves slipped into your stomach.
âThere she is!â JJ called, hopping over the edge of the boat onto the dock, opening his arms wide for you.
âY/N, you realize itâs like, a million degrees out?â John B questioned from the driverâs seat.
âYeah, uh, I think Iâm just getting a head cold or something. Super chilly.â You shrugged, stepping out of JJâs arms.
âYeah, whatever. Letâs fuckinâ goooo!â JJ called, jumping back into the boat. He held his hand out to you, helping you climb in.
You curled into a seat in the back of the boat, staring at the water as John B cruised into the marsh.
âSo, howâs Rafe?â Pope kicked his feet up next to you as JJ stood at the bow and Kie scolded him. âWhat happened that night?â
âWhat night? What do you mean? Nothing happened.â You rambled, pulling at your sweater, worrying he had seen a bruise.
âThe night I took you home? He was all pissy on the porch?â Pope raised an eyebrow at your reaction.
âYeah, dudeâs a little bitch, Y/N.â JJ called, jumping down from the bow.
âLetâs swim, guys. Itâs so hot.â Kie moaned, stepping out of her shorts.
âAs you wish.â John B declared, dropping the anchor.Kie and John B jumped in. Pope shrugged, jumping in after. JJ took a running start, flipping off the stern next to where you were sitting.
âIâm gonna chill up here, I think. Still kinda cold.â You lied.
JJ splashed water up at you, squawking like a chicken.You were drowning in sweat in your sweatshirt. You raised the end, revealing the darkening bruise on your stomach and swallowed a lump in your throat. You definitely would not be swimming today.
After what felt like hours, the crew climbed back into the boat, cruising back to the chateau.
JJ slid in next to you, draping an arm over your shoulder. You flinched slightly at his touch and he looked down at you, squinting his eyes accusingly.
He leaned down into your ear, whispering so no one would hear. âWhatâs up with you?â
You pursed your lips, shrugging. âNothing.â
âYou canât hide anything from me, Y/N. Youâre off and Iâm gonna find out why.â He took a sip of his beer, pulling you closer into his side.
You lit a fire and cozied up outside back at the chateau. It was nice seeing your friends again and you felt safe being around them. But in the back of your mind you feared Rafe would find out and he wouldnât let you off so easy this time.
âSo, Rafe likes it rough, huh Y/N?â John B called from across the fire.
âRafe? Rough? As if.â JJ scoffed. âHeâs a pussy.â
âHow else would you explain the busted lip?â John B shrugged, sinking further into the hammock he was swinging in.You laughed, bringing a hand to your lip. Your fingers shaking as you brushed over the cut, recalling every hand he laid on you.
âIâll be right back. Anyone need a beer?â You called, starting towards the house. You felt the tears pricking at your eyes, fearing they would slip out in front of your friends.
You stepped into the house, letting out a shaky breath. You moved into the bathroom, leaning over the sink.
âY/N?â JJ whispered. You hadnât heard him follow you into the house, let alone the bathroom. âHey, whatâs going on?â He stepped forward, placing his hands on either side of your arms.
You, again, flinched at his touch and he noticed. His eyes searched yours for any kind of answer as you felt yourself shrinking in his arms. Your lip trembled as you pulled at the sleeves of your shirt.
JJâs jaw clenched, dropping his hands. He shoved them in his pockets, looking to the far corner of the bathroom. âWhat did he do?â
You let out an exasperated sob as you stepped forward, he wrapped his arms around you, leaning his head against yours. He let you sob in his chest for a moment before he ran his hands down your hair, pulling your face back.
He blue eyes fixed on yours as he held your tear-stricken cheeks. âTell me.â
You looked away, unable to meet his eyes as you pulled up the bottom of your sweatshirt, revealing the swelling bruise that spread across your stomach.
âIâll kill him.â He flared his nostrils, biting his lip in frustration.âJJ, please. Heâs fucking crazy. Just donât.â You begged.
He scrunched his nose, desperately wanting to get his hands of Rafeâs.
âIâm so scared, J.â You whispered.He sighed, pulling you into his chest.
âYouâre okay. I got you. He wonât hurt you anymore.â He whispered into your hair.
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You unintentionally fell asleep in the hammock outside, tucked into JJâs side. But you didnât mind. You felt safe with JJ.
You groaned as a car door slammed, curling your head into JJâs chest.âFuck off!â JJ called as footsteps grew closer.
You pulled your head off JJâs chest, peering over the edge of the hammock, letting out a gasp when you realized who it was.
âJJ.â You whispered, sitting up.
âY/N, baby, where have you been? Sleeping with a pogue? What have I told you!â Rafe called over, a twisted smile spreading across his face as he beat his fist against his chest.
âFuck.â JJ muttered, rubbing the sleep out of his eyes. He climbed out of the hammock, pulling you behind him. âYo, John B? Mind joining us out here?â JJ called for backup.
âThatâs my girlfriend youâve got there, Maybank.â Rafe paced in front of you two.
John B stepped out of the house, his hair was a mess as he let out a yawn, straightening quickly when he took in the interaction in front of him.
âI think itâs not.â JJ smiled, cracking his knuckles as he stepped forward.
âWhatâs going on, JJ?â John B called out.
âOur buddy Rafe Cameron likes to hit women.â JJ spit, eyeing up Rafe as they paced around one another. Rafeâs eyes flickered between you and JJ.
John Bâs jaw dropped slightly as he looked at you with sad eyes. You nodded slightly, confirming JJâs accusation.âRafe, please just go. Itâs over.â You tried your best to sound firm.
âI donât think you are in any position to tell me weâre done.â He sneered, running his tongue across his lower lip. âThese pogues are going to be the end of you, baby. Remember last time? The blood and the bruises?â He squinted his eyes in your direction.
JJ nodded, stepping forward. âYouâre dead.â He declared, lunging at Rafe, knocking him to the ground. He easily straddled him, throwing punch after punch into his face.
âJJ, stop!â You cried as blood began to pour down Rafeâs nose and out his mouth. âJohn B, stop him! Heâs going to kill him!â You cried, throwing your hands into your hair.
John B jogged over to the two rolling around in the dirt, pulling JJ off Rafeâs limp body. âAlright, big guy. You got him, youâre good.â He said as JJ wiped the blood off his lip.
Tears welled in your eyes as Rafe stood, spitting blood in your direction before stalking off.
JJ turned to you, the rage melting off his face as he met your frightened eyes. He opened his arms, stepping towards you as you crashed into his chest.
âI got you, Y/N. Youâre okay.â He whispered.
You pulled back, holding his jaw in your hand. You ran your thumb across his cheek, steaked with blood, sweat, and dirt as you searched his eyes.
Your eyes pulled from his, down to his lips. You ran your thumb across the cut on his bottom lip, nearly identical to your own. You looked back up to his eyes as he stared down at you.
You took his jaw, pulling his mouth to yours, pressing an urgent kiss to his.
You kept your forehead pressed to his as you pulled your lips back ever so slightly. âThank you.â You whispered.
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Yandere creeps? đ
Of course! since you didnât specify who you wanted I decided to do Toby, Masky, Hoodie, Liu, EJ, LJ, Jeff and Jane
Ticci Toby
Honestly it wouldnât take much for this man to go yandere honestly. Just show him kindness. Heâs been shown cruelty his whole life so someone treating him with basic decency and not expecting anything out of it? Yeah heâs in love.
While he will treat you like a queen, if you fight back you will be punished. He doesnât want to physically hurt his S/O, but heâs not below anything mentally. He will murder your loved ones right in front of you. All while saying things like âItâs youâre fault, Iâm the only one who is allowed to love youâ
But if your completely fine with being with him? (Donât @ me I know there are some of you out there) Heâs so happy! Expect cuddles everyday, theyâre mandatory. Heâs still possessive as all hell though. While he trusts you not to run away he does NOT trust others to not steal you away. No matter what youâre leaving the house for heâs coming with you. Taking out the trash? Wait for him. Getting groceryâs? Let him get his shoes. This leads to quote unquote dates a lot.
He needs you with them so donât ever try to leave, love him and you should be fine. But donât think itâs all happiness. Heâs a PTSD ridden Schizophreniac with most likely trust issues and intimacy issues. There are days where you can tell him you love him a thousand times and heâs yelling about how youâre lying. But in a hour heâll be back crying and begging for forgiveness.
He struggles with emotions so remember, he was major trouble showing love. The way he does it headpats, cuddles and not murdering you.
Eyeless Jack
Now this man is a mystery rapped in a enigma rapped in a riddle. For him, its tougher to figure out why heâs obsessed with you. But Iâd say its how you are psychologically and what youâre lifeâs like.
Maybe its because of how generally kind you are despite knowing how shit life and people can be. Maybe he wants to protect the innocence he used to have?
Who knows. But as with Toby, Mans Possessive. Not in a lock you up kinda way (That would come later). But stalkerish. You may think youâre alone but you never are. Man knows youâre whole shecdual. And while he wonât KILL anyone who hurts you, that would draw way to much attention. But what he does is much worse.
He probably takes the longest out of all the creeps to show himself to you. And not even in person. Heâd start with notes. If you return his feelings your safe and now have a cannibalistic stalker protector. If you donât......well...Weâll unpack that someother time.
Masky
Again, Show him kindness, But its still a little different from Toby. If you fully understand what heâs done, the person he is. But still think he deserves kindness. He thinks youâre naive. Yeah, He starts off thinking your fucking stupid. Starting.
But as it goes on, and you continue to show him kindness. Even when you know what heâs done, He starts to warm up to your kindness. But if you witness him cold blooded murdering someone. Heâs ready for you to leave. But if you dont. You still treat him kindly. He wants to save this nativity. Being naive in this world is a death wish. So heâll barely let you leave the house. And heâs always with you. Unlike EJ. He will murder anyone who fucks with you. And leave no evidence behind. As far as anyones concerned theyâve dissapeared from the earth.
Once again if you love this man. You have to put up with this. No negotiations. He loves you and thats how he shows it. But if you do put up with it. And show this man all the love. Maybe it will be alright.
But like EJ, Never try and leave him, Unlike some creeps he will hurt his S/O physically, but then will cry into their arms begging them to forgive him. Or a different punishment might go an NSFW way if you know what I mean.....
Hoodie
Again, Complicated. His obsession probably comes very quickly. Someone whose creative like him, Who questions the bigger things in life. Someone he could have a intelligent conversation with.
Heâs a stalker. He watches his S/O all day. Nothing they do could bore him. But he gets jealous very easy. Why else do you think the cute person in the library that gave you their number hasnât come back? Or hasnât texted you?
Heâs probably take a while to show himself to his S/O. And once he finally gets the courage. Heâll send them a letter. You twoâll become penpals. Heâs kept every single one of your letters and keeps them in a folder.
He does have trouble showing his emotions though, Showing his S/O He loves them would be returning letters, Giving them small trinkets (like a magpie) and not murdering them.
Prefurs not to hurt his S/O, If they try to run away heâll just psychologically torture them. Following them and disappearing when the call the police. Making them think theyâre the only one who can see him. Anyone who they care about disappears. But this only happends if you run away and donât love him back.
So love him and youâll be good....youâll just have to deal with Possessiveness, Paranoia, Obssession, and Jealousy.
Jane The Killer
With most of the creeps. Be kind to her, But not just her. If your a generally kind person who shows others respect but refuses to to bow down to bullies. Shes in love
Shes quite quick to talk to her S/O, Sheâll ask for theyâre number, and because of how normal she looks (And how pretty she is) you say yes.
Late night texts about random things, if you rant to her about your interests she could listen all day.
(To quote The Killers) Jealousy
Its her life quest to keep creepers who remind her of Jeff away from you, Speaking of Jeff is he ever went near you shes starting a riot.
She loves cuddles, intamacy is a must. She needs you to stay near her. Once again wonât hurt her S/O but if they try to run away theyâre getting locked in a room alone untill theyâre begging for her to come back so they can hear someoneâs voice that isnt their own and touch them. Sheâs not above depriving her S/O of intimacy should the moment call for it.
Possessive. You need her and only her. Everyone else doesnt matter. Show her love and no one else.
Jeff The Killer
Heâs most likely to become obsessed with someone whose nice to people. But will fight a bitch. If your sassy and donât take shit heâs in love. But remember hes a twisted psychopath who murdered his family and his neighbours. His love isnt what youâd call socially acceptable. Heâd kill for you in a flash. Anyone, people you love or hate. Theyâre dissapearing.
Unlike the others, he wonât show himself to you quickly BUT he will not hide his love. Scribbled love notes written in blood. Dead animals on your porch. Heâs kinda like a dog.
He will hurt his S/O if they donât love him, Mentally or Physically he doesnt mind, He seeâs it as a necessary step.
He needs physically affection.
Isnt a soft relationship to be honest. Cuddles and kisses yes. But no soft words. Just sass, violent outbursts, Hate sex, Angry sex, Makeup sex. Yeah lots of sex.
Heâs a horndog what can I say?
But maybe, just mayyybeee once In a blue moon, youâll be cuddling and heâll think your asleep, and whisper he loves you in his ear. Pretend your asleep though.
Laughing Jack
He needs someone he can laugh with, Someone with a sort of wonder to them. He likes those type of people.
Since heâs a childs imaginary friend(?) He doesnât really understand love, But obsession? Yes.
Heâs not gonna show himself to his S/O for ages. I mean, Hes like a seven foot tall clown. Total boyfriend material.
Heâll leave candy on your doorstep, Or cute little trinkets, Like music boxes.
Gives the best hugs honestly. Heâll lift you right up off the ground and spin you around. Honestly he carries you everywhere like a princess.
CARNIVIAL DATES.
Anyone, literally anyone makes you feel sad or makes the wonder in your eyes leave. Theyâre loved ones are getting turned into candy, then theyâre forced to eat them. Then they get murdered gruesomely. Heâs all you need and heâll protect you.
He loves to slow dance with you. Heâll play some old classical music.
(I headcanon he has a British accent)
Heâll cut you off from all your friends, or make them disappear, Heâs all you need.
Homicidial Liu/Sully
(Its so hard to find good gifs for these boys)
This boy needs a hug, Him and Sully.
Stalkers. They need affection. Theyâll follow theyâre S/O wherever they go. No mater what they do.
Theyâre S/O has a partner? Not for much longer.
Liu gives cute gifs and notes like Flowers, or shiny trinkets, Sully gives weirder stuff, Like random stones or shiny things. And his notes are scrubbed much more.
Nickname them Magpie theyâll love it.
While Liu is defiantly the more sweeter one, Heâll never hurt his S/O, but he will score them if he must. Sully on the other hand, all for scaring them. Despite what others think he loves them, and he doesnât want to hurt them to much because he wants them to be his. And they canât be his if theyâre dead.
You know all the jealousy I said Jeff had? Imagine that but doubled.
Thats your realtionship. While Liu will be more defensive if someoneâs hurting or flirting with you. Sully aggressive. Back away from whats his.
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"Water park! Water park! Water park! Water park!" Kaito exclaimed in glee as he shook the floater on his hands up and down while walking almost running through the halls of the house as Chisaki stared at his son on what could be described only as confusion and deception.
"He got that from you.." he grimaced as you zipped your purse "Nver on my life i would be spending my day on somewhere where people share the same hige bath on their own filth..." he gritted his teeth at the thought as you giggled and kissed his cheek.
"You just say that because you never tried though." You spoke as he only gave you a side glare.
"And never will. I much rather order and spend thousands of yens to build a pool on here... at least this brat dont get dirty or sick with others filthness." He grimaced again as you rolled your eyes before feeling a chubby hand hrab and tug on your own.
"Come ooooonnn! Lets go mama!" You giggle at the little boy's exciment. The kid was much like your husband in many ways but it does show traces of you, especially when he was excited about something.
The way those so similiar eyyes of him would widen just a bit as a little smile would be on his lips. Kaito was the carbon copy of Chisaki excwpt for the color of your eyes and this little boy had you on the palm of his hand when he almost begged to go swinning or even play on a waterpark.
"You sure you dont want to come?" You smiled at your husband as your son kept pulling you, his small excited smile now turned into a pout.
"Not even if someone offered me to exterminate all the heroes." He spoke nonchantly while crossing his arms with a sigh "First I have a meeting and second-"
"You're boring." Kaito interrupted all of the sudden as you gulped down your laughter as Kia glared at the kid.
"Why you little-"
"Alright lets go. I will keep in touch to relieve some of your paranoia dont worry." You waved at him as he sughed once again, uncrossing his arms to put on the pickets of his pants.
"Be carefull." He muttered when he saw both of you exiting the house as he breathed out. You were responsible and Kaito was more intelligent than some average kids... so surely you two would be alright. Nothing for him to worry about.
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The meeting prooced as he only had a boring look towards the other yakusa precept and his boss speaking until his phone suddenly buzzed. All the attention of the meeting now at him.
"Apologies. Must be my wife." He muttered while getting up with his phone and arching one of his eyebrows at seing the notification on his phone that you just sended him a video.
Pytting the volume on minimun he got a bit away of the table only to see a freacking giant toboggan.
"Daddy dont freak out but your son wants to go into that monstrosity with me" he heard your voice and soon the phone was showing his son, smirking and vibrating in exciment.
"Mama and I are going up there!" The kid pointed at the building and he soon saw your smiling face on the camera while picking up you guys son.
"I will send a video on how was the ride, okay love you bye~"
Oh hell no...
His eye twitched as his grip on his phone made the screen crack amd caight the attention of the other yakusas.
"Sir Overhaul?"
"The meeting is cancelled." He muttered before fucking running out of the room and shouting after Nemoto to get his car keys.
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Just when he slammed the door of teh car to get out and enter the water park he got another notification and while running he saw another video.
His heart almost jumped at seing his son smilling in anciety while sitting between your legs, preparing to go down the terryfing slide.
"DID I SPEAK GREEK TO THAT BRAT AND WOMAN TO BE SAFE OR FUCKING WHAT?!" he shouted as he ran towards the slide and just when he got there he saw the image of his wife and son slidding down like fucking rockets and send a huge wave of water that almost soaked him wet.
His eyes were wide as he saw his son laughing and clapping his hands, repeatedly saying he wanted to go again as you giggled and helped him out of the slide.
He was enraged at the scene... you both could have hurted yourselfs and there the two most important things on his life were there... fucking laughing... and wet in someone else water.
Disgusting.
"Daddy!" His son noticed him and you gasped at the image of your husband standing a few feet away with arms crossed and a furiated look.
"Hon?" What are you-of!" He interrupted you while circling both of you and his son with his iconic jacket and putting a hand on the lower part of your back and almost dragging you.
"Where are your things? We're going home. Right. Now." He almost hissed the words as the boy in your arms let out a offended gasp as you arche done of your eyebrows.
"What? Why?" You stopped as he growled. Eye twitching as he pointed at the enormeous slide with his gloved palm.
"After you both got into that thing is surely enough for me to know this place is dangerous."
"But it was fun!" The kid whined before gasping at Chisaki flipping the tip of his nose.
"You two are never going to step on that thing again and that's it." He growled as you sighed.
"You dont have to be worried." You picked your purse that an old pady was watching for you before you thanked her "The slide is big yes but nothing to stress out about it."
The way your husband face closed was priceless.
"Dangerous or not you two are wet in dirt." He gritted between teeth while walking away and seing that you were following him with a pouting toddler on your arms.
"We will never go swinning again?" The kid asked in a sad tone as you cooed before Chisaki rolled his eyes and lifted his hand.
"If thats the main concern we will have a pool at home. This way you cant go whinning on my ear afterwards brat."
You giggled at how Kaito widened his eyes in glee as you kissed his cheek.
"Okay lets meet at home then." You went to take your keys before your husband snatched them from your grip and threw his own keys at Nemoto whose was nearby "Kai!"
"I will drive. Is already full of towels to prevent to spread some bacteria on it so when we get home I expect you and this brat to go straight to a hot shower."
"Why?!" The kid extended his hands in exclamation "Ee are already wet and without any dirt daddy!"
"You think." He snapped back before rolling two towels on his both hands and grabbing his son to put on the car "Lets go angel."
"I think you're being a little over dramatic over this." You giggled as Kai pivked his phone and showed the video with a annoyed look. Thankfully covering hsi son ears to prevent him to hear what he said later which you cackled.
"Dramatic my ass, look at what you both did minutes ago."
#overhaul x reader#chisaki kai x reader#bnha x reader#bnha characters#chisaki kai#overhaul#bnha au#chisaki family au#bnha fanfiction#bnha fics#zuffer writings#kaito baby boi
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Freefall
aaron hotchner x fem!reader
word count: 15.3k | warnings: smut!!!! alcohol mention, murder mention, rape mention, lots of typical cm violence!Â
inspired by: its called freefall by rainbow kitten surprise (i highly recommend listening to this song before or during reading!)
Anyway, you say youâre too busy saving everybody else to save yourself / And you donât want no help, oh well / Thatâs the story to tell
ok i have put my blood sweat and tears in this lamfkndksjfj this has been my wip for almost 3 weeks this is my entry for @veraiconcosâ fic challenge!! her prompt fit so perfectly with this fic so i am so excited to share it with you guys. this is by far my most challenging piece and the one i worked the longest on. i really hope you all love it, feedback is much appreciate. i am tagging some moots to signal boost this, i hope u dont mindÂ
Aaron-Â
This woman killed my dad. They said youâd be able to help. Please find her.Â
Aaron ran his fingertips over the letter one more time, feeling the depth of the pen, the engravement of each letter into the crisp stationary. He reread the words for a thousandth time, wondering if this time he could discover who actually sent the letter. But unfortunately, just like the past times, there was nothing to indicate who the sender was. The only other thing in the picture was a photograph of a young woman, the person Aaron believed was the murderer. Her face was mostly covered, and he was almost certain the short black bob that sat on her head was a wig. There was nothing about the photo that would help identify her, but on the back of the photo was a date- May 7th 2020, and a city, Sante Fe, NM.
He continued to stare at it, hoping some new information would pop out at him this time. But there was nothing, and he knew if he wanted to find whoever was responsible for this crime, he would need to involve the team. Whoever sent this clearly only wanted Aaron involved, even addressing him personally as Aaron and not Agent Hotchner.. Who could this person be? And who sent him Aaronâs way?Â
âYouâre here early,â JJ hesitated, walking through the doors of the BAU to begin her day.
âYeah⌠Iâve got kind of a⌠thing?â Aaron stammered over his words, trying to decide how he should go about this.Â
âWhatâs going on, Hotch?âÂ
âCome take a look at this. It was on my desk yesterday.â Hotch waved JJ over to him, holding the letter tightly in hands. He handed it to her hesitantly, still not feeling comfortable sharing with the rest of the team. It could be a prank, a practical joke, somebody just trying to waste his time. But how did it find itâs way onto his desk? Who would be messing with him like this?Â
âWas there an envelope?â JJ asked, staring at the words on the paper.Â
âYes, addressed to me, but no return address. It seems like it was hand delivered.âÂ
âThe handwriting looks like a teenagers, how would he have made it all the way from New Mexico?â
âMaybe somebody else delivered it?â
Aaron and JJâs attention was quickly taken away when Spencer and Derek walked through the doors, their loud voices cracking through the quiet air of the BAU. They were arguing about something pointless, as they usually did. Aaron felt his head throbbing as the day started to begin, unsure of how much longer heâd be able to make it without some strong coffee.Â
âJJ, keep this between us for now. Iâll bring it to Garcia, see if she can find anything worth investigating. I donât want to bring it to the team unless Iâm sure we have a case.âÂ
âUnderstood.â JJ smiled kindly at him, a look he was all too familiar with. Ever since Haley died, it felt like everyone was constantly walking on eggshells around him. Everyone felt bad, and they did whatever he asked without complaint. From a boss standpoint, it was nice, not having to argue your decisions to your team. But, they were more than his team. They were his friends, and he felt he lost them the same day he lost Haley.Â
Aaron greeted Spencer and Derek quickly, not wanting to get pulled into whatever discussion they were having. He was holding onto the letter tightly, afraid of losing it. He wasnât sure what it was, but he just had a feeling about it. Like he had stumbled onto something huge, and whatever Garcia could find out would lead them to something unbelievable.Â
âHey, Garcia. Any chance I could have you work on something⌠private, for now?â Aaron stood in the doorway of her office, all of the bright screens making him wince. His headache was only getting worse as the day went on.Â
âOf course, sir. Is everything okay?â She looked worried, for sure hoping that whatever secret task she was performing for him had nothing to do with Haley. Although he knew she would never say anything, he could tell she was worried about him.Â
âI need you to check deaths in Santa Fe, NM from May 5th - May 9th. Specifically look for men with teenage sons.â
âJust homicides?âÂ
âNo, any deaths. And see if you find anything suspicious.â
âAlrightâŚâ Penelope said, furrowing her brows in confusion. âIt might take a bit. Santa Feâs a big city.â
âJust get back to me when you can, Garcia.â Aaron smiled slightly at the technical analyst, before leaving quietly. His head was begging him for caffeine, or Advil, or a drink, even though it was barely 9 in the morning.Â
He walked quietly back to his office, not talking to any of his team, closing the door behind him as he got inside. There was a sick feeling in his stomach, most likely caused by the cigarette he snuck this morning on an empty stomach. He paced uncomfortably, dry swallowing an Advil he found in the back of his desk drawer. He knew it would take Garcia a while
to get his information, but he was feeling exceptionally frustrated and impatient. He started to walk towards the door, feeling the need to to pester his analyst to work quicker, but as he opened it, JJ stood pleasantly in the door.Â
âWe got a case, boss,â she smiled, waving an envelope in the air.Â
âAlright, letâs get to the conference room.â Aaron closed the door to office, following his Agent into the annex. He felt sick as he took his seat, not ready for whatever horror was about to be presented. Some days he felt like giving up, like throwing in the towel. He has given this job everything he had, and what did he get in return?Â
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Aaron and the team left an hour later for their newest destination, solving the case within 3 days. They were headed back to DC on the jet when he got a call from Garcia. It was rare she would call him personally if they were not working a case, so he knew it mustâve been about the letter. He waited a moment before answering, anxious about what her news could be. What if she found nothing, and this was the end of the line?Â
âHello, sir. I wanted to call as soon as I could.â She sounded nervous, a tone of confusion in her voice.Â
âWhatâs going on, Garcia?âÂ
âWell, itâs about the letter. I found something⌠interesting.âÂ
âDo you think we could have a case?â
âItâs a high possibility, sir.âÂ
âAlright. Can you patch into the computer and share with the team. Iâd like to bring them in on this as well.â
âSounds good, see you in a moment.â
Aaron hung the phone up, walking back to the main part of the jet and back to the rest of the team. They were spread out, all enjoying the calming feeling of a solved case. Spencer and JJ were sleeping, Emily and Derek both with headphones in and Rossi reading a book. He hated to bother them, hated to disturb their peace they all deserved. But that was the job- there was no peace. They all had to endure constant chaos so that innocent people didnât have to.Â
Aaron turned on the lights of the jet, alarming his team and causing several groans of frustration.Â
âWhatâs going on, Hotch?â Emily asked in desperation, her eyes squinting as they adjusted to the light.Â
âIâm sorry to bother everyone, but I think we might have a new case.â Aaron looked around the room, slowly watching the faces of his friends change from their relaxed state to the intensity of a profiler.Â
âIs this about⌠the thing from a few days ago?â JJ asked quietly, not wanting to bring it up if it wasnât the case.Â
âThe letter, yes.âÂ
âHello, my sleepy friends. I am sorry to bother you, but I have stumbled across something interesting that I believe requires your attention. Uh, Hotch⌠would you like toâŚâ she trailed off, looking around for her superior to explain how they ended up here.Â
âI received a letter a few days ago⌠someone asking us to look into the death of their father. It was anonymous, there was a picture along with it but it still wasnât enough to do much on my own. So, I handed over what I had to Garcia andâŚâ Aaron trailed off, realizing now he hadnât even asked Penelope what she got before bringing the rest of the team in.Â
âI guess thatâs where I come in. So, as per our humble leader, I searched for deaths of men on the given dates with teenage sons, and as I expected, that list was quite large.âÂ
âWhy teenage sons?â Derek asked, still trying to fill in the gaps of information.Â
âThe letter was clearly written by a young boy, no older than 16 was my guess,â JJ added, explaining her conclusion to the team.Â
âGarcia, were you able to narrow down the list?â Aaron asked, desperately wanting to know what she found.Â
âWell, I got rid of anyone whose death was expected. People who were sick or in the hospital, with underlying medical conditions, et cetera et cetera. Once we narrowed it down to deaths that were true accidents, I had a list of three.âÂ
âHow do we know this isnât just a prank?â Rossi asked. It was a fair question, a question he frequently asked himself as well.Â
âAh, well, if it was a prank I wouldnât have found out what I didâŚâÂ
âThat looks like the face of someone whoâs about to tell me Iâm not going home tonight,â Derek laughed, turning to Emily, who rolled her eyes.Â
âUnfortunately it does seem like thereâs a case here. One of the men that I flagged as âCould Be A Murder Victimâ has a⌠bad past.â One thing that Aaron always admired about Penelope is how she always managed to speak with such lightness, no matter how heavy the content of her words. â42-year old Derek Hood was killed on May 7th, ruled as an accidental drug overdose. There was some chatter that it may have been suicide, but there was no note and the family insisted he wouldnât have killed himself.âÂ
âSo what makes you think it was murder?â Spencer asked.
âAlright, get this. Our man Jason was on trial two years ago for the rape of three different 16 year old girls. It was declared a mistrial, unfortunately, after all three of the girls refused to testify at his trial.â
âIs it possible he threatened them? This could be a revenge killing, if that was the case,â Emily added.Â
âAh, I thought that too, my friend. But all three of the girls are now in college and far, far away from Sante Fe. So, that was kind of a dead end.â
âWhat about the parents?â Aaron questioned.Â
âWe think alike, sir. All three of their families still reside in Santa Fe, and three weeks before Jasonâs death, all three couples withdrew $15,000 cash from their banks. One family stated it was for a pool, the other for a car, and the last family stated it was for bathroom renovations.âÂ
âWere any of those projects completed, Garcia?âÂ
âTo the best of my knowledge, no.âÂ
âSo this is what I think it is, then,â Rossi asked, looking up towards Aaron for confirmation.Â
âItâs most likely a hitman, yes.â Aaron looked around at his team, a feeling of worry drowning him. Hitmen were exceptionally dangerous, and so were the routes to get to them. It was an extremely well protected underground business, and the chances of catching one successfully, with no one hurt, were very slim.Â
âWait, but our unsub is a woman. The photo very clearly showed a female, and even in the letter, the boy addresses her as âThis woman.ââÂ
âCould we see the picture, Garcia?â Aaron asked, staring at the monitor as he awaited the photo.Â
âMaybe theyâre dressing as a woman to distract any possible witnesses?â Rossi added. The photo then popped up on the monitor, the same hidden person that was ingrained in Aaronâs brain. He couldnât forget her, her shielded face, cheap wig, perfect bodyâŚÂ
âThat is definitely a woman, guys. You canât fake that bodyâŚâ Derek laughed, causing a wave of eye rolls and a slight shove of disgust from Emily.Â
âA female hitman⌠that is exceptionally rare.âÂ
âMaybe sheâs killing for justice? I mean, Jason was a piece of shit. And he somehow got away with his crimes, maybe this is punishment,â Derek added, always the first to try to come up with some sort of explanation.Â
âWhy would she charge the parents almost fifty grand, though? That clearly makes it about money,â Emily rebutted.Â
âGarcia, is there any way we can find out who they gave that money too?â Aaron asked, hoping for a quick and easy answer, but he knew nothing was easy at this job.Â
âSince they took it out in cash, thereâs no way to trace it, sir.âÂ
âWeâll need to talk to the parents.âÂ
âThey wonât say anything, you know how that goes,â JJ said.Â
âWeâll target one of them, whichever is the most unstable. Promise them immunity. That usually works in situations like this.â Aaron looked at the team, noticing how tired they were. He knew how bad they needed to go home, sleep in their own beds, wash their hair with something other than hotel shampoo. But this was big, he could feel it. And they probably did, as well. It was their life, they were all aware of how crazy this career path could be. But, just because he knew that, it didn't make it any easier on Aaron when he had to push them to their limit. âWe need to turn the plane around to Santa Fe. If this person is local, itâs best that weâre on the scene.âÂ
âCan we at least stop home so I can get some new clothes?â JJ groaned, looking at the team in desperation for support.Â
âFine. Can we be back in the air in two hours?âÂ
âWe can make that work,â Spencer agreed.Â
âAlright. Thanks, guys.âÂ
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Santa Fe was hot. The kind of hot that made it impossible to breathe, and your clothes felt like they had melted into your skin. Aaron could feel his skin on fire, burning hotter and hotter as he stood under the desert sun. Emily stood next to him, glistening in a thin layer of sweat. The two of them stared closely at a house across the street, taking in every detail.Â
âYou ready?â Emily asked, her voice cracking through the quiet air like a whip.Â
âUh⌠yeah,â Aaron stuttered, his brain feeling off. He had a feeling whoever this person was, she wasnât in Sante Fe. This was a big operation that they had stumbled upon, and he had a bad feeling about the way it would end up.Â
Aaron followed Emily to the door, feeling exceptionally guilty as they entered the front yard of a family whose lives had been destroyed- and all they were there to do was destroy them further. He knew they only did what they did to avenge their daughter- and he understood. Sometimes he wondered if he shouldâve done the same thing with Foyet.
âAre you alright, Hotch? I donât mean to overstep, but you donât seem like yourself,â Emily questioned, stopping in her tracks before they made their presence known to the family.Â
âJust have a bad feeling about this one, I guess,â he responded, rubbing his head with his thumb and forefinger. âLetâs get this over withâŚâÂ
âAye aye, sir.âÂ
The two of them walked to the front door of the small house, knocking slightly quietly on the white painted wood of the door. An older man opened the door, immediately tensing up as he saw the two of them. They looked like Agents- or at the very least, local detectives, and the man was pretty quick to understand why they were there.Â
âAre you Bradley Mathis?â Emily asked, standing a few inches in front of Aaron, clearly trying to take the lead on this. It was probably for the best, since his head was not on right today. In all honesty, his head hadnât been on right since Foyet.Â
âWho are you?â Bradley asked defensively, crossing his arms across his chest and backing away from the door.Â
âMr. Mathis, I want to assure you that if you cooperate with us, there will be no trouble. We understand you did everything to protect your daughter, and we arenât looking for trouble. We just want to find the person who did this for you.â As Aaron spoke, he realized how scary this must be for him. His daughter was brutally attacked, they found the man that hurt her, and then he threatened her into silence so he could walk free. If it had happened to Aaronâs kid, he wouldâve killed the son of a bitch with his own bare hands.Â
âYou promise me nothing will happen to me?â He asked defensively, his eyes darting nervously across the room.
âI never met her, okay. I swear,â he responded in relief, as if heâd been waiting for the moment he could finally tell somebody. It was exhausting caring around those kinds of secrets. âI got her info from a friend. You go to the website, submit your claim, and sheâll send an assistant out to decide if sheâll take you on as a client. If she decides to help you, youâll give half the money up front, and half upon proof of⌠death,â he whispered, closing his eyes as he spoke the words.
âThatâs pretty standard practice for what she isâŚâ Emily added.Â
âHow did you find her website?â Aaron asked, wanting to leave this man in peace as quickly as possible.Â
âThereâs some⌠tricks to finding her. Give me one second,â he said, turning around quickly and darting to another room. Emily reached for her gun defensively, but Aaron put a hand on her shoulder and shook his head.Â
âHe wonât run.âÂ
âHow do you know? He has every reason to dart.âÂ
âI just know. Heâll be back. Trust me.â Aaron looked to his Agent, kindly suggesting but also ordering her to relax. She nodded, crossing her arms as the pair waited for Bradley. As Aaron suspected, he came back a few minutes later with a beat up piece of paper.Â
âSomeone I know from the support group gave me this. Itâs how to contact her.â He handed them a brochure that was in pretty bad shape, but still legible enough to understand where to go. From the outside, it looked like a brochure for a dental surgery. But there were certain words highlighted, most likely by whoever gave Bradley this in the first place. It mapped out clear instructions on how to contact this mystery vigilante.Â
âThatâs all I know. I swear.âÂ
âI believe you,â Aaron responded, noticining the calmness flooding over Bradleyâs face as Aaron spoke. âYou can never tell anybody this, do you understand?âÂ
Bradley nodded, his mouth glued shut as the reality of the situation finally weighed on him. He noticed the guns holstered to Emily and Aaronâs hips, and quickly shut the door, no goodbyeâs needed.Â
âIf sheâs sending people to meet potential clients before she meets them, she isnât local,â Emily put together, shaking her head in shock as the pair walked back to their car.Â
âNo, sheâs not. Which means we need to get back on the plane ASAP. Send this over to Garcia, Iâll call the team and tell them to meet us back at the jet.âÂ
âSounds good.âÂ
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âHello, angels. Are you ready for all the answers to your prayers?â Garciaâs voice popped through the stiff air of the jet, breaking through the harsh waters like a ray of sunshine.Â
âWere you able to find her, Garcia?âÂ
âOf course, sir. Our girl is fancy. You need five grand upfront just to meet with her. Her website looks like it was designed for a five star hotel. She is legit.âÂ
âCan we actually find her, Penelope?â Aaron had raised his voice slightly, frustration starting to set in. He just wanted this to be over, he wanted to bring her in and end this.Â
âYes, yes. Sorry. Our girl goes by the name Ananke.âÂ
âThatâs not very intimidating,â Derek laughed, shaking his head as he sat back in his chair.Â
âWell, kind of. Ananke is a greek goddess, specifically known as one of the most powerful deityâs to control fate and circumstance. Itâs pretty fitting, giving what she does.âÂ
âThe only way to meet her is to submit an appointment request, which is easier said than done. She has a legit system, requires a birth certificate, social security number, and a license or passport.â
âAnd five Gâs,â JJ added.Â
âCan we create fake documents and submit them? Maybe have someone undercover go meet her.âÂ
âIâll do it. This has been my case from the beginning, Iâd like to end it as well,â Aaron said, assuring his team he would finish this.Â
âI can get everything made up and submitted before you land.âÂ
âIs there any way to figure out where sheâs located?âÂ
âUnfortunately not at the moment. I am still digging though, itâs possible I missed something.âÂ
âThanks, Garcia. Weâll see you soon.âÂ
The team made some more small talk after that, realizing there wasnât much they could do unless they had a location. Aaronâs head was beginning to throb again, absolute exhaustion overcoming him as he sat down and let himself relax for the first time in days. He missed Jack, he missed the comfort of his own bed, the smell of his cheap laundry detergent. He realized he was digging his nails into his palms, his flesh barely intact as he released his tension.Â
The rest of his team had broken up into their own conversations, ignoring the crumbling mess that was Aaron Hotchner. He walked to the bathroom quietly, snooping through the cabinets and finding a small bottle of vodka. He downed it quickly, letting the liquor burn the back of his throat and take his mind off of everything else. Even if it was for a moment, the distraction was welcomed, and almost necessary for him to keep going.Â
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It was two full days- almost forty eight hours exactly- when they finally heard back from Ananke. She had agreed to meet with âZachary Wilsonâ who was looking for revenge against the drunk driver that killed his wife. And to the whole teamâs surprise, it appeared that she was located in DC. Ananke herself said she would meet him, stating that she was âin the areaâ.Â
The address she gave them appeared to be a popular nightclub in college town, one that Aaron had unfortunately been dragged to on multiple occasions. The team agreed that Aaron should meet her alone, the team standing outside to come in if necessary. She wanted to meet him on a Friday night, which meant the place would be flooded with innocent civilians. It was safest if they stayed out of it, at first.Â
By the time Friday rolled around, Aaron had barely eaten in days. He was staying alive on coffee, tylenol, and mini bottles of vodka he could keep in his pockets. Oh, and the occasional cigarette was a necessity as well. He had waited anxiously for what felt like weeks to meet her. This case had been weighing on him since the moment he received that letter, and he wanted it to be over. He wanted the anxiety and the chaos to be over. But, once they solved this one, there would just be another after, and the cycle of chaos and anxiety begins all over again.Â
âI hope you know you can't dress like that,â JJ said, teasing Aaron with a light shove as she walked past him.Â
âWhy?âÂ
âItâs⌠a business suit, Hotch. And you're going to a nightclub. It screams Fed.âÂ
Aaron looked down at himself, realizing JJ was right. His vibes screamed âCopâ, and that was exactly what he did not want.Â
âDonât worry, sir. I have something you can borrow from my go bag,â Derek suggested.Â
âHotch in Derekâs clothes? Thatâs something Iâll pay good money to see,â Emily laughed, JJ giggling alongside her as Derek rolled his eyes and threw clothes at the two of them.Â
âYou think these will work?â Derek asked the girls, not bothering with Aaronâs opinion.Â
âOh, itâs perfect. Hotch will love these,â they laughed, neatly folding the clothes and handing them to Aaron. He walked away in silence, heading towards his office so he could change. The clothes werenât a perfect fit, but they were better than his suit. The shirt was way too tight, with a v-neck that was way too deep. His arms felt like they would rip right through the cheap cotton, and his ass felt like it was going to bust straight out of the denim.Â
He began to walk out of the office quietly, hoping that the rest of the team wouldnât be waiting for his fashion show. But as he figured, they were standing by patiently for him to show off in Derekâs way too tight clothes. As soon as he opened the door, a riot of laughs and cat calls surrounded him. He felt himself blushing, which was something he hadnât done in a long time.Â
âDamn, Hotch. Where have you been hiding those arms?â Derek laughed, his voice echoing through Aarons head.Â
âI think we need to start casual Friday,â Spencer added, staring in awe at his boss.Â
âAlright, enough guys. This is a serious case, and I need everyone to be on their best behavior.âÂ
âIâm not sure I can act right with you walking around like that,â Rossi joked, causing the rest of the team to burst out with laughter. Aaron just rolled his eyes, secretly appreciating the light that they all brought to his life.Â
âAlright, you guys ready to go?âÂ
âAll set. Letâs go catch a killer, sir.âÂ
The ride to the club was a bit of a hike, a little over thirty minutes by the time they parked. They were split in two cars, seperated to cover both entrances. The plan was for him to go in and assess the situation, hoping he can get her out without harming any bystanders. If he needed backup, he had an alarm he could trigger that would alert the rest of the team to come in. It was a simple plan, one they had executed a thousand times in the past. But despite that, he felt extremely anxious.Â
âAre you ready, Aaron?â Rossi asked, raising his eyebrows in concern.Â
âYeah, letâs get this over with. Stay alert, guys.â Aaron walked out of the car and to the entrance of the club, staring directly at the large bouncer standing in front of the door. He was given very specific instructions on what to see when he approached the man, ones that would deliver him directly to Ananke and avoid having to deal with the actual club.Â
âYou on the list?â The bouncer asked as Aaron approached, not even bothering to look up from his clipboard.Â
âIâm here to see⌠A,â he whispered, looking around frantically to see if anyone else heard.Â
âYou got your ID and confirmation number?â He asked, setting his clipboard down and staring intensely at Aaron.Â
âUh, yeah. Itâs 73491. And hereâs my drivers license,â he responded, handing him the forged Virginia license of one Zachary Wilson.Â
âZachary WilsonâŚâ the man whispered, making Aaron sick to his stomach as he awaited the man to deny him and send him away, ruining his chances of finding her forever. âYouâre gonna go in this door, right here,â he said, pointing towards a hidden and seemingly locked door to his right. âTake the stairs all the way up, knock on the door twice. Sheâll be right with you.âÂ
âThank you,â he responded, relieved as he began to walk past the guard and towards his end goal.Â
âOh, and Zachary,â the man added, causing Aaron to turn around in confusion.Â
âRemember: lei è dalla nostra parte,â he said, a smile creeping on his face as he spoke. Aaron recognized the language as Italian, but he couldnât translate what he was saying. The bouncer turned around before Aaron had the chance to ask what he meant, but he figured it would just be better to move on and go directly to her.Â
He slowly opened the door, unsure of what he would find on the other side. To his surprise, it was only an exceptionally narrow staircase in a small hallway, leading directly to another gray door. The sound of fluorescent lights buzzed in the air, making Aaron dizzy as he walked up the steep steps. He remembered what the man said- knock twice. He also remembered the phrase in Italian, lei è dalla nostra parte. And when he finally got to the door, he began to unravel the words in his head. He knocked twice, replaying the words over and over. And when he finally heard the door click open, he understood what the man had meant. She is on our side.Â
âZachary?â A man asked, opening the door slightly, only enough to peak out at him.Â
âYes. Iâm here to see-âÂ
âAnanke. Of course,â he interrupted, swinging the door open and revealing an exceptionally beautiful and ornate room. Aaron walked in slowly, in a daze, his eyes not sure where to look as every piece of the room exceptionally thought out. There was a beautiful chandelier hanging from the ceiling, the light reflecting rainbows from the crystals.Â
âShe will be with you shortly. Feel free to have a seat somewhere. Can I get you anything to drink?âÂ
Aaron felt like he was at a hotel, the service impeccable as he sat down on the incredibly comfortable and probably very expensive couch. Most hit men he had met with did not present themselves like this. Whoever she was, she had a lot of money. In that moment, he wondered how many lives she had taken- how many people finally got what they deserved. And for a brief and frightening moment, he wondered if she was doing things right?Â
His thoughts were interrupted when she walked out. Not only did he lose his train of thought, but his breath was literally ripped from his chest. She was no longer covering her face, or wearing a wig. She had finally revealed herself to him, and he was in awe. She was absolutely stunning- beautiful to a level that made his head spin and his heart cramp up. He stood up instinctively, feeling the need to stand and greet her face to face. As she walked closer, he felt his throat getting tighter and tighter.Â
âHello,â she spoke, her words floating through the air like a flower in the spring wind. âIâm Ananke.âÂ
âMhmm, he,â he stuttered, sticking his hand out to shake hers. âIâmâŚâ he choked, unable to get his words out.Â
âSupervisory Special Agent Aaron Hotchner, right?â She smiled, and Aaron instinctively reached for his gun.Â
âPut your weapon away, Aaron. Iâm no threat to you,â she instructed, and he complied. For some reason, he believed her. She had no intention of hurting him or anyone else in this building. He didnât need his weapon.Â
âHow do you know who I am?âÂ
âThe FBI has a list of Social Security numbers they regularly use for fake documents. Itâs⌠a hard list to get your hands on. Iâm lucky I have friends in high places.âÂ
âSo you knew who I was from the minute I submitted my application?â He was shocked, a sick feeling washing over him. Who was she? How was she consistently one step ahead of them?Â
âIâm sorry to break your sense of superiority, agent. It hurts when someone is smarter than you, doesn't it?â She tilted her head at him, a devilish grin pasted across her face. He wanted to hate her, he wanted to be angry, but all he could focus on was the fire burning inside of him and the hunger building itself, the craving overcoming her. Her skirt revealed a little too much of her thigh and her shirt was a little too low cut and the thought of her flesh on his rippled its way through his body.Â
âWell, we found you and Iâm going to arrest you, so it doesnât seem like you came out on top here,â he responded, avoiding eye contact as he tried to get his impure thoughts out of his head.Â
âAgent Hotchner, something you will quickly learn is that I only come on top.â She winked at him, pursuing her lips slightly and smiling. She held her wrists out to him, walking towards him until she was only inches away. âAre you going to arrest me, Agent?âÂ
Aaron reached for the cuffs in his back pocket, pulling them out slowly and staring directly at her. She didn't take his eyes off of him, standing tall as he began to cuff her. Her hands were soft, almost comical as they brushed against his rough and untouched skin. He didnât speak, and neither did she. He just closed the cuffs on her, her large eyes staring up at him like a doe. He felt dizzy again, the intoxicating smell of her perfume, the subtle hints of berries and vanilla surrounding him in a whirlwind.Â
He slowly grabbed his phone from his pocket, trying to dial Rossiâs number, feeling drunk as he pressed the button. What was wrong with him? And what was wrong with her? Why would she willingly let herself get arrested so easily? That was the problem. This was exceptionally easy. Nothing was ever this easy.Â
âHey, Rossi. I got her. Weâre coming down now.âÂ
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Aaron wasnât surprised that she remained silent the entire car ride back to Quantico. What he was surprised by is that she didnât appear nervous or angry. She sat calmly, staring out the window, her body relaxed and her lips forming the slightest smile. It made him angry- he didnât understand her nonchalance.Â
They tried to talk to her, ask her for her real name, about her crimes- but she would just look at them, tilting her head and smiling before bringing her gaze back outside. When they finally arrived back at the Bureau, she turned towards Aaron and Rossi, slowly speaking her first words in over thirty minutes.Â
âAm I allowed a phone call?â She asked, staring directly at Aaron, as if it was only the two of them in the car. For a moment, it felt like they were the only two people in the entire world.Â
âWho exactly would you like to call?â Rossi smirked, rolling his eyes, trying to get Aaron to look at him. But he couldnât take his eyes away from her. He was drawn to her like a sailor at sea, listening to the sweet song of the siren. He understood, now, why the sailors always swam to their death. It was because it was so damn beautiful.Â
âIâd like to speak with the Director,â she insisted, her eyes finally releasing Aaron from his hypnosis as she looked in disgust at Rossi. He could sense the shift in her tone as she looked at the agent- she had built up a terrifying exterior that she had on display for most people. But when she looked at Aaron, the wall somehow didnât exist. Why would she show her true self to a stranger? What was it about him that she was drawn too? Could she sense his pain? Did she know that he understood why she did what she did? That he, too, had felt the rush of ending evil with his own two hands?Â
âThe Director? Of the FBI?â Rossi asked, shocked at her absurd request. âWhat exactly would you like to speak to him about?âÂ
âI just think heâd be interested to know Iâm here,â she spoke, calmly, sitting back in the seat of the car and looking out the window again.Â
âThis girl is nutsâŚâ Rossi whispered to Aaron before getting out of the car and grabbing âAnankeâ from the back seat. Aaron followed closely behind, his eyes locked on Rossiâs tight grip around her flesh. He could see the marks his agent was leaving behind, his fingertips dug into her arm. It made him sick. The thought of anyone harming her made him sick. But she was the bad guy- he was supposed to hate her, to send her away and avenge all of the lives she took. Why did he want to save her so bad? Grab her from Rossi, hop in the car and take her away from all of this. It didnât make sense, the way he felt. And Aaron hated it- he hated feeling out of control of his own thoughts- his own desires.Â
As they brought her into the BAU, the rest of the team following behind, he immediately noticed something was off when he walked through the doors. The rest of the team must have noticed as well, because they all kind of stopped in their tracks as they walked in.Â
Derek noticed her first, pacing back and forth in Aaronâs office.Â
âStrauss,â he groaned, rolling his eyes at the sight of her.Â
âWhat is she doing here?â JJ asked, crossing her arms and tensing up.Â
âIâm not sure. Iâll go find out. Rossi, can you bring her into the interrogation room? Spencer, try and get something out of her,â Aaron instructed his team, watching them seperate and do their assigned tasks as he walked up to his office. When he got closer, he noticed the Director was also there as well. He got a sick feeling in his stomach, remembering his immediate thoughts when he first arrested Ananke. Itâs never this easy.Â
He opened his office door with shaking hands, immediately slapped in the face with tension clinging to the air. The Director stood up as he entered, and Strauss stopped pacing.Â
âAaron,â she whispered, her eyes darting nervously around the room.Â
âErin,â he smirked, not sure why his brain was choosing this moment to crack jokes.Â
âItâs good to see you, Agent Hotchner. Itâs been a while,â the Director said.Â
âChris. Itâs good to see you as well. Can I ask what youâre doing in my office?âÂ
The two of them looked nervously at each other, as if deciding who had to tell him the unspoken secret. The first thought in his brain was that Foyet was back. He killed him, though. He remembered the life draining out of him. He couldnât be back. He felt his body get hot, his breathing picking up as he remembered Foyetâs faceâŚÂ
âAaron⌠unfortunately, weâre going to need you to let (Y/N) go.âÂ
âWho?â He asked bluntly, confused at the name he was sure he had never heard before. Although his brain was still spinning, he was feeling calmer knowing whatever this was, it wasnât about Foyet.Â
âAnanke. You need to release her,â Strauss clarified, her voice equally annoyed and apologetic.Â
âIâm sorry⌠Iâm confused.â Aaron was realizing now how much easier it was to hate Ananke - or (Y/N) - when she wasn't right in front of him. He couldnât see her, she couldnât lure him in. Her spell had broken. âI know for a fact she killed at least one person. Iâm not releasing her.âÂ
âAaron, this goes beyond you. She is no longer a person of interest.â Chris had raised his voice, clearly frustrated at whatever was happening.Â
âYou canât just take away my unsub and not tell me why. Do you think my team will be okay with that? Do you think Iâll be okay with that?â Aaron was angry, the thought of them taking her away with no reason making him crazy.Â
âAgent Hotchner, there are some secrets within the Bureau that even you donât know about.âÂ
âI donât accept that.âÂ
Chris and Strauss looked defeated, both accepting that they wonât win this battle. Chris shook his head slightly and closed his eyes, contemplating his words.Â
âWhat is going on, Strauss?â Aaron begged, the room beginning to spin again, his body craving the sweet release of nicotine and the bitter taste of vodka.Â
âYour unsubs real name is (Y/N) (Y/L/N). She is a government protected assassin.âÂ
âWhat?â Aaronâs head was spinning, the room around him dancing in circles as the words floated through his mind. That couldnât be real. There was no way the place he worked, that he believed upheld justice, would do something so⌠unjust. So immoral. They had to be lying. âItâs not possible. We met the man that paid her to kill someone. She was paid by a civilian to kill a civilian.âÂ
âShe sometimes takes on⌠side projects,â Chris muttered, clearly knowing his words would upset Aaron.Â
âAnd you allow that?â He yelled, his body fuming with anger as he paced around his office. It didn't make sense. Everything he had ever believed in was crumbling right before his eyes- all because of her.Â
âWith the things she has done for us, Aaron, there is a little bit of lenience. Besides, Jason was a bad person, anyways.âÂ
âThat doesnât make it okay. We have a justice system in place for a reason.â He felt sick, the realization that a system he protected for so long was seeping with corruption.Â
âDid Foyet get his chance for trial? Or did the justice system not count for him?â Strauss looked at him sternly, frustration written on her face. Aaron realized she was right. He took justice into his own hands with Foyet, and he didnât regret it. How was she doing anything different? For a moment, nothing made sense to Aaron. His entire belief system had shattered right in front of him. He was speechless, his brain splashing around trying to find the right words to express his disbelief. But he was coming up empty, drawing blanks. There was truly nothing he could say that could capture how he felt. He just thought of her, the sweet smell of berries that lingered in her hair, the softness of her skin, the enticing aura that surrounded her when she looked at him.Â
âWhat am I supposed to tell my team?â He thought out loud.Â
âWeâll handle it. Letâs go out and talk to them now,â Chris instructed, walking out of the office and down towards the annex. Rossi noticed the three of them and quickly walked up to Chris, greeting him.Â
âCould you gather your team for me?â The director asked, Aaron still unsure of how he would explain this to them. Rossi grabbed everyone pretty quickly, dragging Spencer from the interrogation room, which Aaron could only imagine was going very poorly.Â
âHello everyone, Iâm sorry to bother you all, but the unsub you brought in today is a person of interest in several international crimes. Sheâs been on our watch list for a while, now, and weâre going to have to hand her over to interpol.â The Directors words were quick and precise, leaving no room for anyone to second guess him. Even Aaron was convinced they werenât going to release her the minute they were alone.Â
âWhat has she done?â JJ questioned, intrigued at the mystery international criminal they brought in.Â
âItâs classified, Agent. And if you donât mind, weâd like to get out of here rather quickly. If someone could grab her, please,â he ordered, causing Spencer to quickly walk to the room she was in and bring her back out to them.Â
She was smirking widely as she walked out, clearly knowing her freedom was inevitable. He had so many questions for her, so much he needed to know, but he had to keep his mouth shut. She was slipping right through his fingers, and he had only just begun to know her.Â
âIâm so sorry, Aaron. I know how much you enjoyed seeing me in handcuffs,â she whispered to him as she passed by, winking seductively before being taken away by the Director and Strauss.Â
Aaron felt miserable as she walked away, the three of them heading into the elevator and away from him forever. She now felt only like a ghost, a distant memory fading away as more time went by without her. The team moved on from the loss in a matter of minutes, but Aaron stood there, frozen in place, waiting desperately for her to come back.Â
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Five days. He was able to wait five days before he went to see her. He tried so desperately to forget about her- it seemed everyone else had. But she seeped into his dreams, tossing and turning as he tried to sleep, her voice, her face, her body, calling to him. He needed to see her again, just to ask her why. He wouldnât sleep ever again if he didnât.Â
So, five days after she walked away, he waited until Jack was asleep, explained to Jessica that he had some paperwork to take care of, and headed to see her. His brain continuously tried to tell him it was a bad idea. He should turn around, go home, and forget her. But he knew it was easier said than done. This was the only way.Â
When he got to the club, he noticed the same bouncer from before was sitting outside the door. Aaron felt a bit relieved, hoping the man would recognize him and he could lie his way up to (Y/N)â door.Â
âHey, man,â he said casually, trying to sound as calm and not suspicious as possible.Â
âCan I help you?â The man grunted, clearly not amused by Aaronâs attempt to be friendly.Â
âIâm here to see A. We met a few days ago, I need to drop my money off,â he whispered, praying to whatever God was listening that this guy would believe his story.Â
âA isnât supposed to be meeting anyone tonight,â he groaned, shifting uncomfortably in his seat. Aaron could tell it was a long shot, but he had to do whatever he could to see her.Â
âCall her. Sheâll tell you,â he stuttered, looking anxiously at the large man standing between him and (Y/N). It was possible he could take him down if he had to, Aaron thought. It would be a hell of a fight, but heâd brought down bigger men. He shifted instinctively, trying to casually feel his hip and make sure he was still armed.Â
The man pulled out a small phone that appeared to be very old- most likely a burner they used to communicate. He dialed a number quickly and stared at Aaron, as if hoping his boss would give him the go ahead to kick Aaronâs ass.Â
âHey, itâs me. Some guy is here to see you. Said you talked earlier today. Can you check the cams,â he asked, trying to speak quietly, but Aaron was still able to hear every word. He waited patiently for her response, trying to keep his face calm.Â
âAlright, thanks A.â He hung the call up and placed the phone in his pocket, taking as long as possible to give Aaron his answer. It felt like hours, excruciating pain as he waited for his fate.Â
âYouâre clear to go.â
Aaron was almost positive she would send him away. If she had cameras, she knew it was him. Why would she allow him to come up? Did she want to see him, too?Â
He knew if he stood there any longer contemplating the situation, he would look suspicious. So despite all of his common sense warning him that something was wrong, he walked through the secret door and up the narrow staircase, knocking twice at her door and awaiting to enter her world.Â
He was greeted by the same man from earlier, who was smiling brightly as he opened the door and let him in. He offered him another drink, which Aaron politely declined, finding a seat on one of the couches and unable to sit still as he waited for her.Â
She left him waiting for quite a while. Although it felt like hours of agony for Aaron, his watch assured him he had only been waiting around twenty minutes by the time she finally greeted him. She was wearing a short red dress, golden heels wrapped around her feet as she floated towards him, smiling devilishly as she poured herself a drink.Â
âItâs nice to see you again, Agent,â she teased, taking a sip of her liquor of choice and taking a seat across from him.Â
âI needed to talk to you.âÂ
âAbout what?â She tilted her head, soft lips creating a pout of confusion as she stared at him.Â
âYou knew I was going to arrest you the minute you got my application to meet⌠if you knew you couldnât get in trouble, why would you let all of that happen? You couldâve called the Director the minute you knew who I was. Why didnât you?â Aaron needed to know why she went through the trouble of setting up a meeting with him, allowing herself to be arrested and brought to the Bureau. It didnât make sense, allowing herself to take such a big risk.
âIt seemed⌠fun. Sometimes my life can be quite boring.â She smiled at him, her flirtatious grin that she seemed to save just for Aaron.Â
âWasting my time, my team's time⌠that's fun to you?â Aaron was getting angry again, his body fuming as he looked at her.Â
âWell, maybe a part of me wanted to meet you. I mean, weâre not so different, Aaron.âÂ
âHah,â he laughed, rolling his eyes at her. âYou think you and I have anything in common?âÂ
âOh, are you not the same SSA Aaron Hotchner who killed George Foyet with his own hands?âÂ
âHow the hell do you know that?â Aaron had stood up at this point, his anger and frustration causing his body to become restless.Â
âItâs on your record, Agent. Itâs not too hard to findâŚâ She took another sip of her drink, finishing the last of the cups content and standing up to face him. For a moment, they were inches apart, the air between them stock full of tension, anger and attraction swimming around the two. But as he prayed he could control his compulsion to touch her, she walked away, over to another corner of the room, grabbing a cigarette and lighting it.Â
The smell of smoke intoxicated him, making his knees shake as he craved the burn of nicotine in his throat. She floated back towards him, taking her place back on the couch and burning quickly through her cigarette.Â
âYou seem so angry, Aaron.âÂ
âBecause youâre killing people, and somehow the people I look up to to maintain law and order donât care.âÂ
âHave you ever thought that youâre more angry at yourself than at me? I mean, a part of you gets it, right? You understand what I do, why I do it⌠and that makes you sick, doesnât it?âÂ
âI would never justify what you do.âÂ
âMm,â she hummed, standing up and walking towards him again. She placed a soft hand on his face, Aaron realizing her touch was the first heâd felt since Haley died. The feel of his flesh being caressed by someone, being held by someone- it made him melt.Â
âMaybe itâs not that, though. Maybe you really do hate me, hate what I do. But a part of you canât stop thinking about touching me, feeling me⌠fucking me.â She moved her hand down his body, trailing her fingers down his chest and stopping at the base of his groin. He felt chills down his body, blood rushing to his cock at the slightest touch.Â
âThatâs not- itâs not that,â he stuttered, trying to back away, knowing how dangerous it would be for him to get roped into something like this.Â
âRight, of course,â she whispered, taking her hand away from him and turning around, walking away. He watched her body as she floated across the room, his eyes glued to her ass that was begging to be touched by him.Â
â(Y/N)...â Aaron whispered, calling for her, unable to stand the feeling of her being away from him. She turned towards him, walking back slowly, taking her time and letting him simmer in anticipation as she made her way back to the center of the room. When she made her way back to him, he grabbed her chin with his hand, tilting her face up towards him, her lips inches from his.Â
âI would never want somebody like you. You are a bad person, no matter what you try to say to me.âÂ
âWhatever helps you sleep at night, Agent,â she smirked, her lips almost brushing against his as she formed them into a smile.Â
At that moment, it felt like any self control Aaron had flew directly out the window. He wrapped his other arm around her waist, pulling her body into his and kissing her. It was a kiss that was draped in desperation, anger, lust. His tongue made no attempt to be gentle, selfishly exploring her small mouth and he picked her up and sat her on a table. He tore his shirt off, his desire to be touched, to touch her, overcoming any restraint he had before.Â
He picked her up, her small frame easy for his trained body to carry swifty to the couch. He threw her down on her back, her body writhing under his, moaning his name so loud that he was sure the club goers downstairs could hear. He wrapped his hands around her neck, gripping gently, listening to her gasp for air as he slid up her dress to reveal nothing underneath.Â
âYouâre just begging for me, arenât you,â he teased, pulling his hard cock out from his boxers and teasing her entrance with his tip. She nodded slowly at him, unable to speak as he still had his hand gripped around her throat. He was aching to hear her voice again, so he released his hand, getting turned on at the mark he left on her.Â
He slipped into her slowly, no time to waste on foreplay. He knew he needed her now, that their time was limited and it was only a matter of time before his common sense kicked in and he got out of there. But for the moment, he was sloppily pounding into her, not caring who saw or heard, desperately needing to be as close to her as possible.Â
He came quickly, the euphoria of feeling another woman for the first time in months too much for him to control. She came too, though. He could tell she wasnât faking- he could feel it. After they finished, he quickly put his clothes back on, (Y/N) continuing to lay breathlessly on the couch. He watched her for a moment, waiting for her to say something- ask him to stay, kiss him goodbye. But she just pulled herself up and walked towards the other side of the room, grabbing and lighting another cigarette.
âYou should go.â (Y/N) instructed, not even bothering to look up at the man who just came inside her moments ago.Â
âYou shouldnât smoke those, you know. Theyâll kill you.â Aaronâs mouth was dry, watching the trail of smoke that followed her as she floated around the room, refusing to give him even a second of her time.Â
âWhat do I have to live for?â She asked, finally dragging her tired eyes to his and smiling, one of the first real, and saddest, smiles he had seen from her.Â
Aaron tried to think of something else to say, racking his brain for the correct words to say. But he continuously came up empty, and he realized he was starting to look more and more suspicious the longer he stood there. He decided to walk away, ignore the part of him that refused to tear away from her.Â
He walked soberly down the stairs, out onto the street and to his car. As he sat in his drivers seat and started the engine, feeling his face get hot, the rare feeling of wet eyes as he began to cry. And then he started to laugh. An uncontrollable cackle that spilled out of him like a waterfall. It was comical, to look back over the past few months and relive all of the bullshit he had been through. He didnât even recognize the person in the mirror anymore. And maybe that was a good thing, because the person he used to be was the same person that let Haley die.Â
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Aaron tried to pretend he didnât spend every day over the next week thinking about her. The way her soft skin felt when he touched her, the way her lips tasted like bubblegum and her hair smelled like cherries. When he imagined her in his head, everything felt so distant, like he was barely holding on to a dream of her. He could feel her memory slipping away every second, and he couldnât let that happen.Â
He had to see her again, and soon. He wondered if she was thinking about him as well, if she remembered the mint chapstick he was wearing, or the Dolce cologne he was wearing. It made him sick, thinking that she forgot him. (Y/N) had slowly become everything to him, what if he was just a passing thought for her?Â
The team had landed back in DC an hour ago, solving a case in Miami that was one of the easier ones they had had this year. Aaron was grateful for the slight break, his brain not completely in the right headspace.Â
He rushed to finish up the closing paperwork, scribbling his words sloppily and without much care for grammar. He knew as soon as Strauss read his, she would call him and question his mental state. But he didnât care. He just needed to get the hell out of here tonight, and if that meant sitting through another of Straussâs evaluations, it was worth it.Â
As he was signing the last of the documents, he felt his phone vibrating in his pocket. He grabbed it with caution, not sure who would be calling him this late at night. The call was coming from an unknown number, and Aaron immediately worried something had happened to Jack. He was away at his grandparents this week, planning on staying a few more days. He answered the phone nervously, preparing for whatever horror was to come.Â
âHello, Agent,â a female voice said, a voice he instantly recognized as (Y/N)âs. Her voice flowed smoothly like silk even over the phone. It was truly hard to believe how she had managed to perfect every aspect of herself.Â
âWhy- how are you calling me?â He looked around cautiously, making sure no one could secretly hear any part of the phone call.Â
âIâm flying to Paris this weekend, a little well deserved vacation. I was calling to see if youâd like to join me.âÂ
âI⌠Paris? I canât just fly to Paris.â Aaron chuckled into the phone, the idea of someone just getting up and deciding to fly halfway across the world with no plan truly comical to him.Â
âOh, I didnât realize Iâd called the Fun Police. I thought this was Aaron Hotchner,â she teased. He could feel her smiling through the phone, a warmth that somehow seemed to wrap him even though he could only see her in his thoughts.Â
âI can have funâŚâ he argued, biting his lip awkwardly, not wanting to seem inferior to her.Â
âWhen was the last time you did something for yourself, Agent? Have you ever just⌠been spontaneous?âÂ
â(Y/N), you donât understand-âÂ
âCall me A on the phone. Itâs safer,â she instructed, her voice losing its soft luster as her professional side kicked in.Â
âA⌠my job, my life⌠it doesn't leave room for spontaneity.âÂ
âNo, Agent. Thatâs your choice. Iâll be at the jet runway at Dulles in two hours. Think about it. Iâll wait for you.â She hung the phone up, not giving him room to protest. He set the phone down on his desk, instantly missing her even more than he did before. Jack was going to be with his grandparents for three more days, and he did have some saved up vacation time. But what would he tell the team? What would he tell Strauss?Â
His phone vibrated again, this time only a single buzz to indicate a text message. He flipped his phone over and saw a new message from an Unknown number.Â
Life doesnât have to be so complicated, Agent. It is much too short to spend this much time suffering. Learn to enjoy your days.Â
A
He reread the message a thousand times, knowing the words would still reign true no matter how much he tried to convince himself she was in the wrong. He had spent his whole life serving others, and he was okay with it, until now. Maybe if he had lived without complication, and enjoyed his days, his life would be completely differentâŚÂ
He ran home and quickly packed a bag, letting Strauss and Rossi know he needed some âalone timeâ for a few days. They didnât question it- one nice thing about having a recent trauma, he thought. He took an Uber to the airport, praying that (Y/N) kept her promise and waited for him.Â
When he finally arrived on the runway, he noticed her immediately. It was as if even being near her set an alarm off inside of him, like every part of his brain was awake, feeling her energy from a hundred feet away.Â
He thanked the Uber driver and ran to her, bag in hand. As he got to her, he noticed her face. She wasnât surprised or shocked in the slightest- she knew heâd come. She somehow knew every move he would make. Was he that predictable⌠or was it something special between them?
âI have to be home in three days,â he said, breathlessly, overjoyed at the sight of his girl.Â
âWe can do a lot in three days,â she responded, smiling wickedly. She walked towards him, wrapping her arms around his torso and embracing him. It was such a nice feeling to be held, comforted. He felt like he could stay there in her arms for years. But she broke the hug pretty quickly, motioning for one of her men to take care of the bags and began walking towards the jet.Â
As he followed her up the stairs and into their own private world, he started to remember everything he was leaving behind. The realization of just how impulsive this was dawned on him as he looked back at the city behind him. He felt dizzy, leaning on the railing for support as he shakily walked up.Â
âYou alright?â (Y/N) asked, placing a hand on his arm to steady him.Â
âThis is crazy, (Y/N). I just canât believe Iâm doing this.âÂ
They continued to walk into the jet, her hand intertwined in his as they sat down and the door closed behind them. A man came out from behind the curtain, who Aaron immediately recognized as the same man who greeted him both times he met her.Â
âAaron, this is my⌠well, assistant, I guess. Jay, this is my new friend, Aaron.â She waved to Jay slightly, instructing him to come closer.Â
âItâs good to meet you sir. Can I get the two of you anything to drink?â Jay was a short boy, couldn't have been more than 25. He clearly worshipped the ground she walked on, which seemed to be par for the course with men she knew.Â
âOh, hmm,â she thought, closing her eyes for a moment as she racked her brain for a decision. âWhiskey sour. What would you like?â She turned towards Aaron, the subtle tilt of her head reminding him of how pretty her neck looked with his hands around it.Â
âIâll do a Scotch, neat,â he ordered, something so enticing about ordering a drink on a private jet to Paris.Â
âIâll grab those for you now. Matt is ready to take off, A, are you all set?â Jay turned back towards his boss, his eyes widening like a puppy as he waited for her words.Â
âIâm ready to go Jay, thank you,â she smiled, looking at him quickly before bringing her attention back to Aaron. Jay took her disinterest as a sign to leave and make their drinks, so he shuffled away quickly after she looked away.Â
He came back with their drinks a moment later, leaving quickly after and closing himself in the cockpit. The jet began to take off shortly after, and Aaron took a long sip of his drink, hoping the alcohol would calm any nerves he had left. He started at (Y/N) dreamily, as she shuffled through her phone and a pile on various paperwork on her lap.Â
âSorry, Agent, just finishing up some work,â she whispered, her eyes still staring down.Â
âMmm, itâs okay,â he responded, just happy to be in the same place as her again. âCan I ask you something?âÂ
âSure,â she smiled, setting her work aside and bringing her attention to Aaron.Â
âWhy did you kick me out the other night? AfterâŚâ His voice trailed off, shifting awkwardly in his seat.Â
âI figured it be best for you. I didnât want to wrap you up with my life⌠with me. But in all honesty, I canât stop thinking about you. I called you tonight, and told myself if you didnât show, Iâd move on. But⌠youâre here.âÂ
âIâm here,â he whispered back, his eyes tracing down her body, craving her once again.Â
âI feel like we have something special, Agent,â she whispered seductively, climbing out of her seat and walking towards him.Â
âI missed you⌠I couldnât stop thinking about youâŚâ he moaned as she bent towards him, her lips kissing down his neck and playing with the collar of his shirt. She unbuttoned the top buttons, kissing his chest and moving her hand to his inner thigh. She trailed her fingers up his thigh, teasing his cock with the slightest touch. His hips bucked uncontrollably, blood flowing down to him as his desire took over his body.Â
She got down on her knees, toying with his belt buckle. She was clearly trying to make him wait, the suffering and craving all a part of her game. But he was impatient, so he ripped his belt off himself, undoing his pants and pulling his erect penis out.Â
(Y/N) licked her lips in anticipation, wanting to pleasure him as much as he wanted to be pleasured. She played with his tip slowly, toying her tongue around him as he moved underneath her. He wrapped his fingers in her hair, slowly pushing her mouth down around him. He wanted her to take all of him, to feel the back of her throat as he shoved his length in her mouth. She moaned quietly as she took him, bobbing her head up and down quickly and sloppily.Â
Aaron couldnât remember the last time he got a blow job- let alone the last time someone enjoyed giving him one. (Y/N) was toying with him, clearly enjoying the pleasure she was able to give him just with her tongue. She looked up at him as he was about to cum, winking as she dragged her tongue up his shaft. The eye contact sent him over the edge, causing him to release himself in her mouth. She swallowed his cum happily, kissing him on the cheek and sitting back down on her chair.Â
He wanted to go to her, give her what she needed now. But he was exhausted, the exhilaration of her taking away all of his energy. He took another hefty sip of his drink, leaning back in his chair and wiping the sweat off his forehead. He buckled his pants back up and readjusted himself in the seat.Â
âDonât hate me, handsome, but I do have to get some work done. Feel free to sleep on the couch, or watch a movie. Iâll let you know when we get there.â She blew him a kiss, teasing him with a wink before losing herself in her work. He wondered what part of her job she could possibly be doing from the seat of a plane. There was truly so much he didnât know about her, which made it so much more exciting.Â
He finished his drink, watching her work in awe as the plane soared over the Atlantic. He felt himself drifting off and didnât try to stop it, wanting to be fully rested so he could make the most of his time with her.Â
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Paris was unarguably Aaronâs favorite place on Earth. Whenever he told people that, they always kind of chuckled. It was kind of a feminine city, at least thatâs what everyone told him. But god, he loved it here. The food, the architecture, the people⌠but most importantly, it was her.Â
She had made every second of his life magical. When they landed, she brought him to a small bakery near the Louvre, where they sipped wine and ate the sweetest fruit heâd ever tasted. It was only 10 AM when they got there, but nobody seemed to pay them any attention as they drunkenly strolled down the Parisian streets, giggling and kissing and living.Â
When they finally sobered up, they made their way to a gorgeous hotel, where (Y/N) got the nicest suite available. They ordered a few bottles of champagne, popping them open as soon as they got inside and helping themselves to many glasses. They drank out on the balcony, overlooking the whole city as they downed more alcohol.Â
The suite came equipped with a jacuzzi tub in the bathroom, which (Y/N) was begging him to take advantage of. She stripped down in front of him, lighting candles and drawing a tub of steaming water. She took a bottle of champagne into the bathroom and soaked herself in the tub, lavender scented bubbles surrounding her. Aaron couldnât resist the temptation of her body, so he quickly followed after her, stripping down and slipping in the bubbles with her.Â
She sat on his lap, he kissed down the back of her neck and nibbled on her flesh. She moved her butt into him, the softness of her flesh pushing into his cock.Â
âI told you, sometimes itâs fun to be adventurous.âÂ
âI never doubted that. I just think this is all⌠crazyâŚâÂ
âAre you not enjoying yourself?â She giggled, pushing bubbles towards him and splashing around the water.Â
âOh do not play games with me,â he laughed, splashing water towards her. She squealed when the water hit her face, scrunching her nose as she wiped the bubbles from her cheeks.Â
âLetâs go,â she smirked, standing up and carefully stepping out of the bath. Her skin was glistening from the water, bubbles dripping down her flesh. He stared in awe at her, obsessed with every curve, every inch of her more perfect than the last. She walked slowly out of the bathroom, her butt wiggling with every step. She was clearly calling for him, begging for him to follow her wherever she went. And he would. He did.
He ran after her carefully, finding her naked body wrapped in the fluffy comforter of the bed. She smiled when she saw him, sitting up and wrapping her hands around his neck. She brought his face towards her, kissing him slowly, allowing their lips to enjoy every second they had with each other.Â
Aaronâs hands were gripped on her hips, his naked body grinding into hers. He hadnât known this feeling for a long time- the feeling of complete and total calm. For the first time in an absurd amount of time, he wasnât worried. He wasnât thinking of every terrible thing that was happening around him. He was only thinking about her- the way her lips felt on his, the way her body moved⌠his whole life had so suddenly become wrapped up in her.Â
But, the trouble was, nothing good in his life stayed. And it was only a matter of time before the universe took her away, too.Â
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The rest of their time in Paris went by in a daze. Most of their time they were either drinking or fucking, taking breaks to walk aimlessly around the Louvre and stroll down the Seine. He was heartbroken when he had to go back, but he did miss his son, and was sure the team was falling apart without him. When they landed back in DC, (Y/N) had a car ready to take Aaron home.Â
He had a good hour before Jack would be back, so he used his time to take a long shower and brew a strong pot of coffee. It was almost 7 at night, but his body was still messed up from the change in time zones, and he knew he wouldnât get much sleep that night. He was already missing her, checking his phone every five minutes to see if she would whisk him away on another adventure.Â
But, as he quickly learned, she was the type of person to disappear for a while. Aaron didnât hear from her for seven full days after Paris. Seven full agonizing days of wondering where she was, who she was with, and most importantly- what she was doing.Â
Being away from her made it easier for him to realize the reality of their situation. She was a killer; and yeah, maybe she only killed âbadâ people, but did that really make it any better? At least, that was the question he was asking himself. Surprisingly, as more time went on, the harder time he had convincing himself she was a villain. Maybe it was because he was falling in love with her, maybe it was because he understood the anger of watching guilty people walk away from things completely unscathed.Â
They didnât speak about work once during their time together, although it was clear Aaron had a lot of questions. He couldnât even begin to comprehend what she could be doing for Strauss and the Director. Who was she killing that they couldnât get to the normal way? He wanted to know her life, understand the secrets she spent her existence protecting- but it wasn't for him. And maybe that was for the best. The mystery of it all made it⌠hotter.Â
So when he finally heard from her, seven full days later, he felt like a kid on Christmas. He recognized the âunknownâ number as it popped up on the screen, stepping into his office so he could speak with her privately.Â
âHi, Agent,â (Y/N) spoke, her voice singing to him. He loved the way she called him Agent. He loved everything about her.Â
âIâve missed you. Where have you been?âÂ
âOh, working. You know.â He could tell she didnât want to speak any more about work, so he changed the subject.Â
âAre you back in DC?âÂ
âFor a bit.â
âCan I see you? Letâs get dinner somewhere. Anywhere.âÂ
âI⌠we probably shouldnât be out together like that⌠if we saw anyone we knew⌠your teamâŚâ She spoke her words carefully, not sure how to tell him that their relationship wasnât exactly approved of. Aaron had never really thought about it, but the reality made him sick. Would he never be able to love her publicly? Hold her hand at the park, take her to eat at his favorite restaurant, introduce her to his friends?Â
But the adrenaline, the euphoria of being with her- it was worth any negatives. He would eat in the dark with her, hide her in his house, runaway with herâŚÂ
âCome over to my place, then. Weâll order pizza, watch a movie.âÂ
âHah,â she giggled, her laugh airy and full of light just as he remembered. Hearing it made him smile. âI canât remember the last time I ordered pizza and watched movies with a boyâŚâÂ
âWell, given the circumstances, I have to get creative A.âÂ
âWhat about Jack?âÂ
âOh,â Aaron responded, forgetting for a moment that she had yet to meet his son. He didnât think twice about it, wanting his son to know the woman that was bringing him so much joy. But was it safe? And did she want to know him?Â
âI donât want to put you in an awkward situation.âÂ
âCan I ask you something?âÂ
âOf course.âÂ
âWhat is happening between us? Are we just messing around⌠Is there feelings?â He hated to ask her such a loaded question over the phone, but he needed to know the answer- he had to know if she was just as head over heels as she was.Â
âAgent, no man Iâve ever âmessed aroundâ with has this number.âÂ
Aaron chuckled, the nervousness in his chest subsiding.Â
âCome over tonight, please,â he begged, craving the way her lips felt on his.Â
âOkay, Iâll see you tonight, Agent.âÂ
âIâll see you tonight, A.âÂ
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Aaron didnât expect just how wonderful (Y/N) would be with Jack. He had never really seen a maternal side to her before, but she was incredible. Jack took a liking to her as well, even falling asleep between the both of them as they watched Finding Nemo. After they were sure he was asleep, Aaron carried his son to his room and put him to bed, (Y/N) following close behind, in awe of the way Aaron cared for his son.Â
âYou want a glass of wine?â Aaron whispered to her, the two of them hand in hand as they walked back to the living room.Â
âPlease!âÂ
He poured the two of them overly generous glasses of Riesling, snuggling up on the couch next to her and kissing her on the forehead. They tried to find a movie for a bit, scrolling through endless channels before giving up.Â
âCan you stay the night?âÂ
âI wish, but I have to catch an early flight tomorrow,â she frowned, her pout showcasing her perfect lips that he couldnât get out of his head.Â
âWhere are you going?â As soon as the words left his mouth, he wished he could take them back. Her face turned pale and emotionless as she thought of a response, taking a deep breath and closing her eyes.Â
âYou know I canât tell you that,â she responded.Â
âIâm sorry.â He felt uncomfortable, not sure exactly what to say to her. They had never had an awkward silence before, and it made him sick as he waited in the quiet for her to respond.Â
âI probably should get going,â she finally said, setting her almost empty glass of wine down on the coffee table.Â
âOh, câmon, we just got some time aloneâŚâ he pleaded, but he could tell by the look on her face he had already lost her.Â
âIâm sorry, love. I just have a lot to prepare for this case.âÂ
âI understand. Will I see you soon?âÂ
âIâll do my best, Agent.âÂ
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California was a popular hot spot for serial killers. It seemed like Aaron and the team were there every other week. This time, San Francisco was the lucky city. He had already been there for two days, stuck on an incredibly weird case, when he got the call.Â
âGood morning, Agent,â (Y/N) spoke.Â
âA⌠itâs good to hear from you.â He was relieved at the sound of her voice, the dark energy of this specific case seeping into him, choking any optimism out of him.Â
âHow are things?âÂ
âIâm working on a tough case, to be honest. Itâs taking a lot out of me.âÂ
âWould it be better if I was there?âÂ
âHow is that possible?âÂ
âI was⌠in the area. Set some time aside to stop by.âÂ
âIâm going to be really busyâŚâ he frowned, realizing now how difficult it would be to actually see her.Â
âOh, Agent, I sure hope you can make time to see me,â she teased, giggling through the phone, her laugh wrapping him in warmth and shielding him from the darkness of reality for a moment.Â
âWell, I have to sleep at some point,â he responded, laughing himself.Â
âCall me when you get back to your hotel. Iâll be waiting.âÂ
Aaron hung the phone up quickly, peeking around the corner of the SFPD office they were currently set up in. Luckily, everyone was too busy to listen in on his personal conversations. He wondered what his team would think if they knew what was going on behind closed doors. Would they still stand around and trust the system they were working so hard to uphold? Because Aaron could barely stomach it.Â
âHey, weâve got a problem,â Derek said, coming around the corner lookingfor his superior.Â
âWhatâs going on?âÂ
âCâmon into the conference room. Garcia will explain everything.â
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He didnât make it back to his hotel for another 12 hours. It was nearing 11 PM by the time he finally closed the door and could be done for the day. Although with his job, he was never really off the clock.Â
He called (Y/N), pushing aside any exhaustion he had for a moment with her. She was there within twenty minutes, sneaking through the door, giggling and kissing quietly, trying to be secretive. It was risky, extremely risky for them to be together with his team just on the other side of a thin hotel wall. But he couldnât help himself. A part of him wanted to get caught, be exposed, so they could stop sneaking around. He wanted to love her in front of everyone.Â
He forgot about the case briefly as he lost himself in her flesh, kissing her soft skin and making love to her - twice. When the exhaustion finally overcame him, he crawled into her arms and let the horrors of his job overcome him.Â
âItâs a bad one, this case,â he divulged, knowing he shouldnât be telling her the details, but needed a release. He needed to scream, and she was the only one around to hear.Â
âWhatâs going on?âÂ
âSome CEOâs kid has been going all around the country killing teenage girls. Eevrytime the police get close to him, he just runs. Five different cities, and heâs escaped them all. Thirty six bodies that we can find. Probably more. And heâs going to get away, here, too. Garcia found out he sold his house a few days ago and bought one in Miami.âÂ
âWell if you know itâs him, why arenât you arresting him?â (Y/N) had a confused look on her face, her eyes wide and her lips forming a slight pout as she waited for him to respond.Â
âWe donât have enough physical evidence. He fits the profile perfectly, and we are able to trace bodies to him in every city heâs lived in. But thatâs not good enough for the courts. Heâs just going to keep getting awayâŚâ Aaron felt his heart pounding, the face of Foyet flashing over and over in his head.Â
âSometimes⌠the system doesnât help everybody.â She wasnât looking at him, her eyes darting nervously around the room.Â
âThatâs why people like you exist, right? To serve justice to those who escape it.âÂ
âThatâs one way of looking at it.âÂ
Aaron looked at her, her cheeks flushed and her breathing sporadic. They were thinking the same thing, it was only a guessing game on who would break the silence first. He didnât think it would be here, she was too nervous.Â
â(Y/N)...â he whispered, placing a hand on hers.Â
âWhat are you asking me to do, Agent?â She finally looked up at him, her face flat and emotionless, a side of her she had never shown him before. It was her work face, her business face.Â
âI want you to do your job, A.âÂ
âAre you sure thatâs what you want?âÂ
âItâs the only way to stop him.âÂ
âOkay. Iâll take care of it.â She got up out of the bed and started putting her clothes back on, slowly redressing herself as she prepared to go back to work. She grabbed one of the three phones she carried, hastily dialing a number and putting the old cell to her ear.Â
âHey, itâs me. I need the car here ASAP, and the bag... Yeah, itâs a change of plans. ⌠Iâll tell you in the car.â She hung the call up and put the phone back in her bag, refusing the look at Aaron the entire time she was preparing herself.Â
âYouâre doing this now?â He laughed, getting up and trying to stop her from leaving. He wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her towards him, her body struggling to get away. She felt tense, tired. Her body was no longer surrounded by itâs usual warm glow. She was cold, and dark. She wasnât her.
âAgent, if this is what you want, I need to handle it my way. Please let me go.âÂ
âWill you⌠can I see you after?âÂ
âI need to leave the city immediately after itâs done. And itâs best we don't talk for a bit. I can call you when I think things are safe.âÂ
âHow long is a bit? I mean, I donât want to give you up.âÂ
âYou canât have both, Aaron. Either Iâm (Y/N) or Iâm Ananke. Do you want more girls to die? Or do you want a girlfriend?â She was yelling, her voice a loud and intense version of itself that he was unfamiliar with. It made him dizzy. He sat down clumsily on the bed and put his face in his hands.Â
âKill him,â he mumbled. She was quiet for a few seconds, and so was he. And awkward silence. Something they had never had. He felt like she was staring at him, but he couldnât bring himself to look at her.
âIâll call you when I can, Agent. Itâs been wonderful working with you.âÂ
Aaron swore as she walked out the door he could hear her cry. Maybe he was making it up to make himself feel better. There was no way she could walk away that easily and not ⌠hurt. He hurt, so terribly bad. How long was a bit? A few weeks, months? Would he ever see her again?Â
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Aaron awoke to a loud banging on his door and his phone buzzing like crazy. The ringer was on, but not loud enough to awaken him from his alcohol assisted slumber. He shouldnât be drinking on the job, he knew that rule better than anyone. But he had to shut his mind up.Â
He opened the door to a rattled Derek Morgan, his forehead sweating and hands shaking.Â
âYou are not going to believe this,â Derek said, chuckling slightly.Â
âWhatâs going on, Morgan?â Aaron knew what he was going to say, but he had to pretend to be surprised. Would Derek know? He was by far the best profiler on the team. How long could Aaron keep up a lie before Derek figured something out?Â
âOur unsub died last night. Car accident. He hit a railing and his car just⌠exploded.â Derek held his tablet out to Hotch, showing him various photos from the scene. His car was completely crushed and torched. You could see his body, but there was absolutely no way to tell what was happening at the time of the accident. The damage of the car was far too elaborate to find any remnants of explosives- if thatâs what she used. But whatever she did, it was brilliant. There was no way anyone would think twice about this. She was brilliant.Â
He could feel himself smiling, being impressed with her work- but he remembered Derek was still standing there, unknowing of the secrets Aaron held.Â
âWell, I guess we can finally get the hell out of San Francisco,â Aaron laughed.Â
âYou think this is the end? He just dies in a freak accident and it's over? Are we that lucky, Hotch?â Derekâs eyebrows were furrowed in the classic way his face always looked when he was suspicious.Â
âHeâs not around to hurt anyone else, and thatâs the end of it. Our jobs are done here. I want wheels up in an hour.âÂ
Derek just nodded in agreement with his supervisor, realizing it wasnât worth the argument. Aaron was right, the bad guy was gone and that was good enough for him.Â
Aaron closed the door to his hotel, grabbing his phone and dialing her number. He had assumed sheâd already disconnected the line, severing their connection for the time. But it rang, and somebody answered.Â
âAâŚ?â he whispered, waiting for her voice.Â
âYou shouldnât be calling this number,â a man responded, a voice he recognized as Jays.Â
âI know, I know, but please. Please just tell her something for me.â Jay was silent for a moment, deciding what to do.Â
â... What?â He asked, quietly.Â
âPlease just tell her I said thank you. For everything.âÂ
And then the phone disconnected. The call was over. She was gone. For who knows how long?Â
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One week later, SSA Aaron Hotchner was sitting in his office when Erin Strauss walked through his door. She didnât knock, which made him jump. She walked right in and sat down on his couch, taking a deep breath. A disappointed sigh.Â
âHello, Erin.âÂ
âAgent Hotcher.â She looked at him angrily, her lips pursed and eyes tight as she thought of her words.Â
âWhat can I do for you?âÂ
âIn all honesty, Aaron⌠did you think we wouldnât find out? You are a federal agent. Your passport is flagged any time you enter a foreign country. You were in Paris at the same time as her. And then San Francisco? She was there on assignment and your uncatchable unsub just happens to turn up dead?âÂ
âAm I fired?â He asked, his only thought on what they were doing to her.Â
âAaron⌠what are you doing? You are losing yourself! If this is about HaleyâŚâ Â
âJust tell me something. What are you going to do to her?â He bit his lip nervously, Erin avoiding his eye contact.
âRight now sheâs being relocated, on a six month assignment. Weâll see what happens after that.âÂ
âWhere?âÂ
âYou know I canât tell you that!âÂ
Aaron sat for a moment, completely unsure of what to say next. Maybe Erin was right, he had lost himself. He wouldâve never imagined himself in this situation.Â
âWhat do I do now?âÂ
âYou move on. And you do your job, the right way. Iâll cut you some slack this time, Aaron. But if this happens again⌠there will be consequences. Do you understand?âÂ
âYes maâam.âÂ
Erin walked out of his office quietly, closing the door as she left. He waited a moment, a long moment, before pulling out his phone. He had to at least try to talk to her. Even if the number didnât work. He had to try.Â
But it rang. And this time he knew it was her who answered.Â
âAgent.â She answered sharply.Â
âWhere are you?âÂ
âIâm still in DC, as of now.âÂ
âIf I asked you to stay, would you?âÂ
âYou know it doesnât work like that. Either I go, or they send me to prison. Iâm sorry, Aaron. But this⌠was destined to fail from the beginning.âÂ
âNo, (Y/N). I donât accept that. I love you.âÂ
âYou canât. Iâm sorry, Agent. This is goodbye.âÂ
#vicficwriterchallenge#aaron hotchner#aaron hotchner x reader#criminal minds#aaron hotchner fanfiction
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i watched the ep twice bc i didnt take notes the first time BUT. hsmtmts 2.04 thoughts under the cut
gina first. my favorite part of the episode was when she admitted that she feels out of place living in someone elseâs house and that she wanted a bigger part in the play. i was SO worried they were gonna just let her happily sideline herself in a âyay she learned her lesson about not being the center of attentionâ kind of way bc i would not be able to handle that two seasons in a row. let her be angry!!! she has a lot to be upset about
the gina/carlos conflict was awful bc theyre making carlos unreasonably annoying this season. last season he was nice, he was enthusiastic, not competitive and just rooting for other people. idk why they needed to flip him so drastically to being spoiled, rich, selfish, pushy, and bitchy. and on top of that i have not been vibing with the pieces of dialogue theyve been giving him this season just to score woke points. its so unbearably obvious that even though hes a brown gay character, he was written by a white gay person who thought, on some level, that he was giving the gen z kids the #hashtag representation they wanted. his delivery of every line that screams âremember, im mexicanâ is so awkward, it doesnt land well, and im begging them to stop. they want so badly to commodify his character and parade him around as a âlook how diverse our show is!â thing and im so so sick of it bc you can tell, with all the surface-level pieces of dialogue, that they dont actually care at all
(âlook around, theres not a lot of me at this schoolâ we GET it, this show wants to be glee so bad)
im honestly starting to slowly ship rina less and less. in season one i loved seeing someone make gina happy, especially since she had no friends before opening up to ricky. but now its just a whole mess and i wish she would love herself a lil more to realize that its not worth all this stress. he made a choice and no amount of conflicted moments of eye contact is going to fully take that back. im not necessarily against love triangle plots, but i HATE the whole âwomen wait around hopefully while male character, whose decisions have already hurt multiple people, makes up his mindâ bullshit
that being said, gina handled the situation like a CHAMP, im dying over how quickly she was able to mask her pain and make the joke about the twix bar. im love her
we were absolutely ROBBED of an ej/big red performance this episode!!! i am at my LIMIT we better get gaston next week or i will riot
on the ej train, him not getting into duke was extremely predictable. we all kinda saw that coming and knew that would be his main point of growth this season. im glad they didnt wait super long to do it. now please @ writers i am BEGGING you to give my man more screen time than one scene per episode
its very odd that they keep making mr mazzara have emotionally tough conversations with the students. i will do a parallel gifset of those once the season ends. i liked his convo with ej for the most part, but he really didnt have to beat him over the head with the âyoure an emotionless robotâ thing again. its clear ej is gonna throw himself into av club or whatever (even though at the end of last season that was supposed to be big red?) and discover that he has a lot going for him. because he does, he literally has everything going for him, thats why they had to make his âproblemâ not knowing himself. bisexual ej caswell ftw
i love the parallels between ej and nini this episode? i think since the beginning ive felt that there was a lot about them under the surface that was similar. it was interesting seeing ej tell nini about duke first, instead of the obvious choice of ashlyn. i wouldve loved to see how that scene wouldve gone with ricky, gina, carlos, or big red though bc each reaction and attempt at comforting him wouldve been so different. i didnt love that nini had to be pulled away from the conversation, but im glad they can still talk to each other after everything that went down. and i love the juxtaposition of ejâs convo with mazzara directly following niniâs convo with miss jenn bc theyre essentially the same.
speaking of, i loved miss jenn in this episode. her stories are always so funny, but i loved seeing her care so much for nini and guide her, like a teacher. i loved how she pointed out that everyone who loves nini just wants her to be happy
im glad nini is leaving yac bc there was no good way to keep that up honestly. but im pretty annoyed that they were so obvious about it? like, they immediately made it the worst place in the world without exploring it very much. the place is super unrealistic, ive never been to drama school but im sure it wouldnt be like that. no creative arts place for KIDS would be so impossibly limiting. plus the weird bluish coloring in comparison to the nice warm tones of the rest of the show was, again, a dead giveaway. why send her to the school at all if it wasnt even gonna matter?
even though im glad nini left yac, im NOT looking forward to the way miss jenn is about to bend over backwards to put her in the play somehow. she plays obvious favorites and im so annoyed
(sidenote: nini just? decided to leave yac without consulting her parents??? ummm)
granted is a very good song, one of my faves so far
ricky deciding to tell nini he wants her to stay was stupid. what did he think that would accomplish? who in their right mind would drop out of a good school for you?
i loved when nini said yac was missing something, and miss jenn said ârickyâ and nini said âyou.â that was so so sweet and cute
i think the kourtney/howie thing is gonna grow on me. i hate amatonormativity so im not a big fan of them introducing a whole ass character exclusively so kourtney can have a love interest, but i loved the gesture he made of bringing her the pizzas and her flashcards. i feel like kourtneys love language is acts of service, and she was literally this meme when he did that for her:
i liked seeing ashlyn try to be there emotionally for gina! i want more of them together
overall this episode was okay. not enough songs, and i wish they were spreading out the emotional conversations through the season instead of packing them all into literally one episode, but what we did get was pretty good.
after watching the preview i see that next weeks episode is gonna be about carlosâs party, and i love party episodes. BUT i hope that after that ep we finally get an advancement on the north high stuff! i dont give too many fucks about lily, but i wanna see my son asher angel
#me @ myself every time i write one of these: we GET it youre a gina and ej stan#hsmtmts lb#hsmtmts spoilers#txt#waffle words of wisdom
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Forming a secret organization [Dream SMP] liveblog and summary!
Good laugh times: 7:40, 1:18:15, 1:19:25
Protect mr philza minecraft from baby zombies (he really went all out on that bit today): 20:35, 32:40 34:45, 1:16:35
Sellout pog: 30:45, 1:00:50, 1:30:55, 2:01:15
Summary:
Techno started the stream in the Nether. He quickly went back to the overworld and to his house, where he meets up with Phil and Ranboo. He mentions that the house smells like gunpowder, and Phil quickly ushers them outside and they continue their conversation.
Techno nudges Ranboo away from the conversation, and he leaves the call. Phil and Techno watch as Ranboo leaves the house, and then Techno tells Phil his news. He talks about how taking down LâManburg wasnât the greatest plan, especially as heâs only one person. He wants to bring other people to their anarchist ways.
Phil agrees to form a secret organization for anarchists, because they canât fight ten to one.
Techno and Phil go to Ranboos house, asking for a feather, and Ranboo asks if heâs getting kicked out. They say no, and then Ranboo says that he has something that might get him kicked out.
He talks about how he sometimes doesnât remember what he does, and that he was the person who blew up the community house.
Techno asks why, and Ranboo says he doesnât know.
Phil and Techno agree that they donât really care about the community house, and Ranboo continues, saying that he has one of the discs. Phil and Techno agree again that they donât care about the discs at all.
Techno and Phil leave.
Techno leads Phil to a stronghold, which he calls a âstructure,â and they cover it with gravel to hide it. They enter the structure, and they find a library, some useless doors, and keep exploring, finding nothing. Techno is confused, thinking that there had to have been a reason for the stronghold's existence.
While looking at a connected Abandoned Mineshaft, Techno finds an enchanted golden apple.
They go into the lower parts of the stronghold, and they find a prison. Techno mentions that the bread he found earlier tasted around 2,000 years old, which gives us a rough (and joking) estimate of when the stronghold was made.
Phil finds a strange portal, and they talk about how advanced the previous civilization must had been, to be able to make unbreakable blocks. They hear a villager writing, and dig up to a strange room.
It ends up being the igluu where Orphans parents lived, and they start laughing, but then, DreamXD logs in. He breaks the portal, and then leaves. Techno begs dream to put the portal back, because it wouldâve added to the lore, and that their characters didnât know what it was, and were going to use it as a table.
Dream logs in again, and puts one (1) portal frame block down, and then leaves again. Phil tells Dream how to place the blocks incorrectly so they wouldnât form a portal, and he logs in to place them back.
DreamXD hears Techno joking about going to the end, logs in, and then logs out when Techno says heâs joking. Then, Techno explains the difference between DreamXD and Dream, saying that DreamXD has canonical access to creative mode, and is like God, but Dream is just some homeless teletubby. DreamXD logs in, says âthey actually are I am the protector,â and logs out.
In chat, Techno asks âwho was that dram fanboy, how did he get whitelisted,â and DreamXD logs in again, hits Techno with a sword a few times, and logs out.
Techno and Phil decorate the meeting room a bit, and they start talking about what the association should be called. Techno says that he wants it to be the â[blank] Syndicate,â and before they can agree on anything, Ranboos nametag is spotted, and they agree to kill him if he comes into the meeting room.
Techno puts down a sign with the organization's motto, which is âSic semper tyrannis,â which means âthus always to tyrants.â
He starts writing in the manifesto.
âThis syndicate is formed to promote anarchy and fight tyranny in all its forms.
âWe shall have no Leader; no member shall be compelled to act if they do not choose to.
âNo member shall reveal information about the Syndicate to outsiders.
âTechnoblade shall serve as the Recruiter to induce new members into the Syndicate with Approval from a Majority of members.â
Phil and Techno leave the Stronghold, and realize that the Igluu wasnât actually Orphans parents, but instead a different Igluu that Ranboo had been using for Cartographers. They go back to the house, planning to meet with Ranboo, but on the way, they find a strange tower made of stone. Its hollow, but theres no chests or anything inside. They continue and meet with Ranboo, who has gifts for them. Techno gets a Netherite shovel with Efficiency V, Mending, Silk Touch, and Unbreaking III.
He brings them under his house, and we find he has a âcomfort room,â made of netherrack, that has several mob heads on the walls, an extra set of armor, and pets sitting next to the ladder. They talk about the map on the wall, and Techno seems concerned, or a bit scared.
Techno and Phil leave the call, and talk about how extremely strange the room, and Ranboo, was. They recount their adventure, and move the villagers into a more efficient layout. Ranboo joins them after a few minutes, at 1:38:00, and they work on curing the zombie villagers and giving them jobs
Liveblog:
I love when technos computer says he isnt streaming so he just rambles about that before it says he does and then he does the starting the streammm thing. Also if u havent heard the starting the streammmm thing u r missing out it is amazin
Techno pls get a new laptop im gonna cry
HE SAID THREE HE SAID THREE if u dont know, techno says three v nicely
âI havent even shown you the secrets, how would you guys be able to snitch??â SIR????
Oh my god is he using his phone to read chat,,,,,i hate him i hate him so much u haVE 5 MIL SUBS AND CANT EVEN GET A SECOND MONITOR WHYY
Ranboo!!! Philza minecraft!!!!! Hi!!!
5:40 âwhy does it smell like gunpowder?â Techno there is no smell in minecraft. Lore pog?
6:45 AKDFJGLSA RANBOOS FUNDY IMPRESSION IM
8:45 âany second now its gonna be 11 percent updated, and thats like halfway done, if you think about itâ adhd autism solidarity right there lmao
I dont think techno can physically pay attention to lore for more than a minute at a time. He just like, sees a dog and zooms in on it while someones talking and its such a mood. All techno know is get distracted, kill orphans, protect philza minecraft, and anarchy. Love him
10:45 he just got COMPLETELY distracted w his laptop im actually crying form laughter
So uh. 17 mins in. Techno (without saying anything). Kills a zombie that was trying to kill ranboo. Thats. Thats a thing he only does for people he trusts. Uhhh
Technos voice at 21:30,,,,,,hhghn why is he like this why is he randomally doing weird voices
26:35 âhacker voice: were inâ HGKDFJSL
Ok but techno making fun of doors is so funny tho. Also he rlly did go all out on the baby zombie bit tdoay im actually crying
Techno when phils being chased by two creepers, a few zombies, and skeletons: i do not see it
Techno when phils being chased by one (1) baby zombie: loOK OUT PHILZA MINECRAFT
42:00 god apple poggggg
45:50 techno sir why do u know what 2,000 year old bread tastes like
Dsmp techno :handshake: minecraft story mode techno
Hating doors
Dsmp techno :handshake: smp earth techno
Living right above a stronghold
48:35 âdude, they had all this super advanced technology because they didnt waste time trying to figure out how to make doorsâ FSKHGJDAL
50:25 UH?? WHAT IS THAT LMAO
OH ITS ORPHANS PARENTS LMAOOOO
GDFJKHSL DREAM HI
51 MINS IN HGJSKDFJASL DREAM PUT IT BACK IT WAS A GOOD TABLE DREAM
56:25 âlisten, Iâve read a lot of mythology Phil, and nothing bad has ever happened from angering the gods.â You SURE about that?
I will actually never get over techno making fun of dream its so funny to me 1:01:10
I am so, so extremely queer for technos planning/schemeing voice like when its kinda quieter and deeper n slower? Hhgnn
Also is latin canon in this universe? Pog
Asmr Technoblade makes a cult :)
Ok ok ok ok SO i know that techno wants to make all the members equal (and i do think that hell try his best to make that possible) but bc hes just,,,so FREAKING powerful both in terms of pvp and resources, i feel like his opinion IS gonna matter more, but also im p sure hes the writer of the arc so like. He has more important opinions anyway so unless he is v obviously controlling the other members of the group, i think this could be a fun collab thing. And i am SO excited to see all yalls analysis for what other people think of him ahhHHH i love analysis.
1:17:10 âwhose idea was it to make baby zombies stronger? Why are the babies stronger?? Have you ever fought a baby in real life? I have, and it was trivially easy to defeat, Phil.â TECHNO????
Also i can NOT believe that someone thinks techno doesnt use dark humor,,,,have u WATCHED his videos?????
1:25:05 Like literally RIGHT after he makes a joke abt how ranboos shovelâll be good for digging graves for his enemies, which was taking soooo long before
Ah yes, technoblade, the 21 yr old child 1:28:40
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