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Headcanons for Shadowpeach being Bai He’s dad’s please? (You can do it for your au where that happens if you want to btw, though you can also do it in a sort of canon scenario where the two adopt Bai He after making up or something)
Ahh I haven’t done anything for my au in a while so I’ll do that!
* So in the beginning Wukong was a bit hesitant to get too close to them, since he and Macaque don’t have the greatest history, but one day he saves Bai He from almost falling off a cliff when she was running around with the baby monkeys (the monkeys (both the babies and Mac & SWK) had heart attacks but it’s ok-) and she started to want to play with him more. So he became close to her before he and Mac patched things up and became lovers again
* Bai He likes to wear her hair in two buns on the side of her head. When Wukong one day finally asks why, she stops playing with her dolls and says, “Because it makes my shadow look like a monkey like my baba and papa!” with the biggest smile on her face. She immediately turned away to start playing again so she doesn’t see her fathers both clutching their hearts and crying their eyes out
* She calls Macaque Baba and Wukong Papa
* Bai He knows that her dads have a history together, and she figures out some things when she’s older by looking them up in books/on the internet. She keeps her knowing a secret because she’s afraid that if she brings it up her family will fall apart. Dw they all talk it out eventually but there’s a long period of time where she has this insecurity
* Groom/Braid train! Bai He in front getting her hair brushed, cleaned and braided by one of her dads while the other does the same to him. Mac is surprised that Wukong is actually pretty good at braiding (Wukong takes mock offense to his mate thinking he would suck at it; Bai He just giggles at her dads’ banter)
* Self projecting the little “Oo-Ooh~!” Id do whenever I saw my parents kiss when I was younger onto Bai He
* When she’s hanging out with the Traffic Light Trio for the Big Sis/Big Bro thing she has to hold back so much bc of MK’s rambling over Moneky King. “That’s my papa. He’s talking about my papa and I can’t even say anything about it. WAIT MY PAPA DID /W H A T/????” This is how she gets her Dad Lore™️, much like a lot of us (I assume or maybe this is just me-): From a person who isn’t her dad. In case you’re curious my mom is my Dad Lore supplier usually. Macaque probably tells her the stuff not usually talked about in stories though. “Oh yeah he was an idiot (affectionate). Still is but-“
* Macaque puts on shadow plays for her all the time, especially before bed. She asks for her favorite story and Mac gets flustered bc Wukong is watching too. “Th-the Hero and The Warrior were like the… the Sun and the Moon-” “Oho, were they now~?” “Papa, shh! Baba, please continue!”(It’s a bit of an edited version of the story from the Shadowplay episode, dw, he’s not putting his daughter to bed with a story about betrayal and heartbreak)
* Big timeskip here but after the events of season 3 (oh boy once I get the basics of this au out and can finally get into the shows timeline with it, yall aren’t ready for the angst), they all have some white in their hair. The family have “Hair Dye Days” where they all dye said white either their natural hair color or a fun unnatural color. Usually it’s just Bai He who does the unnatural colors (like pink or red; red is to match her dads :3), but sometimes Mac will dye his purple and Wukong will dye his teal/turquoise (I do Not know which one is the one he often has as his accent color but it’s gotta be one of the other. Probably)
* Last one for now bc this is getting long: Wukong is a living space heater. Macaque and Bai He will just cuddle up to him on each side and he has to try not to cry bc he’s been alone for so long, with only the baby monkeys to keep him company, and now he has a daughter and a husband and his touch starved self is gonna burst from how much love is in his soul now
#lego monkie kid#lmk headcanon#lmk au#bonds that bind us au#shadowpeach#lmk bai he#lmk sun wukong#lmk six eared macaque#not to sound like a broken record but sorry this took a week for me to respond#couldn’t for the life of me figure out how to word the first thing and so I was unable to carry on with the rest#word heavy#I swear Tumblr makes my rambling look like so much less than the notes app does#still a lot but now I feel like I didn’t put enough#oh well hope you enjoy!!!#i seriously have got to make more posts about this AU#maybe some art too… maybe#someone give me motivation lol
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I swear I’m gonna post a fic soon- my goal is by the end of today (my time (pt)) or by the end of this next week :D
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For the requests, you could draw Coffeecrops/Ccino x Farm?
I absolutely LOVE this ship!
They are, like...one of my favorite ships-
And i would love to see how you would draw these old men.
Ahh, hello!! I'm sorry this request took so long to get to, but here it is! :D
I don't think I've ever drawn either of these guys before, but they were so fun to doodle! I am adding Coffeecrops to my list of ships now too, I understand why you like it so much! (And I hope I did the old men justice <3)
#spot!drawn#utmv#utmv sans#my art#utmv art#coffeecrops#sanscest#ccino sans#farm sans#ccino x farm#farm sans x ccino sans#ship art#god they were literally so fun to draw#Farm gives me the vibes of someone who's stocky and looks Soft but can actually deadlift a bunch#so he'd pick up Ccino like a pair of grapes#and Ccino would name and get attached to any barn-cats Farm might have for sure (<- I say as a person whose family has barn cats 🙏)#this was genuinely so cute and fun I really hope that u like this asker!!!#and my requests are still open too so like. if u wanna see more you are So welcome to ask fir more lol- (of this ship or of other stuff)#oh and ignore Farm's legs in that doodle on the right#I got really lazy and needed to move on b4 my motivation was gone 😔😔😔
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I'm not drawing because I'm stressed and I'm stressed because I'm not drawing
#someone put me out of my misery#and give me motivation please#I had to force myself to draw this lol#I love anxiety brain it's great#my art#causeimanartist#my ocs#my oc#Allen#Oscar#Rico
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not sure what to call it yet, but i've got a funky AU in the works thats a combo of a pantheon AU and a timeloop AU
like... what if Joker came first before ren/akira did? what if he was conjured out of thin air as entertainment for the gods. he's a literal jester this time. no substance, switching out masks as needed, no identity, just big reactions that everyone can find amusing. something something devils and fey are both connected to the air, and ren adapts to anything thrown at him as easily as breathing. what if his biggest fear- that he is nothing when no one needs anything from him... was actually real?
and what if Joker, who can't be pinned down no matter what, found someone who is like him, but isn't?
Joker is unreal, almost cartoon. Crow is *real* he's a gladiator under the thumb of the god of control. sweat on his brow, blood under his fingernails, he was made for this and can't be anything else. he's chained to a life where he must perform to survive, and performing means acting out violence. Crows who are so good at survival and yet are still seen as pests and annoyances, dirty and lesser than. they're scavengers. what if goro's biggest fears are real? that he is a puppet. that violence was baked into him from the very start
and what if Joker saw Crow, resigned to his fate, convinced there can be nothing else... and decided he didn't like that. decided that a Trickster ought to get up to a bit of mischief.
what if Joker was the one who started the wager between the god of control and the god of hope. who whispered in their ears about what fun it'd be to play a game. the stakes being the world, and the prize being Crow's freedom.
Joker going back through time, loop after time loop, and meeting with Crow in between. Crow starting out scornful and mocking and then increasingly worried (which just manifests as more anger). what will become of them after he succeeds? they're nothing. they're no one. when Joker wins this bargain (because Crow has seen how determined he is. he knows it's just a matter of time), they'll be released of their chains and then dissipate into air, and the gods will all laugh that they were so full of hubris as to think themselves people
i'm just REALLY into the idea that humanity is made through experiences and connections to other people, and i think that deep down, both goro and ren are scared they're not all the way real. i want to prove them wrong!
#akeshu#shuake#goro akechi#mimi writes#idk what to even call this AU.....#fr someone help me with names#.....and then give me the motivation to actually write this lol#its the learning to be a person and loving someone else messily while doing it#i wanna make this a fic or rp or Something but unfortunately all i got are all these themes and aesthetics and no FREAKING plot >:///
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patiently waiting for that set you've been working on..................... pls ive been checkin ur blog everyday :')
i'm so sorry 😭😭 i've been super tired every day since i got more hours at work so i just don't have the motivation nor energy right now. i promise it's coming this summer, just not as soon as i said originally!!
#asks#anon#i was hoping ppl forgot about it so i wouldn't feel too bad LOL#it gives me the teeniest bit of motivation to know someone wants the set tho lmao
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hey guys sorry if posting my art takes a little while I've been too busy thinking about visual kei fashion and gnawing on my enclosure abt it xoxo 💋💕🫶
rant in tags beware ⚠️🤓
#rant#it's taking too much brainspace I have so many clothes diys I wanna finish/do#and outfit ideas#and art ideas#and art wips#but executive dysfunction is the FUCKING DEVIL OHHHHHGGJJJ MY GODDDD#SAVE ME FROM THE BRAIN DEMONS PLEEEEAAASE😭😭😭😭🙏🙏🙏🙏💔💔💔💔#so if any of you guys have cared to read this at all + have seen some of my past posts#I wanna give a formal apology for announcing my epic ideas and then seemingly abandoning them 🫡😓💔🫶#i think it might be a curse atp because WHY DOES EVERYTIME I SHOW YOU GUYS SOMETHING IM WORKING ON MY MOTIVATION COMPLETELY DISAPPEARS 😭#I actually feel bad bc I'm just leaving you guys in the dust 😓#I feel like I'm just ping ponging from idea to idea- mini project to mini project- and I end up doing nothing about any of it 😭#does this also happen to you guys??? is my brain melting????#tfw when you physically can't keep working on a project anymore even though your heart yearns for its completion 😍😛✌️#so many funny ideas..... yet so little willpower 💔......#<- someone who's probably gonna post another animation later#this has been floating around in my noggin for a while#but for the meager amount of only 200+ people who have followed me so far (if you ever read this) thank you so much. like genuinely 🫶#I might post a lil something about it lol#I'm also really glad for all of my awesome mutuals!!!! whether or not we've ever interacted❤️#please excuse me 🙏I must now go stare at clothes from vkei and kote kei fashion brands whilst mentally watching paint dry#lest I be sent to shadow realm for daring to try to focus on other tasks 🙏 godspeed soldiers 🫡#ok rant over 😎⚠️
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i think hawke sibling joining the wardens makes the decision about anders' fate a lot more spicy for any non-radically pro-mage hawkes. like that guy did something you consider to be unacceptable and unjustifiable. he also saved your little sibling from inevitable terrifying death. they're alive because of him and they're your only family left. the city is in ruins and people demand blood. what should you do.
#my main hawke is actually not as much a pro-mage as someone would expect from me and he has like another billion reasons not to kill anders#(because he just. doesn't give a fuck lol. he puts people he cares about first no matter what but that's smth for another post)#but i've had that thought for a while like. family is one of the biggest part of hawke's motivation and story#and a lot of people also play their hawkes this way#so yeah. i mean. even hawke is like. really pro-chantry. or just disapproves of anders' methods. or whatever. but bethany/carver is a warde#do they think about it when they hold that knife. do they think about it when they meet their sibling alive and well on a burning street#hawke#anders#dragon age
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idk if people genuinely do panic about leaving comments on old fics, but tbh as someone who has older fics that are still somewhat popular, one of my favorite comments to get is from someone who says that they are coming back to reread or that they're "finally" leaving a comment after rereading so often. i always reread my favorite fics over and over, so it fills me w/joy when i get those comments even - or especially - for fics that were written years ago.
#liveblogging life#just got one of these on my hobbit fic that still gets consistent comments/kudos and is probably my most popular fic still#and tbh it gives me such joy! i love knowing people reread my stuff!#also i put finally in quotes bc i genuinely never feel like someone 'has' to leave comments no matter how much they reread or w/e#comments are like a little extra treat for me - i love them but i'm usually just baffled to get them lmao#bc the fics i write are... so genuinely written directly to my own tastes and for my own enjoyment#i share them a) bc it's fun b) bc publishing them gives me more motivation to finish them since there's accountability involved#and c) bc then i sometimes get little comment treats!#but like... the idea that i'm 'owed' comments or that readers MUST comment is just like. so wildly different to how i view things#that EVERY TIME i see fic writers making posts about it im kind of like... lmao okay and move on#anyway just saying this bc it does give me a little glowy feeling every time & people just really shouldnt ever be anxious#when they comment on old fics. authors love that shit lol
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This is what it feels like being a hex fan sometimes, like its not even a twitter issue (and in a sense its not necessarily an issue, sometimes ppl just wanna have fun n not spout theories n discussion 24/7! I get that!) but i feel like a lot of people r quick to write off aspects of the game and characters and insist that, despite it being a mullinsverse title, it's not that deep/things are surface level
#This goes for a lot of characters. you can already guess one of them since i defend his honor constantly here#but like. I've seen a lot of people brush off Irving as just 'the big bad' and insist theres nothing deeper to his character#than just being an abusive villain#he very much IS an abusive villain. Irving is not Irving if he isn't a metaphor for abuse in the video game industry#but that doesnt mean you can't. lets say. interpret his relationship with Lionel as something more than just 'ai assistant n his dev'#that doesnt mean you cant read inbetween the lines n point out *he cares about Lionel. and that a good chunk of his motivations r bc of him#Irving is rightfully hated but often times I get. nervous. that one of these days someone is gonna accuse me of being a sympathizer#or making him act 'ooc' or giving him grace when he doesnt deserve it#bc god forbid someone in a game where every character has layers. has layers#regardless: no discussion about Irving really leaves raw hatred or 'omg hes hot' anyways#Bryce is also a good example cause when he's not being a horrible yaoi fodder victim#Everyone just says 'Oh hes so nice! He's so kind! I feel bad for him!' and moves on#No one wants to pick apart that he's not a pure angelic soul who gets pushed around. that hes nuanced#and that there is very much commentary that ties to his black identity and the forced role of 'fighter'#To many Bryce's story is simple; got put in CAX and then he got out n granny died and it was REALLY bad#and then they dont care to analyze him further than that. i understand that the nature of the game leaves some characters underdeveloped#But there is still very much a lot to pick apart with every character in the game; sadly a lot of people don't care to do anything w/ it#feels like that en mass the fandom has this air of anti-discussion despite the source material. idk man idk#Im goin to bed early lol ive been tired ever since i got back from school#but yeah. my opinions
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I'm so sad that i didnt watch secret life while it was happening i really wish i was there for it but i missed out on so much and its killing my motivation to continue watching it even though i still really want to
#like im genuinely really sad about it. lol#someone give me the motivation to watch it anyway even tho i wont have the experience of watching it in time with everyone else#e
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IK I HAVENT DRAWN IN FOREVER BTW IM WORKING ON CATCHING UP
#ITS JUST. BEEN SHIT TO GET MOTIVATED LATELY#ESPECIALLY WHEN IK NONE OF U CARE#LIKE WHY AM I BOTHERING POSTING THIS??? NO ONE GIVES A SHIT??? NO ONE LOOKS AT MY ART FOR MORE THAN A SECOND NO ONE CARES#WHEN THEY DO CARE ITS ONLY BC ITS A GIFT FOR THEM OR I SENT IT TO EM N THEY DONT WANNA BE RUDE#LIKE WHY FUCKIN BOTHER LATELY YA KNOW. LIFE IS JUST GETTING WORSE AND ANYTHING I COULD DO WITH THESE SKILLS I LOVE SO MUCH IS GOING#WELL UP IN FLAMES IF YOU DONT MIND THE WORDPLAY#N IK IT EATS YOU ALIVE TO CARE ABOUT WHO SEES YOUR WORK. IK ITS BAD N I SHOULDN'T DO IT.#BUT IF NOT EVEN ANY IF MY FRIENDS(BARRING MY BF XOXO LOVE U PYXE BUT LIKE I DO SEND U EVERYTHING STILL LOL) CAN EVEN BOTHER#JJST. EVEN LOOKING AT MY STUFF#WHATS THE POINT??#THE ONLY ART OF MINE THATS GOTTEN THE SLIGHTEST BIT OF ATTENTION LATELY HAS BEEN THE ISAT AU N THATS BC THATS A COMMUNITY STARVING FOR STUF#LIKE HOW MANY NOTES MY WANDERSONG STUFF GOT DESPITE BEING SO BAD#BUT IVE IMPROVED SO MUCH AND POURED SM INTO A COMMUNITY THAT DOESNT FUCKING GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ME?????#WHAT AM I DOING WRONG??!?!!?! SOMEONE TELL ME ID DO ANYTHING JUST TO KNOW WHY I CANT GET ANYONE EVEN THE PERSON WHO LOVES ME THE MOST#TO GIVE A SHIT JSUT ONCE#ill prolly delete this later. Im sry.
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SEASON NINE FINALE WAS WILD. I HAVE MANY MANY THOUGHTS. WHAT JUST HAPPENED. A FUCKING ROLLER COASTER FOR SURE
#theo.txt#I DID NOT REALIZE DEMON DEAN WAS NOW#DESPITE KNOWING THAT YEAH HE LOOKS ABOUT THAT AGE OR WHATEVER IN THE SCREENCAPS IVE SEEN#WHEN I TELL YOU I CHEERED AT THE END WHEN I REALIZED WHAT WAS GOING ON!!!!! i love crowley pulling some bullshit at the last minute. classi#king of hell shit#and in the end scene where it's just mark sheppard's stellar monologue and the EYELID NOISE... chefs kiss that got me so hyped for s10#i do think this finale got me really interested to see what s10 brings generally#AND DOESNT ROWENA SHOW UP THIS SEASON?? WE LOVE TO SEE IT IM EXCITED#rip gadreel though he was an interesting character. sad he had to die just to prove a point and blow up a cell. but a fitting end ig?? :(#i also loved cas's plan at the end though with the angel radio thing. get his ass lol#but also god i felt so bad for him. can the narrative give him a fucking break. he is trying his god damn best#the curse of free will and the curse of loving. painful but you do it anyway. castiel when i get my hands on you#also if i am not mistaken... the shot parallels to sams first death with deans death... we cry#IS SAM JUST GONNA BE ALL ALONE NOW?? I ASSUME CROWLEY TAKES DEAN WITH HIM?#OH NO 😭😭😭 SAM BABY IM SO SORRY#not that he doesnt always have a rough time but he has a particularly excruciating season. someone give this man a hug#i feel for him very deeply#'i lied' 'ain't that a bitch?' got me. i hate them. SOOOO brothers.#anyway#AAAAAAAAUGH#also why was metatron the worlds number one destiel shipper at the end of the season here im DEAD. MULTIPLE pieces of dialogue hes like 'yo#did it all for HUMANITY... for your ONE HUMAN of CHOICE... the HUMAN who motivates you...' JUST CALL HIM A SLUR WHY DONT YOU#im dead#idk what the general community thoughts are on that episode but i did enjoy it. wild fucking ride from start to finish#s9 wasnt my favorite and definitely did not hook me in the second quarter for some reason. def was not as compelling as like s7 for me but#the points that i liked i really enjoyed#loved sam resorting to summoning crowley. he wants his ass dead SO bad. i think sam deserves the world after the shit he was put through#this season#anyway overall. i am gnawing on the walls and pacing around my room at incredible speeds. what is UP with this show.#man.
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I want to genshin-ify Banana...
#BANANA IS MY FFXIV AVATAR BTW. ON CASE YOU DONT KNOW#I AM NOT GENSHIN-IFYING A BANANA LOL#ive been Thinking about it and im like. i wanna draw it. i wanna draw genshin banana#already got a few ides on wat shed be like and the basics of her lore & stuff#hmmmmmm#i might do it#someone enable me pls so my brain can give me the motivation#genshin impact#banana pepper#warrior of light#wol#final fantasy xiv#xander rambles
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do u ever... not feel like yourself.. in front of other people, and get worried that they dont know the real you? sorry if too heavy
awh no its not heavy to me dw <3 its something i struggle with , even tho its gotten a lil better w/ age i still live a pretty hermetic life cus im hurt from stuff in the past. when i was younger i also felt like i didnt know how to act in social situations n got bullied all thru school for my demeanor so. that lead me to bcome even more lost trying to emulate ppl i thought were doing it right. took MANY years (like until age 25) just to unravel all the masks n learn how to stop interacting with everyone from a place of fear& paranoia. altho i still experience social anxiety id say i care much less about ppls impression of me. as long as they think im a kind person ofc! but overall ive finally accepted that no one will ever know the real me i know in my mind. that wld b physically impossible,! just as i can never truly know anyone else's mind either. all u can do is try to find people who Want to see you as the best version of yourself. sadly much more common to encounter people who willfully misunderstand you so they can maintain their worldview & fit u into certain boxes that relate u to their past experiences. be patient with those people, n just know that their version of u is out of ur control. when at long last u find the special ones who uplift & believe in u, its like, Wow the way you see me may not be my complete self, yet it adds new dimension to my being in a way that makes me love myself more. secure love.. but u may never find those special ppl if ur too scared of being perceived to try knowing anyone.!! so u just gotta keep tryin til something clicks. if ur kind to everyone n try to view them in a forgiving light, ppl tend to return that energy back to u even if they think ur kinda strange lol. dont giving up anon <3 just because its hard now doesnt mean it'll alwasy b this way.
#sidenote#if someone is constantly misunderstanding u to the point that theyre like#putting words in your mouth and assigning hidden motives to everything u do#and it feels like they take everything you say as an insult#its ok to just say ok this might be a bad fit & move on w ur life#be patient w people but if theyre acting cruel towards you then probably the best thing is giving them space#took me a long time..to figure this out lol
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stupid stupid stupid stupid I am so fucking stupid
(LONG rant in the tags. originally a little longer still but apparently there were too many tags so tumblr deleted the rest lol)
#ahahahaha so i applied for a (fixed-period) job that was like. right up my alley?#and i was one of the two applicants and they invited me to a Teams interview which was supposed to be last monday#but when i heard the other applicant is someone who's been working for them for the past semester i was like 🤡#hmmmm i do wonder which one of us they'll hire!! 🙂#and i was crushed because why can't things go my way for once#being a job-seeker in this area on my field is so stressful and depressing if you don't have the right connections#so i cancelled the interview with an email on the morning of the interview#because i just couldn't motivate myself to go even for practice. i just couldn't#i did consider calling the place and asking if the sitauation was like i suspected#but i didn't because i am not a fully functional adult ✌️🤷♀️#well. today i noticed that they have opened the position again 🤡#which means that for one reason or another they're not going to hire the person who's been doing that exact job for them before?#and now i'm crying because lmao what kind of impression i'll be giving of myself#if i call them now and tell them why i cancelled the interview?#''yeah so i stood you up because i'm a hardened pessimist and thought i had no chance pls hire me lol''#who's gonna want to hire a loser like this 🙃 a loser who couldn't even bother calling them like a normal adult would've#and also what if my employment agency finds out i didn't go to the interview? they could cancel my allowance ahahahahahAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAA#god i hate being unemployed and i hate job seeking so much it hurts#my self-confidence is nowhere near it should be if you were actually to do well in job interviews etc.#''why do you think you'd be good for this job?'' I'M NOT! YOU'LL BE DEFINITELY BETTER OFF HIRING ANYONE ELSE!!#and some people's advice for job interviews be like ''just be yourself!'' like honey no#if i'm myself at a job interview absolutely no one's gonna want me ahaha#job-seeking is just so fucking crushing and humiliating#like. when you're studying and you have an exam? you can study for it as hard as you can and try to do your best#and you'll get the grade you deserve. if someone gets the highest grade it doesn't effect YOUR chance to get the highest grade as well#but when applying for a job? you can write a splendid application text and answer the interview questions as best as you can#but if there's another applicant that's significantly more qualified or experienced than you they WILL be hired over you#so you can try your best and IT'S STILL NOT ENOUGH#and that's why i didn't go to the job interview. because i wanted to protect myself from that heartbreak again#doing the best i can and still not getting the job
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