#some mom updates at the end

[yoiku]

Just feeling like unpacking and sorting out some thoughts on this wonderfully rainy morning (begone, roadside dust!!)

Now, I've always been the type to post new art the moment it's done. Posting stuff only on Patreon has still proven easier than I expected. Perhaps since i am still posting stuff -somewhere- it doesn't feel as weird, even though I do miss the interaction from posting on socials. But that'll be back once I have a buffer big enough to keep Patreon relevant. It's also getting easier on letting posting on social wait as time goes by, lol. Actually thought that what if I make the publish gap with the comic even bigger, like several months between Patreon/other sites. But aaaah, I really do want to get it out. It might create more of a gap with time anyway. And the best way to get new people interested in my Patreon is to have interesting stuff out there in the wild. And I'll be honest, it feels validating af to see even a few people willing to spend money to access my Patreon.

It's still conflicting sometimes, because I would really want to keep my stuff available to everyone without paywalls. Art in general is meant to be shared and should be accessible to everyone, this is something I feel on a larger scale. Things like commissioned, unique pieces are luxurious though. They are after all often personal as well. Artists don't live on grants and stipends, hell, even those are usually available for artists who have already made a name for themselves on a larger scale/are well connected. Majority I know struggle with part time jobs, unemployment, studying or are disabled, barely scraping by what they can get in terms of welfare etc. I'm no different. I'm on welfare due to health reasons + in debt, so basically I don't have any "extra" money at the end of each month left for nice things™. And if I do, it usually goes to paying a larger portion of debt away. Sometimes I spend and always regret it later, lol. But if you -never- get to treat yourself even a little, life starts to feel quite depressing. I know so many people are in the same kind of position, where it's just not possible to pay for more than 1-2 subscription services monthly, or none. So having my art behind a Patreon paywall of any kind feels bad, knowing I would likely not be able to afford it myself, lol. Will it ever be easy to combine the thought of art + money without having dreadful crapitalism thoughts creep in? Probably not.

I still want to do my best to pick up some commissions as well, I need to create some sort of hidden stash of money now that I have the cat. Because when (inevitably at some point) a trip to the vet happens, that's going to be at least a hundo no matter what. And when the last trip to the vet arrives, that's gonna be closer to 300-400 with all the cheapest options. (hopefully not anytime soon, but something i have to take into account) I am currently working on a painting comm and might have another one coming up as well, which is giving me much joy. Watercolours are a lot of work, but they're less taxing in the sense that there's only so much detail you can do compared to digital, and tradi allows the happy little accidents with the medium. So it's easier to feel like I did my best wihtout having the thought "ah... i should've kept fixing it"(without asking for more money bc I gotta do better ad infinitum) So I'm really happy peeps have shown interest in tradi comms, even though I'm not very well versed in techniques with those. Learning tho!

My head's been in a relatively good place for a good while now, all things considered. But I have to pull the brakes on myself every now and then because I know it only takes one hard hit in the old mental health for all of it going to shit in the blink of an eye. So I'm trying to tread carefully, prep and plan while keeping the bar set low enough.

Mom has moved to hospice care, which also means that getting the phonecall about her passing can also be any day now. I feel like I've made my peace with it, but even if it doesn't initially hit hard, I'm pretty sure it will bring some mental struggle later. And there will be the whole episode of handling her stuff afterwards. Thankfully there won't be any wealth to distribute, so likely all the mandatory/legal expenses will be handled by welfare. How dreadful that even in that, money is the first thing to have to worry about, huh.

At least the sun has returned from the winter jail, bright days lighten the mind.

[polariscroquis]

"Just because it's perennial doesn't make it less real."

Terzo found himself a fallen angel.

Ok. A few more words about this one. This week has been rough with everything going on in the world and I know a lot of people are scared and desolated - me included. Like Copia says, life decided to be ~not so great~ this time, I guess.

I needed to make something to put my head back into place and feel safe again. 'I Believe' personally feels very comforting and I figured we ALL could use some comfort now.

The iridescent, shining fallen angel is for everyone - who needs a hug, who needs comfort, who needs something to believe. And it's a little message to all of you to remember to keep on shining with all your different colors: we are ALL different and beautiful in our own singularities, no matter what those are, and if some people can't accept that, the issue is with THEM, not with YOU. And remember, you are also the reason for someone to keep on believing in life.

I hope all of you iridescent fallen angels find your comfort, your safety and ignite the fire inside of you to fight and stand up for your beliefs, with courage and grace.

I've gotten my watery emotions out now, it's time to go back to the standard fiery rebellious punk mode, hope you ghouls liked the little poetic moment :)

Ah, and the pose. I referenced from Rodin's sculpture, 'The Kiss'.

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*comments/likes/reblogs are already support and I’m very very grateful!! 🖤

[st-peculiar]

Fuck you. Ouroboros Cycle au posting be upon ye.

Been working on this a bit off and on today in my free time, been having fun. More in the tags

[hplonesomeart]

We did it folks graduation achievement unlocked >:D

[tmf-confessions]

hi guys. im sick so i'll be answering any rat egg questions y'all have

[what-even-is-sleep]

Can’t wait for my drivers license to arrive so I can be driving legally again for the first time in 1.5 years!

[stayteezdreams]

Sorry for still not posting. Things are still a bit complicated and rough in my personal life.

xx

[astonmartingf]

it was my birthday yesterday and i was sick sick, cried three times, barely functioning and powering through laboratory work and managed to pass a quiz i definitely didn't study for 👍

[biioniic-biiohazard]

GIGGLES LOUDLY I GOT THE CD I GOT IT I GOT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HEHEHEHEH YAAYYYYY <333

[autumnoakes]

the urge to explain to everyone that i'm autistic so i do things they may find weird vs. the urge to never tell anyone ever because they're going to accuse me of lying 🫠

[heartsbind]

i got the urge to talk more about tatsu’s mom bc i love her soooo much here we go looong infodump under the cut:

- to set the scene: miyu's 5'2" and was in her mid-60s when tatsu was born, so she's generally around 77-78 when tatsu's in their final years of high school.

- miyu was and still is a very artsy and craftsy person! her husband was kind of the breadwinner and made a generous amount of money as the vice president of a financial company, but she helped run a quaint little gift shop that a friend of hers owned; there she got to sell some of her own homemade jewelry and trinkets made from things like seashells. she’s a great painter, although she hasn’t tried selling too many of her paintings and oftentimes prefers to just gift them to people.

- she is soooo funny. tatsu’s sense of humor comes from growing up with her, which is why you might hear them make jokes about her old age (which is really more of a coping mechanism on their end than they care to admit) -- both of their jokes can run just a touch dark sometimes.

(she's got a whole inside gag about how she has enemies but they're all mysteriously gone now. this is not true: she had one enemy, and it was her dead husband. she also will not hesitate to say that she knows she's going to live a long life because she's the unproblematic one--)

- her and tatsu both share a sweet tooth. she claims it's because she is so sensitive to bitter tastes, a trait which allows her to detect poison more easily. see above.

- though, speaking of sweets, she and tatsu have an evening ritual of having one chocolate truffle with tea after dinner. tatsu sneaks two chocolates every night and thinks they've successfully kept this from miyu all their life. miyu knows, but thinks the fact that tatsu is so convinced she doesn't know is funny.

- tatsu more or less knew about their father's infidelity at a young age -- not that miyu info-dumped the whole thing on them all at once, but miyu's fear was that if the truth took too long to reveal itself to tatsu later in life, the pain of the shattered image of a perfect father would be much greater. this did mean that tatsu spent more or less their whole life just hating their father, but at the moment it's not particularly anything either of them regret.

- miyu's reasoning for keeping her husband (minoru) around was entirely for his financial support. minoru's reason for staying was that he was far too used to not having to care for himself to bother striking out on his own. he was a housemate more than anything else; to miyu, he could do whatever he wanted, as long as he helped pay to support little tatsu. when he passed away due to illness in tatsu's teenage years, it didn't really impact them emotionally, but financially he got one more clapback in, refusing to bequeath any of his finances to miyu, and making tatsu wait until adulthood for any of his inheritance. miyu's own pension covers enough to get by, but tatsu still works at a convenience store when they're of age in order to cover things like groceries, things they want, savings, etc. so that they're not necessarily hurting for money.

- initially, miyu was completely at peace not having any kids. it wasn't that she couldn't, nor that she was entirely against the notion; she just didn't feel compelled, and minoru shared a similar disinterest. in that regard, there wasn't any bitterness over the fact that minoru wound up having a child with someone else; only entirely in the fact that he lied and cheated at all, that 40+ years of marriage had gone to waste - and especially because he'd had very few qualms with trying to leave tatsu's bio mom (naming her nicolette) to raise tatsu on her own. unfortunately for him, nicolette was in grad school and just did not have the time nor resources to care for a child on her own, as much as she would have wanted a child, and she was similarly pissed with minoru for his deception, having been led to believe minoru was a widower.

- both miyu and nicolette are kind of girls girls. miyu found out about nicolette and her pregnancy through nicolette herself first, because as soon as nicolette realized minoru had been lying and miyu was actually alive she was set on doing something about it. she was probably many months along at this point, and it was such a shitty time for both of them but miyu really did everything she could to help nicolette through it. once tatsu was born, miyu took them in, and while miyu offered nicolette to have contact they both wound up mutually agreeing to cut ties.

- really just love miyu because she took it upon herself to carry most of the weight of what was going on in spite of how much it hurt her too but she loves tatsu sooo much... and she is the most important person in tatsu's life. i don't think it's something they've talked about specifically but i think they both share this experience of having been unwanted in one way or another, and tatsu really is sensitive to seeing that kind of thing reflected in other people in one way or another (ex. i imagine tatsu just does not care for sae because what they see is sae not appreciating the fact that he has a brother who cares about him, etc.). tatsu really becomes more and more cognizant of this when they get older and they really do everything they can to make sure their mom stays happy for the remainder of her life.

- miyu loves women. crackship with reo's granny when--

- she walks with a cane but still has a lot of pep in her step. she still paints and makes things recreationally to keep her hands and fingers active. she also likes to build puzzles.

- she continues to try to take very good care of herself because she's determined to see as many of tatsu's life milestones as possible.

- she has a visiting nurse - her name is ayumi and miyu tells her absolutely everything about tatsu; how they're doing, every crush they've had, how sports are going, any friends they've made, etc. etc.

- for bllk-verse tatsu, the very first thing tatsu cashed in their goals on was their cell phone so they could call miyu to check on her.

- i mentioned it in tatsu's jjk verse but they became a sorcerer really to help pay for her care; she is not a sorcerer herself and doesn't really know what tatsu does in school at all aaaand i'll stop here for now --

[munch-mumbles]

almost 3 months on t now (2 months 3 weeks) and its still so so so crazy to me. for the longest time i thought itd never happen and im so glad ive been able to get here. also so happy with where my voice is going YAYYY YAYYYYYYY

[kathaynesart]

It is done! *falls down*

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I have... so much to say on so many different things but it is 2:30 in the morning so I will keep this as brief as possible. First off, thank you to all my mom friends and mutuals who helped me with accurately portraying and normalizing the experience of giving birth. It is wonderful, and painful, and gross, and beautiful. I apologize if it made any readers squeamish (and I know there were a few gross jokes in there) but considering how gross the tv show got, I think it remained true to the overall vibe!

Second, I wanted to talk about the concept of "hope" in this story. When I first watched the movie, I felt like the idea of hope being their greatest weapon seemed sort of heavy handed and cheesy. However, after watching the ending of the show again I realized that hope is actually a huge reoccurring element in the story and a big part of what it means to be of the Hamato clan. Doubly so, I wanted Casey Junior in a way to symbolize that hope for Leo specifically, so when Leo talks about hope in the beginning of the movie, he's not just talking about some vague concept, but Casey Junior himself. He is their greatest weapon and he doesn't even realize it.

Thirdly, so uh... Casey Junior. I apologize if it had seemed out of left field, but do know that the decision of his origins was not made lightly. The shear similarity in his facial structure to Lou Jitsu as well as several other factors that I will refrain from stating due to future spoilers was too numerous to ignore! It is an integral part of his story for reasons that will go unsaid for now, and no, he does not know he's distantly related to them. Also, Big Mama! Been holding onto her concept for some time now! I loved the idea of her mystic broach becoming damaged so she can only be cloaked to a certain degree, making for an interesting blend of both her forms. She was really fun to figure out!

Finally thank you everyone for your patience. This special turned into quite the endeavor with most of the updates exceeding 20 pages each, but I'm so happy I was able to finish it... even if it did take so much longer than my projected hope. I can't wait to get back to the main storyline, though I shall miss these silly, overpowered boys. We got a lot of ground to cover and I'll likely be posting a summarized reminder before continuing. ...and after I finish work on some Zines and the holiday special winning commission!

[how-the-feathers-have-fallen]

Dumping the start of the tags here cause tumblr has a tag limit of 30 :/ sorry op

Okay hold on

also more things I couldn't fit in. after cuddy bails out choreman chase gets assigned a bunch of clinic hours as Punishment TM. But mom-dad wilson (house is dad-mom) keeps him company till house gets angsty and comes to bail him out pick him up.

More I couldn't fit in at the end so I dumped here outta order:

wilson teahces the ducklings to paint since obvi house passed down his musical talents

rich kid chase got assigned clarinet at age 6. he's ok but has 0 heart. house jokingly points him towards a lyre in a music shop and he takes to it instantly. house go to tease him (baby angel lookin-) but chase looks so overjoyed and he says something like "look just like David played for Saul" so he melts on the spot (and convinces wilson to by him a kinnor so he doesn't know its his idea. he sings like a screeching alterboy tho)

I think cameron can sing but she's quiet and stumbles so she refuses to get formal training. she's tear rendering on a cello tho. surprisingly she can dj like all hell too. she had a wild college life before her 1st husband

foreman can sing smooth as silk. but he can't play an instrument to save his life (no patient for it). his dancing though? stage worthy. can be convinced to show off after a couple drinks.

Obsessed with the whole vibes of early season one of House. The ducklings have the energy of dysfunctional siblings along with their insane Vicodin-addict father. Wilson isn’t shown to have an office yet so he just lingers at House’s side while constantly and giving him fuck-me eyes. Wilson will just sit in on diagnoses and give his advice like he doesn’t have any responsibilities in the world. When the team needs to (illegally) shrink a patient’s tumor so it’s small enough to operate on, Wilson just says “alright” and does it along with Cameron. Chase does a silly American accent to fool a patient’s mother and it WORKS. Foreman is new and already despises everyone. House comments on how fuckable Wilson looks when Wilson is simply wearing a green tie and nice shoes. An old woman says that House has the same bedroom eyes as Ashton Kutcher. At one point the team, House, Wilson, and Cuddy all gather together in the small lab room to discuss a patient and are all basically brushing shoulders. Wilson reads a love poem out loud in the middle of the hospital to House. House eats tomato sauce that the team suspected was killing the patient. Wilson ditches his wife on Christmas Eve to go hang out with House and it shows a montage of them laughing and eating take-out. Cuddy greets House and Wilson by saying “hi, boys” like they’re kids. Foreman and Cameron are tasked to search a patient’s home and Foreman eats the ham he found in their fridge because he was hungry. The first scene with House shows him and Wilson walking down the hallway literally brushing hands and shoulders despite the hallway being huge. One of the first things Wilson does is lie to House. Wilson asks House — who rarely ever takes cases unless he finds them really interesting — to take a case and House just takes it. When asked why it was so easy, House just looks at Wilson with a smirk and says “you know why” and then they both smile at each other. This is all in the span of the first eight episodes.

[boyapologist]

you guys won't believe what happened tonight

[alygator77]

ᰔᩚ motherhood and matrimony - mlist ᰔ

ꨄ︎ pairing. au ceo! satoru gojo x single mom secretary fem! reader

ꨄ summary. satoru gojo, the arrogant and irresistible heir to a billion-dollar corporation and the son of your boss, the ceo... but when satoru’s father dies unexpectedly, his inheritance hinges on a stipulation: he must marry and have a child, but the child doesn't necessarily have to be his, right? together, you strike a deal: a fake marriage that promises financial stability for you and corporate control for him. as the lines between business and emotion blur, you must decide if your partnership is purely contractual or if it could evolve into something real.

ꨄ︎status. ongoing

ꨄ︎ warnings/tags. 18+ MDNI, nsfw, enemies to lovers, opposites attract, fake marriage, slow burn, smut, fluff, bit of angst, reader is single mom who recently broke off her engagement, satoru being a cute step dad, naoya is your crappy ex, some triggers of domestic abuse (it is emotional but it can be a bit suggestive/interpreted as physical, note this is from naoya not satoru)

ꨄ︎ words: currently 67k

ꨄ︎ a/n. hello ya'll, my name is aly and if you read my fic thank you so much from the bottom of my heart! this story really hit the ground running, originally it was a request from a lovely anon ♡ and apparently i cannot write short fics for the life of me because it turned into something big lol, halp.. i'm unsure how many chapters it will have because i am just seeing where the inspiration takes me :') i will update tags/warnings as the story progresses. thanks for reading <3 (also this will have a happy ending)

ꨄ︎ taglist: closed (ao3)

ꨄ series tags #mhm #motherhood and matrimony

♬︎ playlist

ꨄ︎ chapters

ch 1 // circumstances and commitments

ch 2 // under the spotlight

ch 3 // fractured realities

ch 4 // shadows of doubt

ch 5 // a leap of faith

ch 6 // drenched in truth

ch 7 // pending..

ꨄ︎ extra chapters

autumn special // harvesting happiness (read after ch 6)