#some kind of fallout

[westcoastsmoked]

So I Retired (and lessons from SKOF)

the most important thing i can say is thank you, thank you all for having been so kind to me when i was young. for all the love you all gave me. i wish i had listened to you guys a little more.

I made this account around freshman year of high school (2019ish), when I was writing my first full length screenplay. you never saw it. i had a sfm indie deal that fell through unceremoniously (LOL) you instead read it as the fic Some Kind Of Fallout, and got a pile of SFM posters to go along with it. you all knew and nobody irl did because i was a kid embarrassed about the art I made. my own parents had no clue

around seventeen i disappeared. (the retirement i speak of) i had finished skof, i was working through across the ashes... and then real life came around. things in my life destroyed me and my passion. i let go of my dreams. the story i wanted to tell. the time between that loss of heart and the return i like to treat as an empty space/forget. just before nineteen, i got out. i told my mother i wanted to make movies (imagine her surprise at that one...) and i went away to school to do so.

i wrote a story called Contract when i got to school. it had been so long since i had written a real screenplay, and I went home to the characters i had known best. i brought it in to a club to be evaluated. they liked it. the same club then put a cinema camera in my hand and gave me the ability to help others better their screenplays. when i help others tell their stories, i feel a certain way. like this is the thing i was always meant to do. i can feel it in my bones - its the closest to a religious feeling i have ever felt.

i still dragged my feet about the art in my past. i forgot, for a while, until i came across the SFM folder on my desktop a couple months ago. i realized that the way i feel about film is the way i felt as a teenager about the art I made. and i could see it. everything i do now, the way I frame things and the way I ask for my lights to be placed is all the shit i learned spending 6 hours a SFM poster.

today i am twenty and almost a half years old! i will not say that i am going to make a 'comeback.' I was so active as a teenager because I had the time. I have movies to make now, for better or worse. But my SFM art, the stuff that used to embarrass me, is a part of my professional portfolio, right next to all of my indie and student stills.

on a more personal note, I can see now as an adult why I made the character of JJD the way he was. The things I went through make me a little like him. My memory is notoriously horrible, I used to have a bad habit of avoiding my problems, I didn't want the future my parents wanted for me, I wanted to be unconditionally loved, and I wanted a life of my own choosing. I wanted to save my friends and I hated myself when I failed at it. I tend to be irrational but also tend to captivate.

i don't think i'd change very much about the story if i went back. maybe some of the prose itself. but not the message. the message was always that we suffer and we overcome but we must let love in to do so. what i have learned in adulthood is that there is suffering and that i could not overcome it alone. i wish i had turned to my own story in my darkest times.

thanks again. i'll always love team fortress two, but most importantly i'll always love the fans who made it what it was to me

oh and maybe i'll put Contract as a fic on ao3. it lost at BEA </3

[schemelin]

I wish you were here

[streetfrightmanifesto]

Caesar’s Legion but Mean Girls!!!

I have more ideas I wana draw 👀

[neotibicen-linnei]

i bet he smells like blood and marlboro reds

[deepthought-1]

The gossips all over town! Come by sooner than later!

[effielovesapples]

self insert and the funnies

[mel-kusanagi]

ghoop :]

some rendering progress of my current wip

[elvishdemigod]

So I'm someone with jacked up teeth. Some I wiggled out too early and they came out crooked (never got braces), some issues from either not being able to afford toothpaste or having those band mental days where I just didn't want to do anything.

So, to see people gush over a character who also has jacked up teeth, and even call it a cute part of him sometimes, makes me feel a little less self conscious about my smile.

If MacCready's still a king, then why can't I be a king/queen?

[ruby-static]

“If you’re looking for medical help, try the other doctors. I’m just a researcher. Not even a particularly good one.”

The sheer iron grip this dude has on my mind right now-

[littleghostblogs]

Playing Fallout 1 and noticing Necropolis disappear from the caravans is just. So perfect.

The game brings no attention to it. No one mentions it. The caravans just don’t go there anymore. It makes you wonder what happened, you solved all their problems already, right?

So now you have a reason to go back there, cause otherwise there’s really no reason too. And when you do, everyone is gone. There’s no more ghouls, just super mutants. They invaded, and there’s nothing you can do to stop them. Once you hit that date, the city is gone.

It’s frankly a brilliant moment of subtle storytelling and even though I already knew about Necropolis’ fate it still motivated me to go back, just to make sure.

I wonder how many people discovered it this way? I can only imagine just how effective this reveal is for someone actually playing the game blind.

[violethyacinth]

Maximus telling Lucy that she smelled good and the entire following interaction was so funny and good but also made me feel so bad for the people who grow up under Brotherhood rule

Like y’all got all this time, caps, and resources to dedicate to finding goddamn toasters and shit but you can’t take a week to teach your aspirants actual sex ed so you don’t have god knows what kind of stis going around barracks because them teenagers ARE fucking do not delude yourselves.

[moonshynecybin]

just remembered vale being like. i don’t know what they let marc race post-surgery. sick and evil and twisted

need him to start secretly paying off motogp doctors to prevent marc from racing which HE says is 'eliminating the competition' but really its just like. making them do their jobs and keep that lunatic off a bike when his bones are broken

[chimaerakid]

charm and stickers have been ordered!

I've ordered 30 charms & 30 of each sticker(60 total). I've never sold anything before so I plan on opening an etsy shop to make everything easier!

Thank you to everyone for the super helpful feedback with everything. I held a poll on instagram and a grand majority preferred a blue background for the charm!

The charm will be 3 inches, two-sided with a translucent blue background, and the stickers will be 2 inches and regular vinyl. Vograce takes at least a week or two to double check everything, so I probably wont have the product ready for a while.

[singingsotries]

Using console commands to turn my HUD off before I screenshot things for my low effort posts like a true photographer

[nukacourier]

I've seen some people compare Arcade and Kim Kitsuragi from Disco Elysium and I've even compared them myself, but despite their overlapping similarities I feel like Arcade needing to have a moral high ground constantly would immensely clash with Kim being a cop who constantly defends the actions of the police force and they'd actually end up arguing quite a lot (or more like Arcade trying to argue with Kim about it and Kim ignoring him till he gets fed up)

[vnknowcrow]

first computer drawing!!! valentine type beat in,,, august