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hi ⥠can i request Soldier Boy finding out that female!reader had his child? he met her in The Boys and then suddenly she disappears but they reunite again later...
Dream On//The Little Hands That Lead You To Me
Description: Soldier Boy finds out he has a child when he returns years later after being reawakened by The Boys for one last mission.
Pairing: Soldier Boy x Reader x Child!
Warnings: None; Soldier Boy is his own warning.
Note: Short little drabble to pass the time. Yes, I know the gif is from Big Sky, let me use the damn gifs, please.
Dreams were always beyond reach.
And you had always plagued his dreams when he had rested his head at night.
When you and America's First Hero had met, it was a daring time where he had saved you from almost being slaughtered by the TNT Twins at the C-Lister's Herogasm Festival. The Boys had forgotten you were their mole, until Hughie immediately recognized you.
Soldier Boy dragged you out of the rubble, staying by your side until you awakened.
The two of you ran around for awhile alongside the Boys to try and take down Homelander. He had also taken you to dinner--well it was the other way around, but he paid for it every time.
Nothing ever lasts long.
The last time you and him were together was when you both shared the night of your lives. The night before he would face Homelander and take him down once and for all. Not many men could ever make you feel the way you did when you were underneath the man of steel and radiation. Instead of hard, hot and heavy, the mere intimate, sweet and sensual lovemaking--his hands intertwined with yours, forehead pressed against yours as the two of you had managed to get to your highest of highs. It was a night to remember.
When dawn broke through the curtains, Soldier Boy, Ben, had found you were gone. Disappeared into the early break of day. He had opened the closet to find your belongings gone.
The car? Gone.
You had left him, and through that time you both had spent, he swore to himself he would see you again.
----
Soldier Boy had been reawakened years later to live a possibly normal life without anyone nor anything bound to him. However, it was not that easy.
He still had not found you.
Every place he knew you would be, you were wiped from the map. As if you never existed.
That is, until he stepped into a little family owned diner in Knoxville, Tennessee.
He tipped his hat to the cashier, as he took a booth at the back. A group of people were seated at a table laughing and carrying on.
Something he missed.
He heard the sweet laughter, and raised his head as his eyes widened.
You had stood there, in a sundress patterned with sunflowers, and in your arms was a child no older than four.
That looked like him.
Your gaze moved from the people at the table and stopped on you as your eyes widened with his. You excused yourself and Y/C/N as the two of you moved towards Soldier Boy, Ben nowadays.
"Been a long time." You quietly said to him.
His eyes moved to Y/C as your kid wanted to be put down.
"Mommy?" Your child questions.
"Yeah, baby?" You replied, ruffling their hair.
"Daddy?" You watched as they pointed to Ben, who still wanted answers.
"Yes." Ben opened his arms and invited the young child in. He stood and scooped you in as well. Your family watching from the table just as confused as you were.
In the end you were just as happy as well.
"I'm so sorry Ben. For leaving-"
"Don't. Doesn't matter now. All I got is you--you and.." He trailed off, he could feel the sting of tears hit his eyes.
"I got nowhere to be anytime soon Ben. I left that life." You said, taking in his scent and warmth.
"As did I." Ben added.
The two of you looked at each other before he dipped down to take in your lips. Your child vocally expressing his disdain for both of your public displays of affection. Ben chuckled deeply, the two of you parting to have Ben lean his forehead against yours once more.
"I'm not dreaming. This is real." He muttered.
"Well, I hope so." You answered.
"Are you two finished? I wanna meet that tall drink of water you have there!" Called your mother, as the rest of your family had begun to laugh.
Your cheeks redden while you looked up at Ben who smiled.
"I promise to be nice." He grinned.
"Good, because it'll answer so many of their questions." You giggled, as he kissed you again.
"Hope so." Ben places his hand against the small of your back. The other taking a hold of your child's hand.
The three of you all seated yourselves at the table, Ben's hand over yours, while your child sat on his lap, tugging at fur lining his jean jacket. Ben smiled at you with a small wink, taking off the cowboy hat and placing it on your child's head. You sighed, your grip on his hand tightening.
"So this is the man you were telling us about. Nice of you to stop by finally. When are you two going to get married?" Your mother questions as Ben tilts his head to look at the much older woman sitting at the end of the table.
"I got some big plans. Don't worry. All in due time ma'am. All in due time."
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Headcanon: When You're Having His Child...
Pairings: Dean Winchester x F. Reader, Beau Arlen x F. Reader, Soldier Boy/Ben x F. Reader
AN: This one is requested by @cevansbaby-dove, and is kind of a continuation of this imagine: When you have morning sickness.
Tags/Warnings: Potential fluff overload.
HC: How Dean, Beau, and Soldier Boy (Ben) would act while you're in labor.
Dean Winchester
Oh, sweet man...
Dean does the thing where he pretends he has his shit together.
He's really trying, for your sake, for his own, and to save face around Sam and Eileen and Jody and everyone else in the hospital waiting room.
They can see it, and he knows it: he's freaking the hell out.
When he's in the room with you, he's either helping you, holding your hand, waiting for you to be dilated enough to start the whole "having a baby" process, or pacing around on those bowlegs, occasionally dragging a hand over his mouth in that telltale nervous gesture.
"Babe, come 'ere," you say with strain. That last contraction really took it out of you. "You're making me even more nervous than I already am."
Dean goes to you and smooths a hand over your hair.
"Sorry, sweetheart. I'm sorry. How're you holding up?"
Tears well up in your eyes, but you try to breathe through it. You're overwhelmed, you're in pain, and you've been in labor for several hours already.
"We're ready for this, right?" you ask, squeezing his hand. He sits on the edge of your bed and makes sure you look him in the eyes.
"We're about to find out," he says, with a bit of teasing. But his gaze is steady when he brings your hand up to his lips. "You don't gotta worry about anything. I'm gonna be with you, come whatever, okay?"
You smile, because you don't just believe him. You know.
Because after years of fighting together, surviving together, living together, you know that this is just one more adventure you get to go on with him by your side.
Now, Dean would rather not see all the gritty details of the birth, but he stays in the delivery room, letting you squeeze the shit out of his hand. He's not going to leave your side. He's wiping sweat from your brow and encouraging you, being whatever kind of support you need.
After the baby's born and the nurses bring her back all cleaned up, Dean holds his daughter for the first time.
He has tears in his eyes. For a long moment, he doesn't even blink. He stares down at that small, perfect face. Already he sees some of your features in her.
He can't put into words how he feels. It's overwhelming in his chest. But one thing is certain...
Dean's never been more grateful to be alive than in this moment.
He blinks, and the first of his tears fall. He brings her to you, sitting down carefully on the edge of your bed again so you can hold her. You're beyond exhaustion, sweaty, and weeping, but one thing is certain...
You've never been more grateful for Dean than in this moment.
You turn to him, giving him a small smile. He returns it, and he leans in to give you a gentle kiss.
"Do you have a name picked out yet?" one of the nurses asks.
You and Dean share a look: his imploring, yours knowing.
"We're not naming her Baby," you warn him.
"Aw, come on."
Beau Arlen
Round 2! đ«Ą
Beau runs the gambit from excited, to anxious, to freaking the hell out, and back to excited.
This is "Round 2" for him. His second child. But he's had reservations about being an "older" father to a new baby. (He's pushing 50 at this point. No matter how much he keeps in shape, he still feels his age in his bowlegged knees.)
You've assured him that plenty of men have children at his age.
Regardless of his insecurities though, you know he's still over the moon. Beau has always wanted more kids, deep down, and now thanks to you, he's getting his wish.
He's the man who's "prepared for anything."
When your water broke, he already had your to-go bag ready with everything you might need.
But he continues to ask you questions from the moment he's got you out the door to the drive over to the hospital, and even in the lobby.
"You thirsty? You comfortable like that? How's the pain? Just breathe, baby. I gotcha. Watch your step now. You hungry? We've got protein bars in the bag, unless you're cravin' something else. First things first, let's check in. Oh, I hope we can getcha in a private room. Let's see--oh damn, they sure are packed today, huh? Okay, how're you holdin' up? How's the pain, level of 1 to 10? Yep, got it, hold my hand. Just breathe through it. I gotcha."
Bless him. The man means well, but he's driving you freakin' crazy.
"Beau, I know. If you don't take a breath, I'm gonna pop you in the damn nose."
He tries not to smile at your grumpiness. "...Okay, I hear ya. Let's just get you into your room."
He rarely leaves your side during the entire labor, just to get you anything you might actually need. The radio at his belt occasionally goes off for work, but he apologizes, having forgotten to turn it off. He put Jenny in charge while he's gone.
"Let's just hope the precinct's still standing when I get back," he jokes. He finally turns off the radio and takes it off his belt, to your relief. And he returns his undivided attention to you.
Beau witnessed the birth of his daughter Emily, so he's no stranger to being in the delivery room. He even ventures past the curtain when your son is born, breathing air into his little lungs and letting out a powerful cry.
Beau laughs with tears in his eyes. "That's my boy."
When the nurses place him into your arms first, Beau supports your hold and brushes your sweaty hair back from your face. "Good job, honey. Good job."
"I know," you tease weakly.
Beau chuckles. He presses a lingering kiss to your forehead and looks down at the small bundle in your arms and his.
"We have a son," Beau says. His eyes are red and shining. "I have a son."
"You have a son," you nod. You look over at him and lean in for a kiss. He obliges you, and rests his forehead against yours afterwards.
Life is meant for moments like this, he thinks.
He's damn grateful it's with you.
Soldier Boy (Ben)
Readers of Strong as Blood in the BMD-verse will recognize some of this HC...
This day has been a long time coming, for both of you.
He smells like cigar smoke when he comes back into your recovery room. For which you have no doubt, Ben had been puffing away with Butcher and M.M. outside the hospital.Â
Ben was with you for most of the lead up to the birth, but you actually agreed that having him in the delivery room wasn't a good idea. He never did well with you in pain, and with his temper, he might just scare the shit out of the doctor and nurses.
He strides toward you though, when he enters the room. He lays a hand on your head and another on the baby's tuft of brown, downy hair.
"We have a daughter," you tell him, with a watery smile.
Part of him still twinges with disappointment. He didn't react well when he found out you weren't carrying a boy, his future son.
(You'd given him enough hell that he never brought up the subject again.)
But that all fades away when he looks down at his daughter's face.
He carefully sits on the edge of your bed, but he's suspended in time. His chest tightens in a way he's never experienced before.
It's almost like pain, but not. Not at all.
He brushes a thumb along the baby's soft cheek. He's almost hesitant to touch her, knowing how fragile she is.
"Beautiful, like her mother," he says at last. And he means it.
He earns your smile.
"Flatterer," you accuse. You know you look as wrecked as you feel. Somehow, none of that matter's whenever you look at your child's face.
You look over at Ben with a shining smile. His lips twitch. He leans in and meets your lips with a kiss, slow and deep and intimate in this quiet little room.
âYou okay?â he asks you, after he pulls away. âGot everything you need?â
Heâs become even more protective, of course, but also more attentive to you. Especially in the last few months of your pregnancy, seeing how uncomfortable you've become.
It warms you every time, when you consider how rough, how stoic, and how damn-near emotionally repressed he can be.
It seems that fatherhood is beginning to soften him, even before he begins. You quirk a smile at the thought, and at his question.
âImagine pushing a super melon out of your dick. Thatâs how Iâm doing,â you say cheekily.
He snorts a bit loudly at that, and you shush him, as if it wasnât your fault he was laughing. He expects nothing less from you.
âBut Iâm okay,â you answer his second question. âAll I need right now is you.â
Ben considers you, a slightly gentler smile curving his lips, and he nods.
âAll right,â he says. In this moment, he realizes that his entire world is in this room.
Heâd never admit it, but it's a terrifying thought, for a man who once had everything and nothing.
You unknowingly stop the path of his thoughts when you ask him, "Want to hold her for a while?"
Ben perks up at attention. He's a bit uncertain on how exactly to hold the baby, but he can't lose face and tell you that. So he just accepts the bundle when you place her in his arms.
As he looks down at a small face that already has some of his features, he inhales a faltering breath.
It's the first time you ever see true tears in his eyes, despite how much he resists. One manages to draw a path down his cheek.Â
âYou know, youâre blessed to have my genes, sweetheart,â he says. It elicits a knowing scoff out of you. âBut youâre also lucky as hell to have your mom.â
Ben looks up and finds the predictable well of tears forming in your eyes. His smirk softens around the edges.
âSheâs the best damn woman youâre ever gonna meet,â he says.
AN: All right, I'll stop. đ I hope you enjoy this one, fluff overload and all! Who was your favorite this time: Dean, Beau, or Ben? đ
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I like to imagine that if SB did raise HL and Rosa (Reader) that the overall setting of the story would be them being raised in a mansion and SB being the old, washed up, celebrity war hero that really stays ïżŒin the spotlight through his kids by making them star in movies sorta like how Britney Spears was in that Disney show in the 80âs. That if HL especially didnât get the mark right SB would throw him around and beat him and no one would intervene because of their status and well them being supes. And that no matter how many times Rosa would try to her impress her father with her acting talent and powers, sheâd never be seen as âgood enoughâ primarily because sheâs a woman and that everything she does would be seen second to her brother HL.
A pivotal moment in yours and HLâs young life would be SB walking in on HL whacking it while smelling your sweater and SB angrily asks him, âWhat the fuck are you doing?â And a young HL scrambles to readjust himself because itâs pretty humiliating and before he even realizes it SB grabs him by the scruff of his collar throwing him across the room saying, âI knew you were a fucking disappointment but this just takes the cake, you think Iâm really gonna let you do this fucked up, sweet home Alabama bullshit like this under my goddamn roof after all the hard work I fucking didâ and he just choke slams HL to the ground creating a meteor sized hole on the ground.
You fly in on this after coming home from getting greasy fast food for your Dad and you see the chaos of the house and immediately panic and you run too see that SB is on his way to throwing HL out of the house. You run to try to save HL and you both are desperately clinging to one another because after all you HL is all you have, even though you had no idea the truth of why SB was doing what he was doing and in a moment of rage and disgust SB screams at you to go to your room making you feel like a weak, child you listen to him and HL is screaming for you not too but you tearfully abide by SB over your brothers constant begging. And after everything has calmed down you seek out your father and you see him in front of the tv watching one of his movies with beers and empty pill bottles on the table side, you tell him that you bought him some dinner and the only thing he says is âThanksâ. Both you and SB are just sitting quietly eating the food with nothing but questions in the air but you know that SB wonât tell you anything so you just tearfully eat your food while SB doesnât make any attempts to console you.
HL finds refuge in none other than Madelyn Stilwell, the twist being is that sheâs more like if Lois Lane was a predator and made a young Superman into her lover. She manipulates and abuses him by using his mommy issues and sister complex too her advantage into becoming the face of Vought from a young age from there a more younger generation of The Seven appears which is similar to the Teen Titans. HL tries to use his newfound influence to reach out to you but that can barely work with SB standing in between you both and not even Vought wants to intervene given his status and power so for years you can only support you brother from a distance and in secret away from the eyes of your father the whole time you still donât know the truth as too why HL was kicked from home but this being kept under wraps by SB and Madelyn as well to preserve the image of the âperfect all American familyâ.
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Rosa and HL were children when their grandfather died and they watched SB respond to his death by dancing on his grave and having multiple women in their home. They just stayed in their rooms till the end of the night to hide away from his antics thankfully their maid made them food.
Iâm still kinda iffy on how I want BN and Rosaâs relationship to start out because while he is rendered mute and is treated more as obedient character he is still older than her like heâs in his 40âs and sheâs in her mid 20âs.
Itâs more of a âWow this man is acknowledging me for my powers and acting abilitiesâ, âOmg heâs taking care of me and sees that Iâm here tooâ.
Lowkey triggers her daddy issues
Like letâs not forget that Rosa is a SUPE and sheâs incredibly strong and talented but sheâs just looked over because sheâs a woman and is more of a character thatâs treated as a sort of âYou can be seen but not heardâ.
Basically you and BN bond over being treated as the shadows of society; both only being acknowledged when it comes to having a physical presence but not a verbal one but both experiences are entirely different.
For HL and Madelyn imagine if Lois Lane wasnât the strong willed reporter, imagine if she was the bottom of the barrel, morally corrupt, fame seeking reporter; now letâs apply that notion to Madelyn, shes at the bottom of Voughtâs corporate ladder who stumbled upon a grave secret that can ruin SBâs image. So she uses HLâs status to get her to the top of Voughtâs corporate chain, she uses his sister complex and mommy issues to her advantage and controls him under the pretense that if he does as she asks âthey can be togetherâ at the time heâs 17 and sheâs 30.
The Boys version of the Teen Titans is called âThe 7 Titansâ
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Nurse!Reader x 141 and stickers
How I think the 141 would act if Nurse!Reader gives out stickers to all the soldiers they patch up on base: This is my first headcanon
Johnny 'Soap' MacTavish absolutely fucking loves the stickers, like he's lowkey obsessed with getting one. His sketchbook is covered in the stickers you give him and if there's no more room for the stickers that's okay. He'll just buy a new one. Lowkey gets pouty and sassy if you forget to give him a sticker after patching him up.
And we are done. Good as newÂ
Soap wait's patiently with his hand stuck outÂ
What are you waiting for Soap?
Fur mah sticker. Obviously
Oh shit. Sorry, I forgot
Whit dae ye mean ye forgot? dae ye nae care aboot me anymair
Grow up you drama Queen
Kyle 'Gaz' Garrick Is a bit like Soap in a way he loves the stickers. They make him happy in this fuck up world, when he get's his sticker for being a brave boy, as you say, he wears the sticker all day as a badge of honour but if he looses the stickers randomly in the day he gets kinda pouty when he asks for another oneÂ
Can I have another sticker please?
Did you loose yours already?
I didn't mean too! I think Soap stole mine. Pretty please can I have another one
You know the rules. Unless you're injured I'm not giving you a stickers
Cue puppy dog eyes
Goddamit Kyle. Fine, here's your sticker but don't loose it
Captain John Price felt a bit silly at first when you gave him a sticker. He's grown man, he doesn't need a sticker for getting patched up but he very quickly grew to love receiving a sticker off you. He asked if you'd tare the paper the sticker is on, they're easier to save then. He doesn't stick them anywhere but has a small box in his office where he stashes them. For safe keeping.
Why don't you wear the stickers?
Because it ruins them
Ruins them?
Yeah. I like to hold onto them
Do you stick them anywhere?
Nope. I have a small box specifically for the stickers you give meÂ
Simon 'Ghost' Riley thought the stickers were a stupid idea, he's a grown ass man. Why would he want a sticker for getting patched up? He isn't a child. That's what he tells you but secretly he adores them. He'll moan and grumble as you slap one onto his chest but the moment he's in his room, Ghost will carefully peel it off his shirt and stick it in a scrapbook. Once got a little upset you didn't give him a sticker, he left the infirmary pretending he didn't care but 1 hour later he came back
Why didn't you give me a sticker?
Because you don't like them. You said they were stupid
Well. That's because they are. M'not a child
Then why are you asking why I didn't give you a sticker?
Ghost quietly grumbling and sticking his hand out
Can I just have my sticker pleaseÂ
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âtime will tell.â
[credits to the original artist of the photo!! can't seem to find their @ anywhere. title is taken from jane austen's persuasion, as was the first part.]
summary. âyou are loved. and harry thinks there is no better description that that.â
pairing/s. poly!mauraders + lily x reader.
word count. 9.5k.
tags. reader is referred to mum, with she/her pronouns[!], canon-typical violence [!], canon-typical deaths mentioned[!], very brief marauders as soldiers of the order[!], creepy old men being creepy[!], child abuse[!], pureblood arranged marriages, a minor character expresses wanting to die[!], Depressed and Traumatized Slytherins, the capital is important[!], themes of misogyny [!], teen boys fuck around and find out there are consequences to their actions, THERE IS ACTUALLY A LOT OF FLUFF, I PROMISE YOU, angst, children lose their baby teeth up until the age of twelve!! google said so!! not proofread we die like dobby the free elf
note. damn, i cried, you cried, we all crode. tbh, the first part was only intended as a oneshot, sdfkhdf, but when i re-read it, i thought that i could have expanded on more details,, so now here we are!! i love it more than the first part ueueue. thank you all so so so much for the kind comments :((( please please enjoy the second part to this installment!! part one
HARRY JAMES POTTER was only a few months old when you died at the hands of Voldemort â or as strangers have told him every time they ravaged his personal space and ogled at his scar. They said it was a quick death, better than what had happened to Alice and Frank Longbottom. But that was all theyâve ever said about your death. Unfortunate; caught in the wrong place at the wrong time, entirely different from the pedestal James and Lily have been put on by the wizarding society.Â
At first, Harry had wondered if it was due to your blood relations, being the daughter of a renowned Death-Eater, heiress to the fortune of a pureblood House. Harry canât even count the amount of conspiracy theories heâs read or heard to his face that it must have been you who betrayed James and Lily, and not Sirius Black.Â
Even Hermioneâs shared to him a theory that your death was faked to surrender your loyalty completely to Voldemort â of course, Hermione was eleven at the time, head full of books and her favorite theories, and Harryâs already forgiven her. But thereâs a part of him that despises the way heâs never known the full truth about his parents, just bits of information dangled in front of him like bait for people [read: the Dursleys] to get him to do what they want, to act like the way they want. Until Remus and Sirius, you were a stranger to him, really.
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(1976; CURRENTLY, IN THE PAST.)
IT IS RATHER UNFORTUNATE that Madam Pince has already taken her position as the unbearable librarian at this point in time. The woman gives Harry and you a pointed look as you slam the large book onto one of the tables â to Harryâs surprise, you glare right back at her. Youâre awfully flushed, however, blushing cheeks betraying the fire in your eyes; it must have been from when Remus escorted the two of you to the library; he had tried to brush your hand with his pinky, to which you had responded with a startled hiss â Remus only smiled and chuckled at you, and Harry swears heâd like to forget that entire interaction because he saw literal stars in Remusâs eyes.
Jumping back in time and potentially causing chaos? Fun.Â
Meeting your parents? Definitely fun, in the strangest of ways.Â
But watching them pine and fall for each other? Not so fun.Â
Nonetheless, he hesitantly takes the seat across yours and watches you flip through the pages until you land on a chapter with the large, bold letters: THE CURIOUS CASE OF ELOISE MINTUMBLE â Time-Travel and Its Many Dangers. He meets your gaze with a sheepish grin, mustering a look of innocence; except the puppy dog eyes only worked when he was nine â you are not amused.Â
You slide the book towards him, scarily resembling Molly Weasley when sheâs miffed with the twins. âYou are aware, right, that just by existing here youâve changed the future? Your future? And, thatâs not even the worst thing that could happen.âÂ
Harry sulks. âYes, mum.â He prefers not to think about it, actually, it makes his head hurt.Â
âDonât call me that in public!â You whisper heatedly, looking over your shoulder to check if anyone had heard him â to your luck, the library was empty, save for a Hufflepuff that was passed out on top of his books. âThe less people that know about this, the better. Itâs bad enough we told Potter about you. Do you even know what youâre going to do?âÂ
âConsidering I was thrown here against my will, no.â Harry shrugs. âAnd to be honest, I was just going to obliviate the people who asked too many questions.â
You reach over to smack his head, scowling.
âOw! That hurt!â Harry rubs the sore spot as he grumbles petulantly. âThis is technically child abuse, did you know that?âÂ
You roll your eyes. âDo you at least have a plan to get home?âÂ
âOf course I do,â Harry retorts with a scoff, âHer name is Hermione Granger.âÂ
âHopeless.â You groan exasperatedly. âAbsolutely hopeless.âÂ
Harry only grins in response. For a brief moment, he forgets about the present â his reality where the skies are bleak and home is where he knows the feeling of loss more than the warmth of his own parentsâ embrace. He lets himself forget, and pretends he isnât the Boy Who Lived. Just some random boy whoâs pestering his mother â even if she likes to deny the inevitability of being romanced by the Marauders, (except for Wormtail because Harry would eat troll slime before he ever lets that happen.)
âRight then,â You say after your tangent â which Harry tuned out when he hears the words, be responsible. âIf Iâm going to help you get back homeââÂ
Harryâs heart drops to his stomach; as selfishly as it sounds, he didnât want to go home just yet â not to where people just took and took from him. Heâs exhausted. Still, he puts up a front of being excited to be returned to his timeline. Itâs for the greater good, of course, because his existence â present or past â is always somehow a threat to the wizarding society.Â
ââyou need to answer this one question for me.â Your voice drops lower as you stare at him intently, lips pressed firmly.Â
Harry nods slowly. âAs long as itâs within reason, yeah.âÂ
You inhale sharply. âDo I outlive Dolores Umbridge?âÂ
The wince escapes Harry before he can even stop it.Â
Thatâs all the answer you need, apparently. Your mouth hangs open in disbelief, eyes nearly bulging out of your head as you slam your hands down onto the table surface, shrieking.
âThat slimy bitch!âÂ
Needless to say, the two of you are kicked out of the library.
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(1970; ORIGINAL TIMELINE.)
YOU ARE ELEVEN when your father introduces you to Ferguson, commonly known as Fergus, Bulstrode. He smiles at you with a leer, eyes hungrily dipping to the neckline of your dress. You grit your teeth as you hold out your hand for him to take â you almost shudder at the feel of his lips on your cheek. You eagerly take a step back away from him, hoping your father wonât notice the way you shy from Fergusonâs touch. Youâre not dull, you fully understand the implications of this introduction and the way Ferguson is complaining to you about his third wifeâs passing â as if you were the solution to his loneliness. Bile rises to your throat, and you shove it down with a forced laugh at your fatherâs jokes about Mudbloods. From across the room, Allegra Greengrass stares at you in sympathy, and you send her a glare â you do not need anyoneâs pity.Â
The corset your mother laced on too tight is suffocating you; this whole Yule extravaganza made for elitist purebloods is suffocating you; and yet, you smile and greet every red-lipped witch your mother introduces you to. For hours, you pretend, and you pretend. By the time the guests have left, you wonder if you have any more of yourself to give.Â
You manage to convince your mother to let you slip away for the night. Without missing a beat, you rush outside and into the garden labyrinth, lest old Ferguson snatches you up for a dance and let his gaze wander elsewhere. For the first time since the sun had set, your aching feet finally find some relief. You drop onto the edge of the stone fountain as you toss your heels to the side. You begin working your fingers through your hair, ripping the glittery ribbons from your head. Itâs not until youâre unclasping your necklace that you realize you are crying. Tears fall from your eyes, and they sink deep into the fabric of your dress.Â
You barely hold back your sobs. Your chest heaves as you hiccup; your vision goes blurry as your fingers grow numb. Thereâs nothing you can do but cry.Â
Youâve used up all your smiles for tonight.Â
But then, the sadness turns into resentment and then turns into indignation. Harshly, you wipe the tears from your eyes as you rip a violent scream from your throat.Â
You sink to the ground, perfectly polished nails digging into the soil as you gather patches of grass and tear them from the roots. You throw a handful of mud at the marble statues. You grab another fistful of mud, scream, then bash your head against the garden floor. You let out another cry, whimpering as you curl into yourself; shivering as a gust of wind brushes against your skin. Surprisingly enough, this is the most human youâve ever felt. This is the most you have ever felt â period.Â
When hiccups regress into soft sniffles, you lay on your back, watching the stars float above. As the last of your tears slide down your cheek, you lift a shaky hand to trace the constellation in the sky. Itâs not a familiar one to you, but thenâÂ
âThatâs Sirius.âÂ
You sit upright in a snap, wiping away the wetness from your eyes as you muster a mean glare at the newcomer.
Sirius Black.
âOh, none of that,â He tells you when you move to stand. Thereâs barely any emotion on his face and it irks you that you canât figure out what heâs planning. What you donât expect is for him to sit beside you, thereby ruining his expensively tailored suit.Â
âYouâll get creases,â You scold him instinctively, nose scrunched â but your voice is hoarse; too tired to put up any pretences. âYour mother will be cross with you.âÂ
Sirius scoffs, laying his head on the dirt, making sure to smear his sleeves with grass stains. âWalburga can go fall in a ditch and die for all I care.â
You gasp. âThatâs horrible!âÂ
Sirius gives you a look. âYou donât believe that.âÂ
You really donât, but you donât have the courage to admit it either.Â
After a few moments of silence, Sirius asks, raising a brow, âSo who was that?â
âWho was who?â You stare at him with knitted brows, toying with your fingers. You still canât wrap your head around how weird this is â sitting with Sirius Black in the middle of your motherâs hedge maze, your once bright blue dress now sullied at the ruffles, eyes bloodshot and your hair a frizzy mess. (Sirius thinks you look cute, though; especially with your missing front tooth that peeks out every time you talk to him.)Â
âBald guy, older than Merlin himself.â Sirius makes a face. âLooks like a troll. Smells like one, too.â
A giggle flutters past your lips, and your hands fly to your mouth. You really shouldnât be bad-mouthing your guests, but Sirius was right â Ferguson really did act like an ugly troll. You sigh, letting your arms fall to your side. âMy betrothed.âÂ
Sirius nods in understanding. âMy mother tried to set me up with my own cousin once.âÂ
You grimace. âWhich cousin?âÂ
He sits on his knees to face you, and with a very solemn face, he says, âBellatrix.â
This time, you laugh freely, throwing your head back as Sirius pouts at your amusement. âO-Oh, thatâs golden.âÂ
âNo, itâs not,â says Sirius, lips twitching as he watches you snort like a pig through your giggles. âItâs horrible. A literal nightmare. You should feel awful for me.â He pokes your stomach, and it just makes you laugh harder, eyes disappearing into your smile. âOi. I said feel awful, not take the piss out of me.âÂ
âS-Sorry.â You wheeze, batting away his hand pulling at your cheek. âI just canât imagine Bellatrix in a white wedding dress and saying her vows to you.â
âThatâs disgusting.â Sirius gags. âYouâre horrible, I hope you know that.âÂ
When you finally calm down and Sirius tickles your bare feet until you cry in surrender, the two of you lay on the grass as he points out each constellation to you. Later, he fishes a small box of sugar mice from his pocket and offers it to you, opening one for himself. âHereâs to shitty parents and the one day we get to decide our own future.âÂ
You bump your squeaky candy mice against his. âCheers, Black.âÂ
âWill you go to Hogwarts next year?â He asks you once heâs bitten off the tail of his mice.Â
You nod.Â
Sirius shifts on his side, holding his pinky out to you. âWeâll be friends when school starts?â
Again, you nod, wrapping your pinky around his. âFriends.âÂ
The next September comes, Sirius finds a compartment and one James Potter in it. You sit with Allegra Greengrass and Endora Lestrange on the way to Hogwarts. You are sorted into Slytherin, and Sirius finds freedom and a home in Gryffindor. You play the role created just for you; you lift your nose at those beneath you, adorn yourself in custom-made silk clothing, and carry yourself with the etiquette of a pure-blooded lady. Perfect grades, perfect hair, perfect clothes, always picture perfect.
You pretend that Allegra doesnât throw up in the evenings from the fear of getting married to a man twice her age. You pretend that you donât notice Endora sleep-walking and begging for her mother to save her from her father. You pretend that under your blankets, in the Slytherin dungeon, you are safe.Â
You pretend that it doesnât hurt when Sirius looks at you in disappointment when you shove a Hufflepuff student to the ground for getting a higher score than you in Charms.
They call you an ice-princess behind your back, and you overhear some of the fifth-years calling you foul words as well, and no one steps in to stop them; thereâs no defending a Slytherin, after all. But you are keeping your head above treacherous waters, and you suppose that is all that matters.)Â
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âSO ACCORDING TO THIS, Eloise was stuck in 1402 for five days until she was retrieved to the present, which means we only have four days left to figure out a way for you to get back home.âÂ
Harry sinks into his chair, arms crossed over his chest. The two of you had found an empty classroom to discuss your plans away from inquisitive ears. âWhatâs the rush?â Itâs unfair, heâd only just met you, and now heâs losing time with you.Â
You sigh. âHarry, Eloise Mintumble spent five days in the past and when she came back, her body aged five centuries, and she died in St. Mungos. Itâs not just about altering the whole timeline, you could actually die.âÂ
When you are met only with silence, you close the book, frowning. âHarry? Whatâs wrong?âÂ
Harry swallows the lump in his throat, looking out the window to avoid your gaze. âWhat do you know about the Mirror of Erised?âÂ
Your head tilts in confusion. âThat it shows our heartâs deepest desire.âÂ
âYeah,â says Harry, nodding. âI was eleven when I found it.âÂ
âOh, Harry. . .âÂ
Itâs almost pathetic how quickly his eyes water. âDid you know, before today, I hadnât known at all what your voice sounded like?âÂ
You stay quiet, and Harry sucks in a shaky breath.Â
âWhen I looked into the mirror, I saw my parentsâall of you. There I was, in the middle. You were behind meâhappy.â Harry swipes a tear from his eye. âI wanted to stay in that room, stare at that mirror forever.â
âItâsââ
âDangerous, I know.â He laughs bitterly. âJust like finally being able to meet you all here.â
âHarry, you arenât supposed to be here in the first place,â You say quietly, eyes drooping sadly.Â
âI know that!â He exclaims desperately. âBut is it so selfish to just want some time? I donât want an illusion, I want the real thing. A real family. Why canât I have that? Bloody Malfoy gets everything he wants, and what do I have?âÂ
âYour friends,â You tell him firmly. âYour friends who must be worried sick that youâre gone and must be going great lengths to bring you back.âÂ
âI know.â Harry wilts. Heâs got Remus at home, too, who probably needs him more than ever after Siriusâs death. âI know. But canât I just have this one thing?âÂ
You purse your lips for a moment, brows furrowed in thought. Then, you break the silence with: âDo you want to hear a story?â
âWhat?â Harry croaks, peering at you through wet lashes.Â
Shrugging, you say, âStories to remember us by. Iâve got six years worth of stories and then some. I know itâs not much, and youâve probably heard some of these already from the others in the future, but itâs better than nothing, right?â You lean against the back of your chair, glancing at the wall clock before grinning at Harry. âWeâve got time to spare, anyway.âÂ
Harry manages a smile, setting down his glasses before rubbing his stinging eyes with the handkerchief you offer him. He figures this is what Remus means when youâre the gentlest creature heâs ever known â just not gentle in what the world expects you to be.Â
âWhat do you say, Harry? I give you tidbits of the past, and you tell me if you know anything about the next Triwizard champion, so I can place my bets in advance.â Â
Harry snickers. âNot a chance, mum.âÂ
âWorth a try.â And the smile you give him is nearly blinding.Â
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(1977; ORIGINAL TIMELINE.)
YOU DONâT UNDERSTAND what it is about Gryffindors and their hobby of invading othersâ personal space.Â
A year into dating and James likes to shove his head under your shirt, claiming he loves the sound of your heartbeat â but you know really what he wants to nestle his head in between. The amount of cashmere blouses heâs ruined is absurd! Sirius has a hobby of tracing runes on the plane of your stomach. Lily prefers it when you sit in front of her, just within reach where she can wrap her arms around you and rest her head on your shoulder. Remus tends to lag behind the group when he notices you walking slower due to your leg flaring up. He kisses the side of your head and promises to chase the pain away â sappy poetic that he is. And in the moments where all five of you are together, tucked under a wide alcove, you can best believe there is no escaping what they like to call, a cuddle pile. Limbs are tangled, kisses are shared, and confessions of love are whispered.Â
Before them, you hadnât really known the different ways to love and be loved.Â
Onto the pressing matters at hand, you discover that the brazen show of affection extends to their parents as well. Particularly, the Potters. After a year, you finally caved into Jamesâs requests for you to spend the holidays at their manor, since the others have already made a space for themselves there, and James had said it would be an honor for you to feel at home with his parents, too. Honestly, you spoil them too much â one look into his bright, wide eyes and you gave in. James didnât even care that you brought two luggages for clothes alone; he lifted each bag with delight and with ease.Â
(Remus had the audacity to laugh when he caught you and Sirius staring at Jamesâs flexed muscles, mouth wide open.Â
âAs I have said, Remus Lupin, I do not drool!â
âSure, dove, whatever you say.â)
But now, you really arenât so sure of your decision.Â
âOh, sheâs beautiful, Jamie!â Euphemia encases you in a bear hug the moment you step inside the manor. Youâre engulfed in the scent of cinnamon and burnt sugar. You stiffen as she cradles your face in between her palms, smiling ever so fondly at you, cooing about how precious you look, much like a mother would â and how your mother never did. You wonder if this is what youâve been missing all along â the thought stabs you right in the heart. âPlease excuse the mess, dear, we havenât had the chance to clean up yet, Monty and I are excited to try the recipe Lily owled to us the other day, you see.âÂ
âI-Itâs okay,â You rasp, struggling to hold back the tears.Â
âOh, what a darling you are!â Euphemia smiles and ushers you further inside. âCome, come. The others are right upstairs. You must be tired from the train ride. It is so lovely to finally meet you. Make yourself at home, dear heart â James Fleamont Potter! Give your mama a kiss this instant! Donât think introducing your girlfriend will distract me from the fact you didnât owl me letters for two months straight!âÂ
James whines as he hides behind you. âMum, Iâm seventeen, stop embarrassing me.âÂ
Euphemia scoffs, hands snapping to her hips. âYouâre going to be my baby boy forever, now come here.âÂ
With a shy smile, you step away to surrender James to his mother â you donât understand which part of this is embarrassing; you wish for a mum whoâd welcome you home like that, with unconditional love and kind eyes. James squawks and calls you a traitor, just before his mum attacks him with loud, exaggerated kisses to his cheek, leaving lipstick stains all over his face. You hide a laugh behind your palm, ignoring the way your heart pangs at the sight of their unrestrained smiles. Euphemia lets her son go after a few more seconds, cackling at the masterpiece sheâs created on a grumbling James, whoâs rubbing his skin to erase his motherâs affections. She hugs you once more before setting you off, telling you to meet Fleamont after youâve unpacked.Â
Just as you reach the foot of the stairs, you hear a girlish squeal, then the sound of rapid footfall against each wooden step. Lily greets the two of you by jumping off the last step and wrapping each arm around yours and Jamesâs neck. âWelcome home, Jamie!â She captures his lips with her own before doing the same to you, cupping your cheek lovingly, âSo happy you made it, princess! How was the ride here?âÂ
You were never a fan of traveling by Floo; it made you nauseous after, and left you with a pounding headache for hours. Without hesitation, the others offered to accompany you on the train, but you insisted they Floo ahead to Godricâs Hollow â it took a lot of convincing, but they finally agreed, (theyâre not the only ones spoiled; they couldnât refuse you, too.) With the exception of James, who wanted to be there when you saw his home for the first time. You nearly cried when you saw how well-loved their manor was; rose shrubs dipped in snow, Siriusâs motorcycle parked outside, a mailbox with poorly painted shapes, the fences covered in Christmas lights, and the amount of shoes by the door. From outside, you could hear the laughter and warm conversations.Â
âIt was fine,â You say in a daze.
Lily sees right through you â and frowns sadly. âYou alright?âÂ
Were you?Â
You catch sight of the moving photographs of James and you finally reach your breaking point. Thereâs a swell in your throat that you canât seem to push down. Thereâs a photo of James, Lily, Remus and Sirius; James is in his Quidditch jersey, raising the Golden Snitch high up in the air, Remus is twirling Lily, his arms around her waist, and Sirius is holding up a charmed banner that says: Gryffindor Rules! Slytherin Sucks! Except For My Darling Angel Love Of My Life Most Beautiful And Gorgeous Perfect Brilliant Girlfriend!Â
There are hints of life all around the manor. Remusâs textbooks and scarf are laid by the coffee table. Lilyâs O.W.L. marks are framed on the wall, along with Dumbledoreâs letters to James and Lily awarding them the position of Head Girl and Head Boy, as well as McGonagallâs previous letter to Remus that came with his Prefect badge years ago. Thereâs a spot dedicated to Peter, filled with a photograph of him awkwardly holding his Herbology test, one that he scored a hundred and twelve percent on. Itâs a wall dedicated to them, you realize.Â
Then, you find it.Â
Right there, up above Jamesâs spot, and beside Siriusâs display of beyond perfect Transfiguration exam marks, and a picture of him and Remus kissing each side of your face.Â
Itâs a space on that wall just for you.Â
James follows your gaze and rubs the back of his head, ears tinged with a shade of deep pink. âMum left a space when I first told her about you. I-Itâs yours, you can put anything you want there.âÂ
âI canât,â You whisper, lips quivering as your heart cracks into a million pieces. Itâs too much.Â
James blinks. âCanât? Itâs yours, I promise. Mum wonât mind. You can even hang your dumb Montrose Magpies poster and I wonât tear it down â Maraudersâ honor. I can help you if you want. I-Iâm not good as decorating as Lily, but I paid attention to your boring explanation of color theory and I know that you hate this shade ofââ
âJames, I canât do this.âÂ
Thatâs all you say before you run out of the door.Â
(And youâre absolutely delusional if you think James wonât follow you out that door and into the brewing snowstorm.)Â
You hear James call out to you, but you opt to ignore him and clutch your winter coat tighter around your body, shivering in the blowing wind, trudging through the deep snow through your heeled boots â designer couldnât help you now even if you tried. You sniff, the salty taste of your tears dripping to your lips, chest tightening with a foreign kind of pain, and the frost nipping at your fingers. You give up after a few minutes, falling to the ground with an anguished cry, hand clutching the front of your chest as you struggle to breathe.Â
James reaches you in a matter of minutes, draping his jacket over you, barely flinching as the cold welts his bare skin. Frantically, he wipes the tears from your eyes, a pained expression on his face as he sees you cry helplessly. âCome on, dove, itâs not safe out here. Letâs go back home, yeah? Iâm sorry for upsetting you. Iâm sorry, Iâm sorry, Iâm sorry â Iâm so sorry, dove, please donât cry, itâs killing me to sâsee you like this.â Tears fall from his eyes, and he begins stuttering from the cold, but you canât go back to the manor. âWhat did I do? Please tell me so I can fix it. I love youâIâm sorry.â
You bat his chest. âGâGo home, Jamie. Iâll just take the train back to the castle.âÂ
âWhat?â He shakes his head, grabbing onto your hands. âYâYou canât. Not in this weather. Youâll get sick if you try to walk back to the station.âÂ
You withdraw from his hold as you back away from James, slipping into the ice-cold mask you know so well.Â
James rises in an instant, reaching for you. âNo, no, no, no, no. You donât get to do that. Not now. Not with me. Please, just come home and I-Iâll fix it.âÂ
âGoodbye, James,â You tell him firmly, clenching your jaw as you look him straight in the eyes.Â
He grimaces. âThat wonât work on me, princess, and you know it. Donât push me awayâplease.âÂ
âGo home, James!â You yell bitterly, pivoting on your heel as you march through the thick inches of snow, hearing Remus and Lilyâs voice grow louder in the distance. âJust go!â
He grits his teeth, nails digging deep into the palms of his hand. âYouâre a coward if you walk away from hereâfrom usâright now!â James shouts through chattering teeth and stray tears. âAnd I hate cowards more than anything!âÂ
You donât look back.Â
(Later that night, James stares blankly at the fireplace, tossing twigs now and then. Heâs all out of tears. Remus crosses his legs as he sits beside James and offers him a steaming mug of hot chocolate.Â
âDonât want one,â He mutters, words coarse from earlier, head turning away from Remusâs gift. âJust want her.âÂ
Remus sets the beverage on the ground before pulling Jamesâs head down to his chest, gently wiping the tears from his eyes as he wraps the blanket around both of them. He presses a soft kiss to Jamesâs hair.Â
âI said I hated her,â James says weakly. âI donâtâI never will. I just hate that sheâs out there spending Christmas all alone. She could be hereâwith us. I hate not knowing that sheâs safe, or that she thinks I donât love her anymoreâthatâs a bloody lie, Moony. I adore her. If anything, I donât deserve her.âÂ
James finds out that he does have more tears left in him. âI miss her. Bring her back, Rem, please.â
âYouâll cry yourself sick, love.â Remus wipes each tear away. âLetâs go to bed, yeah? Mornings do have a way of bringing miracles to us.â Because after a night of excruciating pain under the moonâs command, he wakes up to sunlight, and there you all are â smiling down at him like he is deserving of love; and maybe Remus canât fault you for running away.
Youâd kiss him gently and tell him how proud you are of him for coming back to you.Â
Remus only hopes you come back to them, too.)
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(1976; CURRENTLY, IN THE PAST.)
âAND THAT, dear Harry, is how I humiliated Lucius Malfoy in fifth-year.â Your eyes gleam wickedly as you rest your arms on the school desk. âIf he ever bothers you in your time, just mention my nameâoh, I wish I could see the look on his face when he realizes Iâm haunting him from my grave. Tell him, okay?âÂ
Harry nods excitedly. âDefinitely.â
âGot anymore stories?â He asks.Â
You cackle menacingly. âBoy, do I ever. Let me tell you about the one time Beckett McLaggen took me out on a date to Madam Puddifootâs!âÂ
Harry grimaces. âDo I even want to hear about this?âÂ
âOh, pish-posh.â You dismiss him with a wave. âYou do, this story is hilarious. Now that I look back on it, Sirius was quite cross with him for the rest of the dayâhow strange. I wonder why.âÂ
Harry stares at you in disbelief. âYouâre joking.âÂ
âI most certainly am not, Harry Potter.âÂ
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(1974; ORIGINAL TIMELINE.)
AN EAR-PIERCING scream wakes you up in the middle of the night. You snatch your wand from under your pillow, heart thudding against your chest in fear â last year, the Prewett twins decided it was funny to break into the girlsâ quarters at midnight; you get a month worth of detention for hitting Gideon with the Expulso curse and suspension from class for two weeks, while the twins get away with a slap on the wrist and have the time of their lives spreading rumors of you being a Death-Eater.Â
Endora shoots up to her feet as well, staring at you in panic â then the girl screams again, and you realize itâs Allegra.Â
You sigh in relief, lowering your wand before saying to Endora, âI-Itâs alright. Iâll handle it.âÂ
âAre you sure?â Endora asks timidly, gnawing at her lip and wincing when Allegra wails once more.Â
âCertain,â You respond, yawning.Â
As Endora climbs back into her bed, you slip into Allegraâs side, holding her head to your chest, brushing your fingers through her hair and untangling the knots. Like most of the Greengrass women, she was of ethereal beauty â silky blonde hair, smooth and fair skin, deep blue eyes that enchant wizards and witches alike. But her cheeks have gone sallow from exhaustion, eyes devoid of any emotion, and her skin now sunken into her bones.Â
âI donât want to marry himâI canât! Heâs old enough to be my father!â Allegra sobs violently, desperate for anyone to hear her, but no one really ever hears their cries from the dungeon. âThey said theyâd wait until I graduatedâthey promised! Iâm supposed to marry him this summer!âÂ
Your heart breaks for your friend â thereâs nothing you can do but hold her until sheâs cried every bit of her soul out.Â
âI hate them,â Allegra whispers to you; she had been shedding tears for hours, trembling in your arms until morning finally came.Â
âI know,â You say defeatedly.Â
âI wish I was dead,â She replies lifelessly. âHe canât marry a dead bride.âÂ
âDonât say that,â You beg as you hug her tight; afraid to lose her to the world that has worn her down. âPlease.âÂ
Allegra sinks into her pillows, and you follow in suit, hesitantly laying your head beside hers. She stares at the ceiling dully. âThe world is so, so cruel to us daughters sometimes. And itâll be cruel to our daughters, and their daughters. When will it end?âÂ
âI donât know,â You say honestly.Â
Allegra hums, neither disappointed nor surprised, and turns away to lay on her side. âPansy,â She mumbles.
âWhat?â
âIf we lived in a better world and I married for love, Iâd want to name my daughter Pansy â like the flower.â
(Later that day, you are given detention for beating Evan Rosier to a pulp. He makes a joke about dirty blood, and you snap â you are tired of laughing and pandering to the arrogant men in your life. This is the first time you publicly defy your parents, and it felt good â more than good, it was liberating. Itâs like breathing fresh air for the first time. Then, you earn a second detention for storming up to the Gryffindor common room and punching Fabian Prewett in the face â because fourth-year boys had no business sneaking into the girlsâ dorm in the middle of the night for some stupid prank â and you threaten him by pointing the tip of your wand deep into his neck, demanding they apologize to you, Allegra, and Endora.Â
You get what you want, naturally â as princesses do. You decide then that youâre going to create a world where girls like Allegra donât cry anymore.)
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(1976; CURRENTLY, IN THE PAST.)Â
HARRY TWINGES WHEN he hears the end of your fourth or fifth story of the afternoon â no wonder you had been so angered by his being in your room. âI-Iâm sorryââÂ
âYesterday was hardly your fault,â You interrupt him. âThereâs no controlling where magic brings you, not in your case. You didnât know, but now you know. I donât hold it against them â anymore. Fifteen-year-old boys can be stupid, and at least theyâve learned from their mistakes. You should have seen your mother â erm, Lily â she looked like she was ready to kill them after finding out what they had done. Even Molly was cross with the twins, and you know how loyal Molly is to her family.â
Oh, Harry knows.
And Hermione knows it all too well.Â
âOthers call us evil, conniving and cruel, Harry,â You tell him grimly, âBut I will protect my own, no matter what I have to do.â
At that moment, Harry thinks he understands why some people come to fear Slytherin.Â
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(1978; ORIGINAL TIMELINE.)Â
âLOOK, LILY-PAD, the princess is drooling again.âÂ
You open your eyes to glare at Sirius. âI donât drool, idiot.âÂ
Lily chortles as she presses a kiss to your shoulder. âOf course you donât, princess.â
Currently, youâre lying on a shabby loveseat that is too small to hold the three of you; itâs the only furniture in the new cottage you call home, where Potter Manor was right across the street. (Euphemia was ecstatic to have you all nearby â the lovely woman was sprite for her age, but you notice the way she stops to sit and catch her breath, Sirius and James hovering over her attentively; youâre good at pretending, so you pretend that the Potters will be around forever.) Some rooms are dusty with cobwebs, walls unfinished, with the floors creak under your feet, and thereâs no other place youâd rather call home.Â
Youâre in between Sirius and Lily; your lips swollen from their kisses, cheeks flushed and the column of your throat graced with love marks. Itâs the most beautiful set of jewelry youâve ever worn, not even burmese rubies could compare. Lilyâs hand rests under your jumper, Siriusâs thigh wedged between your own. While peace blankets the three of you, James and Remus have yet to come home from their task given by the Order.Â
âYou need a haircut, my love,â You mumble drowsily, pulling at one of the dark ringlets â itâs gone past his shoulders now. He captures your hand and leaves a delicate kiss on your fingertips.Â
Lily buries her nose in your hair. âSheâs right, Siri.âÂ
âIâm always right.â You pout.Â
Sirius, love-sick fool that he is, smiles as he tilts your chin with his finger and ensnares you in a kiss that leaves you breathless. âCourse you are â our girlâs bloody brilliant, isnât she, Lily-pad?â
âWithout a doubt.â
You roll your eyes at their antics, rolling around so that your back is pressed to Siriusâs chest â theyâre not fooled, however; Lily sees the way your eyes flicker in amusement and the way your lips threaten to curve up into a smile. She traces the swell of your lips with her thumb, to the dip of your nose, and to the apples of your cheek. Sea-green eyes beam at you.
âI love you,â says Lily, committing every inch of you to her memory as she wears a melancholic smile. âI donât know who told you that you donât deserve to be loved, but they were wrong. You are so precious to us, dove, you donât even know how much. This right here is real â and nothing could ever change that.âÂ
As it turns out, you did have more smiles to give â only the happy ones; not the fake, courteous smiles that you had given to your motherâs friends in the past. You come to intertwine your hand with Lilyâs, the one that had been resting on your cheek, tenderly wiping the tears that pooled within your eyes. Your heart could burst from your chest. They had a habit of wringing every emotion out of you; of making love feel real, not just a myth from a Muggle storybook. And you find, that you didnât mind this particular habit of theirs. In the comforts of the place you call home, where you irrefutably belong, you are free to seek their arms and fall into their love, and the best part is where you get to love them right back.Â
How lucky you are.Â
âLetâs get married,â You blurt out, holding your breath, feeling Siriusâs hand on your waist stiffen.Â
âWhat?â Lily gasps breathlessly.Â
You smile up at Lily. âLetâs get married. All of us. I donât care where, oâor about the rings, letâs just get married. With the war going on, we deserve sâsomething good.âÂ
Lily sobs as she nods excitedly. âYes. Oh my Godsâweâre getting married!âÂ
Sirius stares at you in wonder. âBloody hell, dove, give a guy some warning, would you?â
You grin. âIs that a yes?âÂ
âItâs a yes â forever.â Sirius dives in to kiss you senseless. âCouldnât get rid of us now even if you tried.âÂ
âI donât think Iâd want to, anyway.âÂ
Right then, the rickety door slams open, and you hear the loves of your life calling out for the three of you. Followed by the heavy thud of Dragonhide boots plunking down onto the floor
âWeâre home!â James announces in the entryway.Â
Lily wastes no time in shooting up from the sofa and welcoming them home with quite a unique greeting:
âWeâre all getting married!âÂ
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(1976; CURRENTLY, IN THE PAST.)Â
âThat ring is an heirloom passed down to the children in our family,â You tell Harry, pointing to the band around his finger. âItâs meant to symbolize our loyalty and duty to our House. My mother said I would have earned it only when I became a wife to Ferguson Bulstrode.â You chuckle at Harryâs perturbed grimace. âNo, I didnât marry him â thankfully. After Allegra. . . IâI. . . I couldnât bear it. If I was going to marry, it would be on my own terms, and it would be for love, nothing less. Then, if my child wanted it, Iâd give them this ring. I want to leave behind a legacy that I created. When I was younger, Iâd resigned to a fate that was forcefully carved by someone elseâs hand.âÂ
You shake your head. âI want to die being remembered by those who loved me. Otherwise, I was never truly alive.âÂ
Harry wonât let that happen, he wonât ever let your name be forgotten. Heâll share of your kindness to his friends, of your bravery and loyalty. Hermione will love your fondness of Muggle musicals and how you stood up to Lilyâs defense in a world that ostracized her for being different. Heâll remind Remus of your love for him, that he had brought you hope in times of despair. Harry is going to make sure the world knows you had been so full of life with endless love to give. You are going to be remembered in the way Voldemort never will.Â
âWhat do the words mean?â He stares at the writing: Tempus Edax Rerum.
You smile. âTime, devourer of all things.â
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(1978; ORIGINAL TIMELINE.)
âREMUSâTHE MUGGLES ARE stuck in the telly again!âÂ
Remus snickers as he takes the vacant space beside you on the loveseat, now sewn up with care and spattered with knitted quilts and throw pillows â still too small to carry three people but hasnât given out yet, anyway. He takes Lilyâs legs over his lap, swiftly stealing a kiss from your lips. âItâs a film, dove, theyâre acting.âÂ
You purse your lips. âTheyâre trapped inside, then?âÂ
Lily snorts into her tub of chocolate fudge ice cream. âNot quite, princess, itâs recorded. Movies are like moving photographs â but theyâre an hour long with sounds.âÂ
âOh.â You turn your attention back to the screen, back to the film Lily had been watching. You had to admit â the story of Sandy and Danny was an interesting one. âLily-pad, sheâs singing â again.âÂ
Sirius hushes you from where he was cuddling James on the other couch. âSheâs supposed to sing, dove, itâs a musical.âÂ
âWell, yes,â You begin, and James groans into Siriusâs chest, âBut they should just talk instead of singing all the time â Sandyâs got a lovely voice, though. I just donât understand why Dannyâs treating her like that! Truthfully, I donât like any of Sandyâs new friends, other than Frenchy â sheâs harmless. If I was Sandy Iâd move on from Danny â but then again, that hair and those muscles, and his leather jacket! I canât blame her.âÂ
Sirius glowers at you. âYou like his leather jacket?âÂ
âHis hair?â James exclaims in horror.Â
Remus chuckles as he tucks you in his side, kissing your temple. âIf I were you, dove, Iâd be quiet and just watch the film.â
âOh, no, no.â Sirius barely glances at the television as he pauses the film and stands up to point an accusatory finger at you. âSince when were you into leather jackets? Do you think those are cool? Since when? Jamie, should I get one? Letâs unpack this, right now. And his muscles, really?âÂ
Your eyes roll to the back of your head. âPlay the film, Black, I want to see the end of their love story.âÂ
âIâm telling Euphemia on you!âÂ
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(1976; CURRENTLY, IN THE PAST.)Â
ââand then we realized that we accidentally locked Hermione in with the troll.â Harryâs arms flail about as he shares some of his adventures with you â it had only been fair. He felt like a young boy again, entering Hogwarts for the first time as he watched you listen to him intently, gasping at tale of the vanishing glass and scolding him when he says he and Ron had decided to go searching for Hermione, and by extension, the troll.Â
Your eyes grow wide. âA troll? In Hogwarts? They canât have, not unlessââ
âSomeone let it inâI know!â Harry grins. âYouâre not going to believe who let the troll in the castle.âÂ
You snap your fingers, âMalfoy, the older one. I know that lumpâs got something to do with this. Canât have been Snape or Quirrell.â
âJust you wait.â Harryâs eyes twinkle with mischief. ââand so, Professor McGonagall finds us, and can you believe it? She awards us for dumb luck! Then. . .âÂ
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(1979; ORIGINAL TIMELINE.)
IT HAD COME AS A surprise when you volunteered to join the Order of the Phoenix. You wanted to scoff at their shocked faces â was it so surprising that you wanted to protect your family? They let Severus Snape join their ranks, and youâre fairly certain that youâre a better fighter and survivalist than him â not the better liar, however, he can have that one. The week before, you and the others had an argument that lasted for the whole day. They did not want you in harmâs way, and you would rather die than stay at home, waiting idly for them to return, when you could be out there alongside them.Â
(âItâs not some game out there!â Remus runs through his hair in frustration â he had always been so careful to never raise his voice at you, but this one time, he needed you to back down. âEvery time you step into a raid, thereâs a possibility of you dying, donât you understand that? And even if you survive â youâll have blood on your hands, and it does not wash away no matter how many times you try, trust me, we know.âÂ
âSo what?â You throw your hands up in the air, equally aggravated. âI just stay here like some. . . some pet waiting for their owners to come home?âÂ
âYes!â Lily angrily replies. âThat is the whole point of us joining the Order â so you get to live another day. So we all have a chance at this new world without a war. Let us protect you!â
You grind down on your jaw. âYou have got another thing coming, if you think Iâm not going to fight tooth and nail for my future.âÂ
James slams a fist onto the kitchen counter. âThere are horrors out there you canât even imagine. I-Itâs worse than we thought. Itâs our every nightmare come to life.âÂ
You raise your chin defiantly. âThen we face it together.â)
Each day, you survive, and each day the five of you return home â scarred and bruised, but safe within the arms of one another. When you collapse and crumble, it is only for the walls of your home to witness.Â
Now a month into autumn, you are on your first task without Sirius, James, Lily or even Remus. Instead, you are assigned by Dumbledore to Knockturn Alley along with Peter Pettigrew and Gideon Prewett. How strange time was, years ago youâd never associate with the proud Gryffindors, and now you had to trust them to guard your back. Everyone had to grow up quickly during war, even pranksters.Â
The alley was quiet â too quiet for your liking. You had been on alert since the moment you apparated into the area, wand at your ready. The back of your neck prickled with goosebumps as you kept an ear out for any sign of movement.Â
Peter shivers and you glance at him â heâs become far too skinny, constantly shrinking into himself out of fear. And while you want to comfort him, you keep your eyes up ahead. Still, there's a nagging feeling that you canât quite make out. Itâs different from all the other times youâve been asked to search and rescue.Â
âDonât you feel like thereâs something wrong?â You ask Gideon, eyes snapping to the flock of crows flying overhead.Â
âDunno, kid,â Gideon says, nudging your shoulder with pressed lips. âEverything about this is freaking me out. The place is too empty.âÂ
âI get what you mean,â You reply, swallowing your own nervousness. Without waiting for the rest, you speed up your pace. âIâll scout ahead, who knows whatâs been here before us. I donât want to risk any of our lives, so letâs be careful. Gideon, ward the area while I check for any cursed objects, last time you almost got your arm cut off by a newspaper of all things. And Peter, could you. . . Peter?âÂ
When you turn to check behind you, it all happens so fast.Â
âAvada Kedavra!âÂ
You scream as Gideonâs deathly pale body falls to the floor.Â
âNo!âÂ
You arenât given a moment to rush to his side â someone digs their wand in the side of your neck, and you stiffen in their hold. Itâs not until they hiss in your ear that you recognize the voice.Â
âRosier.â You spit, biting down on your lip when he presses the tip of his wand further into your flesh.Â
âStupid witch,â He taunts, eyes dilating with vengeance. âWhere are your lovers now?âÂ
âJealous?â You claw at his arms, chest heaving up and down. âWe donât have room for one more, sorry.â
âShut up!â He pushes you to the ground in blind rage, and thatâs all the opening you need.Â
âExpulso!âÂ
Each curse you send his way lands on his cloaked body, sending him staggering backwards. With ease, you deflect each spell he counters with. Youâre winning, he is growing tired, and perhaps that is why you let your guard down.Â
âAccio wand!âÂ
The magic fizzles out, and the spell dies on your lips. As you swivel your head to find out whoâs stolen your wand, you expect to find another Death Eater â except itâs Peter. Just Peter Pettigrew, quivering in his boots with tears and snot dripping down his face, your wand in his free hand. You furrow your brows â it doesnât make sense.Â
âPeter?â You call out.Â
âCrucio!âÂ
The curse finds its home in your body â and it sinks deep into your flesh, grinding your bones until you slump to the ground, wriggling as you draw blood from your lips, refusing to let them hear an ounce of your pain. Blood trickles down your nose as you hear Evan Rosier dancing around you in glee. You know this curse well; the sound of your father condemning you gleefully echo in your head. You crawl over to Gideon â hand desperately reaching for his shirt.Â
âCrucio!â Rosier grabs you by the hair and howls with laughter. âScream for me againâCrucio!âÂ
Itâs as though someone had begun to rip you in half. Your bones shift and crack with every uttered curse. The veins in your eyes have popped and through bloody vision, you see Peter cowering away from you.
âYouâfuckingâtraitor,â You gurgle, throat welling up with blood thatâs risen from your stomach. âTheyâllâneverâforgive youânever.âÂ
âCrucio! Crucio! Crucio! Come on, witch â SCREAM! Look at her go, Pettigrew, crawling like some pathetic worm.âÂ
You lay in your owl pool of blood, wearing a body that is marred and lacerated. But you see something in Gideonâs hand. Iâm sorry, you want to tell him. Iâll get you home to Molly, you promise, please lend me your magic this once. With every last bit of your strength, just as Rosier directs another curse at you â one you know you wonât survive â you snatch the wand from Gideonâs hand and tear the last of your magic from your throat.Â
âDefodio!âÂ
You wait with a bated breath as silence fills the alley; lucky to have remembered Professor Flitwickâs quick remark as to how the slight difference in pronouncing a charm could alter its effect. Rosier stands on shaky legs, a stream of blood leaking from the corner of his mouth. You watch as he looks down to his chest, where a gaping hole now lies instead of where his ribcage and heart should be. As Gideon had done before him, Evan Rosier crashes to the ground.Â
That just leaves one more problem.Â
Peter scurries to your side the moment Rosier can hurt him no longer. âI-Iâm sorryâIâm sorry. I had to. . . TâThey killed my mum, they killed MâMary, and tâthey said I would die too if I dâdidnât do this. Iâm sorry. YâYour father was there, too. He said he would take you in, let you lâlive if you joined us. WâWe can live, tâthereâs still a chance for us to survive.âÂ
Your fingers are bent at unsightly angles, the remnants of the Torture Curse still flowing through your veins, but your face contorts in anger as you let your hand curl around his neck. He sobs louder, and though your grip is weakening â you make sure he looks into your eyes, that he feels your touch.
âIâd ratherâdie.â You say through gritted teeth, nails drawing blood from his grimy skin. âYouâll die tooâyouâll feel my blood on your skinâeverywhere you go, Peter.âÂ
Peter shakes his head, now clumsily pushing his wand down to the center of your chest. âYâYou were the only oâone who dâdidnât laugh at me. NâNot like the others.âÂ
âWhen they find outâyouâre dead, Pettigrew.â You laugh darkly as more blood exits your body through your lips. âThereâs nowhere you can hideâyouâre a dead man.âÂ
âP-Please die,â Peter cries out, each killing spell coming out as a garbled whisper. âPlease die, sâso I can live. I câcanât fight anymore, Iâm tired.âÂ
Your vision goes a hazy shade of white, Peterâs silhouette fading away to the familiar scenery of your cottage in Godricâs Hollow.Â
Oh.
Dying is less painful than you had expected it to be. Itâs like coming home after a dayâs work.Â
You just wanted to rest now.Â
The world caves in on you, and you barely hear Peterâs next words.Â
âAvada Kedavra.âÂ
(Itâs past midnight when Peter Pettigrew arrives at Grimmauld Place, where itâs been altered to host the members of the Order, Lily sobs in relief and gathers him in her arms.Â
Youâll feel my blood on your skin.
Youâre a dead man.Â
Dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead.Â
âOh, Iâm so glad youâre home safe â welcome home â thank the Gods youâre alive,â Lily blabbers through her tears, checking his face for any major injuries. âMerlin, what happened? Thereâs too much blood on you. Itâs on your shirt and your face.âÂ
âItâs not mine,â says Peter hoarsely.Â
Siriusâs gaze darkens, arms crossed over his jacket as he leaned against the wall. âWhere is she?âÂ
Lily nods, standing on her tiptoes to search for any sign of you. âPeter? IâIs she alright? Has something happened to her?âÂ
Peter stays silent for a moment too long, and he finds himself slammed against the wall behind him, Sirius snarling in his face as he seizes the front of Peterâs soiled shirt. âWhere the fuck is she, Pettigrew?âÂ
Peter begins to weep. âIâIt was an ambush. None of us saw it coming. Gideon râran. She was taking on two Death-Eaters at once and IâI was too far away.âÂ
Lily collapses to the ground with a heart-wrenching scream.
Sirius growls as he drives his fist to the wall, inches away from Peterâs face. âWhere is her body?âÂ
âIt was a disintegration spell.â With Severus Snape â brought to the Malfoy Manor to be made as an example of what happens to blood-traitors.Â
James pushes Sirius out of the way and grabs a hold of Peter, knocking his head against the concrete. âIt should have been youââ James snaps at Peter. âIf it came down to you or herâyou should have saved her!âÂ
âW-What?â Peter stammers, eyes wide. âShe chose to save mâme.âÂ
James sneers at him. âYou should have just died.â)
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ST. JEROMEâS GRAVEYARD had exactly one visitor. Remus Lupin sits in between James and Lilyâs graves, a bottle of firewhiskey in his hand â four empty at his side. He must be going crazy. Thereâs no funeral for Sirius as thereâs no body to actually bury, Harry is presumed missing after an attack in Diagon Alley, and your name stares back at him mockingly. He tries not to dwell on your passing â there have been too many holes, too many details left unsaid; and he knows just the rat who has all the answers. Unfortunately, Wormtail wonât come out of whatever hole heâs crawled into. Either him, or Severus.Â
He sighs, rubbing the temples of his head to ease the growing pains.Â
You are the first to be buried of the five. Like Sirius, there had been no recovered body to lay to rest, but they asked for a compromise instead. Your name is engraved under Euphemiaâs in her tombstone, and Remus figures itâs the fitting place to leave you be â with your mother, welcoming you home with open arms. He hopes youâre at peace, wherever you are. (Because, honestly, at this point, he might just fucking follow you.)Â
Remus takes another swig of his alcohol, laughing bitterly to himself. He glances at Jamesâs headstone and raises his bottle to him. âNot even in death, huh?â
He downs the last of the drink, rising to his tremulous legs. Remus gathers the flower bouquets he had bought earlier this morning; lilies-of-the-valley for Lily, white carnations for Euphemia, forget-me-nots for you, and for James â Remus leaves a moving photograph of him and Sirius; itâs a snapshot taken by Lily during the wedding as James dips his head low to kiss Sirius. Remus thinks itâs a wonderful memory to remember them by.Â
âTake care of them for me, Jamie.â
And that is all the goodbyes Remus has the strength for.Â
end note. i think i was crying the whole time i was writing this part, LMAO. i should be able to wrap things up in the next one. important!! there is actually a scene i was hesitant to include, but i ended up writing anyway. it's the whole part where allegra greengrass breaks down, and it was difficult for me to decide because i knew the implications; that i had a strong underlying message in that part, and i don't want it to be misconstrued or anything. pls pls tell me if it comes off as offensive, i definitely don't want to hurt anyone. nevertheless, thank you again so so so much for reading!! if you spot a plot hole, no you didnt!! i hope the time-jumps weren't too confusing! again, thank you so so much for reading!!
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Can we have a part 2 Deadpool reader with the boys and maybe soldier boy tooââ if you want to of course
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t/w: loooots of dark humour/jokes, reader's origin will be explained underneath, reader is still an asshole lol that comes with the character, mention about killing,death,gore, weed, drugs, Reader is gn!!!
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here's a version with the seven, kiss kiss <3
Origin:
Quick summary, when you were born, your parents had agreed with Vought to have you be pumped full of Compound V so you could grow up and be a hero working under them, but the problem was when you were around 7, they changed their mind so Vought ended up sending several people to come to your house to settle the matter.
Your whole family was massacred in the living room during thanksgiving and when they tried to capture you. You were able to run away. Homeless and living on the street, you grew up in a life of crime, depending on nobody but yourself. Make sense? No? Good! Let's start now.
BUTCHER
To him, you were like a fly that won't leave him alone.
How he knew you was through Mallory, she thought you were okay and fit for the job since you hated Vought just as much.
Obviously he didn't like you once you were introduced to him and the two (M.M and Frenchie)
"No way am I lettin' a supe join us"
":("
Though after what happened to Mallory's grandchildren, the gang pretty much dispersed but wherever Butcher went, you followed. Since he was the only person you trusted... and also enjoy annoying the shit out of.
He'd head inside a club, relieved he hadn't seen you for the past few days so he decided to grab a drink by the bar to unwind.
"Whiskey" He said with his eyes looking around, paranoia shown on his face.
Once his drink was served, he would look back to find your eyes smiling at him, you were wearing a bartender disguise over your red suit.
"Did you miss me?"
"Oh christ..."
When you heard word that he was gathering back the team, you had to be there. What kind of friend would you be if you didn't?
Undoubtedly he had to admit, there were times where he was grateful to have you on the team but there were also other times he regretted it.
For example, that time when you guys needed to sneak into a lab to get something and the goal was to stay quiet but even that simple rule was hard for you to follow.
"Room's up ahead. (Y/N) I need you toâ"
"Heads up!" You said as you threw a bomb at the metal door.
The explosion causing the alarm to turn on and it had the whole lab now on high alert. You shrug innocently when Butcher glared at you like he wanted to tear you apart.
Also, you enjoy constantly pissing him off. You can't die so you don't really care if he'll kill you for it.
"Maybe, if you didn' press the fuckin' button, we wouldn't have to come bac' to save yer ass from the guards"
"OOH GOD SAVE THE QUEEEN!! Please, cry me a fucking river. I got us the target didn't I?"
"He's dead"
"Well you weren't being specific when you said to capture him"
But it's fine, all his frustration will be solved once he uses you as bait. He knows you can't die but hey, it makes him feel slightly better watching you get shot at.
Despite your ups and downs, he appreciates you. When the team would turn against him on his insane journey for revenge, he always found you the only one still standing by his side. You're loyal and he likes that.
Compatibility? 75%
HUGHIE
You treat him like a child.
No seriously you baby talk him sometimes and it annoys him
"Awwwww is little hughie angry?"
"Stop..."
"Does baby want his milky?"
Since he's pretty much the only person who isn't that exposed to crime as the others, he's terrified 100% everytime when he's paired up to do any dirty work with you.
"Now listen buddy, you better start talking or I'm gonna shoot" You said, gun raised at the man who seemed to be begging you to spare his life in a language you didn't speak.
"I don't think he speaks English"
"Ah shit... ENGLISH!! SPEAK!! ABCDEFG??!"
"How is shouting in English gonna make him understand?"
"Eh, you're right"
BANG
"WHY'D YOU SHOOT HIM??!"
"Well did you expect me to pull out Duolingo and start taking classes?!"
You had to admit, it was a pain in the ass each time he starts giving you the cold shoulder whenever he gets mad at you for doing something terrible. It was like his way of guilt tripping you so you always try to apologise in your own ways.
"Hey..." You said, handing him ice cream.
"...I uh... I donât like Strawberry ice cream... I thought I told you that"
"God you're so ungrateful!!"
Since he was such a scaredy cat, you try to tone down your craziness a bit. For the sake of him not going into cardiac arrest.
"(Y/N) STOP!! She has nothing to do with this!! She was tricked" Hughie grabbed you by the arm to pull your gun away from the innocent woman.
You turn your head to look at him, then at the woman, then at him again, then the woman, then him again.
"Ugh finnnne... you're boring..."
However, he does appreciate you trying to be a better person. Even you had to admit, after you met him and became friends. You noticed yourself being less brutal than you used to be. The thought keeps you awake at night and it scares the shit out of you.
But oh well, how could you ever say no to those scared little puppy eyes?
Compatibility? 55%
FRENCHIE
He's like your hype man which is concerning.
Not because you're not afraid to get the job done but also because you always have his back.
"Well... I need some gunpowder but I've run out of them" Frenchie said, telling Butcher that the plan was most likely not gonna happen.
"Hold on" You said with the typical comical âđ» gesture before heading into a different room. Everyone exchanging confused glances at what you could possibly be doing.
After a few minutes you'd return with a bag of gunpowder while struggling to zip up your pants with the other hand.
"Don't tell me how I got it. It almost tore me apart" You said, rubbing your ass.
On stressful nights, you guys would enjoy smoking weed together by the sofa and share stories of your traumatic childhood. It's how you guys bond and it's oddly wholesome.
Also when he needs a shoulder to cry on, you were always there for him. You two shared a type of relationship that even Romeo and Juliet couldn't compete with. To be fair they're dead so they actually can't fight.
"Hey reader!! If you're gonna keep reading then you might as well give the post a like or a repost. C'mon, pleassssseeee pleasepleaseplease"
"Ma cerise, who are you talking to?"
Although he doesn't mind your behaviour sometimes but he won't tolerate it if you ever cross the line on something. He's like the owner who sprays water at his pet cat when they don't listen.
"What are you mad at me for?!?!"
"You damn near tried to get us killed!!"
"Hey! You're the one who said it would be a suicide mission so I made sure it was a suicide mission!!"
"WHAT?"
There's no way he can deny how curious he is about where you get your guns and things. He once went in your room to find boxes of dynamite and a RPG just placed against the wall like furniture.
Like do you have a supplier or are you your own supplier?
Compatibility? 99.9%
M.M
Everybody deserves second chances.
He always tells him that to calm himself down everytime you managed to fuck up a thoroughly planned mission.
"What did I say about pressing buttons (Y/N)?"
"Honestly I stopped paying attention after you said 'Listen here'."
M.M has to be the only person you fear to the fact you try very hard to avoid him, this is because his long ass lectures are such a pain to deal with.
"How many times do I have to remind you? You can't just go around doing shit like that. You gotta consider the amount of danger you'll put everyone in..."
"(Blah blah blah... he's still going... uggggh... make it stop...!)"
Unable to handle the lecture any longer, you ended up shooting yourself in the head.
"(Y/N)!" His tone more disappointed than concern since this wasn't the first time you did this to escape his talks.
You know that russian dollhouse he tries to build in season 2? Well you'd constantly be found standing or sitting near him when he's trying to finish the set.
Since you're aware of his OCD, you like to edge him on by sometimes rearranging the parts or stealing some of it so he ends up searching high and low for the missing parts.
You had to admit it was entertaining to watch him accuse other people for touching his stuff when it was you behind all the schemes.
I'd like to think that after every mission when you happen to die, he'd be the one in charge of collecting your remains so you'd grow back.
That's why it comes naturally that his job is to make sure you don't do anything extreme.
"Where are my bombs??!?!" You'd shout, storming around the place looking for them.
"I sold them. Thought it'd do us more good knowing you wonât accidentally blow us up"
"WHAT?! GOD! It's like the writers of the show couldn't afford another explosion for this season so they had to use this DUMB of an excuse!!"
Though he does see some good in you through the messed up parts, he once saw you give his daughter a cute teddy bear when they've been burned by Vought.
She still has the bear and M.M likes to think that maybe you have a soft spot for kids since you never had a proper childhood. That's why he chooses to understand you rather than just being ignorant about your behaviour.
Compatibility? 80%
KIMIKO
She finds you a little odd but she doesn't mind once she realises how everyone is used to you being like that.
Whenever you're bored, you'd come to see what she was up to. Just imagine you sitting on the sofa like a curious kid as you watch her write alphabets on the book.
She also tries to communicate with you since she thought maybe your fucked up mind would understand her better in a way. Like how in season 2 she was repeatedly writing 'boy' to Frenchie but he didn't understand, so she came to you.
"Woow... watching you try to talk to me is like watching a baby take it's first breath..."
"đ"
"It's beautiful..."
Turns out her theory was wrong, you had a harder time understanding her compared to the rest.
Since you're the only two people in the group with powers, most of the time you two are sent on dangerous missions together. It's a nightmare for her because everybody knows communication is key but one is mute and the other doesn't listen.
"(Be quiet! There's people in the other room!)" She'd sign to you but you were busy humming a song while throwing around the enemies equipment.
"Oooh, what's this?" You held up a Homelander figurine which made you laugh as you show it to her.
"Hey look! 'I'm Homelander, I'm God's favourite. I play golf with Jesus every Sunday."
"(Can you please take this seriously?)"
"You're right, you gotta stop messing around Kimiko! We have a target to kill here" You said and you threw the figurine away which apparently clashes into a stack of boxes that came crashing down. The sound making everyone inside the building grab their weapons and began cornering you two in the room.
"đĄ"
"Okay that wasn't me that was gravity"
For the boys, you were plan A and she was plan B. That's because you always end up rushing into a fight first which most of the time resulted in you getting dismembered, which she later comes in to save you.
For example when Stormfront had stopped you guys, your bright ass thought it was a good idea to charge at her even though everyone was signalling you to stop. Next thing you know you were just a head being carried by M.M, you ended up watching as Kimiko fought Stormfront with the help of Starlight and Queen Maeve.
"That's my girl!! Now can anyone lend me a hand? I think I lost mine"
Compatibility? 97%
Bonus +
SOLDIER BOY
You know the scene where he walks out of his containment with the gas surrounding him? You swore when you watched him step out butt naked, you could hear angels singing and trumpets playing inside your head.
Shockingly enough, he was the only person who appreciated your humour. Could be a generation thing. He's just relieved not everyone has gone soft over the years.
In a way, you feel like you've become his babysitter. Everytime Butcher and Hughie left to do some business, you were in charge of making sure he doesn't blow up anyone. You kept him entertained so he didn't mind. That's why on the hunt for his former team members, he immediately chose you to be by his side.
"I'll take red with me"
"Red as in the american flag or the russians?" You asked which had him do the typical boomer laugh.
"I like you, you're funny" He said with a strong pat on your shoulder.
Butcher doesn't mind you with him cause he trusts that you can keep him under control. Hughie on the other hand isn't sure if you can even keep yourself under control.
"Shhh... wait... do you hear that?"
"Ah shit, did I accidentally said my dirty thoughts out loud? It's just you look breedable in that suit"
Another thing he likes about you is that you're okay with killing pretty much anyone, just try not to overstep cause that could potentially piss him off.
"I told you he's mine" He said as he had you pinned against one of the trees, apparently you had shot Mindstorm in the head when he literally made it clear to you minutes ago that was his kill.
"Quite possessive aren't you? I can recommended a therapist I know. Her names Marthaâ"
"You shut your mouth before I shove my shield up your ass"
"Gasp don't you DARE threaten me with a good time!!"
At the end of Season 3, you would obviously side with Butcher when everyone started to turn against Soldier Boy. He had to admit he was kinda hurt though, he expected you to be on his side.
"So what? You're crawling back to him now? After what we've been through?"
"Sorry big daddy, but Butcher has been my day one and I also happen to love him veryvery much"
Cue Butcher rolling his eyes out of disgust.
Compatibility? 100% but after the betrayal? 0% đ
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prompt 8 and 14 (shy readers first time) and moms bsf wanda
You Were Red and You Liked Me Because I Was Blue
Mom's bsf!Wanda Maximoff x shy!innocent!Romanoff!fem!reader
Word Count: 1.8k
Warnings: 18+, MDNI, age gap relationship (W=35, R=20) W calls herself Mommy, use of pet names, W fingers R
A/N: I worked on this all day while I didn't feel good and I have a killer headache at the moment so if I missed any warning I'm sorry. I can't think anymore.
The air was cold, without snow falling to distract you it felt unbearable to be waiting for your ride back home for break. Unfortunately you mom was off on a work trip until 3 days before Christmas so instead her best friend, Wanda would be picking you up.
Normally Wanda would have also been preoccupied this time of year, but since her and Vision finalized their divorce and custody of the boys, Vision would be getting them Christmas break first.
You couldn't imagine what that must be like for Wanda. Suddenly after 10 years of family tradition she was alone again and Wanda being alone was never a good thing. You'd known Wanda for a long time. After Natasha helped take down the red room she'd taken you, the youngest widow on the ship under her wing. The day you gained Natasha as a mom, you also gained an aunt Yelena. You had always heard stories of the famous Black Widow that got away and you'd seen Yelena training with others the greatest child assassin the world has ever known. Though you know her now as Auntie Lena who eats Mac and cheese straight out of the pot.
You're pulled out of your thoughts when you see the familiar red subaru ascent. Wanda pulled up with a smile as you opened up the trunk to set your luggage in before quickly getting in the passenger seat with a shiver. Wanda pulled you into her arms, your body instantly heating from her contact.
âHi sweetheart. How was the flight in?â She asked near your ear, making your heart skip a beat as you pulled back, trying to calm your body down.
âIt was fine. Better than having you drive five hours to come grab me.â You told her as you put on your seat belt.
âI wouldn't have minded a 5 hour road trip with you sweet girl.â You bit the inside of your cheek at her words, choosing to stare out the window as she pulled away from the airport.
With Wanda's help you brought your luggage into the house and headed to your room to finally lie down and stretch out. The flight was only an hour and a half and the car ride back was about a half hour. You had barley acknowledged Wanda when she said about her starting on dinner instead choosing to go shower and clean yourself up.
You'd been told that even though you're an adult your mom wanted Wanda there with you. She said it was so you could keep an eye on the other. For Wanda it was so you'd stay out of trouble and for you it was to keep Wanda company. Natasha knew what it was like for Wanda to be alone.
What you and Natasha didn't know though was Wanda had fawned over you since she met you. When Natasha first introduced you and Yelena you always hid away. A little mouse making little to no noise as you moved. Even your thoughts were quiet to Wanda. It was something she found solace in around you. She knew what had happened to you and the other widows. Though you were next step of perfecting what Drekovy wanted out of the widows, total control they had perfected and for you, the only survivor of your age group, an enhanced super soldier serum. It gave you all the same enhancements as Steve and Bucky, but you stayed small, unassuming so no one ever saw you coming.
âY/N! Dinner's ready sweet girl!â Wanda called up as you looked over yourself in the mirror, the scars lining your arms, shoulders, chest. They were everywhere.
You took the stairs two at a time, hair still damp, but Wanda's cooking smelt too good to keep her waiting. She looked up from moving things from the counter to the dining table. Natasha always used to have these âfamily mealsâ where her parents, Yelena, Wanda, Vision, and the boys would come over. They stopped happening when Wanda and Vision decided to get the divorce. A smile was on Wanda's face,
âI made your favorite. Help me move it over to the table.â You happily helped out so the two of you could eat dinner together.
As Wanda was cleaning up and insisting that you go relax on the couch and get a movie ready you watched her from the couch, forgoing a movie and putting on The Office instead. You needed the background noise because to you your thoughts felt so loud that Wanda must be able to hear you if you didn't have something distracting her.
As she finished up and sat next to you she gave no indication of hearing your thoughts which she often did to those around her. Her arm wrapped around your waist, pulling you against her as if you were two magnets. You bit the corner of your lips trying to watch the show.
You knew Wanda was experienced obviously, she has twins. You on the other hand haven't even gotten the opportunity to kiss a girl or a boy or anyone because from the day you met Wanda all you ever wanted was her. You'd never tell her that though.
She was with Vision when you met her nearly 13 years ago. With everything that happened after that with Thanos and then defeating him without the loss of half the population you could just live life normally for the first time.
Wanda's hand found your thigh, rubbing gently as she watched the show, one the two of you have watched multiple times over the years. You enjoyed sitcoms like she did along with being introduced to reality TV which is just a guilty pleasure really.
âW-WandsâŠâ your voice was barely a whisper and Wanda pretended not to hear you. Not even when you started squirming under her touch as her hand grew closer to your hot center. Her hand squeezed you as you let out a little whimper. âWandsâŠâ you tried again, trying to be louder, but you couldn't. Once again your plea goes unacknowledged as her pinky brushes against your clit, your hands fly down to her wrist. She finally looks at you. You don't dare look at her.
âWhat's wrong sweet girl?â She asks so innocently as if she has no idea what she's doing.
âW-WandsâŠIâŠyouâŠâ you fumble with your words. Her other hand reaches your chin, forcing you to look at her.
âWhat about us sweet girl?â You open your mouth, but nothing comes out. She pulls you onto her lap, her hands resting on your hips. âJust watch the show sweet girl. Let Mommy play.â You felt like fireworks went off in your stomach. Sure you'd heard the boys call Wanda Mommy and yeah you'd heard her call herself Mommy over the years, but never in the tone she just used and never directed at you.
You felt like everything on you was burning except for Wanda's hands that were always cold and clad in rings. You did as told keeping your eyes on the screen until you felt her hand push past your waistband. Your hands once again grabbing her wrist, not because you didn't want her to, you really wanted her too. You were nervous.
âW-WandsâŠI've neverâŠâ Wanda moved forward, tilting her head to look at you.
âNot ever at college?â She questioned. You shook your head.
âN-not even a kissâŠâ you admitted. Wanda's hand leaving your shorts and moving to your face.
âThese precious lips haven't kissed anyone else?â You shook your head, âSo I'll be your first?â She asked pulling you closer. All you could manage as your heart pounded was a soft âmhmmâ before her lips touched yours.
As her lips meet yours, it's a gentle yet electrifying sensation, sending waves of warmth cascading through you. Wanda's touch is tender, guiding you through this unfamiliar territory with ease and patience. With each fleeting moment, you feel yourself melting into her embrace, the world around you fading into the background.
When Wanda pulls back, there's a brief moment of hesitation, as if time itself is holding its breath. You find yourself lost in her gaze, a mixture of emotions swirling within you â anticipation, vulnerability, and a newfound courage. Slowly, a soft smile tugs at the corners of Wanda's lips, her eyes sparkling with tenderness.
With a gentle brush of her fingers against your cheek, Wanda whispers words of reassurance, her voice a soothing melody in the stillness of the room. And as you lean into her touch, a sense of peace settles within you.
The night carried on without Wanda trying to slip past your shorts instead she kept stealing kisses late into the night before deciding it was time for bed. It was when you moved you could feel just how wet you'd before and you freeze, your thighs smacking tightly together. Wanda stopped, a tug on your hand.
âWhat's wrong sweet girl?â She looked back at you, confusion etched on her face.
âItâŠits..ickyâŠâ you squirmed and Wanda smirked, taking two steps towards you.
âDon't worry my sweet girl,â she tilted your head up, âMommy is going to take good care of you.â Her breath against your lip, her voice sweet and thick with her accent, the one you heard all those years ago. Your legs want to turn to jelly.
Wanda wasn't expecting you to stay quiet once her fingers slipped past your wet folds, but you did. Little breathy moans, small whimpers, tiny pleas fell past your lips as your face burned and your eyes screwed shut.
âDon't close your eyes Detka. Look at me.â You could only obey with her voice sounding the way it did. You looked at her, she smiled at you and only picked up her pace.
You squirmed and felt like you were going to burst as you whimpered and tried to get away, but she held you there. You tried closing your legs, but she held them open.
âOpen your legs Detka. I wanna see you.â Her nails dug into your thigh.
âF-feels weirdâŠâ you squeaked out.
âYou're gonna cum for Mommy it'll make you feel better. Go on. Let it happen.â As if your body was waiting on her word, that coil inside of you snapped. Your back arched as your eyes rolled back. âThat's a good girlâŠMommyâs good girl.â Her fingers slowed down before leaving you. Your eyes closed but soon enough Wanda was helping you sit up.
âWater sweet girl. Take a few sips.â You did as told, knowing Wanda always knew best. When she felt you had enough she tapped your cheek and you let go.
She helped you clean yourself up, the cool towel feeling nice against your hot skin and then into pajamas which only consisted of an old band t-shirt of Wanda's and a pair of your panties. As she got the two of you settled into your bed, holding you against her chest. Her fingers moved through your hair as your eyes began to flutter she spoke,
âWe're going to have a lot of fun until your mom comes home.â You smiled against her skin. You almost hoped she wouldn't be home for Christmas if it meant more time playing like this with Wanda.
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Part Two of Where We Part (previous chapter) (next chapter) (masterlist) Childhood Friend!Simon x fem!Reader
Time has a funny way of slipping through your fingers, doesnât it?
The years passed as they do, quietly, relentlessly and somehow, unintentionally you followed Simon Rileyâs advice, no matter how much it stung during that particular summer night.
You grew older, wiser, or at least you hoped you did.Â
At the end of that warm, suburban summer, you left Manchester behind, moved to London for university, found yourself caught up in the complexity of adulthood, chasing dreams, making mistakes, falling in love, losing it. You lived your life, embraced its peaks and valleys, and let it sweep you along. Some days were golden, like those late summer days in your twenties when laughter was easy, love felt endless, and the world seemed filled with promise. You travelled with your new friends from university, gelato dripping down your wrist as you laughed under the bright Sicilian sun, the loud conversation with your girls echoing across the cobblestone streets. You invited your parents to London several times, playing tourist with them, showing them your new apartment, savouring moments of connection between the gaps of your new life and their old one. And then there was the day your boyfriend knelt before you, a ring glinting in the rose gold streetlights of Paris, asking you to be his fiancée.
Oh, it was the kind of moment you had always dreamed of, the fairy tale that every little girl secretly hopes will come true.
But life isnât all dreams, is it?
You wept like a child, your heart shattered when you found out about the affair. Your fiancé, with your college roommate of all people. It felt like betrayal layered upon betrayal, and the sadness you carried then weighed more than all the joy of your past put together, manifested in the hollow echoes of your aching sobs in the shared flat you once called home. You moved out shortly after that incident.
Unfortunately, there were other disappointments, too. Failed job interviews, missed opportunities, the loneliness that seeped into your bones in those years after university, when friends began to drift away and the beauty of childhood transforms into a fading memory. But you picked yourself up. You always did. Because thatâs what you did. Thatâs what you knew best. You kept moving, because the alternative, sinking, was unthinkable.
But through it all, you lived.
And you wouldnât change a thing even if you had the chance.
You threw yourself into your work, into the messy and beautiful chaos of life. There were still some moments where you felt like you had the world at your feet, laughing with your high school mates over beers in dingy pubs, watching the sun set over Londonâs skyline, those spontaneous trips to the coast where you tasted freedom in every salty breeze. And you moved forward, not necessarily because you wanted to, but because time forced you to. But that was fine by you.
And in the quiet corners of your mind, Simon Riley became a distant thoughtâlike the chorus of a song you used to know like the back of your hand. You thought of him less and less as the years went by, as your life became more complicated, more full.
You took his words to heart, didnât you?
You left him behind.
But still, he lingered.
There were those times, in the early years, when your parents would call, giving you updates on Manchester, on the neighbours, on the old street you grew up on. Youâd ask about the Rileys, casually, as if it didnât really matter. You werenât prying, not really, just curious. What had become of Simon? Of Tommy? Your parents mentioned Simon had joined the military at some point, which didnât surprise you. He always carried a soldierâs weight, even as a boy.
They told you about Tommy too, how his life had spiralled out of control with drugs and the wreckage of his past trauma. Your mother sighed when she mentioned Mrs. Riley and how she had hit rock bottom. But Simon, when he returned from deployment, finally helped them rid themselves of Mr. Riley for good, breaking the cycle of abuse that had poisoned their lives for years.
Your parents even got a bit more involved in the Rileyâs lives after thatâdropping in with food, attending Tommyâs wedding with a kind soul named Beth, helping with little Joseph, their gorgeous newborn, who your mum absolutely adored. Sheâd tell you about him during your weekend catch-ups.
However, as time went on, the Rileys faded from your thoughts, a chapter you had quietly closed.
Your own life was blooming in London, despite the mistakes you made along the way. You loved fiercely, lost greatly, and found your way back to yourself time and again. The more you lived, the less you thought about the boy who once lived next door.
Until that cold November afternoon.
The air was ice cold, but not just from the weather. It was the kind of chill that settled deep in your bones, the kind that gnawed at you long after the sun had set during winter.
The day had been unremarkable at firstâwork was its usual rhythm of meetings and emails, the sound of your co-workers chattering as a familiar background noise. But then your phone rang, your motherâs weak voice trembling on the other end like the fragile crackle of dry leaves in the wind during autumn.
You had heard your mother cry before.
The grief at a relativeâs passing, the heartache of a goodbye too long drawn outâbut this was different. Her sobs were frantic, her rushed words spilling over each other in terrified, broken fragments, so hurried you could hardly catch the meaning.
âThe Rileys⊠oh God, love, the Rileys are goneâŠâ
It took you a moment to grasp what she was saying.
Gone? How? You sat frozen, the world around you blurring as your mumâs words came in and out like waves crashing against the shore.
âDear Lord, some maniac... a psychopath⊠some madmanâŠâ she choked. âHe killed them. Killed them all. Tommy, Beth, even little Joseph, an innocent baby, Oh GodâŠâ
You could hear your motherâs quiet anguish, but it was as though you were outside yourself, hearing everything from a great distance.
The Rileys. Dead. It didnât make sense. Mrs. Riley, Tommy, Beth, the childâhow could they be gone? The thought was too large and too grotesque to fully comprehend. It was like a nightmare, one you couldnât wake up from.
âAnd⊠Simon?â
A name you hadnât uttered in years.
A name that had always lingered on the edges of your memory, like a shadow cast by fading light.
Your motherâs breath caught. âI donât know. Oh, love. He wasnât there⊠I think heâs still in the military, but⊠we donât know, we were asleep, didnât hear a thing.â
She was crying again, her sobs muffled by the phone. Her sobs broke through, and she confessed, through gasps of guilt, that she and your father had been sound asleep when it happened, oblivious to the horror just next door. The sanctuary of your childhood, the quiet safety of the neighbourhood, shattered in a mere second.
Your mind raced, your heart thundering in your chest.
Oh, all those years, all those moments where you hadnât thought about Simon Riley, and now, now the past was clawing its way back, forcing you to confront something you had thought youâd left behind.
Your coworkers looked up, sensing something was wrong. One of them asked if you were okay, if you needed anything, but you barely heard them. You wanted to scream, to cry, to do anything, but all you could do was tremble. Your hands squeezed as you gripped your phone, trying to keep your voice steady as you told your mother youâd drive up to Manchester right away, that youâd be there soon. When the call ended, and you were out the door before you had time to gather your thoughts. The moments after that were a blur, your body on autopilot as you stumbled to your car. The urgency to get there, to understand what had happened, burned through you, like liquid fire in your veins.
But fate, it seemed, had other plans.
Pain hit you suddenly, sharp and overwhelming, something youâve never felt before. It started as a dull ache in your lower stomach, but it intensified rapidly until you were doubled over, gasping for breath. You couldnât drive, you couldnât think. By the time you finally made it to your flat, the pain had become unbearable. Something was wrong, you knew. Terribly wrong.
You had to call for an ambulance, your hands shaking as you dialled the number.
However, you werenât thinking about yourself as they wheeled you into the hospital, werenât listening to the doctorâs voice as he explained the situationâappendicitis, nothing lethal, a routine surgery, and youâd be fine but you had to stay still.
Throughout your surgery, all you could think about was Simon. The boy who had grown into a man who you barely knew anymore, the man who had lived through hell and had come back to face it once again. Was he back in Manchester? Was he grieving? Or had he been claimed by the same nightmare that had taken the rest of his family?
After the surgery, you lay in the hospital bed, staring at the ceiling, tears streaming down your face. It wasnât the pain of your own body that made you cryâit was the helplessness, the not knowing, the fear that somewhere out there, Simon, your childhood friend, was lost, alone, and there was nothing you could do to help him.
You spent the first few hours after the surgery drifting between sleep and wakefulness, your mind clouded with both painkillers and the overwhelming ache of uncertainty. Every time you closed your eyes, you saw flashes of the pastâmemories of Manchester, the Rileys, Simon. The years blurred, and for a moment, you could almost feel the gentle summer sun on your skin again, hear the distant murmur of a time that seemed too far gone.
But the present was relentless.
Your parents arrived in London as quickly as they could, your mother staying by your side, fussing over you as she had when you were a child. Her hands were warm, but her eyes betrayed her fear. Fear for you, fear for what had happened back in Manchester. She stayed while your father left for the funeralâthe collective service for the Rileys, held only a week after their brutal end.
You couldnât go, of course. Fucking appendicitis.
The thought of missing that final goodbye gnawed at you. You couldnât let it go. Therefore, you wrote. A letter. A really long letter. In the small hours of the night, with the hospital lights dimmed and the distant hum of machinery as your only company, you penned a letter.
The words didnât come easily.
What could you possibly say to Simon Riley, after all these years? What could you write that would bring him any semblance of comfort, any understanding in the face of such senseless tragedy? How could you explain to him how sorry you were? Sorry for what had happened to his family, sorry that you werenât there when he needed someone most, sorry for all the years youâd spent avoiding the memories of your childhood, of him. But you had to try.
You wrote with a trembling hand, pouring everything you couldnât say aloud into that letter, every apology that had been lodged in your throat for years. You tied it to your fatherâs soul, knowing he would deliver it to Simon, wherever he might be. And your father, with his quiet strength, promised he would.
When the day of the funeral came, you lay in your bed, imagining the cold November air, the way the ground must have looked under the grey Manchester sky. You pictured the small crowd, neighbours, and friends from the community, all standing in sombre silence as the Rileys were laid to rest. But what haunted you most was the image of Simonâif he was even there at all. You wondered if he stood apart from the others, his broad shoulders hunched, his face unreadable as ever. Or maybe he hadnât come at all, disappearing into the shadows once again, as he always had.
The week crawled by, each day dragging longer than the last. Your mother stayed by your side, but the quiet weight of what had happened in Manchester pressed down on both of you. Your father returned, but there was no news of Simon. Your dad told you that they didnât talk much. No sight of him after the funeral. No trace of him in the days after. He had vanished, leaving behind an empty house and a tragedy too vast to comprehend. And when you finally recovered enough to leave the hospital, you made the trip back to Manchester with your mother.
The familiar streets felt like a ghost of themselvesâplaces once filled with memories now overshadowed by the grim reality of what had happened. The Riley house stood empty, its windows dark, the air around it thick with loss. You stood at the gate for a long time, staring at the house that had once been so full of life, of pain, of everything in between. But now, it was nothing. Just a shell. Just another haunted corner of your past.
There were no answers. No signs of Simon.
And in the end, after a week of trying to help your parents, after a week of grieving and remembering, you left. You packed your things and drove back to London, promising yourself youâd never return. The city you had once called home felt cursed now, and the memories it held were too heavy to bear.
You couldnât escape the past, though. Not really.Â
The promise you made to yourself all those years ago, to never return to that godforsaken city, was one you kept for a long time. It wasnât out of spite or bitterness, but rather out of a quiet resignation. You had moved on, created a life in London that was full of both the mundane and the extraordinary. And after your parents moved to Wimbledon, following your fatherâs cancer diagnosis, the ties to Manchester became even more frayed.
It wasnât until your thirty-fourth birthday that you found yourself heading back to the place you swore youâd never return to.
Not for family, not for closure, but for something as trivial and absurd as a fucking high school reunion. It had started with a sudden phone call from one of your old mates, the same group you used to run around with in your youth.
You hadnât heard from them in years. Well, apart from the occasional likes on Instagram posts or an awkwardly short birthday text.
âFifteen bloody years,â your friend had said, her voice bright and insistent. âYouâve been stuck in London with your fancy life, and weâve barely seen you. Time to get your arse back here and have a pint with the group, eh? Itâs been too long, girl.â
You laughed it off at first, citing your tight work schedule and your responsibilities. But the more she talked, the more you realised how long it had been since youâd even thought about that part of your life. A simpler time, before the complexities of adulthood and all its responsibilities weighed on you.
So you agreed. You didnât really know why, maybe out of a sense of pure nostalgia or maybe out of some lingering guilt.
The drive up to Manchester was long, and your nerves sat uneasily in your chest. What would it be like to see those familiar faces again, to walk the streets that had once been the backdrop of your childhood? Would it feel like home? Or would it feel like you didnât belong anymore, a ghost walking through memories?
However, by the time you saw the familiar landmarks, something in you began to settle. The nervousness faded, replaced by a strange calmness, as if the city itself recognised you and offered some kind of unspoken truce. You arrived at the pub where your reunion was being heldâthe same one you used to frequent during your teenage years. It was a dive, the kind of place that hadnât aged well, but thatâs exactly what made it feel like time had stood still.
Inside, the air was warm, thick with the smell of beer and the hum of conversation. And then there they were, your dear friends, sitting in a corner, laughing just like they always did. The moment you walked in, it was as if no time had passed at all. They greeted you with familiar smiles, pulling you into tight hugs and offering you a pint almost immediately.
The conversation flowed easily, old jokes resurfacing, stories being retold with exaggerated details and you found yourself chuckling. No, truly laughing, in a way you hadnât done in what felt like ages. The weight of the years melted away, and for those brief hours, you felt like you were a teenager again, full of life and possibility, untouched by the heaviness that had since followed you. Oh, you hadnât even realised how much you missed it, missed them. The simplicity of it all. The foolishness of youth.
As the night wore on, you found yourself drinking more than you should have. The beers went down easy, their familiar taste blending with the warm laughter and nostalgia. You hadnât had a drink in a while, not properly, and it didnât take long for the alcohol to loosen your limbs and soften the edges of reality. You felt light-headed, slightly detached from your surroundings but in that comfortable way that comes with the perfect level of drunkenness. Your words were slurring a bit, your laughter louder, but you didnât mind.
Not tonight.
Eventually, the haze became a bit too much, and you excused yourself from the table. You needed fresh air, a moment for yourself to step away from the heat of the pub and the noise of the reunion. You fumbled with your jacket as you headed for the back of the building, where the designated smoking area was. It was behind the pub, near the dimly lit, empty parking lot, and as you made your way there, you nearly tripped over a discarded bottle on the ground.
âBloody hell,â you muttered under your breath, the curse falling easily from your lips. Even small inconveniences seemed dramatic when you were tipsy. Some habits never died.
When you reached the smoking area, you were grateful to see it wasnât crowded. Just one man, standing off to the side, leaning against the wall of the building, a cigarette dangling from his lips as he took a long drag. The tip of the cig glowed bright orange in the darkness. His silhouette seemed larger than life, almost unreal in the way he stood. He was massive, the kind of bloke youâd notice even in a crowded room, let alone in the quiet of the night.
Tall as a statue but built like a brick wallâshoulders broad and thick with muscle, his frame nearly filling the space between the wall and the edge of the lot.
At first, you stopped, startled by his size.
He was the sort of man youâd expect to see guarding the door, maybe a bouncer or a security guard. That made sense, considering how much physical strength he had. You nodded at him out of politeness, the way you do when you make eye contact with a stranger and want to acknowledge their presence without committing to a conversation. His gaze lingered on you, sharp and calculating.
Why was he looking at you like that?
You quickly turned away, feeling oddly self-conscious, and pulled out your cig, attempting to light it. But of course, as your luck would have it, your lighter chose that moment to give up on you. No matter how many times you flicked the damn thing, it refused to spark.
âSeriously?â you muttered, cursing your luck again. The bravado of the alcohol in your system pushed you to turn towards your only companion, flashing him an awkward smile. âHi. Hello. Any chance youâve got a lighter, mate?â
The man didnât speak at first.
He just watched you, observed you, his expression unreadable, his eyes dark and reflective under the dim light of the parking lot. There was something oddly familiar about the way he held himself, something in the way he stared at you that sent a ripple of recognition through you, but you couldnât quite place it.
Without a word, he reached into his pocket, pulled out a black, well-worn lighter, and flicked it open. The flame sparked to life, small but steady, and he leaned forward, offering it to you. You stepped closer, holding your cigarette to the flame.
As you did, you couldnât help but take a better look at him.
His face was mostly obscured by the dim lighting, but his features were hard and chiselled. His nose was crooked, as if it had been broken more than once, with a small scar running through his upper lip. His lips were thin, pressed into a line that gave nothing away, and the faint lines around his eyes hinted at a man who had lived through more than most. However, it was his gaze, those beautiful hazel eyes, that stopped you cold. They were sharp, almost piercing, and there was something else behind themâan intensity that made your stomach tighten.
For a moment, you thought it might just be the alcohol playing tricks on you, but the longer you looked, the more certain you became. There was no mistaking it.
Those eyes, guarded and haunted, belonged to Simon Riley.
âThanks,â you muttered, taking a quick drag from your cig, stepping back, trying to act casual even though your heart was racing.
There was something about his presence, something that felt both familiar and distant at the same time. It had been years, after all. Youâd moved on, or so you thought. But standing here now, the weight of the past pressed down on you, the memories flooding back like a tide you couldnât hold back. This random bloke before you⊠yes, the resemblance was mad uncanny. You stole glances at the giant man, unsure, your mind buzzing with uncertainty and the effects of the alcohol. Was it really him? Could it be?
You hesitated, your hand trembling slightly as you took another drag from your cigarette. You wanted to ask, but the words stuck in your throat, too afraid to sound foolish. Too afraid that if you asked, youâd break whatever fragile moment this was. But before you could find the courage to speak, the man sighed.
That sigh.
It was unmistakableâquiet, irritated, as if the weight of the world rested on his shoulders and he was tired of carrying it. It was the same sigh youâd heard all those years ago, on that warm summer night beneath the street lamps.
âFuckin' hell,â he muttered under his breath, the deep, rough rumble of his voice sending a shiver down your spine. âSâme. Stop gawkin'.â
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where is she?
Summary: Soldier Boy only has one thought in mind when Homelander wakes him up: you.
Pairing: Soldier Boy x Female!Reader
A/N: Wrote this on July 29th. This was meant to be a drabble and I was going to experiment with a different format at the time but after taking another look at it close to a month later, I decided against it. I haven't seen Season 4 of The Boys yet but I did see a gif on here of something from the finale in regards to SB. This idea popped into my head that day and I wrote it out. Starts from the Tower scene in 3x08, an AU. Unbeta'd. Full dialogue in text is from 3x08.
Warnings: drug use; violence; violence against a woman; choking (not Butcher/Boys friendly)
Word Count: 1019
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You burst into the room from the stairwell, finding Ben trying to fight three of your new supposed teammates off, his eyes full of fury and a slight tinge of fear immediately finding you as they slipped a mask over his face. âIâm notâŠgoing backâŠin that fucking box!â
âGet off of him! Now!â You angrily yelled, energy pulsing from your hands as you tried to rush them when Butcher caught you off guard and knocked you into a wall on his way to get to Ryan.Â
âSorry, luv.â His expression was full of trace amounts of remorse as he turned from you but you didnât care. Your attention was on Ben alone.
When Ben saw you slam into the wall, even more fury seemed to emanate from him and he was finally able to push everyone off. His chest was a bright pulsing red that continued to get brighter and brighter; he was charged up and he was about to blow.
âYouâll kill everyone!â Starlight implored.
Benâs expression didnât change and you knew you had to get to him before he went off. You didnât care about any of them, especially now, and you didnât care for yourself. But Ben you cared about and you wouldnât let him do this â not again.Â
âBen!â You called.Â
Within the seconds it took for you to get to your feet, Maeve was already launching herself at him and they crashed through the window of the high rise, plummeting stories below. âNo!â You rushed to the edge, watching their freefall in horror. âBEN!â You screamed before the impact of the explosion sent you careening backwards.  Â
When Soldier Boy was woken for the second time, uncaring who was there to greet him, he only had one question. âWhere is she?â
Americaâs Asshole of a Son, now suited up, stared out at the city from Homelanderâs newly renovated suite. His own son watched him, keeping his hands clasped behind his back.
âIt could all be ours, you know.â
âDonât care,â Soldier Boy growled out. âWhereâs Butcher?â
Homelander sighed in disappointment and approached. He didnât know much about the man whose blood he shared but one thing was for certain: Soldier Boy was laser focused when it came to revenge. He just happened to be focused on the wrong thing.
When he reached the older man, he studied him for a moment before nearly rolling his eyes. âYou actually loved her.â
He shouldnât have been surprised when Soldier Boy turned a lethal glare onto him, his pupils dilated from the drugs coursing through his system that heâd just snorted, but it still caught him a little off guard. Homelander didnât feel shame or remorse; those were human feelings and he was a god. But right then, he felt like a small child scolded by that dark gaze and his shoulders subconsciously lowered an inch.
âFind me Butcher or I will find him on my own,â the Supe threatened before walking away. Homelander watched him go, angry that even while dead you somehow still managed to fuck with his plans.
Right before Soldier Boy was about to strike a killing blow to Butcher, Hughie yelled, âSheâs alive!â The Supe froze and turned a scowl onto Butcherâs dickrest.Â
âI promise,â the bitch insisted. âI can tell you where she is! Just donât kill him. Please.â
Soldier Boyâs glare dropped to the man swaying in his hold, his face bloodied, bruised, and swollen. The supe's jaw tensed and he dropped the man to the ground, making him a silent promise that he would still pay for his betrayal, before his eyes landed on Hughie. âTake me to her. And you better be telling me the fucking truth or youâre never going to get to feel the warmth of this fuckerâs mouth again.â
Hughieâs eyes widened but he gave a nod. A hint of a smirk teased the corner of Soldier Boyâs lips for a moment and then disappeared completely. Before following the bitch out the door, he gave Butcher one last kick for good measure.
Soldier Boy tightened his grip on Grace Malloryâs throat and lifted her body higher up the wall. He ignored Hughieâs whiny pleas of not hurting the old bitch. âOpen it,â he ordered. âNow.â
Hughie did just that. The supe could hear a whirring sound behind him and he intensified his glare at the woman he was currently choking out before turning to look over his shoulder. Out of a drawer, a cryotube emerged, looking quite different from the one he had been in when his pussy of a son had found him. His breath caught in his chest when he saw you inside, slumbering peacefully, tubes wrapped around your barely dressed body. Rage began to flow through his veins when he realized that you had been stocked away inside a fucking sock drawer like a second thought â like you had never mattered. You were the only thing that mattered.
He turned back to Mallory, gritting his teeth, and his body shaking with fury. He saw the lack of fear in her eyes and in a split second, his decision had been made. He flung her across the room, not caring about the sickening cracks he heard when she made impact. For good measure, when Hughie tried to run to her aid, he brutally knocked the kid aside and made his way towards you. Within seconds, he had the cryotube open and he ripped the wires from your body. He curled his arm around your shoulders and carefully hoisted you up into his lap.
A few heartbeats later, your eyes slowly began to open, your lashes fluttering repeatedly as you returned to consciousness. Your gaze struggled for a minute to focus on the image in front of you but when it did, you rasped out in disbelief, âBen?â
A soft smile played upon his lips as he ferried your hand to his bearded cheek. âYeah, doll. Itâs me.âÂ
When you attempted to return his smile, he leaned down to whisper, âI found you,â before he gently pressed his mouth to yours.
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My sweet boy đ„ș also Iâm sorry you canât make me choose my fave moment. No maâam canât choose. Thatâs like askin me who my favorite kid is.
Rehab â Chapter 3
Series Summary: Thanks to Soldier Boy, the CIA was able to develop Project Bloom under the fierce leadership of Grace Mallory: a final cure to Compound V and a hopeful end to the supe epidemic three years after the explosive incident at Vought. A secret rehab facility in Upstate New York is supposed to help former heroes find their way back to humanity. The catch, though? Soldier Boy has never fucking agreed to any of this shit and is surely not happy about being powerless for the first time in his goddamn long life.
Pairing: Soldier Boy/Ben x Female!Reader
Warnings: +18, language, friends to lovers, drugs, smut (oral f & m, fingering, dirty talk & a bit of degrading), minor angst, fluff & crack if you squint
Word Count: 4.6k
A/N: Ready for the filth? Dumb question. Of course, you are. Man, does it feel weird not to write a super slow burn for once, but this was definitely a fun change. Hope you hoes enjoy! đ€Șđ„
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Chapter 3: why are you here
âSo, this is your room?â
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How Far Are You Willing To Go? - 1
PAIRINGS: Ex-husband!Simon "Ghost" Riley x Reader
SUMMARY: Amid a quiet life post-divorce initiated by Ghost himself, his past resurfaces when his ex-wife and their young children are abducted. He's thrust into a desperate race against time to save them, facing his own demons and fighting to protect his family at any cost. Question is, how far is he willing to go?
WARNINGS: Angst, if you squint. Simon being a dummy for getting a divorce. Incorrect knowledge of allergies and asthma (please help a girlie out)
WORD COUNT: 1,096
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âRylan needs to take his-,â you immediately get interrupted by his low and rough voice. âMeds, by seven in the evening after having his dinner. Yeah, I know,â you canât help but feel that there is a trace of disdain in his voice.
Oh, how youâve heard so many variations of that voice. From the usual rough and dark, to how soft and loving it could go. The latter was a rarity for people to hear, who meet him outside of your homeâs doors. For you, however, it was common. Was being the key word. It may have not been the voice you heard 24/7, but it was a voice you heard daily.
You look at him and eye the black surgical mask he wears, âright,â you pause. âJust wanted to make sure,â you give him a purse smile, before bending down to be at eye level with your six-year-old.
âKyla, be good and take care after your brother. Be kind in school and do your homework. Call me if you ever need some help with it, ok?â You try to wear out the imaginary creases on her little brown cardigan.
She nods her head like a mini determined soldier and says a very affirmative âyes Mama.â Then you move over to kneel in front of your youngest, Rylan. The four-year-old with the many existing allergies. He rubs his nose, and you tut at him, âuse a tissue honey, here blow into this.â You hand him the handkerchief you always carry around for this exact reason. âDo you have your inhaler?â You ask your boy, and he nods proudly as he reaches into his pocket and shows you the small piece of plastic.
âCall me if you need Mama, ok Rylan?â You rest your hands on his shoulders, and pat down on the sweater, you look into the light brown eyes he inherited from his father and kiss his forehead. He nods at you one last time before turning around and running to your ex-husbandâs family truck. Kyla kisses your cheek one last time before screaming a âbuh-bye Mamaâ and running off to catch up with her little brother.
You stand back up and cross your arms, heart hurting a little knowing youâd be spending two weeks without your children. But what can you do? Not complain, of course.
It was part of the divorce agreement that Simon is allowed to have the children over at his place for three weeks maximum, whenever he returns from deployment. You reluctantly agreed, purely to the reason that you wouldnât survive if you were in Simonâs place and couldnât be able to see your kids.
You were kind in that way.
Simon loved you for it.
He loved everything about you.
He still does.
The ice around his heart thaws as he sees your eyes become bleary as you watch the kids climb into his backseat.
He hates seeing you sad.
He does everything in his power to mask the emotions he feels, and he does it well.
âWell,â you sniffle, âI-uhâŠ.Iâll leave you to it then.â You wipe your eyes nonchalantly before tucking a stray piece of hair behind your ear as a sort of distraction to what you feel currently.
It was always hard for you whenever Simon comes to pick up the kids.
The mother hen in you does not want to send them with him. But you know, a 100 percent sure, that theyâre safer with him than with you, considering Simonâs military experience.
One of the main reasonâs Simon broke things off with you.
Simon nodâs, his hands remain in the pockets of his hoodie. You lift the little paw patrol and the little Bluey child suitcases and hand it to him. âThere are three weeksâ worth of clothes in there, for each of them,â you stick your hands to the side immediately after he takes them into his rough and calloused ones.
âPlease call me if-,â you start, but he interrupts you again. âAnything happens. Yeah, I know,â he says with a rough tone that says, âyou seriously think theyâll get hurt with me?â.
âRightâŠ...right,â you nod as you whisper, the words more of a reassurance to you.
You try to peak at his eyes under his hoodie, but to no avail, you couldnât see them under his black tainted sports sunglasses.
His phone starts to ring, and he pulls out of his back pocket to see the caller ID revealing the caller âPriceâ.
âIâll see you in two weeks then,â you say, knowing he has to go. He nods in response before turning away and heading back to his truck, he places the suitcases in the passenger seat before double checking the buckles on the child-seatâs where Kyla and Rylan are sat in.
He does all the dad checkupâs before getting in the driverâs seat.
He seeâs you through the tainted windows of his truck.
He rolls the back window down so the kids can say their final goodbyeâs
âBye Mama!â Both kids scream and the wave with smiles on their faces. You chuckle wetly as tears silently roll down your cheeks.
You know theyâre safe with Simon, but you heart still hurts that they wonât be around for a while.
Simon sees the tears and his own heart breaks.
He pulls out of the driveway with a heavy heart, hating to see the love of his life in tears.
He sighs before pulling out his phone and clicking on Priceâs caller ID.
The old Captain picks up after two rings.
âGhost, we need you.â
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Accidents happen
Pairing: Neteyam x reader
Summary: You and Neteyam find solace in each other. Maybe a little too muchâŠ
Requested by anon
AN: girl iâm so sorry it took me so long to get this out, i was procrastinating. But i hope you like it and maybe ill do a part two???
The night was quiet, and the waves of the ocean were soothing the nerves going haywire in your stomach. As the next in line of tsahik your connection with eywa was deep, even more so than your mothers for a reason unknown to you. You couldnât help but worry something terrible was coming but you had no idea whatsoever what it was, thatâs why you sat at the edge of the village on a rock, dangling your feet into the water. The pit in your stomach was heavy with bad feelings that were unknown to you. The waves softly crashing into the rock was working wonders calming your nerves, this was the most relaxed youâd been in weeks. You were relaxed but still alert, which is why your ears perked up when you heard footsteps coming from behind you.
You discreetly grabbed your knife out of its sheath attached to your hip, and when the footsteps got close enough you whipped around holding your knife menacingly. At the sight of the familiar boy holding up his hands in surrender after letting a âwoahâ slip out, you lowered your knife. âI apologize I did not mean to scare youâ he apologized, after lowering his hands. You let out a sigh in relief, âit is okay, guess i wasn't expecting anyone to be awake at this timeâ you said, returning back to your seated position on the rock facing the sea. He nodded in understanding, both that you saw though nor did you really care. âMay I join you?â He asked, making you turn your head to him. You pondered for a second before nodding and turning your focus back on the horizon.
You two sat in silence before he spoke âwhat are you doing awake anyway?â. You looked over to him thinking of an answer âI am not sure if i'm honest. Just needed some peace away from the hustle of the clan i guessâ you said not really wanting to go into detail. âWhat about you forest boyâ you teased lightly. He smiled at the nickname you and your sister had graced him and his brother with. âIt reminds me of home,â he said, gesturing to the line of trees about ten feet away. You nodded, âdo you miss it?â You asked in curiosity. âMore than anythingâ he immediately answered. Your expression softened, âI can not imagine it, being torn away from everything Iâve grown to know and having to start all over, that must be so hardâ you said in thought, the thought hurts just thinking about it. âI can not show how badly I miss home, I must be the example for my siblings. I have to like it here so they doâ he frowned, dropping his head .âMy parents would not let me know peace until I achieved every task with easeâ you frowned at the thought.
Neteyam tilted his head in wonder âyour parents are hard on you?â He asked. You almost let out a laugh âOf course, I am the oldest, I set the example I hold the future of the clan in my hands. And do not even get me started on when my brother disobeys its always my job to watch over him and take the fall though I donât have to worry about it much with Tsireya.â You said, feeling irritation arise. Turns out Neteyam had the same problem with his father. âI did not know, I have the same issue with my parents and skxawng brother. It is so hard sometimes, being the perfect son. Making sure Iâm doing everything right while keeping an eye out for my siblings and not disappointing my parentsâ he vented.
âGrowing up I always looked out to my parents and how amazing they were. They are strong and great leaders and I wanted to be that too, but now looking back I donât feel as if I am. My parents do not look at me like they do my siblings; like Iâm their child. Instead it is as if I am a soldier. I must do everything right, pass every test and look graceful while doing it so I donât scare off possible mates. And do not mistake me I love my siblings with everything in me but it is so hard, I just wish to freeze time sometimes so I can breathe.â You ranted, somehow finding out that you were not alone in this life made you feel better. Neteyam is not judging you for letting your guard down and wanting to be normal. Heâs listening and understanding and that is what you needed at this point in time. You both sat in silence after your admission. He reached over and grabbed your hand and you looked down an your hands and entertained your fingers with his. âI- I have this feeling in my stomach, a bad feeling like something bad is coming.â You let it slip fiddling with his fingers. You didnât know why he mad you fee so comfortable but you couldnât complain. Your whole life youâd had up this strong front but he was able to tear it down in a matter of seconds. He lifted his other hand to gently grab your face. Your eyes met his and immediately you saw the softness in his eyes, you also saw how beautiful he was. The glowing dots on his face were beautiful at night. You had never really looked at him before but you were confused on how you couldnât see how attractive he was. He began to lean in, your breath hitched and your heart rate picked up. âIs this okayâ he asked, his breathe fanned over your lips. You nodded and connected your lips.
That night things happened. You were not proud of it, in fact the feeling in your stomach worsened. You and neteyam actively avoided each other, you were terrified for your parents to find out, scared that they would desert the sullys and disown you. Youâd been a ball of stress walking around the clan, âwhat would they say? We arenât even matedâ you wondered. A few days later you found out you were with child after your body had begun to reject your food and your heart practically stopped. You tried to find any way to be away from your family when you ate just so your mother wouldnât connect the dots. Eyes why? Was this what she was warning you about? Was it meant to be this way?
One day when you were sitting on your ilu at the edge of the reef your siblings had shown up much to your surprise. âSister, youâre avoiding usâ tsireya said worried. You frowned getting defensive âim not, im busy completing my tasksâ you lied quickly. Aounung gave you a look as if saying âreally?â âI am, okay? I have a lot to complete before the ceremonyâ you said. Tsireya shook her head âare you okay? Whatever it is you can tell us we wont tell. Even if mom and dad are getting suspiciousâ she said muttering the last part. At that your walls crumbled, tears filled your eyes and cascaded down your face, âthey will hate me, i canât tell them. You cant tell themâ you begged tears still falling downy our face. They both nodded profusely. âI- i am with childâ you admitted. Both of their faces mirrored horror, Aonung more angry and Tsireya just complete shock. âWhat were you thinking, you know mom and dad will-â your brother scolded but you cut him off âwill do nothing because you wont tell. Right?â You asked. You both stared each other down and eventually he gave up sending you a nod. âWho?â Tsereya asked, you knew she didnât want to finish the sentence. You hesitated looking down âneteyamâ.
âsister tell me you are jokingâ tsereya said, her face again filled with horror. âWhy would i joke? I was stupid and now i'm paying the price. Hiding it from my family, mom and dad would send them away, the cannot suffer for my stupidity. They can be as disappointed in me as they want, not like it's anything new.â You defended. âDoes he know?â Your brother questioned. You shook your head ânoâ. He scoffed âevery word that comes out of your mouth makes me question how we are related.â He said. You squinted your eyes at him in irritation. âWhat hes saying is maybe you should talk to him. Come up with a plan and go from there. He deserves to know. He is just as responsible as youâ tsireya interrupted before an argument could break out. You frowned in thought. If he accepts it you wouldnât be completely alone if your parents decided to rid themselves of you. You nodded, making your way back to shore to find neteyam not sure how youâd break it to him.
â with neteyam â
his family noticed heâd been acting weird. He started getting irritated easily his fuse was short and no one knew why. âBro whats your problemâ loâak asked, getting irritated at Neteyam attitude. âNothing, loâakâ he replied shortly, dropping the pile of nets he was told to bring home by an elder. He entered his familyâs mauri pod noting that his parents were watching him not so discreetly, something theyâd been doing since they noticed his odd behavior. âDid you get the nets?â Jake asked, neteyam wanted to yell or throw something or hit someone. âOver there sirâ he said pointing to the entrance to the pod. âKid i told you to drop it off with my iluâ Jake scolded, neteyam walked over to the nets and grabbed them, his ears pinned back and his tail swished impatiently. He tossed the nets on th ilu waiting at the dock. He re-entered the pod ânow its with your ilu like you askedâ he said irritation lacing his tone. The pod filled with a thick tension.
Everyone held their breath waiting for Jake to do or say something. Jake stood making his way to neteyam grabbing his arm harshly âHey! What the hell is your problem boy? Huh?â Jake asked, neteyam could feel the anger radiating from his father and lowered his head in shame. He wanted to cry, but he couldnât. Not in front of his siblings. Not in front of his father. He had to keep it together. But he couldnât keep the tears from pooling in his eyes. He lifted his head to meet his fathers eyes. âNo problem sirâ he said.
Jake immediately noticed the tears brimming his eyes and his grip loosened. âMay i be excusedâ neteyam asked, his voice didnât give away the tears in his eyes, but Jake could see the pleading look in his sons eyes. Jake nodded, in shock having not expected to ever see his son on the verge of tears right in front of him. Neteyam quickly took his leave. Kiri and loâak followed quickly after him. Jake turned to neytiri still in shock. She looked at him with confusion, she couldnât see neteyam ace over Jakeâs shoulder. âHe was on the verge of cryingâ Jake told her. Her eyebrows raised and the same question filled both of their heads âwhat the hell happenedâ
Loâak and kiri easily found Neteyam sitting with his hands in his head. âWhat happenedâ Loâak questioned, seriously this time. âAnd if you say nothing i will throw a rock at your headâ kiri kinda but not really joked. Neteyam shook his head his hair swaying with the rhythm of his head. âI messed upâ Neteyam admitted. Loâak folded his arms âwhat could you have done that badâ he asked. Neteyam looked up to his sibling who were standing right in front of him. âY/n an di spent the night togetherâ he said. The silence that followed after Neteyams confession was deafening. Loâak and kiri looked at each other with wide eyes, confirming that they both heard right. âDid you mate with her?â Loâak asked. Neteyam shook his head, the lump in his throat prevented him from speaking. He was terrified, if his parents find out he was sure his dad would skin him and his mom would do nothing to stop it, but eywa help him if your parents find out. His family was at risk of being kicked out all because of him and that guilt ate him alive. âHave you checked on her?â Kiri asked, sitting down beside him. âNo, I do not think I canâ he said. Kiri sighed disappointed. âYou idiot brother of mine, she could be going through worse than you. Man up and go talk to her. Weâll take care of mom and dad for now.â Kiri said. âYeah go, don't be a wussâ loâak joked patting Neteyamâs shoulder. He felt lighter knowing he had his siblings support, so he nodded, standing up and walking away. âHe is so deadâ Kiri said. âThis puts me in the clear for the next 10 yearsâ loâak smiled.
â back with you â
you found neteyam way quicker than you wouldâve liked, his dark blue skin stuck out in the crowd of teal blue metkayina. You slowly approached him, his back was turned toward you and he looked as if he was looking for something. Or someone. âNeteyamâ you called. You saw his tail still and body go rigid. He turned around towards you with wide eyes. âY/nâ he said. You both stared at each other, behind him you saw his siblings peeking from behind a rock. âYou told them?â You asked softly. He nodded, âjust kiri and loâakâ he said. You nodded âi think we should talkâ you said. Neteyams heart dropped. He was afraid of the possibilities. He nodded, âwould you like to go somewhere more private?â he asked. You nodded and the two of you began to walk towards the place youâd met that night.
Once you were there and settled, your heart was racing âi- i do not know what to-â you cut yourself off with a sob. The fear of the unknown was beginning to get to you. Neteyam grabbed your hands and shhâed you âMawey, breatheâ he said. You nodded, trying to catch your breath. after a minut or so, your mind was a little clearer, thought you still didnât know how to break it to him. âIâm with childâ you said, it slipped out before you could stop yourself. This time it was neteyam who froze. He hadnât even thought about this possibility. A child. His world felt as if he stopped spinning. âNeteyam we are only 16 years of age, how can we- weâre not even matedâ your mind raced faster than you could talk. You wondered how you had known longer than him and was still the most worried between the two of you, he looked deeply in thought. âMaybe we could still go through with it but in a traditional wayâ he spoke.
you looked at him in wonder, urging him to continue. âWe could do the ceremony, I will court you and we will mate before you start to show. When the baby comes it will be âearlyâ but healthyâ he explained. You were shocked at how quickly he was able to come up with an efficient plan on such short notice. âThat could work, but are you sure you wan-â âi want nothing more, i mean i never planned on a child this early but we could make it workâ he said with full sincerity. You nodded âokay, we can do it, but we should probably speed the processâ you said. He agreed, pulling you in for a hug, you relaxed in his arms for the first time in a week. You felt like you could breathe again. Everything was gonna be okay, not to mention your mother secretly liked neteyam, so if he was trying to court you she'd accept it. And your father would just want you to pick someone who could protect you and nobody was more trained for that than neteyam. âWeâll be okayâ you said leaning your head into his chest. He answered with a âyesâ
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Hello!! I just wanted to say that the new Headcanon is so cute!! When I read Beauâs version, i immediately thought about your Take Me Home series! I can see those two having a kid and Emily being the best big sister ever! đ I also really loved seeing Ben so soft with a little girl, he is just so gentle and cute đ„čâ€ïž
thank you for sharing! đđđ
Hey there, lovely!
Aw thank you so much!! I had a lot of fun with that headcanon (How Dean, Beau, and Soldier Boy (Ben) would act while you're in labor.).
Honestly I kind of did have the Take Me Home-verse in my head when writing the vignette for Beau! I could so see that too with Emily. đ„č
Oh yeah, Ben being given a girl by the universe instead of a son to soften him up a bit gives me ALL the feels lol. That idea came straight from the Break Me Down-verse, for sure. đ
Thank you so much for reading and letting me know what you thought of that little HC! đ
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When You Escape Him; Savannaclaw
Summary: Yandere Savannaclaw boys x gn!reader. He adopts a child that looks like the two of you. You run to give you both a chance at life. You never expected him to find you.
CW: yandere, dark content, you don't make it far in two out of three of these, murder (if you think about it for two seconds), no wait there's also actual murder, abuse of power, laugh with me, Ruggie 's cracked, emotional manipulation,
Heartslaybul Octavinelle Scarabia Pomefiore Ignihyde Diasomnia Non NRC Staff
Three years into your relationship, he had come home and placed a baby in your arms.
"They were left in a box, all alone. And, well, he looks like if the two of us had a child," he sheepishly stared at the ground. "I just, I just figured it must be a gift from the seven."
You knew what he was trying to do. He was trying to tie himself to you through this boy. He looked just like him, and you were disgusted and scared.
Until he opened his eyes for the first time, and you found yourself staring into your own.
And you knew. You had to give this child the opportunity for a better life. A life without him.
In the end, your son did the opposite of what he had intended. And the first moment you could, the two of you had escaped.
Every day that took you farther away from the Sunset Savannah was a blessing. Getting out of the palace had been a miracle. Not alerting a single guard to your exit was a marvel.
Your time in Twisted Wonderland had taught you one thing. You were running out of miracles.
But you only needed one more. Tomorrow, you would leave the hotel with your son before the sun rose. You would slip into the trunk of a car that you'd traded the last of your jewels chains for. The driver would take you over the border, and then you could slip away where the second prince couldn't touch for fear of war.
You were too nervous to sleep. You held your son in your arms, and paced, whispering about the life you could have once you were free from Leona. The child had only been your son for three weeks, but you were going to free you both. Give you both a loving home.
You should sleep. You couldn't guarantee the next time you'd have a bed. And your eyes were so heavy, your mind foggy, but the anxiety pulsing through your veins made you nauseous whenever you tried to lay down.
Your vision was starting to get as foggy as your mind. The walls seemed to be wavering. Perhaps you should sit down.
The first grain of sand that hit you, you snapped completely awake. The walls weren't wavering; they were shimmering and collapsing.
You were lucky you were on the first floor. As fast as you could, you grabbed one of the tshirts you had stolen from Leona, and covered your son's head, pressed him close to your chest, then ran straight into the shimmering sandâŠ.
âŠ.and straight into a solid mass.
"Gotcha."
You felt a hand grab you by the hair as you heard the now completely sand hotel collapse behind you. You were yanked to the side of the hard mass, as he shouted.
"Tell my brother that I have them. Prepare for cleanup."
"Yes, your highness!" The nervous soldier standing beside Leona stuttered. Now that you weren't pressed straight into Leona, you saw he was surrounded by an entire troupe of soldiers. You watched the one he'd addressed rush off to the crowd on the other side of the pile of sand. You didn't recognize that one. He must have been promoted once the old one was fired.
If Leona didn't kill them, that is.
As you stared at the other crowd of soldiers, you recognized Farena's regal silhouette, feeling nauseous as he nodded at Leona across the way, issuing orders to soldiers who moved to get rid of all evidence of the former hotel.
Leona brought your attention back to him, taking the baby from your arms, and pulling his shirt off the little one's head. He babbled happily, and Leona infinitesimally softened. A face that was usually reserved for you.
"I can't believe you made me do all this work," he muttered, his tone becoming hard again. "You're gonna have to try real hard to make it up to me."
"Why is Farena here?" You whispered. You didn't think poorly of Farena. In fact, a part of you believed that, if you had had the chance, he would have helped you. But here he was, cleaning up Leona's dirty work.
Leona growled, and you snapped your mouth shut.
"The kingdom likes me better when you're with me. Of course he'd make sure I wouldn't lose you."
It was patronizing, like he was explaining something simple to a small child. A child he hated.Â
But Leona didn't hate you. Maybe it would be better if he did.
He snatched your wrist, and began walking the three of you towards a car you hadn't noticed before. He opened the car door, and shoved you inside, getting in behind you. Then he handed you your son.
You hesitated to take him, and he grinned.
"I'd hold him now. It's going to be an awfully long time before you can even look at him again."
You knew Ruggie couldn't afford to come find you. Especially when you were hiding in the Queendom of Roses.
So you'd quietly raised your son there. You'd reunited with Ace, and rekindled the friendship you'd lost when Ruggie started to hoard you. You'd fallen in love. Gotten married. He'd adopted your son as his own.
You came home from work one day, and found him lying motionless at the bottom of the stairs.
"Ace!" You screamed, rolling him over and feeling for a pulse. Nothing. You looked for any marks, any sign of an intruder, but nothing.Â
Your son. Where was he? He should be at home, he had a project that was due tomorrow. Where was he?Â
You stood up and began to run up the stairs, but your body froze, before slowly turning around. And there he was.
"Leona already took our son home, shi hi hi."
Leona. You were so stupid. Of course he'd go to Leona. If anything, the fact it took so long to find you was a shock.
He shoved Ace's body with his foot, your foot moving in time to his, still being trapped in his spell. You used all your muscles to stay upright, nearly falling down the stairs with your lack of balance.
"I always hated him. Loud. Stupid. Couldn't mind his own business," he hummed, looking back up at you. "Did you leave me for him, or did he come later? Doesn't matter. Either way, you've really hurt my feelings."
He paused, his brow furrowing, actually looking angry for the first time. "We're going home, Y/N."
He turned and walked out the door, you following him, until he reached a black car. He turned, placed cuffs on you, then released you from the spell, pulling you into the car.
"I know you missed me, babe," he hummed, moving so he was sitting right next to you, resting his head on your shoulder. "And I would have come sooner, but Leona's an ass. Made me promise to calm down first so that I didn't accidentally hurt you or the boy."
He groaned. "He was probably right. I never thought I'd find a lover, or be a dad, and then both things were gone in a day. He didn't have to wait so long though. I calmed down in the first year."
You thought back to Ace's body at the bottom of the stairs. If that was calmâŠ.
"Where's my son?"
He laughed.
"He doesn't get to be your son. Not until you can be my partner again."
"That's not fair!"
"Life's not fair, baby! My entire life has been an unfair shit show. So now it's time to do something for me! It's my turn to get something I want."
His smile came back to his face, and he giggled. The years must not have been kind to his mind.
"Now, if you can prove that you can be a good little spouse, then I'll let you prove you can be a good parent. You also owe Leona. It's thanks to him I could come get you. How are you at secretary work?"
He continued to chat about all the things you had to do to make it up to him and Leona. You don't know when, but at some point silent tears started rolling down your face.Â
And Ruggie laughed.
It wasn't until the day he'd brought home your son that you'd even realized what kind of a life you lived now. He never hurt you, physically. But the terror of the outside world he'd instilled in youâŠ
And his family hadn't helped. They'd gifted jack the second floor of their home so that you could start your family, but still remain close to âthe packâ.Â
His parents stayed with you everyday, while he went out to work with his brothers and sisters. They'd tell you all the stories of how happy they were, how wolf beast men mated for life, how you would also be so so so happy.Â
You would always just smile and nod. Even if you thought you were happy, you couldn't hold back the uneasy feeling every time they spoke of "forever".
And as you held your son, and realized you hadn't left the house in three years, you had lost all your connections, and you had a crippling fear fill your stomach whenever Jack wasn't home. And with that realization, came the secondary realization that you'd only begun to live this way, when you moved in with Jack after graduation.
It was the one day you knew everyone, including his parents, would be gone.
So why was it that you were now hiding in an alley, praying that your son wouldn't wake up, and alert a pack of hunting wolves to your presence? You were grateful they weren't real wolves, or they would have smelled you by now. As it was, Jack always mentioned you had such a unique scent that he could find you anywhere. You hoped that was just something he liked to say.
You hadn't seen any of them pass your alley in a while, so you took a shuddering breath, and peaked out into the street.Â
It was quiet. But they were nearby. You weighed your options. If you ran, you might get to a safe house, or find a cab, before they could catch you. But they'd definitely hear your steps, and Jack was an incredible runner.
Or you could walk quietly, and hide in alleys here and there. But that would take time. Time where they could find you. Time where a friend of the family could spot you, and call someone.
If you could get somewhere with a pay phone, you could call Vil and explain the situation. You were told he grew up in the area. But if he sided with Jack, he'd lead you on the wrong path, or worse, set his fans to detain you while you waited for Jack to get there.
If you knew Ace's phone number, you knew he'd get you out of there. Yes, you'd get an I told you so speech, but he wouldn't think twice about saving you.
Too bad Jack took your phone and contact book for âyour healthâ.
You heard a soft sigh from the boy in your arms, and looked down in momentary fear. Just sighing. Not awake. Good.
You looked back up, mentally trying to figure out where a phone was, and were met with a pair of glowing gold eyes, staring from across the street.
You ran.
You never really stood a chance, even if you could anywhere compare to Jack's unparalleled abilities, holding a child in your arms made it impossible to win.
You felt his arms wrap around your body and hold you tight.
âIt's okay, I've got you. You're safe now.â
You must have really scared him. He didn't usually say so many words at a time.
You let out a sob, and he gently rocked you side to side for a moment, whispering how it was okay, you were safe, he's sorry he wasn't there to protect you.
At some point, he must have gotten his dad's attention, because Mr. Howl was gently prying your son from your arms, so that Jack could scoop you up and carry you home.
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Synopsis; youâve been loyal to Rhaenyra since you were children, becoming lovers later on. After the tragedy of Stormâs Ends, she doesnât have to mourn alone.
Warnings; grief, death ( lucerysâ ), guilt, Daemon and Rhaenyra never got married.
Pairing; Rhaenyra Targaryen x reader
I havenât written much in years and am very rusty, however the got / hotd hyperfixation never left and here I am writing again. Please forgive any mistakes, and how short this is.
Grief was devastating to say the least, especially when the one youâre mourning happens to be your child. You shared Rhaenyraâs pain and grief to an extent, although you couldnât imagine how she felt learning the death of Lucerys. He was such a young child still, eager to help his mother and make her proud, only to unfairly die alongside his dragon.
Many times in the past, you had been Rhaenyraâs rock, helping her through everything- from her motherâs death to holding her hand as she gave birth. It always had been her and you against this cruel world and this would never change, but having to stay strong for your Queen was tougher than ever- a part of you was getting eaten up by the guilt, you should have been the one sent to Stormâs End.
You werenât a dragonrider per se, but over the years, Syrax and you bonded and she let you ride her even without Rhaenyraâs presence, although this was a rare occurrence. One day, many moons ago, your lover told you Syrax could feel the love you had for one another and that was the reason she liked you so much.
You shouldnât have let Lucerys rides Arrax to Stormâs Ends, it was obviously dangerous and you let the worst happen- for that, you would never be able to forgive yourself. If only you had insisted to be the messenger, the boy would be safe and with his mother. Learning the context of how Lucerys died, killed by Aemond Targaryen, made you drown in even more guilt as he most likely wouldnât have harmed you, he had no revenge to seek out on you.
Riding Syrax was something you had done countless times, your arms wrapped around Rhaenyraâs waist tightly, the wind caressing your face as you would enjoy the beautiful view- it was one of the things you enjoyed the most but this time was unlike all the ones before. Rhaenyra and you were here, on Stormâs Ends to recover Lucerysâ remains if there was any left.
Your eyes closed tightly as Syrax neared the beach where fishermen were going through their finds of the day. Your heart tightened as you could make out what resembled a dragonâs wing on the sand, covered by a fishing net. The impending confirmation of what had happened in the sky of Stormâs Ends was terrifying you, you werenât ready to bid farewell to one of the children you helped raise.
Your beloved had mostly been silent since her uncle, Daemon told her of Lucerysâ fate after delivering the message. This moment was replaying in your head, Rhaenyraâs words echoing in your ears.
All the close members of the Queen Rhaenyra Targaryenâs council were attending the meeting- council whose members were essentially composed of Lords, the Queen herself and you. You werenât a soldier, a Lord or anything of the sort but wherever the Queen went, you accompanied her, advising her if she asked for your input.
When Daemon interrupted the meeting by his entrance in the room, and simply by the look on his face, you could tell he was the bearer of awful news for the Queen. This was proven true mere seconds later as he informed Rhaenyra and you of the death of Lucerys.
Rhaenyra remained silent, staggering ever so slightly, trying to accept what had happened, what the fate of her young son had been. When she turned around, facing her council, you could discern the pain on her face, even if it was hidden under her anger and need of vengeance.
Your heart shattered into thousands of pieces when you heard the news Daemon was bringing. Rhaenyraâs sons might not have been yours biologically wise, but you had helped raising them and always loved them as if they were yours.
â I want Aemond Targaryenâ was the only thing the Queen said to the council that terrible night, and quite honestly the most she had said since she learnt what had happened to her dear son.
As soon as Syrax landed on the sand, next to the fishermen and smallfolk who ran for their lives immediately after they saw the yellow dragon approaching the beach. Rhaenyra was the first to land on her feet, directly heading for the fishing nets you noticed when flying atop the dragon. You rushed after your lover, quickly catching up- she dropped on her knees, taking off the nets from the remaining of Arraxâs wing and what resembled of Lucerysâ clothes.
Rhaenyra broke into sobs, the reality of her sonâs passing dawning on her, mourning him as she held the clothes tightly against her chest. It was your turn to drop on your knees, right next to your lover, whom you held close, she leaned into your embrace as you mourned alongside her, finally allowing the tears to flow down your eyes freely.
Syrax watched the scene from where she landed, roaring her pain and grief away, both from sharing Rhaenyraâs emotions as well as mourning Arrax, her own son.
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Chapter 19: I Know Who You Are
Pairing: Soldier Boy x f!reader, Reader POV, Soldier Boy POV
Summary: When the reader left Payback 40 years ago after a falling out with her childhood best friend she never looked back, but when two men show up to her apartment and start asking her questions about the past, the reader begins to think those things canât stay hidden and starts to question whatâs real and whatâs fantasy. This is a re-telling of The Boys Season 3, where the reader is a supe who's known Soldier Boy since 1927. The chapters will fluctuate between past and present. This is chapter nineteen of my "You Call It Madness But I Call It Love" series. (I'm so bad at summaries please forgive me!)
Word Count: 14.5K (It's a behemoth and oh my stars I didn't mean to do this)
Warnings: Angst, Cursing, Angst, Drinking, ANGST, Sexual References, Talks of Pregnancy/Abortion, Some steaminess (barely), Family Problems, Self-deprecating thoughts, Awkward Situation, Soldier Boy might be, is, really, absolutely, completely a little OOC. Soldier Boy is really all you need as a warning.
Note: This is told from the Reader's perspective. Any references to the reader is made using you or your. There is minimal use of y/n. I tried my best to proofread, but nobody's perfect. Reader is described as "curvy" occasionally. If you donât like, donât read, but if you do like, youâre my favorite!
Internal Monologue is in first person and is in italics
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A/N: Not going to lie, this one is ANGSTY and it's dramatic... ENJOY!
Soldier Boy POV
Ben couldn't move, couldn't breathe. The words you'd said still hovered between the two of you like an anchor sinking from a ship and lodging itself in his heart to tug him under. At first he thought that he'd imagined you saying it, that he was still reeling from using his newfound powers, but the ringing in his ears was not a side effect of that.
It had been exactly 37 seconds since you said it, and in those 37 seconds Ben couldn't do anything but stare into your beautiful wide eyes and try to remember how to breathe. The look on your face was identical to the first time you told him you loved him, hands gently cupping his cheeks and making him feel like the boy who used to climb up the tree outside your window just to glimpse your smile.
But now what you said was different. What you said didn't bring warmth, it brought destruction, it broke through everything he was.
 As soon as you said it a wave of shock crashed over him, followed by another more powerful wave of guilt. It wasn't guilt for getting you pregnant or guilt because the two of you weren't careful. Ben was not upset about that. He would have loved to see you pregnant, see you glow as you wore those cute overalls and prepared for a child that he gave you. To see you smile at him every day and let him make love to you, show you how excited he was to share this with you. Show you how you were the only person he wanted a family with, the only person he ever wanted to be bound to. He had wanted to give that to you and that wasn't a lie. When you first spoke those words to him so long ago about wanting to have a family, wanting to have someone to come home to, someone who loved you, Ben had wanted to be the one to give you those things.
He would have done anything to make you happy, still would. But now he was upset with himself. Guilty that he wasn't there for you when you needed him the most, guilty that he allowed himself to stay away as long as he had, and guilty that he hadn't fought harder to get back to you.
He imagined those years without him raising a child on your own, the sleepless nights you must have had, the way you must have never had a moment of quiet-.
Ben felt himself sinking deeper and deeper into despair when he thought of the years you must have spent alone raising his child, loving his child even though he threw you away.
She loves me that much? How can I ever deserve her?
Ben still didn't breathe, noting the way Legend, Butcher, and Hughie have fallen silent where they stand behind the two of you. Even Legend had stopped smoking his blunt, something that Ben wished he could take a hit from.
I'm a dad and I-
Ben's memories of his own father came up like the rising tide, the shit his father said to him, the way his father pushed him away, the way his father was never there when he needed him to be and the way that his father always made him feel like he wasn't enough, just as your mother made you feel.
Even after all this time, I did become him, I abandoned her and then I abandoned my kid. I wasn't there when they needed me the most, I am a fuck up I- Ben swallows, the overwhelming thoughts dragging him further and further beneath the waves. How could she still want me? How can she say that I've never disappointed her when I did this?
You drop your hands from his cheeks and he misses the warmth they brought, but worse is the look in your eyes. You look scared. It was the same look you'd had on your face this morning when he woke up with you in his arms.
Ben hated that, because he knew why. He knew that you were scared to tell him this because you thought he would leave you again, that you still didn't completely believe that he was never going to leave you again, and it broke something deep inside of him that he tried to hide away for decades. He wished that he had never done those things to you, wished that he had earned back your trust already, wished that you would let him make love to you to show you how much you meant to him, but deep down he knew that he was willing to wait for you even if it took the rest of his life, he would make you trust him again.
At least she's touching me and looking me in the eye now.
But he knew that he still had a long way to go.
âRight.â Butcher clears his throat awkwardly. âDonât forget to fill up the tank.â He tosses his keys towards you and you catch them in your hand while Ben continues to stand there.
Honestly he still wasn't sure what to say. He was stuck somewhere between guilt and shock and he wasn't sure how to make his body move. Pretty soon he would die from asphyxiation. He hadnât taken a breath since you said it.
Butcher, Legend, and Hughie walk into the house behind them each wearing a bewildered expression. Ben had been to Legend's summer house many times in the past. He had memories of orgies and parties that went on for days, both of which you never went to, and Ben always ended up at your apartment trying to sleep it off while you sketched quietly beside him. He still couldn't understand that, how you were able to sit there with him and act like your heart wasn't breaking each time he did that.
The silence grows between you and Ben can't find the words to fill it, because he has no idea what to say, no idea how you can look at him when he did this to you, when he got you pregnant and then abandoned you like you didn't matter.
"Look I-" You stammer, looking down at the ground for a minute to take a breath before you raise your eyes to look at him. "I didn't want to tell you like this, but I can't leave her. We have the same last name and the first thing Homelander's going to do is make that connection. I mean, Legend and I made up the story about Indigo being my mom, but Rosemary she-"
Ben's entire body explodes again with emotion and shock as you utter the name Rosemary. He hadn't heard it in over eighty years, the last time was at his mother's funeral. The day that you crossed the gravesite, pulling away from your family, swaddled in another ridiculous dress that your mother picked out, and took his hand, refusing to let it go. You were always there for him.
And then I wasn't fucking there for her.
âI just canât leave her, not with him.â You whisper, glancing up into Ben's impassive face but he can't say anything.
How can I when she named our daughter after my mother?
âI know itâs a lot to take in. I tried to tell you this morning, but then Butcher walked in and I didnât want to do this in front of him and- and-â You were babbling now, a nervous habit that Ben hadn't seen you do in ages, but was now rearing its ugly head all over again. âAnd you donât have to come with me-â
You were mistaking his silence for fear, mistaking his silence as him pulling away all over again. He could see it in your eyes and hear it in your voice as it trembled.
âRosemary.â Ben whispers, your daughter's name, his daughter's name, interrupting you. He barely breathes it, so low that he's not sure you heard him, saying the name with a reverence that he'd never used before. It was the first thing he'd said since you told him that he was a dad.
âYes?" You look confused.
âYou named her after my mom?â Benâs eyes catch yours, deep green and open. He could feel his own heart flutter when he asked you that, heating in his chest so hot that he thinks it might melt out of it, through the bones and sinew. If that happened he would catch it and give it to you as if you already didnât have it.
Ben can hear your heartbeat stutter when he asks you that. It was surprising, surprising that after everything that happened you still did that for him, did that to remember him.
He watches the end of your lips twitch in a smile.
âYeah. You loved your mom. And did you think I was going to name her after my mom? Really?â You smile faintly at him with the joke.
Ben almost smiles at the thought. There wasn't any way that you wanted to remember your mother. Hell, all Ben wanted was to help you forget her, to undo the damage that she'd done to you all those years ago, because he saw how her influence still weighed on you, how everything that happened in the past still sat on your shoulders.
And he wanted to relieve that.
âI did try to tell you.â You repeat, but your smile drops. âHonestly I also want to stop and get some clothes from my apartment so Iâm not covered in blood or rubble when I see her. It's going to be hard to explain all of this to her.â
Ben drags his eyes down your outfit again. Although this morning all he wanted was to rip it off you and study your curves with his hands, the outfit looked weathered. There was a prominent hole through the jacket and shirt, just under your left breast that Ben couldn't look away from. He knew what it meant. It was from you pushing him out of the way of Homelander. He could still feel the anger prickling beneath his skin when you again did the thing that he told you not to do. You were just so stubborn sometimes and never wanted to listen to him. Ben didn't give a single fuck that Homelander had punched him and practically choked him, the only thing he cared about was that Homelander had killed  you. There were many things that Ben fantasized about doing to Homelander when he had killed you, many he wished that he had been able to accomplish before Homelander tucked his tail and flew away like a little pussy.
He cannot be what passes for a hero these days.
Then again another side of him was incredibly turned on when you faced Homelander. He'd never admit that to you, but there was something sexy about the way you threw Homelander around like he was nothing. It had taken an extreme amount of effort for Ben not to kiss you after Homelander flew away, to take you back into the ruined house and show you just how much he liked your outfit and how much he enjoyed watching you kick Homelander's ass. Of course he'd let the anger win in the moments that followed the fight.
"Okay." Ben replies.
He sees you hesitate. âI guess Iâll see you when I get back.â You reply, with a tight smile, disappointment flashing in your eyes.
âWhat are you talking about?â Benâs eyebrows furrow together. He was confused. âIâm coming with you.â
âReally?" He watches your eyes widen in surprise.
 Did she really think I'd let her go alone to do this?
"Yes? I told you that I didn't want you to go alone. Especially with that asshole flying around." Ben could feel himself frown.
"Okay."
Reader POV
The first ten minutes of the drive is deathly quiet. Ben doesnât say anything and you fight to keep your mouth shut. The urge to fill the silence bristled beneath your skin, but you clamp your lips together.
Even when he said he wanted to come with me, he didn't acknowledge anything I said about Rosemary and-
âAre you sure sheâs mine?â Ben finally asks interrupting your internal monologue.
You canât help but laugh, gripping the steering wheel as you snort. âWhy is that the reaction all men have when a woman tells them that theyâre pregnant? Is it because all men believe that women go around plotting ways to force them into a relationship? Is that a legitimate fear that you guys have? Or is it because all men think women go jumping from bed to bed having unprotected sex with whoever they can get their hands on?â
âNo I just-â Ben sighs and doesnât finish his sentence. Heâs been staring out through the windshield, watching the outside world fade into blurred colors, glancing over at you every few seconds.
âIâm sorry.â You hadnât meant to laugh at him, but this was all just extremely awkward.
But it shouldnât be. You canât help but think to yourself. If Ben had ever asked me to have a kid with him before any of this I would have agreed to it no questions asked. But now I guess it's different.
âYes sheâs yours.â You sigh, but you canât look at him.
âBut how?â
âDo you really want me to explain the birds and the bees to you?â
âY/n.â He sighs.
âBecause of all the people in the world, you probably have enough experience to know exactly how babies are made and I hate to break it to you, it has nothing to do with a stork.â
 âPlease donât make a joke right now.â
âI canât help it.â You mutter butterflies dancing the conga in your stomach. âYou know how I get when I get nervous.â You could practically feel your neurons sending electrical impulses through your body, making your anxiety grow.
I really should have had that coffee this morning. Then again it might go right to my anxiety.
âWhy are you nervous?â Ben asks you incredulous. He sounds surprised, like he can't understand you.
âHuh?â
âWhy are you nervous? You should be fucking furious with me!"
"Ben what are you talking about?" You turn to look over at him. He looks wrecked. He's hunched in the seat, hands clenched tightly over his thighs, jaw tight.
Is he mad at me? Really? Your heart sinks into the pit of your stomach to be devoured by the swarm of butterflies. I knew it. I knew he wouldn't be able to handle this-
"I did this to you and then I fucking left you. I left you when you needed me and was with those Russian fucks for forty-â Benâs voice breaks.
You suddenly understand. Ben wasnât angry with you, he wasnât pulling away, he was angry with himself. Guilty and angry because he wasn't there, because he believed that he disappointed you again.
âBen wait a minute-â
âI should have been there every second.â He seethes, jaw tight, hands clenched into fists on top of his thighs. âI should have- FUCK.â Benâs fist goes through the roof of the car, making the entire frame shudder.
Shit Butcher might kill us for that.
"Oh Ben-" You whisper.
âI-â His chest begins to glow. âI said all those things, pushed you away, fucked Countess. I put you through all that shit and you still wanted to have my fucking kid? And you named her after my mom? I-"
Butcher will definitely kill us if Ben blows up his car.
You pull the car over to the side of the road, quickly unbuckling your seatbelt and reaching for Ben. "Ben please it's okay." You breathe, hands finding the sides of his face. "It's okay."
"No it's not." His chest dulls, but he turns his head away from you ashamed. "You told me that you wanted a family, that you wanted someone to come home to, someone who loved you. I wanted to give you those things, but not like this. I-" Ben's voice cracks. "I'm so sorry. I-"
"Ben." You whisper, turning his face back to yours so he's looking at you. His green eyes are dim, eyebrows pushed together, mouth turned down in a frown. And you can't help but kiss him. It's the first kiss you'd had in years. Life always seemed to get in the way of that. Whether it was Rosemary or Lou, you hadn't had a lasting relationship with someone in decades, not since Ben. The most youâd done is gone out with another artist and had dinner. It had ended in an awkward kiss that felt completely wrong to you. It didn't feel anything like this.
Kissing Ben was even more wonderful than you remember. The way he softly sighs into your mouth as he deepens the kiss, the way his hands find your waist to pull you over the center console into his lap, the way your hands automatically tangle in his thick dark hair on the back of his head, and the way your entire body melted into him. Warm tingles trace down your spine as your lips move against his, every synapse in your body electrifying, as you try your hardest to tell him how much he means to you with the kiss.
"Don't you understand." You say against his lips, stroking your fingers through his hair. "You did. You gave me a family. You gave me someone to come home to, someone who loves me. And now that sheâs all grown up it gets to be you. You didnât ruin my life. I donât regret a single moment, even with everything that happened. I don't regret having Rosemary. You gave me what I wanted. It might not have looked the way I thought it would, but it doesn't make it any less special.â
"But I wasn't there for you when you needed me. I-" Ben sighs leaning his forehead against yours and you kiss him again, his tongue tangling with yours so devastatingly languid it seems to take your next breath.
Why did I ever deny myself this?
"Ben, you're here now, and that's all that matters to me."
"But-"
"You don't need to apologize for this Ben. What happened to you was not your fault. You couldn't control being away as long as you were-"
"I could have tried harder to escape. I could have-" He swallows, eyes wide and filled with pain. "I would have tried harder if I knew that I left you with-"
"Ben." You breathe, extracting your fingers from his hair and cupping his cheeks. "Please. I don't blame you for not being there. It was out of your control. And if-" You clear your throat with a sigh. "If you really love me as much as you say, if you've really loved me all this time, then I know you would have been there every second."
"I do. I love you." He kisses you again, breathing you in, holding you so tight against his chest as if he believes that you'll fade away in his arms. "I would have been, even if you hated having me there."
"I might have at the beginning, but now I can't imagine losing you. I can't imagine you leaving me. I don't think that I'll be able to survive this time-"
"I won't leave. I promise."
"I'm starting to believe you." Your thumbs stroke against Ben's cheeks, smiling softly at him, trying to fight the urge to cry, because your emotions are getting the best of you all over again. "Now can we please go? Or are you going to blow up Butcher's car?"
"One more Sweetheart." Ben murmurs, dragging your face back to his. "I've waited forty years for this."
"Does she know about me?" Ben says from your bedroom, over the sound of the sink.
You were standing in your bathroom, washing ash and blood from your face and picking rubble out of your hair. Honestly, you looked⊠weathered. The revenge outfit had a large irreparable hole that went through the blouse, not to mention you'd lost another favorite jacket and you were starting to get pissed.
Two down in a week. Maybe the vintage shop across the street from Rosemary's will have a nice selection. You reconsider. Or maybe Legend will have some clothes that he doesn't want. You smile to yourself. He certainly looks the same, must have some nice vintage clothes from the "good old days". Maybe I should be more worried about the fact that Iâm more upset about ruining another jacket rather than the fact that we killed two people today.
Of course, you also needed to consider getting Ben some more clothes as well. Butcher's minimal selection was dismal, then again Ben could probably wear a garbage bag and be drop dead gorgeous.
He's the worst.
"Yeah. I told her who you were." You pull off the jacket, stroking your finger around the hole in the back of it, noticing the way the singed leather melted away from the laser. "She also knows you're back. It was-um- it was Rosemary who was texting me this morning." You momentarily feel guilty again. Rosemary was not excited to see Ben, the text messages this morning were a testament to that. And you were afraid that Ben was going to get his hopes up about seeing her.
Personally you weren't sure how he was going to approach this. Your heart just about broke when he almost exploded in the car from guilt about getting you pregnant. That was shocking, but at the same time the look of anguish on his face made you feel guilty all over again for not trying to get him sooner, for not asking more questions about his death. You knew that he was more indestructible than you. Why didn't I question that?
You reach for the bottom of the blouse, pulling it from your skin, but you look at your reflection in the mirror. There were two prominent scars, each about the size of a nickel, just under the left side of your bra. The only thing left behind from your fight with Homelander.
Ben's hand against the small of your bare back, makes you jump. It was rough and familiar, brushing against your soft skin in a way that makes you want to push back into his touch, to soak up the warmth like a cat in the sun. Proving again that your body still responded to his touch the same way it had your entire life. "Let me see." He rumbles.
"What?"
Ben turns you towards him, eyes dark as they meet yours, but then they drop to the collection of scars on your torso. "This one?" He strokes the golf-ball sized, almost perfect circle on the right lower part of your abdomen.
"Countess."
Ben's jaw tightens, but then raises his hand to the scars Homelander left then to the bullet scar just over your heart. "I hate that so many of these have to do with me."
"Well you didn't do them so you should see that as a win." You joke trying to make Ben smile, but he doesn't. "Ben we talked about this."
"I know." He pauses stroking his finger on a thin line just over your left collarbone. It was new to him. "Whatâs this one?"
"Rosemary." A ghost of a smile is on my lips. "Didn't want to eat her broccoli when she was a kid, telekinetically threw a knife at me by accident."
 "She's a supe?"
"Yeah she's like us a bit. Doesn't age, she's strong, and more invulnerable, but she doesn't have any other powers unless she touches you."
"She has to touch you?"
"Yeah skin to skin contact only and only 24 hours, that's how she got telekinesis. She touched me and, well, really didnât want to eat that broccoli-" You shrug. You were used to her powers, happy that you didn't have to watch her age, but worried about Lou. You were always worried about Lou. âBut she's not a hero, she didn't want to be one. She's a nurse, works downtown in the emergency room. Though I think she's thinking about being a doctor."
"A doctor? A female doctor?â Benâs eyebrows furrow.
Right. He basically missed the feminist movement. Note to self, make Ben watch the Barbie movie.
"Yes a female doctor. Nowadays it happens more often than youâd think.â You laugh. âShe wanted to go back to school, but then her husband died and she was taking care of Lou-"
"Lou?"
You take his hand stroking your thumb over the back. âItâs not just Rosemary-â
âPlease do not tell me you had fucking twins.â Ben tenses.
âNo.â You snort. âLou is our granddaughter. It's short for Louisa, though Rosie never calls her that unless she's done something crazy. Sheâs four, and most of the time she calls me aunty. She doesnât know Iâm her grandmother. Rosie and I, we thought it would be better if I introduced her as my cousin, not as my daughter."
âWhat happened to her husband?â
âCar accident. Just a few weeks after Lou was born.â Your smile drops remembering. âHe was a good guy. Rosemary was head over heels for such a long time, and when he died she just crumbled completely shut down. He wasn't a supe and when she started to have a life with him I was worried about him dying. He wasn't going to live forever and he certainly wasn't indestructible. But after it happened I moved in with them for a while, helped her get through it, but it was hard."
"What about Lou?"
"What about her?"
"Is she a supe?" Ben's palm was still resting on the thin line over your collar bone and it was difficult to think with his bare skin pressed against yours.
"Not that we've noticed. Though I worry every day she will be."
"Why?"
"She's a third generation supe from our bloodline. If that gets out, who knows what'll happen. Same with Rosemary. Sheâs powerful and sheâs only second generation from us. Iâm hoping it skipped Lou.â You sigh leaning forward into his hand. "When I first found out that I was pregnant with Rosemary I was afraid that Vought would come take her away. And then when Lou was born I was so happy for Rosie, but everyday I'm scared that-" The words catch in your throat. Nothing really scared you anymore, but the thought of losing Rosie or Lou broke your heart, it was the same fear you had at the thought of losing Ben all over again.
He slides his hand up the column of your throat to cup your cheek. âNothing will happen to them.â Ben promises. âI wonât let it.â His gaze was locked on yours, eyes filled with steely determination. It made your heart warm to know that Ben already cares about them, that he understood how important they were to you. It also made you all the more guilty for telling Rosemary everything about Ben, afraid that it turned her against him.
But I told her the bad and the good. I told her how much he meant to me, how he touched my life, our childhoods-
Images of the moments with Ben over your lifetime, the good and the bad, the moments you loved him, the moments you hated him, the simple moments that you longed for more, and the moments where Ben gave you everything you wanted, when he was exactly what you needed, as if he understood every part of you, even the parts that you tired to hide from everyone else. The moments before you were supes when Ben and you were together and he made you forget about your mother, when he walked you home as you sang drunkenly off key, and the moments where he cheered you up when everything seemed hopeless. Ben was always there for you.
You tried to tell her that, but maybe you were too jaded to tell her, maybe you focused too much on the bad. And now that meant she might not listen to his side of the story.
He drags his finger over the scar just over your heart, the one he can't seem to forget, trailing goosebumps in it's wake, while his other hand wraps around your waist tugging you forward against his chest.
By now he was wearing the pair of jeans and dark shirt he came to your apartment in, looking just as devastatingly handsome as he always did. Probably a good thing that he didn't go to her apartment in his supe suit, you didn't want Rosemary to ask him why he was wearing it and then have to tell her that he torched the TNT Twins.
Because telling her that you personally kicked Homelander's ass and that he was now going to hunt down Rosemary and Lou seemed so much easier. Not.
Why is my life like this?
"I can't put a shirt on if you keep doing that." You whisper. Honestly you couldn't think straight either.
"Maybe that's my plan all along."
"Well see, if I never put a shirt on that means that I'll be walking around in public with everyone seeing me without one and-"
Ben's eyes narrow at the thought.
âOh do you not like that?â You smirk.
He pins you back against the counter, the marble biting into your lower back, but you donât have time to think about it because Benâs lips are against yours, supple and urgent, driving every thought from your mind.
Your hands come up to grip his shoulders, fastening him tighter against you while his mouth drags over your skin down your throat to your collarbone.
âBen we have to go-â you whisper.
âLet me do this first.â He mutters against your skin.
âDo what?â You sigh, feeling him begin to suck a mark directly over your collarbone. âBen-â You try to say his name to make him stop. Showing up to Rosemaryâs apartment with a hickey was the last thing you wanted. But instead of his name coming out in the harsh whisper you intended, it comes out as a moan.
Benâs body tightens around you, gaze meeting yours. His eyes are dark pools filled with promises that make a shiver travel down your spine. âIâve waited forty years to hear you say my name like that again.â His lips fall back to the same spot. âAnd I look forward to hearing it like that in the future.â
Part of you is screaming too soon! But thereâs another part rattling the bars of her cage that screams more! At the top of its lungs.
Ben continues to kiss along your neck, beard scratching against the soft skin in a way that makes you sigh and move your hands up to tangle in his hair.
You can feel Benâs smile. âThatâs my girl.â
âOnly yours.â You whisper before you can stop yourself causing Ben to raise his head from your collarbone.
âDamn right.âHe growls.
And there goes my last shred of willpower. Fuck.
Rosemaryâs apartment building sends a deep feeling of dread through your system. You were happy that you got to change, happy that Ben got to change, but now thanks to the man sitting in the front seat across from you there was a large purple mark just on your collarbone that was barely covered by the long sleeved sweater you had on.
Please let Rosemary not see it.
Ben wasnât helping. Since your apartment he hadnât let go of your hand. The entire ride to Rosemaryâs he held it over the center console of Butcherâs car, slowly stroking the back of it with his thumb making warm tendrils creep up your arm and settle in your heart. It was just like the night after the restaurant when Ben drove you home and he showed a softer side of himself that you hadnât seen in forty years.
In the past 48 hours Ben had been more attentive and loving than he ever had and it made you hopeful for the future, hopeful that this really was going to work.
But you were still afraid that this was happening so fast. You werenât expecting yourself to be so open to forgiving him, to be so ready to let him back in, to let him pick up the pieces of your heart but there he was holding duct tape with his piercing eyes and annoyingly gorgeous face.
âThis is a nice apartment building.â Ben says looking up at the towering behemoth.
âShe really likes it.â You shrug. âItâs close to a lot of schools and Rosieâs job. I kinda thought it was too uppity.â
âNeighborhood looks safe.â Ben gets out of the car.
âYeah it-â You begin to say trying to open your door but as soon as you do Ben is there opening it for you. âOh thanks.â
âYou look surprised.â He smiles.
âItâs just been a while since someone has opened a door for me.â
Benâs smile twitches for a second. âY/n?â
âYes Ben.â You smooth the front of his shirt.
âHow many others have there been?â He asks quietly.
You pause for a second hand still on his chest.  As ridiculous as it might seem to some people, the truth was there hadnât been anyone else.
At first it was difficult to find time for anything eat alone that in particular. Chasing a toddler around that occasionally picked up the couch and threw it across the room with her mind was enough to keep anybody busy, not to mention that you didnât want to leave Rosemary alone with anyone for a night. And when Rosemary finally went off the college and you started to sell your paintings you started to get more comfortable being on your own again. Youâd gone out to dinner with a few men who asked you after your show shared a kiss, but nothing ever felt right.
Finally came the one night that you thought things could be different. Max was a colleague that had flirted with you every chance he got. He wasnât bad looking, reminded you a bit of Ben and your friend Adam Winthrop growing up. Max was also an artist who came to each of your shows, talked you down from the ledge whenever you thought the work wasnât good enough and always took you out to get a drink after a show to make you feel better. He was sweet, funny, but when you were with him something always felt different.
But one night you figured why not? So you gave in, went back with Max to his apartment, but you couldnât go all the way. It felt wrong. You could tell how much he liked you, how much he wanted you, but you didnât want him. And it felt wrong to use someone. To make them believe you had feelings for them only to push them away.
So you told Max the truth and he respected you, didnât make anything weird between the two of you, acted like nothing happened.
But now standing here in front of Ben with him asking you that question apart of you wished you had found someone else.
âWhy?â You ask slowly.
Ben shrugs. âI donât know you just havenât- I mean we havenât talked about that and-â
âI have never asked you how many people youâve slept with. And I really don't think this is the best time?"
âI know that you've never asked but the last time I saw you I mean-" Ben's hand gently touches your waist, stroking against the top of your favorite worn pair of jeans.
You knew exactly what he was thinking about, he was thinking about the night you shared together, when he was everything you wanted, and he made you feel special loved, when he was gentle and made love to you the way you always imagined.
And yes maybe sex was off the table for a while, but it would come up again, eventually.
"Ben, can we talk about this after we get Rosemary and Lou back to Legend's?" You whisper placing a hand on his chest before you can stop yourself. You weren't sure if you'd ever be able to stop touching him, if you'd ever be able to stand in his presence and not feel warm or happy. You never expected it to be like this again, and certainly not so soon.
Ben looks disappointed for a moment, his green eyes flashing in the brilliant sunlight as it begins to sink behind the buildings. The wind carried the smells of summer, ice cream, beer, sunscreen, and just a hint of rain, rustling through the trees on the edge of Central Park. There would be a storm soon and you hoped that you were on the road before it hit. You hated driving in the rain.
"Okay." He releases your waist and takes your hand once more. "But we are going to talk about it right?"
"I don't see why it's so important." You steer him towards the front double doors where the doorman, Rodger, stands in a green and gold suit.
"Welcome back miss." Rodger smiles and opens one of the heavy glass doors for Ben and you.
"Thank you Rodger. How's the wife?" You flash a winning smile at him, still holding on tight to Ben who walks silently next to you.
"She's doing a lot better. The treatments are going well. She seems more like herself each day." Rodger smiles wider, eyes misting a little bit.
"That's wonderful to hear. Tell her I say hello." You say continuing to the gilded elevator that sits on the other side of the large marble lobby of the apartment building.
The truth was you knew that his wife was doing better, just as you knew she was receiving her treatments. Last Christmas Rodger had broken down when he was letting you up to see Lou and Rosemary and told you that his wife was diagnosed with lung cancer and because they didnât have the money for treatment, it would probably be her last Christmas. Rodger was one of the kindest people you knew, and you didn't want him to lose his wife, so Rosemary and you both decided to shift around the generous funds that her grandfather left you, to send an anonymous donation so Rodger's wife could get treatment.
"Of course miss."
The elevator door closes, leaving Ben and you alone again, playing a cover of "Don't Stop Believing" on the piano.
 Ben tugs you close and kisses you softly, so soft that it makes your eyes flutter while he smiles down at you. "I love you."
"What did you do?" You joke, nerves of Rosemary seeing Ben gone for a moment.
"You have such a big heart." He strokes his finger down your cheek, eyes soft as he gazes at you.
"He was going to lose his wife." You murmur. Ben was doing it again, seeing through you, understanding you even without knowing the whole story. It was like he always had a way of laying you bare, able to see your thoughts and secrets even though he wasn't a mind reader. "He loves her so much and for him to lose her like that-"
Ben hugs you closer to his chest. "I understand what that's like."
You see where his mind is, see that it's on a beach overseas, with blood soaked sand and your body lying in his arms as you draw your last breath. It hurt you to see the pain in his eyes, the loss even when you were standing right in front of him, even when you were in his arms, pressed against him in the way that always made you think that he was made for you just as the way you were made for him.
How could I ever forget how he made me feel? How wonderful it was to be with him when all you could see was the boy you grew up with?
"I'm right here. And I'm not going anywhere. I promise." You kiss him gently on the tip of his nose. It was more to reassure yourself than anything else. Rosemary was not going to react well to seeing him.
Might as well rip the band aid off right now.
The hallway is quiet, carpet plush and thick beneath your shoes and Ben and you make your way to the door at the end of the hallway. The blue paint is supposed to be calming, but your anxiety spikes as you raise your free hand to knock against the front door.
Please let her be here and not be kidnapped by Homelander.
The door opens.
Rosemary is dressed for work. Her maroon scrubs are clean and neat, her dark hair pulled back in a bun, her make up soft. She looks calm, but you can see the coming storm, just as you felt the coming storm outside the building, feel the electricity against your skin before the thunderclouds rose on the horizon. As soon as her eyes meet yours they narrow.
She's pissed.
"What are you doing here? I told you that I didn't need you to watch Lou tonight. Her babysitter is coming." Rosemary glances at Ben once, frown deepening as she notices his hand holding yours. You knew she was still holding back what she wished to say, choosing rather to ignore his presence rather than tear him apart here.
"I know. I'm not here for that. We have to go." You say, not wanting to discuss the full gravity of the situation in the hallway, but Rosemary shifts to block the doorway.
"You're not coming in. Not with him." She spits the word 'him' like it's a curse and you feel Ben's body tense in surprise.
I should have prepared him for this.
"Hi Iâm-" Ben begins to say, trying to smooth things over.
"I know who you are." Rosemarys eyes narrow and flick back to you. âI canât believe you fucking forgave him.â
"I-"
"Before you say you didn't that fucking hickey on your neck says otherwise."
Your cheeks flush bright red in embarrassment, shifting the sweater to hide it again. âRosie-â
âNo no no. I donât want to hear it.â
âRosie-â Ben tries to say.
"Don't you dare call me that." She snarls, face contorting in rage, burning so hot that you could practically feel the air around her raising in temperature. "You don't know me. We're not friends. And I don't care what she says, you're not my dad. You're just the asshole that fucked my mom, got her pregnant and then ripped her heart out." Rosemary spits. âDo you have any idea what you put my mother through? Do you have any idea?"
Ben's body is still tense beside you, pulled so taunt that you don't know how he hasnât snapped "I know and I apolo-â
âYou think one measly apology makes that okay? MAKES ANY OF THIS OKAY?â
âCan we please not do this in the hallway?â You sigh. The last thing you wanted was Mrs. Norbert, Rosemary's prehistoric nosy neighbor coming out into the hall with her yappy French poodle, the same one that always snapped at your ankles and at Lou when you ran into her in the lobby.
âHeâs not coming in here.â Rosemary stands her ground in the doorway.
"I know that youâre angry, but I need you to put that aside right now because there are more pressing things we have to worry about.âÂ
"Like what?" Her eyes narrow at you. "Oh let me guess, you guys fucked again, you're pregnant and now you're going to-"
"Don't you dare speak to her that way." Ben roars trying to step in front of you, but you put your hand up to stop him.
Rosemary might be your daughter, but to Ben she was someone who insulted you, family or no, he wasn't going to sit back and let her treat you that way.
"Ben." You say once to calm him down. The last thing you wanted was for him to go nuclear right now. "Rosemary please. I know that you're angry, but we're not here for some big reunion. This is more important than any of this. This is about keeping Lou safe."
At the mention of her daughter's name, you see Rosemary's resolve waver. Her eyes flick to Ben again, once more sizing him up. "Fine." She opens the door wider, so Ben and you can come inside the apartment.
The creative chaos of the living room soothes some of your nerves, but not all. This was going poorly. Well, worse than poorly. Rosemary could barely look at Ben let alone speak to him without looking like she'd smelled something rancid.
You knew it would be bad, but you didn't think that it would be like this.
Apart of your heart broke for Ben. You saw how he acted in the car when you told him he was a father, how upset he'd been at the thought of getting you pregnant and then abandoning you. And now Rosemary was basically making him feel like a deadbeat probably wasn't helped either.
All you hoped was that Ben wasn't focusing on what his father used to say to him about being a disappointment, hoped that he wasn't reliving the memories of everything his father shouted at him at night before Ben fled to the solace of your bedroom.
Because the truth was you weren't disappointed and certainly were not disappointed when you got pregnant. Heartbroken yes. Scared shitless, again yes. But not disappointed, you'd never say that about him or to him, not as long as you lived. You knew exactly what those words would do to him, exactly where they would transport him. And you refused to be the reason Ben was reminded of his father.
"Aunty y/n!" Lou crows as she weaves through the apartment, leaping off the teal colored couch and into your open arms. She squeezes you tightly, burying her face in your neck. To see her safe brings relief washing over you, the same feeling you felt when Rosemary opened the door, but tenfold now knowing that Homelander has not taken either or them.
And he won't ever.
"I missed you." She whispers.
"I missed you too honey." You smile down at your granddaughter. She leans back to glance at her mother who still stands at the front door, holding on to the handle like it's her last nerve. Ben is standing close to you, looking at the little girl in your arms, face impassive, but his eyes betray him, caught somewhere between shock, anger, and just a twinge of guilt.
Please don't be guilty Ben. You think to yourself, trying hard not to reach out and touch him.
"Mommy why were you yelling at aunty y/n?"Â Lou looks at where Rosemary stands awkwardly by the door glaring at Ben.
"Because I didnât tell her my friend Ben was coming." You say rubbing her back softly.
"Him?" She points at Ben.
"Yes. And don't point honey it's rude."
"Hi." Lou gives him a toothless smile and waves her chubby hand at him, her dark hair flopping away from her face as she does so.
Ben blinks at her for a moment, before his mouth begins to quirk in a half smile, shoulders still tense. But you could see that he was trying, and it meant something that he was despite Rosemary practically tearing him a new one in the hallway.
"He looks like mommy." Lou giggles cuddling into your neck to look at him.
It was the one thing that you hadn't prepared Ben for, how much he looked like Rosemary, how similar they were. You knew that somewhere deep down he was probably thinking the same thing.
Rosemary's eyes skate to Ben who stares back at her with the same intensity, but something passes in the air between them, something that you can't place.
"Yes. Yes he does sweetie. Now why donât you go get your art kit for me, and weâll go." You put her on the ground and Lou scampers off to her bedroom while the three of you stand there in awkward silence.
"Why do we have to go? I thought you didnât expose yourself because you didn't go to Russia to get him." Rosemary asks. She still wouldnât say his name. Then again you weren't expecting her to call him dad.
HA. Like that would ever happen.
Ben scoots closer to you reaching for your hand, but when Rosemary narrows her eyes at him, he pauses halfway. So you take his hand instead. "I did expose myself."
"How? Because of him?"
"Look I get that you're pissed, but I'm asking you to put it aside for one second so we can talk about this."
"Fine." Rosemary crosses her arms over her chest. "I'm listening." She still looks angry.
And you know what you're about to say is going to make her even angrier.
"We went to talk to the TNT Twins and things went south." You begin, swallowing the lump in your throat.
"Why?"
"I'll explain that later. But all you need to know is that things went badly and Homelander showed up."
Rosemary's hands tighten on her biceps so tight that her knuckles turn white at the mention of Homelander. Like you Rosemary didn't have any experience with him, only that she also knew there was something off about him.
"What did you do?" She whispers.
"It's not what she did, it's more what that fucker did." Ben almost spits, his skin heating where it rests in your hand.
"Ben." You say squeezing his hand softly as a warning. He gains control. "There wasn't a choice. We got into a fight-"
Rosemary's eyes widen, inhaling sharply. And before she can stop herself, she touches your shoulder, eyes tracing your body as if looking for injuries. "Did he hurt you? Are you okay?"
"Yes Rosie I'm fine, but he knows who I am and that means-"
"He knows who we are." Her eyes flick in the direction Lou went to grab her bag. "Shit."
"You can say that again." Ben mutters.
"Give me five minutes." Rosemary looks from Ben to you for a moment. "But this doesn't change anything."
"I know. Just go. We'll wait here." You reply with a tight lipped smile.
You hoped that one day this would get easier, that Rosemary would be able to look at Ben or have a conversation with him without killing him. The three of you seemed to be practically immortal, that was a long time to hold a grudge. And you didn't want there to be a division in your family. You'd lived with one before and you didn't want to go back through that, the awkward holidays, passive aggressive letters, and tense conversations. You didn't want that for your new family.
Maybe if I show her how much Ben has changed she'll warm up to him.
"Are you okay?" You whisper.
Ben was looking around the living room with an unreadable expression, flicking through the photos on the back of the couch of Rosemary, You, and Lou to the hand drawn pictures on the refrigerator in the kitchen.
"Ben?"
"Yeah." He mutters. "I'm fine."
But you could tell he wasn't. He wasn't really focusing on anything, and even his tone of voice was strange, hollow, but before you could press him further Rosemary and Lou come back into the room.
"Here let me-" Ben steps forward to take one of the large duffle bags from Rosemary, attempting to help, but Rosemary yanks the bag out of his reach.
"No I donât need your help. I donât need anything from you."
"Rosemary-" You sigh.
"And she doesnât either." Rosemary gestures to you with the bag. "Do you have any idea what you did to her? How much you hurt her? And now you think you can just waltz back in here and say 'oh Iâll fix it' like you didnât fuck up her life?"
"Rosemary!" You shout eyes flicking to where Lou was standing with her TMNTÂ backpack on with wide eyes.
"No. You might not be able to say it to him. But I will. We donât need you here. We've survived the past forty fucking years without you and we'll survive the next million!"
"Rosemary stop." You step forward this time to move between them, but Rosemary doesn't back down.
"Stop what?" She shouts. "Stop reminding you of what he did? I'm sorry, but I'm not going to just look into his eyes and forgive him like you did-"
"I DID NOT LOOK INTO HIS EYES AND FORGIVE HIM.â You snap, but then stop to take a breath. âWe are working through it-"
"Uh-huh sure." Rosemary rolls her eyes. "Just stay away from Lou and from me." She moves around Ben with Lou in tow, storming through the front door of the apartment and leaving you and Ben in the living room.
Oh yeah⊠This is really working out for the best.
The ride to Legend's is dead silent, all three hours, broken up only once when you stop for gas, but even then Rosemary won't speak to you. She barely makes eye contact as she takes Lou to the bathroom, leaving Ben and you to stand at the car, watching the rain soak through the cracked pavement outside. But even Ben has been more quiet than usual, staring through the windshield of the car lost in thought, and you didn't ask him to fill the silence. You figured that with everything that happened over the past few hours, Ben deserved some silence.
When Lou and Rosemary got back to the car, Ben had silently taken the car keys from you and slid behind the wheel. He knew how much you hated driving in the rain.
Legend didn't require an introduction to your daughter, but it had been an awkward meeting for Butcher and Hughie who breezed through the front hallway on the way up the stairs to their bedrooms.
And finally when it was just Ben, Rosemary, Lou, and you standing at the foot of the stairs, you still had no idea what to say, or if there really was anything to say. You knew that Rosemary didn't want to talk out everything in front of Lou.
By now it was past midnight and you could see that Lou was already starting to sway on her feet. It was hours past her bedtime, but she was still in good spirits. Lou never seemed to stop smiling, she was happy all the time, excited to try new things, and it always reminded you of the way Rosemary used to be when she was a child and as an adult before she lost her husband.
"Rosemary-" You begin to say, throat tightening.
"I'm going to take Lou to bed. We can talk in the morning." She doesn't look at Ben or you, but you could tell that she was tired. She was still wearing her maroon scrubs, hadnât changed out of them, too worried about Homelander, but her hair had pulled free of the bun and her makeup was a little more smudged under her eyes now. "Say goodnight Lou."
"Goodnight aunty y/n." Lou says tottering over to you, and you stoop down on the ground to hug her close to your chest the anxiety about Homelander prickling under your skin once more.
âTomorrow can we paint some?â She gives you a wide toothless smile.
She'd lost one of her front teeth a few days ago, and was particularly proud of the hole it left behind. She'd been excited to meet the tooth fairy, even wrote a thank you note and drew a picture of her holding her tooth out for the fairy.
âWhatever you want sweetie.â You smile as she pulls away, brushing her dark hair from her wide eyes.
But instead of going back to where Rosie is holding out her hand for Lou, she turns and hugs Benâs leg where he stands next to you. Her head barely reaches the top of his knee, but it doesn't dissuade her from hugging him with all her might.
Ben stiffens, unsure what to do.
âGoodnight Ben.â Lou looks up at him with the same smile she had for you.
You feel your own lips begin to pull up at the edges to see how much Lou wanted Ben to like her, how much she was trying to make him feel at home. It warmed you heart.
Ben looks stunned for a minute, eyes flicking to yours wide, and Rosie looks angry, but slowly, Ben begins to smile. âGoodnight honey.â He rumbles giving her a pat on the head, because he's still not sure exactly how to handle this.
Lou smiles pleased with herself then lets Rosemary take her away waving once from over Rosemary's shoulder at Ben as Rosemary climbs the stairs in the direction of the room that Legend saved for them.
Ben stands there watching them go for a minute, lost in thought. âShe doesnât like me.â
âLou? She loves you. Of course thereâs a lot to love.â You smile, trying to take his hand, but Ben pulls away. His rejection pricks at your heart, you couldn't tell why he was doing that, why he was pulling away from you again.
Is he angry? At me? At Rosemary? Or Is this him being angry at himself all over again?
You thought that he was doing better up until you went to Rosemaryâs apartment, thought that he wasnât as upset about leaving you in the past. But now you werenât sure.
âThereâs a lot to hate.â He mutters, his eyes won't quite meet yours and the fear of him leaving begins to creep back, shuddering through your bones like the chill of a winter wind.
âAs there is with anybody-â You try to recover from his rejection, searching his face to understand why he was acting so different.
âI want Rosie to like me. Iâm her father-â He turns to stare at you, green eyes dark, filled with an clouding of emotions that strike you straight in the heart. It wasn't happiness, it wasn't love, it was something different, something that made a lump lodge itself in the back of your throat.
âI know Ben. She just needs some time-" You begin to say, reaching for him, but Ben steps away from you again, refusing to let you comfort him.
"Why did you tell her all those things about me? Did you really hate me that much?â Ben shouts, voice reverberating up the staircase, so loud that you're sure other people can hear you.
"What are you talking about-"
"All the shit that happened between us. Everything that happened that night. Everything I did-â
"She asked me for the truth and I didn't want to lie to her-" You try to explain.
You hadn't. You wanted her to know the truth about her father, just as she knew that truth about you. You thought that she deserved that. And it wasn't like you told Rosemary when she was three. You told her everything that happened when she was twenty three and she had just started seriously dating her future husband, when she was scared because sheâd never felt that way about anyone before. And it reminded you of how you felt about the boy Ben used to be.
"I wish you had. Damnit y/n I'm her father, she should like me!" He seethes, fists clenched. Ben towers over you green eyes blazing in the soft light coming from the lights that line the hallway.
And somewhere deep down you start to feel angry. It comes surging up like the roar of a crowd pricking at the back of your spine until you canât take it anymore.
"It's been 4 fucking hours since you met her, GIVE HER TIME."
"I can't believe you did this." Ben spits glaring at you.
"Are you serious right now?" Your mouth opens in shock.
Was this just some kind of joke? Is he really mad at me for this? Does he really think that I would do something like this purposely?!
"Did you really hate me that much? Did you really feel the need to turn her against me? Make her not love me?"
"I didn't turn her against you Ben. And I didnât make her not love you." You snap back. "Yes I was angry with you, but that didn't mean that I didn't want you with me every single second in Rosemary's life. I didnât want to do that alone. I shouldnât have had to but I don't blame you for that. Iâve told you that-â
âYeah youâre really showing that. You turned her against me. Made me some villain. Made me some monster who fucked you and then left-â
âI THOUGHT THATâS WHAT YOU DID DIPSHIT!â You poke your finger into his chest. âJust because Iâve chosen to begin to forgive you does not mean I forgot what you did and what you said to me that night. But Iâll say this.â
He tries to open his mouth to retort, but you speak first.
âEvery time something happened with Rosemary I turned to tell you and you werenât there.
When I went into labor I wished you were there to hold my hand and tell me that everything was going to be okay, I wished that you were there smiling down at her when you held her for the first time. When she took her first steps and fell on her butt I wished you were there to swing her around and make her laugh. When I showed her how to paint for the first time I wished that you were there to see how she was covered in paint from head to toe. And I only told her those things about you because she asked and I donât lie to my family. Iâve never lied to Rosemary and Iâve never lied to you. Ever.â
Ben stands there stuck straight each muscle clenched, wether it be in frustration or anger you donât care. Your own anger was coming back, unlocking from the place you shoved it down when you thought you needed to be the perfect person you wanted others to see you as and not the broken girl who lived with a hole in her heart for so long.
âAnd yeah maybe you can be in here and pout and fucking blame me for her hating you. And maybe I shouldnât have told her those things but I did. I told her the good and the bad about you just as she knows the good and the bad about me. She can make her own decisions because sheâs a damn adult. And donât you dare say that I didnât want you there every second. Because I did. Even though you fucking ripped my heart out and stomped all over it I still wished that you could have been there for her, could have filled her life with love as much as I did.â
"But you still did it." Ben growls.
And you realize that maybe this is it, maybe that this is the one thing that pushes him away from you.
"Fine. Hate me if you want. I'm going to get a drink. Donât follow me." You snap before turning and stomping towards the kitchen, away from him, all the while hoping that heâll follow after you.
But he doesnât.
Despite wanting to grab one of the bottles of whiskey in Legend's kitchen, you restrain yourself and instead turn to the coffeemaker. It was fancier than yours, but you supposed that coffee would taste the same. You busy yourself with the steps of making the coffee to stop going over what you and Ben just yelled at one another, but your hands were still shaking.
Did he really think I didn't want him there? I mean yeah I was pissed from everything that happened, but I didn't want Rosemary to grow up without a father. I would have told him eventually that I was pregnant, I didn't want to do that alone.
You pour yourself a cup of coffee and lean back against the counter as you take a sip remembering the day you took the pregnancy test. It was more obvious than anything else, not the lack of your period but the morning sickness. You never got sick. You remembered being afraid at first, the thought of raising a child alone scared you. You weren't sure you even wanted to be a mother, because of everything yours put you through. But then you thought of Ben. Yes you hated him, but the baby might be the last part of him that existed anywhere. If you decided not to have it, Ben would really be gone and you would be alone all over again. So you decided to have Rosemary and you never regretted that decision. Especially now that she had Lou.
You roll the cup in your hands, feeling the warmth of the mug transfer into your palms.
Maybe I shouldn't have told her everything I did. But she knows everything about me. She knows that I killed Countess. She knows the good and bad about me. It felt unfair to only tell her the good about Ben, she deserves to know the truth. She's just upset. Honestly, she's also a upset with me as well for forgiving him or partially forgiving him.
You move to the kitchen table, stretching out in the worn wooden chair and place your mug down on the circular dark wood table. You wanted Rosemary to warm up to him, but at the same time you didn't want to get in between them. She needed to do this for herself and you didn't want to force them together.
You hear someone enter the kitchen. Probably Ben. But when you look up you realize that it's Butcher.
He stands just on the edge as if he's debating whether or not he wants to come in.
"Didn't realize you were still up." He raises an eyebrow. "Trouble in paradise love?"
"You realize that the V is completely out of your system right now right? And I could slowly peel your skin from your body with my mind if I wanted to?" You mirror his eyebrow raise while taking a sip of coffee.
"Eh. Worse ways to go." Butcher shrugs. "Anything stronger in here than coffee?"
"Top cabinet above the refrigerator. The good stuff is in the back. Legend usually tries to hide it from himself."
âWhy?â
âBecause he thinks itâs a waste to drink the good stuff when heâs really drunk and canât appreciate it.â
âSeems fair.â Butcher finds the bottle of whiskey easily, moving to the cabinets to find a glass. âYou want a cuppa?â
âI told myself I wasnât going to-â You pause for a moment thinking of how wonderful it would be if you could just forget for a few minutes. âBut sure.â
âCoffee not working?â
âIt never has.â You take the cup gratefully from his outstretched hand as Butcher folds himself into the chair next to you. It was weird to say the least. The only thing he had done was act hostile to you and now him being nice was enough to give you whiplash.
The rest of the house was completely silent, except the soft turn of pages. You figured that meant Rosie was reading one of her books to distract herself from everything that happened earlier.
I should be in there talking to her. Trying to explain all this.
But you were tired and still reeling from your fight with Ben and didnât feel like getting into it with Rosemary for the second time today.
âSo whyâd you do it?â Butcher takes a big swig from the glass in front of him.
âWhat?â
âYou lied about your powers to Vought for years. Why?â
You roll the glass between your fingers, watching the amber colored liquid slosh against the sides. âIâll answer that if you answer my question.â
Butcher pauses. âFine.â
âWhat did Homelander do to your wife?â
Butcher freezes, leaning back in his chair, one hand on his thigh curling into a fist.
"Legend told me that you had this thing for him because of it-" You continue cocking your head to the side examining Butcher's sudden tense stance.
âNot important.â
âThen I guess you wonât find out more about me.â You shrug.
After the past few days you didn't understand how you were here drinking with Butcher of all people. You still didn't completely trust him and you didn't like that he wanted to use Ben like he was his own personal nuclear bomb.
You both sit in the silence for a few minutes waiting for the other to break.
âHe raped her.â
The words are heavy, expelled in a breath after Butcher drains his glass. For a minute you see his tough exterior crack, see the vulnerability in his stature, but then it's gone again. You feel your heart thud once in your chest, jaw locking. It only proved again how messed up Homelander was.
âIs she-"
"She's dead." He pours himself another full glass from the bottle of whiskey.
"I'm sorry." You whisper, starting to understand why he hated Homelander so much. Honestly if Homelander did something like that to my family I would rip him limb from limb.
For the first time since you met Butcher, you feel sorry for him, you understand where the sadness in his gaze comes from and where the tough exterior seems to mask the vulnerability underneath.
But at the same time, you refused to underestimate him.
Butcher nods once then glances over at you expectantly as if re-asking his question with only a look.
âItâs never been about the power for me. Or about proving how powerful I was to other people. I got the injection because Ben asked me to. It wasn't because I wanted to be superhuman or god-like or special. Plus I figured as soon as Vought or the government found out what I could really do then Iâd never see the light of day again.â
"But how did you keep it a secret from Vought? They have so many fucking connections." He presses.
"Honestly Ben and I didn't figure it out until the 60s."
"Why is that?"
"The first time I died it wasn't a supe that killed me so there wasn't a change. But later when more supes started coming out of the woodwork, that's when we realized it. And I didn't care."
"Somehow you had to care." Butcher leans forward in his chair, looking at you like you're crazy.
"I didn't have a reason to. Ben liked the spotlight and I didn't."
âIs that why you stopped being Indigo?â
âItâs my turn to ask a question cowboy.â You tap your glass with a smile. âWhoâs Ryan?â You had heard Hughie and Butcher whisper the name a few times, figured that it was another supe they were planning to merc.
He hesitates. âHomelanderâs kid.â
âHe has a kid?â Your mouth drops open in shock.
How does Butcher know that? Is it because he's so obsessed with Homelander that he's going to ask Ben to go after Homelander's son? No. No way. Like hell I'm gonna let this guy kill a kid.
You try to think of a reason why Vought would keep Homelander's son out of the media, a reason why they wouldn't show that the golden boy had a perfect son.
âBut how I mean-â You stop tracing Butcher's face, watching the way his eyes harden, and how his jaw locks together and you realize why Butcher knows about Homelander's kid. âYour wife.â
Butcher doesnât answer, doesn't confirm what you've said, instead he pours more from the bottle into his glass.
Wow thatâs fucked up.
âIâd say I'm sorry again, but I donât think itâs going to help and honestly I thought my life was way more fucked up than yours. Guess not.â You take a sip from the glass in front of you. It burns pleasantly as it travels down you throat reminding you how much you missed it. âIt got old quick.â
âWhat did?â Butcher looks up from the wooden table.
âBeing a hero dealing with all that Vought shit. Plastering a smile on my face, flaunting in front of the cameras, it's not all it's cracked up to be. Ben liked it. He was always in the spotlight, the golden boy and I was too, but weâd been doing it for years and I always- I donât know- wanted a family.â
Your mind suddenly goes back to the night you told Ben that, the night that you told him what you wanted and how today Ben professed that he wanted to be the one to give you those things, always had wanted to give you those things.
The fight you just had resurfaces in your mind, thinking of how angry he was at you for telling Rosemary the truth about him.
I made my choice. She made hers. One day I think she'll warm up to him, but until then he's just going to have to get through this.
Just because you believed that did not make it any easier. Your heart was tearing in two. You wanted Rosemary to love him the way you did, but at the same time you were scared all over again that this would all be too much for Ben, too dramatic. He didn't like drama, never seemed to.
âReally?â Butcher doesnât look convinced by your confession.
âYeah. Plus I was pregnant with Soldier Boy's kid. Vought was obsessed with Ben and I know that if they knew about Rosemary they wouldn't hesitate to take her away. It would have been worse if they knew what my power was. I doubt they would have let either of us vanish into thin air. But even before that I was seriously thinking about getting out-â
âAnd Soldier Boy fucking Countess was the final nail in the coffin eh?â Butcher's smirk makes your stomach flip flop.
You were still trying to forget that. Really trying to forget that.
âYeah.â You grumble into the glass momentarily remembering the night at the premiere, but this time seeing them together doesnât hurt as much as it used to. And instead itâs replaced by Ben the past few days, the one that continued to reassure you of his love, the one who continued to hold you close to him, the one that kissed you whenever he could, the one who patiently waited for you, and the one who reminded you of the boy you lost all those years ago.
Butcher watches you for a moment. âIâm sorry. That mustâve been hard.â
You look at him surprised. It was the first time that Butcher seemed to actually, well, give a shit.
âThanks. It was.â You wait a second. âSo how did you meet Hughie?â
âWhy is that important?â
âBecause heâs nothing like you. Heâs a good kid.â
âYou sayin I ainât a good person love?â
âYes thatâs exactly what Iâm saying.â
Butcher has the audacity to smile. âYou know what I think? I think you pretend to be a good person but youâre really just a bitch who probably didnât get enough hugs as a kid.â
You lean back in your chair feigning shock. âIs it that obvious?â
He shakes his head with a chuckle. âI donât see how you got mixed up with Soldier Boy in the first place.â
âI did tell you.â
âWhat?â
âI didnât lie about some of the things I said to you the first time we met. Ben and I grew up together. We were friends before all of this.â
âAnd you what? Followed him?â
âSomething like that.â
Butcher sits there for a second tapping his finger on the crystal glass in his hand. Everything in Legend's home was vintage or old, the glasses included. You could remember drinking out of these same glasses years ago, on the porch behind Legend's house the day you realized you were pregnant and you told him you were leaving.
Legend didn't know, but you think deep down he did. Anyone who knew Ben couldn't dismiss how much Rosemary looked like him. Not to mention Legend knew what happened that night between the two of you.
Butcher opens his mouth, but as he does, Ben appears in the kitchen doorway. He still looks a little angry, frown prominent on his face, but his green eyes look from the glass to Butcher to you.
"That's my cue." Butcher grunts. "See you in the morning poppet." He vanishes down the hallway behind Ben leaving the two of you alone in the kitchen. It seems smaller with him standing there in the door, blocking most of it with his broad shoulders and wide stance.
"Are you going to come to bed?" He crosses his arms over his chest and leans against the doorway.
"Are you going to start yelling at me again?" You raise an eyebrow.
"I wasnât fucking yelling." Ben grumbles. "And even if I was, you weren't exactly whispering."
"Sounded like yelling to me." You frown at him, before looking down at your glass again.
So much for an apology. Then again I probably owe him one too.
Benâs jaw tightens. âPlease come to bed.â His voice is composed, but you can still hear the tinge of his anger seep through.
"Surprised you said please. Finally using those manners I've heard so much about." You snark before you can stop yourself.
That is not helping anything.
"Come to bed." His teeth are gritted together.
âWhy?"
"Because I said so."
"You are not my dad Ben. You can't just order me around."
"Just fucking come to bed!" He snaps straightening from the door, eyes blazing.
"Why is it so important I come to bed Ben? You need me to read you a bedtime story or something? Or is it because you want to have sex? I hate to break it to you, but I donât really feel like having sex with you right now. And I don't think I will anytime soon if we keep fucking fighting about stupid-â
âBecause I canât sleep without you there damnit! I never have been able to even when we were fucking kids!"
You pause shocked. Ben had never admitted that before. You were still trying to get used to when he admitted that he loved you how open and vulnerable heâd been, but this-
Heâs frowning at you waiting for you to say something, but when you donât. He turns and stalks back towards the stairs to descend into the basement where the bedroom the two of you were sharing was.
Guilt breaks something in your chest, because now sitting out here felt like a punishment for him and you didn't think that was right.
Damn it.
You wash out the mug in the sink followed by the glass, but you look at the half-full bottle on the table.
Maybe I should bring it with me?
It swings from your hand as you walk down the dimly lit hallway descending into the fully furnished basement. You weren't thrilled with the room, had insisted that Legend change the sheets and spray down the room before you could sleep in there. You knew him, and knew exactly what had happened Legend's house since he had it custom built years ago.
Ben is sitting on the edge of the bed, smoking a blunt that he probably got from Butcher, who seemed to have an endless supply for Ben, much to your annoyance.
"I'm such a fucking pussy. I shouldn't have said that." He mutters more to himself than to you. His gaze is lowered on the shag carpet.
It was the first time that you'd heard him say something like that since he came back to you, something that sounded more like Soldier Boy than the boy you grew up with, sounded more like Ben's father.
"Ben." You sigh, putting the bottle on the bedside table, before you tilt his head back to look at you, hand cupping his chin. "You're not a pussy. I can't sleep without you either and thereâs nothing wrong with that. I don't want you to feel like you can't say stuff like that to me. I love you and I won't judge you for that or think less of you. I will judge you for saying stupid shit like you did earlier."
âIâm sorry.â He sighs out a breath of smoke. âI just hate that she doesnât like me. Iâm her father she should like me-â He repeats the same idea from earlier.
âShe just needs to warm up to you."
âMaybe.â Ben mutters. "Or maybe she won't."
He looks upset. But not his usually angry upset, more disappointed and you decide thatâs worse. Ben was so strong and didnât allow himself to give in to his emotions the same way everyone else did. You hated that about him, but you were the only person who knew why. Ben's father had made him believe that showing emotion made you weak, you were there a few times that he yelled at Ben, heard the horrible things that he shouted at his only son, and it broke your heart. If it was your lot in life to bring him peace, to show him love, and to teach him that it was okay to be vulnerable, you happily would bear that cross.
You gently push back on his shoulder so heâll move his forearms where they rest on his thighs and so you can sit on his lap. Benâs arm comes around your waist to hold you to him, while the other continues to rest between you when he takes another drag from the blunt. âBen, I promise she will.â Your knees rest on either side of his hips as you balance on him, ignoring the urge to wrinkle your nose at the smell.
âYour family never seems to like me.â
âSheâs your family too and Lou loves you.â You brush his hair back from his face and he leans forward into your touch. "She's an excellent judge of character. Pretty soon she's gonna be drawing you in the family portraits and once that happens you're in, there's nothing stopping you."
Ben's mouth twitches but he doesnât smile. "She's cute."
âShe is. And if she likes you, youâre doing something right.â You smile at him. âAnd my family liked you it was just my mom who thought you were the devil. My brother thought that you were okay and my dad liked you plenty. Remember he never ratted you out when you slept in my room?â
âHe was a good man. We would talk sometimes.â Ben blows out a lungful of smoke and this time your nose wrinkles at the offensive smell, before you realize what heâs just admitted.
Ben notices your discomfort and flicks the blunt into the ashtray shaped like a naked woman on the bedside table.
âAbout what?â Your father had never mentioned any conversation with Ben or at least you didn't remember him saying anything about Ben, beside your father's usual questions as to what Ben and you were going to do that day.
âYou.â Ben whispers, not meeting your eye.
âWhen?â
âSometimes Iâd come try to see you when you were out with Howard." Ben sighs his name. "Ended up talking with your dad.â
âAre you serious?â
He nods hands gently stroking along your waist.
âWhy didnât you tell me that you came by?â
âDidnât think it was important Sweetheart.â Ben pauses eyes flicking up sheepishly to look at you. "I didn't want you to think that I was hanging around waiting for you to get back. I was but-" You can tell that it pains him to say it, like he didn't want to admit he cared, but the thought that he came by to check on you made you happy.
âWhat did you say about me?â
Ben presses his lips together.
âBen?â
âHe wanted to know how your artwork was coming along, what we had done in the past week. Stuff like that. One time he said he didnât like Howard either.â
âWhat?" Your hands tighten on Ben's shoulders in shock.
âHe said that he hated the way you looked whenever Howard came around and then he said if he was gonna give his permission for anyone to marry you it was going to be me.â Ben shrugs it off as if he hasnât said the most shocking thing youâve ever heard in your life.
Your father would ask you about Ben occasionally and only when your mother left the room. He always seemed pleased when Ben would come pick you up, one time he gave Ben some money so he could buy tickets when you both went to a carnival, but you had no idea that they had talked about Ben marrying you.
âHold on. Did you-" You pause for a second. "Did you ask my father if you could marry me?â
âNo.â Ben answers quickly.
âWell then did he say why he didn't like Howard?"
âHe said he liked how happy I made you. Said that you would always be singing in your room after you saw me.â Ben smiles one of his hands curving around your hip to hold you steady on his lap. âI told him I was sorry he had to hear that. You have many talents y/n, but singing is not one of them.â
âI donât want to hear it from you. Thereâs about a million tapes of you trying to sing, not to mention you trying to dance. I wanted to jump out the window when you dragged me to that Solid Gold Music Video shoot.â You roll your eyes at him.
Ben presses a hand to his chest as if offended. âYou donât like the way I dance? Because I happen to remember a few times that weâve danced together and you certainly seemed to be having a good time.â
âIâm a good actress.â
âSure.â Ben snorts. âThen again I think Iâm good a few other things too. Things that I wouldnât mind showing you sometime.â His arm wraps around your waist as he pulls you into his chest, lips catching along the shadow of your jaw.
âYouâre awfully sure of yourself Iâll say that.â You laugh.
"Mhmm." The rumble of his answer seems to vibrate down your spine spreading warmth in its wake.
"Ben." You warn, as his hands begin to play with the bottom of your shirt.
"I know." He whispers raising his eyes again to look at your face with a soft smile, but you can still see a flicker of disappointment behind them.
Deep down you knew that you were getting closer to forgiving him, but it had only been two days, and everything between the two of you was still a little rocky. You wanted things to calm down again before you took that big step with Ben again. You didn't want to rush it, and you could see that Ben didn't want to either.
"How about tonight, we do something a little different." You trace your index finger over his lips, loving the soft curve beneath the pad of your fingertip.
"What do you mean?" He looks confused.
"You'll see." You murmur against his lips as you drop your mouth down to his, losing yourself in him all over again.
A/N: I know it's been a while guys and I know it's crazy to end it on another cliffhanger but... I'm sorry, not sorry? I hope y'all enjoyed this one. I'm sorry it took me a while to get it out, the writer's block is turning into a soul sucking abyss, but honestly, what's new? đ Hope that y'all enjoyed this one and I'm excited to hear what y'all think!
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