#so trying to really commit to it this year!!

[seb-boo]

Highlights from Seb's Interview with Sky Germany (Jeddah 2025):

Seb's kids don't want him driving (cause they like him home so much)

He regretted that when he got the chance to ask Michael a question, he asked about what he did to stay fit

He apparently hates swimming?

He recently broke his finger doing handy work

His son has started to ask about his career

How self-doubt played a role in his career and ultimately poor results were not satisfying to him in the end, especially when he could have been spending time with his kids

He was surprised at his first drivers' briefing how catty everyone was—this later, in addition to safety, was a motivator to reform the GDPA and actually have community amongst the drivers

He feels that Multi 21 made him and Mark closer (ala Baku 2017)

He is open to the idea of taking over Marko's job and discussed how their approaches are very different

He texted Lewis after his China sprint win

His projects allow him to be involved with F1, but keep enough distance to feel comfortable

His favorite thing to do is psychoanalyze the drivers (he also thinks reading people is his greatest gift)

He is struggling with grasses and herbs at agricultural school (but seems to do well on an impromptu quiz)

He's a control freak (he trusts his choice in restaurant and music over everyone else in F1 for a party—oh, and he would pay)

Direct quotes ↴

"I would say, well. It's my own perception, but I think pretty well. The, how do you say, the family peace still exists. [You're not annoying at home?] *laughing* I don't think so. I am still wanted. The kids also said I shouldn't start driving again because it's so nice that I'm there. That's great to hear something like that."

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"When I imagine myself as a little boy, I can remember the key moments when suddenly Michael was standing there, maybe said something, and the question I asked was, 'what do you do to be fit?' And then you think afterwards or later I thought again, I should have asked so many other things. And then he told me that he does this and that and swims and so on, and I thought, 'oh no, I don't like swimming at all!' These are such small things, but yes, it meant the world to me at the time[...] because my hero listened to me in that sense."

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"It's about intuition and what really drives you and what you really want, and yes, I think I might not be able to fully answer that question for a long time, or ever, but that's also what triggers curiosity somewhere. But to feel it and, yes, to develop more intuition, I think, was a big point for me and perhaps still is. And it's exciting to get to know yourself again like that. I don't know why I had this drive, after stopping, not to commit myself to a task or a job or, I don't know, partnership XY, but to be free first, for myself, to then feel myself and see, okay, what do I want at all, where is my journey going, and how do I deal with this, in quotes 'emptiness first,' before I immediately jump into the next project?"

"Agriculture has kept me quite busy in the last year with the training that I am now hopefully successfully completing and passing, and I have learned a lot of new things. Yes, there is always something to do around the house and things that have maybe been left undone in recent years, where I am still, yes, skilled. It's relative, I recently broke my finger, but yes, I do a lot and try a lot, and so the days actually pass quickly. I enjoy that. I enjoy the time as well, and this other life, but of course, I watch and follow what is happening and how the guys are doing, and I am still in contact here and there, so yes, it is a big part of me, and it will remain so."

[So the identity as a racing driver will remain. How is that now, for example, at home? For the children, they are 10, 11, I think, then six or so, five?] "Yes, five." [Do they also ask about moments from your career, or is that not a topic at all?]

"Yes, it's funny. We were watching recently, just now, the race in Bahrain or qualifying, and then when it was finished, my youngest said something like, 'I would like to see where you were driving.' Then I said, 'Okay, I have to look first.' I couldn't find anything quickly in the media library, I had to rummage around, but yes, it is interesting. The girls, I think, have taken it in and perceived it a bit more. He was still too young. Yes, it would sometimes be interesting to know what the children think. Here or there, they notice it when we are out and about and perhaps meet people who remember and you stop for a moment and have a chat. But yes, my own perception and then the perception from the children's point of view is very interesting. I think we are coping well with the situation and of course we are trying to give the children a childhood similar to the one we had, in a normal sense, really."

[I also looked at how you have developed as a personality over the years, starting with your time in Formula 1. If you look back at your early years at Toro Rosso, maybe also a bit of the time at Red Bull, how would you describe yourself then?]

"Well, I think very focused, very goal-oriented. I knew exactly what I wanted. I had a very clear vision of where I wanted to go, and then of course I had this incredible time, the years when it felt like everything went well for me. Then with the move to Ferrari, of course, a big challenge, but also a lifelong dream that I could fulfill. The big success, the very big success that I had firmly set my sights on, the title, did not materialize. Now, of course, you can talk for a long time about why and how and why not, but I believe that in retrospect, the time was much more important, the people I met, the experiences I had, and the lessons as well."

"From, I don't know, a certain insecurity, self-doubt also played a big role, then to the last part of my career where I think I opened up more and also came out of myself more in the sense that I not only talked about racing but also addressed other topics and topics that were important to me, and so I gave room to a new side of myself and could develop. And yes, of course, I had a great privilege associated with it, that I was in a position where people might have listened to me or perceived me in that sense, and I actually had very, very many positive experiences with that. Of course, there were also people who said, 'That doesn't belong to you now, and you shouldn't focus on that, and rather focus on driving because things aren't going well there,' and so on. I think there was also a lot of humility in the sense of, yes, when you have a good run at the beginning and then everything picks up speed and you are in teams where things are always moving forward and faster and in big teams, then in that sense, I don't want to say falling behind, but switching to a team that is in this building phase and getting the momentum back was a nice time. "

"But of course, in terms of results, it was a very tough time, a tough pill to swallow, because suddenly you are, I don't know, not in oblivion, but from my point of view and own feelings, you have slipped to results that no longer matter, that are no longer relevant. Whether I was 8th or 12th or 14th, was for me, insufficient for me. Especially when you have already been at the very top, then that is no real fulfillment. But also dealing with that and getting to know that side of myself, I think I have matured extremely in recent years and knew more and more what I wanted. And then in that sense, that I see and want other things in my life and want to have time, especially for the children. Time is limited, and then I had the courage, I think, to say, okay, I know I can do more and I know maybe more is yet to come, but yes, I want to have time for other things and get to know other sides of myself."

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"And I think our society has changed, that yes, young people or generally, that you now address certain topics and don't stop before certain topics anymore. And that you have to take a position in a certain way. Perhaps a piece of the freedom to withdraw has been lost, but I think that has a very positive overall effect. When you address topics in sport that are perhaps more political or play a role outside of sport, I think it has a lot of impact. So if the values are the right ones that you represent and it is good topics that you address, of course, it's not for me to judge what is good and bad and right and wrong, but I think if you stand up for others and draw attention to things, then that is a good thing."

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"I remember my first drivers' briefing as a Formula 1 driver. I was somewhat shocked that no one was talking to each other, but rather talking about each other, sometimes with a bit of arrogance, and this difference in status, "I am here, you are there." Yet in sport, in Formula 1 or in life generally, our passion connects us, and then to seek points of attack instead of the things that perhaps distinguish us, I find much more sympathetic, because even if we weren't the best friends in that room of 20 back then and still are today as drivers, even if we weren't the best friends, there was still this great connection and the passion that we all shared or cared about, right?"

[Or I mean, towards the end of your career, you brought the drivers together, but this is now commonplace, right?]

"Because I simply thought or felt that this community was missing, and also to help establish the GPDA, and I went to Alex, to Alex Wurz, who is still involved, and said, 'Alex, we somehow have to manage to bring the drivers together.' Of course, safety is a topic that connects us all, but also generally, let's talk about the other topics when we feel that something is wrong, or that we simply get into an exchange. I think the space is good that you can, apart from statements you have heard about others, find this space to also go out for dinner in the evening and exchange ideas and get to know each other better. You spend so much time together, it feels like, and at the same time, everyone is so absorbed in their team with meetings and, I don't know, meet and greets and appearances here and there, that you actually don't have any time together, and that is really a shame."

[With Multi 21, for example, with Mark Webber back then, such an action, how do you see that now, from your past, do you say that was totally okay, or do you think it was difficult?]

"Especially, I think, that our relationship was strained until then. Or very, yes, we were very big competitors, so Mark. Of course, then also within the team, but I think that ultimately, clearly, it wasn't a nice event, but I think it led to us understanding each other much better today and having much more respect for each other. So, we talked afterwards, I told him what I didn't like about it and why I felt it was unjustified. He expressed his opinion, and yes, even if you don't completely agree with and adopt the other person's opinion, that's not what it's about. It's about talking to each other in the first step, and we were much better at that afterwards."

[Sebastian, when you look at the situation right now at Red Bull, it's funny that your name came up today because I was talking to Ralf about what you yourself once mentioned as a potential successor. Is that a role you could fundamentally imagine?]

"I think there is only one Helmut, and his role, clearly, is his. But yes, I think that generally, the exchange is also very inspiring, and of course, you have the experiences you have, and Helmut is similar in a way. He also grew up in motorsport, a completely different time, but the wheel still turns the same way in a way, and the similar and same things matter today as they did, I don't know, how many years ago, even if Formula 1 has changed significantly."

"Yes, I think there are many things and perspectives or parallels or things that one could pass on. Whether that will be something in the future, we'll see. I am still in contact with him, I also asked him a few years ago how much longer he wanted to do it, and he said not much longer, and he is still here. *laughs* So as long as he still enjoys it and feels up to the job, I think, yes, he is in a unique role, especially with the experience and the team dynamics. He knows that best, and from the outside, it is always difficult to judge, and perhaps you sometimes wonder here or there how this happened or what's the point, but of course, he has a completely different perspective and completely different experiences. And yes, it will be a shame when he leaves or steps down from the position at some point, but of course, then, yes, it has to develop in a new, different direction."

[I visited him recently in Graz, he had just come from the forest, it was 11 in the morning, he said he had already been there for 3 hours, and then he said he talks about it often with you too because you are also a forester and you have different approaches, right?]

"Yes, completely different views, but we both have respect for each other. He is more of the old school. I am more of the modern perspective, that you sometimes leave the tree lying there, and thereby cultivate or promote the beneficial insects, or in his view, pests, and thus ensure balance. But yes, neither of our views is just right and just wrong."

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[I also said recently, after three races we say someone is great, and then they make a mistake again, and then they go down again. So this patience also to have with development, for example, with Lewis Hamilton. I think you wrote to him after the sprint victory in China, didn't you?]

"Yes, of course."

[Yes, he was probably happy because you texted him. How do you see that? I mean, you also made this move from Red Bull to Ferrari. What is this big adjustment that you need as a driver, and why does it take so long, maybe half a year, as Ralf, for example, said?]

"Well, maybe it takes even longer, depending. I think so many things depend on it. I think the car was less of a change for me back then. Everything was different. The car drove completely differently. But yes, I was able to get used to it quite quickly in that sense. But of course, it's other people, a different environment, a different language, a different culture. So I think the whole thing overwhelms you, and everyone is different. One person might need longer, another less long with one situation or another. I don't think there's any doubt that he can drive. There's no doubt that he can do all the things that are now demanded of him. But it's also completely normal to need a little time. And I think nothing is lost there either, in that sense. If the development suddenly takes the right path, then I think Ferrari is in a completely different position again. They were very strong last year, narrowly missed the Constructors' Championship, so you shouldn't write off the whole team and the two drivers now."

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[If you could choose a role again in Formula 1, I know that you were, for example, in Monaco, we saw each other very briefly there, you came out of the Red Bull hospitality, you had an appointment with Stefano Domenicali. When people see you now, also with your experience regarding social projects, everyone would ask, why isn't Sebastian integrated into Formula 1 anymore with his past? What's the answer to that?]

"I have many, but would you like to do that? I am in contact with Stefano, we are talking about it and perhaps still refining and tinkering with what it would look like exactly. Yes, but I also don't want to push myself in any way. I think ultimately it has to fit for both sides. I don't know. I mean, I follow the sport with great interest, and now also with enough distance that I don't feel like it's a problem anymore. The first few races were perhaps a bit more difficult, but now after a relatively long time, it is no longer a problem."

"Yes, I don't know what it could be in the future. Of course, it would be nice to see that the goals that Formula 1 sets for itself are realistically approached and achieved regarding the future and regarding responsibility. So whether it's climate neutrality by 2030 or certain projects and aspects to use the impact of Formula 1 to really live, exemplify, and bring about good change. On the other hand, of course, as I said, staying close to the drivers in a certain role, I don't know what kind of role that will be in the future, is certainly something one can imagine, which I can also imagine."

[Simply because you have had so many experiences that you couldn't evaluate during your active time, but now I think with more distance, you see many things.]

"I watch the races, of course, I see the same things as everyone else, which tires, which strategy, and so on. But I think what tactic or what mindset is behind it, what is going on in the driver's head, I think I already have more insight, perhaps not better than everyone else, but more insight. And of course, yes, because it's perhaps still so fresh, I can still draw more from it. 'Does he feel comfortable now, and where is perhaps the problem? Maybe it's not the tire set or the strategy, but perhaps something else.' That's what I find interesting, the person behind it."

[I just wanted to ask you a few quick short questions at the end, including a quiz question about your training. I'm curious if you can answer it. Perhaps first, what are you learning right now that you are not yet good at?]

"Grasses and herbs."

[Okay...alphorn playing?]

"Alphorn playing! I still remember that, I put it aside but haven't completely given up. I heard something again recently and thought, oh yes, I must get it out again."

[What is your greatest gift?]

"Of course, you could talk about racing because I had some success there and so on, but I think, yes, this reading people, it sounds a bit much, but I think I can sense what is going on in people and in certain situations, and then, of course, when it comes to sport and performance or results in that sense."

[Looking back at your Formula 1 time with all the people you met, regardless of who they are, a really good evening, a final evening, perhaps. Who chooses the restaurant?]

"Me!" [Ja?] "Ja!"

[Do you have good taste?]

"I don't know, but I think I have learned over the years that, yes, I really enjoy doing that. Let's put it that way."

[Who is responsible for the music?]

"Also me. If I'm throwing the party, then at least the food and music. Music can either be right and you don't really notice it, it's in the background and it fits. But if it's wrong, it's already too late when you notice it. So, yes."

[What do you like to listen to? What's your favorite?]

"Everything. But when eating, yes, it has to be something calmer and something that fits the time and the setting."

[Yes, who pays?]

"I would also like to, I wouldn't have a problem." *laughs*

[Who leaves first?]

"That depends on how many people are there."

[But who would be the one you'd say, yes, okay, the slightly grumpy one.]

"Christian always left first!"

[Okay, okay, okay. And who locks the door at the end?]

"Adrian."

[Really? Such a party person?]

"Yes, well, there are others there too, but yes, he always had fun anyway."

[So Sebastian, the last question now. Now I'm curious. I hope I'm not putting you on the spot. So you are doing your training now in Switzerland, right? Agriculture? I think you are in the vocational school in Pfäffikon. Did I pronounce that correctly?] "Ja." [Watch out, now I have picked out a question. So, which plant is often referred to as "green gold" because it improves the soil and serves as animal fodder? Is it A) Wheat, B) Clover, C) Corn, or D) Rapeseed?]

"It's clover because it's a legume and the only plant that can store nitrogen in the form of nodule bacteria on the roots. You can even see them with the naked eye, and it's not only good for the soil and the plant, but also good for the animals."

[That's great. You passed the test!]

[lostsprit]

"Ford ! What the fuck are you talking about" said stan clearly confused but gentle not to cross the line -if he hadn't done it before-.

And if ford wasn't concerned enough that was enough to make ford commit to the role.

"Stan you dont get to ask these questions when you were the one LOCKED IN THE TRUNK OF A CAR IN BUMFUCK NOWHERE, MEXICO " said ford trying to coax a answer out of him.

"Justgotinsometrouble" he whispered trying to avoid the actual answer. Ford now trying to calm himself down looks into his brother's drooped eyes looking at his floor ....and what was that look he could not put his finger on it..

Oh

Oh

He never wanted to see his brother like that. ..like he looked at his father after listening a handful of berating.

"Tell me what happened " said ford." I dont wanna tell " replied stan . "You know what leave it help yourself around the house" ford said gesturing towards the fridge." I assume you have seen the object of your desire, my lord" dipping the head down trying to lighten the mood. "Ya still play that game eh" stan replies trying to match his energy .

"Hey, what's up with the pyramids and are.... those the..........illuminati ?? " stan asked pointing towards the doors window. Let's not discuss that" ford replies coldly.

Stan not trying to stir the pot " getting really hot in here" "Stan it's the middle of December " said ford deadpan. Ford leaves the room taking a pack of jellybeans and throws a pack of toffee peanuts at stan.

He saw the peanut candy on the kitchen counter top and shudders ...... he hated that oooh he really hated that but when your a seventeen year old kid with no money to your name you cant really be choosy now can you.... heh he still can remember the first few days where all he had was toffee peanuts and free water. And speaking of that why was he here . He should be dead in bumfucked no where , mexico.

Stan was now really confused, first ford was talking to him and hes not DEAD. Was he on a drug trip.. he did get some in Tijuana but he was in his car the last time he remembered so that's not it. Ford was talking about some magic .. alarm spell what was that about.

Now think stan the baby rattle was for shermie, the snow globe for ma and the -stan'owar sailboat for stan........ who was the banjo for. He looked around his house and spotted what was that ..... ma and shermie he really can tell .... he needed glasses ....he really needed glasses but no can do when you break all of 'em plus he did not needed to look like a chump(sorry ford) and then he found what he was looking for a tall,slender and blond looking guy and was his brother wearing...... shorts . Oh times have changed but jokes aside why did he get tattoos.

For all he knew ford was the last person he knew that would get a tattoo let alone four. Ford made it for himself excluding the weird triangle imagery he did it without him .

stop it he doesn't need you.

stop it he is better off without you , you only attract danger.

Danger .. danger oh fuck he forgot about rico and his gang and...and...and his wrist did ford see it. Of course you dimwit he saw it.

stop it

Was he having a panic attack ....nahh he was fine ( that was the moment he knew he fucked up) ok.... hes ok .. ford is here hes ok.

Oooh that ice cream sounds sooo good right now.... oh he should not have eaten that sandwich not when you have nothing in your stomach other than weeks old burrito or was it the stolen kidney but why did he have to take his car he took his kidney alright he doesn't know . Things were getting dizzy.

Thump

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Ford was in the other room trying to -kill- find whoever did this to stan when he heard a thump on the ground. What was it ....

Oooh weeee I did it .... it took 1hr but i did it.

Tag time bby. @biggirlscantcry ( I wanna show u this) @aroace-get-out-of-my-face

@thenoellebird( we need some fluff)

Stan wakes up, his head throbbing and his whole body aching, to find himself laying on a bed. A very comfortable bed.

Which is weird, since the last thing he remembers is passing out from the heat inside the trunk he was shoved into.

Groggily, and a bit nauseous, he pushes himself to his elbows and looks around. Then, he notices there are damp towels on top of his arms, torso, neck and forehead. Okay, that's even more weird.

He finds a cup of water on top of the drawer next to the bed, which also has a piece of paper with something written in it. Curious, he takes the note and brings it closer to his face so he can read it.

He immediately recognizes the impeccable cursive handwriting.

"Stan, if you're reading this, it means I have gone out to buy some groceries. I left a cup of water for you to drink, and if you're feeling better you can help yourself to anything from the kitchen. I only ask that you try to keep yourself hydrated. And maybe take a shower, if you're feeling up to it. I'll be back soon

- Ford"

[hat-rattt]

Silly and awesome and cool Gideon Coal head canon 😎:

Spoiler for OUAW/ extremely mild nsfw mention

Gideon has claustrophobia. Bad. To the point If he knows he can’t get out of a room he goes into fight or flight mode. (It’s usually fight) it’s never been mentioned because Gideon has never put himself in a position to be trapped. This goes with the long running theory that Gideon has PTSD.

Gideon will not acknowledge any of this, of course. He really wants to get on with his life, and is very confident that if he ignores thoughts about the Train, it’s like it never happened. So what it took away 10 years of this life? He’s a dude who’s along for the ride! He’s fine! Gideon is fine! Never removing manacles that weigh more than 100 pounds is a completely normal and cool thing to do! Trying to have sex with almost every woman that you meet is cool and is not at ALL a coping mechanism to deal with the fact that you never got to date or have a normal adult life! Wanting to attack and beat up people all the time is more than normal! And yeah okay, maybe Gideon “has a fear of commitment” and “needs to have a means of escape” and “abuses substances” who are YOU to judge? He’s just living his life to the fullest! What if another hobgoblin hoard comes and rips him away from all of his friends again? No commitment means he won’t leave a string of broken hearts behind him when he leaves! And duh you need a plan of escape! Who doesn’t need to have at least 3-5 escape routes from every room you’re in? And the drugs and alcohol make him feel good! They keep him from thinking about all that lame stuff that happened so he doesn’t get bummed out!

Tldr: Gideon Coal needs psychological help.

[therobotsarestuckinmyhead]

♡ OVERLORD HCs A.01

scenario A: decepticon reader CO, you command your own ship and you have to baby sit your least favorite ex-gladiator (cybertronian equivalent of having to supervise your least favorite athlete)

setting: Pre-Overlord Defection. G-9 has not happened yet!

cross posted on ao3. i mainly post on ao3!

— He’s actually noticed you for a long while now. Overlord has had a small dislike towards you for your sheering fucking audacious behavior back during the Pre-War era. He remembers seeing you in the gladiatorial pits in the audience. Overlord remembers well how you cheered on and on for Megatron instead of him and how you shout out insults at Overlord from the sidelines to his fragging face when Megatron was giving him the defeat of a lifetime. At the time, it enraged him beyond everything he's ever felt. He honestly wanted to hunt you down after that fight and terminate you himself. But he couldn’t do much about it in those times and to be honest, he’s grown out of it now (mostly). He doesn’t care about the opinion of some random miner who spectated his fights millions of years ago, why should he be some random bot's favorite gladiator in the first place? Even if said miner had the ball bearings to say it to his face that he wasn’t as good as Megatron all those millennia ago.

— He didn’t like your blind hero worship towards both of your now-boss-and-commander back then so it amuses him to no end to know that you obviously came out to be a Decepticon once the war started but he hadn’t found that out till he was assigned to your ship, unfortunately. You’re the in-charge and the star system within which your unit operates in has planets ready for cyberforming so that means Phase Six is to be initiated on said planets. Cue Overlord waltzing onto your ship one day to commit mass genocide.

— Overlord is solely annoying you for his own amusement as well as to get back at you for his Pre-War humiliation. This is an opportunity he’s not going to miss. Usually, he doesn't really engage in conversation with Commanders or Officers or any of the crew on any of the ships he’s been on in general, unless its to mess with them. He doesn’t like authority figures.

— Now Overlord is used to being feared by the mechs of his own faction and he enjoys their fear tremendously but none of them really ever stares daggers at him like you do as you pass by him in the hallways. Overlord can tell you don’t really like having him around with that glare you give him, he thinks it's cute. He can tell you’re weary of him causing chaos on-board and being the CO (Commanding Officer) of this ship, Overlord is well aware that you’d be held responsible. So he purposefully stirs up shit to piss you off and hear that signature sigh he’d gotten used to for the past four solar cycles.

— He’ll probably try approaching you with some mundane small talk to further annoy you only for you to shut him down immediately but by being annoyed with him, you’re only spurring him on to continue. Overlord likes being a pain in the aft. Eventually, it becomes a running gag between you two and he will get more bolder. Your teammates are kind of stunned that you’d speak to a fucking Phaser Sixer that way or the fact that you even knew Overlord to a level. But you did run this ship so none of your subordinates dared to question you.

— He has no respect for personal space. Overlord will stand uncomfortably close to you because he can and he knows you’re not going to even try, you’re well aware of how stubborn he is. He likes making you uncomfortable.

— Since you’re the CO of the ship, Overlord unfortunately has to report to you by Decepticon Code and it's something the both of you hate because you want nothing with the mech and Overlord hates knowing that he has to address you of all bots with respect. He only calls you ‘Commander’ in a mock sarcastic way which just, honestly, it just makes you sigh. You’re already tired of dealing with the crew you have and now you have to look after Overlord of all mechs.

— Your no-nonsense attitude and coldness honestly amuses him. It's a stark contrast to the spitfire of a cheerful fanbot he despised. He does find you a little boring though. How you're so strict on protocol, how you insist on roll call every morning, how you pester him for his report… Honestly, he thinks you'd get along somewhat well with Tarn at this point. He hates being bossed around and that just further fuels his need to be the biggest helmache you've ever had.

— He’s not going to say it yet but he finds this new you sort of… attractive in a way. Stern and commanding, as if you could control him. As much as he found it annoying, he liked a bot that challenged him.

— He also liked how you seemed to be more… tired with him annoying you than really angry. Overlord find the face you make when he approaches you absolutely golden. It's enough for him to smile with glee.

— One time, the two of you were on a mission together and you weren’t too happy to be with him. In fact, it was a mission assigned to you but he insists on just following, as he said in his words: “to make sure his Commanding Officer is safe” knowing damn well that you're the last bot that needs any sort of ‘safety’ from anyone. He can tell it pisses you off and it amuses him to no end just how much you don’t like him. In reality, he’s just tagging along with you to not feel bored after he’s decimated entire civilizations.

Overlord stands by you as you kneel down to the Autobot you just knocked out. Overlord has his signature scrap-eating grin and you let out an aggravated sigh, you really didn’t like being around him… and he was intent on following you around to bother you, even during your missions.

“I thought we needed the Autobot alive for interrogation, Commander. Seems you’re a step away from terminating him.” Overlord sighs in a rather impish fashion as venom drips from his tone at the word ‘Commander’, he’s mocking you and you know it but you just can’t find the energy to care.

“No. My plan is not to offline him, Overlord.” You reply as you rise up after taking note of the bot’s spark signature, Overlord is slightly intrigued by that but his face never betrays what he feels. Sure the Autobot’s color was still present on his frame but his optics shone the bright blue he loathes ever so dimly, as if the poor thing were on the last fumes of his spark while he clings on desperately to his miserable existence. He would meet the Allspark soon, or so Overlord muses. Especially with how immobile he was, not even able to flinch as your digits accidentally brush past open circuit ends. That would usually draw out a pretty sweet screeching scream from Overlord’s experience.

“What do you mean? He’s limp on the floor.” Overlord folds his servos against his chassis, raising an optical ridge at you. A quizzical look on his features which was a rare sight, the brutal ex-gladiator usually caught on to what a bot does without having to ask given how terrifying his intellect was.

“I hit the Autobot on an exposed part of his backstruts when he left it open in our fight that you so graciously showed up to spectate.” He can hear the teeth through your words despite your calm and soft tone, it makes him chuckle. Overlord watched you struggle as you fought instead of helping you. It certainly had you annoyed that Overlord wouldn’t help but his reasoning, unbeknownst to you, is that he’s too busy watching how your frame moves. You looked good after a fight, in his unvoiced opinion.

“The gauntlets allow me to control the force I am using and it was enough to snap the spinal motor cording.” You sigh and graciously explain to your irksome Phase Sixer ‘companion’, showing off the upgrade on your servos as you do so by extending your them out towards him as he examines closely, taking a step closer to your energon-stained servos. He seems somewhat impressed as the realization of what you’ve done dawns on him; his servos remain folded but he’s got that smirk you wish you could wipe off his face on. Overlord may have been more about the… displays and brute force but he was intelligent.

After all, it’s what made Overlord so deadly.

“So… you paralyzed this sorry sod?” He has a wicked grin now as he studies the Autobot that lay before you two on the ground, his frame is wreck— a few open ended cabling from your slashes and breaches in his armor from your blaster shots as he leaks out energon, not enough for him to go into stasis though as he lay immobile. He's impressed to say the least, with how far you’ve come from what he remembers you as.

“I prefer immobilized.” You look down, cold and uncaring as you kneel toward the unmoving frame in front of you. He can see the indifference in your own crimson gaze, as if you stay aware of this bot’s suffering but simply can’t seem to care and a part of him wants you to look at him like that, not like he’d say it outright how attractive he finds it.

“The Autobot is caged in his own frame. He can’t move, he can’t escape, he can’t scream and he can’t even cry. So we don’t have to worry about escape plans and the immobility makes it easier to use a cortical psychic patch to get the information we need. The lack of noise from his frame also means it’ll be a lot easier to move through deep enemy territory.”

Overlord is slightly startled by the words that leave your vocalizer as you explain your reasoning, his wicked grin faltering. His face for once, betrays how he feels with how his crimson optics slightly widen but thankfully, you don’t seem to notice as you’re rummaging through the Autobot’s subspace, probably trying to make sure he wasn’t carrying anything that could give out his location. Now, he didn’t dislike your words. But such… he doesn’t even have the word for it… Ruthlessness? Brutality? Intelligence? Practicality? Sadism?... Whatever it was. All of… this was coming from the same bot he remembers resenting in the gladiatorial pits all those millennia ago for being an annoying little suck up and it clearly startled him, how radically different you were now. He clearly had the wrong idea about you. Not to mention, how you didn’t seem to think of Autobots as… individuals, referring to the third person that can hear their conversation perfectly fine from your shoulders as a mere obstacle.

But… he has to take a moment to just admire your creativity. Overlord was expect another typical Decepticon-style torture treatment for whatever information it was that you needed. Not like he was against it though but the old torture routine had lost its charm over time to the Phase Sixer. He was starting to get bored with it. Invading some random Autobot’s memories as they helplessly watch, unable to do absolutely anything about it sounds a lot more… fresh and tempting.

His optics quickly return to its regular smug look, watching you ever so intently as you kneel back down to carry the unfortunate bot over your shoulders. It's apparent that you've gotten bigger and stronger with how effortlessly you carry up a bot nearly your height. He can't help but take a moment to take his crimson optics over your frame for a moment— whatever upgrade you've gotten was certainly impressive. He can tell you’re built for speed, strength and agility.

But what intrigued him the most was your thinking. He's been around cruel mechs (and been a cruel mech) long enough to know how a sadist looks down at their work and… You didn’t seem sadistic, you weren’t really admiring your handiwork nor did you seem to take much joy in it, but you were willing to be brutal if it meant it was the more efficient route. He can’t help but admire that. A secretive, intelligent and cold cruelty; drastically different to the loud and brash explosive flames of blind hatred most Decepticons had.

You were absolutely diabolical.

And he was loving every moment of it.

Overlord could tell he was going to absolutely adore this new you. No one’s managed to get him this impressed and startled in a long, long time.

— He's surprised to find out that you’re actually sort of insane as well? Not really but somewhat? Clearly, he has misjudged you for being boring and plain. Evident with your methodologies— you prioritize efficiency over anything else and he sort of gets why Megatron has somewhat of a high opinion on you. You’re loyal and you know how to get the job done. In Overlord’s experience, Decepticons usually have one of two.

—However, it’s not unwelcome. He doesn’t mind it but your apathy is sort of unexpected? To him, he still thinks of you as that tiny little annoying fan that doesn’t know how to shut up about their leader (even if you’ve certainly gotten bigger). But now... you’re more silent, a lot more mature and a lot more devious. The war has taken its toll on you... and Overlord, in his own twisted way, can’t help but start to find the result of it somewhat attractive. He likes a bot that could match his freak. Needless to say, he’s grown intrigued by who you’ve now become.

— Remember that whole not having any respect for your personal space thing? Yeah… that gets a whole lot worse now that he's intrigued by you, to a point where he's constantly getting glares from you as he pushes his luck. He dared to wrap his servo around your shoulder which earned him a quick, stern “Keep your distance.” from you. He listens at the moment you say it, only to do it again moments later. But his touches don’t really escalate from your shoulders.

— He’s like your tail at this point, following you around whenever he’s bored has become a routine habit. You find it slightly annoying but you can’t do anything about it other than sigh. Despite your tenacity, there was no way by the Pits you could discipline a Phase Sixer, Warrior Elite… that was far above anything you could do and you seemed to acknowledge that. Overlord has come to enjoy your tired sighs directed at him. Ironically enough, the rest of your crew assumes you’ve managed to keep him close to keep an optic on him… but that one small advantage does not make up for it in comparison to the insufferable personality of this mech.

— Sometimes you scold him and he just pouts playfully, pretending to be hurt because he really does not care at all. He's a cocky bastard. Overlord thinks its cute you're even trying to in the first place.

— The more he follows you around on your various missions, the more he finds himself admiring your way of doing things. He can’t help but get more and more intrigued by your cold, silent ruthlessness, so distant from the grandeur displays of the same he exhibits with his dramatic flare.

There you were. Another successful mission and Overlord watches keenly, watching you work has become somewhat of a hobby for him now. He admires the way your processor works. You’d manage to eliminate an entire unit of seven single-handedly by picking them off one by one from the shadows and terminating them in silence. You were scarily stealthy, he could see that. You were light on your pedes, not even he could pick up on the sounds of your pede-steps.

“I must say, you’re certainly creative.” Overlord speaks with a surprising amount of sincerity in his tone that is actually not sarcasm for once which visibly startles you and he can tell that with how your crimson optics slight widen, you truly didn’t expect it from him. It makes him amused.

“When you pick them off one by one, the rest get panicked and they do something brash.” You explain your approach, Overlord has found the way you explain why you did what you did quite charming by now even if its slightly off putting.

“Hm. Weaponizing their anxiety and fears? How dastardly.” Overlord was more of a ‘making his presence known’ kind of mech however, he’s grown to silently admire your way of getting things done. You were absolutely cunning and dangerous and he loves it; he’s honestly surprised you haven’t tried to worm your way up to a higher rank. He also finds the small smile you give him when he figures out the basis of your approaches somewhat endearing. As if you're glad someone finally gets it.

“Exactly. Not just that but Autobots value comradery so if one of them goes missing, the others are sure to come follow.” Overlord was honestly finding himself liking you more and more as time goes by. You might be the only bot who’s surprised him with continuous streaks at this points because his smirk widens after hearing your words.

“Using their unity, their biggest strength to your advantage?” Overlord chuckles at the sheer wickedness you’re capable of. He has not met another Decepticon half as strategic or intelligent as you. Had every ‘Con been like you, he figures they would’ve won millennia ago. Even if you reminded him of a serial killer at times. Not like he is any better.

“You truly are something else. Full of surprises.”

— One of his favorite things to do ever is just invade your workstation to annoy you. Overlord won’t knock but you can tell by his heavy pede-steps that he’s outside your door and you have to mentally prepare yourself as the mech proceeds to make his grand entrance by waltzing in like he owns the place. You’ve tried your very best to get him to go away but its to no avail. Overlord just hovers by you as you type out reports, speaking of his musings and engaging in conversation with you.

— Overlord is actually not really bad to talk to in casual conversation. A lot less intense than he usually is, though his snarky demeanor remains. In fact, he finds you very interesting now and he’s slightly genuinely curious to know what you feel and think. He finds himself wanting to understand you but he’s not going to say that out loud yet.

— He didn’t like your blind hero worship then. He does not like it now given Overlord’s strained relationship with your leader. The one thing he does not like you talking about is Megatron, you seem to have an innate ability to ramble on about Megatron for hours on end and it really really pisses him off but he doesn’t show that yet. Overlord finds himself slightly… jealous in way? He’s always envied their leader but your words make it worse.

— Now, would Overlord realize he might have some sort of feelings for you? Yes. He definitely would. Overlord would assess himself thoroughly when he realizes he genuinely finds himself enjoying your company. But the biggest give-away to him that he likes you is the fact that he starts to find himself genuinely caring about your opinion which is a huge deal because he does not care about what any bot has to say. Overlord has never been one for romance, he isn’t sure on what to do with this realization. If he likes something, he’ll take it for himself. But he wouldn’t really do anything about it, for now. Solely because you’ve earned his respect to an extent. Overlord is the type to start off as very vague and slowly build it up. He’s got the patience.

— He wouldn’t really say anything about it but he finds himself quite pleased that you’ve gotten used to him and his looming presence. Overlord can also see that you’ve begun to slowly lose your cold icy exterior around him, he suspects that you’ve come to enjoy his presence slightly as well and he’s got quite a smug grin about it.

— Your crew is kind of terrified to approach you now because of his hulking figure looming above and it entertains him to be honest. Overlord can also tell you seem to care quite a lot about your crew which he finds quite… ironic in a way? It was as if your cold apathy was purely reserved for your duties. Overlord can see that you’re generally just introverted; you care about your crew, sure but you aren’t too keen on going out of your way to strike up conversations with… anyone really. A part of him envies your crew gets to see a slightly softer side of you.

— He can see that you truly do care about them with the way you’re harsh with them in general when it comes to reprimanding but you get a lot more…soft when in private. Overlord knows this because he’s seen you scold a few soldiers with genuine concern privately in your workstation, away from prying optics. He refused to leave your workspace when you asked him to during that moment so he ended up seeing this. Overlord isn’t sure on what to feel about knowing you can be soft. On one hand, its a weakness but by Primus, what he’d give to be scolded like that.

— Its the only reason he doesn’t terrorize your crew and, the nicest thing Overlord is capable of is abstaining from committing heinous acts. Something like the bare minimum of not committing murder without reason is kindness in his twisted optics. He's got stalker tendencies as well, he's gone from following you whenever you're in the vicinity to trying to find you for the sole purpose of following you. Sometimes though, he's just content with watching you from a distance and he's quite good at making sure his presence stays hidden. Overlord has become determined to know absolutely everything he can about you because of just how much you've piqued his interests.

— Overlord is definitely the type to check you out when you’re not looking. Only reason he doesn’t when you’re aware of his gaze and presence is because he wants his intentions to remain ominous. He also kind of cares about your opinion on him now so he doesn’t want to give off a bad impression, he’s aware you already sort of don’t like him.

— Unfortunately, his time with you on your ship comes to an end after a few years. He’s got other planets to go off to and destroy for the Decepticon Cause. His farewell isn’t very heartfelt, but he is dramatic about it.

“I suppose this is the end, Commander.” Overlord sighs in dramatic fashion. He’s gotten used to his name for you, ‘Commander’ and honestly, you’ve gotten used to it as well. He can’t help but have a smug grin at your slightly amused smile.

“Farewell, Overlord.” You just wave a little, rather awkward but mostly indifferent. He can sense that a small part of you might actually miss his pestering and he can certainly tell that you’re not used to goodbyes either. You continue to hold that signature blank face as your smile slowly dies down as he walks out, towards the rampway of a space bridge. Overlord turns around for a moment as he watches you walk away. His crimson optics slightly gleaming.

He was definitely coming back for you at some point. You’ve intrigued him quite a bit and he’s proud to say that you’ve managed to live in his helm almost just as much as Megatron has.

— After that whole thing, the only places he’s seen you at is in certain formal functions or meetings. His unpredictable mood improves drastically upon seeing you, a smug smile or often times, even a genuine smile creeps up on his face. You usually don’t engage with anyone at such events given your introverted nature, keeping to yourself in a corner while chaos ensues around you and who’s Overlord to deny you company? He’ll sit by you and catch up. But these little run-ins happen like once in a few megacycles. Despite this, you’ve managed to stay in his helm. He won’t say it but he misses you and he can tell a small part of you, just a tiny part of you might have fallen for his charm.

— However, this does not last. You’re foolish if you think anything could stay even remotely somewhat wholesome with a mech like Overlord even if he did act like your temporary guard dog for the relativelt short while he was on your ship. But that will be realized in time.

[antianakin]

I feel like I need to make it clear that when I talk about how Mon Mothma isn't fully committed to the Rebellion yet, it's because that is quite literally a massive part of her whole character arc. It's not a condemnation of her character or an attempt to belittle the things she HAS chosen to do for the rebellion and what it has cost her.

Mon Mothma says in Rebels that she finally hit a point of no return in recognizing that politics IS NOT GOING TO WORK and so she chooses to leave it all behind in order to be full in on the rebellion and do it day in and day out. At this point in Andor, she hasn't yet hit that point of no return. Some part of her still believes she can do something helpful through politics, even though we as the audience know that she CAN'T. There is no effort she can make politically that will actually change anything in the Empire.

And it's OKAY to recognize that Mon Mothma still has places to go as a character and room to grow as a rebel. She's not all the way there yet. Much like Cassian was against the Empire and had no issues stealing from them last season but wasn't fully committed to the cause until the end. He had to hit a point of no return before he could let go of the idea that he could still have a normal life of some kind before he could truly become the rebel we all know he needs to be.

Mon Mothma was ready to sell her daughter, yes, but she also tries to convince Leida OUT OF IT in the last episode which would've had pretty major consequences not just for her but for Luthen and Kleya and the rebellion. She is still prioritizing her family over the rebellion. And that's not a bad thing, necessarily! She's a good mother and that's why she says what she does, there's absolutely nothing wrong with that! But I do think it is a signal that Mon Mothma ISN'T fully committed to the rebellion yet because there were still things that she would prioritize over it if push came to shove. There were lines she still wasn't willing to cross and things she wasn't yet willing to sacrifice in the name of the cause.

Similarly, her conversation with Luthen where they're talking about Tay and he says he needs to protect her and Mon responds with "I don't know what you're talking about," is another signal that Mon was just not really ready to make those sacrifices. She doesn't want to acknowledge it, she can't make those choices on her own. She can still pretend she has no idea what Luthen is saying to her or what he's going to do to protect her as an asset. She can go off and get drunk and try to forget it all so she can get up the next day and just be Mon Mothma the politician. Luthen can't do that. He made an entire speech last season about why he can't do that anymore. Cassian can't do it, either, because he had to make this same choice a year ago.

And I think it's honestly a really cool narrative arc for Mon Mothma. I think it works really well as a parallel for Cassian and as part of the theme of the passing of the baton/torch that is so integral to the story of Rogue One and Andor. Mon ISN'T fully committed to the rebellion yet, she ISN'T ready to be a rebel entirely yet, she ISN'T the person who can lead the rebellion yet. She's getting there, she's reaching her point of no return, but she's NOT THERE YET. As much as she's doing, there's pieces of herself she's holding back, pieces of herself and her life that she's not willing to let go of yet. And we're watching her give them up or lose them until she finally recognizes the same thing Cassian did last season. She either dies, or commits herself fully to this cause she's been one foot in and one foot out of for years. That's it, that's the choice they all ultimately end up having to face, and it's a choice you only get to through a lot of hardship and pain and loss.

[kizusof]

The first in 3 years of nursing

— a zayne x nonmc reader

tw / cw : mentions of blood and hospital setting

You have been working in the Akso Hospital for 3 years now. But why is it now, that you have developed feelings for the so great doctor, Dr. Zayne Li.

It all started one day when you were with Dr. Greyson, whom you work under and accompany most days. That day, you were discussing a new patient who had just arrived with a difficult condition that was being treated by Dr. Zayne. You’d seen Dr. Zayne around the hospital before, often in emergency surgeries, which you always admired. You had shared a few words with him, and sometimes you even had lunch together when your schedules aligned. You knew he was a reserved man, not the friendliest at first glance, and you respected that. He was completely devoted to his work, focused, committed, all in.

A patient had been rushed in. It was a female hunter from the hunter’s association. She had been badly injured with deep cuts across her body, blood soaking the sheets, crimson red dripping from her body and to the white bed. You knew she was under Dr. Zayne's care, she was his patient, you overhear that someone had informed him. To you, it was another tragic case, another unfortunate hunter who risked her life

but then you turned and saw him,

her doctor, standing, staring in shock, his eyes full of fear and emptiness at the same time. He looked like he was about to cry, he also looked like he couldn’t cry. This was a side you never saw before, despite walking on the same halls as him, you look at the man wearing a lab coat, This wasn’t the composed, dedicated Dr. Zayne Li you thought you knew. This was a man on the verge of breaking after seeing someone he cared about hurt.

Noise was all that can be heard as they rushed the girl to the surgery room. But Dr. Zayne didn’t follow. He couldn’t. He was too shaken. He sat outside the OR, still and silent. You decided to sit next to him, as a way to comfort him at every eye contact you shared with the man. You tried to break the silence by asking him how he felt.

“are you..okay? Dr.Zayne.”

You were left with silence, you open your mouth and try to continue the talk, hoping he would express how he felt.

“She seems important to you. Everything will be fine.”

you say quietly. The silence was burning as you look at him then the small distance between you both. As you were about to accept how awkward the situation is, he looked at you with glossy eyes.

“She was a childhood friend. She is really important to me.” he says tiredly with a rough voice.

You didn’t respond, not with words, at least. The look you gave him said enough. And in that moment, he seemed to find comfort in it. He smiled faintly before turning away, whispering a quiet “sorry” as he stood up and left.

He made himself busy with the remaining paperwork he had for the next few hours, then the next few days, you noticed that he constantly checked up on her. You were at awe seeing such a caring side of his. A tender, vulnerable, deeply caring man behind the professional mask.

And you couldn’t help it.

You wished that maybe one day, he would look at you the same way. His beautiful eyes that are filled with the emotions he doesn’t show. His words that hold so much meaning. You want him to look at you just like that, talk to you just like that.

You want him.

You really want him.

[lazyscience]

so I just knocked out The Pitt in a weekend (help me i am not ok) and what a glorious trainwreck. which way to the whittaker trash party? I want the weird queerplatonic santos-whittaker playing smash or pass: pitt colleagues edition (amusing since while she is 95 percent about the ladies she has a couple straight 'hall passes' and whittaker somewhat defiantly calls himself an 'equal opportunity slut,' to her amusement. (silly snippet behind the break, please don't report me to emily gould)

"Don't call yourself that," Trinity kicked him in the ankle, "until you mean it."

"How do you know I don't? Maybe I paid my way through med school sucking dick." Whittaker stuffed a handful of popcorn in his mouth to cover the inner flinch at saying it, and then made a face. "Okay, seriously, please add unpopped popcorn to the grocery list, I can make better popcorn than this cheaper."

Trinity sneered and took a gulp of her drink. "What, Martha Stewart, SkinnyPop isn't good enough for you? And while I would admire the work ethic, when would you have had time to study? Pitt tuition for outstate is 65K a year, BEFORE housing."

"Divided by 300, is roughly 215," Whittaker said, reached for his Coke. "Not enough hours to put much of a dent in clinicals."

"Shut the fuck up," Trinity blinked.

Whittaker sighed, low and long. "Santos, do you honestly think I would have been crashing in the decomm wing if I was pulling down $300 a pop blow jobs? Also, have you seen me?"

Trinity wrinkled her nose. "While you make a point about the crash pad, yes, I have - I mean, I'm not a gay man but the clean-cut blond farmboy twink with big sad eyes, ex-seminarian turned medical student? Pretty, smart and devoted to his fellow man? I definitely know gay guys who would probably pay that and consider it an act of philanthropy."

"Charity," Whittaker curled his lip, finished off his drink. "Thanks."

"Believe me, nobody ever sticks their dick in charity. They might think they're doing the recipient a favor, but they don't do it unless they think they stand to gain." Trinity tipped a bit more rum into both of their glasses. "Pour me some more Coke."

Dennis topped them both off, took another sip. "Harsh, but probably fair as I think about it. Robby. Dr. Robby would probably pity fuck if he thought the recipient really needed it."

"He is awfully Catholic coded for being Jewish. Speaking of, how about our fearless Captain? Smash or pass? As if I had to ask - don't worry, you're not obvious. Unless you're ex-Catholic, in which case we can smell the saint worship."

"That is exactly NOT what I like about him, and ...yeah, smash. I admit it."

"Oh? Do tell. Chisme, Huckleberry. I neeeeeed it."

He thought about the unexpectedly small ball Robby had curled himself into on the floor of the morgue, the broken sound of his voice, the way he'd scrabbled as desperately as if he'd been holding fragments of himself together. The way he'd gathered himself up with that little shove to keep Dennis at arm's-length as if being touched might have done more harm than good, have driven the broken pieces of his armor into the bleeding flesh beneath--

--gasped almost as he remembered to breathe, shook his head. "It's not how good he is. It's how hard he has to try to be."

Trinity lifted her head from the back of the couch, her gaze sharpening on him like the hope of an exceptionally interesting procedure, but mercifully she didn't pry. "Interesting," was all she said. "Langdon?"

Dennis wrinkled his nose. "Pass. He gives me clean-cut-straight-passing-student-council vibes. The kind who's thirsty when you're alone but very "You People - Not That There's Anything Wrong With That" in public."

Trinity nodded. "Same." She was quiet for a moment as if struggling with how she wanted to phrase something, then shook her head. "Same. What about Mel?"

"Hmm. Attractive but in a Serious Commitment sort of way. I have the feeling Mel doesn't do casual, and at this moment in my life, I have no breathing space for anything but, so pass."

"Dennis, the game is technically just would you or wouldn't you - but no, I get it," Trinity said with a sigh. "I bet it'd be hot having her tell you exactly what she likes. She'd totally do it too."

"So that'd be smash for you, then. Now who doesn't have time to do anything else? Mel, Garcia, Reade, Collins, Kim - ah, we haven't gotten to McKay. Smash or pass."

"Pass. I...I know I'm not good, with people." She was quiet for a minute. "I mean, I'm - it's a work in progress. But McKay no. Big no. It's like a funhouse mirror, the shit I don't like about myself is all I can see. I know that's hypocritical as fuck."

"No it's not. It's smart," Dennis said, nudging the popcorn closer to her. "People who remind us of ourselves, we think we know what they should have figured out. And whether that's true or not it usually ends badly."

"Who ended badly for you?" Trinity said quietly, setting the bowl on the coffee table, eyes veiled and far away.

"Aforementioned clean cut student council type. Resulted in me trying to pray the gay away for a few semesters. I do actually enjoy women, you know? Like, I have had relationships with, including sleeping with them, that made us both happy and I just, I really thought I could make that work. I possibly still could, with the right woman. Maybe I just haven't met her yet."

"Maybe. Me, I was pretty much entirely pretending with all two of the guys I tried to date before giving up. I did eventually come out to my family. It was...not as big a deal as I was expecting, honestly. Which is good. I was braced for it to be a great big thing."

"Good. That's good." Dennis closed his eyes. "Thank you, Trin. For taking me home with you."

"You have promised me popcorn. And you already fixed the icky thing the second bathroom shower does. Just keep pulling your weight." He heard her getting up, felt her gently nudge him. "Go on. Go to bed. More things to work on in the morning."

[slaaverin]

It doesn't matter who's name is on the deed or the address location or multiple addresses, really if you think about it, Jikook have never not lived together/cohabitated together in some way. They always find a way. From sharing a dorm when they were trainees and even a bed back then, since Jk spent more time in Jimin's than his own, to being the last two to leave the house & growing up and getting "separate" places, but for some reason those two still having sleepovers at each other houses, as nearly 30 year old men and tell us about it. To hotel rooms and staying in each other's room more than with other members, in and out all day, 3 times a day and at 1 am always together where other members joke its Jk's room when its actually Jimin's, to bedroom & bed sharing on personal trips they've taken together, to now Room sharing in the military for almost 18 months now. The location & address may change or differ sometimes, but in the end, the togetherness in one place, is what has remained the same for years. And I think it's something alot of people overlook, when wow that is just so special and really tells you all you need to know about how close they are. We see members doing shows together alone or with friends out of BTS and its Jikook doing a show together. We see members living their separate lives in their separate houses on a documentary and its Jikook together in Jimin's house cooking. It's members enlisting separately and Jikook enlisting together. Jikook even sending joint gifts together from the military. And seems Jk still wants that togetherness for the next 50 years with Jimin, traveling the world. His words. And he has never ever said that about anyone else. I would say at this point, Jikook won't be looking back, no matter what kind of relationship they have, cause they have already overshared so much to go back. They just want normal it seems "hence oversharing" when they don't need too. Who knows, maybe one day they will live together. Maybe as besties, roommates, or more, cause these two can't seem to stay away from each other, no matter how hard they try. Wouldn't be the first time. I kinda don't see them living with other people either tho, cause Jk is out here planning for Jimin to travel with him for 50 plus years. That alone says commitment, when you think about it, even Jimin was taken back lol but he agreed and wants that too. And if they don't do any of that, it still won't change anything. Whatever they have is special and its unbreakable. Good for them. We shall see what happens.

Yes, yes, yes.

They also spent 18 months together yet still manage to spend even more time together during their vacation.

That level of commitment and closeness is completely unheard of. Not only in kpop but in real life. It's very rare and quite astonishing.

But I agree, there will be no going back. They already shared so much, they already reinforced that they would choose each other over and over until they are 50 (and more!) in their heads they appear quite sure of themselves and their relationship.

It's my opinion but this great change that is most likely to come, all those deep discussions they had about how they wanna live, it can all lead to one only conclusion: being themselves even more, letting go of fear, being unapologetic about where their hearts want to lead them.

Because anything else would be going backwards and that's usually not how consciousness works. People can experience setbacks and regress for a while, yes, but usually the direction is up. Everything they've done so far is very gradual and soft in a way. Over the years we got more and more until AYS and enlistement. So the next "natural" thing to happen next would be expansion (but the form will depend, it could mean anything.)

The heart wants what it wants, and to go against it is far more difficult than going with the flow of it. I believe that's why they had "no choice" but to follow their heart for all those years and be this open. The other option would have been way too painful.

I don't know what the future holds, we are not in their heads, but from everything we know from them, I think it's safe to expect a few things most likely to happen.

Whatever the circumstances (living arrangements, schedule) they will find ways to spend time together, that's pretty much a given. And I don't think they will want to repeat a separation like in 2023 if they can avoid it because clearly that year was a bit hard on them both.

So whether with new content such as AYS, collabs, living together, or something else we don't even think of, they will remain intertwined.

Honestly, this service probably did a lot of good to their relationship. They spent 18 months with the other being their one true support system without fame's distractions and they had all the time to have soul-deep discussions about where they are at (10 years of relationship is also a good point to reassess things) what they truly want, what they want their relationship to look like and how they want to include it in their lives, also how much a priority it is for them. I believe all of this must have been discussed and it's a very good thing.

They were also there for each other in an obviously quite challenging environment and it can do nothing else but to bring them even closer.

Perhaps it helped them come to quite enlightening realizations about what they truly want. That's my theory. And depending on this realization, conclusions, and plans that come from it, it could really go in two ways.

First, this will to be intertwined will remain and they will find ways to make it happen, reinforcing for us what we already knew and continuing on this same path of gradual openness and sharing while still remaining careful as they've always done.

OR, and that's my recent theory, perhaps the realization, the will of the heart, the leap in consciousness is bigger than what we imagined, and it spurts them to make a bigger change, something bolder, something we don't even envision and that can truly shake things up in ways we didn't expect. That's also a possibility. I keep in mind the Wheel of fortune in Blue's reading and spirit turning the wheel. It could mean a lot of different things. I don't know what exactly and how it will look like in practicality, but I guess we will find out soon.

The first live will be perhaps the most important thing to look closely to because it will give us A LOT of information, and then we'll be able to speculate further. (Isn't it fun to speculate? It's fun!)

Whatever happens, I'm not too worried, as you said their bond is unbreakable, maybe even more now, so whatever route they decide to take it will all be fine.

Of course I'm still very curious to see what enfolds 👀 I feel like a child at christmas ready to receive presents lmao

It's hard to be patient. But we must 😭

Maybe it's good to have quiet time now, to prepare, because once it will be going there will be no stopping. And trust me its gonna be INTENSE. So let's buckle up.

Thank you and take care anon 💜

[whitehairandtraumatized-bracket]

White Hair and Trauma Brawl Round 1; Poll 46

remember, voting is based on swag, trauma, and favoritism!!

trauma and propaganda under the cut!

Trauma!

Asuka: That Man wants to help his friends and the world so so badly but is so bad at it he keeps committing war crimes instead. Your best friend's wife is dying of illness? Preserve her body in cryo-sleep without her consent until a cure can be found and inject your friend with a volatile magic element to turn him immortal so he won't die before she's cured! But now your best friend hates you. Your research is being used by the government to create bioweapons? Join the program in secret and turn your preserved best friend's wife into a bioweapon yourself who can control all the other bioweapons! But now a robot is trying to take control of her and also fucking with the entire population of Japan. Solution? BLOW UP JAPAN SO ONLY *MOST* OF THE POPULATION DIES, TRAUMATIZING YOUR BEST FRIEND'S WIFE SO BADLY SHE TAKES CONTROL OF ALL THE OTHER BIOWEAPONS AND DECLARES WAR ON HUMANITY, AND KICKSTART A HUNDRED YEAR LONG FIGHT FOR HUMANITY'S SURVIVAL. AND ALSO YOUR OLD MENTOR HAS GONE INSANE AND KEEPS DOING EVEN MORE BAD SHIT IN YOUR NAME. In order to atone for his crimes and also bring his best friend's wife back to life but for real this time, Asuka proceeds to live on indefinitely and carry that trauma for over one hundred years until everyone is happy, and decides after he actually does bring his best friend's wife back to life but for real this time (kinda) that the best way to ensure goodwill is to fuck off to the moon in self-imposed exile and start a podcast.

Lenore: She was rebellious and tried to run away (probably because her parents wanted to marry her and she was a lesbian). For this, she was trapped under a tree for a whole night, saw him die, felt guilty for this, was told by doctors that she would never walk again (it was a lie, but as she was a girl she wasn't worth physical therapy and learning to use a cane to them), that she was mad, that she was useless.

Propaganda!

Asuka: Sopping wet autistic war criminal. The trauma has been going on for way longer than it ever should and even his own clone is like "damn bro you really hate yourself that much?" He needs more friends and the only one he hasn't completely fucked over is an immortal masochist who he parted ways with to get arrested by the US. Also he used to have cat ears and it's never explained why he doesn't anymore.

[Lenore did not receive propaganda. rip.]

[cozymochi]

Hi Cozy it's 🍍anon! suddenly went off the grid because work has been hectic but I have been lurking-- browsed through your oc tag and the nyoka art will be feeding me delusions for months

Anyways enough of that talk, A question that I've been thinking of for the past day was amongst your ocs who do you see experiencing an overblot themselves? I wasn't certain if this has been asked before but if it has then you can ignore this ❤️

Have a lovely day/night!

WHO do I see experiencing an overblot? Honestly as of this point, ehh… None of them. Take that with slight uncertainty though rather than being a definitive answer.

Could they? Going by how the universe works, yes. Will they? Leaning towards no, but it’s more like a “🤷 Probably not?” Question mark?

They certainly have all the foundational pieces, and in-universe anyone with magic has the capacity to do so. But unless they were to have some kind of villainous failure breakdown moment, I don’t really see it happening.

That said….

Going by the villain characters that they are twisted from: Emilio twisted from Chancellor Estéban (Elena of Avalor), Cecil twisted from Cedric the Sorceror (Sofia the First), and Nyoka twisted Ushari the egyptian cobra (The Lion Guard)— we’re at like… a different impasse. I kind of have to address those source guys real quick to illustrate my headspace. So I��m about to sound very cringe in briefly crash-coursing and analyzing characters from shows not meant for me. Full spoilers for all three but let’s be real, nobody is gonna watch these things. I did it for everyone.

———

Estéban kind of reaches his goal of ruling the kingdom… more than once? All he really wanted was to be listened to and not forgotten. Admittedly, he often is, but to an extent a lot of it is his own fault. He wants to be noticed as the guy who the “real power behind the throne” type ordeal.

He kind of just fumbles into all of this, really. First time, he was petty and willingly allowed an evil sorceress into his own families kingdom just to make his own warning about her invading come true— thus leading to the deaths of the King and Queen and the magical imprisonment of the rest of his family for 40 years, then he just becomes her Chancellor. (Hello?) He got what he wanted, if at the cost of his entire youth and family. Then when all of this gets undone and fixed, he’s somehow still petty and wants to undermine the potential of his birthright cousin Elena. Despite becoming more understanding as seasons progress, he kind of continues to be petty and cause problems for others for…. actually no reason?

But oh noooo he can’t let his family or anyone know that he was the reason the King and Queen died and that the kingdom went into a dictatorship for 40 years and he reaped the benefits of it :(( He didn’t know she was going to actually kill and usurp his aunt and uncle! (???) He just…wanted…to…. ….uh….prove a point? Or something? His song is amazing, but. Huh.

Until like two seasons later when all his dirty laundry comes out and as he’s going through the consequences of it, he immediately sides with the next villainous lady again to weasel out of punishment, lies some more, does some magic, then fumbles into ruling the kingdom for a few minutes and then dies trying to save Elena from the 3rd villainous lady he fumbled into aligning himself with (He gets better). Hand to God, by the end of the series it’s very hard to see why he does anything. Sure, villain lady 3 calls him out as someone who continues to make the same mistakes over and over, but that is literally in the final episode.

This reads as a character who can’t fully commit to a villain scheme at all. He’s not even clear about what he personally wants at the end of the day. Is it still being listened to? Being undermined? Is he mad that his decades of experience don’t mean anything? Honestly, I’m going to get myself carried away hardcore. I’m legitimately doing my best trying to remain concise, but it is genuinely as messy as it sounds. I enjoy the mess, but it is quite frustrating if put under even the slightest scrutiny. Somehow he is meant to be sympathetic, but none of it really works.

SO WHAT ABOUT EMILIO? While I have not overtly addressed Emilio’s exact backstory publicly as of writing this out, just know that his twist-inspiration of the core elements is essentially being a person who, at this time, is burdened by something he cannot get over. He currently does not know what he personally wants in life and will flip loyalties to whomever will make him seem like the most competent or coolest person in the room (and especially the one who didn’t cause any problem) or whomever is most likely to win in a situation. He loves attention, he loves getting positive credit for things, but ultimately just is just playing a character.

Just by going off of that he doesn’t seem like a strong overblotter contender, at least not to me. If there’s anything overblotters have, it’s a very strong desire for something they really want, especially something they can change. At least as far as my understanding goes.

Emilio does not know what he wants right now, but he’ll certainly pretend that he does. And if he does want something, it’s certainly not going to be resolved at NRC.

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Cedric does reach his goal of taking over the kingdom. He wanted to take over out of revenge thanks to people constantly belittling him and his abilities for his entire life. If you can’t respect me when I try playing nice, then maybe you will if I’m ruling over all of you with an evil iron-fist and you have NO CHOICE?

However, he only rules it very briefly and ultimately lets himself fail because by this point his heart wasn’t in it anymore. He didn’t even know if he wanted to rule the kingdom genuinely by this point, but thought he had to commit by this point even though he already understood that he got what he actually needed: Genuine supportive friendship and acknowledgement. He sings a whole song about it.

This reads as a character who definitely falls into sunk-cost fallacy with his own schemes, but at the end of the day has enough sense to know his worth where it matters, especially after meeting the right people. Cedric is the most straightforward and clear character across 4 seasons, so going into twst was not too difficult.

In regard to Cecil, he has a very similar set-up as a result. He’s a naturally gifted magic user, but fumbles and lack of control early in his life have led him to have something of a reputation of a walking hazard. It doesn’t matter what accomplishments he has or good he does, because his mistakes are the only things people remember. If one thing bothers him, it’s being around people who also make much worse mistakes more frequently but somehow still get praise/support.

The most Cecil might want is to be viewed by others as how he views himself; an extremely-skilled magic-user worth respecting. How he would do that? It’s up in the air. …Maybe being the head of Diasomnia would net automatic clout, I mean, it works for Malleus who is frankly- a terrible Housewarden by definition in his opinion, but everyone is obsessed with him no matter what he does or doesn’t do because he’s Malleus Draconia. Unfortunately, that’s an automatic losing game with no chance.

As of now, he is highly interested in anything that could net him a little more magic reserves… *stares at Silvers ring*

If he is anything like his twisted counterpart, I am on the fence about whether he would even go as far as to set any scheme in motion, and even if he did— it’s very 50/50 if he would “break” and cross the Overblot threshold. With his bumbling luck, it might not even get far nor be registered by anyone else that he’s even doing anything sketchy. He might make a genuine friend and find real support before that would ever occur.

Cecil has guest event character energy. You think they would OB but they never actually do.

(Besides, give it a few months and Malleus will be gone. He can try earnestly at that Housewarden position later.)

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Ushari does get very close to achieving his end-goal. He spends pretty much the majority of his time in the first season being literally trampled on by others just by trying to mind his own business. It’s not like anybody cares about how cobras work, he lives at Pride Rock like everybody else how come nobody wants to respect his space? He slowly grows more and more resentful of this, until the second season when he actually does break and reveal his true colors— being a very cruel and sadistic person who goes as far as to,,,,errm,,, quite literally summon Scar’s fire soul from the firey fires of hellfire with the intent of pretty much wiping out all of the mammals at Pride Rock. He thinks Scar can solve all of this. Ushari fully believes that having reptiles rule (beneath Scar) over that kingdom would finally be enough to make everyone stop trampling all over him. …or something like that. It goes off the rails really fast.

This fight goes on for years, I guess (they’re animals but w/e).

And in contrast the other two, he commits to his scheme and has an actual villainous breakdown and ends up burning alive in a volcano by season 3 in a last ditch attempt to avenge his then extra-dead flame head of a master. The splash is on screen. He dies from desperate hubris. This show is bananas, actually.

…Kind of a jump there, right? Lol. I neglected to mention that throughout most of Ushari’s tenure, there seems to be an ongoing clear divide between reptiles and mammals to the point that… the vast majority of the mammal characters don’t know anything about reptiles at all and kind of don’t go out of their way to learn either. (Lion Guard in general goes out of its way to establish that every animal class has it’s own culture/way of doing things despite being ruled under the same King.) Ushari in particular was also motivated by this resentment but he was also like a reptile supremacist so ermm.

So if I’m going by that kind of pattern, Nyoka might have a stronger shot at experiencing an OB. Compared to above source, running into an alternate direction of the core elements was inevitable.

Nyoka is one of the only known academic-focused bookworms within Savanaclaw- a mainly athletic dorm. On top of being the only reptile beastman there, he tends to be trampled on and have his personal space disregarded frequently. For the most part, despite any warnings and lack of comfortability, he tends to let people talk to him and treat him in all sorts of ways because he has to avoid conflict and remain dignified at all times.

Sure, he’s a cobra so of course he doesn’t any of that and just wants to be left alone, but it’s also as a result of his upbringing where how he is perceived matters a heavy amount. Like Emilio, I have not overtly addressed Nyoka’s backstory publicly as of writing this, but something occurred in the past that he had nothing to personally do with, but as a result of that thing he’s been left to deal with all of the fallout growing up. Slip ups occur, of course, but it’s few and far between (and usually from self defense). He would rather the dorm see him as some bookworm who won’t put up a fight rather than something worse.

He cannot do anything that would make himself or his entire group of people look really bad, and they already severely misunderstood. He is the face of the rest of the cobra beastmen, what he does outside of their circle reflects on them and he is fully aware of this. His life is planned out for him, and he has to follow through with it without complaint. Going to NRC at all was seen as a risky move back home. I imagine living in a headspace like that at all times is mentally-taxing.

Emilio and Cecil have at least a few folk they can rant to about their various petty grievances even if it never truly gets vulnerable.

Nyoka does not. He does not address how he feels about his own personal matters to anybody, and does not feel as though he is in any position to do so, so it’s all just simmering there. Nyoka can be docile, but he’s still very cold. (That said… there a few people he incidentally may take it out on.)

He may not break now, but maybe he needs one more thing to finally get him to snap. It is very hard to say when or where that exact trigger would come from. For Ushari, it was something little that set him off, a bunch of very little things that steadily kept building up. I not certain what Nyoka would do if it came to that, though.

He just wants to be left alone and live his life.

Pretty sure it wouldn’t involve mass-murder. That’s a bit much.

——

So yeah. All this to say: I don’t know lol Everyone has the capacity to, but 🤷

But, hey, I’m all for non-canonical bonus-boss DLC material.

Sorry that there were no pictures. I’m a bad artist. If you read this ermmmm …tell me if seeing hypothetical overblot appearances would be neat or not

and sorry for the cringe crash courses infected by personal opinions 🫡 I have more knowledge on this junk than I’d care to admit and it often goes nowhere. I can’t even watch youtubers talk about this because I know what stuff isn’t addressed 😩

[radd0ll]

while there are some gaps in my knowledge (i've only been a radical feminist for two years or so), i do want to try my hand at "debunking" some of this or at least commentating on it, because i remember it from when i was an anti-radfem. also it drives me mad.

"it believes that patriarchy is at fault for the oppression of women, but sees this in a very strict, binary way: women are the oppressed, and men are the oppressors." why is this negatively "strict" and "binary"? if men do not oppress women, then who does? know you anything of feminism if you believe that the patriarchy came about because the human race got bored?

"womanhood is defined by oppression, misogyny, and Being In Danger." no, radfems define womanhood by being female. which happens to come with these things.

"men are raised to support patriarchy…all men are inherently more corrupted by these lessons than women." i don't understand what other view of patriarchy you could possibly have as a feminist. if you know that men are misogynistic and commit most violence against women, then what other conclusion could you possibly come to within feminist theory?

"exchanging money for sex is inherently rape/exploitation/non-consensual in some way." well how on earth can it not be? i see a lot of pro-prostitution rhetoric but really none of it makes sense if you view sex work as "work" like everyone says--if sex is your income, especially if it is your primary income, you cannot just refuse whenever you want, because your well-being depends on it. even the most hypersexual prostituted person will have at least one encounter that they did not want to do, but had to due to fear of losing money. "sex work" can never be 100% consensual like sexual encounters are supposed to be.

"as women who deny men access to them, lesbians are The Most Oppressed and also The Most Endangered. they must be protected at all costs." i assure you, we do not have a tierlist of which women is more oppressed. that is an everyone-else thing. but we do acknowledge that lesbians face both misogyny and homophobia, and the fact that men have no access to lesbians does fuel the misogyny in dangerous ways. but personally i find that heterosexual women and bisexual women who date men are also in danger because of male violence that will be more closer to them because of the access that is allowed.

"bio-essentialism: women are oppressed specifically because of their bodies and ability to reproduce. this is an inherent and defining part of womanhood." i'm not going to argue against this statement. i'm going to argue against it being labeled with "bio-essentialism" because that is not what bio-essentialism means and radfems do not fw bio-essentialism.

"if the womanliness of [women's bodies] is tampered with, they become less valuable." oh dear god, now you are just making shit up. you sound gross. what an awful statement! we do not believe that they lose value!

"gender is meaningless, it's founded in misogynistic stereotypes about men and women, and when you remove the stereotypes, there's nothing left at all. only binary sex is real, because that's what patriarchy and biology is based on." i don't have any commentary, i just like this statement. :) but do not try to imply that radfems know not of intersex individuals or they confuse and stump us.

"patriarchy doesn't just reward men, but masculinity, as it rejects femininity. people who reject femininity and embrace masculinity are rewarded by the patriarchy." radfems don't think this, because we know that butch women are not treated well by men. because masculinity isn't a ticket out of misogyny when you're a woman.

"some of these ideas are contradictory" yeah because you have the wrong ideas

"the more suffering a woman endures, the more noble it must have made her" again with the making shit up must i even unpack this one or

"radical feminism is almost indistinguishable from evangelical conservatism."

…

alright that's enough, i have a headache.

i'm genuinely curious about what radfems think about this

(same post, just split into pieces to make it easier to read)

found on curated tumblr:

[capricores]

happy NYE guys!! wishing you all the best in the new year 🥺💗 are you guys doing any sort of "rituals" or resolutions for the new years?? i'm taking inspiration from some people i saw online, and i'm spending today:

• journalling all the awful shit that happened to me this year, and writing down any limiting beliefs i have/things i want to let go, then i'm going to burn that paper

• writing out resolutions/goals + affirmations/manifestations for the new year in a journal and being so extremely detailed about it so there's no room for interpretation

• making a vision board relating to the life i hope to have in the next year

i think it'll be fun and hopefully impactful in a positive way?! 😭

[crrows]

daytrip to a chikubushima

[bogos-bint3d]

random thought bc i was making alphyne sims LOL, do you think undyne would ever want to have children? how do you think she’d be as a parent?

While I personally don't quite have a "definite yes" or "definite no" answer for this I personally think that, yeah, possibly! I think it's a question with a lot of layers to it, "is it something the character would want?" "Is it something the character should do?" "How much thought would the character put into it all beforehand?" "How long would the character wait before making that choice?" And first of all I think I should talk about fandom culture's view on kids in general. Why? Because I'm obsessed with validating my opinions like this

It's been said many times by many people now how there are a lot of times where fans end up writing completely out of character for the purpose of placing characters into positions of stereotypical familial structures- ESPECIALLY forcing women into the roles of motherhood where it doesnt fit or make sense for them to the point where I don't think I can really add anything substantial or important to the topic. The pros have very much said what needs to be said.

HOWEVER. I ALSO LIKE TO HAVE FUN WITH FUCKING CHARACTERS. I LIKE TO EXPLORE DIFFERENT TOPICS AND SITUATIONS WITH THEM. I WANT PEOPLE TO BE ABLE TO SHAMELESSLY ENJOY THEIR RIGHT TO INTERPRET CHARACTERS WHERE THEY THINK NESCECARY. WHERE THEY THINK FUCKING FUN!!!

So with that said, while demeaning female characters to singular sad and one dimensionsional traits of "Mother" is very clearly to me Not A Good Thing, people should stop acting like it's a fucking sin to imagine the possibility of a character having a child while still retaining all their accurate attributes, because it is a very possible thing that can be and IS done!!!!!

What are my thoughts on Undyne with all this?

Hehhaahehehaa....... strap in.

Where do I BEGIN. How about the inspirations behind the character of undyne herself.

Ok so see this wonderful lass here. That's a sculpture by Chauncey Ives of the mythical water spirit, Undine. Thinking about it, you all probably know this anyway because I do fairly often reblog Undine themed stuff too. Because I'm just like this. But how about the interesting stuff?

The original myth, created by Paracelsus, an alchemist and philosopher born in the 1400s, I believe comes from his work "A Book on Nymphs, Sylphs, Pygmies, and Salamanders, And Kindered Spirits". I think that's what it was called. I'm too tired to talk fully about it specifically and we need to get to the point so have a video of some guy reading it here

Yay :]

It's pretty much what it says. Paracelsus essentially believed that elemental beings (whom he had adapted and reimagined from ancient or traditional at the time sources) were simply part of the strangeness of God's natural creation and should be studied, as part of appreciation of the Bible etc. And we know ALL ABOUTTTTT utdr and its biblical links/imagery. But back to undine :]

Paracelsus named his takes on the classic concept of elementals: gnomes for earth (YES HE INVENTED THE WORD GNOME!!!!!), sylphs for air (yeah he also invented the word sylph), salamanders for fire (he didn't invent that :[), and of COURSE! UNDINES FOR WATER! He believed undines to be fairly similar to humans, a significant difference being the lack of a soul. Which surely means nothing when talking about Souls Are Important the Video Game. And anyways according to him they were apparently fairly capable of getting a soul through love. Wikipedia also says that Paracelsus says that a child from this love will too have a soul which is nice

Blablabla Wikipedia says undines are like fucking desperate to get a husband or whatever but dudeeeee she can do whatever she fucking wantssssss. I think she can and should be enjoying her life with alphys rather than it being a thing just for a living soul or whatever. They're just happy, no mythology attached

Onto the most iconic interpretation of the myth, 1811s Undine by Friedrich De La Motte Fouque. When you think of the tale of Undine it's almost always that it's this specific story you pull from. Apart from another one I'll briefly touch on later (please hope it's brief). In it, Undine is a woman adopted by a fisherman, who was taken in by the fisherman after his own child died. Hmmmmm wow hmm sort of like how asgore took in undyne after his children died HM BACK ON TOPIC. Personality-wise, Undine is described by Wikipedia (because I don't have the book) as "erratic", and "capricious", which Google dictionary describes as "given to sudden and unaccountable changes of mood or behaviour", which again sounds quite similar to the Undyne we all know and love.

It mentions that when married to Huldbrand (the main guy in the book he's not important tho) she is "kind and gentle" and yeah imo the writing with this IS kinda shit HOWEVER I think if were simply using this as inspiration for undyne I can definitely imagine her *eventually* becoming a calmer and more thoughtful person with A: the presence of someone like alphys to mutually love and understand her for her and B: the absence of having to worry about a war to fight and always sort of being on edge and just being. Like that. And again this would all be a *progressive experience*, rather than in the book where undine literally switches up over night. I do like to consider character and stuff

There's this line from the Wikipedia summary which jumpscared me

I 0% believe this has any significance to deltarune whatsoever however it was so funny out of context I had to add it

Another completely unrelated thing here but there's a fucking guy called "Kuhleborn" and I just. Can homestuck leave me alone. FOR FIVE MINUTES.

Sorry back to cherry picking the story to fit undyne.

Ok so truthfully I don't find anything else from that specific story that I find particularly helpful to undyne, the rest of it's kinda just useless to my point. Re-establishing the fact here that I skipped over a most of the actual significant parts of the story because I specificly want to talk about how I see it parallel to undyne. But that's it really. I just especially wanted to mention this adaptation of the story as it is pretty much the most iconic interpretation of the myth.

That is, interpretations that specifically refer to its source by name. Because by far the most well known media to draw influence from the myth of undine is the iconic Hans Christian Andersen fairytale, "The Little Mermaid". I don't have much to say on how the little mermaid does take much inspiration from undine, other than the way andersen himself interpreted the story. Simply, the fact that Hans Christian Andersen, a man who based this story off of his own feelings at the inability for another man to reciprocate feelings of romance for him, and resonated with the story of undine so much that it was a source of inspiration for the little mermaid itself is so crazy to me. Like. Here is a queer man who read the tale of Undine and understood it so much he wrote his own story inspired by it and made it tie in with his own experiences of homosexuality! Like that's so crazy to me! Because it just makes the undertale character of undyne being sapphic so much better to me! It took the sad story of gay tragedy and took it and made it a story of gay joy!!!!!!! We are all so happys forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok ummmm. I got carried away because we are steering very far away from what this post was originally about. Umm. Point is. Original story was of queer sadness but undertale is now of queer joy + the story of queer joy being based on story where being with this person who you really love and being truly and properly bonded in an undeniable and magical way is enough to give you a soul that will live forever. I think that's somewhere near the point I'm trying to make but at the same time it's not quite the point I was trying to make. And this is absolutely just one interpretation of one relationship and this is by no means in any way supposed to be the end all be all of what ANY relationship should be. I really don't think this is what the definition of love is. However for these characters I feel it can be a huge aspect of it for them

NOW FINALLY MOVING ON TO THE ACTUAL CHARACTER FROM UNDERTALE THANK FUCKING GOODNESS!!!!!

Oh undyne. With some of the implications in game that she lost her family, I very much imagine her being cautious with this sort of situation. Would she be able to handle is for example? Would she know what to do. Given its something she might not even have real first hand experience of, is it something she would even want to risk forcing upon another person? I think she struggles so much with responsibility as it is. She wants nothing more than to protect people and cheesus if she had a kid of her own you know she would be doing every single thing in her power to make sure that kid never has to face what she did. Undyne says at one point in game (if you kill her in neutral i believe) she never told alphys the way she felt because if/when she died in battle, she wouldn't want alphys to deal with that. And again, she really would not want to have a kid if she worries that one day that kid would have to worry about someone they truly care about not being with them anymore

So *would* she want them? I don't really think it would be an overwhelming innate desire or anything like that, but really not against it. Sged need a lot of time beforehand first. Some time to live her life to the fullest, time to make sure it's something she can handle without guilt, time to make sure it's something that does bring her joy. And then yeah, 6 or 7 years minimum I can see it happening. And I think it would be nice

"Now let's talk about susie, can we talk about susie? Please stun (and other readers) I've been dying to talk with you about susie all post, okay?" /ref

I don't really have anything to add I just think alphyne should adopt susie. In every timeline. Undertale deltarune I just think ok. Because she doesn't have a good home life to the point where she's like just Not Safe and hm young couple with no children in her area? Undyne would want to help her soooo bad because she understands just what it feels like to be young and alone not really cared for and she would NEED to fix it. That's defo how it is for undertale at LEAST. Idk entirely with dr if it'd be exactly like that cause we don't know what undynes got going down in dr yet.. but even so that's nothing to stop them

Anways yeah I think you mightve been waiting just a wee bit long for the answer to this ask I uhh.....m.....mmmm. yeah man I... yeah. I really do genuinely hope you enjoyed his tho cause uts currently quarter to 2 in the morning and I'm going on a train & to the aquarium tmrw so my ass CANNOT be waking up at 11 am again. Shits fucked. But when I tell you when I'm locked in on an undyne topic I AM LOCKED IN. IT TOOK A WHILE BUT I FINALLY DID IT. MORE THAN HALF OF THIS WAS WRITTEN WITH NO BREAKS OF CHECKS BUT THATS THE BEAUTY!!!!!! FLY MY SCARAB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[thatfriendlyanon]

i think part of my problem is i lived with my best friend for two years of my life and have been searching for the same feeling of joy & acceptance & support ever since

[marimbles]

i miss carpisuns sometimes </3