#so this sign is extra funny to put up in our place

[thunderon]

so my roommate is completely straight edge like no drugs no alcohol etc and so im sure y’all can imagine my surprise when i saw she brought home this sign

so i immediately inquired

and now you may ask. what the fuck did my roommate think that sign meant? well

anyways i moved the sign so it’s now front and center in our living room and ive been laughing every time i pass it

[rizzanon]

childhood friend! Shinichiro Sano

part 1 (here) | part 2

childhood friend! Shinichiro whom you meet for the first time when you were both 8 years old at the playground, wondering why he was standing ontop of the jungle gym, looking at the distance

"Why are you standing up there?"

" 'cuz the view is nice!"

"....Weirdo.."

"H-Hey!"

childhood friend! Shinichiro whom you meet again a few weeks later at his grandfather's dojo where your parents signed you up for some taekwondo classes for self defense

"What are you doing here, weirdo?"

"Hey! I'm no weirdo! And this is my grandfather's place okay? I'm allowed to be here anytime I want!"

"Woahh, your grandfather's the teacher? That's cool!"

"I know right?!"

childhood friend! Shinichiro whom you become friends with over the next few days, watching him miserably fail to show off execute the moves his grandfather taught him to you

"HAHAHAH! You suck at this, y'know."

"Shut up! You don't have to tell me something I already know."

"At this rate, I can beat you easily in a spar..!"

"In your dreams!"

childhood friend! Shinichiro who introduces you to his only other friend, Takeomi, and the two of you hit it off very well (much to Shinichiro's dismay)

"I didn't think Shin had other friends."

T- "Neither did I, I thought he made you up."

"H-Hey! What's with this mockery!!?"

childhood friend! Shinichiro who ends up going to the same middle school and high school as you much to his delight

"You better stop slacking and start putting in effort in your studies Shin!"

"What are you, my mother?"

-smacks his head-

"Ouch! Okay, okay! I get it!"

childhood friend! Shinichiro who hates the fact that his siblings (Manjiro and Emma) love you as much as he does

"Seriously?? I can't believe you all are ganging up on me like this...!—Fake sobs—My very own siblings..."

"It's your fault that I'm just better, heheh."

E- "Yeah! She's way kinder to us that you are, Shin!"

"What?? But I'm always nice to you both too!"

M- "Plus, she always buys us our favourite snacks too!!"

"Bribery at it's finest... I can't believe this.."

childhood friend! Shinichiro who always goes to you to get treated whenever he's injured after fighting with other people

"Let me guess, you got into another fight again?"

"Ding ding ding! You guessed correct! Too bad there's no prize."

"Ha. Ha. Very funny Shin. Why don't you go and see an actual doctor to get your injuries treated?"

"Why would I do that when I have you who'll fix me up every time?"

childhood friend! Shinichiro who always goes to your class during lunch break to find you whenever he forgets to bring his own bento (was it on purpose? you don't know), knowing that you always make extra for him just in case

"Well, well, well, look who decides to forget to bring his bento for the third time this week?"

"Heheh, about that..."

"Don't worry, I made extra food for you."

"Aww, so you do care about me."

"Don't push it, Shin."

childhood friend! Shinichiro who worries that his rising reputation as a delinquent might bring down your reputation as well

"Are you sure you still want to be friends with me? I get it if you don't want to-"

"I already told you, I don't care what people think about me. What matters is what you think of me. That's all."

"...."

"Besides, who else will treat your wounds other than me, hm?"

childhood friend! Shinichiro who begs asks you to ride with him on his bike, promising you that he would keep you safe

"You want me to what??!"

"Come on...! Ride with me just this once! I promise you won't fall off."

"If I die, the blame's on you."

"Wha- You won't die! And I'll make sure nothing happens to you."

childhood friend! Shinichiro who introduces you to his other two friends in Black Dragons, Wakasa and Benkei, hoping you'd feel more reassured about him leading a gang and being a delinquent after meeting his closest friends

B- "Woah, didn't know you had a girl, Shin. Who's she?"

"What?"

W- "Let's be real, Shin can't flirt for his life."

"Hey! That's rude! I so have game."

"Game of a rock, you mean."

"Oi!"

childhood friend! Shinichiro who finds solace in you after every time he gets rejected by a girl he asks out much to your dismay (this was the 20th time)

"I don't get it. What am I doing wrong??!"

"It's simple. You're the problem."

"Rude... but seriously, why won't any girl date me? I'm certainly not that bad of a boyfriend if they gave me a chance...!"

"Well firstly, do you even have any interest in any of those girls you asked out? How do you even move on so easily?!?"

"If you put it like that... no, not really. I just want to date someone for the highschool experience y'know..!"

-smacks his head-

"Ouch!"

"No wonder no girl ever takes your confession seriously. Plus, your hair is so gelled up, no girl's gonna like that... Once a weirdo, always a weirdo."

childhood friend! Shinichiro who listens to your advice, and stops using gel as often as he used to on his hair, sometimes leaving his hair down to find out what you'd say about it

"You didn't put gel on your hair today?"

"Nope, I was kind of in a rush today, haha.."

"Well... you look... better like this, if I'm being honest."

"R-Really??"

"Yeah, keep this up and someday, a girl might accept your confession."

childhood friend! Shinichiro who tells you about the rumors he's been hearing around the school, about how many of the students thought you and him were dating and how he wasn't so opposed to the idea of that

"Wait, seriously?? People think we're dating?!?"

"My reaction exactly. I can't believe they think we're dating!"

"Not that I would mind that though..."

"Hm? What did you say?"

"??! You're hearing things, Shin. I didn't say anything at all..."

Part 2

m.list

[a-substantial-trash-pile]

hey guess what. it's finally time for my Stardew Valley Loredump. i’m about to ramble about my farmer and yo-yo/yoba and shane in a probably long-ass, disjointed post because i have a problem ok. not expecting anyone to read it all of course—just want to finally write these brainstorming shenanigans down. the loredump will be below the cut below the image 👇 (WARNING: IT'S LONG):

SAMUEL IZAWA:

*samuel is 28 years old, pan, japanese okinawan (no im not self projecting hahaha), and goes by he/they. main thing is that they’re from “our world” where stardew valley is a video game, but he died and ended up in the stardew universe. because i think isekai tropes are fun and silly. as the player, samuel can do things others in the stardew world can’t do, such as: 

summon the in-game HUD that’s only visible to him, so he can see health/energy levels and inventory and all that.

speaking of inventory, it’s essentially a pocket dimension samuel can shove stuff in. the inventory doesn’t really care about size/weight/etc as long as it’s something the system considers an “item.” so like samuel can put a whole ass four poster bed in there but he can’t do that to a person or a whole house. samuel just needs to touch the item to make it disappear into his inventory. he can then summon it back out when he needs it. the game’s inventory limit system remains the same. samuel gets 12 slots on their own, but if they have a bag on them it increases to 36.

can access the player menu you can normally access in game. so like profile, skills, collections, relationships, etc are all there. no options or quit tab though. having the relationship tab is a nightmare for samuel, who has major insecurities about what people think of him. that tab is a quantifiable measure on how much people like him. it a real brain demon for him to know it exists and is right there for him to access anytime. 

can see the “stats” of food and healing items. hp/energy recovery amounts, buffs, etc. 

*funny thing is that samuel has never played SDV himself and only has knowledge based on what he’s heard and seen online secondhand. ironically he was planning on playing the game for the first time before the whole dying thing ruined it. they can’t even remember how they died, but it doesn’t bother them as much as they think it should. they didn’t leave much behind in that life.

*anyway, i’m talking a lot of game terms here, but don’t get it twisted. while samuel has all these game systems going on, the SDV world is very much a real one that doesn’t normally work by that logic. by that i mean time flows normally like in our world and there isn’t just 4 months in a year. things exist outside the valley. there’s a whole planet of places and people. 

*luckily samuel has help in navigating this new world in the form of yo-yo the junimo, who is the first living thing samuel sees when he first wakes up in that joja cubicle. yo-yo helps explain a lot of things and guide samuel around in its own abrasive way. he’s also there to be like, “hey i gave you a second chance at life so you kinda owe me actually. sign this contract.” and samuel, who is a pushover and also confused, is just like, “ok.” (yo-yo sounds like danny devito btw. because i think it’s funny.) 

*i call the contract a “magical girl contract” because that’s essentially what it is. samuel gets access to extra powers/abilities on top the stuff he can already do as a player. in return he fights monsters n shit for yo-yo and generally does things for them that they can’t do easily on their own. the extra benefits include: 

higher pain tolerance. which isn’t always a good thing. especially when you tend to not be great with self-preservation like samuel is. 

can heal most injuries by just eating/drinking stuff to regain hp.

yo-yo can teleport the both of them around as needed, but it’s tiring and it drains a lot of magic. distance matters too.

yo-yo can spawn items but it drains magic as well. the more valuable/rare the item, the more draining it is. spawning items is already a magic-intensive thing in the first place. also yo-yo isn’t creating the item out of nothing. they’re actually randomly taking it from wherever it already exists in the world. for example, say yo-yo “spawns” a jar of pickles. somebody in the world is going to open their fridge and discover their jar of pickles is missing or maybe a grocery store will have a sudden empty spot on its shelf. yo-yo doesn’t have control of where the items are taken from (or so they claim).

samuel and yo-yo’s magic pools became connected so they can both do more than they could do on their own before. this is one of the reasons why yo-yo wanted a contract with samuel, who has a larger magic pool than normal due to being from another world. but it’s possible for one side to use up all the magic for the both of them. 

*samuel’s personality can be summed up as Awkward People-Pleasing Tired Sad Garbage Dork. either he’s dressed like a grandparent in sweaters and turtlenecks or he’s wearing a button up shirt with the collar undone and jeans. they usually have their neck covered in public to hide the mark of yoba embedded there. he has a “resting bitch face” as some may call, but that’s just because his brain is busy over-analyzing 193828 different things. he loves being outside in the grass and dirt, looking at bugs n shit. he’s also a nerd who likes to play video games and ramble about the lore in them (he likes RPGs the most, but if the game’s got a good story and cool world, he’s into it). they like to do things with their hands like model building/painting. in their new stardew life, they get into woodcarving after willy teaches them the basics (he carves shane a little chicken). 

*samuel does NOT know how to say “no.” absolute pushover. their self-worth is based on how much they’re liked by others, which isn’t healthy obviously. he has a fear that the only way he can be liked is by being useful. he’s scared that he is inherently a bad and selfish person, because he can’t say for sure if he’s helping others purely out of kindness or because it just makes him feel better about existing. deep down there’s anger/frustration that’s accumulated over the years, anger towards himself and also others because he’s always doing things for other people—going above and beyond—but it never feels like enough. at the same time though, they hate it when these thoughts come up because they believe that you shouldn’t go into helping somebody expecting that you’ll get something out of it. he hates how much of a hypocrite he is. he hates how he bases so much of his self-worth on the opinions of others, but feels helpless to it. they usually just push these emotions down because samuel feels guilty about them. how can they be a good person if they’re thinking like this? how can they deserve to exist with this mindset? however they get a chance to let out the anger/bitterness/frustration through fighting monsters. kind of disassociating in a way. this also isn’t a good thing because his demeanor is much colder and scarier during combat. having someone who’s felt powerless for so long suddenly gain power is a dangerous thing.

*this mindset when monster fighting shatters when samuel meets krobus and realizes that monsters aren’t just the simple enemy NPCs their brain had been automatically categorizing them as. guilt galore. he gets real depressed about that for a while but yo-yo, krobus, and shane are there to help him. 

*SPEAKING OF SHANE… it’s crush at first sight for samuel because hot damn is shane their type. i mean just look at him. mamma mia. haha anyyyway, they first meet at the stardrop saloon. samuel’s waiting at the bar for his to-go order near where shane is drinking. shane’s looking sad, so samuel gives in and decides they’ll start a convo to maybe distract him from whatever’s bothering him. samuel employs the “crack a dumb joke to hide the fact that i’m nervous because i’m talking to a hot person and then use that opening to introduce myself” strat. shane, being an asshole, is like, “oh so you’re the new farmer. here’s a tip: don’t bother me.” samuel takes 999 damage and their brain immediately goes “THIS IS MY FAULT I FUCKED UP like who wants to be talked to by a stranger when they’re sad goddammit why am i so bad at this?!!” it’s overall not a great first impression. after that, samuel tries to avoid shane out of embarrassment, but circumstances keep making them run into each other. for instance, samuel works a lot with marnie with her being a mentor figure to him in animal husbandry, so he and shane have a lot of opportunity to interact through that (plus marnie is secretly trying to get them closer to each other). through these meetings and shenanigans, samuel and shane get to know each other better until one day they’re friends. then good friends. then best friends. then kiss friends. then marry friends. :)

YOBA (A.K.A. YO-YO): 

*yo-yo is ????? years old and goes by any pronouns but most of the time it's it/they.

*yo-yo is actually THE yoba, but they’re not the completely benevolent creator-of-all-things humans have made them out to be. maybe they were in the past, but now they’re selfish and rude and swear a lot. but they do still care, even if they don’t admit it (tsundere-ass). yoba is currently stuck in the form of a little junimo and is substantially weakened because it gave too much of itself away to the world in the past and got burned for it. because the world kept taking and taking. and now there’s war and pollution and shit and yoba/yo-yo is maybe just a teensy tiny bit angry and bitter now. but it’s ok because now they got this human from another reality to help them reclaim the pieces of itself. and maybe along the way relearn how to love the world again.  

*oh also yoba didn’t create the whole planet like the creation story claims. they’re technically an alien that came across a young planet full of life and decided to stay and help it develop. 

*main reason yo-yo made a contract with samuel is because it needs help finding/reclaiming the pieces of itself. pieces can usually be found in strong monsters empowered by the piece. this isn’t always the case though. sometimes it’s in an ancient artifact. sometimes it’s in a specific place like a temple. sometimes it’s in a person. 

*samuel doesn’t have to deal with having an existential crisis about yo-yo, since he’s from our world where yoba doesn’t even exist as a god. yo-yo claims to be the one responsible for bringing samuel over into the stardew universe, but there are holes in their story. where did yoba even find the power to do such a thing when they’re in such a weakened state? mysterious. 

*the first time yoba reveals itself to shane is kind of chaotic. it’s in the middle of the night when yo-yo suddenly appears in shane’s room, grabs his face with its little stick arms and yells, “WAKE UP!!! YOUR BOYFRIEND IS IN MORTAL PERIL!!!” shane is like, “WHAT THE F–”     it was an act of desperation on yo-yo’s part, because samuel was in trouble and shane was the only one it could think of going to for help. essentially samuel meets something Bad in the deep mines, something that takes him out of commission and puts him in a trance state while draining his lifeforce. y’know, the classic kind of trance state where you need to figure out how to get the person back–how to snap them out of it. yo-yo tried and failed, so that’s where shane comes in. it’s the classic “love-interest-breaks-main-character-out-of-mind-control-with-sheer-power-of-love” trope. except shane does punch samuel during it. lovingly. in the face. hey it works ok.     after the chaos is over and everyone’s safe and gathered together, samuel and yo-yo explain everything to shane (well more like samuel explains everything while yo-yo wishes outloud that they had their memory erasing powers back). shane, who is canonically an atheist, learns that this talking pottymouthed jerkass apple is actually THE yoba and is just like, “yeah. this might as well happen.” and then he remains atheist because what else are you going to do when you learn that god is a talking pottymouthed jerkass apple who calls you a bitch and is also responsible for your partner having to go do dangerous shit. he and yo-yo have a rocky relationship at first to say the least. but once they both realize how much the other cares about samuel, things get a little better. 

*yeah, yoba may be a bitch and they may be angry and they may be bitter, but they really do care, even if they try to convince themselves otherwise. even though so much got taken from it, it still cares about humans and dwarves and shadow people and everything else on the planet. and when it eventually comes down to it, yoba will step up to protect what it loves, even if it means losing everything again. 

SHANE FINCH: 

*this post was technically supposed to just be about my farmer and yo-yo’s lore and stuff, but i gotta give some personal headcanons i have about shane… like for instance his last name is “finch.” because i thought the bird theme was cute. he’s 29 years old, bi, and half asian, half white (in our world that asian half is korean). i’m not being specific because i don’t know if korea even exists in the stardew world, since all we know in the game is that there’s a “ferngill republic” and a “gotoro empire.” i was thinking of just headcanoning that stardew’s planet is essentially the same as earth. so like most of the same countries/nations exist except the history diverged a bit along the way, leading to the ferngill republic and gotoro empire. OK SORRY for the tangent—back on topic.

*so shane is a trans man who started transitioning back in high school. he had two best friends who were very supportive and really helped him on his journey to figure himself out. those two friends were like family to him. it was good that he had this support because his parents were always pretty shitty and shane transitioning just made them act even shittier. the only good family member of shane’s is marnie, who was supportive, but she lived far away, was busy, AND wasn’t on good terms with her sister (shane’s mom), so shane didn’t get to see her much. 

*the moment shane became a legal adult, he got away from his parents, finding a place with his two best friends and moving in together. oh and his friends’ names were rosa and heath. should’ve probably mentioned that earlier oops.     shane, rosa, and heath go to the same college together, suffer student loans, graduate, etc. haven’t thought of what shane would get a degree in yet—most likely something “generic” because he’s unsure of what he wants to do himself (i feel u bby). 

*ok so rosa and heath were dating since high school, but they were so comfortable with shane and vice versa that things never got that awkward living together. however when rosa and heath got married (“yoba, FINALLY,” shane would say), shane felt like it was time to find his own place, much to the devastation of his bffs. the apartment ended up close to where rosa and heath lived of course—the couple made sure of it (“stop backseating my apartment hunting!” “MAKE US”). 

*rosa and heath get pregnant and have a healthy baby girl that they name jasmine. i headcanon jas as black (from heath’s side) and portuguese (rosa’s side). everyone is thrilled about the baby. shane was immediately offered godfather role and he happily accepted. jas was the cutest baby ever and he adored her. he babysat jas all the time. 

*jas was 4 years old when rosa and heath tragically passed away in a car accident. they were coming home from a business dinner when they lost control of their car on some black ice and slid into oncoming traffic. shane was babysitting jas when he got the call. in the span of one cold winter night, shane and jas’s world shattered. 

*rosa and heath didn’t have any reliable relatives either. those relatives only came to take the money and belongings. shane was the only one jas had, so he adopted her. he tried his best to pick up the pieces. he really did. he lasted for a year trying to raise a kid on his own with the salary of a dead-end job, but he knew the situation wasn’t good with the money and how much his mental health was spiraling. he knew he and jas were in dire need of more support (“jas deserves better than this”). so he turned to the one person he had left to rely on: his aunty marnie. and that’s how shane and jas ended up in pelican town.

*shane’s joja jacket was actually originally rosa’s. rosa worked as an accountant for joja and would get free promotional items all the time from the company. the jacket was one of the only things she actually ended up using because “it’s pretty comfy for being joja bs.” she would wear it all the time, much to her more fashion-conscious husband’s chagrin (yet he would patch up any holes she’d get in it anyway). after rosa died, shane kept her jacket. there were a lot of memories in it. 

~~~

ok that’s it for now. if anyone actually read all that, thank you for even wasting your time to process my ramblings. i’m sorry it’s so fucking long like jfc.

*who is mr. qi?

[yourdakg]

Donation Found!

Remember Ryder? The SoCal pretty boy who was depressed that his life was a vapid, superficial, and party focused existence? He contacted Turnaround Technologies to ask, nay plead for a new body and a new life. See his Donation Request Form.

If only it were that simple. Turnaround Technologies utilizes some of the most advanced science on the market. When a body is fully adjusted, it's a slow and sometimes torturous process! If it was as simple as switching brains, that would be one thing. But the subjects have to physically transform into one another, and then brainwaves are overwritten. Chemistry, genetics, biology, and psychology are all involved in this elaborate process.

So Ryder had to come up with the $325,000 fee. Luckily, he had money saved and he was able to sell off the red Mustang convertible and his yellow Yamaha Sport Bike to meet the target. The final straw was giving up the deed to his WeHo apartment. Don't tell him, but his donor bought the items! Isn't that funny? He covered the rest with personal loans! Well, a little bit of debt won't hurt.

Let's remind you of where Ryder is starting his journey:

And now let's the see information plate for his donor. I think he'll be very pleased! After this, he'll never have to worry about being surrounded by vapid, beautiful people and fending off pesky pool party invites! Yes, this is the ideal swap partner for Ryder.

Meet Dr. Pervus Fondler. And wouldn't you know it? Dr. Fondler was a doctor in Ryder's hometown! They actually know each other. The good doctor cares very deeply for Ryder and was pained when he heard about his current circumstances. He decided that his job as a physician meant he had to step up and give the ultimate sacrifice! You know what they say: First Do No Harm.

Donor Statement: While I am nervous about the process, I am confident that I will give Ryder a new future, one where he won't have to worry about all that vanity and his gym obsession. True freedom for the boy!

Thank you, doctor, for going the extra mile for your patients. Turnaround Technologies will prepare the Exchange Chambers. Both subjects will be stripped down and cleansed before being placed in metallic, moisture wicking bikinis while our technicians prepare for the process:

Now that Ryder is dressed and the drugs are injected into his system, it's time to introduce him to his generous benefactor. I hope he has a positive reaction to the kind of man he will become. Let's check in!

Patient Statement: No! Holy shit! No, not Pervus the Perv! You can't put me in that. Don't force me into that body! I'd be going from a perfect ten to a zero. Please! No... LET GO. Please, oh my God. No, I thought it would be another buff guy like me. I change my mind, I changed my mi--**UMPH HRRMPH**

It's not clear why Ryder objected so strongly to his partner. Maybe it was the shock of knowing who the doctor was from earlier in his life. At any rate, he paid the fee and signed the paperwork so there is, quite literally, no going back. Swaps of this nature are once in a lifetime and, of course, quite permanent.

Subject had to be forcibly gagged and sedated.

Add another $125,000 for the service. Ryder sure is going to pay a lot of money for his new life!

When he came to in the chamber, Ryder was pounding on the door. I think he was crying. His oversize genitalia were mashed against the glass in his silver pouch. It was quite the sight. When the whirr of the machine began and the paralyzing blue light hit, his eyes went crossed. He fell backwards and pumped his hips in the air. Well, the erection is to be expected. I've heard the process somewhat erotic, though painful.

It takes a couple days and the exchange unstable during that time, but I am happy to report the following:

Donor Report: I feel good. Very good. I'm probably going to move to SoCal, sort of take over Ryder's apartment. I'll probably start using his name now too. Don't wanna confuse people. I don't even have my old, perverted urges. I hope he's comfortable with the mental traits foisted on him. Oh... he wants to take picture of me? Ha, okay. I'll flex for $100. Recipient Report: What do you mean I can't go back *whimper* why do I feel so strange. I'm already out of breath. Give it back! What do you mean a name change is included in the package *sob* MY NAME IS PERVUS NOW??!?! Oh. I have to take his medical practice in my shithole hometown? Oh God! I just... oh goodness, seeing it from this angle it's such a fine body. So tight and firm! At least flex for me, my boy? A little. So I can snap a few pics and... use them later. Eehehe. Oh God, what have I become?

[germhammy]

“Christmas Aftermath”

Enid: I can’t believe the food last night. Everything was so delicious!

Wednesday: do you always require that much protein before wolfing out?

Enid: not really. But it helps. I was so touched that your mom had an entire roast prepared extra rare just for me! The medium rare roast would have been just fine. She didn’t have to go through the trouble

Wednesday: it wasn’t any trouble.

Enid: my favorite way of red meat cooking is medium rare. Except before wolfing out. Then extra rare is the best.

Wednesday: I look forward to taking you for Kobe beef on Friday. We will be taking the train into New York. We can do some shopping if you like.

Enid: my mom will be so jealous. She always complains about how expensive it is. Even Evan has asked. Just once?

Wednesday: I do not blame her actually. You have five brothers?

Enid: six actually.

Wednesday: nine people is quite a lot to dine on Kobe beef. Even we only go sparingly. It’s usually six of us.

Enid: we rarely go out to eat.

Wednesday: tonight we will go to the homeless shelter to provide help with the food service. I usually play my cello. My father fences with foam swords with the children

Enid: wow. Do you do that every year?

Wednesday: yes. My mother and Grandmama prepare a large cauldron of stew. When my Aunt Ophelia and Granny are here they help with arts and crafts

Enid: that’s really cool!

Wednesday: perhaps you could help out painting nails.

Enid: I could

Wednesday: tomorrow you are watching the Devils game with Lucas, correct?

Enid: excuse me? The Sharks game.

Wednesday: you are in New Jersey. This is New Jersey Devils territory

Enid: do you even watch hockey?

Wednesday: not as much as my brother. But we are Devils fans.

Enid: Will you be watching with me?

Wednesday: I will be leaving you with Pugsley. I will take advantage of the time to devote to my writing

Thing tapped to draw attention to Xavier’s phone

Thing: he is texting. He’s asking if you would like to join him in New York to watch the ball drop in Times Square

Wednesday signed and picked up the phone

-good morning gorgeous! Say, my dad and I will be in New York for New Years Eve! Care to join me in NYC to watch the ball drop?

-absolutely not. I do not even watch it on the television. Much less in person

-oh come on! It’s a once in a lifetime experience!

-not for me. I would much rather spend my New Year’s Eve in my backyard huddled around a fire with my family telling ghost stories and roasting things

-sounds boring

-truly you have not lived if you have not roasted food over a raging fire

-very funny. Don’t tell me. It’s like a cremation right? Or it’s just s’mores

-roasted apples with butter and cinnamon sugar, roasted vegetables, and our family favorite, elote

-still sounds boring. Come on! What’s better than partying all night I. times Square?

-literally anything? I would not be able to withstand the noise. The crowd. The lights. It is not for me. You enjoy your party. I will enjoy my quiet time with my family

Thing: how does he not understand?

Wednesday: I do not know, Thing. Oh. I did not put this out. I hid it from you and then forgot where I hid it until we were at breakfast.

Wednesday took out a neatly wrapped present and placed it on the floor in the middle of her room. She sat down in front of it placing Thing on the box

Wednesday: Enid. Come sit. Help Thing open his present since I imagine you will not only be helping him use it but he will allow you to use it as well.

When opened, Thing was happy. Enid squealed. It was a beautiful wooden bowl filled with essential oils, soft towels, and neroli bergamot hand lotion. Thing gave Wednesday a finger heart and lifted his pinky for Wednesday. She linked her pinky.

Thing: thank you very much, Wednesday

[lucy90712]

Ice skating- Fermin Lopez

When it's winter and cold outside there isn't much to do especially when your boyfriend hates the cold and refused to be outside unless he has to be. Somehow I managed convince him to go ice skating with me I was expecting him to fight me on the idea but he happily agreed to go for our date night this week. I'm not sure if I have excellent persuading skills or if Fermin will just say yes to pretty much anything I ask because he loves me. Fermin doesn't know that I have been skating before, I went quite a bit as a kid and I have been a few times as I've got older so I know what I'm doing. I'm definitely not great but I can hold my own on an ice rink but I can't wait to see Fermin on the ice he's never been the most graceful person so I expect he'll be a little unsteady on his feet at best. 

Like always he came over before we needed to leave so that he could spend some extra time with me. That's something I love about Fermin he just wants to spend time with me so he'll always come over even when I'm not doing anything interesting or we have no plans as he just enjoys my company. Today he brought lunch with him so we ate lunch together and he helped me get ready by picking out a hoodie of his I have in my collection to wear over my outfit so I don't get cold. He also made me change out of the leggings I had on as he said I'd be too cold so I put some jeans on which he was satisfied with and allowed us to leave the house finally. The ice rink wasn't far from my place but Fermin can no longer just walk through the streets like he used to so he drove there and found somewhere nearby but quiet to park. 

We pretty much ran inside as there was a lot of people about and Fermin didn't want to spend ages taking pictures and signing things. He loves the fans he really does but at times like these he doesn't want to be disturbed as there has been occasions when I've waited like 40 minutes just for him to finally be let go by the fans. Once we made it inside there was a lot less people around and none of them seemed too bothered by our presence which was nice. Fermin paid and got our skates before taking me over to a bench so we could actually put them on. I did mine quite quickly as I've done it many times before and I know they need to be tight but Fermin was struggling as they were just too loose on him. He didn't want to admit defeat for a while but after a few attempts he asked for my help so I did his laces up for him. 

"Is my big baby ready to go" I laughed 

"I'm not a baby skates are just stupid how did you manage it?" he asked 

"I've been skating before I went quite a bit as a kid so I knew how to do the laces" I revealed 

"Why didn't you tell me I thought we would both struggle together now I'm going to look like an idiot" he said 

"You won't look like an idiot I promise most people aren't going to know how to skate" I said

"You'll hold my hand though right?" He asked 

"Of course I will can't have you falling over can I" I laughed 

Fermin didn't seem to appreciate my joke but still he grabbed my hand and I led him onto the ice. He was as stiff as a board to begin with but I held onto both of his hands and skated backwards so I could teach him how to skate. Fermin is a quick learner and he always listens to instructions so he worked things out pretty quickly and was able to skate next to me when I let go of one of his hands after a few rotations round the ice. As much as he was getting more confident his grip on my hand didn't let up I don't know if that was because he was scared of falling or because he just didn't want to let me go but either way I kind of enjoyed that he felt like he needed to hold onto me so tightly. 

We had a lot of fun together talking as we skated round and maybe laughed at a few people who fell spectacularly because it is kind of funny. There was also some amazing little kids who have clearly been having lessons that we just watched in awe both wishing we could do that. It had been the perfect date we got to go out somewhere and enjoy time together without really being disturbed at all. Both of us were having so much fun until some guy came speeding round the rink and slammed right into me. I didn't seem him coming as he was behind us but luckily Fermin is pretty strong as he was able to help keep me on my feet as otherwise I would've been on my ass in seconds. Fermin pulled me into his chest as we both came to a halt in the middle of the ice, his hands went straight to my face to see if I was ok as he can read me like a book by just looking at my expression. I've learnt to read him pretty well too but you didn't need to be a genius to see that he was mad and like really mad. 

"Watch where you're going mate" Fermin shouted after the guy who just kept going 

"Are you ok amor?" He asked 

"I'm completely fine I just didn't see him coming" I said 

"I'm not surprised he should've gotten out the way but he didn't because he's an asshole" he raged 

"It's ok forget about that and forget about him I'm not hurt so everything's fine" I said trying to calm him down 

"I'm glad you're ok but that doesn't mean that guy should get away with doing that" he continued to argue 

"Why don't we get out of here so we don't have to worry about him any more and before you do something you'll regret" I suggested 

"We should get hot chocolate to warm us up" Fermin said with a complete change of mood 

Thankfully there is a cafe just across the road from the ice rink so we headed straight there and ordered two hot chocolates with marshmallows. I left Fermin to get the drinks while I found a table for us both and he came back he had the two hot chocolates but also a cupcake which he put in front of me with a big smile on his face. I tried to share with him but he insisted that I sat the whole thing and who am I to say no to a cupcake especially one that was so delicious. Fermin quickly forgot about what happened with that guy and was just saying how much he enjoyed ice skating and that he wants to go again so that he can get good at it. Of course we can’t go that often but we agreed that we should go together again for another date night which I’m really looking forward to. 

[celestialtarot11]

Virgo risings and their angular houses 🪴🌱

Angular houses are the most important in an astrological chart. It represents our fundamental core selves, the parts in which we work with consistently in life, and what we value the most. Angular houses show huge change and how it plays a role in our life 💌 often deals with external change impacting us and our growth!

Virgo rising ♍️- Ruled by mercury, wherever your mercury falls in your chart is the most important! It’ll tell you more about yourself, and how you’re perception of the world is influenced by external circumstances. Virgo risings are reserved, yet extroverted around the right people. Funny, witty, outgoing, intelligent and detail oriented. Maybe they do not say a whole lot, but when they do, it’s powerful. As an earth ruled rising, these natives value their time, health, energy, and do not like to be rushed. These natives could’ve had a huge family, with a lot of siblings because mercury tends to do that 🤣 Virgo’s are here to understand the material world and the spiritual side. To explore both worlds, and bridge the gap between them. Their sister sign is pisces, whilst pisces is connected to the ethereal realm, so is virgo but in a different way. Their body is the gateway to understanding spirituality and wellness. Virgos take care of their health a lot because it connects them to the vital parts of themselves. Connecting to their body is a massive part of their healing 🙌 virgo risings can pick up a lot of energy, but it manifests in physical sickness and detriment. Which is why it’s important to nurture and cleanse their body and energy field.

Sagittarius 4th house ♐️- These natives come from a diverse background! Most of the time Virgo risings have a diverse family origin, or they find out they are a part of a different ethnicity at some point of their lives. Virgo rising could’ve grown up with parents who had higher education, but if not they at least stressed the importance of it. Whether it was through grades, exams and extra curricular activities, the parents stressed an importance of it. Virgo risings could’ve felt pressured into doing well, or pursuing higher education because the people around them did. Parents could’ve been critical of Virgo risings in their school years growing up too. If not, the parents knew the value of hard work and dedication to pursuing higher knowledge, and wanted the virgo rising native to continue that 🤗 Growing up family life could’ve been huge on parties, family events, and at some point maybe there was an adoption! Family could have also been invasive in the virgo rising natives life, and at some point the native tried to escape this. Either through running away, taking alcohol or weed as a form of escapism. In some natives, Sagittarius in the 4th signified losing a home, and being put into CPS, child services. So the child moved from place to place, never truly understanding family ❤️‍🩹 if not, the virgo rising had a parent that moved around a lot, and never got to settle in a place properly. Virgo rising’s understand what it’s like to lack, therefore they grow up wanting to make sure everyone around them has what they need. Hence why they are so detail oriented, because often times virgo risings aren’t cared for the way they need. They don’t want others facing the same pain. Later on in life, Virgo’s will learn to prioritize themselves and their mental health ❤️‍🩹

Pisces ruled 7th house, descendant ♓️- With pisces here, Virgo’s want someone who’s emotionally available and spiritually present. Someone who can also take care of their body, and also show them the way to spirit. They want someone easy going, relaxing, and gentle. Too much of the people around them may have been critical, and focused on the material realm. Virgo wants balance by inviting a spiritual partner, and someone who makes space for dreams 💘🤗 a long term best friend. Virgos maybe have trouble showing up in partnerships securely, because they can get lost in their fantasies, so much to the point they neglect reality. They neglect the truth of reality, meaning they impose their expectations and fantasies onto their partner. While it’s okay to have fantasies and desires, projecting that onto your partner is unhealthy. Virgos are learning how to let people show up the way they chose too, whilst also wanting their dreams to come true. Neither should be neglected, dreams and a partner/friendship. With pisces here Virgo’s are learning to have boundaries in partnerships, not to lose themselves. They are intuitive when it comes to the people around them, which is why it’s incredibly important to choose their relationships wisely. Virgo risings can easily take on the energy of another and need someone who can take care, and maintain their own energy field 🙌🤍 in business and negotiations, Virgos are the type to have their partners present first, and negotiate after the fact. They are fluid, open minded, and think abstract. Which is why virgo risings do great in negotiations and presenting new ideas, because they dream big and see things from a different lenses. Their ideas are unique, abstract, and yet appeal to everyone because Virgos tap into the collective 🤝 the business collective that is. They somehow intuitively understand what people want and need in business, and deliver it with their ability to communicate! They could be a party planner, decorator, consultant, writer, journalist! 💌

Gemini ruled 10th house ♊️- Finnicky and everchanging is how people would describe virgo risings. Virgo risings like to explore career paths, and have an abundance of different jobs. They like mental stimulation in their jobs, and prefer jobs/career paths where they can speak and mentally stimulate others, or write and publish their fantasies. They turn their thoughts into reality. People see these Virgo rising natives as charming, witty, open minded and attractive! I saw someone say in esoteric astrology it’s believed Gemini is ruled by Venus, so if I take that into consideration, these virgo risings know how to partner up and use their words to draw people in! Especially in their business. They get smarter, and efficient at organizing their thoughts and appealing to others in conversation, which is why people want to have them. By understanding the mind, a conversation with a virgo rising feels like breath of fresh air. Gemini in the 10th house can also indicate a Father who was mentally stimulating, liked philosophy or shared his random musings to the virgo rising child. Which inspired the virgo rising native to carry that in their job/career. Their father could be apart of the virgo risings career life, or at least offer a helping hand. But often, gemini start from nothing to reach the top. It’s very likely virgo risings had no one, and nothing to start with when it came to making money, and landing a successful career. They had to figure it out on their own, and yet people wouldn’t guess that because of virgo risings ability to connect with others still 💘 Career paths include: writer, journalist, teacher, tour guide, events manager, psychologist

Thank you so much for reading! 💘🤗💌 I hope ya’ll found this resonated and please feel free to comment, like & reblog! 🤝🤍 pleasure doin business with ya’ll.

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[just-dino-maggie]

could you do 15 and 16 with jack hughes??

Thank you so much for the request! I hope you like it!

15. Not being able to stop smiling while kissing

16. Taking silly pictures in a Photo Booth

Jack and I have been best friends for years. Deep down I’ve always loved him, it’s hard not to love him. Recently it’s been challenging to hide my feelings from him. He’s been extra flirty and over the top with me. I’m trying to resist because I don’t want to lose him.

He’s home for the summer and besides his golf trips with Quinn and Trevor we’ve been hanging out the whole time. We decided to go to the Zap Zone by his house for old times sake. We always used to go to play glow golf and laser tag.

I knock on the Hughes door even though they’ve expressed that I don’t need to. It feels weird if I don’t, what if I saw Luke in his underwear or something. I could be permanently scarred. “Coming!” I hear someone yell behind the door.

The door swings open and Trevor is standing in front of me. “Hey Y/n/n,” He pulls me in for a quick hug. “Jack is almost done getting all dolled up for your date.”

I shake my head at him, “It’s not a date and you know it Zegras.”

He gasps with fake shock, “Not a date? If Jack isn’t treating you right I’m always here to show you a good time.” He wiggles his eyebrows at me.

“Shut up Z.” I say unable to hold back my laugh. If nothing else Trevor has always been funny.

Finally Jack runs downstairs, he’s wearing a basic pair of black jeans and a crew neck but he looks unreal. “You ready Y/n/n?” He asks and I nod, “Let’s get out of here then.”

He takes my hand and walks me to the car. Opening my door for me so that I can get in. As we sit in the car and talk I feel myself falling into our rhythm. We are friends who flirt and hold hands sometimes. It’s weird but I don’t care as long as I have him.

We play glow golf. He insists on showing me how to putt because I “don’t know how to do it”. When I try to remind him that we used to play glow golf together all the time he just smirks and tells me that I’m rusty. When he stands behind me with his chest pressed against my back and his hands covering mine my heart goes crazy. I’m breathless as he steps away from me.

The rest of glow golf goes smoothly. I convince myself that he was just trying to throw me off my game. That has to be the reason he held me like that.

After glow golf we decide to play arcade games. I spot the Photo Booth and grab Jack’s hand. “Can we please get pictures?” I ask gesturing toward the booth. He nods and we squeeze in the small space.

Our first picture we smile regularly, then I stick my tough out and put a piece sign behind Jacks head for the second. He smiles and pulls me on to his lap messing up my hair for the third picture. Then our eyes meet and he pulls me in placing his lips on mine. I don’t even notice that the final picture has already happened. I’m completely addicted to him and this feeling.

I pull away keeping my forehead against his. “Why did you do that?” I whisper.

“Because I like you.” He responds, “For a long time I’ve liked you.”

I smile, “I have too.” I pause and place my hands on both sides of his face. “I can’t believe you just did that.” I let out a shocked chuckle.

“Can I do it again?” He reply’s simply and I nod immediately. He brings his mouth to mine once again and I can’t help but smile as we kiss. I can feel him smiling too. Nothing is better then this.

[ru-fiction]

In another life 2

Peter B Parker x GN!Reader

A/N: Mentions of death and grieving.

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Gwen was in the middle of English class. The teacher had assigned them to read a book called 'The Lord of the Flies.' they were supposed to be having a debate in class about things that happened in the book. The teacher was getting ready to put them into teams, while distracted, Gwen felt a small tap on her shoulder.

She looked behind her to find Y/N waving at her with a big grin on their face. Gwen waves back slightly and turns to face the front, she was again interrupted by another tap on her shoulder. She looks behind her again to find Y/N holding up a folded piece of paper motioning to Peter with their eyes.

Gwen takes the paper from the (h/c) haired teen and turns to the desk across from her.

"Psst... Peter."

Peter turns to look at her, his brows furrowed in confusion. Gwen motions to the paper in her hands before placing it on the floor and using her foot to push it towards him.

Peter reads the note his face flushing at what he read. He turns and faces Y/N who looks at him with a small grin. Peter quickly writes down something, quickly passing the note back to Gwen and nodding his head towards Y/N.

Gwen sighs and gives the paper to Y/N. They quickly read it over, their grin getting bigger with each word they read. Y/N looks up at Peter and the two share secretive smiles before turning to face the front.

After class is over Gwen heads toward her locker to replace her books for her next class. She jumps when her locker door closes finding Peter waiting behind it. A guilty look on his face as he nervously tapped his leg.

"Let me guess. You can't come over to study."

Peter gives her a nervous chuckle.

"Y/N invited me for dinner at their house, I'm meeting their parents. This is a huge step in our relationship. Can we raincheck?"

Gwen laughs and pats her friend on the shoulder.

"I understand. Go have fun."

Peter lets out a relieved sigh and gives Gwen the biggest smile.

"You're the best."

"Just make sure to fill me in."

Gwen points at him as she walks away in the direction of her class, Peter laughs and waves as he does the same.

"Will do!"

Gwen makes it to class before the bell rings, taking a seat next to Y/N.

"Hey, Love."

"Hey."

Gwen sends them a playful smile.

"So, he's meeting the parents?"

Y/N sighs happily.

"Yes, I thought it was time for my people to meet my favorite guy."

They place their chin in their hand and stare off with a dreamy look in their eyes.

"Honestly, I think he's the one."

Gwen's eyebrows raised in question.

"Really?"

"Honestly, he's everything..."

-

A couple days have passed since then and the group of friends were now seated at a lunch table. Gwen had been really busy trying to balance being Spider Gwen and school. Her time with her friends suffered for it but she didn't think the two really minded the extra alone time.

"So..."

Gwen drums her hands on the table getting the couple's attention.

"How'd it go?"

Peter looked embarrassed and Y/N started to laugh beside him.

"It was mortifying."

"Babe. It wasn't your fault."

Gwen's eyes shined with excitement at the look on Peter's face.

"This I have to hear."

Peter places his face in his hands with a groan and Y/N softly rubs his back.

"It's nothing too serious. The dinner I invited him to happened to be my mom's birthday dinner."

Peter lets out another noise of embarrassment.

"I had informed Peter of this, letting him know I would be leaving to pick up her cake and might not be home when he showed up."

Gwen nods. Peter begins to speak though his voice was muffled by his hands.

"I convinced them to let me grab it since I was headed that way..."

"Long story short. Peter brought back a cake that was clearly not the one we ordered."

Peter begins to lean into Y/N, stuffing his red face into their neck.

"Someone had it signed, 'Hey, old bat. You're one year closer to death.' My parents thought it was funny."

Gwen laughs then coughs to try to hide it.

"I'm such an idiot."

"No baby, you're not an idiot."

Gwen covers her mouth trying to hide her smile from her distressed friend.

"Oh my god. I would be embarrassed too if I were you."

Y/N sends Gwen an icy glare for that comment which causes her to raise her hand in defense while Y/N tries to convince Peter that he did nothing wrong.

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Elsewhere...

It was a great day, the sun was shining and the wind blew through your hair, the grass was soft under your fingers and the air was filled with laughter as you sat next to Mary Jane in the park. In the distance stood Peter with a bright smile on his face, he walked over with a box of pizza in his hand. However the closer he got the darker your surroundings got. Peter and Mary Jane started to fade away leaving you all alone.

You now found yourself surrounded by darkness.

All of a sudden Peter walked into view again. He looked like he was in a trance walking in the opposite direction of you. You scream out to him, trying to get his attention but he makes no acknowledgement of your presence.

You go to chase after him only to find that your feet were stuck in place, Peter continues to walk until he is no longer in your sight.

Suddenly the darkness began to slowly crawl up your skin leaving you feeling cold. You started to feel like you were suffocating.

You jump up from your sleep letting out heavy breaths as sweat accumulates on your forehead, your tv played in the background illuminating the room with a red glow.

"Sad news tonight, the hero known as Spiderman has died."

You whimper. You had tried not to think about what happened earlier but all you could do was replay the moment of your friend dying in your arms.

Even though you knew that you didn't have powers and probably wouldn't have been much help, you couldn't help but feel like it was your fault. You felt powerless.

You turned off the device at the mention of Peter's name and threw the covers over your head not wanting to deal with the reality of the situation.

The next day you are woken up by call. You check your phone to find that your boss was calling.

"Hello."

An angry voice comes from the phone leading you to roll your eyes.

"Look I'm sorry this is last minute but I need the day off."

You hang up with a heavy sigh. You didn't get any sleep until the very early hours of the day. You stuffed your face into your pillow groaning into it, a part of you had hoped you wouldn't wake up, you didn't want to live in a world without Peter. You try to force yourself to fall asleep but your phone starts to ring again. You let out a defeated sigh and answer not bothering to check the caller ID.

"Yes?"

You jump up at the sound of a motherly figure on the phone.

"May?"

You listen to her talk about how her and Mary Jane had set up a memorial for him with the rest of the city.

"Yeah. I'll be there in a minute."

You got up to get ready. You looked into the mirror and tried to give yourself a pep talk to try and make it through the day.

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Town square was filled with many people. While You, May, Mary Jane and a lot of other people wore black, there was a few people dressed in Spiderman masks. Even though they didn't know him truly, the thought of them being here to celebrate his memory made you happy. May motioned for you to come up and stand next to her as Mary Jane got ready to say her speech.

"My favorite thing about Peter, is that he made us each feel powerful. We all have powers of one kind or another."

You looked down at the ground guilt starting to eat at you. You felt a hand in yours and looked up to see May giving you a reassuring look. You told May and Mary Jane about everything that happened last night and though neither one of them blamed you, you couldn't help but hate yourself. You wondered if he would still be here if you had never left. Or maybe you'd be in his place instead.

"But in our own way. We are all Spiderman. And we're all counting on you."

After the service you turn to leave, ready to go back home and hide in your bed when a hand grabs your arm and you're pulled into an alley. You unconsciously pull your arm away from the person and balled your fist, ready to throw a punch when...

"Wait! Don't hit me."

You stop with your fist inches away from the perpetrator. You knew that voice.

"Kid?"

He pulls off the masks with an awkward grin on his face.

"Hey!"

He waves at you.

"How are you feeling?"

You ignore the question, not wanting to feel yet. You knew that if another person asked you that you for sure wouldn't be able to hold it in. You decided to hyper focus on the situation at hand.

"You can't be doing that."

You sigh as you lean against the wall.

"I'm a highly trained sidekick. You could really get hurt, grabbing me like that."

You straighten your black jacket and rub your fingers on your pants as you lecture the boy.

''Sorry."

The kid kneels down into his backpack and starts to pull out different comics. It was hard not to think about your friend when everything around had his face on it.

"I actually need your help to try and understand this."

He tried to show you a page but you just couldn't look at it.

"Look, I'm not in the right headspace right now to be a teacher."

"I get that but I'm freaking out."

He grabs your shoulders to keep you from leaving.

"There's no one I can go to about this."

His brown pleading eyes looked into your dull (e/c) ones.

"Please. Help me."

This is what Peter wanted. You remembered when Peter told you how alone he felt when he first got his powers, how he hated hiding who he was to the people he loved. A part of you didn't want the kid to go through the same thing and another part of you wanted to just be left alone.

"Okay. But I need to go somewhere first."

"Really? You'll train me?"

He cheers as you walk away.

"Lets go, Kid!"

He quickly gathers his things and rushes behind you to catch up.

"I'm Miles by the way."

You stop for a moment turning towards him with your hand out, he grabs it giving it a firm grip.

"I'm Y/N."

You turn on your heel and head towards the direction of your house.

-

"What are we doing here?"

Miles looks around your house, picking up small gadgets or looking at pictures of you and Peter.

"Oh, what's this?"

He picks up a controller looking device, he presses the button and a laser shoots out cutting your couch in half.

"Miles!"

He throws the controller away and looks at you innocently.

"Sorry."

Miles looks around the room again and finds a hard drive, he picks it up and studies it wondering if it had something important on it.

"Miles."

He jumps at the sound of your voice, dropping the drive on the ground. He accidentally steps on it when he turns to look at you.

"Can you stop touching stuff?"

He nods and gives you a thumbs up before turning to see if he could find where he dropped the drive. When he does find it he starts to panic realizing that he had crushed it. He hides it in his jacket pocket hoping you didn't see and really hoping that it wasn't important in any way.

You sigh as you continue to type on your computer. The next thing you hear was the hum of the printing machine. You walk towards it to grab the paper you just printed along with a pen before handing it to Miles.

"What's this for?"

He questions as he begins to sign the bottom. You make sure it's in your hands before you answer him.

"A contract stating that I had informed you beforehand that I was not in the right state of mind due to—"

You let out a deep exhale not wanting to say the words.

"Circumstances and therefore I will not be responsible for my actions."

You grab a few gadgets to take with you as Miles looks confused about your statement.

"What's that mean?"

You give him a tight lipped smile before nodding your head towards the door.

-

Miles swallows hard as he stands at the edge of a tall building with you standing a few ways behind him.

"You have to jump Miles."

He shakes his head, fear clear in his eyes.

"You're insane."

You sigh.

"This is supposed to help you."

"How is this helping me?"

"We're going to practice web slinging."

He looks at you like you grew a second head.

"By me jumping off the roof?"

You walk up to the kid and place your hands on his shoulders.

"Look at me."

Miles brown eyes meet yours.

"Take a deep breath."

The two of you each take one, Miles to calm his nerves and you to get in a better mindset.

"I will be here to catch you if you fall."

You nod at him which he copies.

"Okay?"

"Okay."

You walk him towards the edge again, he's still quite nervous about it.

"You need to jump."

He starts to freak out, you let out a sigh at his reaction before pushing him off the building. You noticed that he was more worried about freaking out than saving himself.

"Maybe that wasn't a good idea.''

You winced making a note to be more clear in your directions so you don't kill the kid. You click the heels of the boots you were wearing and the rockets under them started to flare. You dive off the building passing the falling teen and caught him when you landed.

He clings to you tightly, physically shaking in your arms.

"Sorry Kid. I shouldn't have done that."

You give him a guilty look as he looks into you like you're crazy.

"What did I get myself into?"

He says to himself now really regretting signing that paper you gave him.

-

The two of you stood at the edge of the building again. This was Miles fifth attempt and he just wasn't getting it. He kept freaking out at the idea of falling to realize that he's the one that has to save himself.

"You ready?"

He hops on his feet trying to shake the nerves off.

"Okay. I got this."

He looks determined and ready to go. He lets himself fall but halfway through he starts to panic again and somehow got stuck to the wall.

"You need to let go."

You say calmly, hoping he would take the hint and let his instincts take over.

"What!"

"You need to let go, otherwise this is gonna take all day."

He looks at you for a moment and nods. He personally didn't know how to stop himself from sticking but because he was focused on you and not himself his body started to slip from the wall.

"That's not what I meant."

You flew down to catch him.

-

The two of you sat on the edge of the roof. You were giving Miles time to relax while you tried to think of a way to help him understand his powers.

At this moment you wished Peter was here. He would know what to do, he always knew what to do. You felt like no one could teach someone to be Spiderman like Spiderman could.

"Alright, let's go."

You say as you notice the sky getting noticeably darker.

"Where are we going?"

You help him stand up before flying the both of you to the solid ground.

"I'm gonna go visit a friend and then we'll feed you."

Miles' tummy rumbles at the sound of food.

"I could eat."

He shrugs as he follows you.

—🕸️

The two of you were now at the graveyard, tombs were covered in snow and the ground was frozen over, You were currently shivering after handing Miles your coat. He told you to keep it but you insisted.

The two of you walked deeper into the graveyard until you stopped at one tombstone in particular. Your body tense when you read it. You didn't want to deal with reality but it was inevitable. There were different kinds of flowers that surrounded it along with a few Spider-Man masks and balloons and a newspaper segment about his death.

You sat down in front of it, Miles following suit. The two of you just sat there in silence. You softly rubbed the carving as Miles sat beside you and watched you with a look of pity.

He rubs your back when you finally pull away from the carving.

"You okay?"

You just shake your head not wanting to talk about your feelings with anyone. Feelings you had been bottling up all day.

"He was my b-best friend."

You continue to stare at Peter's name.

"We've been together since forever. It's hard to believe he won't be around anymore."

You take a shaky breath while looking at the sky and trying to blink back the tears. Miles continued to pat your back. He knew you didn't want to talk but he still wanted to be there for you even if you two only knew each other for a day.

The two of you continue to sit in silence, the snow falling and getting trapped in your hair and caught on the coat Miles was wearing. Church bells rang in the distance.

"I'm sorry for your loss. I'm sure he was as great a man as he was a hero."

You smile slightly and nod. He was a great person and you spent your last hours with him being mad about something you caused.

"I just wish-"

You let out another shaky breath while shaking your head. Miles figured you needed time to gather yourself so he pats your shoulder before getting up to walk away.

"Ahh!"

He screams when he sees a shadowy figure in the distance. You stand up quickly and pulled him behind you with an alarmed look on your face, you reach into the pocket of your jacket that Miles was wearing to pull out one of your gadgets.

But Miles was faster and instantly shocked the dude on sight but a web caught on his outfit and he ended up getting pulled along with the dude.

You rushed up to him to check for any injuries.

"You okay?"

He nods his head at you.

"Yeah, I'm alright."

You pull his hands in yours, looking at them curiously.

"How'd you do that?"

He shrugs.

"I don't know it just happened."

You turned to look at the unconscious man and you instantly froze. How was this possible? How was he here? He died in your arms, was this the universe fucking with you?

Miles notices the look on your face before also looking at the stranger. He brows furrowed in confusion.

The two of you turned to look at each other before turning your attention back to the unconscious man in front of you.

🕸️🕸️🕸️🕸️🕸️🕸️🕸️🕸️🕸️🕸️🕸️🕸️🕸️🕸️

[salchat]

I went to Basingstoke Comic Con last Friday with my son Gregory - following a break in my chemo schedule due to emergency surgery resulting in fewer inside bits and an ileostomy. I'd thought I wouldn't be able to go - and it wasn’t easy, but I did it anyway.

Here’s what happened:

First I had my photo with Rachel Luttrell who was lovely and liked my feltie Teyla:

Then my son took the role of photographer for me in my Impala cosplay with Baby herself (or one of them)!

Then there were some strange clashes in the schedule - Stargate Q and A sessions when the Stargate guests were supposed to be signing autographs, so we weren’t sure who was going to turn up or how to be in two places at once.  But in the end, it worked to our advantage, because nobody else was sure either, and so when Joe and Rachel came along, there was hardly anyone else there so we got more time and more conversation than we would have.

Joe remembered me from the Wales Comic Con in 2021, which I definitely wasn’t expecting and he said he still had the little book of drawings I gave him there!  (It was a ridiculously stuffed little book - I’d gone way overboard.)  He took a photo of my art and put it on his Instagram!

Then we went to Rachel’s table and she was really nice and liked my art and gave me her phone to put my Instagram name in.  There was no one else at Joe’s table at that point so he was wandering about behind her and it was lovely just to see them interact as friends!

We managed to get Gary Jones next, who was really funny.  I told him it was my son’s first Comic Con and he shook Gregory’s hand.  But then he said, ‘No, that’s no good,’ and got up, came around the table and proceeded to give Gregs a lesson in firm handshakes.  It was hilarious!

I’d wanted to draw all the guests but just didn’t have time, with all the chemo and being in hospital shenanigans, so had to use the photos provided, which were nice, if not the same.

Next, after some hanging around and listening to the Q and As (which were all really good and Michael Shanks just kept spinning on his stool and being really silly) we got Paul McGillion and Rainbow Sun Francks.  They were both really lovely and nice to Gregory and, again, there were no queues so we had plenty of time!

Then we hit a bit of a hurdle because the day (and my energy) was running out and it didn’t look like Ben Browder or Michael Shanks were coming back.  Michael had a private Meet and Greet going on but Gregs really wanted to meet him, in particular because he wanted to introduce his homemade Goa’uld.

But then somehow we ended up in an impromptu session in the hotel bar - just a handful of con-goers with Ben and Paul and Rainbow! And Paul came up to me and told me how much he liked my art, because a friend had brought one of my pictures to be signed and pointed me out! And then I got to sit down opposite Ben and have a little chat and he signed my art.

But we still hadn't got Michael Shanks. So I pestered various organisers until I found one who knew what to do. And she got us in on the end of his Meet and Greet and then when the meet-and-greeters had gone we had a little private session where he, predictably, attacked himself with Gregory's Goa'uld and then signed my art and then before he went (blush - hides behind hands) I got a kiss on the cheek! 🥰

So, a memorable day! And then we had the fun of trekking home from Basingstoke, through London, on costume, me in my Impala outfit and Gregs as my little Gate-mission-ready military escort. We should just dress like that all the time...

I hope you liked my little Con Diary, @massharp1971 and @colonelshepparrrrd and anyone else who's interested!

Thanks to @hermscat for getting me an extra key card for her hotel room so I could flake out when needed and for transporting us to the station!

[running2reanimation]

Interview

Knowledge is power.

Aqua leaned against the counter, bored out of her mind. Never a good sign when, three hours into an 8 hour shift, one has nothing left to do.

Other than wait on the late night customers, of which there was… one.

That Purple guy who’s been coming in with Mr. King. The one who would be about Gold’s age if Gold hadn’t…

When had he come in? And it was interesting that he was alone for once. That was a first.

He approached the counter with a bag of chips and a bottle of one of those fancy lemonades.

“Good evening, thank you for shopping at Wants, did you find everything you were looking for tonight?” She put on her customer service voice and bright smile.

“Not quite.”

Oh please, oh please don’t hit on me…

“I wanted to know a little bit more about King, if you had the time.”

She narrowed her eyes, “What did you want to know?”

“Just… stuff, I guess. He doesn’t talk much about himself, or his life before he met me and I guess I’m just curious as to why.”

“And why are you asking me?”

“You are literally the only other person he really mentions or talks about from before. Does he not have other friends?”

“I mean, he might’ve had some work friends, but Mr. King’s always been a loner.”

“So is King his last name then?”

“He doesn’t have a last name, I don’t think. Gold didn’t have one so I assume Mr. King probably doesn’t either.”

“So what’s with the formality?” He opened up his chips as he leaned against the opposite side of the counter.

“I’ve known him since I was in diapers, but I guess it started when I went to grade school and I thought Mr, Ms and Mx were how all kids referred to adults that weren’t their parents, I guess it just stuck,” She sighed as she realized he’d gotten her talking against her better judgement.

“Was there ever any Ms, Mx or Mr King the second?”

“Haha, he’s been single for as long as I’ve known him.”

“So then where did Gold come from?”

“He had a partner before I was born, apparently she died giving birth to him. I’m not surprised he wouldn’t really mention that, technically I only know it because my mom told me.”

“…” Purple’s expression went dark for a moment before he opened up his lemonade, “You were one of Gold’s friends, right? What was he like?”

“I was his best friend. He was… funny and charming, everyone at school loved him. He was always helping people and was always willing to go the extra mile for someone. But he was also very… reckless and impulsive. I had to talk him out of a lot of dangerous things growing up.”

“When’s his birthday?”

“King’s or Gold’s?”

“Both, I guess.”

“Uh, Mr. King’s birthday is April 3rd, and Gold’s was… December 3rd.”

“Huh, both on the third of the month, what a coincidence.”

“Yeah, I probably wouldn’t have remembered Mr. King’s if it weren’t for that. I don’t think he ever really celebrated it.”

“…And the anniversary of Gold’s accident?”

“Oh, that’s coming right up, on the 21st.”

“Ah, that explains that then,” Purple said cryptically, crumpling up the empty chip bag and straightening up to go.

“Wait! It’s my turn to ask you a few questions.”

“I don’t remember agreeing to that,” Purple shrugged, draining the last of his lemonade and tossing the bottle in the bin.

“…How did you meet Mr. King?”

Purple looked at her thoughtfully as he held the door open, debating what to say, if he should even say anything at all. Her eyebrows were furrowed, and he couldn’t quite read her expression beyond that.

“Not to go into too much detail, we met when we were both in some really bad places in our lives. And we both helped pull each other out of it. Now we’re just trying to figure out our new normal, y’know?”

Aqua nodded, “I guess I get it. I was just worried you were… using him, I guess.”

Purple couldn’t help but chuckle at that. It had really been the other way around, but he wasn’t gonna tell her that, “If I was using him, I sure wouldn’t have admitted it just because you asked. It’s nice that you’re worried about him though.”

“Just… be good to him. I’m sure he’s done some awful things while he was grieving, but he’s a decent man.”

“I know. Thanks for the answers, Aqua. See you later,” He stepped out the door and into the night, leaving Aqua tangled in her memories for the night.

[sloggervlogger]

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[honourablejester]

Okay, this is rather (VERY) spoilery for the 2nd book of the Eight Petals Argent solo adventure series, but I just want to quickly talk about my fondness for this one (rather important) NPC:

Because we fucked up the portal programming, we accidentally dragged our pen-pusher employer through the gate with us, and he was not remotely prepared. To quote:

“Me? I…” Arold splutters. “I never meant to get near that portal. You must have done something wrong with the levers! I should still be in Waterdeep right now!”

Rufio sighs deeply.

“If I knew you’d bring me on this trip,” Arold continues, “I could have worn some trousers.” He lifts the hem of his robe, showing how uselessly he’s equipped for adventuring.

He literally doesn’t even have pants. He doesn’t have his spellbook. He has pretty much nothing. We dragged this poor pantless wonder on a desert island adventure with curses and pirates and horrible monsters, and pretty much everything that could possibly go wrong for him (short of actual death, thankfully) promptly did go wrong. He got happy fixing a device, gets it working again, and it immediately flies off on him:

The three of you watch the painted creature fly away.

“Shit,” Arold says when the dragon has passed beyond sight.

We come across a horrible massacre climbing a mountain and he, a half-elf pencil pusher, encounters the lovely site of another half-elf torn in two. We find her legs later.

“Half a half-elf,” Arold muses, pointing out her slightly pointed ears. The Seekers’ agent sits down in the dirt with a vacant expression. You remember that Arold never signed up to see the dangers—and sometimes horrors— that come with adventuring. Watching him stare into space, absently touching his own ears, makes you wonder whether he’ll return to his old, pampered lifestyle once you’re all safely back in Waterdeep. Sights like this can change a person.

And then, because we fucked up protecting him early on, long-term effects happen, and he winds up in a coma. And to fix him we have to destroy at least part of what he’s been sent to get. Like. He did not sign up for any of this. Later on, when we get him back alive and rescue arrives, complications happen, and we have to demand something of him rather strenuously. He gives it immediately. When everybody’s reunited again after said complications:

Arold is next off the landing boat, followed by some of the Homeward’s sailors carrying luggage. Arold hugs you fiercely.

“We should not have become friends,” the half-elf says, his voice serious. “It made me feel guilty to wish you were in my place during that voyage.”

He hugs me. We dragged him (accidentally, but still) through absolute hell, nearly got him killed, and he hugs me. And then argues on our behalf with our mutual employers to get us extra money despite the fact that we literally blew up half of what we were sent to get.

And as a crowner, he comes by our place to tell us this after some … other complications have happened, so he busts in all cheerful and walks face-first into a very tense mood. Poor bastard:

“Money!” the half-elf says, joyously. A moment later, he seems to intuit the pervading mood and tempers his enthusiasm. His voice turns solemn.

I have just finished this book (Fight for the Dawn Saber), and I have to say I am very fond of this poor bugger. I will kill people for Arold. Not a bother. And, given complications, I may well have to, but that’s fine. That’s absolutely fine. I’m gonna pick him up, and I’m gonna put him somewhere safe, some nice office with no pirates or constructs or infected aberrations, and I’m gonna shank anyone who looks at him funny. It’ll all be fine.

Sorry. Just. He’s been through a lot. I really want to just wrap him up and give him soup and (if at all possible) gently steer him out of the firing line. This was absolutely not the job he signed on for.

Anyway. Carry on.  

[animalhumanemn]

My spouse of 31 years passed away in January, we had been contemplating adopting a cat for some time. It had been years since we’d had a pet. After Kerry passed, friends and family kept suggesting I shouldn’t abandon the idea.

After things settled down a bit, my son and I decided a little extra life in the house might be a positive thing. So I began searching various humane societies and rescue websites.

We came into Woodbury to see Bear, he was a pretty black male. The day we visited, Bear had been neutered and wasn’t in much of a mood for visitors.

We looked around the main cat area and found several other feline possibilities.

While I was asking the staff a number of questions, my son wandered into a small room and there was a cat, alone in the room in his pen.

He came and retrieved me. “This one’s kinda neat,” he said.

The sign on his pen said, “My name is Bug, I have a respiratory infection, so I can’t be near other cats.”

Bug seemed like he really needed out of his pen and out of the shelter (no disrespect to the wonderful staff at Woodbury).

The staff assured me Bug was well on his way to being clear of his “cold” and ready for adoption.

I was told he was caught in a TNR operation and while a bit wild, was clearly not feral. He was held in the hope someone would come looking for him.

That was Wednesday, we left and I contemplated Bug for a good chunk of the day Thursday. Thursday afternoon I put a hold on him. We returned Friday and adopted Bug. He just seemed like he needed a house to roam.

Bug's start at our home was typical of most cats, he immediately hid under my bed. We set up food, water, and litter close by and he clearly was using all of that.

He didn’t emerge for several days. “Great,” I thought, “I adopted a recluse who we’ll rarely see.” Still, I felt like he needed out of the shelter and decided that was ok.

Then there was the issue of his name. I intended to rename him, but after polling friends and family they all agreed he was “Bug” and the name stuck. It really is a good name for him.

After two and a half days he emerged and began exploring the house. By the evening of that day, he was sitting with his head on my lap accepting scratches and pets. There’s been no looking back since.

It’s funny, Bug's adoption description said he liked to be around people but probably wouldn’t want a lot of hugs, cuddles, etc… As long as he hung around us I was ok with that.

Well, Bug has adapted to his new home quite well. He is full of energy, entertaining, and occasionally mischievous. Interestingly he is also very affectionate. Remember all those cuddles and pets he probably wouldn’t like … well, we find Bug sitting in our laps or various other places daily or just next to us on the couch enjoying scratches and pets.

The months since my spouse passed haven’t always been easy. Bug is entertaining and brings a nice touch of life to our home.

My son chose well.

— Mike

[ultraericthered]

So is it a comedy or a tragedy to you???

If you ask me, I think there are five things that could've improved it:

- Evan needed to come off just a little bit worse in the first act. The intent for his character seemed to be that he's a decent man who nonetheless still harbors some flawed thinking, ugly emotional urges, and general selfishness that makes him not close to the ideal family man he wants to believe and make others believe he is (the amount of family photos in the house scream "insecure overcompensation"), and that the events of the film tear down his illusion for all to see. But that isn't made too clear in the limited time we spend with Evan before Genesis and Bel come to his door, and even when they're in the house with him, he doesn't showcase any signs of wanting to take advantage of them, so him giving in and having a threesome with them comes out of left field. Eli Roth needed to make us believe Evan was a person who could do that in order for this to really land.

- We should've gotten a little bit more clarity as to what Genesis and Bel's motivations were. The way Eli Roth and the actors talk about them suggests that they both came from horrible backgrounds with broken families (Gen's father was likely a philandering abuser who primarily failed as a husband to his wife, while Bel's father was likely an abuser who failed as a parent by cheating on his wife with his daughter), have found love and solace in each other, and are both lashing out and venting their frustration about what they both went through via this twisted game they play with married men, a way to reassure themselves "Our dads and what they put us through are nothing special: most men are like that! Even the seemingly best of them will succumb to their urges and commit infidelity to their families, so all we're doing is exposing that!". But in the movie itself, too often they seem to just be doing things for kicks. The hints at anything deeper were too subtle, so I think we could've afforded to see a bit more signs of the girls trauma through troubled or even conflicted reactions, and maybe some extra lines to infer shit from.

- The characters should've acted smarter. When you get down to it, this movie's an Idiot Plot. Genesis and Bel are dumbasses who do things seemingly on whims without having thought it through prior, and their success rate is owed purely to Evan being even stupider than the two of them put together, as he plays right into their hands and reacts in ways that actively make it harder for him to get out of predicaments that should be fairly easy for someone to get out of. Even when Louis shows up and finally seems to be a smart person, he does the absolute dumbfuck thing of leaving his friend tied up while running to freak out about an inanimate work of art getting trashed, as though that mattered more than another human's life! After a while, there's only so much idiocy that the viewer can take, and I think Gen and Bel coming out on top would sit better with people had they actually earned their one upmanship of those men.

- That bedroom scene needed heavy alteration. 'Cause what appears to happen there is Bel raping Evan on Gen's orders. On its own I'd not be too opposed to this since Gen and Bel are the villains and they're doing a villainous thing. The problem is that this moment, this action and Evan's status as the victim of it, comes back to be the punchline of the film. It's played like a black comedy moment. We're clearly meant to laugh at Evan's reaction to it. But it's just not so funny when you stop and remember that it was rape. Rape jokes can be funny, but rape as a punchline seldom is. I think they should've omitted the "fuck him" talk from Genesis and shown very clearly that Bel was just pantomiming sex on top of a still pants-in-tact Evan rather than actually penetrating Evan's body, but to the camera from its angle it would look like sex was taking place, so Evan gets framed for fucking a girl who's passing herself off as his underage daughter. - The alternate ending should've been inserted as a mid-credits stinger scene. Not only does it tie into the whole theme of karma for your misdeeds coming back around to you in ways you may not be expecting or prepared for (in this case it's Gen and Bel who are now on the recieving end), but it fulfills another Joker-esque aspect to the film - the villain origin story. It'd display the darkly comic tragedy of how in ruining another man's life the way they intended to, Gen and Bel push this man too far and twist him in a way they'd not intended, so he ends up just as damaged and corrupted as them, right down to breaking and entering. Also, when Evan knocks at the door and the girls respond with a nervous "Who's there?", Evan should answer in a cold, harsh, menacing tone "Monster is here." Pay that joke off perfectly.

Knock Knock

So uh, honestly there’s a lot to unpack in this movie socially and politically speaking, but uh

I’m gonna ignore all that because it was the funniest fucking movie I’ve ever seen.

I just am not sure what to even say here it was a bad movie. I recommend it highly. It was the most absurd piece I’ve ever seen and the things that came out of Keanu Reeves’ mouth in this movie were frankly unbelievable. 

Keanu plays an Architect/DJ whose wife and kids are on vacation without him for the weekend and then two girls show up and force themselves onto him and then try to kill him afterwards. At the end of the movie they post video of him being raped on Facebook then bury him up to his necking the backyard while Where is My Mind by the Pixies plays over the credits.

I was wondering if Eli Roth knew that they already used Where is My Mind at the end of Fight Club but Eli Roth has definitely seen Fight Club more times than I have. You can’t use Where is My Mind at the end of your movie anymore, it’s taken. 

I thought I was gonna be snarky about this movie but the more I sit here and think about it the more it bums me out. God damn it I laughed so hard at this movie but then I was really sad and I felt bad for Keanu in real life.

[bl6ckr0s3]

Thinking Deeply

I sometimes truly question whether I am making another mistake putting my faith & trust into Joshua. He clearly tells me that he doesn't want to be like my exes where he will be just another story to tell another guy. I said that I sincerely doubt that would be the case. When he constantly questions me about leaving or having doubts about this relationship, his reason would be that he wants to make sure that I know what I want. I would usually feel like he doesn't have faith in my love for him, or he just clearly is paranoid and always fearing that he knows his mistakes can push me away to leave him. I said that's a possibility if he means to destroy my life.

If I worked hard for something for a long time and you expect me to just give up my job and leaving my family for your sake of chasing your dream, you better damn well that I'm not gonna regret doing it because I don't want to throw away the good things in my life for him and end up being in a worst place because of that choice if he doesn't do anything good for the both of us. I begged God Almighty to give me some answers about where me and Joshua's future is going, whether us moving to Tennessee is really going to be better for our future? Whether making this sacrifice of leaving my son is going to be worth it in the long run and if leaving my family is only temporary? Sometimes there are just empty promises.

From all I been seeing with Joshua is failure after failure. He can't save any money, he can't keep a regular job, he can't pay his bills, he is on the brink of losing his car that his mom helped co-sign to even get the car that he barely can afford maintenance or even afford to keep it registered or insured. He owes so many people money that it's not even funny. He's lucky that he has come this far with the amount of people that were nice enough to help him. Some people have came back to him expecting to be paid back already, but he still doesn't have the money to pay them back because he's still fuckin broke or too focus on paying the people in the music scene off rather than the people he owes money for a long time off instead. I begged God Almighty that if this is truly a mistake and that if Joshua is going to destroy or ruin my life, that I don't want to continue this relationship further down the road.

I made a lot of sacrifices for Joshua. I cancelled and stop my tube tying surgery right when we were starting to date. I was about to just tie my tubes and not worry about getting pregnant by the wrong man again. I attended and became the member of the Iglesia Ni Cristo church so that he wouldn't have to worry about dating a non-member of the church & risk being expelled. Now he hardly even attends church and so have I because of all the stress and bullshit he has been putting me through. I told him the last thing I want is to be homeless. What does he do? He abandons helping with our apartment, but he's selfish mainly. He seems to only think of himself sometimes. He asked me why I never told him about how I felt about Beck Park Apartments when we first came to look at the place. He said he seem to set on just wanting to move here to Los Angeles in his own apartment already. We only had the place for 7 months and we already lost the place because we couldn't even pay the rent on time since we moved here. We were always paying late rent. The only time we didn't was when we first put the deposit down for the place and I had extra money in my bank from my tsp savings retirement. Now I'm trying to pay back part of my retirement. The money was also used for his music production which was gone just like that. He is very stubborn. If he doesn't get what he wants, I will continue to suffer with him unless I make a sad choice to leave him before he destroys my life.

I only now hope to God that that's not going to be the answer because I love Joshua so much, I am deeply in love with him and I want to be with him for the rest of my life. If he can't get his shit together, how am I going to survive or live? Josh's sensei told him that he shouldn't even be getting with a woman if he's doing what he's doing because he's only gonna drag her down with him. His cousin Nicole said the same thing. That it isn't right that he's gonna drag me down to this condition to have me sleep in the car because we lost our home because of his irresponsibility.