#so thats all that matters heehee

[unexpectedbrickattack]

How strong is Gus compared to Peppino exactly I did saw some concept where Gus grabs peppino with a giant hand and shakes him around

(Had to check the sprite wiki bc i was SO sure i saw something similar to this; its a scrapped animation of Gus punching Peppino if Peppino failed to deliver a pizza (also a scrapped concept))

Gus is VERY strong and almost on par w Peppino. I have no reason for this; i just like the idea of both of them being very small and also deceptively strong heehee The best way I can compare the two is that Gustavo can Wrestle w Brick (basically a fucking Bear) and win; Peppino can just body check Brick and knock him out completely (and win, lmao)

You didnt ask for this, but Gus (ignoring important gameplay mechanics that prove otherwise) is NOT very fast at all. He can do a pretty decent sprint but he tires out very fast; Brick is the majority of his speed and he has no shame in relying on him. He does find it a LITTLE offputting knowing that even at Bricks full speed, Peppino can EASILY outpace them, blazing past the two of them looking absolutely deranged and redfaced. He can keep that speed up for an incredible amount of time too but the second he hits something or is forced to come to a stop, he just crashes right there 😭

[mamawasatesttube]

oh yeah. the agonies reminded me i wanted to work on amok tim tonight. thats the entire reason i was reading those papers on blue-banded gobies. i should do that

[eebie]

why do peopelt alk about personality types like that

[lynn-tged-posting]

tged webtoon ep 158 spoilers and thoughts but mostly it's just me laughing my ass off and also speculating on what happens, im still working on the novel but ill finish it soon trust <- has like ten billion different things she wants to do at the same time

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ARCOS AND MARBELLA IN THIS PANEL WAS ME FOR MOST IF NOT ALL OF THIS CHAPTER HELPPP LMFAOAOOO

javier you absolute fiend you ,,, you've learned so much,,, /aff

i figured that javier would tell them at least a semi-truth, or something like that to tide over the count/countess,,, their expressions here made me so worried for a moment,,,

LIKE THESE UUAGHGHHGHGHHHH that kind of anticipation is terrifying tbh like "has our son been dead this whole time, have we been living w someone else??" and the imminent grief looming over that thought i think got translated really well here the blank irises and the shadowed face im so ,,,, ueueueueueue

AND THEN TO GET HIT WITH THIS

HELP MEEEE HAHAHAHA BRAZEN JAVIER ROBOFACED JAVIER ITS REAL HES REAL LMFAOAOOOOO

OF ALL THE THINGS JAVIER COULD HAVE DONE TO GET OUT OF THIS SITUATION HE DECIDED TO EMULATE LLOYD I GIGGLED SO BAD I STARTED COUGHING

AND THE FULL COMMITMENT TOO TO THE BIT AND MAKING IT SEEM LIKE HE'S MORE FOULMOUTHED THAN HE LETS ON . AND SINCE JAVIER IS NORMALLY SO DEADPAN IT JUST. WORKS I GUESS HAHAHAHAHA THIS IS CRAZY

insane genuinely fucking insane i couldn't stop laughing HAHAHAHAA like this is completely absurd but the fact that it's coming from javier, someone who the count and countess completely trust at the moment, someone who's been by lloyd's side this whole time,,, PELASE HAHAHFHADHFDHSHAHA

the count and countess reacting too got me giggling a storm HAHA

also also early webtoon lloyd makes an appearance again i think it's really fun that the artist gives him the hairstyle from back then, before they changed his hairstyle heehee

oh his undershirt is also missing that X that's usually there in the current tged style too i didnt notice that at first but another little callback!!!

AND THEN JAVIER FINISHING OFF THE BIT WITH. SEPPUKU??? WHAT THE HELL ALDKFJLSDKJF ?!?!?!

I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO SAY TO THIS LIKE HE DIDNT HAVE TO but i guess it did kind of knock the count/countess out of their stupor bc by seeing something so insane from javier they think javier rlly regrets giving lloyd BRAIN DAMAGE LAKJDFSHDF FUCKING BRAIN DAMAGE

i did see some ppl say that its kind of odd that they thank javier for this and thats fair yeah i dont think id be ok w finding out "oh one of my loved ones gave another one of my loved ones MEMORY LOSS"

but i think it could be that they're relieved to find out (or are inclined to believe) that their lloyd is "still alive" - he's just changed, not dead (except he is dead, so javier succeeded in fooling them without telling very severe lies)

honestly with how their expressions were they were probably expecting the worst, esp w all the evidence stacked against lloyd. can u imagine that despair, realizing that the person you've finally come to love is not the person you thought they were?? that the person you thought you had a second chance with, wasn't that person at all? i bet all those regrets were washing over the count and countess all at once,,, and then the relief that comes when it's revealed (when they're lead to believe) that no, it's the same person. this second chance was with the same lloyd, not someone else. that's still their son. oooooh imagine the relief, the realization that you don't have to mourn, you don't have to grieve for a death that happened under your nose

i think that's why they reacted this way, instead of worrying over javier wacking lloyd upside the head; like, what matters now is that lloyd frontera is alive (to them) and that both lloyd and javier have grown and changed themselves and the estate for the better. that the child and the knight they raised have a bright future and isn't that what any parent wants?

tho ofc they dont realize that their assumption is not the truth, but well they dont need to know that,,, for everyones sakes,,, nice play javier

when lloyd shows up and we saw this panel i thought we were gonna have a nice moment between the two of them where lloyd thanks javier for covering for him and hiding the truth but then-

THESE TWO FUCKING IDIOTS HAHAHAHAHAHA /AFF

I LOVE THEM SO MUCH THEYRE SO DEVIOUS HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA

and then lloyds conversation with the count/countess after PLEASE

yknow this is kind of like that bargaining strategy where you propose something completely absurd and crazy so that the other party says no, but then you offer your real request that is objectively tasking but the other party thinks of it as lesser than the former request so they'll grant it . whatever the heck that strat is called thats what this feels like HAHAHAHA

AND ARCOS TRYING TO LOOK OUT FOR LLOYD AND

AHFGSDLJKFSDGHH THRTHOWS UP

lloyd says "all i need is for you to stay healthy" and god that fucking. hurts ouw ouuuhhh owiee oww BUDDY U CAN HAVE BOTH U CAN PROTECT UR FAMILY WHILE ALSO RELYING ON THEM!!! LLOYD!!! LLLOOOYYYDDD

and yet of course this is smth that suho!lloyd would say ,,, he wasnt able to help his parents w their struggles back then but now he can and now it's all he wants to do ,,, i cant even explain how emo this exchange makes me i can't quite put it into words even after a whole day of sitting on this,,, especially after the events of 157 like lloyd im worried abt u!! he doesnt even realize he doesnt even realize the overwork the possible spiral that can come from trying to preserve this aghhh AAGGHHH

sorry for losing it anyways moving on, the title effects linking yippie!!! it was super fun seeing all the teams and all the people he's brought together,,, truly this was our greatest estate development /j

ALSO JAVIER BEING BY HIMSELF ON A TEAM LMFAOOOO "the team that does everything" HAHAHAHAHA

AND THEN AND THEN the last reveal of this episode THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN HELLO!@?!?!??!@?!?@?!@! OH MY GOD

raphael looks a litte different here i could've sworn he was a turtle /j

BUT YEAH HOLY SHIT WOW i mean it makes sense, if theres a hell theres probably a heaven, and there was that line that javier said where he was like "alicia liking lloyd is more ridiculous than suho actually being an archangel" MAN I SHOULDA SEEN THIS COMING LMAO but im still excited to see where this goes

like the jewel of truth construction being ILLEGAL? what r they gonna do??? like,,, take the parts away?!?! how will lloyd avoid their like, divine punishment or whatever?? is it considered a crime to start mythical construction??? i wonder what their ruling will be

also the exiled student guy (forgot his name) and lupellan what r they up to will this interfere w them?? or with lloyd? a lot of stuff lined up oh GOD lmao

anyways thats all for right now, as always i yap more on my twitter if youd like to see more shenanigans from me, see yall next week!! !!!!

[itlivesproject]

What kind of powers did Silvia have? And did teen Linc ever have a moment of "ah shit my dad has Roy Mustang powers and thats actualy kinda sick"? And to circle back will we learn more about what Silvia was like in the game and if not do you have any fun trivia for me 🥺 (im a humble milf appreciator)

Omg an ask about Silvia, the light of my LIFE I love her so much. Ok so Silvia never had any powers or anything. However, she knew all about it. She obviously knew about Matthias’s abilities and she knew that Lincoln had psychometry. She just didn’t feel like it was necessary for her to do any ritual for it or whatever, so she never did.

Linc grew up knowing about his father’s abilities. When he was a little boy, like 7 and under, he thought it was the coolest thing ever. But as their relationship broke down, he stopped seeing it as something good or positive. As a teenager, instead of being like “whoa my dad’s powers are cool” it was more like “I hate them because this is all that matters to him.” As a side note, Linc definitely loves Roy Mustang.

You will get to learn a bit more about Silvia in the game heehee. However here is some trivia.

Silvia’s maiden name is Aquino.

She is a first gen immigrant. She moved to the United States from the Philippines and ended up in Westchester working as a nurse and sending money home to her family.

She met Matthias while she was working. She gave him his shots and was instantly charmed by him. They ran into each other again a few days later at a local theater in the park performance. He asked her if she’d want to grab dessert after the performance, she said yes, and the rest is basically history.

She was an amazing artist and did multiple murals in different schools and buildings around Westchester. She’d bring Lincoln along with her and he’d help.

She was a really amazing mother and extremely in tune with her son. She could always see past his anger or moodiness and understand, just with a simple look, what was going on in Lincoln’s head, even if he never put those thoughts and feelings into words.

Lincoln and Matthias both miss her very much 😔

[samurai-little-and-the-fairy]

Okay, we finally figured out how to post stuff on Tumblr!

Hello, hello. You are talking to the one and only. The sharpest blade and the deadliest paper cut in all of existence. The samurai from another dimension, tiny but mighty, the one and only-

Tori.

Hey, i was in the middle of my speech! Rude :(

The viewers don’t need to know all that hogwash, they just need to know our names and species. Hi, Im Fay, a Comfey, and this is my friend, Tori the Kartana.

Pffft, that’s so vanilla. You’re good at unkilling stuff but sure aren’t good at grand speeches.

Well, it gets the job done, doesn’t it? And now we’ve gotta say what we do!

Allow ME! Ahem. We’re a ragtag adventuring duo, traveling across time and space itself in search of the unknown! We’re both reaaaaally tiny, like really really tiny, but don’t underestimate us at all or you’ll get a whaBLAM full of surprise right! In! The! Face! >:D

We do make a fine duo, I must say! Tori protects me from hostiles with his insane ability to cut through anything, and I mean anything, he can even cut a hole in space and time for us to travel through. And I fix him up when he’s on low, kind of like his little assistant healer :)

Exactly, your ability to unkill stuff is amazing, and my ability to kill stuff is also amazing, so amazing plus amazing equals ultra turbo amazing and so we are AMAZING.

Tori, for the millionth time I told you it’s not “unkill”, I heal injuries and alleviate pain, making sure pokemon, especially YOU, don’t die.

Whatever. Unkill sounds way better. Unkill, unkill, unkill. See, it rolls off my tongue. Which is even more epic since my tongue is nonexistent but the words still manage to roll off it anyway.

(OOC under the cut):

hey! mod here, this is a fun little sideblog for my kartana-comfey duo for which i will be posting little updates from time to time, kind of like an adventure blog.

yes they shoot across time and space engaging in chaotic, thrilling, adventurous shenanigans, from fun little field/exploration trips in the busiest cities of Kalos to near death experiences in the deepest depths of the enigmatic Area Zero. they’re that type of “no-matter-how-certain-death-is-for-them-they’ll-find-their-own-stupid-way-to-wriggle-out-of-it” kind of duo.

please keep in mind that this blog will contain:

mild to moderate depictions of cartoon violence / violence

near-death experiences

descriptions / depictions of trauma

some swearing

mild to moderate gore, though that’s very rare and i always try to keep it on the light side.

if you ask specifically enough, disturbing depictions of body horror/disfiguration BUT THATS ONLY VERY SPECIFICALLY. it’s backstory related btw

ask info!

you may send asks that:

ask about lore and backstory stuff (sensitive/invasive/accusatory questions are allowed, but keep it not-too-mean. on a scale of 1-10, 6 maybe.

are of a memey nature/stuff you just wanna see them react to

are dares/requests to go explore a certain place! it’s not 100% certain they’ll go adventure in that place though, so keep that in mind

any other miscellaneous questions (favourite food, color, etc etc.)

you MAY NOT ask stuff that:

is of a sexual nature

are nsfw asks

contains gore / extreme violence

basically i wanna keep this blog safe for minors 13-18 years old though adults are always free to interact with it as well!!

mod info!

mod is a minor (under 18), so please please no nsfw asks

mod’s main account is @robin-the-wanderer

mod loves the ultra beasts!

you may call me robin the decidueye, cause that’s my pokesona heehee

tags:

samurai little - posts related to Tori

posy picker fay - posts related to Fay

the adventures of samurai little and the fairy - big story posts involving the two of em

SLTF shitpost - basically chaos and shenanigans and shitposting with the two of ‘em

decidueye mod - posts where i am OOC

Adventure tags:

SLTF @ great crater - Tori and Fay’s adventures in the Great Crater of Paldea.

SLTF @ max lair - Tori and Fay’s adventures in Crown Tundra’s Max Lair.

that’s it, i hope these two entertain you as much as they do me!

[panicv0mit]

seeing the netflixvania posting im so fucking sorry. ive yet to watch it (will suffer through it with my friend who, like myself, is also a long time castlevania fan) and this is like. seeing a forest go up in flames and deciding to walk in anyway.

my expectations were low but it seems i'll have to set them even lower. what have they done to my favorite belmont

My netflixvania posting is but a crumb compared to all the shit I got stored in my brain but if I started rambling it would never end (except I am gonna ramble a lil bit now) spoilers (?) incoming.

Let me just say that the first 2 seasons of netflixvania were actually pretty good, I loved the final fight in season 2. It was FINE, it ended on a decent note, opened the door for the other Belmonts to step in etc etc........and that's not what they did at all. They just HAD to make 2 more fucking seasons and those had MAJOR issues between the severe mischaracterization of Hector and Alucard (I COULD GO ON AND ON ABOUT HECTOR ALONE) and disgusting unnecessary SA scenes...it was fucking abysmal. And you know what? It hurt to watch like genuinely. Everything that could have gone wrong in a show did go wrong. I liked Isaac's story, Sypha and Trevor were fine. But the horrible writing could not hold the show together at all. I was RELIEVED when it ended but OOPS SORRY!!!! AT THE VERY END THEY LET DRACULA PASS ON WITH HIS WIFE!!!!!!!! HEEHEE!!!!! HOOOHOO!!! Let me ask you a question. Walk with me here, friend. What is the story of castlevania? Who are they fighting? If you answered Dracula, then you're correct.

I'm not saying you have to keep resurrecting the same villain over and over again, HOWEVER. Dracula is a ginormous part of Richter's story. THAT'S THE WHOLE THING!!! BELMONTS VS DRACULA!!!! AND THEN ALUCARD WAKES THE FUCK UP AND IS LIKE AW SHIT THE CASTLE IS BACK!!!! They literally locked themselves out of TWO storylines!!!!! There will be no rondo, no symphony. They are using the characters in name ONLY. and it fucking BLOWS. I was actually somewhat excited to see the new series, I wanted to see Richter really bad he's my GUY....and then the reality set in and I'm wait a minute....NO...NOOO NOOOOOO!!!!!! bc I knew in my heart they were gonna fumble and fuck up severely. And they ARE! I am THREE episodes in and I have felt NOTHING, the show just isn't doing it for me. The pacing is fucking weird, dialogue feels unnatural sometimes, and the overall story is just.. meh. Especially with Richter. If Annette was the only main character, I wouldn't be so disappointed bc her part is really the only one that matters, it's clear she has more of a focus put on her instead and THATS OKAY! but for us Richter fans it feels so empty, he as a character in this show feels like fucking wet cardboard. They're giving him NOTHIN. That's not him at all. It feels off everything feels wrong. The first episode was the worst so far. There was no set up, no slow pacing, just them going from plot point to plot point like they were checking off a list. It all plays out, in my opinion, like if someone was fucking around in AI dungeon and trying to make their own castlevania. That's how unnatural things feel at times. As I'm writing this I'm like losing train of thought like what am I even saying I HAVE NO IDEA. At the end of the day, it's just a huge let down. My expectations were low and initially watching it isn't THAT bad, but when I sit down and let my mind simmer on it...I just get kinda sad. Why do they keep letting ppl who clearly don't know anything about castlevania in general write these shows. I don't feel passion from it. It shows horribly. I don't wanna see another one after this but no they've already confirmed season 2 and Alucard is gonna roll up and they're gonna do whatever the fuck idk. I'm gonna go play curse of darkness and symphony of the night and make out with my wife Hector or somethin

[cinnamoodles]

hiii could i get a 🍓 [ strawberry dreams ] with the golden trio/marauders era? (im cool w either haha)

personality wise i’d say im pretty sarcastic, i love joking around n making the people around me laugh! i’d say im pretty funny 😅 i can be kind of short tempered but i try my best to keep that under control! other than that i would say i’m pretty laid back and the type to go with the flow. i’m always down to try something new! i can be pretty impulsive (i have 9 piercings that i got on impulse to prove that haha) and i love learning about topics i’m interested in. sometimes i hyper fixate on something and go down a deep rabbit hole

appearance wise im quite tall (5’8) with black hair that reaches past my shoulders and dark eyes. i have rlly pale skin (my friends call me a vampire) and my personal sense of style is a mixture of 90s & y2k grunge (and grandpa sweaters). i have a couple tattoos that arent visible.

im a scorpio, slytherin (sometimes i get ravenclaw), and either an intp or entp (im leaning more towards entp tbh)

i like to read and annotate books, watch films and completely dissect them, the colour green, and silver jewelry (i am not a gold girly). i would say my second fav colour is red! i think my fav subjects r english or philosophy.

i think thats all! thanks!!!

thank you for ordering from the cafe!

i ship you with…

sirius black!

— he’s obsessed with your tattoos omg? constantly admiring them and kissing them (no matter where they are heehee) and tracing them for fun and while cuddling

— impulsive duo supreme like who let you guys be together?? always doing the WILDEST shit and everyone else is like ‘yep that’s them 24/7’ and it is actually hilarious and super fun

— we all know sirius is a big reader so he and you would read muggle books to discuss them but god he looks so hot when he’s nerdy so these book club meetings usually end up in making out. it’s kind of an inside joke between the marauders at this point when it’s time for book club yk?

— constantly stealing sirius’ sweaters and jackets but he doesn’t mind bc you look cuter in his clothes anyway, but he sometimes returns the favor, and since he’s so tall, it’ll usually end up as a crop top on him (you don’t mind either)

— sirius being kind of skittish about getting his first piercing? he was so calm about the tattoo but he was squealing at the needle that pierced his ear (consensually ofc) and you’re calming him down because all he wants in the end is cuddles.

[sams-blog-i-guess]

heehee brain rot

hello mtv welcome to my crib

fr tho, this is just my stream of consciousness thing because in order to actually work out my brain juice i gotta put it somewhere, and writing in an actual journal is annoying so TYPING WOOO

plus shit just reads better to me if i type it idk why

anyway here's the brain thought of the day, slightly more depressing than the first part of the post but

I think i legit have a fear of men hitting on me or smth

like im chronically aware of how i present to men and im terrified that anything that i do will present as me flirting with them

like i leaned over and put my hands on my coworkers desk today and i was immediately self-conscious like 'omg i hope he doesnt think im sticking my boobs in his face because i have Boobs yk and no matter what i do theyre just There unless i wear like a turtleneck or smth'

but like idk if thats narcissism or trauma

like ik the whole 'if youre asking if its narcissism its not narcissism' thing but also like i feel like im full of myself for thinking that men will just flirt with me at the first sign of whatever but yk

anyway the Trauma theory like it might just come from middle school? like these dudes in middle school essentially made a joke out of liking me and no matter what i would do would make a big show out of fake proposing to me in class in front of everyone or picking me up without permission because they think its funny yk

like i reacted cause i was fuckin 12-13 and boys and cooties and i wanted them to stop, not realizing that reactions fueled the whole thing

but like that whole thing made me not only afraid of speaking or interacting with men in general (which ive worked out mostly since getting out of an all-girls catholic school) but also just made me straight up afraid of men flirting with me, like panicking any time one tries smth type of thing

which yk ive had bfs and stuff since then its not like a chronic thing necessarily but its still There (ironic cause im sapphic now but haha)

it might also be from my second cousin asking to go out with me after meeting Once and him showing me furry porn and thinking that bonded us ig

or the countless 'nice guys' ive talked to/interacted with

yk, the usual.

BUT that was my big brain thought for the day its now time to go to therapy and get high :)

[kaoharu]

it does… but even when the same techniques are used by different people there’s still their own touches i think… !!! music is literally sooooo it can make or break like a cutscene for example… and tempo also matters a whole lot i think it’s just whoa. also blorbo in law is soooo real the amt of characters i like solely because someone i know likes them a lot... yeah. AND YUKI KAJI REALNESS he has a lot of range i think… 

WEE

yeah !!!! theres all kinds of neat techniques and chords that can evoke certain feelings and its just allso neat to think abt . . . milf ( music i love forwver ) that is the unfunniest joke ive made yet i am so sorry . anywyas YEAHH !!! the goofy blorbo in laws whom i love very muchsies . . . i have many as well nd its awesome cause even if i dont exactly Get It i still hold much love for them by association and i think thats lovely . . . also i think yuki kaji is like. rlly rlly good w emotions if that makes sense . . . like he kinda sounds Super similar in all his roles but he fits them so well just of how he can manipulate his voice if thay makes sense ??? also kinda unrelated but apparently hes making a voicebank thingie . . . i forgot exacrly what it was called but i saw news abt it a few days ago woahhh !!!! heehee >:3

[amongussexgif]

Nia's father was a noble, too. And some people theorize thar Rex and Addam are related. At the very least, they have Azurda, which means Tora is the only driver from 2 who doesn't have notable ancestry. In terms of after Mio, Matthew and Na'el are the latest we've seen (since they're implied to be N and M's great grandchildren). This means there was N and M's 1 kid, he had at least one kid, maybe more, and then we have Matthew and Na'el making 4(maybe 5), but then we go on to include all of Doyle and Vandham, like you said. We don't know much about house Doyle, but it still being prominent during playable NoahMio's time means there was at LEAST four generations from both (including Matthew and Na'el). The oldest Vandham we know of is Guernica, and if were using minimums, he could be Matthews kid (but I like to think there's at least three or four generations in between). This means at LEAST that there's 10 or 11 after N and M (but likely closer to 22-23 because of adding more generations and the possibility of siblings at any point).

Yeah, Mio's family is HUGE.

And that's without mentioning where Noah comes from. The most common headcanons I've seen say that Noah is either a Shulk/Fiora kid, a Reyn/Sharla kid, or unknown. I'll assume Shulk/Fiora (he could still have natural black hair bc Dunban)

That means we've got Shulk, Fiora, and Dunban right away. Shulk and Reyn pretty much have a sibling-bond, so we'll throw in Reyn, Sharla, and Juju. I'll add Melia and her family as an Aunt, and we could maybe add Riki and his kids as silly uncle and cousins. Riki has a wife and I believe it was 7? kids, so thats +9, and We've seen Tyrea, Teelan, and Melia from there. We could include Melia's father and brother as well.

So, we'll give Noah 20 people (Shulk, Fiora Dunban are 3, Reyn, Sharla, Juju make 6, Riki, wife and kids are 9, and 5 more from Melia bc we exclude the stepmom) Oh, and Nikol makes 21.

To count up Mios side for real, we'll say 4 parents, two siblings (one of which is Glimmer), Dromarch, two rich aunt's, their daughter, Niall, Zeke+Pandoria, Zeke's father bc why not, Tora, Poppi, Tora's dad, Lila, and Gramps. 19, assuming Tora continues to be bitchless and Zeke/Pandoria don't have kids.

Noah' 21, Mio's 19, and their 17 descendants (heehee averages), plus one for each other, they have 58 relatives, provided we stop 2 generations up and only include seen characters from 1+2.

But wait, there's more! Eunie is likely a Shulk/Melia kid (whether Fiora knows or not is unclear), and Crys is likely a sibling to Noah and Nikol. Lanz is completely unclear in lineage, but it's not much if a stretch to say he likely sees Reyn as something of a father-figure, so we'll throw in 0.5 for the possibility of him. Dlc outfits imply that Taion might be a Jin/Malos kid, on which case he was DEFINITELY adopted by the party from 2, so well throw I another 0.5 for uncertainties sake. Miyabi is a lot like a sibling to Mio, but we have one more unknown sibling from the picture, so we'll say thar was her. Ashera was also likely a Reyn/Sharla kid, so we'll include her as well. You could maybe include Gray and Rozana as Eunie parent-figures, so I'll do so. Speaking of found family, we're adding Teach because it's unclear whether Taion sees him as a dad or has a crush on him and either way I'm counting it. And continuing the theme of uncertainty, let's talk about A and Alvis. I haven't gotten through all of Future Redeemed yet, so I have no idea whether Mathhew and A are like siblings or lovers or just friends. Either way, A, Alvis, and Malos for that matter are all Pyra and Mythra's siblings. So that'd mean adding A, Alvis, Malos, and Jin because they are ABSOLUTELY gay.

We should also consider all of Torna at this point. Mikhail is absolutely a nephew of sorts to Mythra, but I'm unsure about Akhos and Patroka. I'm leaving them out of this count. Looping back to Jin, I'm adding Lora, Haze, and Milton because of their found family dynamic throught ttgc. I'll also add Hugo because of his lineage leading to Morag and Niall. We've counted Brighid, but we'll loop Agaeon in as her sibling of sorts.

And since we've covered every other ttgc party member, what about Addam? His connection to Rex is vaguely hinted at but unconfirmed, but he calls Azurda uncle so I'm adding him either way.

Except going that far back gets awkward because of generational gaps, so I'm taking Hugo out. Addam can stay because of Gramps and Pyra/Mythra being directly connected to him, with no gaps or uncertainties.

You could go from Malos and say that Amalthus counts because he's the driver/step-dad but I'm not because Malos directly rejects him and cut ties.

Let's talk about Klaus as well! And Zanza and Meyneth, for that matter. Klaus is the closest thing the Aegis siblings have to a father, they they call him father. You could count him because of that, but the connection is clearer because of Zanza and Shulk's direct connection. Klaus and Zanza could could as one, and I'll throw in Meyneth as 0.5 as well because of her connection to him.

Let's recount now that I'm done. We have 58 from earlier, plus Eunie, Crys, Lanz(0.5), Taion(0.5), A, Alvis, Jin, Malos, Mikhail, Milton, Lora, Haze, Addam, Agaeon, Ashera, Gray(0.5), Rozana(0.5), Teach, Klaus, Meyneth(0.5)

That totals up to 75.5 relatives, with the uncertainties averaged. At minimum, we have 67 (assuming 10 descendants), and at maximum we have 89 (by assuming 23 descendants up to Ghondor, and adding in Miyabi as a third Mio sibling, Akhos and Patroka as JinMalos kids, Hugo, Amalthus as Malos's step-dad, Melia's step-mom, and by saying Zeke and Pandoria might have a kid)

Yeah, Mio's family really is huge as fuck.

Mio's family is massive

Yeah sure were all aware of the biological aspect, Happy Family™ plus houses Vandham and Doyle, but there's so much more

First we have Rex's orphanage, then Tora's bloodline, and then TWO ROYAL FAMILIES!

And last but not least, all of their blades

[romulanfucker]

alex do not feel obliged to respond but if you were given the chance to write a tuvok episode. what would the plot synopsis be

ok sorry i fell asleep while typing out an answer to this yesterday but heehee here's 4 potential tuvok episodes i think about:

1) ok so there's two episodes of voyager i think about constantly and that's the one w the bliss planet that has that spatial folding device that could potentially send voyager halfway to the alpha quadrant in seconds but they wont share it legally and janeway cant violate the prime directive so tuvok opts to steal it for her; and then when janeway and chakotay get sick and get abandoned to have their housewife moments with the monkey and tuvok is ordered to leave them there and wrestles with it all episode before choosing to fuck that order and contact the vidiians for a cure for janeway and chakotays housewife illness.

i propose a third episode to complete the trilogy, one in which voyager finds a fuckin. idk. plasma cloud thats ... sunk partially into subspace. it doesn't matter. point is they find some fucked up space goop thats kind of unstable and if they blow it up just right it could propel voyager like 10k light years further home. they decide to send someone out in a shuttle to ignite the plasma cloud and then they'll try to pull them back out of the shuttle before the ship gets launched on the shockwave. but its real dangerous, the shuttle could be incinerated, or the pilot could be abandoned here if voyager can't beam them back before they get slingshotted.

its almost a tos immunity syndrome moment where janeway is forced to choose which of her officers and besties she's willing to very likely never see again. due to there being something with the plasma cloud is really hot, tuvok gets chosen bc of his vulcan heat resistance and he'd be able to stay conscious at more extreme temperatures which increases his chances of being able to successfully ignite the cloud and initiate a transport back.

but then! the plasma cloud starts to destabilize real bad on its own and voyager gets smacked really hard and janeway is thrown out of her seatbeltless chair and gets knocked unconscious and has to go to sickbay so now chakotays in charge. with the plasma cloud this much more unstable, the chances of tuvok surviving are basically impossible and chakotay's trying to talk him out of it, but tuvok insists on following through. chakotay ends up ordering him to quit the mission and tuvok ends up stealing a shuttle to do what he thinks janeway would want from him.

chakotay comms him in the shuttle like "tuvok what the fuck are you doing get back here" and he's like "i am following the captains orders. i am getting you home." bonus points if we get a needs of the many throwback here for extra pain. and chakotays like "and what's kathryn gonna think when she wakes up in sickbay and youre not here anymore" and tuvok is like "i would rather have her think fondly on my memory as a reliable friend, than look at me alive and know that my own emotional weakness failed her yet again" and chakotay tries to tractor the shuttle back but tuvok thwarts it or whatever

BUT THEN! janeway wakes up in sickbay! a little disoriented, she comms tuvok. she asks where he is, and can he come to sickbay she wants to talk to him. tuvok. tuvok?

and that's enough to cause him to stop what he's doing for a moment, and the plasma cloud is getting all hot and he's like 4 seconds away from melting but janeways on the comm asking for him and he can't make himself leave her like that and its enough time for chakotay to beam him back and he's got mad heat damage or whatever but he's Alive and they have to fly away real quick before the plasma cloud melts voyager too

and the episode closes on tuvok waking up in sickbay in a biobed next to janeway in her own biobed and she's been briefed on everything that happened and he like can't even look her in the eye because for the third time his own weakness over their friendship caused him to disobey her orders and he can't be trusted as an officer of this ship anymore and janeway's like. i trust you as an officer because i respect you as a friend. not the other way around. your performance on this ship will never be more important to me than the relationship we have built over decades. i know i have a hard time putting down the captains mantle sometimes but i would rather have you defy me than lose you forever.

and tuvok doesn't say anything bc he's still an emotionally constipated vulcan but he turns in the biobed to look at her and he's visibly torn up about this whole thing and janeway just reaches over and silently touches his shoulder and he just reaches up and touches the back of her hand touching him and the episode closes with a slow zoom out on them sharing this moment of friendship and knowing theyre going to be wrestling with this dynamic forever but that they truly are besties now and forever and they care about each other so much

2) a la tng "disaster" voyager is literally partitioned into sections that cannot contact each other by any means due to [spatial anomaly, alien intrusion force that puts the ship on lockdown, pathogen that accidentally become airborne forcing a hard quarantine until emh can get it out of the ventilation, etc]. At the time this occurs, tuvok and naomi wildman are in some weird, hardly ever used section of the ship as tuvok had been teaching her how to do a comprehensive intruder sweep as part of her captains assistant training (she'd been bugging janeway on the bridge and she pleaded for tuvok to get her. anywhere else. for several hours).

one of several pairs/groups the episode follows, tuvok and naomi are trapped in a truly forgotten and lonely corner of the ship and he is forced to enter dadvok mode to keep her calm and occupied until help can arrive. bonus points if naomi gets upset and begs for neelix and tuvok makes an offhand comment about getting annoyed by neelix and naomi thinks that's mean so tuvok is forced to come up with at least 3 genuine compliments about neelix and he does and its very touching.

3) Early seasons crime mystery episode where the telepaths on board (a few vulcans + a few betazed + kes) have been getting weird (not necessarily dangerous) impulsive thoughts. tuvok begins an investigation to try and figure out what's causing it. over the course of the episode, the harder tuvok works to logic out the causation the further away he seems to get. it's only after tuvok gets so frustrated he starts acting illogically that he makes any ground on the case and it turns out they were actually his own suppressed impulses getting amplified into other people's minds by xyz space anomaly. the episode closes on a rumination on tuvok's personal struggle with vulcan philosophy and on how its impossible to perfectly suppress everything and so you gotta know when to crack the floodgates a little bit and allow some choice emotion through; and how it can help you retain a sense of individuality and personhood amongst all these societal rules and all that

4) episode where tuvok and chakotay and maybe some other guys idk have been capture by aliens who are probing their memories and we actually get canon backstory on how tuvok infiltrated the maquis and what his role and relationships were like there and theres just a little bit of homoerotic tension between him and chakotay that is literally never mentioned again but we see them becoming like Really close in the maquis via memory and then watching that trust crumble in real time as they wake up with all the baggage fresh in their mind and know that tuvok was a traitor and then build it back up again as they have to escape together and they manage it and are reminded of the New trust forged as part of voyagers crew together

5) Bonus: tuvok b-plot in which he's trying perfect a meditation program on the holodeck but it keeps dropping him into other people's holoprograms which he has to play to completion (which means he has to get into their mindsets and mannerisms) so the holodeck will reset and he can keep working on his thing. literally like a speedrun of all the voyager holodeck eps that tuvok refused to take part in and now he's forced to .... Or Else

[frogboyandzombieface]

aaa 33 + 35 + 47 + 52 <3

33. most used phrase in your phone?

oh shit umm i dunno ngl do u mean the predictive text?

yeah that's okay lol

apparently that's it HAHAH i dunno what's okay but apparently it's okay 😔

35. average time you fall asleep?

hmmm well definitely always after midnight no matter what cuz im a rat lol but probably like 1-3am on average even with my sleeping meds i have to take🤑always had hella sleeping problems heehee

47. favourite type of cheese?

BROOOO i am a SLUT for swiss cheese. that shit is so good ..... but also buffalo mozzarella 💀💀aaahHHFHFHFJKHKJFH though actually im not that big of a cheese fan ?? i like cheese but i dont eat it all that much lolol. sue me 😭

52. favourite font?

hmm i dunno i love a good times new roman ! but like. im not that knowledgeable on fonts anyway i know like 4 fonts thats it HAHHJDJH

send me an ask! ✨

[tartagliaxx]

hi. i only got to play in inazuma today so here's me live reacting to the archon quest. it's a lil out of context tho so have fun trying to figure out which parts im talking abt. also, this is the only time i'm going to be talking abt spoilers for at least one week so... 🤷‍♀️

swordfish ii? cute.

Jesus Christ. and here i thought it was my lowest settings that made his hair grey… this poor kid. teppei i admire your determination but no… just no...

SCARAMOUCHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

IF EVIL WHY SO HOT

you know.... scaramouche could stand still and the air would get electrified. and yknow,,, that's p... that's p attractive

ugh im disgusting myself. and here i thought i still had an inch of sanity left in me.

of all people it had to be this little jerk

scaramouche is so fucking evil. i’d like ten of him, please.

man,, they expect me to dodge this shit? that’s the biggest l i’ve heard today. none of that shit. i’m bringing out my zhong and my sweet madames skrrt

sayu is adorable… i remember when i had hopes of growing up too… alas, it has come to this.

OH MY GOD AYATO CRUMBS. I AM LICKING THAT SHIT UP. PLEASE— HE HAS A SECRET UNIT. THATS SO HOT WTF. AYATO MY DEAR, PLEASE DONT BE A REGULAR ICKY NPC BUT WHITE HAIRED…

SNEAKY SNEAK. SNEAKY SNEAK.

THOMA OH MY GOD MY MALEWIFE. HOW HAVE YOU BEEN? also, sayu’s sleeping again. this girl’s got talent. is her circadian rhythm okay?

pains me to be the bearer of all bad news and no good news…

WAIT THOMA IS LEAVING NO DONT LEAVE YET I WANT TO LOOK AT YOU MORE

oh nvm he’s still in the background.

EYY WHATS UP AYAKA. YOU’RE AS FINE AS EVER.

i… i don’t like where this is going… i refuse to be the bait. i’m too hot for that. so spicy they’ll spit me right out

DONT VOLUNTEER YOURSELF LUMINE— GIVE ME AN OPTION OR AT LEAST AN ‘OH SHIT HERE WE GO AGAIN’ LINE

YES FIREWORKS THAT WOULD WORK RIGHT? PLEASE TELL ME THAT WOULD WORK-

oh thank god… wait... they… they wouldn’t ask me to be the one to set off the fireworks right?

UNFORTUNATELY NO. AFTER YOU BECOME A FREE MAN, YOU’RE IMMEDIATELY MARRYING ME THOMA ANJKFHAIGHLANGKLAHOFJLKAB

oh crap… i’m… i’m in deep.

HE’S BEEN LOOKING FORWARD TO SEEING US AGAIN EVERY DAY SINCE HE GOT THERE ANFLaglvbajlfblabvljabefva;bfalLJBLJDABVBAALSNADL tumblr user @tartagliaxx is broken. she is now irreparable. she has no regrets. goodbye.

ehem… what if… you and i… and hotsprings… together?? JUST KIDDING. PG-13 OVER HERE. NOTHING INDECENT WHATSOEVER MOVE ALONG NOW

poor thoma,,,

oh come on ayaka… cut us some slack… i just watched lumine wheeze bc of evil purple mist only to be dragged into 2 timeskips and an entire training arc. dont let her be yet another traumatized shounen manga protagonist… altho, it might be uh… too late for that…

oh dear… is thoma going to get another round of diarrhea?

OF COURSE. OF COURSE IT’S ME DOING ALL THE WORK. OF COURSE IT’S ME WHO’S RISKING MY LIFE ALL OVER AGAIN. GOD! GIVE LUMINE A BREAK. BEING A TRAVELER DOES NOT MEAN IT’S FREE REAL ESTATE.

hello yoimiya… still looking as bomb as ever i see……… mhm… gonna see myself out rn…

HELP MY SHITTY GRAPHICS COMPLETELY ERADICATED HER BROWS

oh god… are we dying because of fireworks? forget getting caught by the patrol… we’re about to light up an untested firework that was made to be a billion times more explosive….

NO. SHE SAID IT. SHE SAID THE CURSED SENTENCE. WHATS THE WORST THAT COULD HAPPEN? IDK YOU TELL ME. YOU JUST SENTENCED US TO DEATH YOIMIYA GREAT GOING still love you tho.

man… these patrol guards aint shit… i literally walked an inch behind their backs and they did nothing… its a surprise the rebellion still hasn’t won when they place guards like this in their ranks………. ok that was kinda mean i’ll apologize in a bit.

SAYU OMG… DONT WORRY I’LL SNEAK YOU OUT AND RISK MY LIFE willingly JUST TO RESCUE YOU. ILYSM HONEY YOU’RE DOING SO WELL

no, paimon. it’s not but we’re doing it anyway 🤡

NO ONE TOLD ME WE’RE GOING TO RUN. I WENT COMPLETELY OFF COURSE. first try tho 😏

HELLO THOMA. HELLO AYAKA.

HELLO SAYU. HOW DID IT GO? IM GUESSING IT WENT WELL BC YOU’RE STILL ALIVE?

oh no….. she’s worn herself out…. man,,, this is why you dont make convicts out of kids….

WE ASKED SAYU FOR AN INCH AND SHE GAVE AS TEN THOUSAND MILES. SAYU MY CHILD YOU EXCEED EXPECTATIONS

god, don’t remind me. as hot as the shogun trying to kill us w her blade was, i don’t appreciate almost getting murdered on screen (even if we most certainly have plot armor)

awwww is thoma worried about me uwu owo? dw i have like… a lumine w 6% crit rate by my side

sigh… i dont want to leave yet… cant i just stay by thoma’s side and not go to war for a change?

it was at this moment that tumblr user lei saw the wonders of being a housewife.

oh sara… my stars… i’m so sorry. i feel so bad for you but at the same time… this oddly makes me want to write a song for you ABJFJKABJABCABVABVKA I KNOW JACK SHIT ABT SONGWRITING WHY AM I THINKING LIKE THIS

well… there she goes…

oh…. oh….. yae is stealing my heart. WHAT DO I DO WHAT DO I DO (i have an alt for a reason heehee)

DEAR LORD. PLEASE STEP ON MY NECK SARA.

these guys got guts to say ‘i’m sorry ma’am’ to THE kujou sara.

oh old man… you’re dead. you’re so dead.

man… this old man is a simp? sheesh.

YES. GO TELL EM PAIMON. PREACH THAT SHIT LOUD AND CLEAR.

oh my god… is that dude dead? i probably should’ve uh apologized b4 he flopped down to the ground ig…

MAN,, SARA’S DOWN FOR THE COUNT?? tbf i didnt expect much but…. also, AYE SIGNORA’S SO ICY.

she’s calling me out for being a simp ;-; heart been broke so many times or smth

OH SHIT LUMINE SPOKE. MAN,, WHY IS SHE SO COOL.

oh… i love this part of the vow… im suddenly inspired to write… how about a wedding au? an angsty wedding au?

goddamn… it’s been nice knowing you all…. i dont think i’ll come out of this alive if signora went out like that…

WHATS HAPPENING? ARE YOU SAYING KAZUHA WENT THROUGH THIS BS? IS LUMINE OKAY-

DID THEY REALLY JUST STORM THE ENTIRE FUCKING CAPITAL?? THEY HAVE SOME NERVE.

FUCK OMG KAZUHA AHHAHFHAFHAHGKJABKASBGA IM TEARING UP WTF WHY AM I GETTING EMOTIONAL- HONEY BUN THATS SO HOT OF YOU TO DO

oh… oh it’s time for round two? haha… time to… say my goodbyes….

yo… there are actual tears in my eyes… like… idk why… but that cutscene? shit man… that hit me…

hm… i feel bad for the shogun… ultimately, there is reason behind every act no matter how horrid. no matter how unreasonable, the reason one thinks of is always justified on their end. whatever everyone else thinks pay little effect on whether the act is fulfilled or not. also, her little laugh? i’m extra deceased.

the animation's fire as always wtf

oh but my kokoro... oof... my kokoro... ugh...

I’M SO FUCKING DONE AJKFHAKJBVAK- WE BEAT A HARBINGER AND FOR WHAT? she should’ve just tossed that gnosis into the ocean or smth...

HAH OMG SCARAMOUCHE. WHAT A MAN. I’M- I WAS RIGHT OMG. I HAD A LIL THEORY AND ITS JUST SMTH I HAD IN THE BACK OF MY MIND. I NEVER THOUGHT IT’LL ACTUALLY COME TRUE DEAR LORD. so now ig i have to admit i think abt him a lot and he has a soft spot in my heart 🥺 he’s evil you see and you know what my type is? evil men or at the very least, men with the potential to be evil. ugh so annoying.

scaramouche banner when

bc i sold everything worthy of money in me (read as my organs) for albedo, i'll sell my soul for him how about that?

EYE- makoto huh… well… fuck…

it’s day 400 of being ayato less even if he’s like… teased a million of times (jk it’s like… a grand total of seven but thats still p high)

im so… sigh…

i wonder if i’m still alive by the time sumeru releases… at the very least, i know my brain wouldn’t be.

....we were literally a captain for like... one second. that is so sad.

[ainti-pretty]

Hi!

What do you think about Iorveth in realationship? And can you write differences (if you think they will be), if his "love" is human or elf.

yeah! i can!

as a multishipper (heehee) ill just write for all of them bc i imagine each take place during VERY different times in his life. it also describes the relationship and that dynamic so yea. i hope this is what u wanted. oops

its also a bit long!! so there is a cut

tw: (all are mentioned and its not too in deth but be careful) death, trauma, drinking

first, id like to start of with iorveth as a youngster:

-he was probably rlly fucking hot as teen/young adult before he really got involved in the scoia'tael and got the scar and probably. slept around a lot. he probably wasnt big on commitment as he was young and maybe was in a few long(ish) term relationships but he mostly just chilled until his parents were killed by humans and he got his scar

next, onto beginnings of scoia'tael years/cedric:

-i think that iorveth and cedric joined together as friends but gradually grew closer

-but, after he got the scar i think it fucked up his self esteem so he was a lot less open with his affections

-the trauma of losing his parents and being there was. in short. not good.

-i feel like he definately got incredibly invested in the scoia'tael during this time because it and cedric were all he had

-and he dearly loved cedric, and although he had lost a ton of his self esteem, he found strength in cedric and they were a power couple for a few decades. the slept together, they cuddled, they held hands whenever they had the chance, and they truly truly loved each other very much

-until cedrics health/mental health got worse and they broke up (which broke both their hearts), and iorveth blamed himself when cedric left the scoia'tael.

moving onto ciaran:

-ciaran (as per my previous hc on him) lost his parents as a teen and was wandering around trying to get revenge on humans whenever he could for years before iorveth met him.

-naturally, iorveth fell hard.

-but, after cedric left he decided to bottle it up and ignore bc he didnt want to ""ruin"" anyone else again by being too invested in the scoia'tael.

-unfortunately for iorveth, ciaran also fell in love with him, and after years of waiting when hes second in command, ciaran confessed

-iorveth flipped the fuck out because he was like. no. that cant be possible! im unlovable and i hurt people and im just going to ruin him!

-this is partially because of what happened with cedric, and partially because ciaran (although CERTAINLY an adult), is definately younger, and iorveth thinks he deserves better than him

-he knows what hes done for the scoia'tael and knows hes not a good person, and hopes that he can scare ciaran into leaving.

-it doesnt work. and they both end up crying.

-once they are together though, there is a definate change in their relationship vibe from iorveth and cedrics. they certainly sleep together and cuddle and do all the relationship things that cedric and iorveth did, but iorveth is clearly holding something back

-they decide that while they both love each other dearly, they cannot be in a health/stable relationship with just each other because its clear that iorveth is in no way able to properly be in a relationship at that moment

-they decide to open up the relationship and thats where vernon roche comes in

yeah. vernon roche. this is where iorveth sorta has a. oh fuck its a human moment.

-as you all know, roche was the leader of the scoia'tael in flotsams greatest enemy, the blue stripes, a special forces commando designed to stop the scoia'tael.

-after having a WHOLE enemies to lovers situation, they find themselves in a situation.

-they both love each other. and they are both two war criminals who FINALLY end on the same side after years of fighting (lets just say iorveth joined for the kaer morhen fight against the wild hunt) and it seems like everything is fine

-its not.

-first of all, they both have lots and lots of issues other than that they are both war criminals:

1. iorveth has never dated a human before, let alone a man he nearly killed and has nearly killed him on many occasions.

2. iorveth feels like hes betraying the ideals of the scoia'tael along with his parents for dating a human, and this feeling hits even moreso bc its roche.

3. iorveth has loads and loads of attachment issues, and even though he and ciaran still have their thing going on (that roche is aware of and understands), he still really hasnt been in any recent relationships that havent ended in someone leaving

4. iorveth really doesnt quite understand human customs other than what he can tell from spying. he spends lots of time in the woods and knows far more about trade routes to and from flotsam than he really knows of human culture. its almost embarassing.

5. iorveth sometimes gets worried its all a ploy to get roche to kill him and that theres plans to hurt the former scoia'tael due to anti-elf racism

moving onto roches issues, which while there are less of, they dont help:

1. as a child of a sex worker and single mother, roche found himself also getting involved in sex work, which gave him consent issues bc he really did have a choice in the matter bc it was do the job or starve.

2. hes a half elf but right before he was drafted into the army he cut the tips of his ears off to make him look more human. this makes it hard for him to connect w iorveth bc he really doesnt know elf customs, but doing human customs just never felt right

3. he also has some issues from his previous relationship w foltest, which was Not Even slightly healthy, and is still trying to cope w the realization that it was worse than he thought

all of this results in a lot of miscommunication, especially because iorveth (for a long time DURING the relationship) didnt know roche was half-elf and wanted to do all the elven traditions he hadnt been able to join. they dont know what the other wants, and they dont know what the other needs because once again. issues galore. iorveth also probably would be more able to get into fights than any other relationships (because unlike ciaran or cedric, roche is abrasive) which means that there would be a lot of hurt at the beginning of it.

HOWEVER, after they actually talk, and roche is like. hey im half elf, and more than willing to do things the traditional elven way (which iorveth is far more familiar and comfortable with), they sorta get into a routine of things.

and it begins to be a secure and steady and healthy relationship.

tdlr: iorveth has shitty self worth, trust issues and struggles with communication sometimes so things get muddled but when he falls, he falls hard. but the relationships hes in are very different depending on who it is. hes more comfortable with other nonhumans, but even before knowing roche is half-elf, he would give his life for them.

[radiovisual]

(( quick, post the introspective baby thoughts before all the mutuals wake up--

(( honestly like... im gonna try not to get Into it bc this post is abt my Alastor, but to preface, i just gotta say. The way fandom usually tends to approach the concept of canon characters having Babies has always Severely weirded me out, and i only recently figured out Why, and how exactly to put it into words.

(( its by no means a bad thing--its just fictional fun, i know!--but the portrayal of pregnancy and surprise children always being a very "oh no, look at this pregnancy test! Im PrEgNaNt, this is a travesty! I HAVE to keep it though, because everyone else wants me to so we can have a little tiny version of me to dote on a get into shenanigans about heehee haha!" Is... frustrating. To say the least.

(( and its... important to me, that You all know that when i talk about my alastor having kids, or wanting kids, that that's not the way I look at it. Thats not at all the way i envision it, or look at it. In another case of me being Classic Lil Old Me, a lot of these feelings i give Alastor are me projecting my own experiences with the topic on him, and me taking the opportunity to live them vicariously.

(( Alastor looked up to his mother, and by extension, his aunts and grandmother so, so much. Growing up he saw them all go through a lot of hardship, and still doing what they could to take care of their children, to keep them happy and safe, and to help them feel free and boundless--like they could go out in the world and do anything they could dream of. And he also saw mothers who clearly weren't ready to be mothers. Women who resented their children, and often only coasted by giving them the bare minimum, or were downright cruel to them. These experiences in his childhood were very formative for him as a person, and they sculpted his feelings on the prospect of having children quite a bit--in having seen both the best and the worse, he made the conscious choice that when he had children one day (never if--always w h e n), he would take these lessons he learned from watching others, and that he would use them to do his damndest to give his child the best, happiest childhood possible.

(( the main reason he never got around to it was because he was so apprehensive around men--particularly the ones stemmed from how his father was. His primary source of information on how fathers were was in his own--a man who was inexplicably possessive, volatile, and unforgiving, who expected to have total control over the lives of both the mother and child at all times, regardless of marital, living, or financial status. He expected everything to belong to him simply by virtue of having added a single ingredient to the family pot. And while they were less drastic or important in his formation of these feelings, Alastor noticed a watered down version of this mentality in pretty much every adult man he met in his entire life--and it didnt sit well with him in the slightest.

(( an overbearing, abusive father who refuses to back off would throw a major wrench in his plans to give his child a worry-free life, as you can imagine. As would financial troubles--though he would admit, choosing to pursue a career over family was moreso an excuse to keep his mind of his father anxieties--and the fact that he was just too nervous to try to find a solution to that problem.

(( and then he died. And he never got the chance to go through with any of his plans. That lost opportunity, that grief over wasting his chance, was another othe the puzzle pieces in the collage of grievances the spurred his explosive reaction to arriving in hell, and the destruction and ruin that followed.

(( he doesn't know it, but because ive decided to go through with making him half hellborn, ive also decided that he does have the potential to get pregnant still--just to sooth my own aching heart. Even if it never happens on this blog, just the potential being there makes me happy. And should be ever find out--he'd be very happy too. And far more eager to actually pursue that wish of his, likely without much thought to how being in Hell will complicate matters and make his goal that much harder to achieve.

((If it happened, whether or not hed regret it would depend quite a bit on the specifics of the situation--but that regret would always be for failing to think it through, and forcing his innocent child to live a life condemned without any way out. Not for realizing he didnt really want children. He's spent his whole life thinking about it. Hed never expect it to be easy, and he believes that fact is important to the experience--and perhaps indeed even the point. That he should be able to handle all of the bad things, so that his child wont be the one suffering through them.