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i am so glad this week is finally (almost) over
i had an appointment with my pcp on monday to see about this possible kidney stone situation
they did a urinalysis on me and sure enough i do have some blood in my urine so that plus the pain means it's likely there's a stone, but i'm in a situation again where i haven't had any pain for days so it's like...that's not good !! (especially since this has been going on for a few months at this point !)
they ordered me a ct scan which i had today so i'm hoping maybe sometime tomorrow i'll get the results of that and we can maybe figure out what's going on
i also had a dentist appointment on wednesday but it was just a cleaning and my dentist said everything looks good. it is kinda funny because i was actually supposed to have this appointment months ago but decided to reschedule because i had too much going on that week and so it got pushed out until now and then i end up having even more shit to do this week than i did back then so...oh well !! it's finally done
and tomorrow i've gotta do some of my usual errands (mostly taking the garbage off and getting a few things from the grocery store) and then i think i'll finally be done !! hopefully !!
hope you have a good, restful weekend coming up if you're reading this !! <3
#i'm just hoping and praying at this point that i've passed the stone if that is what it is#and that i don't get a call about this ct and it's like#uh hey you're gonna need a procedure to get this thing out before you start to go septic again#just....please god not again#but i guess if that is the situation then we'll just deal with it#anyway#in any case i at least got all my work done for the week so that's something#i've had to work later to make up for all the time i've been out at these appointments but i did it !!#and now hopefully this weekend i can just......rest#please god#i do have a lot of stuff i need to look over for school because i have a meeting with my student advisor next week#and although i appreciate him sending me all this information it's.....a lot#and i'm kind of starting to panic now like 'uh-oh!! uh-oh what have i gotten myself into ?!'#but i'm gonna just...power through it and keep going#because i really want this now and it's probably gonna add a bunch of stress to my life#when i already don't really have a lot of room for that but#i think in the end it'll be worth it#so that's what we're holding out for#and in the mean time if my body could just.....not have any more health problems#that would be fucking amazing thank you#anyhow#i didn't get a lot of sleep last night so i'm gonna go to bed now#it's just gonna be me here this weekend because mom's off with her boyfriend#which is fine i like having the place to myself#but i also have to take care of our dog by myself and he's way more attached to her than me#so he tends to be super anxious when she's not here#and so we're gonna do our best with that as well#but part of that also means i gotta get up ass early to let him out to go potty#so i'm gonna go get a few hours in before it's time for that#and then once i run my errands tomorrow i can maybe hopefully finally unwind a little
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revamped my tensa zangetsu redesign and redrew an old piece
#tensa zangetsu#zangetsu#hollow ichigo#bleach#sart#oc#she is also 👍 an si-oc#what if you died and were reborn and then found out you were the manifestation of your childhood friend's soul sword?#and then spent a decade of your life fighting extreme anxiety and overstimulation!#and also your best friend is in love with you! if you share a soul is that narcissism?#anyway i guess im in my revisiting old ocs era#nothing's holding my interest and also the semester is starting : D so we're back to old comforts#the piece was from 2019 and was janky af it's so fun to see how far i've come in 5 yrs
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Amy...
#shes so cool i hope shes holding up back in town well enough#who knows but she probs has a way better handle on it being the sheriff and all- maybe for FV2? idk... i hope#also reading vol 4 and going OH oh Amy knows whats happening like she KNOWS Jack is not guilty from the start but she needs to act like it#fr ok so like bottom of page 81 in vol 4 “after this we're even” I BET shes talking to Roger cuz of his whole favors thing#i swear shes like trying to protect Jack in her own way the whole book trying to get to him before the others do but she needs him alone#she just cant say or act like it in case the wrong people are listening in cuz we all know Roger has his strings connected to a LOTTA peopl#we know Roger bugs shit from how he dealt with Eric in FV he probs did the same thing with O'Brian so she HAD to be careful#just my theory#also the dress from vol3 cuz idk i kinda liked drawing her out of uniform#she may usually be put as the 4th member of the gang and not have as much time as the others but ta hell if she isnt important#tales from the gas station#tftgs#tftgs art#tftgs fanart#tftgs obrien#amy o'brian#fanart#art#artwork#character design#illustration
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Actually it turns out I had more thoughts about that post that I forgot about lol
Would Nightmare actually give up his boys? Yes and no
If it was just a black and white situation of they're miserable, they don't wanna be here, they have somewhere better to be, then yes. He would leave them out to wherever they needed to be despite his own feelings and very quickly realise afterwards just how much he'd gotten used to the noise and company. I think he would get a little clingy with Dream about it, which I'm sure Dream would find very weird after everything but not unwelcome, he did miss his brother after all.
(If he couldn't attach himself to Dream's side for whatever reason, I think he might just sit in his castle and go insane. Or maybe he'd just spend all day at Ccino's trying really hard to project that he just likes the atmosphere and isn't lonely as hell)
But the thing is, most of them don't have somewhere better to be. Horror has his au, and Nightmare would keep up the supply of food even if Horror said he wanted to quit at this point, so he would understandably let him return home. Killer, Dust and Cross effectively don't have aus anymore though, and they tend to get into self-destructive habits when they're left to their own devices. (Obviously bringing Color and Epic into the mix to make sure Killer and Cross are taken care of eases matters, but Dust doesn't really have any friends outside their group he could go stay with - that Nightmare knows about at least).
The flipside of this is that his boys may not necessarily want to be given up. I think if Nightmare got really in his head about this he could easily end up convinced this is the right thing to do without ever asking them if it's what they want, with potentially terrible results. He's established such a pattern of always returning to find Killer when they get seperated, that if he never showed up Killer might just keep sitting there and waiting for him greyfriar's bobby style, refusing to leave because he's certain his boss is coming back.
#UTDR#UTMV#Dadmare#Horror and Dust might take it slightly better but I think they still wouldn't appreciate being rehomed out of the blue with no discussion#Don't get me started on Cross he has such a bad track record with people not showing up for him as it is#If Nightmare left him to live with Epic one day Cross would spend the rest of his life thinking he did something wrong#and wondering what it was that he wasn't worth keeping#I do think the idea of him getting glued to Dream's hip must be funny for Blue tho#''Yes this is the being of all negativity in the multiverse. Don't mind him we're holding hands because he gets seperation anxiety''#I feel like a lot of this could come from Color's suspicion of him. because he's very much on Killer's side from the beginning#And Nightmare wasn't good at the beginning so it's understandable. it's hard to take Killer's word that he's changed because#Killer /would/ say that whether it's true or not y'know?#But I think Color shining a light on how things began makes Nightmare reflect a lot on their situation#Not to say that Color's the bad guy or anything obviously. He's respecting Killer's decisions while also keeping a good level of suspicion#about how Nightmare treats them when he's not around#It just makes Nightmare uneasy because he's made a lot of mistakes in the past and he's still learning#He is - for now at least - very very aware of just how mortal they are#And he wants to do right by them. even if it means giving them up to better places#I need to finish my fanfic... Anyway.#Luckily for him - in this particular case - this is where they are all best suited c:#Alright I let this cook in my drafts for about 3 days with some edits it can be posted now lol
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scrolling through the severance tag I've seen like six different variations of the sentences "I need to know what their fucking deal is/i need to know what is going on with them/i need to know what they're doing" about like seven different characters AND dynamics and I think that's how you know you've written a great show
#severance#severance season 2#severance apple tv#like seriously i love knowing we're all shaky and on the verge of a collective fever out of sheer need to know what the hell is going on#like i need to know Everything. what is everyone's deal. every character holds their cards so close to their chests sometimes
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I will admit I'm a little salty that people, in an effort to prove that there is no good dialogue in Veilguard at all, keep comparing mission exposition to the high point narrative set pieces of prior games. I agree that some of the writing related to plot mechanics and mission exposition in Veilguard is a little too utilitarian, but that doesn't mean none of the dialogue is good or that prior games didn't also sometimes have this issue here and there.
I also generally dislike when people put the bar for good writing — and all writing too, not even just dialogue writing, ALL writing — at mic-drop sentences that still sound good completely divorced from context, because that really just reduces "good writing" down to like fake-deep philosophizing or witty quips exclusively. sometimes, a really good bit of dialogue sounds like a completely normal sentence out of context.
#Also writing includes what's on the screen! The castling scene is good writing! Rook struggling to hold onto the statues AND the dagger?#The Siege of Weisshaupt is good writing! It is writing when Rook opens those doors to see Ghilan'nain and realizing oh this is....#Blood of Arlathan! But like just going back to dialogue writing#I think a lot about that INCREDIBLE bit of dialogue in Psych where Shawn say “Since I met you‚ I've been thinking about getting a car.”#Which is a perfectly normal sentence out of context but it makes me so warm bc I know the context#“That he forgives me. And that I deserve it.” is an INCREDIBLE moment that NEEDS its context#“What did we sign up for?” “Love‚ I think.” is another one#But even if we were to just go for Veilguard lines that are still great out of context? It has those?#I see all of you into “There is no fate but the love we share” which IS a great quote#“He is loyal to nothing but his own fears” and “The gods! They give strength but all they ask in return is everything”#“Regret is even strong enough to serve as the lock on a prison built to hold gods. But such a prison can hold any captive... even you.”#“Everything dies. People�� cities‚ empires. Fashions. Your favorite song. Things fade and are forgotten. [cont.]#Why would you want to outlast everything you love? It sounds like a terrible fate.”#“Do you really think something inside you has changed?” “It's possible. Or maybe we're the same. But does that mean we'll BE the same?”#“The cost of mercy is too high when others may die in its wake.”#and so on and so on and that's just stuff I remember off the top of my head#DATV things
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I don't usually like posting WIPs but I don't see the harm in posting here so have some Royal Margarine comic sketches ;P
#drawing the dragon in perspective is actually whats holding me up so if i figure that out then we're back in business#and maybe playing tw//sted w//nderland and t//uken r//nbu might have me preoccupied a lil but shhhh#okay I'll stop posting for today now#art wip#royal margarine cookie
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Tartarus is still a little broken and that's Fun !
#so far playing through all of this i have to say. the no level cap increase makes me feel cheated#with how much questing we're doing and all#iirc they said they wanted to take companion promos seriously but did this whole. Hawkules thing#where you have to get a drop and they eventually needed to increase its rate in this recent update#and if you wanted it without farming you have to pay 10 bucks worth of crowns for it now#you know! to promote a companion! but see you can just BUY a companion in the crownshop using that real money#if you cant tell ive not been a fan of this new promotion method and this is taking it 'seriously'?#granted ive just started tartarus so i kind of want to hold my tongue and see the rest for myself rn#so far these quests are Good and Bad. they definitely went in the right direction but. no level cap kind of hurts.#still feels like we're stuck in one place even though we're moving forward#there's a lot of great concepts and even better dialogue to even out the bad#but at what point do we feel it's worth doing all this effort for. a couple new mid comps and a chance at a main comp promo?#keep in mind all this posting is just my own opinion. i know there's ppl out there that either love or loathe these additions#and i find myself in the middle tbh#i find this story fine and good so far i guess but i don't know if i'm still going to feel this way by the end of it#and yes yes 'be grateful p101 even got updates' while wiz continues to get new worlds and level cap increases. wonderful to be where we are#rambling#vent
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here's an update for all the "tOuRiSm iS fOr ThE pEoPlE" fucks. always remember that the second anyone steps foot on that land in the name of "tourism" or any other haole institution, that is colonizing&that person is a fucking explicit modern colonizer who made the conscious decision to be one and has spent a lot of fucking money on that trip to get their title. only that kine want more of their kin there-- don't pretend that shit is for anyone else.
drop dead of spontaneous combustion specifically, not even the sharks would want that pīlau fucking meat.
#video footage of haole families already in burnt wasteland is so fucking dystopic its almost funny#'funny' in the way of 'i might have rabies bc im foaming at the mouth lol'. bc fuck if i wouldnt literally#rip these ppl to fucking shreds. god bless whoever took the pics&vids bc i couldnt havd held my tongue.#you know we're all fucked when the governor is holding private back-chamber business-only meetings#to decide to open a fire wasteland two months after 1000+ ppl were killed&where ppl are still looking for remains to tourism#&it honestly seems so much less disgusting bc theres literally footage of haole families already disregarding any form of boundaries.#like this is what we've come to lmao.#i have so. much. violence. in me&no where to put it lmao. i want to go home. i miss home so bad. i am so fucking homesick.#i think the next person who responds to finding out im from hawaii w anecdotes of their trip there will probably get knocked out.#like i dont actually think i should be held responsible for that first hit. anything after is fair game tho i guess.#undescribed
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It's pomegranate season :)
A redraw of this piece from around a year ago
#hello guys...(:#i started school back in mid September! its hell#and my chronic pain is rly bad these days i can barely do anything#and my next break will be spent at the hospital#but love and light at least we're trucjing along and getting somewhere hopefully#this drawing isn't exactly the most finished the most effortful what have you but its all i can guve you#confession time: idk if i have it in me to keep drawing the guys#dont get me wrong still adore them. but i feel a little out of it#maybe this'll change the second i post this but whatever.#i had an amazing time being active in the fandom you guys are so sweet and you got me thru rough patches <3#I'll still be around just even more inactive#anyway i hope you enjoy this!!!#i feel like I've improves substantially which is good#cwilbur#dsmp fanart#my art#thx to everyone that's loved my art yall hold a special place in my heart#alright bye bye xoxo#ps esteemed mutuals and lovely audience never hesitate talking to me i am always around and i love ppl I'm just socially anxious#fennec.art
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"Alright...let's go talk to your father."
Pocahontas (1995)
#not sure when i'm ever gonna get around to giffing the rest of this scene so#here u go~#disney's pocahontas#pocahontasedit#disneyedit#fyeahpocahontas#disneyfeverdaily#disney pocahontas#disney john smtih#pocahontas x john smith#pocajohn#pocahontas#john smith#this is such a sweet moment y'kno?#they are Stupid in love#and there's so much to say about the characters and the body language they went with here likeeeeeee#i mean ever since they Almost Kissed after Colors of the Wind and Pocahontas ducked out#it seemed that John was like ''okay so we're putting that possibility away Right Now that's fine.''#bc he's actually. like. really respectful of her boundaries. if she sets one he's like ''OK 👍!''#and now it's like. if all they ever did after that was hold hands and nothing more he'd accept that. do u see what i mean?#so her hugging him here is like. He's SURPRISED by it and that is so wild to me#bc they Are physical in so many ways like they're so comfortable in each others' space. and all the little touchesssss#but they've never crossed a certain line til This Moment and now the Line Is Being Crossed#and there's this sense of Relief happening with the music and the setting#and the expressions and the Everything#UHGHGHGHHG i'm rambling but they drive me so crazy dude.#queso*gif#queso*edit#pocahontas (1995)
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i can't stop thinking how funny it would be if gareth's brothers did in fact recognise him and were just like 'well clearly he has his reasons so let's all be good big bros and pretend we don't know him' and then spend the next few weeks before he goes off on his quest pretending extremely badly that they have never ever met this kitchen boy before nope not at all even while other knights are looking at them and looking at gareth and going 'hmmm'
#gawain can't resist giving weird brotherly pep talks every time he passes him like 'keep up the good work kid! we're all rooting for you!'#and then turns to ragnelle to whisper loudly 'that was ok that was normal and convincing right' while she rolls her eyes#gaheris bumps into him in a corridor and startles like a deer and is like 'hahaha random kitchen boy i certainly have never met before what#fine weather we are having in these parts hahaha i shall be leaving now through the door over there good bye' and then#walks into a broom cupboard and has to awkwardly back out again while gareth stands there#holding a broom that he was just about to put back in the broom cupboard#agravaine nearly manages to pass by without incident while gareth is scrubbing floors but at the last second brotherly instinct takes over#and he kicks the bucket of suds over yelling 'you missed a spot dickwad!' before sprinting away#gareth is just 'wow my brothers are bigger freaks and weirdos than i remember i don't want to be associated with these losers'#meanwhile arthur is like 'kay can you please just tell them all that you know who he is because i cannot take this farce much longer'#kay: ... oh so now im not allowed to have fun am i? fucking tyrant
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In the process of creating a thrall, the illithid halves the creature's intelligence, and then adds 1d6 to the creature's new intelligence to create its final intelligence. This means that, for creatures at 10 intelligence or below, being thralled by an illithid has a chance to permanently increase their intelligence score, with a higher chance of an increase of intelligence the lower the original intelligence.
This process, notably, does not modify the creature's body or non-intelligence statistics, thus meaning that any intelligence gained is simply a net gain for the creature's statistical total. There is also a stage in the middle where the creature's intelligence is halved, but the 1d6 extra intelligence has not been added on. So, for example, if you are an 8-intelligence Barbarian, you will have approximately 24 hours of having the intelligence of a giant weasel, or perhaps a single cranium rat. This is a normal thing to do to people.
#we speak#dungeons and dragons#“why are you researching this mantis god” “why is this information relevant” “what are you even doing in there”#thats for us to know and you to find out. or not. our computer can't run bg3 so we're pirating it via lets play instead#we are very fond of karlach. we are remarkably weak to dumb bruiser characters if they have more substance to their characters than just#Being Dumb Bruisers or Being Dumb Bruisers With A Heart Of Gold#she displays many excellent traits such as giving approval when you lick a spider. and knowing what roasted dwarf tastes like.#also the engine. of course. always a fan of noncon body modification. her bad ending is pretty sexy also#these are opinions that all people should hold
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IMAGINE. working at ur stupid uhhh job or whatever. pulling into your drive way and ready to work on some crazy project in your garage. opening the door to the most unfamiliar silence. did your wife and kid leave for something? could you imagine knocking on your kids door, hardly getting an answer, and opening it to find the splattered remains of your wife across his room your child is scared! hes hardly consolable, in a state of shock and terror. you are too, but youre the adult here. you need to take charge. you need to protect him. you need to do something. you need to do something.
#cw gore#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi prime defenders#jrwi pd spoilers#ashe winters#LOOOORRRD HELP ME THIS IS A YEAR OLD AND I HAAAATE LOOKIN AT IIITTTT ALL I CAN SEE ARE MY MISTAAAKESSS RRAAGHHHGGG ITS FINE THOUGH#ITS FIIIINE ITS ALL FIIIIIIINE!! IM HARSHER ON MY ART THAN ANYONE ELSE ITS FIIIIIINE IIITTSFFIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINEEEE#ANWYAY SO I THINK ALOT ABOUT THE FACT HE KILLED HIS MOM. FUUUUCKED UP. POOR GUY.. i wish i could learn more about what that day was like#the lil scenario wrote is my own silly little headcanon. but what really happened on that day? was mark there? or did he come home to it?#how violent was it really? was ashe awake the whole time? does he remember exactly how he killed her? does he remember?#who was mrs winters? what was she like? i like to think she was the one that gave ashe the book. taught him what she could before. yknow.#did ashe or mark try to destroy it afterwards? i could imagine mark throwing it into a fire. only for it to reappear with ashe#maybe ashe couldnt destroy it but i could imagine him hiding it. hiding away from it. and yet when we find him he holds it so close#its the only thing he can do! no super powers or anything. this was it. why would he ever throw away the only thing hes good at?#AND GOOD GOD MARK... TURNING TO MERCENARY WORK OVER IT ALL... SELLING HIS SOUL TO A LAbortory that changed him in immense ways#when did it get bad enough for him to start covering his face? what was ashe thinking? he knew his dad was up to something but what?#maRK HAS SUUUCH A CRAZY KILL COUNT TOO. I THINK THE HIGHEST IN THE SERIES IF WE'RE NOT LOOKIN AT THE GODS OR WATEV#MASS MURDER. MAN HAS COMMITTED MASS MURDER AND BROKE OUT OF SUPER VILLAIN PRISON WITH A PEN. MAN BUILDS IRON MAN SUITS IN HIS BASEMENT#OKay okay enough of my ramblin okayokay i just REALLY LOVE THIS SSHHOOOOWWW DUUUDEE EEUUGHTHTHHRHGHGH I LOVE THE WINTERS FAMILY...
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Hey
Hey
Hey
*crawls into your nest and hugs you*
Good morning~❤️
*nest severely simplified
Oh boy, friend to hug! Don't mind if I do <3 Welcome to the snooze zone I hope you'll enjoy your stay :3c <3
#answer let luce#themeeplord#we're holding hands#is it ironic I got out of bed to draw this?#maybe#but I have things to do and having some motivation actually helps a lot hfdjs#i love that every ask you send its like “hi im hugging you!” and im going “but what about if *I* hug *you*”#i got too lazy drawing more plushies im sorry to all my little friends#i also got too lazy for the accurate number of blankets and pillows so gfhdjsk#come to cozyland stay a while#snork mimimi and all that#hehe <3
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My day be so fine
But then the
Y e a r n i n g, , ,
#oobh#ouhgggz#yearning for what you ask?#yes.#i wish i could hold Mal and be able to bask in eachothers prescence and feel him and smooch him and hfbck#i wish i lived closer or was able to do the same with my online friends#i wish i could just walk over to any of your houses and we could go be young and dumb and alive together#i wish i could bundle up on a cold night and feel my cat curl up at my feet#i wish i could do new things and old things and explore and just chill with the ppl i love#i wish there werent these barriers between being able to do these things like my husbands being made up or my beloved friends being hundreds#of thousands of miles away#i wish i could make a pillow fort with my friends and play dumb games and fall asleep together and wake up way too early cuz were just#unable to sit still when theres so much to be done together#i wish i could sit in comfortable silence with any of you while we're doing our own things but still enjoying eachothers presence#i wish i could go out into my dinky little town with yall and hit up every store in the mall even if we dont buy anything#i wish i could sit and yap with everyone about those damn jesters and anything and everything cuz theres no way we're running out of#conversation topics with all of our lovely chaos#i wish i could go stargazing with my starboy in the summertime when the nights are just cool enough to stay out for hours on end#i wish i wish i wish i wish#i wish i didnt have to wait to spend my life with the people i love#platonic romantic famillial and anything in-between#ough i think the cabin fever is getting to me hghfjfh#storm rambles#storm loses it
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