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i am so glad this week is finally (almost) over
i had an appointment with my pcp on monday to see about this possible kidney stone situation
they did a urinalysis on me and sure enough i do have some blood in my urine so that plus the pain means it's likely there's a stone, but i'm in a situation again where i haven't had any pain for days so it's like...that's not good !! (especially since this has been going on for a few months at this point !)
they ordered me a ct scan which i had today so i'm hoping maybe sometime tomorrow i'll get the results of that and we can maybe figure out what's going on
i also had a dentist appointment on wednesday but it was just a cleaning and my dentist said everything looks good. it is kinda funny because i was actually supposed to have this appointment months ago but decided to reschedule because i had too much going on that week and so it got pushed out until now and then i end up having even more shit to do this week than i did back then so...oh well !! it's finally done
and tomorrow i've gotta do some of my usual errands (mostly taking the garbage off and getting a few things from the grocery store) and then i think i'll finally be done !! hopefully !!
hope you have a good, restful weekend coming up if you're reading this !! <3
#i'm just hoping and praying at this point that i've passed the stone if that is what it is#and that i don't get a call about this ct and it's like#uh hey you're gonna need a procedure to get this thing out before you start to go septic again#just....please god not again#but i guess if that is the situation then we'll just deal with it#anyway#in any case i at least got all my work done for the week so that's something#i've had to work later to make up for all the time i've been out at these appointments but i did it !!#and now hopefully this weekend i can just......rest#please god#i do have a lot of stuff i need to look over for school because i have a meeting with my student advisor next week#and although i appreciate him sending me all this information it's.....a lot#and i'm kind of starting to panic now like 'uh-oh!! uh-oh what have i gotten myself into ?!'#but i'm gonna just...power through it and keep going#because i really want this now and it's probably gonna add a bunch of stress to my life#when i already don't really have a lot of room for that but#i think in the end it'll be worth it#so that's what we're holding out for#and in the mean time if my body could just.....not have any more health problems#that would be fucking amazing thank you#anyhow#i didn't get a lot of sleep last night so i'm gonna go to bed now#it's just gonna be me here this weekend because mom's off with her boyfriend#which is fine i like having the place to myself#but i also have to take care of our dog by myself and he's way more attached to her than me#so he tends to be super anxious when she's not here#and so we're gonna do our best with that as well#but part of that also means i gotta get up ass early to let him out to go potty#so i'm gonna go get a few hours in before it's time for that#and then once i run my errands tomorrow i can maybe hopefully finally unwind a little
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revamped my tensa zangetsu redesign and redrew an old piece
#tensa zangetsu#zangetsu#hollow ichigo#bleach#sart#oc#she is also 👍 an si-oc#what if you died and were reborn and then found out you were the manifestation of your childhood friend's soul sword?#and then spent a decade of your life fighting extreme anxiety and overstimulation!#and also your best friend is in love with you! if you share a soul is that narcissism?#anyway i guess im in my revisiting old ocs era#nothing's holding my interest and also the semester is starting : D so we're back to old comforts#the piece was from 2019 and was janky af it's so fun to see how far i've come in 5 yrs
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Actually it turns out I had more thoughts about that post that I forgot about lol
Would Nightmare actually give up his boys? Yes and no
If it was just a black and white situation of they're miserable, they don't wanna be here, they have somewhere better to be, then yes. He would leave them out to wherever they needed to be despite his own feelings and very quickly realise afterwards just how much he'd gotten used to the noise and company. I think he would get a little clingy with Dream about it, which I'm sure Dream would find very weird after everything but not unwelcome, he did miss his brother after all.
(If he couldn't attach himself to Dream's side for whatever reason, I think he might just sit in his castle and go insane. Or maybe he'd just spend all day at Ccino's trying really hard to project that he just likes the atmosphere and isn't lonely as hell)
But the thing is, most of them don't have somewhere better to be. Horror has his au, and Nightmare would keep up the supply of food even if Horror said he wanted to quit at this point, so he would understandably let him return home. Killer, Dust and Cross effectively don't have aus anymore though, and they tend to get into self-destructive habits when they're left to their own devices. (Obviously bringing Color and Epic into the mix to make sure Killer and Cross are taken care of eases matters, but Dust doesn't really have any friends outside their group he could go stay with - that Nightmare knows about at least).
The flipside of this is that his boys may not necessarily want to be given up. I think if Nightmare got really in his head about this he could easily end up convinced this is the right thing to do without ever asking them if it's what they want, with potentially terrible results. He's established such a pattern of always returning to find Killer when they get seperated, that if he never showed up Killer might just keep sitting there and waiting for him greyfriar's bobby style, refusing to leave because he's certain his boss is coming back.
#UTDR#UTMV#Dadmare#Horror and Dust might take it slightly better but I think they still wouldn't appreciate being rehomed out of the blue with no discussion#Don't get me started on Cross he has such a bad track record with people not showing up for him as it is#If Nightmare left him to live with Epic one day Cross would spend the rest of his life thinking he did something wrong#and wondering what it was that he wasn't worth keeping#I do think the idea of him getting glued to Dream's hip must be funny for Blue tho#''Yes this is the being of all negativity in the multiverse. Don't mind him we're holding hands because he gets seperation anxiety''#I feel like a lot of this could come from Color's suspicion of him. because he's very much on Killer's side from the beginning#And Nightmare wasn't good at the beginning so it's understandable. it's hard to take Killer's word that he's changed because#Killer /would/ say that whether it's true or not y'know?#But I think Color shining a light on how things began makes Nightmare reflect a lot on their situation#Not to say that Color's the bad guy or anything obviously. He's respecting Killer's decisions while also keeping a good level of suspicion#about how Nightmare treats them when he's not around#It just makes Nightmare uneasy because he's made a lot of mistakes in the past and he's still learning#He is - for now at least - very very aware of just how mortal they are#And he wants to do right by them. even if it means giving them up to better places#I need to finish my fanfic... Anyway.#Luckily for him - in this particular case - this is where they are all best suited c:#Alright I let this cook in my drafts for about 3 days with some edits it can be posted now lol
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Amy...
#shes so cool i hope shes holding up back in town well enough#who knows but she probs has a way better handle on it being the sheriff and all- maybe for FV2? idk... i hope#also reading vol 4 and going OH oh Amy knows whats happening like she KNOWS Jack is not guilty from the start but she needs to act like it#fr ok so like bottom of page 81 in vol 4 “after this we're even” I BET shes talking to Roger cuz of his whole favors thing#i swear shes like trying to protect Jack in her own way the whole book trying to get to him before the others do but she needs him alone#she just cant say or act like it in case the wrong people are listening in cuz we all know Roger has his strings connected to a LOTTA peopl#we know Roger bugs shit from how he dealt with Eric in FV he probs did the same thing with O'Brian so she HAD to be careful#just my theory#also the dress from vol3 cuz idk i kinda liked drawing her out of uniform#she may usually be put as the 4th member of the gang and not have as much time as the others but ta hell if she isnt important#tales from the gas station#tftgs#tftgs art#tftgs fanart#tftgs obrien#amy o'brian#fanart#art#artwork#character design#illustration
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here's an update for all the "tOuRiSm iS fOr ThE pEoPlE" fucks. always remember that the second anyone steps foot on that land in the name of "tourism" or any other haole institution, that is colonizing&that person is a fucking explicit modern colonizer who made the conscious decision to be one and has spent a lot of fucking money on that trip to get their title. only that kine want more of their kin there-- don't pretend that shit is for anyone else.
drop dead of spontaneous combustion specifically, not even the sharks would want that pīlau fucking meat.
#video footage of haole families already in burnt wasteland is so fucking dystopic its almost funny#'funny' in the way of 'i might have rabies bc im foaming at the mouth lol'. bc fuck if i wouldnt literally#rip these ppl to fucking shreds. god bless whoever took the pics&vids bc i couldnt havd held my tongue.#you know we're all fucked when the governor is holding private back-chamber business-only meetings#to decide to open a fire wasteland two months after 1000+ ppl were killed&where ppl are still looking for remains to tourism#&it honestly seems so much less disgusting bc theres literally footage of haole families already disregarding any form of boundaries.#like this is what we've come to lmao.#i have so. much. violence. in me&no where to put it lmao. i want to go home. i miss home so bad. i am so fucking homesick.#i think the next person who responds to finding out im from hawaii w anecdotes of their trip there will probably get knocked out.#like i dont actually think i should be held responsible for that first hit. anything after is fair game tho i guess.#undescribed
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I don't usually like posting WIPs but I don't see the harm in posting here so have some Royal Margarine comic sketches ;P
#drawing the dragon in perspective is actually whats holding me up so if i figure that out then we're back in business#and maybe playing tw//sted w//nderland and t//uken r//nbu might have me preoccupied a lil but shhhh#okay I'll stop posting for today now#art wip#royal margarine cookie
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It's pomegranate season :)
A redraw of this piece from around a year ago
#hello guys...(:#i started school back in mid September! its hell#and my chronic pain is rly bad these days i can barely do anything#and my next break will be spent at the hospital#but love and light at least we're trucjing along and getting somewhere hopefully#this drawing isn't exactly the most finished the most effortful what have you but its all i can guve you#confession time: idk if i have it in me to keep drawing the guys#dont get me wrong still adore them. but i feel a little out of it#maybe this'll change the second i post this but whatever.#i had an amazing time being active in the fandom you guys are so sweet and you got me thru rough patches <3#I'll still be around just even more inactive#anyway i hope you enjoy this!!!#i feel like I've improves substantially which is good#cwilbur#dsmp fanart#my art#thx to everyone that's loved my art yall hold a special place in my heart#alright bye bye xoxo#ps esteemed mutuals and lovely audience never hesitate talking to me i am always around and i love ppl I'm just socially anxious#fennec.art
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"Alright...let's go talk to your father."
Pocahontas (1995)
#not sure when i'm ever gonna get around to giffing the rest of this scene so#here u go~#disney's pocahontas#pocahontasedit#disneyedit#fyeahpocahontas#disneyfeverdaily#disney pocahontas#disney john smtih#pocahontas x john smith#pocajohn#pocahontas#john smith#this is such a sweet moment y'kno?#they are Stupid in love#and there's so much to say about the characters and the body language they went with here likeeeeeee#i mean ever since they Almost Kissed after Colors of the Wind and Pocahontas ducked out#it seemed that John was like ''okay so we're putting that possibility away Right Now that's fine.''#bc he's actually. like. really respectful of her boundaries. if she sets one he's like ''OK 👍!''#and now it's like. if all they ever did after that was hold hands and nothing more he'd accept that. do u see what i mean?#so her hugging him here is like. He's SURPRISED by it and that is so wild to me#bc they Are physical in so many ways like they're so comfortable in each others' space. and all the little touchesssss#but they've never crossed a certain line til This Moment and now the Line Is Being Crossed#and there's this sense of Relief happening with the music and the setting#and the expressions and the Everything#UHGHGHGHHG i'm rambling but they drive me so crazy dude.#queso*gif#queso*edit#pocahontas (1995)
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i can't stop thinking how funny it would be if gareth's brothers did in fact recognise him and were just like 'well clearly he has his reasons so let's all be good big bros and pretend we don't know him' and then spend the next few weeks before he goes off on his quest pretending extremely badly that they have never ever met this kitchen boy before nope not at all even while other knights are looking at them and looking at gareth and going 'hmmm'
#gawain can't resist giving weird brotherly pep talks every time he passes him like 'keep up the good work kid! we're all rooting for you!'#and then turns to ragnelle to whisper loudly 'that was ok that was normal and convincing right' while she rolls her eyes#gaheris bumps into him in a corridor and startles like a deer and is like 'hahaha random kitchen boy i certainly have never met before what#fine weather we are having in these parts hahaha i shall be leaving now through the door over there good bye' and then#walks into a broom cupboard and has to awkwardly back out again while gareth stands there#holding a broom that he was just about to put back in the broom cupboard#agravaine nearly manages to pass by without incident while gareth is scrubbing floors but at the last second brotherly instinct takes over#and he kicks the bucket of suds over yelling 'you missed a spot dickwad!' before sprinting away#gareth is just 'wow my brothers are bigger freaks and weirdos than i remember i don't want to be associated with these losers'#meanwhile arthur is like 'kay can you please just tell them all that you know who he is because i cannot take this farce much longer'#kay: ... oh so now im not allowed to have fun am i? fucking tyrant
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In the process of creating a thrall, the illithid halves the creature's intelligence, and then adds 1d6 to the creature's new intelligence to create its final intelligence. This means that, for creatures at 10 intelligence or below, being thralled by an illithid has a chance to permanently increase their intelligence score, with a higher chance of an increase of intelligence the lower the original intelligence.
This process, notably, does not modify the creature's body or non-intelligence statistics, thus meaning that any intelligence gained is simply a net gain for the creature's statistical total. There is also a stage in the middle where the creature's intelligence is halved, but the 1d6 extra intelligence has not been added on. So, for example, if you are an 8-intelligence Barbarian, you will have approximately 24 hours of having the intelligence of a giant weasel, or perhaps a single cranium rat. This is a normal thing to do to people.
#we speak#dungeons and dragons#“why are you researching this mantis god” “why is this information relevant” “what are you even doing in there”#thats for us to know and you to find out. or not. our computer can't run bg3 so we're pirating it via lets play instead#we are very fond of karlach. we are remarkably weak to dumb bruiser characters if they have more substance to their characters than just#Being Dumb Bruisers or Being Dumb Bruisers With A Heart Of Gold#she displays many excellent traits such as giving approval when you lick a spider. and knowing what roasted dwarf tastes like.#also the engine. of course. always a fan of noncon body modification. her bad ending is pretty sexy also#these are opinions that all people should hold
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sometimes i wonder what was the source of the obsessiveness between lewis and nico, knowing each other since childhood? i was always curious about lewis acting "no homo" when it came to nico?? is there an answer? i don't really want to have what they had. sounds intense
i'm sorry i'm not answering any of your other questions but "i don't really want to have what they had" is sooo fuckin funny to me
#the image of you learning about what they had and just going 'euugh. no thanks' is making me laugh sooo hard#but to answer ur ?s: idk my dude. im not lewis and im not nico#im just a girl making silly posts about brocedes from an outsiders pov#im also not a brocedes historian or anything. i havent extensively analysed them or anything#and tbh i dont want to psychoanalyze them bc then it takes the fun out of it#yeah maybe they broke up bc they had real issues with each other and couldn't handle the other winning or whatever#but what if they were just weird about each other hmm? what if they were just freaks about each other?#what if they had a toxic homoerotic friend break up and radiation-poisoned everyone else in the paddock from 2013-2016?#what if toto wolff is deranged bc he was too close to the epicenter? what then hmm?#idk my dude dont think about it too hard. just go about your day and every so often let their tragedy envelop you.#like that paul rudd meme where his face gets compressed and then it goes back to normal#that's how it's meant to be consumed anyway. that's probably how they do it too.#it's boring if you're always thinking about it lol. after all there's not a lot you can say about friends who are no longer friends#we were friends and no we're not. we loved each other and now we don't. but we still do. or it's complicated.#hold on the demons are catching up to me.#brocedes#asks#also if i sound mean i promise im not trying to be!!!! you really did make me laugh!!!
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IMAGINE. working at ur stupid uhhh job or whatever. pulling into your drive way and ready to work on some crazy project in your garage. opening the door to the most unfamiliar silence. did your wife and kid leave for something? could you imagine knocking on your kids door, hardly getting an answer, and opening it to find the splattered remains of your wife across his room your child is scared! hes hardly consolable, in a state of shock and terror. you are too, but youre the adult here. you need to take charge. you need to protect him. you need to do something. you need to do something.
#cw gore#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi prime defenders#jrwi pd spoilers#ashe winters#LOOOORRRD HELP ME THIS IS A YEAR OLD AND I HAAAATE LOOKIN AT IIITTTT ALL I CAN SEE ARE MY MISTAAAKESSS RRAAGHHHGGG ITS FINE THOUGH#ITS FIIIINE ITS ALL FIIIIIIINE!! IM HARSHER ON MY ART THAN ANYONE ELSE ITS FIIIIIINE IIITTSFFIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINEEEE#ANWYAY SO I THINK ALOT ABOUT THE FACT HE KILLED HIS MOM. FUUUUCKED UP. POOR GUY.. i wish i could learn more about what that day was like#the lil scenario wrote is my own silly little headcanon. but what really happened on that day? was mark there? or did he come home to it?#how violent was it really? was ashe awake the whole time? does he remember exactly how he killed her? does he remember?#who was mrs winters? what was she like? i like to think she was the one that gave ashe the book. taught him what she could before. yknow.#did ashe or mark try to destroy it afterwards? i could imagine mark throwing it into a fire. only for it to reappear with ashe#maybe ashe couldnt destroy it but i could imagine him hiding it. hiding away from it. and yet when we find him he holds it so close#its the only thing he can do! no super powers or anything. this was it. why would he ever throw away the only thing hes good at?#AND GOOD GOD MARK... TURNING TO MERCENARY WORK OVER IT ALL... SELLING HIS SOUL TO A LAbortory that changed him in immense ways#when did it get bad enough for him to start covering his face? what was ashe thinking? he knew his dad was up to something but what?#maRK HAS SUUUCH A CRAZY KILL COUNT TOO. I THINK THE HIGHEST IN THE SERIES IF WE'RE NOT LOOKIN AT THE GODS OR WATEV#MASS MURDER. MAN HAS COMMITTED MASS MURDER AND BROKE OUT OF SUPER VILLAIN PRISON WITH A PEN. MAN BUILDS IRON MAN SUITS IN HIS BASEMENT#OKay okay enough of my ramblin okayokay i just REALLY LOVE THIS SSHHOOOOWWW DUUUDEE EEUUGHTHTHHRHGHGH I LOVE THE WINTERS FAMILY...
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Hey
Hey
Hey
*crawls into your nest and hugs you*
Good morning~❤️
*nest severely simplified
Oh boy, friend to hug! Don't mind if I do <3 Welcome to the snooze zone I hope you'll enjoy your stay :3c <3
#answer let luce#themeeplord#we're holding hands#is it ironic I got out of bed to draw this?#maybe#but I have things to do and having some motivation actually helps a lot hfdjs#i love that every ask you send its like “hi im hugging you!” and im going “but what about if *I* hug *you*”#i got too lazy drawing more plushies im sorry to all my little friends#i also got too lazy for the accurate number of blankets and pillows so gfhdjsk#come to cozyland stay a while#snork mimimi and all that#hehe <3
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"they never dated but they ARE exes" is such a funny relationship for two characters to have. very awkward relationship to have irl tho
#eliot posts#it still IS a little funny irl tho#i visoted her last night cuz i was in town and the vibe was so weird#it's like. we had an EXPLOSIVE breakup years ago and we're on amicable terms now but there's just the past kinda hanging there in the air#im no longer upset about the stuff she did to me but i AM still a lil sore abt how she hurt our other friends#but sometimes i still talk to her out of... idk. nostalgia or something?#idk if it's the same thing driving her to keep talking to me or what#i don't think she holds any ill feelings towards me cuz she admitted she was totally in the wrong for pretty much everything#and the worst i did was be TOO loyal and enable her but at the same time she thinks she'd be worse off if i didn't do all that back then idk#sometimes i wonder if she wants our old relationship but but i've made it clear we'll never be able to go back there#sidenote: her actual ex boyfriend (who i am still besties with and love so much) is the one that started the joke that me and her are exes#he was like ''i think she's not just MY ex girlfriend she's OUR ex girlfriend'' when i was telling my roommate about her#(and then i told her about that and she laughed and agreed that yeah. we basically ARE exes)#her actual ex/my bestie won't talk to her at all anymore and he's totally within his rights to do that#i actually asked him a few years ago if he was okay with me talking to her before i messaged her cuz i didn't wanna risk hurting him#anyway yeah. it's weird#seeing her left me with a lot of feelings that aren't exactly bad just Weird. idk.
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....why are the youtube comments so mad lol don't y'all like to have fun. don't we like to have fun here
#ari speaks#half of them are 'wahhh this is what happens when you make games WOKE' like. baby. shhhh. it's not dark fantasy enough for you???#like we are allowed to have varied opinions but also idk. dragon age has always had moments of being a lil silly. especially inquisition.#titsicles???? the nug king???? i'm attacking your holdfast with a goat????? cmon now.#we DO get a little silly here and i'm really not opposed to (well-placed) tonal irreverence in a world about to end.#bitch the world we are CURRENTLY living in is falling apart and i am also being a silly fucking guy because it's all i got.#if i lived in thedas irl i'd be in taverns getting tomatoes thrown at me for bad stand-up about kirkwall HAVE SOME FUN LIVE A LITTLE.#also bc it's been so long one has to imagine that they're also trying to grab some new fans here so it does not surprise me#that the trailer is not 'Boo Hoo Sad Times Dark Fantasy Game No. 49' (i say as an enjoyer of depressing dark fantasy)#esp when all of the prior promotional material has been very doom and gloom.#i don't think that just because the game is being marketed like this/that we're switching focus from solas that the game will be#sanitized and not dealing with any kind of fucked up lore and shit. i am holding out hope that we're going to get some cool opportunities#to play in a space that is def dark but can still give room to breathe.#anyway i do not actually giv a fuck (genuine not insulting) if the trailer did not make u excited das ok.#unless you're complaining that it's woke garbage now/so bad because g*ider is uninvolved. if thats the case you may fuck off.#sorry for the tag essay!
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BBC Sherlock wouldve been 10 times better if John did one of his "me and Sherlock aren't dating" lines and Sherlock just gave him a weird look like "yes we are???? What are you talking about"
#bbc sherlock#johnlock#WHAT DO YOU MEAN WE'RE DATING#i told you about this last week!#jesus christ sherlock you dont just tell people youre dating you have to ask#fine. will you go on a date with me.#HOLD ON WHEN DID YOU TELL ME THIS. WAS THIS WHEN I WAS OUT OF THE ROOM AGAIN#now that you mention it#you were rather quiet#i hate you sometimes sherlock#is that a yes#we've never even done amything REMOTELY romantic#we had a candlelit dinner last week#THAT WASNT A CANDLE YOU LIT THE CURTAINS ON FIRE#We're not dating. i dont even like you#thats false. your pupils dilate when I enter the room#thats because your head is so big that it blocks out the light
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