#so my mom won’t buy them cause she doesn’t like them and I don’t see a reason to buy them and waste 8 perfectly good popsicles

[simplyghosting]

Good news: Decided to not be grungy and do something that took time for myself today, so I gave myself a manicure (which I never do)

Bad news: Forgot that today was the day I told myself I was going to do a deep clean of the bathroom

[sofia-not-sophie]

My stepmom bought helados were living large tonight

[kombuuuu]

gwen romantic hcs or scenario please? 🥺🤲

Spidery Romance.

Gwen Stacy x Fem!Reader

another bunch of headcanons (and snippets, ur favs) with my favourite girl 🤍

GWENNBBBBB MMMWMAH HHHNG WEBEWEBWEEEHHHH

Gwen: Blue

You: Pink

Dad Stacy: Black

A cat..: Purple

mom friend this, mom friend that

how about just mommy?

is a HUGEE comfort roll in the realtionship

will do little things for you that you wouldn’t even realise

like keeping random containers because she knows you like them

jars 🫙 🤍‼️

she loves taking care of you, loves being who you go to for things

it makes her feel needed, which we know she struggles with

so she loves a partner who’s more co-dependent, like she is

“Baby?”

“Help.”

“Honey, what am I supposed to do with that?”

“Open it, please“ :(

“Oh, you sweet thing… What are you going to do with an empty pickle jar.”

“You’ve eaten all the pickles?”

“I’m… going to grow an ecosystem.”

ABSOLUTELY steals shit for you

she’s not rich, seeing as she doesn’t exacccctly live in her own universe

hey, star crossed lovers are multiversel..

so she steals

just nicks things from the mall she thinks you’ll like

little trinkets or anything small and shiny she can find

also cat figures

small, cute cats. she loves anything about them and will go out of her way to take em for you

(you think she just wants to deny the fact she loves the cats. or stealing)

your OWN little klepto cat

(you both love that game)

“Hey, Sweets.”

“Oh-! You’re home!”

“And I brought a cat.”

*gasp* “What breed !!”

“No clue, but look it’s tail moves.”

Will take you out to movie dates any time she can.

never really knew how to treat a lady so she takes notes from stupid eighties shows

will throw rocks at your window

or climb up the tree next to your house and break in even though she could just go thru the front door.

buys (steals) chocolates in heart shapes and roses to decorate your bed

it’s not even valentines she just wants too

don’t forget the candles and scented bath salts with a whole ass spa set up in your bathroom

“Baby? Wh—“

“[Name]! I missed you.”

“I missed you too, babe.”

“What are the flowers for?”

“Our anniversary’s not ‘til September.”

“Beautiful, we don’ need a reason. Just wanna appreciate you.”

smile and giggle like a little bitch? of course you will

Will eventually tell you about her spider woman endeavours

she’s guilty of hiding it from you

when you trust her so much

slipping out of your shared bed at night to go patrol feels

dirty.

She finally caved to her subconscious and spills it

you don’t freak out on her but she can tell you’re stressed

she tries to comfort you even when you have to opportunity to ruin her life

you could end it between the two of u right then and she’d forgive you

but not herself

“I’m spider-woman.”

“What?”

“The hero, [Name]. Well, vigilante I guess—“

“What the hell.”

“Baby, please. I know I should’ve told you sooner—“

“Do you know how much danger you’re in? Are you crazy? What happens if you get hurt and I’m not here? Fighting crime like that. Fighting villains.”

“I know, sweet girl, I know.”

she comforts you through it while you basically have an existential crisis in her name

you’re more scared she’s going to get hurt

or worse

than you are betrayed,

you can get why she kept this a secret

it takes you a couple week to hone down the worrying

gwen is hella patient with you 🫶

“I don’t like this. You’re putting yourself in harms way, and it’s careless,”

Guilty stare

“,But i’m not gonna stop you.”

“Thank you, [Name].”

“Please don’t die on me.”

“I won’t, baby.”

and when your finally calm you can kind of see the appeal in it

she convinces you to let her swing you around the city

and despite you both knowing you’re probably gonna pass the fuck out

you agree cause it’s cute

“Gwen.”

“Yeah baby?”

“I think—, maybe you don’t understand what I mean by ‘I don’t like heights’.”

“Wh— Oh.”

“What d’yu mean ‘Oh.’?!! You only just realised??”

“I come up here so often, it’s like a second thought!”

“It’s the fucking Empire state!”

“Ehh…”

She’ll take you nice places around brooklyn

mostly high up

to let you see the view

and to finally see you in it

she draws you any chance she gets

especially when she takes you to those places

shes been to em so often that she’s got muscle memory for the line to every building, but now she gets to trace the contour of your face around it too

will web you to the building if you ask

just so you won’t fall

“You know there’s not a single universe where I wouldn’t catch you, right.”

“There’s a first for everything,”

She snorts “Sugar—“

“I love you, Gwen. And trust you with my life. I do not, however trust wind.”

“Understandable, love you too.”

When you meet her dad he’s a little skeptical at first

only because you’re so nervous and he’s taught to be suspicious as a cop

but eventually he likes you, and you him

your both like old pals and it confuses gwen

he takes on a very fatherly position in your life

one you missed out on

gwen is ecstatic

the two people she loves the most in the world like each other

the stars aligned for her

she tells you about her struggles with him and is glad it doesn’t affect either of your relationships

“Do you treat my daughter well?”

“Dad, please.”

“Gwen, it’s okay. I’d like to think I am, sir.”

“Cause if you hurt my little girl, everything you do to her will feel a lot worse for you.”

“Dad!”

“I would never hurt your daughter Mr.Stacy, I love her. It’d be stupid of me to let her go.”

He smiled and clapped your back

*groan* “Why.”

she likes to keep you comfy

kinda has a thing for the housewife vibe

so she’s willing to do a lot for you

she’ll notice how empty it is in your house when she’s not there

it’s quiet and lonely

so totally for you (and not also her)

she’ll get you a cat

a small black american bobtail

she had found him while on patrol

saw a box left littered at the park and decided to pick it up

closer she got, more ‘mews’ she heard.

when she saw a short, stumpy looking kitten in the box

her heart melted

so obviously she took it

“For [Name].”

‘mew :3’

“Co-parenting practice.”

‘mmrp’

“God damn it.”

loves the cat with her whole heart

and so do you

you name it Peter

he’s adopted but he doesn’t need to know that

when he does something bad you threaten (emptily) to put him in back out in the street

“Go get a box, Peter. I’m gonna make your momma put you back where she found you.”

“He can’t understand you, baby.”

“Yes he can, look at how he’s looking at me!”

“See his face!? He’s so mocking me!”

:3

“Sure, baby.”

—

EEE 🤭🤭🤭

[strangersatellites]

happy valentine’s day steddie nation! have some lumax & steddie shenanigans as a treat! i love you all! 🫶🏼

February 11th, 1987

It’s not that she’s particularly interested in watching E.T. again. It's more so the fact that the back of the VHS box has enough words that she can pretend to read it for an extended period of time without looking suspicious. 

See, Max is a planner. She plans. Plots might actually be a better word. Perhaps even schemes.

Whatever. She plans. 

When the time is right, she executes. 

Luckily, Lucas is good for two (2) things. 

Anything and everything Max asks of him

Causing problems on purpose

That’s how she finds herself here. Pretending to read the back of a movie she’s seen at least ten times while she acts like she’s not able to hear the conversation happening at the Family Video counter.

“Oh come on! It’s for Valentine’s Day!”

Steve stops whatever he’s trying to do on the tv and props a hand on his hip while he levels Lucas with a look.

“What makes you think I don’t have plans already, Sinclair? Huh? I could have my own date to plan for all you know.”

Lucas snorts. “Yeah, right. Please, Steve? I already told Max you said yes so she’s expecting it to be a whole thing! I’ll ask Eddie to drop us off and everything! Plus, my mom said we can only have a date if you chaperone and no offense, but I’m not taking you to a restaurant.”

“Well maybe we need to practice honesty in our relationships,” Steve says, pointing the tv remote at him. “You’re lucky Max is my favorite, or else you would’ve been in deep shit. Now what did you tell her I was cooking?”

Max has to hide a giggle behind the horror movie display at the way Lucas visibly sags in relief. He throws her a wink when Steve turns back to the screen. 

*****

February 12th, 1987

Finding the money is easy. 

It’s not Max’s fault Eddie is an absolute idiot and leaves his wallet in his unlocked van during Hellfire. 

The man is just asking to be a victim of petty theft.

Plus, she doubts he even pays enough attention to the amount of money he has in there anyway. He probably won’t even know it's gone. 

Picking the flowers out wasn’t difficult either. 

Steve’s favorite flowers are tulips, and under any other circumstances they would be the obvious choice. But everyone knows a dozen red roses means true love. 

And it's Valentine’s Day. Come on.

The florist had watched the pair look at all the flowers with a twinkle in her eye. No doubt she thought Lucas was buying them for Max. 

Gross.

Convincing her that they needed them delivered to Family Video on Valentine’s Day was a little trickier.

“No they’re not for me, ew.” and “They’re for a friend.” and “Yes, we know it's last minute.”

But arguably the most difficult part had been choosing what to put on the card. 

They’re sitting on the sidewalk outside the arcade writing and crossing out and writing again while everyone else is inside.

“Lucas, are you kidding me? We can’t just say Happy Valentine’s Day. That’s so lame.”

He throws his hands up in an exasperated gesture. “Well what else? We can’t be all ‘roses are red, violets are blue, I’m a big dumb idiot who won’t make a move.’”

Max snorts a laugh and gives him a conspiratory smile before she starts writing on the back of a receipt.

“No. But you know what we can do?”

*****

February 13th, 1987

“I don’t know… this feels a little risky.”

Max swats at Lucas’s bicep and glares. 

“Just trust me. All we have to do is get Eddie there and his own desperate need to be nosy will do the rest.”

Lucas takes a deep breath in and accepts his fate. “If this doesn’t work it's your fault.”

She just rolls her eyes and shoves him up and off the couch. 

They’re in the Wheeler’s basement finishing up yesterday’s campaign so they can all have Valentine’s day to do their own thing. Eddie called for a ten minute break after Mike and Dustin had to very nearly be physically held back during an argument about what move they should make next. 

He’s propped on the arm of his chair and writing something in a little notebook when Lucas approaches. 

“Uh hey, Eddie? Can I ask you something?”

The older boy raises his eyes up to meet Lucas’s and squints at him.

“Roll for charisma.”

Now it's Lucas’s turn to roll his eyes. “Are you serious?”

Eddie breaks into a bright smile and settles into his seat with a laugh. “Nah, man. What’s up, Sinclair?”

“Are you busy tomorrow? Do you have any plans for Valentine’s Day I mean?”

Eddie’s brows furrow and he tilts his head a bit. “No way, dude. I’ll be sitting at home with a movie and a bowl of Wayne’s spaghetti if the past is any indication of how my day will play out. Besides, you know how I feel about all that shit.”

Max squints from her place on the couch braiding El’s hair. She does know how he feels about all that shit. She heard him telling Robin alllllllll about how he wanted to have a real Valentine’s Day date one day. 

She’s grateful at this moment that he’s publicly sticking to his guns. No “forced conformity” in sight.

That would’ve ruined the plan.

“Perfect!” Lucas claps.

Max cringes but he recovers.

“Uh, I mean– I mean that’s perfect for me then! I was going to ask if you could come pick me up from Steve’s tomorrow. He told me he’d let me go through his closet and pick out something to wear.” He looks down and picks at a string on his jacket and Max has to hand it to him. His acting skills are pretty impressive. “I’m taking Max on a real date tomorrow.”

Eddie’s face softens and he cuts the shit with his false bravado almost instantly.

“That’s sweet, man. But why can’t Harrington drive you to Max’s exactly?”

And shit.

Max didn’t think Eddie would question him. Not with the way he drives them places all the time. 

Then again so does Steve. So maybe that was a bit of an oversight.

But Lucas takes it in stride. “Oh he said something about cooking for his own date when I leave.”

Max might be a bit more worried about Lucas’s ability to lie off the cuff if she weren’t so impressed.

Eddie just nods. “Sure, kiddo. I’ll be there at 7 o’clock sharp.”

Easy.

Now they wait.

*****

February 14th, 1987

Max is sitting on the counter swinging her feet while Steve and Robin bicker back and forth about what order the new display movies should go in.

It’s ten minutes before six and she’s starting to get nervous.

Her inner monologue is screaming, “I knew she would forget to deliver them.”

Just about the time she’s going to ask to use Keith’s phone to call Lucas, the florist van pulls up.

Steve furrows his brow and looks at Robin. She just raises her shoulders and shakes her head. He opens the door and leans against it.

A young girl hops out of the passenger seat with the prettiest bouquet of red roses Max has ever seen. She has to bite back her own smile. 

“Hi!” The girl greets while rustling through the leaves to find the card. “Delivery for uh– Stevie?”

Robin snorts and slaps a hand over her mouth.

Steve runs a hand through his hair and stutters out a “I’ll just get those. Yeah– yeah thanks. Have a good one,” and comes back inside.

Max puts on her game face when he puts them on the counter and steps back with his hands on his hips. 

Robin has propped her chin in her hands and is looking on with barely concealed glee.

Max levels him with a bored look. “So… What does the card say?”

He reaches for the card and reads it quietly to himself. If Max isn’t mistaken, his cheeks are dusted with a pink flush.

He smiles and laughs. “They’re from Eds.”

Eds? Gross.

“Dear Stevie, something happened and I'm head over heels. Happy Valentine’s Day. Love, Eddie.”

Robin mimes being struck by Cupid and Steve giggles at her antics and thumbs over the petals of one of the flowers with a soft smile.

Before Max can unpack that, the door bursts open so hard the bell swings into the glass with a clang.

Steve’s head snaps to the door with a “LUCAS!” already ringing out through the store.

He holds his hands up in a placating gesture and catches his breath.

“Sorry! Sorry! Max, you ready to go?”

And, oh. Right. 

She hops off the counter and grabs her bag. Spins around to Robin and Steve with a smile.

She leans in to whisper, “We’re going somewhere on a date tonight. He thinks I don’t know.”

Robin bites back another smile and salutes Lucas while Steve laughs under his breath and grabs his own keys and the vase off the counter.

“Have fun kiddos! Don’t do anything I wouldn’t do!” Robin calls out as they take off out the door.

*****

As riveting as the idea of hiding in a bush and watching Steve cook and sing to himself for an hour sounds, in practice it is painfully boring.

“Seriously? We couldn’t have just gone to the arcade until 7 o’clock?” Lucas angry-whispers.

Max adjusts her elbows on her knees so her binoculars are steadier.

“No. We need to be here to make sure everything goes to plan.”

Lucas groans and Max gives him an aggressive shush.

“Steve already liked the flowers and he double checked with me yesterday that you still wanted his homemade pizza. Literally all Eddie has to do is show up and take the bait.”

Now it’s Max who’s groaning. “Ugh, I don’t know, okay! But it's like five minutes ‘til seven anyway so it doesn’t matter.”

It’s just when they see Steve set the plates on either side of the bouquet on the table that they hear the sound of Eddie’s van turning into the driveway.

They both inhale sharply and duck further behind the bushes. 

When Eddie climbs out he looks… nice.

Nice for Eddie at least. 

There’s no chains, no dirty sneakers. Instead there’s a black button up and his nice boots. He’s got his hair half pulled up and all of his earrings in.

Max and Lucas share a bewildered look. Surely he didn’t lie about not having plans tonight, right?

Realistically the two know they’re too far away to hear or be heard but that doesn’t stop them from holding their breath as Eddie knocks on the door.

Steve opens it with a towel slung over his shoulder. He’s dressed the part too. Dark jeans and a dark red sweater, looking exactly like a parent chaperoning a kid’s date.

His smile is bright as he opens the door and gestures for Eddie to come inside. 

They stand beside the foyer window and chat while the two look on through binoculars with bated breath. 

“Surely Eddie’s noticed I’m not there by now, right?” Lucas questions.

Max hums and nods. “Yeah and I’m guessing that Steve has realized Eddie isn’t dropping us off either.”

The two boys throw their heads back in what they can only assume to be hearty laughter from their lack of sound. Steve nods his head towards the kitchen and Eddie gestures for him to lead the way.

“It worked! Max! It actually worked! He’s staying!”

Steve pulls out Eddie’s chair and lights the candles; dims the lights, and takes his own seat.

Max just laughs. “Of course it worked. They’ve been into each other for months! They’re both just too stupid to notice it without a little push!”

They look on in silence as Steve has magically procured a bottle of wine and two glasses and is filling them while they talk.

Lucas smiles and nudges Max with his shoulder. “Dude. Best Valentine’s Day ever.”

She smiles back and punches his arm. “Yeah. Best one ever.”

*****

Meanwhile in the Harrington House

“So, should we tell them?”

Eddie snorts. “Tell them what? That we knew they were trying to set us up or that we’ve been together for four months?”

Now it’s Steve who’s laughing. “I was thinking more about the fact that we can see them in the bushes.”

“Nah. I want to keep that one until I need to sandbag them for something.”

Steve shakes his head and looks at the table.

Eddie grabs his hand and lowers his voice to a whisper. “Hey.”

Steve looks up and meets his eyes, gets a little lost in the way they sparkle in the candlelight.

“Happy Valentine’s Day, baby.”

He lifts Eddie’s hand and presses a soft kiss to his knuckles, the new devil ring Steve gave him before he left this morning.

“Happy Valentine’s Day, Eds.”

Maybe if Max and Lucas had looked a little closer, they would have noticed that the plates on the table didn’t have homemade pizza, they had spaghetti.

That the bouquet on the table wasn’t a dozen roses.

It was tulips.

[jjsstars]

stancyweek2024: day 6, au’s

|| for @echoing-oursong event

|| tags: college au! + engaged au!

“How much longer do you think we should wait to tell everyone we’re engaged?” Nancy turns onto her stomach on the bed beside Steve, placing her chin on his chest and grinning when he wiggles his eyebrows at her.

“Mm I was thinking we tell them the night of the wedding.” He tries to sound serious while saying it but Nancy just gives him an unimpressed look despite her smirk.

“No way, my mom would kill me. Maybe we should have a big dinner and get it over with all at once?” Hopefully then they’ll avoid the inevitable arguments about who they told first being their favorite- Steve already had to restrain himself from telling Robin before he even proposed.

“That works, but we can’t fit everyone in here.” Steve’s eyes track around the studio apartment they have, there’s no way they’d even be able to fit just the party in here never mind all the other people too.

“We can bring Chestnut down to Joyce’s place.” The dog that’s currently curled up at Steve’s feet doesn’t move an inch hearing his name. It might’ve been a slightly impulse and irresponsible decision to buy a dog while they’re both still in college and only have this apartment as their house but the couple couldn’t resist seeing the box of five dollar puppies in the window of the pet store. They’re not immune to puppy dog eyes, sue them.

“Hopper will love that.” The chief isn’t the biggest dog person after fighting one too many demadogs.

“Okay then Eddie and Robin’s place.” Those two living together in a trailer across from Wayne’s has got to be absolute chaos and Steve would be lying if he didn’t say he wasn’t a small bit glad to miss it. He likes how peaceful and tranquil him and Nancy living together has been.

“Won’t Karen be mad we aren’t staying at hers?” Nancy grimaces at the thought of bringing Steve to the Wheeler household for an extended stay, one night is plenty family time for her and she grew up there.

“What about your old house? Doesn’t your dad still own it?” About the only time Steve hears from his father is to check if the house is still standing and if the electric bill has gone up, Steve isn’t even sure if he knows that Steve moved all the way to New York and hasn’t stepped foot in that house in over a year.

“He has cleaners come every week but other than that it’s empty so… we could crash there.” They could live there if they really wanted.

“Perfect. We can have dinner at my parents, break the news, then run back to your house when they all get too much.” Wedding planning is going to be an entire thing, Nancy can feel it, between Joyce and Karen and then Robin, El, and Max, it’ll be a long process.

“We’re only staying a week, how bad can it get?” The second it leaves Steve’s mouth he regrets it, he loves all of them to death but sometimes all of them at once can get to be too much, even for him.

“Don’t jinx us. We still have to tell them we want to get married outside and not in a church, my mom might break down.” Steve laughs lightly and brushes his hand through Nancy’s hair to move it away from her face.

“Hey we could elope right here in New York and really shock them.”

“That might cause another ‘earthquake’ in Hawkins.”

[meiissblog]

Another life part 2: 🤍 Gojo x Fem reader (isekai fic)

THIS STORY IDEA WAS TAKEN FROM @stsg-losers thank you for this amazing idea! 😊💕

⚠️MAJOR SPOILERS for Jujutsu kaisen ⚠️

(If you’re not caught up with the JJK manga avoid this story at all costs).

Please read all the parts of this story first you can find all the chapters Here.

~ Another life 🤍 ~

Scenario: After losing to Sukuna and after seeing all his friends in the “afterlife”. Gojo decides to go north and be reincarnated into a new world little did he know this new life would be everything he’s ever wanted.

⚠️WARNINGS ⚠️

Some sexual talk.

Some angst but allot of fluffy love 😭

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Gojo POV:

We were driving back from the elementary school when y/n turned down the music in the car.

“Oh, I forgot I need to stop by the grocery store, are you okay with staying in the car for a bit Toru or do you want me to bring you home first?”. “No, I want to go in with you and Miyoko”. “Oh okay! It shouldn’t be that long, I just need to pick up a few things”. “Mommy, Yuji, and Nobara are coming over, you might want to get extra snacks they stole my fruity gummies last time”. “- you’re right thank you for reminding me sweetie I’ll buy you more today”. We pull into the grocery store parking lot.

I watch as y/n gets Miyoko out of her car seat. “Be on your best behavior today you make sure to hold onto Daddy’s hand, and don’t run off like you usually do got it”. “I know mama, I won’t I promise”. Y/n sets Miyoko on the ground, She immediately runs up to me holding my hand.

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As we walk through the grocery store, I take a moment to appreciate how peaceful everything is. it’s kind of nice to not be constantly on edge, waiting for monsters and or people to come to attack you at any moment. Me and Miyoko walk along behind y/n who is currently walking a little ahead of us. I admire her watching her perfectly plump ass as she walks.

when a sharp pain in my head stops me in my tracks, I hold my head for a moment letting the feeling subside. “Daddy are you okay?”. I stand there for one more moment longer then I look over to Miyoko she looks up at me with worry, I smile at her. “Yeah, I’m fine don’t worry”. I look around for y/n just to see her talking to an older man in a business suit. He grabs y/n’s shoulder and looks her over in a way that’s a little less than friendly. I start to walk up to them when Miyoko tugs on my arm. “Daddy no, can we go somewhere else I don’t like Mr. Anderson, he’s creepy”. “What do you mean he’s creepy?”. “The way he looks at Mom I don’t like it, Mommy doesn’t like him either he always yells at her on the phone”. “Oh, really? Let’s go help your mom everything will be fine I’m right here I won’t let him get near you”.

We walk up to y/n and Mr. Anderson they seem to be bickering back and forth in English. “I’m not doing that, I already told you over the phone. Coming to Japan makes no difference Mike and how the hell did you find where I live”. “It wasn’t that hard y/n I just looked it up on the internet, and oh, look here it’s Mr. Satoru. Glad to see you're recovering so well from your accident. I heard it was pretty bad, and is that little Miyoko I see wow you’re getting so big”. Mike starts to come towards us Miyoko immediately hides behind my leg.

I immediately grab Mike by the shirt. “Thanks for your worry!”. I pull him towards me bringing him close so I can whisper into his ear. “leave my family alone, we are here to shop and you're causing a scene. Not only that you're pissing me off by staring at my wife”. “Tsk, you don’t scare me”. “Oh really? Well, I should now go”. I let Mike go pushing him away. I turn around picking up Miyoko bushing her white hair from her face. “Let’s keep going y/n and let’s get home”. “Y-yeah, you’re right let’s go”.

We finish up our shopping and head back to the car, I put Miyoko into her car seat for y/n. When Y/n walks up to me handing me a Sailor Moon coloring book. She whispers.” I found this while shopping, Miyoko loves Sailor Moon she’s going to freak out, I’ll let you do the honors in giving it to her”. Y/n walks back to put the groceries away. “Oh Miyoko, look what your mom found”. I hand her the coloring book. “OH MY GOSH THANK YOU”. She hugs the notebook swinging her feet. “I can’t wait to get home and color in it thank you”. I Pat her head then I close the door.

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We arrive back home, and I get out of the car and help Miyoko out of her car seat once again. I also go over to help y/n carry in groceries but she stops me. “g-gojo it’s fine you can go inside, you’re still injured, I can take care of this myself”. “ the both of you can head inside we got this”.

“kids, hey!”. “Hey, Mrs. Satoru”. Yuji and Nobara say at the same time

jinxing each other in the process.

“Hey, Mrs. Satoru! Mimiko and Nanako also walk up waving. “Oh, hey girls, Happy to see you two Does Geto know you’re here”. “Yeah, Dad knows”. “Big sisters!”. “Miyoko runs up to the two of them Nanako immediately picks her up smiling everyone heads inside.

As all of us head inside my head is starts to throb again. “Sorry, y/n but I’m going to go lay down again”. “Do you want me to bring you more pain medicine?”. “That would be great”. I walk back to our bedroom feeling existed. Damn, I’m not used to having an injury like this, in the other universe I’d be able to reverse it.

I lay there for a bit with my eyes closed until I hear y/n enter. She hands me a glass of water and some medicine. “Your vision isn’t blurry, is it?”. “No, it’s fine”. “Good!”. I take the glass and pills from her when She leans over casually kissing me on the side of the forehead. My eyes widen slightly, she immediately backs away. “O-oh no I’m sorry! I forgot you don’t remember me, that was just a force of habit. I hope I didn’t upset you”.

I lay down shaking my head. “it’s fine,

I wouldn’t be mad if you did it again”. I smirk at her. “I-if you’re sure..”. I nod yes. She leans over kissing me this time on the middle of my forehead. “you’re cute y/n”. She blushes standing upright. “Thank you, Toru I-I’ll let you know when dinner is ready”.

Y/N POV:

I walk back out towards the kitchen my face still slightly red, That man is going to be the death of me. I think to myself. when I look over at all the kids lying around the living room. “Hey, kids I’m making dinner if you need me I’ll be in the kitchen”. they all answer me back with various responses, as I head into the kitchen, shocked to see Geto already putting stuff away.

“Oh Geto, you don’t need to do that you’re a guest”. I walk up to him with a concerned look. “Please, y/n it’s fine I’m just helping out since I assume Satoru is resting”. “Yeah, he’s had a big day today”. Me and Geto put the rest of the groceries away keeping out the ingredients for tonight’s dinner.

“Okay, y/n what are we doing”. “I’m making homemade pizza! For dinner, I hope you and the girls are okay with that”. “The girls love pizza that Sounds good y/n”. “Fantastic! First off, I got to turn on this oven”. I turn on the oven quickly then I head off the sink washing my hands very well. “If you can grab the dough out of the refrigerator for me, it should be on the first shelve towards the back”. I grab a couple of pizza pans from out of the lower cupboard laying them out as Geto hands the homemade pizza dough.

I unwrap one Bach of the dough and I begin to shape it to the pan as I usually do. “so,

y/n what did you and Satoru talk about”.

“I caught him up on some things that have to do with the kids and some about my background, could you grab the pizza sauce, it's also on the first shelf”. Geto nods walking over to the refrigerator grabbing the bowl of pizza sauce he walks over to me laying the bowl on the counter. I pour some of the oregano into the sauce before I start spreading it into the pizza.

“Are you okay? Y/n”. I stop for a moment shocked by his question, but I continue spreading the sauce onto the pizza already placing the cheese.

“I’m fine, geto”. “You’ve been holding things together pretty well all things concerned y/n”. “I try…”. I set the plain cheese pizza aside repeating the steps but adding pepperoni to the top. “Toru, losing his memories is kinda hard of course.. but he has it harder than me, imagine waking up in a place you don’t recognize at all”. I make one more half cheese and pepperoni pizza. Geto puts all the pizzas into the often for me. “Y/n, it’s okay for you to talk about your frustrations as well I don’t mind listening”. “Well,… it’s not frustration, it’s more sadness. Knowing that the man I’ve been with for 5 years no longer remembers me or his children is a lot to take in. But at least he’s still here and alive…”.

“I’ve been meaning to ask you y/n, Do you think some of the people threatening you caused Satoru to get into the accident”. I nervously mess with my hair. “I don’t know maybe? The police asked me the same question, that thought scares me. especially after what happened today”. “What happened?”. “Anderson, my father's old business partner came up to me at the grocery store”. “What did he do?”.

“Nothing crazy, he just was arguing with me again about selling my father's company to some of the shareholders. I don’t care what he says I’m not selling my father’s company to those people, I’m still waiting on the right seller. -

the company isn’t struggling right now, I mean we are still doing the same as we always have with me at the command- ”.

“Mommy!”. I Watch as Megumi and Miyoko enter the kitchen hand in hand. “Can I get some fruit gummies please”. I bend down to Miyoko’s level. “You do realize dinner is going to be ready soon”. “I know, but I just want one bag please”. “Fine, but just one this is your reward for being so good at the grocery store”. I stand back up grabbing two packs of the fruit gummies I hand one to Miyoko and I hold one out to Megumi. “Mom I don’t need any-“. “I know you want some as well just take it”. Megumi sheepishly takes the bag and they head back to the living room.

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- a few weeks later-

Gojo POV:

A few weeks pass everything is still going great my recovery is going along smoothly and I’m sort of getting used to this relaxed life. So far I’m enjoying it.

The night was creeping in and everything had calmed down, all the guests had already gone home. Everyone had retired to their separate rooms and I was ready to relax, I get into my and y/n’s bed turning on the TV.

When the bathroom door in our bedroom swings open. I look over to see y/n in nothing but her underwear, holding one of our bathroom towels and running it through her beautiful hair. My eyes fixate on her entire body for a second before reality hits me and I look away out of respect. “Oh, you! You’re in here I’m sorry just ignore me. I forgot my pajamas in the dresser”. “I-it’s fine y/n”. I continue to look away but my curiosity gets stronger as I hear her shuffling through the dresser doors. I decided to have one more peek. I turn my head slightly just to see her back towards me, my eyes travel down to her ass I can feel myself getting hot after seeing that she was wearing a thong. “Toru, I need to talk to you”. “Y-yeah.., uh- what is it y/n”. “About that concert, you know the one that the kids are going to in a few days. Well, I’m still worried about it”. “Y/n I’m sure they’ll be okay I mean they’re all high schoolers aren’t they”. “No, you probably don’t remember, kenshi our biological son is only 13”. “Wait! That tall kid is only 13?!”. “Yeah, he’s 3 years younger than Megumi, I’m letting you know this because I’m worried about him I mean I’m worried about Megumi, Tsumiki, Yuji, and Nobara - well, all of them but they're all older, and Kenshi-“. I get up from the bed going over to y/n she turns around as cage her in using my arms. I smirk to myself slightly as she blushes. “He’s already done the work and so has Megumi, they earned the money and did a decent job. I know you’re nervous but it would be unfair to not let him go after they worked so hard”. Y/n still looks worried I sigh. “he’s going to be with his siblings I’m sure he’ll be fine. I was thinking since all the teens will be gone maybe we could find someone to watch Miyoko for a few hours”. She raises her eyebrow at me. “and why is that”. “ I figured Since I’ve lost my memories maybe they’d come back a bit faster,

if we were to spend some quality time together”. “Oh, really? Gojo? What kind of quality time?”. She looks up at me in a teasing way rubbing her hands up and down against my biceps. “Maybe we could watch a movie have some dinner and then -”. I put my lips to her ear. “I could rail you into that mattress”. “Oh you’d do that to a “stranger” huh?”. I start to kiss the side of her neck as her arms wrap around my waist.

Just then I hear a tiny knock on the door me and y/n pull apart immediately as Miyoko opens the door, carrying her blankly and stuffed cat in her arms. I also notice her eyes are red like she was crying. I go over to her picking her up immediately as y/n scrambles to find a nightgown.

“Are you okay Miyoko?”. “I had a scary dream.. she trembles hugging me tightly around my neck, as she starts to cry. I rub the back of her head. “What was it about”. “I don’t wanna talk about it”. She sobs harder.

I carry her over to the bed, sitting on the side of it still holding Miyoko. Y/n now dressed in her nightgown walks over to us. She sits beside me as she rubs Miyoko’s back. After a few moments, Miyoko finally sits back looking up at us her red eyes still running with tears and her nose dripping. Y/n grabs some tissues from our side table wiping Miyoko’s face softly. “Are you ready to talk about it?”. She nods yes. “I had a dream a man was outside my window”. Me and y/n look at each other for a moment as Miyoko continues to explain. “I was sleeping in my bed, and I thought I heard someone tapping on the outside of my window. I opened my eyes to see a figure I thought I was still dreaming or imagining it so I covered my head and tried to go back to sleep. I was too scared to move, so I stayed there for a few minutes until I finally got the courage to look out the window again, and there was nobody there”. Just then Megumi opens the door. “Hey is everything okay? Why is Miyoko crying?”. I hand Miyoko to y/n and I get up. “I’m going outside to check things, stay here with your mother if I’m not back in 10 minutes call the police”. Y/n tries to grab my arm pleading with me to stop, but I ignore her heading outside.

I open our front door locking it behind me as I quietly head outside. It is pretty dark, there are a few lights on the outside of the house but it looks like we need more. I move very quietly through the grass listening for any sound. I wish I had my six eyes right about now. I think to myself when I hear some shuffling in the bushes near Miyoko’s room. I get ready to attack when a black cat jumps from out of the bush, I’m shocked to see. One tiny kitten walks out from that same area. The mom and the kitten rub against my legs I check back behind The bush and around the area luckily I don’t find a human or any other cats. Well, at least it wasn’t a person.

I pick up the cats they’re pretty skinny and they seem used to people I wonder if they’re lost? I bring them inside. As I walk in the door a cold sweat breaks out on my neck,

I can feel y/n’s eyes burning into me oh man she’s pissed and I’m in trouble I can feel it.

I lock the front door, just to see y/n, Miyoko, and Megumi sitting on the couch. Y/n’s stare is making me nervous. “L-Luckily what you saw wasn’t a person Miyoko it was a black cat”. Miyoko runs over excitedly. “more kitties awe!”. “ you can look at them, but you can’t touch them yet. We don’t know what diseases they could be carrying we don’t want you or Kyo getting sick”. y/n walks over her arms crossed. She looks at the two cats reaching out and petting the black cat's head she sighs. “I’ll set up an area for them in the guest room until we can get them checked out by a vet”. y/n says in a stern voice waking away. Megumi gets up shrugging.

“Okay then, Goodnight dad, good luck on trying to get Mom to forgive you”. My eye twitches slightly. When Miyoko gets my attention tugging on the bottom of my shirt. “Daddy, I’m scared to sleep in my room by myself can I sleep by you and Mama”. “Let’s go ask your mom first”.

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Me, y/n and Miyoko get cozy in me and y/n’s shared bed we sit and watch the original Frozen. “You don’t have to worry about going to school tomorrow little one, it’s 2:09 am am you’ll be way too tired”. “Okay, mama”. I Watch as Miyoko falls asleep hugging y/n’s arm. I reach over and stroke Miyoko’s hair when me And y/n’s eyes meet she looks at me with the same scary look from earlier. I smile at her nervously. “Hey, y/n I’m sorry-“. “ you ever make me worry for your safety again, you. won’t have to worry about someone else trying to kill you, because I’ll do it myself”. She turns her attention back to the movie. “o-okay”. Women are so terrifying.

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Ahh just two things, I love your blog so much :)! I’d love to see what you think the bachelor's parenting styles would be like? And also you’ve been spelling Elliott's name wrong D:

Oh god I keep forgetting the second t in his name don’t I 😂😅 entirely my bad I gotta get better at checking my spelling lol I kept having to go back and respell Haley’s name for a bit too 😂 I’ll go fix that lmao, also thank you!! I enjoy writing these little blurbs and stuff, and interacting with y’all! Also reading tags y’all leave on reblogs gives me so much joy cause some are so funny, most of it’s written at like five am cause sleep evades me lol

Alright! Parenting styles!

Elliott: he strikes me as a very gentle parent, he doesn’t like to give timeouts unless absolutely necessary since he always feels bad, especially if your kids only a toddler still since Theyer only learning right from wrong and it’s all brand new, he would love to read with your kid and colour pictures with them, he definitely loves doing bedtime with them because thats when the most stories are read! Also loves taking them to the beach to play in the sand or swim for a bit

Harvey: I don’t think he really knows what he’s doing to well, honestly it’s all a learning curve for him but with doing comes learning and he sure can learn, he’ll make healthy meals and a large variety of snacks for your kids and always takes them on walks, he’s the best when it comes to little ouchies and booboos like scraped knees or paper cuts, always has colorful little bandaids on hand for them! Cute little junimo themed ones and woodland creatures, will panic if they break a bone or something serious though, kids can be quite clumsy

Sam: he’s definitely a cool dad, he’s teaching your kids to skateboard and play guitar, feeding them pizza and joja cola. You have to inform him they can’t live off of those things and teach him how to make healthy foods and snacks for the kids but he picks up on it pretty easy, will probably call his mom for advice more then once but she’s always happy to help

Sebastian: he’s not entirely clueless in the baby department since he was around when maru was a baby, he likes to play games with them, teaches them how to play video games when They’re older so he can have a player two, also gets them into solarian chronicles, he’s the ultimate cool dad, will buy your kid a sword (probably a few honestly, it’s a collection they have together now) won’t however let your kids in the mines because he’s heard your stories of what’s down there and he doesn’t want them to get hurt

Shane: he’s been around jas a lot, he’s definitely applying whatever skills he’s gained from that to his own kid, loves to get them new toys. They have a whole Lego chicken coop complete with Lego chickens that they put together as a bonding activity. He does not know how to cook very many things but he will try, he doesn’t want to be seen as useless so he’s definitely putting in the effort! He asks you to teach him how to cook and how to put together cute snack plates (he definitely has those little shape cutouts for veggies so he can make little cucumber flowers and carrot bunny’s for your kids).

Alex: definitely an active parent, literally. Loves taking the kids on jogs and walks through town, will 100% use your toddler as a weight while he’s doing squats, just holds them on his shoulders the whole time, they think it’s hilarious and he gets in a workout, it’s a win win. If your kid wants to help him make breakfast he’s thrilled, tells them all about the nutrition and how it helps with the farm work and keeps your muscles fed and happy, of course he doesn’t deny the kid of sweets either, it’s all about balance,

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Beetlejuice! Beetlejuice! Beeeeee...cause I ship it (submission)

I just saw the musical version of Beetlejuice for the second time and maybe I’ve just put my incest shipping goggles on way harder since the first time, but its full of good stuff.

First, Lydia Deetz is introduced having just lost her mother Emily, and her main motivation through the story is getting her mom back. Lydia adores her mom and mentions that she is basically Emily’s clone. She resents her father because he doesn’t want to talk about Emily, while Lydia is terrified of forgetting her and letting her go. She even goes into the Netherworld in an attempt to get Emily back, because Lydia feels so lost without her.

(Honestly, the early song “Dead Mom” says it all when it comes to Lydia’s relationships with her parents.)

Speaking of, her relationship arc with her father Charles. As I mentioned, Lydia starts out resenting him because he won’t talk about her mom/his late wife. He’s trying to move on with his life–relocating them, wanting to remarry–because of his grief, while Lydia’s grief keeps her locked in the moment of Emily’s death. Lydia feels like nobody understand her, and least of all Charles. He wants her to hurry and move on, fake happiness, and be the “perfect daughter”.

When Lydia finds out her dad is engaged to the “life coach” he hired to help her, she straight up attempts suicide, she’s so upset. Obviously, it’s the straw that broke the camels back, but… shipping goggles.

Anyway, that’s when she meets Beetlejuice. There’s something to be said for the fact that she quickly latches onto a grown man who actually sees and validates the parts of her that Charles doesn’t. And that becomes suggestive when Beetlejuice wants to marry her (just so he can be brought to life–it’s like “for green card reasons,” he insists, because she’s underage and even BJ has standards). She’s not cool with that but pretends to go along with it to get to the Netherworld, for the previous Saving Dead Mom Reasons.

But! her dad follows her into the Netherworld. Even after Lydia + BJ chased him and his fiancee out of their house, he returns to “save” his daughter and even follows her into basically hell. It’s here that they become closer and really start to see each other. Charles understands his daughter’s grief and desperation, and opens up to her that the reason he wouldn’t talk about Emily is because of his own grief. Part of the reason he wanted to marry again suddenly was to provide a mom for Lydia.

They have a really sweet hug and leave the Netherworld together. Lydia obviously still misses her mom and loves her, but she no longer feels alone in the world now that she and Charles are repairing their relationship. The musical even ends on her singing “I’m home” which made me cry.

Obviously I don’t think there’s anything between them yet. Lydia’s a minor and Charles is still set on getting her a new mom. (And I do love Delia, his fiancee, as a character. I just don’t necessarily see them lasting forever.) But they have such potential. After all, Lydia reflects that she’s basically her mother's clone. I can’t help but wonder if Charles might start to see more and more of his late wife in Lydia as she gets older, and how that might change their relationship.

On a non-Deetz family-related note: when Beetlejuice first meets Adam and Barbara (the rest of our main cast), BJ fakes them out by pretending to be Adam’s long-lost father. And right after Adam tentatively buys it, BJ plants a big kiss on him. He makes at least one more “daddy” joke to Adam later in the play, too.

And Beetlejuice has bigtime mommy issues himself. He’s never felt loved by his mother–which is why he struggles to understand Lydia’s desperation to bring her own mother back. At the end of the play, Beetlejuice’s mother appears and tricks him back into the Netherworld… by feigning motherly love for him. It’s sad how eager he is to accept it. He’s an awful person, but the poor messed-up guy just wants somebody to care about him like his mom never did. It’s a sad foil to Lydia and her family.

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Wow, this is my second post today about a play making an incest ship shippier. 

Lots of potential here, and this totally hits my father/daughter sweet spot. 

Thanks for all the details!  

[trollsedits]

Brozone + Dance moms references

-I been watching dance moms and I really love it and some of the quotes are so funny and iconic so I made it look like Brozone was in a reality tv show and put them in a confession setting haha well for some and I change some of the quote to fits with the trolls theme but is still dance moms if you watch dances mom you know what I’m talking about haha.-

“Everyone is replaceable!” John Dory said looking at his little brothers cause John Dory knew that they would mess up the routine

“This is gonna cost me a lots of money in therapy.” Spruce said looking at clay “I feel you bro.” Clay reply

“I don’t want to go on broadway, I just want to say home and eat chips.” Branch told John “I don’t care you are gonna be in broadway weather you like it or not now go out there and make me proud or I’ll replace you!” John said

“I don’t get along with John Dory unless he’s stop being bossy.” Clay said looking at his fish head brother who is literally bossing everyone around

“John Dory doesn’t look like a model to me.” Floyd said in a confession room which made spruce and clay crack up laughing

“John Dory said we’re going to blow the perfect family harmony away I really hope he doesn’t mean that literally cause we could get disqualified.” Floyd also added in giving a shy smile 🥺👉🏻👈🏻

“I don’t even like being fun boy Clay I’m just here because John Dory said he will buy me books.” Clay said looking at John Dory who was mumbling to himself

“I cut my finger on John dory’s goggles I hope I can still sing.” Branch said showing his boo boo “Floyd kiss my boo boo.” He said giving Floyd a puppy eye

“If clay comes to me and says he wants to be in a sad book club I’ll probably slit my wrists.” John Dory said

“FLOYD YOU DESERVE NOTHING!” John Dory scream at him “Well if you yell at me I’m gonna cry.” Floyd said “GET OUT!” John said as Floyd walked out crying to his grandma

You know John Dory made spruce go on a strict diet to keep his abs well spruce wanted some cookies and John Dory caught him all spruce wanted was just one cookie it won’t hurt him “SPRUCE HAVE YOU LEARNED NOTHING!” John Dory scream

“We’re all gonna have FUN!” John Dory snap at his brothers complaining about hitting the perfect family harmony

“Everyone’s replaceable but me.” John Dory said which made his little brothers even his grandma shake theirs heads

“Sometimes I don’t think John Dory knows what’s he’s talking about.” Spruce said

As the brothers were fighting over who should do a solo for their upcoming concert grandma Rosiepuff had enough so she slam the chair in the middle of them “EMPTY CHAIR, DO A SOLO!” She snap angrily which shut her grandsons

As the perfect family harmony failed so badly John Dory was having a meltdown “John Dory yelling and throwing a fit and all I can think is I can’t take him seriously with that squared face.” Spruce said rolling his eyes at John Dory who is literally having a tantrum

As Clay and John Dory was fighting after the family harmony failed “At least I’m one bitch! You’re like three bitches!” Clay said as everyone was laughing “Ooh he just got diagnosed” grandma Rosiepuff said sipping on her drink “Will the real one stand up.” Spruce said which made John Dory walked out of the pod that’s how’s John Dory was the first one to leave….

“I bark when I see John Dory too!” Clay said

“It doesn’t matter about the perfect family harmony, I’m emotional.” Floyd said sobbing while looking at John Dory

“My little bitty B.” John Dory said looking over at branch clueless

“Does my little bitty B get a solo too?” John Dory said

“Bitty B is like a Breath of fresh air.” John Dory said Hugging bitty B too tightly

When ever John Dory was being to harsh on his brother during practice Floyd ended up crying at almost every practice that they do as Floyd ran up to grandma and cry on her chest which made John Dory stupidly said this “why was he crying?! Floyd should cry when his arm is broken and it’s hanging off or when somebody die.” John Dory said as John came over to Floyd “Suck it up I don’t want to see those tears save your tears for the pillows Floyd.” John said which made grandma give John the death stare

John prep talks for his brother before a shows dose not help them at all because the fact they are force to be perfect “I could make or I could break you now let’s go out there and hit the perfect family harmony.” He said

As Clay was having some anxiety attack as spruce and Floyd was calming him down John Dory said to clay “Clay you need to stop the whiny teenager crap. Do me a favor and just smile.” John said

Bitty B was still a literal baby he needs his nap time and play time but his bossy brother made him practice just like the others brothers “John Dory I need my nappy can I please have my nap time?.” Branch asked nicely as John looked at branch and said “I don’t care what’s going on bitty B, get your butt down to this studio.” John said demanding branch

As the brothers were fighting on their way to go save Floyd Bruce finally said something that he should have said years before straight to John Dory face “you are a monstrosity of evil.” Bruce said straight to his square ass face

Back in their bands days spruce would tell his little brother everything except for John Dory “Bruce told us that we’re not supposed to tell John Dory anything he’s a blabbermouth.” Branch said cutely

Okay John Dory said some pretty mean stuff to Bruce when he saw how much Bruce change like his weight change John can’t accept the fact that Bruce gain on some weight so John Dory again said this stupid shit “I would get Bruce a three-month trial membership to weight watchers if I were to give him a gift.” John said and you all know Bruce beat the shit out of him later that same day when John said it

~side note: I’m not making fun of Bruce weight or anything I genuinely think he is much happier putting on that weight and it makes me happy to see how happy he is after leaving the band I know being skinny is hard because you are expected to look perfect every way possible so I can relate to Bruce a lot as I am struggling too anyways ; I’m just simply quoting it off dance moms and making it seems like they were in dance moms or some sort of reality TV show I’m just letting you all know that I wasn’t trying to body shame Bruce or anything hope you understand is never my intention to body shame anyone if it comes off as a misunderstanding I am terribly sorry for that and I will be more clear on it next time <3~

As none of the other brothers wanted solo John Dory saw an opportunity for bitty B to have the spotlight

“This is a perfect opportunity for my little bitty B.” John said stroking branches hair

John Dory admits a deepest secret ever told in trolls history “I just cry sometimes it’s no big deal.” He said sipping on his coffee

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Anyways I hope you guys liked that references and if you haven’t watch dance mom yet I suggest you go watch it; super funny and iconic that why I thought of Brozone haha <3

Anyways I’ll make a part 2 if I find any more funny quotes that matches w the rest of the brothers beside John Dory <3

-also I know is not a lot of Floyd,Bruce,Clay and branch and more focus on John Dory but I will definitely try to find some quote that is  relatable to the other brothers in the future..-

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[eliasorchard]

Hey Elias

Is the anon with the terrible father

This week he was drinking as usual. I didn’t hear him pick up on mom much, but I know he did because mom told me about it. He picked on her because she was snoring (while he also snores and even louder than her) and also made another comment that she could find something smart of her phone instead of stupidity. He also changed the products for cleaning cause he still had a problem with the products mom buys. Then on Saturday, me and mom were picking out leaves from the garden. He said the weather should be sunny, but it wasn’t. In fact it was windy. But we did pick a huge part of the leaves anyway. Then he approached us saying that the rakes he uses are better for picking out leaves (cause he was also doing something in the garden) and mom only said that the weather isn’t too good for picking out leaves and that he was mistaken about it. As soon as that happened he attacked her with words:"Then go lay down on the couch" and said that we should start pick out the leaves since the week started, when they were all wet and overall it was raining almost the whole week. Also mom did pick some leaves on Friday and made a few piles already for a head-start and he said she should leave it for tomorrow and let the leaves dry. The same leaves that weren’t even dry on Saturday when we started picking them out. Not only he’s stupid but a hypocrite. And on Sunday he pissed me off with a comment. Cause my back started hurting because of the wind, cause while picking the leaves my shirt didn’t want to stop riding up and I had to adjusted it. You know what he said when I said that my back hurts? That I don’t stretch much and that I need to move more. Says he who has his stomach stretched out like a huge football ball and who most of the time lays in bed or the bathtub or sits in his office doing work when he’s at home. Can’t even feel bad or be hurting cause not only he won’t give you support, he will make you feel even worse. And today, mom said that my sister didn’t go to school because she doesn’t feel well and my father immediately went:"Oh, she’s pretending again. Is like that every Monday. But you let her do it and now you have it the way you have it." Then I opened the fridge cause I wanted to see what there is inside, so I could eat some breakfast. I was standing in front of it a bit more and the idiot said:"Close the fridge. Don’t stand there for half an hour, thinking about what to get out from it. Why do you even stand there in front of it so much?" Dunno, maybe because I need to see what’s inside and have a moment to think what to get for breakfast? And is not like I will leave the fridge open for I don’t know how long. I will close it if I will need more time to think. Geez (Good thing he’s so perfect and does everything flawlessly. Oh Boo-hoo 🥺)

Hopefully I will be able to find a good job soon and move out. This dumbass doesn’t deserve us. The way he treats me, mom and my sister, is always unhappy and ungrateful and is always looking for something he can pick up on and just bitch about it overall.

Yes, I am and will stay salty about it. This man just makes me feel "Ugh"🙄 in short

Sorry about all the negative talk about my father. I know this is tiring. Take as much time as you need to answer this ask. And remember about taking a break and have a good rest. And to eat something good.

Anyway, have a good day/ night ✨

(I’m writing this ask again cause earlier I wrote it and tried to send in but my Wi-Fi messed up for a moment and it didn’t got send)

ANON AKWWKSUUD I HATE YOUR DAD SM 💔💔💔 I hope by the time this ask is posted, you'll be feeling slightly better? hes always doing some stupid ass shit brah

your dad’s behavior is beyond frustrating. it’s infuriating. it’s like he looks for any excuse to put himself on a pedestal, but what does he really do? he’s lounging around and throwing out hypocritical remarks, and expecting everyone else to cater to his standards that change whenever it suits him ?? fuck him

how dare he sit there and lecture you about moving more when he’s literally the least active person in the house? 💀 crazy. instead of asking what’s wrong or showing even a shred of concern, he’s SO quick to accuse and blame

your mom deserves so much better. he doesn’t just criticize her choices—he actively undermines her. complaining about the cleaning products she buys, changing things just to assert control, dismissing her effort in the garden, etc, like she’s not already doing her part ??? she’s out there doing work, in less-than-ideal weather no less, trying to do her best, and he has the gall to act like it’s not enough. what an asshole he is

+ the fridge thing ?? give me a break. god forbid you take an extra second to decide what you want to eat. it’s not like you’re standing there for an hour with the door wide open or something, but he just HAS to find a way to make a snide remark. the man clearly doesn’t know how to let things go, he HAS to be the loudest, most critical voice in the room.

it’s okay to feel angry about all of this. you’re not overreacting, and you’re not wrong for being pissed off. you're better than me because i would've turned homicidal. you’re dealing with someone who refuses to see how his actions and words hurt the people around him, and it’s draining asf. you're so strong anon

none of this is your fault. the way he acts says more about him than it does about you or your mom. his constant negativity isn’t a reflection of your worth—it’s a reflection of his own insecurities or whatever fuckass issues he’s dealing with but refuses to confront. you and your mom don't deserve this treatment, and the fact that you’re still there helping her, standing up for yourself, and holding things together shows just how strong and resilient you really are. well done <3

lean on your mom when you need to, and keep venting to me when it gets too much. you’re not alone in this, and even if he’s not giving you the support you deserve, you’re doing an amazing job of pushing through and staying grounded despite it all. hold onto that strength, and don’t let his negativity dim who you are

take care of yourself anon, you're very strong for all of this

[starlahuskyz]

Chances - Chapter 8

Summary: The boys meet Jordan at the boardwalk for a night out, but before they can start she has to run an errand at the comic shop. After that they get into a squabble involving Bixby which makes Jordan second guess what she originally thought of the boys. That is until Marko steps in...

This is a longer chapter and I'm gonna try to make all of them longer from now on.

Chapter 7 <<< >>> Chapter 9

TW// None

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Jordan is fixing herself up in the mirror for her meet with the boys tonight. She threw on something a little more classy for the night, not too classy, but a nice middle ground.. Her mother sees her getting ready and tosses a question at her.

“You sure look fancy, what’s the occasion?” Jordan looks at her a little surprised and thinks about what she’s going to say.

“Um, I’m going out.” She stares blankly at her mother who already knows that she’s not being all too honest.

“Going where, exactly?” Jane places her hands on her hips in the standard mom way while Jordan avoids her gaze.

“Somewhere…” She adjusts her headband pretending to look busy.

“Alone or-wait, Jordan…have you met someone?” She watches her intensely.

“No ma! It’s not a date. I’m just…testing the waters as they say.” She reluctantly looks at her.

“Jordan I thought you swore off dating or doing anything like that? You do remember what happened right?” Jordan sighs, she remembers all too well and she’s tired of her parents reminding her.

“Who wouldn’t? Of course I do. I’m just…” She leans on the sink and rubs her eyes as she’s fighting tears of frustration. 

“I’m not mad, sweetie I just don’t want to have any more repeats of what happened.” She places a gentle hand on Jordan’s shoulder.

“I don’t either, I’m just tired of running. If I can’t move forward, I’m never gonna feel better. This could be my chance to achieve my goal of finding the right person to spend my life with. I know what to look out for, so I will keep myself in check this time around.” She finally stands up straight and relaxes.

“Well, please watch out. And stay safe.” She placed a hand onto Jordan's face affectionately. 

“I will. Love you ma.” Jordan made her way downstairs and out the door shutting it behind her.

“Love you too.”

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At the boardwalk, Marko anxiously waited by his bike for Jordan to arrive. He kept chewing on his fingers and Paul took notice. 

“Hey dude, relax. She’ll show up, if you keep eating you won’t have enough room for dinner.” Paul gestured at Marko who swiftly removed his finger from his mouth and started bouncing his leg instead.

“What if she doesn’t.” Marko frantically looks around until Dwayne taps his shoulder. “What?” Dwayne points down the boardwalk and sees her looking for them. 

“Go get her tiger, this is all you.” Dwayne smiles and shoves him forward and Marko stumbles off..

“You got this man!” Paul whoops and hollers at Marko causing a scene thus David smacks him on the back of the head to shut him up.

Marko walks towards her and collects himself by slicking his hair back and repositioning his jacket. She catches sight of him and smiles which Marko takes as a good sign.

“Glad you could make it tonight. I will say you're making me feel underdressed.” He gestures at her outfit.

“Have you seen yourself? You look like my late grandma’s bed sheets.” She pointed at his get up. “Besides, I ruined my clothes from last night’s squabble so I had no choice.”

“Whatever, so what do you wanna do tonight? Marko leaned on the railing while he waited for an answer.

“Well I have to do something real quick. I need to head to Frog comics to look for something. My dad lended me some cash to get him a comic book. He’s kinda getting into them so he just said to buy him something he would probably like. Marko winced.

“Ah, I see.” Marko started chewing his thumb anxiously.

“Something wrong?” Jordan tilted her head curiously. “If you’re not up for it then I can just go alone-”

“No, it’s fine. I’m no puss.” Marko speaks confidently despite the fact he can feel David staring daggers at him.

“Marko don’t fucking do it.” David intrudes his mind and Marko quickly leads Jordan aways from the area towards the comic store.

“Sorry about that, David just doesn’t like me going there. Those kids hate us.” Marko apologizes to Jordan.

“Is it because you’re a “bloodsucker”?” Jordan puts up air quotes to make her point. “Yeah I get it, they don’t like me either. When I first moved here they were lecturing me about vampires and such. I didn’t believe them at the time.”

“You must feel stupid now?” Marko smirked at her.

“Definitely. But I still don't really care to be honest.”

“Do they know you’re a vampire?” Marko questioned.

“Not yet. They always suspect innocent people as vampires while the actual vampires run free.”

“Why would you even keep going to them? What if they plot against you or something?” Marko recalled what they had done to him and his brothers the previous year. They have reached a truce at this point so only god knows what will happen after he walks back in.

“I’m not afraid of some kids, Marko. Unless Rambo is their dad then I ain’t got nothing to worry about.” She walks into the store and starts searching, taking her sweet time. Marko staggers at the entrance thinking. “She's right, they're just a bunch of stupid kids. I’m not a punk. They can’t get me twice.”

After walking in Marko sees Jordan already talking to the brothers, and as Marko walks up, they stop and stare at him. The boy with the headband questions Jordan as she sifts through some comics oblivious to their dismay.

“That’s who you’re with? He’s bad news, don’t you know?” He tries getting her attention.

“Oh really Edgar, mind telling me why?” She still doesn’t look.

The other brother drops the news completely dumbfounded. “He’s a shit sucking vampire! That’s why!”

Marko immediately snaps “Shut up!

Jordan looks through a superman comic and simply says. “Alright Alan, and why is that a problem?” 

“Vampires are a very threat to your life, and humanity as we know it. I thought we made it very clear?” Edgar pulls the comic down from her face and looks her dead in the eyes. She just stares at him with a faint smile on her face.

“Well if he sucks me dry then that’s my problem.” She puts the comic back and continues searching. But a new voice pulls her from her search once again and she sighs tired of the interruption.

“You can’t be serious right? We’ve told you about what happened in ‘87 right? How bloodsuckers trashed my house and his buddies were responsible.” A blonde kid with an unnatural fashion sense looks at her from across the shelf.

“That’s cute Sam, but that sounds like a personal problem between you and them and nothing to do with me.” 

Sam walks over to Marko in order to confront him.

“I’m not here to start trouble little Emerson, I’m just here to accompany a friend of mine.” He points to Jordan who finally finds a comic of interest.

“Well make it quick because I don’t want you here. And you!” He points to Jordan who looks over at him. “Don’t trust him! He will get ya eventually!” He cups his hands around his mouth to make his point stronger.

Jordan ponders what he said for a moment before going to pay for the comic. Marko notices and catches up with her.

“Hey, don’t listen to him. Sam is just projecting, he’s terrified of us.” He smirks but Jordan just stares blankly after setting cash onto the counter.

“I hope so.” She mutters almost to herself.

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They finally come back to the rest of the boys who are watching the concert playing on the beach.

“It’s about damn time!” David yells as he finally sees them approaching.

“Yeah well we’re back. And I’m going with Jordan.” Marko hops on his bike and revs it up.

“Where are you guys going?” Paul pulls up in front of Marko blocking his way. Jordan answers.

“I’m going to drop this comic off at my house, but-" Paul smirks at Marko and wiggles his eyebrows. 

“You sly dog, getting in some action already huh?” Jordan flicks a quarter at Paul's head with scary good precision and he yelps. 

“No, you horndog. Besides, I was gonna have all of you come with me.” Jordan retrieves the quarter while Marko looks on with surprise.

“Uh Jordan I thought it was just me going with you?” He looks almost disappointed.

“I don’t wanna leave your brothers out besides, I thought when we were hanging out that it meant that ALL of us are hanging out.” Marko doesn’t fight it and David rides up next to her. 

“Sounds like a good idea, right Marko?” He teases.

“Yeah…” Marko grits his teeth.

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They all ride up to Jordan’s house together and the boys are surprised as they weren’t exactly expecting her to be living in a proper house. Jordan gets off her bike and pulls out her keys.

“Alright guys, stay out here and don’t be too loud. I’ll be out in a few minutes.” She goes into the house while the boys all wait outside not really sure on what to do.

“I wanna explore this place, looks pretty nice-” Paul gets shut down before he can finish.

“Don't even, we have to respect her wishes and that means no exploring.” Marko crosses his arms and looks at Paul disappointedly.

The boys then all hear a vicious hissing and meowing only to see a black cat fluffing up and spitting at them. David grows interested and gets off his bike. The boys all start snickering as they know what he’s about to do. The cat is still growling at him and so he gets down onto all fours like a cat and starts hissing back at it. The boys laugh their asses off while the cat starts to swat at David. His face then morphs into its monstrous form as he roars at it. At that moment Jordan walks out and Bixby immediately runs over to her and nearly trips her over.

“Bixby!” She looks at the boys furiously and Marko, Dwayne and Paul stop laughing while David gets up and smiles.

“Is there a problem?” He dusts himself off while Jordan looks upset.

“Dude! You scared my cat! Why did you do that?” She looks between her legs and sees Bixby is still growling. She picks him up and looks at David. “What did he ever do to you?” 

“Well your little demon creature was hissing and spitting at us. Animals aren’t fans of vampires, you know?” He looks at her with a blank face not feeling any kind of remorse.

“Bull crap! Animals don’t discriminate, you just need to treat them with love and let them know they can trust you.” She puts him into the house and shuts the door.

“Alright look, let's just move past this whole thing and get back to having some fun.” Paul intervenes as he’s itching to start the night.

“Well I don’t even know if I want to do this anymore, you guys are kinda jerks.” Jordan crosses her arms feeling hurt, she knew she was overreacting but she couldn’t help it.

“You need to drop it, it’s just a cat.” David lights a cigarette. Marko is beyond upset at this point so he finally makes it known to everyone else.

“Enough! This shit is ridiculous!” Do me a favor guys and please leave and let me talk to Jordan!” He snaps at his brothers who know better than to fight Marko. “At least give me a few minutes with her so I can sort this out.”

Without any more words, they leave and Marko and Jordan are left alone.

“I’m really sorry about that. We didn’t know that was your pet.” Marko tried to be as gentle as he could when talking to her.

“It’s not your fault, I think I should’ve warned you guys.” She looks at him almost apologetically which hurt Marko because he felt like none of this was even her fault.

“David is a mean guy, don’t worry about him. Look, we aren’t all like this, and I really want to give this a chance. The night has barely started and I have an idea for what we can do if you’re up for it, we can get back at David.” Marko looks at her sincerely. Jordan looks up feeling interested.

“And what would that be?”

“A race.”

“My bike could never beat you guys though.” She says slightly annoyed.

“I know, that’s why I said ‘we’ can get back at him.” Marko revs up his bike and holds his hand out for Jordan. “Do you trust me?”

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[alwayzraven]

Kardeşlerim Ep 75

Ahmet told Omer that he is going to buy him and his siblings a house. Omer and Asiye felt awkward about his offer and Omer told him that he doesn't have to do that but Ahmet said that he's not going to take a no for an answer.

Gunul locked Orhan in the house so he wouldn’t go to the court and finalize their divorce but Afra told Oglucan and Aybike when she saw them at the bus stop so they went back to Gunul's house and they got him out. He got in time to the court and they got divorced. After that, Gunul stole Sengul's mini bus and drove it into the ocean. Sengul found out that her mini bus was stolen and told Akif about it. They confronted Gunul and she denied it. I feel like she’s going to do worse than this in the future.

Aybike was looking through her clothes to choose what to sell and what to keep. She wants to help Sengul pay the bills since Sengul won’t be working for a while. Berk called her. 

I love how she smiled when she saw that Berk was the one calling her ❤️❤️

Aybike: Hello

Berk: Hi sweetheart, what are you doing?

Aybike: I am good. I'm sorting my clothes. You?

Berk: ohh, so you’re probably going to go shopping. Are you making a list of what you have and what you don’t?

Aybike: I wish! I wish I was going to go shopping. I am just picking the clothes that are worth some money.

Berk: Why? What happened? Are you in urgent need of money or something?

Ayber: if by urgent you mean am I going to die from hunger then no I am not dying but my mom’s mini bus was stolen.

Berk: what are you saying ?

Aybike: Unfortunately, that’s what happened. so this means that money won't be coming into this household for a while and that’s why to pay the bills I found a solution like this.

Berk: What if I helped you? I mean, when it comes to money, it’s not going to cause a problem between us, right??

Aybike: Yes it will. I can’t accept money from you. I have to deal with this problem by myself.

Berk: okay, what are you going to do? Will you collect enough money if you sold your clothes?

Aybike: A lot of them are from the local market. if they were clothes from known brands then maybe. I am not hopeful but It’s worth a try.

Berk: I understand. Okay then you go through your clothes and I will see if I can maybe find some things I don’t wear that are worth selling.

Aybike: Okay but only things you don’t wear.

Berk: Okay sweetheart! sending you kisses

Aybike: Okay, sending you kisses, bye 

Berk went to look through his clothes but he thought they wouldn't bring enough money. So he went to look through his mom's closet because he said that she has a lot of expensive clothes that she doesn't wear that often. He chose some and also a handbag he said he never saw her use. He heard Ayla yell "What are you doing in my room, Berk?" So he rolled the clothes and the handbag into a blanket. Ayla came into her mom and asked him again. He said that he was cold and he was looking for her blanket because it had her smell, "a mom's smell, which is the most beautiful smell in the world" and she was like "aww my precious son". This scene was so funny 😂 The thing is his relationship with his mom is so good so she didn’t think that he was lying about the blanket.

The next day, at school, Aybike was at the cafeteria. She was checking if she sold some of her clothes but she didn’t. Berk came with a bag. 

Anybody thought that they were going to kiss when she got up to go to him? 

Berk: Good morning, sweetheart!

Aybike:Good morning

Berk: How are you?

Aybike: I am good, you?

Berk: I am good. Come on open this and see what’s inside it

Aybike: what is this?

Berk: I don’t know. Let’s see what’s inside.

Aybike: Berk what are these?

Berk: When you said you’re selling second hand clothes, I found some things and I brought them to you so you can sell them.

Aybike: Okay, but these do not belong to your mom, right?

Berk: No, my love. These belong to my friend’s mom from the gym. She’s not using these anymore.

Aybike: This is great then, this is really great! Berk all of these are clothes from well known brands, they will sell so fast.

Aybike: Thank you really! Really! You’re so sweet!

Berk: You’re welcome my love! As long as you’re happy, that’s enough for me.I will do everything I can to put a smile on your face.

Aybike: You are the best!

Berk: You too!

Then Berk said that he’s going to help her take pictures of the clothes and put them for sale on the website.

Later, they managed to sell the bag (which btw wasn’t expensive (45$-41€)). Aybike told Oglucan that she will share the profits with Berk and Berk told Oglucan that he tried to convince her not to do that but he couldn’t. Oglucan told him that he talked to the wrong person because if he came to him he wouldn't have suggested that lol.

In the evening, Berk called Aybike to see if she sold more clothes and she showed him what was left. At that moment, Ayla came into his room asking about her denim shirt which coincidentally Aybike was showing him and Ayla was like: “Ah that’s the shirt I am looking for” and he slammed the laptop shut and said:”No it’s not, it’s just a coincidence”. Aybike called him back since he suddenly hung up and he told her not to sell the denim shirt because someone wants it. He told her to bring it tomorrow and he will give her the money for it. Berk was out of breath and Aybike asked him why he was out of breath and he said that he was working out and procedeed to suddenly lift weights 😂  

Then he hung up and started complaining about Ayla 😂

Berk:”You have so many shirts but I chose your favorite one, right???”

The way he said this is so funny because she has so many clothes but got hung up on the one he chose 😂

Remember when Ayla tried to expose Nebehat and Akif for cheating? Now that Nebehat and Ayla made up, Ayla asked Nebehat about that period where she was close with Akif. She asked her if something happened between them and Nebehat told her that one day they woke up in the same bed. Nebehat told her not to tell anyone about this. Ayla secretly recorded the whole thing. I was sure that they made up for good but after Ayla asked her about her and Akif, I got suspicious. Later, she called Nebehat and Akif to the club and played the recording for them. They were shocked especially Nebehat because she thought Ayla really forgave her. Ayla told her that she didn’t forget what they did to Resul. Then she sent the recording to Suzan.

At the end of the episode, Omer and Sarp argued because Ahmet decided to register Omer as his son (so he’s going to give him his last name). Omer pushed Sarp while they were fighting and Sarp hit his head when he fell. Ahmet was going to buy Omer and his siblings a house but I guess now he’s not going to.

Overall, it was an okay episode. I know that Ayla is going to find out about what Berk did with her clothes and she’s going to be so angry that she might do something this time. There was no Ayber in the teaser but hopefully we’ll get a 2nd one in the middle of the week

[enolacola]

Black Clover x Harry Potter AU! Year One Part 1

Now that I’ve had some time to think, let’s get onto the first year of our Black Clover x Harry Potter AU!

So the book opens with Licita abandoning Asta at the orphanage where he grew up. It’s sorta the same thing as the manga but there’s a twist later. Father Orsi and Sister Lily take Asta in, he grows up there, the same stuff as usual. Just one thing: my boy Yuno lives around the area and he’s from the 28 pure blood family or whatever that is. So he grows up with Asta while keeping his magic a secret.

Now when Asta’s ten, he and the others go to the zoo for funnies and guess what, my friends? Asta can talk to a f*cking snake. Anyway, snake breaks free and people scream and Yuno’s all like: wait a damn minute. So then Yuno suspects Asta has Wizard blood in him or something like that and Yuno goes to tell his parents.

Asta, on the other hand, is being scolded at by Orsi because this is the like third time the week he did some stupid shit. Next day, Asta gets a letter addressed to him and he’s all like: I’m wanted somewhere? It’s a Hogwarts letter, btw. And he shows his peeps.

Orsi and Lily are in denial. There’s no way he could be in a Wizard school. Magic doesn’t even exist! So while they’re all in denial for, like, a week, Yuno comes and sees the letter and convo goes something like this:

Yuno: Asta, do you know what that means?

Asta: it means someone’s playing a prank on me.

Yuno: you f*cking idiot.

Anyway, the door knocks and everyone is confused. Sister Lily goes to open it and guess who it is? It’s my boy Yami. And he’s here to explain what the f*ck is going on. And he’s all like:

Yami: Yer a Wizard, Asta

Asta: what?

Yami: Yer a Wizard, ya f*cking idiot.

Yami then has to explain shit he doesn’t want to and Yuno explains shit as well but Yami doesn’t like it so he tries to kill Yuno but Asta’s like: don’t kill my bestie, so Yuno lives.

Orsi’s got a problem with all this because it’s dangerous and doesn’t want his son to get killed and Yami tells them Asta won’t get killed…probably. Yuno also tells them that he also got an invitation from Hogwarts so he’ll with Asta even if they’re not in the same house. Orsi let’s them go eventually but he’s still worried for Asta.

A few days later, Asta, Yuno and Yami go to Kikka (Diagon Alley) to get their stuff. Asta has no money but Yami’s got his back covered, kind of. Turns out, Asta’s mom was a powerful Witch so she’s got her pocket’s full. She also died and because she has no family other than Asta, Asta got all the money at Gringotts. Anyway, they go a buy the stuff together. There isn’t anything special about it so it doesn’t really matter what wand they’ll get. The only thing that’s important is the fact that a very powerful Wizard had gotten the same type of wand as Asta.

Anyway, Asta’s birthday is about to come, so Yuno decides to buy him a f*cking owl as a gift. B*tch probably just wanted to show off he has more money. Asta is horrible at names and Yuno isn’t any better. Forget Yami who called him Yami Jr. so the owl is right now nameless. The owl is a burrowing owl by the way. Yuno bought it because it matches Asta’s eye colour (they are the only owls to have green-like eyes).

Now Asta is at a pub or something cause Yami wants alcohol. They’re sitting and someone who knew Licita recognizes Asta (I mean, who wouldn’t recognize Licita’s male version?) and calls him out. Asta is a little freaked out by the sudden attention and Yuno is annoyed because he now knows he can’t spend two seconds alone with Asta anymore.

They meet Gueldre who’s currently the DADA teacher. Yami calls him a boneless ham and Gueldre’s offended. Nothing much happens and the two continue on their merry way.

So I think that’s the end of Part I of year one. If I had to divide it in chapters it’ll be something like this:

Prologue: Licita abandons Asta

Chapter One: The zoo

Chapter Two: Hogwarts letter

Chapter Three: Yami’s appearance

Chapter Four: Diagon Alley

[iamdrowninghelpme98]

Entry 26:

2024

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November

Lonely.

The loneliness has been brutal, clawing at me in every quiet moment. I find myself missing R more than I want to admit. As much as I know our relationship was toxic and caused me so much pain, there’s a part of me that craves the comfort of being wanted, even if it was fleeting and conditional. His absence leaves a void that feels too big to fill, and I hate myself for missing someone who hurt me so deeply.

Even work has been extra hard lately.

The entire store is decorated for the holidays, Christmas music is playing nonstop, and it feels like every little thing is a reminder of what I’ve lost. Families keep coming in, excited and happy, and it just drives the ache deeper. Yesterday, I was bagging baby clothes for a customer and couldn’t hold back my tears. I cried right there in front of them. Everything about this season reminds me that my baby is gone, that I’ll never get to experience the joy of the holidays with her. Instead of spending the holidays buying gifts for my daughter, or anyone in my family, all I can seem to do is replay the horrible memories I’ve learned to associate with this time of year. They’re so deeply ingrained in me, it’s like instinct- my body just knows this is the time to break down again. I’m not strong enough to fight back against the sadness. I need therapy, I need my friends, I need my family. But I feel so far away from all of it- isolated and resourceless, with no clear way to climb out.

And then last week I’m in a car accident with my older sister. I’m grateful we’re both okay, but the aftermath has been harder to process. My phone was recovered by a cop on the scene, but I didn’t have access to it for a few days. I only know R’s and my adopted mom’s numbers by heart, so I called him. I didn’t think my adopted mom would take my calls- even if I’d called from a hospital phone, I’m pretty sure she’d have hung up as soon as she heard my voice. My adopted dad messaged me though, actually a few times just to make sure I was okay. I hate that I worried him, but I felt his love for me extra strong after seeing those texts when I got my phone back. I don’t know what I would do without him in my life.

My mom went to visit my sister in the hospital and never sought me out. That hurt more than I can even put into words. It’s another reminder that I’m not worth showing up for, not even when I’m scared or hurt.

While I was in the hospital, they put me on painkillers. That was such a bad idea. I wish they hadn’t, but they didn’t know, and I’m responsible for my own self control. Now I’ve taken a few pills since leaving. I think that counts as a relapse. I hate admitting that, even to myself. I’m itching for more, and I hate myself for it. I’m a fucking loser.

I keep asking myself what’s wrong with me, why I feel so unlovable. Why do I keep chasing people who can’t-or won’t- love me the way I need? The shame feels heavy, like a constant reminder that I’m broken in some fundamental way. It’s hard not to spiral into self-hatred when it feels like no one sees me, no one cares.

I hate myself for feeling like this, for being so desperate for connection. I hate myself for being so easily discarded, over and over again. I hate myself for wanting things that seem so simple for others but impossible for me.

And I keep talking to my baby girl, hoping she hears me. Hoping she knows how much I loved her, even when I don’t know how to love myself. She’s the only one who feels constantly within my heart, she doesn’t make me feel ashamed of who I am. She was the one good thing that came from me, the only thing I’m proud of.

I feel so low, like I’m sinking deeper into a place I might not be able to climb out of. Everything feels so heavy, and I can’t seem to stop myself from spiraling. One bad decision leads to another, and I’m watching myself lose control. It’s like I’m stuck in freefall, reaching out for something to hold onto, but there’s nothing there. I don’t know how to stop this, and I’m scared of where I’ll end up if I can’t.

[simmerdowndee]

windenburg years episode five part three

Theo and I are getting ready to have lunch with his mom and dad. As I was making lunch, I got a call from the cake shop. They called and asked why I decided to cancel our order. I’m confused, because I didn’t cancel anything. That is where we are getting the cake.

Dakota: Babe, did you speak with the cake shop about canceling the cake?

Theo: No?

Juniper: Oh Dakota! I meant to tell you; I called them.

Why would she call them?

Juniper: I found a cake company here that was so much cheaper and had better flavors, so I canceled your initial one. We can all go cake tasting together. It will be much easier on Theo’s pockets.

Has she lost her fucking mind?

Theo: Why would you do that?  

Dakota: Yeah, please. Enlighten us?

Juniper: I just figured since Theo seems to be paying for it all, I could help him out with finding less expensive alternatives….

Dakota: If Theo had an issue with the price, he would say something.

Juniper: Oh, c’mon Dakota, he lets you get whatever you want regardless. You’re quite spoiled…

It’s his mom. I have to be calm. I cannot blow up. I cannot blow up.

Dakota: No disrespect Mrs.’s Grove, but you are overstepping at this point.

Dakota: This is Theo and I’s wedding. You do not get to make decisions like that without telling us. Hell, you don’t get to make decisions about MY WEDDING.

Juniper: What was the point of inviting me to help if I couldn’t make changes?

Dakota: Exactly, you are here to HELP. This is not your wedding.

Theo: Lets all calm down a bit.

Dakota: No, I won’t calm down. Your mom for the last two days has had an issue with EVERYTHING that’s been decided. Once again, THIS IS NOT YOUR WEDDING!

Juniper: See, spoiled.

Theo: Mom, that’s enough.

Dakota: I’m not even fucking hungry anymore. I’m going to take a nap.

Theo: Babe wait….

Where the hell does she get off thinking she has any kind of say so at a wedding that has nothing to do with her? Also, I’m spoiled now? Theo has never been forced to buy me anything he didn’t want to. Is this Theo saying this? Cause I’ll let his ass have it too. I’m going to go take a nap to calm down….

I nap for about an hour and Theo comes in and wakes me up. His mom and dad left once they finished eating lunch (without me).

Theo: You should eat something. You didn’t have lunch with us.

Dakota: Oh, you went ahead and had lunch with them. Cool.

Theo: I mean I didn’t want to waste the food. You spent all morning preparing it….

Theo: C’mon babe, you know I would have preferred to eat lunch with you.

Dakota: I’m not hungry….

Theo: Babe….

Dakota: I’m gonna go call the cake place back and tell them I want my original cake.

Theo: I already took care of it.

Theo: I also talked to my mom and told her she was wrong for what she did/said. She wanted to wait for you to wake up and apologize, but I told her to let you cool off.

Dakota: Theo, be honest with me. Is this wedding too expensive? You mentioned once before that it was expensive and then your mom seems to also think you’re spending too much…

Dakota: I can ask my parents to help with my dress…

Dakota: Or we can just scrap the wedding and elope.

Theo: Yes, it is expensive.

Dakota: Ok-

Theo: But I never had an issue with it. I want you to have the wedding that you want.

Dakota: Do you think I’m spoiled? Is that coming from you?

Theo: No baby, I’ve never said that. I truly don’t know where that came from.

Theo: I’ll be honest with you; I think my mom is trying to take over because she never got her own wedding.

Dakota: What do you mean?

Theo: My grandparents didn’t approve of her marrying my father, because... well… me.

Dakota: You?

Theo: My mom had me before she got married.

Dakota: Well, that explains some of her “eagerness.”

Theo: Still doesn’t make what she said or did right.

Theo: I’m sorry.

Dakota: You don’t have to apologize to me.

Theo: C’mon, let me make you something to eat.

Dakota: You sure? Makes me seem kind of spoiled….

Theo: Bring your ass out here and eat.

It makes sense now why she was so quick to want to make changes, however it’s not my fault nor Theo’s that she didn’t get a wedding. I feel for her in the sense of her parents not accepting her marriage but at the same time, you cannot take over my wedding to make up for it….

[unrequited-words]

02/09/2023 Thursday 8:47 p.m.

Last night was difficult. Around 2:30 or 3:00 I heard Zod dancing and singing with his headphones on. He was singing but a whisper/singing. I walked in the other room and told him to stop or turn it down and he got pissed at me. It was my day off and after he and I had sex he continued drinking to calm his anxiety and insomnia. It caused a stupid fight and I turned my phone around so the screen wasn’t lit up and ignored his texts and went back to sleep.

We transitioned A to her toddler bed. Around midnight or so she gave up and fell asleep. She woke up about 8:30 and I heard the toilet seat bang and so I thought it’s Zod either half asleep or drunk but it was A. I got up with her and around 10 or so we made us scrambled eggs and I had a piece of toast. Zod did something to his back and has been out of commission.

We took her to grandmas and Aunt Reese around eleven and an hour or so later we left to go shopping. He said let’s get a bottle so we did. The fireball is almost gone (yeah, I know… whatever) and he picked this goofy new Amsterdam raspberry vodka and it tastes like a weird candy. I made a smoothie and added it to it. I had a little of it when we got home around 1:30 or so.

Mom gave me some clothes and most don’t fit and the ones that didn’t I repacked them and put them back in the car. Around 6 or so he was drunk and woke me up to text my friend Sue and tell her off. She’s been putting me on read due to seasonal depression and her situation. She and her husband aren’t working and it’s messy. Zod keeps saying let’s buy them a car battery. I’m like why? She’ll never answer me back. It’s the nice thing to do I’m just fucking sad. She’s the only friend I have her in Utah and now I’m just so alone.

I have Neil and our kids, I have his sister and his step mom but any other friends are nonexistent. I have my work buddy and his gf but I’m here just like damn, when I left three years ago I really left everything behind. My so called ‘bff’ Heather doesn’t fucking get it. She has a job now and wants kids but doesn’t get the struggle. She doesn’t get how isolating it is and how sad you get.

I work from home, Zod raises our daughter who I hardly see. I can’t separate work from home so when. I get a shitty customer I take it out on Astrid and Neil with my yelling. I need to work on that but damn I truly feel so fucking alone. I don’t speak to any of my brothers except in some group family text and they kind of respond but not really. I knew I’d always be alone and making internet friends is useless. I have put so much emotional energy into friendships and it’s bit me in the ass.

I have had people ghost me and not tell me why. I have always been too much for one reason or another and it’s getting to the point to where I’ll just keep writing here and pretend I don’t exist. It’s almost a quarter til nine and I keep thinking… what is the baby up to? Did she have a nap tonight? What did she have for dinner?

I keep praying to have a good night so we don’t fight. I hope the customer are nice to me tomorrow and I have a good work day. I was hoping to go out on a date and he said let’s get some propane, a really nice cut of steak for valentines and I said no that’s not what I want. We haven’t been out on a date in TWO FUCKING YEARS. Can we go somewhere? The sizzler? A restaurant called Dees? Any place but in this house.

I want to be wined and dined on 50.00 😂 we can finally afford it. What will happen is he will continue to drink, I’ll continue to work and we won’t have a date and I’ll be fucking sad and I won’t say anything. He doesn’t get me flowers but he takes care of the house while I work. He got me chocolate that I’ve been eating the last few weeks. I know he’s sad because he doesn’t work and has anxiety. but why don’t i get nice things? He keeps saying to buy a tv which we can afford the Visio we have is on its last legs l… and he said let’s get you something nice and I’m like if we can afford it sure.

I hate being alone in my thoughts. It’s very quiet tonight. Everything is turned off and the only light is the lamp from my work desk. I made some work notes to make tomorrow easier. Before I napped he made me a burger because I said can we stop for a burger and he said no it’s too expensive when burgers should be 3.50.

We don’t eat out. We don’t get coffee at Starbucks or beans and brews. We don’t eat out, and yet I’m not happy. I’m happy for what we have but I’m sad. I stay home, work from home, and the only time we leave is to get groceries. I haven’t been sick in a while I’m thankful for that, I’m just fucking sad and I wish something would change.

I want to make Valentine’s Day special but it won’t be. Hell drink, I’ll work, and the vacation we have from the baby is that. Just silence. Fuck, how depressing.