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It's fun to draw with office ballpoint pens!🤗
Error belongs to loverofpiggies
#It's been a while#I am very close to completing all the tasks that need to be done during the month of October#I got a high fever from overwork and ended up losing several days#so it was hard to catch up on my work#And now I'm still working in office (I'm currently on standby)#I want to go home😭#error sans
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Odysseus with his head in his wife's lap, happily not paying attention to anything, humming one of athenas song and carving something
Some random guy: your majesty----
Odysseus: not bothering to sit up: whatever my wife decided is fine.
#the odyssey#epic the musical#Odysseus#Penelope#Odypen#Post-canon my beloved#Odysseus tried to hold court exactly one time before he 1. Realized he's very out of date with everything and#2. Remembered that these meetings sucked so much#Odysseus then quickly climbed into his wife's lap and was like penelopes been ruling for 20 years she's got this#The first time someone tried to insist that it wasn't acceptable for penelope to answer ody nearly killed the guy#Nobody tried to force the issue after that#The only time odysseus sits up to contribute is to be like 'no no we can take that route now I killed the monster that lived there years ag#This is not to say he isn't listening and paying attention! He is! He's just scoping everybody's out#Noticing who's more pushy when they're trying to deal with penelope than they are with him#He's got twenty years of politics to catch up on! And he's going to be sneaky about it#Odysseus post return gaining a reputation for being uninvolved and uncaring only to pull the rug out from underneither the other person#Penelope is a okay with this for many many reasons#First off her system is one of beauty and the fact that her husband didn't spend all her hard work to take back over the second he came bac#Is rare and penelope is grateful everyday for who she married#Second she gets to show off look at how well she did odysseus look at how clever she is ody ody watch as I scam these people isn't that hot#(It is and yes of course odysseus was watching)#Penelope enjoying how odysseus lays out over her like a lazy lion#It scratches her possessive side to show him off like this and she gets to play with his hair#Telemachus attending some of these meetings to learn (tm) and spending the whole time deeply embarrassed#Odypen being 🥰🤝 rat bastards in love
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You know what? You know what I think?
I think that if we lived as we were meant to, in larger intimate ("extended family") groups and with more shared labor and time to do it (UBI NOW) people like me would not feel so useless and burdensome because there would be people around to help and to do what neurodivergent people can't while making valuable space for the neurodivergent to do what they ARE good at.
The way we live right now, all right, the way we live right now forces units of two adults to be able to do EVERYTHING or PAY to have someone come do it for them. I have to do the housework. I have to do it! But I am having to do a million different things and most of them I am not good at. I suck at them.
I wouldn't feel like shit, okay, if I had more than one other person around who was not a child and who could do the things I can't, like do the yard and cook and do repairs and basic maintenance; and someone else to split everything else that I like but is too much for me. It would free me to do what I am good at and enjoy. Cleaning, as in the sink and toilet, the windows, the blinds. Taking out trash. Folding, hanging, and sorting laundry.
But because all the shit I can do often relies on other shit being done first, and I can't do or have trouble doing those things, the shit I can do often can't be done. And even the shit I can do, I can't do ALL of it. So I can't keep up, and things get very bad.
We aren't meant to live like this. We are not meant to live like this.
That thought hurts so much because being able to flee the birth family is integral to survival for so many people. I'm so afraid that living in larger family groups would create more opportunities for, say, queer kids to be isolated, rejected, bullied, and abused. But if we gave people enough money to survive, and stopped considering children the property of their parents with no system in place to help them escape bad situations except a system that is often just as bad, just different.
I'm aware that communes and collectives aren't all that successful and are kind of a joke. I don't mean that. I mean a fundamental shift to multigenerational families where taking in "strays" (which my family did) is also normalized so people escaping abuse into existing households was accepted, with these families centered in maybe a couple of different larger residences so not everyone has to buy and maintain their own fucking washing machine and vacuum cleaner, and so people can benefit from large group meals that yield leftovers, and so child and elder care can also be centralized.
Then disabled people and the neurodivergent and sick and injured people, and pregnant people, and grieving people, would not have to either labor through all those stressors or consign themselves to living off an unlivable pittance or being put under legal guardianship.
I'm not saying anything new. People live like this in other parts of the world and maybe it sucks and I am wrong. But I'm just really mad right now because I can either do laundry or clean the sink but not both, and I really think we could improve society somewhat by making it so I did not have to choose one without sacrificing the other.
#im feverish feeling (not a real fever just malaise that i have no other way to describe) from the IBS (which can affect you like that#)#and i don't actually want to do ANYTHING#i would have to even living with others but it would be easier#at the very least i wouldn't have had to clean the microwave earlier which is hard because my arms are like the size of a meerkat's#and i can only reach the back with my fingertips#where is my BF in all this?#WORKING FULL TIME WITH BACK PAIN#yes i AM going to want him to have to do as little as possible when he comes home#he's neurodivergent too and struggles with the same shit#it's all a mess#we are doing way better i didn't realize how deep a drain three very sick cats were#but there's still only two of us#if you are disabled physically OR MENTALLY you should at least get in-home household help once a week or so#there's places that do that but the limitations are usually severe and always rule me out#because im not single im not an elder im not a veteran and im not physically disabled#if we have to ration that sort of thing i can see how on the whole it is more caring to allocate those resources to for example elders#but the fact that i celebrate what help there is doesn't mean i don't get mad that more people can't access it#is2g if i was functional enough snd physically sound enough i would start a charity that did intervention cleaning for people like us#who have fallen behind and can't catch up but can MAINTAIN#and who helped people clean for a few months during and after an illness pregnancy trauma major loss etc. so they could stay on their feet
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hello there tumblr idk how many of you remember that silly little animatic ive been working on for uhhhhh four months but IT IS COMPLETE
here is the full thing but i would really appreciate it if you hyped it up on youtube as well!!
#it only took four months three jay redesigns me catching up to riptide and a lot of fighting with adobe animate#ngl i dont like how i drew jay towards the start but we get there in the end i think#im so excited to post this ive been working on it for so sos os so long#also tried my best to do some cool sound design stuff but good sfe are hard to find :(#art#my art#jrwi#artists on tumblr#just roll with it#jrwi fanart#jrwi riptide#jrwi show#animation#animatic#jrwi animation#jrwi animatic#gillion tidestrider#jay ferin#chip jrwi#jrwi chip#jrwi jay ferin#jrwi jay#chip bastard#gillion fanart#gillion jrwi#jrwi gillion#just roll with it gillion
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how do you clone a fey? that's trick question; and fey love those!
@the-navistar-carol (<333) brought up a good point while I was talking about my changeling danny au with her -- Dani! How would she exist in this au? Danny's a changeling - a fae. How would Dani, a clone of him, be created? How do you make a fey? Not through any means that Vlad is doing; you can't make a fey through unnatural means, considering the Fair Folk are nature. And Vlad's not a fey himself -- he's a halfa, even if he could make a fey, it's not in his best interest too. He's a powerful ghost, but even the weakest fae can overpower the strongest ghost. He won't want a clone of Daniel to be more powerful than him.
(In a three tier hierarchy it goes Ancients -> Fae/Mythos -> Ghosts. They all live in the Infinite Realms, but on different Planes. The fae live above the Ghost Zone in the Fey Wild, while the Mythos live beside the Wilds or down in the ghost zone depending on where they are. Places like the Frozone, the Athens Acropolis, and other such large islands climb throughout all three Planes.)
(While Ghosts can travel into the Fey Wild, its generally advised against as the ectoplasm tends to manifest differently there due to close contact magic. It can make it rather disorientating for a ghost, and as human spirits, the Fae living there would jump them faster than they could blink. So unless you're willing to play mind games with 'steal thy name eat thy face' fae, most ghosts keep out of the way of the Wilds. Fey can travel down into the Ghost Zone, they just don't bother.)
That's of course, not taking into account if Vlad even knows Danny's a fae himself. Vlad doesn't ring me as someone who really cares much about ghost culture or the going ons of the GZ. He might be aware that fae exist, but the moment he realizes he can't use them for personal gain he just doesn't bother with them. The risk is greater than the reward, and he'd rather not get eaten. But lets assume he's aware by now that Danny is fey, and has to take that into account while cloning him.
So, how does Dani exist? Good question! Honestly; i'm not sure. She might not exist at all, or if she does, she's more halfa than fey. Vlad would need a lot of human dna and ectoplasm to balance out all that fae magic. He manages to steal DNA from Jack and Maddie to do it, and since Jack's fey ancestry is very dormant its much easier to use alongside Danny's DNA.
In turn, it results in a little girl whose more human-ghost hybrid than clone. With that little extra boost in fey magic making her not a fey, but still relatively powerful. Dani is less of a clone and more of a lab-grown little sister. It's a rather tedious, complex process that has Vlad tearing his hair out trying to figure out. But he does eventually figure it out.
#dpxdc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dpxdc crossover#changeling danny au#danielle fenton#danny phantom#still no mention of DPXDC yet so i'm adding the DP tags if thats alright lmao#how do you clone a fey? trick question! you can't. you can only make something that's not-quite fey but has ties to them.#dani's fey ancestry is an ounce of water compared to the bucket of everything else. which is more than the drop in the pond compared to jac#but not quite as powerful as changeling daniel. whose more fey than human at this rate. which is very fun to think about in terms of#his rogues haha. imagine going into the human realm about to cause chaos only to come face to face with a baby fey. a changeling.#i'd simply pass away a second time. where is your parent. human raised or otherwise?? are they nearby??? shit i thought fey hated urban#cities. what are YOU doing here baby man. im going to get eaten holy fuck. that's so many teeth.#. oh. oh you think you're a ghost. hm. hmhm. i can work with that. lets just. make sure you keep thinking that okay :) great :))#like jumpscare dude. i just saw my afterlife flash before my eyes. hello unsupervised fey child. holy fuck are you teeny tiny.#vlad probably uses some of his own dna to get the halfa effect so really dani's more of a lab grown *half* sister. Danny's gonna end up#stealing her anyways in the end. his sister now :). non-human danny my beloved#catch me using fey and fae interchangeably. my bad#some food for thought sorry if its hard to understand.#steal thy name. eat thy face fey
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“I don't remember the last time I went waltzing in fancy dresses... Come dance with me! You’re my guinea pig for tonight to see if I still got the moves, hehe. Maybe then I’ll have a shot at this ‘Midnight Princess’ thing. …Chill, I’m just kidding. Or am I?”
Yuusha Tala Midnight Waltz (fan event by @midnightmah07)
MAH HI HI CONGRATS ON 1.5K FOLLOWERS 💥💥💥🎉🎉🎉
i’m really glad to have met you, it’s fun chatting and seeing you in the dash!! thank you for doing this fun event and being such a cool person and sharing your art/writing/ocs!! i hope you keep doing what you love, you deserve this so much and more!! 🫶🫶🫶💖💕💖💕🔥🙏
#IT’S BEEN 25455 YEARS SINCE I DID A FAN EVENT HELP#hopefully i can catch up with the ones i missed over the summer;;;#bc i still want to do some of those#also her outfit lowkey gives rapunzel but SHHH#it’s really hard to escape the similarity since purple is yuusha’s color 😔#[—✦-#-✧ my art#twst art#twst#twisted wonderland#twst fan event#Midnight Waltz#twst yuu#twst yuusona#(💜) yuusha#-✦—]#i debated on whether or not i include jamil in the same post but uh#i accidentally have them with poses that look like they match so uhhhhh#woops.#i’ll have him up later or tomorrow#i am fighting him rn he is refusing to work with me#why must u resist ur princely clothes
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we need to team up and beat him to death with hammers
#tag yap incoming#bananaart#bananamcsm#romeo mcsm#minecraft story mode romeo#mcsm romeo#minecraft story mode#this is just a quick doodle as i figure out his design in my hc lol#i deicded to give him a sweater because. tshirts are so fucking unnecessarily hard to draw for me???#like i CANNOT figur it out but wahterver i just wanted to post something goodbai guys#romeo the admin#what other tags shouldi clog#scratches head#evil british guy#i was so proud of this art that i even added my watermakr that can easily be covered up by a solid colour 💗😍#aanyways. THE MEOOO :3#i also tried to draw genderbend romo but it was NOT working out for me bruh#its tight... maybe some other day#keep rollin rollin rollin oh also once i figure out what to draw to accompany it ill post about a romeo hc i have thats been#floating around in my head for a while now its nothng groundbreaking but i thought it was funny#im not gonna say what it is because i love edging people have fun guys#my god theres a fly thats been in my room for like three hours now and ive been trying to catch it with my bare hands every time it flies#next to me i feel like walter fucking white in that one episode#lmao i like the bright airbrush that i put behind him. it makes him look like the archangel micheal or some shit okay i need to post this g#mcsm
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brown eyes in sunlight, blue eyes in moonlight
#working on a future scene and i wanted to do this little edit of demb#atlas is that cursed meme of ppl with the blue eyes be like 🔵👄🔵#i was tagged in another what kind of love are you and i might do some more that was fun#but also i gotta finish up this scene idk my brain is really scattered lately#i've been super overstimulated lately and it's so hard to sleep and it's catching up with me#love dat#oc: taryn#oc: atlas#ts4#simblr#sims 4#my sims
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gripping the bathroom sink and haggardly gazing into the mirror, only instead of my reflection there’s just a picture of docm77 that’s been poorly printed off and taped up
anyways trying to work out my design for him and having an utterly normal one about it
Close ups:
i am shaking this man like a ragdoll girl what do you LOOK likeeee
#my posts#hermitcraft#hermitcraft fanart#docm77#docm77 fanart#hermitblr#was doodling these while catching up on his s10 eps and just sitting there like ‘fluffy? sleek? Some Guy?’#how is his skin so cool and so hard to design#tell me your secrets creeper man. what are you hiding#but yeah i think the fluffy one is my favourite but i really like how the arm turned out on the middle one#still trying to work out how i feel about hair being technically accurate to the skin#i am fully just gonna cherry pick design aspects i like until i’m satisfied lol#ok i keep falling asleep instead of clicking post so bye bye g’night
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1 out of 4 accelerated summer courses finished today. Next to go is Chem.
#i have not told my friends who are being supportive of me going to college#but i am very behind on chem#pretty much on top of english and psych#mind you the chem isn't hard it's just very time consuming and i work 50 hrs a week overnight#not even by choice on some level there's just literally nobody to work overnights#and It Is Such A Problem my single other coworker keeping nightshift alive at this 24/7 job and i are ... we have rioting to do#but anyways this is largely because i was having troubles with my adhd meds#and then hit the self destructive dread#which is such an odd problem to have when every other part of you is banging on the walls ready to go and kick ass#but so it goes#but i will catch up because i must and i want to and because i must#and because i didn't realize most of the people in my bio class were also going for the nursing program#i love the people on my bio class i'm super excited now#archivist talk#the archivist regrets starting nursing school#the archivist will get through it they just have to whine about it a little first#i was telling the archival assistants (my cats) but frankly one is too busy getting the zoomies and the other is trying to figure out#the best place to lay on me#and i shall not disturb her#my fair lady of orange#okay i work at 7P goodnight
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⚖️ 𝐇𝐄𝐃𝐘 -`. fo(tv) • 🥂 𝐃𝐎𝐑𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐀 “𝐃𝐎𝐓” fo(tv)
🩺 𝐘𝐄𝐋𝐄𝐍𝐀 -`. fo3 • 💄 𝐀𝐍𝐀 -`. fo4
🌞 𝐂𝐘𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐀 -`. the witcher • 🌌 𝐃𝐀𝐄𝐋𝐋𝐀 -`. asoiaf
🐇 𝐓𝐈𝐒𝐒𝐀𝐈𝐀 -`. bg3 • 🐦⬛ 𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐀 -`. vtm
𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐆𝐄𝐃 𝐁𝐘 @marivenah, @rhettsabbott, @kyber-infinitygems, @crownrots, @loriane-elmuerto, @risingsh0t and @a-treides to use this 𝐩𝐢𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐰!! ty sm!!
𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐆:
@girliefailure, @bloodofvalyria, @shadowsofrose, @hartsvale, @jendoe
@queennymeria, @faerune, @rosenfey, @grapecaseschoices, @griffin-wood
@carlosoliveiraa, @aezyrraeshh, @avallachs, @florbelles, @unholymilf
@katsigian, @hookhearted, @theelderhazelnut, @rolangf, @shellibisshe
@loriane-elmuerto, @jennystahl, @roberthouse69, @lavampira, @celticwoman
@aceghosts, @imogenkol, @zevlor, @vanoefucks, @shadowglens
@confidentandgood, @adelaidedrubman, @socially-awkward-skeleton, @full---ofstarlight and you!!
#only if you want to of course!! 🥀💌🍄#oc: hedy hassan#oc: dot van doren#oc: yelena voronin#return of the DEARIEE <33 🥀🥹#oc: ana azarin#oc: cythia vassermiller#beloved brainworm <33#oc: daella dayne#oc: tissaia thorm#baby babiest 🥀💌🤧🥹#oc: irina rurik#leg.ocs#leg.tagged#feeling rather ill today so time to catch up on things !!!!! <3 🥀💌#(goldfish brain for this one as i forgot this in my drafts sijzjxhz but anyway!! hard launching dot and daella and hedy and ana!!!! 💕)#hedy and daella are available btw hehee 🥀💌#(as love interests or as besties !!!!!)#i am stil veeery working on the backstories for hedy and dot but fallclown brainworms are in FULL swing to be sure 🥀💌😵💫☺️ !!!!!#but daella is the daughter of THE!! arthur d*ayne <3#her mother was a scion of the houses of vilemyr aka the remnant houses of v*alyria in my canon#that i cannot wait to yell about more !!!!!#thinking of the vtm clowns hehe again so there’s dearie dear irina <33#thank you thank youu sm for the tag dears this was so cute to do!! 🥀💌#fingers crossed the tags work 🥀🤧 !!
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The FCG doodles for a friend that jump started me somewhat out of art block the other day! Turns out I love drawing this goofy robot <333
I'm particularly fond of the one of him bending over to pet a cat 💛
#screaming crying throwing up I can't believe I've learned I love drawing him NOW#maybe more doodles to come as my friend catches up on C3!#he's got such a nice design that follows very specific rules for how it moves#I have trouble drawing people without EXACT reference bc I can't rlly visualize anything#so it's hard to sort of figure out what's supposed to be going on with a body when it moves unless I can see it exactly in front of me#but FCG is so nice bc it's a few moving parts that follow very basic rules of how they can move and still balance on the wheel#and all the non moving parts are fairly simple cylinders and rounds#so to create a pose from scratch I need only know the line of motion and then I start from the wheel and work my way up#it's very fun!!! I would love to draw more FCG#critical role campaign 3#sams art#bells hells#critical role#FCG#fresh cut grass#cr c3#critical role c3#the stairs were harder to draw than the robot
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every day i wake up angry that jorvik isnt real and i cant actually make a living running around delivering potatoes to people. what do you mean i have to go to work. i have important things to do, like draw more silly horse magical girls
#posts brought to you by the 6th day of working the hardest job in our restaurant in a row#because the only other two people faked being sick to go to a concert#GARRRRRH#plus i have to spend my only day off catching up with my classwork. sobs#being a breadwinning girlboss is so hard
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2024 Las Vegas GP ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ by Irwen Song
#max verstappen#red bull mechanics#autumn posts#I hope everyone is well if you're reading this!!! 💞💞#work has me so stressed rn ahh 😵💫 sometimes it just gets so overwhelmingly busy#I have to remind myself everything will be okay 🌅❤️✨ and all I can do is my best!! I'll keep on working hard 🔥 then relaxing hard too hehe!#I can't be around as much and its sad when the season is almost over!! my first end of a season as a new fan!!#one chapter closes and another to start 📚#but I'm excited for the winter break too ❄️🩵💙 so much fanfic I cannot wait to catch up on reading!!!!! so hyped!!! 💖💖#and maybe to write...imagine if I had a fanfic blog out there somewhere 😳✨ hehe its not a big secret but I'll maybe link it here soon!!#I'm kinda still cutting my teeth (is that the phrase?) like getting used to putting stuff out there#but I'm just so immensely thankful to everyone there and here on this blog!! like...#the likes and tags and posts and art folks share 🥹💞 one of the best parts of my day is stopping by tumblr and sharing in this with y'all#so thank you for always being so excellent and all the wonderful shared vibes and musings and fun over the blorbos ✨🙂↕️#a delight!!!!!!!!!!!#okay back to work here 🫡❤️ idk love to gab in the tags#excited to be back soon!!! 💖💖💖 sending everyone the most immaculate of vibes for a great time of day wherever u are!! 🏙️🌃🌇❤️✨
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Odypen definitely and equivalently adore each other BUT I weirdly can't see them as the type to actually say "I Love you".
They still definitely vocalize their love for each other but it's more so in "My Joy", and "Extraordinary Woman", "Strange Woman/Man", etc. And very cheesy lines (both say some cheesy shit in the Odyssey, and he definitely does in the Iliad as well. "Joy like a drowning sailor seeing land" bit???)
I could see "I adore you" but even then, that's probably during very specific moments but the actual "I love you"??? I just typed it just now for fic shit and... It weirdly just didn't feel right and I don't know why. 😅
Idk maybe it's kind of because I see them as over the top in ways, they love wordplay and riddles and I think they'd almost think "...That's not good enough >:( " about it??? I don't know???😂
#I wrote this last night. I'll do the asks I got later. don't worry! :D#I am the cheese god remember?😅#I think these two would try to “out-cheese” each other and whoever is left speechless first loses#“I would forget my own name before I would ever forget you” bullshit. CHEESY#And yes. “I sleep in our nest with you or outside on the dirt” stupidity >:D#I plan for Odysseus as a beggar to ask why she waits so long. As he's been gone a longer amount of time than the time they had together#(Simply asking as reassurance. He knows his answer. Calypso asked him. but what about Penelope?) but she gets mad at the#“Beggar” and pities him as he must be telling the truth about having a miserable life if he never got the chance to know such devotion#How what they have could never be sullied by#something as trivial as distance and years. How the years with him were the best in her life. Only made better by their son.#'My dear Joy made songs and poems about love a reality as that was simply the life we shared. Even separated our 'song' will always echo#no matter how long it's been. I'LL make sure it always does. And I know he's doing the same... That strange man used to say that#even if he died his corpse would drag itself back to us before he'd ever give up.'#...I'm not one for 'odyssey zombie au' but when I first heard it yeah. :'D Came up with this back then#“His eyes as hard as flint or horn-” Bullshit! The sad lil fuck is hiding sobs with coughs and telling her to keep away for fear of her#catching whatever “illness” he has. The nice thing about being disguised as old means sickly old man works.#...#I'm noticing that Odysseus has a lot of silly oneliners while I write Penelope with a shit ton of set up :'D#They are so silly and I love them so much#...I wrote a lot :'D#Mad rambles#shot by odysseus#my headcanons#odypen#yahoo!!!#sometimes I wonder if I should tag this with more things but I don't want to taint the regular tags with my bullshit :'D I KNOW I'm insane
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if escape rooms as team building exercises became popular im not sure if id be more excited or terrified
#if it isnt already anyway.. i can see it happening as a school frosh thing. idk if it would catch on as a workplace thing#i kind of find the concept of being locked in with strangers and working to find a way out weirdly exhilarating though#at least compared to icebreakers cause i dont have to spend 10 minutes racking my brain for something to blurt out abt myself#as a bonus u could like. put people into groups and give prizes to whoever escapes first second third etc. apparently they also do themed#escape rooms.. maybe let people pick a theme? or voluntary sign up? actually this would be really fun for smth like a blind friend date#although if i found out i was locked in a room with an online friend id be too excited to actually escape LOL#ive never done an escape room before so sadly i cant speak from experience. its like up there on things i want to try next to rug tufting#workshop and visiting new art exhibits or conventions. i seriously need to get out more if it wasnt for the horrors <- school and anxiety#i was planning to invite cass to a drop-in art workshop in town but neither of us could go bc typography is making us go thru hell and back#AND THEY HAD A BUTTON MACHINE TOO#im nostalgic bc i miss working in groups and not being awkward abt it or worrying abt schedule conflicts#i realized that i learn best in groups and its a little corny but i like sharing ideas and talking through a problem#in elementary i could just sit down with friends for review and come out of it energized *and* more familiar with the material#and i could technically still do it now. but as adults we're more picky abt who we work with on top of being way more busy outside school#maybe im lonely. im shy and grew up not talking to ppl unless i absolutely have to so its hard to make friends on my own i guess#only thing getting me thru it is telling myself that humans like helping and that my cringe is overblown in my head. but its hard#hence the escape rooms. i have been able to talk to 2(!!) people though!! mostly abt school stuff but im glad to be on friendly terms#i dont really know how to be happy these days cause im constantly scaring myself abt my portfolio and finding places to work#not being ambitious is part of not wanting to put energy into something that wont work out while also not having the passion to do literall#anything else.. i should probably talk to my counsellor ugh#yapping
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