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No seriously, Dior better pull something like this for them 😩
for real this was THE look for all of them
#sjdhakdjsah earlier today i saw a tweet like ''enough time has passed so i'm just gonna say these outfits were ugly''#and a pic of them at the dior event#and i had to agree bc like lowkey they looked weird#so i'm hoping for smth better than that#but i don't think anything can top those amas looks#like genuinely. they all looked way too good#i still cry over yeonjun and he was lit just wearing a shirt 😭😭😭😭#kinda sad that his hair is bright orange rn i'm not the biggest fan but alas it's what we have#ash 🧸#moots 🤍#💌
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i'll be fr i'm so excited for the new sims pack which i know are dangerous words that set you up for disappointment BUT i'm really feeling all the upcoming stuff
#rena.txt#this is smth tiny but i kept seeing the little crow in the trailers and I'M SOOO EXCITED i hope it will be lowkey a pet 😭 i will take it#even as the same 4-5 interactions. i love birds and corvids especially and u can't imagine how much i miss the pet birds from ts3#so for me even a tiny small interaction will be worth everything......my life is already sooo much better bc i can hug chickens!!!!#but yea beside this lil thing skdjskdk i really hope it will be a cool pack even the trailers were sooo much better than some others#I CAN'T WAIT FOR IT!!! i can wait for all the mess of updating the mods tho lmao
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Close Quarters (Gen/Shin, CynoNari)
Hi um. Me after posting late to my own event. nyways this is for @hachiibun !!!!! thank you So much for your patience i hope you like this. I tried to go insp from some art you've posted so i hope its to ur liking!!!!
Cyno was familiar with Tighnari’s nose. Sensitive and easily set off, it wasn’t uncommon to witness one of his fits if you spent a day with him. His ears would twitch and flick, tail swishing with agitation, nose scrunched up against a wrist until he finally succumbed. His awareness is what led to the sinking feeling in his stomach as he watched the other.
The two were cramped together in a small inlet, waiting for the moment to strike against a large group of enemies. They crouched side-by-side, shoulders pressed together. Cyno quietly observed, watching the furrow in Tighnari's brows, the flick of his tail, watching him scrub a gloved hand against his nose. The two locked eyes, Tighnari’s eyes red-rimmed and watery with unshed allergic tears. He worried his bottom lip against his teeth, sending a message they both knew. Tighnari needed to sneeze, and there was very little he could do to stop it.
The specks of pollen coating every surface was the clear culprit. While neither of them were allergic, it was nearly impossible to not feel itchy with the sheer amount of it. Even Cyno, prideful of his own control, had to resist the urge to rub his irritated eyes. Tighnari, however, was fighting a losing battle. He aggressively pawed at his nose, leaving it red and angry looking. They both knew his sneezes could never go unnoticed- Tighnari’s fits were pitchy and desperate, demanding attention whether he wanted it or not.
Cyno adjusts, freeing a hand, prepared to help if needed. Sure enough, Tighnari’s slow, controlled breath snagged, entering a desperate cresendo as he fought against the itch, battle quickly lost. Cyno watches as he crushes the release against his glove, knowing the control will not last. Tighnari’s nose is never satisfied with just one, and a wet sniffle and the crinkle in his nose confirms his theory. He gives cyno a watery look, warning him of what he already knows.
He slowly manevours around so that he's facing tighnari, ignoring his quiet hiss of “what are you doing?!” then, he brings up his hands, gently presses tighnari against his body, and locks eyes with him. Tighnari nods, breath already stuttering. Cyno can almost feel the tickle, watching his nose wrinkle as he brings up another glove to scrub at it. His breath takes on an almost desperate whine, and he buries himself into Cyno’s shoulder
As it came to a peak, Cynos hands wrapped around hjs head, pressing him further into him. The fabric against his nose set him over the edge, as he tries desperately to silence the much-needed release.
“h’NGT! h-N’’gXT-h’NdT’iew-! hhI- hN’GT-hH’NDGT-ieww!” Tighnari panted against the rapid releases, and Cyno felt a dampness in his shoulder. “Done?” he whispered, knowing Tighnari’s sensitive ears would pick it up. Tighnari lets out another whine-like breath, hitching and stuttering. “I don’Hht-! Don’t know how many more I.. nGHT-! snF! Can hold back..” he mutters, congestion clear in his voice.
Cyno presses his hands against the back of Tighnari’s head and presses him further against him. “Let them out. It’ll be okay.”
Tighnari opens his mouth to object, but with his loss of focus, the need for release overcomes him. He buries himself in the crook of Cyno’s neck, each sneeze more desperate and itchy sounding than the last.
“hIH-iSHhiew-iShh-i’tSCh’iew-! hAh.. hiDT’sCHh’u! a’TSCHh-sCHh’ieww-! n’GTCh-! iSCHh’u!” Tighnari gasps for breath against Cyno as he watches their targets warily pack up their camp and leave, made nervous by the sudden activity. He releases a deep breath, but there’s no use in being angry. It was an unavoidable outcome. He releases his grip on his companion, trying to plan a next move as he listens to Tighnari’s wet sniffles as he attempts to clean himself up.
“I’m sorry, Cyno.” He says after a few moments, voice thick and raspy from strain. Cyno shakes his head in response. “It was bound to happen. I’m sure they’ll return.” He stands, dusting the dirt from his clothes, and offers a hand to Tighnari, who takes it after another itchy sneeze aimed into his shoulder. “You need to go home and wash the pollen off.”
#snz stuff#snz#ive had this done for a few days but ive been forgetting to post it sobbing#ok so i'm really sorry this is so late life has genuinelly been SO hetic lately. its a little better rn but not much#i want to post more fics but im so busy and when i have time its just. relaxing for once alas#anyways i hope you like this!!! i had fun writing it lol ive never done a scenario like this even though its a snzblr classic LOL#posting this and then running off for a while because i am in the middle of getting stuff done#dont like that getting this posted was more of crossing smth else off my checklist tonight than being like omgg im gonna post this bc i thi#k its good but alas..... tis life
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A couple of days ago i felt so apathetic and thought that my hyperfixation on clone high is leaving me forever, i didn't want to rewatch the show, to see any fanart on pinterest, i marked some edits on tiktok as "not interesting", I even changed my wallpaper from clone high fanart to something else, that made me so depressed, i was like "It's over....... isn't it....."
Yesterday evening i spent inking the last pages of the third part of E!280 and listening to abandoned pools, especially the clone high intro, i replayed it like 5 times.
And you know what? WE'RE SO FUCKING BACK!!!! I feel alive again, the intro literally healed me and I want to rewatch the first season today after I come back home from college.
This fandom keeps leaving my mind and coming back for four years straight, and every time I'm reminded of clone high, i remember why I love this show so much. I've never felt such a connection with a cartoon before 🥺
It's so funny, it has cool characters, the satire, the artstyle!! I know some cartoons are objectively better (especially compared to the newer seasons), but clone high is forever in my heart and lives in my head rent-free. And I don't mind.
#i love clone high more than my own life i swear#clone high is literally the source of my highest kin and f/o#btw abe is literally me#guys i literally took a photo for my passport in Abe's t-shirt and included the first three letters of his last name in my signature as wel#DO YOU REALIZE HOW STRONG THE CONNECTION IS#it changed my brain chemistry forever#hope i don't sound too obsessed because I AM OBSESSED i'm so sorry#ok this is just a small confession or smth I'm just feeling better and wanted to express it#clone high
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smth about secrets, acceptance, and relief
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[Image description: A four page comic of Kaveh and Alhaitham. In the spur of the moment, Alhaitham confesses something to Kaveh. Kaveh is surprised for a moment, but soon notices Alhaitham is tense and trembling from the sheer emotion. He gently holds his hands and talks to him. Alhaitham listens quietly and stares at his hands in Kaveh's. When he calms down, he leans onto Kaveh's shoulder.]
#kaveh#alhaitham#kavetham#genshin impact#genshin#fanart#myart#comic#this was a test to see whether i could make myself draw smth with low detail and still make it work#still took me like. 3 hours though so i might not have succeeded on the efficiency part ehe#anyway. was not feeling well today/technically yesterday so kvthms get angst to comfort in my place#r.m dropped his indigo solo album too and that's definitely contributing to the Emotions#it's fine tomorrow/technically today will be better than yesterday#i feel a little better already after listening to his album and that goes to show the power b.ts has over me#however i'm not going to get sappy over them now i'm saving that for later lol#i hope everyone's doing ok though#it's cold now so be mindful of your health!!#take care of yourselves <3#we're all going to be ok i am saying it here now
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if you would like to elaborate on your billy creel thoughts, I'd love to hear it. I never knew what to think of him since moriarty's terminal entry theorized some pretty heinous stuff about the guy
I was just talking about this irl, actually--
I have read Moriarty's terminal entry. However. It's MORIARTY.
This is this man who's keeping Gob as a SLAVE through "technically legal" means, prevents Nova from being paid, and extorts a probably very distraught and definitely traumatized/in-shock teenager 100 caps (really an impossible amount for someone who just popped out the vault) for information on their FATHER. or, alternatively, he tells you to go get money from Silver, who was in the same position as Nova.
My distaste for Moriarty knows no bounds. The main evidence for Billy Creel being bad is a terminal entry from like. THE slimiest guy in town.
This is like. a technicality, but Billy drops an ear for contract killer. the guy has good karma. and yes, the karma system in 3 sucks. You can be the worst person and do 1 good thing and BAM all better (I play neutral to pick up Butch and it is UNREASONABLY hard to stay that way without murdering people), but I do think it says at least *something*.
I can 100% understand how people would be suspicious of the guy, he's in a pretty damn suspicious situation, but I don't think calling him a pedo is very accurate. I don't think a guy trying to groom a kid for sex would be so awkward about his kid asking about kissing like Billy is. (i don't have any experience being groomed, but I'm not sure he'd tell her to go to Moira if his intention was to expose her to sexual stuff.)
I don't think he's parading Maggie around either, I think that that notion is mostly based on her age, ig. Nobody would think it would be weird if a guy was excited about having a newborn or a two year old, yk? Since he's not dealing with the Lack Of Sleep babies bring, he's prolly got more energy to be enthusiastic about caring for a child. I also think a lot less people would be freaking out about Billy and Maggie if Billy was a woman, but that's. another topic for a different discussion.
Overall, I really do enjoy how absolutely ambiguous he is. I personally don't think he's got any malicious intentions towards her, and I don't think he killed her parents. Do I have much evidence for me thinking that way? not really. But, this guy doesn't exactly have a whole lot of information on him at all. I personally think he's doing his best to raise a kid with like. 0 experience.
He genuinely cares about her enough to be worried for her when he dies. He uses terms of affection with her, but like. 1) she's 7, parents are affectionate with their small children, it's necessary for their development, and 2) James does the exact same thing. Additionally, Maggie isn't exactly isolated. She has friends, she's just told not to get too friendly with adults. Which is what parents tell their kids, like that is just stranger danger. But she isn't isolated! She talks with plenty of people, I think the only one she's really wary around is the Lone Wanderer and Jericho.
Overall, I think he's like... just a guy trying his best. I think that his intentions are good, but he's a little out of his depth and confused.
#this is so rambly i'm so sorry anon#I have a lot of thoughts about this guy but they're not gonna get translated into words tonight#I will just say that a part of me might be hoping he's just genuinely excited because I'm tired of parents disliking their kids#I do think whatever the case is she's in a better position there than in like. Lamplight or Paradise Falls or raiders or mutants or smth#i have faith in humanity. I believe that this guy is trying to be good.#I think he's just genuinely trying to make this girl have as good and happy of a life as she can have out in the wasteland.#Idk i am literally just a person on the internet tho I have no insider information about his writing#azure made a post#fo3
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#tw vent i guess??#came here just to post smth that i'm most probably gonna delete later then leave#but aughhhh last week has been SO bad i really really needed to get it off my chest#had the final boss of a sick victorian child episode for like two weeks AND tons of college stuff to do-#-AND a test on a subject that i'm horrible at (and that i'm gonna fail fs)#AND i was supposed to get a septum which is something that i'd been looking forward to for literal YEARS#but upon telling my parents about it (cause they're kinda strict and ig they would like to know) i changed my mind#cause my mom took it SO personally.... like it was HER face not mine?🤨 but hey!#and although i had the decency to at the very least let her know that i was getting a piercing (which wasn't necessary for me to do but-#-i did it anyway out of consideration for her)#she has the fucking SPINE to tell me how i could do whatever the fuck i wanted if i cared more about getting it than about her opinion-#-but she would always think it was disgusting and that i had no right to get angry at her if she didn't look me in the face or#wanted to walk or be with me cause it'd make her embarrassed to be with me in public if i had that shit on my face.#and it hurts a lot not just bc of the fuckass piercing. but bc my parents (esp my mom) always react like this whenever i make a little-#-change on my appearanceor cut my hair or buy oversized clothes or whateverand like#if she's gonna be soooo hurt when i get a tiny piece of metal on my face. how is she gonna react when i tell her i want to get tattoos.#start taking hormones. change my name. get top and bottom surgery. be completely changed physically.#is she gonna die is the world gonna end. is she just going to stop talking to me forever.#because a piercing is not just a decoration. to me right now it's an extension of the changes i want to undergo on my body.#it's a step forward to looking the way i want too look#so a rejection to any change i do on my body feels like an indirect rejection to be being trans. and the fact that they're unaware of#just how deep their rejection cuts (bc i'm not out) makes me even angrier at them.#and upon the realization that if i ever came out to my mom (and the rest of my family too tbh) she would react *exactly* like this.#well. i did not take that very well.#wasn't very demure of her to say all that. not very mindful not very cutesy :/#also been sh-ing more bc if this and ughhh what a shit week. hope this one's better#also. i decided i'm still gonna get a septum this year. don't know when but fuck all that. it's gonna bother them all the same#no matter what time of the year i get it done. or if i do it in a year or two or five. so who gives a shit.#anyway. gonna delete later probably#📎
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good morning!! <33
#wah another chill day#like it took a lil to fall asleep last night#normal cramps + the way i've been a little sick lately made it hard#so i'm just gonna laze around mostly#maybe find an ask game or smth if i have the energy#honestly i don't nap much but today feels like i might#like at least lay down & close my eyes for a bit (doubt I'll actually nap but it'll be relaxing either way :3)#anyways#i hope today/tonight is good to you (and that you feel better than i do hehe) :3#morning rambles
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fellow smut writers and esp kinky smut writers. are you also feeling weird abt writing things you haven't tried yourself before and prefer to avoid them
#i don't wanna get the feeling wrong 🥺 (<- guy who wrote a fic with wound fingering)#(tbc that is not the smut I'm currently writing. that one's gonna be more tame. tho still probably a bit fucked up)#(but yeah this is what sparked this question. bc i wrote an outline. for what kinks i wanna use. -#- and there's smth there that works perfectly with the build up i have planned. but i never tried it myself so idk what it's like. -#- and i wonder if i should wait until i get the chance or just hope none of the possible readers know better than me 🧐)
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i need to get over myself and learn the languages i want to learn if i want to learn them like i just need to do it if i want to learn them then i should go out and learn them and like . fuck whatever else any of it means . yes it IS embarrassing to learn a language like the ones i want to learn as an adult but who CARES and yes i KNOW my grandparents will never want to speak to me in those languages but who CARES if it's important to me it can be important to me anyway
#had a moment last night bc i was apparently having an identity crisis which was random#but i had a moment where i was like well even if i learn all these languages no one in my family is going to want to speak to me#in those languages because of [insert reasons i don't need to go into here] and so ultimately none of this is like . cultural Really#it's just me wanting to feel as though i am connected to something when i will never be#and maybe that's true or maybe it isn't but if i want to learn them i should learn them anyway like . at the end of the day#i DO want to learn those languages and i think it would be interesting and i would love to be able to speak to people#in those languages even if the people i speak to aren't related to me and i would love to be able to speak languages that aren't english#and that all stays true even if i am not able to have the cultural connection through language with my own family#like i can go on and on about how disconnected i feel from my culture bc of everything that has ever happened in my life#but how i still feel alienated bc i'm Not White to white people and all of that is true but not learning a language doesn't make it#any better and maybe learning a language won't make it better either but i think it's a better use of my time#ALSO !!!!! NO ONE EVER GOES OH WHY WLD U LEARN FRENCH OR SPANISH [OR INSERT EUROPEAN LANG HERE] u have no real cultural connection to it!!!#so like why is it different bc i want to learn asian languages??? it's not! except in my head! or maybe irl too but i'm just saying#that i think i make all of this a much bigger deal than it has to be#that being said i did just try to look up classes and they r all for children and about keeping children culturally connected 2 their famil#l m f a o but that can't be ALL the classes ............. i'll work it out is what i'm saying and i need 2 get OVER myself#bc none of it is that deep and i can feel conflicted all i like but i should fucking DO smth about it at least#anyway i am posting this in the hopes that i can beat it into my own head bc i am sick and tired of being weird about learning#languages and i need 2 get over my weird cultural identity issues if i want to like . live a life where i don't want to explode and die
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have so far staunchly avoided the topic of palestinian apartheid around my 70 year old liberal jewish father (who kibbutz-ed in israel in his young adulthood) and my 66 year old moderate-democrat christian mother but I'm going to visit them tonight and man I don't think I can avoid it forever!! wish me luck...
#the thing is they will agree with whatever msnbc has been saying#but I'm not sure what msnbc has been saying bc we dont get cable at my apartment#in the brief window i visited them earlier this week#at one point i saw a guest speaker talking to the host about the genocide of palestinians#but later that night when i turned to the news the host then was talking about terrorist attacks on israel#so im guessing msnbc is taking a 'both sides' approach??#which is. bad obviously but tbh better than i expected wrt where my parents will side on this#might have more hope of swaying them this way#idk#i mentioned smth vague to my dad yesterday and he responded#'yeah with thousands of people being killed every day'#and to my knowledge palestinians are the only ones being murdered by the thousands#so maybe#he cares about palestinian deaths??#idk. its a stretch
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i have literally nowhere else to put this i apologise for the spam. the absolute best thing to come out of s3 trent is without a doubt the fucking earnestness... like in s1-2 he always came across as a very self-assured kind of guy, who knew how he came off (ie: intimidating) and enjoyed it. but seeing that paired with him being silly + completely relaxing in certain company??? pulling ridiculous faces at vodka + scrunching up his nose when he smiles @ colin + making the most ABSURD 'i really wanna say something right now but i feel like im interrupting' noises ive ever heard in my fucking LIFE??? its like. he is cool as shit and he is self assured AND he can make dumb fucking sherlock holmes jokes and dance ridiculously. its like!!!! he's lame but he's also not bc he's exactly as confident in being lame as he is being cool. do u see the vision. he has killed the part of him that cringes!!!! its just.. that unshakeable self confidence that u see in his fucking swaggers into frame includes all of himself + his different moods and eccentricities and that's just so based to me idk. unironically live ur best life wear the loudest combination of prints and patterns and primary colours uve ever seen in ur life while espousing the virtues of extended museum hours!!! contain multitudes! get silly with it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#ted lasso spoilers#combined with james lance's hc abt trent's past its just. like!!#the growth from 'i can't be what you want me to be so im going to be Better than them + tear them down'#-> 'i know my reputation so im going to lean into that + be ruthless + intimidating' ->#'actually fuck this? fuck this! im just gonna be me and if anyone has a problem w then L To Them I'm Actually Living'#also this is just my hcs at this point but like. i do think ted helped a lot w the latter part of this process in so much as. ted embodied#someone who was Visibly weak + vulnerable and had no armour/no sense of self preservation#(the opposite of trent's persona) and made no effort to change anything abt himself to prevent attack. obviously ted has a lot of social +#class advantages that make that less risky for him than it would be for others but like. u get the drift#and i THINK. seeing how without that armour/facade ted was able to be rlly direct + earnest w connecting w ppl#like asking an interviewer 'what do u love?' and rlly genuinely wanting to know the answer#and bc TRENT was specifically in the position of 'i could fucking destroy u rn and u wouldn't put up a fight'#that kind of. shifted his perspective a bit? like. damn what would that say abt me if i wrote a hit piece on this guy rn#i disagree VERY strongly w the idea that trent's more positive character development moments happened ONLY bc of ted (i don't think that's#true for anyone in the show tbh) BUT i think ted's presence at a pivotal point in his life was what helped him confront the fact that#at this stage in his life all his intellectual armour was doing was making him into someone Mean rather than just incisive#like. 'is this a fucking joke' is not cutting journalism. u get me??#and arguably that's a fine and even safe choice to make when ur younger and have no support/reputation backing u up#but after decades? its like man wtf are we doign here if were literally just living preventatively#smth smth i hope i am not just a tumblr blog to u but a blog who is inventing the brain chemistry of a sitcom side character#w each new episode they watch. trent crimm is my best friend irl i know he would have scorching hot takes abt each new season of survivor#and would earnestly heckle the jury and final 3 alike
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Omg
#one of ny favorite managers gave me a just cause gift card w a little note#honest to god i love this woman#I've never had someone who's old enough to be my mother look out for me like this before#just.#the kindness I've been shown lately is really getting to me#and it's coming in at a time where i feel so broken and lost and#it gives me some hope to get through this better than i have in the past#i have to believe#I'm so lucky to have the people in my life that i do#ohhhhhhhhh now i have another older coworker offering to take me to ihop sometime and get me smth nice there#yall#i might actually break down in my store tonight#I ain't meant for this sweetness from folks
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I'm giving a guided tour for some grannies tmr and I didn't prepare shit. I should be more worried but I only cared about eating dinner and painting my nails for a rewatch of Deadpool and Wolverine tmr...
It's also my 10th consecutive day working so I think I'm allowed some delusional behavior.
#I'm just so tired#my boss comes back tmr and i just don't care anymore#except that i do care bc i wanna make things better at our workplace#and i Love doing guided tours bc ugh fuck yes history#just hoping i can pull smth outta my ass tmr ksksks#hopefully they wanna know more about historical than technical facts lololol#9 to 5
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The urge to create smth more elaborate/decorative from the original base design vs both the desire to keep it simple enough to draw repeatedly and the need to have it read clearly, all while keeping it distinct and recognizable 🙃
#aka I have a couple of ideas for comics involving canon ponies and I'm trying to nail down something a little more unique#but also recognizable to the source material; all while remaining easy to read; easy to draw; and being appealing#all for the sake of only two? three?? jokes so far LMAO#I still don't know if I can run the browser and krita at the same time without knocking out the internet lmao#idk why it does it but boy does it ever lately#it's. annoying. I want to be more productive#that and I've got a massive backlog of videos to tackle still#that are admittedly more for listening to than properly watching; and are usually perfect for smth to listen to while drawing#good news is that the most expensive the exact model of adapter I have on this computer is only around $30!#bad news is that I Do Not Have anywhere close to $30!! not to mention I'd have to pay the guy™ to install it for me#and idk what he'd ask for in the vein of a service fee... also I still want that different antenna that I can move instead of just#screwing into the back and hoping for the best; it still screws in mind you but the ports are attached to cords#that are attached to a base that holds the antennae; so that I might move it around a little#that's around $20; at least for the model I looked at. tho I'd also have to check to make sure the parts are compatible#luckily I could probably just ask the guy; and if I have enough on hand I could probably buy one from him since he sells stuff like that to#oh yeah. also on the shortlist is external storage. I need at least as much as my computer can actually hold for backup purposes: 2TB#and I want more later so that I can actually maybe have less shit on my computer and more in appropriate places lol#someday I want a newer better computer actually. tho ideally we'd have abandoned this rotted log of a house by then...#I have other plans and needs but these tags are getting too long as it is lol
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really horribly anxious this morning and can't seem to shake it off :-(
#struggling not to dissociate. just don't really know what I'm going to do with all this i think thats where its coming from#+ exacerbated by so much recent disappointment. its hard not to direct that towards myself even when im not really at fault#not to mention disappointment in other people. which is really just more self disappointment for having expectations in the first place#which are unfeasible/not communicated. i just feel so unreal and unreachable. kind of just incompatible with the world i think#and i dont remember how to weave myself back into it again.im not sure ive ever really known how. immiscibility innit#its ok. going to try and start meditating daily again. and negotiate better boundaries for myself. it might help to journal it out#not on here i mean in a physical journal. i can't hold this exclusively in my head or I'll want to start harming again ik its a trigger#its all okay tho sorry this sounds more dramatic than it actually is. my flatmates gone out so at least i can cry while doing chores#she was dressed up nice and came to say goodbye when she left which she doesnt normally do so i dont think she'll be back for a while#hope she has a good time whatever shes up to. probably shouldve asked in hindsight but im too anxious to be able to talk today#and selfishly it would make me feel worse trying not to compare myself to how much more meshed with reality she is she makes it look easy#she only wanted me to do her suncream but i started trembling rly badly after. just cant physically be around other people right now#well at least i didnt cry in front of her so thats something. okay. ive made a list of tasks so im going to pick them off one at a time#i shouldnt have to think too much about them. and hopefully by the time im done ill feel much calmer#and then maybe i can play a game or smth. but if not i wont be hard on myself ill just go lie down and listen to music instead#man it is a shame about this festival though but it is what it is. therell be other days. i guess im not really a weekend person hey#ah itll all pass its all good. im always okay again eventually however temporarily. i dont need anything other than that#.diaries
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