#so i think i can take a breather

[despite-everything]

i really pared-down my record collection since i'm moving cross-country, but i'm so emotional about it. i'm moving to new york, so i need to be thoughtful about the small space i'll have, but it's fucking hard! that said, it should only be about $100 to ship the boxes as media mail, so thank god for that. but i culled more than 100 albums in the process...

[ezlo-x]

having commissions closed atm feels so weird especially since I've been consistently doing them for a while. its like....i should be doing something...

[arson-09]

wait. i jusf had a thought. now its been awhile since i read the holiday novella, but wasn’t a major reason feyre was like lets have baby NOW was because of that widow and feyre was like what if rhys DIES i need a piece of him or smth along those lines

but they have a death pact ? so if one dies the other dies ? i mean yeah they technically were gonna have a kid eventually for an heir but i think its silly how quickly they had one and the reasoning is questionable too ? unless im misremembering

[svtskneecaps]

thank you for bearing with my purgatory posting and i'm also glad to see i'm not the only one who still has this fungus eating away at my brain matter. seeing other purgatory posting in the tag makes me feel better lmfao.

i'm not done btw, posting will (probably) continue as i revisit vods. wanted to extend a thanks in the interim, since i know how contentious the event was in the moment. i kinda thought the general consensus was most people hated thinking about it, but there's been a weird amount of engagement and yknow other people talking. makes me happy to know i'm not alone here!

[couldthatreallyhavebeenit]

i would like to make it abundantly clear that in the current state of the world that we live in, food is, sadly, unable to be treated as "just food" without any space for nuance.

yes, it is and should be treated as "just food" in the sense that it is a basic human right and a physiological need for all humans. it is something that all need and all should have.

however, in this day and age, food is used as a tool of control and power. millions and millions of people have no access to it, as much of it as we have. entire families are being starved out, mothers are dying in order for their children to eat, there is violence and atrocities being committed so someone can have something to eat for the week, people are being denied food because of who they are.

how hard is it to see the luck and privilege of being able to go out and have a burger? how hard is it to stop thinking about yourself for one second and use the money you have lying around, whatever insignificant change you have, and do something to help someone else eat? a few cents in dollars or euros or pounds is gold in other countries.

if you think you cant help, than you are so wrong. kindness begets kindness begets kindness, and so on. dont loose faith in humanity so fast. dont loose hope. remember that the food you put in your mouth is the same food that others eat, and, if you can afford it, buy a bit extra, give it to your local shelters, or donate that bit extra to whatever charity you can reach. if you have some to spare, donate your time and energy to helping out where you can; charities, schools, libraries, shelters, wherever.

im going to quote, roughly and translated, the founder of a local non-profit that made one of the most beautiful speeches i have ever heard: we help, with the kindness and the love of a five year old child.

when food stops being just food, when trivial things start being a privilege, thats when you make the biggest difference. dont belittle your own existence, dont think low of your own power.

[du-hjarta-skulblaka]

I have had a VERY busy week (positive but very very socially draining) and I am ABOUT to have a few days of work and then ANOTHER very busy week (work, 2 different appointments and a job interview) and I just wanna take a moment and remind myself that I may take longer to do things than average but im still DOING them and it's. Okay to still feel tired several days after making a phonecall

[ghost-bard]

The funniest thing to me is that i truly do jot care about the presidential debates on the qsmp, but im watching bc ik charlie is doing some funky stuff as gegg and also him and bagherras interactions are nice :)

And part of it is that i feel like the fans are taking it wayyy too seriously, like its just rp, and i kinda dislike the way some ppl are treating cellbit n forever, like even if i dont particularly align w what theyre saying i def understand the two major parties (at least in terms of who was present for debate 2) and i feel like. Maybe some people need to take a step back and understand its just rp, its literally in minecraft, its not a big deal.

I also think some ppl are slightly misconstruing what mainly bagherra and bbh were saying, in calling what they want a utopia, which certainly isnt true.

But its whatever im not too invested in the elections themselves lmao

Not pointed at anyone just a general statement :]

[the-sunlit-earth]

Nothing like a freak flash flood pouring into your dwelling to stress you tf out :c

[supercantaloupe]

automatic reminders from the pharmacy to refill your meds when you've almost run out are nice and all but it is really funny to me how much CVS tries to shit itself with daily push notifications about how my epipen prescription is almost out and i need to go and refill it RIGHT NOW. as if i'm regularly using that shit up

[cupidisslutty]

i literally have not once stopped thinking about Deadpool saying "i am soaking wet right now" after murdering all those guys with Logan's skeleton

[felidaefatigue]

my. tit. Hurts.

[meatriarch]

stooooopppp no wait maria stumbling on a whole entire Incident ( ie. murder ) and being so shellshocked / horrified / paralyzed that if someone barks or coaxes demands at her to help she goes into like scared prey animal mode and just listens out of fear and confused obligation and it doesnt register for a time that shes helping move an entire body or w/e and the horror & disgust & fear of it all hits her like a train -

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[eyepatchdate]

i only have 4 maps left as catwoman before im alllll done with all the combat medals :D

then its onto everyone's predator maps (except nightwings--he's done)

[mischiefmanifold]

someone just reblogged my grandiose NPD post and it reminded me that I still have to finish that entire series and then start several other series’ about other things

[kelocitta]

This post has grown far outside of its original scope and lots of people have commented on things I do and don't agree with, so I want to say one last piece on this topic: First and foremost: It is fine to want to grow your audience, and to study and implement ways to do that. Its also perfectly fine to feel frustrated when your work goes largely unnoticed despite your efforts, or even frustrated at how people who seem to be in a significantly better place than you complain about numbers that would make your day. These are understandable feelings, and I don't think people should dismiss them. The system you have to work within when putting content online is unfair and random, its going to feel unfair and random- gambling doesn't feel great until you get payout. This is not a post to say just get over it and be happy with what you got, because sometimes what you got fucking sucks. And for a lot of people this isn't just a fun hobby but something that puts food on the table, and they are desperately trying to get a boost to help secure that. But what it is a post is about how most people do not mean to talk down to you about this kind of thing, or intend to come off as smug about it- and are in fact earnestly trying to tell you to watch out for a type mindset that can easily sneak up on you and make the entire process of being a creator completely miserable. A lot of artists who feel completely massive compared to you fell into this trap and maybe they recovered, but a lot of them don't and fret about these same things constantly, despite the change in position. A lot of them jumped ship and never looked back. When you exercise for a long time, its good to step back and take a breather to stretch and rest. Its an important pause that gives you a break and helps protect against long term damage from strain. You need to be willing to do that mentally with art and content creation for the same reason. Its not just about numbers equating to self worth or quality (although thats perhaps one of the most common problems people have)- theres other ways it manifests like a hyper-focus on what the "well performing" posts are, a desire to seek audience approval in a way that has you rewriting how you engage with your own work or what work you deem acceptable to make. And while you can do that for a little bit, and it may even pay out- its not sustainable long term. You will burn out, you will hate creating, you will hate posting, you will hate even thinking about drawing- eventually the exhaustion will hit. We shouldn't pretend like art is strictly fun and games (because its not, for many its a job or the closest they have to one, and that sometimes means doing things that aren't fun) just like we shouldn't pretend like these pitfalls aren't a legitimate issue- they can be as debilitating as wrist damage. But just being aware of them and taking small steps to re-ground yourself can go a long way. Check your follower counts every couple month instead of every day. Check how many notes you got on that piece after a week instead of after an hour. Remind yourself that 10 reblogs is still 10 whole people, visualize notes as people in a room instead of a nebulous concept. Dont post for a bit but still draw. Try to appreciate likes as their own thing instead of as "worthless" engagement. Find an extension to hid the numbers, etc, etc. Its hard to say what might help because everyones different- but just take time to step back and make sure some element of what your doing is still fun and for you- even if it cant always always be all of it.

Small artists you need to understand that when you see an artist who you think has 'made it' tells you not to worry about the numbers and to not fret about getting more likes than reblogs they are not telling you it because they think you are stupid for caring or because they dont need to network to survive they are very likely telling you that because they have witnessed first hand the way the numbers game tears people to shreds in terms of mental health and motivation

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