#so i talk with ppl on facebook

[angelsdean]

so. where do i sign up to get adopted by a queer found family?? i need. community.

[necrotic-nephilim]

Sorry if this might be a rude question but why don’t you just make a seperate account for your nsfw fics?

not rude, it's a valid question! tbh it's a combination of a couple reasons.

i started posting anonymous dead dove batcest fics long before i had the balls to make a tumblr. at first i was content to just leave them unassociated with each other because i didn't really care about them being tied to me. i made this blog to actually show solidarity to my partner who wanted to make a sideblog for Sandman comic stuff so we could cheerlead each other and be brave together, since i've wanted to make a batcest sideblog but i've been nervous about actually having to get it going. (mal ik you're reading this go be brave and actually make your blog so i can cheerlead you damnit-) only did it dawn on me then that i should probably mention the fics i've written on the blog after like, three of them were posted anonymously. and it would've annoyed me to have half of them anonymous and half of them not, because notifications for them would've gone in different places. i could go back and take my fics off anon if i wanted to, but i can't switch the account they're on without taking them down entirely and that'd fuck over people who have them bookmarked already.

which, ties into my second reason, if i made an entire second ao3 account it'd be harder for me to see notifications, reply to stuff, and post things for both accounts because i'd have to constantly switch. and honestly i'd be terrified of accidentally posting on the wrong one on a brain fog day. posting fics is always the most tedious part of writing them for me lol. it's easier for me to stay logged into one account and have all of my stuff in one place for me and just use the anonymous collection when i feel like it. if ao3 pseuds worked like tumblr blogs, where you can't see all my side blogs but i can, i would've used pseuds, but since you can see all pseuds on an ao3, i felt it was a moot point.

and the last reason is i just feel more comfortable being anonymous on ao3 because of the rise in anti culture. on tumblr it's very easy for me to just filter that out and find the people i want to follow and block the people i don't. i don't mind getting hate, on tumblr or on ao3. but i think, for whatever reason you want to blame it on, there's been a massive boom of antis on ao3 who are very entitled about how they read on ao3. i tag extensively, but i just feel safer from getting targeted attacks if everything i write on ao3 isn't attached to one profile. if people like a fic i wrote, want to find more i always link my tumblr in the notes, but if an anti wants to get huffy with me, they can't easily track down my other things. they definitely could if they wanted to, but being anonymous on ao3 just makes me feel more secluded, in a weird way. it's like saying "if you want you can come find me but on here i'm just a weird faceless guy throwing stuff in the void". i've used ao3's anon feature a lot, actually, i used to be a hydra trash party dumpster kid back when that was in it's prime.

i also used to be vaguely popular on a different tumblr blog and my main ao3 and while i think it'd definitely be cool if i got a decent chunk of followers on this blog too, i don't really miss having fanfiction do so well i got targetted hate on all of my fics from the same people, i had my fics stolen, etc. it was really exhausting for me. i have 120+ works on ao3, not counting what's anonymous, and that level of exposure tires me, even when i use my main ao3 to post things that aren't trashy. it's just a weird feeling knowing so many people are subscribed to you on ao3 and what if you post something they won't like because you jumped fandoms again, or you're posting something niche, or you don't think it fills enough fandom tropes to be well-liked. i used to obsessively think like that, and it made me not write the things i wanted to because i cared about numbers. and i don't want to slide back into that hole. writing on anonymous is mostly to remind myself i wrote this for me, and if other people like it, they can come find me, but i don't have to perform like that anymore. if i get a really weird fucked up idea, i can write the really weird fucked up idea. at the end of the day, just makes me more comfortable! but i get it's a super confusing set up from an outsider perspective so, i really don't mind the question, thank you for asking!!

[raytorosaurus]

You are allowed to think what you like, obviously, but since you said that you weren't following the full coverage on it i just wanted to let you know that there were only five people (plus the pilot) on board the "submarine" and they were all billionaire business men.

okay ty! yah like i said it wasn't an informed opinion on the situation, just an inarticulate reflection on the current state of my dash haha. mainly it's just a generalised personal discomfort with media coverage of tragedies lol. obvs billionaires are inherently unethical and don't need defending so it's not even rly about them tbh. intended as more of a personal post than serious commentary yk (honestly i assumed there were some kinda employees on board along with them sjdjgjf - i'm uninformed mostly on purpose lol, i feel uncomfortable looking for details. but thanks for clarifying + not being rude dw i hear you)

[milo-is-rambling]

Need to get kayak guy to watch the midnight gospel

[cerealmonster15]

i dont think i ever felt more annoyed at commercials than when those mean girls walmart ads were playing a few months ago or whenever that was

[ugh-yoongi]

You’re doing everything right! Taking care of your body and your mental health. It must be so scary but you caught it early and now your insurance will probably have to authorize getting screenings multiple times a year. We’re here if you need anything❤️

this is so kind - thank you!! 🫶🏻

[muttfangs]

to me mutual babes: any of y'all migrating to bluesky let me knowwwww I wanna follow y'all back also, I have 5 codes to give out if anyone needs / wants one, or know someone who does!

[treesbian]

i am exhausted. just got yelled at for so so long to stop looking at and sharing what's happening in palestine. listen i know my self care is bad but that has nothing to do with me caring about palestine it'd be equally as bad if not worse if i didn't know the shit

[theloveinc]

who do u think forgets/doesn't tell everyone they're having a kid and then pulls up to the holiday party with a baby

[unproduciblesmackdown]

speaking of your coming of age movie that never happens & your narrative non-narratives, shoutout to the arcs that’d be supposedly “worse” lmfao like posts about people-pleasers being like “i’m in my villain era” when it’s just consciously prioritizing themselves at all / noting when boundaries for their own wellbeing are being trampled, and the like. wherein i’m like, well i like talking to people i suppose, i can do the hours of monologue at a wall for one mode, got chatterbox mode, funny guy theatrical mode, etc, but in actuality also, i do not like talking to people lmao. the “yeah, that’s me” movie ending with another voiceover while upbeat music plays & you’re cheerfully walking along in 0.75x speed through some picturesque arena filled with socializing people like =) putting on headphones, turning up the volume, ignoring everyone, dodging people according to the berth one wants to maintain,

[babygirlharrington]

15 questions, 15 tags. tagged by @hammity-hammer AND @strangersatellites

1. Are you named after anyone?

my birth name was an obscure book reference. however, i was almost named “constance” after my grandmother.

2. When was the last time you cried?

last night! every time (and i mean EVERY TIME) i laugh really hard at all i cry.

3. Do you have kids?

nope! and i’ll probably never have them. i don’t mind taking care of them though, they always seem to like me for some reason or the next.

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

yes and no. i am very deadpan and lots of time don’t understand tone or utilize time markers (irl or online) much of the time. this being said if im talking about something i care about i am very animated lol

5. What's the first thing you notice about people?

i think their hair? it’s hard to say. i look at peoples shoes a lot, too.

6. What's your eye color?

dark brown, but I wear colored contacts (blue, green, grey, pink, red…)

7. Scary movies or happy endings?

i really love scary movies so as long as a movie has a smart and “fulfilling” ending i don’t care if it’s necessarily “happy”.

8. Any special talents?

I can sing well and dance. I can paint well. mmmm uhhhhh

9. Where were you born?

…………..ohio……………….

10. What are your hobbies?

i like to paint and write and listen to documentaries. I wouldn’t call it a HOBBY but i really love cleaning as well.

11. Do you have any pets?

I have a poodle named bluebelle, a frog named ping pong ball, and a guinea pig named coco.

12. What sports do you play/have you played?

I danced from the time I walked to the time I started uni. i wanted to play other sports but i have dyscalculia and astigmatism and my depth perception is too bad.

13. How tall are you?

5’2 or 157 cm.

14. Favorite subject in school?

I always liked english in grade school. Sociology and psychology are my favorite subjects in uni.

15. Dream job?

I think being in a band or doing a broadway run would be cool. Otherwise maybe owning a bookstore or cafe. Something low key that i could romanticize lmao

tagging:

@xocowilde @80s-boyfriendz @graveyardlilies @gayngerthings @eufry @mira-jadeamethyst @qprstobin @aringofsalt @grandmastattoo @paint-music-with-me @amethyst-crowns @stevesbipanic @maxinemaxmayfield @juicinmyjams @thefreakandthehair

no need to feel obligated to do this i just love succumbing to peer pressure ❤️

[aceyanaheim]

I’ve divided my social media between “run by my NTsona” and “run by the feral gremlim that lives in the back of my synapses’ and tbh its been a game changer for both kinds.

[toastsnaffler]

it was one of my coworkers birthdays today and she was telling me abt her plans to celebrate and I'm only just realising now that I've left work that she was prolly trying to invite me.. 🤦‍♀️

[coldflasher]

me every day begging ppl on facebook to listen to their actual vet and not someone on the internet who has zero qualifications whatsoever

[milo-is-rambling]

lol my watch sleep alarm just went off like bro don’t you know I’ve thrown up already this morning I am Not asleep rn growth the program Apple watch!!!!

[kijosakka]

switching between platforms gives me whiplash