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what’s your thoughts on ouran? you mentioned you had a love / hate relationship with it and i think that would be interesting to hear
Oh god post that usually would be reserved for my sideblog incoming. Heads up this one might get uncomfortable, heed the tags. LONG POST.
TL;DR: it's a fun show that's neck deep in the misogyny sauce
I had the true ouran experience of watching it when I was 12 and thinking it was really funny but ultimately finished the show feeling mildly disappointed as well as being Very put off by one specific episode.
As a 12 year old I didn't really have the words to explain why but over the years I thought back to ouran again and again and the more I thought about it the more. Angry isn't really the right emotion I guess. Eyebrow raised emoji-y is more accurate.
Now that I am a bit older and wiser and have read more shoujo, I think the majority of the annoyance and confusion I felt towards ouran, especially nearing the end of the show, came from the fact that it pretty much bait-and-switches its own stance on gender roles, classism and judging by appearance. Please note that I have not rewatched ouran in many years so take all this with a grain of salt and forgive me for anything I'm straight up misremembering.
Haruhi, to me, embodies a very quintessential shoujo protagonist archetype. She's not necessarily radicalized against gender roles, but doesn't place the same importance in gendered performance as her peers. She's also viciously ambitious and doesn't downplay her own intelligence, qualities that her female peers around her have been conditioned to avoid in their cartoonishly extreme upper class upbringings.
However, the other girls' education being a direct result of their education is never really examined. All the other girls at ouran are presented as vapid and "boy-crazy" over the host club. Renge, the only major female character aside from Haruhi herself, is delegated to being comedic relief (and of course, the humour surrounding her almost always has to do with her obsession with Kyoya) with some not so subtle implications that Haruhi is above her girlish antics because Haruhi is... Better, to put it bluntly, in every way including her ability to appeal to men, which can be seen through Kyoya's neutral to distasteful opinion of Renge vs his somewhat unsubtle care and attraction towards Haruhi.
This very unflattering depiction of women other than Haruhi extends to the very queer-coded* Lobelia academy girls, who the host club spends an episode "rescuing" Haruhi from and, once again despite their group leader's more masculine look, reacts in shock and horror at their feminine interests. Eugh, makeup! Disgusting!
*pressing the "nuance" button on this one because we can't expect to apply our understanding of queer signalling on a Japanese highschooler, but the Lobelia girls are. Fairly blatant enough I feel that I almost don't even want to call it coding.
The girls in the show who aren't Haruhi are either boy-crazy and therefore stupid, side characters whose episodes are often tied to getting with a male love interest (who is always depicted as "plain" compared to the desirable men of the host club), rivals in love against Haruhi (like Eclair) or silly evil lesbians.
Speaking of the silly evil lesbians, I do think it's interesting how many times the show feels the need to restate Haruhi's heterosexuality through her endless amounts of blatant disinterest in her fangirls. I briefly wrote once on how patriarchal standards have an amount of gender-nonconformity that can be accepted with women, but violently withdraws that acceptance when it can be even slightly confused with signalling queerness. Every second boomer dad wants a tomboy daughter, yet none of them seem to want trans sons. Idk, food for thought.
It's also fascinating to me that Utena is so much older than Ouran, yet almost feels like a direct response to Ouran's pitfalls at times e.g. the "not like other girls" logic of Ouran's world that pits women against eachother. The only women deserving of sympathy are those who don't act as a "threat" to Haruhi's desireability, everyone else is stupid and beneath her or an evil bitch.
The one woman who is always shown as intelligent and worthy of respect outside of Haruhi herself is Haruhi's deceased mother. Interesting that she had to be dead and more of a concept and motivator for Haruhi instead of.. a character.
If the show was just a marina and the diamonds girls simulator that would be one thing but what I find even more insidious is that not only does it not respect its female cast, Haruhi herself is almost. Instructed? In the show to uphold patriarchal rhetoric, when she entered as a neutral force. With the fact that she acts as the audience stand-in, I find this just the smallest bit troubling.
ESPECIALLY. when talking about the specific episode that really gave me the "I don't like this alot but I can't describe why" feelings when I was 12. Everything else in the show I can look past but this episode genuinely pissed me the fuck off when I was 12 and pisses me off even more now.
I'm talking of course about the "better remember your place in society or men will rape you!!"
In episode 8, the host club visits the beach but instead of the fun beach episode I thought was coming up, 12 year old me was hit was Haruhi being scolded by Tamaki for trying to defend a group of girls from ruffians, simply because she is a girl. Haruhi obviously gets mad.
This in of itself is fine, Tamaki's been shown to be an idiot and very deep in the misogyny/classism sauce, and the way this show mocks that is why I really like him.
But Tamaki is supposed to be IN THE RIGHT this episode, as later Kyoya pretends that he's going to rape Haruhi to teach her a lesson about why women shouldn't confront men I guess. Which, of course, implies quite a lot of very strange things in a show made for young girls, including that if you just abide by gender expectations that are Good and Keep You Safe you... won't be raped? Haruhi even thanks Kyoya for PRETENDING HE WAS GOING TO RAPE HER ?
It's this. Very strange and hypocritical moment for this show and really, really soured Kyoya's character for me -- which is a shame cus I do think he's one of the most interesting club members. I'll never not fume about this episode man I literally got into fights with friends over this episode being garbage as a kid and it was one of the smartest opinions I had at that age.
It's also gross to me that this whole thing revolved around, in the first place, Haruhi trying to defend other girls. In a show that keeps isolating Haruhi from them. So to recap 1. DO NOT seek out relationships with other women, they are vapid and won't understand you, certainly not more than the men in your life and 2. If you defend other women (from men), you're being stupid. Get a man to handle it instead, because it's men's duty to defend women, not yours. and if you violate this natural order you deserve to get raped. Hashtag some gender roles are good, actually.
I also have more thoughts on the way it's presented as if being raped as a woman is the worst thing imagineable but Renge's stalker tendencies towards Kyoya are played up for laughs. Shrugs.
The episode even ends with Haruhi saying she wasn't afraid because she knew Kyoya wasn't going to do it, but then ending up in a curled up helpless ball anyway because of. some thunder. really awesome. While I don't have any problem with exploring Haruhi's vulnerability, we never see any of the boys in such a state, reinforcing that this isn't about dropping the facade of unemotional masculinity but Haruhi being... a girl. Barf.
Even completely disregarding that episode, the messaging is. Strange to say the least. I do think this one might be the thing that gets me shot because Tamaki Does come around to appreciating Haruhi as a person and not simply a "woman", but the fact remains that she still acts as a "love interest" from beginning to end. And the whole dynamic of. Haruhi going from completely disinterested to fond of Tamaki over time, and Tamaki learning to abandon his playboy ways and see Haruhi as a person is totally fine and okay. BUT it is a little bit. Oh so NOW you want to talk about seeing women as people.
I feel that I've been. very focused on the hate part of the love hate and I'll be real nowadays that is very much the dominant half. I still like the show just for nostalgia value, the humour, as well as the host club members themselves. Morii and Honey specifically have a really awesome dynamic and I wish we got to see Honey go berserker more but it is what it is. Kyoya, rapey moment aside, is also really fun and maybe one of those characters that made me realise what kind of tropes I like. I will not stand a word of Hikaru and Kaoru slander, those boys are awesome and their incestuous club personas are a great parody of how performative the club really is, and through that how performative society as a whole is when dealing with attraction as a concept. And I actually really like the side characters too, the emo catboy and Renge in particular.
But I'd be lying if I said it wasn't perhaps one of the most anti-feminist bait and switches I'd ever seen in my life.
Haruhi's not even gender-nonconforming!! She's just a normie with a normal amount of care put into gendered presentation but because she's in the psychopath rich people school she SEEMS gender-nonconforming!! Which is fine as I've said before I think a lot of shoujo protagonists are like Haruhi in that their gender is more "I just work here" at best and something used to oppress them at worst, but Haruhi goes out of her way to present more feminine the moment she leaves the school gates.
Big words for this show to come out swinging saying gender roles and expectations attached to them are dumb when its so terrified of actually tackling them. I don't require everything I watch to be queer queer gay gay homosexual transgender beam attack but like?? Why have Haruhi say she dgaf and then have her present feminine anyway? Especially when it's been highlighted to us that her family is dirt poor, yet she still has the money for hair extensions? You're telling me she decided to cut ALL OF HER HAIR OFF FOR A TINY PIECE OF GUM. for no reason at all when she could've easily just cut it into a bob??
FTR I do still like Haruhi which is what makes this all the more frustrating, especially since she's one of the few female anime characters who we're told is supposed to be masc-presenting and actually could pass as that. Mf questioned the system of gender and then proceeded to do fuckall with it. Gets forced into crossdressing but underlines it with "but im not a lesbian" the whole way through. What cowardice. What theory and no practice. What bark but no bite. What a non-theme. Haruhi is the opposite of punk. Centrist ass take of an anime.
Ahem. Biases aside. I just feel like it fails as a romance, fails saying anything substantial about gender or class and ultimately ends up being meaningless fluff at best and pro-rapist and anti-woman at worst.
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Watching trainspotting is a wild ride as someone who is a huge star wars, ouat, and greys fan
#ive been rewatching ouat and greys recently and remembered that movie exists#so i rewatched it and boy was it an experience#anything ewan is in makes me think of obi wan so i will almost always root for his characters#robert carlyle is just so damn good at playing the bad guy#hes just so fun to watch and is so so talented#and as a number one owen hunt hater…lets just say i enjoyed watching this movie again#also dont even get me started on how im not able to hear kelly macdonald’s voice without hearing merida#trainspotting#trainspotting movie#ewan mcgregor#mark renton#obi wan kenobi#star wars#robert carlyle#rumplestiltskin#the dark one#mr gold#ouat#once upon a time#greys anatomy#owen hunt#kevin mckidd#kelly macdonald#brave#pixar brave#merida#kate's post
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so much for stardust we thought we had it all, thought we had it all
#fall out boy: *releases a new album*#me: oh i am going to listen to this for two straight days and experience EVERY emotion ever#eda clawthorne#raine whispers#raeda#the owl house#the owl house spoilers#toh spoilers#draws#i am in a ball on the floor#consumed by the tragedy of raeda#like i KNOW dana terrace loves them as a pairing so - in a meta consideration - they gonna have a good ending#but we're going to marinate in this FOB-flavoured angst for the next week#i love these old queers#rewatched eda's requieum! aaaAAAAAA she is SO blushy and nervous around them!#it's been YEARS and you still feel nervous and excited and happy to see their face and spend time together (doing SHENANIGANS)
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Okay I'm indecisive so I'm putting it to a vote:
#he has told me he is fine with any level of spoilers or no spoilers#this boy truly knows NOTHING of the vampire chronicles#decisions are so hard! i want him to experience twists! but i don't know that he's big into rewatching & so having some hints might be good#iwtv#interview with the vampire
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Ah yes. And now we’re at the bit of RTD’s era where I have to watch a black character get shoehorned into the role of the idiot patsy and unlikeable love rival to make the white characters look better
#I know Noel Clarke turned out to be a douchecanoe but Mickey deserved so much better#like god forbid a black boy do anything#rose cheated on him w jimmy stone and dropped out of school for that guy#after that relationship blew up mickey took rose back and helped her get back on her feet#AND THEN SHE DISAPPEARS FOR A YEAR AND HES A SUSPECT IN HER DISAPPEARANCE#and experiences targeted harassment from the filth and from everyone on the estate AND JACKIE#and then rose comes back and is emotionally cheating on him with ANOTHER older guy#and that goes on. for a YEAR#no wonder he escapes to a parallel universe#doctor who#hmp42#an idiot rewatches doctor who
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#i am reading some stuff in the agatha tags#i know not a great idea#i just thought since I've been enjoying the meta posts atleast some of them I'll just keep a lookout for it#but as usual#the bs comes through#i have not seen one person who is mad coz agathario not been the focus#so either I've blocked all the idiots#or more likely people are preemptively policing others#which i guese is bound to happen but boy does it annoy me#i really don't care about them being endgame or getting happy ending or whatever#i felt the fandom as a whole also understands that and are just enjoying the ride#it's still mcu#we can be cautiously optimistic but especially with a story like agatha's#and her and rio's relationship being actually labelled as romantic antagonists#i fail to see how people even think that it's going to end as them getting some sappy happyily ever after or something like that#seriously do people really think that's in the cards#or it's just some wishful fanon thinking#i just want to enjoy the show as a show with all these interesting women characters#maybe i am alone in it but from what I've seen atleast on tumblr it feels the same for most of us here#i dunno what happens on other social media sites and i also actually don't care#it's always been like that especially wlw queer ships so yeah it kinda irritates me#i think i need to filter better and try focusing on the artsy stuff#anyways i am wondering if they will release teaser for next epi or not#I'll prefer to go without knowing anything tbh it is kind of exciting to experience it fresh without any spoilers#lets see#in the meantime i am rewatching the show and getting evermore obsessed with agatha and to some extent rio ha ha!#i am posting too much u can tell i am very invested now ...anybody want to pull me out? no? okayyy..down the road I go...!#i am so gay dude...fml#tag ramblings#for ts
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the timeline
If you've ever wondered just what the hell I was doing with the fics I was putting out and this timeline I kept talking about, this is what I meant lol
It's actually got quite a few more characters listed out to the right but for the sake of relevancy and size I just kept the first few columns.
The notes are either specific key events or (italicized) published fics. I started making this into an actual timeline sheet just a bit before I dropped out of the fandom entirely so I haven't been able to flesh it out as much as I like, but now that I feel like getting back into stuff I'm sure it will populate pretty quickly lol
Color meanings (majorly as relevant to Techno and his pov):
Maroon - Living in the Nether
Soft Green - Traveling with Phil
Yellow - Living in Hypixel
Blue - SMPE and the Antarctic Empire
Neon Green - DSMP
Red - If an MCM was held that year; If the character participated in an MCM that year
Black - Character is not yet born or is dead
#it's very sparse still i did clean some stuff out just for my sake#also you can't see it here but i apologize anyway to any and all business bay enjoyers including myself#i could not make business bay tommy and dsmp tommy the same person following my vision for the timeline it just could not work#so they are technically different people but characterization wise they would be very reminiscent and at some point techno definitely looks#at him like “is this? is this the same guy?”#he thought he escaped him but no he's found his younger doppelganger#but yes planning on rewatching skyblock and smpe and pw again so i can actually sort out plot points and timelines some more#maybe encourage myself to write who knows#technoblade#my writing#ae boys au#timeline#also ik the potato war is very short but again timeline shenanigans and trying to make things fit logically for character ages#i think realms would have some degree of their own timescales that may not run fully parallel to every other one#especially as they are being run and fueled by different gods with different levels of power and experience#hypixel already has so much control over the death and well-being system in his realm why not time as well
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crazy anthem!!
#low effort but I wanted to draw them!!#and this is the first time I draw kohaku. Very fun experience#annnyway anyone else rewatch the mv a bajillion times to look at every single detail and cry at how perfect and cute it is#honestly I think it might be the best mv we've gotten so far#and I love roadtrip stories I can't wait for the story huhuh#crazy:b#enstars#ensemble stars#fanart#amagi rinne#yeah I'll only tag him. congrats on ur event big boy#my art#also do ignore the fact that I did not even attempt to draw their little bee brooches
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The only things I knew about the Lost Boys going into was that my dad liked it and one time I woke up at like 2am during the scene David shows his vamp form in the tree. I was a kid who got scared very easy [i couldn’t even watch Scooby doo zombie island until I was 10]but wasn’t scared of that even a little. I was fascinated. I think that’s why David was my favorite for a long time, he was the first “scary” thing I wasn’t afraid of.
#it took me a while to figure out what the movie was tho#bc again#I was 7 and I quickly feel asleep again#I remember dreaming about David for years tho#just his face and being so fucking intrigued by him#eventually I asked my dad about the movie#it had been a couple years so I struggled explaining#so when we figured out it was TLB I sat down at 14 and rewatched it for the first time since that night#loved it (obviously)#every month after that we would watch TLB together#just me and my dad#it’s my favorite tradition I had with him and the one I’d do anything to experience one last time#sorry for getting personal#just missing him a lot rn ig#still watch the movies at least once a month tho#I might delete this#it’s sappy asf#I didnt mean to get sad on here#I try to keep it happy and light but found some pictures of him tonight#the lost boys#tlb#the lost boys 1987#tlb 1987#david tlb#tlb david#david the lost boys#the lost boys david#glb tlb
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I'm watching my life with the walter boys and my god......I knew why I never read the book, the description sounded bad then and the tv series is bad now too
#everything screams CHEAP#the set design the wardrobes the dialogues the storylines the ACTING#i don't know who did the hair and makeup for these people but they missed the assignment#Cole's hair???? And Alex' hair????? so shockingly bad#everything about it is so bad#I'm gonna quickly start my rewatch of the office to cleanse my sould of this terrible experience#my life with the walter boys#bad tv productions
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I would take five more seasons of Samuel and his shiny bald head over the men of letters is what I’m saying
#HENRY IS SO BORING. THIS EPISODE IS NOT HELPING HIM.#my opinion before rewatching was that I didn’t care about him#my opinion now is that he is annoying and making my experience of watching this episode worse.#man should have stayed a shadow over John’s life that echoed through his parenting of his sons rather than. A Guy.#at least Samuel was fun!!! samuel was willing to take out his own grandsons for his daughter!!! that was!!! idk fascinating man!!!!#his whole sure we’re blood but I don’t know you you’re not family my daughter is my family thing was an interesting mirror to the show’s#overall (attempted) theme of ‘family don’t end in blood and doesn’t start there either’#like he followed that to a T! he just happened to also do it while going against our main boys.#he was a Mary stan I respect him for that#plus imagine if she was revived and had to be around her father (previously demonically possessed and also kissed her)#this is a pro-samuel blog now akshfkjdlfj I’m so sorry Samuel that I was annoyed by you in s6 I see the truth now#I see how bad u could have been and I want u back mr Campbell
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SONNY BOY !!!!
#rewatching it w mel rn. one of my fave shows of all time i love it#three eps in already thinking abt how much is gonna change and be revealed. makes me so insanely emotional#tho a quality of it i rly appreciate abt the show that i can finally put into words is that the. the chs dont act like normal chs#typically i feel some connection to chs BC i can understand or relate to them on some level even if theyre personality and bg is completely#seperate to mine#and i wouldnt say most of sonny boys chs are v complex but it still does a phenomenal job specifically making me feel isolated from all but#select few (nagara mizuho rahjdani and later asakase and mb nozomi). which idk its like uniquely comforting#bc sonny boy is all about growing up and developing a sense of self in an ever changing world and connecting with others and for me i feel#like my experience w all that was already so alienating. so flattening the chs w the strongest social lives just feels like natural to me#bc i fr do not get or understand social ppl. love my friends but it feels impossible for me to ever understand anyone else or have them#understand me. there is just a degree of disconnect there that can never be solved and i feel like sonny boy is a piece of media#which acknowledges that disconnect and still allows its chs to form friendships beyond it. which is what i need in media#this is crazy if anyone understands this um. hi. are we abt to kiss rn#sonny boy#🌸.txt
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I JUST REALIZED SOMETHING HILARIOUS WHILE REWATCHING MW3
Look. Soap is VISIBLY angry, while price is manning up and apologizing to soap, and soap is handling it like a big boy, even if he can't make himself look at the man while he does so (he only looks at price once he has accepted price's Apology)
"I shouldn't've stopped you."
"It was the right thing at the time."
(Side note at this angle he is 100% looking directly at Ghost)
And then here Ghost pipes up right after soap is finished speaking, guivng no time for anyone else to interject (he's actively and openly taking soap's side on this)
"At the time..."
And price whips around, and you can't see his face from the angle, but personal experience (being a smartass) tells me from his body language that he is giving Ghost the "don't be an ass about it"/ "*exasperated* really, Ghost? 🤨"/ "don't rub it in" look
#el rambles#john soap mactavish#simon ghost riley#john price#ghostsoap#soapghost#call of duty#cod#cod mw3#modern warfare 3#modern warfare iii#call of duty modern warfare 3
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ohhh my god ive been watching tlou with my dad and we're an episode behind but we cant watch the last one now cause hes going on a work trip for a week and. ohhh my god (<- knows how it ends, he doesnt)
#we just finished watching the penultimate ep and im gonna throw up it was so good#i might watch the last one without him and then rewatch it but goes nuts goes bonkers#its a very weird experience watching tlou w my dad bc me and him have both mentioned how we have a similar dynamic to ellie&joel#im like if ellie was a boy could use a smartphone
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Day 25913 of trying to turn my coworkers into miraculous ladybug fans 😔
#ifykyk#McDude I love miraculous ladybug more than any other show ever!!#great rewatchability#interesting characters and character design#fun little stories#great overarching plot#yeah you need the patience of a saint sometimes but it's part of the experience#I could very very easily give an hour long lecture about ladybug spanning from its history as an anime to the current show#like????? i know everything about this show#it's not all good#some of it is quite bad#but that's part of the charm 🤡#this show does camp like literally nothing else#we love to see it#we also love to see girlboss Marinette winning#that's my girl tbh#and Adrien 🥺 baby boy#ahhh I love all of them so much#except Gabriel and Andre the Icecream Man and...actually that's it lol#and it's more of a love to hate them kind thing#anyways point is I love ladybug and every comment or tag I see saying they hate it only makes me love it more 😤#one day I'm going to whip out my doc categorizing every single villain by power type#miraculous ladybug
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One of my favourite things about Leverage (I'm onto S3 of the rewatch) is the number of times Eliot, Parker and Hardison say some variant of "like I taught you".
Eliot teaching Parker combat skills, Hardison teaching Eliot tech skills, Parker teaching Hardison lockpicking skills. All three of them building each other into multiple-disciplined crime crew in a way that makes perfect sense for all of the characters.
And the way it escalates in Redemption as well, when Parker has designated Vent Practise for the boys and Hardison gets grumpy about being compared to Eliot for his lack of vent skills 🤣
From S1, there's always been that "what would [character] do?" and they used it to full effect in the S1 finale with Nate and Sophie using the skills of the others to bust them out of Sterling's clutches.
They do the same again with the S1 finale of Redemption as well, when the head of RIZ underestimates them because she doesn't count on the degree of skill shuffle they have at their fingertips.
But it doesn't stop there - it extends to the personal as well. Some of my favourite quiet little moments are
Eliot taking the time to show Parker how to appreciate food because she's never had anyone who did that for her before and lived on cereal and junk food her whole life, because it's something he loves and he wants to help her understand it.
Parker being Hardison's comfort in the buried-alive episode, when she uses her own skills and experience and familiarity with being in small enclosed spaces to talk to him and keep him calm.
Hardison and Parker dancing so she can manage to move the right way for a con - it's so quietly intimate and simple - and then him knowing she's panicking when the thing goes wrong and humming the song so she can recover the steps and pull it off.
This is the heart and soul of the show - these characters supporting and sharing the things they care about with each other. They love each other so much and know each other and trust each other, as much as they poke and roast and tease one another.
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