#so i guess its still perfect but its the time thing that gets me
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I do not actually agree with this.
On some level, sure, but also... I had real trouble understanding social hierarchy, and in fact, where I recognised it, I was fairly obedient to it. It's just that hierarchy is actually really complex. Its not just "person a is above person b, who is above person c" but "Person a and b both have roles and positions of power, and while a generally is considered above b in the hierarchy, in many situations, b will effectively outrank a, (a classic example of this is an article i read once, on norse medieval law, where the wife was generally considered secondary to the husband, but where the wife was the absolute authority for anything to do with the house, and if she told the husband to go sleep in the barn, there was fuck all he could do about it. Now how accurate that article in particular was, is unclear to me, but those sorts of relations are EVERYWHERE, and many authistic people struggle to filter out those neuances, and ends up perceiving it all as noise ("if a is in charge sometimes and b sometimes, then is no one in charge?" is the sort of thinking you end can up with)) I did not understand sarcasm as a kid, at all. It took years of active training to learn it. Now I love it. My father still cannot engage with jokes based on 'lies'. A joke like "what do you call a pile of cats? A meow-tain!" just gets him to go "Actually a group of cats is called a clowder, it comes from the same root as 'clutter' and-", and it can take him for someone to say "dad, its just a joke" for him to go "oh, right, yes, sorry." Not understanding some forms of humour does not mean not having a sense of humour though, my dad loves comedy shows. Some autistic people absolutely are rude. Horribly so. And even those of us that aren't, generally do have vocational moments where, yes, we are. A momentary lack of ability to connect the social dots, leads to rude questions, rude statements, rude observations. This is not a 'actually autistic people are angels who can't lie, you just hate the truth!' thing, its a 'sometimes the brain misfires, and does not realise why something would be rude or hurtful, and they cause emotional harm to others for no good reason' thing. Meltdowns, while never about 'nothing', are not indicators that the people around them are bad people. Are you suggesting that the parents of any autistic child who has a meltdown, due to a problem they are unable to communicate, or overstimulation, or under-stimulation, or any other number of things, are bad people because they did not perfectly handle a person whom it is exceptionally hard to handle? There are people with several doctorates, specialising in this specific part of autism, and even they could not possibly prevent every meltdown if a child in their care had certain problems. There are countless reasons for why someone has a meltdown, and many of them don't make sense, just have to be learned and adapted to, especially with those unable to communicate the problems for themselves. Fuck off with this 'autistic people are perfect actually' bullshit. We're humans. Nothing less, sure, but also nothing MORE, and honestly, insinuating we're more, is MORE infantilising and patronising than the morons that dismiss us for being "retards". "Look, just because Maurice doesn't get your sarcasm jokes doesn't mean he doesn't get humour at all. Try puns, he loves those." is a billion times better a response than. "Maurice is a perfect gem! If he doesn't laugh at your jokes, it's because you suck! Maurice is the god-arbiter of all humour!" Like, what even is that? Come on. If your response to bigorty is just as polarised and factless as the bigotry, and also defines an entire group as being 'this exact way, actually'... guess what, you're also a bigot, you just hide behind "But my bigotry says you're one of the good ones!". Check yourself. Might have ended up a bit harsh here, but also fuck off anyway. I am tired of seeing this sort of stuff all the time.
One of my favourite parts about autistic people is how you can use other peoples' reflections of them like an echolocation bullshit detector. Like they personally do not need to do shit for this to work, they just passively emit their own autistic vibe that bounces off every surface around them, and you can assess another person's level of self-awareness by how they reflect it back.
"Autistic people do not understand social hierarchy" nope, they understand you're supposed to be an authority here, but they won't politely pretend to respect you if they think you're incompetent.
"Autistic people do not understand humour" nope, they just don't politely pretend to laugh to humour you, and you are simply not funny.
"Autistic people are rude" nope, they just don't think it's polite to lie to you, and don't care about trying to tell you what they think you want to hear instead of telling you what they think.
"Autistic people sometimes have emotional meltdowns for absolutely no reason" nope, you're just insufferable to be around and the person with the lowest tolerance of your shit is simply the canary in the coal mine who breaks first.
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Shadow x sonic x tall!fox!reader who wished that they were shorter to kiss their boyfriends easier
âTall People Problemsâ
Pairing(s): Shadow the Hedgehog x Tall Mobian Fox Reader x Sonic the Hedgehog
Requested: Yes (by @fernstarsblog ).
Description: Being tall was great! You could reach the top shelf, you- âŠwell, that was about it. You always disliked being so tall; you could never properly kiss your partners. It sucked.
Notes: Even more poly stuff, heck yeah! I hope you enjoy!
(Reader will be gender-neutral.)
(Not proof-read/beta-read.)
â â â â â â â â â â â â
It was a pretty average day, with the sun shining outside and the birds chirping.
You creak open your eyes, blinking a few times as you adjust to the light.
The first thing you notice is the two warm, heavy bodies on top of you.
The second thing you notice is one of them snoring, that one being your partner, Sonic.
The other body, that being your other partner, Shadow, who seems to be purring, though it sounds more like clicking, which youâve loved since the first time you heard it.
This wasâŠnice.
You start scratching Sonic and Shadow behind their ears, causing Sonic to start purring with Shadow leaning into your touch.
You could get used to this.
âŠUnfortunately the peace doesnât last long, with Sonicâs communicator blasting its ringtone at full volume, causing all of you to all but leap out of the bed, all of you on edge as Sonic answers his communicator.
âYello?â Sonic says.
âHi Sonic! Sorry for the early call,â the voice of Tails says. âI just wanted to make sure you remembered our morning hangout!â
âOh yeah! Donât worry bro, Iâll be there in a minute,â Sonic says. âJust let me say bye to my partners and such.â
âOkay, no rush! Iâll see you soon, Sonic!â Tails says.
âSee ya soon, bro,â Sonic states before hanging up, letting off a huge yawn while stretching. Shadow, too, yawns, rubbing his eyes a bit with his ungloved hands. âWelp, guess I gotta juice. Love you both!â
Sonic gives you both a kiss on the lips, which causes Shadow to get flustered as it usually does, before zooming out the door.
âTypical Sonic,â you say, shaking your head. âGuess that leaves us to breakfast, eh?â
âI suppose it does,â Shadow states. âWhat are you thinking?â
âProbably just eggs and bacon, maybe with some sausage and coffee,â you say.
âSounds good to me,â Shadow says.
The two of you head off to the kitchen, and you quickly remember that the counters are sort of small compared to you.
I mean, youâre only about a foot taller than your partners, but it still doesnât help much with the fact that youâre, well, tall.
Regardless, you lean down, grabbing a pan and turning on the stove, placing the pan over the heat, grabbing the butter and eggs, spreading butter on the pan before cracking two eggs, cooking them to over-easy perfection, taking them off of the pan and onto a plate with your spatula.
Buttering up the pan again, you crack two more eggs, this time opting to scramble them for yourself. After theyâre cooked to perfection, you use the spatula again to put them on another plate just as Shadow finishes cooking the sausage and bacon.
He places them on a plate and you give Shadow a kiss on the head, where his red streak ends, and he grumbles, a bit flustered.
The two of you eat your breakfast, chatting about whatever, with Sonic eventually coming back around noon, the three of you opting to go out on an afternoon hike before coming home once itâs dark, getting ready for bed.
While watching a before-bed movie (with it being some cheesy romance movie), you start to wonder what it would be like to be the same height as your partners. Being tall is great and all (hey, that rhymed), but you wish you were shorter so you could properly kiss your partners.
Sonic notices you sulking and he tilts his head to the side, confused.
âEverything alright, [Nickname]?â Sonic asks.
âDo you guys ever wish I was shorter?â you ask.
âWhere is this coming from all of a sudden?â Sonic asks.
Shadow looks over at you as well, a bit of concern on his face.
âI just- Donât get me wrong, I donât mind being tall, butâŠI wish I was able to properly kiss you both,â you state.
âAw, but [Name], we love your tall kisses,â Sonic says. âAnd if you were shorter, weâd lose our huge cuddle buddy!â
âWhat the faker is trying to say is that we love you for you,â Shadow states. âBe it tall, short, or whatever. We love you regardless.â
You give the both of them a kiss, as if saying âThank you.â
You loved these hedgies to death.
#sonic the hedgehog#sth#sonic fanfiction#sonic characters x reader#sonic character x reader#shadow the hedgehog#x reader#sonic the hedgehog x reader#shadow the hedgehog x reader#sonadow#mobian reader#fox reader#sonic x reader#shadow x reader#sonic x reader x shadow#etc#insert tag here#sonic oneshots#sonic oneshot#oneshot#requested oneshot#requested#tosffw writes
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yk when i think about it, especially when im watching the anime with people who havent read the manga, the reason a lot of people who only watch the anime and didnt read the manga misinterpreted saikis character so badly is definitely in part because of how damn fast paced the anime is đ

like that little smile and eye shine frame is there for not even half a second in the anime, so its easier to miss it and assume that he really did only finish those workbooks to get coffee jelly â ïž its much more clear if you get a good look at how he reacts here that hes just a silly little tsundere and a fucking liar
#this might be really obvious but im silly#LET ME YAP !!#dont read this as me making fun of anime only fans#i was literally one until like a few months ago#i just think its unfortunate how different the vibe is#obviously i love the anime though#there are still some things i straight up don't understand how people miss though#like people who watch the whole anime and still think saiki hates teruhashi or nendo specifically#like ? he has some of his most affectionate scenes with them#but i think maybe its because they missed so many of the more subtle details#that by the time they see saikis offu or him saying he and teruhashi make a great team.. it appears more sudden to them than it really is#so they either completely ignore those scenes or dismiss them as fanservice#ugh#its. literally not fan service at all and makes perfect sense if you pay attention#idk how u can watch the sweetest line ever 'we're invincible together' and deny that saiki cares about teruhashi#in general its actually just impossible to end the show thinking he hates any of his friends unless u just ignored things on purpose#even if u ended at the first season like a lot of people#but im just saying i guess i get why its a little less obvious in the show#saiki k#tdlosk#the disastrous life of saiki k.#saiki kusuo#meows post
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i loathe being this fucking pathetic, but i dont know how to stop without resorting to playing hard to get, which i morally disagree with. i don't fucking know. i always figure shit out so what's taking me so long? am i actually still hoping they'd like it? even if im happy it makes them feel secure it doesnt make them like me any more, and i need to be a little selfish to get what i want. i need to stop being so disgusting and play everything right.
#NEVER EVER EVER EVER LOOK AT OLD MESSAGES LITERALLY EVER#NEVER A GOOD IDEA#EVEN IF UR LOOKING FOR SOMETHING . JUST GIVE UP#fuck my baka life bro#globs#âĄ#should i go back to just being a concept char#:/:/:/:/:/:/#at least people online still only have the idea of me ive ruined it among so many others:/#i guess more distabt friends still see me as i was.#fuck they really destroyed me#chat is that a good thing or a bad thing#ive never been this vulnerable because ive never cared about anything like this#gross!!!!! disgusting!!!! why am i not handling everything with perfect optimacy !! dont forget game theoryđđ#its so joever#its okay#everythings okay#fake it til you make it right#i have everything i need#i just need to get my shit together#havent i been thru worse? so silly this is what gets me#deep breaths. look down at everything with benevolence. i know how it all works and ill make it fine#who needs meditation when you have some overseeing consciousness that grips hold of your brain every time you freak out#real goopsters know#remember when i thought it was some disorder. whatever i dont even care enough to figure out what it is now. it works#goodnight#it gets so scared of hurting me
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just a little personal anecdote/ thought dump in the tags..
#so there's this girl i work with - lets call her E. and i used fo work with her mum - lets call her J.#and E is overall v sweet. tho somewhat manipulative and a bit of a princess. ad i guess kind of my friend?#but only kind of bc she is younger and that maturity difference and also im her manager (we used to be the same rank)#but i was like really good friends with her mum - J. like we had v similar experiences and just clicked.#i dont talk to J anymore for several reasons (she stopped working. i got weird - like insecure and whatnot. she moved away).#and E and J do not get along very well#and like J was my friend first right. i was biased by her side of things and disagreements with E.#and tho my rship w J was kind of fucked up and i definitely carry a sadness for how that ended. it doesn't erase#that she was my friend and we got long v well and we clicked and i felt she understood me and vice versa#and similar life experiences and all that jazz etc#and i dont think it ever has occured to E that like me and her mum were actually friends??#bc like we'll be having a conversation and she'll start talking about her mum in a v negative way#and its just so so awkward#bc i know her mum isnt perfect and isnt necessarily fair to her - compared to her sister#but like E is very strong willed and she's still maturing and struggles to see past her own ego#and J is someone who definitely avoids conflict and confrontation but not by giving in - but by stepping back. if that makes sense#but thats why E and J dont get along. neither knows how to reach agreement or compromise#but anyways i understand J and respect her and it so awkward to sit there whilst E whines and trash talks#and it also makes me sad#and we're well past the pointof me saying anything#like a year ago. sure. and there were several times i did say 'hey. i know youre having feelings about this but like ur mum was my friend?#so i think its better if we dont discuss this' kind of thing#but it didnt stick. plus its kind of weird. bc its v much past tense now - like me and J WERE friends.#and like i think E thinks that she and I are good friends. which is also awkward.#bc we were coworkers so yeh. kind of friends by default - small team and o ly young ppl#but she's not rly the kind of person that i vibe with#and ive been making an effort to withdraw bc I'm her manager now and i need professional boundaries so i can do my job well#anyway thats kind of the end of my story#for some context J was previously my manager and briefly also her daughter's manager#and something ive never admitted fo anyone before but you probably picked up on already - i did have such a crush on J
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what do you like specifically about Kiryu?
the fact he has a laundry list of dumb things he's done throughout the games
#snap chats#LMAO LIKE IS THIS THE SAME ANON OR IS TIMING HILARIOUS#anyways to actually answer the questions#What Do I Like Specifically About Kiryu idk :) i say he reminds me of my dad a lot and that is true#mostly when it comes to fatherhood tho. and when i say that ima get people sayin 'im so sorry' but no my dads great đ#and ik kiryu aint a saint and he aint perfect but he gives me the same vibes as my dad does#beyond that tho he's just silly :) i like how despite being an intimidating guy he's still very cute in a way#he's also very earnest about things- in his Cool Kiryu way of course#he doesnt shirk learning about things and he's always open to new experiences and that's so sweet#and sometimes his goofy philosophical speeches do get to me. Again it very much reminds me of my dad he does the same A LOT#and kiryu's just dorky i like how he likes manga i like how he likes pocket circuit#and even if he was reluctant to be ono michio it was very sweet that he took the role seriously#and wanted the successor to ono michio to be a perfect one#he's just a very sincere guy and i love it#now for the DUMBEST thing he's done. every instance he's tried to have someone else take care of haruka#off the top of my head this happens twice but its like kiryu youre DUMB#STOP ACTING LIKE YOU CAN'T BE A GOOD DAD TO HER YOU'RE MAKING THIS A SELF-FULFILLING PROPHECY#also kiryu just dumping the tojo on daigo. i mean it worked out I Guess but still that was the craziest gamble for this organization#and tbh poor majima for kiryu dragging him back into the tojo to watch over daigo#not really 'dumb' but inconsiderate so yeah that was p cringe#this was The Kiryu Post thanks for reading everyone i love kiryu
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{Syo} ~ [Rai Rai All * R i g h t]
#koushirouizumi utapuri#koushirouizumi syo#koushirouizumi utapuri ref#koushirouizumi posts#koushirouizumi no rb#a: syo kurusu#s: rai rai all right#maji love starish tours spoilers#(In Other News)#(Guess What Ive Been Rewatching Since Yesterday)#(Warning it DOES Get Flashy at minimal points Id recommend turning brightness down if youre prone to episodes!!)#(At least its much easier for me to watch this way than in fullscreen H.D.)#('UUUU' has similar Issues and HIGHLY recommend brightness turned down on that one in comparison to this one b U T)#: im me#(h E L P)#(THEY WERE WATCHING HIM PERFORM FROM THE SIDE AND WAVING AND SYO POINTS IN THE DIRECTION OF)#(WHAT LOOKS LIKE {NATSUKI}S SIDE)#(Ive rewatched UUUU few more times too I Admit bUT THIS WAS VERY FUN ACTUALLY IM SO PROUD OF SYO HHHHEHEHE)#(SYO... YOURE ACTUALLY PERFORMING... ON A STAGE... IN ANI-VERSE... WITH THE HEIGHTS ISSUE BC)#(THEY STILL CANT GET YOU A PROPER ARC BUT KEEP IMPLYING HEART ISSUETM IN SMALL BITS + ANGLES ANYWAY.....)#(LIKE AT THE END Syos . panting. really heavily and they EMPHASIZE It and like yes Effort but also)#(hE HAS A HEART CONDITION IN OG LORE AND THIS IS WHAT THEY GET HIM DO IN THIS CANON BUT IT *WORKS* HHHHH)#(HOW IS THIS SILLY SERIES LIKE THIS)#(WHY CANT WE GET A FULL SEASON WITH THIS KIND OF EFFORT LIKE YES THESE ARE FUN!!! BUT FULL SEASONS TOO!!!!)#(THIS WOULD BE LIKE PERFECT LEAD INS TO A SYO SEASON AND THEY KEEP REFUSING TO TAKE IT L I K E)#(WHAT MORE DO YOU NEED!!!! JUST DO IT ALREADY SMOOTH OUT THE LOOSE ENDS FROM LEAVING OUT ALL OF)#(SYOS REPEAT ROUTE STUFF)#(OK Anyway im LAUGHING at it too but its fUN thE PART WHERE HE CATCHES THE THING + TWIRLS IT ETC G O O D)#flashing lights
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Um. I told Oliver that I'm... Genuinely happy/content with my life
And cried bc i realize that's like the first time I've truly felt that way? Ever. The one by one big thing I want is an life partner otherwise... I think my life is good?
#miranda talking shit#From my standards i guess like... Ideally id have an education . Well paying and stable job and shit#But like... With my mental issues i probably wont ever have that but now i got... Part time work for at least 10 months ...#I can afford my bills... Food... I am getting payed from the government but now at least i am doing work for that pay#Its only 10h per week so nothing crazy but yeah... Idk i... I have always had lovely people around me who i love#Thats been my bright spot since 2017 but my mental health has been garbage#Now i... I live on my own with my cats... I do still have social workers who come help me with stuff but overall#I am so much more independent than i ever thought id be. I am like... I think i am genuinely happy?#I havent felt awful mentally for more than like half a day since last year. Usually i had suicidal thoughts daily#I. Genuinely didn't think I'd ever feel this... Not just okay but good? Nothing is perfect but i never wanted things to be#They are just ... Simple... But it's ... Im happy ? Im scared tl say i am really . Its been months but it still feels like it'll#All change and crash if i say i am. I just ... .... I think for the first time ever i am happy that im alive. Thay i didnt end my life#Previously. 25 years. 15 of those years with depression and more shit but now it's ...#Its so weird like i am not DOING anything really differently. Things are mundane and simple but my medication has helped#So much... And im still me? I think ?
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I gotta confess it is so much more fun talking to Sal as if he is a separate person like he wants and not a member of the system. He's super creative like. Its just fun.
#It was hard to understand because they were wrapping up a bunch of stuff kinda fast. and it seemed like they were introducing new#things too? The fight scenes were cool.#person with Delusional Disorder: so hear me out#playing a dangerous game#Were bonding over sailor moon#JK btw like dont worry. The delusions dont really work like that. You could say i guess that thats his personal delusion?#idk its kind alike a severity scale MOST if not all of us have the truman show delusion. to some degree in some form. the specifics very#and then certain alters have additional delusions.#there all pretty bizarre. like I think thats the category you could put pretty much all of them in#which is interesting#some of them are more whatever the one where you think people are after you is called#so technically we would be mixed type? but idk if we would even fall into the type-able like... because the way it interacts with our DID#at first i thought my therapist was totally bullshitting this but the longer im like. living alone away from family the more sense this#diagnosis makes?#esp cause last time i googled it there was like. no fucking info. jut the wiki page about how this disorder gets misdiagnosed in people who#are part of grand conspiracies and how when thats not the case theyre basically just doing it to them selves :/#but i guess theres more research now? or something because now theres like medical articles!! and they make way more sense and actually#align with what we experience so thats super cool#its still kinda like. Huh??? but i guess it runs in families and i can totally think of several family members who i think have this#I also had drug induced psychosis i think. so- interesting how my therapist was able to parse that. i should text him.#omg yeah so apparently Sal (or specifically one of his alters) has seen just the end and ive seen just the beginning!!#i know thats so silly and like. Too Perfect. kind of thing but its fun!!!!! He said it was confusing and he liked it but it took him a#couple watches to know what was going on.#he actually didnt know what season he had seen (other than it definitely wasnt the first one lol) so i read through the ep titles until#he reconized them. he stilll didnt reconize them really but like half way through the last season (I went out of order) he was like#âthis sounds sorta right. there was a lot of space fighting and stuffâ#he had to think about it for a minute because i guess he just hadnt consider that that was the end#he was relieved to hear that theres specials and stuff after#but maybe hes lying 0-0 thats always interesting !!!!#syst
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LITTLE SECRET | spiderman!jungwon



pairing: spiderman!jungwon x fem!reader
synopsis: where the charming college heartthrob yang jungwon has a couple more secrets than you mightâve thought.
warnings: use of alcohol, cursing, suggestive
words: 6.5k
a/n: happy new year!! this took way longer than i expected, i hope youâre as obsessed with the idea of spidey jungwon as much as me hehe.
taglist: @harukayoiiiiiiizzz @ikeulove @ribbioniki @hollxe1 @shiroolikesfish @wonnie99 @lunaritex @aloloveswonie @meowwons @enlysia @wonys-won @cryjungwon @yizhoutv @engenediary @firstclassjaylee @heeseungmyman @jovibaes @ilovejungwonandhaechan @candyhere @yamagucccii @jungwonbropls @bamguetismee @wnyloves @cralessia
âOkay, fuck, marry or kill between Thor, Iron man and⊠Captain America, who do you choose?â You laugh hearing your friendâs nonsense. Not even a couple of drinks in and everyone is already tipsy enough to make stupid questions like that. Still, Yunah seems so proud of starting this game that you cant really blame her.
âOh damn, thatâs hard.â Yunjin says, taking a couple of minutes to think about the answer. You like night like this, Heeseungâs small apartment is perfect for your groupâs gatherings, thereâs not many of you anyway, and you enjoy the company of your friends and the slight bitter taste of alcohol while you play.
âI guess iâd kill Iron man, fuck thor and marry cap?â Yunjinâs answer makes both Jay and Jake stand up. âoh hell no, team iron man forever.â You laugh again, and rest your back against the window, drink in your hands. Thereâs something so comforting about these little things that you cant help but be happy even hearing them get into stupid arguments like that. âWhatever! Whatever, Y/n, what do you think?â
You raise your eyebrows, not expecting to be the next one. You raise your eyes to the ceiling, trying your best to think about the options and the words to say to not let anyone jump at you. âWell, i guess iâd marry Thor? Fuck Iron man and kill Captain America.â âWow. Youâre a disappointment, just as i thought.â You roll your eyes jokingly before taking another sip out of your drink, a smirk on your lips while once again everyone starts to argue about team cap or team iron man.
You dont join in on that, Jake is loud enough to compensate for it, and to be completely honest, the alcohol does makes you too dizzy to keep up. You look around, mostly paying attention to the beanbag where Yunah is sitting on, since you want to steal that so damn bad. Yunjin, Jay and Jake are all standing up, hands moving and their voices getting higher each time someone says something even more stupid. Heeseung should be in the kitchen with Jungwon, probably making more drinks, even if we already had way too many.
Speaking of which, you notice Jungwon coming in the living room, a little smile on his lips as he hears the conversation, a tray full of snacks and drinks in his hand. He puts it down on the coffee table and your eyes meet for a single second, you smile at him, as if thanking him for the snacks. âWhat about spiderman?â He asks the group, and everyone is silent at that, all the attention towards the blonde boy.
You barely register what he says, too focused on looking at him and admiring him to really pay attention. How long have you had a crush on him? Technically, its only been a couple of years, but because of the blip you do really feel like heâs had you in a chokehold for centuries. And ever since he dyed his hair blonde you cant really stop looking at him, he looks ethereal, he looks like a doll, and from this side you can clearly see the perfect outline of his nose and-
âY/n? Earth calls y/n are you here?â You blink a couple of times, your ears probably becoming red at the realization that everyone in the room saw you staring at Jungwon so much you couldnât even hear what they said. âYes? What? Iâm sorry I- Yeah, you were saying?â This is embarrassing, but its not like its the first time this happens either. âWe were talking about spiderman, and youâre the only one who saw him, so what do you think of him?â
You furrow your brows, trying to recall the last time you saw the hero theyâre talking about. Its not like you talked to him, but if it wasnt for spiderman, a whole house wouldâve collapsed on you and you surely wouldnât be here to tell this story again. Its been a couple of months since that accident, and you can only remember the feeling of his broad shoulders covering you and that familiar scent that you still havenât been able to connect to something. âHeâs⊠cool i guess? Iâd still choose Thor over him though.â
Jungwon laughs at your words and looks at your way before sitting on the couch, and thats enough to make your heart flutter again. You try to not look too long, not wanting to repeat that embarrassing moment just a second ago, but your chest really is about to explode. âI guess its hard to beat a god, uh?â You shrug your shoulders, to be completely fair, youâre not a fan of heroes as much as your friends are so all of this talk to you is just boring talk.
Later into the night youâre sitting on Heeseungâs bed, your back on the headboard. The apartment isnt too big, he does indeed have his bed in the living room, but to you thatâs what makes it cozy. Jay is sleeping on the beanbag, Jake and Heeseung are playing some kind of game you dont know meanwhile Yunah and Yunjin left not too long ago, the only reason youâre still here is because Jay is supposed to be your ride home, but you dont know how possible thatâs going to be now.
Jungwon notices you and sits next to you with his usual smile, a little too close. Your shoulders brush, making you stiffen for a second. You have to remind yourself that Jungwon and you have been friends long before you developed this absurd crush on him, heâs easy to talk to, thereâs no reason to get so nervous around him, and so you relax, just a little. âSo⊠you dont like spiderman?â You giggle at that, lately Jungwon has been obsessed with that guy, he keeps bringing him up, as if he knows him personally.
âThatâs not what I said.â You turn your head just to look at him, regretting it almost immediately. Heâs really close and you didnât even realize how youâre basically whispering, as if the other three can even hear you. âYeah but you still choose Thor! Isnt he like⊠a thousand years old?â You look at him with your eyebrows raised, you can smell the littlest tint of alcohol in him, he doesn't look drunk, but heâs definitely tipsy enough to continue this conversation.
âJungwon, if I didnât know you, I would think you either have a crush on spiderman or youâre trying to set me up with him.â He laughs at your words, and you can't help but smile even more, your heart fluttering looking at his face, the way dimples show up on his cheeks and his chuckles are so crystal clear in your head. âEh, maybe you just don't know me enough.â You grimace at that, your nose scrunching up, making him smile again.
To be completely honest, it does feel like that sometimes. You and Jungwon have been friends for a while, but lately⊠Heâs been acting weird, as if something happened to him that transformed him into a completely different person, or maybe he just has more secrets than you think. You look at Jay, still soundly sleeping on the beanbag. Its so late into the night, and you do have a couple of projects to work on tomorrow, so you better walk back home if you want to be productive.
You get up and start picking your things up; Jungwon furrows his brows at that, before putting two and two together and realizing that youâre going home. âHey. Isnt Jay your ride home?â You shrug, you really dont have time to wait for him to wake and sober up. âI dont live too far, iâll just walk back home.â âIâll go with you.â You raise your head at that, your heart beating so hard it might explode any minute. Did Yang Jungwon just offer to walk you home?
âThereâs really no need to-â But before you can even finish your sentence, Jungwon is putting his coat on and your cheeks become red, this is really happening. âIts three in the morning; iâm not letting you go alone.â You have to bite your inner cheeks to not smile too hard. You just nod at him and then finally get ready to go, you say bye to Heeseung and Jake before walking out.
You totally get why Jungwon is so well liked; heâs kind, funny, caring, and so handsome. Itâd be weird not to. He walks on your right, as if to keep you protected from the few cars strolling around at this hour, and heâs so close to you that your shoulders and hands keep brushing against each otherâs. It's cold outside, being January, and what youâre wearing isn't doing much to help you, but heâs already doing a lot, so you can't find it in yourself to ask him for his jacket.
Your house isnt too far, you had simply asked Jay because you know better than walk back home alone and drunk at night, and youâre glad Jungwon thinks the same as you. âIâm glad youâre back.â You say, getting surprised at your own words. Jungwon had been away for that Stark project for geniuses or whatever that was, and you could totally feel his absence. âI wasnt gone for long, though.â
You giggle quietly, definitely embarrassed now. âGuess i just like having you around then.â He looks at you as he smiles. Yunah and Yunjin have been telling you for weeks, they think that Jungwon might reciprocate your crush, but youâre not too sure about it. Him staying for so long during hangouts is a rare occasion, usually he finds some excuse to leave early or he just doesnt show up at all.
You reach your house and stop right in front of your door, Jungwon looks at you while you search for your keys inside your bag. You giggle when you find them, embarrassed by how long that took and, before opening the entrance, you look at him again, a gulp in your throat. You hesitate, your fingers tightening around the key in your hand. Should you just ask him to come in? Would that be too bold or⊠you know what, fuck it.
âDo you⊠want to come in? Its late and you live pretty far..â You bite your lips, hoping that doesnt sound too straightforward. Does it sound like youâre begging him to stay? Jungwon eyes seem to light up for a second, heâs about to speak when he suddenly stops, as if distracted by something. He looks at you again, this time he seems guilty. âI- Iâd love that Y/n but i really have to go now..â
Your mouth opens to form a little âo,â but you try to hide the disappointment with a smile on your face, you nervously put a strand of hair behind your ear, and the more you look at him the more he looks like heâs in a rush. Oh, he must really hate your idea. âYeah! No, of course, sure! You must have a lot of things to do at 3 AM." You want to slap yourself at your own words. He gets closer to you and for a second you think heâs about to kiss you or hug you, but instead he just opens the door for you. âGo inside, its getting cold.â
As if the disappointment and embarrassment from last night wasnt enough, its like luck wasnt on your side either. You just wanted to hide and never look at Jungwon in the face ever again after yesterday, but of course the universe had another plan. You look down as the professor tells you that you have to find a tutor for maths and physics if you want to pass his exam. âHonestly, Y/n. This exam is really important for your career, i can help you find a good tutor likeâŠâ The professor looks behind you and points his finger towards a student, and you dont really have the courage to look back and see who it is.
âOh! perfect timing. Come here, Jungwon!â Your eyes widen when you hear that name and you turn to look at the guy. Jungwon walks towards you and the professor with a gentle smile on his face, his hair is a bit of a mess and you notice heâs not wearing his backpack. You furrow your brows, he looks like he just finished a marathon. âJungwon is the best of the class, iâm sure he can help you, right?â
Jungwon looks confused now, the professor gets next to him and pats his back, you honestly just want to hide, he doesnt look too happy with the idea of being your tutor and you just hope that the reason is not because of you trying to flirt with him last night. Before he can say no, you jump into the discussion. âI- Iâm sure Jungwon is busy with that Stark stuff, i can find someone else its really not a big deal.â
âNo! No i can do it! I can be your tutor, yeah..â This is awkward, definitely more than you couldâve imagined. You and Jungwon just look at each other and the tension in the room is so dense that you could probably cut it with a knife. The professor laughs and pats both your and Jungwonâs back lightly. âSure, you figure it out! Just make sure youâre ready for the exam, Y/n.â And that said he takes his stuff and says bye, leaving the both of you alone in the class.
âYou dont have to do it..â You say, after a couple of seconds of silence. Youâre putting your things back in your bag, trying really hard to not just look too much at him, fearing of the reaction your heart might get from that. âNo, no, i really want to. And honestly, thereâs not really anyone better than me so..â He chuckles at his own words, but you just crack a little smile, closing your bag before looking back at him. âLetâs do at five today? in the library.â
Youâre pleasantly surprised by his willingness to actually help you. You nod at his words, pushing a strand of hair behind your ear, your bag on your shoulder. âSure. Thank you, Jungwon.â He takes a couple more seconds to just look at you, and you start to feel almost self conscious at that. Maybe you got something in your hair? Something stuck on your teeth? Or even worse maybe you just smell bad and the perfume youâre wearing didnât cover it up, or-
Before you can keep on overthinking about your appearance, Jungwon just ruffles your hair, a smile on his face as he does that and right now you can only hope and pray that your cheeks are staying a normal color, because you definitely feel hot as hell right now. âSee you later, Pretty.â Pretty. He called you pretty. Wait, did he really just do that? You donât even have the time to realize what just happened that heâs gone. Leaving you alone and on fire in this cold class.
You spend the rest of the day just waiting, and waiting, and waiting for five to come, you even got back home just to change into some cuter clothes. You dont want to make it look like youâre doing too much, its Jungwon after all, it would be weird. So a pair of wide leg jeans and a black top is cute enough. You arrive at the library five minutes early, just to make sure you can get a nice spot and take your things out before he arrives. But he doesnât.
You know Jungwon, he does have a problem with timing, so you wait. The first fifteen minutes you dont think much of it, heâs always late after all. Then half an hour passes and you actually start to get angry, its already dark outside and you dont intend to wait for him all evening. But you do that anyway.
The initial anger transforms into worry when you overhear a couple of girls talking about how Spiderman was just seen fighting a bunch of criminals off, maybe he got involved in the fight? But thats really not something Jungwon would do. After an hour and a half of waiting you actually feel sad. He either forgot or didnât care at this point. He didnt reply to your worried texts, nor did he call to tell you he was busy with something else.
You couldnt even concentrate on the physics book, too worried and sad to really be thinking about whatever is written there. Two hours pass, and the library is about to close so you just pack your things back and decide to walk back home, headphones in, and really, the last thing you want right now is sabrina carpenter in your ears singing about getting dicked down, but thats all your spotify wants you to listen apparently.
As if your day couldnt get worse, it starts raining, and the only thing covering you is the hood of the jacket youâre wearing, of course you left your umbrella home, you were so busy thinking about getting cute for Jungwon that you didnt even think about the important stuff. You sniffle with your nose at the thought of it, not really wanting to cry about something so stupid, but at the same time your throat is starting to hurt, and its already raining, so you might as well.
Youâre close to your house when suddenly you cant feel the rain anymore, and for a second you actually think it stopped raining, but when you look up you only find an umbrella over your head. Your eyes widen in surprise, and when you turn to see who is holding it, you dont know if you want to keep crying or run as fast as you can.
Jungwon is now behind you, holding the umbrella for you while getting drenched under the rain himself. You dont know what to say, or how to react. All you know is that you feel sad and disappointed and so, so angry at him for wasting your time and making you believe that he actually cared for you enough to help for the exam.
âIâm sorry. Iâm sorry i swear i didnât forget i just- i got a call from Stark for that project and I-â Your brows are furrowed in annoyance, your head shaking and saying no as he keeps on talking and saying excuses. Youâre not one to get mad easily, youâre usually pretty chill, and rarely things get under your skin, but right now you really want to just smash his head somewhere. âYou couldâve called. Or replied to my dms.â
Heâs panting, he mustâve run a lot, and he keeps getting wetter and wetter. Part of you wants to invite him in and give him something to dry his hair out, but you mostly want to take a bit of revenge in a way, and if its by giving him a common cold, then so be it. âWe.. we cant keep our phones there, for privacy reasons- Mr. Stark doesnât-â âI dont give a fuck about Stark and your fuckass project!â
You manage to surprise yourself by shouting at him that way, youâre just so pissed off. It wouldâve been better for the both of you if he hadnât shown up, at least you wouldâve cried yourself to sleep only to act like nothing happened, but seeing him, hearing his excuses that youâve heard already thousands of times, whenever he missed the group hang outs or class. But this time its different.
âI told the professor you were busy, but you insisted to be my tutor anyway. This exam is so important to me but you just cant understand! Jungwon, not everyone is a damn genius like you, not everyone has fucking Tony Stark making projects and shit for him, i needed help today but you decided to just waste my time.â
Jungwon remains still, looking at you in shock, heâs never seen you this angry, he didnt even know it was possible for you to crash out this way. Suddenly his throat is dry and he doesnt know what to say, meanwhile you are fighting your own tears from falling. You feel guilty, in a way, you dont like getting mad and you definitely dont like the fact that it was Jungwon the one to see you this way. You hate it, how you cant still be fully mad at him because of how much you like him, his big dark eyes looking at you as if you just broke his heart. You take a deep breath in, and right now you dont know if youâre shaking because of the cold, your drenched clothes or from anger.
âIâm sorry.â He doesnt say anything else, and you actually wait for him to add another sentence, maybe you expect another excuse, but no. He just looks at you like a sad little kitten, and that only angers you even more. You shake your head no one last time before turning away from him and walking towards your house. You dont look back, because you know that if you did you would melt, youâd ask him to come inside and youâd say sorry to him for crashing out. And right now this is not what you need.
A couple of days later, you decided to stay in an empty classroom just so you could be able to study without having to worry about getting distracted. Youâve been ignoring Jungwon, but its not that hard when he is barely available anyway. He wasnt with your friends last night, and you havent seen him in class or anywhere else really. Last time you saw him, two days ago, you just turned on your heels and ignored him, but that was it.
You sigh, hating having to do this, the exam will be in two weeks and you still cant bring yourself to understand any of these things. Youâre about to give up and smash your head on the table when the sound of notebooks falling on the chair next to you suddenly startles you.
âYou were right, i acted on impulse and iâm sorry.â Jungwon is standing in front of you, he looks like he hadnât slept well, dark circles under his gorgeous eyes that you love so much.
You dont say anything, too confused to actually react in a normal way. Heâs making your heart beat so fast and the butterflies in your stomach are going crazy. âI made notes for you. I tried to keep it simple and add schemes, it took me a while, but i really wanted to help you.â Your lips press into a pout, now you really feel awful for how you treated him, this is why you like him so much. No matter how others treat him heâs always kind and gentle and god, you really fucked up, uh.
âIâm sorry for crashing out the other day.â âI deserved it.â âThatâs not the point.â You sigh for what seems the ninth time today and you get up. Heâs still taller than you, but what really makes you feel much smaller are his shoulders, his body is so fit and broad for him to have the face of an angel. Thereâs a few minutes of silence, it seems like you two always end up not saying anything for a while, just looking at each other and waiting for the other to speak. This time you decide to break it.
âIâll offer you dinner, or coffee or a drink? if i actually pass the exam.â Jungwonâs smile gets even bigger, he likes how bold youâve been lately, first asking him if he wanted to stay at your house, now this. If only he wasnt so busy being a damn hero, he wouldâve asked you out a long time ago. âLetâs go see a movie instead, like a date.â You have to blink a couple of times to understand that, is he really asking you on a date? You look at him as if heâs talking nonsense, your lips parted in shock and you fear you might faint from how fast your heart is beating. He chuckles at your reaction. âYou better pass that exam now.â
Youâve never studied so hard in your entire life. The two weeks passed so slowly, you basically closed yourself inside your house, or the library, or in the classroom, doing everything you could do to pass that exam. And so, when the day of the test finally arrives, youâre sure you can do it with your eyes closed. Well, kind of. You still dont get the highest grade, because you wouldâve needed either a miracle or some sort of dark magic for that, but you still pass it.
You get out of the class, a huge smile on your lips while you walk towards the dining hall, where all your friends are waiting for you. âOh my god i almost forgot your face!â Says Yunjin, pinching your cheeks when you sit between her and Jungwon. âDid you even eat these past weeks?â âYou honestly got us worried.â âOh my god, you guys. I was just studying its not like a supervillain kidnapped me or something.â Jungwon grimaces at your words. âUgh, dont jinx it.â
A chuckle escapes your lips as you roll your eyes before digging in your food. Jay and Yunah are now arguing about which supervillain the world has seen would be able to kidnap you, meanwhile Jungwon is shaking his head no, trying to stop them from fantasizing about it. âI wouldnât mind Loki i guess,â âEw. Ew, ew, ew, ugly.â Yunjinâs reaction makes the whole table laugh.
âIâve never met Loki..â Jungwon says, almost to himself, the others probably didnt even hear him, but you turn to look at him with a confused expression, your brows furrowed. âWell, duh. We were too young when the avengers stopped him.â The blondie just looks at you back, almost embarrassed about that sentence falling off his mind and coming out from his mouth. âYeah⊠yeah i meant like, uh, yeah we were too young..â Heâs acting weird, but you let that go, after all Jungwon does seem like a huge superhero nerd.
The week goes on and finally, finally, its time for your date with Jungwon. If it can even be called a date. Well, he called it a date so you assume it actually is one. Still, he did call you this time telling you he was going to be five minutes late, so you take your time walking towards the cinema.
Its been raining a lot these past few days, but youâre prepared, the white umbrella tight in your hands.
Youâre just going to see a movie, but you still thought about dressing up nicely. The white dress youâre wearing might be a bit too springy, but you dont mind that. And you do have a pretty coat over it, so its fine. Your boots are perfect for the weather, and so are the thighs under them, and most importantly you feel cute.
Just as Jungwon said, he reaches you five minutes later, his breathing ragged as if he just ran. His hands behind his back but you can clearly see the flowers heâs trying to hide. He looks embarrassed, but the smile on your face makes me feel much more at ease. âI- Lets say it wasnt a good idea to get them and then run under the rain.â He says, handing them to you.
You laugh, the flowers mustâve looked pretty before he put his hands on them. Theyâre drenched and some of them are even missing a couple of petals, you couldnt care less about it though. He got you flowers. Yang Jungwon, the guy youâve had a crush on for two years got you flowers, and you couldnt be happier.
âYouâre always running somewhere.â You chuckle.
He links arms with you, walking towards the ticket booth. You dont even know what film youâre watching, knowing him its probably some sci-fi movie or a really old one that he always references but you dont know. âI mean, running is healthy.â âAs long as you dont run away from me..â He keeps silent at your words, looking at you deeply, his eyes scanning your body and face, he always does that. âIâll try.â
That answer leaves you in a chaos of emotions. He will try? What does that even mean? Your face must be telling that, or maybe its the way your body stiffened up. He opens his mouth to say something else, probably trying to save what he just did, but you dont even hear him. A loud noise echoed outside the cinema and you find yourself catching Jungwonâs hands out of fear.
He suddenly looks serious, his hand on your back, his brows furrowed in what seems anger and annoyance, thatâs not a normal reaction if someone were to ask you. He looks around, meanwhile the other people around you are already screaming and running out of the theater, and youâre starting to get anxious too. âJungwon we have to-â âTake the emergency door on the left, iâll catch up to you later.â
He lets you go, but youâre only getting more and more confused. Heâs not coming with you? You shake your head no, in disbelief. Youâre not leaving him here out in danger, what is he, some kind of superhero? âWhat? Are you out of your mind? Jungwon letâs just go..â You grab his arm and he closes his eyes for a second, getting out a deep sigh before he cups your cheeks.
âI swear, iâll explain everything to you, but you have to go now. Just trust me and get out from that door only.â Heâs not a superhero. You keep repeating yourself that, like a mantra, he cant be. Heâs Jungwon, you would know if he was, he wouldnt be able to shut up about it, heâs like a twenty year old Tony Stark, thereâs no way he is. But then you feel the way heâs holding you, his broad shoulders protecting you and his big hands on your face, its so familiar. And the look in his eyes is telling everything you need to know.
So you nod, hesitantly, but you do as he says. You can only hope heâs not actually who you think he is, your hands stop gripping his wrists so tightly and he gives you a gentle and reassuring smile before leaving a kiss on your cheek. âGo home, and dont take the metro. Iâll be right back.â You nod again and then you go, with your heart thumping against your chest, your head filled with dots connecting each other, and you dont know what to think.
You reach home safely, only because you did as Jungwon told you. You didnt take the metro, which happened to be involved in the fight, and you wonder how the hell did he know that wouldâve happened. You sit on your bed, checking every news site, refreshing the spiderman tag on twitter every couple of seconds. Youâre not 100% sure about it, maybe youâre just traumatized and insane, maybe a man protecting you reminds you of spiderman and this is just you projecting, but you cant ignore the signs.
That time at the library, he didnât come and spiderman was fighting off somewhere at the same time, or all those times he left early or didnt come at all, all those excuses and that Stark project, is that even real? It makes sense, it makes too much sense and you feel like you will be going crazy until he comes back like he promised you.
Youâre about to go downstairs and make a chamomile or something that could help you not go insane when you hear a tap on your balcony window. Jungwon is there and you waste no time opening the slide in door for him, you want to ask him a thousand questions but he just puts his finger over his lips, telling you to be quiet.
You dont know why heâs doing that, but you accomplish and close the window door behind him. You were so distracted waiting for him that you didnt even turn on the lights, and its so dark outside so you had barely noticed the mask in his hand. That mask. You take a better look at him and you feel so stupid when you notice what heâs wearing.
You dont know if youâre even surprised at this point, nor how you find the force to close the curtains and turn on one of the little lights in your room. He slides down the wall, he looks tired, and hurt, but heâs still looking at you with that same cocky vibe he always has. âYou donât look surprised.â
âI had a lot to think about walking home.â He smiles even more, and you kneel down next to him, your hand going to his hair without even thinking to much about it, you move them away from his forehead, and you just now notice a few small cuts on his face. âIs this a deal breaker for you?â He chuckles softly, his breath catching, even he knows how ridiculous he sounds right now, but youâre too mad to joke around with him.
âThe deal breaker was you vanishing for weeks, lying to our friends, lying to me, finding useless excuses, asking me out on a date and then letting me run off of my own, leaving me alone at the library for hours and-â You notice the way heâs looking at you, each word you say making him feel even worse, his already huge eyes looking even bigger.
âAnd⊠it doesnt even matter, because i like you so much i cant get mad at you.â It should feel good, telling him that you like him, it should feel like letting go of a weight off your shoulders, but it doesnt. Your heart feels heavy, you dont know how to feel, youâre worried sick and you dont know how youâre going to handle knowing that he is, indeed, spiderman.
You let your head fall on his shoulder while he hugs you almost immediately. You can hear the way his heart is beating, he doesnât like seeing you like this and he hates being the cause of it, so he tries to soothe you down, hands caressing your back and playing with your hair.
âI like you a lot, too. And if this too much for you iâll- I dont know, iâll ask that damn doctor magician to erase it from your memory or something, just- Iâm sorry.â You shake your head no while hiding in his chest, you dont want to forget this, he trusted you enough to know, and you respect that. âWho else knows?â âJay and well, Mr. Stark and well yeah, everyone of that category.â
You just nod, you really cant believe this. Jungwon and Jay keeping a secret of this sort, you really thought Jungwon was the kind of guy to tell anyone if he were to be a hero, but apparently you know way less about him than you expected. You raise your head to look at him. He looks pretty hot like this, his lips are red, probably from fighting, his hair is a mess and thatâs partly your faul, and wow. The suit fits him so well. His broad shoulders, his toned chest and his biceps look even better with it on.
âYouâre staring.â He says, his fingers going under your chin to make you look at his face, which doesnt help your wondering thoughts, since heâs just that handsome. âYou always stare at me, too.â âYeah, âcause youâre pretty.â You crack a smile at that, its not the first time he calls you pretty, but it always gives you butterflies. Before you even realize, he puts his arms on your waist and makes you sit on his lap. Well, now you know where all his strength comes from.
âI wasnt expecting our first date to end up like this.â He moves to be closer to you, his nose nuzzling with yours, his voice getting lower, your hands rest on his chest. âWhat were you expecting?â That question seems to get a reaction out of him, his brow raising, a smirk on his face. âWell, you wouldâve hated the movie i choose anyway. At that wouldâve led you to be bored, and to us making out.â You giggle at that, you dont know if that wouldâve actually happened, but the thought is nice.
âYou think you can make my dream come true, Pretty?â Maybe its the suit that is making him act even more cocky than he usually is, or maybe youâre just too turned on by it to think about anything else. Your eyes scan him one last time, your hands moving behind his neck, your lips brushing against each other. âIâll try.â And that said, your lips finally crash into his. For years you imagined how it would feel to kiss him, and this is so much better than any of that.
Jungwon is confident in his moves, his lips move with ease against yours, his hands keep you still on his lap, his tongue gently asking for permission by licking your bottom lip. You let him, not know that its going to be the end for you. He tilts his head, enough to go deeper while you just let him take the lead. You feel like youâre in heaven his lips are soft yet his kissing gets rougher as time passes, soon enough the room is filled with the sounds of your breathing, your lips meeting and tongues clicking. He doesnt seem to be wanting to let you go, you still pull out after a while, feeling out of breath.
He leans in for more but you stop him with a gentle peck, a giggle escaping from you. âCalm down, Spidey. Not everyone has super lungs.â âI dont, either.â He laughs and pushes your hair our of your face and puts them behind your ears. âYouâre really okay with this? Even if Iâm spiderman?â You can hear the insecurity in his voice, and honestly, it really is a big deal. Heâs a superhero, he gets in trouble, people want him dead and knowing it might affect your daily life too. But right now you dont care.
âFirst of all, youâre Jungwon. Weâll figure out the spiderman stuff together. But yes, i am sure about Jungwon, a hundred percent.â He nods, a smile on his lips before he kisses you again, and again, and again. âI shouldâve done this a long time ago.â He whispers between kisses, next thing you know he picks you up before throwing you on the bed, you giggle again, your body open to him.
You look at him and he just looks so perfect to you. You canât believe this is happening, Jungwon is on top of you, kissing you and whispering sweet nothings between your lips. He pulls out for a few seconds to look back at you, a smirk on your lips as you bite his ear before whispering.
âThe suit stays on, though.â
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In a world of boys, heâs a gentleman
Luke Castellan x Apollo kid!reader
word count: a little over 1k
summary: youâve had your heart broken many times, maybe the Hermes boy will be different
You have only ever wanted to be loved. For whatever reason you havenât had much luck. Sure, there were many guys.
Callum from Ares. The only thing hotter than him was his temper.
Ryan from Hephaestus. He would forge copper to make you jewelry, little did you know three other girls had the same gift.
Ezra from Athena. Always thought he was so much smarter and better than you. Made you want to shoot your arrow straight at him.
Aiden from Hermes. A liar who couldnât take anything seriously.
Elliott from Ares. Was dared by Callum to lock you in a dark room. And he actually listened.
Being the child of Apollo had its perks, but it more often had downsides. Your least favorite being your ability to fall in love so easily. After Elliot you swore off falling in love. A pain even you couldnât heal. You couldnât understand why nothing seemed to work out for you, you were a dreamboat!
A beautiful daughter of Apollo who glowed like the sun. Not only were you his daughter, you were his favorite, the hundreds of freckles on your face proved it. You were kind and generous, always willing to take in an injured camper from dusk to dawn. Your smile quite literally lit up a room. Perhaps you were too nice? Maybe they thought they could take advantage of your kindness?
Whatever the reason was doesnât matter. You decided to take a page from your aunt Artemisâ book. No more boys, no more falling in love. Things will be easier this way. You know it.
You shouldâve been at the bonfire with everyone else. You chose to skip it tonight because you wished to be alone, at the archery range. Maybe youâd earn another freckle if Apollo saw you practicing your already perfect shot. Luke shouldâve been at the bonfire too, singing with your half-siblings and roasting marshmallows.
âHey! I need some help!â A deep, painful cry said.
Immediately worried, you turned around and saw Luke Castellan holding his abdomen. You immediately run over to him, taking his arm over yours and getting to your cabin as soon as possible. You decided the infirmary was too far and you could use the cot in your cabin.
You slam through the cabin door and lay him on the cot in the middle of the bunk beds. âLay down.â
You pull up his blood stained orange shirt to reveal a large gash on the side of his toned stomach. You held your hand on his abdomen for a moment to assess what happened. A second degree burn and large slices, as if by a horn, caused this.
âHow did this happen?â You ask as you start to transfer some of the pain to a potted plant, causing it to wilt.
âAccident with a hephaestus kid, wrong place, wrong time I guess,â He says slightly wincing.
âI can take most of the pain but itâll still take a while to heal,â You explain.
âWerenât you supposed to be at the bonfire, leading a song with the rest of your cabin?â He asks.
âI could ask you the same thing, wandering around the blacksmiths. You know those things they make are pretty hot right?â You scoff at him.
âYeah I guess I do now,â he rolls his eyes.
You begin to bandage the wound and give him a slice of bread. âBread? What the hell is this gonna do?â he questions.
âMy sister Melody made it, it can heal the burns for the most part,â you say.
âArenât you the girl who dated Aiden?â He asks bluntly, taking a bite of the bread.
âThatâs none of your business,â You roll your eyes.
âIf you ask me-â he begins to say before you cut him off.
âIâm not.â
âHe was an idiot. All those guys were. I mean seriously, didnât anyone teach them how to treat a pretty girl?â He continues, not fazed by you interrupting him.
âAll those guys? You know about them?â You question.
âI guess. I mean after word got out about that shithead Elliot I did some asking,â he shrugs. You frown at the mention of Elliot.
âWhatever, theyâre all in the past. No more guys for me,â you tell him.
âYou shouldnât give up entirely, these guys are stupid. Thereâs someone out there who deserves you, trust,â He assures you.
âOh yeah? Tell me when you meet him,â You laugh.
âI think i know a guy, actually,â He responds, sitting up slightly.
âOh yeah? Do tell.â
âWell, heâs tall, tan, and goddamn gorgeous. Has these soft brown curls, and I heard heâs the best swordsman at camp. Perfect for the best archer,â He explains to you, smiling.
âYou seem to be fond of him, maybe you should go date him,â You joke.
âNah, I think he likes this girl from Apollo. Kind, generous, beautiful, best healer and archer around,â He locks eyes with yours, darting between your eyes and your lips.
He holds your face in his hand, circling his thumb. His shirt rides up exposing his stomach and bandages.
âYou like what you see?â He teases.
âYouâre an idiot,â You smile.
âThat seems to be your type,â he shrugs and knits his brows.
Before you can say another word he presses a kiss against your lips, moving them softly against yours. One of his hands stays on your neck while the other ventures down to your waist and then the chair you sat in. He pulls the chair closer to him and puts his hand back on your waist. You move one of your hands to his knee and the other to right beside him, leaning in closer.
âFuck, youâre amazing,â Heâs whispers into the kiss.
You smile at him before pausing. âThe bonfireâs almost over, maybe you should head back,â you say.
âYeah probably,â he gives you one last hard kiss followed by another few pecks.
He stands up and steadys himself, the injury clearly still pains him. He starts to walk away but before he can leave he turns back to you and presses a few more kisses against you.
âOkay, Iâm done. yâknow for now,â he smirks.
âYouâre welcome anytime,â You laugh and he leaves. He gives you two looks before exiting.
Maybe youâll give this boy one more chance.
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Five Hargreeves - Back To You
Pairing : Five Hargreeves x (she/her) Reader Word Count : 2.8k Warning : Angst. Season 4 references. Synopsis : After one too many subway trips, Five's plan of temporal refuge extended as he met someone he refuse to lose. Notes : I refuse to acknowledge what happened in Episode 5 and 6 though I use the gif of said episodes. Don't come at me if you don't agree. If you like this story and would like to support me, please visit my kofi page and perhaps get me a coffee?â
Living in a small cottage by the lake has never been in his cards. To settle down and watch the sun sets everyday, hearing the rocking chair creak as he takes a sip of his coffee. This was beyond anything he could ever hoped for, anything he could afford. He knew that this wasnât the life heâs supposed to lead. Lord, this wasnât even a life he owns to begin with. But with each second passed in this universe, Five finds it hard to drag himself back to that subway and return to his own timeline.
âEnjoying the scenery, are we?â She whispers as she sits on his lap, clinging her arms around his neck âYou know, I could really use the help stuffing that chicken. It is afterall your special request.â
The boy raised an eyebrow, âShouldnât I be off of any chores since it is my special request?â
âJust because itâs your birthday, doesnât mean youâre having a vacation, big guy,â She reasoned âWeâve only got two hands and this house is only getting bigger than smaller.â
The boy couldnât bite his grin when he leaned in to kiss her. His heart swells. She was right. The house feels like itâs growing along with them. They might not have much, certainly far from the wealth his father possesses, but it was much more than enough. Having her was much more than enough.
âYou know that I love you, right?â Five asks as he pulls away, his left hand still cupping her cheek as his thumb caresses her gently.
âI know,â She nods, smiling âBut you canât sweet talk your way out of kitchen duty, Mister.â
Five chuckles, standing from his seat as he carried her in his arms, âAlright, Missy, letâs see what this chicken fuss is all about.â
â-
The muscles on his cheeks were aching but he couldnât fight the need to grin as wide as he could. He was happy, watching her carry that awful looking cake out of the oven. The icing that supposedly spelled âhappy birthdayâ was crooked, its colour pale compared to the bright fondant covering it. Thank God the candles were their only source of light, otherwise she wouldnât even bring it out, he reckons.
âItâs ugly, I know,â She says as she lets it rest on the table âBut it tastes better than it looks, I promise.â
Five shakes his head, disagreeing with her discouraging comments as he steals a kiss, âItâs perfect.â
âWell, go on and make a wish!â
The boy closes his eyes. His hands holding hers as he whispers his wish: I wish for this to last forever. Her squeals of excitement was music to his ears as he blew the candles. It is indeed the best birthday of his life.
âIâd ask but I know you wouldnât tell me your wish.â
âWho said I made any wish?â
âYou did,â She says as she helps him cut the cake âYou make that little frown everytime you say your little prayer, do you know that?â
âI donât pray, Love.â
âYou do. Well, not religiously, but sometimes you do. You say your little prayer, your hopes. You whisper them sometimes, but most times you just close your eyes and do that little frown thing.â
Five raised an eyebrow, âHave you been watching me?â
âI might,â She teases âI mean who wouldnât watch such a handsome man like you?â
The night continues as the couple finishes their dinner. Fulfilled would be such an understatement for what he feels right now. Everything he ever wanted, everything he ever dreamed of, is served right in that room. He wouldnât trade this for anything in the world.
âSo can I take a guess about what you wished for?â
âReally, Love?â He asked, putting down his glass of wine.
She shrugs, âWeâve talked about everything else, havenât we?â
âYou know, thereâs a belief that if you say your prayers, it wonât happen.â
âWell, youâre not saying what it was, Iâm just taking a guess what itâs about.â She argues, still persistent âAnd whatâs so bad with it not happening? Do you really want it that bad?â
âIâ Nothing, I just donâtââ
âWhat is it that you could wish for? What is it that you donât have?â
âNothing, Iâm not saying that I want anything, I justââ
âIs it your family?â
Five pauses. It was as if he was stupefied. He hadnât thought about his family in a while. Shameful of him, sure, but after one too many subway trips, he figured that a little rest shouldnât be so bad. He just had to find a timeline where there weren't that many people shooting at him. Perhaps take a week or two to rest and gather his strength before jumping into another subway.
It just had to be her. The girl he bumped into right after he got out of the station. He remembers vividly the concerned look on her face when she saw him. He was littered with bruises, dirt and dust covering his body. He looked more like trouble than a lover yet she still found it in her heart to ask if he needed any help.
And here he was, feeling the happiness in his heart wither as the thought of his family returned to his consciousness. He knew that the universe is cruel, that he couldnât have the best of both worlds in this lifetime, that he had to choose between his lover or his family. Some nights he wonders if his family had succeeded in preventing another apocalypse without him. Some nights he wonders if his family had found a way to another timeline. Some nights he wonders if his family were still alive. But most nights he tried his best to ignore these wonders. His family must have found a way to stop the apocalypse, or at least escape another one.
Taking a deep breath, Five reaches for her hands. Guilt and regret were evident on her face. He knew that she didnât mean to sound as cruel. Perhaps it was the wine that made their blood more sensitive or that the fatigue of the day had clouded their minds. Either way he knew that they both would be sorry when the morning came.
âI love you,â He starts gently âI love you more than anything in this and every timeline.â
A tear left her eye. It was painful. To love someone you know doesnât belong to you. To desperately grasp into the moments you knew would end anytime soon. To selfishly stay in a relationship that was doom from the start. Neither of them deserved this, yet neither of them wanted to let go.
âItâs been six years, Five,â She reasoned âAs much as I love you.. We canât keep living like this.â
âTime works differently there, my love. Six years here might only mean a couple hours there.â
âThat doesnât make it any less wrong for you to stay. Those couple hours might be the most crucial hours for your family. They might be fighting for their lives right now, they might be dying, for all we know! You need to come back to them, Five. You have to.â
Five forces a laugh, âWait, what are you saying?â
She remained silent. Her tears were falling, biting her lips to conceal her tremble. A bitter feeling is brewing in his stomach now.
âYour family needs you andââ
âOkay, stop,â He stood from his seat with an offended look âAre you breaking up with me? On my birthday?â
She looks away, unable to meet his eyes.
âGoodness, you canât be serious.â
âWhat choice do we have, Five? One way or another, youâd have to go back to your family. They need youââ
âAnd you? You donât need me anymore?â
Her jaw clenches, âThatâs beside the point.â
âNo, that is the whole point, actually,â He argues, this time coming close to her âI love you, alright? Why is it so wrong for me to want to be with the person that I love? Iâve lived more than a lifetime alone, why canât I have someone for once?â
âYou donât belong in this timeline. Iââ
âI belong with you,â He cuts in âItâs not the timeline that matters, itâs where you are. I belong with you.â
If thereâs anything she loves most about Five other than his gentle and caring nature towards her, it would be how adamant he is once heâs set his mind into something. Thereâs no doubt in her heart about the genuinity of his words. But as much as sheâs grateful and touched over it, she knew that they could only spend so long before the guilt eats them whole.
She lets go of his hands softly, placing them on his cheeks instead. She admires him. The beautiful man thatâs now standing in front of her with his heart on his sleeves, announcing his devotion to her on the day when heâs supposed to be the one showered with attention and love. His eyes were glossy, clearly conflicted.
âI love you, Five,â She whispers, gently caressing his skin as if it was their last goodbye âBut I canât keep you here, I canât. I canât keep you from your family.â
Five looks defeated, silent.
âDonât you want to know what happened to them? If theyâre okay? If theyâve figured out how to stop the apocalypse? Donât you want to know?â
âIâ I donât know.â He answers âWhat I know is that I want to be with you.â
âIâll always be with you, Love,â She reassures, kissing his cheek âI might not understand how this whole different timelines work, but I know that whichever timeline it is, whatever universe we live in, I will always belong to you. I will always be with you.â
And he finally cries. His tears flowing and wetting her palms. His heart shatters, finally succumbing to the guilt heâs tried so hard to bury and forget. He misses his family, he wanted so badly to get back and pick up where he left off, but would it be worth it? Would leaving everything here be worth it? Would leaving her be worth it?
âWeâll find our way,â She reassures, pulling the broken man into her embrace âYouâll find me in your timeline. Maybe weâll meet at the grocery store, or at a bar, or perhaps at another train station.â
Five chuckles a little, letting a shaky breath as he asks, âAnd if we donât?â
âWe will,â She says firmly, giving a little space between them so they could gaze into each otherâs face âIâm too much of a troublemaker and youâre too much of a problem solver for us to not meet. Itâll be too hard to ignore each other with our nature, Love. Weâre bound to meet each other, in any timeline, in any universe. Trust me.â
The boy forces a smile. He leans in, kissing his lover gently as if sheâd burst into petals if he pushed too much. Her hold around his neck feels different. Like she wasnât looking for support but giving one instead. He could feel her trembling a little as his hands pulled her closer by the waist. Her heart is breaking too, as much as his is, but they knew that itâs inevitable. Itâs only a matter of time before time pulls them apart and it certainly would be much more painful then.
âIâll find you,â He whispers âI promise.â
â-
Canada is certainly much colder than home. Five rubs his hands and blows some air to his palms in hope to gain some warmth, but itâs obvious that the only comfort heâll find in this weather is to get in Viktorâs bar and ask for some drink. That is, if Diego could start the car and get them going.
âIt says here that Viktorâs bar is only five minutes by foot,â Klaus says âWho wants to run to the bar with me?â
âNo one is getting out of this car!â Diego says in frustration, irritatedly trying his best to start the engine âWeâre going to get to his bar together, in this car. Thatâs the whole point of a family road trip. We go to the bar by car, not by foot!â
âYes, but itâs freezing here, Diego! The heater is not even on!â Alison argues.
âWell, it wonât be unless the engine is on.â
âNo shit, Luther,â Ben says âI vote to run.â
Lila raises her hand, âSecond to run.â
âNo! No one is getting out of this car!â Diego yells once more, hitting the steering wheel frustratedly âI just need toââ
And by Godâs miracle, the engine turns back on. Though their trip would soon reach its main destination, the bicker done by the family persists. The coldness of Canadian weather and how the heater broke almost twenty kilometres ago has made the seven headsâ temper raise. They really need to get to Viktorâs bar before they start to kill each other.
âIâm out of here,â Five announce as the car gets into the parking space of the bar. He space jumped inside, finding himself on one of the empty stools âGood to see you, Viktor.â
âFive,â VIktor greets, a little startled but his smile grows âYouâre here. Where are the others?â
âStill figuring their way out to get here. Can I get whiskey on rocks?â
âOn it.â
Five taps on the wooden table as he waits for his drink. His heart was content, as much as it might mean now. Their plan to stop the apocalypse worked. Viktor managed to take the marigold off of Ben before the Cleanse happened and now theyâre trying to get back or rebuild their life. For once they finally managed to stop the apocalypse from happening.
Right after they succeeded in preventing the cleanse, Five found himself running to the subway station. He could still feel his feet burning from how fast he tried to get back to the station, wanting to jump in the train and go back to her timeline, but once he got there, the station vanished. There was no trace of it, no matter how many times he tried to run around and look for it. The subway is gone. She is gone.
Perhaps it was the price he has to pay for saving the universe. Oneâs happiness in exchange for the lives of millions doesnât seem to be a hard sacrifice to make, but itâs still a tough pill for him to swallow. He knew that she would be proud. That she would hug and kiss him for doing all the hard work in saving the world. But the more he thinks about it, the more it stings for such touch would only be as good as a dream now.
âYou ordered whiskey on rocks?â A voice asked, breaking his train of thoughts.
Fiveâs mouth went agape. He couldnât tell if he was daydreaming or if this was some sick new power he gained from the marigold, but she was there. Standing right in front of him with a glass of whiskey in her hand.
âViktor said his brother ordered whiskey on rocks, I assume thatâs you?â
âIâ Uh, yes,â He stammers, getting off the stool âYouâre here.â
Five couldnât believe his eyes. In his heart he knew that they would meet again, that somehow the universe would let him keep both her and his family, but he never expected that it was true. He never expected that he would meet her again. Not this fast, not this way.
âSorry?â She asks, raising an eyebrow âAre you okay?â
âY-Yes. Yes, Iâm fine,â Five said, shaking his head and taking the glass âThank you.â
The girl smiles. It was a different smile than what heâs used to seeing. There wasnât much love in her eyes, but he wasnât in the position to complain. The girl heâs staring at and his lover might be the same person but sheâs yet to know him here. Sheâs yet to know that heâs hers. Sheâs yet to know that he loves her. Sheâs yet to know that he belongs to her.
âSorry, but have we met before?â She asks, still staring back at him âYou look very familiar.â
âUh, no, I donât think so,â He lied, offering his hand âIâm Five. Five Hargreeves. Viktorâs brother.â
She took his hand, telling him her name, âI didnât know Viktor had a baby brother.â
âYeah, well, Iâm not really his baby brother. Itâsâ Itâs complicated.â Five could feel his cheeks burning like a little boy, bashful âItâs a long story.â
âYou mind telling me about it?â She asks, leaning on the table âIâve got time. I love hearing stories.â
âI know you do,â He says with a big smile âWell, where do I start..â
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My two cents on how much of Mind!Varric is Rookâs mind trying to fill the blank space and how much is Solas actively talking through a convenient blood magic paper doll of the mind: I think it's a mix of both, a truly collaborative psychosocial horrorshow if you would, but waaaay more towards the second. It feels too directed and tactical at times to be anything else. Rook's mind is willing to go along with the denial phase as far as it can fucking carry them to not have to face the grief and regret and does its part in papering over details that donât make any sense, the way brains will strive to create coherent meaning even out of deeply confusing input, but to my understanding it's a collaborateur in how that plays out, not the instigator or control center. Solas is using it as a path to agency and to gather insight into Rook as a person unguarded as he can't count on in his own guise. (That stoic option that leads to him being like 'oh I see you're cautiously denying me access to your inner life. well. at least you still have Varric to talk to. y'know as an outlet :)'. You absolute BITCH Solas! That alone convinced me that he HAS to have an active hand in it on some level.)
My guess is that it takes considerable effort on Solasâ part to make Mind!Varric do anything more involved or complicated than seeming to sit up in bed and give casual commentary, and thatâs why he keeps having eerie five minute shallow pep talks with you before he announces he conveniently needs a nap aaanyway good luck kid you got this haha. When heâs just spouting NPC lines from his bedrest, Iâm ready to believe that could be Rookâs mind being allowed to improv lines for him more freely because itâs less about Solas trying to get something out of them or working an angle and more âStill here! Still totally alive and fine and the mentor figure you know and love and trust :) donât even worry about it! Thankfully there is no war in Ba Sing Sei, as we all knowâ upkeep work lol. Rookâs mind is allowed to set the tone of Varric, the outlines, but not always the content.Â
AND, on a (beautifully fucked up) character psychology level, I feel like Solas is indulging in actually getting to be the good supportive mentor figure to Rook with one hand to assuage the guilt he feels about what he's done -- and what he's going to do -- to them with the other. Same internal logic as he uses in Trespasser about the Qun. âAlmost everyone is going to die from the course of action Iâm doggedly pursuing eventually. But at least I can make their last years happier and freer and kinder than they would have been otherwise. and that kind of makes up for it right. a little bit. doesn't it. doesn't that make it better at least. I need that to make it better)'. Did I really take your beloved mentor and friend from you if you donât know yet that I did? Some philosophers would argue not really! So itâs probably almost ok actually. Isnât it even a little noble that Iâm taking all this grief and guilt on myself and shielding you for now. With undertones that Iâm not sure he would realize himself (and might be mortified by if he did) that he is so incredibly lonely, and even a dishonest and indirect emotional connection is more than nothing when youâre that desperate. In this setup he gets idk. Both the control he craves so incredibly badly in relationships and over himself, and the scraps, the fading afterimages, of intimacy and warmth and companionship, even second hand. The one thing Solas and Rook agree on deep deep down is that they really wish Varric weren't gone. They're handshake memeing this in the saddest and most creepy way possible.
I think an important element too is that Solas needs Rook and their team to *succeed* â up to a certain point. He needs someone to hold the two other elven mean girls off until he can get out of here. Ideally, in a perfect world, even do all the hard work of killing them so he can swoop in at the end and do his thing when both sides are exhausted and out of resources to stop him, and then Bobâs your uncle! Same logic as he was using with Corypheus, and after that worked out so well, too! King of choosing to never learn from a single solitary mistake heâs ever made even though i fully believe he could have the capacity to FenâHarel <3 The underlying idea isnât flawed, you see, it was just unforeseen circumstances getting in the way. This time for sure itâll all work out the way I cleverly imagined it in my head beforehand. Cue By Talos this canât be happening etc. in the form of a statue almost crushing him like a bug.Â
So he's providing guidance and forging Rook into a leader from two angles: one Rook might not trust, and one they probably will. Shaping them into what he needs slowly and carefully. Heâs helping you hone your team into their most effective state, as he might have done with his own agents back in the day, setting up his chess pieces even if he has to squint through two glimpsed realities to do it haha. Pincer maneuver of an insidious stealth mentor you never asked for. Also⊠at one point mind Varric gives you a whole little monologue about how Solas' problem is that heâs always seen his interpersonal connections as flaws and see where itâs landed him, all alone and the worst part? it hasnât even worked. itâs all been for nothing heâs back where he began with nothing to show for it but his mistakes. Like...that has such strong 'uh okay happy to play your therapist from two rooms away here what the fuck kind of traumadump is this' energy to me, Iâm not sure Rook like. Thinks that much about Solas as a private person. So much of Solas' self-loathing and futile insights into his own flaws seem to shine through in Mind!Varric's dialogue all the time â I just can't believe that there's no guiding hand behind it as it were.Â
Most of all. I feel like people underestimate the degree to which Solas is incredibly funny. As in, he has a very consistent and recognizable sense of humour. Itâs one of my very favourite things about him. We must remember â it is crucial that we always keep in mind â Orlesian accent and wig Solas from May The Dread Wolf Take You (my beloved, the explanation for why I love this dude even with the. All of the everything else. No one does it quite like him). He is not at all above doing things or adding little flourishes for his own obscure amusement, in fact that seems to me to be one of his most consistent traits. The Randy Dowager Quarterly comment Varric has? The âMaybe this is the Dread Wolfâs revenge. Forcing us to house sit for himâ thing? To Me this is 100% Solas amusing himself in his boring Fade jail surrounded by the screaming hellscape of all his regrets. Source: it came to me as divine revelation through pure vibes trust me broÂ
If nothing else I find it much more narratively interesting personally if the connection between Rook and Solas really is that defenselessly intimate and entwined (and so unbalanced!), and the sense of violation and invasion and betrayal afterwards consequently all the more nauseatingly intense. Even if you kept him at armâs length in the open, heâs been under your skin the whole time, looking around, gathering what he needs to destroy you, wearing the face of a friend. Regretfully, probably, but choosing to do it every step of the way anyway. (Sound familiar, Inquisitor? Solas doesnât have that many tricks when you actually look at it, he keeps returning to old tried and true ones like a dog with a bone haha.) Maybe he even genuinely meant some of it as mercy, which only makes it so much worse. It makes his sin against his own core principles of autonomy and the freedom of all beings in mind, spirit and body so much more juicily grave if itâs something he pursues actively and consistently, rather than it half-falling into his lap as a happy accident mainly orchestrated by Rookâs own subconscious. Solas, too, is at his very lowest point, the closest to giving in and becoming his own antithesis fully that heâs ever been, and it makes the choice of whether you still reach out your hand to him one last time or not all the more impactful and difficult.
#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#dragon age meta#solas#varric tethras#rook#I love what weeekes has managed to do with solas in this game honestly. both kinder and harsher reads on him?#completely supported by the text and completely valid. it really does come down to how you feel individually at the end of it all#there are good arguments to be made in every direction. sing o muse about a complicated man.#and also a motherfucker (affectionate *and* derogatory)#forgiveness isn't about him it's about you ultimately. do you find it in yourself or are there things that shouldn't be forgiven? up to you#he deserves both compassion and to be slam dunked straight into hell often with equal intensity. and i think that's beautiful#face in my hands. it keeps happening to me. I black out and I've written a whole thing and feel like I've been through a meat grinder#clearly my brain needs to Process things very badly but god I wish I could maybe control a bit more when and how intensely it does it lol#obligatory disclaimer that this is only my personal opinion and read on the game and characters involved etc. YMMV
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Batboy admits the Truth
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(Remember when this was cute and fun)
It was a tense reunion. Batman sensed it and left Nightwing to handle it.
Nightwing was of course not happy. He was downright pissed actually.
"Danny Nightingale-Grayson! Running away again?! After last time?!" Dick was about to go on a long lecture when Danny interrupted.
"I'm sorry."
"You should be sorry! I was so worried!" Dick scowled as he tried to calm down.
"I know. I was just scared. You deserve an answer. A good one. I've never had to explain all of this so please just listen." Danny hoped that this was a good idea.
Dick huffed but this was the start that he wanted.
"I'm dead. Undead at least." Danny began.
"What do you mean? Like a zombie orâŠlike Jason?" Dick asked.
"I don't really know. Jason is like me but I'm not like him. I'm more dead than him I guess." Danny didn't know how to nail that down, revenants are their own things. Several rungs down from where Danny was.
"And how did that happen?" Dick asked gently.
"It was an accident. I was just cleaning my family's lab. The portal wasn't working and I just wanted to take a look. I thought if it finally worked they would spend more time with us. But it turned on with me in it. I didn't learn until recently that a portal to the other side required a sacrifice and that was me. I made for a perfect sacrifice at that, children make for best ones." Danny tried to make a joke but it fell flat.
Dick saw stunned into silence. All this timeâŠDanny you-" Dick was appalled that the same people who hated him for who he was were the same people whose negligence that caused him to be this way.
"Its fine though. They didn't mean for this to happen and I should have known better then to mess with the portal." Danny said defensively.
Despite everything he still cared about his parents at least a little bit.
"That is not fine Danny. You aren't fine Danny. They made you feel like you were not human." Dick said exasperated.
Danny shook his head his face contorted.
"DickâŠI'm not human." He said simply. It was plain as day "I thought you understood that. I haven't been just human in a long time. When I had wings did you believe I was human?"
"That is not what I meant. You know that. I just-"Dick didn't know what he was doing. "I'm sorry. Continue."
"I got to play hero for a while. It was exhausting but I liked it. I defended the town from all sorts of ghosts. Then i learned why they were running from their home. All the while a monster like me appeared and heâŠ" Dark Danny's memories flooded his mind. He wasn't a ghost or a human in Danny's mind. Monster was the only thought that came to him.
Dan had haunted him since. He would always be a version of Danny that's possible even if the Nasty Burger incident doesn't happen. All it takes is for Danny to suffer another loss. It almost happened again when his parents caught him.
"I learned a lot from that experience. More then that I earned a title that made me important to the other ghosts. They are actually really cool. But when I got home my parents told me that their real son was dead and I was just a ghost in his body. They called me a murderous monster and then theyâŠcut me open." Danny took a deep breath. His throat felt tight as he held back tears. "IâŠran. I escaped and lived with the ghosts."
Danny still remembered sobbing into Clockwork's arms while covered in blood.
"I saw a potential future where this happens but I had hoped it would not come to pass." He said holding Danny in his arms.
The problem with ghosts is while they can heal quickly they are damaged by mental pain far more. Danny healed slowly from his wounds and the scars remained.
Clockwork had taught Danny shifting to help improve the boy's mental flexibility and get heal in a better head space. He knew he had to ask Nocturne to take Danny's mind and spare him from further pain when he was kidnapped. Perhaps it was foolish but the event was going to happen regardless.
Dick took in this information as best as he could but it still made him irate. Danny had been through so much but he never let that mask slip until now. He still chose Dick to be his guardian even while he battled his fears of abandonment. Even after being betrayed by people he only wanted to love him.
Dick put a hand on Danny's cheek. The teen looked at him with the pain of a child left all alone. Danny, touched starved, leaned into Dick's hand.
"Danny, I'm so sorry they did that to you. You deserve so much better. I don't care what you are, you're my son." Dick said softly.
Danny's face twisted.
Son.
He wasn't fond of that word. Bring someone's son never meant much. No, when he had a sister who filled the role of his caretaker. Danny never needed a mom or dad before so the words felt hollow, like placeholders.
But Danny didn't say anything. He just wanted this internal fight to be over.
"Can we just go home?" Danny sighed.
"Yeah, sure kiddo." Dick reassured, "Do you want to go to Batburger on the way?"
"Yeah, can I get jokerized fries?" Danny immediately perked up at the sound of his favorite fast food.
"I think they don't sell those anymore." Dick tried to sound casual because no one had actually told Danny that the Joker was dead just missing.
Well everyone believed that he was missing. It was best not to tell the public that the one of the Bats actually committed murder. Thankfully no one is going to care if Joker doesn't commit another crime spree and won't ask too many questions. Honestly, Duke and Jason are having a fantastic time.
"Really? Why?" Danny asked tilting his head kind of like a puppy.
"âŠ.no idea." He shrugged.
(Now back to the regularly scheduled fluff, i swear.)
#dc x dp#dpxdc#dc x dp prompt#dp x dc prompt#danny fenton#danny phantom#batman#nightwing#dick grayson
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bubble pop electric ïœĄđŠč° spencer reid
18+ backseat sex duhhhh, afab!reader but no terms like âgirl,â just female anatomy, spencerâs fingers make an appearance again wowww, reader is in his lap, 1 direct hozier quote sue me, iâm still working on my writing style which isnât important i just wanted to note that. you can listen to bubble pop electric by gwen stefani if you wanna feel the vibes, a bit unfinished i guess but i didnât know where else to take it
tonight iâm gonna give you all my love in the backseat
the shuffling of clothes is almost the loudest thing in the car, only beat out by you and spencerâs heavy breathing and pounding hearts.
your whines and moans slip straight into his mouthâ the two of you seem to have forgotten what it even means to separate from the other. you give him perfect notes like heâs playing you from the inside out. your kisses are all sloppy, unfocused and focused at the same time, spit-swapping between the two of you, his groans vibrating in his chest and into your mouth.
he curls his fingers up to kiss that spot inside you so deliberately your mind blanks, and youâre conflicted on what to focus on. his lips, or his fingers, or his sounds, or all of it at once.
yeah, all of it at once sounds great.
âyouâre so pretty,â he confesses after one kiss and before another. he pauses for a second, to look. youâre so beautiful above him. the white light of the street lamps shines in through the car windows and illuminates your skin. you glow obscenely beautifully, so beautiful his brown eyes get glossy in awe.
he kisses you again, and you kiss him back like youâre begging for it. youâre always begging for it, always wanting to be wrapped up in his lips and sliding your tongue against his all messy.
you think you know insanity, that youâre as fucked as you can be right now, but thatâs until through one loud pass and another you pick up the sound of the slipping and sliding of his fingers. your cunt sings out into the car and he breaks the kiss to shoot his eyes down between your legs, watching wide-eyed the lewd display you two have created.
how lewd it is.
he breathes raggedly, all keyed up. he can feel his blood boiling hot with how turned on he is.
it doesnât take long for him to slip his fingers out of you and for the both of you to fumble with your buttons and clothes and zippers.
spencerâs nothing if not disgustingâ he canât help but rub his cock through your wetness, pupils dilating even bigger as he watches you cover him in sticky slick. its heavenly and horribly filthy all at the same time, how he taps it against your clit, softly, huffing out a laugh when you jump a little above him. the whine that leaks out of your throat is met with a hum of his own, a little sound of admiration.
spencer laughs when he sinks in. your whine is so melodic he finally tears his eyes from your cunt to your face, and god, heâs so fucking glad he did. your eyebrows are turned down, nose scrunched and lips pressed together. your eyes, hazy as they lock with his.
looking up at you is how he wants to fuck you always (at least, until he fucks you another way, it always changes). his hands find your waist and they dig in a little, slowly guiding you on his cock.
fuck.
a groan from spencerâs slack lips is what breaks the hanging silence in the car. the hypnosis that grips you both is shattered and his honest sound makes the heart between your legs pound and jump and you bring hips down on him just a little harder.
âoh my god,â he moans into your chest, his cheek rubbing against your shirt. âshit.â heâs rarely ever reduced to expletives to express himself, but when his hands are digging into your waist and youâre grinding on his lap like sin, he canât find anything else to say.
you run your hands through the hair at the nape of his neck and pull him, desperately, closer. lines have faded and been crossed and fucking in the backseat of a car shouldnât feel this soft, but it does. your soft whines and moans and his earnest groans smooth out the rough edges of the circumstance, and leave sweetness in their wake. but its still lewd. itâs still sensual. heâs still fucking up into you, the sound of you two rubbing against each other still swirls in the car, heâs still cursing against your chest.
exhilaration flows through you. you and spencer never take anything too serious, especially with each other, and to be pulled over in his backseat, fogging up the windows and probably making the car shake, is what you and spencer do. itâs on-brand; of course youâd get so turned on youâd have no choice but to take it to the backseat.
itâs not like itâs the first time itâs happened, though. and itâll happen again.
#spencer reid smut#spencer reid x reader#spencer reid x you#spencer reid x y/n#spencer reid x black reader#spencer reid x black!reader#mcondance 2024
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đđ bunny!reader has always had a thing for a regular at her bookstore, older!rafe only comes in to see her
c!w; mdni !! older!rafe, dom!rafe, bunny!reader, age-gap (reader is 18+), size kink, rafe gets called 'daddy' a few times, dirty talk, mutual pining obviously, 'unprotected' sex, p in v, creampie, overstimulation (if you squint), cum play, cum eating, oral (f. receiving)
notes; i had such bad writer's block during the making of this so i apologise if this isn't my best work... also its kinda long before the smut but it needed some plot !!
you'd just gotten a job at a new cozy bookstore in town. it was perfect, had rows and rows of every genre of book a person could think of and a lovely little cafe with a cozy area to read in too. you loved working there, and had recently gotten much more comfortable after finally getting the hang of everything.
there were quite a few regulars that would come in for the coffee and a book, lots were mothers with quiet children that would sit down in the children's corner and read, others were just people of all ages that particularly enjoyed sitting in the bookstore for hours.
you were stacking shelves the first time you saw him; tall, gorgeous and smiling slightly under his cute scruffy moustache. he was flicking through the non-fiction books. though he didn't look like someone that read, adorned in workwear and partially grubby clothing, most likely from his blue collar job.
you could tell he was definitely older, around ten years your senior but still so pretty. after that first minor interaction you started seeing him come in a lot more, every other day basically. you'd worked up the courage to say hi to him after a few more times of seeing him and although your face was probably bright red, he smiled wide and started a conversation with you.
after the ice had been broken you would always talk to him when he came into the bookstore, it got to a point where he wasn't even pretending to be interested in the books around him anymore, he obviously had come in there to see you again.
rafe had also started coming in early before work started, he looked so good in his carhartt jacket and big boots, not yet dirty from a days work. he'd make sure you were the one to make his coffee, always mumbling something about you having a secret gift as he grinned, letting his hand linger over yours when he'd take his cup.
the tension between the two of you was palpable, your friends and co-workers would make jokes about how no one needed to read romance books in there anymore, they had a whole story playing out in front of them.
you would always laugh and smile at their comments, smitten over the idea of being with rafe but there was always the lingering thought that it was just friendly flirting. nothing more. he probably had a girlfriend, or a wife or something. he was too old and too gorgeous, why would he actually want anything to do with little old you.
these thoughts had you spiralling significantly on one particular day; what if you were wasting all your time and feelings on this older guy that would never want you? would you ever get over him? would you be alone forever?
you were zoning out - hard - as you slid the last few books of your shift onto the shelf, you nearly jumped out of your skin when you saw him standing in front of you with a grin.
"sorry, did i give you a fright?" he mumbled, steadying you with his touch, "'thought you'd heard me when i said y'name but there must be s'much goin' on in that head of yours."
you took a breathe and smiled weakly at him, not being able to shake your pessimistic thoughts from seconds before as he stood in front of you, handsome and speaking.
"no, sorry- lots on my mind i guess" you shrugged, fiddling with your fingers. rafe's brow furrowed, he'd seen you stressed and frustrated because of work but never like this, anxious and pensive.
he tilted his head a little, "what's wrong hm?" he softly coaxed, looking deep into your eyes as he reached out and rubbed your arm with his thumb.
you looked up at him through your lashes, "nothing.. nothing really..." you mumbled, chewing your lip a little.
his gaze darkened as he watched you, "something you wanna ask me bunny?"
you shook your head after shuddering at the nickname. a nickname only rafe used with you, it never failed to give you goosebumps down your body and cause your thighs to squeeze together a little, "don't worry.. er, i'm about to close up in a minute - you don't mind walking me to my car do you?"
his pursed lips melted into a smile and he looked up for a second before nodding. you smiled at him before finally putting away the last few things and grabbing the bookstore's keys. rafe followed you out as you left the store and locked the doors from the outside.
"cold tonight hmm" rafe remarked, looking out at the dim parking lot and neighbouring streets as he walked close to you. you hummed in agreement, readjusting the jacket tighter around you.
when you finally reached your car you looked up at him with a longing smile before he tilted his head, grinning at you, "you gonna tell me what you were thinking about earlier?"
you shook your head, nerves chewing at your lip again.
"c'mon, 'm not gonna see you tomorrow, 'ts your day off bunny, can't make me just wonder all this time hm?" he playfully whined, inching his body closer to yours. you were a little stunned by his words.
"you remember my day off's tomorrow?" the nerves were rising in your tummy now, bubbling around and exploding.
he smirked, sliding your hand into his, "course i'd know when the only reason i go into that bookshop isn't there."
"rafe" you gushed, covering your face a little and shaking your head. you couldn't believe your ears, you thought you weren't stupid or anything but here you were, hearing that he wanted you the whole time. "i thought you were just.. i don't know, entertaining the idea of me this whole time..."
his lips parted and brow furrowed as if it was completely incomprehensible that he might've not actually wanted you, "bunny... you must be talking pure shit now because i thought i'd made it obvious i wanted you from the second i'd gotten to know you."
you chewed at your lip, heat pooling in your tummy as he instinctively inched closer to you as he spoke. all you wanted to do now was jump his bones, and you kept glancing down at the bulge in his pants as it became closer and closer to you.
he noticed your wandering eyes and laughed a little, throwing his head back before sliding both hands up your arms carefully, "...so you said you don't have heating huh?"
you nodded, feeling dizzy at the realisation of what he was about to ask you.
he scoffed with a grin, "see, i've got heating at my place that works pretty well, and - bunny, with the way you're looking at me right now, i think we're better off going there."
you smiled, staring up at him through your lashes before nodding and in an instant he'd grabbed your hand, leading you to his truck. the drive was probably fairly quick, but it felt like hours of agony to the both of you as you patiently waited. rafe's hand was possessively gripping your thigh and you felt wetness in your panties thinking about where else his hands would trail to.
it was a blur, stumbling out of his truck and into his house, you barely looked at the place before the two of you, sloppy and all over each other, had made it to his bedroom. your body was on vibrate but he took a second to take his huge jacket and long sleeve shirt off.
you breathed heavily, eyes widening when street light through the window illuminated his toned chest, he was built like a greek god and you nearly moaned at the thought of all that being all over you.
he teasingly peeled your clothes off, article by article, grinning all the way. he could see you twitching and heavily breathing at every movement, it only fuelled him more.
finally you were in nothing but panties and a bra, matching of course, which made rafe's eyes go wild, "jesus, look at you." he breathed, running his hands along the side of your body as you lay under him.
you slid your arms around his neck and tried to pull him in but he grinned at your lack of strength and you frowned playfully, squirming at the lack of action.
"you gonna ask nicely bunny?" his lips were centimetres away from yours, he was really enjoying teasing you now.
"please... please i want you inside me so bad" you whined, pouting and running your hands into his shaggy mullet. he smirked and leaned in, passionately pressing his lips to yours, engulfing you in heat.
your hands pulled at his jeans, ripping down the zipper as you slid a palm across his clothed cock, gasping at his lips over how big you found him to be.
he tugged himself out of his boxers before lowering down to your core, you burned with desire as you watched the greek god looming over you, slowly bully his cock into your weeping hole.
you groaned at the feeling, his cock slowly slipping all the way down, filling you to the hilt. your grip around his neck tightened, along with his hands holding you steady at your hips.
he drilled into you at an unrelenting pace, the sound of his cock diving in and out of your wet pussy causing him to groan gutturally, "uhghh, you like this big cock baby? c'mon, tell me you've been thinking about daddy's cock since you met me hmm"
you eyes were rolling back, the pleasure becoming too much already, "mmmh i think about daddy's cock all the time... oh! fuuuck."
you looked down at your tummy, a clear huge bulge poking everytime rafe drove his dick into you, only making you dizzier. he was just so big.
a creamy line of arousal was thick around the base of rafe's cock, your breath all ragged as he continued to drill into you, toying with your clit to overstimulate you.
you were shaking under him, one hand gripping onto a bicep and the other tugging the sheets beside you. the sheer girth of him was splitting you open, rafe grinned at the yelps escaping your lips with every thrust.
"pussy's swallowing me whole, fuck bunny" he grunted into your lips, launching in for yet another seering kiss while his thrusts became sloppy but deeper. plap-plap-plap filled the room along with your pornographic moans.
"nghh daddy, i'm- oh, g'na cum!" you cried, nails digging into his flesh.
he was panting into your neck, "'know baby, can feel your pussy milking me- fuuuuuck" you felt the rush of your orgasm as rafe's thick white ropes coated your insides. he continued to thrust into you a few more times, watching your pussy swallow all his cum before pulling out.
"such a good bunny, look at that shit.." he mumbled, dragging a finger over your wet whole, playing with and pushing his release back into you. "so wet..."
he dipped his head down, lapping up both your juices that had coated your folds. you twitched from the sensation, still recovering from his cock.
"rafeee- oh god- too sensitive.." you whined, hand laced in his hair. he lifted his head and looked at you with a grin, his moustache gleaming with wetness.
"oh bunny now that i've had you, shit, i'm never letting my little girl go."
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