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bpdohwhatajoy · 3 months ago

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I wish I could go back in time and beg myself not to talk to certain people and save myself the trauma

#ryan.txt #trauma #so frustrated with myself #like I know I didn’t know at the time but I’m so frustrated and blaming myself #I should’ve known #(which logically doesn’t make sense)#but still

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dracoria-nebulae · 8 months ago

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Writing update

Haha, I'm having a bit of a hard time writing these past few weeks. There quite possibly won't be an update this weekend. I'm trying but writer's block is a real problem. I'm so sorry!

#dracoria talks #writing is hard #writing stuff #so frustrated with myself #if you have ideas lemme know hah #this always happens when I'm trying to reach a specific plot point and need a lil time between em...

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piddgeon · 1 year ago

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me about to fail this test when I was given all the materials I needed to succeed I just didn’t use them. 👍🏻 live laugh love

#so frustrated with myself #but we ball I guess #merc talks

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butchfalin · 1 year ago

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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

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hinamie · 3 months ago

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9 / 266

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #yuji itadori #itadori yuuji #jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #jjk 266 #fanart #jjk fanart #itafushi #jujutsu kaisen fanart #used th itfs tag bc its implied and this is an itfs piece i said so #i dont think ive seen this parallel made yet??? but its ok if it has #i just had the idea hit at gross o clock last night when i ws alr exhausted n had 2 force myself to sleep instead of drawing it #i just . clutches chest . YUUJI #th char development the emotional maturity..#the willingness to put aside his gojo voice personal feelings in favour of giving megumi agency over his own life #rather than burden him with expectations the way every1 has done fr both of them over the course of the series...#tears in my eyes thats my mc!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#anyway art notes i think lower one is some of the best yuuji hair ive drawn 2 date #it's kind of similar to one of my 265 redraws but i think i struck a better balance in how thoroughly i rendered it here #proud of my me but also SO grateful tht yuuji has not been fighting me lately #so much yuuji content these past chapters i cant imagine th frustration having to Also fight him in order 2 create content fr them #anyway itafushi kaisen is real and canon and alive and yuuji singlehandedly discovered th cure 2 my mental illness w this line

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doomedclockworkdotmp3 · 13 days ago

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just a normal guy surrounded by residents with evil in their hearts

#my art #doodle #fanart #resident evil 7 #resident evil 8 #ethan winters #hes havin a bad day im havin a bad day but with the power of takin your frustrations out on fictional characters i will prevail #he wont but thats not whats important here #i wish i was surrounded by literal horrors instead of the internal unseeable horrors that plague me so that i could justify the incredibly #hard time im havin to myself like hey its not my fault im literally dead #but anyways thats the post. heres to coping with life cheers

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andsewingishalfthebattle · 7 months ago

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Novice sewing pattern: Cut out shapes. Line up the little triangles on the edges. Stitch edges together. We've also included step-by-step assembly instructions with illustrations.

Novice knitting pattern: yOU MUSt uNDerstANd thE SECret cOdE CO67 (73, 87, 93) BO44 (63, 76, 90) 28 (32, 34) slip first pw repeat 7x K to end *kl (pl) 42 * until 13" (13, 13, 15) join new at 30 pl for 17 rows ssk 27 k2tog mattress lengthwise BO and sacrifice a goat to the knitting gods. WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU WANT "INSTRUCTIONS," I JUST GAVE THEM TO YOU

#knitting #no it's not a real pattern but I can't write one that makes sense because I have no freaking clue what any of that means #How do you make things that aren't basic rectangles #Why has every knitter I've asked for help just said 'patterns are easy; you just have to know how to read them' & then refused to teach me #Where do I even find a goat to sacrifice #How do I join the pattern cult #I am so confused #I've been knitting for almost a decade but I can only make scarves and potholders #I learned one (1) stitch by watching a YouTube video and none of my friends or family knit so I have no IRL resources #And nobody I meet seems to want to take the time to explain the rest to me #I taught myself to sew through trial and error but that doesn't really work with knitting because error is pretty much just... Unraveling?#Anyway sorry for the tag rant I'm just frustrated that I see pretty things I want to make but the instructions are in an alien language #And the gap between 'absolute novice' and 'intermediate' seems to be about 20 years of experience and formal instruction

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spending-life-pretending · 2 months ago

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conservatives really wanna act like the “woke left” is winning the culture war or whatever when people are out here making basil and dorian brothers and casting white men to play heathcliff in 2024

#me #Wuthering heights #the picture of Dorian gray #say it with me: progress is not necessarily inevitable. representation is not inevitable. you have to fight for it. you cannot wait for it.#fuck off tho this is so frustrating fr #there’s another example I was thinking of as well but it’s a little more nuanced/controversial so I’m keeping it to myself #‘people are casting for political agendas’ OK SO WHY IS HEATHCLIFF WHITE THEN. HES LITERALLY NOT SUPPOSED TO BE IN THE SOURCE MATERIAL #AND YET SOMEHOW IN THE 2024 HOLLYWOOD MOVIE HES STILL GONNA BE PLAYED BY A WHITE GUY #fuck off

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rameiixo · 10 months ago

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xiaolumi resurrected from my heart for the new year!!

#genshin impact #genshin impact fanart #xiaolumi #xiaolumi fanart #lumine fanart #xiao fanart #rameiixo #i havent stopped thinking about them. like ever #i feel like i could go on rambles forever about how thoroughly special they feel to me #aside from… xiao being my love……#but thats for another day #i have all these ideas and i concept them #but i always think i cant do those ideas justice ? like what kind of creative redundancy is that #i got so frustrated with myself that i do not care anymore i want to make things i love #excited to see where i end up a year from now!

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aquanutart · 21 days ago

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"little miss prairie faerie" is a cute name actually... (but I won't use it if she doesn't like it)

#neopets #illusen #aquanutart #thank you faerie festival for letting me support my childhood fave #even though i stumbled into the festival five days in and was randomly assigned a team because i was too late to choose #i was like yesss i can get rid of all my junk from the plot--wait i can get a faerie doll??#nevermind. i have to do this RIGHT #okay! time to rediscover my addiction to cheat!#...okay! time to restrain myself from spending all my free time on cheat!#i used to sit there obsessively playing cheat! on dial-up back in the day #also due to the festival i won at cheeseroller for the first time in my entire life. then i was too happy with my honey cheese to donate it #as a kid i didn't know how to play cheeseroller because i didn't know what cheese name to enter #i just sat there staring at the empty input box trying to think of a name of a cheese out of my head. it was very frustrating #i kept playing cheeseroller after i won because i was so happy i finally figured out how to play but i haven't won again since then #my one honey cheese remains my treasured prize. no i did not donate it #anyway my determination to farm 8-point items ended after one day when i realized how much time it takes to play cheat!#and i switched to 6-point but then missed a day and wound up with not enough points to get the staff #but i had actually been agonizing anyway over how i wouldn't end up with enough points to get the staff AND the faerie doll #simple choice now. i can have faerie dolls guilt-free

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gia-d · 1 year ago

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Team W! As in Who let them near the fire rods???

Four, Legend and Hyrule

#linked universe #lu warriors #lu wild #lu wind #my art #lu #Warriors' hair and the Slate made me want to scream in frustration #Why do I do this to myself?#I am genuinely so proud of how Wind turned out tho #I just wanna smoosh his cheeks #Also there is no way that boy lives on the ocean and doesn't have a hell of a tan #anyways #feel free to come yell at me about LU!

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veliseraptor · 6 months ago

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"write it badly write it badly write it badly" she chanted, in a desperate attempt to actually convince herself to write it at all

#important text posts #so easy to say. so hard to make myself do.#confessions of a frustrated writer

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rayroseu · 2 months ago

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back in the trenches... another book 7 rambles 😭😭

CRYING ABOUT THIS ACTUALLY.... DO YOU KNOW THE IMPLICATION OF THIS.... realistically, one of the first words of babies are referring to their mothers and the last "true parent" that held Silver was his mother, Princess Leia, but here baby Silver called out for his father, and Lilia didnt taught him that😭

Now these words might be calling out to Lilia now, but I'm also thinking since TWST is a world where babies can recall words or songs they heard even when theyre "not concious yet", I was thinking baby Silver heard this word when he was still with Dawn 😭😭😭 Imagine Dawn holding this baby and guiding him to speak his first words like "papa"... and thats like Dawn's last moment with Silver... AAAAA 😭😭😭😭

since this was still infant Silver, I was thinking this memory occured when Silver was adopted by Lilia only a week or months ago 😭✨ so its still possible that baby silver was reacting based on his past (which can potentially be baby Silver is remembering Dawn through Lilia in this scene)

AAAAAAAUAGFJWJFS 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 The fact!!!! The fact that he only took after being his father because he didnt want to deny this baby's affection !!!! LILIAAAAA 😭😭😭😭😭😭

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whatudottu · 1 month ago

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What do you get when, after you worked so hard Changing the first time, you're forced into a body that isn't yours and your have to stare at the person you used to be while regressing and battling against a new worse kind of dysphoria?

Being a cunt honestly :P

aka loopsabeau is a dick to isabeau as a version of 'killed them so i could live' but killing a timelooper is not permanent and really it's more satisfying to be the person they BOTH hate

#isabeau #isabeau isat #in stars and time #isat #isat spoilers #fanart #loopsabeau's stardust equivalent for isabeau is pincushion hehe #it also often says 'let's put a pin in that'#when isa points it out loopsabeau neither confirms nor denies the implied connection #if loop and siffrin is 'i've built this personality to specifically get on your nerves'#this is 'i hate that i can't be you' and 'if i hate myself so much i'll make you hate me too' etc #me and the isat group i got kinda built the idea that isabeau is actively kind because he didn't use to be #kindness being a learnt skill rather than something innate perhaps #loopsabeau has kinda regressed back to hating itself but instead of wallowing in sorrowful loneliness #it would rather be angry and hateful and might even get a kick out of very specifically getting isabeau to snap back #a blessing in disguise i suppose when isabeau gets more frustrated in his own loops that he doesn't want to lash out at the party #why shout at someone you care about when you can talk shit to an inanimate object :P #that's essentially the vibes :P also i wanted to draw a scowling isa :P

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sheerakk · 9 months ago

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Started playing botw

#sheerak #the reason he's so expressionless is so important to me #mob and link my neutral face blorbos #recent school semester was really hard and I didn't get to practice much drawing so now I feel like teaching myself from the start #and it's super frustrating #feeling like my time is running out honestly #loz #legend of zelda #breath of the wild #botw #zelda #she's not there but it's my tag for loz im sorry #Spotify

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bixels · 11 months ago

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While I do think anon was rude, I do think it's pretty shitty to set up all this stuff you were going to add the au and then just drop it. It's disappointing. Definitely unfollowing.

Bye.

#ask me #anon #once AGAIN.#I am not dropping anything #the au is not getting cancelled. more than likely i'm gonna take a break from it until i find motivation again #But I've been drawing the AU for half a fucking year #In that time I've only drawn 5 things that aren't mlp related #I'm getting tired and my last few posts didn't do as well as I'd hoped #And I'm not about to burn myself out on mlp au art even if I really do love making it #I'm still gonna make comics. I have a bunch of ideas.#Tulli and I still wanna do the limited run merch shop #Discord is still coming. Sunset is still coming. Sombra is still coming. I have so many ideas #But I need to do something else for my own sake. Did you know I was supposed to get the background 6 designs done by now #But I didn't because I'm TIRED #I've been keeping myself on a schedule to keep content pumping despite travel and school and family and I'm tired #what i'm getting isn't matching what i'm giving and that's nobody's fault. i'm not frustrated at anyone. a slump was bound to happen #drawing the au was fun until it become my Thing. Because when your Thing––your identity––starts to faulter #it can really make you freak out #And that's not healthy for the project or for myself. I need to find the fun again and I'm sure I will #I'm really appreciative of everyone's support in my inbox and replies it really does mean a lot especially given that about 2/3 of my #followers followed for mlp. But if you're gonna react to me saying “i'm gonna cool down on mlp art and draw my own stuff” with “i'm #disappointed in you." then Leave! I think it's good you're unfollowing #you are not obligated to stick by my side! But don't act like I'm doing you a disservice by turning my attention elsewhere #I didn't promise anyone anything and I definitely didn't say I'm breaking any promises.

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