#so far there's never been fry tho
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aliquid-de-magis · 7 months ago
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don't talk to me or my 1,000 sons ever again!!!
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tariah23 · 8 months ago
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Living Dead updated ahhh
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heartthrobin · 1 year ago
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lay me at your feet and i'll hum your favourite tune
sam winchester x female!reader
wc: 860
warnings: pda, reference to chatty!reader, sam being smitten, dean being grumpy, sweet sweet kissin and one or two sexual references
an: the idea for this literally choked me last night as i was watching spn, based off/ set in the last five minutes of ep 4x5 Monster Movie (the one w the dracula). v short, i wrote it in like 20 min at 2am hence barely checked. enjoy :)))
summary: little pda + teasing Dean drabble
“well thank you G-man. you have been a great service … to your country.”
Pennsylvania was muggy, just enough that you could begin to doubt that the town had already slipped into autumn.
the hot sound of slurping suffocated the space again. it made the open air in front of the bar stuffy.
Dean sucked down the remnants of Jamie’s breakfast straight off her tongue.
Jamie. the woman of the hour, predecessor to the ones that would surely follow over in the next state.
he hadn’t spent the night in the motel, Dean. you were sure he was being stripped of his little Hansel and Gretel outfit somewhere across town where Jamie stayed. maybe he deserved it, he’d been drugged and then fragments of moments from electrocution most of the night with Dracula at the wheel.
he came up for barely a second of breath. “what can i say, i’m very patriotic.”
but that doesn’t mean you deserved it. to stand and have to endure the sight and sound. your face twisted in mild disgust and your neck craned up to meet Sam’s head perched at the top of his towering figure.
his face painted uncomfortable, his gaze pointedly moving over the people.
the blonde woman let off a sigh far too hot and loud for the crowded town square at nine in the morning, Dean gripped at the back of her jeans.
Sam’s eyes found you. he shrugged softly. his lips parted and you already knew he was seconds off from suggesting that maybe it would be more comfortable to wait by the car.
but you were never one to miss an opportunity for theatrics.
you reached up, far up, for the collar of your boyfriend’s khaki jacket: flushing him against you.
“oh Sam, you’re my knight in shining armor,” you gasped loudly, enough to stir but not part Dean’s engagement.
tugging gently to not hurt him, but enough to nudge him down: Sam leaned over so his forehead pressed against your own.
“you’re so brave, and so handsome—“
a velvet red flush leaked up from his chest and pooled in his cheeks.
your hands came to the side of his face, one branching slowly behind to tug on the hairs at the base of his neck and he worked hard not to whine - eyes flickering feign irritation at your batting lashes because you knew how much he loved that - but you pretended not to notice either move.
his grip found your waist. your nose bumped his, asking for a quiet consent, and he gently met your lips to satiate your bottomless need to tease Dean.
Sam wasn’t a fan of public displays of affection.
well, maybe that wasn’t the right way to phrase it. he just preferred when everything was just a little … slower. when you would tire yourself out from talking against his neck after a long day before falling against his lips where he’d find his whole body vibrating with his love for you.
but you did. you liked “PDA” and Sam wanted to indulge you when he could. you liked to hold his hand, keep him close between thickets of people. he liked that okay most of the time.
but he liked this too, to his surprise. maybe there was the additional aspect that it was for the main point of pissing off his brother.
but he couldn’t really decide on that. not when your tongue was nudging softly against his amidst a hot, fast kiss. you pulled off with a pop, pretending to fan yourself: slumping against his figure.
“and so intelligent, and with such a big … heart.”
you were sure you could fry an egg off Sam’s forehead the way his skin burnt beneath your hands but the little curl at the edge of his now slick mouth relieved you of the thought that maybe it was too much. that, and the fingers that dug what would soon be deep purple welts into the swell of your hips.
your tongue was already pushing past his lips again, halfway through the most pornographic moan you could muster for such a public space when Dean had evidently had his fill, of Jamie’s breakfast and of your dramatics.
“alright, alright. we’re done. you guys can stop face-fucking now … please.”
you drew back from a blood red Sammy, grinning.
Jamie was laughing, giggling pretty like how you imagined someone as good-looking as her would.
“just saying our goodbyes. you guys did save my life.” she smiled, laughs cooking to a soft bubble and wrapping her arms around herself. “travel safe okay?”
there was a murmur of nods and goodbyes and, for Dean, last pecks.
by the time you’d fallen into the backseat and Baby began to grumble beneath you, Dean was still huffing.
“for the record, you two only had to listen to me make out for five minutes. i can barely go take a thirty second shower without having to hear you two going at it like wild animals.”
Sam still hadn’t said a thing, but a soft shake of a chuckle rippled from beneath his jacket. you laughed until your ribs hurt.
“so dramatic, Deano.”
“makes two of us.”
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yakultii · 4 months ago
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today was so wild it went from being so extremely shitty and thinking I wasn’t getting out of bed to then extremely grateful because I turned my day around and was glad to be alive to then nearly being bashed on a bus lmao nothing went to plan today and I didn’t end up getting my banh mi because I ate a brekky burger right before I left (and also I went in the opposite direction to the place I was gonna eat from) but positives of today are that I went to chadddy (biggest shopping centre (aka mall for international moots) in not just aus but the southern hemisphere if you didn’t know except it’s also my local like 10mins away) and I bought a few random useful bits and bobs from miniso and daiso <33 and I also bought a few random drinks from a supermarket in the shopping centre cause I’d never seen said drinks before and one thing about me I love trying one off random drinks and then I came home and FaceTimed one of my brothers and marinated some tempeh for tomorrow cause apparently I’m in my cooking era which is extremely suss of me???? (but I’m sure it’ll die off in a week when uni is back) but it’ll be interesting to see how it tastes tomorrow in a stirfry - the marinade was basically honey soy & garlic (I don’t follow recipe bc my adhd brain could never so I just make it up myself but I also wanna experiment w this a bit over next few days and come up w the perfect marinade I reckon) also did a random face mask and hair mask and ate lotsa meals ofc.. I do however wish I drank a little more water but it’s only like 8pm there’s still time!!!! I can’t believe tomorrow is Monday (last week before uni classes are back), I think tomorrow’s goals are to cook the mince in my fridge I bought for burritos to freeze and to try the tempeh in a stir fry also and to drink more water and maybe go for a walk cos I didn’t really do that today other than in the shopping centre which honestly counts bc I always get lost tryna find my way out despite having been there 99449483722 times bc I am directionally challengedlol… anyways, as a whole I feel like this exact same day I would have said was shit or mid at most in the mindset I was in before I started my daily positive things tag cos inevitably w my health rn there is a shit element in every day but I’m slowly shifting my mind to realise that’s an element of the day (though it does infiltrate all of it in a way Ssshh) and there are many other elements and actually I’m not mad that I’m here for the good elements.. I’m also like allowing myself to partake in the good elements which has been a little unexpected!! still as isolated as ever and hate the cold but so far this winter is feeling more manageable than ever before!! (maybe bc I’m not trying to come off a certain med like I try to this time every year even tho I so desperately want to but like extreme insomnia is the result of that and ruins eberything so idk if wanna risk it rn ahhhhh) I know it’s not much for a lot of ppl but I feel like I’m doing so much(for me) than this time last year and the year before and many years before when I couldn’t even get myself out of bed let alone do more than one task (I really hope I can keep this going when uni is back) ok imma quit yappin now
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sporco-filth · 3 months ago
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media with slob stuff
there are lots of tv shows and so on that have slob-related stuff and sometimes you see them once and can never find them again
anyway this is a list of a few i remember:
Joe's Apartment: a movie about a guy who moves to New york and he's (to quote one of the characters) "the dirtiest freakin' slob on the planet". His apartment is infested with talking cockroaches and developers want to tear down the apartment block so the cockroaches (who love him bc he's a slob) help him save his apartment. the cockroaches also sing. it is all-around pretty gross and i'm here for that
Him & Her: a series about a couple who are slobs and kinda gross in a domestic-cute sort of way. i don't think you can find many eps of it online and the very first ep which had some scenes i really liked i haven't seen anywhere. i only really watched ep 1 all the way through tho so i can't really vouch for the rest of the show
Portlandia: one episode has the gay brother of a character (and his boyfriend) coming to stay and she and her husband are disappointed that they're not the stereotypically neat and stylish gays. the gay guys make a mess of the house. there's not much more than that but it was hot to me when i first saw it
Pigsty: an old sitcom that didn't last very long centred around a bunch of guys sharing an apartment. ive never watched a full episode but the opening sequence is slob-related enough for me to include it
Buzzfeed stuff: 'Weird things guys do when they're alone', 'Lazy things all guys have done' and 'You at home alone vs. with people': all of these involve a range of gross habits and behaviours.
The Simpsons: there's a lot in the simpsons because homer is a fat lazy slob to a t, but special attention must be paid to Bart after dark for its trash angels scene and Bart's dental hygiene. Also the opening of Bart gets an elephant. there are too many episodes that have aspects of slob in them so i'll stop here
Parks and Rec: Andy and April's house. To quote Andy "it's a mess!" Sadly Ben cleans it up (boo...)
The Office: I never got this far but at some point Jim moves in with Darryl and then they have an odd couple dynamic going on. nothing really exciting but i remembered it so eh why not add it
Futurama: Fry is a total slob and i love him for it. sorry if this is too much information but the first time i ever came i was thinking about him being a slob. like the Simpsons there are too many good moments but a stand out is 'How Hermes Requisitioned His Groove Back' where an inspector has an affair with Fry because she has a fetish for slobs. what can i say, she has good taste in men
The Heron's Cry: a book, it has one character who is a slob, but he only appears in one scene which i'll quote excerpts of because it's short (there's more i didn't quote but this is the best bit):
...there was a kitchen littered with pizza boxes and foil containers from takeaway restaurants. Empty beer cans. A smell that would set alarms ringing with environmental health. [Steve] expert was wearing a filthy fleece dressing gown. Nothing else as far as Ross could tell. He stood, blinking. "Fuck, man, what do you want? This feels like the middle of the night." "It's mid-morning…"
The Secret Diary of Adrian Mole and its sequel The Growing pains of Adrian Mole: Adrian helps an elderly man called Bert who is a total slob. They clean out his house and it is an endeavour. Favourite part of this scene though is this line: "Bert has been sitting in a deckchair criticising and complaining. He can’t see what’s wrong with living in a dirty house. What is wrong with living in a dirty house?" Nothing, in my opinion. There are other scenes too. Adrian's mother is a slob and there's even a bit where she chides him on being so fussy and not messy like a 'normal' teenager. I know there's more but my memory fails me right now
Friends: there's two main ones that come to mind: the one with the dirty girl (obvious reasons) and the one where ross and rachel you know (which to me is known as the one where joey and chandler get recliners).
Kotaro Lives Alone: Karino is a lazy manga artist whose apartment is a mess. The part that got me was when he wondered if he should take a shower and then he goes 'nah, i'm good'. He gets more on top of things after he meets Kotaro, but he's still pretty lazy after ep 1
Very random thing, but this ad for JBS underwear. It's a woman dressed in male underwear behaving like a stereotypical man and it covers a lot of categories for me
Stardew Valley: Shane. that's all i really have to say but in particular his spouse room and his comments about his weight
Spiritfarer: a video game. one of the spirits you can get on your boat is Jackie and he starts out with a messy, trash-filled room. he also dislikes healthy food. he ends up cleaning up his act though.
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whumpalicious · 3 months ago
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Hi!!!! Trying to get active again here and haven't sent anything in forever!!! So...
Any new shows you've seen? (New to you, not new as of 2024 necessarily)
Any new favorite whump scenes added to your list? (Same as above)
Any new tropes you've discovered you love?
Any oldie-but-goodie shows or tropes you've been interested in lately?
What are your three go-to tags on Ao3?
Hiiiii Shadow!! Nice to see you back!💕 These are fun okay hmm let me think.
1. I have seen maaany new shows this year. I watched the new star wars show (and liked it), I've also started two popular ones that I never really got into, Futurama and Doctor Who. Am currently watching those two and I'm enjoying them! Then there was also this fun short Norwegian drama show. And probably more that I'm forgetting😳 Watching netflix is my down-time before going to sleep hahaha.
2. Aah I can't remember the scenes but there are actually some pretty nice Fry whumpy scenes in Futurama. I will try to remember them (or of other shows) and reblog if I do. There were some whump scenes in doctor who too, but I haven't yet gotten attached enough to him to really feel it, so so far that's been kinda "meh okay 🤷🏼‍♀️" I feel like I'm missing something tho, I definitely saw some good new whump scenes in other shows and movies too but my memory is leaving me behind
3. I've gotten a bit more love for environmental whump. I did already like it, but I'm getting more into it now, there's so many possibilities there. It's fun to think about
4. Gotten back into my fullmetal alchemist brotherhood obsession, so I have been re-watching and reading lots of fics, it's pretty much a comfort show to return to hahaha. So so good. And for tropes.. I still love a lot the kidnapping/captured trope, as well as fainting and a good old fashioned beating with bruises, broken noses and the works😍😍
Oh yes edited to add: I've been writing some things for OC's of mine from a star wars game as well. Whumpy things obviously, but yeah I've returned to there in full force as well.
5 "Hurt/comfort" and "whump", obviously, but that feels like cheating so I'll count it as one. Just like "hurt [character]". Angst is a good one too that I often add. And, if I'm in the mood for it, emotional whump as well. Or alternatively, search for fics with the graphic violence warning, set to complete only and maybe add a min or max word limit, and there's a recipe for a good time lol.
What about you?? Did you discover a new favourite trope/series/character? How are you doing in general?
Thanks a lot for asking❤️❤️
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havoc-bloom · 2 years ago
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General Headcanons For (Most Of) The Dreams of An Insomniac Characters!!
(Excluding Lankmann cause I’ve already posted about him more than enough)
HC’s under the cut!!
Clyde:
- He’s so fucked up /pos
- Enjoys metal/rock, would listen to Mindless Self Indulgence
- If he tries hunting/chasing you I feel like you could distract him with candy
- Scary on the outside but an absolute sweetheart, especially with Winfrey (they’re boyfriends /hj)
- Prankster man, would place a banana peel on the ground and wait for you to comically slip and fall over it
- Eeeevil evil mischievous fellow
- About as straight as a curly fry
- Me, seeing Winfrey and Clyde: “oh my god, they were roommates :0”
- He has an evil laugh that he practiced in the mirror. Please tell him it’s cool and evil and maniacal.
Winfrey:
- Winfrey, my sweet baby boy. You poor poor thing.
- I CAN FIX HIM I SWEAR
- Winfixed AU gives me life (thanks Tigera)
- Plays violin extremely well, but can also play the piano
- If you ask him to play Megalovania he will bite you.
- Yes, he bites.
- His “theme song” may be Your Consenting Mind from Spooky’s Jumpscare Mansion according to Pastra, but damnit his anthem will always be Because Dreaming Costs Money, My Dear by Mitski in my heart and soul.
- Unironically used to not really acknowledge him because the other characters felt like they overshadowed him BUT THEN I MET @/tigerarainbowra-blog and my worldview has been CHANGED in the best way possible
- Me: (slaps the top of Winfrey’s head) “You won’t believe how much angst you can fit in here.”
- Really really heavy British accent, at least before he Went Feral™
- If the floor is being straight, then this man is crawling on the ceiling.
Klaus:
- What a douchebag /lh
- Reeks of birthday cake (he uses it to lure in kids to kill; I headcanon that Veldigun can change the way they smell and either completely nullify it or amplify it to make whoever they’re hunting more afraid or unaware of them) but also smells like blood and death.
- Absolutely vile, both in terms of personality and physical appearance
- Buried childhood trauma (he dares not talk abt it)
- Literally just needed some emotional help as a kid and if he got it he would’ve turned out fine, but somehow he got more fucked up with no thanks to the Lankmann Foundation.
- I can make anyone have sympathy for any character. Making people feel bad for Klaus is proof of that.
- Listens to Insane Clown Posse and Melanie Martinez
- He’s angry. He’s so, so angry, all the time. I wonder what put that anger in him.
Jack:
- GET HIM THERAPY JESUS FUCK
- I can fix him I promise
- We need to get him OUT of his toxic-ass relationship with Klaus, like right now. Let him be happy. Please.
- Looks up to Klaus even though he knows he’ll never be respected in the same way.
- He likes breakcore lmfao, also he listens to 100 gecs unironically /pos
- I like to think he makes kandi bracelets and he made matching ones for him and Klaus. Even tho Klaus is a bitch he still never takes off the bracelet, and neither does Jack.
- Sends the most cursed of memes at the most unholy times of night. You’ll get a notification from him at 6:06 AM and it’s just a radically blurred image of a cockroach with the caption “daniel.”
- Really truly just wants to continue making toys for kids.
- Has ate drywall and will do so again
Simon:
- Pleasant little farm boy
- He constantly smells like he just walked out of a barn, probably because he did. You get used to it (eventually).
- LOVES ANIMALS SO SO MUCH
- Animals > people, would rather chill with Flock for the day than actually socialize.
- Suppresses his Southern accent a lot but when he gets angry or super excited you’ll hear the Country™ in his voice.
- Kind of jarring hearing a Texas accent come out of a Canadian tbh
- I want his hand in marriage /hj
- autistic  /hj
- So far back into the closet he may as well be that one sweater from the 3rd grade you could never find again. Fruitier than Froot Loops but completely oblivious about it.
The Flock:
- BIRD MOMENT
- Yes, it can fly.
- Yes, it can purr.
- No, you cannot pet it.
- Does that thing snakes do where they curl up into little coils and rest their head on the top. Yeah that.
- Also does that thing hognose snakes do where they’ll play dead if they feel threatened, but instead they do it to lure in prey into thinking they’re an easy meal.
- Like a parrot it can mimic voices.
- Jack taught it to say curse words and now anytime someone gets near it’s just “BITCH”
- Will eat Cheez-Its out of your hand
Mortimer Gray:
- Oh, this poor motherfucker. This unfortunate fellow. He has been through so much.
- Overworked, underpaid artist.
- Serious burnout, but dammit if he’s getting paid he’ll get it done.
- Artblock 24/7, creatively exhausted. Just leave him alone for a while, please.
- Had a sparkledog phase, is now definitely a furry /hj
- Self esteem issues? He’s got all of them. Every single one.
- Anxiety to the fucking max
- I relate a few songs to him, namely Bag Of Bones by Mitski (burnout central haha) and Against The Kitchen Floor by Will Wood (honestly I was listening to it while drawing him and now it’s just kinda,, a thing I relate him with now.)
- Help me I kin him
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charlieconwayy · 1 year ago
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What are ur issues w Hulu Futurama?
tbh when it was announced i did have excitement in me about my number one show ever returning, but then i remembered all the bullshit that i hated in the cc run and i was just immediately skeptical and for good reason bc i am usually right. i will say that i rly am a fry/leela as characters and as a couple girlie so i am being insanely biased (my man stays dragging me saying i need to put more energy into other aspects of the show lol) but i do like other characters if the show cares about them. but that's the main issue with this revamp. the show put care into literally EVERYONE except fry and leela who are the MAIN characters. (i do think a lot of the weird "there's no main character" kinda stuff was due to bendergate - and yes i am annoyed that dimaggio allegedly has billing over billy who plays the LEAD as well as two other main characters - but it's also strange that w all that fuss, even if it was just for publicity which i doubt at this point, that bender didn't rly do all that much either?) i started noticing like two series rewatches ago that as we get later into the series, we get more planet express crew centric episodes rather than fry/leela/bender episodes, and i'm fine with that for the most part bc i adore amy and hermes, but it feels weird that they kept so much of the vibe of the cc stuff in the show considering how much most people despise those seasons.
to answer simply, almost every episode was either bad, boring, far too fanservicey (looking at you pointless parasites lost "sequel" bc how dare u shit on that episode's legacy so fucking badly), or just forgettable. the episodes i genuinely liked were children of a lesser bog, related to items you've viewed and i know what you did less xmas. i found all of those to be enjoyable and everything else to be complete and utter shit. COALB honestly surprised me bc i have never cared about kif/amy bc the show didn't rly ever care about them (always felt soooo bad for their shippers w the zapp shit and then the bender shit), and i rly rly like that they did a major status quo shift by letting them have children and actually letting those children be a part of the cast. lauren tom is mother and she killed that episode and i am so happy for her that they allowed her to show her acting chops bc i think her line delivery is insanely underrated in general. (off topic but anyone complaining ab them switching leo's voice actor to an asian man needs to grow up, that should've been the case from day one.) i knew i would enjoy RTIYV bc it was a freela status quo shift but i actually also really enjoyed the momazon plot and found it amusing/funny. very very odd that there wasn't any~major freela moments in their ONE focused episode, but w/e. it's a mixed bag bc i also would've literally died for the cc seasons to give us background stuff w them. i do love that they kind of threw back to the fry/leela/bender days with this, it felt nice and nostalgic. the xmas episode was GREAT esp bc i always hate the xmas episodes (the first one has a special place in my heart bc you're lonely and i'm lonely but together we're lonely together <3), it was so fun getting to see everyone as a family (SO happy they're acknowledging dwight and cubert exist again even tho canonically they should be grown men by now lmao) and the bender/zoidberg stuff was surprisingly sweet (honestly when they give zoidberg an ep where he bonds w any of the pe crew it's enjoyable, the hermes episode was good, the professor episode was good, now this episode is good)
now to get to my issues. i don't want to say that they shouldn't have listened to fans and given us what we want to see, but i feel like there was so much weird shit that no one was asking for? parasites regained is the most egregious example bc who tf was like "omg we need to see the worms again but this time in a gross out potty humor episode!" no one. they need to STOP with bringing back every fucking character too, like barbados slim is a good example of this. he's been used so sparingly that he is pretty loved in the fandom, but w them making hermes/labarbara an actual stable relationship (a good thing that they then immediately ruined for jokes no one finds all that funny) it was SO weird and annoying for them to play back into the "haha labarbara is cheating on hermes!" schtick again. why was the whale biologist back? why was the time machine brought back?! like i know i said i liked the xmas episode but certain things are just so iconic to the show that they need to remain untouched. pissed me off. why can't they give us shit we actually want to see? robot devil song and dance number. zoidberg/marianne (just give her another fucking voice actor if they can't get emilia clarke jfc). hedonismbot as long as he's not overused and just given a few one-off lines (did we even see him????) hmmm idk the main thing a HUGE majority of fans have been asking for for twenty fucking years in a SEQUEL TO THE WHY OF FRY????
also did anyone think it was odd how after the cc seasons cramming zapp down our throats every other episode we barely saw him?? even in COALB he was kind of irrelevant. my guess would be they didn't want to over exert billy but the professor had a ton to do so ???
there's so much else that i could probably complain about and go into but i will leave it at this: i do not like the cc seasons BUT i am glad they exist bc of the late philip j fry which is not just a perfect episode of futurama, it's a perfect episode of television. until the hulu seasons give me a TLPJF than they don't have a reason to exist. this sadly just felt like a money grab and yes, i will admit that there were good moments/episodes but as a whole, it did not need to come back. i'm hoping they're saving the masterful writing that i KNOW they can do for the next season (look at season 4! banger after banger. kif gets knocked up a notch, jurassic bark, the why of fry, the sting, the farnsworth parabox. three hundred big boys, the devil's hands are idle playthings) but tbh i feel like that fire/spark is just gone from the production team.
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thegeminisage · 2 years ago
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ASK MEME
i got tagged by @runawaymarbles, tyvm i lov doing these
What book are you currently reading?
no books atm but i'm actually getting through the entire tag of a rarepair from ff13...only 41 fics :(
What’s your favorite movie you saw in theatres this year?
did i go to a theater this year...? surely at least once. OH YEAH i went to see sonic 2. since that's the only movie i saw in theaters this year that'll be my favorite one
What do you usually wear?
comfy-at-home clothes: tank top, shorts, no-show socks, hair fork, & bandana. out & about clothes: bandana & hair fork if i'm working or my hair needs washing, otherwise i keep it loose. a lot of black pants/shorts and bright glittery monochrome or tye-dye tank tops w/ black or rainbow choker, rainbow earrings, pride bracelet, smiley face ring, rainbow ring, ace ring, and sometimes my triforce necklace. if it's cold i will also wear rainbow arm warmers/socks and fingerless gloves with the pink peace symbols on them. if i'm REALLY dressing up i will wear rainbow tights under a long shirt or short dress. wow sorry this is the longest answer so far i just really love bright fashion!!! i can't believe god nerfed me by making plus sized clothes fucking suck so bad
How tall are you?
5’1 :/
What’s your Star Sign? Do you share a birthday with a celebrity or a historical event?
i think i'm actually a cancer LMFAO. and stuck with this username...idk about any celebrities but my birthday IS on the summer solstice which is absolutely bitchin' in my professional opinion. i could not possibly have asked for a better date although i do wish it didn't have to fall on father's day sometimes
Do you go by your name or a nick-name?
i go by liz which is not my legal first name. technically my legal middle name isn't liz either it's like elizabeth obviously but my first name is cringefail and nobody can spell it OR say it so i just don't tell most people what it is lol. i started going by liz when i was in 8th grade and sometimes my mom STILL messes it up...
Did you grow up to become what you wanted to be when you were a child?
no BUT as a kid i really really really really REALLY wanted pink hair. as an adult no one can stop me. kid me would be so jealous of adult me's look in EVERY way
What’s something you’re good at vs. something you’re bad at?
good at: dreaming. you know how in the 40s-60s most people dreamed in black and white because that was how tv looked? apparently if you play enough video games you'll get so good at controlling a simulated environment you can simply wake up on command. i never completely mastered lucid dreaming but it's a neat trick anyway. bad at: sleeping. exhibit a: i am answering this meme at 2:30 in the fucking morning, and i have not had 6 hours of uninterrupted sleep since december 10. that's like 28 days!
Dogs or cats?
CATS!!!!!!! i like dogs too tho
What’s something you would like to create stuff for?
i would love to draw some zelda art. i just need a new tablet sadly none of the old ones work with my pc
If you draw/write, or create in any way, what’s your favourite picture/favourite line/favourite etc. from something you created this year?
UGH i can't post it, it's in the undisclosed project
What’s something you’re currently obsessed with?
so a very long time ago when we were teenagers my brother showed me minecraft. i played half an hour of it and then gave the controller back and told him i couldn't keep going because i would quite literally never put it down if i did. unfortunately i did NOT show that same level of foresight and self-restraint when downloading the demo of SLIME RANCHER. in my defense i was utterly unprepared for its sheer potency. i played exactly four minutes of the demo before i caved and bought it - $5 was a steal - without realizing how absolutely lethal it is to combine adhd with a farming sim especially during seasonal depression months. this thing has been churning out dopamine so fast my stupid little rat brain can't keep up. i'm frying every last pleasure receptor i ever had as thoroughly as i possibly can. i am begging one of you to physically come to my house and uninstall it from my pc.
What’s something you were excited about that turned out to be disappointing this year?
andor 🙏 sorry to all andor enjoyers but it fucking sucked (except for the prison break)
What’s a hidden talent of yours?
i'm freakishly good at packing things. items into boxes, boxes into vehicles, organizing drawers and closets, etc. at my house we call it "tetrising" since i guess that's a pro gamer move that translates to the real world..................
Are you religious?
no i am disqualified for being gay <3
What’s something you wish to have at this moment?
a completed copy of this photo album i'm supposed to be making. i got behind bc i was playing slime rancher :(
ok im tagging @slaygentford @maulthots @brownbicon @machidielontheway @paty-ofarrell @ozymandiasdirge @moogleterra @marcelgerard @elsa12tmnt @smellslikebot @youngbenkenobi and anyone else who wants to do it, do it & say i tagged you!!
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safyresky · 2 years ago
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Frostmas Year Ten: Behind the Scenes
Prologue | Y1 | Y2 | Y3 | Y4 | Y5 | Y6 | Y7 | Y8 | Y9 | Y10 | Y11 | Y12
[To Read Frostmas: From the TOP | Year Ten]
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Boy howdy! It was two years in the making but, at about 30k ish words, year ten is FINALLY finished and I can FINALLY say, out loud, that Jacqueline got fuckin FROZEN!
Lots I wanna share because Year Ten had the MOST edits out of all the years I’ve written so far. I do NOT want to know what Year Eleven will be like. Y10 was like, the HARDEST year to write so far! Let's get GROOVING
The Intro
I actually rewrote the intro after finishing the entire year. It was a weak start, originally, I realized after writing those three BANGERS of final scenes!
the version you SHOULD have read was only completed on the 13th, after being rewritten once the day before.
I almost didn’t write an intro for Year Ten. I actually think, when I started writing it, on Easter Day two and a half years ago lmao, I went right into the beginning of the year.
If I’m remembering correctly, I actually didn’t write the intro until after the All-Staff scene!
Scene 1: Bernard Machine BROKE
what the elf is elf version of what the fuck. v. important note
“We’re really in it now Jacqueline” is absolutely, 100%, the Frostmas version of this meme from The Good Place:
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And oh boy, with Y10 of Frostmas? WE ARE REALLY IN IT NOW, JACQUELINE
OKAY SO one of the reasons I decided to do these BTS things was for all of the memes/references bc I find it FASCINATING that I can read these chapters and recall DISTINCTLY what I was doing/hyper fixating on at the time. Year Ten edition: Quarantine 2020!
First reference: Jacqueline deciding to go to Timmies
I was 100% projecting, a month into quarantine and I had NO IDEA if Tim’s was open and I was craving timbits and my iced capp of choice (which is also Jacqueline’s)
SO I WROTE IT IN
Two months in I saw they were open via drive thrus and I have a car so I got me that ding dang iced capp
HONESTLY, a lot of Canadians don’t actually like Timmies these days. Apparently, they’ve gone down hill. But Imma be real with you folks, ice capps HIT and I have yet to find a place with a similar drink that hides caffeine well enough for me to enjoy!
Stir-Fry: Best way to make a quick dins and get rid of leftovers
Okay, srs note now: thinking about what would drive Bernard to leave, without knowing what the canon relationship between Jack and B-Man is (tho most people HC that they HATE each other and B wouldn’t take Jack’s BS, and I support this) one of the hardest things I’ve done, to date.
like Jacqueline said in the intro, this is Bernard’s home! He takes care of the elves, they’re his fam! Like, everything considering Bernard’s decision is HEARTBREAKING and the only way I could think of that would allow Bernard to fully leave the picture is, well, him basically trading his “exile” for their freedom.
The conversation they have once B-Man has semi-processed grief is once again, me trying to work it all out
apparently a running frostmas theme for things I can’t figure out is to get Berline some food and watch them scheme. Hey, if it works it works ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Scene 2: Jack gets SERVED
fun fact: I added this scene in after writing about half of the chapter! It was reading very bad prior, since I had just summarized what Bernard did.
“you’re not you when you’re hungry” I think about that commercial a lot. Specifically the Betty White version
it’s also a gr8 Jack line, 100%
so thanks to snickers, i guess, for giving me free dialogue (🤫)
I actually really like this scene! I think it’s a v good villainy Jack scene!
Scene 3: All Staff Meeting
I hate all staff meetings. We had one MONTHLY in quarantine and by the time May rolled around, I never wanted to go to one ever again
SO LET’S MAKE THE ELVES GO INTO ONE! at least they got to go in person 😢😢
Idk why I had B-man give a spare set of keys to Quintin? It’s been so long since I wrote that part, and Quintin makes his way to the Valley in the later half of the year ANYWAY. I actually went back and edited the final few scenes to hint that Quintin splits his time
like some kind of divorce settlement
he and elfsburg divorced. he gets the shop every other week 😂😂😂
ALTHOUGH it IS before B-Man knows he’ll be able to relocate everyone, so maybe that was part of the reasoning?? See, this is what happens when you wip something for TWO YEARS. 30k later ur a mess
Also, hate that Quintin is spelt Quintin. Mostly bc spell check hates it. Sorry spell check, BUT THAT’S HOW IT’S SPELT IN TSC1 END CREDITS
Anyway I think Curtis deserves a little credit, as a treat, and I’m SOFT for B-Man being soft with the elves 🥺
especially since he gets really, really, really into the Resort stuff (that’s canon, you saw him in the last movie!)
Quarantine 2020 Reference: “And for now, it’s the new normal”
we’ve all heard it at this point, even B-Man apparently
also, totally forgot that I had established a LOCKDOWN before covid19 did lmao, almost thought it was another quarantine reference
Scene 4: Frost Mansion/Manor
was two scenes, fixed it to be one scene! one of the many, many, many, MANY edits I was doing up until I finally posted the chapter. This year took SOO MUCH EDITING
the Blaise making a room scene was literally just so I could show off that I finally figured out how warlocks worked in CS :D
AND I FINALLY GOT TO MAKE THE SALARIED/HOURLIED JOKE I’VE BEEN DYING TO MAKE FOR YEARS!!
Legates are salaried! That’s a Crystal Springs FACT
anyway I think about how jelly like the magic in tsc series is. do you? i think about it a lot. like, you could chose any kinds of sounds, and you go for slurping? icky
Scene 5: City Square; Scene 6: Meeting with Governor Blaise
This scene. was another one. that got rewritten way too many times. Idk what it is about Y10, but I could NOT get things sounding decent on the first try for like, MOST of the scenes! Except for the last one, lmao. I’ve had that written for a year :)
it was another opportunity for lore drop tbh, i’m shameless
on that note, I’d like to thank Assasin’s Creed: Valhalla for teaching me what a MOOT is, historically speaking! I read it and was like so THAT’S what CS does! Aight, neat!
“Blaise said with a grin, opening his arms” similar to how Jack said. three or four scenes back 🙃🙃 I didn’t even realize the parallel until the third in process read through!
(Scene 7 is the Council Meeting, and not much BTS info exists for it so we skip!)
Scene 8: Ley Lines
MY BIGGEST MOST GINORMOUS THANKS EVER TO @shittyelfwriter​ BECAUSE I WOULD NOT! HAVE COME TO THIS CONCLUSION WITHOUT HER HELP!
She had the brilliant idea of Christmas trees being like beacons? And chatted with me for a good two or three hours one winter evening in 2020 to help me workshop this idea!
there was another idea of the stockings delivering the gifts but it was knocked down lol, if the trees are calling in the gifts then why on earth would they come shooting through the stockings?
besides, stockings are their own spawn points!!! they gotta be filled with STUFFERS like FUZZY SOCKS, AND CANDY, AND CHOCOLATE!!
no idea how I connected everything together afterwards, tho. Maybe that’s why this year took two whole years to write 😲😲
anyway, yeah, no, thank you SO much as usual ana for being your amazing self FILLED with BRILLIANT ideas and letting me pick from your genius!! something something we stan??? is that meme dead yet?
(oh! and if u squint...u can see Winter watching for frozie Jacquie)
Scene 9: The First Check In
Once again, i have Jacqueline noticing that someone looks slightly different to acknowledge changes in the movies! This edition: Curtis’s growth spurt and slightly deeper voice 👀
(the voice bit was shoehorned in very last minute 🤫)
I ALSO started dropping hints about how Curtis gets very into the Resort later on. I mean, I thought he was way too invested when Scott finds him at the Resort! He was not as disgruntled as any of the other elves were. I’m running with the subtext >:)
FUN FACT: this is where I left off when I initially started doing this Frostmas BTS. I had not made it very far. ONWARDS
Scene 10: Everything Moves Fast
My one regret with this chapter is settling on "New Elfsburg" before placing it in a valley. "Elfsburg Valley" is just so...chef's kiss
BOOM! ELLE DROP! I've got plans for Ms Elle come next chapter. You guys probably won't like it, but uh, I will enjoy the reveal immensely >:)
"saying you were part of Health and Safety went a long way with ordinary beings" -> I'd like to thank Doctor Who episode "Partners in Crime" for this one! I watched it a LOT during the two years of writing this chapter took. It was a rough two years and I was taking all the comfort I could get while isolated from my fiance and my family and LITERALLY EVERYONE
Scene 11: Bag Heist
oh my god this scene. this scene is so good for so many reasons
Jacqueline being an ass
Jack being an ass
God tier frozie sibling banter
Jacqueline acting almost EXACTLY like Jack would just to bug him--hammering home the theme of "becoming what you fear most >:)"
Also, it was so much fun to write! It was goddamn hilarious!
"Do your kids really want the flu?" I asked, hands on my hips. "Because a kid sneezed all over the place a few photos ago, and we need to sanitize this asap. Maybe even close it off for the day."
-> More Covid Nuggets lol
"Barry, right? You chased me out of storage the other day! I remember that, that was fun! How's your arm?"
-> Jacqueline is very much causing trouble and I am trying to really really reinforce that lmao. She's on a first name basis with some of the guards!
"Sorry Barry, but I have the high ground now" -> for some reason, my friend sir eng and my fiance got really into quoting that specific phrase re: Star Wars:
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just before my household shifted and we went FULL lockdown, my (now) fiance (then boyfriend) came up for a visit and marathoned Star Wars with our friend Sir Eng while I was working
(I think that's how it went! May have been my other housemate, and then Sir Eng said it to Fiance and it went downhill from there. Idk man. April-Oct 2021 was kind of a blur)
it went downhill from there, haha. It was a popular turn of phrase up until Sir Eng moved out!
FUN FACT: Jacqueline has never seen a Star Wars :)
"That wasn't rhetorical, Jacqueline. Why is it you're holding Santa's bag? Don't you have citrus to freeze? Noses to get all runny?"
"Not until 3," I said, to more laughter.
Thank you based Spongebob for the ABOVE reference :)
Scene 12-14: It's DORMANT
So, my running gag for this year of Frostmas is basically this:
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And it SHOWS in this scene, especially! More on that in a mo!
"The Workshop itself had been designed to be a bit smaller, to be ready in time for toy making. It felt a lot bigger on the inside thanks to some brilliant engineering on Quintin's end"
->this is 100% a dr who/British joke, a la this scene from Phineas and Ferb's Avengers crossover. It lives rent free in my head for whatEVER reason, especially since I never saw the entire episode!
but also, like, why WOULDN'T they have it be bigger on the inside? They're MAGICAL. SUSPEND THE DISBELIEF! anyway.
""At this point, I don't care how you got it. I'm just glad you got it." Bernard said, gently taking the bag off of my arm."
->and so it begins! B-Man literally does not care, he just wants to get this moving and try his bestest to save cribmas 🥺🥺
"Everything dies eventually. Even us," Bernard pointed out.
"You must be fun at parties," I said, thrown off guard.
they are at their WORST! BMAN IS DEPRESSED AF! JACQUELINE IS FROZEN AF! I AM THRIVING!
And Winter is in her element! She's got very mom energy. I'm hoping to explain why she's quietly lurking in the next chapter, but basically she has the BIG WORRY for both Jacqueline AND Bernard! She knows Jacquie's frozen, as we see in the final scene. she's doing her best to be there but NOT be overbearing
And Bernard is doing her a real big worry, too! Her mom senses are going crazy
(Winter would've been gr8 at being the next Mother Nature. She declined when approached by MN when the Legate Law was put into place. More on that in Into the Shadows!)
"If you keep clenching your jaw like that, you're going to need a night guard" -> You'll never guess who did, in fact, get a night guard around this time (last March)
if you guessed me, you are so correct lmao. again, one of those oh hey! I recall why this went in! What a crazy thing to look back at! anyway it's done wonders for stress headaches, and I'm positive Bernard would benefit from having one lmao
Ah yes. A bit of sillies before we head into the BERNARD DOES DUMB SHIT portion! Little Shop of Horrors was the first production I saw "post" covid. I quite liked it. The puppet for Audrey 2? AMAZING.
Jacqueline's Interlude
I just had to edit the Jacqueline interlude because holy guacamole, were there EVER spelling mistakes GALORE. It's like, did I miss that section ENTIRELY?! DAMN.
Anyway, it's kinda funny, I remember getting to that part and having to take a step back with all of the shit I was about to do--those three BANGERS of end scenes 😍😍--and straight up needing a moment to process it ebcause I couldn;t figure out how it all started
Mostly because Jacqueline was mum on the subject, if you can believe it. Can't blame her in the slightest, lol, but when ur characters get suddenly quiet while you're trying to tell their story? YEAH. IT'S A PROBLEM
SO. TAKE THE STEP BACK, SEE WHERE JACQUIE'S AT, AND THEN FIND A GOOD WAY TO GET ON WITH THE NEXT THREE BANGERS!
This was ALSO a fun spot to shoehorn in some ah, CS government lore >:) Do I know how their system works? YES! Do I know wtf it is? NO! But it seems to work for them so YEAH, ENJOY THE LORE
THE LAST THREE SCENES (14-16)
Looking back at these now have me cackling, I really went BAM! BAM! BAM! with a bat to everyone's knees, huh? Anyway
YEAH. WOW. you know, this whole section was unplanned. Like, the bag failing? Unplanned--kinda just happened as I wrote! Bernard doing the dumb shit? Not planned, but the moment I had the bag low on magic, I went ah. yes. Bernard would 100% do his best to help save it, given everything he's sacrificed and lost so far
And Jacqueline would be MAD about it, given the ENTIRE situation that Frostmas is/has caused and also, the FROZEN THING
My god, tho. I really feel for Bernard, you know? It's just. WOW. after all of that everything, you just really, really, really want, need something to go right. I feel like we've all probably been there before!
But yeah, everyone's really at their lowest low here
And even with their sibling-esque banter, Berline is still not doing so HOT
AND THEN THE KICKER! THE FROZEN-NESS! AH!
I had that final scene written for YEARS. I think since year 8 went up? My GOD. Been biting my tongue for WAY TOO LONG to try and avoid spoilers but boy am I GLAD it's OUT NOW! AH!
This year of Frostmas decked me lmao. WOWIE. Anyway, plz enjoy the Y10 bts! and the MEMES! I'm HOPING this kick starts my ass into figuring out why Y11 isn't quite VIBING rn 🤔🤔🤔
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theinfernalcalypso · 19 days ago
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1, 25, and 68?
Answered slightly out of order bc 25 ended up being. A long ass answer.
01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
ABSOLUTELY NOT LMFAO i've seen my father a number of times I can count on my hands and my mother is why I spent the first 20 years of my life in a living hell and I need extensive therapy
68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
bunny. she's usually who I end up having really deep conversations with
25: Do you miss anyone from your past?
... yeah. yeah I do. a few people. tho a couple stand out as i'm not going to be able to see them again
one is my late aunt. she never got to see how I grew a pair and how I told my mother to kiss my ass and moved out (granted, frying pan into the fire but that's for another time). I wish I could hug her and show her how far i've gotten from being where I was then.
one is this kid I knew when I was young. he was a sweet boy, he just kinda seemed to get it as far as me being weird. when we initially met we were in 3rd grade, and I didn't know him long before I had to move that year but he was friends (and possibly cousins with?? I don't remember) with this boy I liked and I hated him on principle just because he took away the attention I could have been at least trying to get from him (... sure did start my ways young, huh.) tho I moved back in 4th grade, admittedly bc I had poor memory bc of how life was I had forgotten him. then I got to know him properly. admittedly, the guy I had a crush on in 3rd grade was kinda an asshole so i'd been kinda quick to forget about that when I moved. but this boy? like I said he was sweet, he was good to me from when we met again in early 4th grade to late 5th grade. I had kinda developed a crush on him then, but I never admitted to it. even at age 12 i knew it'd be pointless to try and maintain anything when I knew moving was an inevitability that I couldn't avoid since the first 15 years of my life I moved an average of once a year. my last day I was picked up early. I never got to say goodbye to him I don't think. I still think about him sometimes. Every few years he shows up in a dream. We're both still small. Far too small to know the burden of life yet. We talk about Pokemon, we laugh over something stupid. I wake up wondering where my best friend is.
... yeah. I miss him.
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puffin-smoke · 4 months ago
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1 - She's taken many of those quizzes, but pretty quickly got annoyed at all the questions being so basic. (Seriously tho they always just ask "Do you think members of the same sex are attractive?" Bro IDK THAT'S WHY I'M ASKING YOU). Duarte's bisexual, and genderwise she's unlabeled and mainly uses she/they pronouns
2 - Shit. SHIT. Duarte will try to eat it, she really will, but people pleasing was never her strong suit, so eventually she'll have to be blunt about it. "Listen, Bodie, thanks for the food. But I can't eat this. Sorry, but... fuck no."
3 - She knows, in theory, where everything is. It's in the chest of drawers next to her bed. But she kind of keeps just throwing things in there without organising, so it can take her a while to find anything. She has bigger things to think about than socks give her a break.
4 - She'll typically wait until her chosen victim falls asleep. She'll then tie their wrists and ankles together, and throw them into the nearest river. This will usually wake them up, and in theory after they scream and thrash around a bit, they might be able to make it back to shore. She ensures they never get that far. She places one hand into the water and lets forth a burst of electricity (electric eel Duarte my beloathed). It'll fry her victims from the inside out. And maybe a couple of fish too.
5 - She lightly punches his shoulder and moves to sit next to him. "Shut the hell up."
She sighs. She's probably not the best person to ask about this, considering how she is with kids. But she wants to help. "Bad parents don't question if they're bad parents. And you question it way too fucking much, so what does that make you?"
She stands up and gestures for Chez to move up onto the sofa, haphazrdly fluffing up one of the pillows. "Now, you. Take a nap, I'll handle the girls for a couple hours. I promise not to teach them anymore swearwords." For the first time she actually means that.
When Chester starts to argue about it (because of course he will, Duarte's not that stupid) Duarte pushes him down again, lightly but firm. "It wasn't a fucking suggestion, it was an order. You know who can't take care of kids? Corpses. So stay."
She goes upstairs and helps in whatever way she can, copying everything she's seen the other bugs do with their youngsters. She'll make sure Daisy's properly tucked in, clean up any wayward vomit, go check on Fran, the works. She'll go downstairs a few times to check if Chez is doing as he's told, but mostly stay up there to help.
6 - They keep forgetting when their birthday is. And if she does she won't really do anything. "Oh would you look at that. Another year gone. Fuck." That's pretty much it.
7 - Duarte interrogates Fran a little. How can she know? Is she sure? Has she seen him like this before? She's mildly in shock, so she needs to be certain. There's a smile slowly pulling at the edges of her lips but she forces it down. But she's genuinely just really fucking happy. She won't let herself be but she is, deep down, buried under layers of cynicism and denial.
She'll watch Chester struggle for a minute, restrain a laugh, and then walk over. "Need a little help?"
She doesn't wait for an answer. She throws herself as far up the tree as she can, grabbing a hold of the branches and hauling herself up. It takes her a moment to get her bearings, and she nearly falls the moment she stands up, but slowly but surely, she begins to edge her way over to the kid. (I'm just imagining the kid being perched on the edge of a branch like a cat and i'm cracking up-). It'll take her a little while, and maybe a little bit of yelling, but she'll eventually grab the kid and make her way down the tree.
When she's back on solid ground, she releases the kid, and turns to Chez. She wants to say something. She just doesn't know what. Something to show she trusts him too. But she can't. So she just nods, semi-awkwardly, and makes her way back into the house to go grab her tools. She's always been best at speaking with her hands. Whether that be with fists or carving, it will always be true.
I love being goth in Scotland /sarc (these people are so mean, like bro let me be creative-)
Bug Question/Scenario times <33333
1) Modern! AU
Be honest, ever taken an 'Am I Gay?' quiz? (Also what's ur Bugs sexuality/gender identity? I got a stupid doodle idea (it'll make sense when I show y'all))
2) Uh oh, Bodie worked hard and cooked your Bug a meal without knowing they really dislike one of the ingredients! Does your Bug tell him or just suffer through it?
3) Are they good at keeping track of their possessions or do they often lose things?
4) Bloodmoon Swap! AU
How do they hunt/kill people? What's their strategy?
5) Scenario #1 (this shit is super long I'm sorry bros)
Bug had been looking for Chester round the house for like 15 minutes, yet they couldn't find him. That was until they saw him coming out of the room his younger sisters were staying in.
He was clearly exhausted, his pasture was slouched, his eyes half-closed...he looked as though he was about to fall asleep right there. They asked why he looked like shit, he chuckled
"Daisy's sick, she couldn't sleep, couldn't eat, just kept throwing up- been watching her since like 9 last night and only now has she gone for a nap"
He dragged himself through to the living room then threw himself onto the floor beside the couch. He sat on the floor, his back resting against the couch as he sighed out of relief, finally free for a couple of minutes. Bug went and sat on the opposite side of the couch.
"...do you think I'm an alright guardian?"
Bug looked at him, clearly a bit confused by his question. They asked him to elaborate
"Y'know to Daisy and Fran. Out of all my siblings I'm the one least...suited to taking care of kids. Felix is social, caring, always got the energy to play with them, Audrey is organised, knows how to manage kids, can afford to get them the toys and shit they need! Whilst I...I'm just a grump, a sad asshole, who barely ever has any energy"
He pressed his face into his hand, rubbing his forehead as he went on
"They deserve somebody who's gonna be more involved in their life...more than I can give them. But there's no other fucking choice. Mum and Dad ain't in the equation anymore, Felix doesn't have the space for them and Audrey is so busy...they have nowhere else to go...but I'm not fit to be a parent, I'm not fit to take care of them, they need so much more. I just want them to be happy, but I don't think they are happy"
He let his head fall back on the edge of the couch, he didn't look upset, he just seemed blank. Dead even. The only hint of emotion they could see on his face was a shimmer of anger in his eyes..and that anger was towards himself.
What does bug do?
6) Do they enjoy celebrating their birthday?
7) Scenario #2 (ik I'm talking alot rn! It's the holidays I have nothing else to do rn lol)
Most of the Bugs had went out to town in order to collect some new resources, but Chester has stayed back to take care of the baby bugs. Bug had overslept that morning so by the time they woke up the Bugs were already gone...so they bad to stay behind with Chez and the little ones.
Bug and Chez had been talking bout how everything had been going the past few weeks, how the recent town visits had gone, Chez made some sort of joke which resulted in Bug giving him a rough flick to the forehead, this made him chuckle.
Suddenly Chez had to quickly run off as one of the young ones had gotten themself stuck in the top branches of a tree
As soon as he was gone though Fran appeared in his place, an unusual smile creeping on her face as she started quickly signing to Bug
'you know he really cares about you, he isn't very good at showing it but he really cares about all of you'
Bug smiled and questioned Fran on how she was so sure that he cared, she giggled before responding
'cause if he didn't he would've shut down completely when you poked him, he doesn't like people being anywhere near him let alone touch him at all'
Fran kept smiling as she looked over at her older brother, struggling immensely to get the little kid out of the tree. (Like comically on his tippee toes, arms stretched right up as the kid clung to the branches.)
Bug thought about all the times Chez had hugged them, not even just them, all the Bugs! He was always offering a hug, patting them on the back, poking them, etc...and all of it was just a big show of how much he trusted/ cared abt them
*hands the mic to you* here ya go
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bumbleblurr · 2 years ago
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listen I think bulkhead is far MORE Boyfriend Material than most of the tfa cast but I doubt the majority of the fandom is ready for that conversation
#i admit i do obsess over the 3 out of 6 main guys the fandom goes crazy over#(the 6 main guys being bee‚ b1urr‚ shocks‚ megs‚ op‚ & blitz)#but in my defense. i only would want to kiss bee and thats it the other 2 i like to chop into pieces and cook them in a stir fry#bulkhead though is by far more hunka hunka burning love than all these losers#more hubba hubba even akdgdldhdlhffl#he goes so unappreciated tho including by myself i dont post any of my drawings of him :[#i think maybe its bc the writers dont. Bother giving him a huge struggle or anything so ppl dont get as invested in him#which could have Definitely been done bc bulkhead had this whole thing in the first ep#where hes like ''im not a brainless brute!! i have a sensitive side too!''#though they. resolve that by ''forget sensitive smashing stuff is fun'' bc this is a show for little boys in the early 2000s#oh wait did i say first ep i meant like the. 3rd ep ig#ok anyway#they do?? kinda touch on it again in later episodes here and there like the dinobots ep but its never.#Really Explored as much as i think it could have.#bc honestly i Love the arc bulkhead goes though where he goes to art#to express himself & kinda try to prove to the world that theres more depth to him than just The Big Guy#but they use it to be like ''BULKHEAD SUCKS AT ART LMAO!!! look at everybody making fun of bulkhead bc isnt it SOOOO funny''#like its not :[ but again this is a boys cartoon from the early 2000s idk what i was expecting#i think if it were made later it would have tackled that a lot better#and Actually have bulkhead being an artist be smth a lot more meaningful#idk maybe thats like me as a sappy artist though#at least the little kernels of a well crafted compelling bulkhead focused narrative are there. they just never put them in the ground#ogh maybe i should start obsessing over bulkhead and do the shit canon failed him on#this is how bulkhead lovers can win#i'll singlehandedly convince everyone that man is kissable (/j i dont actually think i have that skill to do that)#🐝 could you repeat the last part? 🟦
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yuzukult · 3 years ago
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Oh my gold! I really love your series From Home. This is actually one of my fav and I tend to reread it a lot. Thank you for sharing this wonderful masterpiece! And also, can I ask for a drabble from "From Home" where Jungkook will finally ask her to marry him- Thank you! 💖
— a from home drabble 03 title: donut rings word count: 1,322 prompt: when jungkook proposes. warnings: none! pg clean baby. some bad words tho. a/n: as requested!! i... sat on this for a while!! sorry. i got distracted and somehow it got lost in the depths of my other docs. :D hopefully this is good enough for you guys !! :D
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“You’re doing it all wrong,” you snap, snatching the dough from Jungkook’s hand while rolling your eyes. “With those muscles, I thought you’d be better at kneading it harder.”
Jungkook smiles, a hearty laugh escaping from his chest as he shakes his head at your reaction. You’re still impatient, oftentimes shoving him out of the kitchen when he attempts to put effort in lending a hand, but you’re strict about him entering your “zone.” He’s doing his best though; he’s learned to make pasta (using the uncooked pasta from boxes in supermarket aisles and not freshly made dough that you prefer), and even cook rice in the rice cooker.
But spontaneously, he thought that teaching himself (or well, watching the Food Network show him) how to make homemade donuts from scratch would impress you. After all, just because you got the girl doesn’t mean you suddenly stop trying.
“I thought you weren’t going to be home until later,” he grins widely, cheeks and forehead smeared with flour, not to mention the dust that sprinkles across his apron and even onto his t-shirt underneath. “I wanted to surprise you.”
You scoff. “Surprise me with a messy kitchen?” Clicking your tongue, you nudge him to the side with your hip. “Sounds more like you’re asking me to get all pissy.”
Jungkook walks over from behind, snaking his arms around your frame while nuzzling his nose into the crook of your neck. “I wanted to do something for you since you’ve been so swamped at work lately. Wouldn’t it be nice if you came home to your hot shot boyfriend making donuts?”
Sighing, you roll out the dough to be half an inch thick before reaching over for your donut cutter. “No. Especially when he’s doing it wrong. What’s the point of doing this if you’re just gonna fuck it up?”
Sometimes, your words can come off harsh. But Jungkook knows the love behind it, because there’s a lot of it and your actions are there to show it. The upgraded apartment the two of you share, to the furniture you bought together, and to those date nights that occur at least once a week, something you and him had collectively put a plentiful amount of into, Jungkook can confirm your love is real.
“Baby,” he calls you out warmly with that infatuated look on his face. “There’s obviously a learning curve. Gimme some time, will you?”
What really softens you is the way he still kisses your shoulder lovingly, disregarding your sharp tone because he can differentiate when you’re actually mad and when you’re just nagging. It slowly tugs a slight smile upon your lips, and the way the corner twitches signals Jungkook that he’s broken the barrier.
“How about we fry them together? That way you can see if I’m doing it wrong and correct me.”
“Fine.”
It’s a repeated and revisited lesson that Jungkook learns—home is not always physically a place, but sometimes and more often than not, is found in a person. A physical home is just a shelter, someplace where home is located.
And it’s you. You’re home.
He thinks about times he’s studied abroad, lived in Busan, at the estate, his old apartment and now here, how he’s lived in so many places but none of them felt like… this. This is what home is, and Jungkook would be an idiot to not tie it down while he can.
“Mingyu is engaged,” Jungkook casually mentions the name of a coworker he’s been spending a lot of time with lately while cautiously observing your reaction to the news. You don’t budge. “He’s been… waiting to propose for her for a while, and although she never stated the time, he figured he would guess and he did well… obviously.”
“Mmm,” you hum, unamused and not entirely listening. “Congrats to him.”
“Which brings the question—“
“When are we getting engaged?”
Jungkook freezes when you lift your head up to lock with his eyes, stunned at the boldness of your question. He was going to ease his way into the topic, but you’re faster than him.
Silent, he isn’t quite sure what to say. You’ve left him speechless, buffering like a YouTube video that refuses to load.
“Well?”
“I—“ he’s stuttering over his own words. “Well, yeah, I sorta wanted to know that.”
By now, there are a couple of donuts that have been fried and cooled, resting on top of a rack on the counter, and they’re starting to look tempting for reasons other than for eating. “Well, would you like to get married?”
He gives you that ‘you-know-the-answer’ look, but the expression you counter back with has him caving into defeat to give a straightforward answer. “Of course I want to marry you. You know I have—it’s never not crossed my mind. But I know how you are. You’re in no rush to do any of that, and that’s totally fine, I can wait—”
“Okay, let’s get married.”
Choking on his own saliva, it takes him a couple minutes to regain his breathing back to normal, but you continue to stand there, blinking blankly with metal tongs in hand as the donuts fry in a pool of oil in the pan. It’s a blunt way to execute a deeply important question like that, but coming from you, there doesn’t seem to be any stress or burden that carries with it that it normally does when people prepare to ask.
“What?”
“You want to get married. Let’s get married.”
“But you don’t want to get married.”
Grabbing a donut off the metal rack, you peek through the hole in the middle to glance at your awfully confused boyfriend, standing there in complete confusion at your unpredictable actions.
“Jeon Jungkook, you may think I don’t want to get married, and you’re sort of right. I don’t,” his shoulders drop at this revelation, admittingly disappointed by your confession, but you’re not done just yet. “But… I met you, and frankly, I still didn’t want to get married. When we started dating, I can’t exactly say that I felt like I was ready to get married, or the thought ever crossed my mind but… especially lately, I… I don’t know. It’s not like we have to get married but I like the idea of that for us.”
“So…” He chews on his bottom lip anxiously. “Does this mean…”
“Whenever you’re ready to get married, I’m ready.”
Face bright, Jungkook straightens himself in excitement. “Well, if you say it like that, it makes me wanna get married now.” Eyes skimming the room, nothing quite catches his eyes until he spots the donuts sitting on the rack. “How about…” Grabbing one, he peeks at you through the hole this time, taking your hand in his.
“My finger isn’t that big.”
“We can get the jewelers to readjust the size.”
A mischievous smile on his face, he can’t help but still push the donut onto your ring finger and hold it up into the light. “So, does this mean we can for real for real get married? I can call that jewelry store and set up an appointment. This… this is nice but… I wanna get you something better.”
Examining the donut that splits your fingers far apart in size, you can’t help but let out a laugh. “I guess that would be more appropriate and sustainable than a donut on my finger.”
“Well, you still look pretty nonetheless,” he says cheekily, holding your hand against his chest, just above his heart. “But you’re right. A donut would start molding.”
“Not to mention fall apart. It’s already crumbling because we’re moving so much.”
“Mm. Least our love isn’t crumbling.”
You scrunch up your nose. “Jungkook.”
With a kiss pressed to your palm, he smiles warmly into it. “I love you.”
And with a swollen, threatening to burst heart, Jungkook’s favorite phrase spills from your lips.
“Love you too.”
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arosesstorm · 3 years ago
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Maze - Newt (14)
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words count:2k                                     reader!xNewt
warnings: none I believe, maybe swearing
summary: you wake up in the Box, no memories, no explanations; the only thing that stands out is a certain name, written in bold on the palm of your hand
English is not my first language, enjoy-
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CHAP 14
That night was by far the saddest out of the ones I spent in the Glade.
I was getting used of my pace there; eating with Minho, Fry, Chuck, spending afternoons with Newt, sharing nights…
Newt.
I felt a sudden urge to throw up.
Not only the boy had run speaking all around my stuff but he also didn’t move a finger while he watched Gally drag Thomas away.
I was angry at the blond, but more realistically, I was sad.
I felt my heart torn apart, like this had happened before, like it was not the first time I felt betrayed.
It didn’t matter how my rationality kept screaming at me that I should have been more carful than to play around, but the pain I felt discovering the person I grew the closest to in the whole world had turned his back on me.
I felt like crying, but I reasoned I would have looked pathetic, so I held on, letting myself waste deep breaths from time to time.
By dinner time a sneaky Minho made its way over, muttering something.
He hold a plate of food and some water.
I didn’t show up at dinner, even tho I was starving, probably to manifest my disappoint in what the Gladers had done.
"Brought you something" he muttered.
When he handed them to me, he sit on my bed, looking up at my face.
"I can’t believe the shank" he confessed, his eyes sorry even thought he would have never said it out loud.
I scoffed, not in the mood to talk about him.
"Where is Thomas?" I asked.
"In the pit" 
"When are they gonna let him out?"
"Tomorrow first thing in the morning there’s a meeting to decide what to do." He scratched his temples "pointless if you ask me, they have time to lose apparently"
"So they’ll let him out tomorrow morning?" 
The boy nodded, adding, : "don’t worry, spent my nights here too, it’s rather peaceful"
I nodded, eating something quickly, I was starving.
"I don’t trust Alby" I muttered, that was the first time I said it out loud and probably the first one I told that to myself too.
"I think he’s too…" a breath "fanatic".
Minho nodded silently, neither saying yes or no, then he stood up, still looking down at me.
"I have to go now shank, have a good night".
My eyes softened a little, nodding my head.
But before Minho was out of sight, I heard him call my name, turning around.
"He’s gonna come" he whispered.
"Tell him to get lost" I replied.
"Will do, even though I don’t think that’s gonna keep him away" .
Like that, Minho disappeared from my view, his footsteps background as I fell to the ground, betrayed.
It didn’t take long for me to fall asleep, my side pressed against the hard wood, as my head rested on my arm.
I must have slept for hours, maybe less, maybe more, but when I slowly opened my eyes, I had to adjust to the fading light.
It was dawn in the Glade, and like every other day, the sun had disappeared, leaving that bluish, grayish light that helped enough to see things clearly.
Just above our heads, the pink shade was traveling its way down; it would have been dark soon.
"Morning" I heard mutter, as my head shot upwards.
Newt was resting on the ground, his back was pressed into the wall in front of the bed as his eyes looked softly at my face.
"I don’t wanna talk to you" I replied, my sleep gifting me with an headache.
"How long have you been there anyway?"
"Couple hours" he shrugged, "didn’t wanna wake you up" he justified.
I shook my head.
"Get lost" I half screamed, his eyes leaving my face for a minute as his hands ruffled his hair.
"I had no idea they would put him in there" he confessed, his voice was soft, kind.
But nothing mattered at the moment, not even his honey-brown eyes shining as he held his face between his hands.
I did’t argue, hoping he would have left sooner, but I was delusional.
The boy stood up, making his way to the bed.
"Trust me, I had no clue"
"Trust you?!" It came out harsher than intended and I was glad.
I got up as well, his face now close to mine.
"Where did it get me eh?" 
The boy kept silent as I kept on speaking, I felt the burning rage of a thousands Glade’s fake suns.
"I knew you were gonna betray me" 
His eyes hardened.
"You think I wanted to? We’ve been here for a long time, a very long time" he took a breath "if what you told me is valuable information you should have told everyone else, Alby at least!" 
"Forget Alby! I trusted you!" 
Newt chuckled: "I’m second-in-command, you can’t expect me to do the wrong thing" 
A laugh escaped my lips.
"Silly me then for thinking I mattered more than your stupid role in a stupid rat trap" 
"You do matter more!" 
Again, I kept on laughing, bitterly.
"Sure, whatever you say, just leave me alone" 
He sighed "I need you to know I had to do it, for the sake of this place, of its people."
"I’d never betray you" his heart scattering to pieces as my face kept staring down at the ground.
"I care about you, more than you realize" he muttered, taking a step back.
"I told you to trust Thomas" I mumbled, the boy freezing waiting for my next words.
"I told you to trust me, that I was positive he was the key, but you had to do the hero, the good guy" 
His eyes widened as he took another step forward.
"Have you thought about it for a second?" He asked.
"If what you told me is true, he willingly put himself through all of this, he willingly helped the Creators to send him up!"
"What if he wanted to say something just before being dragged away? We don’t know that Newt!" 
"Yeah but he does"
"He can’t remember!" 
"We’ll see that in the morning"
He turned to leave.
"I want to be there"
"You shouldn’t" he sighed out of frustration.
"I want to help Thomas!"
"What’s with you and this Greenie huh?" His face hard again.
That was my clue to step forward, now only inches from his face.
His eyes softened, "please, I didn’t tell the all story, I kept you out of it"
"Doesn’t matter" I mumbled "I’ll be there like it or not" turning around I sat on the bed.
That was Newt’s clue to leave the room and he did, hopefully, but without forgetting to give me sad eyes. 
I laid back again, trying to catch some sleep, succeeding quicker than imagined, slipping into a world far away from that.
Where lovers don’t have to choose and kids can grow old.
Morning came uninvited, as I heard footsteps approach my room.
"Rise and shine" Minho’s voice echoed in my scalp.
I stood up, still too sleepy to argue.
The boy took me with him to the Meeting Hut.
Every Glader was still asleep, the sun was not out yet; what time was it? Five? Maybe six? 
As we entered the now known door, I eyed the keepers, every one of them sat in place, only Minho was missing.
It was always strange seeing them all that way.
It felt like going to trial, even thought I didn’t know how I knew that.
In the centre, Thomas sat.
"This is ridiculous" I heard Minho announce, annoyed.
"Why is she here? She’s not a keeper" Gally spoke.
"She stays" Newt clarified.
Alby cut them off, waving a hand, gesturing for me to sit in the back of the room, which I did, rather unhappily.
"I announce this meeting started" the boy continued.
"Thomas here, is involved in strange matters".
I scoffed, Alby ignored me.
"We now know what we are put through before the Box and that Y/N and the new greenie have a…connection" 
I barged in "what was the definition Newt? Cute love story, I think?"
The boy stared at me.
"Can’t she shut up?" Gally scoffed.
"She has a name" I backfired.
"Back to important matters" Alby protested, sowing a patience I never saw before: "the thing is, he may work for the Creators" 
"I don’t" Thomas mumbled.
"We didn’t ask you to speak" Alby.
I rose up from my seat, done.
Newt’s eyes pleading for me to behave.
"I’m so sick and tired of you all assuming everyone here has a connection with the Creators." 
I took a breath, regaining composure.
"You guys are losing track here, I wanna get out of this place as I suppose you all want to. Thomas no longer has his memories, how could he possibly be by the Creator’s side?" 
"That is what he’s telling us, what if he’s lying?" A boy I didn’t recognize spoke.
"He’s not, look at him. Does he looks like some secret spy?"
The boys kept silent but Gally scoffed, speaking: "I remember well saying her hand thing with Newt was strange, let alone her behaving this way for a Greenie she doesn’t even know. She’s unstable, I say we keep her in the pit." 
"Forget about it" Minho quickly clarified. 
"You really are obsessed with me" I backfired.
"Listen here" Newt rose up as well.
"We now all know the bloody story of the lovely dream, can we just keep on going on with our lives?" 
"What? You were the one who thought it was fair to share the information and now you take their side?" Gally stood up.
"I don’t need nobody by my side." I clarified, taking a breath.
"He could’t possibly be with the creators or they wouldn’t have sent him here to die" 
That last word brought dead silence in the room, then, in the corner someone spoke up: "she has a point" Winston said.
"Yeah, we can’t condemn him for what? A dream?" Frypan added.
Alby sighed, looking at me dead in the eyes.
"We can’t have you running around creating problems" 
My heart sank, where they really gonna leave me in the pit?
His eyes shifted to Thomas.
"I don’t get why you’re here, if you’re like us or if something’s going on with you, but next time, in the pit, for as long as I want to."
Thomas looked annoyed and scared at the same time.
His eyes darted to the door.
"You can go for now" a breath "we all have jobs to go to anyway".
I stood by Thomas, smiling kindly and waiting for him to leave the place with me.
As we exited the hut, nobody followed us outside.
"So" he broke the silence "dreaming about me?" He smiled and I quietly laughed.
As we made our way through the Glade, he turned to me.
"I’m sorry you had to find out this way, must feel strange" I confessed.
"Not really" he shrugged, "your words the other night, they kinda…stroke a point" 
"You mean you remember?" 
"No just, I felt like I know you" 
I nodded, thoughtful.
We kept quiet for a bit, reaching the eating place, when Thomas stopped, moving uncomfortably.
"You and Newt…well…he looked kinda pissed the other night"
I squeezed my eyes.
"I want to choke him at the moment" 
He laughed. 
"I already tried once, should finish the work." 
"What?" The brunette asked, still laughing.
"That, my friend, is a long story, should tell you sometime" 
The brunette nodded.
Silence again, his smile fell as my eyes got darker.
"He looked sorry" mumbled Thomas.
I nodded, quickly shifting my sight to the tables.
"Let’s go eat something, shall we?"
Mia 
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uleavemebreathless · 2 months ago
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Yes to all this❤️I definitely find Leela so relatable when you view her from a cptsd lens. Forgive me if I'm not super coherent rn (I’ve been busy and haven’t gotten much sleep lately😭) and I'll probably leave a lot out but I wanna explain why I relate to her as someone with cptsd/childhood trauma. This is just scratching the surface and I’ll probably elaborate more on this later. I’m actually working on a fic that extrapolates on this and deals with Leela’s trauma that I’ll be able to work my own takes/experiences into.
I think a lot of Leela’s behaviour can be explained by cptsd, even the stuff that isn’t explicitly implied as such by the show. Her forgetting she accidentally impregnated Kif makes a lot more sense if you consider it something she actively repressed through dissociation. I mean, just look at her face while she’s carrying Kif through the swamp. She is not mentally There right now. As someone who was abandoned by her family(funnily enough, in production order this ep comes right before Leela’s Homeworld)I think it fucks her up that she accidentally created life with her dna that she isn’t even technically the parent of. The alcohol jokes in COALB(and Xmas) weird me out a little, but addictions/substance abuse is one of the symptoms of CPTSD so I read the jokes as a Leela self-medicating to deal with the stressful situation she’s suddenly found herself in.
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As someone who experienced a traumatic childhood, I crave stability. I want the truly stable happy family I never felt like I got as a kid and I can see that in Leela in spades. Teenage Mutant Leela’s Hurdles is such a satisfying cptsd episode for me, even if it wasn’t intended as such. Leela desperately trying to create the childhood she never really had but ultimately accepting that everything she went through in her life made her the person she is today means so much to me.
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I’ve spent my whole life trying to fill the gaps in my life with bad decisions and I can see my own actions in Leela.
You can see this in her relationships in the series. Over the course of the show, she dates men who she think will give her what she thinks she needs. You’ve got Adlai, the doctor with a pathological obsession with normalcy, who she believes will give her the normal family life she's always desired(complete with a kid they decided to adopt like a week into dating). Alcazar, the last member of her species, who she believes helps her feel like finally belongs somewhere. Chaz, the slick successful career guy, who she believes will give her the acceptance and clout she craves after a lifetime of bullying and being looked down on for being different.
Meanwhile there’s Fry, who lives in squalor, has terrible hygiene, is deeply immature and selfish. At first, he doesn’t seem the like the kind of guy Leela needed or wanted. And yeah, for a lot of the series, Fry wasn’t an ideal life partner. But he was a good friend to Leela and he eventually matured into exactly the kind of person she needed in her life. He’s honest and fun and sweet and dependable.
I think Fry really does give her what she always needed in a romantic relationship. He can't fix her shitty childhood, but he does encourage her to heal her inner child. He encourages her to be a little silly and let her indulge herself occasionally. He encourages her to be more open about her feelings and express them in a healthy way. He understands her like I don’t think anyone ever has before.
I saw some posts recently complaining about Leela's writing in Hulu, which I found… a little confusing. I can only assume it’s coming from people who are just disappointed that Leela isn’t the prim hardass she was in season 1 bc. beyond some of the more sexist writing in HTWW1 and PatP(tho she was under a spell and the whole episode is non-canon so… whatever lol), I love how she's been written so far, especially so far in season 9. In eps like The One Amigo and Beauty and the Bug, we get to see her self-indulgent silly side, stuffing her face with buggalo legs, interacting with the kids and insisting they’ve gotta dress in disguises for the big heist. To me, it comes off as someone who’s finally letting themselves relax and embrace who they truly are. Leela basically had to raise herself as a kid and now she’s finally allowing herself to relax and enjoy her life.
There’s obviously way more to say about Leela and trauma and I will later. She’s super hashtag relatable to me.😭
I’d love to hear you ramble about CPTSD Leela as someone who doesn’t know much about it
so a lot of this is actually inspired by @uleavemebreathless and her experience with CPTSD and how she sees it in leela. i did independently come to the same conclusion through researching symptoms but my angle is more of a psychologist lens than a personal lens.
so CPTSD is complex PTSD and emerges from long-term trauma as opposed to a short-term traumatic experience. this could include war, domestic violence, or child neglect/abuse. so growing up neglected and bullied and told you were worthless and unlovable fits the criteria for the sort of trauma that creates CPTSD.
now a lot of this is pure headcanon because we don't have much evidence of leela having flashbacks and nightmares or dissociating in the manner typical of PTSD. but CPTSD severely affects the way one handles relationships and emotional regulation.
we know that leela has serious trouble regulating her emotions, particularly when it comes to anger, as she's outright said she uses "violent outbursts" as a coping mechanism ("lethal inspection"). she has a particular tendency to struggle with self-regulation when talked down to and told she can't do something -- "the sting," "bender's game" and "mobius dick" have her get overdefensive and ramp up her impulsive defiant behavior because she's told she can't do something and i interpret this in part as a trauma reaction. she has a compulsive need to prove herself. we also see her instinctively fight off people crowding her in "hell is other robots" and she's generally hypervigilant and defensive. because nobody else looked out for her so she learned to look out for herself.
i think she also has a wonky sense of self as part of this trauma, at least early in the series, because she grew up not knowing what her species even was. i think part of why she commits to unhealthy relationships (adlai, alcazar) is because she's desperate for stability and family when she thinks she otherwise has no chance at it. she's better at dumping chaz because by that point she's got a better support system (her parents and fry). but she struggles a lot with trusting fry and sometimes assumes the worst of him because (on top of fry giving her some decent reasons to be suspect pre-character-development) she can't really accept being loved for who she is, she's been manipulated multiple times in relationships and doesn't want to take that risk with fry until she's absolutely certain he loves her.
we also see in the most recent episode she really struggles to make friends and it likely doesn't come naturally to her because she was bullied and isolated for a lot of her life and didn't even want to try until she had something more controlled to practice with (i.e. chelsea). she's very awkward and repetitive in these friendships because it's not natural to keep a relationship for her.
in general i think she's struggling a lot more than people acknowledge compared to characters like fry and we really ought to take that into consideration when discussing her arc. she's come a long way from an awful beginning! i'm proud of her!
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