#so done with you Mel >:'c

[vivianbernadetteaurora]

Zig zig zig zigAhhhhhhh

What is it with being in a band or go band or boy band and two members or sometimes more falling in love? I get it that’s spending all this time together and all these moments in their life and you obviously get ready close., Spice Girls even shed a flat together Melanie admitted to the affair, but it’s a bit embarrassed because Geri is now rich and posh, but you can see from all these pictures how close they are and the video footage. I’ve just done tick-tock with them in the videos., currently watching the Jimmy gulzar which is Melanie B’s ex-husband, and it is supposed that Jerry left the Spice Girls because Melanie kind of dropped her for this man and I think it really broke her heart,. She got pregnant and married very quickly.💓💓💓 and the ex-husband even admitted they had a very close, speculating to the sexual part. we have always known that Mel is bisexual but Geri Capacity is a bit more secretive and sensitive about her affairs because it was a special time in her life, knowing that she’s a cancer Venus as I know that this will have really if it’s true🥀✨🦋 these two beautiful women had the best years of their life together they call them meri I didn’t even know.

Like Louis and Harry Styles these two have this relationship that’s very unique and special and it is interesting to look at at this dynamic in these groups, or you could look at Robbie and Gary Barlow and see there is homoerotic, these people do try and have to try and sell their sexuality a lot of the time so the groups con queer bait but they can’t be queer is a massive thing and they but if you footage of Louis and Harry together you see the same kind of these two had and they had a ride the Spice Girls made America all around the world so I imagine they had so much fun together the heartbreak must’ve been inconsolable though so much so had to distance herself away from Melanie and all the other Spice Girls. They also Melanie wanted to leave or if they were going to leave they left at the same time because those two believe that they were the Spice Girls.

And if you think about it, they really were the main ones they were the ones he stood out. Their outfits were captivating and they were had the stage presents both of them. They weren’t the best maybe vocally but Jerry definitely had that vocal voice that was different to the other, where I feel Melanie C was the best singer.

The sad part of it was three of them who had eating disorders, Melanie C Victoria and JerryM you can even see with Victoria that she got so skinny it’s ridiculous. She is absolutely tiny because I didn’t realise that she got completely ridiculed and called fat which is so wrong when you look back at the culture of the 90s and the 2000s when it came to some people that were called fat not even fat at all., and we don’t do that anymore and part of me thinks that’s part of me thinks it’s right, is it very sad? It’s a very personal thing to someone and to bring that out and try and make it a be thing is horrible.

You can see that angle with Melanie B still this day over Jerry even though she’ll try and say that she’s over it also won’t she’ll sometimes say that she’s not over it and that she left on my birthday and she did that deliberately which I believe is probably true. It was her way of getting back at her because she got married was going to get married and then got pregnant and left her for this man and left her high and dry.

[cherry-cosmoz]

Chapter 3 : new surroundings

This might be my favorite chapter 💪

You wake up in somebodies arms. Without a second thought think hard. You rip her right arm clean off. You scramble to your bag she was holding grabbing your dad’s gun from it and releasing 3 rounds into her skull. Out of breath you hear someone “h-holy fuck she absolutely slaughtered c-clockwork.” the crazed brunette looks at his now massacred ally “Big man wasn’t kidding when she said she was bat shit crazy” the man in the white mask spoke up. There was a man in a yellow hoodie and black mask but he stayed silent. “Who the fuck are you. Stay away from me!” She says The man with the white mask puts out his cigarette “listen kid you listen to us we might not hurt you” Fuck that! She snaps the twitchy brunettes leg. The silent hooded man quickly shot you in the thigh. The brunette twitching and laughing “picked the wrong p-person out the three m-missy, I can’t feel p-pain” he laughs some more The hooded man walks up to you and throws you over his shoulder. The twitchy brunette stuffs his hand in your jacket grabbing your phone. “L-let’s see what w-we have here” He clicks the camera roll “Fuck.” She says thinking of the previous selfies “Holy s-shit balls masky look at this shit!” The masked man speaks up “no shut up kid I don’t want to see selfies” well shit its kinda weird now who am i kidding they just watched you slaughter their friend. “N-no it’s d-different look!” The man you now know is masky looks at the photo of mel holding up a severed head and a peace sign “Huh maybe that’s why he wants her?” Melanie finally speaks up “I know what you’re looking at but 1 who wants me? 2 where is my dad.” the girl now worried on where her body bags were. “l-looking at it he’s d-dead” okay smart ass obviously hes fucking dead. “Yeah I know that fucktard where’s my bags with him inside of it” Masky speaks up “don’t know the rake will probably eat him” Melanie talks again “what the fuck is a rake” The hooded man finally speaks up “shut up bitch all you do is talk wait till we are done walking or something” Whatever it looked like there was a rickety cabin ahead. The rude hooded man throws Melanie down on the porch “Alright what are your god damn names I’ve already been shot and kidnapped” Melanie spoke “y-you broke my a-arm” the brunette spoke “YOU CANT FEEL PAIN DICK CHEESE” Melanie screams at him. “M-my names Toby and t-thats hoodie and t-thats-" before the brunnete finishes she cuts him off. “Masky I know, now why do you want me here.” the hooded man which is now known to go by "hoodie" speaks up again. "listen kid, WE don't want you here, the operator does." your now confused who the fuck is that. " the oper what?" masky goes to say something but the twitchy brunette cuts him off. "you know those weird slenderman stories" your still confused until you remember. earlier this year two girls stabbed their friend in the woods for that same man. " is this the same slenderman from the stabbing?" you think on how you hear about the girl that got stabbed 19 times and crawled out to get help purely running off of adrenaline. toby speaks again "ben told me about that. but yes its t-the same guy, those girls dont know what its like." well shit i know im gonna find out. "take her to EJ." alright who the fuck are all these people. we have operator, ben, and now letters. toby quickly gets closer and picks you up like a feather, he smells like pine,blood,and urine. not the best combo all i can hope is that they have showers. your thoughts were interrupted by your phone shaking violently, toby looks at it to see an elf looking entity "ben why are you in her phone." so theres one name off the checklist. "chill out man operator told me to do so and you know how it gets lonely in here" he says in a unserious puppy voice. "give me my phone" you snatch it out of tobys hands, before he could object a boy around your age pops out of your screen. "whats cookin good lookin" you couldnt help but giggle a little, meanwhile toby looks like lazari just ripped his heart out and ate it. he doesnt know why but hes...jealous?

[lullabyes22-blog]

Favorite Arcane quotes?

Vander: "You know... but you don't."

Truer words could not be spoken when you're an adult trying to impart the sum of your experiences to someone younger, who hasn't undergone the same struggles, and lacks the context to tie their actions to a broader consequence. It's a Parenting 101 line.

Powder: "I only wanted to help... I only wanted to help..."

10,000 kudos to Mia Sinclair Jeness for capturing the gut-wrenching sound of a child whose world is literally collapsing in real-time as she comes to grips with what she's inadvertently done.

Mel: "But Kino says war is a failure of statecraft." (:c!)

It's just such an adorably childlike argument. Like - she so obviously looks up to her brother as much as her mother, and their contradictory worldviews are causing her hella cognitive dissonance. You can also tell Kino, like Mel, is a pacifist, but accepted as a 'true' Medarda because he weaponizes it in his sphere, much in the same way Mel learns to do.

Ambessa: "Mark me, child. If you want to survive in this world, you must learn to be both the Fox - and the Wolf."

Ambessa is paraphrasing text from Machiavelli's The Prince, and giving Mel advice on statesmanship, "One must therefore be a fox to recognize traps, and a lion to frighten wolves." She's not entirely wrong. There are certain spheres where this is deeply solid business advice. But it also runs counter to the nature of a sensitive, subtle, intellectually gifted girl like Mel...

Jayce: "Progress."

Silco: "Far be it for me to stand in the way."

Just - such a loaded exchange in what is already an interaction brimful with metatextual and symbolic meaning. Who gets to define progress? Who truly stands in the way? Who has caused more damage in its achievement - and whose cause is the purer?

Jinx on Silco: "Excise your doubts, Jinx... Be what they fear."

Silco would make a terrifying motivational speaker - but also this is terrible advice to give to a child suffering from trauma. It also shows how Silco's own methodology for addressing grief is to dive down and rip it to shreds rather than sit with it and let it breathe. Then again, in an environment like Zaun, he has little time to sit with anything - let alone something that makes him or his child vulnerable.

Vi: "I never meant to leave you."

Such fascinating - and heartbreaking - word-choice. Like Vi made the conscious decision to be parted from her sister - rather than being full-on chloroformed and dragged off by a grown man in the dead of night. So much guilt in that single line, and so much acknowledgement for the mutual dependency between the sisters, and how Vi perceives herself as having failed her 'protector' role.

[naturesapphic]

Love at first sight

Melanie Martinez x actor!fem!reader

Warnings: cussing, fluff, mentions of ed

Word count: 2,491

~wheels on the bus-

Today I’m going to be meeting Melanie Martinez and be in her movie. I’ve been a fan of her since 2012 when she was in the voice and I’m so excited to meet her. Im playing one of her best friends in the movie which I think is really cool. I was getting my pink and white dress on when one of the assistants peeked their head in and told me I have five minutes until we start. A few moments later I went outside to the bus where everyone was and that’s when I saw her laughing with the director and some of the camera people. She looks so beautiful laughing, how her gap shows and how her laugh sounds. I’m so happy to finally meet her.

I walked over to Melanie and her smile never faded away. “Hey! Y/n right? It’s so nice to see you! I can’t wait to work beside you in this.” She squealed out happily. You smiled back “I can’t wait to work with you on this project. I know it’s going to be the best movie coming out this year”. You said with a smile and she giggled. “I don’t know about the best movie of this year but I’ll take it! Thank you so much for your support! I really appreciate it.” She blushed.

“Okay everyone! Get in character and in place!” He yelled out as everyone went into the bus and getting ready to start. I sat in front of Melanie and elita as I was going to be their friends throughout the movie. Right now, this is where they meet. I can’t wait to work with Melanie and make new friends!

~class fight~

For the next shot we are doing is for class fight. Which is one of my favorite songs on the album. After we filmed the whole bus scene, we went straight ahead to where Melanie’s character crybaby goes to her first class and interacts with Brandon and gets that note from Kelly. Before we started The scene where me and Elita’s character goes underneath our sleeping bags and find each other through some sort of tunnel. Melanie was on her knees practicing some of the dance moves for the movie and I was just in awe of her. Her doing something so simple is just so angelic. We were finishing up that scene where elita starts a fire in her hand, little flames started to go everywhere and me and Melanie starting freaking out to the point of laughing. She went over to Elita’s hand and blew it out. When it was out, all of us were on laying on the ground laughing. Melanie’s laugh is the absolute cutest ever. After we finished that scene, me and Melanie decided to go ahead and get a snack since we were hungry. We stood by the snack table and talked until we had to go back to filming. I’m really getting a big crush on her.

We went back outside for the next scene of the official class fight where Kelly beats up crybaby. Maggie was on top of Melanie as she was pretending to throw punches at her. I was a little jealous that she was on top of Melanie but I brushed those thoughts away as it was stupid to even be jealous. It’s for the movie! There’s no time for feelings and to be jealous. This movie is important to Melanie and I can’t ruin it for her and for the others.

My thoughts were interrupted with Melanie suddenly grabbing my hand and skipping to hair and makeup. “I want to get to know you better while they fix up my hair for the principal music video.” She said excitedly while her brown orbs locked into my y/e/c. Melanie sat down and brought a dog on her set. I’m guessing it’s Melanie’s because the dog seemed so excited to see her. As she was getting her hair done we were talking and learning lots from each other. We were both laughing and had huge smiles on our faces by the time she was done with her hair and had to go back on set. I’m definitely forming a crush on her.

~the principal~

Melanie and Maggie were shooting a scene where they get sent to the principals office and Melanie was practicing her dance for the shot and Maggie was standing there laughing as Mel kept doing the dance over and over and messing up on purpose.

Mel saw me and came over to me to talk “how is it going? Isn’t this so fun?” She asked you beaming. “It has been a blast so far! I can’t wait to continue this journey with everyone. Im loving this and I can’t wait to see the final product.” You exclaimed. Melanie blushed and smiled brightly at you. “Im so glad you are enjoying yourself y/n/n.” She said as she looked deep in your eyes. You blushed bright red and played with the hems of your dress. Melanie took note of this and smirked to herself.

~show and tell~

It was the next day and Melanie was dressed up for the next music video which was show and tell. She was talking to the director when I walked in and she immediately beamed at me. I smiled back and waved at her and she waved back at me.

They were helping Melanie’s with her strings since she will dancing like she’s a puppet on strings. I went over to her and smiled “you look cute as a puppet” you said giggling. She blushed and smiled at you “haha thanks! You don’t look too back yourself. That dress fits you nice.” She flirted back at you.

You changed dresses since we were doing a new scene and it was a new day. Mel’s style is truly something else but she makes it work, not just for her but for everyone else. Y’all kept talking about different things then sadly it had to be cut short since she has to do the scene. You put two thumbs up and say “good luck Mel!” You said happily. She giggled and put two thumbs up back at you.

~nurse’s office~

Melanie and I were watching the nurse dancers practice their dance routine. They were really great and I can’t wait to shoot this scene with elita and Melanie. It’s going to be so fun. Melanie and I are getting closer everyday and it’s been amazing. Im really falling for her which sucks because there’s no way in hell she feels the same. I think she likes that actor who plays Ben, the boy who crybaby ends up with at the end.

It sucks but I’m just glad that we are still friends. She’s an amazing friend but I know she would make the best partner. My thoughts were interrupted by Melanie’s hand in my face. I snapped out of it and Melanie laughed loudly. “You okay? You seem really deep in thought there.” She giggled cutely. You nodded your head shyly.

She didn’t question it anymore and grabbed your hand to start the scene. Her hand is so soft. You wish you could hold it forever. Not in a creepy way of course. You, Melanie, and elita started the scene and it was so fun to film.

~drama club~

Melanie and I were getting ready for the drama club play scene. She was getting her hair and makeup touched up and I was almost done with my makeup. “Working with you has been so fun y/n! I’ve had a blast with everyone and especially you y/n/n.” She flirted but you were oblivious to it. You just thought she was being nice to you.

Melanie and one of the dance choreographers was showing Mel on how to properly do the dance since she was a little confused. She wants everything to be perfect and strives for perfection.

You wished you could dance and hold her like that but you couldn’t.

~strawberry shortcake~

We got done filming drama club and now were burying the body of our dead principal. Melanie and elita ran over to where the director was and was waving her arms around and was laughing. I’m guessing she needed help with her costume, which made me giggle at her enthusiasm.

Before we started anymore scenes, we took a little break and Melanie sat down in her director’s chair and was talking with the other director and Megan, who plays celeste.

After we filled the scene of them talking and playing tennis. Melanie was getting fixed up to shoot strawberry shortcake. They were fixing up her makeup and hair while you elita, Maggie, and Megan were chatting. Melanie was a little jealous that you weren’t over here talking with her but she brushed it off. Melanie needs to focus on her movie. Not feelings she may or may not have.

~lunchbox friends~

Lunchbox friends were next and Melanie and zinnet, who plays magnolia, linked arms and were throwing their legs up in the air while giggling as they were practicing. They went around the cafeteria as they showed in the music video and were making sure they were getting the shots right.

After their dance and talking about getting the character fluer to their group. Next was the food fight scene and that was something else. Food and drinks flying everywhere and everyone was getting food on them somehow. By the end of the scene everyone was cracking up and having a good time. I was on the floor next to Melanie and she leaned her hand on my shoulder, signaling that she was getting tired. I grabbed her hand gently and rubbed it softly. I felt Melanie smile against my shoulder and I smiled to myself.

~orange juice~

Orange juice was next and it’s one of the songs I relate to the most. I am still recovering from y/e/d (your eating disorder) and it’s nice to know that Melanie wrote a song that relates to me and it’s nice to know that I’m not the only one. Mel was practicing her dance with her fellow dancers and they were all working it. You are so proud of Melanie and all that she has done with the music video and the movie.

~detention~

~ Melanie’s pov ~

Im getting ready to film my scene of detention where I’m dancing with two other people and we are trapped in a glass cage thing. Me and y/n have been getting really close which I’m super happy about. I’ve liked her for a while and getting to know her more has made my feelings for her grow every second.

I doubt she feels the same. She probably just thinks of me as a friend and that’s it, but before the movie ends, I plan to tell her how I feel. I really hope it doesn’t ruin our friendship…

~high school sweethearts~

It has been around half of a year since we first started filming this movie and it was such a fun and great experience to have. Melanie and elita filmed teacher’s pet a few days ago. I wasn’t in that scene so there’s not really much to say besides that I’m fully in love with Melanie Martinez.

Melanie was dressed up for high school sweethearts and I was nervous as fuck. Im finally gonna tell her how I feel. It’s been months since we have been shooting the movie and my feelings have grown to a crush, to liking, and now to love.

I know it’s probably really fast but she makes me laugh, safe, she makes me feel confident like I have never felt before. She makes me feel like a whole different person. Someone who is better.

Melanie was taking a break from the shot of where she dances to high school sweethearts and I went to her dressing room door and knocked on it a couple of times. “Come in!” Her voice said as you gently opened the door to see Melanie sitting on her couch on her phone. “Y/n/n hey! I was just about to text you…I wanted to tell you something important.” She said nervously. “Oh wow…I have something important to tell you too.” You said back, just as nervous as her. “Should we say it at the same time?” She questioned and you nodded. “1, 2, 3-“

“Im in love with you” both of you guys said at the same time. You both broke out into huge smiles and you hugged her tightly. “I’ve liked you ever since I saw your auditioning tape. You just look so adorable and precious. I knew I had to be your friend and hopefully it could evolve into something more and now it can.” She said cheekily. You giggled and pecked her cheek gently and she returned the favor which made you blush wildly.

“Oh shit! I need to go back and finish! But don’t worry. After this scene is done. Im taking you out on a date.” She said winking as she left the room with you behind just admiring her as she left. You couldn’t believe that Melanie has the same feelings as you. You were ecstatic and practically bouncing around happily.

~recess~

I can’t believe shooting for this movie is almost over. I’ve had the best time in my life. I made so many friends and now me and Melanie have fallen for each other. Life couldn’t get any better.

All of us were in our dance costumes and Melanie was talking with the boy who has a crush on her in the movie. His real name is Marsalis and he’s super cool. He ships me and Melanie together which I think is funny since In the movie, Ben and crybaby like each other.

Marsalis and Melanie were practicing some lines together and doing what it seems like patty cake. I just shook my head with a smile on my face and just admired her.

We finished the final scene where we see Melanie choosing to stay or to go through the portal. Such a tease she is. She ran over to me and kissed me. “We did it!” She said over and over, jumping up and down giggling. You giggled “I know! Im so proud of you Mel. Im really sad it’s over but I’m happy it is because I can’t wait to watch it back and see how good you did and everyone else!” You said.

“Hey! You did great too y/n/n. This movie wouldn’t be the way it is without you. Thank you for being on the journey with me and always sticking by me. I love you.” She said with pure love in her voice. “I love you more melly.”

A/n: holy shit that was long. Im really hoping it makes sense. I know I rushed it with this but I really hope y’all like it, especially the person who requested it. Im thinking about making this one-shot into a book. So it’s not rushed and it has more detail in it. What do y’all think? And requests are still open!

Remember to stay hydrated and to rest! I love you all!

[dolokhoded]

Dare I ask your thoughts on 2012 arena tour? I feel like it’s one of the most marmite productions, people either adore it or hate it with a passion there seems to be no inbetween

yay we're rating productions today i love this ok

when i first watched it i didn't like it at all. but then i let it sink in for about a week and decided i love it actually it's very good.

although the amount of white people in dreads was atrocious.

the staging was very cool, i liked it, everybody sounded and acted great and i'm definitely biased because i fucking love tim minchin but he really was so good. there were so many cool choices in it i haven't seen in other productions, hair aside COSTUMES WERE AMAZING, i think about keffiyeh judas every day and i liked how they kind of mixed up the two standard single female character modes which are either Generic Woman In Dress or girlboss biker goth gf which both get very cliche and very tiring, so i liked how they went about her in that one. i think mel c's one of my favorite marys actually, there was pretty decent work done with her despite how little depth she gets in the script through subtle background interactions with other apostles that i think about every day. there's this point after the last supper where jesus is yknow having his pre gethsemane breakdown on the stairs and mary lingers for a little considering comforting him and then peter just kind of nudges her like girl come on and she leaves. which is very important to me that she leaves and she's like yeah fuck that and gosh i REALLY love mary she should get the fuck away from all of these people right now <3 but yeah i love when she has these subtle interactions with the ensemble because in the script she only gets to interact with jesus, and a little bit with judas (and peter but like for one scene and it's still about jesus) and i think somebody needs to let her know this dynamic she's gotten herself into is insane and she should get up and leave WOOH SORRY mary rant. bensus was great, of course, autistic jesus i will never forget you. even the horrible autotune grew on me after some point, it's very 2012 and it's hilarious to me. along with certain very characteristic early 10s vocal choices the actors make it's just great. jcs arena tour is a period piece about the fucking bizzare year that was 2012.

so yeah i do like it but i also recognize how fucking ridiculous it is. the haters don't get the 2012 vision. one direction reference and everything.

[eternitas]

Hi 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻 Questions time!! For Ava and Lorenzo

Are there any tropes fandom would put upon your character, for better or for worse?

What headcanons/theories do you believe fandom would invent about your character?

By contrast, what would their haters dislike about your character? Is it a petty complaint? A mischaracterization of the character or their intentions? Are they just a woman in a largely male-centric series?

Ask Meme

Hi hi hi there! Thank you for sending this in Mel! I'm so honored that you have interest in my dudes!

Are there any tropes fandom would put upon your character, for better or for worse?

Ava is definitely one of the biggest yandere providers. The way he clings to his brother would spark many many yandere scenarios. I also think he is someone who is put a lot through unhealthy relationships or one sided loves. Another thing I could see with him is going through the entire shipping bingo (only one bed, hanahaki, fake boyfriends, arranged marriage, snowed in together-)

Lorenzo weirdly enough I could see as being made the reluctant team mom? Also def seen as being a witty one liner machine. Biggest enemies to lovers candidate tbh, he gets instantly paired with whoever he has beef with and that's half the cast.

LorAva as a ship would def be a fave for the tragedy enjoyers, because despite them working it out in canon they just have such high angst potential. Lots of "there was only one bed" stories.

What headcanons/theories do you believe fandom would invent about your character?

For Ava they'd definitely do a lot of HCs about how much he is like their mother and what that says about their mother and Ava in return. Lot's of fluffy headcanons about him being pure and wholesome, letting out his box animal to play, holding tea parties. There is definitely a long running theory that all officers and especially Xanxus have "adopted" Ava as their princess because it's Squalos cute younger brother? Many many "Xanxus is actually soft to Ava" headcanons.

Don't ask me how but i believe there'd be people who believe Lorenzo is secretly related to Belphegor or even Gokudera. Def a candidate of moe gap headcanons about him secretly being really into stuff like stuffed animals??? definitely a lot of "he is just misunderstood :c" posts and a strangely wide accepted AU of Lorenzo and Dera being brothers??? It's all good fun though

By contrast, what would their haters dislike about your character? Is it a petty complaint? A mischaracterization of the character or their intentions? Are they just a woman in a largely male-centric series?

The amount of hate for Ava, because there are a good few that ship him with his brother. In general I think most Ava hate would come through how he is depicted by fandom as this uwu shota bean too pure for this world, which makes him seem so unnecesarily childish. With the uwu baby bean comes also the "he has never done anything wrong in his life" which some find extremely annoying because Ava is ALSO violent and hotheaded and can say insanely stupid things. Also lots of hate because of his relationship with Takeshi and the Yama x someone else shippers don't like that.

Lorenzo is definitely just hated because he is a meanie. Or rather it's the whole "they are so unhealthy for each other" debate. One specific thing he is hated for by some is that [SPOILER ALERT] during the fights that break out to determine if Tsuna keeps listening to Squad 4 or if he refuses their teachings, Lorenzo actually wins his fight against Hibari through a technicallity and myyyy god there are enough Hibari fans who hate that so much, and therefore just can't forgive Lorenzo.

[2hopatz]

Love Belt - Choi Jongho

Genre: fluff, angst, hurt/comfort, happy ending :D

Warnings: Jealousy, Crying, Ghosting, Kissing, College D:, Cursing, Tooth Rotting Fluff

Word Count: 2.3k exactly WE UP!!

Pairing: c. jh x gender non-specified reader

(a/n): hiiii~ I was like, super sad the other day and kept listening to love belt on repeat for hours. so I decided to write this. I recommend listening to Love Belt for this fanfic, but who knows, maybe I'll make a playlist for every fanfic! Enjoy~ Mwah!

“I just don’t understand why he is so angry over me having a new study partner, we don’t even have the same classes anymore!” you rant to your best friend frantically, your hands moving just as fast as your mouth. 

“Do you think you’re spending too much time in the studio, and Jongho is jealous or something? I mean, even I’ve noticed your study sessions turning into full-blown study nights,” Mel was trying desperately to calm you down, especially knowing how dramatic you can be at times. She just couldn’t believe that Jongho, of all people, would be the one ignoring you, “ He has been busy lately too, maybe he is just tired, or maybe your schedules don’t match up well.”

“I know his schedule by heart, which is also why I know that he has been ignoring me. I’ve tried to meet up with him every day this week dammit! The thing is, I haven’t done anything new besides study with Hyunjin these days,” the stress from the previous two weeks spills out of your mouth, and your fingers go cold despite the warm drink in your hands. 

“It’s only been two weeks, and next week is finals week. He could be studying, take a breath friend. Breaking down in a cafe would make you so embarrassed later,” Mel’s hand rested on your shoulder as you let out a breathy laugh.

“I don’t know Mel. He has never been this distant, not for two weeks at least. Maybe a day, maybe even a week, but he would always come back to talk it out,” the blood rushing in your ears and the lump sitting heavy in your throat made it apparent how affected you were by his absence. Even if you wanted to act unbothered, you couldn’t. It was Jongho after all, how can you be calm when you feel you’ve just lost your home over a damned study partner? 

“It just feels absent without him around me for this long. I feel like everything I lay eyes on is tarnished. This is just stressful, and for what?” Mel sighs, her arms wrapping around your shoulders and squeezing you tight. You lean into her touch, chasing the fleeting sense of relief it gives you. Still, your heart wrenches with loneliness as a memory of Jongho’s smile invades your consciousness. 

“I know, hun. How about you try again tonight, hm? Ask him to come over.”

“I have to paint with Hyujin tonight. I have my final project due next week and I’m struggling with the perspective view of the buildings. Ughhh and the reflections are absolutely going to kill me on top of my analysis of-” Mel throws you a scathing look, and you take it as your clue to stop spiraling about things you had to do. 

“You have time to do those later. Jongho may need you now, so what do I say?”

“Focus first on what matters to me, and everything will fall into place. My finals do matter… but I have all week to study. I need to see Jongho tonight. Thank you Mel.” She smiled, raising a hand perpendicular to your face.

“No need to thank me love, 'cause you’re paying for my coffee! Mwah!”

“I take everything back. Seonghwa likes girls who pay for their own coffee, he told me himself for real.”

“Nice try, I may be drunk in love, but I’m not stupid in love,” giggling, you two went up to the register to pay. You’re day felt a bit brighter now that you had a plan, and a beloved (albeit mischievous) friend to share it with.

. . .

‘Jongho, we need to talk. Now, actually.’

tdybear

‘Thought u had to study. With Hyunjin.’

‘Cancelled. I wanted to talk with you.’

tdybear

‘I’m studyin rn. Can we talk later?’

‘U can keep playing the avoidance game Jongho,

 but we’ll both end up losing. I’m not trying again, 

and I’m not finna reschedule nun.’

tdybear

‘Where r u?’

‘apartment.’

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You threw your phone down on the bed with a sigh of frustration. One thing you’d come to learn throughout the years was just how stubborn Jongho could get. In truth, you couldn’t help but be a little frustrated with the fact that this was all over a fucking study buddy. Hyunjin and you had been acquaintances since your freshman year, yet now is when the issue starts? It was all so confusing. Still, there was that part of you that relished in the fact that Jongho was coming, because he didn’t want to lose you. If your heart was a glass, what had been a quarter full for the last two weeks is overflowing. You wanted to see his face. 

You keep pacing around the room, swimming in a pool of your disturbances. You are so frustrated, the lump in your throat being a telltale sign of incoming tears. Your heart is beating impossibly fast, and when you hear the doorbell ring out from the living room, it is like seeing the sun rise over the horizon after a lifetime of living in the dark. 

When you open the door, all you can see is him. All you can feel is him, and as angry as you want to be; you greet him with a warm smile and a hug that lasts all too long, and he does the same. Just for a moment, everything is normal. 

. . .

For all of the affection you had given each other at the door, the tension that filled your living room after was miasmic. You both sat awkwardly on the loveseat, periodically shifting around. 

‘I can’t take this anymore. I'M GOING INSANE HERE!’

“So, did you want to talk to me about something? Did something happen?” You could have burst a blood vessel right there. 

“Did something happen? Jongho, pray tell. When was the last time you saw me?”

“About… two weeks ago…” The silence that followed was deadly, and all you could do was cross your legs and look at him. Shifting on the couch, he fiddled with his fingers before clearing his throat awkwardly.

“Look… I’ve been… busy. You know how demanding my major is.”

“I’m an artist, and I always have time for you. Art and music are quite close in workload and nature, are they not?”

“You’ve been busy too, with Hyunjin. I didn’t want to interrupt you two.”

“I invited you over when Hyunjin wasn’t even here.”

“He’s been here? I thought you only worked in the studio.”

“He may be my study buddy, but he is also my friend. A friend which I was desperately in need of for the past two weeks.” He huffed at that, his cheeks and ears slowly warming, until even his nose was pink. He was frustrated. You were losing your patience, and he could tell by the glare cutting into the side of his head.

“Look, if you don’t want to talk to me, for whatever reason, tell me. I’m tired of going back and forth with myself about what I did or how you feel. I have my own life, and whether or not you want to be a part of it is your choice,” you said simply getting up from the couch to open the door. Though part of you was sure he would stay, the other part was petrified that he would get up and leave. If that door closes and he isn’t in the room, you think that your heart will stop beating. Or the world will stop turning. 

“Wait… do you promise not to think I’m an idiot?”

“No,” you fight a smile as you sat back down beside him, a supernova of hope going off in your heart. He smiles, and you see colors for the first time in two weeks. His laugh invades your senses, and you smell the cologne he always puts on after he showers; for a moment, you are home. Then the room went silent, and all you could do was hold out your pinky. 

“I promise.” He sighs when his pinky loops into yours, holding onto it, and putting your hand in his lap. You pray he can’t hear the way your breath hitches, and he hopes you can’t feel how fast his heart is beating.

“Did you miss me at all? When you were with him?” 

“I miss you every second my hand isn’t in yours.”

“I feel like an idiot.”

“Why?” His fingers intertwine with yours as he caresses the back of your palm.

“I saw how happy you looked beside him, how similar you guys are. How much he can really help you. I mean, he’s an artist. For the first time in my life, I was scared that you would leave me. I know, we’re just college friends, we may be bound to lose contact in the future. But the thought… I just can’t take it. So, I left first. I wanted to prove that I could live without you.” He is gripping your hand now, his head hung low. His breath hitches loudly, and for the first time in years, you see him cry. Your voice coos out, as your free arm wraps around him. 

“Fuck…” You sniffle as the lump in your throat reaches a fever pitch, “well… can you?”

“...No.” When he says that, something in you shatters and rebuilds itself, so many emotions flood you at once, and it wrenches a sob out of you.

“Don’t cry…”

“You’re one to talk…” and suddenly the sobs are mixed with laughter. The world is so much brighter when he is around.

“I’m sorry. I’m too jealous and too headstrong. If you were to be in love with him, I would still want to be in your life. Even if it means I won’t be able to talk to you as much. I swear that if the world ended, I would only need you to survive.”

“In love with him?” you giggled, tears still escaping your eyes, “Why would I be in love with Hyunjin?”

“I don’t know… your similarities. How soft he is around you. He makes affection with you look so easy.”

“That’s just what he is like Jongho. Even if Hyunjin were to have feelings for me, which I guarantee he doesn’t, I still would have to reject him. No one could ever compare to the way you make me feel. The way you make me hurt.” Three words burn in your throat, as you eyed Jongho’s reaction. You want nothing more than to feel his lips on yours. You burn for him. 

“You don’t like him?”

“He’s nothing more than a friend to me.”

“What am I to you?” You smiled nervously as silence settled in the air.

“You first,” shifting softly in your arms, he looks at you with confusion.

“What do you mean?”

“I want to hear you say it Jongho. After all, I didn’t avoid you. Write me a song. Tell me how you feel.” You smiled mischievously, leaning into him. Suddenly, his hand is untangling from yours, opting to gently massage the crest of your hip.

“You’re such a bully.” He is inches from you now, you can feel his breath. Was time always this slow? You’re getting too impatient. 

“Tell me, Choi Jongho, what am I to you?”

“...You’re the person I want to spend the rest of my life with. I want to make lyrics that only you understand. I want to sing songs that only you can hear. I want to be yours, in every sense. All I want in return is your love, your time, and your patience. Without you, I’m a fish out of water. I need you like the current needs the moon. I want to dress you in the rings of Saturn, I want to form your name from the remnants of stars. The divine was inspired by you. All I’ve ever wanted was you. I’ve needed a lot of things, but none of those things matter without you.” He was pulling you closer now, his hand sliding to your waist, his eyes flickering from your lips to your eyes. Brown had always been your favorite color, it was the color of everything warm. It was home. You had loved him long before you knew him. 

“Every painting has been dedicated to you, Jongho. I need the yellows of your warmth, the reds of your anger, the blues of your sadness, the greens of your jealousy. Every color I’ve ever painted has been you, every color I could never imagine is you. You are the sun and the grass. The mystery of the forests and the deepest seas. Paint me with your love. All I want from you is you. Unadulterated, unfiltered, and untethered. I may not be as eloquent as you; my art comes in form of pictures, not words. I could paint you in colors I’ve never seen, but they are so familiar to me. You are so familiar to me. You are my home. Your love is better than any pigment, and I need you just like you need me. I need your lips on mine. I will be your willing canvas.”

Finally, your lips meet, and you feel the universe in his touch. He tastes like chocolate. You are burning in his grasp, yet you are the most comfortable you have ever been. When you pull away for air, he chases you, eyes low, irises painting the world brown. You place a finger to his lips with a laugh, and he sighs, hands cupping your hand, and kisses your finger. You feel red hot. His eyes open fully, taking in the sight of you. 

“You are my stars, my asteroids, my planets. You’re my love belt.”

[shiverandqueeef]

With the recent explosion of interest in true crime as a genre of "entertainment", I've come to the conclusion that if you're going to be making media content out of human misery there is at least a correct way to do it.

Netflix documentaries and fictionalized retellings of real life events glamorize, sensationalize and mythologize serial killers and their crimes in a way that induces such intense brain rot in viewers you end up with white women on twitter writing self insert fanfic of themselves and jeffrey dahmer. Casting attractive actors and throwing them under some mood lighting so you can delve into the darkest mysteries of the human mind (it really ain't that mysterious, it's just misogyny) is pretty much the worst possible approach you can take. well, unless your intention is to make a shit ton of money by exploiting real people's pain, in which case congrats and i hope you burn in hell.

The correct approach, imho, is to follow the Mel Brooks method for depicting nazis on screen. There is no shortage of media created with the intent of condemning nazism, only to have it become whole-heartedly embraced by actual neo-nazis. American X is a great example of a film that has the ultimate message of nazis = bad, and yet it is a wildly popular film with white supremacists. Because even if the nazis in the movie are the bad guys, they're being portrayed by attractive, charismatic actors and framed by the camera as powerful threats. Often they even come across as cool.

You know which portrayals of nazis don't get appropriated? Media that laughs at them. There's a reason springtime for hilter isn't on any neo nazis playlist.

Serial killers should be treated the same way. I like to use buzzfeed unsolved as an example of true crime done right. The hosts don't waste time being awed by the immense criminal "genius" of infamous killers. They just go "wow this guy sucks. fuck him."

The best way to tell true crime stories is to break down the myth of the genuis serial killer. By highlighting over and over how almost all of these people's crimes were only possible because a) they targeted vulnerable demographics society doesn't care about b) police corruption c) police incompetence and/or d) police simply not giving a shit (you may be sensing a theme here)

You laugh at them. Not in a way that mocks their victims, but in a way that makes it clear these people are not some larger than life mythical figure. They aren't an edgy genuis with chess master minds worth being fascinated by. They aren't misunderstood mysterious creatures you can heal with your super special love. They just suck.

[melodic-melovin]

Mélovin Health Update: What We Know So Far (11/13/2023)

Okay so normally I'd just reblog the last post I made, but after trawling through countless news/tabloids sites, Reddit, and the cesspool that is Twitter and sorting through the various information available, it seemed more important to make a separate post entirely so people could see.

HERE IS WHAT HAS HAPPENED/WHAT WE KNOW:

-Mel has been diagnosed with a serious illness.

-I cannot *personally* confirm for sure what illness, HOWEVER, most sources are reporting that it is steatohepatitis, a liver condition, sometimes also known as "Nonalcoholic Fatty Liver Disease"

-In essence: this is essentially an inflammation of the liver caused by fat cells building up in said liver, not brought on by drinking alcohol.

-It is considered a metabolic disorder. There are several potential causes, most of which are tied to type 2 diabetes and obesity complications, hormone imbalances such as with the thyroid, but it can also just be bad luck of the genetic draw.

-This is NOT the same condition as viral hepatitis (aka Hepatitis C, etc.) I mention this specifically because some sites are incorrectly reporting this claim and people are already using that misinformation as ammo to be homophobic and claim that he got this condition as a result of his "orientation". Do not do this. Do not be these people.

-Is it terminal or is it incurable? Well, that's the muddied part of this. Even Mel used the term 'terminal' in his Instagram post about this, however many sources seem to point to 'incurable' as a more accurate term. It could be that the words are very similar in Ukrainian and thus the confusion there.

-Note that steatohepatitis *is* incurable, however it *may* or *may not* be terminal/fatal. We don't know how long he's had it, if there was liver damage already present before his being officially diagnosed, and to what extent. The main complications that can lead to death if no treatment is administered are cirrhosis and scarring, even liver cancer, which the only treatment at that point would be a full liver transplant. Without treatment, expectancy is anywhere between 3-5 years in severe cases, or 10-15 in lesser ones. Again, this is not proof of anything yet, this is only the general knowledge I have gained from researching this condition.

-This diagnosis came about as a result of bloodwork when he intended to get some kind of cosmetic procedure.

-(Before anyone asks what cosmetic surgery was he getting - that I don't know, and I don't think anyone else does either. He hasn't said, and cosmetic is a very broad term and can range from anything like traditionally thought-of plastic surgeries to something less intensive like a mole removal or getting his teeth worked on. Personally I think he's too young to be getting cosmetic work done, but that's not important right now.)

-He is seeking/undergoing treatment and currently resting and recovering at home with his family.

-His Instagram is currently private to non-followers, probably to prevent harassment. I have downloaded the video regarding this apparent diagnosis announcement and will try to upload it.

-He is still apparently on the longlist for competing in Vidbir, as announced by Suspilne.

-It is not known if this will impact the release of his newest song or further music going forward.

= o = o = o = o = o = o =

If more develops, I will try to let you all know. Right now, please just try to be supportive, don't harass him or his friends/family for more info (he will no doubt tell us when he is ready), and don't spread wild misinformation. We can only imagine what he must be going through right now. Even if this ends up not being nearly as bad as it sounds, getting a lifelong illness diagnosis is not easy for anyone to handle.

[vulgarvixxen]

cervical penetration with Patton. We need some morality pussy every once in a while.

I tried a different style but it doesn’t translate well on tumblr so check it out on AO3

Tw: non traditional genitalia, mild degrading, biting

There was a reason Patton wanted to be considered the fatherly side but the reason was lost on the dark sides who hadn’t grown up with him, see each side of the Mindscape evolved as Thomas grew in a mirrored way in ways that reflected Thomas’s thinking. As a kid he was told that there needed to be a mommy and a daddy, his mind decided that each half of the mind needed a girl to be the mom. On the light side Patton had originally been formed as “Patty” but she never felt like a girl, when Thomas got older and met more people his ideas and understandings grew too. “Patty” became Patton almost overnight with Logan and Roman being happy to accept their friend for who he is, they even helped him get top surgery when Thomas was in college and was studying biology.

On the dark side of the mind a similar situation occurred with the edgy trio, Virgil had once been called “Melinno” or “Mel” after the Greek poet. He hated being different and he changed his name and wore baggy clothes as soon as Thomas learned what being trans was. It did help that his monstrous(animal) form made him feel manly with his ovipositor. Of course Remus and Janus playfully teased him (at least they thought it was playful, Virgil didn’t get the memo) until he left for the light side. The GG trio never brought up Patton’s transition and Virgil never brought up his own, to their knowledge the other was a CIS man like the rest of the sides.

As Janus and Remus messed with their “rivals” the two remaining sides were hanging out in Pat’s room, casually cuddling and watching a blooper reel from a muppet movie. It was during a video with Kermit and Fazzy that a familiar and hot sensation washes over Virgil, he curses under his breath as he checks his phone’s calendar. His seasonal heat shouldn’t start until the end of the week, what was it doing here so early?! There was no time to go to the imagination and find a cave to hide in for a few days, Patton would be concerned if he just rushed off without explanation too.

“H-hey Pat?”

“Hmm?”

“Imtransandaspidermonsterandmyheatjustcameearlycanwefuck?!”

“Uhhh, Virgy, can you say that again but slower?”

“I’m, um, trans. I also ha-have weird genitalia. My heat cycle came early. C-can I, would you…can I deposit into you? I promise it won’t hurt! They’re all duds anyway!”

After a few beats of silence Patton tosses the bowl of popcorn to a side table and hugs Virgil close.

“Thank you for telling me, I meant to tell you forever ago that I’m a trans man! I’d love to help you out with your problem. And after we can talk to Logie about anything you might want done, he and Roman created a doctor to give me top surgery! Best Father’s Day present ever!”

The amount of information was dizzying…or that could be the hormones fogging up Virgil’s brain, he catches the gist of it and nods. Next thing he remembers is kissing, Patton kissing him breathless as they both groped and grinded with a feverish need. Pat pulls off his shirt easily and then starts on Virgil’s, revealed is the pink and purple galaxy binder,

“That’s so pretty, mine was real with palm leaves. Well…it was more of a sports bra than a binder, it was always too constricting for my taste.”

He tosses away the shirt and helps Virgil out of his binder, the emo is too horny to be bothered by his body being so not masculine. The skin looks irritated so Patton is sure to be gentle when he roams his hands down Virgil’s sides, the poor thing whimpering in need and relief.

“Pat, pl-please, need to be in you so bad!”

“Shhh, soon. Let’s get rid of some more clothing and then you can have me.”

Khakis are flung over to the rest of the clothing pile, boxers a second later, the zipper to skinny jeans followed after some shimmying. “Aww, your boxers match!”

“Patton!”

The galaxy boxers get tugged off and Virgil sighs in relief as Patton gasps in joy, Virgil’s ovipositor was thick and glistening as it waited for a warm place to be buried into. It twitches when a curious hand strokes it causing Virgil to moan, low and animalistic. In a split second decision Patton hops on top of Virgil, sinking down part way before stopping. The natural elasticity of frogs let him stretch around the girth without a problem, the combination of their slick making it even easier as he rose and sank at a quick pace.

“Fuck, fuck, you whore, should have been fucking you for years! You take me better than even Remus and he’s a good slut.” Virgil growls out, hands on Patton’s hips to pull him down with a harsher snap. The mild insult makes Patton unexpectedly more wet, “You like being my whore? Good, then you should know whores stay on their backs!”

With a movement so fast that it should have left them dizzy, Virgil flips their positions, he pounds into Patton at an unrelenting speed until he gets to resistance. “Shit, bet no one has ever fucked you this deep, huh whore. Don’t worry we’ll get used to it soon.” He pushes against the muscles blocking him from his goal for a short time then stops, the process repeats as Patton struggles to figure out if this is painful or pleasing. Just as he thinks that he’s going to have to tap out the pressure inside him gives and Virgil is inside his womb!

“Virgil! Fuck me, breed me, I’m your little whore! Please please, pretty please breed me!” The others could probably hear him but the thought didn’t cross his mind, actually the only thing he can think of is how knows that the pressure he wasn’t sure about is definitely pleasure. His heart jumps into his throat as he feels Virgil’s thumb circle his clitoris, a thrilled croak leaves his mouth followed by a breathy moan. Teeth are on his throat a second later, sucking and biting marking as Virgil plays with him. So much is happening that Patton cums without a chance to say anything.

Virgil bites him hard as he climaxes, “Now you can take all of them.” He purrs into Patton’s ear, venom making the other lax and pliable. The last few inches of his ovipositor pushes in and Patton whimpers, “Oh honey, it’s only going to get better. You’re going to feel so full soon, whore, and then we can have fun pushing them all out.” It sounds like a threat from a predator but it’s really a promise of my pleasure. Patton moans as he feels the first egg press through the ovi and deposit inside his womb, Virgil grins and nuzzles the bite mark.

Half an hour later Patton is the size of a beach ball and Virgil is cooing at the image, “Virgie, c-can you take pictures? I want to remember this for forever.” He can’t see which phone Virgil is using but he hears the click of the camera app. Patton actually liked this, he had always thought that being trans meant that he had to hate everything that came with what body he was made with but maybe he could indulge and still be dad.

[lullabyes22-blog]

FnF characters ranked by most likely to least likely to own a diary.

Most likely to least:

Jinx: Canonically has a diary in the Council archives. Also doubles as her schematics file/doodle pad/scrapbook. It's also her vision journal, where she records all her girlish aspirations c:

*doodles hearts around a sketch of Piltover on fire*

"And we all lived happily ever after. Boom."

Caitlyn: Has a journal in which she records daily goings-on - and writes cute things about Vi. It's locked, and the key is hidden somewhere even Vi hasn't been able to discover, despite her best efforts.

(Psst. It's in the sugar-pot.)

Jayce: Similar to Caitlyn, he has a diary where he jots down daily activities + interesting factoids re: Hextech. He also doodles Viktor in the corners (and shows Viktor the goofy ones for a laugh). Sometimes it's where he hides those sultry-scented love notes that Mel slips into his pocket, so he can smooth them over later with a giddy little smile.

Ximena: "What's got you grinning, Jayce~?"

Jayce: /fumbling with a note where Mel expresses an interest in sketching him nude. "N-nothing, Mom. Where would you like to go for dinner?"

Viktor: Has more of a record-keeping notebook for various gadgets, full of codes and jargon. But sometimes he scribbles little rants in the margins. They can veer from mundane quibbles with his leg brace chafing his skin to the indelible weaknesses of human flesh. Sometimes Jayce reads the notes and goes:

"Why don't we, uh, take a break, Vik? We'll get sweetmilk and go sit in the park..."

i.e. "Time to touch grass, bro."

Sevika: More a scheduling diary for her daily duties + where she and Silco need to be. The handwriting is fascinating to note, because it veers wildly depending on her proximity to Jinx: from a blunt bold print to deranged rage italic. Sometimes the notes are interspersed with Silco's messages: "Cancel - No, he's an idiot - Reschedule for tmrw - Tedious - Shall we get drinks?"

Mel: Has a sketchpad in which she does line drawings, and tests out color palettes - but also where she sometimes jots down pros and cons of a diplomatic dilemma, or composes prose poems. She also has a fair few sketches of Silco's hands, done from memory, along with things he says, and things her mother says, compared side-by-side.

In the margins: "Madness, madness - why do the same things make sense from his mouth, but not hers?"

Oh, Mel...

Silco: Diaries are a liability - and a security breach waiting to happen. The only time Silco writes down something is to make a work-related list. More rarely, he'll brainstorm, but the writing itself won't be more than shorthand, and will read as absolute gibberish.

Shipped - Location Q - ??? - 5% - Bubbles - Fuckit

Jinx: "Hee, you wrote 'Fuck.'"

He does, however, have a file where he keeps Jinx's notes, and cute little doodles of hers over the years. When stressed, he flips through the pages with an inscrutable little smile.

Boom. Instant serotonin boost.

Is there anything so endearing as a daughter?

<3

[equallyshaw]

Insta edit: the m series featuring cale makar.

Story Masterlist: 8 parts.

Can be read as a stand-alone, fyi: the main character has a physical disability so that is a huge factor in some of these posts.

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@elizajames has posted to private story: so incredibly proud of you my kale, you deserve this so much and am so grateful to be spending the day with you and your loved ones. Let’s go have some fun🍾🍾

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@calemakar has posted to private story: showing her around BC. 🤍

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@elizajames: NHLPA, Thankyou for this opportunity! My heart is so full, knowing that all my hard word and dedication has paid off. Never in a million years did I ever think I’d get to this point. S/out to the @/coloradoavalanhe for everything this past year and a half. To my crew, I wouldn’t have been able to navigate this world without you guys. (Also, Naz and Burky please come visit soon!) to Becca, my closest confidants, biggest cheerleader and sister, couldn’t have done it without you. To my partner, Thankyou for being with me this past year and a half, you have done so much more than you realize. Incredibly grateful for the love and kindness you show me each day. Finally, my fellow warriors and supporters who have become a community over these past few years- THANKYOU!!! We did it yall!!! We took a big step!

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@becaaaa: my sweet sweet honey, so glad I’ve been in this ride with you. Only up from here ! 🤍🤍

@becaaaa: also crying in the club

@nathanmackinnon: strongest person I know James, so deserved.

↳ @elizajames: Thankyou Nate, appreciate you so much (:

@gabriellandeskog: queen shit

@gabriellandeskog: !!!!! Nobody else deserved this— congrats !

↳ @elizajames: 🥺 Thankyou gabe! See you and Mel soon!

@ericsmith: go bestie go bestie go

↳ @elizajames: 🤪🤪 thanku for being the best date !

↳ @ericsmith: hahahaha c is quaking rn

@calemakar: congratulations, very deserved.

@elizajames: 🤍🤍

@/coloradoavalanche: we are so grateful for you and what you have done for our organization, this award was meant for you! Congratulations 🍾

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@calemakar: E, can’t wait to spend the rest of my life showing how much I love you. ❤️ @elizajames

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@gabriellandeskog: FINALLY

@gabriellandeskog: congrats you two!

@nathanmackinnon: congrats guys! Can’t wait to be the best man

↳ @taylormakar: get in line buddy

↳ @6erikjohnson: yeah get in line

↳ @gabriellandeskog: you are literally at the bottom of the list lol

@becaaaa: 🥹🥹 never forget my ability to make you incapable of playing hockey

↳ @calemakar: nope! Will never forget

@elizajames: can’t wait to spend the rest of our lives together…just need a dog first

↳ @taylormakar: I vote for first !!!

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@elizajames: engaged to my best friend 🤍

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1 year after wedding. Year, 2025

@calemakar: we have a new edition to the Makar coming in just a few months…couldn’t be more proud of you my love. Day after day you amaze me with your unwavering strength and faith in your body - despite any setbacks or pain. Our little one has no idea yet, just how incredibly lucky they are to have you as their mum. 🤍

Tag: Elizamakar

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@becaaaa: hey it’s mom not ‘mum’

@calemakar: tell that to Nate

@nathanmackinnon: oh yeah, tried to explain for ten minutes and she said no. Our kids won’t be saying ‘Mum’

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@elizamakar: incredibly amazed everyday that this is real life. I always said that I would never have kids because I felt as though I couldn’t be a great mom physically, but emotionally I would be the best mom. And the only way I’d have kids, is if I found the right partner. Cale, I found that in you. Thankyou for allowing my secret dream to come true 🫶🏻

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@becaaaa: oh Thankgod this secret is out. I thought I’d reveal it

@gabelandeskog: yeah, I’m shocked you kept it this long lol

@calemakar: anything for you 🤍

finally getting this out...this has been in my drafts for three months lol but hope you guys enjoyed :)

Tag: @fallinallincurls

[thebtseffect]

Comp Reading Lists

In an attempt to self-study several areas and expand my own knowledge, improve my ability to do research, and keep current with fields of interest, I'm building my own "comps list" here of relevant books. There are so many academic articles that I'm not sure if I'll include them here, but I'd like to at least track my reading of books. Comps lists are typically for Ph.D. students studying for exams, but I thought it might be a useful tool for me too. If you have suggestions, I welcome them.

BTS Studies

BTS, Art Revolution, Jiyoung Lee.

BTS and ARMY Culture, Jeeheng Lee.

BTS: The Review, Youngdae Kim.

Philosophizing about BTS, Cha Minju.

Bumping into BTS, Ji Kim, Mick Shin, and Jane Do.

Map of the Soul - Persona: Our Many Faces, Murray Stein.

Fan Studies

Textual Poachers: Television Fans and Participatory Culture, Henry Jenkins.

A Fan Studies Primer: Method, Research, Ethics, Paul Booth and Rebecca Williams.

Understanding Fandom: An Introduction to the Study of Media Fan Culture, Mark Duffett.

A Companion to Media Fandom and Fan Studies, Paul Booth and Rebecca Williams.

Exploiting Fandom: How the Media Industry Seeks to Manipulate Fans, Mel Stanfill.

Fandom: Identities and Communities in a Mediated World, Jonathan Gray, Cornell Sandvoss, and C. Lee Harrington.

Fan Cultures, Matt Hills.

Fame and Fandom: Functioning On and Offline, Celia Lam and Jackie Raphael.

The Adoring Audience: Fan Culture and Popular Media, Lisa Lewis.

The Fan Fiction Studies Reader, Karen Hellekson and Kristina Busse.

Loving Fanfiction: Exploring the Role of Emotion in Online Fandoms, Brit Kelley.

Fandom as Classroom Practice: A Teaching Guide, Katherine Anderson Howell.

Straight Korean Female Fans and Their Gay Fantasies, Jungmin Kwon.

Emo: How Fans Defined a Subculture, Judith Fathallah.

Squee from the Margins: Fandom and Race, Rukmini Pande.

Game Studies

Gaming Masculinity: Trolls, Fake Geeks, and the Gendered Battle for Online Culture, Megan Condis.

Learning in Video Game Affinity Spaces, Sean Duncan.

Ready Player Two: Women Gamers and Designed Identity, Shira Chess.

Watch Me Play: Twitch and the Rise of Game Live Streaming, T.L. Taylor.

Metagaming: Playing, Competing, Spectating, Cheating, Trading, Making, and Breaking Video Games, Stephanie Boluk and Patrick Lemieux.

The Toxic Meritocracy of Video Games: Why Gaming Culture is the Worst, Christopher Paul.

My Life as a Night Elf Priest: An Anthropological Account of World of Warcraft, Bonnie Nardi.

Communities of Play: Emergent Cultures in Multiplayer Games and Virtual Worlds, Celia Pearce.

Ethics, Psychology, & Philosophy

Moral Boundaries: A Political Argument for an Ethic of Care, Joan Tronto.

Jung's Map of the Soul: An Introduction, Murray Stein.

The Ethics of Care, Virginia Held.

Research Ethics in the Real World, Helen Kara.

The Portable Nietzsche, Friedrich Nietzsche and Walter Kaufmann.

General Reading & Methods

Where Research Begins: Choosing a Research Project that Matters to You, Thomas Mullaney and Christopher Rea.

The Practice of Qualitative Research: Engaging Students in the Research Process, Sharlene Nagy Hesse-Biber.

Destination Dissertation: A Traveler's Guide to a Done Dissertation, Sonja Foss and William Waters.

Getting It Published: A Guide for Scholars and Anyone Else Serious about Series Books, William Germano.

Learning to Make a Difference: Value Creation in Social Learning Spaces, Etienne Wenger-Trayner and Beverly Wenger-Trayner.

Ethnography and Virtual Worlds: A Handbook of Method, Tom Boellstorff and Bonnie Nardi, et. al.

An Introduction to Discourse Analysis: Theory and Method, James Paul Gee.

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En Mel kuttram yadhondrum illaye

Chapter 3: यत्र सर्वं आरब्धम् , मुस्तफारः एक्सेगोल् च- where it all began,mustafar and exegol

Summary:

hello guys, I'm back and i posted the first chapter on the nalla naal of Star Wars day!

may the force be with all of you.

ps. nalla naal means good/ auspicious day in tamil.

Taglist- @wxoblurbs

the pod landed on Mustafar, the volcanic planet on the atravis sector of the outer rim of the galaxy. mustafar , the to-be proclaimed domain of a man, a man the world would soon fear. a heavily pregnant senator Padme Amidala climbed out of the j-type Naboo star skiff, leaving c-3po inside to see her husband Anakin Skywalker but what she did not know that obi wan, Anakin's master had followed her and that Kenobi's claims about Skywalker's fall to the dark side were apparent and true.

as she saw Anakin, she rushed out, and ran to embrace her beloved and asked, "what are you doing here, I was so worried about you!" and soon her happiness faded into fear, and she added " obi wan told me terrible things!"

" What things" Anakin asked, his eyes turning darker at the mention of the name of his master which made Padme retort, her expression one of sadness " that you turned to the dark side, that you had killed younglings."

Anakin soon became defensive, now wanting Padme to find out about his actions and said calmly " obi wan is trying to turn you against me." to which Padme interjected "he cares about us." which made him ask " us?' she replied "he knows, he wants to help you."

there was no reply from Anakin just a look of disdain.

" Anakin, all I want is your love." she said to him hoping for him to reply back to her and ensure her that all was well but instead he said, " love won't save you Padme, only my new powers can do that."

" But at what cost, you are a good person don't do it." Padme pleaded, hoping that Anakin would listen to her only for him to say " I won't lose you the way I lost my mother. I have become more powerful than any jedi has dreamed of and I am doing it for you. to protect you."

" Come away with me." Padme pleaded tears welling up in her eyes as she cups Anakin's face with her hand "help me raise our child, leave everything else behind while we still can." she added.

" don't you see? we don't have to run away anymore. I have brought peace to the republic, I am more powerful than the chancellor I can overthrow him." he answered, making Padme's heart fill with horror that the very Anakin that she had known for so long had changed and not for good. " And together we can rule the galaxy, make things the way we want them to be.' he added further plunging Padme's heart into dread and fear.

" I don't believe what I am hearing!" she said in disbelief, " obi wan was right, you have changed." she added which angered Anakin further as he said, " I don't want to hear any more about obi wan., the jedi turned against me, don't you turn against me."

' I don't know you anymore." Padme cried out, tears threatening to spill from her black eyes as she added, her voice breaking, " Anakin, you're breaking my heart, you're going down a path I can't follow."

" Is it because of obi wan? " Anakin asked further spiraling into anger.

"because of what you've done! what you plan to do. " She said, but Anakin's gaze was elsewhere, on the pod, where obi wan proudly stood, then Anakin was fueled with his rage. as Padme continued "stop, stop now, come back." and as a last resort, she finally let her tears spill as she said, " I love you."

"LIAR!" Anakin roared at Padme, his voice echoing off of the walls of the fortress which made Padme look back and see obi wan walking towards them, she staggered backwards as Anakin cornered her saying " you're with him. you brought him here to kill me!" before he held his hand up to her neck, choking her through the force, obi wan, could not keep silent at that point and thundered " let her go Anakin." as he sees Padme, the pregnant woman struggling to breathe as she gasped " I love you." while being strangled before warning him once more " let her go." and then Padme thudded to the floor unconscious as Anakin released the grip on her neck through the force. Kenobi then looked at Padme, her body limp on the floor as Anakin looked at him and said " you turned her against me!" to which obi wan answered his gaze drifting from Padme to Anakin as he said, " you have done that yourself."

the two circled each other like two mad dogs in a fight, then Anakin thundered " you will not take her from me!" to which obi wan answered " your anger and lust for power have already done that. you have allowed this dark lord to twist your mind until now you have become the very thing you swore to destroy."

" don't lecture me obi wan." Anakin said, still circling obi wan " I see through the lies of the jedi, I don't fear the dark side as you do." he added as obi wan walked towards Padme, to check if she was alive and to his relief, she was alive.

"I have brought peace, freedom, justice, and security to my new empire." Anakin continued his back turned on obi wan

"Your new empire?" Kenobi asked incredulously.

"Don't make me kill you. "Hissed Anakin in response, a menacing scowl on his face

"Anakin, my allegiance is to the Republic, to democracy." answered obi wan trying to make Anakin see reason but it was in vain as Anakin answered, "If you're not with me, then you're my enemy." sparing a glance towards him as he turned his head, his eyes briefly turning into a bright yellow and then turned blue again.

"Only a Sith deals in absolutes. I will do what I must." obi wan responded in defeat knowing that Anakin had gone too far as the dark side had taken root and is festering within him and then pulls out his lightsaber and turns it on, its blade flashing blue, contrasting against the orange of the flame and lava in mustafar.

"You will try." Anakin said pulling out his lightsaber to face obi wan in one duel, a duel neither would forget.

both of them had dueled endlessly, without a word, the only sound being the sound of their sabers clashing against each other until Obi wan remarked, his voice growing weak " I have failed you Anakin, I have failed you", before deflecting another strike from his opponent.

"I should have known that the jedi were plotting to take over." Anakin said, his face bearing an expression of contempt.

" Anakin, chancellor Palpatine is evil!" screamed obi wan in reply which unfortunately had triggered Anakin more as he replied, nearly yelling " from my point of view, the jedi are evil."

"Well, then you are lost!" roared obi wan blocking another strike from Anakin.

the fierce duel resumed once again until Kenobi, jumped onto the sands of mustafar, proclaiming " it's over, Anakin. I have the high ground."

" You underestimate my power." Anakin exclaimed and as soon as those words escaped his mouth obi wan knew what he was going to do.

he was about to jump.

he warned Anakin but it was in vain, he jumped and, in a flash, and a swing from his saber, Kenobi had chopped of his former padawan's limbs, making him fall into the volcanic sand of that planet, he saw Anakin, struggling , helpless, his eyes now yellow again ,in utter horror he screamed " you were the chosen one! it was said that you would destroy the Sith not join them. Bring balance to the force, not leave it in darkness."

he picked up Anakin's lightsaber and walked away only to hear Anakin scream " I HATE YOU!"

Kenobi looked back at him, nearly in tears and said, " you were my brother Anakin, I loved you." and left unaware of the monster that he just created, as he left his friend to die alone, to burn in the fires of mustafar.

a few hours later, sheev Palpatine now known as Darth Sidious arrived, to bring Anakin with him along with a few members of the 501st legion , he saw Anakin, his body burnt to the crisp , mangled , he bright him back in a medical capsule to coruscant where Palpatine had ordered his best scientists and med-droids to not let his apprentice Vader die and so, Anakin now known as Vader was put into a life sustaining suit to help him breathe after he had damaged his lungs on the volcanic planet and to disguise his horrific appearance, with new cybernetics to replace all four limbs that he had lost. and now Sidious waited for his apprentice to gain consciousness. and so, as Sidious thought began the rule of the empire with Vader as his lapdog.

but what Sidious did not know was that the downfall of the empire had begun the same day as it's rise.

many planets away, on exegol was the one who sought to wipe out all traces of the empire. a Sith, many would wonder why a Sith would seek to destroy the Sith order but that is a very long story. a very very very long one, one for another day.

the planet was a very rocky one, dingy, dark as it was the home to the greatest of Sith lords and the emperors of the Sith order.

two women stood in a cave, the only source of light being the bright red blade of their lightsabers as they were ignited.

" What must we do akka? is there truly no way to reclaim it?" one asked the other only for the other to reply, " there is only one-way Malavika!" " what is it, Sithara?" Malavika asked her sister and then she heard Sithara say," we cannot take on that traitor using warfare or any physical means." " then what do we do? we just cannot stay silent; many years have gone wasted due to our silence." Malavika retorted and then Sithara replied " we shall tear the empire from within. let us tell him that we are here to crush all those who oppose the Sith. he will let us join him and slowly we shall tear it apart from within. just as he did to the republic."

Notes:

tamil transalations

akka- elder sister

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tag 9 people you want to get to know better!

tagged by @macpye​, thank you for the tag!

Three Ships of All Time:

I swear I give different answers to this every time I’m asked. This time I’m going to go with Phryne Fisher/Jack Robinson (Miss Fisher’s Murder Mysteries), Arthur/Eames (Inception) and Frank Castle/Karen Page (Daredevil/The Punisher).

First Ever Ship:

Éowyn/Faramir from The Lord of the Rings. “It reminds me of Númenor” is such a line.

Last Song:

Downtown by Macklemore & Ryan Lewis ft. Melle Mel, Grandmaster Caz, Kool Moe Dee and Eric Nally - @auntieclimactic​ blazed into my Discord with this bop and there is a lot going on in it. Mostly mopeds. 

Last Film:

胭脂扣 (Rouge), a 1987 film by Stanley Kwan in which Anita Mui is a high-class courtesan in 1930s Hong Kong and Leslie Cheung is the wealthy playboy with whom she has a doomed romance and 53 years later she pops up as a ghost haunting some poor journalists in the 1980s. It’s very beautiful and tragic. They’re very beautiful and tragic.

Currently Reading:

I’m usually reading multiple books at once. Presently I’m at the beginning of The Hyacinth Girl by Lyndall Gordon, about T. S. Eliot and the four women who influenced his writing (most notably said “hyacinth girl” Emily Hale); in the middle of Pulp III, the third out of five volumes in Shubigi Rao’s series on book preservation and destruction; and at the end of Vertical: The City From Satellites To Bunkers by Stephen Graham, which examines the built environment from a three-dimensional perspective, up and down. I’m also listening to the audiobook of Mexican Gothic by Silvia Moreno-Garcia (evil mould: MY WORST NIGHTMARE).

Currently Watching:

Just got a free trial for Acorn TV so am powering through a Miss Fisher rewatch. Have also just finished Reservation Dogs, which I highly recommend.

Currently Consuming:

Vitamin C orange-flavoured gummies

Currently Craving:

Egg tarts, the Hong Kong style ones. I recently had something that was purportedly a Chinese egg tart but was actually sesame-flavoured? A travesty.

I’m afraid I’ve done too many of these of late to have people left to tag - I hate to inflict tagging on others! - but if you would like to do this please do! I always want to get to know people better.

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💚 GregForte

💗 FabioMel

💕  JamesCarol

I'm so sorry this is late and I'll only do two, hope you don't mind!!

Forte could feel it. She didn't even need to look over her shoulder to know that Greg was pissed. Her eyes were closed as her makeup artist finished applying her makeup, adding a bit of metallic glitter to make the cat eye liner pop. Greg was probably plotting every possible way to kill the poor man even though this is his job. Granted he should be glad their managers let them do a photo shoot together but he can help her put makeup on! Once the artist was gone he quietly gathered his things and left in a teensy bit of a hurry. "Greg..." Forte spoke, now applying a shimmery gloss to her lips . The metalhead sighed and walked over to her. From the mirror she could see him pouting. "Glad that asshole's gone." He huffed but saw that she wasn't too happy with him. "He's supposed to do that sweetie. I know you don't like it when other men are touching me but that's his job." As soon as she placed the lipgloss done he dove it, kissing her deeply. He tangled his hand into her hair and purposely licked her lips to smudge her makeup before tangoing with her tongue. Pulling away he smirked. "Keep it, ya look prettier that way~" The picnic was going well. A few clouds rolling by, some nice fruit sandwiches and refreshing lemonade under a nice shady tree. Fabio laughed as Melanie finished her story of how Ace managed to turn all the roses into polka dots. He watched her giggle and lean his hand on his chin. She was always so pretty. Like a flower or the perfectly ripe berry. Maybe.....he should try kissing her. He's seen James and Carol kiss after sparring matches so maybe she would like one too. "Uh...Lady Mel?" He asked as she sipped her lemonade. "Yes? She said, so sweetly. "C- Can I kiss you?" Melanie blushed but nodded. The two leaned in, their lips just about to touch when............ "HEY BUNNY BITCH!!! OSYRON WANTS YOU!!!!" Saneria was here..........wonderful.