#so at 14 i was already getting confused cause im gay and all

[selamat-linting]

wait why am i looking at the deconversion tag i still have some faith left lol.

[aroaceconfessions]

Uh hello, I'm kinda questioning... so i think I need advice or something,

I think I found a label that kinda fits but I don't know if it's fair to call myself aspec/under the asexual umbrella

But I'm gonna start from the beginning so this will make sense,

Ps: this got long so I'm gonna cut some parts and make some bullet points instead

When I was 8 I chose who to have a crush on

When I was 12 I joined a very gay fandom and shipped gay people (helped me stopped being homophobic)

"But I wasn't gay"

When I was like 13 every day on the bus I was thinking of this one girl

And I was like I can't be gay

And I had a whole list on my brain of why "I wasn't allowed to be gay"

Till a friend of mine came out as bi when we were like 13-14, and I realized that if they're allowed to just be Then There's no invisible wall forbidding me

And I did too, I came out to a few people as bi

When I was 12 I had a crush on a boy, once my friend pretended to like him to see my reaction(cause it was my 1st crush while they had a different one every week) and I had deleted my feelings after a 45 minutes class, but she just told me it was a joke but, I already like, felt nothing?

I've had a couple of crushes over the years, it actually takes me a long time to figure out "Oh hey this might be a crush" and most of my crushes, they were just random people from school, that I've never talked to and I didn't actually wanted to? Like that's my crush ok. End of story, no biggie

I only had a crush on a friend once, and I never told anyone about it. This was like when I was 15, and I recently (im 17 now) found out they have an online gf and I didn't felt any kind of jealously one might expect to feel, I'm happy for them

The thing with my crushes is, fictional characters? I usually love the boys, real people? Usually Girls that look gay

I think what mostly makes me question whether I'm fully bi, is that I related a little too much to Georgia Warr from Loveless by Alice Oseman (for anyone that doesn't know the book is about Georgia figuring out her identity as aroace)

One of my main suspicions is a photo, it was from an actor I really liked a few years ago, he was shirtless and all the comments were like "😍😍🔥🔥🥵🤩hot" and the first time I saw it I was like yeah, but then I saw the same photo a week later and I was like ew why is he shirtless get dressed dude, and I was confused with the same comments I saw and agreed a week ago

Also, some of the fictional characters i love I say I'm in love with them, but I don't actually want to "date" anyone (like my friends do) and 9/10 I ship the characters with someone

And I recently found out what Aceflux is

I would explain it as "on/off sexual attraction" that's how I understand it, at least. I don't know if/how much I'm wrong. I can't find a lot about it online

When I think about it, I'm not sure what I find "hot" sometimes I see someone and I'm like oh hot but not like in a "I wanna sleep with them hot"

I'm 17 and I've never been in a relationship or anything,

And while its sounds cool and all, I'm doing fine single yknow? I'm not actively looking for a relationship like most people seem to be doing

I've been questioning with the Aceflux label for a while now, it just makes sense,

Things I've done/thought in the past make more sense if an "on/off sexuality" is an option

but I feel like a fraud if I do use it and call myself that

Google is like "mostly on the asexual spectrum but sometimes allo"

What if it's a mix? What if I'm more allo than Aceflux? Or actually I'm not even sure anymore?? Idk I think I experience sexual attraction like 10 minutes a week when I see something on the internet that seems fancy

Is there a way to measure it?

Would it be unfair to use that label?

I don't even know anymore

Also, bc I've got double questions how? Romantic people? Demiromantic? How different? Like do people get Romantic feelings instantly?how? what? I don't understand

I'm questioning everything at this point

Only my gender, which I figured out at 15, seems to be safe...for now

[sleepless-in-starbucks]

14 (bodyguard AU) and 46 (blind date) sounds fun,,, your choice of ship ( ˘ ³˘)♥ ( ˘ ³˘)♥ ( ˘ ³˘)♥

14. Bodyguard AU || 46. Blind date

Random choice generator got me creativisleep!

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roman's a semi-popular actor- he's never really been to an awards show, and he's not been in That much, but he had a small but strong role in a real popular film and plenty of leading ones in lesser known movies. he's got enough of a following to be satisfied with himself, even if it isn't That huge of one

because of this, roman didn't take the possible dangers of his fame seriously... until he got jumped by one fan at a play in his hometown. he came out fine (he's always fine ;p) but it made him reconsider his choice to not have some sort of protection

he ends up hiring remy to be his bodyguard, a choice he Slightly starts regretting when he realizes remy, despite having excellent marks out of bodyguard school, is about as professional as a golden retriever

they take roman's food out of his fridge Whenever, borrow Way too many of his shirts (and roman hasn't seen his BMC 'boyf riends' hoodie since they got their hands on it), and is never in typical bodyguard wear (they wore a suit for the interview and never again)

but they also bring roman coffee (when did they get his regular figured out...?), talk to him like he's just a Person and not a celeb, and have yet to try and kill him themself so. roman's alright with them staying

(plus, is it so wrong if roman enjoys how they look? he deserves for a bit of an eye-candy sorta bodyguard, damnit, they're with him all the time after all)

remy's been with roman as his bodyguard for a few months when roman decides he cant just keep Lookin at a pretty person, he deserves to have a pretty person to kiss and cuddle with too!! so he pokes around for a bit, finds a non-homophobic service (he's pan, so he could Technically use a plain ol' straight service, but he refuses on gay principle), and uses it

idk how datin apps work but this one that im makin up is a blind match up app, which takes ur information and uses it to randomly pair u up with random accounts. the app keeps account info privated until After the first date has been gone on, to really maintain the 'blind match' aspect. the matched up people play a mini guessing game through the app about places they can go for a date until location and time is determined

roman likes the idea of the app mostly to keep his own identity secret as long as possible- he doesnt want people pickin his account Just bc he's a celeb, y'know?

the first couple of blind dates dont go well tho... most are nice people who roman just isn't compatible with, one was a straight woman who spent the entire date being Very homophobic despite roman's rainbow heart + pan flag pins, and someone who was clearly Too Much Of A Fan (remy had to physically pull them off of roman and help him escape the park before they could latch back on)

oh, did roman not mention? remy's been coming on all his dates with him

because of course they are! they need to protect roman! whether that's by eating dinner in the booth over or sitting two rows back at the cinema or awkwardly half-stalkin roman and his date while they walk about

so they're always there, to bring roman there and take him home, and listen when he complains about the bad matches and lament the almost-winners, and convince him he is a catch that needs to try again because eventually Someone will realize he really is too good to pass up

(remy always says that line in a weird way)

so he keeps trying... until roman has possibly the worst date ever

because he gets stood up. it's fifteen minutes past the scheduled date time, he's gotten no text explainin where they are, but he's sittin at the restaurant alone and starting to become rather upset by the pitying look the server gives him when he says he's still waitin on someone else before he orders

remy slides into the seat across from him at the 20 minute mark. shoots roman an apologetic smile that an outsider would mistake as a 'sorry im late' one when roman knows it's a 'sorry they didnt show' one

roman appreciates the gesture to save him, but he almost just wants to go home at this point. he's tired and bein stood up feels like Shit, actually, and he's about ready to call off the whole dating thing really, dramatic as that may be (like it's not his middle name)

but remy says smth about this place having really good sandwiches, and it's clear they're tryin so hard to help roman out here, even a little, and roman can't just dismiss that effort, so he picks up his menu again and orders smth and tries to ignore the way his face heats up just the slightest at the relieved smile remy flashes next

lunch with remy is great, actually, better than it would've been with whoever couldnt be bothered to show or apologize or Anything. remy even knows the way to an ice cream shop on the way home, sayin it's for roman's 'broken heart' as they pay for it

except, well... roman's heart isn't feelin so broken anymore

it's actually feeling pretty put together. really functional. functioning really fast. especially when roman's looking at remy. or when remy's lookin at roman. or when they smile. or when they laugh. or when they speak. or when they-

roman doesn't fall asleep until 2am that night, heart still racing a bit, screaming into his pillow a bit as he acknowledges he is wholly and totally head-over-heels for his bodyguard

he tells remy the next day he's done with dating for a bit, saying he's still upset over being stood up. he doesn't mention that it's also bc remy's ruined all other people for him

things try to fall back in routine from there, but it's a bit harder when roman's trying to not be so in love with someone who just works for him. and remy's definitely started pickin up on it too- they had asked him just last if he was okay, that he didn't seem as upset by remy takin his clothes anymore, and that didn't seem like him, was he getting sick?

the opposite, actually, absolutely nothing makes me feel better then seeing you walk around in my shirt or jacket or whatever else, please never stop and also kiss me?

roman just said he was tired

eventually... roman decides this can't keep going on. remy's giving him more weird looks these days, and roman is pretty sure being around remy so much without Any kisses is starting to cause brain decay (it's not, it's really not, remy always bein on his mind is just a side effect of.... pretti........). so, he takes matters into his own hands

admittedly, maybe firing remy wasn't the best way to go, given remy immediately demands to know why, what they did wrong, even asking if roman's being blackmailed into this

"blink once for yes, twice for no" remy asks, lowering the sunglasses they always have on to look directly at roman's eyes

roman doesn't blink for a full minute. he might not be breathing for that minute either. has he ever seen remy's eyes this close? has he ever seen them at all? they're such a brilliant shade of brown. roman could drown in them. he might be already

roman's pretty sure he started this conversation standing up, but maybe not, because when he finally blinks and remembers things outside of remy's eyes exist he's sitting down and remy looks extremely concerned

"okay... what's wrong, hun?" they ask, and oh no, they look so sad, and worried, and that's not good, roman should fix that right now, regardless of whatever he was doing before (he's forgotten)

"im gay" he responds intelligently. this will fix everything

remy, however, just looks confused. "yes?"

"for you" roman adds, helpfully, sure that Now remy will understand they're just really very pretty and nothing's wrong and if they feel bad still they should look in a mirror because then they'll be good again

now it's remy's turn to sit in silence, expression frozen in one of shock. they still havent put their sunglasses back on, so roman doesnt mind, bc this gives him more time to stare at remy's eyes

"you're having a breakdown because you're gay for me???" remy finally asks, expression unfreezing to look incredulous and a little hurt

roman returns a similar look. "im not having a breakdown!"

remy scoffs. "yeah, sure, right, that's why you suddenly froze and completely stopped breathing and minorly collapsed after i... look off my shades to look at you..." they suddenly break out in a smirk. "oh my gods, you're a gay disaster"

roman doesn't try to deny it, especially with the knowledge he apparently did stop breathing to admire remy's eyes. they have a point

"how long?"

"since that date you hijacked after i got stood up" roman admits. he finds it extraordinarily rude when remy starts laughing

...until they're pulling out their phone, hurriedly opening up the exact same dating app roman had been using, showing a log of all the dates they had planned- there's only one marked as having actually been attended

same date time and place of the one where roman had assumed he had been stood up

"you broke my heart!" roman says as remy puts away their phone, over-dramatically, not actually giving a damn, just feeling gay and a bit giddy at the thought remy hadnt gone to any of the other dates, just theirs

no longer worried quite as much about roman for the moment, remy's smirk just grows, smoothly moving from being crouched in front of roman to being set firmly in his lap, lazily brushing hair out of his eyes and wow was remy always this warm? and stunning? and perfect?

"i dunno babe... sounds more like i stole it" remy teases, movin from playing with roman's hair to cuppin his cheek, leaning in close and not even bothering to pretend to be looking at anything other than roman's lips. "which, yeah, bad bodyguard etiquette... i hope you can forgive me..."

roman doesn't need his words to answer that tease

[angelhummel]

could you rank the degrassi next class characters?

gladly!! also sorry in advance if you love any of the characters im about to shit on lol

20. Frankie Hollingsworth. Almost had her second to last but. No. Klu Klux Fran?? The ZOO?? I can't even talk about her she's just so damn annoying and racist and omg. And she was being pushed as the new Main Girl which made everything all the more offensive and unbearable

19. Esme Song. Sorry but I do not think she had a single redeeming trait. She had nothing she stood for, no actual character beyond being an antagonist to every single other person on the show. Like she thinks Shay is stupid for being embarrassed about getting her period on her boyfriend's pants, and yet she calls Yael disgusting for having armpit hair?? So what's the truth? And people are like "well she's mentally ill" to excuse all she does. Well Maya is mentally ill and Esme makes fun of her too. So who's side are we on? Like I would've liked to see her get help and develop but we didn't get that so.

18. Hunter Hollingsworth. Terrorist. Not even interesting enough to be an actual school shooter. Just a waste of a character. Sexist, violent, had a plot about wanting to play video games at school. I'm so bored. Only not at the bottom bc I feel like he wasn't in my face as much

17 & 16. Baaz Nahir & Vijay Maraj. Thing 1 and Thing 2 to the would be school shooter. Clowns. They were a terrible group and I cringed any time they had a plot together. Annoying together, useless on their own. Hard pass

15. Yael Baron. The final member of the above group. Was mostly boring and annoying and especially dumb for being romantically interested in Hunter. Only gets bonus points for their coming out as nonbinary plot. After their makeover I was literally crying

14. Jonah Haak. Mostly disliked him for being in a relationship with Frankie. Like I'm sure they were only a year or two apart but he felt so much older than her. It was gross. And mostly he's just really blah. The attempt at a straight edge character at that point was. Hilarious. at least.

13. Winston Chu. Seemed harmless at first but idk all the boys were shifted high into clown mode when this show hit netflix. The incident with the geisha and Japanese soldier costumes? Defending Zoe against Esme? Then later telling Goldi maybe she should take her hijab off to cause less of a fuss? Bruh.

12. Saad Al'Maliki. Honestly I felt like he was the one with the most braincells most of the time. Probably pissed me off the least. But he was also in the least amount of episodes and didn't make much of an impression on me. Was mostly just boring. But I'll take boring over everything that came before

11. Lola Pacini. Degrassi has a knack for introducing the worst and most obnoxious characters and then eventually making you love them. Lola was not quite that. I hated her for the longest time but it decreased a bit near the end. I got emotional when she had her abortion. And when she gave Yael their makeover. And when she reached out to Saad and convinced him not to leave. I feel like I could've grown to like her more if the show went on, but again... Oh also I hate her and Miles together sorry

10. Grace Cardinal. Ugh Grace is confusing to me. I wasn't the biggest fan of her story with Zoe. I mean sure you're allowed to hook up with someone and then realize "oh that's not for me" but it was handled so awkwardly. Like she slept with Zoe just to be like "damn i hate when everyone thinks i'm a lesbian :/" like why. Idk she was fine but I'm not over the moon about her

9. Goldi Nahir. Ugh okay I feel like they didn't know what to do with her. Like she had the plotline about if she should take off her hijab or not. And she had to teach the poor whities about racism. That was about it? She was adorable and sweet and a bright spot in the show but ugh she deserved better than what she was surrounded with lol

8. Shay Powers. Again, it's not her fault she's stuck in a show written by 70 year old white people. But the black girl is completely oblivious to the racism of her friend? She has to ask her dad if a racist thing is really racist? She's never experienced racism? Ok Degrassi. They treat all their black girls like shit and I feel like I just stan them out of spite bc of that lol. But she's cool and a nice person and she's into sports so she's at least doing stuff

7. Rasha Zuabi. Another generally nice and cool character that I have positive feelings for. Also she was gay so yay. Loved her story with Zoe. I think there was just one moment where I was like "wtf are you doing" but compared to everyone else it's not a big deal

6. Zig Novak. I have to admit that all my enjoyment of his character comes from before Next Class. He was such a sweetie and then he left and came back acting dumb as hell. That was not my boy in Next Class. But ahhh he's still my boy sorry I love him <3

5. Deon "Tiny" Bell. Basically the same as Zig above. But I feel like he maybe had a few less moments of being an asshole? Also his promposal for Shay was cute <3 Wait didn't he also date Lola? Wasn't a fan of that either.

4. Zoe Rivas. She was the one dressed up as a geisha lol (: Oh boy Next Class was something else. Umm it was nice to see her process of accepting herself as a lesbian. I feel like it took forever tho. Which is understandable irl but this is a tv show lol. I didn't enjoy her sucking Zig off in the woods. Not fun. But her relationship with Rasha was one of my fave things about NC

3. Tristan Milligan. The amount of hate Tristan gets is faaaar too much. He's one of my favorites of the whole show honestly. I think he's funny and dramatic and a great addition to the show. But he gets knocked down bc I can't remember anything he did in Next Class other than BEING IN A FUCKING COMA FOR A WHOLE SEASON. He's already Owen's brother, he's suffered enough. But I love his relationship with Miles. And him helping Zoe accept herself

2. Miles Hollingsworth. Yes another character I wasn't fond of at first. Hated his relationship with Zoe and thought he was just boring. Truthfully I think I only became interested when he started dating Tristan lol. Plus omg with his family?? It's a miracle he got out at all. He went through so much bullshit and he was especially going through it in Next Class. He was kind of a hot mess but also I just care a lot about him. He deserves the world <3

1. Maya Matlin. Is Maya really my fave?? I guess so! Yet another character I wasn't fond of at first. Which is insane bc we just got to the part in our rewatch where she first shows up and I'm like !!! baby girl!! So precious!!! And I wanted to cry thinking of what she's about to go through. I feel like her character is treated with some of the most respect and care. Her motivations and mental health decline all make sense storywise. I just care a lot about her and got super emotional watching everything in her story, especially the later parts in NC

Wow this is a lot!! But I hope you enjoyed my ranking and explanations lol. Also like. Everyone was racist. Everyone was mentally ill. That was the whole show. It was a hot mess and truth be told I am not a fan. Even the characters I love, they were acting weird here. Like I said about Zig and Tiny and their character regression. And I think it was the same for like Tristan and Zoe and plenty of others too. Everyone was off, idk how to explain it. But that's my ranking for the hot mess that was Next Class!!

Thank you for the ask, ily <3

[oleanderblume]

I did it! I made friends with a cis dude as a dude. I'm like 75% sure he sees me as a dude, but fuck if I know. I don't pass except maybe 25% of the time. And that's if I DONT OPEN MY FUCKING MOUTH. My voice hasn't dropped much and my natural speaking voice is already pretty high :/

Now I'm in paranoia limbo where 1/4th of me is like "yeah, you made a friend, don't be weird about it" another 4th is "don't get a fucking crush because someone is being a nice person dipshit" another 4th is basically "this is all an elaborate ruse this person constructed in order to get you to lower your guard so they can brain fuck you."

And the last 4th is just "I swear to fucking God, don't let this person go gay for you."

I'm just. FUCK my brain is all fucked up. I haven't had a healthy relationship, even friendship in quite a while, and from my last experience, every time I think too hard about it, I start invisioning these horrendous scenarios occurring. Then I get obsessed and afraid of them and act so fucking anxious.

On top of that like, this guy came to ME. He sought my sorry ass put of Facebook and asked to be MY friend and I don't know— I feel like I should like try to impress him? We played borderlands???

I went to his apartment this week and it's so clean dude. And he made ramen and it was super good. But BRUH he talks to me like every other day and thinks that I'm interesting??????

Plus like....I'm Hella trans. I KNOW I don't pass. Or if I do, I look like a 14 year old boy who's balls only just started dropping. I'm 24 and this dude is about 10 years older than me. T^T I feel like weird inadequacy?? I'm scared he just sees me as some confused girl.

Or fuck. My big fear is the whole "I'll change you" Sort of thing idk im being paranoid. Super fucking paranoid for no reason.

He has a degree in psychology though so FUCK me if he's like secretly scoping out to figure out if I'm trans because of some unresolved trauma. (Boy that'll be hard to combat considering my fucking history)

Also he wants to buy my book??? Which is nice, but legit he wants to psychoanalyze me through my writing (which...vibe...cause I'm not gonna tell him outright that most of the shitty stuff in the series is either directly or allegorically pulled from my own personal experiences) Still though!

I'm freaking out over nothing. Legit. I'm freaking out because I've been lured into too many false senses of security to know the difference, and I'm too fucking paranoid of all the negatives occurring that I can't see the positives. Or if I do see them, my brain inevitably will twist them into negatives so I don't feel safe.

It's great. Im having so much fun!!!

[ninja-go-to-therapy]

Kat Watches Mighty Med

27 seconds in and they’ve already made a poop joke. Wow.

ALSO THEY’RE BABIES?? THEYRE SO TINY???

Oh my god I forgot about the thing they did where they pretend to take a picture together. Do they not have cameras on their phones I’m so confused.

CLYDE AND WALLACE I REMEMBER THEM

Ahh token Violent Girl

She’s pretty tho 👀 and I like her style

Where do I know this chick from

Oh hey she’s Hazel from Dolphin Tale

“He won’t say a word” “Really, where are we gonna get a muzzle?” A MUZZLE YOU SAY?

“Fine, just keep him away from me” “Now we gotta get a leash, this is becoming a nightmare!” STOPPPP THINGS ARE BEGINNING TO MAKE SENSE ABOUT MYSELF

I’m sorry you’re telling me a cardboard cutout was heavy enough to trigger a nerf gun and a singular dart managed to knock a chandelier type item down?? I’m sorry no???

“You always do these crazy things and expect me to just follow you!” “Hold that thought, follow me” okay fine comedy

Also you’re telling me this superhero looked around to make sure nobody saw him go into the secret supply closet and didn’t notice the teenage boy standing in the middle of the room looking directly at him

THE SPECIAL EFFECTS WLDBEKE NOOO

Also how do I still have the entire theme song memorized. Send help.

“Maybe the extreme gravity pulled his heart from his chest down to his feet!” IM SORRY IS THAT HOW THIS WORKS NOW? I KNOW I PASSED BIOLOGY BY EXACTLY ONE POINT BUT THAT SEEMS A LIL INACCURATE

“What do you think they’re gonna do to us?”

“It says ‘now you die!’”

“Do you think they mean you or me?”

“Well it says ‘you’.” OKAY FINE THATS FUNNY

Wait how the hell did they manage to say the word “sexiest” on Disney channel

Cause the guy is holding a mug and he reads out what the mug says and word for word it’s “world’s sexiest chief of staff and vice chancellor of medical administration.” I’m still stuck on the ‘sexiest’ part how the hell did that end up on Disney channel

Sweatervest’s voice is insanely squeaky. Who wants to bet he hits puberty for season two.

“I’m gonna get a normo cage.” What’s with all the dehumanization in this show hot damn it hasn’t even been 10 minutes

Here it comes here comes the first mention of the bridge thing

“This. Is a picture of a bridge. I love bridges!” He’s so enthusiastic and for what. Was it a setup the entire time for Bridgette or did they name her that as an afterthought. Hmm.

THEY DO HAVE PHONES WHAT’S THE POINT OF THE FAKE PHOTO THING

Also bridge guy is officially a boomer. He mentioned the whole “you youngins are always on your phones” shit. Shut up I hate you now.

Hold the fuckity. So the Annihilator stole Skylar’s powers and invisible flying motorcycle. Okay cool. But he also stole her clothes? And left her standing there? IN HER UNDERWEAR? AND OLIVER PROCEEDS TO STARE INTO SPACE, THINKING ABOUT THIS MOMENT? HELLO??? I guess we know what he’ll be thinking about next time he ma— *dies*

Sorry but Gus (he’s the one that they discussed muzzling and leashing by the way) sniffing Jordan’s hair after coming up behind her all creepy-like (although it doesn’t seem to be being played in a creepo way, just a nuisance) is giving me major Doofus Drake vibes. Stop that.

“MY PARENTS GIVE ME MONEY INSTEAD OF ATTENTION” I FORGOT GUS WAS RICH AND NEGLECTED NOOO

Damn this man is straight up impaled through the chest

“We kind of have a prior commitment.” “I thought your commitment was to this hospital.” SIR THESE KIDS ARE LIKE 14 AND IN SCHOOL?????? LIKE ITS THE MIDDLE OF THE SCHOOL DAY?

Why are there literally 8 desks in this classroom. No class is that small I’m-

How does Disney channel think school works. Cause it’s not like this.

Why are the teen boys left alone in a surgery room with a dying superhero. They’re gonna fuck it up somehow.

DID YOU JUST PULL A STOPSIGN OUT OF A MAN’S CHEST WITH YOUR BARE HANDS? FIRST OFF THATS SO UNSANITARY AND SECONDLY SIR YOU ARE IN MASSIVE TROUBLE

Oh it’s a 2 parter pilot okay

Part 2 here we come

PART 2

“Have I ever let you down before?” “CONSTANTLY!” Lmao iconic

Okay but I’ve got to wonder. The entrance to the superhero hospital is in the regular person hospital. So like? Someone must notice these two boys coming in every day right??? Does no one question that?

Not Kaz using fanfic as a cover for why he’s talking about a superhero as if they’re real. Me too Kaz me too.

Also the twin brothers act like they’re gay for each other and I hate it

Alan is a little bitch send tweet. You’re basically making fun of someone who just became disabled (?). Sir what the fuck

Oh wow you saved her life because she was determined to see that she still had her super strength powers and almost got crushed. Give the man a medal.

Ooo best friend fight

They have photographic memory shit going on?? Damn

WHY WOULD YOU REACH INTO A HOLE IN SOMEONE’S CHEST WITHOUT GLOVES SIR YOU ARE IN A HOSPITAL

“That video has 56 likes!” Is that... an achievement?

IM CRYING WHY DID IT ZOOM IN ON HER FACE LIKE THAT WHEN SHE SAID HER CATCHPHRASE

But also “There’s a storm coming. Skylar Storm.” Has been living in my head rent free for years so thanks I guess.

This was like 2013 how does Paris Berelc still manage to pull off being a teenage girl for Alexa and Katie

KAZ IS SO BAD AT KEEPING MIGHTY MED A SECRET I STG

“It’s just the twins” wow who could have predicted the funny twin shop-owners were actually villains

———

And that’s all for me reacting to one of my favorite shows from my childhood. Wow that was an... ordeal.

[on-stand-bi-help]

So I this are just a bunch of texts that I sent my cousin and I thought why not post it on Tumblr as well!

Please do not take this seriously this is just some really bad comedy. Hope you enjoy. (Also this does have swear words and I mean a lot of swear words so you have been warned.)

Ok I haven’t edit this at all so sorry for my grammar and sorry if this doesn’t make sense

So a new MLB episode came out and it’s a special? Idk to be honest but here are my thoughts cause I want you to watch it! So there is a fucking new intro! It reminds me of the old Barbie movies intros not gonna lie but I guess it’s kinda cool.

Ok so their flying abilities or powers or whatever look really weird and I don’t like them. Alya showing the camera back and forth gave me a headache.

Ok but Ladybugs knowing about roses and their meanings gives me fanfic vibes not gonna lie. Chat trying his best too whoo Ladybug and respecting their boundaries (which she made by the way) freaking adorable not gonna lie. Chat being flustered fuck I just realized how much I missed him. Ugh Ladybug’s soft look and as soon as she leaves Chat’s soft look fuck they are adorable omg. Ok Chat saying that he needs to give himself some flowers cause he is amazing. 100% agree 10/10 you deserve it. TREAT YO SELF!

Ugh definitely did not miss Marinette’s obsession with Adrien omg. She’s really trying to lie to tikki bro you’re with her all the time. You can’t lie to her plus she’s been alive since the beginning of the universe and you’re telling me you are honestly trying to lie to her. God damnit Marinette you are such a dumbass.

LMAO THE STUDENT FILM OH MY FUCKING GOD!! THAT’S SO FUNNY!

God damn I saw on tumblr people comparing Draco to Chloe and I’m like bro Draco is a meme and a great character. Chloe is a bitch who is so fucking annoying.

OMG THE TEACHER IS PREGNANT ALL SHE HAD TO SAY WAS I HAVE MEDICAL EXAMS AND I KNEW!!! FUCKKKK YESSSS A RED HEADED BABY!!!

Can you imagine there is a whole episode where the class has to take care of the baby (for whatever reason) and all of them freaking out cause this baby is too precious and Alya coming in and saving the day and being like guys calm down. It’s all good. Nino fucking going soft trying to help Alya as best as he can. Marinette and Adrien never doing this before so both of them are super flustered and nervous! God I WOULD LITERALLY KILL FOR THAT EPISODE NOW HOLY SHIT!!!

Ok damn Kim really ain’t holding back like chill dude. He really just told the principal that the science teacher isn’t cool. You tell that to your friends not the fucking principal. You dumbass.

LILA IS HERE FUCK!!! God not only do I have to deal with Chloe’s bullshit but Lila’s too omg. Ok idk if it’s the website that I’m watching it in but their voices sound weird and I hope it’s just the website and not the actual episode.

Marinette shut the fuck up ADRIEN WAS TALKING BITCH!!! YOU INTERRUPTED HIM!!! Lmao nice save Marinette talking about the film to distract everyone from the fact that you like Adrien. GOD DAMNIT ADRIEN’S SOFT LOOK FUCK!!! HE LOVES HER SO MUCH BUT HE DOESN'T KNOW IT YET OMG!!! GOD DAMN!!! Lmao Lila’s face! Yeah fuck you Lila! Bitchass!

So Marinette is telling everyone that she is over Adrien. Alya isn’t falling for this bullshit! Love that. Marinette, why are you lying just ask them to help you move on. Like I can see the effort but I don’t understand why you are lying about it if you aren’t completely over him. Like bruh. ALEX REALLY SAID “No kidding” to when Marinette said that she was acting crazy. YES ALEX QUEEN! CALL HER OUT! Marinette saying that she just wants to be friends with him and not in love with him. (ARE WE FINALLY GETTING THE CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT THAT WE ALL DESERVE HOLY SHIT IM LIVING!) Nope nvm she’s still on her bullshit. Did Alya just say that if Marinette will be ok with her and Adrien going to New York together because it may be too romantic. Like Bitch YOU GUYS LIVE IN PARIS! I'M SURE SHE WILL BE FINE!

FUCK YOU GABRIEL!! DIDN’T MISS YOU AT ALL YOU FUNKY ASS BITCH!!!

BRUH ANOTHER MIRACULOUS FOR REAL!!!

DAMN! Lmao Marinette trying to look tough that’s so funny to me! Who you trying to scare bitch cause you ain’t fooling anyone. Bruh Gabriel really friendzoned Marinette for Adrien lmao! Omg I love that. Fuck. I hate Gabriel so much.

I DIDN’T KNOW KIGMA WAS GOING TO BE IN THIS EPISODE!! YAY! EW WTF DID SHE JUST KISS HIM! ARE YOU KIDDING! WAIT WHEN DID THEY GET TOGETHER!! WTF! I DON’T REMEMBER THIS!

Marinette you are so annoying. Where’s Ladybug?! SHE’S SO MUCH BETTER! HOLY SHIT IT’S LADYBUG! OK BUT THAT SCENERY LOOKS SO ROMANTIC! Wait yeah both of them are going to New York like who is going to protect the city?! Oh shit nvm I’m a dumbass hawk moth is going too. Lmao! I’m an idiot! Ok BUT THAT WEIRD BUTTON THING IS ADORABLE OMG!!! AWWW! LIKE WTF!! I WANT ONE! BRUH HOW CAN SHE NOT LIKE CHAT NOIR WTF IS WRONG WITH HER!!! GODAMNIT!

Gabriel really said Surprise bitch to Adrien lmao. Damn poor Gorilla. I can’t believe he still doesn’t have a fucking name godamnit. Lmao I love plagg. Ew god damnit fuck you GABRIEL!

OMG LUKAAAAA! Marinette fucking date him already wtf. He is literally biking your stupid ass to catch up to the bus. GOD LUKA DESERVES BETTER! Marinette you always fucking ruin the moment fuck you. Fuck you. AGAIN LUKA DESERVES BETTER! Luka honey no don’t look at her like that you deserve better. Flashback to the perks of being a wallflower quote, “We accept the love we think we deserve” FUCK YOU BRAIN WHY YOU DO ME LIKE THIS!!

ALYA IS A TRUE FRIEND!!! Bro my friends would be laughing their ass off and making funny faces at the window instead of asking the teachers to stop the bus. HE WAS CARRYING HER SUITCASE TOO OMG! BRO LUKA HAS SOME STRONG ASS LEGS LIKE DAMN!!! Luka then says, “You know what’s important Marinette, that this trip gives you some clarity.” PLEASE GOD THAT SHE FALLS FOR CAT NOIR!!! PLEASE THAT SHE STARTS LIKING HIM!!! PLEASE! BITCH WHY KISS HIM ON THE CHEEK OMG WHY?! He likes you and you decide to kiss him on the cheek. Bro you are just making him fall for you more. Goddammit you are an idiot.

Bruh one look at Adrien and she becomes a tomato god damn. Am I being hard on Marinette cause she reminds me of me. NO WTF!!! Shut up! (At least I’m not a stalker or someone who gets obsessed with my crush in obnoxious ways.)

FUCK YOU CHLOE WE DIDNT WANT YOU TO COME YOU STUPID HOEEE!!!

I JUST REALIZED THIS IS A MOVIE!!! 12 minutes in and I just realized this is a movie. I AM AN IDIOT!!! God I’m so dumb lol. Ok this animation not gonna lie is kinda good.

He really yelled at Marinette in front of everybody in a plane huh. That’s so funny. Also he sounded like such a jock like wtf was that. Lmao Alya and Nino just looking at them like yessss our ship!!! (Alya and Nino are such a mood) This movie is literally like a fucking fan fiction. Adrien, “Oh yeah you’re sitting next to me!” Marinette fucking panicking. Omg this is literally a fanfic. I can’t! I love this omg. I LOVE ALYA SO MUCH OMG!!! Did Marinette just call Adrien her husband. YOU’RE LIKE 14 SHUT UP!!! PLEASE!!! How can you confuse husband with friend. Ok this just confirms that Marinette constantly daydreams to herself and tells herself that Adrien is her husband. Girl, GIRL YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW HIM VERY WELL. SHE’S NOT EVEN IN LOVE SHE’S JUST FASCINATED WITH THE IDEA OF HIM. Ugh this is why I don’t like the idea of Marinette and Adrien or Ladybug and Adrien being together. Like she barely knows him and she counts that as love. Jesus. Lmao Gorilla has and will always ship Marinette and Adrien together. You can not change my mind.

Brooo if Marinette had a penis she would definitely have gotten a boner when Adrien fell on her. WHY IS MARINETTE LIKE THIS?! (Ok yes if my crush not that I have one but if I did I would probably do all the shit she is doing but I wouldn’t run away I would fucking just be in shock and freeze. Probably idk. THIS IS GIVING ME TO MUCH SECOND HAND EMBARRASSMENT PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD ACT NORMAL FOR ONCE IN YOUR LIFE.) Did Alya just say that “New York is the most romantic place in the world!” AGAIN YOU LIVE IN PARIS!!! OH SHIT NVM. I paused it too soon. She continues by saying, “After Paris obviously.” Ok my bad. Ok are we talking about the same New York cause New York isn’t that romantic. Then again what do I know. Marinette FUCK YOU!!! YOU COULD HAVE SAT WITH ADRIEN AND NOW YOU HAVE TO SIT WITH THE FUCKING PRINCIPLE. Lmao this is giving me fucking Spider-Man Far From Home flashbacks. Bro Adrien looks so disappointed. FUCK YOU MARINETTE! Bro gorilla is such a mood. Putting a 10 for both having a fear of flying and for needing relaxation. Wait why doesn’t he have eyebrows? I just realized that. I mean I knew but like I didn’t realize idk if that makes sense.

Dude the principal sleeping on Marinette THAT HAPPENED IN FAR FROM HOME!!! Wait a damn minute in Far From Home Peter lives in New York and goes somewhere in Europe (I forgot where) AND MARINETTE LIVES IN FRANCE AND SHE GOES TO NEW YORK!!! Not only that but these are both superhero movies and they are both in love with someone except here Marinette is trying to get over Adrien while Peter Parker was trying to win over MJ. OK SOMEONE ON THE CREATIVE TEAM LITERALLY WATCHED FAR FROM HOME AND SAID YES LET’S DO THIS BUT THE OPPOSITE. I CAN’T THIS IS SO FUNNY!

AWWWW Alya and Nino sleeping on each other IS EVERYTHING!!! I SHIP THEM SO MUCH!!! IVAN AND MYLENE TOO!!! THEY REALLY WANT TO KILL ME HUH!? WAIT ROSE AND JUELKA FUCK YESSS THE GAYS ARE WINNING!!! MY MULTISHIPPER HEART CAN’T TAKE THIS MUCH POWER ALL IN A MATTER OF SECONDS!!! THIS IS BEAUTIFUL!!!

Dude I literally thought she said shit for a second I WAS LIKE WHAT?! But she said shoot. I really hope that’s not toilet water on her shirt. MARINETTE YOU HAVE A NAPKIN? OR TOILET PAPER ON YOUR HAIR?! GET THAT SHIT OUT OF THERE?!

Awww the sunset is so pretty. And Adrien is going to come in 3 2 1. Right on time. Adrien, “It's beautiful isn’t it?” I’m expecting Marinette to say, “Yeah but so are you.” and immediately regretting afterwards. Nvm she trips on him instead. Should have seen that coming. Ok now they are looking out the window again. This frame would be so cute if she didn’t have that stupid Toilet paper in her hair. Bruh Adrien just stands next to her and doesn’t even mention the Toilet paper on her hair. Adrien be like, “Yup just me and my fashionista friend Marinette looking at the window. Oh she has a piece of toilet paper in her hair. Damn must be a new trend I don’t know about. That’s kinda sus cause I am a model but whatever she knows more about fashion then I do so it’s all good.” (Not an actual quote.) Damn Alya and Nino ship them so much. Ok but what a mood!

Adrien says, “You're always willing to take a chance on something or someone even when no one else is.” Yeah bruh it’s because she is ladybug, I mean come on how do you not realize. Adrien really smirked at her whole shit! Adrien continues by saying, “You got something Marinette.” Marinette asks, “Something?” WAIT HOLD UP ISN’T HE DATING KAGAMI!!! WAIT IS MARINETTE A HOMEWRECKER!!! I’m kidding. Ok not really. Wait is Adrien a cheater like what?! Adrien continues by saying, “Yeah there in your hair.” He grabs the fucking piece of toilet paper. I LITERALLY FORGOT IT WAS THERE AND I BURST OUT LAUGHING!!! GOD I LOVE THIS MOVIE!!!

Alya is a mood, “I can’t decide if they are the cutest people I know or the most embarrassing.” Literally me whenever I watch Miraculous ladybug. Also this literally sounds like something fanfic Alya would say. Not canon Alya. But I really love how they let Alya say that. Good call team! Omg Nino continues with, “Yeah I love Adrien but he is like a baby chick that just started cracking out of his egg he has a hard time understanding the signals people send them.” THIS LITERALLY SOUNDS LIKE A FANFIC AND I LOVE IT!!! OMG!!! I LOVE OPERATION NEW YORK OMG!!! YESSSSSSSS!!! ALYA AND NINO ARE LITERALLY OUR SAVIORS!!! GOD DAMN I LOVE THEM!!! ADRIEN HUGGED HER AWWWWW!!! I LOVE HIM!

THERE’S ANOTHER SUPER VILLAIN WTF!!! He really wants to kill the people huh. I mean he must be pure evil cause he literally is tearing the airplane apart. He really said: There's tons of people in this airplane huh. Welp I really need this technology so I guess they have to die!

DUDE WHO THE FUCK IS THIS GIRL? I can’t tell if she is a robot or a superhero! MAYBE BOTH!!! ALYA IS SUCH A SUPERHERO NERD I LOVE HER!!! OK this other girl superhero is literally captain marvel. She’s not Majestia (idk if that’s how you spell it) nah she’s captain marvel. LMAO WHEN CAPTAIN MARVEL MAKES AN APPEARANCE IN THE MLB MOVIE AND DOESN’T HAVE THE AUDACITY TO HELP OUT PETER PARKER IN HIS FIELD TRIP!! DAMN!!! SHE REALLY SAID FUCK YOU PETER! MLB FANDOM NEEDS ME MORE THAT YOU DO!! LIKE GURL PETER IS HAVING AN EMOTIONAL BREAKDOWN CAUSE HIS 3rd father figure died!!! Then again she is saving an airplane fool of people but I’m sure you could have made a quick stop to give Peter some advice but whatever.

God I hate the principal.

CAPTAIN MARVEL REALLY SAID I HAVE TO SAVE MY ROBOT WIFE FROM THAT BOMB!! And she fucking blew the bomb away from her face. DUDE THERE IS SO MANY NEW SUPERHEROES HOLY CRAP!!! Ok including the Captain Marvel and the robot there’s 2 more but that’s more than Paris soooooo. WAIT CAPTAIN MARVEL JUST CALLED HER ROBOT DARLING!!! I was joking, I didn’t think they were together. OK I SHIP IT! Captain Marvel, “Are you alright darling?” (Giving me Spinderella and Netasha vibes not gonna lie) STOPPED IT TOO SOON!!! ROBOT JUST CALLED CAPTAIN MARVEL HER MOTHER!!! ABORT ABORT SHIP!!! I regret making all the comments that I just have made. So ignore them. I no longer ship them. Aw they have such a quote MOTHER AND DAUGHTER RELATIONSHIP!!! They are hugging each other. Adorable.

Bruh Adrien and Marinette are talking openly to plagg and tikki like could you guys be more obvious. Like shut up.

So apparently there’s a superhero for everything in USA. Um I wish if there was USA wouldn’t be as shitty as it is now.

I love Nino and Alya, that's all I’m going to say.

Also the superheros have a code word for the French students and it’s literally ‘the little croissants’ I LOVE THAT OMG!!! WHO CAME UP WITH THAT CODE CAUSE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!”

Ok turns out Robot girl can actually turn into a regular girl. SO THAT’S COOL!

How is it possible that Adrien and Marinette can’t figure out how the doors work like what?! Ok why the fuck is Adrien constantly catching Marinette every time she falls. Like he isn’t even close to her and he fucking races and catches her. Right he obviously doesn’t like her. Yup I definitely believe that bullshit.

Lmao the robot girl took one look at dumbass Marinette and stupidass Adrien and said, “Those 2 are made for each other.” That’s so funny. Ok robot girl is friends with a girl that has some weird ass earrings (dare I say lesbian). And they both are in school so I’m pretty sure they are the same age. SO I SHIP THEM!!! Grumpy girlfriend and super happy robot girlfriend. ADORABLE!

Lmao they are already going to a party bruh. They just got off of a plane and they almost died. And you’re telling me that they aren’t slightly jet lagged or even a little tired. Bruh come on.

DAMN SABRINA IS GONNA GET A LOVE INTEREST OKKKKKKKK!!! He literally winked at her and she went bright red. DAMN GURL GET IT!!! CHLOE FUCK OFF!!! SABRINA IS GONNA GO FLIRT WITH THE GUY AND NOT BE YOUR STUPID ASSISTANT!!! FUCK YOU!!! GOD DAMNIT CHLOE, SABRINA, MARINETTE AND ALYA ARE ROOMATES BRUHHHHH!!! (And they were roommates- OH MY GOD THEY WERE ROOMMATES NOT NOW BRAIN PLEASE)

Bro the teacher looks at the hallway and nods cause she notices that all the lights are off in the room and no one is talking and she leaves. And immediately all the doors open and everyone is sneaking off to the party. BROOO THIS REMINDS ME OF NHI LOL!!! So the teacher suddenly pops out and asks what’s that noise and they all go into different rooms. The teacher doesn’t notice. And of course Marinette goes into the room with Adrien but on accident, and for a second I thought she was touching his pee pee but no she was just touching his lower stomach lol. They both look at each other and Marinette gets flustered and Adrien smiles softly at her. And she immediately gets away from him and they end up in the same room as ROBOT GIRL AND HER LESBIAN GIRLFRIEND!!! Robot girl is shipping them so hard while her girlfriend is glaring at them.

HER GIRLFRIEND CAN PLAY GUITAR YESSSSS!!!

SABRINA GO TO THE PARTY PLEASE!!! DITCH CHLOE!!! FLIRT WITH THE AMERICAN!!! THE AMERICAN IS FUCKING STANDING OUTSIDE THE WINDOW!!! WAITING FOR HER OMG!!! He takes her hand AND TAKES HER TO THE ROOF PARTY!!! FUCK I SHIP THEM SO HARD!!!

Omg the dialogue in this movie is fucking amazing. Marinette says, “Is it a bird?” Adrien, “Is it a plane?” Sabrina’s soon to be boyfriend, “No IT’S HOT DOG DAN!” Like bitch why is the hot dog cart flying like wtf?! Dude is this how French people see Americans because you know what?! THAT SOUNDS about right. If USA ever gets superhero’s we PROBABLY WOULD HAVE A SUPERHERO WHO SERVES FUCKING HOT DOGS!!! Damn this movie is pretty fucking realistic. The Americans are fucking thirsty for some hot dogs they literally run over Adrien and Marinette like damn ok yes a lot of Americans like hot dogs but we aren’t animals. Turns out the hot dogs are magical. ROSE LITERALLY GOT SUPER STRENGTH AND WAS ABLE TO LIFT UP IVAN!!! QUEEN!!! AW Sabrina got long ass hair like Rapunzel but it’s brown for some reason.

There’s 2 hot dogs left and Nino take initiative and pays for the hot dog and says, “Not a problem. My girl and I can have one and you 2 can have the other.” Damn this really is a fanfic huh. Then again I doubt a fanfic would have them sharing a fucking magical hot dog. Lol! This movie is nuts. They ate the hot dogs (nvm they took a bite of the hotdog and they dropped it on the floor) and they started floating. They grab hands and they are trying not to freak out.

Meanwhile ALYA AND NINO ALL THE FUCKING GET IS THESE HIGH PITCHED VOICES LIKE BRUH. Also Nino ships them so much omg! BRUH HOT DOG DAN EVEN SHIPS THEM! I mean he doesn’t say anything he just looks at them and smiles.

Omg Alya asked Robot’s girlfriend to set the mood with a song! And Robot’s girlfriend is like yeah sure thing. This movie is surreal.

THE SONG IS LITERALLY THE SONG THAT THEY DANCED TOO AT CHLOE’S PARTY OMG!!! I can’t believe I remembered that.

Bruh Adrien literally just repeated what I typed. HE JUST ASKED MARINETTE IF SHE COULD DANCE WITH HIM!!! They are floating and the moon is shining bright on them (Nice job Yue; setting the scene for us I see) and he extends his hand. She starts floating backwards cause she’s freaking out (What a surprise 😒). He grabs her hand and brings her closer to him. WHAT FANFIC AUTHOR WAS ABLE TO GET A FUCKING HIGH BUDGET TO MAKE THIS MOVIE BECAUSE THIS DOESNT FEEL LIKE AN MLB EPISODE!!!

ALSO Marinette is looking at Adrien in a way that makes her look like a Tim burton cartoon character lol. SHE FINALLY GIVES IN AND DANCES WITH HIM IN FRONT OF THE MOON!!! (They aren’t even dancing to be honest they are literally just hugging each other really closely and spinning) BUT ITS ADORABLE SO I FORGIVE THEM!

Lmao they zoom out of the roof party and you just see in the fucking corner Kim and some other dude having a push-up contest. They showed that in the beginning when Alya, Nino, Marinette and Adrien were entering the party. I just wasn’t expecting that in this whole time Kim and the other guy still continued the push-up contest omg. (This is the first 29 minutes and my hand is tired sooo I’m not gonna write anymore)

If anyone wants me to continue I will but I doubt anybody is going to see this post so yeah! Anyway if someone actually read this PROPS TO YOU DUDE!!! HOPE I DIDNT WASTE YOUR TIME!!! HAVE A GOOD YEAR!!!

Edit: I think Robot girl and girl with weird earrings are sisters soooooo I don’t ship them anymore. (I’m honestly really confused are they siblings or not?!)

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Ep 5 Love Victor live reaction:

- what do you mean you don’t understand a Madonna reference how old am I??

- girl they hate u bc u are cheater I think u are gonna have to at least try getting along with the in laws💀 like starting a fight over it is not it💀🌚

- I hate that Victor has to do shit he clearly doesn’t want to do to turn off the fires in his family. People (THE PARENTS) need to start actually listening to their kids and not just want they wanna hear

- she said piñata for a 16 year old😭 ma’am piñatas are until ur 14 year old bday and then never again until like 18 or up ONLY when everyone else is drunk at the party and the piñatas turn ironic. Thats the rule.

- omg Lake invited Benji!!! Let Victor have one break from his gay breakdown omg (but also yesss)

- “he’s a very macho boy” [squeals] ajdjdjdjd i loved that😭😭

-omg Pilar stfu???? Sjdjjddjdj i love the family drama but let it stay in the fam not with in laws that already hate ur mom

- ik they were gonna be homophobic but jesus christ💀 let the little kid play with the damn wand fuck

- Mia!!! Looks!!! So good with the hair half up and blue eyeliner!!!!!!!! Fuck it up girl!!!!!

- they need to stop watching soccer if the guests come

- omg Mia JUST arrived and i am now realizing grandpa could be racist too fuckkkkk

- omg they are not god bless

- aah :(((( that dad is so happy bc he had a girlfriend 😭😭

- omg the mom is gonna hate the girlfriend?? She’s been so rude what a boring cliché. Bitch you cheated and have a bad relationship bc grandma is a bitch. U planning on continuing the tradition?? Even if shit is bad bc if u?? THE LEAST U CAN DO IS BE NICE💀

- follow him around with google translate LMAOOOO

- 😭😭😭 i only like the kids in the family I don’t really like the parents or grandparents someone save Benji and his bf they aren’t there yet but I don’t want them there

- its been a sec and i hate the bf omg rip. Him and Benji have interacted so little but god the actors!!!!! They have this eye contact thats so good!!!! The actor who plays Victor totally has chemistry with Mia and has these cute ass looks but with Benji!!!!!! Is such a loaded look too!!!!!! This actor is killing it!!!!! Is like less dopey and more in trance whenever Benji is around😭 Benji too bitch got a bf but be staring at Victor.

- Victor noooo how u gonna introduce them like that. He should have let them know beforehand of his grandparents. For a friend i would be in a uncomfortable situation but only if they let me know beforehand. Being surprised at the moment and caught off guard is so much more disrespectful (at least in my opinion).

- Benji is pissed and he has every right to but also i wanna die

- I can’t with grandma saying devil music lmaooooo. Thank god my grandma didn’t give a shit about those things even tho she was religious af

- also where is victor going pls don’t make Benji feel worse

- in a way I understand if Benji’s bf is pissed at him for hiding it. On another, this is benji’s FRIEND’S house. Its his family. And he asked a very ride thing last min, but it is better to leave than to flatout make a scene when you were asked to avoid it. I respect Benji for that, bc he 100% didn’t have to but it was the nice thing to do. He would be justified to make a scene or to just leave. But i feel like that should be Benji’s call more than his bf’s and the bf shouldn’t be upset at it. The relationship that can be affected is Benji’s. Its his friend and coworker. While the bf is involved and is disrespectful to him too, the call here isn’t his. And he needs to stand by whatever Benji decides to do, whether that’s cause a scene, leave, or hide for the day.

- Felix is cute. He looks like the Benji from My Babysitter is a Vampire and WHO didn’t have a crush on THAT Benji growing up??? Get him Lake. The Stiles of this world are always worth it.

-Now i stand with the bf tho. If Derek wants to go Benji could talk to Victor and go. I do think is unfair to make Derek stay in a circumstance he wasn’t told beforehand. And Victor’s fam might not necessarily be physically violent, but Derek nor Benji know that. Derek could not only be extremely uncomfortable, possibly triggered, but also might feel in danger. Benji SHOULD understand that and tell Victor they can talk it out later and head out. He just won’t leave bc he is also lowkey crushing on Victor tho.

- shitshitshit they kissing and they saw it. Omg thank fucking god the grandpa didn’t make a scene.

- no omg don’t ask for a word for it?? Is not a big deal jesus fuck. Omg fuck this a “family party” nah just leave.

- yes omg confront them. Hell fucking yeah.

- i love the mom confronting them over her shit too but sjdjdjdj do they know there’s other people in this house💀💀 his girlfriend AND crush and crush’s bf are all there i would die

- not dad pretending like he’s standing up for his fam when he was talking about “is a family party” 3 mins ago. Nah son u blacklisted unfil further notice.

-i really thought Pilar was gonna fuck up and i was about to scream

- aaaaah that’s why shit they do is similar to me. They are colombiannnnn. Made me wonder bc the bendicion thing is something we venezuelans do but never heard cubans, mexicans, or any mainstream latinx family do before. Makes sense, venezuelans and colombians have a lot in common (more than other latinx cultures)

- where the fuck did the kids go to lmao. After all these speeches i would have lowkeu gone too💀💀

-Benji bitch im sorry too I can’t imagine being out into the position he was put on. Even if Victor stood up for him. Benji also most be so confused about Victor bc they def have had moments.

-omg the direct eye contact with the candles these kids are BOLD

- y’all Mia and Victor would have made a power couple if he hadn’t met Benji and salivated for him sjdjdjdj. Once they figure their shit out they are gonna be fucking power friends dude.

- I WAS SO HAPPY THE DAD APOLOGIZED BUT I FUCKING K N E W HE WAS GONNA MAKE A COMMENT ABOUT “at least this fam not gay” BECAUSE THAT’S EXACTLY HOW MY LATINX MOM WAS BEFORE I CAME OUT WHEN MY BEST FRIEND CAME OUT. SHE WAS FINE WITH IT AND FINE WITH US HAVING SLEEPOVERS AND ALL BC I “wasn’t” ANDJDJD U CAN DO IT VICTOR THEY’LL UNDERSTAND IF THEY AIN’T VIOLENTLY HOMOPHOBIC U GOT ONE FOOT INSIDE THE DOOR MAKE THE STEP BUDDY

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Anything to Add?

The final question in this survey was a write-in section for people to leave any additional comments. 113 people responded.

Important/Particularly Interesting Comments

• I hope this goes well for you because you seem nice and if you have any advice for new to the community 15 year olds like me, don't be afraid to share because I'm trying to embrace my sexuality as much as possible but it can be hard when I don't know where to go or turn to to find what I'm supposed to do and where to ask questions and just fully embrass this part of me and it can be hard when I don't even know many if any aspecs so representation is great and it is helpful to hear your experiences and how you handle certain parts, so just keep doing what your doing because it is making a difference [note: 🥺🥺😭]

• i often consider myself more as just aroace rather than aro and ace seperately so i prefer seeing the blue and orange aroace flag over the individual aro and ace flags

• I don't really shorten my identity often with aroace, only when im feeling very romance repulsed and its been a while since I felt romantic attraction. I am a pan-demiromantic asexual. My pan label makes me feel more connected to the lgbt+ community bc it feels like my nonbinary and intersex status doesn't count either. I know I belong in the queer community, but the lgbt+ community is so sexual orientation focused.

• Thank you for having a wide variety of labels to choose from in the options!! I don't see the term aegoromantic very often on things, it feels nice to be known I guess haha

• Thank you for this, i recently started thinking about being in arospec and it was so relieving, all this time i thought something was wrong or maybe i was broken. I'm still trying to learn more about it, and I'm grateful for people willing to teach and help

• didn't realize I hadn't experienced sexual attraction until I finally did and was like "OH, no wonder all my other relationships felt like I was playing pretend"

• I dont often tell people I'm gray aroace. Not because of shame or it not being "as important" (I'm a gay trans dude) but I think because I just feel its a very intimate part of myself, as well as my romanticism and sexuality (in terms of like asexuality) feeling as though it doesn't always need a label. I'm fine just being myself most of the time, a lot of labels can be tricky for myself I think. I'm happy the label exists nonetheless though because Its nice to know I'm not the only one who feels like this.

• I'm queer! But if I'm getting down to the bones of it, I'm pan/ace. Still relearning how to be proud of that, after The Grand Clusterfuck years back.

• even though I would be considered to have an alloromantic orientation, alloace isn't really a term I feel any strong connection or attachment to

• i'd like to add that i do consider myself alloaro and use that label openly but i'd also not consider myself 100% allosexual. i'm questioning my sexuality but even if i do end up feeling more solidly ace-spec i'd still use the alloaro label

• Idk who else does this or if this is interesting enough to write down, but I thought I would! I use Aroace as a label. Other, smaller labels inside that would probably fit me better! Aroace feels too big, like it doesn't *really* define exactly who I am. But at the same time, I prefer using it because more people know what Aroace means (at least compared to myrromantic and myrsexual). I use Aroace so the public can define me. I don't typically use it around my close friends 'cause they already know my idiosyncrasies and where I really am. They already made their own definitions for me, so I don't have to make one for them!

• I'm still figuring myself out, so I leave myself at the blanket terms and hopefully everything'll work out in the end

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Comments Alerting Me About Typos (that I was then able to resolve)

• There's a typo in your "sexual orientation labels" question, because you have Aroflux listed and not Aceflux, but I didn't want to confuse things so I put Aceflux (which I do use) under Other. I also am polysexual (I flux between polysexual and asexual but I am always aegosexual) but didn't know if I should but it under Other anywhere since it's not an acespec label. I consider my polysexuality tied to me being aego/aceflux though, which is why I mention it here.

• the sexual orientations options are the same of the romantic ones ( for example, there's arovague and arospike in the sexual cathegory)

People Clarifying/Expounding Upon Their Own Identity/Experiences

·  to clarify: i'm unsure whether or not i am demi or aceflux; so i use graysexual since both labels technically fall under that as an umbrella term.

• I’m still a confused gorl and I really only know that I don’t like sex it sexual acts but I do like romantic and sensual acts

• Sex/romance repulsed and I have aesthetic attraction

• I'm also animesexual and fictosexual (and romantic I guess but I don't like using the SAM for myself).

• I have never seen most of these labels, haha, I expect one of them is the one I always forget that's for being aro due to past trauma but people always assume it's romantic/sexual trauma so I don't use it and thus have forgotten it...but that's the essay I'm not usually up for writing: was biromantic but then had several awful life events on top of each other and had a complete breakdown and have been aro since. Unclear if it's permanent but it's been 14 years now. [note: I believe this person is thinking of caedromantic]

• I tend to use the word ace more than asexual because it's shorter, but I don't feel more favorably about one than the other.

• i can't tell the difference between platonic vs romantic attraction, and am unsure if people i have "liked" in the past was romantic, platonic, or a fake stemming from peer pressure.

• Also Gender-Neutral/Agender

• I’m gray-aro but identify more with being biromantic even though I know I’m aro-spec. As for sexual orientation, I’m just completely ace xD

• The fact I'm still trying to figure out my gender makes it harder to pinpoint exactly what my orientations are :( but I usually say I'm queer, and if it's safe: Bi Ace, and if I can get more specific: biromantic grey-asexual

• I also use a platonic label (biplatonic). I use it not in a friendship way, but more like in a QPR way.

• Thank you for doing this! My identity on the aro/ace spectrums has shifted a lot over the years and while I’ve just settled on aroace and queer for the most part, this community is so diverse and under appreciated. People who find joy in/identify with micro-identities are valid and deserve representation!

• I'm still figuring out my romantic orientation but it's looking less allo by the day lmao

• My romantic label is very fluid, but in terms of sexual labels, very sex repulsed Asexual

• Content with just Aspec cause it's difficult to pinpoint anything but cool with both asexual/ace and aromantic/aro

• I think of my romantic orientation as halfway between aromantic and homoromantic

• I'm a polyamorous ace, if there'd be a way to include that sometimes that'd be neat :)

• I am still questioning my identity

• I used to identify as 100% ace but now I have no idea other than that I seem to be pan-ace in some way shape or form so my identity is ???people???

• Sex/romance repulsed and I have aesthetic attraction

• to clarify: i'm unsure whether or not i am demi or aceflux; so i use graysexual since both labels technically fall under that as an umbrella term.

Queer Rights

• Trans rights, baybee 🤠🦂

• I just hope a-spec and aro-spec people will experience less negativity and hate this year <3

• Aspec rights!!

• aspec rights, baby

People Being Nice to Me  (I appreciated this thank you everyone!!)

·  :)

• Have a good day

• Uhhh, cool survey, nice to see a lot of labels.... good job! Nothing I have to add, it was great

• Have fun chief, thank you for your work

• Thank you for creating!

• thanks for the survey! I don't know too many aspec in person so I love participating in things like this about the ace/aro community!

• Thank you for what you’re doing

• just hi :)

• thanks!!

• I really love your blog! Reading your posts always makes me happy :) [note: thank you!]

• Good luck, have a nice day !

• I hope you're having a good day :)

• you're lived and valid af!! have a great day!!!

• Thank you for all your hard work i really appreciate it ☺️

• Drink some water Right Now OP

• Nope, :> hope the best for you.

• Cool survey, 10/10 would survey again.

• 💛

• Have a nice day uwu

• Nope! Have a nice day!

• Thank you for making pride flag edits! They're really nice! [note: thank you!!]

• nope, but this is really cool!!

• ❤️

• Have a good day.

• I think this survey idea is super cool! Definitely a great way to see what sort of aspec people are on tumblr :)

• You are doing the lords work

• Thank you for asking us.

• good luck!

• This is really cute idea :)

• I hope you're having a nice day!

• Good luck in your endevours!

• Thank you for making our community visible!

• Have a good day :3

• Have a good day!!

• Keep doing great stuff!

• Thank you for all the positivity I get from your blog! It's super helpful, keep it up :) [note: thank you!!]

• thanks for doing this. recognition is always nice

• Have fun <3

• Lots of love 💛

• This is a cool project, thanks for doing it and good luck! :)

People Saying They Love Me (and I love you, random a-specs)

·  i love you OP!!!!!

• love you, hope you have a great day

An A-Spec Person Being Rude to Other A-Specs

• If you enjoy sex with your romantic partner then you are not asexual

A Person Who Is Not A-Spec Being Rude To A-Specs

• sweetie im sorry that you're so insecure that you feel like you have to make up new identities to feel better about yourself. if you are a lesbian or bisexual please know that you are welcome in the community, but other than that making thousands of microlabels like this makes a huge joke out of what was once an important and respected group. nobody takes us seriously anymore because of this shit. does labelling your identity like this really help you with anything? demisexual and fraysexual and all this are just fancy words for normal human feelings that everyone has. there is no need to microlabel it.

Other

· [variations of “no” (12)]

• not sure that helps lmao but still hope it does. all the best

• Axolotls (or as I like to call them, asexulotls) are amazing and I love them [Note: the man in question]

• Sorry, I can't remember the names of any blogs that do edits

• Ok random but the colors of the aro/ace flag? The blue and orange one? They’re gorgeous.

• I'm not so sure if I should use the aroace flag, I feel comfortable using both aro and ace flags, but I don't like the colors for the aroace flag :c [note: these are in chronological order, it’s a total coincidence that these comments are together]

• Curious to see where the survey goes

• It would be cool if you could also do some aplatonic-spectrum edits!

• there were fully half of the terms on that list that i had never even seen before. like, everything below litho down to no label was entirely new to me. at some point i will look into those! (but not right now, my brain is full enough at the moment)

• actually had to look up the majority of these orientations. Thank you for the opportunity to learn!

• Gonna reblog and follow and hopefully learn a bit more, about others and myself

Note: The only comment that is not listed in order is the first comment, which I put at the top because I found it the most important. It’s so important that kids and teens have space to explore their identity and learn about themselves. The reason I made this blog in the first place was because I was 19 and working on figuring out my gender and sexuality. Now that I’m a bit older and understand things better, I’m so glad that I’m able to help people in this way. 

I make it a point to be very openly queer in my life and at work because I need LGBTQ+ people, especially youths, to know that we’re here. I’m lucky that I live somewhere that I can be visibly queer and speak about it openly. We are everywhere, and there’s more of us than you think!

Something that I really like about the comments at the top is that they show how diverse we are, and how people use words differently. Some people feel like they’re more aroace than aromantic and asexual separately, and others consider their romantic and sexual orientations to be completely different things.

I definitely relate to the person who identifies are myrromantic and myrsexual with their friends but just says aroace when speaking with people they don’t know as well. I believe a lot of people use different words depending on who they’re speaking with.

[bookishbea]

Black Friday Reaction

Okay so I’ll be live tweeting Black Friday but none of it will have any sense to it but it’ll just be my reactions

1. The Paul thing is really bothering me

2. I really love the mention of the other characters

3. If Jane is mention is the story about the mom mentioned some more

4. Is the delivery man ted (cause he’s also a sleazeball

5. It’s weird seeing Cory not play a pure bean

6. I love California MIA

7. The little sister (Im sorry I’m bad at names) I self project as autistic and she something else idk

8. Did anyone else noticed Robert’s Australian accent come out?

9. Like I said this is out of order so yeah but I personally think the second song in the show was very shocking as I’m not used to very serious starkid songs

10. When Robert gestures smoking i think its lowkey a refrence to the smoke club

11. I have a crush on lex

12. I love Lauren’s charecter so much

13. I love the name linda becuase it could be like a karen without using that name

14. Not to get poltical but i choose to belive they made an antivax joke

15. Also the marvel nerd in me loves the name becky barnes

16. I know its probaly not on purpose but joeys charecters costume in line looks like the homeless guy’s one

17. Jaimey is great as always

18. The conversation is so cringe i love it

19. I kinda hope torture porn is a fanfic refrence (i know most people would want me to say spies are forever but nope)

20. I love Lauren but shouldnt her accent be included when she sings

21. I love Jeff’s reaction

22. I may get some hate for this but what was bothering me in tgwdlm and i notice in starkid is lack of fan comments in the captions

23. As a theatre fan i love the toy zone song (i am not sure if thats the right name) espcially the do wop becuase it reminds me of older musicals

24. Also since i watched tgwdlm and black friday a day apart its weird to come from songs happening because they are infected to songs happening cause its a musical

25. i love the love the line we are not relaibly to anyone who dies becuase they clearly show in the trailer that someone will die (this is not a spoiler if you watch the trailer for Black Friday)

26. I love Corey but when he dances i notice a bulge (i am not a perv he makes it very obvious)

27. So i rewinded it to make sure i wanst going crazy and realized something as lex says the pepper spray line. She would be good as janis ian

28. I love the touch money part its so cute even if its not supposed to be

29. Jaime plays a perv really well

30. I love Jon’s charecter its hilarious

31. Also i love jon and lauren interactions so it was cool seeing them together not as paul and emma

32. I love seeing more of Jon because although hes reaally good at playing paul paul doesnt have any flavor and its cool seeing jon do something diffrent

33. Jeff’s fuck you

34. Okay I was right it was the homeless guy and i bet the money is paul’s money

35. And this is not a sterotpye as i am jewish myself but i bet Laurens charecter is jewish

36. Its sad that the price thing is true

37. So i am a theatre fan and do not watch got but that music kinda reminds me of got

38. Cant tell if jeff’s charecter is gay and a perv or just a perv (i realzie this could be mmisinterpreted as homophobic i just mean to say that jamie’s charecter just seems like a full out perv where as i cant tell with jeff’s)

39. Obviously you shouldnt be that insane but i do like the lines about how you are in charge of life and dont care about what others think. its goood life advice

39. Looks like Paul’s boss got his wish

40. They are all idiots for holding up the doll when everyone wants to get it

41. Corey’s charecter is like shit, money isnt that imporant

42. Becky why are you a part of this you have moral high ground (yes i am ignorning the fact that cast usually join in dance numbers even if their charecter isnt a part of it)

43. Shouldnt tom get ptsd (see above)

44. Lex you already have one (see above)

45. So i may be overthinking things but how curt says never should settle is in the tune of spies are forever

46. Is it just me or did anyone else notice when the security guard comes in the tune of show me your hands comes in

47. I dont know why but i do love soft bullies because hes like hey im punching you but only for the kid

48. Some may say its schizo or something hannah has but its anxiery or something from how shes expressing it

49. I feel like hannah has a superpower and can tell whats happening

50. Maybe webby is actually wiggly

51. Baby (both hannah and robert)

52. Please tell me my babies not dead

53. Jon’s eee is adorable and silly

54. Wait hes alive

55. Wait no hes dead, im sad liek starkid is supposed to be fun and happy this is the darkest star kid yet. Even oregon deaths were silly

56. I love starkid but this is making me anxious i cant tell if its good anxious or bad anxious

57. Also i relate to the black and white thing not fully but liek whenever i dont feel well sometimes my brain is overstimulating but only in my head its very hard to explain 

58. Also i think sometimes kids on the spectrum and im not an expert but i do have it kind of make a friend in their head and i do that too sometimes just to give me advice

59. Also i hope they dont get rid of the black and white as sometimes people go more crazy without the figurative voice in their head

60. Like i said this is going to be random order so i like that emma adopted paul;s Okay and no im not making a tfios refrence

61. Poor Tim

62. Poor becky but even less

63. i thought they were supposed to be mad at g-d but in this and tgwdlm they like g-d

64. I cant tell the other pins on joey’s jacket but the first two i notice are mr wiggly and paul

65. I love Lauren’s acting you can see the very sublte sadness in her

66. Lauren and Joey together ahhhh

67. I know its probaly not a big deal but they should give a seziure warning before the tv scene

68. Did they reuse curts spies are forever outfit

69. Really starkid the obama refrence seriously, i cant tell if im mad or laughing 

70. How did Bob get one

71. I do realize they are talking irl but i cant help but wonder if the nazis were a spies are forever refrence

72. Does wiggly have a special power or something 

73. I think its similar to the metero the closer you are the more power it has over you

74. The starkid special effects we all know and love

75. Also is that mcnamara

76. Also maybe shooting it (the doll) does the same thing that shooting the affceted does. Give them no power

77. I cant tell what the music reminds me of exactly but the tune does kinda refrence a diffrent star kid song

78. Jeff looks so proud of himself for the peeps line

79. I love the purposeful i presume reuse of lines

80. Is peip like men in black

81. Also hatchetfield kind of reminds me of night vale

82. Is the black and white like the upside down?

83. I wonder if the point was purposeful since someone was filming or just choreographed

84. Yes Jon Singing!!!!!

85. I love the act two opener

86. Did his parents really name him christmas?!?

87. Oh hes literally related to santa

88. I love lauren and joey as eleves

89. Noel another christmas name

90. Isnt the little dance move like a genie move or something

91. Its so cute that she insitincitvely went to their seats

92. Also carving is goals

93. Even though its a penis its still goals

94. I know what you are, say it, santa clause

95. Tom dont yell at your girl

96. Poor Tom

97. But also dont make this about you

98. They probaly werent the head of the school since they were nice, i am sorry but thats true

99. Yass girl fight his ass

100. Also the theatre kid in me is picturing all that jazz

101. he ran into my knife he ran into my knife ten times

102. Yes Becky’s husband (i forget the name sue me) is bad but i feel like becky is more sinister then we realize

103. Becky’s line even if it isnt meant to be is so funny

104. The girl who plays Becky could play Barbara

105. I love how Joey and Lauren look into the camera

106. Jamie saying santa awww such a pure bean

107. The person in the wiggly onsie is goals

108. Matrix glasses for the win

109. Is wilbur a refrence to Charelots Web?

110. Its a cult a cult of wiggly

111. I feel like Sherman young is around 30-40

112. I love how its mommy to sound less pervy

113. Oh wait never mind Linda is mom

114. Shit thats fucked up they killed him

115. I am right a jew no non jew says mensch

116. To quote jared klienman kinky (shoe kiss scene)

117. Also i love this song the adore song

118. Why does them picking up Lauren give me Draco vibes

119. Wait he isnt dead?? im so confused

120. Wait he is dead???

121. Also ethan is creepy now

122. But Roberts expressions are goals

123. Robert your proffesor hidgens is showing

124. What the how does he know her name

125. Savage Wiggly

126. Wiggly is more funny than scary

127. But my poor baby dont be scared

128. What the fuck tom

129. Also poor baby number two

130. At first you think becky is made about him hurting a child but no its about the doll

131. What the fuck Becky

132. Also I wonder if thats the same serum that Hidgens used

133. Tom yelling at the audince is hilarious

134. Also Becky singing is giving me little shop vibes

135. Becky are you drunk or something you so stupid

136. But yayy my baby doesnt get hurt

137. More starkid special effects

138. Also the lighting nod to tgwdlm

139. Also why did they take my baby (see i told you random)

140. So the perv is wiggly

141. Also if he can appear in regular formation on earth why does he need to be the doll

142. Oh wait never mind he explains it

143. Joey talking to the audience and making them hold the apple is goals

144. I love Joey’s song

145. MIA = Missing in Action = Made in America

146. Wait im wrong Joey cant be Wiggly unless he has super powers he cant be in two places at once

147. I know they dont mean sex but still wtf

148. Lauren looks so done i cant

149. Seziure warning after mr presidnet leaves the black and white

150. Unless it was purposeful they should have hidden the dolls better backstage

151. Wait didnt hannah say something about two doors earlier?

152. Seriously Sherman ponies

153. I love the going back line

154. My poor baby lex

155. No Lex dont die not you too

156. Haha throwback to tgwdlm

157. Yes baby you got the gun

158. Also die perv die

159. Eagle screeching is goals

160. Yes lex use that logic

161. Also it makes sense only the adults can be brainwashed

162. There were only adults no children, scary (not sarcastic i promise)

163. Seriously starkid Fortnight

164. Thats why you should never fully grow up

165. Woah what Lex says is deep

166. Yessss Tom

167. Wait Tom dont hold the gun

168. Wait is Charolette alive or just a reuse of costume, if so why would they have jaimie wear it

169. No dont take her magic hat

170. Haha stupid hats cant be magic only dolls obviously

171. Does lauren say something like fucking knife in another show too?

172. Lauren screaming gives me my father will hear about this vibes

173. Also give my baby her hat back

174. Yass Lauren get it girl (i do realize shes playing the villian but still)

175. Yass Robert get it

176. Even though shes a viilain i dont like seeing Lauren get killed

177. But also how did they get the bullet wound on her so quick im impressed

178. Haha the way Gary stops everything to talk to gerald is goals

179. Like hes like oh shit money

180. And then hes like oh wait i have to pretend to care

181. I love how exagerated their dying is

182. Thats an impressive quick change

183. Yess Emma Hidgens

184. But also no hell fuck up again

185. Also Paul interupting is goals

186. Haha hannah you go girl

187. First off I love the song

188. Song off Hannah’s voice

189. Is paul scared normal or because of the hive

190. Wait all the tgwdlm charecters are back like nothing happened im confused

191. Haha the Hatchfield band is back

[spacejew]

oops accidental personal post I guess

It's weird that I almost feel the need to go here to personal blog again because of a handful of irl friends following what was supposed to be a private personal Twitter in theory, just for like, idk, internet strangers and friends I made online not those imported from meatspace. Also those character limits... Suffocating.

Anyways yeah things are kinda stable but dissapointing lifewise? I'm definitely in a rut and stuck somewhere I'm desperately trying to get out of. Also like. idk. Gender shit. I think I really fucked myself over hard when I made the decision a few years back to conviously bottle up all my dysphoria and trans feelings and bury them and repress them hard and just live as a very gay and feminine bi boy and like. hm. I think I've been happy since? But im thinking now that maybe. Because that's still a part of my psyche that haunts me every day. I might actually have been mildly depressed this whole time and like, still struggling to make important life decisions because of the anxiety of that. Idk. Maybe if I got a therapist and realistic attention to that all those years ago and it turned out to be very real n legit and i got to make tough choices and live my truth, I would be equipped now to actually be joyful and able to fully focus on hard work and taking risks and putting myself out there and being successful and shit. Idk idk idk. I just have to wonder if all this time I've actually been quite unhappy and filling the void with dumb shit and a good deal of dissociation and complacency. Idk. what I'm saying is maybe I made a big mistake there lmao and could've started transitioning, if that's right for me, 4-7 years ago maybe, who knows. Haha so fun. Fuck me. Big Regrets, lads. But also I still don't know if that's right. Which probs means it is who am I kidding. Oof. But it's ok life is a journey I'm full of wise shit and I know it's not the end of the world. It just kinda. Makes me so sad on behalf of the old me who would cry so much because of dysphoria and living in this body in this life. She knew. I don't know why I buried her alive like that. Anyways.

I spent all year struggling to make an animated short (which ended up being kinda long tbh like 10 minutes?) by myself mostly, just me and my mental blocks and executive dysfunction and shit, but I was v passionate about it and worked hard and got to actually bring a whole vision to life, with basically nobody to tell me what to do, just give me feedback that I wasn't obligated to follow. It came out pretty nice and I'm very happy that I got to tell exactly the story I wanted and try a cool new look and I just wish I gave myself more time to work on the actual animation part but I put my heart and endless weeks and months of refinement into the storyboarding and script and every little detail and I really feel accomplished and like it paid off -- and I even got to do a private screening at my summer camp job that I was called in to do one more time at the last minute right when I finished my film, it was a miracle and so perfect, everyone cried and truly loved it and felt touched by it. And then I went to animation festivals! And all this cool shit! But... I haven't been able to figure out a public screening thing yet. And I feel like all my excitement is gone now. And I really wanted to polish the look and some backgrounds a little, just some very quick rerendering and comp, but. I feel like too much time has passed, i just feel dissapointed. I haven't put it online yet cause I haven't done my public screening, cause of my stupid anxiety about little details and overall idk imposter syndrome I guwss I feel more ashamed of it than proud of it even tho it's probably good, and like I feel that everyone was excited to support me but probably nobody cares anymore.

Basically I had all the wind taken out of my sails. Oh and right when I was trying to get it off the ground I guess and push through, my grandma died. I'm so heartbroken I loved her so fucking much and. She never got to see the film cause of my stupid bullshit. I feel so bad about that. So so bad. Ugh. And it's a film very very hilariously blatantly directly based on me and my feelings and my real family history, ultimately besides other main themes it's about talking to your grandparents and family about the past and your current feelings. And in it the main character, a girl, cough cough even though it's basically me, cough cough go figure, gender shit, anyways the climax is her going back in time to talk to her great grandma, and it's very emotional and my best friend of like almost 10 years now composed and recording a music for that scene for me. And now when I eventually screen this, my entire family and also myself is gonna get torn to shreds by this scene more than intended because my own fucking grandma, who I was excited to show this film to more than anyone on earth, passed so unexpectedly without seeing it. Fuck. Why didn't I send it to her when she was in the hospital? Obviously cause if I did that that would make it real and she wouldn't get better and all I do is live in denial. Ugh. Anyways yeah. The point is I'm stagnant and in a rut right now and just want to move forward and focus on making new work and just get a real career relevant job already. Tough year hit a well needed high and now petering off back into misery. Not to be dramatic. I'm ok tbh I have a part time I'm slowly getting sick of and a loving supportive partner and some very good friends, tho not as many as I used to see regularly and that's kinda sad too. That's your 20s babey.

I just need to move on and make big changes. My pattern rn is like. Work fri-sun, if I'm lucky I get to hang out with friends or lovers, usually at least with my partner. on monday I recover from working. on tuesday I have dnd and usually get some stuff done but honestly just catch up on warframe with my clan friends. wednesday my partner and I got to the park and library for half the day and eat and draw and talk. on thursday I mentally prepare for work again and usually we go out to play another roleplaying game with her roommates friends. a lot of that free time that's been left unmentioned is spent being over at bae's sometimes so I don't have the ability to get much work done. Lately I've spent most of my time planning a dnd campaign which is fun but also too stressful on account of obviously I'm not playing it yet so like what's the point, sorry friends who have patiently waited for months for me to be ready to start the game for them. And also like. Yeah idk. just sad and confused and resting my weary heart and body after a very rough month after my grandma passed. But! I did accomplish a very crazy deep cleaning of my room. I threw out 14 bags of shit at the least. I wish I weighed it all, it was a lot. I feel so much more organized and cleansed from that. For the record I didn't have any trash in my room, nor was it every a mess. Just every single cabinet and drawer was crammed full of stuff and I guess I hoarded a lot of shit. I was able to throw away a lot of things I held on to be cause of sentimentality and I'm proud of myself for growing that way. So like. Idk. It's not all bad, baby steps. I still feel like I'm constantly improving as a person! I'm positive, optimistic. Just tired, anxious, and feel bad.

Also I finally got a new phone and because of my hubris I dropped it without a case and it shattered only two weeks in. The day I was gonna buy a case. But it's ok. Story of my life I guess. I can't keep everything pristine and polished forever, one day shit falls and breaks but it's still usable. It has character.

I wasn't expecting to dump everything like this, sorry yall. Thanks for reading I guess. Also I forgot how to do a read more on mobile lol sorry

[roseamongroses]

Antithesis: “what do you have? “ I have a kNIFE” “NO”

[Specific-Summary]: They should expect growing pains. For not everything to feel right or make sense. That doesn't mean it'll always hurt, nor does it mean they can't have fun along the way. It's senior year. Everything may be different. It won't be senior year for long. Everything will be okay.

[General Warnings]: Implied Emotional Abuse, Implied Physical Abuse, Bad Parents are Bad Parents, Mild Sexual Content/jokes,Mentioned Homophobia, Mentions of underage drinking (backround), Some Catcalling,Cursing , Self Hate,implied pregnancy talk/inability to become pregnant, adults arguing where the “kid” can hear it, adults drinking,

[Tags/mood:] highschool au,  fluff and angst but its all good, chat fic, teen stress, its flordia no snow we die like men [Pairing:] Roceit (Roman Sanders/ Deceit Sanders), hinted future/possible logince/roloceit/loceit [Characters]Roman Sanders/Deceit (Dmitri) Sanders, Virgil Sanders, Logan Sanders, Patton Sanders, Remy (Sleep) Sanders, Nate Sanders, Dragon Witch (Diana) Remus “The Duke” Sanders (minor/brief)

(Ao3) (Previously)

(8) (9) (10) (11) (12) (13) (14) (15)

(16) (17) (18) 

L: I May Have Lost Roman

V: nice

P: not nice :)

V: i feel vaguely threatened

Rem:@L how the fuck did you manage that Rem: nvm i know how just give me details

L:I don’t know ? One second we were at check out L: Next minute he was Gone and Nieve is looking suspicious

L:Hold on lemme ask Dmitri

V: why is he there

L: I mean he’s actually pretty chill L: But he dropped Roman off and Nieve got attached L:I’m...not sure if she’s planning on letting him go?

V:logan, my friend, my buddy, V:the only person in this chat with basic reading comprehension

Rem: that’s pretty fair

P: it really is tbh

V: Send. Pictures.

L: Okay L: Slight Issue

V: you lost the snake too

L: I lost Dmitri too and Nieve is not spilling

Rem: oh they’re defeinately fucking

L:...Where? The bathroom?

Rem: Don’t knock it till you try it ;)

V: not to be that guy but im vetoing this discussion V: cause thats a Yikes even for you Remy

L: Alright time to find them

Rem: check ;))) the;))) bathrooms ;;))))

L: Remy.

Rem: alrighlright too far ill stop

L: Thank you.

V: keep me updated V: i only have silence and physics homework as company

L:Huh L:Found them

L: Roman….found a katanna…

V: im sorry WHAT V: Why The Fuck Does He Have A Sword

Rem: drop the location of that store man

L: 1) It’s a Katanna L: 2)I will certainly Not. L: 3) He’s trying to convince Dmitri why he should have it

L…..and Dmitri looks more amused then concerned

V: if I can't have a tarantula he sure as hell cant have a sword

L:I told him it was probably fake/ poorly made and that he should take the time to invest the proper skill in money in a real one

V: goddamit logan you cant logic roman.

L: It worked. He put it back. L: So I say I can do what I want with roman

Rem: some spicy takes from the chats only brain cell ;)

---

“So you’re turning eighteen, in a few months. ” His aunt said, dabbing her cheeks with a napkin. She still managed to hold an air of prestige despite getting utterly shitfaced the night before. Her appointments have been going well.

Dmitri looked up, masking his surprise and holding his tongue.

Dr. Montag looked over, quieting the running water and placing the dish was he was cleaning down, “Really?” he said, brushing his hands, “You got any plans?” he asked, Dmitri.

“Oh we usually do something small,” His aunt interjected, “But seeing as he’s my father’s favorite grandchild,” Only grandchild, “He’s is flying from Paris to join us. And he was never a man of modesty so I’ve been thinking about doing something special for the occasion.”

Oh.

Dmitri fought the smile creeping on his face, ducking his head. He shouldn’t be surprised that she remembered after all if his grandfather was visiting. It’s how he got his phone, laptop, his car.

It’s probably why she puts up with him, to begin with. Cause it wasn’t guilt.

“--We should get your hair cut,” She continued, and Dmitri snapped out of his thoughts, “Maybe invite Diana--he’d like her,” she murmured.

“Diana and I a-” He closed his mouth, and his aunt’s eyes shot over.

“You broke up?” She narrowed her eyes, examining her nails, “Huh, makes sense seeing as...” she gestured at him vaguely, “So who have you been sneaking around with?”

“I’m not sneaking around with anyone,” Dmitri said, meeting her gaze. And technically he was right, it’s not sneaking if she just hasn’t been asking. And he’s given up on telling.

Dr. Montag’s eyebrows knitted together confused,” Well that isn’t true,”

Dmitri’s eyes went wide, stomach sinking.

His Aunt’s grin spread, “Oh really?”

Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck--

“He’s been helping me out, hon,” Dr. Montag set down a glass of water and pills beside her plate, “You’ve been so stressed lately,” he looked guilty and produced some tickets, “I thought I’d surprise you.”

Her face softened and like that the tension left the room. Those two got to linger in whatever lovey-dovey spell had taken hold of them in the last few months, but Dmitri was still on edge.

She still kept him on edge, but he could get her back. Even the playing field. Anytime he could leave this—Anytime he could flip this switch and put her on edge and make her—

He stopped eating, setting his plate aside.

He felt sick.

---

R:helllloooo R:anyone up R: sigh R: allll by mySELLLLF

L: Roman?

R: the one and lonely yes hello human contact???

L: Are you alright? It’s 3 am why are you still awake?

R: why are YOU up mm????

L: My parents have newborn twins. What’s your excuse?

R: well fuck got me there

R: i was texting dee but he was rlly tired and i stILL can’t sleep

L: Any particular reason?

R: u m

L: Private chat?

R: please

- [TheTruthAboutTheMoon]

TheWalkingMouth: Okay shoot

Cowboy:it's stupid

TheWalkingMouth: I’ll tell you if it's stupid or not just say it

Cowboy: i just….like Cowboy: it's all kinda….hitting me a ll at once and i Really don’t like thinking about it but i cant bottle shit up either like you bastards so i feel like the human equivelent og a washing machine with too much laundry in it

TheWalkingMouth: Then don’t? TheWalkingMouth: Even if it's too ‘stupid’ for me I’m sure Dmitri wouldn’t mind

Cowboy: yeah but i feel like im going to say something shitty to him i Cowboy: like we should talk about it Cowboy: and i will Cowboy: but not now--later when it's not too stressful for either of us

TheWalkingMouth: Why would you say something shitty?

Cowboy: idk id jst get frustrated trying to explain it Cowboy: like hes smart as hell and probbaly get it without me saying anything but like Cowboy: I have neither the patience nor articulation right now to explain like a civil person and he doesnt need me being shitty about it

Cowboy:like,,,,,for example,,,,, if he fucks up in school, he’ll get recommended a tutor and teachers would assume hes doing his best and hes such a sweet and quiet boy

Cowboy: like he is sweet!!but hes a little shit too!! And gets away with it!!! Half those pranks he pulled on virgil, as Iconic as they were he never got in trouble for them!!!

Cowboy: when i fuck up i

Cowboy: god it's stupid

TheWalkingMouth: Might not get a second chance? Yeah I get it.

TheWalkingMouth:Remember when I first transferred here? None of the teachers would take me seriously bc of my accent and if they did, they were afraid of me. I could repeat something another kid said word for word and still be told I had an attitude.

Cowboy: god i remembered that Cowboy: you answered his yes or no questions in a fuckin montone, quiet ass voice and he legit called in the office cause he got scared of a goddamn freshman

Cowboy: But ye when i fuck up Cowboy: im suddenly the lazy ass brown kid who should spend less time corrupting youth with my feminine hips and curls Cowboy: like it's not like a lot of them say it outright but it feels like if im not perfect im fufilling all the stereotypes

TheWalkingMouth: Ah okay, rant away

Cowboy: OK like like like im not like virgil right?? in a lot of ways and it fuckin shows

Cowboy: he’s been planning on going into engineering since sixth grade meanwhile i only got my shit together in highschool

Cowboy: and like now that im here/???what now??? My mother expects me to have my shit together meanwhile im over here freaking the fuck out over whether not it's worth it to even try Cowboy: like yes mother i want to go to an art/or librel arts school that may or may not accept me that we may or may not afford to find a career in who the hell knows because if i have to sit in a healthcare class or a applied mathmatics class like you did i miight actually shank the professor????

Cowboy: that i dread the thought of not trying to explore my options outside of this fucking state but i dread the thought of going bc i cant stand the thought of being away from home but i cant fucking find a reason to stay cause everyone i love is leaving or planning their own life anyway???

Cowboy: like remys gunna fuck off to who knows where regardless of whether or not he has a plans or money, pattons gunna take care of his grandmother whereever the fuck a canada ,moms moving in with tia, virgils already mentally flipping me off ready to fuck nasa , and i only fucking hope dmitri even getss the chance to choose where he goes but hes g o n e and i die from yearning behind a screen like the gay victorian i am , and you….i actually dont know

TheWalkingMouth: Teaching for either biology or physics

Cowboy: huh it fits but what about chemistry??

TheWalkingMouth: Fuck chemistry.

Cowboy: oh thank god we’re on the same page

TheWalkingMouth: Anyway, I assume you’re more worried about whether you should apply rather then if you could get in?

Cowboy: i think so

TheWalkingMouth: Well if my opinion means anything to you

Cowboy: more than you’re assuming but yeah continue

TheWalkinMouth: Wait

Cowboy: nothing nothing continue

TheWalkingMouth: Okay-- I think you should go for it but you don’t need to dive head first into it and commit to everything 100% like virgil did.

TheWalkingMouth: You’re allowed to keep your options open, to have backup plans for back up plans

TheWalkingMouth: It doesn’t mean you’re not passionate about your art. Doesn’t mean you’re inevitably going to get a office job and abandon all your dreams. It means you’re being smart and not backing yourself into a corner

TheWalkingMouth:It’s okay to be scared. It’s okay not to have it all figured out

TheWalkingMouth: Nobody does.

TheWalkingMouth: Even if no one else gives you a second chance at least give yourself a second chance.

TheWalkingMouth: It’s perfectly normal to be afraid to fuck up and get fucked over TheWalkingMouth: That doesn’t mean you will everytime TheWalkingMouth: And it certainly doesn’t mean it's the end

Cowboy:

Cowboy:

Cowboy:

[...Cowboy is typing…]

---

@daflangstlairde

@ace-anx

@cataclysm-al

[internetdetectives]

11/14/19 - Chat with The Producer

ReturnedFaith 11:59 AM: "hello Internet Coomtectives”

ReturnedFaith 11:59 AM: "I heard you're all quite the murderous lot”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:00 PM: "we arent actually the coomtectives”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:00 PM: "more like detectives” 

Xenquility 12:00 PM: "We mean well”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:00 PM: "the murderous lot?”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:00 PM: "nani?”

ReturnedFaith 12:00 PM: "someone died last night, didn't they?”

ReturnedFaith 12:00 PM: "or technically not last night”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:01 PM: "okay CANONMOMENT”

ReturnedFaith 12:01 PM: "I guess "murder" is subjective in this case”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:01 PM: "yeah last nigth a friend of us died”

ReturnedFaith 12:02 PM: "yeah”

ReturnedFaith 12:02 PM: "I was watching”

ReturnedFaith 12:02 PM: "rest in peace kaiden”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:02 PM: "oh nice”

Xenquility 12:02 PM: "Kaiden?”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:02 PM: "Wait WHAT”

ReturnedFaith 12:02 PM: "im kidding”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:02 PM: "ffs my heart”

ReturnedFaith 12:02 PM: "yuuki was "killed" ""again""”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:03 PM: "alrigth yea”

ReturnedFaith 12:03 PM: "but in reality it was something that could not be avoided “

MonikaBOT 12:03 PM: "Do you understand reality?”

ReturnedFaith 12:03 PM: "since it already had happened”

ReturnedFaith 12:03 PM: "hello monika” 

Xenquility 12:03 PM: "Dov will love you” 

Slinky Stinks△ 12:03 PM: "i mean yeah, thats how time loops work”

Xenquility 12:03 PM: "You one of SKM's lot?”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:03 PM: "if a thing happens there is no way to stop it as it is gonna happen”

ReturnedFaith 12:03 PM: "im not really sure if id call it time in this case”

ReturnedFaith 12:03 PM: "but i guess it kinda is”

ReturnedFaith 12:03 PM: "no, im not affiliated with SKM”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:04 PM: "alrigth”

ReturnedFaith 12:04 PM: "I'm a member of BUP's group”

Xenquility 12:04 PM: "Of course”

Xenquility 12:04 PM: "Well, welcome”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:04 PM: "nice”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:04 PM: "welcome”

ReturnedFaith 12:04 PM: "but dont worry”

ReturnedFaith 12:04 PM: "im not going to kill anyone”

SayoriBOT 12:04 PM: "Can we change the topic to something more wholesome please?”

Xenquility 12:05 PM: "What are your motives then?”

ReturnedFaith 12:05 PM: "I don't have that sort of power, though I guess I could put in a request if I really wanted”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:05 PM: "put a request?”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:05 PM: "wildest office in the paralellos”

ReturnedFaith 12:05 PM: "my motives are”

ReturnedFaith 12:05 PM: "I am bored and just wanna chat”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:06 PM: "well then”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:06 PM: "lets chat”

ReturnedFaith 12:06 PM: "it's not a very organized office, though”

Xenquility 12:06 PM: "That's nice to hear”

Xenquility 12:06 PM: "What exactly do you produce?”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:06 PM: "okay i really got a stupid question”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:06 PM: "nvm”

ReturnedFaith 12:07 PM: "ask”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:07 PM: "i migth kill someone with this”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:07 PM: "no thanks”

/Mr. Circle\ 12:07 PM: "This guy doesn't donkey kong”

ReturnedFaith 12:07 PM: "also I produce a variety for things for BUP”

ReturnedFaith 12:07 PM: "as I said, I don't have the power to kill”

ReturnedFaith 12:08 PM: "but BUP does”

ReturnedFaith 12:08 PM: ":diddy:”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:08 PM: "do you make beats?”

ReturnedFaith 12:08 PM: "to some extent”

Xenquility 12:09 PM: "So you really don't want to bring down the moon OR kill anyone?”

ReturnedFaith 12:09 PM: "I'm not a music producer, though I have made one or two short tracks in the past”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:09 PM: "migth i ask you the name of those tracks,  really like music, i migth know them”

ReturnedFaith 12:09 PM: "bringing down the moon would be an unfortunate ending”

ReturnedFaith 12:09 PM: "its not my wish”

Xenquility 12:09 PM: "Nice to finally have someone who isn't either being hunted by moon people, is a moon person, or wants to kill anyone”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:10 PM: "tru”

Xenquility 12:10 PM: "Have we interacted with you before?”

ReturnedFaith 12:10 PM: "they dont have names, I simply create and ship them as I do other things that are needed”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:11 PM: "neat”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:11 PM: "you seem chill dude”

ReturnedFaith 12:11 PM: "and yes, you have”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:11 PM: "wait”

ReturnedFaith 12:11 PM: "I am a good guy”

ReturnedFaith 12:11 PM: ":wink:”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:11 PM: "ffs”

Xenquility 12:11 PM: "I'm guessing you won't be able to tell us when we interacted with you”

ReturnedFaith 12:11 PM: "right now”

Xenquility 12:11 PM: "(Other than right now)”

ReturnedFaith 12:11 PM: "right then”

Xenquility 12:12 PM: "(other than today)”

ReturnedFaith 12:12 PM: "tomorrow”

Xenquility 12:12 PM: "(That isn't in the future)”

ReturnedFaith 12:12 PM: "two tomorrow's yesterday”

Xenquility 12:12 PM: "That's still tomorrow”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:12 PM: "oh yea timefucks”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:12 PM: "this is my jam”

ReturnedFaith 12:12 PM: "what is today but yesterday's tomorrow?”

Xenquility 12:13 PM: "Today”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:13 PM: ":cmonbruh:”

ReturnedFaith 12:13 PM: "time shit is confusing, i know”

ReturnedFaith 12:13 PM: "but only when you don't have all of the details”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:14 PM: "exactly”

Xenquility 12:14 PM: "Hey, we don't have any punishments for asking questions anymore, right?”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:14 PM: "like fucking dr strange must be the wokest nigga in the galaxy”

ReturnedFaith 12:14 PM: "no”

Xenquility 12:14 PM: "Sweet”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:14 PM: "he knows ALL the time shit”

ReturnedFaith 12:14 PM: "unless BUP decides to return and starts going mental”

ReturnedFaith 12:14 PM: "but I can't answer very much”

ReturnedFaith 12:14 PM: "well, I can, but I'd rather not”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:15 PM: "are you like that super chill dude in the office that hates the boss but loves his mates?”

Xenquility 12:15 PM: "Did you just insinuate he hates bup”

Xenquility 12:15 PM: "DEATH”

ReturnedFaith 12:15 PM: "I guess”

ReturnedFaith 12:15 PM: "oops”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:15 PM: "lmao”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:15 PM: "dw”

ReturnedFaith 12:15 PM: "I'm kinda more like the temp”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:16 PM: "cool”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:16 PM: "you seem cool”

ReturnedFaith 12:16 PM: "we've all been very busy lately”

Xenquility 12:17 PM: "Ay quick question, what time is it for you?”

ReturnedFaith 12:17 PM: "especially myself”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:17 PM: "yo i bet his time is like”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:17 PM: "no time”

ReturnedFaith 12:17 PM: "it is around noon”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:17 PM: "oh”

Xenquility 12:17 PM: "So est”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:17 PM: "here is almost evening”

Xenquility 12:17 PM: "All I can find from arg at 11:28 is him talking about gay body types lmao”

ReturnedFaith 12:17 PM: "sounds like him”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:17 PM: "shithappens.com”

Xenquility 12:17 PM: "What were you quoting?”

ReturnedFaith 12:18 PM: "that was my mistake”

ReturnedFaith 12:18 PM: "i was attempting to copy something else”

Xenquility 12:18 PM: "Ah okay”

ReturnedFaith 12:18 PM: "or was it?”

ReturnedFaith 12:18 PM: "ooh”

ReturnedFaith 12:18 PM: "(still have to be a little mysterious)”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:18 PM: "ooooooh”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:18 PM: "oh rigth you are supposed to be a spooky tech guy”

ReturnedFaith 12:19 PM: "(regulations, you know)”

Xenquility 12:19 PM: "So, have we previously interacted with everyone on BUP's team?”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:19 PM: "xen you already know the answer”

Xenquility 12:19 PM: "I do?”

ReturnedFaith 12:19 PM: "not everyone”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:20 PM: "oh”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:20 PM: "fuck you are the less predecible guy ive met”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:20 PM: "congrats”

ReturnedFaith 12:20 PM: "thanks i suppose”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:20 PM: "i thougth you were gonna say some confusing time shit lol”

ReturnedFaith 12:21 PM: "you will come to remember them in time”

ReturnedFaith 12:21 PM: "does that work”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:21 PM: "are there a lot more of BUP guys?”

ARGdov 12:21 PM: "oh so this mut be the new person”

ARGdov 12:21 PM: "hello”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:21 PM: "ayy dov”

ARGdov 12:21 PM: "heyo”

ReturnedFaith 12:21 PM: "theres about sevenish?”

ReturnedFaith 12:21 PM: "but thats not like an exact number”

ARGdov 12:21 PM: "...theres 7 of you”

ARGdov 12:21 PM: "wow ok then”

ReturnedFaith 12:21 PM: "some come and go”

Azura 12:22 PM: "What tf is going on in here”

Xenquility 12:22 PM: "Is Bup that broker of nokturnal guy from the Kaiden RP video”

ReturnedFaith 12:22 PM: "hello azura”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:22 PM: "ay azura this is producer”

ReturnedFaith 12:22 PM: "Bup is Bup”

Azura 12:22 PM: "Hewwo,,,”

ReturnedFaith 12:22 PM: "if I tell you more about Bup he will smite me”

ReturnedFaith 12:22 PM: "then i will be out of a job”

Xenquility 12:22 PM: "Azura is a massive coomer”

ReturnedFaith 12:22 PM: "so I've heard”

Azura 12:23 PM: "HEY NOW”

Azura 12:23 PM: "Dont slander me”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:23 PM: "smite like... litterally smite?”

ReturnedFaith 12:23 PM: "I imagine hearing that there are about seven of us is quite the headache”

ReturnedFaith 12:23 PM: "but it's really not that complicated”

ReturnedFaith 12:23 PM: "or I guess kinda it is”

Xenquility 12:23 PM: "I mean, if we already know who you guys are it can't be that bad”

ARGdov 12:23 PM: "so like”

ARGdov 12:23 PM: "actually nah Im not gonna ask”

ARGdov 12:23 PM: "Im not gonna get a straight answer”

ReturnedFaith 12:24 PM: "lose your bloodthirst?”

ARGdov 12:24 PM: "pffff”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:24 PM: "yo dov did you really did a bomb plans 3.0 last nigth”

ARGdov 12:24 PM: "great to see word about thats gone around”

ARGdov 12:24 PM: "I did not”

ReturnedFaith 12:24 PM: "word gets around fast in the "office"”

Xenquility 12:24 PM: "It''s canon Dov was right”

ARGdov 12:24 PM: "if anything this was bomb plans 2.0 cause the runes thing couldve got a lot worse”

Xenquility 12:24 PM: "Dov was destined to do it”

ARGdov 12:25 PM: "and yeah”

ReturnedFaith 12:25 PM: "-looks into the camera-”

ARGdov 12:25 PM: "I couldnt have not done it because it had already happened, in a way”

Xenquility 12:25 PM: "Kill switch and runes add up to 1”

ARGdov 12:25 PM: "hey now!”

ARGdov 12:25 PM: "the kill switch was the right call”

ARGdov 12:25 PM: "also”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:25 PM: "-seinfield theme starts playin'-”

ARGdov 12:25 PM: "I didnt end up being the only vote”

Xenquility 12:25 PM: ":)”

ARGdov 12:25 PM: "the thing glitched temporarily so no one else could vote but it got fixed quickly so others could”

ReturnedFaith 12:26 PM: "let him who is without sin cast the first stone”

ARGdov 12:26 PM: "granted for like 5 mintues it seemed like I'd offed Luna or whoever”

ReturnedFaith 12:26 PM: "unless it is argdov”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:26 PM: "lmao”

ARGdov 12:26 PM: "pfff”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:26 PM: "oh oh i know what to do”

ARGdov 12:26 PM: "just as well that Ive never read the new testament”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:26 PM: "Vibe check!”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:26 PM: "-hands you a toad-”

ARGdov 12:26 PM: "take toad”

ARGdov 12:26 PM: "?”

ReturnedFaith 12:26 PM: "give it to Bup”

ReturnedFaith 12:26 PM: "they love toads”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:27 PM: "t h e y ?”

ARGdov 12:27 PM: "yes I had a feelin”

ReturnedFaith 12:27 PM: "wait wrong toad probably”

ARGdov 12:27 PM: "true”

ARGdov 12:27 PM: "we're talking about froglike beings”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:27 PM: "yea”

ARGdov 12:27 PM: "that damn toad profile picture threw me off I gotta say”

ReturnedFaith 12:27 PM: "yeah I dont think ghost will want to keep that once they regain control”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:28 PM: "yo dov drop the toad already he is tired”

ARGdov 12:28 PM: "oh sorry”

ARGdov 12:28 PM: "lets toad go”

ARGdov 12:28 PM: "by froggo”

ReturnedFaith 12:28 PM: "splat”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:28 PM: "i hope ghost changes his password after this”

ReturnedFaith 12:28 PM: "it wouldnt matter”

Xenquility 12:28 PM: "Excuse me ghost is a strong independent woman”

ARGdov 12:28 PM: "actually yeah Im wondering what ghostbabels up to now”

ReturnedFaith 12:28 PM: "oh right”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:28 PM: "i bet his pasword was something like: 12345BABEL”

Xenquility 12:28 PM: "56709IDIDDLEDKIDS”

ARGdov 12:29 PM: "pfff”

ARGdov 12:29 PM: "I hope not, he was smarter than that”

ReturnedFaith 12:29 PM: "howd you guess mugen's password”

Xenquility 12:29 PM: "gg”

ARGdov 12:29 PM: "....how do you know who Mugen is”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:29 PM: "howd u know mugen”

Xenquility 12:29 PM: "HE IS MUGEN”

ReturnedFaith 12:29 PM: "I've interacted with him on several occasions”

Xenquility 12:29 PM: "BUM BUM BUM”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:29 PM: "lmao”

ARGdov 12:29 PM: "wait what”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:29 PM: "i told ya fucking mugen did moon rituals”

ReturnedFaith 12:29 PM: "he frequents our office”

ARGdov 12:29 PM: "why on earth would you speak to him hes not in the group anymore and he sucks”

ReturnedFaith 12:29 PM: "delivering pizza”

ARGdov 12:29 PM: ".ahahahahha”

ReturnedFaith 12:29 PM: "im kidding”

ARGdov 12:30 PM: "yeah I gathered”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:30 PM: "plot twist bup is mugen”

ReturnedFaith 12:30 PM: "I havent spoken with him in some time”

ARGdov 12:30 PM: "plot twist Bup is nobody we've met before”

Xenquility 12:30 PM: "Plot twist Bup can't actually kill anyone which is why he chose Yuuki”

SayoriBOT 12:30 PM: "Can we change the topic to something more wholesome please?”

Xenquility 12:30 PM: "because she's already dead”

ARGdov 12:30 PM: "oh piss of sayori”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:30 PM: "omae wa mou”

ARGdov 12:30 PM: "I mean, he might not be able to”

ARGdov 12:30 PM: "but I wouldnt want to risk that again”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:31 PM: "bros im trying to get the source code of a HS character infobox but it is massive”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:31 PM: "mine is CSS becuase im fucking useless”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:31 PM: "and it isnt even code”

ARGdov 12:31 PM: "also intereting thing I just noticed”

ARGdov 12:31 PM: "@ReturnedFaith is there any particular meaning behind your proper discord username?”

ARGdov 12:31 PM: "its "Returned Faith"”

ReturnedFaith 12:33 PM: "yeah”

ReturnedFaith 12:33 PM: "because again”

ReturnedFaith 12:33 PM: "I gotta be at least a little mysterious”

ARGdov 12:33 PM: "fair I suppose”

Xenquility 12:33 PM: "what if these guys were like”

Xenquility 12:33 PM: "Hope and her friends from the Truth arc”

ARGdov 12:33 PM: "but Im taking the clues I can find”

ARGdov 12:33 PM: "ahahaha”

ARGdov 12:33 PM: "that would be something”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:33 PM: "yeah sorry about me dont reading the wiki yet”

ARGdov 12:33 PM: "we dont even know what happened to them”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:33 PM: "who was hope exactly?”

Xenquility 12:33 PM: "Exactly”

ARGdov 12:34 PM: "Ill explain in PM: "s”

Wolfcat 12:34 PM: "argdov is a meanie”

Xenquility 12:34 PM: "which was why they are definitely them”

SayoriBOT 12:34 PM: "Do we have a meanie in the server? If so, please stop.”

ReturnedFaith 12:34 PM: "BUP is usually pretty chill but he can be strict at times”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:34 PM: "i mean he vibin”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:34 PM: "but he killin too”

Wolfcat 12:34 PM: "s_feed :bottle:”

SayoriBOT 12:34 PM: "Ptoo ptoo! This isn't food, you meanie!”

Wolfcat 12:34 PM: "s_feed :baby_bottle:”

SayoriBOT 12:34 PM: "Hey! I'm not a baby!”

Wolfcat 12:34 PM: "be quiet”

ARGdov 12:34 PM: "Im not a meanie :c”

SayoriBOT 12:34 PM: "Cease your bulli, you meanie!”

Xenquility 12:35 PM: "dov is the antithesis of a meanie”

ARGdov 12:35 PM: "no you”

SayoriBOT 12:35 PM: "Cease your bulli, you meanie!”

ARGdov 12:35 PM: "shh”

Wolfcat 12:35 PM: "You're not a meanie”

SayoriBOT 12:35 PM: "Cease your bulli, you meanie!”

Wolfcat 12:35 PM: "You're just a murderer”

ARGdov 12:35 PM: "OH PLEASE”

ARGdov 12:35 PM: "THIS WHOLE GROUP HAS BEEN RESPONSIBLE FOR MORE THAN A FEW DEAGTHS”

Xenquility 12:35 PM: "stop bullying dov”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:35 PM: "i didnt kill anyone”

Xenquility 12:35 PM: "SLINKY”

ARGdov 12:35 PM: "remember when we fucking drowned a man in a fucking stormdrain”

Xenquility 12:35 PM: "YOU PLAYED THE ELEGY TWICE”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:35 PM: "BUT I DIDNT KILL ANYONE”

ARGdov 12:36 PM: "remember when we accidentally got someone hit with a rock and then they died?”

ARGdov 12:36 PM: "remember when someone submitted the song of healing during the truth arc?”

ReturnedFaith 12:36 PM: "hey”

ReturnedFaith 12:36 PM: "helper got better”

ARGdov 12:36 PM: "he did”

ReturnedFaith 12:36 PM: "at least”

ARGdov 12:36 PM: "in fact plenty of people have gotten better”

ARGdov 12:36 PM: "and Yukis not gone”

Xenquility 12:36 PM: "I mean”

ARGdov 12:36 PM: "shes just been "condemned to a lfietime of stockholm syndrome" presumably trapped in the depths of AO”

Xenquility 12:37 PM: "that's debatable”

ARGdov 12:37 PM: "which is kind of awful but shes not totally gone”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:37 PM: "gonna do some quick homework brb”

ARGdov 12:37 PM: "actually who in this game HAS been totally been killed?”

ARGdov 12:37 PM: "like, with no digital spirit lingerin on”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:37 PM: "john”

Xenquility 12:37 PM: "Anyways we can't exactly do anything about yuuki so we should probably focus on literally anything else”

ARGdov 12:37 PM: "uh not true, actually”

ARGdov 12:37 PM: "tenebris took over John”

Xenquility 12:37 PM: "Actually John's body is still around”

DensO Burton 12:37 PM: "Mugen”

ARGdov 12:37 PM: "his soul, that is”

Xenquility 12:38 PM: "He's a deuro”

ARGdov 12:38 PM: "and so it might still be out there somewhere”

ReturnedFaith 12:38 PM: "johns is both here and gone at the same time on multiple levels”

ARGdov 12:38 PM: "once someone is digitized it seems like they dont just fade away”

Xenquility 12:42 PM: "Nice to finally see a guy we know about”

ARGdov 12:42 PM: "weve not spoken to him in fucking ages as well”

ARGdov 12:42 PM: "like, since 2016”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:43 PM: "also wasn't skm like super chill too?”

ARGdov 12:43 PM: "he was p great”

ARGdov 12:43 PM: "he called regiminis "regimipiss"”

ARGdov 12:43 PM: "he was a salty bro”

Xenquility 12:43 PM: "He's the only guy I've seen in jid that has canonically said, "XD"”

ARGdov 12:44 PM: "ahahhaha”

ARGdov 12:44 PM: "he said "XD" therefore he must be p great”

ARGdov 12:44 PM: "but yeah no he was good”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:44 PM: "XD”

ARGdov 12:44 PM: "I wonder what hes been up to”

ARGdov 12:44 PM: "like he's still involved in this shit to an extent”

ARGdov 12:44 PM: "and hes apparently working with a team of hackers now”

ARGdov 12:44 PM: "which Im glad to hear. He was working almost entirely on his own when we last spoke to him”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:45 PM: "i mean he broke into tylers hoese bc someone gavehis mask to him”

ARGdov 12:46 PM: "true”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:47 PM: "finished homework woo”

ARGdov 12:47 PM: "nice”

ARGdov 12:47 PM: "Im just starting rip”

ARGdov 12:47 PM: "also does the producer not have permissions to chat or has he just gone quiet?”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:48 PM: "idk”

Xenquility 12:48 PM: "Gone quiet”

ReturnedFaith 12:48 PM: "XD”

ReturnedFaith 12:48 PM: "Yes sorry im here”

ARGdov 12:48 PM: "ah ok”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:48 PM: "fuck yea”

ReturnedFaith 12:48 PM: "SKM always was a fun one”

ARGdov 12:48 PM: "hes a good guy”

Jos 12:49 PM: "Skm used LOL XD LMAO”

ARGdov 12:49 PM: "Ive no clue what the fuck hes been up to recently”

Xenquility 12:49 PM: "Wow what a way to steal the "XD" award from SKM”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:49 PM: "okay prod, so you seem to know a lot of info about all this”

ARGdov 12:49 PM: "I guess he escpaed whatever occured at the lunar spire”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:49 PM: "how”

ReturnedFaith 12:49 PM: "I've been watching it for a long time”

Jos 12:49 PM: "Hello guys irs ya boy SKM XDDD the forums are broke again LOL patrem being annoying about it”

Jos 12:49 PM: "Rhats skm”

ReturnedFaith 12:49 PM: "though ill admit i have no idea where SKM is currently”

/Mr. Circle\ 12:50 PM: "skm is not the only one to have uttered the forbidden emoji”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:50 PM: "so lets say you have about the same info that we have”

ARGdov 12:50 PM: "BUP said SKMs working with some hackers”

Jos 12:50 PM: "How do i know he is cannon?”

ARGdov 12:50 PM: "when I asked what on he said "on their computers"”

ReturnedFaith 12:50 PM: "thats right”

ReturnedFaith 12:50 PM: "Hina”

/Mr. Circle\ 12:50 PM: "hina616 has also XD'd”

ReturnedFaith 12:50 PM: "poor little Hina”

/Mr. Circle\ 12:50 PM: "oh fuck you beat me to it”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:51 PM: "Who*”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:51 PM: "woo was hina?”

ReturnedFaith 12:51 PM: "quiet, gamejacker”

/Mr. Circle\ 12:51 PM: "meta”

ReturnedFaith 12:51 PM: "Hina was a Lunar Child”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:51 PM: "meta”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:51 PM: "alrite”

Jos 12:52 PM: "How do I know you are cannon Producer”

ReturnedFaith 12:52 PM: "I guess you don't”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:52 PM: "meta”

ARGdov 12:52 PM: "I dont remember hina”

ARGdov 12:52 PM: "but then I cant keep track of everything”

ReturnedFaith 12:53 PM: "she is rather forgettable”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:53 PM: "neat”

ReturnedFaith 12:54 PM: "in the grand scheme of things, that is”

ReturnedFaith 12:54 PM: "out of the rest of them, she was probably the most memorable”

Xenquility 12:55 PM: "Oh producer”

Xenquility 12:55 PM: "Are you and bup male or female”

ARGdov 12:55 PM: "rip”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:56 PM: "are you assuming they are Gender Binary?”

Xenquility 12:56 PM: "Yes”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:56 PM: "TRIGGERED”

/Mr. Circle\ 12:56 PM: "That's a Funny Joke”

ReturnedFaith 12:56 PM: "I'm not sure about BUP, but for myself”

ReturnedFaith 12:56 PM: "I prefer male”

ARGdov 12:57 PM: ".....”

ARGdov 12:57 PM: "wow”

otherLiam 12:57 PM: "who’s this now”

Xenquility 12:57 PM: "Male ocol”

ARGdov 12:57 PM: "thats an old fucking joke”

Xenquility 12:57 PM: "*cool”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:57 PM: "- Go apeshit i guess”

ARGdov 12:57 PM: "someone who works with BUP”

otherLiam 12:57 PM: "oh cool”

Xenquility 12:57 PM: "If Bup is female I'm sticking to my theory about them being Hope and her friends lmao”

ARGdov 12:57 PM: "yup”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:57 PM: "yeah he is super chill”

Xenquility 12:57 PM: "This guy doesn't want to kill anyone he's great”

ARGdov 12:58 PM: "he hasnt threatened to kill anyone so thats a plus”

otherLiam 12:59 PM: "i mean bup didnt really threaten either. more like just laid out the consequences for losing”

Slinky Stinks△ 12:59 PM: "- It is I, dave strider homesuck free Vector PNG 2019”

Sheena0 12:59 PM: "is there a consequence if we win tho?”

ReturnedFaith 12:59 PM: "He is more experienced”

ReturnedFaith 12:59 PM: "but I dont really have as many responsibilities”

ReturnedFaith 12:59 PM: "so I'm free to be a bit more loose”

ReturnedFaith 12:59 PM: "but I will have to get back to work soon”

otherLiam 1:00 PM: "what exactly is your work?”

ReturnedFaith 1:00 PM: "Producing”

Slinky Stinks△ 1:00 PM: "yea he produces”

ReturnedFaith 1:00 PM: "providing BUP and others with whatever they need”

/Mr. Circle\ 1:00 PM: "this guy produces”

otherLiam 1:01 PM: "what do they need now?”

ARGdov 1:01 PM: "they need the d”

ReturnedFaith 1:01 PM: "things”

ARGdov 1:01 PM: "like I said”

ReturnedFaith 1:01 PM: "but no really”

ARGdov 1:01 PM: "the d”

ReturnedFaith 1:01 PM: "they need a lot of stuff”

ReturnedFaith 1:01 PM: "including the d”

ARGdov 1:01 PM: "I, too am in need of....things”

ReturnedFaith 1:01 PM: "and stuff?”

Slinky Stinks△ 1:01 PM: "CONFIRMED”

ARGdov 1:01 PM: "welp Im glad we have one thing in common then”

Slinky Stinks△ 1:01 PM: "bup needs the d”

otherLiam 1:01 PM: "dov stop bein horny on main”

ARGdov 1:02 PM: "pffff”

ARGdov 1:02 PM: "trust me this isnt me being horny”

/Mr. Circle\ 1:02 PM: "dov only has main to be horny on”

ReturnedFaith 1:02 PM: "if they require the d, then Im afraid I must provide”

ARGdov 1:02 PM: "that as well”

ARGdov 1:02 PM: "welp”

Xenquility 1:02 PM: "Oh god”

Xenquility 1:02 PM: "Hot”

Slinky Stinks△ 1:02 PM: "prod, provide your d”

Xenquility 1:02 PM: "Can I join you guys”

ARGdov 1:02 PM: "if they need a lot of things they must be preparing for something”

ReturnedFaith 1:02 PM: "I dont work for you, traitor”

otherLiam 1:02 PM: "(also sorry for goin off on you yesterday  dov)”

ARGdov 1:02 PM: "(its cool lol)”

/Mr. Circle\ 1:02 PM: "may we please have d?”

Slinky Stinks△ 1:03 PM: "(Nigga who u called traitor)”

Xenquility 1:03 PM: "If you guys are providing d Ill join”

ARGdov 1:03 PM: "man ok I did not intend to derail this with shitposting lol”

Slinky Stinks△ 1:03 PM: "so”

ARGdov 1:03 PM: "either way, like I just said”

Slinky Stinks△ 1:03 PM: "do we provide the d?”

Ross the Claus 🎄 1:03 PM: "heard something about someone producing a d”

ARGdov 1:03 PM: "they need things (potentially including the d) to do...something”

ARGdov 1:03 PM: "potentially a ritual?”

ARGdov 1:03 PM: "who knows”

Slinky Stinks△ 1:04 PM: "now its when the d means: DESTRUCTIVE LASERGUN”

otherLiam 1:04 PM: "man who knows anything”

Ross the Claus 🎄 1:04 PM: "Ritual involving the d. Sounds about right for this arg”

ARGdov 1:04 PM: "I love performing rituals with my d”

otherLiam 1:05 PM: "we dunno who these guys are, what theyre tryin to do or if we should even be trying to stop them”

Slinky Stinks△ 1:05 PM: "nah girl i cant go out with u tonigth, i gotta perform theritual with my d”

ARGdov 1:05 PM: "shh”

otherLiam 1:05 PM: "hell maybe we want them to succeed”

ARGdov 1:05 PM: "I dont trust anyone who has the kind of power BUP currently has”

otherLiam 1:05 PM: "maybe them doing their thing will fuck with our other enemies”

Slinky Stinks△ 1:05 PM: "nah m8”

Xenquility 1:05 PM: "I wanna get :BUP:ed with their d”

ARGdov 1:05 PM: "Im not trusting anyone except for potentially SKM”

otherLiam 1:05 PM: "who knows”

ReturnedFaith 1:05 PM: "since you asked nicely”

ReturnedFaith 1:05 PM: ((A distorted D image is posted))

Slinky Stinks△ 1:05 PM: "producer has 10 times less the power that bup has”

Sheena0 1:06 PM: "i kinda feel we need to figure them out first then go to understanding their reason”

Xenquility 1:06 PM: "THE D”

Xenquility 1:06 PM: "YES”

Slinky Stinks△ 1:06 PM: "THE D”

ARGdov 1:06 PM: "Im still thinking about this”

otherLiam 1:06 PM: "Producer is now my favorite”

ARGdov 1:06 PM: "why would I have a different discord account to be horny on lol”

otherLiam 1:06 PM: "“main” isnt your discord account, it’s the chat you’re in”

ReturnedFaith 1:07 PM: "now i need to get back to work”

ARGdov 1:07 PM: "ah fair”

ReturnedFaith 1:07 PM: "for real”

ARGdov 1:07 PM: "well Im in other groups”

ReturnedFaith 1:07 PM: "bye for now”

ARGdov 1:07 PM: "but rest assured”

Slinky Stinks△ 1:07 PM: "wait prod”

otherLiam 1:07 PM: "have fun producer”

ReturnedFaith 1:07 PM: "whats up traitor”

ARGdov 1:07 PM: "if I was being horny on main you'd all tell me to leave”

otherLiam 1:07 PM: "ooo shit”

ARGdov 1:07 PM: "anyways, bye producer”

[beezran-moved]

klance childhood au cause I'm bored

keith and lance grew up in the same street

lance's mom was kind of their second mom cause texas was dead and krolia was gone a lot due to work

she basically raised shiro and keith (they're brothers fight me)

keith was only a few months older than lance so they often hung out as kids

they first met at the park because lance thought it was so cool that he was only 6 and could already skate (shiro taught him)

lance idolized shiro so that also drew him to keith

keith immediately warmed up to lance cause he was pretty and kind

lance also warmed up to him fast cause he was cool and nice

when keith was 8 he realized he had a crush on lance

keith in the kitchen at 3am raiding the cabinet where he knows shiro keeps the good shit and trying not to be caught: lance is cute, I like him a lot

also keith after realizing what he just thought: hmmmm, I guess

he just goes to sleep after getting what he wants and then asks shiro what it's like liking someone

shiro sweating because his brother is barely eight and he literally doesn't know himself what he feels for matt: uhhhhhh...

keith figures lance likes him back because lance has always been so kind and soft with him in ways he wasn't with others

keith doesn't say anything because he wants lance to take his time

as they grow older, lance starts to realize that he may like keith

he's scared because he's always liked girls and he doesn't know if he's confused or if he does like him

he pushes it down and tells himself it'll pass

it doesn't

he gets more scared when they're 14 and he can't stop thinking about keith and his pretty eyes, soft hair, nice smile, and how much he wants to kiss him

during a sleepover, lance and keith are watching a movie in the living room and they're joking around and laughing

they stop laughing and stare at each other for a really long time

they both lean in

it's barely a brush of lips but it's enough to knock the breath out of keith and for lance to call his mom and go back home

they never speak of it

shiro doesn't know what to say to his little brother who is now heartbroken

he tries to comfort him but he's barely 21 and he barely just told matt how he feels after 6 years of pining

he tries to anyway

shiro sitting down next to him and wrapping his arms around him: give him time, akira, he really cares for you. just give him time

but they dont have time because lance's family is moving due to his father's job

keith cries and hugs him before he leaves

keith, arms tightly wrapped around lance and crying into his shoulder: i dont want to let you go

lance with his arms just as tight around keith: me neither

they're eventually forced to

lance and keith try to keep in touch but it becomes harder with high school

lance meets hunk in his new town but he never forgets his pretty best friend and his cool brother

keith and pidge became close friends and they meet allura

allura and keith helped pidge a lot during her transition (she's a trans girl)

keith loves his new friends but he never forgets the blue eyes and the smile he loved

keith is 16 when he meets romelle

romelle's family died a few years back and she had been forced to move from foster home to foster home

krolia gets a job that allows her to remain at one spot so she also meets romelle

they adopt her

keith tells her everything about lance and romelle tells him everything about her family

keith telling romelle another story about the dumb shit they would do: he was such an idiot... a beautiful idiot

romelle makes it her life mission to reunite her brother with his childhood friend

romelle bursting into allura's room at 1am: babe!!!! we gotta find a pretty boy!!!!

allura barely coherent: hon... we're dating

romelle explains the situation to her and allura is like 👀👀👀

they actually manage to track down lance and get all his social media

keith is too shy to talk to him so he leaves it alone

he regrets it for two years

keith is 18 when someone taps his shoulder during work

he turns around and his eyes meet blue ones

lance grins and opens his arms

keith practically throws himself at lance and they laugh

lance waits for keith's shift to be over and they spend the rest of the day catching up

romelle and allura walking down the street together and seeing them: o h m y g o d!!!!!!!

since allura is nosy af she and romelle run back to keith's house where the rest if his and pidge's family is

allura and romelle bursting through the front door all sweaty: you will not believe the tea we have to spill

lance's feelings for keith after making keith laugh: i lived, bitch

keith learns that lance and hunk are moving back because they got into the local college

keith got in too

they're both excited

they hold hands all the way to keith's house

lance gets to say hi to everyone he missed and meet new people

for the next few weeks keith and lance spend almost every waking moment together

this time lance has had time to reflect upon his feelings

he isn't scared

he wants keith more than anything

he wants to hold him and kiss him

he wants to be loved and love in return

keith never stopped feeling for lance

it kept him up at night

lance is in his new apartment and alone when keith knocks

they watch a couple of movies and eventually start dancing to soft music

keith quietly with a smile on his face: you come here often????

lance with a flirtatious grin: hmmmm, what's your star sign???

keith now a little breathless and edging closer to lance: scorpio

lance now edging closer to keith as well: what do you do for a living, pretty boy???

keith: im gay

lance throws his head back laughing and wraps his arms around keith's neck

keith wraps his arms around lance's waist and time stops

they stare at each other

they lean in

this time it's a lot more than a simple brush of lips

keith's breath is still knocked out of him but lance doesn't run away this time

he leans in even more

i might write a second part

[iloveposse]

Send a number ask 1-30

Mwahahahaha...don t blame me for the ling ass post, blame my dear hun^

Ok...so

1)how old werr you when you firat fell in love?

Now see this bothers me cause love can be very different. Cause romantically id say 14, but i do believe we must understand that when that is boiled down, the love and caring part is the same as in a platonuc sense, it s just added on attraction if sorts that makes it romantic. So truly, the first time i genuinely met someone i cared about deeply and, id say, loved a lot, more than anyone at the time, i was 13. And that was a pivotal point because i realised that being loved is a strength and power while loving someone is a great weakness.

2)name the first person who broke your heart.

My parents. Fuck them.

3) hiw many different best friends have you had?

Over a dozen by title, 3 that actually meant something

4) do you have a best friend?

Yes

5) do you have a specific talent?

The talent of being average. Im good at everything i try (except riding a bicycle)but im a jack of all trades, master of none

6)do you fit into any stereotypes?

Hmmm...don t think so. I guess depresses millenial/gen z kid?

7) sexuality

Confused mess

8) fav animal

Tarantula brachypelma, peacock spider, snakes, sloths....i love all animals more than people 😚💕

9)favourite pet names

Darling, pumpkin, asshole, the unknown material

10)what do you think love is....

WHAT IS LOVE? BABY DON'T HURT ME, DON'T HURT ME, NO MORE!

11)when did you discover your favourite band?

Hmmm 14, but last month i listened to palaye royale for the first time and i already know almost all their songs....still finding favourite bands

12) do you want to get married?

Ah, now this is important, see i am undifferent to it, i find the idea of parties and people repulsive and legal bindings are not the sort of bondage im into.....but...if against all odds someone i somehow really loved wanted to marry me i would fucking kill putin and make gay marriage legal for the person (or more reasonably just move to another country)

13) do you want to have kids?

I have a huuuuuge phobia of pregnancy and i have serious anger issues stemming from a meh childhood.. .i would fucking suck with children, but i think i could handle adopting a teen.

14) when did you have your first kiss?

Like for realsies like 2 and a half years ago (14 i believe, at a cinema, right next to a mutual best friend who didn t find out her friends were dating till like ages after, it s actually a hilarious story)

15) nope

16)have you been cheated on?

Technically no

17) how many times have you fallen in love?

Idk, twice romantically, and also back to like the first question, though it might not be defined as falling in love, i do love my best friend very much, like more than anyone else. this whole post is basically gonna be an ode to her.

18) have you ever rejected anyone?

I tend to get very violent and/ or cold towards people when they show me a smidgen of affection so never got the opportunity cause i scare em off....im surprised i even have good close friends.

19)have you ever cheated?

Omg....U CONFESS I CHEATED ON A HISTORY TEST ONCE BUT I FELT BAD AND MADE MISTAKES IN PURPOSE IM SORRYYY

relationships ..no

20) have you ever been in a ling distance relationship?

All of these do not really apply i dated someone once, it ended horribly, i think i just really wabted to answer the 2 i saw when i first looked through this. But i am a lass of great determination and i will do this

21) romantic or sexual aspects of relationship?

Ummm i prefer the aspect of having someone who gives a rats ass about you and who you give a rats ass about. But like. Sexual stuff is cool too, not gonna discredit that.

22)na

23)na

24) favourite thing about best friend?

Where do i even start? She s marvelous! She s incredibly smart, intelligent and she studies a lot. But she also has a great way with people. She s incredibly dimplomatic abd resppectable. She could be a world leader! But she s genuinely kind but not to a fault. Shes extremely trustworthy

However she s also very funny and cool and just a blast to hang out with. We re basically two sides of the same coin. The basics are similar (smart, hardworking, determined, sense if humour) but then she s just so much better than me at almost everything. She s brilliant.

25) do you want a significant other?

Idc about the label, i just want someone who i can trust and talk to about everything and vice versa, cause i don t like bothering my aforementioned best friend. She s too sweet and worries too much.

26)do you like anyone?

Yes, my 2 friends, my cat, and someone i barely ever talk to (also a couple of lovely people from this hellsite that im not tagging cause they ll be forced to try to figure out wher they re mentioned in this mess)

27) who was the last peraon you loved?

Well right now i love my friends and....ok i get that this is like a romantic question and as i said i had one shitty relationship that ruined a fucking awesome friendship, and though i still care about the person and xould talk to them, but it s just said. This whole topic is sad.

28)do you have a celebrity crush?

Though many celebrities are very attractive both inside and out i do not have crushes on them for i feel uncomfortable thinking that.

29)name a song that makes you want to fall in love?

Um....any song directed to someone else? If we re getting music into this i just want to violently sing my affection at someone. Especially ma cherie by palaye and the only hope for me is you by mcr and smithereens by top.....all of the emo bops

30) do you think you ll be happy later in life?

Hahahahahahah. Um...this hits too close to home. There are moments when im semi happy but...ye...i ve kinda been stuck with the same mood in the background for years and it isn t great. Here s to hoping it doesn t engulf me and that one day (hopefully soon) i won t be surrrounded by people i hate so much i gave my stomach erosions (not kidding, the doctor said it was stress making the burning sensations that s caused by stomach acid basically neating away at various areas inside the tum)

Heeey venting actually made me feel better! Like a bit.. Thank you @thegreenpea. Cause yes im making you scroll through all of this just to let you know that i do love you very much and i appreciate your existence and the moments whenever we talk :)

[multapohja966]

All of them (as requested jdkdk) 👀

ahhah thank you!!

(put it under a read more)

1. describe your idea of a perfect datei haven’t really thought about this… i think it’s something involving coffee, but i think having some alone time with the person is important to me.and.. this might be a hilly billy thing but going to some nature place they/me connect to their youth is cool.

2. whats your “type”strong personality and oppinionated is propably the most important. but you have to have a will to think and to a certain extent see all of your oppinions as up for debate. people who do not care about what others think and express themselves how they want!! and i quess i like masculine girls and feminine boys.

3. do you want kids?hmmm… jeah i have sometimes thought of myself as a parent and liked the thought. but it’s such a huge responsobility that i don’t really know what the reality of it would be.

4. if you do, will you adopt or use some other form of child birth?hmmm well i already know that i won’t be the one giving birth. i see adoption as a really valid option, but jeah im not that far into considering kids.

5. describe the cutest date you’ve ever been oni’ve been on an official date like once and it was absolutely awful. but there’s this other time i hung out with this dude i liked and im like 90% sure he liked me too at the time but we were both socially incapable suckers. but jeah we rode our bikes on a summer evening and he showed me the place he goes to when he wants to be alone, which was this solid rock hill that had a view of the biggest swamp i had ever seen. was really dope

6. describe your experience having sex for the first time (were you nervous? or was it easy peasy?)you come to my virgin jack-off house….

7. are you a morning time gay or night time gay?night time. i’m so bad at funktionin during the day.

8. opinion on nap dates?haven’t really tried but from ecperience i have with friends i think it’s such a good way to create trust

9. opinion on brown eyes?very nice. especially those almost black ones and that hazel color stuff.

10. dog gay or cat gay?dog gay!!

11. would you ever date someone who owned rodents or reptiles?YES!!

12. whats a turn off you look for before you start officially dating someone?not really that experienced with commitment (i love being trans in a small village smh) but propably i just need to know they’re mature enough.

13. what is a misconception you had about lgb people before you realized you were one?hmmm idk i didn’t really have much exposion to them but i guess i kinda had this thought they were super different from the people around me? the typical thing bad representation brings.

14. what is a piece of advice you would give to your younger selfbeing something different isn’t bad. you don’t have to compensate being lgbt+ with aggressively being something “normal” for people to not leave you. be nice and appreachable and mature, but you won’t gain anything from trying to please the people who are more easy to digest/”park of the mass”. it won’t work and it’ll be hard to accept that people see fault in even small things, but when you be yourself and express yourself greatly enough with confdence, THEN people will be drawn to you.

15. (if attracted to more than one gender) do you have different “types” for different genders?jeah…. i really like men who are like sensitive and skinny and like i hate this but like: beta males (ajndfljns). but in women i adore the basic strong muscular and huge woman with a confident and relaxed nature. i haven’t really thought about a specific type when it comes to nb people. because “stylistic/creative” is a bit too broad

16. who is an ex you regret?hmmm i don’t really think i regret any.

17. night club gay or cafe gay?cafe gay. clubbing is okay sometimes with good company and enough alcohol in my system but if im sober-ish and with some people i hate it. (also i have mostly been to straight clubs  and ffff i don’t fit there at all and it gets bad if i start to think about it)

18. who is one person you would “go straight” forbi..

19. video game gay, book gay, or movie gay?all.

20. favourite gay ship (canon or not)uuhhf.. hmmmmm.. bumblebee?

21. favourite gay youtubermiles jai

22. have you ever unknowingly asked out a straight person?prolly not. but it’s a grey line since i did some romantic shit as femme representing when i was in the trans closet.

23. have you ever been in love?yes. it was such a defining feeling for me

24. have you ever been heartbroken?yeah, but i’m kind of embarrassed by it

25. how do you determine if you want to be them or be with someonethis is something it think about a lot as a trans masc person, but i have always thought that despite my taste in men/masc people and my ideal look often being intertwining (those young artsy gopnik -aesthetic boys are the ideal look for me lol) the feelings of “i want to be like that” and “i want to date that” have always been clearly different for me.

26. favourite lgb musician/banddoes tyler the creator count? because he’s propably an artist i relate to and admire the most. ohhhhh lil peep is the same too. also kevin abstract, he means the world.

27. what is a piece of advice you have for young / baby gaysit’s hard to live in a society that doesn’t always give you the same possibilities because of your identity. but try to see it in a healthy light and compromice only on things that don’t hurt your identity and who you are. you’re allowed to be weird and controversial and it doesn’t matter what people think because it’s them who are shallow and small minded. but remember that things you have to do as a person who’s part of a society need to be taken care of for your own health! :D (and queer excellense heh)

28. are you out? if so how did you come outyes. well.. ACTUALLY i never came out about my sexuality??? i never saw it as necessary. i think my parents know tho, i don’t really think about it. huh.. how weird i didn’t even realise. i’m “out” to almost everyone tho cause im super open about it.

my gender was a more complicated issue. i first came out to my closest friends. then to some friends who weren’t really lgbt+ informed (and they were all so supportive!) then to my mom. then to everyone else in instagram. the last and most hard was my dad, who has always supported me in everything, but isn’t really informed about stuff like that and is the typical old school finnish man. he was supportive too! at the moment the only one who doesn’t know is my grandma.

29. what is the most uncomfortable / strange coming out experience you have coming out to my dad lmao. cause he didn’t know what i mean XDD i thought that in light of resent lgbt+ visibility he would have at least heard about nonbinary people but he just didn’t know so i had to explain and jeahh.

30. what is a piece of advice for people who may not be in a safe place to express their sexualityi have pretty safe surrounding so im not completely sure what i can say.. but from my experience i want to say that despite how it always seems and feels, people are empathetic. people truly are understanding. no person wants harm, we’re all just so confused and misinformed. people will understand and change their ways if you give them your honest self because they are just confused. the most beautiful and supportive words ive gotten in regards to my identity are from a cishet boy in a party, who previously had really toxic and mean perception of nb people, but after i came out to him and we talked about the whole thing. he gave me this whole speech about how i should always be myself and not let anyone give me shit. honestly i get a bit teary sometimes when i think about it. but jea, there’s this raw goodness in people that i often forget exists, but it is there.